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You're gonna be late.

Okay, Cole, you've chopped enough wood to last us through Thanksgiving.

What's going on?

You think I'm a bad influence?

On who?

I don't know. Jackie? Like, with the party and everything.

We're talking about Jackie, right?

Who runs student council.

You know, leads the track team, gets straight A's in all of her subjects,

helps Benny with his homework every night, takes Parker to her games on Sunday.

That Jackie?

Yeah.

No.

Cole, I don't think you're a bad influence.

She seems really happy.

And I think that's on you.

You okay?

We're done for the day.

No. Let's go again.

No.

All done, guys. Get 'em back in!

All right!

Come here.

-What you're doing, it ain't working. -I know.

I just need more practice.

No, you're hurt. It's making you tense up.

You'll keep getting thrown off if you don't relax.

I know. I can't help it.

You should try these.

- I don't think so. I'm fine. - Are you?

Look, you've seen me take these after a throw, right?

-Right. -Sometimes I take them before getting on.

It helps with the nerves, keeps you loose.

Give them a try. What do you got to lose?

Right now, you don't have a hope.

-Okay. -And just keep this between us, okay?

Hartford or Blake don't need to know about it.

Oh, all the guys are heading to, uh, Reid's tonight, so bring beer.

Or, uh… juice or whatever.

I have school, I, uh…

School.

All right, man. It's your loss.

Should be a good night, though.

Hey.

Hey.

This is for you, for coming here before school and helping me unpack.

Thanks.

You okay?

Yeah.

Yeah, wonderful thing number 725 about your parents separating

is they both get to punish you.

What do you mean?

Well, my mom already grounded me, but I'm at my dad's this week,

and he's decided to also take away my phone and my laptop,

and I'm only allowed out for school stuff and church.

So basically I'm in solitary confinement,

which I think is against international human rights law.

I mean, technically, I don't think it is,

but you do have a point.

Richard still calling you every five minutes?

Yeah, I don't know what he wants.

I said everything that I had to say that night at the banquet.

Well, maybe he just wants to make up with you.

I doubt it. I think he wants to keep telling me what to do, you know?

Keep pretending to be a concerned guardian.

See? This is why we need the community space,

so that people have a place to go to get away from school or parents or

uncles.

Yeah, I mean, that'd be great.

If I ever get to leave the house again.

-What's going on? -It's Jackie. She stopped picking up.

We haven't really spoken since the banquet.

And I don't know what to do about it. I'm worried about her.

To be honest, so am I.

Well, she's always been such a high achiever, but

she got a C in sociology this week.

What? How is that possible?

Could be a lot of things.

She's finding the class too hard?

No, or maybe she's bored.

Or it could be something else.

Yeah, I think I know what that might be.

I mean, she does seem very happy.

No, she's letting other things slide.

First love is all-consuming.

I see it all the time.

She'll figure it out.

Ooh, I gotta get to work.

Okay?

-Bye. -Bye.

Thanks for giving me a ride to school.

Anytime.

Wylder doesn't think you're ready.

Whatever. What would he know?

A lot.

He's the best bareback rider in the county.

-And he's worried about you. -I doubt that.

Look, we can't let you do this if you're not up for it.

I am up for it.

You have one more session before the event,

and if things don't improve drastically from today,

you're not competing.

It's too risky.

I appreciate you coming in.

Is this about my sociology grade?

Well, yes, but also--

I already have a makeup exam scheduled for today.

Well, that's good, but before you go…

Is everything okay?

This isn't like you.

You're right.

It's not like me, and honestly, I think that's a good thing.

People have been telling me to relax and not be such a perfectionist for years,

but as soon as I do and drop a couple grades in sociology,

it's an issue.

But it's not just the grade, though, is it?

It's the other things you've been doing.

Other things?

The party.

The police.

Richard's really worried about you.

Richard?

Look, Jackie.

I've seen this before. When someone starts dating someone who's--

I really don't want to be rude, Ms. Jacobs,

but just because you're dating my uncle,

it doesn't mean we can talk about my personal life.

-I-- -Like I said, I'm making up the grade.

So you have nothing to worry about.

And if my uncle is worried, he can talk to me.

Okay.

Jackie, I'm here if you need anything.

Hey. Whoa, what's going on?

I'm so tired of being judged.

It was one party. It's a grade in one class.

Slow down, wh… what do you mean?

I wanna get out of here, now.

Wait, you want to skip class?

I have played by the rules my whole life, and the one time that I don't,

do I get the benefit of the doubt? No, of course not.

So, yes, Cole, I want to skip class.

Well, don't you have that makeup test this afternoon?

Yeah, we'll be back for that.

I'm going whether you come with me or not.

Okay.

Why is your ex calling you?

Well, you know that she's working at that research facility in Atlanta.

No, actually, funnily enough, I'm not following your ex on LinkedIn.

Well, she is working there, and there's a job opportunity.

When did you talk to her?

And why didn't I know about this?

Are you jealous?

What's the job?

It's pretty cool.

It's an associate's position for now,

but they're expanding,

so there's a possibility to grow with the company.

So you've really been thinking about this?

A little bit.

Look, it's right in the city,

so there's bound to be opportunities for you too there.

The last time I told my dad we were leaving--

Babe, how many times?

That was not your fault, okay?

That was not your fault.

Your dad could've had that stroke at any time.

I know.

But he needs me on the ranch for the winery.

What if he gets sick again?

I…

I don't know, Hayles. I… I don't think I can leave right now.

Honestly, the way Ms. Jacobs was talking, you'd think I'd burned down the gym.

Can't I have one blip?

I'm happy.

Isn't that what matters?

Yeah, no, I guess.

What?

Well, I mean,

you know, like, from their point of view, it's not just one blip.

Right?

First, it was the party, then the police,

and then the grade, and like now.

I mean, right now, you're cutting class, so…

Don't you start too.

You're the only person that makes me feel like me right now.

Can't I just have that?

Can't I just be a girl spending time with her boyfriend

without it being a problem to fix?

Sure.

Come on.

What?

Are you coming?

♪ Every time think you'll try Really try ♪

♪ And I try to believe that you don't No, you don't… ♪

Never thought Jackie Howard would ditch class to go skinny-dipping.

Jackie Howard would never.

Until you.

♪ Don't know if I'm supposed to ♪

Maybe… Maybe we should go back.

For your test?

Yeah, we'll go back… in a sec.

♪ I'm thinking, "Oh my God" ♪

♪ I'm breaking every rule That I live by for you ♪

♪ So bad it's almost hot ♪

♪ Chalk it up to early-twenties torture ♪

♪ So put your lips on mine ♪

♪ It feels good when I close my eyes ♪

♪ And you can be that guy ♪

Uh, my dad wants to know if you like black beans.

-Sure. -He's making enchiladas.

Oh, and he's got tiramisu for dessert.

-You like coffee, right? -I do.

Awesome.

Man, he's really going all out.

Well, should I maybe, like, bring something to say thank you, or…

No. No, we have everything. Trust me.

He's just super excited to meet you.

Really?

Well, yeah. You're the first girl I've ever brought over for dinner.

Should I change? Do I look okay?

-I feel like this… this isn't good. -Kiley. Kiley, you look perfect.

Okay.

Okay? Don't worry.

I'm telling you,

he's gonna love you.

I'm… I'm looking forward to it.

If you could just… if you could send me the application.

Great, and then I will send it right back.

Okay? See you then.

Application?

Uh, for an apartment in Silver Falls.

Just, you know, now… now that I'm working,

I think that I should, you know, I could maybe get a year lease.

That's great.

And get settled 'cause I really… I want my boys with me.

Have you talked to them about it yet?

I mean, no, not yet,

but… what do you think?

I don't know.

They've been with us for a while.

I do know that they're gonna love spending time with you.

I hope so.

I'm proud of you, Hannah.

A job, an apartment, showing up.

It's just great to have you back here.

Thanks, G. Thank you.

What time do you have to get to work?

Um… oh gosh, I… I should get going.

Oh, coffee.

Good thing I know the boss, huh?

Jackie.

Jackie, we gotta go.

-Do we? -Yeah, hey, look.

-Oh my God, my exam. -Yeah, I know.

I know. Come on.

Can we make it?

I don't know. We can try.

Miss Fereday, I'm so sorry I'm late.

Jackie, you were offered the chance to make up your grade by the end of today.

You didn't do that.

But, uh… could I please just…

Your previous grade will stand.

Are you okay?

Are you hurt?

Yeah, a little. It's fine.

It's just harder than I thought it would be, you know?

And it's not just the training and the hours and the competing.

There's this thing tonight that everybody's going to,

but I don't know, with my ankle, and it's a school night, and--

You know, if you don't wanna go, don't go.

Well, it's not that simple.

It's like, it's expected. Like, if I don't go--

You don't have to be friends with those guys

just because you have the same sponsorship.

You seemed to enjoy riding a lot more before Hartford's.

But they took a chance on me.

-I owe them. I owe Blake. -Do you?

I don't know, maybe I just don't have what it takes to be a pro.

Maybe.

Or maybe Hartford's just isn't the right place for you.

When I was in high school, I was on the football team,

I ran track, captain of the debate club,

plus I worked in the feed store and on construction sites after school.

Wow, that… that's a lot.

Yeah, Dad's a bit of a workaholic.

That's why I started my own business once I left college.

I wanted to be my own boss, so I set myself up in construction

and built it from scratch.

That's really cool.

I'd like to run a business one day.

Really?

Kiley's so creative.

She's gonna be, like, a… a game designer or something cool like that.

Actually, I was thinking real estate or something in tech.

I love creative design, but I'd worry about AI taking over.

I want something solid.

-Real. -Good for you.

You have your head screwed on right.

So, Kiley, what do your parents do?

They're overseas. I live with my grandma.

Hmm. What's that like?

It's normal.

I'm used to it.

Well, you should bring her over sometime. I'd like to meet her.

Me too.

Sure.

What are you doing here? Don't you have a rest day?

Is everything okay?

-Uh, not really. -Is it the bareback event?

Like I said, we can't let you do it if you're not ready.

It's not just that.

I feel like no matter what I do,

I… I… I'm always gonna be the high school kid that got lucky.

I feel like you did give me a pass. Like, I just can't do anything right.

We've had younger riders before. The only one making that an issue is you.

Like, why didn't you come to Reid's last night? It was a good party.

Because I had school in the morning?

You didn't have to stay long. Just come by, say hi.

You know, hanging out with the others is a big part of this.

If you're worried about fitting in, that'd be a good place to start.

I've been trying.

Have you?

You didn't come last night. You didn't wanna come to Wylder's barbecue.

You started a fight at a party.

No, I didn't… I didn't start anything.

I don't know. From where I'm standing, it looks like everyone has made an effort,

but you have not tried as much as you think.

Yeah. Yeah, you know what?

I don't wanna have to go out drinking every night

or get tattoos or take pain meds to ride.

What?

Some of the guys, they take pain meds.

Yeah, when they're injured.

Right, and sometimes before they're injured.

Wylder gave me these.

That was stupid.

But he was probably just trying to help you

because of your ankle. You didn't take any, did you?

Wylder says he takes them all the time.

-All the time? -Yeah, before a ride.

He says it keeps him loose.

- He didn't want me to tell you. - I'll bet.

Okay.

I'll deal with this.

In the meantime,

you should think about how you can fit in more

because it seems to me like you're the one keeping your distance.

Is this it?

We're still taking donations, so who knows what might still come in.

Yeah, if we're lucky, we're gonna get more broken chairs

from someone's damp garage.

Most of this is just trash.

I mean, it's not exactly screaming cool place to hang out.

Unless we're decorating a serial killer's dungeon.

Okay, so we're not off to a great start, but this place still has potential.

So if city council won't help and if we can't rely on donations,

then we're gonna have to raise our own funds.

A fundraiser? Yeah, no. Count me out.

Come on, Paige. Jackie's right.

We need this.

It's gonna have to be something that's easy to set up

that will bring in as much cash as possible.

Um, okay, how about a car wash?

The soccer team does one every year in the school parking lot.

They always make a ton of money.

And that's why there's no way the school will let us step on those toes.

Well, we could make it different.

How?

We could have it at Tony's Auto Shop. I mean, he might like the idea.

All those cars, it's like free advertising.

I could get Cole to ask him.

That works.

-Hi. -Well, my dad is still raving about you.

So… when am I coming to your place?

Um, I don't know.

My grandma doesn't really like having people over.

Right.

But I'm not people.

I'm your boyfriend.

I'll ask her.

I like this one. I won't be able to afford that.

- But that's a great street. - I know.

- That one's a great spot now. - Mom.

Uh…

-What's wrong? -What? Nothing.

Your mom just wants to talk to you guys. Jeez.

Have a seat.

So, you know, I mean, now that I'm… I'm back in Silver Falls,

and I have a job,

I… I think that

you know, it's time for me to move out of my van.

And I think, like, I should… I want to get a…

an apartment here in town.

And I would like for you to… to move in with me.

What? Really?

Wait, so, like, we'd live together, the three of us?

Yeah.

And look, you guys, I know… I know that you… I mean, you love living here.

It's like…

But I… I want us…

I want us to have a life together

as a family.

Yeah.

I… I think that would be really cool.

If that's okay with you.

Of course it is. We just want you guys to be happy.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

Thanks, Mom. Let's do it.

-Come and look at some of these. -Check these out. So…

I mean, I have these in order, but it's totally up to you.

-Okay. -Kinda like this first one.

Ooh.

'Cause it's five minutes from the skate park.

- Actually? - Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

I don't know. What do you think?

Hey, pal.

It's been a while.

Looks like he missed you.

Yeah, I missed him.

How's he doing?

Yeah, he's doing okay. Aren't you, Murph?

So, what's up?

I spoke to Wylder.

Right.

So,

are you gonna make him go to rehab or what?

He said he was just trying to help you with your ankle

and that you're lying because you can't do the bareback event.

I would never lie about something like that.

I know.

I know you wouldn't.

But

I have to believe Wylder because he's our best rider.

What? Are… are you serious?

I'm sorry, Alex.

Okay, look, just… just take a week or two, okay?

-And we can let everyone just cool off-- -No. No. No.

No?

Look, I've been trying to make this work,

but this life, it's just not right for me.

I… I can't keep up. I…

I'm done. I quit.

- No, Alex, don't do this. - No, I love rodeo.

But I can't keep pretending that it's working for me.

And there are things I can't ignore, and there are lines I won't cross.

I can't keep trying to prove that I'm worth something to everybody.

You are worth something, Alex.

Okay, you're… you're a talented rider. We'll find you sponsors.

-I can recommend you-- -Fine, maybe, but not right now.

I'm sorry.

I'm gonna miss you.

Me too.

I'll be seeing you, Alex Walter.

Mmm.

So, I'm looking at four places this afternoon,

and one of them, it's just down there next to Monty's.

And then the other one that I like,

it's, like… it's right over there, kind of by the… like, by the park

and it is a three bedroom, which means you'll each get your own room.

-Hoo-ooh! -Wow. Yeah, that'd be sweet.

Finally, I don't have to listen to your snoring.

I don't have to listen to your stupid skate music.

Whoa, stup… Okay, it's not stupid. It's pr--

Okay, okay.

-Boys, boys, boys, stop. -I thought you liked my--

I just

really want something that works for both you guys.

-What about school and practice? -Well, I'm gonna drive you.

Because I am trading in my beloved van for a normal car.

-No. -Whoa.

-Yeah. -I can't believe it.

That's… that's what this is all about. Just, you know, living a normal life.

With the two of you.

Sounds great.

-Yeah? -Yeah.

Yeah. Yeah, thanks.

Yeah!

-Hug it in, family hug. -Definitely a hug.

-There's people watching. -Embarrassing. Right? Right?

Um, so look, do… do you guys wanna come with me after work?

- And we can go check out the apartments. - Yeah.

Great! Okay. I will pick you up from the ranch,

and we will go see them together.

Ooh, I'm so excited!

-All right. -She's dancing. She's dancing. Yup.

♪ I've got fire in my hands ♪

♪ I've got fire 'cause it's not the end ♪

♪ 'Cause I need more time… ♪

Oh, okay!

♪ Sing the neverending song ♪

♪ I've got fire ♪

♪ I've got fire… ♪

Thank you.

Hello.

I'll just have the basic, please.

Great, that'll be $30.

Although, we do have the full executive service available for $60.

That's okay.

Well, it is for a great cause.

And for you, I think we could probably do it for $50.

Okay, I'll have the full.

Great, thanks.

Jackie, uh, one full executive for the kind, charitable lady.

I gave her a little bit of a discount.

I think we're gonna make our goal.

Well, I had Tony and Mac put the word out.

And they know a lot of people with a lot of cars.

Perfect, you call me if you need anything, okay?

Bye, Nitro.

Bye, buddy.

Take care.

Okay.

Yeah, I'll mark it down.

Hey. Dr. Morris is just finishing up. You can go when you're done.

Great, thank you.

Okay. I said…

Hello?

- Hannah Walter? - Yes.

It's Sammy about the apartment this afternoon?

Oh, right. Hi. Hi.

I'm looking over your initial questionnaire.

You didn't list your last address?

Oh, yeah, right. Um…

I don't have one. Just kinda wherever I parked the van.

I… I just moved back to Silver Falls, so…

Right, and I see you haven't listed previous employers either?

No, I've… I've… I've kinda just been mostly self-employed, so…

Look, you're welcome to come see the apartment, but I have to be honest.

The odds of you being approved for any apartment without a previous residence

or job references is highly unlikely.

Oh, okay.

Maybe have a think about it. See if you can pull something together?

Sure, thank you.

What are you doing here?

I want the community space, so I thought I'd help make it happen.

Plus, I wasn't gonna wash cars all day, so I baked all night instead.

How about you? I thought you were training today.

Yeah.

I'm done with all that.

I left Hartford's.

Well, it didn't seem to be making you very happy.

Yeah, I thought it was what I wanted. The thrill of it all.

Feeling like a winner, but now that it's over, I mostly just feel relieved.

So…

I get that.

Oh, you forgot your computer science book back at my place.

Oh yeah, I was wondering where that was.

Pick it up later?

Yeah. Yeah, great.

'Cause my grandma wants you to explain how to program the TV.

- Again. - Can't you do that?

Yes, obviously, but she says that when you do it,

you find those reruns of Fantasy Island that she likes.

I apparently can't find the right channel.

-Well, it's a secret, you know? -Oh, it's a secret?

It's a secret channel.

Maybe we could go over the game for class one more time.

- Yeah, absolutely. - Sweet.

- You made this? - I did.

Hey! You wanna get the car washed?

Actually, Richard just sent me to check out what's got you so invested.

But, you know, now that I'm here, why not?

Great.

Uh… looks like everyone's… everyone's busy.

What?

No, it's okay. I… I don't have much time.

Cole?

It's for a good cause?

That's what I hear.

Okay.

Come on. A little more, a little more, a little more, a little more.

Good.

There's a coffee station or whatever.

Or you can stay inside the car.

You don't have to, like… watch.

Well, I actually came here 'cause I wanted to talk to you.

Okay.

What's up?

Tara told Richard that Jackie cut class the other day.

Did she?

I think you know.

Right.

Okay. And?

And… her grades have been dropping.

And after what happened at the party, I mean, her uncle's concerned.

So he… he sent you?

What are you, like his henchman or something?

Look, he told me he spoke to you. That's all.

Look, I've known Jackie for a long time.

All right, and I can tell that she likes you.

But, I mean, think about all the things

that a person like Jackie can do with her life.

You really wanna be the reason that… that she gives all that up?

Okay, well, I'd never…

I'd never stop her.

Okay? Jackie wouldn't let anything get in the way of what she wants.

Okay, but what if what she wants is you?

That doesn't mean that that's what she needs.

You really know what you're dealing with here?

You think she'd be cutting class and dropping grades and getting arrested

if it weren't for you?

I mean, a girl like Jackie, she doesn't end up with a guy like you.

And I think you know that.

Look, this… this thing,

it's gonna end eventually.

But you can do a hell of a lot of damage before that happens.

I mean, you really wanna be the guy that ruins her life?

You missed a spot.

Well, I'm glad you decided to break it to him this way.

Yeah, it's your good news. He deserves to hear it from you.

- Oh. - Well, hello.

Hey.

-What are you doing here? -I invited her over.

Oh.

Will, Hayley told me about Atlanta.

Atlanta?

I got a job offer there.

Oh, wow, congrats. Hayley, that's great.

This job market's hard. Are they gonna let you work from home?

No, um…

We'd actually both be going.

Oh.

There are so many opportunities there.

And Morgan has this hotel-developer friend that she wants Will to meet.

Oh, Hayley.

But Will doesn't feel like he can leave us.

-Leave you. -What?

I… I don't want you to feel like I'm going right when you need me.

What are you talking about?

Like, Will, I want you around, of course I do,

but you're not just gonna put your life on hold. This is amazing.

What if you get sick again?

It's not gonna happen.

All right, I've been fine for weeks, and I can run the ranch.

I've done it before.

And the other kids are actually helping more now.

And the winery?

Victoria's got that.

And it's like you said.

They do all the work. We just get the checks.

- Dad, it's-- - Will, hey.

Listen to me.

We would've drowned without your help the past few months, all right?

And we're grateful. But I'm good.

All right, we're good.

It's time that you did something for yourselves.

And Atlanta's not that far. You'll visit.

I will visit.

-Of course. -Really?

Yes.

I mean,

we'd be lying if we said that we were glad to see you go.

We're not.

But you have to follow your dreams.

That's right.

And this place will be waiting for you guys when you get back.

Okay then.

Yeah?

Do you remember that summer in Martha's Vineyard

when my cousin Tyler broke his leg?

Oh my God.

Yes, and he got you and I to be his servants.

-What were we, like 12? -Yeah, and that… that bell that he had.

Oh my God, and after three days, you threw it in the pool.

He's lucky I didn't throw him in.

All right, folks, listen up! Car wash is over.

Everyone out. You heard me.

Uh, Tony, can we please have a little extra time?

I'm sorry, Jackie, but I got customers coming.

I need to get the cars in there.

Okay, let's go. Move it on out.

Finish it up!

Business, I'm sorry.

Finish up!

We might've made our goal with a little extra time.

It's just… it's not enough.

Well, we'll figure something out.

You know what? Um… how about I help?

How's… how's that?

That's… amazing.

Are you sure?

Yeah, happy to donate. It's a good cause.

You know, uh, back in New York,

this one was always raising money for one good cause or another.

I mean, it's kind of her thing.

It still is.

Easy.

Done.

Thank you.

You should've just asked in the first place.

You know I'll always help you out.

And there are easier ways of getting money than… washing cars all day.

Come on, I'll help you load up your car.

Uh, yeah, just a sec.

Hey, Cole.

I'm sorry about Eliot.

Just… he means well.

We really need this donation. We can't do the community space without it.

Why does this space mean so much to you?

I can't explain it.

Let me show you? Later?

Okay.

-Did you text her? -Yes.

Dude, like five times.

She keeps saying she'll be here soon.

Okay, but you know she's not coming, right?

Yeah.

Yeah, I know.

Hey, Cole, hold up.

What?

Um…

Has there ever been anything between Alex and Kiley?

Anything?

Anything I should know about?

No, I mean, they've been, like, friends forever, but…

Right.

Yeah, it's just, I don't know, they…

they like all the same things.

You know, movies, video games and stuff,

and me and Kiley have, like,

nothing in common.

Yeah, but… opposites attract, right?

Right. Yeah, like

you and Jackie.

Yeah.

Right.

Hey. Ready to go?

Hey, yeah, ready.

Thanks.

Lee!

Isaac!

I got pizza!

Hey! There you are.

-Ta-da. -Where have you been?

I know. I am so sorry. I just… you know, I got stuck at work

and then I…

But Lee, I got you the meat feast and Isaac,

I got you the Hawaiian hot. I know you.

- Yeah, I don't want pizza. - Me neither.

We were supposed to check out apartments today?

We're still moving out, right?

Um, you… uh…

There's just, like, um… a little hitch,

but I'm… I'm gonna fix it, so…

Don't bother.

Wait a minute, Lee. Lee!

Isaac.

You guys…

You know, I could have just donated that money in the first place

so we didn't have to do all this.

It's not just about the money, though.

It's about being part of the community, showing up.

Creating something from scratch.

Right, but…

I don't know. You need to be thinking about your future as well.

Like, your uncle, he's just trying--

I know what he's trying to do.

He needs to stop trying to control me.

He needs to understand

that maybe I don't want to be constantly thinking about the future.

Maybe I want to be here.

And I'm perfectly capable of making my own choices.

Hey.

-Hey. -Where are the boys?

Uh, they are… they're upstairs.

They are… mad at me.

Why? What happened?

I was getting ready to leave work, and then the apartment people called me.

And, I mean, Katherine, I am not gonna get an apartment

without any rental or work history, so…

I'm sorry, Hannah.

You know, and I… I canceled all of the appointments, but I…

I just couldn't bear to tell the boys, so I…

I told them I was stuck at work.

And I just… I wanted… I wanted, like, a fresh start.

-It feels like I'm failing all over again. -You're not.

You just got a job with a really cool boss.

True.

And you can stay here for as long as you need.

And I really appreciate that.

But I just… I want to do something on my own, you know? Like…

You will.

Just might take a little time.

And the boys are gonna be okay.

Yeah.

And hey, on the upside,

I did get caught up on all the filing we needed to do,

and I got a head start on the insurance paperwork for next week.

See?

What did we do without you?

-I… I don't know. -Ooh.

-Delicious. -Yum.

Come in.

Thanks.

What is this?

It's for us.

I wanted to show you how much you mean to me.

And to thank you.

For what?

For showing me that I… I don't have to have perfect grades

and that I can skip class every once in a while and…

and that my future isn't as important as what's right in front of me right now.

I… I used to worry that I was losing myself.

But I think that's okay,

if it means

losing myself in you.

What's wrong?

Are you still upset about Eliot giving us the money?

I mean, don't let him get to you.

It just means we get to have this place.

It's not Eliot.

Okay.

What is it?

Is it UT?

Did you not get in?

You don't think I'll get in?

- No. Of course I do. I just-- - You're right.

Maybe I won't get in.

To UT

or… any college.

And then what?

You go off to Princeton, and I just stay here?

That's not going to happen.

But even if it did, we would figure something out.

Look, whatever it is, we can fix it.

-Together-- -I can't… I can't be fixed, Jackie.

You should know that by now.

I don't wanna drag you down more than I already have.

You're not dragging me down. Why would you say that?

I don't know.

But I don't think I can do this anymore.

Do what?

This.

Whatever it is.

Romeo-and-Juliet shit. It's too much, Jackie.

You're… you're just too much.

I'm too much?

I mean, what is this supposed to be anyways, huh?

Like a teen romance novel or something?

I just wanted us to have somewhere--

You know, it's not your fault. Really, this… this always happens.

Whenever I'm with someone, it's fine for a while,

and then it just… I don't know, it just… I get bored.

Bored?

I'm boring you?

Come on, Jackie.

Did you really think you wouldn't?

I've been with a lot of girls.

You know that.

And I mean, this has been, you know,

nice.

-But-- -Cole, come on.

Stop it.

This isn't you.

Actually, Jackie, this is me.

You just never wanted to believe it.

You always wanted me to be some…

I don't know, like, some tortured hero or something, but I'm not, okay?

-I'm not. -What are you doing?

You can't imagine it, can you?

That this might not be epic.

That I might just

not want you anymore.

Cole, come…

Come on.

I'm sorry.

I guess.

Cole.

Look at me.

What?

♪ And I'll have a drink ♪

♪ Wistfully lean out my window ♪

♪ And watch the sun set on the lake ♪

♪ I might not feel real ♪

♪ But it's okay ♪

♪ Mm-mmm ♪

♪ 'Cause that's just the way life goes ♪

♪ I push my luck, it shows ♪

♪ Thankful you don't send Someone to kill me ♪

♪ I love you, I'm sorry ♪

♪ The way life goes ♪

♪ Joyriding down our road ♪

♪ Lay on the horn ♪

♪ To prove that it haunts me ♪

♪ I love you, I'm sorry ♪

♪ The way life goes ♪

♪ I want to speak in code ♪

♪ Hope that I don't, won't Make it about me ♪

♪ I love you, I'm sorry ♪