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♪ Music

(Indistinct)

But where would be a good place to start?

For you?

Yes for me

The law of moses?

The prophecies of Isaiah,

The wisdom of Solomon

(Women talking excitedly)

For you I think, Songs of David

Good start

Im ready

For example

If you require a mastery of Song of David

If I ascend to heaven

You are there

If I make my bed in the depths

You are there

And?

Just that

Just a few moments. Thank you for your patience Thank you

But Im not planning on ascending to heaving or making my bed deep in the depths

You asked for a passage

Yes, but one that could help me understand

How you and everyone else knows more

That's what I know and what you must come to believe

If you want to make any meaningful study of Torah

I don't understand

Excuse me!

Yes - Can you tell me what happened with Jesus?

(Shakily)He healed me

You have what? - I have epilepsy

Yes and how long have...

Say it back to me

If I ascend to heaven, you are there

If I make my bed deep in the depths, you are there

There's nowhere you can go

No heights you can climb in your intellectual mind

No depths you can reach in your soul where God is not with you

Did you get it?

I think so

No amount of learning

Can bring you closer to God

Or make you more or less precious to Him

He is always right here, right now

With you, for you

I dont feel it

The feeling doesn't always come first. Sometimes you have to believe first

Believing thing doesn't make it true

That is wisdom but

These are not just any words

hey are David's scripture

But how do you know whether David was only talking...

About himself and not everyone else?

He did say "if I ascend", not if people ascend

That almost sounds like you don't want it to be true

Excuse me, can you please tell me what happened with Jesus?

Are you with Him?

Yes, yes. We are his students

(Rejoicing)

Are you ok?

Im fine

So what the passage of David

Im just trying to understand

The trying IS the thing

Meditate on it for a few days and come back to me

You're always writing things down

Try writing it down several times

Something about writing it down that goes a long way

Thats what I say too

Matthew

I think we've only just begun to know all you can know

Thaddeus!

Little James

You're up

(People rejoicing in the background)

Hows the line?

Its getting longer

I'll come back soon and help you. I wont take my full break

Wheres Nathaniel?

Its my turn to replace him

He'll be staying through.

Doesn't want to stop his shift

Philip. Take my place. See if you can make some headway

You're scary good

There have been over 60 people already with

50 waiting in line currently not...

Counting lepers and others who are still in line

You say over 50 in the line right now?

Yes

How long is this going to last?

Well it depends on each encounter

... you have - Never mind I get it

Matthew

Yes?

Did you get some idea from Torah?

Yes c

From the Songs of David

The passage to study before we learn more

If I ascend to heaven

You are there

If I make my bed deep in the depths you are there

You're bleeding!

What?

Is that from the firewood from before?

Yes

And then when I push back the men that was rushing the line,

I cut it more on his back

Hand me that rag

The same man you speak of bumped

Into me on his way out

After Jesus healed his wife

I believe he is one of the men who arrived here last night

Almost a 4 hour walk this morning

And we didn't even have a moment to settle in

I mean it great what he is doing obviously, but I wish

It would have happened tomorrow

What is happening?

What are we a part of?

Is it wrong to say I have no idea?

No, it makes me feel better

I think that I haven't had time to think about it

All this time I had inside, just now I hate it

Other than that, Thomas and I would

Get our answers from the rest of you

The word is already spreading so fast

Didn't think about that

Have you thought about the fame from all of this?

I wouldn't mind being famous

Im not surprised

Its not as fun as you might think

I cannot remember a time I did not think about the Messiah at least once a week

My whole life I prayed

And prayed that he would come during this time

And I just hoped I would at least get to see him

But to be close to him like this

A nobody like me

Whats not fun about that?

You call today fun?

Maybe not fun, but good

With this fame comes enemies

You'll be hated too

Im used to that

While you are protected

And your enemies weren't powerful

Speaking of enemies

If someone had told you growing up,

That you would be a student of the Messiah

You,

You would be close to him and you will help him in his mission,

What would you have thought?

I would have said, 'Sorry, Im a girl'

Ask my brother

Fair enough

But really, Thomas?

What would you have thought?

I would've thought,

I don't have military training

Thats still a problem. - Actually

Exactly

When I was a child

I used to think how amazing it would be to see Messiah kill all the Romans

On my street and I wanted to help him

I trained everyday with a wooden sword

Yes and I have this scar that proves he

was pretty good

I used to imagine that the Romans would break into our home

And I would be hiding under the bed with a knife

And just when they came to get me,

Mesisiah would rescue me at the last moment

Didn't think we would be spending our time healing

Well, watching him heal

And they'll never stop

The people come the more they hear about it

And we are going to be doing this the next 5 years

And we'll never get to the fighting part

Eager to bring out that wooden sword of yours are you?

Do you honestly not know what Im talking about?

I guess I haven't had any expectations

Probably why its a little easier for me

I can remember as a little girl hearing about how someone would save us someday, but

I don't remember much about it

Why did you expect a warrior?

Zechariah

"For I will gather all the nations against Jerusalem to battle"

"And the city will be captured"

"Then The Lord will go forth and fight against those nations"

"As when he fights on a day of battle"

"On that day,"

"His feet will stand on the Mount of Olives which"

"is in front of Jerusalem on the east"

Yes, yes yes, the Mount of Olives

"Will be split in 2 from east to west"

"And half of it will move" and this craziness but we don't even know when this is going to be

If its even in this lifetime

It is also what I do not understaand

Isn't that Messiah supposed to come at a time when

All is holy?

Thats at least what you have been telling me

What is that from?

Even a prophetic poem

From Rabbis not so long ago

"And there shall be no unrighteousness"

"In them on His day"

"For they shall all be holy"

"And their King shall be the Lord Messiah"

This is the reason the Pharisees do not think he is the one Mary

You have to help clean up the Red Quarter first

(Laughing)

Don't think he is waiting for us to be holy

I think He is here because we cant be holy without Him

Wow

Thats good

The Baptizer will want to use that

Hey James

They need you to help with crowd control

The people are bickering and getting physical and

I cant help much in that department

Are you serious? - Yes

Then I have to use my sword on them before the Romans

(Laughs)

So y

Lets see

How are we doing?

Well, how do I put this

Are you serious?

I more soft than I was

Yes, yes you are

I thought you said you were good at this

I thought I was

I cant get out of this now - Sorry James

So what is everyone talking about?

Not much. Just prophecy, arguing

Fame, the Messiah healing diseases

Instead of overthrowing the Romans

Small topics like that

Well Im not sorry I missed it

Im ready for this day to be over

What about out there?

Anything happen in your short shift?

Same as all day

One thing that is annoying me though is these people... they are

Believing in Him and praising Him and

Don't get me wrong, that's great but

Its because he is healing them

The Samaritans - Yeah

That's pretty much what he said

Its all they needed - I know

I don't know how many of them would believe in Him if he wasn't healing them

So I have to ask

I think I can guess

I have 2 questions

Forgive me but I speak plainly

What is your malady?

Forgive me but I dont mean to offend

Its fine, its

A form of paralysis

Its caused problems since birth

Its almost time for evening meal, Are you hungry?

So then why?

I mean

Why hasn't he healed you?

How many he's healed today?

Doesn't it bother you?

Fair questions

Im still trying to figure out how I feel about all of this

I mean suppose one big thing is that I haven't asked

Why not?

I dont know

If I had your...

Struggle

And I was watching what was happening today

I'd demand it

I don't know if I should

It just doesn't feel right

I mean I suppose I've just been grateful

That he called me to follow him inspite of it but,

Its never come up. Not even once

Im just afraid if I mentioned it to him, it will

He'll change his mind about me or something

(Laughs)

I'm pretty sure he knows your situation

Its not like if you pointed out he'll be surprised

Mary

Shalom, Good to see you

We thought you were coming tomorrow

Well some friends were able to come with me

Earlier, so they dropped me off today

And they are seeing some family in the area

You'll be with us for a little while yes? a

Till the feast and then we'll see

Oh Philip

Shalom, what are you doing here? Im with your son now

Is John alright? I haven't spoken to him in a while

John is fine But he said the time was now, so

Here I am trying to make myself useful

Mary, this is Matthew. He wasnt with us at the wedding

Shalom Matthew

Welcome

Oh look

Thats fine clothing

Thank you - Well what do you do?

I dont ... I - He's a new student. Jesus called him

Lovely. Well Im sure you're someone special

So was today a very long day? I saw a lot of people

Simon told be to come back here

Do we know when Jesus will be finished?

We walked here from Phillipi this morning and he hasn't stopped since then

He has always been a worker. He gets that from his father

Both of them I suppose

Speaking of work, I see the food

You look exhausted

Im here to help

We' be ready very, very soon

♪ Music

Andrew I need a mental break

Do one of your meaningless question games

They're not meaningless

They're interesting

And I've got one I've been thinking about lately

What would you do, for unlimited money?

For... - What would you give up?

Have all the money you could ever want for the rest of your life

Meaning, would I do something painful? - Yes, or crazy

Would you run to the marketplace with no clothes on, screaming?

Of course not

You'd be killed by a soldier

It would be immodest. It'd be a sin

Fine. Something that wasn't a sin

You'd give up your left hand if you're rich for the rest of your life?

Maybe not a full hand but

Couple of fingers sure n

What about love?

Would you give up ever getting married?

I don't know. Simon? Is it worth it?

Absolutely, but

You'll never be so lucky to find someone like Eden, so

Take the money

Ive never had much money in my whole life

And Ive been happy

I don't expect we'll have much money for as long as we are following him

But you've had some money before, yes?

Are you happier now, or then? - Ask Matthew

John - What?

That was a bad question? i

You brought up money. Matthew's had it, we have not

I feel better now

I dont know if that means happy

Its not polite to talk about personal money

Just a question

I think about it, sometimes

Then I feel guilty

For what?

For thinking about things I shouldn't

For wanting things I shouldn't care so much about

Sometimes I feel like

Im living someone else's life

Like

I look at myself from the outside

Doesn't always feel like me

Feels like someone's

Trying to live up to the heroes of our history

Like I have to do something great

But I know Im not great

Not even more now, being with him

I understand

I feel like I need to not make any more mistakes

What do you think I've had?

You must feel that everyday, no?

Not any more

He always reassured me

And God always made me feel like I shouldn't be burdened

So how did you feel when that happened?

When what happened?

His birth

Even before that

How did you know, when did you know, who he was?

I dont know

We are all tired. Do you really want to hear all that?

(All together) Yes!!

(All laughs)

Well

Nothing about it was easy. I can tell you that

It wasnt in my home town

My mother wasn't there

We had no mid wife

I dont know if Im ready to give all the details

Maybe some other time

But I do remember this

When Joseph handed Him to me,

It was like nothing I expected

It was like everything I've heard about having a baby but

I thought this would be completely different

What do you mean?

I had to clean Him off

He was covered in...

I'll be polite. He needed to be cleaned

And He was cold

But he was crying

And...

He needed my help

My help

A teenager from Nazareth

It actually made me think for one moment

Is this really Son of God?

And Joseph later told me he briefly though the same thing

But we know He was

I dont know what I expected

But he was crying and he needed me

And I wondered how long that would last

He doesn't need me anymore

Not since we've taught him how to walk and eat

Hasn't needed me for a long time, I suppose

And after Joseph passed

May he rest in peace

He grew up even quicker

And I wish I could say that made me happy

Of course as a Jew Im excited to see everything He does for our people

And Im proud of Him

But

As a mom

It makes me a little sad sometimes

So its good to be with all of you for a bit

I can find ways to help

We will take it

Simon, when you were just with Him,

Did it seem it would go for very long?.

Its tough to tell

Line was dying down but

He won't send anyone away anyway, so

We'll see n

I'll go check on them

May I take your plate? - Yes. Thank you

I didnt know he lost his father

I lost mine several years ago

I have to ask Him about that

Has anyone else lost a parent?

Hmm

Im sorry

Was it recent?

No, no. It was when I was a little girl

Its painful

Sorry

Thank you. It was

I didn't fully understand it right away, but

Eventually it made me, really angry

And

I left when I was young

Left home? - Left everything

Everything

I...

I tried to stop acting like a Jew

I tried to stop being myself

And then later, I was d

Some of the people from our town including some of you knew about

Worse things happened

Most of it is a blur

But I forgot so much of everything I learned as a little girl

But now you can catch up

Yes

I hope

With Matthew and Ramah

You all are so far ahead and you're so good at all of this

We are not as good as you think

Yeah most of us

But you're the one with your nose in the writings. Still are

A little. Not as...

Good as others

Oh cmon. You can recite half of Torah if you had to

May be... - Maybe

Still going

I couldn't do any more but they said they got it

I really want to be a good student

I don't think any of went to beth midrash or

Did much study after school

Whats so surprising about all this?

Thomas, did you?

No, I was in the family business the day after I graduated

13 years old, and I was preparing and serving food at weddings

I was not a student at all. Believe me

Hey I wasnt even good at praying until recently

I would get bored with it

You know the same thing over and over

I learned to love it as I got older

I wasn't great at any of it when I was a student - I wasn't either

I didn't like all the rules

I never struggled with it i

I do what Im told - Yes Im the same

Ive always been a rule follower

I always loved the history

The stories, I always loved the rules too

Simon

I had my moments

(Chuckling)

One time when my parents were asleep

I had meat with cheese

Just to see what I was missing

Have you ever done that? - No

I'd feel too guilty. - You feel guilty about everything

Right after you were born, you said sorry to eema for causing her pain

Forget the guilt

I was sick for days

I haven't violated a single food rule since

I tried pork once

How

Well we were traveling and we were in a gentile market place

And I just grabbed a piece

Really

It was marvelous

One time on the boat we were approaching a Shabbat sunset

Abba and John had finished their tasks

And I still had to put my fish in the barrels because I had so many

No. Its because you were going too slow

Because you're too careful - No it was because I had so many

So you have to put them away obviously

Before the sun sets

Or they'll rot the next day, and you cant clean them during Sabbath, so

I start yelling to the others

"Hey, cmon help me"

No, and they just laughed at me and walked home

I had to work so hard and so fast, I ended up spilling some of the fish back in the water

But I finished just in time

And I was breathing so hard, I vomited on the shore

It took me 2 whole days to clean it up

Oh.. uh, sorry

Ive grown to love being Jewish

And Ive grown to love following the law but

It can be exhausting

Following the law or being Jewish - Both

It always has been

Even before the occupation

Yes, but aren't we used to it by now?

Hasn't it made us stronger?

I don't get it if Im honest

I don't know why God has allowed the occupation

I'd love to ask him more about that

Why this has been allowed for so long

Hard to feel like the chosen people

Ive been there

But its all worth it now, yes? d

The wait is over

What about you?

What do you mean?

Has it been difficult for you all this time?

The occupation, following Jewish law,

My life has not been easy

Oh it hasn't?

What was more painful for you?

Escaping Roman persecution by working for them or

Or escaping all the guilt with all your money?

And now you are catching up on Torah and wanting to follow the law

Why now, all of a sudden?

Why not all the other times when you had the chance?

Simon. - No no John, I want to know

Mary had horrible trauma. She didn't choose all that happened to her

Whats your excuse?

What do you want me to say?

I don't know what you want from me

One, apology

What?

Simon's not wrong

He could be more

Delicate about it but

You did choose to work for them

And you made my life even harder than it already was

And you have to apologize

No dont say it. I dont want you to apologize

It doesn't matter

What would him saying sorry do? I wont forgive it any way

What keeps putting you in authority?

Who are you to forgive or not to forgive?

What you are on his side now? - No of course not

But you've got your own problems too

What about apologizing for what you almost did to us

With the Romans? - I didn't go through with it

I was trying to save my families life and

I love you John, but that's not something you have to worry about

When Zeb and Salome are looking out for you

But you put me in a desperate position e

Where I did things I would never have done otherwise

And I have repented for them and John and James, I am sorry

But I didnt go though with it

What is your excuse?

I was a successful businessman and yet

I was always behind - He wasn't your tax collector

Quit defending him, I want an answer

Hey, you're new

Do you even know what its like to be Jewish?

To suffer for centuries and centuries because of it, but to still commit to it?

To protect our heritage even though it never stops being painful

Because the one comfort we have,

Is to know we are doing it together

That we are all suffering together

But if we just wait a little longer,

If hold tight just a little more, we'll have rescue because we're chosen - All of us!

And you betrayed that, and you spit on it

I cant forgive it... I'll never forgive it - Alright!

You said what you needed to say

Sit down Simon. - You sit down first!

(Footsteps)

(Heavy breathing)

Good night

Uhhh...

Eema!

Thank you

♪Music

You got blood on your hands

One more

There you go

What would I do without you eema?

Get some sleep

Ok

Im so tired

Blessed are you O Lord or God. King of the Universe

Who brings sleeps to my eyes and slumber to my eyelids

Make me Holy, Lord my God. God of my ancestors

...That I lie down in peace

And that I arise

In peace