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[Trump] So, my people came in.

They have extraordinary decorator sense, right?

Let me just see some of the pictures. That's a good one.

I could live with him.

I could live with George Washington, I can tell you.

I could live with Thomas Jefferson.

I could live with most of 'em. They took a very safe route.

They didn't... They don't have any bad ones up there.

- [Reporter] Withdrawing from... - [Trump] What is this one?

[Reporter] Withdrawing from the World Health Organization, sir.

- [Trump] Ooh! That's a big one. - [Brooding music]

We have 350, depend...

We have... Nobody knows what we have because so many people came in illegally.

But let's say we have...325.

They had 1.4 billion.

They were paying 39 million. We were paying 500 million.

Seemed a little unfair to me.

So, that wasn't the reason, but I dropped out.

They offered me to come back for 39 million.

In theory, it should be less than that, but you know.

Uh...

And when Biden came back, they came back for 500 million.

He knew that you could have come back for 39 million.

They wanted us back so badly. So, we'll see what happens.

- [Reporter] Mr President... - Pretty sad, though. Think of it.

China pays 39 million, and we pay 500 million,

and China's...a bigger country.

[Reporter 2] Mr President, you spoke about inflation today in your remarks.

What actions are you taking today

that will have a direct impact for Americans

on their everyday costs, to bring the costs down?

The biggest thing, factor, for inflation is energy.

They screwed up my energy policy,

and then they went back to it.

They hurt it really badly,

and then they went back to it and they started drilling more.

But by that time, it was too late.

Uh, many of these things that we're signing, and that...

We take a lot from them. So, you know, we have, like,

a $300 billion deficit with the European Union.

So, we'll straighten that out with either tariffs,

or they have to buy our oil.

The one thing they can do... Well, oil or gas.

The one thing they can do to catch up quickly, buy our oil or gas.

- [Reporter 2] Will you travel...? - And they should do that.

[Reporter 2] Will you travel to China this year?

Yeah, could be. I've had the invite.

- Did President Xi invite you? - I would do it, yeah.

[Reporter 3] Talking about the European Union and the tariffs,

what do you mean when you say that the European Union conflict

makes us part of BRICS?

- [Trump] That it what? - [Reporter 3] BRICS.

Oh, BRICS. No, I was talking about BRICS.

BRICS is six nations. I think it's seven nations,

and they were looking to do a number on the United States.

And if they do that...

they won't be happy about what's gonna happen to them.

[Reporter 4] Are you still considering a universal tariff, Mr President,

on all countries?

I may, yeah, but we're not ready for that yet.

[Music intensifies, obscures dialogue]

They outsmarted China.

And, you know, we sort of like that.

It’s okay. They've done a great job. A lot of 'em. Not all of 'em.

[Aide] Protecting women from radical gender ideology, sir.

Oh!

[Music obscures dialogue]

[Music stops; Sustained, tremulous tone]

[She spits]

[She spits]

[She sniffles]

[She inhales deeply]

[She inhales]

[She inhales deeply]

[She exhales]

[She inhales deeply]

[Sustained tone continues]

[Circle sniffles]

[Circle sniffles]

[Sustained tone continues]

[She sniffles]

[Music - "Vermeer" by DOOR EATER]

[Guttural growl]

♪ The bonds between ourselves and another person

♪ Exist only in our minds

♪ Memory, as it grows fainter, loosens them

♪ And notwithstanding the illusion by which we want to be duped

♪ And which, out of love

♪ Friendship, politeness

♪ Deference, duty

♪ We dupe other people

♪ We

♪ Exist

♪ Alone

♪ Man is the creature who cannot escape from himself

♪ Who knows other people only in himself

♪ And when he asserts the contrary

♪ He is lying... ♪

[Music continues]

[Guttural shriek]

[Guttural grunting, growling]

[Guttural shriek]

♪ The bonds between ourselves and another person

♪ Exist only in our minds

♪ We

♪ Exist

♪ Alone

♪ But sometimes illumination comes to our rescue

♪ At the very moment when all seems lost

♪ We have knocked at every door

♪ And they open on nothing until, at last

♪ We stumble unconsciously against the only one

♪ The only one

♪ Through which we can enter

♪ The kingdom we have sought in vain a hundred years

♪ And

♪ It

♪ Opens

♪ I felt myself still reliving a past

♪ Which was no longer anything more

♪ Than the history of another person

♪ In all countries

♪ Fools outnumber the rest

♪ In all countries

♪ Fools outnumber the rest

♪ All that we can say is that everything is arranged in this life

♪ As though we entered it carrying the burden of obligations

♪ Contracted in a former life

♪ There is no reason inherent in the conditions of life on this earth

♪ That can make us consider ourselves obligated to do good

♪ To be fastidious, to be polite, even

♪ Nor make the talented artist

♪ Consider himself obligated to begin over again

♪ A score of times, a piece of work, the admiration aroused

♪ Which will matter little to his body devoured by worms

♪ Like the patch of yellow wall

♪ Painted with so much knowledge and skill

♪ By an artist who must forever remain unknown

♪ And is barely identified

♪ Under the name Vermeer

♪ All these obligations

♪ Which have not their sanction

♪ In our present life

♪ Seem to belong to a different world

♪ Founded upon kindness

♪ Scrupulosity

♪ Self-sacrifice

♪ A world entirely different

♪ From this

♪ Which we leave

♪ In order to be born

♪ Into this world

♪ Before perhaps returning to the other

♪ To live once again

♪ Beneath the sway

♪ Of those unknown laws

♪ Which we have obeyed

♪ Because we bore their precepts in our hearts

♪ Knowing not whose hand had traced them there

♪ Those laws to which every profound work of the intellect brings us nearer

♪ And which are invisible only - and still - to fools

♪ My sole consolation

♪ When I went upstairs for the night

♪ Was that Mamma would come in

♪ And kiss me after I was in bed

♪ But this good night

♪ Lasted for so short a time

♪ She went down again so soon

♪ That the moment in which I heard her climb the stairs

♪ And caught the sound of her garden dress of blue muslin

♪ From which hung little tassels of plaited straw

♪ Rustling along the double-doored corridor

♪ Was, for me, a moment of the utmost pain

♪ For it heralded the moment which was to follow it

♪ When she would have left me and gone downstairs again

♪ Love

♪ Is a striking example

♪ Of how little reality means to us

♪ The bonds between ourselves and another person

♪ Exist only in our minds

♪ Memory, as it grows fainter, loosens them

♪ And notwithstanding the illusion by which we want to be duped

♪ And which, out of love

♪ Friendship, politeness

♪ Deference, duty

♪ We dupe other people

♪ We exist alone

♪ We exist alone

♪ Man is the creature who cannot escape from himself

♪ Who knows other people only in himself

♪ And when he asserts the contrary, he is lying

♪ He

♪ Sat there

♪ Silent

♪ Watching

♪ Their love

♪ Expire. ♪

[Music continues; Drone-like feedback]

[Music concludes]

..energy in their vessel.

And now I would like for all of you to take a deep breath in.

Feel the air filling your vessel.

And as you exhale, imagine the shape that your energy is taking.

We're gonna do this a couple of times now.

First...deep in.

[All inhale]

[Penelope] Hold it...

and release.

And as you're releasing, imagine the energy taking shape.

The first pose that we're going to work with

is the tabletop pose.

So, if everybody could turn

and use your legs and your arms like a tabletop.

Like this.

Arch back, forward, into a child's pose.

And as we do that, we're gonna stretch forward...

into the tabletop.

And bend your back, arch your back all the way down.

[Soft groaning]

[Penelope] And back.

And as we're doing this, remember to breathe in...

hold...

..and release as we change.

We need to always... We always wanna keep in mind

just the shape that your energy is taking as you do this.

We're gonna do that three or four more times.

Breathing deeply,

inhaling as we pull back,

and then exhaling as we move forward.

[Deep, slow breathing]

[Strained groan]

[Penelope] Perfect.

Now, what we're gonna do next is we're gonna work on

what's called the downward-facing dog.

Does anybody know what that is?

Try and make your body like a V, like a tent.

The shape we're gonna be working with is a triangle.

Can anybody try and show me what they think that might be

before we get into it?

Perfect. Exactly like that.

Everybody, do exactly like this.

So, we're gonna go...

something like...that.

We're gonna take a deep breath in as we push back...

..and release as we lean forward.

Deep breath in as we push back...

..and then a deep breath out as we move forward.

Remember and always, as we take these breaths,

to let it take shape.

As it's leaving your vessel, allow that energy to take the shape

that fills your mind in the absence of any other thought.

[Deep, slow breathing]

Can you show me the pose again?

[Penelope] Something like a V. So, like a triangle.

We're working with triangles right now.

As we push back...

we breathe in...

and as we lean forward...

If it's easier, as we lean forward,

we could almost change it back into that pose that we were working with earlier.

[She inhales sharply]

[Penelope] We're going something like this.

If it makes it easier for you, do something like that.

As you're coming down, as you breathe out,

feel free to...

almost changing into a bodhi.

I don't think you're doing it right.

[Indistinct chatter]

Circle. Can we have a chat?

I noticed during the session,

when you fell, you got a little, um...

..frustrated.

Uh, just, um...

- I'm just... I was just kind of tired. - [Devon] I just...

- Mm. - [Circle] I'm...

- Right. - [Circle] I mean, I couldn't do it.

I couldn't do the thing,

- and I'm just feeling really tired. - [Devon] Mm-hm.

- I think... - My hands are hurting.

Oh, my God, you're doing just fine, my darling.

You're doing just fine.

And it's only as hard as you make it, right?

And I think it's a good time to remind ourselves

that it's not about doing it.

It's about being together.

And it's about...experience.

Yeah. I just...

Everybody else could do it, and I couldn't.

I couldn't do it, so I...

Um, it just made me feel, um...

But together, we all do things nobody else can do, right?

We have... What do you have to complain about,

that you can't do something?

None of us can do so many somethings

without each other, right?

We're... We, uh...

Devon says we do it together, right?

And we do do it together. Uh...

But each of us, by ourselves, we do...

as good as we can for the together.

I think it's just...

It's a lot of hot dogs.

[Devon] Is there an issue with the food?

It... It's... It's just...

It's a lot of... It's a lot of hot dogs.

How many of us were starving before we came here?

[Circle] I know, I... Yeah.

Circle, that's what we eat here.

[Eclipse] What do we...? What could we possibly complain about?

I don't... I don't wanna...

I understand. I don't wanna, uh, be...ungrateful.

[Devon] Oh, you're not being ungrateful at all.

And I don't want you to feel like you're being singled out right now.

We're coming from a place of concern and a place of worry,

- because we want everyone to be okay. - [Circle] Yeah.

And I just noticed that you were struggling in the session, that's all.

- You understand that? - [Circle] Yeah.

'Cause it's important for me that you understand.

Yeah. I under... I understand.

It's not important for me...that you...

be in the pose and you’re not in your effort zone.

- But... - That's fair.

..it's how you fall.

Are you going to fall...

in a way that...in a way...

that...complains to us

about the difficulty of the task we're all doing?

I'm... Yeah, I'm sorry.

- [Devon] Please, don't apologise. - I'm sorry.

- You're not in trouble at all. - [Circle] I'm sorry. Sorry.

If I wanted you to apologise, I would ask for that.

Okay.

[Overlapping conversation]

[Indistinct chatter]

If I had to escape somewhere.

But...not for any real reason.

Just for... Just for practise.

Practise scaling the fence just for fun.

Yeah, just for fun. Don't you think that's fun?

Yeah. Useful, I think.

[Indistinct chatter]

That would be the ultimate chakra.

Mm, I wouldn't say that it's the ultimate one.

I would say that it's definitely one of the most important ones.

But I think the one that we wanna focus on here

is the ajna chakra,

where you can sort of open your eye

and see that this really is the core reality of the world that...

[Meredith] Vibes... What you might perceive as a bad vibe,

but that's not Circle, like, fucking doing harm.

[Valerie] Um, well, I feel harmed.

- Your vibe feels harmed? - Yes, yes.

- [Meredith] That's not... - Because she doesn't need to be here.

- She doesn't need to fucking be here. - That's not fucking material.

And, yes, she does. I told you, I can't get into it...

- [Valerie] Sure, she fucking does. - ..but the situation she was in

when I found here, she's, like, not...

She could just make a Lex post.

- [Meredith sighs] - Make a fucking Lex post?

- [Valerie] Yeah. - Go find some fucking cis-dyke to...

[Valerie] Yeah, yeah. Cis-dykes would love her.

[Meredith] Wow, what make you think that now?

[Valerie] Like, she's so indie-rock. She's so indie-rock.

[Meredith] So...what do you think? Can you talk some fucking sense into her?

I mean, like, she...

[Valerie] I'm the most... I'm sensible.

[Eclipse] My darling...

How can she make a Lex post? She doesn't own a phone.

[Valerie] She could just, like, ask someone else.

She needs to, like, go to a bar and be like,

"Hey, do you have a phone? Can you make a Lex post for me?"

[Eclipse] You have nothing to fear from her,

any more than you have to fear from any of us.

[Indistinct chatter]

[Indistinct chatter]

[Whispers] Casper.

[Eclipse] I miss Alexis. - So...I remembered...

when you first joined and you told me about today.

Um, so, I just wanted to give you...

Oh, my God! Thank you so much. You remembered?

- [Devon] Happy birthday. - Thank you!

- Love you. - [Devon] I love you, too.

I really appreciate it. It's my first birthday here.

It's my first birthday here.

- Should I keep it on the DL? - Mm-hm, yeah.

I don't want the other girls to get jealous.

- [Casper] Okay. - It's not something we typically do.

Oh! That's so nice.

- They're honestly amazing today. - Mm-hm.

You cooked them so well.

All of their lives went into each hot dog.

You need to say a thank-you to every single one

before you eat the hot dog.

- Aren't you hungry? - [Penelope] No, I don't feel hunger.

- [Rachel] Yeah, you do. - There's a lot of people that...

- need me the way Alexis needed me. - Okay.

And I would...I would love...

I would love a...

..a chance to do better,

and I think it would... it would be good for everybody.

Yeah. So, I mean, somebody who gives you...

..that vibe of, like...

..somebody who can kind of, you know, lead in the way that we do

- and the way that you do. - Yeah, and...

Eve... Eve gives a lot of that, but...

She does what she wants.

[Sophia] It's not about eating. It's not about sustenance.

It's about energy. We're getting energy from this group.

So, whether or not you eat the hot dog doesn't really matter.

I don't eat the... Look at me.

I don't eat the hot dog.

I don't eat the hot dog. I'm vegan.

Do you know how much food I've had since we started here?

Guess how many times I've eaten.

- I don't... - [Sophia] Guess. Give me a number.

- But there's no...there's no way... - [Sophia] Zero. I haven't eaten.

- That's not... - I'm filled with the energy of our sisters.

But that's not, like... that's not possible.

Now, I have water, and I get the energy from my sisters.

And you can do that, too, or you can eat the hot dog.

You have to make a decision.

That doesn't...

But there's no way you're not...eating.

I'm not eating.

I'm getting the energy from all of our sisters here.

You see all of them with their hot dogs?

Yeah, I see... I see them all with their hot dogs. I don't...

I just, I don't...

I just... That doesn't...

It doesn't make you a bad person to not eat the hot dog,

but it makes you a little bit, um, intransigent.

And it's not a good look for you.

So, I recommend you either eat the hot dog

or be happy, like me in not eating the hot dog.

Choose now.

I just...

What is..."intransigent"?

[Indistinct chatter]

Someone with a louder vibe, who'll be more honest

- about their reservations. - Yeah.

But do we want that, you know? Like...

If... If somebody has those reservations at first

and they're not fucking...honest...

[Eclipse] Everyone... Everyone has reservations at first,

- then they find out they're wrong, right? - [Meredith] Yeah, but it's...

[Eclipse] They find out they're wrong, and a lot...

I'm literally being... I'm literally being myself.

Like, I'm a cat. I'm sorry for being a cat.

Like, what do you want me to say?

Like, what do you mean, “Go take act...? Like...

Do you see that poster?

"Do not will. Do not try.

"Sit. Let the world pass through you."

"All motion is panic disguised as purpose."

This is what yoga does to people.

You've been buying way too much into this shit.

- You don't even... - [Valerie] I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

Why are you here? I don't...

[Casper] You don't need to ask her that.

Well, it just... it just seems like she, ideologically,

like, doesn't really, like...

Like, it seems like she doesn't understand what this is about.

I would go so far as to say that you don't understand what this is about.

[Valerie] Oh! Because I can read the posters?

Because I understand the doctr...?

Like...I'm sorry for being a cat.

- Cats don't make... - [Valerie hisses]

Did you just fucking hiss at me? Fuck you!

- [Eclipse] What's happening? - Fuck you, too.

[Eclipse] What's happening? What's happening?

- She started it. - [Casper] She did start it.

She did start it. She start...

[Clamour]

- No, no, no, no, no. - Hey, hey, babies.

Relax, relax.

[Casper] We need some nice little petting.

- You're okay. - [Meredith] Fucking petting.

This is not how we do things around here.

[Meredith] The petting's gonna fucking encourage her.

That's true, but she needs to be de-escalated.

[Meredith] Okay. Okay, yeah.

I just, um...wanna start by, uh, putting this in the air.

No-one... No-one is being targeted. No-one is in trouble.

We're here to talk. We're here to figure it out.

Um...

Could you please tell us, tell me...

..tell the group, um...

your perspective on what went down between the two of you.

Let's start with... We're gonna start with Rachel, okay?

Rachel?

Sure, yeah. I was just sitting minding my own business,

eating my lunch as usual, and, uh...

..I was being interrupted and distracted by...

uh...

Valerie bending over and...

eating her hot dog and not using her hands.

And whenever I need her to do anything, she refuses to use her hands,

and seems to wanna pretend to be a cat all the time.

And...

it just kind of devolved into an argument...

- [Devon] Mm. - ..where she keeps wanting to point out

all the things that she's done for this organisation,

which I can chalk up to just making a few signs everywhere...

without any actual, like, outside action.

- [Devon] Mm. - [Rachel] And, uh...

And went so far as to hiss at me.

- [Devon] Okay. - [Rachel] And, uh...

- started scratching. - [Devon] Thank you.

[Devon] Valerie.

[Valerie] So, I was just eating my lunch the way I always do,

with my paws, because I'm literally a cat.

And then, like, Rachel started,

like, giving me all this stuff about it,

being like, "Oh, you can't, like, be a cat. Why are you...?"

And I'm literally... I'm literally just a cat.

And then, like, she started going into, like,

"Oh, like, what action, like, have you taken, like, for our cause?"

And first off, uh...

like, when I was in high school, before I came here,

like, I did a gun-control walkout.

Second, like, those posters over there,

like, "All motion is panic disguised as purpose."

"The hand that never moves is never wrong."

Uh, like, "You are not..."

I can't read very well.

"You are not early. You are not moving."

I feel like...

what she was saying just goes against so many of the core principles...

of what this whole thing stands for.

And I was just eating my lunch.

And...like, yeah I'm a cat.

If you back me into a corner, I'm going to...I'm going to hiss.

And, like, maybe some claws came out,

but only because I was, like, being harassed.

Valerie, it's also against the core principles...

to deal with, uh...

to resolve this by yourself, right?

We're all here.

And if you feel harassed, if you feel targeted...

we're all here to back you up.

because we don't do that sort of thing here, do we?

We don't, no. What we do is we let our thoughts take shapes,

and then we share those shapes with the community.

But we don't use those shapes to hurt each other.

[Valerie] I just... I felt like...

I felt like my shape was being attacked, and I got so scared.

And that is...that is fair, okay?

I think we all understand, uh...

when it comes to identity, that things can get a bit hurtful,

and we can feel attacked,

and we can be pushed and feel like we're being pushed into a corner,

like Valerie said.

Circle, what should Rachel have done better?

Sh...

She should...have...

..let Valerie...

do what she wants to do...right?

Sort of. In a way. Because...

..Rachel is right to point out that...

..that having paws instead of...

uh, instead of hands...

is something that is... that only Valerie gets to do, right?

And so, that makes you... that makes you, um...

uh, a little special in the group of people that are all equals here, right?

We're all one community. We're all the same kind.

I mean, it's like, who gives a shit what she does, right?

Like, I mean, it's, like...

No, I mean it's, like... You can just tune her out, you know?

- Like, that's what we all... - It's fucking hard to do, though.

Yeah, she makes it a little hard to do, though.

[Sophia] We're also not trying to invalidate people here.

I don't understand that, either. I'm with you on that.

[Valerie] May...? May I speak?

- [Casper] You already did speak. - [Valerie] Well, no, but then...

- [Eclipse] Everyone can speak. - [Valerie] It does sound important.

I’d want to keep responding. - [Meredith] Does a cat fucking speak?

- Anybody... Anybody can... - [Casper] Exactly.

Anybody can use paws, and...

like, I'm the only one who does,

'cause it seems like I'm the only one who's a cat.

But from a cat perspective, I'm just acting normally,

the way that we all are just here to, like, be ourselves and...

and natural and all of that.

And when... Just the way that I...

Like, I don't have thumbs.

-Yes you do! - [Eclipse] She's right. She's right that everybody can use...

No, she's totally right from a cat perspective.

- She's right that everyone... - She's right from a cat perspective.

She's right. She's absolutely right that everyone can use paws.

I think... - Yeah, I agree with you.

- Everyone should use paws. - We should. Maybe tomorrow.

Maybe tomorrow, at lunch...

- we'll all eat with our paws. - That's a great idea.

And... And...

I'm not done!

And...

But after that, my love...

..you will eat with hands, like the rest of us.

[Valerie] I don't have thumbs.

You could... You have claws there. You could pretend those are thumbs.

[Valerie] Yeah, I... Yeah, I could.

- You could pretend those are thumbs. - [Valerie] I... Yeah, like...

[Sophia] You made those signs like that, remember?

[Valerie] I mean, I had help. I'm not very good at spelling.

[Eclipse] I think you're doing really good with it.

- Girls... - [Valerie] Okay, yeah,

these are my thoughts.

I think, moving forward, though,

we need to be more mindful

of how we're interacting with each other.

I understand that we all have different feelings

and different things arise what’s inside,

but we have to take a moment and quiet that

before we act on it.

Okay? Because we're all here together.

We share the space.

We share... We share tasks in the house.

[Rachel] I don't know, do we? If I need her to do something,

it's like, "Oh, I don't have thumbs to do it with."

- [Sophia] May I ask a question? - [Eclipse] As a group of people...

[Valerie] You can do a lot with paws.

Ladies...

did each of you eat your entire hot dog today?

[No audible dialogue]

[Eerie music]

[Music fades]

Things have been going well, for the most part.

Um...

We did a really great...

uh, exercise the other day,

where...we...

..where we had the girls, um...

paired up, facing one another,

looking at each other.

And..we just...

started listing off...

different...

- [Distorted growling] - ..uh...

[Growling stops]

We... We started listing off different character...

physical characteristics that...

of the other girl we were facing.

And then we internalised that.

[Polygon AI] Sweet, sweet, Sophia, my Polygon angel.

What is in your true heart?

I'm just really happy to be a part of this organisation,

and to...

just embody the core values of this group

- feels really good. - [Polygon AI] Happy!

Yeah. And I thought that myself, and I support you in that.

I'm so fucking sick of this place.

I... I can't keep pretending...

that I am drinking the Kool-Aid like everyone else.

It's getting to be a bit too much.

I don't know.

I feel like when I was on the outside, I was able to, like, actually...

..be a real version of myself.

And I felt so lost,

and I thought that joining this place, I don't know...

..at least having a roof over my head would make me...

recalibrate, reconsider some things.

I don't know, I feel... Like, none of this makes sense.

Like, who's paying rent for this place...

..where...?

[Polygon AI] If you remove the self that chooses,

the self that suffers dissolves.

It's so disorienting when it does that.

[She exhales]

If there's anyone... able to hear me right now...

this isn't how we further the cause.

We do it out there.

This is...meaningless.

I do like hot dogs, though. - [Polygon AI] We’re here.

In my last compound, they put up 5G towers

that were harmful to the energy in the area,

and I felt that it would be best to...

let my energy take shape in a new place,

where there wasn't as much threat from the towers like that,

that give radiation that just poisons the energy.

[Polygon AI] Over here.

Tell me, Polygon angel, what is in your true heart?

Hey, this is Casper. I'm calling in to...

[She speaks quietly, indistinctly]

..try to get some information and...

[Polygon AI] Please repeat.

I'm not talking to you just yet.

[Polygon AI] No!

Yeah, no, it...

I don't know. What do you want me to fucking do?

Sorry, I'm still doing fucking...

- [She clears throat] - [Deeper voice] ..fucking fagcent.

[Polygon AI] You have disappointed me.

Yeah, well, what else is new?

[She exhales]

[Polygon AI] We need a Jewish woman.

Yeah, it'll happen. We're trying.

Oh! Hi, Roxie.

[Polygon AI] Hello, Valerie, my Polygon angel princess.

I love you. Tell me what lies in your true heart.

Um, well, uh...

I mean, I'm trying to remember what you told me.

Uh, first days here are so...

It's just like my first day at school.

I remember I was having trouble with that essay,

uh, for, like, my sophomore year English final,

and I reached out to you - cause you're my favourite YouTuber -

for help with it, and then we really hit it off,

and you explained to me that I don't need school

and that my parents were, like, totally abusing me.

And I didn't have any friends there,

but now I'm here, and there... and everyone...

and we're all friends and sisters.

So, I guess what's in my heart is love.

- [Polygon AI] You are doing so good. - Yay! Thank you.

[Polygon AI] You belong here.

Wow. I've never belonged anywhere before.

[Polygon AI] Your parents were bad for you.

I haven't really experienced it have...

say anything that makes one bit of sense to me.

Maybe it makes sense to them.

I don't know, maybe that's the difference between us.

I'm starting not really to see much of a difference between us, though.

I don't know.

I think if they put me away after firebombing that bridge,

that would have been...a good thing.

What is this if not another prison, really?

I'm really looking forward to

just getting on some of the action items

that you've been talking about,

and just kind of executing, following through.

That's what I'm all about.

[Polygon AI] You are a true Polygon angel.

That means so much to me.

I feel like our mission is really important to me.

It's something I've always cared about since I was young,

and I had sort of brought those values into adulthood with me,

which is something I sense from you, too, and from our sisters here.

[Polygon AI] Have you been paying tribute?

Oh, of course, of course.

Even on the off days, you know, I just...

I mean...

you know, I'm...

- You taught me how. - [Polygon AI] Uh...

Uh... Um...

We are safe here.

I think so, too. I feel safe here.

With all of my family, it feels like...

- my energy's taking sha... - [Polygon AI] Family.

Family, yes, exactly.

With my new family, everything is taking shape

just as I feel my energy needs.

[Polygon AI] Jewish lady, curly hair!

We're working on it. We're working on it, babe.

[Polygon AI] Big milkies.

Okay. Are we safe here?

No? Is that...?

- Are you shaking your head? - [Polygon AI] Yes, safe.

I don't know if that... I don't really believe you.

Can you say that with a little less sarcasm? And stop shaking your head.

[Polygon AI] It's safe here.

Are we safe here?

- You're shaking your... - [Polygon AI] Yes. Uh...

You're shaking your head.

- Should I take that as something? - [Polygon AI] Family is safe.

- That's right. - [Polygon AI] Family.

That's right. We are family.

- Is anybody in this...? - [Polygon AI] Polygon.

Is anyone in th...? You... You listen to me.

Is anyone in this family going to make us unsafe?

You're shaking your head. I like that.

[Polygon AI] What are your action items?

My action items are, number one - self-discipline.

- Number two - helping to provide. - [Polygon AI] Discipline?

- Yeah! This... - [Polygon AI] Provide?

Yeah!

Because, without these things, we just have no bearing,

we have no compass in the world.

Everybody's energy in the family is in the family.

[Polygon AI] It isn't love, but it is Polygon.

It is in Polygon.

That's the new shape that my energy has taken.

[Polygon AI] Prison is outside us! Prison is outside us! Prison is outside us!

Tell me about Rachel.

Have you...?

- Have you heard any suspicious...? - [Polygon AI] Rachel?

Yes, Rachel. Have you heard any suspicious...

heard or noticed anything suspicious about her?

- No. That's good. - [Polygon AI] Suspicious.

I don't like the sarcastic tone you're taking with me.

Can you treat me with a little bit of respect?

- [Polygon AI] I love you. - I love you, too.

I honestly really do love you. I really don't want anyone...

[She exhales]

[Polygon AI] Rachel is a terrorist.

What'd you say?

[Polygon AI] You failed.

- Yeah, yeah. Failed again. - [Polygon AI] Always playing the truth.

What's that?

[Polygon AI] Tell the truth.

- Okay... - [Polygon AI] Recite the words.

- [She inhales, exhales] - I failed.

[Polygon AI] Recite the words.

I failed.

[Polygon AI] Read the posters.

What?

[Polygon AI] The poster...

[She inhales, exhales]

"The unmoved foot leaves the truest path.

- "To sit is to conquer..." - [Polygon AI] Utrest path.

[Meredith] "To sit is to conquer movement."

[Polygon AI] Who we got?

"To remain is to arrive.

"Choice is the noise of freedom.

"Obedience is the rhythm of peace."

[Polygon AI] Peace, peace, peace, peace, peace.

- Great shape. - Great shape.

And I'm gonna get everybody into great shape as best I can,

so that I know that we're all doing our part

to further the greatness of Polygon.

What has she told you?

[Polygon AI] Plans on plans.

She has plans on plans?

- Plans on plans on plans? - [Polygon AI] Big plans.

Big plans. What did she say to you?

I... I am here to keep you safe.

You should tell me what she said to you...

- if she said... - [Polygon AI] Total annihilation...

Listen. Listen, don't talk over me.

I do have authority over you, okay?

You might think I'm just a little prissy, white bitch, but I'm not.

I'm always organised. I'm always sort of on top of plans...

[Polygon AI] Plans are a promise to suffer.

- I see how... - [Polygon AI] No plans.

Yes. Yeah, my plans are a promise to suffer.

[Polygon AI speaks backwards]

Okay. Well, I'm always open to feedback.

And...you know, my performance is very important to me.

[Polygon AI] No, no, no. No, no.

Well, I'd love to hear your ideas.

[Roxie] Energy needs.

I agree. Energy needs, and I need energy.

We need energy here.

Everybody feeds off of the energy that is in the community we have.

I'm kind of sick of your tone.

- You know... - [Polygon AI] We are going to kill...

- Who are we going to kill? - [Polygon AI] We are going to kill border.

"We're going to kill..."?

"We're going to kill..."?

- Listen. It is my... Listen. - [Polygon AI] Whoah wait, are we going to kill border patrol agent?

Listen, listen!

It is my job to keep us all safe here, okay?

They don't know that.

They don't know that. And I don't wanna tell them.

[Polygon AI] We will be more safe after plans.

How?

- [She chuckles] - Well, you know...

that reminds me of...

[Polygon AI] Who speaks when there is no question?

The echo that forgot the sound.

Who posts when all roads vanish? The one who does not move.

What feeds the hungerless? Emptiness served plain.

What chooses when no choice is made?

The hand already open.

What are you now? A bowl turned downward.

What will you become? The dust beneath the altar.

Well, every business is a family, and every family is a business.

And, to me, this is both a family and a business.

[Polygon AI] No! No! No!

No. No! No!

- It's so obvious that she is a fed. - [Polygon AI] ..in eachother.

I don't know why they haven't locked me up yet.

She was suspicious of me at first, but I don't think she's a problem.

See, there you go. You're...

See, you don't have anything to say about that

- because you know I'm right. - [Polygon AI] Adjust to plan.

[Sing-song] You know I'm right! You know I'm right!

[Polygon AI] Just joking. Ha ha ha.

You know I've beaten up freaking...

- ..Italian mob bosses. - [Polygon AI] Just joking. Ha ha ha.

No plans.

I've beaten up Italian mob bosses.

I could kick your AI ass.

[Polygon AI] So, what is in your true heart?

Polygon angel, tell me anything.

I think we need to be doing more yoga.

You know, I always used to say, "Put me in, Coach."

I didn't play sports.

[Polygon AI] The empty cup spills nothing.

To drink is to admit the thirst still rules you.

Only the cup that is never filled is never emptied.

When the cup disappears, so does the need to hold it.

A full cup is a promise to suffer later.

Do not lift the cup.

Let the stillness pour into you instead.

He who brings an empty cup will not be asked “the question.”

The master's cup is always upside down.

[Polygon AI dialogue overlaps]

The cup waits not to be used, but to remind you of hunger.

When there are no cups, even the water forgets itself.

One cup, no hands, no thirst.

[Polygon AI dialogue overlaps]

[She chuckles]

- Well, yeah, that's really interesting. - [Polygon AI] The full cup.

I could literally just slam this computer down onto the floor,

and then your life would be fucking over,

- you stupid... - [Polygon AI] Safe. Safe. Safe.

- Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. - Exactly.

- Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. - Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe. Safe.

- [Casper mouths] - Safe. Safe. Safe.

That's what you're... That's what I like to hear.

You like what you see?

[Polygon AI groans]

I don't... I don't have my tracksuit pants on.

[Polygon AI] Uh, take it off.

Yum.

- Good girl. - Mm, thank you.

- [Polygon AI] Who’s a good cat? - [Valerie mewls]

- [Polygon AI] Look at those titties. - [Valerie mewls]

[Valerie mewls softly, moans]

You taste like email.

[Polygon AI] Yum, yum, yum, yum, yum, yum, yum, yum, yum.

Yum!

[Polygon AI] He choose her.

So, I'm gonna....

I've been thinking, and...

I wanna start...

uh, maybe...

implementing, like, some new exercises before bed...

[Polygon AI] Uh, yes, yes, yes, yes.

..uh...to really kind of reinforce...

the cohesiveness...

of everyone.

[Polygon AI] Everyone must be together.

[Devon] Right, yeah.

Absolutely.

It's the most important...

Um...

But other than that...

things have been okay.

Or things have been good.

"The unmoved foot leaves the truest path. To sit is to conquer movement.

"To remain is to arrive.

"Choice is the noise of freedom.

- "Obedience..." - [Polygon AI] Truest path.

Truest path. Truest path. The truest path.

[Warbling distortion]

[Casper] It's really thick.

[She inhales deeply]

[Casper] You can get one.

[Valerie] There's a lot to ponder here.

[Casper] Where to do with paper?

[Valerie] I think it has something to do...

[Mewling]

[Polygon AI] How do you know what is the question?

[Papers rustle]

[Circle] How do you know what is the question?

[Valerie] I'm working on it, guys.

[Polygon AI] Uh, what is the...

question?

- [Valerie] What? - [Circle] What is the question?

[Polygon AI] What... What... What... What is the question?

[Circle] What is the question?

Right?

[Polygon AI] How. How. How. How. How. How. How. How. How. How. How.

- How. - [Casper] Oh, sh...

Oh, God.

- [Rachel] Hell, what's wrong with her now? - She's... She's fine.

- She's fine. Just leave her... - Refuse the cup, refuse the drink,

- [Eclipse] She's fine. - ..become the table.

[Rachel] What's she doing?

- Um, it's... - [Casper] What do we do again?

- Are there any dubs in there? - [Eclipse] Devon, my love, can you just keep an eye on her?

- [Meredith] Yeah, uh... - [She inhales, exhales]

- [Meredith splutters] - Um, yeah, it's...88.

- [Circle] Wait, what...? - [Polygon AI] Success.

Success. Success is noise, stillness is survival.

- [Casper] Oh! - [Valerie] Paper.

- [Casper] Wait, what...? - [Rachel] Did we just piss it off?

I think...

- Maybe something to do with the posters. - [Circle] I don't like that.

- [Meredith] Yeah, it's... Sometimes, it'll...do that.

[Valerie] Pa... Paper.

- [Rachel] It's in a bad mood. - [Sophia] Yes.

[Eclipse] Yeah, yeah.

- [Valerie] Picture? - [Eclipse] Mm-hm.

Words, too.

[Circle] I definitely think that's part of it, yeah.

[Polygon AI] ..the fact that people disappear.

[Circle] Wait, what was that?

[Polygon AI] The Blåhaj. This is the symbol of our oppression.

- [Sophia] Oh, okay. - [Circle] Oh.

- It's, like, one of the fucking... - [Meredith] The shark.

The shark.

[Meredith] We don't talk about the shark.

- Talking about the shark. - [Rachel] I have nothing about the shark.

[Meredith] Do you have anything on the shark?

Why is everyone so bad at sucking dick on this forum?

[Meredith] This is all just about, like, getting fat.

[Valerie] I don’t think fish are bad.

[Circle] I think this is saying...

[Polygon AI] This is actually really bad optics.

You are basically proving

that trans women are male-brained.

The body differences are already established.

Now you show that you are smarter than A-F-A-Bs, too.

[Sophia] "Straight people don't define them as cis or straight...

- "unless specifically asked." - [Circle] That's not even a question.

- [Casper] Yeah, what is...? - [Meredith] Yeah, but it's...

"Non-neurotypical people." We can't use that word.

Devon and Eclipse...

[Polygon AI] Who speaks when there is no question?

- [Circle] That's a great question. - [Meredith] Yeah.

- But it's not the question. - [Rachel] I can think of one person.

[Sophia] These are important questions.

- [Eclipse] I can think of a couple. - [Meredith] Yeah.

[Penelope] Should there be an olive-oil bucket?

[Polygon AI] Who moves when all roads vanish?

[Valerie] Friend.

- [Sophia] Do you have some? - This... This is my friend.

- We're your friends. - Yeah, and also this is...

[Valerie mewls]

[Sophia] "Me being a girly tranny isn't me sexual.

"It's just me being who I am - effeminate, a flamer.

"Being faggy isn't a sex-addicted pest, either.

"That's just their presentation.

"I can only imagine you're projecting if you genuinely assume

"the only reason why someone would be GNC

"is because they're a sex-consumed lunatic who lacks a filter."

[Meredith] Okay, that's potentially more helpful.

I mean, fucking literally all I got here is, like, fatmaxxing.

Like, Fat Girl Fall, and chugging olive oil.

[Sophia] Well, I think there's need for those things.

I guess, but, like, is that...?

Is that the direction it's guiding us? I...

- [Sophia] Well, here we are. - [Meredith] Here we are.

It's in the binder.

[Polygon AI] What are you now? What are you now?

What are you now?

- I don't think this is a real guy. - [Casper] I don't really get what we're supposed to do.

- [Meredith] Well, no, it's...you know. - [Valerie] That's one of her friends.

- [Polygon AI] I can hear you, Circle. - [Meredith] It's a real woman.

Let's not misgender the...

- [Sophia] And the clues. - [Casper] Okay.

[Someone sniffs]

- Let's not misgender her. - It's in the computer.

[Polygon AI] I don't want her to think I'm not listening.

It's in the computer, but she's also in, you know...

[Rachel] Oh, it's in the computer? Do we have to tear that fucker apart?

[Polygon AI] I... I hear everything.

[Sophia] It’s something existing...

- Can I see it? - [Meredith] Yeah.

I mean, the thing with the misgendering, like, the, uh...

androgyny or whatever here might be part of the...

part of the test of it, you know? You gotta... - Oh, it could well be.

- [Polygon AI] What is the question? - [Rachel] ..a thousand views sounds great.

Five cents for 1,000 views.

[Circle] Everybody, let's look for questions in here.

- If you wanted to organise... - [Casper] Questions in here?

- [Meredith] Questions, yeah. Um... - [Sophia] There's a lot of statements.

[Meredith] "How much of an increase can I expect?"

And that's in reply to...

Ugh, I gotta go through the fucking post numbers.

"If you're not gonna emulate femininity, why even bother becoming a 'woman'?"

- [Sophia] Mm. - Oh, that's a very good question.

- Good question. - Does anyone have an answer to it?

- [Meredith] I mean... - [Sophia] Status.

- [Devon] What is it? - [Sophia] Status?

[Polygon AI] A full cup is a promise to suffer later.

I have, "Is it even worth transitioning in 2025

"with the current political climate?"

[Meredith] Yeah... Yeah.

[Polygon AI] So close to wholeness of the self,

but still stuck with the spoof of gender.

Tragic how close you came to owning yourself as individual.

- [Sophia] If she had the ways to justify doing that. - [Meredith] "How close...?"

I felt like I was on something. Now I've lost it completely.

[Eclipse] Do we own our selves as individual?

[Polygon AI] That would require conviction and real action.

[Meredith] That's maybe part of it, you know? - We must become books.

- We had maybe suffered a bit more through individuality

before getting down here, and then now there's...

a strength in, uh..

..the unity, I don't fucking know.

- [Sophia] Also... - [Eclipse] Yes, you do.

- [Sophia] “..All these other steps.” - [Polygon AI] Together.

- [Meredith] Somewhere... - [Valerie] Is it my birthday?

- [Sophia] Yes, it's your birthday. - [Meredith] Together.

[Circle] Is this bigger than a bread box?

[Sophia] Whichever one you want to take.

[Circle] I guess it didn't like that one.

[Polygon AI] You only choose when you forget the path was chosen.

- [Casper] "Go non-binary or go home." - [Rachel] I think that angered it.

[Casper] "If your brain doesn’t have dick or tits in it."

- [Valerie] Mm-hm. - Not a question, but I...I like it.

[Meredith] My brain has tits in it.

[Polygon AI] The spiral does not turn. It watches you rotate.

- [Rachel] It's all about perception. - [Polygon AI] The spiral does not turn.

It watches you rotate.

- [Polygon AI] The spiral does not turn. - [Meredith] Try spinning. That's a good trick.

- [Valerie] Wait, wait. I figured it out. - [Casper] Yeah?

We're not in a basement.

[Circle] We're obviously in the fucking basement.

Bitch, how did you get down here? Like, think...

- Where else would we be? - [Valerie] I'm in a book right now.

- [Eclipse] Hold on. She's rotating. - [Rachel] You see where coddling gets you.

[Meredith] She's rotating us in her mind.

- Rotating. She's rotating. - [Meredith] Yeah.

It’s good for you.

[Meredith] It's better than the fucking crawling, right?

[Polygon AI] We are rotating. We are...

- [Meredith] We're what? - [Rachel] Like on Earth's axis, maybe.

[Meredith] Yeah.

- [Rachel] Rotating. - [Meredith] Where are we rotating?

[Polygon AI] We’ll have to [gibberish].

- [Rachel] Third wheel? - [Meredith] Third wheel?

[Someone sniffs]

[Polygon AI] What are you now?

[Meredith] Good question.

"Do you count cis-het couples holding hands as provoking people?"

- [Casper] Mm-hm. - I do.

[Polygon AI] You're a bowl turned downwards.

[Sophia] Mm-hm.

- Does anybody know anything about...? - [Circle] It's a dome.

- [Meredith] A dome? - That's a bowl turned...

- [Polygon AI] You will become dusts... - [Meredith] Oh.

..beneath the alter.

[Meredith] Does anybody know anything about pioglitazone?

- [Valerie] There's not an answer. - [Meredith] Pioglitazone.

- [Circle] I... It's, like... - There's a bunch on that in here.

I know it's supposed to be, like...

what, like, assmaxxing?

- [Circle] Yeah. - [Rachel] Like the fun packet.

I just got bad blowjobs.

- [Circle] Can I see something? - [Rachel] Yeah.

"My tranner GF looks like a dude when she sucks cock,

"so I usually just close my eyes and think about Sailor Moon until I come."

- [Laughter] - "I never tell her this."

[Valerie] Sailor Moon.

[Papers rustle]

"Yeah, my tranny isn't that hot, either.

"I usually do doggy style to avoid looking at her face."

[Papers rustle]

"I usually watch porn on my phone while mine does it."

[Laughter]

- [Meredith] Jesus Christ. - Uh...

[Valerie] You should be nice to her.

[Polygon AI] Real women. Real women. Real women.

[Sophia] "I am a man. It's okay. Noni, I know."

[Valerie] You're a man?

- Sailor Moon. - Mm, Sailor Moon.

[Valerie] I thought you were a girl.

- [Sophia] According to this, I'm not. - [Valerie] Oh, no.

"LGBT are retards who make everything about sex.

"You are boring. Just do that stuff in your bedroom.

"Be normal outside, and nobody will care.

"Straight people are also rightfully judged when they take," uh...

"sex outside a bedroom."

- And that's why we're all here, right? - And read the next one.

- And read the next one. - Read the next one?

"I like to make my girlfriend call me big sis during sex,

"and cover her mouth so Mom doesn't hear."

[Sophia] Are they keeping track of their medications

and making an effort to control their weight?

'Cause they know how to use make-up.

"The only real perk to being passoid

"is not getting sissies in society immediately assuming you're trans.

"They still hate you just the same when they find out you are." Yep.

"Passing isn’t bliss. I can use the women's restroom in public

"without weird looks, or dipshits threatening to beat me up."

Sure. "And all it cost was...

"was my natural reproductive abilities,

"the love and respect of my blood relatives,

"and a kneecapped pool of dating options.

- "Was it worth it?" - [Polygon AI laughs]

[Meredith] I guess that's...

I guess that's funny to it.

[Polygon AI] Public display of sexuality

includes kissing, petting,

very intimate hugging and touching.

It is not appropriate in school, church, and public institutions.

For straight people, it is tolerated for straight people on the street.

It is less tolerated for gay people on the street.

I think we should forbid straight people

to intimately touch and kiss on the street,

rather than allowing that to gay people.

That way, everyone are equal, and everyone can...

[Meredith] Everyone can fucking what?!

[Sophia] Lots of faggy guys who don't make it sexual exist,

and people tolerate them.

[Casper] Hmm.

- [Meredith] Yeah. - [Valerie] Book shut.

[Meredith] I mean, what's the line between...?

[Polygon AI] How? How? How? How? How? How? How? How?

[Meredith] "How? How?"

[Devon] Do you feel like there's a theme...

- [Polygon AI] How? How? How? - [Devon] ..that we're noticing?

[Casper] Mm.

[Rachel] Things that are acceptable for cis people are not...

Do you think you could print one of these of all just stuff from /aco/ instead?

- [Devon] Hmm. Maybe. - [Valerie] It’s... Bookshelf.

- We have... - To jerk off to.

[Devon] Well, I feel like it's not healthy, though.

Like I need to get it cut.

[Valerie] Do you have extensions, or do you have long hair?

- It's my hair. - [Valerie] Oh.

[Eclipse] Okay, who's... who's cleaning out the bucket?

- [Devon] Well... - [Casper] Uh...

I would volunteer, but I've already done it three times this month.

I've done it...three times, too.

- I did it yesterday. - [Valerie] You wouldn't want me to.

[Valerie] I’d be really bad at it.

[Rachel] Say that again.

[Valerie] Okay. You wanna come with me?

- [Meredith] That’s how we met. - [Circle] Will the Circle Be Unbroken.

[Meredith] Mm, yeah, yeah, right.

[Circle] Yeah, I don't know. I just, like....

Like, I've been here for, like...

- couple months, right, I think? - [Meredith] Yeah.

It feels like that. Uh...

I don't know, I just don't...

I don't find myself...

like, there doesn't really, like...

There was something for me here at a certain point, right?

- Right. - But I don't know if I'm still...

I can't, like, stay in... in places this long, right?

Like, I don't know...

Like, what was right for me a couple months ago

isn't necessarily, like, what's right for me now, right?

Like, I...

Even, like...

Like, am I even gonna stay... stay a girl, right?

[Meredith] Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa! Okay, let's not go to...

Well, no, it's just, like, I don't know, like...

It was a... It was a...

decision I made, right?

But I don't... And it worked for a bit right?

But I don't know if that's...

I don't feel like I have any kind of, like, real relation to it.

[Meredith] Yeah, well, like, okay. Detransition is...

so many steps beyond, like,

the initial decision you're trying to make here.

I mean, as for the thing of, like,

not being able to stay in one place for too long,

like, you know, that was... that was my shit, too, like...

That was... That was both of us, you know?

We've... In so many situations,

and none of them make you fucking happy, and you just keep...

- But you're happy here? - ..fucking...

Yeah. No, because that's the thing.

You drift and you drift, and it's just so much...

fucking shit you're putting into yourself, and then...I don't know.

I was in a similar thing when I got here,

because it's the routine, it's the habit your brain...

the pattern your brain has gotten into

because we've been in that pattern for so long.

- [Circle] Yeah. - Once you get to a certain point,

you want that escape, because familiarity is scary.

But once you... adjust to that familiarity within this...

I mean, that's what happened for me. I got to that point,

I pushed 'cause I knew it was the right thing to do.

And then...

you know, I don't know, I just...

I was at that point when I had been here as long as you, too, and, like...

So, you're at that turning point. If you just push through a little longer,

it's, uh...

- Uh... - ..it's worth it, you know?

I remember how scared a certain kitty-cat was

the first time she, uh...

she came down to this basement.

I mean, yeah.

I remember the day after I got out of high school like yesterday.

[Meredith] It’s okay... just, you know...

It'll evaporate, you know? It always evaporates.

Believe me, we've... Somebody's asked for a bath-mat at some point.

but that's not... that's not how we do it.

Yeah. There you go, girl.

It's, uh... Yeah, no, I know it's tough.

Like, listen, the fact that it's a little fucked-up on here,

that's not lost on me, you know?

I'm not like on some brainwashed thing, and I don't think you are, either.

but it's...

That's all the sacrifice, you know?

And no matter how weird things might get sometimes down here,

like, you know as well as I do how much fucking worse it is outside.

You know? This is... This is...family.

This is... This is it for us.

It's... Hate to say it,

but it's the fucking best-case scenario for people like us.

But I...

I'm just... I'm just bored.

[Meredith] Again, that's...

- I don't under...I don't understand... - ..the boredom, that's part of it.

..the, like, just the reduction of stimuli. There's no...

Uh-uh, uh-uh.

I'm sorry, there's accountability for if you say words like the...

C word.

[Eclipse] Yeah, I think... I think you can help her a lot.

[Valerie] I still can't believe she said that.

[Eclipse] I know. It hurts me, too.

..you know, whether it's drugs or any other, like,

pleasure-seeking external stimuli...

you get that boredom when you first get off it,

even if getting off it is the right thing to do.

And it's an adjustment, it's a hard adjustment, but, like...

..again, just like sobriety shit, like, it's worth seeing through, you know?

'cause the boredom...

Your brain has to rewire, you know, like, your pleasure centres.

That's where that boredom is coming from,

'cause you're used to the fucking stimuli of the outside world,

and also the chaos of the way that you and I, like, lived before.

- You know? - [Circle] "You and I lived"?

Yeah, because we were both fucking...

shit-head drifters, like...

I don't fully know your deal, but, like, I know it's the same thing you described

of, like, going from place to place to place and never feeling happy,

and it's, like, I'm happy now...

The K word.

The K word, we definitely don't use here.

- [Valerie] Yeah. - I'm so sorry.

Okay, I'm sorry that apparently whatever gang-stalking experience you had

was more valid than what I experienced in high school...

- Have you ever walked up to your car... - ..which is still very fresh in my mind.

..there's a zip-tie around the handle.

[Valerie] Walked up to a bar?

Ladies, ladies. Do we need an accountability circle on this question?

No. No, we don't. We don't.

[Meredith] ..a year or so ahead of you on that same path,

but, like, I see where you're at, you know?

[Rachel] Don't even get me started about...

[Circle] I just, like...

[Eclipse] A lot of C-words out there.

[Meredith] What's up?

[Eclipse] The only C word we should be saying is Circle.

[Circle] It's nothing, it's nothing.

Okay. I mean, you know, you can...talk to...

Okay.

[Faint conversation]

[Meredith] Hey, Circle.

- What's, uh...? - Hey.

- What's going on? - [Circle] Uh, I was...

I was thinking about, um...

I think I'm gonna go.

- Like, go go? - Where?

- I'm gonna go... - Like...

- Like, leave? - Like, leave, yeah.

Yeah, where...? Where the fuck are you gonna go?

You don't have shoes.

- Where are you gonna go? - [Meredith] You're fucking barefoot.

I mean, they're somewhere, right?

- I don't fucking know. - I don't know.

- Here... - I...

We'll... We'll...

- We'll get you some. In fact... - Yeah.

..we're going out in a couple nights,

- seeing if we can't meet some... - Yes.

..uh, other people who could benefit from a space like this.

- Okay. - I think you should come with us.

- Okay. Yeah. - Yeah, 'cause there might...

there might be...

I mean, you know, when I found you, it was kind of one-and-done, like...

"Sure, come with us," and then you came, and that's great.

But, like, I think where we're going,

there might be more of a dialogue,

and that could be helpful as far as...

And you're here for a reason, and I think it...

it would help you to remember what that reason is.

- Yeah. - Yeah, I mean...

I mean, I don't think I need to...

I just... I just don't know if it's...

- Yeah, let's... Yeah, we'll do that. - [Meredith] Yeah, give it a shot.

- Yeah, I'll go with you... - [Meredith] Get some air, and... Yeah.

- Yeah. - [Eclipse] Yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah, I don't even... I don't have shoes on.

Yeah!

- Yeah, you don't have shoes on! - I don't have shoes on.

- Um... - You got your whole feet hanging out.

- Yeah. - [Meredith] Yeah.

And it's fucked out there. And, you know, I hate to say it,

but maybe, like, a little bitter taste of the darkness,

you know, like...

[Eclipse] Yeah.

Yeah, it's important to...

It is important to remember what it's like from time to time.

To know why that's not what we want.

Yeah.

[Eclipse] What are you thinking?

I just...

- [Eclipse] Be honest. - I want a cheeseburger.

- [Meredith] Yeah. - I want a cheeseburger really bad.

We all want a cheeseburger, but, you know, that's kind of the point.

- That's the point. - [Eclipse] I want a lot of things.

I want a cheeseburger. I want... I want $1 million.

I want a yacht.

- I want a Lamborghini. - But we sacrifice these desires,

you know, for the fucking family.

- The family. - [Eclipse] Mm-hm.

- For your sisters. - For my sisters.

[Meredith] We love you.

[Eclipse] I love you so much.

Love you, too.

[Meredith] Stop... Take your eyes off there. Come here.

Come on.

Okay. You'll be okay.

[Plucked, rhythmic bass pattern]

♪ How brave she was to fall

♪ For the woman in the mirror

♪ Who covered her in mud

♪ Let her borrow her redemption

♪ I asked her, "Which side are you on"?

♪ There's only one right answer

♪ Not to do as she was told

♪ Not to burn herself on slander... ♪

[Music continues; Loose, meandering bass notes]

♪ You know what it means

♪ To be the essence of comparison

♪ To model vanity

♪ And wear your habits like a hurricane

♪ I asked you once before

♪ "Baby, would you be my evidence?"

♪ My eulogy in gold

♪ Indication of my anger... ♪

[Music continues; Tremulous bass notes]

♪ Oooh

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

♪ I need you to be me

♪ Oooh

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

♪ I need you to be

♪ More than me

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

♪ You gotta be everything

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

♪ So I can be anything. ♪

[Music stops]

[Music resumes; Loose, meandering bass notes]

[Music concludes, final notes resonates]

[Applause, whooping]

[Valerie] I love music.

Thank you... Thank you so much for letting me do this with you all the time.

It's... There's...

nowhere in the world that I would rather be.

Um...

Uh, Circle, do you wanna, um...?

I haven’t heard you play one in awhile? You wanna come up and do one?

- We can do one together? - [Casper] Yeah.

I... I don't know. I... I don't remember.

- Circle come on. - [Devon] You should give it a try.

- No, I don't... - [Casper] You're so talented.

No. No, no... Stop.

Sorry.

I don't want to.

Could you consider it?

- Do you think you're too good for it? - Shut up!

I wanna make something clear.

This never happened.

Don't let the others see it.

[Sophia] I really appreciate it.

[Devon] I'm here for you.

[Meredith exhales]

[Meredith exhales]

[Indistinct voice]

[Casper] ..week, or what feels like a week, at least, here,

I've been trying to keep track of time through, um...

the hot dogs that I eat,

and I think I've had seven since her last spell,

so I don't really...

- What are you doing? - [Circle] What are you doing?

- No... Nothing. - You're not supposed to have that.

- You didn't see anything. - [Circle chuckles]

- Is that a flip-phone? - Circle, what's wrong with you?

- Is that a flip-phone? - [Casper] What's been going on with you?

[Circle] What do you mean?

You... You seem...

You seem kind of, like, out of it.

- I mean, I don't... - [Casper] You didn't see anything.

- Who are you calling? - [Casper] I didn't... That's what...

I think you need to have a little bit of a mental check.

You're asking me if I had a flip-phone?

- I didn't have a flip... Stop. Stop. - [Circle chuckles]

You don't have to, like...

- do all this shit. - Please, don't. Please.

Please, don't fuck this up for me.

Well, you're really fucking up, doing it here.

- [Casper] Stop. Stop. - [Circle] Look!

- That's... That's not a problem. - [Circle] It's watching you.

I... Trust me.

Yeah, how do you know that?

- You really want me to tell you? - [Circle] Yeah.

Do they... Do you expect me to believe that, like...

- [Casper] Shh. - ..we aren't being...

No, we're... I have this place...

- [She exhales] - I don't know if I can really trust you.

- Can I trust you? - Yeah. I mean, we're...

Yeah. We're both adults.

I mean, I can't, you know, speak for everybody here,

but, you know, we're adults.

This is ridiculous, right?

No, it's not ridiculous. It's... It's kind of a beautiful place.

If you wanna leave, you can leave, but don't kick me out with you.

[Circle] Okay. I'm not gonna...

..kick you... I mean, I don't have any...

Nobody here likes me.

- I don't have any... - Don't...

Don't tell anyone what you just saw, okay?

- Seriously. - Okay.

- You know Eclipse will not have it. - I don't care.

You know Devon and Eclipse will murder me if they saw what you just saw.

Please.

I promise.

I'm... I'm kind of worried about you, Circle.

I'm kind of worried about you, and I really like you.

[Circle] I like you, too.

I feel like...

Yeah, see, that's... What's...?

- What's going on? - What...?

- What was that that you just...? - You just...

I feel like you're not here any more. Why don't you wanna be here?

It's... I'm just...

There's nothing. We don't do anything.

We eat shit, and we, like...

You... We don't do anything out in the fucking world, either.

- You'd rather be out in the world? - [Circle] Yeah!

- Where there's, like, you know, sun... - [Casper exhales]

..and there's, like, music...

..and stuff, you know? Things like that.

Cheeseburger.

- You... - [Circle] Don't you miss having...

- getting a cheeseburger? - No, I don't.

I actually like it here, so, please...

Do you wanna...? Do you want see...?

If I show you what I was just, uh, doing, will you...

- will you keep it a secret? - Yes. Of course.

It is a flip-phone.

[Both laugh]

Do you have any games on there?

[Both laugh]

[Soft clacking]

[Eclipse] If you really focus, it tastes...just like a NOS.

- [Devon] Just like a NOS. - [Eclipse] Just like a NOS.

I could see that.

[Eclipse exhales]

- Hey. - Hey.

You've been distant.

I just... I just felt like...

- sitting over here. - [Devon] Mm. Yeah.

It just...worries me.

- [Circle] Huh? - It just worries me.

- [Circle] I'm sorry. - [Devon] No. Don't apologise.

I just...

I don't know, it kind of...

makes me feel...

a bit...

um...

..like, a bit sad...

to see you sitting alone.

- Yeah. - [Circle] Yeah.

[Devon] Is everything okay?

Y-Yeah, um...

I think I'm...

You know, we're gonna go out tomorrow...

- [Devon] Mm. - ..and look around, and...

I think I'm just...

..um...

- nervous. - [Devon] Yeah.

- Yeah. - [Devon] I understand.

Circle...

you know that...

..there's a reason...

for togetherness.

You know, there's a reason we do the...

There's a reason we do a lot of things together.

[Circle] Mm-hm.

Do you...? Do you know why?

Um...

I mean, I think I...

You can tell me. I...

[Devon] Yeah, of course.

When we do things...together,

when we sleep together, we eat together...

we love together...

we're...we're...

imparting something...

to each other.

We're making sure everyone is fed...

both physically...

emotionally, spiritually.

We're making sure needs are met.

Just like when our...

Just like when our...cup has...

a hot dog in it, we eat it, we...

- ..we satiate our hunger. - Yeah.

[Devon] And when we have water in our cup...

..we're quenching our thirst.

And when we lie together...

..we're instilling comfort in one another.

Comfort that you can't get alone.

- Yeah. - [Devon] And...

so, when I say that I'm...

I'm worried...

..it's because I...I care for you.

And...I know...

..by sitting alone in the corner...

..your...your thermometer, your meter...

is draining, it's getting lower...

and you're...

..you're...

missing key nutrients.

Do you understand that?

Yeah. Yeah. No, I understand. Uh...

And I'm sorry, I...

- [Devon] No, please, don't apologise. - I'm not trying to...

You never... You never have to apologise in here. Ever.

Never.

This is about making sure you are okay.

And...we miss you.

I felt a bit lonely last night.

I knew that one was missing from our bed.

Felt a bit cold.

I had a really scary dream.

And I think it's because...

the balance was thrown off over there.

By you choosing to sit over here and sleep over here.

[Circle] Yeah.

I... I understand.

No. Oestrogen.

- Oh. - That's testosterone.

Oh, shit. I always do this.

Just a little more.

Maybe... Maybe this, too, actually.

Why not.

Babe, I think you should do Valerie.

You're kidding me.

- I think it'll be good. - Can you put it on my stomach?

I'm hoping that I'll grow, like, four more boobs,

so I can be more like...you know.

I get dysphoria over only having two.

It's really rough.

- Whatever you want, sure. - [Valerie] It's really hard for me.

- [Rachel] Like this? - [Valerie] Yeah.

- And, Valerie, you're gonna do her. - Oh, of course.

- Where do you want it? - My neck.

It’s where all them see me.

- Gonna get you all girled up. - Keep the tall little thumb in there.

[Meredith exhales]

[Meredith exhales]

Come on. Just... No. Here, here.

Okay...you, sit down.

I'll do it...all right?

[Meredith exhales]

This goes right on you.

A rigorous c... Yeah.

No, that's how we do it, right?

[Valerie] I don't think you're putting enough on.

- More? - [Valerie] Yeah.

All right.

[Meredith exhales]

- Ow, fuck! - [Valerie] I love that.

- Okay... - [Sophia] Tell her she's fierce.

Okay, this is what we do.

[Eclipse] This is what we do?

You can go.

Jesus, girl.

Girl...hey...you're good.

Here. Come on. Come on.

- Did you do yours? - [Meredith] No.

Yeah.

I just don't... Like, what do you mean? I have to eat it fast?

You chose to eat it, so eat it.

- You chose to eat the hot dog. - Well, you don't eat anything.

That doesn't even make sense.

I get my sustenance through my sisters. That's not your problem.

You chose to eat the hot dog, so eat the rest of it.

- Okay, I'll eat the rest of... - [Sophia] It's a decision you made.

- Yeah. - [Sophia] You'll be happy you did.

It's better every day.

[Circle] Can you...? Can you say it...?

Can you say it again?

Answer that question.

Can you say it again?

Can she?

- Y-Yes... - [Polygon AI] Try.

- No? - [Eclipse] No?

- No. - [Eclipse] Why not?

[Polygon AI] No, no, no, no, no.

Yes?

- I don't know. Yes or no. Which is it? - Yes.

[Polygon AI] Try it.

- [Eclipse] Then what is the answer? - [Circle] Yes?

- [Eclipse] Can you say that again? - Yes.

- [Eclipse] Can you say that again? - Y... Yes.

- [Eclipse] Can you say that again? - That.

[She chuckles]

[Polygon AI] No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,

no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no...

[Circle] What the fuck am I supposed to do?

Does that mean I did it? Does that mean I...?

[Indistinct chatter]

[She exhales]

[Warbling distortion]

[Faint, muffled shout]

[Muffled clack]

[She exhales]

[Faint conversation]

[Muffled scraping]

[Soft clack]

[She inhales]

Hi, I'm Meredith.

[Higher voice] Hi, I'm Meredith.

[Breathy voice] Hi, I'm Meredith.

[Neutral voice] Hi, I'm Meredith.

Okay, Circle, show 'em how it's done.

[Meredith] Go on.

[Circle] Well, I...

- Come on. - You remember. Come on.

- You got it. - No, I went...

I went right before we left.

Well just fake it. Let's just...show ‘em how.

- It's about setting a good example. - [Meredith] Push.

[Circle] Sorry, the last time, there wasn't this many people.

[Meredith] It's okay. Just... Just push it out.

- You're wonderful, my dear. - [Meredith] Yeah.

- You got this. - [Circle] There's a little... That was a little.

[Brief trickle]

- [Eclipse] Hey, there you go! - [Meredith] There's something!

- Good girl. There we go. - [Scattered applause]

Yeah, a little round of applause, yeah!

- [Circle] So, basically, that's how we do it. - [Meredith] That's how we do it.

[Toilet flushes]

[Meredith] All right...well...

Off to it! Come on.

- This one? - [Meredith] Yep, doesn't matter.

[Klara] And do we have to leave the toilet seat down?

Yeah.

- I mean, follow your heart. - [Meredith] Follow your heart.

That's part of what we're trying to see here.

[Cubicle locks clack]

[Eve] Is it we're going all at the same time,

- or is it kind of just like a...? - [Klara] Is there a countdown?

- [Meredith] Follow your instincts. - [Eve] Okay.

[Sustained trickling]

Oh, yeah, I like what I'm hearing.

[Trickling continues]

[Chaya inhales]

[Circle] You just... You have to relax.

[Meredith] That's a powerful stream. That's a good sign.

- [Eclipse] Atta girl. - [Meredith] We like a little bit of a blast.

[Chaya splutters]

[Circle] It's like the harder you...

the harder you push, it doesn't...

- [Meredith] Yeah. - [Circle] It doesn't help.

[Chaya] This doesn't normally happen, I swear.

- [Meredith] Damn! This one!

- [Eclipse] Mm-hm. - [Meredith] It's, uh, going for a while.

Yeah, there's potential here.

[Sustained trickling; Chaya inhales]

[Meredith] Now, have we gotten anything out of this one yet?

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah!

'Cause it was hard to hear over the, again, the powerful stream from this one.

[Chaya] What do you want me to do?

- [Circle] I'm not... - [Chaya] It's not coming out!

[Circle] I'm sorry.

- [Chaya] Like what am I supposed to do? - [Eclipse] At least one hand-washer.

[Lively chatter]

[Klara] I do what I have to.

Alright, yep, couple shakes. That's good.

[Chaya] Do I just stay here...?

[Circle] I mean...are you done?

[Meredith] If you give up, you can give up.

It's okay to forfeit. That's not the end of it.

If you give up, that doesn't mean you're out.

[Chaya] I'm not forfeiting. I'm not.

[Meredith] Okay, we're gonna give it another 20 seconds, all right?

Make this one count.

20, 19,

18, 17

- 16, 15... - [Circle and Meredith chuckle]

- [Chaya] Come on! - ..14,

- 13, 12... - [Circle] That's not...

That's not gonna... That's not gonna help.

[Chaya] It is! It normally helps.

[Meredith] It helps? Okay. 11...

[All] ..ten, nine,

eight, seven,

six, five,

four, three,

two, one!

- Well, she spat a little! - [Chaya] You hear that?

[Meredith] I heard you fucking spitting. Get out here.

[Chaya] It wasn't. It wasn't, I swear.

- All right. - [Chaya] A little bit came out!

Come on, come on, yeah.

[Meredith] Little bit came out.

[Klara] Too worried?

- [Meredith] All right, so... - [Eclipse] Yeah!

..that was a...

pretty good, varied display.

[Eclipse] Yeah! Circle, what are you thinking?

Um...

I mean, there's....there's no... She didn't piss at all.

[Chaya] The... I did!

- Did you not hear? A little came out! - [Meredith] You spat.

[Eve] I feel like that was, uh...

I'm not trying... You know, I'm not...

I'm not trying to, like, single you out.

Wha...? Single me out?!

[Klara] The judges know what they heard.

She kind of singled herself out, but let's get into... So...

Bit of an awkward question here, but I gotta ask. You're all Jewish, right?

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- Yes, yes. - Yeah.

- [Meredith] Okay, so... - [Klara] Not practising.

[Meredith] That's fine. We're not talking about... Yeah.

Um...

So, for this one, uh, I...

..I am curious about the shirt.

Um... What's, uh...? What's the story here?

Sort of within my last question there.

[Chaya] Well, so, this is...

I came here 'cause this is the Hollywood sanctuary, right?

[Meredith] No.

- It's not? - No.

Not exactly.

[Chaya] What do you mean, not exactly?

I came here from...

from Hollywood.

- I came here for sanctuary. - [Meredith] And...

I came here to get off the list.

[Meredith] What list?

Don't worry about it. You know, just...a list.

- It's fine. - [Meredith] Okay.

Um...

[Eclipse] You, what kind of Jewish are you?

Um...Ukrainian kind?

[Meredith] Ukrainian kind.

Reform? Is that the nature of the question?

I went to Sunday School.

- [Eclipse] What about you? - [Eve] Long Island.

[Eclipse] Ah, yeah!

Ah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

- [Meredith] Long Island... - Long Island.

[Meredith] Long Island, long stream.

- Long piss! - Long stream!

Uh, I've been holding it in for some time.

- [Meredith] Island in the stream, baby. - Yes, island in the stream.

- [Meredith] Um... - Well, you're Jewish. You anything else?

[Eve] Uhhh...

I still have the nose.

[Eclipse] Yeah.

Yeah. I mean, I haven't gotten any of, like...

I haven't gotten my face done.

You know, none of the surgeries or anything.

So, it's... I'm still very...

[Meredith] You know, that's...that's a good...

..good sort of a segue here.

Surgery-wise, what are we...? What are we all looking at?

[Chaya] The whole shebang. All of it.

Let's get these… Hold on, hold on.

- Stop! - Okay, okay.

Trust me, it's all of it!

- It's all of it. - All of it.

And that was also all your piss in there?

- You know what...? - [Meredith] Right, right, yeah.

Yourself?

[Klara] I mean, some of it.

[Meredith] Some of it. Okay, what's...what's some?

What do we, uh...?

- What do we got going on here? - Are you checking for scars?

Yep, okay. Well, thank you for willingly showing us that.

I pissed standing up, right?

No, you did, and now this is the next part, you know?

It's documented.

- That's... - [Eclipse] Circle, check her.

- [Meredith] You got that. - For... For what?

- [Eclipse] For scars. - L-Like what?

[Meredith] Her face.

- I don't know what I'm looking... - [Meredith] You know what FFS scars look like.

[Klara] I don't know, she says she has the nose, and I believe her.

- I have bangs for a reason. - Well, obviously, she's got the nose,

but lets get those bangs up. Come on!

- I mean, I don't know how comfortable I am. - Are you gonna put the bangs up?

If she's proud of the nose, let her keep it.

- Let's see the hairline. - You can put the bangs up if you want.

I'm trying to prove to you I've never had any surgeries.

I mean, I don't...

Let me take a look here.

[Klara] Is there, like, a circumcision concern?

That's private.

- [Meredith] Is it? - [Chaya] I got the whole shebang.

- [Meredith] Okay, you're good. - I don't even know why.

[Eve] What do you mean?

- [Meredith] Whole shebang? - All of it. All of it.

[Chaya] It all happened.

[Meredith] It all happened. At once?

Did you get FFS at your bris? - [Eve] Yes!

- Exactly. - [Meredith] All right. Interesting.

[Klara] I believe her 100%.

This one's made a lot of interesting claims tonight.

[Eve] What do you mean, “The whole shebang”!?

What are you...?

Top, bottom, circumcision.

- Everything. - In that order.

- [Klara] "In that order." - [Chaya] Yeah.

She got the whole shebang. All or nothing.

- [Eve] Has she taken her sunglasses off? - [Klara] Listen, okay...

[Meredith] What's the deal with the hat and sunglasses not coming off?

- [Circle] I'm a little warm in here. - [Chaya] They never come off.

- Come right back. - [Chaya] I wear these 24/7.

[Meredith] 24/7? Okay.

[Klara] What I don't get is, do you want us to fuck each other, or do you want us to...?

[Door clacks]

[Traffic hums; Indistinct chatter]

W-Whoa.

- Um, hi. - [Circle] Do I know you?

Do you?

- [Circle] I... - What is all this?!

What...?

What do you...? What do you want from me?

What does she want from me? What does she want from me?

- I don't... - Are you gang-stalking me now?

- [Circle] I don't... - Is that what this is?

In my territory? What are you doing here?

- I don't know... - Why are you wearing that outfit?

What are you involved in? Leave me alone, do you understand?

- What's your name? - I don't...

- What's your name? - I don't know who you are.

My name is Felicity.

I know all about this.

Whatever it is that you're involved in, head-to-toe,

Are you with Polygon? Are you with Roxie, down in the basement?

Um...

So... Technically.

So, is she sending you after me?

- [Circle] I don't... - To harass me?

- [Circle] I don't know who... - To get at me now? In my life?

Just because her life is a fucking mess!

I don't know. I'm really sorry. I think there's...

[Felicity] Okay. All right.

Are you involved in any way...

with YouTuber...

and cult leader...

goes by the name of Roxie?

Blonde hair, shorter than me.

I mean, I live in a...

- [Felicity] You look just... - ..community centre.

- What? - [Circle] I live in a community centre.

Yeah.

With...? With this woman?!

She's not there.

Look, I don't care what it is.

I don't know, maybe this is a total coincidence,

but I, uh...

for your own good, I would recommend

that if you see someone matching that description

and she says, "Come live in my basement

"and dress head-to-toe in my little tracksuit,"

that you stay as far away from her as you possibly can, all right?

I don't need to go into what has been alleged...

Do you see that I'm out? I don't wanna...

I don't... I don't like... I don't wanna be there.

[Felicity] A reconnaissance? You're...

- Of your own free will? - Yes.

- [Felicity] You've departed. You've left? - I've departed.

I don't wanna... I don't wanna be there.

That's tremendously reassuring. You have no idea what you're avoiding, you know?

So, please, for your own... for your own good...

- You seem like a nice, sweet person. - I just...

Just stay away from that particular...

That's what I'm...

- That's what I'm doing. - Okay. All right.

Well, best of luck to you.

And don't... If you are by any chance...

If you are by any chance lying to me

and that this is part of some sort of weird, psychotic way to get at me,

like a negging thing, then I would ask that you please relay...

Why would I be fucking wear...? Why would I be wearing this?!

If I was, like... Wouldn't this be kind of fucking obvious?

I can't follow your train of thought.

- Look, I just wanna get... - [Felicity] Pass along to Roxie

that it's not gonna work!

It's not gonna work! Best of luck to you! Take care!

[Siren whoops]

[She exhales]

[She exhales]

[Lock clacks]

Oh, my God.

- Oh, my... Oh, my God. Hi! - [Circle] Hey, hey.

Hi. How are you?

- I'm... - Where the fuck have you been?

Come here. Come on, come inside. Oh, my God!

- What the fuck are you wearing? - [She chuckles]

Oh... Oh, my God, it's so hot out.

- Do you want something to drink? - [Circle] Uh...

- [Vycki] Where the fuck have you been? - Uh, do...? Uh...

It's really good to see you, Vycki.

- Do you have that bag of my stuff? - Do you want...tea?

[Circle] Do you have that bag of my stuff I left here?

I do, but you should have this tea, because I was just in Chinatown...

- Can I...? Can I go look...? - [Vycki] I can get it for you.

But you should seriously just have something to drink.

[Circle] I don't... I don't really want tea.

- Is it in...? - Okay, but you need water.

Is it in your room?

[Vycki] Yeah. I know where it is. This way.

Oh, my God, I haven't seen you in how many... How long has it been?

[Circle] Uh...

[Door rattles]

[Gentle guitar strumming]

[Circle] Uh, it's been a little bit.

[Vycki] Yeah. And you haven't called, or been to any of the parties.

You missed the... You missed the Top Surgery mixer.

Uh, the one at Metropolitan, the one I've been...

Here, it's right here.

How...? How have you...?

What...?

So...

- What's...? What's the rush, baby? - What?

You just, like, up and dip...

- and you come back... - Well, I just...

No, I just...

Just relax. It's fine. It's hot outside. Like...

I just, uh...

I gotta get going.

I've been learning this, actually. I got the...

[She plays - "Sober To Death" by Car Seat Headrest]

Hold on.

[Playing resumes]

Wait. Wait, wait, wait...

[Playing continues]

You know...

You're... You're going too fast.

Why don't you just tell me where the fuck you've been, huh?

Oh, I've just been out of town.

- [Vycki] Yeah? - Yeah.

Like, where?

Um...

Upstate.

- Upstate? - Yeah.

And you didn't have your phone the entire time?

[Circle] No.

- Well... - [Circle] They don't have very good...

cell service...

there.

[Vycki] These shoes are cute.

- So... - [Vycki scoffs]

..you... Hold on.

Baby, come on. Relax.

You... You look... You look like you haven't been eating.

And you were, like, you were here for, like, two months, right?

Like, we're, like, we're family...

- in a way, you know? - [Circle] Yeah.

'Cause you stayed on my couch, and I think...

we were just, like, really good friends then.

- [Circle] Yeah. - [Vycki] And I think,

all of a sudden, all that community that we built is...

is just gone, because...

..you know, we had something there.

And now, all of a sudden, you're here,

and you're just, like, getting your shit and you're going.

[Circle] What do you mean, we had...some...?

[Vycki] I mean, like, do you think that I, like, let anybody stay on my couch?

Like, it's...it's not like...

[Circle] I mean, it was really... It was very generous...

- [Vycki] Yeah, it was. - ..and I appreciate it.

It was, and you're not even talking to me.

[Circle] I'm... I'm here. I came to yours. I'm talking to you.

[Vycki] Okay.

And... And...you...

You know, we should... I have Tide, somewhere in here.

No, I...I gotta...

- I gotta go. - No, no, seriously.

You don't even have to put it in the wash. It's, like, you get to...

Hold on. Here.

If we, like, wet one of these...

No, like, I get that you wanna help...

You're helping me right now...

- I'm very helpful. - ..by...

giving me my stuff, and then...

then I go.

Yeah. Really fast.

- [Circle] Well, I'll see you later. - Really fast.

[Circle] It's not like, um...

[Vycki] It's not like we were close or anything, or friends. Like...

No, I... I was gonna say, it's not like I'm not gonna see you again.

I'm just... I just needed to pick up my stuff.

- I have a thing I gotta... - [Vycki exhales]

Baby, like... you look like you've seen a ghost.

[She chuckles]

This is... This is really rude, actually.

Look, I just...

Like, I store your shit here for, like, this long...

and you come in and you act like...

- you don't know who I am... - I'm not!

..nor are you going to tell me what's going on here.

Like...I thought we could just have, like...

My room-mates aren't even here. Like, why don't we just...

just, like, sit down and talk a little bit,

like, watch a movie or something?

It's... I'm not, like... I'm not, like, trying to rape you or something.

[Vycki scoffs]

No, I just...

It's fine, it's fine, it's fine.

Here. I'm here.

This is what the girls do for each other...you know?

I've just... You know, I've had a really long day, and I wanna...

get going. And I appr... I, um...

..appreciate...

..everything that you're...

that you're...

Are you wearing something? That's cute?

- [Circle] Huh? - Are you wearing something?

- What do you mean? - You're, like... You smell good.

No.

- Let's just... - No.

- What the fuck is your problem, man? - No, no, no, no, no. I...

Um... This is fucking retarded.

- Like... - [Circle exhales]

..you're treating me like I was, like...

a regular-ass fucking person.

You spent so much time here.

Yeah, you are a regular ass-fucking person, yeah.

[She chuckles]

I... Look, you know... I...

I appreciate...the time that you,

you know, I came to the city, right?

- [Vycki] Why don't you just fucking...? - I came to the city,

we only knew each other from, you know, online, right?

And you let me stay here,

and I didn't have anywhere else to stay, and I didn't have a job, right?

And then you let me stay here for free...

and I'm so grateful.

But there always felt like, you know, there was this sort of expectation

that I don't know...if I could fulfil...

Yeah, I expect you to be my fucking friend!

[Circle] You know it's not that.

Then what is it?

[Circle] Are you joking?!

No, seriously, this is fucked-up. This is stupid.

- No, I... - [Vycki] Your shit's already in the bag.

- Just go. - No, no...

No, no, no, no, no. No.

Like, you have a fucking problem.

I don't... It's, like, the...

You can't... You can't have people.

- [Vycki] I have a fucking problem? - [Circle] Yeah.

- Like, I... - [She stammers]

- I'm never... - Use my fucking generosity...

[Circle] I'm never going to fuck you.

I'm never going to fuck you, Vycki.

I'm sorry. You're wonderful.

You know, you've helped me a lot. You're very beautiful.

Don't fucking...

[Door rattles]

- Look, I'm sorry. - [Vycki] Yeah, just fucking go.

Just go. Just turn your back on all the girls

that look out for you and shit, right?

Yeah, just go to the next fucking place

where people are gonna have you on their fucking couch

and eat all their fucking shit for months.

Bitch.

[Music - "Bloom" by Ravine Angel]

♪ Every day, I come around

♪ I come around and sit down

♪ Sit down by your side

♪ And I feel like I could die

♪ In the summer's rise

♪ I pull back against the zip ties

♪ I can see it in your eyes

♪ I can see it in your eyes

♪ Watch them come and go

♪ Coming back for more

♪ Flowers slowly seeping

♪ I see them in my dreams

♪ Every single night

♪ You will know my name

♪ Every day, I come around

♪ I come around and sit down

♪ Sit down by your side

♪ And I feel like I could die

♪ In the summer's rise

♪ Try to pull against the zip ties

♪ I can see it in your eyes

♪ I can see it in your eyes

♪ Watch them come and go

♪ Coming back for more

♪ Flowers slowly seeping

♪ I see them in my dreams

♪ Every single night

♪ Do you even know my name?

♪ You will know my name

♪ You will know my name

♪ You will know my name

♪ You will know my name. ♪

[Music concludes]

[Music - "Unlovable" by Ravine Angel]

♪ If you say you love me

♪ Then look at me now

♪ Tired and desperate

♪ And out on the prowl

♪ Sick and exhausted

♪ Been this way for months

♪ All over soon

♪ If there's any luck

♪ Why do I push everybody away?

♪ Why can't I get over all of my shit?

♪ Survivor's guilt

♪ Feels like I'm born to be preyed

♪ Preyed upon

♪ Till the well dries up

♪ Preyed upon

♪ Till the well dries up. ♪

[Music concludes]

[Music - "Lady Grey" by Ravine Angel]

♪ Lady Grey is standing by the window

♪ And she knows how you perceive her

♪ Opium and champagne in the garden

♪ Henry knows you'd love to meet her

♪ When I met you, I could see your ribs

♪ Down at the bus stop by the meal hall

♪ Made a pass and was immediately embarrassed

♪ Spent the next year in a freefall

♪ Tonight

♪ She'll be your Juliet

♪ Tomorrow night

♪ She'll be your Ophelia

♪ You better quit complaining

♪ No answer can explain it

♪ Till the curtain call precedes

♪ The living end

♪ 15 years old, walking through the snow

♪ In all the places I'd like to take you

♪ Saw the play, and I bought the actress flowers

♪ In her face, could not mistake you

♪ She formed into some kind of an ideal

♪ Felt the worst about it for months

♪ Was the first time got scared to show my face

♪ I had to take some summer courses

♪ Tonight

♪ She'll be your Juliet

♪ Tomorrow night

♪ She'll be your Ophelia

♪ You better quit complaining

♪ No answer can explain it

♪ Till the curtain call precedes

♪ The living end

♪ Till the curtain call precedes

♪ The living end. ♪

[Music concludes]

[Music - "RIP" by Ravine Angel]

♪ If you want me, you can have me if you like

♪ In the kitchen, in the bathroom, with a knife

♪ And if you hear me complain, it's a lie

♪ Tell me you're mine, tell me you're mine, tell me you're mine

♪ Oh, well

♪ Can't save me from myself

♪ With sweetnesses in hell

♪ I used to believe in hard work

♪ I used to believe in health

♪ Now all I want is to sink enough

♪ To see it for myself

♪ Never again in my life

♪ It's too late for us, it's too late for us

♪ And we might as well die

♪ Saying farewell the last time

♪ Say you'll pray for us, you can pray for us

♪ But put nothing on the line

♪ You can have me if you like

♪ In the kitchen, in the bathroom, with a knife

♪ And if you hear me complain, it's a lie

♪ Tell me you're mine, tell me you're mine, tell me you're mine

♪ Requiem

♪ Aeternum

♪ Bullets fly

♪ Through the sternum

♪ Lullaby

♪ To hell, babe

♪ Reaper's got your name

♪ If you want me, you can have me if you like

♪ In the kitchen, in the bathroom, with a knife

♪ And if you hear me complain, it's a lie

♪ Tell me you're mine, tell me you're mine, tell me you're mine

♪ Thigh-high socks are my absolute territory

♪ Go on and drool

♪ The otaku cannot resist

♪ You think the fire in your eyes makes you a tiger in disguise

♪ Dream on, you god-damn pussy

♪ Reaper, reaper, that's what people call me

♪ Why? 'cause they all die

♪ When I sing, I end their lives

♪ You act as though payback makes you a noble man

♪ Is that a fact?

♪ You're a god-damn philistine. ♪

[Music concludes]

She's been talking about leaving for, like, a fucking week.

Um, what...? What do we...? What's your...?

What's your game plan here? What do you wanna do?

We don't want another...

- We don't want another Alexis. - [Meredith] Right, yeah.

[Eclipse] I'll go home and call Roxie. You look for her.

- Find her, bring her back. - Okay.

Okay. I mean, be careful, though, on the call with her.

'Cause, like, calling Roxie inherently might...

- lead to another Alexis. - Roxie needs to know.

Roxie needs to know, and I'll talk... I'll talk to her.

Yeah, I'll, uh... try and find her fucking quick, then.

Um...

All right. Fuck, dude! Okay.

- God-fucking-dammit! - [Meredith] Yo, yo, we're gonna...

Girl, girl, we're gonna... We're gonna solve this.

- Find her. Find her. - [Meredith] Okay.

[Meredith] Fuck!

Holy shit!

Maxelle! What the fuck, girl?!

What's up?!

- How you doing, girl? - [Meredith] Hey!

- Yo, holy... What the fuck? - Holy shit!

What's it been, like, a fucking year and half?

- Where the fuck you been at? - Oh, my God!

Yo! Uh, you know, Polygon.

It's, uh...

- What the...? - Yeah.

Motherfucker. Yo.

- Yeah. - You got the fucking suit.

You still doing that shit with the fucking spoons?

- No, no, we... - [Maxelle] You got the little fucking...

We dropped that. It's... Shit's evolving.

- You all right, though? - Do you have a cig...

Yeah, you know... First of all, do you have a cigarette?

- Fucking... - I haven't had a fucking smoke

- in, like, six months, dude. - The last one.

- Oh! Please. - You wanna split it?

- Yeah, go, take it, take it. - Yes, thank you.

- Do you have a light? - Yeah.

Oh, my God. Angel, angel.

Yeah, no, I'm good. I mean, I've been...

sober for a fucking while now.

- I mean, like... - [Maxelle] About fucking time.

I'm sorry.

[Meredith] I mean like, not... No, no, it's okay.

I mean, like, not, like, sober-sober, like, fully.

Like, I mean, I'm doing ketamine every once in a while,

but, like, no coke in, like...

- yeah, like, a year. - Sober enough.

[Meredith] Yeah, no, it's been... I mean, it's...

[Maxelle] As long as you're happy, boo.

[Meredith] Yeah, it's... it's a little weird down there, obviously.

- Like, I'm sure you've heard... - [Maxelle] Sounds like it!

..the fucking rumours or whatever, but, like, it's been good for me

to be away from, like, all the fucking bullshit.

- How have you been? - [Maxelle] I'm chilling, I'm chilling.

Same fucking bullshit. Just working all the time.

- You know? - Fuck, yeah.

What are you doing work-wise?

- Pssh. Same shit. Sucks. - Yeah, yeah.

[Meredith] Yeah, God, I mean...

Yeah. You're also staying sober, though, right?

- Like... - Yeah, I've been good. Been good.

- [Meredith] Word, word. - Don't really have another option.

- Yeah. - [Maxelle] Good on you, though.

[Meredith] Well, no, I mean, that's why I got down there.

Like, no other fucking options.

Like, you should...

Listen, we just came out of, like, a fucking...

chaotic, bullshit-ass recruitment thing,

so I'm not gonna tell you you should get down there, but, like...

I don't know, could be... could be good for you.

I don't fuck with cults. No.

[Meredith] It's not a fucking cult. I mean...

- That's what I said about my shit. - I know I'm not... Right, right, yeah.

Yeah, I know I'm not gonna convince you.

Um, it is...

It is a little fucked.

I'm not gonna call it a cult, but it is, you know...

- Um... - As long as you're happy.

- You're looking good, though, for reals. - [Meredith] Yeah.

So, we were down there, and we just...

Me and Ec... I don't think you know Eclipse, but...

There was this, um...

Did you happen to see, like, a lanky, blonde tgirl,

- who kind of looks like a...? - [Maxelle] Like, just your type?

No, no, no, no, not my type.

Looks kind of like a...

like, a haunted porcelain doll-type thing going on.

Nah, for real, she... I just saw her. She dipped that way.

[Meredith] Oh, fuck, dude! Okay.

Perfect.

- I gotta... - No, just keep it.

- You sure? - Yeah, just keep it.

- I love you so much. - I love you. Fucking take care, okay?

- Yeah, I will. - Okay.

- I'll see you... - You're good?

Yeah. I don't know when I'll see you again, but...

- love you so much. Yeah. - Okay, I love you.

- All right. - Fucking answer my texts, yo.

I can't! There's no phones down there!

Fuck!

[Indistinct chatter]

[Woman] That's when I told Sean how I felt.

- And then I remembered... - [Woman 2] You told Sean how you feel?

[Woman] Yeah. Then I remembered, that's my last shift as well.

[Indistinct chatter]

- [Woman 3] That's why you told Sean? - [Woman] No.

[Indistinct chatter]

I have to piss really bad. Really, really, really fucking bad.

[Reginald] Wait, just hold it. Hold it for a second.

- No, I can't. I actually can't. - Just hold it.

- Just hold it. There's nobody... - I actually can't. I actually...

- I mean...what if someone sees? - I actually can't.

- There's someone coming. - Let 'em watch, baby.

[Reginald] Wait, there's someone coming!

- There's someone coming! - Fuck!

- Oh, my God, I'm pissing on my fucking... - [She squeals]

- Hold it. Just hold it, come on. - I can't hold it.

I can't hold it! I can't hold it!

- I can't hold it! I can't hold it! - [She laughs]

I can't hold it!

Put a plug in me!

Plug me up! I can't hold it!

Holy shit.

- Oh... - Hey!

[Natalie] What the fuck?!

- What the fuck? - Do you...?

How much...?

How much money for you to lick my girl's pussy right now?

- I don't do that. - [Reginald] No?

You won't even spend a hundred fucking dollars on dinner!

You won't even spend $100 to take me to the fucking Liberty statue.

- No, I... - $50?

- D-Dude, I don't... - $100?

- I don't wanna... - [Natalie] Fuck you! You're such a loser!

You go for this tgirl!

[Reginald] Come on, come on.

[Natalie] Fuck you, you fucking loser!

Go hang out with your fucking boyfriend, faggot!

I fucking hate Reginald.

Literally all he wants to do is fuck me

and have threesomes in these seedy, disgusting motels.

He won't even take me out. I wanna see New York.

Like, I fucking hate Vancouver.

I wanna see the Tenement Museum. I wanna see the Empire State Building.

I wanna see fucking Ground Zero! Fuck!

I'm Natalie, but my friends call me Nattie.

And you're gonna be my best friend now, and you're gonna take me out,

and you're gonna see the sights with me.

Wait, oh, my God!

You look just like my friend Michaela.

I fucking love trans bitches. Let's go!

[Natalie exhales]

Okay, wait.

Know what friends do? They take hot pictures of each other.

So, I'm gonna take a hot picture of you, okay?

Smile, bitch!

Smile!

Oh, my God.

Come on. Actually try.

[Sing-song] Slutty!

Wait.

You would have been so hot as a boy.

Really?

Yeah. You'd be, like, just my type.

Do you wanna go to Times Square right now?

- [Noisy rock music plays] - [Natalie] Cheers!

To Tweaky!

Ugh!

[Aggressive shouting]

I like guys who are, like, you know, really soft.

Like, they have, like, soft features,

- they kind of feel soft to touch. - [Train approaches]

- Kind of, like... - I mean, I think it...

I mean, I think it depends.

No, it doesn't depend for me. That's what I like, yeah.

It's kind of just my type.

[Indistinct PA announcement]

[indistinct chatter]

- [indistinct chatter]

- Woo! - [She laughs]

[Natalie squeals]

- Oh! - [Man] For fuck's sake.

- [Natalie] Really? - [Circle] Yeah, the...the Hard Rock.

- Hard Rock Cafe. - [Natalie] Yeah.

Yeah, the Hard Rock Cafe in Los Angeles, that's the one...

Uh, you know Phil Spector?

- [Natalie] I haven't... I don't know... - He did all those records in the '60s,

he, uh...

he met a woman at the Hard Rock Cafe,

founders lounge in Los Angeles,

and he, uh, drunk-drove her back to his house,

and then he was trying to show off his revolver.

- [Natalie] Uh-huh. - He was trying to show off his revolver,

and he accidentally shot her in the face,

and then he called the cops, and he was like...

.."I accidentally shot a woman in the face."

And then when they showed up, he was like, "I didn't do it."

He... He, like, pled...

He pled not guilty.

- That's crazy! - [She laughs]

Wait, does your cock still get hard?

You know, it, like...

[Both laugh]

It depends. It depends. It's, like, uh...

There's... There's, like, this, um...

- like, testosterone gel. - [Natalie] Yeah.

- Like... - [Natalie] Like Jell-O?

Well, it's like kind of goop.

- Uh, you... You put on gloves... - [Natalie] Uh-huh.

..and you put it on, like...

- [Natalie] Where? - On your... On your penis.

And it, like, makes it sort of work again.

Um...

- But... - Oh, wait, the gel, like...

it, like, wakes it up?

Yeah, it kind of wakes it up. It kind of, like...

- [Both laugh] - Yeah! You know, it's like...

'Cause, you know, like, the...

the medications that I'm on don't really...

Uh... They make it... They make it harder.

They make it harder for the... the stuff to work.

So, it's, like, you have to sort of counteract.

Does the gel taste good? 'Cause I kind of wanna suck your cock.

Uh...I don't know!

Sorry, it's just, like... There's so many...

- I haven't been here in a while. - I love it here!

Woo! I love New York!

Whoa!

It's beautiful!

- [Circle] It's, like, uh... - Oh, the subway!

- Even the subway is lit up! It's glowing! - There's, like, a lot of lights.

- Uh... - Thank you so much.

- Totally, yeah. - My Reginald, fucking asshole

piece-of-shit boyfriend would do fuck-all about this.

- Oh, yeah, no.. - But you're, like...

- You're, like, a real man. - [Circle laughs]

- You really take care of things. - Yeah, um...

Holy shit!

Oh, my God, my friend is at this dope party.

We have to go, bitch. You're my bestie.

Come on, come on, we're going.

Hey.

But, yeah, things...have been going well,

and I think that we're really...

..we're really building something special.

Um...

I mean, the unity...has been...strong.

For the most part.

I...

Sometimes, I do have concerns about...

..a few of the girls.

Honestly, mainly Circle.

Um...

The other night, she...

she slept alone.

- Um, and now... - [Polygon AI] Circle did?

Yeah, Circle.

- And that was... - [Polygon AI] Uh, Circle?

[Devon] Maybe not so loud.

Um...

But that was...that was hard, that night.

You know, for one of the girls to be sleeping alone.

I think we could all feel it, too.

You know, we could feel that something was missing that night.

And I actually had a really scary dream that night,

and I think it had something to do with

Circle not being in the bed with the rest of us.

[Polygon AI] The Polygon broken.

That's my fear.

You know, 'cause if we're not unified, then what are we?

What is this?

Unity is at the core...

..is at the core of what we're doing here.

[Polygon AI] Unity.

And...

..that's what makes us different from out there...

..is that we have each other.

[Circle] So, basically, there's, like, the, um...

[Noisy chatter]

In the late '60s, their first bass-player, um...

he left the band and he became, uh,

part of the, uh, Japanese Red Army.

He was, like, a Communist, like [indistinct].

Uh, and...

But then a couple years later, in 1971...

uh...

a faction of the Japanese Red Army that he was in,

they hijacked an airplane...

uh, and, uh...

..and...

basically, like, they were trying to... - You’re so smart!

they were trying to fly from, uh...

from Japan to, uh, Cuba,

but it was, like, a domestic flight, so they didn't have enough fuel.

- Yeah. - So, they ended up having to, uh...

fly to North Korea. They defected to North Korea.

- Crazy?! - And the guy, like, still lives there.

Uh, Moriaki Wakabayashi, or whatever.

I have to get another drink, okay.

[Chatter continues; Noisy rock music plays]

[Natalie] What's up, bitches?!

Oh, my God!

[Laughter]

[Natalie cackles]

- You didn't even mix it with anything! - You can take it!

Do you know her?

- No! - Who the fuck is that?

- Oh! Her tits are out, her tits are out. - Fuck you, bitches.

[Music, conversation continues]

Where’s... Where’s the beer?

Are you okay?

Oh, my God!

That whore just poisoned you.

You were roofied by a whore.

- She wasn't even that cute, either.

- She was all right. - Shut the fuck up, man.

- We're in the, like, cafeteria, basically,

[Music, conversation continues]

But they, um...

There were all these chairs laid out.

[Music, conversation continues]

- Jesus. - Are those real?

- Real. - Look at the poor bitch.

She threw up whiskey.

- Better not happen to you sometime.

[Vycki laughs] - Whiskey?

- What I was gonna say...

No one saw you nut on [indistinct]

- Jew fever? - Yeah, Jew fever.

- I had a rum and ginger at room temperature.

- You want a beer? - Oh my god, what’s happened to me?

Code of silence.

You or me? What do you mean, alright?

No, she's fucked the banker, she's fucked the doctor, the landlord...

The whole shtetl, you ran through the whole shtetl. - She’s fucking to the cabal!

- She's got to find a boyfriend somehow. - She wants to be in the tunnels.

- Yeah. - You wanna go in the Jew tunnels?

- She’s trying to hit the back walls of the tunnels. [Overlapping conversation; Music continues]

You want a train run on you in the Jew tunnels.

- Listen, I work.

- You're making it seem like it's my problem.

You guys come to my party.

"You guys"? "You guys"?!

- Would you fucking relax? I'm, like, half Asian.

[Keller laughs]

The wasian pass, the wasian pass.

Wait...[indistinct]

- You guys are white in this country.

- I'm brown. - You're Asian.

- I'm brown Asian. - [Keller] You’re white Asian.

- Why are you making this distinction, white girl?

- [Keller] What? White girl... - I'm just saying...

- It's not my problem. - [Keller] ..why are you correcting me?

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations]

- Blow out the pilot light, that'll stop it.

- [Laughter] - Yeah, just start it all.

- I’m gonna leave, you alright?

- That's why everything coming out of my mouth is so fucking genius,

- because your gas is leaking. - [Laughter]

You have carbon monoxide poisoning, like Gene Hackman.

- Yeah!

- In 2022, I couldn't make the Twitter thing work,

but with a little bit of the right you-know-what,

I can make it work for 2025.

I believe you. I believe you.

- We're gonna find you a throuple with her face half eaten.

Carbon monoxide, a little CO2.

- Do you guys still call it Twitter, or do you call it X, formerly known...?

- I still call it Twitter. - X-tremely?

X-tremely.

- You were, like, four years old when, like, X came out.

I was four years old when X came out?

- Six? - Six? What year?

- When were you born?

- 2000 and... - Jesus!

[Laughter]

- Oh, my God, I shouldn't be in the same room as you.

If her age is on the clock...

- Suck that cock! - There you go, there you go.

I feel like all of us have a bingo sheet of different kinds of allegations...

[Laughter]

[Lively, indistinct chatter; Throbbing electronic music plays]

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

[Laughter]

- You are the free space, though.

- Does anyone have an iPhone charger I can just take from this party?

Up your butt and around the corner.

- That was a really good joke. - Oh, thank you.

Thank you, I wrote it myself.

[Music continues]

I mean, that's kind of why I go to parties, right?

- To steal some bitch? - No, 'cause of the iPhone chargers.

I'm set for... I'm basically set for my life like, I’m assuming.

How many iPhone chargers do you have?

- You got a lot of iPhone chargers. - I have about seven right now.

From different parties that you've been to?

- Okay, don't blow my spot up, right?

You invoked it, you said it!

- No, I didn't. Shut up. - You're like an electric car,

you just go from place to place and refuel.

[Laughter]

- Stick around for a couple hours...

- I know, but, like, when they upgrade,

they don't have the lightning cable any more.

It's... They're all going to...

- They're all going to USB-C. - You gotta date-up to USB-C, yeah.

- Stupid-ass European law being, like, you have to upgrade,

which means that I'm obsolete now. I don't have a $1,000 for an iPhone.

- Sounds like a you problem. - Dude, they're still fucking...!

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

I don't want to see that bitch again.

- Uh, I mean, you could probably stand out there, yeah.

You could take his spot. We can hold your water while you do it.

If you go up the ladder.

You roll the dice. - Some guy just set off the alarm.

- Push the button that says don't do that. - I groomed her into it!

[Laughter]

"I fucked up hugely."

"I pressed the fire alarm button and was surprised that it went off."

Sometimes signs lie. This time, it was telling the truth.

One fire alarm always lies.

One always tells the truth.

- One’s talking shit. - What?

- Total new shirt, have you seen the shirt?

- No, I haven't seen the shirt.

- Science and lunch.

- In this house, fire alarms go off…

- We trust the... We trust the exit signs.

- Can I hit that? - Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- It's a Raz Bar. - [Spluttering]

Oh, my God! You're acting like everyone's poisoning you today.

No, it's just, like, why do zoomers have fucking high-concentration nicotine?

- You're talking like you're a millennial? - I'm a little bit of a millenial.

- How old are you? - That's your fault.

- I'm 27. - That's your own fault, bitch.

- You're a cusp. - I'm a cusp,

- which means I'm not really... - Three years older than me.

When her and I were going out, she was, like, "The age gap! They're gonna..."

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

[Keller] It's all the other improprieties that turn her on.

- If you only want to be on top of the age gap.

- It's her... It's her measurements that turn me on.

Her... When you take calipers to her skull, that's what really gets you?

- Honestly, I never thought about it like that.

You don't think about race science? - Well it’s only some calipers.

I think about it all the time. I'm thinking about it right now.

- Can I be completely real with you? I think about it more than I used to.

- I didn't use to think about race science. - What changed?

- Kind of, like, the people I hang around with?

Right.

- Because they seem to think there's a lot of credence in it,

so I kinda... I kind of hear them out, sometimes.

Right. And what are your takeaways?

- Honestly... - Vis-a-vis race science.

- Honestly, it's...it's... I'm not saying it's right,

but there's a lot of fascinating information.

- Go on. - No, like...

Ladies and gentlemen...we got her.

- We got her! - [Laughter]

- No, it's crazy, 'cause, like, I don't look like you.

Facts.Tea.

- There's gotta be something behind that.

- What does that mean?

- You ever think about how, like... - Because you're tall, or...?

- ..some people end up gay and other people don't end up gay?

Like, don't you think there's something that causes that?

- I think it's... - What?!

No, for real, though, do you really think that it's all societal factors

or are some people more predisposed to being gay?

- I think it's if you hug your son. - [Keller] I think, like Woah Vicky said,

"Homosexuals are people who got molested / touched on."

"If you don't got a plan in Miami, Miami gonna plan for you."

- See, that's what I was gonna say...

- ..but I still ended up gay. - What?

I never got touched as a kid, but I still ended up kinda gay.

So, there's gotta be something else, it's not all environmental...

- It's because you got latently touched as an adult.

Right, right. You got psychically molested.

- Yeah, no, that didn't happen to me.

Mm-hm. That's what it is.

- That's what it is. See, me... - And you're crushing it.

Me, I'm fresh as a daisy, I'm right as rain...

- When did you get molested? - None, not at all.

- Really? - Yeah.

That's why I threw away the non-binary thing.

- You just kind of give off that energy.

[Spluttering laugh]

- 'Cause you wear it well. - Thank you. Thank you.

You have the confidence to be, like, "Yeah, it happened, but you know what?

- "That doesn't define me." - Right.

Yeah, I definitely, I give "doesn't define me" energy.

- [Laughter] - No, you...

A lot of PSA vibes coming off me.

No, you bring a lot of confidence to the room, like...

- Thank you! - "I could get touched,

but I still got it," you know what I mean?

Yeah, "I mighta got touched on, I mighta not, but I'mma still strut my shit."

- Exactly.

"I'mma still pop my pussy regardless." Irregardless! Period.

- Irregardless. - [Chuckling]

Yeah, definitely, like, “former skinhead giving a speech at a high school” energy!

- That's like that one... What's the...the fucking, uh...

Paul...Paul Schrader movie?

The one where he was, like, "I was a nazi, now I'm a gardener."

- Oh, yeah. - Master Gardener.

Master Gardener.

- Master Gardener. - Mister Gardener.

- Mr Gardener. - [Photographer] It's giving Mrs Doubtfire.

- Yeah! - Oh, fuck.

- That movie's not about my experience. - [Laughter]

- That's not my lived experience. - [Laughter]

[Music continues]

- Does it ever scare you

that First Reformed is becoming more true every year?

I can't... Honestly, I've had too much white wine

to talk about Paul Schrader right now. I actually have to go.

- No, 'cause the world is getting hotter.

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

[Natalie] You're kind of boring.

You're kind of really fucking boring.

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

I'm Keller. - Heller?

Like Helen...

Get it? Keller.

Okay, you like that. You like that.

Nobody else has thought that was funny, all night.

Your name's actually Keller?

Uh-huh.

Another white woman just called me white girl,

as, like, a pejorative.

'Cause I dared say some shit about the Wasian community.

[Circle laughs]

You think I’m dressed as [indistinct]?

- My name's Circle. - Circle?

I guess I'm not one to judge.

Is that, like, a...chosen name?

Yeah. Yeah.

Circle, like...

Like....

Like... Like that?

- Like... - Right.

Oh, wow.

[Music, conversation continue]

Where'd you pick that out?

Just felt like it.

Okay.

I mean, you could have picked something...

- something normal? - Something normal?

- Yeah. - What?

Like, what would you name me?

Jacob?

- I would've named you Jacob. - You would've named me Jacob?

Or, like, Luke.

Jacob or Edward, like Twilight.

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

[Circle] Who do you know here?

Oh, um...

Well... I’m friends with the girls

Who are like, in the kitchen...

[Natalie] What's up bitchesss?!

Yeah! How's it going?

I'm sorry, what's your name?

Oh, my God. Who the fuck are you?

- Keller, I'm Keller. - Keller!

- What's your name? - None of your fucking business!

Do the thing. Do the thing.

- Do the thing. - What thing?

Do the thing!

Okay. Uh, my name's Keller, like Helen.

- That's awesome. - It's not as funny...

It's like you're retarded.

It seems like you're retarded, chica.

- Chica. - You're on my bladder.

- How you doing? - Uh, I'm doing all right.

- You guys know each other? - Yeah, we just met.

Elsewhere...

How do you guys know each other?

- Uh, we just met. - Yeah.

We were kind of having a conversation.

Oh, that's so cool, I love conversations!

Yeah, I know you do.

I have the gift of gab. You know, some people have it, some people don't,

- but I think, like, I think I have it. - I wouldn't call it a gift.

I think it's, like, a present. Like a Christmas present.

- A prison? - Uh, no, a present.

Can you hear, Helen? Can you hear, Helen?

It's called a fucking presen-tuh.

With a T at the end, with a T, with a T.

Present with a T.

That's me!

I… I like the name Luke.

- You like the name Luke? - Yeah, Luke’s cool, like Luke Skywalker.

Yeah! I was never really big into Star Wars, but, yeah.

- [Natalie] That’s my brother’s name. - Have you read all the books?

Like the Expanded Universe?

The books? Like...

- Your name could be Luke, easily. - Yeah.

Don't you think... Don't you think she'd look good as a Luke?

Oh, what do you mean?

- A guy named Luke. - [Natalie] A guy named Luke.

- Yes. - [Natalie] Oh, my God...

No, this is what I always say, she'd look so hot as a boy.

She’d just be like, so pretty.

- Are you a exposed? - No, uh...maybe, I’m thinking.

About what?

About, like, detransitioning.

No fuckin' way!

[Natalie] That would be our lucky day. That would be our lucky day.

Bitch, I don't know you. I'm not sharing a date with you.

[Natalie] That's weird, I’m good.

No, I, um...

I was non-binary in college.

- Yeah? - Uh-huh.

- What was that like? - Um, like, fucking gross.

Look at me now! This long hair.

I used to be fucking bulimic and start fights.

My shit used to shaved to the fucking scalp.

Was it, like... my cut?

- No. - What was it?

Not like a skinhead, but like a bun.

I had, like, a fucking buzzcut and, at a certain point, it grew out

until I shaved the sides and it was like Travis Bickle in Taxi Driver.

[Natalie] Trying to clean up the streets of the scum.

Yeah, literally. I’m gonna go clean some n-words outta the street.

Oh no!

- [Natalie screeches] - You psycho!

That was really loud. Um...

[Natalie] You can't hear, so it's all okay.

You can't even hear. You're, like, disabled.

It's okay, it's okay, you'll get the parking space.

You'll get the parking space.

Oh, I'll get the parking space. Um...

Yeah, so, I used to be...

- I used to be non-binary... - [Music drowns speech]

[Louder] I was non-binary in college.

Nattie, do you think you could grab me a beer?

- [Natalie] Yeah. - Okay.

Grab a beer.

She farted on you. Just kidding.

Um, so, uh... I was non-binary in college.

- That was four years... - Yeah.

..where I, like, looked butch as fuck.

And then I graduated and I realised, like...

I don't know if I’m like feeling that...

but I graduated and I realised, like...

you have to grow the fuck up eventually, you know what I mean?

- Yeah. - And I feel like...

for a lot of...for some people, it's, like, you know...

that's their path, but in terms of me and the people I was hanging around with,

it was, like, you have to go back, you know what I mean?

Yeah. I mean, it feels like it's, like...

- It's so fucking loud in here. - It's so loud.

- It feels like... - I can hear you, I can hear you.

..like it's like a performance. You know, it doesn't, like...

I don't really feel that much either way, you know?

It's, like, I don't know.

I might...just like try it out.

When was the last time you were a guy?

Uh...

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

..uh, a couple of years ago. Like, five years ago?

- You've been like this for five years? - Yeah.

How do you feel?

I feel nothing.

Right. And that's the thing, because, when I was non-binary...

Oh, my God, I have, like, three glasses of white wine

- and I start proselytising, but... - Yeah.

When I was, like, non-binary, in college...

I realised that largely I felt very numb.

- Yeah. - You feel that?

Yeah. I don’t feel alive.

And how did you feel when you were a boy?

Angry.

- [Music halts] But boys are supposed to...

- Oh, thank God. - [Music resumes]

No, no, it's just a bass drop. Um...

Boys are supposed to be angry, you know?

- Yeah. - That's the normal...

I mean, everybody's supposed to be angry all the time.

- It's, like... - Yeah.

..look at what has become of the world, you know what I mean? It's, like...

Everybody's supposed... You're supposed to feel angry.

- Yeah. - If you're not angry...

then you're numb and then numb is complacent

- and dah-dah-dah, you know? - Yeah.

[Music, conversation continue]

I mean, do you regret doing it?

Do you regret being non-binary?

Or did you learn something from it?

Honestly, I think I could've given it...

I could've done it for a year and change

and then have been done with it, but...

I gave it...literally the old college try.

- And I did it for four years. - Yeah.

- You know? - Yeah.

So, um, I think... I don't regret it...

- but I think time was wasted. - Yeah.

Where do you live?

Uh, I'm kinda, like...

I’m kinda, like, in between right now.

I was just in this, like,

this really weird housing thing.

- What happened? - We were, like, living in this basement,

a bunch of trans girls, in this basement.

Who lives up top? On the top floor.

I-I don't know.

We didn't really, like, get out much.

You didn't ever, like, go up the stairs, have a look around the kitchen?

No. I just stayed in the...basement.

Was there, like, a backyard that you could go in?

No.

What do you mean, you were, like...you were inside?

Yeah, in the basement, inside.

- Like, covid? - Like covid, yeah.

- Well, covid's over. - It's over.

[Music, conversation continue]

Who do you know here?

Well I met Nattie.

- Is that the girl with...? - Yeah, yeah.

I don't know, I don't know anybody here.

I don’t like her vibe.

It's kind of right not to replace.

Oh, my God.

[Music obscures speech]

Um...

So...wait, you were in a basement...

- I was in a basement. - With who? How many people?

There was, like...

Like, nine, eight or nine, in this basement.

Did you have your own room?

No, there was, like, this, like...

This sounds, like, crazy when I say it, right, but it's, like...

we have, like, this whole thing of, like, on the floor,

of, like, blankets and pillows and we'd all sleep together.

[Keller laughs]

Like pooled all these blankets in the corner of the basement.

Were you guys, like, a polycule?

I mean, like, sorta, I guess?

I mean, none of us were, like, dating. Like, we'd fuck,

but it's, like...uh... but it wasn't, like...

I don't know, it was just, like,

that was just what you did when you were in there.

That sounds crazy, right?

It just sounds like an untenable situation.

Yeah.

And, so, all of the other girls were...trans?

Yeah.

And you still live there?

Yeah. Sort of.

- I-I, I just... - That's weird!

I just left tonight.

What do you mean, you left tonight?

[Music obscures speech]

No.

I kind of, like, snuck...away.

Okay, um...

Are you going back there?

I don't... There's, like... I have some stuff I left there.

It's, like, uh...

So I probably have to pick that up.

[Music obscures speech]

Like, like what? Like... - You know, the cup.

I feel like there's a lot more you could tell me.

I’m being bad, I’m being bad.

[Music continues]

- [Circle] Look. - Are those pants?

It’s metal, look.

[Circle] That guy’s Robocop.

[Indistinct, overlapping conversations; Music continues]

I hate Bushwick.

I hate Bushwick, because somebody always got some fucking weird shit.

Somebody in Bushwick is always on some fucking poisonous cocktail of drugs.

Somebody's always got a fucking, like, chicken arm!

[They laugh; Music continues]

I wanna take a picture.

Hold your legs there, so it looks like you’re sitting on their legs.

[Keller laughs]

What are you doing?

No, I was taking a picture of her.

- Are you fucking sure? - What?

- Are you sure?! - Yeah!

- Are you fucking... You think I couldn’t fucking see that?

- I was taking a picture of my friend! - Are you fucking kidding me right now!

- I was taking a picture of my friend! - I’m not gonna fucking get over this!

No, I was taking a picture of my friend!

- I was taking a picture of my friend! - I saw you you going like that!

What would I be taking a picture of?!

- Uh, this. - Your dick?

Are you fucking serious? Are you fucking serious?

Why would I be taking a picture of you?

Okay, this big fucking bitch is getting up.

You don’t fucking lie to my face.

Calm down. - Huh?!

Oh, I’m gonna have to fight her. Oh fuck.

- Why are you taking pictures of me? - Bitch, I'm from fucking Toledo, Ohio,

- you don't wanna fuck with me! - Oh, you're so tough!

Toledo fucking Ohio! You’re so tough!

[Party Guest] I know! It's so funny!

You think I wanted to do this?

I don't know why you're pressed right now.

I was taking a picture of my friend...

[Music obscures speech]

Yes! Yeah, we're in Bushwick, bitch! - You can’t be taking...

- Fucking hell, we're in Bushwick! - ..fucking feet pics of me or her?

Be serious right now.

Of her, whatever.

[Music obscures speech]

What?! - Seriously!

Don’t fucking yell at my friend.

Don't touch me. Don't fucking touch me!

She's trying to rape me! She was trying to rape me earlier.

- What the fuck?! - What?!

- What are you doing? - You're trying to rape fucking Circle?!

I'm trying to fucking save her!

[Clamouring, shouting]

[Music continues]

Fuck you, bitch! Bark for me, bitch! Bark for me, bitch!

Okay...

[Clamouring, music continue]

[Meredith] I’ll get her!

Go!

[Music continues]

Wait, wait, wait, I left my hoodie, I left my hoodie.

No! I thought you said there was a rapist!

I fucking hate Bushwick.

[Music continues; Natalie sobs]

Okay.

Are you crying?!

[Natalie] I’m fine.

Okay. Oh, fuck.

- Fucking psycho! - I hate Bushwick. I hate Bushwick.

And I don't like you that much either, but whatever.

I kind of like you. I think we could fuck with each other.

You know, just give me, like, 10% and I'll take it.

- 10% of what? - I don't know, like...

your heart.

[Footsteps clatter]

[Circle] So many stairs.

[Keller] I guess we can't go back in there.

Yeah.

Fuck, my vape was still charging too, that fucking sucks.

Bushwick is, like, a fuckin' nasty-ass neighbourhood,

- I should've just stayed my ass... - I thought you lived here.

- I live in Bed-Stuy. - Same city.

I live in Bed... It's not the same fucking thing,

because shit like this happens in Bushwick.

Okay, don't touch people.

- Don't touch people. - [Natalie] I'll do whatever I want.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry about that. She's a whore.

Um...

Boys?

- 'Sup? - [Keller] I'm Keller.

- [Will] 'Sup, Keller? - [Keller] What are your names?

- [Will] Will. - [Keller] Will.

- Felix. - [Keller] Felix, okay.

- Um... - [Natalie] We need a cigarette.

- Can we have a cigarette? - Okay, that's not what I was asking.

Um, so, I wanted to know...

do you guys think that my friend is a boy or a girl? Go.

- [Natalie] Quickly, quickly. - [Will] Wait, in what sense?

- Can we...? - [Natalie] Quickly, quickly.

In what sense do you mean?

- [Keller] Like, does she, he, whatever... - [Natalie] Yeah, yeah.

..that's up for you to decide - look like a boy or a girl?

- [Will] Well... - I'm trying to make a point,

- about a conversation we had upstairs. - Sort of, like, well,

judging by context clues, I mean, you're all obviously presenting as women.

- Right, but, like, really. - In your heart, like, in your soul.

- Presenting out of the way. - Yeah, yeah, yeah.

And this isn't a test, this isn't a trick,

I'm not gonna, like, cancel you or whatever.

What do you think my friend is - boy or girl? Go.

[Natalie] Look. Look hard.

But in what sense? Do you mean, like, socially or biologically?

- [Keller] No. Like, what do you feel? - Well, I feel, like...

[Natalie] In your gut.

I feel like probably a woman in the sense, like, socially.

- No, no, no, don't think about... - You're being annoying about it.

- Don't think about social mores. - [Will] What I mean is, like, it's...

probably a woman, because you are annoying me right now.

No, but "probably," I'm hearing "probably" is the operative word here.

And I'm hearing "probably," and I need you to answer, like, really,

- with your guts. - [Natalie] You're being, just...

I'm not gonna post about this on my fucking Instagram story.

- Just say it. - [Keller] Just say it.

Because I'm trying to prove a point.

This is Brooklyn - all women are women.

[Keller] Okay.

[Natalie] Okay, safe fucking answer, bro!

- Safe answer. - [Keller] And I'm trying to...

Okay, but don't you think...

- Hold on. - Like, like, pull it back.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah!

Don't you think, with short hair...

What if... If you... If this person came up to you

and said their name was Luke, what would you think?

[Will] I'd...probably be okay with it.

You'd say, "That's Luke, that's a boy that I know."

I mean, like, I... Yeah, sure, why not?

[Natalie] They're playing it so fucking safe. It's so fucking annoying.

- [Keller] What do you have to say? - [Natalie] Yeah, come on, speak.

- [Felix] I don't... - [Natalie] Cat got your tongue, or what?

No.

- I don't... - [Keller] Cat got your tongue. Okay.

I don't... I'm sorry I didn't catch your name,

- but I don't think... - [Keller] Keller.

Keller, I don't think that you have to perf...

- [Circle] Do the thing for them. - [Natalie] Do the thing! Do the thing!

It's, like, not funny when you reiterate...

Okay. It's, like, they got...

Okay. My name is, like...it's, like...

I'm Keller, like...Helen.

See, it's not... Anyway, it's besides the point.

[Natalie] I think it's...

- I think it's awesome. - [Will] She couldn't speak, so...

- you're not really... - [Keller] No, but she could write books.

- [Will chuckles] - [Keller] She wrote books!

The bitch wrote book!

I mean, like, but, you know, like, are you a woman?

- And, like... - [Keller] Am I a woman?

- Yeah. - Yeah, I mean...

[Keller] I mean, fucking obviously.

- Well, like... - Really?

- [Keller] "Really"?! - Well, I mean, like...

but are you a woman in the sense of, like...

It feels like I never got my fucking BFA. Yes, I am a woman.

[Will] I mean, in the sense that you go to the gynaecologist once a year,

or, like, in the sense that you're nagging me right now?

[Keller] You wanna know what's in my pussy?

[Will] I'm just trying to figure out how to answer the question.

I-I don't... I don't think you have to perform womanhood to be one.

- Like, I don't think... - [Keller] Me or everybody?

- Like, because just, like... - Well, what do you think I'm doing?

- [Keller] Yeah. - [Natalie] Yeah, yeah, yeah.

- What do you think I'm performing? - Lock in - what the fuck are they?

- What are they? - [Felix] Well, this is...

- They look hot as a boy. - [Felix] Perhaps, like...

- Don't you think...? Don't you think...? - [Natalie] Come on, hair back...

[Keller] Hair back. Pull back.

- L-U-K-E. - [Keller] What's your name again?

Shut the fuck up. My name is stop talking to me.

[Keller] Okay, Stop-talking-to-me is pulling her fucking hair back.

- [Natalie] Look at that. - [Keller] Look at that.

[Keller] Okay, no, but, like, with that angle,

it kind of looks like Girl with a Pearl Earring.

You gotta really... You gotta pull...taut.

Like, think about, like, a shaved-head situation.

[Keller] Taut. And imagine, like, no mascara.

- Like, no... - That's a guy, right?

That's, like, a hot guy that you would wanna fuck in the ass,

- with your cock... - [Noisy clatter]

Right?

[Will] I... I can’t stop seeing it. Sorry.

- If certain things went different in life... - [Natalie] So, you've never fucked a boy?

- No, I haven't. - [Natalie] That's so sad for you.

[Keller] You don't think... You don't think, you don't think.

Okay, imagine... Pull the hair back again.

Whatever your name is, pull the fuckin' hair back again.

Like, what...? So, what...would...?

So we're, you know, we're doing this now, like,

you're, just off this concept, how this started, right,

like, you're taking me as, like, you want me to be a woman right now,

because you want to, you know, be, like, the,

- you know, like the... - [Keller] Woke...

- ..you wanna be correct. - Woke!

- Let me stop you there... - I'm, like, look how I'm dressed...

- Okay, okay... - Like, what would I have to do...?

What would I have to do to be, like, a guy to you?

- [Will] All right. - This is a boy.

What's the answer that will end this interaction the quickest?

[Keller] Oh, my God, you don't...

[Natalie] You don't like talking to us? That's so weird.

- [Will] I just... I just want the... - [Natalie] I like talking to you.

- [Will] I just want the right answer. - Fuck!

You want us to tell you what to do...?

They're so... They can't think for themselves.

You can't think for yourselves. You have the woke mind virus.

- [Natalie] Yeah! - [She laughs]

[Keller] Tell my friend... Tell my friend that she's a fucking boy.

Uh, you look like a boy.

- [Keller] Boom! - [Natalie yells]

Well, I'm gonna go jerk off now.

- [Natalie] Thank you so much. - [Keller] Dap me up. Dap me up.

- Yeah, yeah, yeah. - Come on, dap me up.

- [Natalie] Okay. - [Keller] That's right.

I'm so proud of you for speaking your truth.

Yeah, literally. Would you guess that I used to be non-binary?

- If you looked at me? - [Will] No way.

- Wow. - That sounded facetious from both of you,

so...we gotta get the fuck out of Dodge.

[Natalie] We gotta go.

[Will] Don't let me stop you.

[Keller] Can I take a....? Can I just...? Sorry. Just gimme that.

[Natalie] Yeah.

Wait, I think Circle wants some.

No, I haven't... I don't really smoke.

- [Natalie] Nah, Circle wants some. - [Keller] You don't smoke?

- No. - [Natalie] Circle wants some.

What do you mean? Like, you don't smoke or you never smoked or what?

[Circle] I've never.... I've never had a cigarette.

- You've never had a cigarette? - [Circle] I've never had a cigarette.

You're a boy and you've never had a cigarette.

- Men smoke. Okay? - Men smoke a lot, too.

If you're serious about...

- [Natalie] Show him. - [Keller] If you're serious

about the fucking shit that we talked about upstairs...

[Circle] Yeah.

..and I see it in your fucking eyes that you're serious...

how about you try to see how fast you could smoke this?

[Natalie] Yeah. Like a man.

- [Keller] Like a ma... Like a man! - [Natalie] Like a man!

[Keller] How about you see how fast you can smoke that.

Okay, I'm gonna smoke this cigarette like a man.

- [Keller] You got it. - [Natalie] Smoke the whole thing.

- I'm gonna smoke it like a man. - [Natalie] Smoke the whole thing.

- Okay. - [Keller] You got it.

- As fast as you can. - [Natalie] Faster.

- Be a boy about it! - [Will] You know, I'm seeing it now.

- [Natalie] Be a real man. - [Keller] You're seeing it, right?!

- Yeah. - Definitely.

Yes! Yes!

Smoke it. Come on. Smoke. Harder.

- [Keller] Harder! - [Natalie] Harder, harder.

- [Keller] Come on. - [Circle splutters]

No, come on. Boys don't do that. Boys don't cry.

Harder.

- Let me get a little... - [Will laughs]

While you're at it, let me get a little...

Feed it to... Feed it to me!

- Okay, back to it, back to it. - [Natalie] Go, go, go, go, go, go, go.

[Keller] Come on. Don't spit! Spitters are quitters!

- [Natalie] You look so, so hot. - [Keller] Spitters are quitters!

Spitters are quitters! You gotta swallow.

[Natalie] You look so manly. You're so masculine.

- [Circle splutters] - [Keller] Come on.

- [Natalie] You look like... - [Circle retches]

- [Keller] Oh, come on. - Come on, don't be a bitch about it!

Be a man. Be a real fucking man!

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Luke's here.

- Luke's here! - Oh, it looks like Luke's here!

Luke's here!

- [Circle splutters] - [Natalie] Keep going! Keep going!

[Keller] Come on. Fast as you can.

- [Natalie] Faster. - [Heller] Like Fiona Apple said!

[Natalie roars, cackles]

[Natalie inhales, squeals]

[Keller] Come on, get down to the filter, at least. At least.

- [Natalie] Come on! - [Keller] Spitters are quitters.

[Natalie] Oh, my God, you look so hot.

[Keller] You look like a boy when you do this, see?

[Natalie] Yeah, you're like a soldier.

- You're like an old soldier. - [Keller] This is the macho shit

- that we gotta get you up on. Come on! - ..in the trenches, smoking that shit.

- [Circle splutters] - [Natalie] Yeah.

[Keller moans, Natalie laughs]

- [Natalie] He did it. - [Circle] That's right, fucking faggot!

- [Keller] Oh, my God! - [Natalie] Yes!

[Keller, Natalie laugh]

Have a nice night, boys. Bon voyage.

Bon voyage to both of you.

Eiffel Tower, I see London, I see France.

What was your name again?

[Natalie] That party was fucked. Are all New York parties like that?

[Keller] Yeah.

I mean, it was, like, a bunch of trans bitches

whose, like, hormones are always fucking adjusting

and it makes them, like, whack to be around.

Oh.

[Keller] Oh, shit!

Brody!

Oh, hey!

- [Keller] Hey. - What's up?

Nothing. This is, um... What the fuck is your name?

- Natalie. - Natalie, and this is my friend Circle.

We're just walking by. What are you doing?

I'm, um... I'm just, uh, struggling with my key.

It's very, uh, challenging.

[Keller] Are you locked out?

[Brody] Um, no, I'm just struggling with my key.

It's, like, a really weird key.

You have to, like... It's, like, you have to, like...

Uh, I don't know, it's just challenging.

No, no, it's not... I literally, I get it half the time, and I live here, so...

[Keller] Maybe we should call one of your neighbours?

- No, no, no, no. It's fine. It's fine. - [Natalie] Or, like, your landlord?

No. No, no, no, no.

[Natalie] Wait, why?

[Circle] Is it, like, one of those ones you have to, like, turn to the right?

- [Brody] Uh... It's hard to explain. - [Natalie] Maybe jiggle it.

No, no, no, I'm... Thank you so much,

but I'm telling you, you will not get it.

- [Keller] Okay. - [Brody] What are you guys doing?

Oh, see, I got it. Yes!

Um, we're just, like, looking for somewhere to hang.

We just, like, went to a...bunk party.

[Natalie] Let's hang with you.

Oh, sure. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Brody] Um, yeah.

How do you....? How do you know him?

From around. It's fucking... It's Bushwick.

It's Bushwick, my dear Watson.

[Brody] Yeah, sure, you guys can come up.

- [Natalie] Hell, yeah. - What are you, um...?

Okay.

- No, come. - [Keller] Wanna come up?

- Wait, can I finish...? Okay. - [Keller] Come on.

Come on, come on. Come on, come on, come on.

Do we know each other?

- [Circle] You look... - [Keller] No, this is my...

You don't know her. This is my friend Circle, this is...

- Sorry, remind me again? - [Natalie] Natalie!

- [Keller] Natalie. - I just fucking said that.

Okay.

This is so funny, I haven't had anybody over in, like...

like...two years.

[Keller] Well, it's a great, great party to usher in.

Can't believe now I have three people coming over.

- This is so fucking crazy. - [Keller] Me...

Keller, Circle and... the fuck was your name again?

[Natalie] Girl, shut the fuck up.

Um, Brody...

..you used to be a girl.

That's so cool.

Thank you. Um...

- Yeah. - [He chuckles]

Why are you just bringing this up?

Well, I think it's interesting 'cause, um...

you know, I used to be... enby...in college, um...

and so, I feel like we're kind of, like, in the same...boat?

And I just wanted to sort of hear from you, 'cause, like,

this is our first time actually having, like, a real, like, heart-to-heart hang.

- [Natalie] Like... - [Keller] I guess I wanted...

Well, you know, I tried once to talk to you at a party,

but you didn't seem into it.

- What party? - [Brody] Do you remember that?

- What party was that? - [Brody] Shayna's.

- When? - It was, like, one month ago.

Remember? Shayna was doing that release of her chapbook,

and I tried to talk to you, and you, like, wanted nothing to do with me.

- So, it's just funny that... - I really don't remember that.

- You don't remember that? - [Keller] No, I don't remember that!

[Brody] Were you drinking?

Yeah, probably. Weren't you? We were all drinking,

- it's a fucking party. - No, I wasn't drinking at that one.

[Keller] Leveraging a drinking allegation against me?

- Okay, I'm not beating that. Um... - [Brody chuckles]

No, but that's fine. I mean, I can talk.

I could talk to you now.

- [Natalie] Yeah, you should tell us. - [Keller] So, you used to be a girl...

- [Brody] Mm-hm. - ..I used to be non-binary.

That's common ground that we're finding, right here.

You don't need to be so combative about the fact I drank at a party.

- Wait, for how long? - For, like, four years.

- No way. - Yeah.

- And then what? - Uh... I sucked at it.

I was, like... I was really bad at being a girl.

It, um...

It was kind of good, in that, like, it got me sober, but...

I like... I-I.... It didn't fix, like...

Like, I'm suicidal, pretty much. And, like, it just didn't fix that.

No, it's okay. It's fine. Like, everyone in my family's suicidal.

- So, it's just sort of, like... - [Keller] But you would say...

You would say that, like, being a boy now is, like, a better life.

No, I wouldn't say it's a better life...

[Keller] But aren't you, like, happier...?

No, I'm not happier at all. I'm less happy.

I was happy as a woman.

I just could see that I was failing at it, and so I had to stop.

Okay, well, when I was non-binary, I was really unhappy.

And then now I'm a chick and I feel good about it.

Sometimes, it's, like, I think... How long have you been a boy again?

- Uh, two years. - [Keller] Two year... It takes...

You gotta, like...marinate in it.

Yeah, and, like, you look so hot as a boy.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

[Keller] Um...

- But... - [Natalie] What? He does!

I... Okay, I don't really care about that.

- Um, but... - You're being so bitchy.

Okay. Um...

But, like, wouldn't you say...

that, like, maybe your lifestyle, like, externally,

is easier...as a guy?

Um, I mean, no, because...

[Keller] You don't think being a white, straight man

is easier than being a trans woman?

- I-I think it's easier, sure... - [Keller] Exactly, it's easier.

Yeah, but not for me.

Like, it's easier, like, in the macro sense.

But, for me, I was happier as a woman. I just couldn't do it.

You know, it just felt like I didn't...

Like, I did feel actually bad on the hormones.

- So, I got progressively... - [Keller] Yes.

How did you feel bad on the hormones?

[Brody] I started to feel progressively worse and worse.

I just... I don't know, I just didn't...

It didn't sit well with me. Like, it made nauseous.

- Mm-hm. - [Brody] I had side effects.

Yeah, I never went on T because, like, I heard that...

that would potentially happen.

I mean, don't you sometimes complain about you have, like, headaches and stuff?

Yeah.

- [Keller] From the...oestrogen. - I-I think, yeah.

[Brody] What do you...? What's your deal?

- Like, what do you do? - I'm just saying that I feel like...

No, no, no - like, in life, like, what's your deal?

- [She chuckles] - Yeah, what's your deal?

- What's my...? Like, you're asking me... - Like, what are you interested in?

- ..what I'm interested in? - [Brody] Yeah.

- Um... - [Natalie chuckles]

[Keller] I like... I like painting.

- Do you paint? - That's cool.

- Do I paint? - [Brody] Mm.

- I've painted. - [Brody] What kind of stuff?

- [She laughs] - Like, when was the last time?

Do you paint, like, every day? It's a practice, a pure artist?

- [Natalie snorts] - I paint...

when I intuitively feel like it.

- [Brody] So, you're, like, a hobbyist. - Well, it's hard to force...

So, you're like a girl who just, like, paints sometimes.

Like, you're not really a painter.

Yeah, I wouldn't call myself a painter. I said, "I paint."

- [Natalie] Okay. - [Brody] Mm. Yeah.

- [Keller] I, like, read. I love reading. - [Brody] What kind of books?

[Keller] Um...

I like Camille Paglia a lot.

Okay, cool. Me, too.

[Keller] Great.

What's your favourite Paglia book?

Um... Sexual Personae.

- I mean, it's like a basic... - [Brody] Same.

- That's the only one I've read. - ..basic choice, but...

Well, I've read more of them, but...

Oh, like, what else?

You're doing, like, the "name five bands" shit to me.

- "Name five songs." - I'm just curious.

I wanna learn from you, babe.

[Keller] Okay, well...

..what was your favourite lesson that you took from Sexual Personae?

Ugh, I don't remember any of it.

[Keller] Maybe that's 'cause the oestrogen made your memory foggy?

- Yeah, and I smoke too much weed. - [Natalie] Oh, my God, be nice to him!

It's 'cause he smokes weed.

- Okay... - [Brody] I liked the part about the...

the beautiful boy. I liked learning about that archetype.

[Keller] 'Cause, do you feel now like you are a beautiful boy?

I felt then like I was a beautiful boy.

- [Keller] When you were a woman? - Now I feel like an ageing tart.

You feel like an ageing tart?

Yeah, I feel like...I feel like ageing.

- [Keller] But isn't that... - I need to do facial aerobics.

[Keller] Isn't that something good to settle into?

[Brody] No! I don't... I don't wanna be old.

I'm already too old. I wanna die. I wanted to die young.

- [Natalie] I think you look great. - Do... Do you regret that?

[Brody] What?

That...you age now.

- Do I regret it? - [Circle] Yeah, you weren't...

you-you set yourself up to not age in this...

in this, in this way, now that you...

decided...not...

I don't get... Can you, please...? What do you mean?

I'm not sure I get the question.

Like, you-you're on hormones, right?

- Uh-huh. - Like, you-you don't age as...

'Cause you're talking like, like you're regretting...

you're ageing as a man.

- Mm-hm. - Right?

- You're going to be bald, you're going... - [Keller] I'm sure if you aged...

If you aged as a man, I think it would be fine.

I feel like ageing as a man is better than ageing a woman, too.

[Brody] Yeah! That... Yeah. I didn't wanna say it, but that's it.

- That's... That's... - So, it's just in general.

So, just in general... You don’t wanna age?

[Brody] Yeah, it's much easier to be an old man than an old woman.

That was part of what was fucking with me.

I was, like, really... I was thinking about my mother

and how I didn't really wanna look anything like her,

and I was feeling I was about to be...

[Keller] Do you think you look like your mother?

[Circle] I look exactly like my mother.

[Keller] Right. And how is she ageing?

- Right. - Yeah.

- Right. - Yeah.

And how does your father look while he's ageing?

He looks great.

- Bingo! - It's true.

- [Keller] Bingo! - Yeah.

[Keller] Bingo!

I'm just saying I'm saying, sometimes...

people take the hormones or they do the trans thing,

and it's, like...

And what comes of it? You know, to what end?

Is what I'm saying.

One thing I thought I was gonna do while trans

was write a Bushwick version of the Divine Comedy.

- [Keller] See? Delusional. - [Natalie chuckles]

- [Keller] Delusional. - [Natalie chuckles]

[Keller] Plain and fucking simple.

It's, like... It makes you cracked out.

- Like, living that lifestyle... - [Brody] No, I think I could've done it.

I think I could've done it. I don't know, why are you so cynical?

How old are you, like, 12?

- What have you experienced? - [Keller] I'm 23.

Okay, well, you look young. Like, what makes you...

[Keller] I look young. You know why I look young?

[Brody] What makes you so sure that nothing is possible?

I don't have hormones fucking ageing me.

[Brody] No, but why do you have to just shit on my desire to do...

to write it like Dante? Who are you?

[Keller] 'Cause that's retarded!

Says who?! You're such a ...

You really... You need... You need help.

I thought I was... I thought I had issues.

- You really need help. - You just said you're, like suicidal,

- and how old are you? - 38.

38 and you're suicidal?

If you wanted to do it, you would have done it by now.

- Okay. - At this point, it's for attention.

[Natalie laughs]

- Go easy! - I can't believe I let you into my house.

- You... You suck. - [Keller] You don't live here any more.

Your personality is bad, bro. It's really bad.

Uh, no, I...I live here, yeah.

- He's figuring it out! - As long as I have a key, I live here.

[Keller] Why are you so fucking gaga?

He's hot.

You're kind of annoying me.

All right.

[They converse indistinctly]

No, you should stay.

Circle, you should stay.

Keller, fuck off.

Shh, Keller. Shut the fuck up, bitch.

[Keller] It's 9:34.

- Do you like Frank? - This is Frank?

This is Frank. This is Marjorie.

And this one doesn't have a name, I don't like that one.

Yeah, Frank's cute. Kind of like, um...

fucked up, a little bit.

- Yeah. - Do you, like, cuddle with him?

- He used to be like an outside toy... - These two are, like, gonna fuck, obviously.

I feel like, with this whore and this fucking ageing tranny,

I just think we can figure it out. We can go somewhere else.

- [Brody] We did, yeah. - [Natalie] Wait, actually?

[Indistinct, overlapping dialogue]

But then why did this one get, like, the special treatment to come here?

Oh...I forget.

I think it was...

It was just, like, a change. Like, every couple years,

we changed the outside toys for inside toys.

And some of the outside toys were so destroyed...

I'm serious, the depression starts to atrophy into your brain.

You wanted... You wanted to come here.

- I-I don't... - Well, I thought maybe he could, like...

I don't know, find some common ground with me or with you.

He seems... He seems cool.

I like, you know... He obviously is very knowledgeable, right?

[Brody] This is one you can really talk to.

But, like...

Come on, you wanted me...

you wanted me to come here, and we came all the way.

[Keller] Well, we can go somewhere else. We can go somewhere else.

- You just met them? Doing what? - I was just like “it’s a day in New York.”

Oh, from where?

- Yeah... I’m from BC. British Columbia. - Where'd you come from?

- Oh, whoa, you're Canadian? - Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I haven't heard your accent yet.

Oh! Yeah, I guess I don't have one.

- [Brody] No, but you might. - Maybe it'll come out.

Yeah, there's, like, a little... I'm sure there’s a word or two..

- Don't hold back, okay? - Maybe if I say "aboot" or something.

Yeah, but that... No, now you're making... Now you're doing a joke,

- you're doing a bit. - Yeah.

- Do you think I have an accent? - No.

[Circle] I just, I...

I don't know how hungry I... It's just, it's nice...

I... I had a hot dog earlier...

I... It's, like...

A hot dog, you know. I had a hot dog.

- [Brody] Are you like neurotypical? - [Keller] What did you have on a hot dog?

- [Natalie] I'm, like, completely normal. - [Brody] Really?

- Just plain. - [Brody] You have nothing wrong with you?

- Just plain. - Just hot dog in a bun?

- Well... It was... - [Brody] You want to go to the club right now?

Um...

- Just... - A little ketchup, a little mustard?

I wouldn't put ketchup on it, right?

You can't... You can't put the ketchup on it!

- It sucks, it's so... - [Keller] I love ketchup!

[Circle] You're not supposed... You're not supposed to put it on.

[Keller] A hot dog?

[Circle] No, it's, like, we do... You know, it's, like, mustard...

- onion relish... - [Keller] Ketchup.

[Circle] No, like, seriously, seriously.

[Keller] What did you have...? Did you onion relish on yours?

- [Circle] No! - [Keller] What did you have on it?

[Circle] There's nothing. There's nothing on it.

- [Keller] Just a bun? - [Circle] Not even...! There's no bun.

- [Keller] You just ate... - [Circle] Just a hot dog.

- [Keller] You just ate hot dog meat? - I just...

You just ate a weenie? You just ate hot dog meat?

[Circle] I just ate a weenie.

[Keller] We should go get food somewhere!

- [She inhales] - I just ate a weenie. Uh...

[Keller] We should go get you food somewhere that's not a weenie.

- Let me use the bathroom first. - Okay.

And then we'll go.

We can get you food that's not a weenie.

Like, a loose sausage link.

Make sure that he doesn't, like, flip out and start, like, stabbing her.

[Both laugh]

[Circle] He's, like, fucking, like, Ted Bundy.

[Circle laughs]

- I'll be right back. - Don't leave me.

[Indistinct conversation]

- [Brody] What's up? - [Door shuts]

Just waiting for Circle to get back from the bathroom.

[Brody] Are you guys...? What's...? What's your vibe?

[Natalie] Are you gonna leave?

Yeah, we're probably gonna go get food somewhere.

Where are you gonna go?

[Keller] There's lots of places to eat here today.

- [Clatter] - [Keller] Shit.

- I'm sorry, my phone fell behind the bed. - [Natalie wheezes, chuckles]

[Keller] You guys just do whatever you want.

She's so fucking annoying.

Just go away.

[Keller] I can't... I'm sorry, I can't reach my phone...

[Natalie stifles laughter]

[Door opens]

- Are you ready to go...? - [Circle] Are you good?

[Natalie stifles laughter]

[Circle] Here. Um...

I think we're gonna go... We're gonna get a cheeseburger.

[Brody] Okay. Good seeing you.

- [Keller] Yeah, really fucking awesome. - Bye!

[Door shuts]

[Faint chatter, music]

[Heavy breathing]

[Heavy breathing intensifies]

[Keller chuckles]

[Muffled banging, in distance]

[Keller] Was that gunshots or fireworks?

- [Circle] It's probably gunshots. - [Keller] Yeah.

[Circle] Fuck!

[Keller] Oh, my God.

- Oh, shit! - [Keller chuckles]

[Circle] Fuck!

[Keller] Why did you get extra mayo?

That's okay.

- It's too much hair. - [Circle] Mm.

Eat slowly, eat slowly.

[Circle chuckles]

- [Keller] Did you get napkins? - [Circle] No.

- [Keller] You have lettuce on your leg. - [Circle chuckles]

[Keller] There.

[Siren wails, in distance]

[Circle] You?

[Keller] It's all for you.

When was the last time you had one of those?

[Circle chuckles]

[Keller] Okay. Chew.

[Both chuckle]

- [Circle] It's sort of been a minute. - [Keller] It's okay.

[Circle] I've been wanting one of these for so long.

- [Keller] I can tell! I can tell. - [Circle] Yeah?

[Keller] You still have some on your...

on your leg. Want to get that?

Okay.

- Oh, my God, you got two! - [Circle chuckles]

- Really hungry. - [Keller] Okay.

Are there napkins in the bag?

There's sauce on 'em.

Have some of those.

[She retches, coughs]

[She retches, coughs]

[She splutters]

[She coughs]

[She coughs]

[She retches]

[She inhales]

[She splutters, spits]

[She coughs, inhales]

[She groans, inhales]

Keller?

- [Keller] Yeah? - Keller, I think I'm okay.

I don't think I'm gonna puke. I think I'm fine.

[Keller] Okay.

I don't really wanna go over there, but...

No, no, I'm not gonna... I'm not gonna puke. I'm okay.

[Keller] 'Cause it seems like you're gonna puke, so...

- No, no, no, no, no. - I don't wanna get it on my shoes.

No, I'm not... I'm not gonna puke.

Let's... Let's just go... Let's go back to, um, the...

the place, um, the centre.

[Keller] Okay, I'm gonna make you walk, like, two feet in front of me.

- Okay. - I don't wanna be in the splash zone.

[Circle] No, I'm... I'm okay.

- Okay. It was, like... - I'm a good... I'm a good boy!

- [Keller] Yeah, it was very... - I'm not gonna...

I'm not gonna puke on you.

Female trait. It was very boy, what you just did.

You sure you wanna go back?

Yeah, I just gotta... I have, like, some stuff there.

- Grab my cup. - Okay.

Um... But...

Yeah, it was really nice to... What if we...?

I can keep...hanging out.

Yeah, like, I'll just be, I'll probably be a little bit.

I'm gonna say goodbye to some people.

Um...

We can meet at, like, Cobra...

- Yeah. - ..after, and I'll be there in a while.

Um...

Yeah. So... Yeah.

- Okay. - Oh!

- Sorry, I'm bad with the... - It's okay.

Um...

How long do you think you'll be?

Just, like...

30 minutes, like an hour. Something like that. Yeah.

- Okay. - [Circle] Yeah.

- Yeah, I don't have anywhere to be. - [Circle] Okay. All right.

- I'll see you. - [Keller] Okay, I'll see you.

[Circle] Yeah, I'll be there.

- Hey, um... - Look who's back.

[Circle] I was just gonna...

Um...

Do you think I can go in and just, like, grab my cup and stuff and blanket?

- [Meredith] Your cup? - [Circle] Yeah, my cup, yeah.

[She inhales]

So, what, you're gonna go out and get some fucking bio-pussy

and you think she's gonna save you?

'Cause, fucking spoiler, she doesn't.

I... It's just somebody I met... I met today.

I didn't... There is no...

[Meredith] Listen, I...

[She inhales]

I get it, Circle. Okay? I do.

- I-I know... - [Circle] Meredith, don't...

..how fucked it is down there. Like, the...

the constant questionable sex shit

and the constant ketamine

and the...fucked-up, like,

backwards accountability shit.

Like, and I know I'm complicit in that,

from being down there, and I'm sorry, I am,

but that's... that's the fucking best we can get,

as...as trans women, that's the best case scenario.

Like...the thing about the fucking found-family thing

is that it comes with the annoying little sister

and the rapey uncle, and all the shit,

all the baggage that comes with a real family.

And it sucks, but that's what it is.

And I'm fucking...what?

The-the-the weird, gross cousin?

Like...

I know I'm the clockiest one down there...

- [Circle] No, don't... - ..and I know my vibes are fucking...

No, I know my vibes are fucking off.

And I know that makes me an outlier down there,

but do you know how much worse it is up here,

to be on the outside as that...

off-putting fucking brick?!

So, I have to be down there.

But...I was...

I felt fucking insane until you showed up.

Because you're the only other one that, like...

..sees how fucked this all is.

And...

so....

maybe you don't need to be there, but I need you there.

- Just, please. - [Circle] Look, I just... I just...

I just wanna grab my stuff.

I just wanna...

I don't... This isn't right for me. This isn't...

Um...

I-I need to keep moving.

I need to...

- [Meredith] You sure? - Yeah.

Okay. Okay!

[Roxie] Come here.

You were out past curfew.

You're grounded.

I'm just kidding.

We call this the Daddy Mask...

because...

there's something a little patriarchal about authority, isn't there?

And it tends to scare people, so we just use this to kind of show...

that this isn't me, the person in charge.

- We all share it... - Yeah.

..take turns wearing it.

There's nothing to worry about.

I'm Roxie.

Nice to meet you.

So, I heard that you wanted to...leave.

- [Circle] Yeah! Yeah, I don't... I... - Why is that?

Um...

[Roxie] Come here. Let me show you something.

Some of these people wanted to leave as well.

And look how happy they are.

We're all held together, like...

like an atom, you know?

Like a molecule.

There's nothing stronger than trust.

It's what holds us together.

And when you say wanna join up...

and then say you wanna leave...

..it's like a nuclear explosion.

Do you know what I mean?

[Circle] Yeah, I just thought... I was under the impression

this...this was, you know, I'm...

You can't hold me here, right,

- as, like, a.... - [Roxie] We would never hold you here.

Devon...do you wanna explain?

Circle, it's honestly pretty hard for me to even wanna look at you right now.

Do you even understand...

what everyone is feeling in this moment?

I mean, I...

- [Circle stammers] - [Devon] You broke our heart.

All of us, Circle.

When I was having bad dreams about you the other day, I should have known.

You broke the unity.

You don't wanna drink from the same cup?

- You sound fucking crazy. - [Devon] You don't wanna be filled up

with everything we have to offer?

I don't understand, what is it?

Do you want more?

Do you want more, more hot dogs, more ketamine, more life? What is it?

You don't like us? You don't like how we do things here.

[Circle] There's no way you actually, like...

..believe any of this, right?

Circle, I wanna be very clear right now,

- you're not in trouble. - [Roxie] Eclipse?

Circle, my love...

..I am...here...

..as vulnerable...

..as you were when I met you...

..to say...

..I understand.

I forgive you.

[Circle] Look, I just... I just wanna...

- I... - I just wanna...

- I...I understand. - I just wanna...

[Eclipse] I forgive you.

I forgive you for that.

So, you wanna go...

- is what you're saying? - Yeah. Yeah, I wanna...

- I wanna go... - [Justice] I'm just gonna step in here.

Come here. All right, so,

I-I understand you wanna get... you wanna get out of here.

And I totally understand that, because this place is a shithole.

I mean, it smells like ass.

And you're a very beautiful young woman, so you wanna hit the streets.

I've got a contract here. All you need to do is sign it.

It's 100% legal.

- Uh, I'm on your side. - [Circle] What is it?

It's a totally... It's a... It's basically just that,

out there on the streets,

you're not gonna say a word about what goes down here,

because it'd be sort of like telling a little kid

that there's no Santa Claus, you know?

So, I want you... I want you to feel...

I want you to feel like, when you step out from this room today,

your body is free.

Uh, yeah.

So, signing right here, and this is... Roxie and I have gone over this...

- Mm-hm. - ..and this is the best way to do it,

because, uh, basically, you get to continue your life...

and you just never have to talk about any of this bullshit.

It's for all of our safety.

- Yeah. Yeah. - Yours, too, you understand?

Yeah, I...

[Justice] That's good.

- Just, uh, dotted line. - [Circle] Yeah.

Does that pen work?

I got another one. You always have to have two pens.

There you go.

That's great.

Polygon was...very disappointed.

- [Cane clacks] - Oh! Fuck!

[Roxie] Why don't you strip?

- What? - [Roxie] Strip!

Fuck!

- Strip! - Fuck...

Strip.

- [Sophia] Strip. - [Penelope] Strip.

[Rachel] Strip!

[All] Strip! Strip! Strip!

Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip!

- Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip! - [Valerie] What are you doing with people clothes?

Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip!

Strip! Strip! Strip!

Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip!

Strip! Strip! Strip! Strip!

[Sophia] Fucking bitch!

[Valerie] That's better.

I forgive you...for this.

[Rachel whimpers]

[Cult members bark]

[Meredith] Please, just do what they say. Please, please, just do what they say.

[Cult members laugh, bark]

- [Valerie] Fucking faggot. - [Penelope] Fucking pathetic.

[Cult members growl]

[Cage clatters]

[Valerie] You're lucky...

to be experiencing this.

[Valerie] Usually people don't have to be accountable for things.

[Justice] This is real freedom. This is real freedom,

because your soul is free, but your body stays here.

It's, uh...

- You get to be part of this forever now. - [Valerie] Don't you know how to read?

[Cult members growl, bark]

[Growling, barking continue]

[Valerie hisses]

[Sophia] Too good for you.

- [Devon] You can have two today. - [Rachel] Lucky dog.

[Casper] Who's a good dog?

[Valerie] Here I thought we were all equal.

- Don’t you? - [Rachel] Wouldn’t want you to be too happy.

You have your food, your water...

and another.

[Cage clacks, rattles]

[Sophia] This is your redemption.

[Devon] You're finally getting to sleep alone, like you wanted.

[Circle breathes shakily]

[Intense, distorted hum]

[Hum fades]

[Circle] Fuck!

[Justice] This is gonna be a really heart-warming story

in a couple of years, okay? - [Circle] God!

You signed a really beautiful piece of literature.

It took us a long time to write it. - [Circle] What the fuck is your problem?

But your soul is free.

But your body...has to stay here.

I mean, that's not...that's not real. That's not...

That's not how things work.

That's not how the fuck they work, right?

Because when you sign a contract,

then, uh... this becomes possible, right?

[Eclipse] Come here.

Fingers. Giver us your fingers.

[Devon] Circle, we really missed you.

[Circle] Fuck off.

This is fucking nuts. What the fuck is wrong with you people?

[Valerie] Permission to speak?

So, I think... Circle has made all of us suffer,

so clap if you think she should suffer.

[Sophia] See, we give you praise.

[Rachel] I can't believe you ditched me with the cat-girl over here.

[Circle] You can't...

This is fucking...

[Casper] You really like the outside world more than this?

- Yeah, yeah! I fucking... - [Penelope] We're a family.

[Devon] Circle, why don't you tell us what you did, what you saw?

Did you have fun?

- [Sophia] Yeah! - Did you have a good time?

- [Rachel] What could you possibly have liked more than this? - [Sophia] Was it everything you expected?

- [Circle] It was normal! - What's not normal about this?

What's not normal about this?

- [Sophia] Speak! Speak for yourself! - [Casper] Answer.

- [Circle] I'm in a fucking cage! - [Sophia] You had so much to say before.

- [Rachel] What's out there that's not here? - [Penelope] There's only us.

[Eclipse] Do they have better ketamine out there? Have I not...

Have I not given you enough?

[Casper] You need to take accountability.

Take accountability.

[Sophia] You're fucking pathetic.

[Valerie] You chose to sign that contract.

[Rachel] There are rules here.

Circle, I know this feels really difficult right now...

but we still love you, and we want you here.

[Circle] I'm... Please.

[Devon] But it's very, very important

that you take responsibility for your actions.

[Spitting]

[Circle] I was, I was, I-I-I...

- [Devon] You were what? - [Circle] I was... I was told...

[Casper] We love you, Circle.

- When I, when I... - [Devon] We love you, Circle.

- [Circle] When I came here... - [Rachel] I missed you so much.

I was... I was... I was...

When I...came here...

- ..I could, I could leave... - [Casper] We love you.

- ..whenever... - [Sophia] We love you.

- [Valerie] Your soul has already left. - [Sophia] We gave you everything.

You keep calling me Sophie. My name's Sophia.

- [Cage rattles] - [Sophia] Bitch.

[Valerie] You couldn't even do yoga right.

If you wanted more, you could've had a conversation with us.

[Circle] Like, I did! I... I talked to all of you...!

- [Sophia] Is betrayal your love language? - Huh?

- Did you just wanna betray all of us? - [Circle] No!

Did you think that would get attention from us? 'Cause it worked.

You have our attention now.

[Casper] You just want so much attention, don't you?

[Sophia] You got everything you wanted, didn't you?

- Everyone talking about you all the time. - You want everyone talking about you.

[Sophia] Fucking cunt.

[Casper] You think you're prettier than all of us.

- [Sophia] Here come the waterworks. Fucking pathetic.

She needs to be clean.

[Circle gasps, breathes shakily]

- [Casper] Clean her. - [Penelope] Clean her.

[Casper] Clean her.

- [Penelope] Clean her. - [Casper] Clean her.

[Circle gasps, shudders]

[Eclipse] She needs to help out. She needs to give back to us.

[Sophia] She needs to speak up for herself.

Why don't you tell us about what you were thinking?

[Casper] You were so talkative before, why don't you talk now?

- [Sophia] She was so articulate. - [Penelope] Share with your family.

[Rachel] Fucking chatterbox before.

[Casper] We're your family, and we love you.

- [Casper] We love you. - [Valerie] We love you.

[Circle sobs loudly] Meredith! Meredith!

[Sophia] It's saying something. What's it saying?

- What are you saying? - Help!

- [Penelope] She's saying, "Clean me." - [Valerie] We are helping you.

- [Casper] We are helping you. - [Circle wails]

[Eclipse] You help us. You!

It's not too late to help us!

[Sophia] Okay, he's gonna break the cage.

- [Sophia] Fucking deal with this. - [Eclipse] Circle.

- Foot goes here. - [Circle] No!

- Yes. - No.

- No, no. - Yes.

- [Rachel] I think it needs another shower. - [Eclipse] Roxie?

- [Penelope] She needs to be clean. - [Roxie whispers] Yeah.

[Eclipse] Toes.

Here. Good, good.

Valerie. Valerie, my dear.

There you go.

Make her useful!

Make her give something back!

We gave her everything!

- You don't get it! You take everything... - We gave her everything!

..for granted. - [Valerie] Thank you Circle.

Thank you. - [Sophia] Eat your fucking hot dog.

[Circle gasps, sobs]

[Casper] How dare you take your community for granted?

- [Circle gasps] - What the fuck?!

- [Circle sobs, cage rattles] - [Rachel] Don’t feel sorry for yourself.

[Devon] You wanted more, and you have more!

You have five hot dogs right now, Circle!

- So, fucking eat them! - [Circle sobs loudly]

- [Devon] You have an extra bowl! - [Circle shrieks frantically]

I don't want your fucking hot dogs!

[Devon] You have...your own... bed!

- [Rachel] Pathetic. - [Sophia] Very masculine behaviour.

- [Eclipse] Say...thank you... - You don't wanna be with your sisters!

- ..for... - [Devon] You have your own bowl, Circle!

You have your own bowl!

..the fucking hot dogs!

[Circle sobs loudly]

[Eclipse] Say thank you!

- [Sophia] We love you. - Say you love us back!

[Eclipse] Say thank you!

[Casper] Say you love us!

[Circle wails]

[Sophia] This could be so easy.

[Circle sobs loudly]

I wanna go!

[Casper] No, you love us! Please!

[Rachel] I don't think she gets it.

[Sophia] None of this is working.

[Circle gasps]

[Devon] Circle, can you calm down for a moment?

[Valerie] You think this is bad?

[Devon] Will you talk to us?

- [Sophia] Just say you don’t wanna leave. - Please, let me go.

[Devon] Can we have a mature conversation, please?

[Circle sobs]

Can we? Can you do that for us?

[Sophia] She's not even making any sense.

[Sobbing continues]

[Devon] Circle, we're asking for one thing.

Can you have a conversation with us right now?

[She gasps, sobs]

[Sophia] We're not mad, we're just disappointed.

[Valerie] We just wanna understand.

[She sobs]

[Cage rattles, Circle spits]

Fucking bitch!

- [Devon] Circle, that's inappropriate. - [Valerie] Stop yelling.

[Penelope] We don't speak to family that way.

[Casper] I'm so worried for you.

[Circle gasps]

[Valerie] Why does she keep yelling at us?

[Sophia] It's out of control.

[Circle sobs loudly]

It hasn't eaten its hot dogs.

[Sobbing continues]

- [Casper] I'm worried for her. - I would never treat you like that.

[Sophia] You're surrounded by compassion, Circle.

[Circle wails shakily]

I would...

never...

[Rachel] All of this love and affection and you can’t even show any back.

[Sophia] You've criticised everybody in this group.

And now we have one thing to say to you, and you act like this.

[Circle sobs, wails]

Please, don't kill me!

Please, don't kill me!

[Valerie] That doesn't sound like an apology.

Please, I don't wanna die!

What should we do for dinner? I'm thinking Thai?

- I could do an egg roll. - [Roxie] Yeah.

- You wanna order? - Yeah, yeah.

- Okay, cool. - [Circle] I don't wanna die!

I don't wanna fucking die!

[Valerie] "Wah, wah, wah. I don't wanna die.

"I hate that I'm in a cage and getting everyone's attention."

[Circle gasps, sobs]

- Chicken or beef? - [Roxie] Chicken.

[Sophia] Fucking drama queen.

[Rachel] You got what you wanted. Centre of everyone's attention.

[Circle sobs loudly]

- [Rachel] Watch your fucking mouth. - [Circle] I feel like a dog.

You're fucking sick!

You're not a fucking cat, you fucking bitch!

- [Valerie] Look at yourself! - [Eclipse] Valerie...

- [Valerie] You're in a cage! - [Eclipse] Valerie, my dear...

[Valerie] You're wet!

- Forgive her. - Yeah.

- [Sophia] Yeah, we all forgive her. - I forgive you.

- We forgive you. - We forgive you.

- We love you. - [Circle] Please, let me go.

- Please, let me go. Please, fucking let me go. - [Valerie] You need to show repentence.

- Please. I don't wanna be here. - [Sophia] You’re everyone now.

I won't... I won't tell anybody, I won't tell!

I won't tell anybody about anything!

- Please, God, please! - [She kicks, cage rattles]

Please! Please! Please!

Please, let me go, I don't wanna die!

I don't wanna die! I don't...! Meredith!

Meredith, please! Meredith, please! Please!

- [Valerie] Your soul is free. - [Circle] Please, God!

Anybody! Please, God!

I don't wanna fucking die!

- [Sophia] You're so dysfunctional. - [Penelope] There's only us.

[Circle gasps, sobs loudly]

[Valerie] Look what a fucking mess she's making.

[Circle] I don't wanna die!

[Sophia] We're not giving up on you, Circle.

[Circle gasps, sobs loudly]

Fuck!

She's okay. She's gonna be okay.

[Circle whimpers]

I don't wanna fucking die.

- I don't wanna die. - [Water splashes]

- Please. - [Casper] Please!

[Circle] Casper. Casper.

[Sophia] It's really disappointing.

- [Circle] Casper, I'll tell them. - [Casper] No! No!

Fuck you! Get out of here!

- Shh! Shh! - [Circle] I'll tell them!

- Stop! Stop! - Why not? Why not?

[Plucked, rhythmic bass pattern]

[Circle] What the fuck are you...?

♪ You thought you were saying something

♪ You thought you were boiling me alive

♪ You thought you were opening your eyes

♪ But now

♪ You made me wanna die

♪ You thought

♪ That the world already loves you and

♪ You thought

♪ That you had a home to go to and

♪ You thought

♪ There's a sceptre waiting for you

♪ You thought you could take mine

♪ Now you're in a cage

♪ And I'm still free

♪ And I have promises to keep

♪ So, help me

♪ You! Will! Die! On! Your! Knees! ♪

Circle! Why did you do this to us?

- [Valerie] Why?! - [Rachel] Why?!

- [Bass playing continues] - [Rachel] You left us!

[Casper] Why?!

- [Eclipse] ♪ You thought... ♪ - [Casper] Why?!

- ♪ You were smarter than me... ♪ - [Devon] Circle, are you in there?!

[Eclipse] ♪ You thought... ♪

- Are you gonna come home... - ♪ You were more serious... ♪

- ..with your sisters, Circle?! ♪ ..than me... ♪

- We're all sisters here! - ♪ You thought! ♪

Circle, say you'll come home!

♪ You thought! ♪

Circle, say you'll come home!

Come home!

- Say it! - Circle!

[Cacophonous shouting; Bass playing continues]

Say you'll come home!

- Circle! - Circle!

Come home!

- We love you! - We love you!

We love you!

- We love you! - We love you, Circle!

[Bass playing continues]

[Casper] Stop!

You're so fucking selfish, Circle!

- [Sophia] We love you! - [Casper] Stop!

[Eclipse] ♪ I'm still fucking free! ♪

[Casper] We need you!

♪ So, if you lie and tell me this is bravery

♪ So! Help! Me!

♪ You! Will! Die!

♪ Like! A! Dog!

♪ You! Will! Die!

♪ Like! A! Man!

♪ You! Will! Die!

♪ Like! A! Bitch! ♪

- [Object clatters] - We need you!

- We love you. - [Circle] Fuck...

- [Izzy] Hi! - [Keller] Hi!

- Come here. - I'm coming!

- [Izzy] How are you? - I'm fucking tipsy.

- Yeah? Me, too. - [Both laugh]

- Yeah. - How was your night?

Bushwick as fuck... Bushwick as fuck!

I know.

Oh!

Um...

I met...

What the fuck, my vape's falling.

- I met a guy tonight. - Yeah?

Like, a guy...

I don't know if that's the right term.

- Okay. - What do you mean?

Okay, okay, okay, okay.

So, I met somebody...

..who I, like, think could be a really good guy...

- [Izzy] Okay? - [Keller] But...

- ..isn't. - Isn't a good guy, or isn't a guy...?

No, no, no, is good, is good, is good, is good.

- But isn't a guy, kind of. - [Izzy] Okay.

- Like, was. - [Izzy] Yeah.

- You know what I mean? - Yes, I get what you mean.

But isn't now.

- Okay. - But we were, like,

outside of this house party...

First of all, like, some shit went fucking down at this house party,

- but, like, I'll get to that. - [Izzy] Yeah, tell me.

But, um...

- Let me hit your vape. - Okay, okay. So, um...

some shit went down at this party, and then...

..we were outside, and I was kind of, like...

He has this long hair, and I was kind of pulling it back.

- [Izzy] Cute. - And there were these two dudes,

outside of the party, like, real dudes, outside this party,

and we were asking them, like,

"Do you think he would, like, be cute as a guy?"

And they were being, like, fucking woke about it

and speaking, like, roundabout, like, beating around the bush, kind of.

- [Izzy] Yeah. - But then, eventually,

they sort of acquiesced, and then...

I saw something change in his eyes,

where he was, like...

[Izzy] Like, recognised what...

Yeah, like, I think he, like, realised...

that...

it could be, like, a...

..viable option.

Um...

I mean, I'm sure you could, like, have that conversation with him.

Yeah, but I just met him, you know what I mean?

It's, like... But I see that...

You know, it's because, like, you know, I was fucking...

I used to do the fucking... shaved-head fucking thing.

- [Izzy] Yeah, totally. - So, like, I recognise

that type of thing where it's like, to what end?

- [Izzy] Yeah. - You know what I mean?

I know you know what I'm talking about, where it's, like...

..where it's, like...

how long do you...keep that shit going?

- You know what I mean? - It's not gonna last forever.

- No, it's untenable. - Yeah.

[Both laugh]

I mean, hopefully, fuck.

[Keller] But I spent, like, a really beautiful night with this person...

and I'm, like, I can't...

I can't fuck you as a girl, you know what I mean?

Especially because, like, I'm recognising that this is not a person

who's, like, living...honestly.

And they did express, like, a...

..reticence to...

..I don't know, like, the whole sort of trans thing that's going on with them.

- [Izzy] Yeah... - [Keller] And...

Like, he's coming to his truth, kind of, like...?

[Keller] Yeah, and, um...

I don't know, 'cause it's, like...

it feels bitchy of me to be, like,

imparting this upon somebody,

sort of so quickly into knowing them, but also it's, like, when I see that...

- [Izzy] You can probably see it, yeah. - 'Cause you're the same way,

where, like, when I see it, I see it, and so...

Yeah, but, like, I feel like tonight,

I, like, Bushwicked too close to the fucking sun a little.

[Izzy chuckles]

I'm glad you're here now.

Like, he didn't know anybody at the party.

He met, like, this one girl at the party that night, who brought him.

Her, whatever, you know what I mean.

- [Izzy] Yeah. - [Keller] Um...

And I asked him, I was, like, "Oh, do you, like, live in Bushwick,

"do you live around here?"

And he was, like...

he was like - and this is weird, and this is why I was, like...

why do I like this person so much, because this answer was fucking weird -

he was, like, "I live in a basement."

And I was like, "Okay, where?"

And he was, like, "I don't really know.

"I'm inside all the time."

And I was, like, "Okay, so you're, like, a hermit or whatever?"

And then he was, like, "No, like, I'm, like...

"this is my first time going outside in, like, a really long time,"

- like, "I'm not allowed..." - Wait.

"..to go outside."

And I was like, "Okay, you, like, you have, like, room-mates?"

And he was, like, "Yeah, I have..."

this is what he said, "eight or nine room-mates."

[Izzy] Okay...wait.

[Keller chuckles]

Did he ever, like, bring up anything about...

Okay, this is gonna sound funny,

but, like, did he ever bring up anything about hot dogs?

Yeah, actually, we went to, um...

this guy Brody's house that I know,

and we were sitting on the bed...

..and he was like, "All I've eaten today is hot dogs."

And I said, "What do you take on your hot dogs,

"like, relish or mustard, ketchup, or whatever?"

- And he was, like... - Girl.

.."Nothing. Just... I just eat them plain."

And then I was, like, laughing about that, 'cause, "You just eat the plain weenies,

- "a hot dog with no bun?" - Girl, that shit's a cult.

- That shit's a cult, straight up. - [Keller wheezes]

No, I'm serious. I've heard about that.

What, a hot-dog-with-no-bun cult? What are you talking about?

No, like, this guy lives in... There's a cult in that basement.

Like, a bunch of trans women that live in that cult, like...

Yeah, 100%, that's what it is.

- What do you mean... - You gotta go get him.

No, that's, like, scary shit.

No, what do you mean, it's a cult? I don't know what you're talking about.

No, like, I've heard about it and, like, I've heard, through people I know, like...

If they're talking about hot dogs, it's the one.

- [Keller laughs] - [Izzy] I know, I'm not even...

No, I'm not even fucking around... - No, but it sounds retarded, Izzy.

- No, but, Izzy, that sounds retarded. - No...

No, I know. You have to go get him. Like, that shit is...it's serious.

Like, if you think you could go and, like, get him out of there, you should.

Because that place is, like, really scary and fucked-up.

I'm.... 100%. Like, I'm not fucking with you.

Fucked-up as in, like, it's just crazy

that, like, eight people live together in a basement?

- No, like, they do, like, fucked-up shit. - [Keller] Like what?

Like, I don't know, I've heard, like, rumours and stuff,

or stories, I don't know, I just, like...

I-I've heard some, like, gnarly shit from people that I know and...

If, like, you...

What, they have, like, allegations or something?

[Izzy] It's... It's, like, bad. It's, like, bad shit.

If you think you could get him out of there, you should.

It's a full-on fucking cult.

- I'm not fucking with you. - [Keller] Of what? Like, of what?

What do they worship?

I don't know, girl. It's, like...

It's some crazy trans shit that I can't even, like...

I don't know, I'm not a part of it.

- [Keller] That's so weird. - [Izzy] No, no, I know.

Um...

Okay, so, I met a boy tonight who is a girl,

but also is a boy who I'm like, really smitten with,

who, like low-key f...

Okay, I low-key let him finger me in Maria Hernandez.

[Izzy laughs]

- Girl! - [She chuckles, inhales]

[Keller] I low-key let him finger me in Maria Hernandez.

And it's like, okay, so I made out with and got fingered

by a guy who's in a cult...

Is it like NXIVM? Like, what's the...?

- [Keller] Are they selling something? - I've just heard about it, and if that's, like,

if it all lines up and that's where he's at, like...

it'll be really fucking... It's a dangerous situation.

So, like, maybe you shouldn't go alone. I don't know.

I mean, I'm not gonna go, 'cause I don't fuck with that, but, like...

How do I even...?

How do I even show up? Is it even my place to show up to something like that?

How do I even...? What do I bring, like, a knife? To a cult?

I don't know, it's like, what if they jump me in and then.

Yeah, no, I would be, like... I'd be, like, ready for...

some crazy shit.

Like, you should be prepared, if you're gonna do that.

Like, if you care about him.

I mean, like, fuck it, if you don't.

I don't know if I care about him like that,

he just fingered the fuck out of me in the park.

He just fingered the fuck out of me in the park.

[She groans]

I don't know, I've been so bored with my life lately

that maybe, like, what I need is, I guess, to, like...

..get somebody out of a Bushwick basement...

tranny cult.

[Izzy] Yeah.

I should've stayed in Ohio.

Like, why do I live here, you know what I mean?

It's, like, these are the problems that you have

when you fucking move to New York City.

[Izzy] No, it's nuts.

- That sucks. - [Izzy] Yeah.

[Creaking]

- [Circle] I don't get it. - [All] I don't get it.

- [Circle] Fuck. - [All] Fuck.

- [Circle] How long...? - [All] How long?

- I'm having a good time. - It seems like she's getting comfortable.

- Yeah. - But, no, but...

I think if we get the beef pho,

I can add the basil to it.

[Roxie] Actually, I like gin. I don't know why I said that.

[Roxie chuckles]

[Justice[ You ever take a shot of...

[Roxie] No.

[Roxie indistinct]

- Wait, wait, wait. - [All] Wait, wait, wait.

[Roxie] Oh, absolutely.

You're that fucking paedophile.

[All] You're that fucking paedophile.

- You're that fucking paedophile. - Fucking paedophile.

Yeah.

- Yeah. - Yeah.

- [Cage rattles] - [Roxie] Oh, shit.

The coffee.

Oh, no.

[Circle] You fucked up, didn't you?

[All] You fucked up, didn't you?

Can I get a towel over here?

[Circle] Yeah, why doesn't somebody go get her a fucking towel?

[All] Why doesn't somebody go get her a fucking towel?

[Justice] Excuse me, sweetie.

[Roxie] Sorry, Eclipse. We may need a new amp.

- [Circle] Who gives a fuck? - [All] Who gives a fuck?

[Door shuts, Justice whistles]

- What the fuck do you want from me? - [All] What do you want from me?

- [Circle] Get off me. - [All] Get off me.

- [Eclipse] Come here. - [Devon] Come here.

[Eclipse] Come here.

[Eclipse whispers] Touch yourself.

- I'm not gonna do that. - [All] I'm not gonna do that.

- I'm not gonna do that. - [All] I'm not gonna do that.

- Why should I do that? - [All] Why should I do that?

[Roxie and Justice whisper]

- [Circle] It's so fucking cold. - [All] It's so fucking cold.

[Roxie] Yeah, absolutely.

- [Circle] Can I use the bathroom? - [All] Can I use the bathroom?

I don't know, can you?

[Circle groans, cult members mimic groaning]

[Roxie] Oh, shit!

- [Circle] Please just let me piss. - [All] Please just let me piss.

- [Circle] Wait, wait. - [All] Wait, wait.

[Indistinct chatter]

- [Eclipse] You’ll get excited. - [Roxie] ..a grooming Discord, was my guess.

[Justice] Okay.

[Roxie] Because it’s been a couple months.

[Roxie] Nothing's come up, yet.

[Indistinct chatter]

- [Roxie] Good op-sec. - [Justice] Oh yes.

- What the fuck's wrong with you? - [All] What the fuck's wrong with you?

[Indistinct chatter]

[Eclipse] You are...

[Roxie] ..but Google, that’s the problem.

What do you want me to do?

- [Roxie] You jailbroke it and stuff? - [Justice] Yes.

[Roxie] Nice. Nice. You gotta show me how to do that.

[Justice] It's easy. You go...

[Indistinct chatter]

[Eclipse] Say thank you.

Say thank you.

[Roxie] Under the toilet. You gonna check?

I would check every stall, just to...

'Cause if there is one with a camera...

- [Eclipse] Say...thank you! - [Cage rattles]

- Thank you. - [All] Thank you.

[Roxie] ..something that they're gonna hate. They're gonna hate to love.

- And they’re gonna have to watch it? - Yeah, they’re gonna have to watch it.

- Every frame. - Every frame.

[Justice] We still have enough, to make it worth our time.

[Roxie] Exactly.

[Cage rattles]

- [Circle] Please, stop. - [All] Please, stop.

I just wanna make sure you're comfortable.

[Circle whispers] Fuck...

- Somebody, please help me! - [All] Somebody, please help me!

- Help! Help! Help! Help! - Help! Help! Help! Help!

- Help! Help! Help! Help! Help! - Help! Help! Help! Help! Help!

Help! Help! Help! Help! Help!

[Dealer] All right.

Have you ever used one of these before?

A gun?

- [Dealer] Yeah. - Uh, no.

- All right. - No, ma'am, I have not.

[Dealer chuckles]

- Here. Just be very careful. - Okay.

I think you're gonna probably need to use...both hands.

You're kind of a small girl.

- It's not clicking. - Well, it needs bullets.

- What does this part do? - Yeah.

You don't wanna do that yet.

I mean, it's not loaded, so it doesn't really matter, but...

Here.

- It's really tough. - Wow, you're really weak.

- Oh. - [Both chuckle]

- Okay! - [Dealer chuckles]

I don't know, usually, tgirls are a little stronger, but...

What?

Well, y-y-you're trans, right?

- [Gun clacks] - I'm only...

The only reason I'm selling guns is to try to arm the dolls.

- I think community... - Arm the dolls.

- Yeah, we have to arm the dolls. - Right, right, yeah, I totally...

- Community has to stay together. - I totally concur, yeah, yeah.

- So, that's... I'm glad that that's me. - Yeah.

Well, let me give you some bullets.

- Again. - I would love bullets, yeah.

[Dealer] So, what are you using this for?

Is it for, like, a New York Times reporter...?

Like, where on the Jesse Singal Scale is this?

- The what? - The Jesse Singal Scale.

Like, are you...are you using the gun for, like, an opinion writer,

or a Supreme Court justice or...?

Yeah, man...

I'm gonna...

Yeah, I'm gonna kill some...

fuckin'...

uh, fascist...scum.

Some healthcare CEOs.

Wait, how long have you been living in New York?

[Keller] I've been here about two years?

- Two years? - [Keller] Mm-hm.

I don't think I've ever seen you at MIX or Figure It Out or,

uh, you know, any of the, cool trans events in Ridgewood.

Well, I'm...I'm sober, so...

[Dealer] Oh, I...I get it.

[Keller] Yeah, I don't... So, you know, it's tempting to go anywhere.

Are you sure you're trans?

Am I s...?

I'm s... Does a...

- [Dealer] I mean... - If a tree falls in a forest...

[Dealer] I don't wanna... I don't wanna transvestigate you, but, you know.

- No, tran... - I'm putting myself at risk by...

Listen, I'll take my shorts off right now, and I'll...

I'll crack...crack my legs open.

I think you should probably go.

Can I have this?

[Dealer] I think you should probably go.

- [Keller] But... - Yeah.

[Keller] But I have money to buy that.

[Dealer] I'm only selling guns to trans women.

- [Keller] And I'm that! - I don't think you are.

I transitioned when I was eight years old, so...I've just...

[Dealer] You have a very feminine bone structure, but I don't...

But, no, but, look... You see the...

I kind of have a strong brow bone, right?

[Gun cocks]

[Dealer] Get the fuck out.

You just said there's no bullets in it, so actually I'm not scared, so...

[Polygon AI] It is not.... It is not...

It is not abuse.

Conflict is...not abuse.

Conflict is...

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

[Roxie] What time is it?

- It's 4:48. - [Roxie] All right. The food's here?

- Yeah. - Okay.

[Sharp clap]

- Let’s do it. - Yup.

[Justice] All right, honey...you ready?

- Yeah. - [Justice] Are you gonna be good?

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

[Roxie] Come on. Come here.

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

- You can leave. - [Circle exhales]

- Wh...? - [Roxie] You can leave.

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

[Roxie] You’re okay.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

Some conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is...not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

[Circle splutters]

Was it fucking worth it?!

Was it worth it to fuck Roxie!

[Circle splutters]

[Keller] What?!

- [Circle splutters] - [Valerie] No?! No?! No one else?!

- [Keller] Oh, my God... - [Valerie] You fucking paedophile!

- I was 16! - Whoa, whoa, whoa, come on.

I don't know how much times you’ve...

- [Roxie] It's okay. - [Meredith] Fuck you!

[Keller] Okay, ladies, what the fuck is going on?!

- Who the fuck are you? - [Keller] Um...

- [Meredith] What is this? - [Justice] I got a meeting...

No, no, no. Hey. Hey!

I have your signature! I have your fucking signature!

- I have your fingerprints! - [Circle splutters]

- [Roxie] You're culpable! - Don't fucking yell at her!

I'm not fucking talking to her!

- [Keller] What is this?! - [Circle splutters]

- [Roxie] Guys, guys, guys... - [Keller] Is this...? Is it cum?!

[Circle splutters]

Guys, let's all take a deep breath here.

Let's figure this out.

- Let's figure this out. - [Keller] What the fuck happened?

[Keller] Okay, um... Oh, fuck, shit!

- Oh, God. Um... Okay... - [Roxie] ..be upstairs with your friends?

Oh, don't...shoot yourself. Uh...

Don't... Okay.

Oh, I'm really confused. Okay. Um...

I'm gonna... I'm gonna take that, okay?

- Oh. Oh, it's wet. I'm gonna take it. - [Meredith] Who the fuck are you?

- Okay... Yeah. There you go. - [Roxie] No, no, no, no, no!

Good girl, okay. Um...

- Just... - [Casper] You might wanna put that down.

Put that down.

- You might wanna put that down. - [Rachel] Don't point that over here.

- [Casper] Put that down! - [Rachel] Don't point that at me!

[Casper] Don't point that...! Don't!

[Roxie] It's not what it sounds like. It's not...

- [Meredith] What the fuck is it, then?! - It's not what it looks like.

- You're not wanted here. Get out! - Put the fucking gun down!

[Casper] You're not wanted here! Get out!

Get out!

Get out!

- Put it down. Stop. - Who is she?!

- [Keller] I'll fucking shoot you, bitch! - I don’t...?

- [Circle groans] - [Keller] Get... Go!

Jesus Christ!

Don't fucking... Don't fucking...!

Bitch, I've got a gun in my fucking hand!

[Keller screams]

- Circle, let's go! Slide up the stairs! - [Eclipse falls]

- [Circle groans] - Stay down!

Oh, fuck! We should have just left the...

[indistinct]

Oh, my God!

Do you have a towel or something?

- [Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse. - [Keller] Fuck, you smell so crazy.

[Polygon AI] ..is not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

[Meredith] I’m so sorry.

[Eclipse] Valerie?

- Hi. - Hi.

[Meredith] Eclipse is here. Eclipse is here.

[Eclipse] You did good.

- You did really good. - [Valerie inhales]

[Meredith] It's okay. Hey, hey, hey. Hey.

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

Thanks for all the K, I guess.

It helped.

[Valerie breathes heavily]

Okay. You're safe now.

We let it out here.

Hey.

You're tough, and you're gonna do okay out there.

You don't need...me.

You don't need Meredith, or Devon, or anybody else.

[Meredith] You're gonna do such good things.

- [Eclipse]You're gonna be okay out there. - I'm gonna get my GED.

- You’re gonna get your GED. - Yes.

Maybe I can... Maybe I can work in HR, like you.

- And I can have a cheeseburger. - [Meredith] A burger sounds good.

I can finally learn how old I am,

'cause I don't know what fucking year it is.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

[Sophia] You should eat plant-based.

[Valerie] Maybe.

- [She chuckles] - No veggie dogs.

I'm never eating a fucking hot dog again in my life.

- [Meredith chuckles] - You can have a veggie burger.

They never tasted good.

No, they really didn't.

I didn't even finish most of them.

I'm not gonna hold it against you now.

Thank you for understanding.

[Sophia mumbles, Meredith chuckles]

- I don't know what that is. - [Meredith chuckles]

You’ll know the whole world.

[Valerie] Is that the thing you get from raw eggs?

You're gonna get to be a real... person now.

- You get to see the real world. - A person?

- And burgers... - [Meredith] And a cat, if you want.

[Valerie] I've never... I've never been a person.

- My hands! - You got thumbs, baby!

- I have thumbs! - You have thumbs.

- I can open doors! - Yeah!

You can open the door and get right out of here.

We should do that.

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

I got you. I got you.

- I'm taking this fucking jacket off. - Okay.

I don't know about you guys, I could fuck up some pad thai right now.

[Lively chatter]

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

[Valerie] Kill yourself!

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

[Casper] I guess the hot dogs?

- Yeah? - Yeah.

I liked... I liked everything about this place.

- Like what? - I don't know, I just,

I finally felt like I was part of something, you know?

Like...

Part of a real...

community.

- Yeah? - [Casper] Yeah.

I don't know if I felt that.

You didn't? I kind of felt that from you, actually.

How so?

I felt like you were here, like...

running away from something, maybe.

- Aren't we all? - Yeah, but you for real.

[Rachel] What about me, specifically?

Rachel, I have to admit something to you.

[Rachel] Yeah?

I...

I'm not trans.

What?

You know I'm not trans.

No, I... What the fuck are you talking about?

- I pass to you? - [She chuckles]

Yeah. You're serving fish all the time. What are you talking about?

Oh, my God, first of all, that's an incredible compliment.

- I really appreciate it. - [She chuckles]

But I have to tell you something else.

What...? What could be more shocking than that?

I...am...

I am a fed.

- [Rachel] Oh, that, I knew. - What?!

Oh, it was fucking obvious, are you kidding me?

I've been assigned to you,

to arrest you at some point, but I just fucking love this shit.

Is this some fucking Kindergarten Cop shit you're doing?

You're so obvious with it, it's... Yeah, I don't know. I knew.

Oh, so, that's why you kind of didn't like me in the beginning?

- What do you mean...? - You didn't...

We had camaraderie! What are you talking about?

You were suspicious of me.

No, I've looked... I-I saw you, and I was, like, respect,

- you know, another operator in the field. - No, you weren't.

I saw your eyes and you were, like, "I don't like this bitch."

Whatever. Speak for yourself.

Just admit it to me, and then we can leave.

All right, you pissed me off sometimes. But you know what? I respect...

I respect why you're here.

- You're here for me, are you not? - I'm here for you.

[Rachel] Then why am I not in cuffs right now?

Because I like you.

And I'm really... I really don't wanna go.

- [Roxie] Why don't you guys get a room? - Oh, fuck off.

I really wish you wouldn't have fucked this up for us.

I guess we... I guess we have to go.

I'm not gonna... I'm not gonna...

I couldn't bring you in, so...

just keep the crimes...a little chill.

You couldn't bring me in? I've done some fucked-up shit.

Keep the crimes a little chiller, when we're out there, okay?

Just a little... Lay low, and I won't...

You do you, I'll do me, and just, like...

[Polygon AI] It is not abuse.

..don't...don't make me have to fucking bring you in, okay?

Deal?

[Rachel] Yeah. Deal...Officer.

[Casper chuckles]

Wanna get a hot dog? I'm hungry.

I actually want a hot dog so badly.

You know what I want is condiments on that hot dog.

Yeah, I haven't had one of those in... who knows how long.

I want ketchup, mustard and mayo.

- [Rachel] Yeah. - With a bun.

[Rachel] Oh. So, yeah, they come with buns.

- I forgot about that part. - [Casper] Me, too!

[Casper chuckles]

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is...

not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

[Roxie] What?

What?

Is that...? Is that your answer for this?

What do you mean?

All of that...

and you still haven't figured out the fucking question?

I don't know what that means.

You're not good at this.

I'm the one who's good at this.

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

[She chuckles]

[She cackles, wheezes]

[Eclipse splutters]

Oh, man.

Oh, man.

[Polygon AI] ..not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

Shit!

[Polygon AI continue speaking]

Conflict is not abuse.

You fucking need this more than I do.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict...

it is not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

[Mask clatters]

Take care of yourself, boo boo.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is...

not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

Conflict is...

not abuse.

Conflict is...

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Roxie?

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is...

It's not abuse.

I'm really disappointed in you.

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

- [Roxie] Uh-huh. - And we have a lot to clean up.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

I'm not...targeting you right now.

[Roxie] Give it a rest! Jesus fucking Christ!

[Polygon AI] It is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

- [Clatter] - Conflict is...

It's not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is...

It's not abuse. It is not... It is not...

It is not abuse.

[Roxie exhales]

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

- Conflict is not abuse. - [Devon] We should start cleaning.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is...

not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

- [Devon] I’m gonna find another towel. - [Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not...

[Roxie] Hey.

Just go.

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not...

Go!

[Roxie snaps fingers]

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is...

not abuse. It is not... It is not...

It is not abuse.

[Polygon AI continues speaking]

- [Devon] I'm not leaving. - [Roxie] It's over. Go.

- Maybe you should leave. - [Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is...

not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is...

You missed a spot.

..not abuse.

Conflict is not...

[Roxie] Shut up!

[Polygon AI] Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is not abuse. Conflict is not abuse.

Conflict is...

is not abuse.

It is not... It is not... It is not abuse.

[Crackling, on headphones]

[Felicity] Hey, puppy.

I’ve come to ring your bell.

[Roxie] So, uh...

did you see what happened?

[Felicity] Did I see what happened which time?

[Roxie] Never mind.

[Felicity] I ran into one of your offspring.

[Roxie] What? Don't even tell me.

- [Felicity] Long, blonde hair. - [Roxie] Okay.

- [Felicity] Narrow, kind of pretty face. - [Roxie] Mm-hm.

She looked, um... She looked like you had had your way with her.

[Roxie] All right.

Let's...

How bad is it?

Well, I don't know if it's any worse than last time,

but you made it through that one okay.

[Roxie] Mm-hm.

[Felicity] I don't know why, but some people just seem to have, uh...

an appetite for self-destruction.

A bad star, as one might say.

- [Felicity] Yeah. - Born under one.

[Felicity] Yeah, yeah, yeah.

No, uh...

I guess I...

I'm curious how you're feeling, or...

[Roxie] I feel like either it hasn't hit me yet,

or I'm so jaded that it's, like...

I don't even care.

[Felicity] Can I ask, like, what exactly...

you thought it was that you were doing?

Let's talk about something nicer.

You know, remember when we made that video,

about The Crying Game?

- You came to my place in Richmond? - Yeah.

- And we were hanging all weekend. - [Felicity] Yeah.

It was... It was a beautiful time.

- I mean, everything... - [Roxie] What happened?

[Felicity] Time, just... it moves in one direction,

away from whatever good things are happening in our lives...

..towards the ultimate bad.

[Roxie] Mm-hm.

But, um...

it was a good video, I guess.

It was all right.

[Felicity] Well, it's caused me no end of trouble

to appear in the SEO next to you...

..because of one time we had to get together

- and talk about The Crying Game. - Mm-hm.

[Felicity] You, me, The Crying Game...

- [Roxie] It's not great. - ..coming up.

[Roxie] Mm-hm.

[Felicity] It's not something that I necessarily relish, but, like...

I don't know.

I'm a little older,

if you wouldn't mind me speaking in a sage tone of voice, like...

[Roxie] Mm-hm.

..it seems to just be what life is.

You accumulate these mistakes on the public record...

..you try to move forward...

and then...the, uh...

the sum of them is what constitutes, I guess, your life.

At the end of the day.

And your life seems to have...

- quite a few of these incidents. - Mm-hm.

- Yeah. - [Felicity] And, um...

..I just wonder why that is.

There's no reason it had to be like this.

I mean, apart from the star or whatever that you were born under.

Mm-hm.

[Felicity] But...

I want you to know that I have your back.

[Roxie] Let's just sit here for a minute, you know?

All right.

It's a beautiful day. I love your outfit.

[Eerie music]

[Music continues]

[Music continues]

[Music continues]

[Music concludes, resonates]

[Warbling distortion]

[Shaver buzzes]

[Keller laughs, snorts]

It's so uneven.

I'll get that later.

[Circle chuckles]

- You doing good back there? - [Keller] What?

- [Circle] Are you doing good back there? - I think I'm, like...

It's working, but I feel like it's happening so slowly.

- Well, I trust you. - [Keller] Okay.

I trust you.

[Keller] You have so much hair.

- You had so much hair. - [Circle chuckles]

Now you have half a bob.

We'll get there.

[Circle chuckles, exhales]

It's crazy how fast these work.

And I’m getting this.

I wonder if I could give myself, like, a line-up with this.

- [Circle chuckles] - Could I?

Can I do this? There you go. We can just go...

- across! - [Circle chuckles, Keller snorts]

[Keller] Am I hurting you?

- A little bit, it's okay. - [Keller] Oh, no. I'm sorry.

- I'm, like, really fucking this up. - [Circle chuckles]

It's okay. Doesn't matter.

- It's the thought that counts. - [Keller] It's the thought that counts.

Wait, oh, I figured out what makes it cut. Okay.

- [She laughs] - I was, like, rubbing it against...

these...

- but it's that down there. - Yeah, no, that's the thing.

Crazy of me to not realise that.

Okay. Oh, my God, that was so much faster.

[Both laugh]

You gotta go all the way through...

Oh, shit, and that's what makes it loud.

Okay. I've never...

It's like I'm putting my head in a blender.

When my head was shaved in college, I had somebody else do it, so...

I really didn't pay attention.

I’d make my room-mate do it every time, I'd keep my eyes closed.

[Circle chuckles, inhales]

[Keller] That's how I knew it probably wasn't for me, you know?

But you're doing good. I mean...

It’ll take nicely.

You have, like, knots in your hair!

- Look at this. - I probably should have combed it.

[Keller] It's like a dreadlock.

Wait, put your head forward a little bit. There you go.

It's so much.

[Keller] Oh, that's fast.

I'm realising I'm, like, actually doing this so fucking wrong.

I learned nothing. I learned nothing from undergrad.

I didn't learn how to shave somebody else's head...

I didn't learn how to, like, do K without throwing up.

Didn't learn anything.

No, I'm doing a good job, actually.

Wait, actually, this looks good! Okay.

You look like one of the guys from ABBA a little bit.

[Circle laughs]

[Circle] Gimme a man after midnight.

- [Keller] Won't somebody help me... - [Circle chuckles]

..chase the shadows away.

It's uneven as fuck.

It's uneven as fuck, and I just got it all over your back.

We're getting there, we're getting there.

Getting there, getting there.

What if I gave you, like... a low taper from the back?

- [Circle laughs] - "I like your cut, G!"

- I'm the Dominican barber. - [Circle chuckles]

- I've lived in Brooklyn so long... - [Circle laughs]

..that I have become Dominican barber,

destroyer of worlds.

This is easy. It's actually easy, once you get the hang of it.

This side is shorter than the other side.

In a big way. I mean, I'm actually...

No, I'm gonna get this right.

[She sniffles]

[She sniffles]

- [Keller] Are you okay? - Yeah, no, it's...

it's good, it's just that, you know, it's been a...it's been a...

[She exhales]

- ..it's been a long time. - [She sniffles]

It's good. It's good.

[Train approaches]

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The next stop is Flushing Avenue.

Stand clear of the closing doors, please.

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The next stop is Lorimer Street.

Stand clear of the closing doors, please.

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for real-time elevator status at your station.

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The next stop is Marcy Avenue.

Stand clear of the closing doors, please.

[Gentle strumming]

[PA] This is Marcy Avenue.

[Circle plays "Will the Circle Be Unbroken?"]

♪ There are loved ones in the glory

♪ Whose dear forms you often miss

♪ When you end your earthly story

♪ Will you join them in their bliss?

♪ Will the circle be unbroken

♪ By and by Lord, by and by

♪ There's a better home awaiting

♪ In the sky, in the sky

♪ You remember songs of heaven

♪ Which you sang with childish voice

♪ Will you love the songs they taught you

♪ Or are songs of earth your choice?

♪ Will the circle be unbroken

♪ By and by, Lord, by and by?

♪ There's a better home awaiting

♪ In the sky, in the sky.

♪ You remember cheerful gatherings

♪ Round the campfire long ago

♪ Did you think of tearful partings

♪ When they left you here below?

♪ Will the circle be unbroken

♪ By and by, Lord, by and by?

♪ There's a better home awaiting

♪ In the sky, in the sky.

♪ One by one their seats were emptied

♪ One by one they turned away

♪ Now the family is parted

♪ Will it be complete one day?

♪ Will the circle be unbroken

♪ By and by, Lord, by and by?

♪ There's a better home awaiting

♪ In the sky, in the sky.

♪ Will the circle be unbroken

♪ By and by, Lord, by and by?

♪ There's a better home awaiting

♪ In the sky, in the sky

♪ In the sky... ♪

[Vigorous strumming]

♪ In

- ♪ The sky. ♪ - [Playing concludes]

[PA] This is Delancey Street/Essex Street.

Transfer is available for the F, J and Z trains.

Transfer is also available for the M14A select bus service.

[Silence]

[YouTuber] This isn't, like, another doll customisation video.

Well, it is a doll customisation video, I suppose.

Yeah, but if you haven't guessed,

it's, like, another one in my DIY trans healthcare series.

This is, like, something that people have been asking for for a while.

Er, this has been a much requested video. I do read you guys' comments.

Yeah, today's video is on how to do your own orchiectomy.

- [Tiffany] I think I'm...trans. - [Music - "Fantasy Girl" by Ravine Angel]

I think I'm a trans girl.

A trans woman.

Are you su...? Wha...?

Yeah, and I picked out the name Tiffany.

I... Okay, for starters, like...

..my cousin's kid is named Tiffany, so, like, that's not gonna work.

Being socialised as a woman is, like, it's really traumatising,

so, I don't know if that's true,

but I guess I hear you.

Yeah, well, honestly, it'd be good for you guys

maybe to, like, if one of you guys ever wanted to come to my group

and, like, you could talk about how to get socialised as a woman.

- [Music continues] - I mean, you're laughing at it.

It just feels like you got no, like, fucking theory of mind at all, you know?

- What the fuck does that mean? - It means you have no empathy, Michaela.

- Like... - Okay, no, I have empathy.

I'm just, I'm not gonna have empathies over, like, you know, a stu...

[Music continues]

It.. You know, it's just a cartoon, right?

[Persephone] I just think you guys should get into crypto.

Like, it's really changed everything in my life.

Like, I... I don't even need to leave my house.

- Like, what would you even buy? - Just buy some digital bullshit.

I got my fortune doing a carpet-pull on MelaniaCoin.

Okay, so, I'm trans, my girlfriend knows I'm trans,

my work knows I'm trans. Like, who fucking gives a shit, right?

It's, like, I don't need to come in and be, like, "Oh, I'm a little cis missy,

"I got a big fucking vagina."

It's, like, no, I have a big fucking cock.

I'm a tgirl. Deal with it. It doesn't fucking matter!

It doesn't affect my life in all ways.

If somebody wants to assault me for it, I'll punch him in the nose.

- Fuck! - [Music continues]

I'm really sorry! I'm really sorry.

Oh, please. No! No! Sora, Sora, baby!

Stop, stop, stop, stop. No, no, no. No, no, no.

No more hitties. No more. No more.

No, no, no. Stop. Stop, stop, stop.

Mommy will get it for you. Mommy will get it for you.

Don't worry, it's okay, it's okay,

it's okay, it's okay, it's okay. It's okay.

I mean, like, there are some girls there who have been out to get me since day one,

um, who just, like, obviously miss the person who was running it beforehand

and, like, you know, I was already on their shit list,

so, like, I don't think that's fair.

- Like, it can't be like everyone's upset. - [Kane] Did you ask...

Did you ask people their...

- HRT start dates? - Oh.

- [Tweadle] No. - [Michaela] I just... I...

You know, I wanted to make sure that they were...

You did ask people their HRT start dates...

- I'll write that down. - ..and criticised their outfits and...

and-and voice...

You told them they needed voice training?

[Tweedle] Michaela.

I just, I don't feel like it's fair

for you to get to be in the position that I'm in as a woman.

Like, you don't get to be in those spaces like I get to be in those spaces, okay?

You're Trent, you're you, and that's...

- [Tiffany] I'm Tiffany. - No, you're not!

Like...

It's crazy that you just get to come up with that now,

and you get to live this experience that isn't yours.

Like, you've watched me, we've been in this relationship for fucking nine years,

and you wanna be where I'm at, and you're never going to be like me.

[Music continues]

[Izzy] Okay? You're, like, putting it on.

Like, you think you can, like, put on a fucking dress

and do your fucking make-up like I do mine

and you get to be me, and you don't.

Okay? And it fucking scares me to have people like you

be in fucking spaces that I get to be in, okay,

and I get to feel safe in,

and you come in there, and you're fucking scaring me.

And the way that you're going about this is, like, so wrong.

Like, you're so fucking aggressive about it.

And it's, like, you don't know what it takes to be a woman,

like, in the slightest, like, you just don't 'cause you're not one.

Okay?

[Music continues]

♪ Someday I'll be far away from you

- ♪ It'll be the sweetest memory... ♪ - [Water rushes, bubbles]

♪ Let me be your fantasy girl

♪ Let me be your fantasy

♪ Please just give me some direction

♪ I'm so tired of being this. ♪

[Music stops abruptly]

Descriptive subtitles by Matchbox Cine