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Uh, in honor of my father's life, I would, um,

like to share with you the-- the five things

that I love most about him.

He, um…

I'm sorry.

("Strangers" by Ethel Cain playing)

♪ In your basement, I grow cold ♪

♪ Thinking back towhat I was always told ♪

♪ "Don't talk to strangers or you might fall in love" ♪

♪ Freezer bride, your sweet divine ♪

♪ You devour like smoked bovine hide ♪

♪ How funny, I never considered myself ♪

♪ Tough ♪

♪ You're so handsome ♪

♪ Walking over to me now... ♪

♪ And I'll see you when you ♪

♪ Get here. ♪

It's a strong chair.

Is it?

I'm s-- I'm sorry.

It's-it's been a day. (sighs)

Will you please get down from there?

Um, I'm good. Thanks.

How far would you go?

I'm not sure. I'm an unreliable narrator.

You could try me.

("Hymn" by Rhye playing)

♪ I'm in a wicked state ♪

♪ So come on fade ♪

♪ So come on ♪

♪ Fade ♪

♪ I'm all alone ♪

♪ Just call my name ♪

♪ Come on, love ♪

♪ Just call my name... ♪

Too far?

No.

♪ I'm warm ♪

♪ I'm not a restless heart ♪

♪ I feel a part of you... ♪

This?

Depends what happens next.

♪ I'm in a wicked state ♪

-Ah, shit.

♪ So come on fade... ♪

Yeah. (sighs)

No, I'm not supposed to--

Okay, prep the O.R.

Tell Tom he's cutting. I'm gonna supervise.

All right, I'll be there in ten.

It was nice meeting you, Ryle Siegfried Kincaid.

I like that.

Oh, shit.

ATLAS: Thank you.

("Girl in Calico" by Tow'rs playing)

♪ It's on your lips ♪

♪ Held like a fist ♪

♪ A concussive wish to know you ♪

♪ You still laugh ♪

♪ To talk of the past ♪

♪ Now contrast, we're strangers ♪

♪ I still recall the day that we met ♪

♪ You were wearing your calico dress ♪

♪ And out of all the things that I regret ♪

♪ Honey, you are not one of them ♪

Thank you.

I don't know what you're talking about.

♪ We are mirrors ♪

♪ The color clear... ♪

So, why are you at that house?

My mom kicked me out.

Oh, my God, it's still attached.

-Got it. -God, I can't watch. (screams)

Oh.

-(Lily chuckles) -Yeah. Yeah!

♪ The best things in life are free ♪

♪ But you can give them to the birds and bees ♪

♪ I need money ♪

♪ That's what I want ♪

-♪ That's what I want - That's ♪

♪ What I want ♪

-♪ That's what I want - That's ♪

♪ What I want ♪

-♪ That's what I want - That's what I want... ♪

You're like Dr. Frankenstein

-but with flowers. -(chuckles)

-Oh. Whoo! -Okay. No, no.

We got it, we got it. We got it.

Ah, you're even more terrifying in the daytime.

-Same. -Okay, guys?

Idea.

Let's go have some dumb fun today.

♪ We've come a long ♪

♪ Long way together... ♪

I've gone up to the roof a few times.

Hoping you might be up there.

♪ Hard times and the good ♪

I want to see you again.

♪ I have to celebrate you, baby ♪

♪ I have to praise you... ♪

Well, now you see me.

You know what I mean.

What made you want to start growing things?

When I take really good care of these plants,

they reward me with flowers and vegetables.

And when I don't, they just shrivel up and die.

Kind of like us.

♪ Thousand tiny birds singing ♪

♪ If you must, you must... ♪

What about that oak tree?

It doesn't need anybody to grow

because it's capable of taking care of itself.

No matter what, it'll keep standing.

Strong and sturdy, and...

Yeah, it survives because it's a goddamn oak tree.

♪ Of the dawn chorus ♪

♪ If you could do it all again ♪

♪ You don't know how much ♪

♪ Pronto pronto, moshi mosh ♪

♪ Come on, chop chop ♪

-ANDREW: It's embarrassing. -JENNY: I-I wouldn't...

-I didn't... -You embarrassed me.

With your dad and your mom.

I don't... Okay, yeah.

Does that happen a lot?

♪ If you could do it all again ♪

♪ Yeah, without a second thought ♪

♪ I don't like leaving ♪

I'm sorry.

♪ The door shut ♪

♪ I think I missed something. ♪

Hey, Lily.

-Do you want to do the honors? -No, you-you go ahead.

I want to take it in from here.

I was hoping you'd say that. Okay.

Goodbye.

Oh, my God.

He's such a dumbass.

He put the name of our shop as the delivery address.

Weird first customer.

♪ You ♪

-♪ Swish, ooh, ay ♪

-♪ Watch out, watch out ♪

♪ Watch out, yeah ♪

♪ That's my shot, that's my shot ♪

♪ That's my shot, yeah ♪

♪ Spendin', I'm spendin' ♪

♪ All my fuckin' pay... ♪

Happy birthday. I'm gonna go grab a drink.

-I'll be right back. -Okay, thank you.

Okay, okay. Yeah, yeah, you are a man of the people.

No one's saying that you're not.

♪ With every little stupid thing you say ♪

♪ And every time you touch me... ♪

You didn't like the flowers?

Stop flirting with me.

Excuse me. You're on my hand.

Thank you.

♪ No, I'm your last one, last one ♪

♪ No, I'm your last one, last one ♪

♪ You love me like you never had anyone leave you... ♪

-Hi. -Come on.

-What? -What are you doing?

Nothing.

You gotta, you gotta stop.

You have to stop this.

I'm trying here.

Go on.

♪ You love me like you never been left ♪

♪ You love me like you never had anyone leave you ♪

♪ No, I'm your last one... ♪

Do you want to go somewhere more private?

To talk?

To talk.

Okay.

A normal person would just leave and go to therapy.

What are you talking about?

RYLE (voice-over): I want to try.

(voice-over): I want to try.

♪ Whispered something in your ear ♪

LILY (voice-over): Come on. You think you can do this?

♪ It was a perverted thing to say ♪

RYLE (voice-over): I have no idea.

♪ But I said it anyway ♪

But I definitely want to kiss you again.

LILY (voice-over): Well, that I can do.

♪ Made you smile and look away ♪

Okay. But don't make me regret this.

♪ Nothing's gonna hurt you, baby ♪

♪ As long as you're with me ♪

♪ You'll be just fine ♪

♪ Nothing's gonna hurt you, baby ♪

♪ Nothing's gonna take you from my side ♪

♪ When we dance in my living room ♪

♪ To the silly ♪

♪ '90s R&B ♪

♪ When we have a drink or three ♪

♪ Always ends in a hazy shower scene ♪

♪ Nothing's gonna hurt you, baby. ♪

Hey.

Mmm. Good morning.

Mmm, mm-mm. You've already brushed your teeth.

Boston doesn't have you.

I'm gonna miss you.

Same.

I don't know how you did it.

But somehow, you became my favorite person.

Same.

♪ Come on, skinny love ♪

♪ Just last the year ♪

♪ Pour a little salt ♪

♪ We were never here ♪

♪ My, my, my ♪

♪ My, my, my, my, my, my, my... ♪

-Hey. -What?

(whispering): Are you sure?

-Yeah. -Okay.

Yeah.

♪ I tell my love to wreck it all ♪

♪ Cut out all the ropes and let me fall ♪

I don't have a condom.

I have one.

You do?

It's health class.

♪ This order's tall... ♪

(inhales sharply) I've-- I've never done this before.

-(sighs) -It's okay.

-Okay. -I'm no expert.

I've only done it once.

-Okay. -Okay.

Okay.

♪ And I told you to be kind ♪

♪ And in the morning, I'll be with you... ♪

RYLE: I've been studying them since they were born,

-since I've been a resident. -Um, I-- You guys keep--

I'm gonna use the bathroom real quick.

-JENNY: Okay, honey. -Yeah. (chuckles)

-Okay. (chuckles) -You get to know each other.

-All right. -Okay, I'll be right back.

♪ Who will fall far behind? ♪

Lily Bloom.

Atlas. (sighs)

You look... (chuckles)

Yeah, you... (stammering) You, uh...

Oh, God, thank you. I--

I mean, my mom didn't recognize you, so...

-(chuckles) -It's probably for the best.

Okay. Get out of here.

I'll-I'll-- Yeah.

-I'm gonna go. All right. -Okay.

♪ Love ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ I said real ♪

♪ Love ♪

♪ Is like feeling no fear ♪

♪ When you're standing in the face of danger ♪

♪ 'Cause you just want it so much ♪

♪ A touch... ♪

RYLE: ...once-in-a-lifetime operation.

MARSHALL: Lily! What are you drinking?

Oh, I'll have wine, please.

Yeah, we had an older brother, Emerson.

Um, and he died when we were younger.

Oh, I'm so sorry.

-(man shouting excitedly) -MAN: Goal!

-(all cheering) -Yeah!

♪ I fall to pieces ♪

♪ I fall to pieces when I'm with you. ♪

-Am I okay? -You're okay. You're okay.

Okay.

♪ Let me put the water in the bowl ♪

♪ For your wounds, babe ♪

♪ Let me fill you up with the fingers of love ♪

♪ You can't lose, babe ♪

♪ When you watch me play, does it feel bad, darlin' ♪

♪ When they choose me? ♪

♪ Say again, this place ♪

♪ Say again, this place ♪

♪ I broke my neck ♪

♪ Dancing to the edge of the world, babe ♪

♪ My mouth is wet... ♪

Lily! Oh, my God.

Did you see it? Did you see the magazine?

You did it. Look at this.

Top ten. We're in the top ten.

-Oh, oh, my God. -There's you. Oh, my God.

I'm gonna call Ryle and then tell him to get

-50 copies of this thing. -(laughing)

♪ Here is your princess ♪

♪ And here is the horizon. ♪

-Hey. -Hey.

You saw? (chuckles)

-Congratulations. -Yeah, thank you.

Lily, if you take him back,

I will never speak to you again.

(softly): Come here. Come here. Come here.

I'm so sorry.

LILY: You're the best friend I ever had. (chuckles)

I'll be an even better auntie.

(softly): Sweetheart.

♪ We gather here ♪

♪ We line up ♪

♪ Weeping in a sunlit room ♪

♪ And if I'm on fire ♪

♪ You'll be made of ashes, too ♪

♪ Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe... ♪

Uh, that side. Yeah, if I hold it like this,

I think it'll be a little easier.

-Righty-tighty, I think. -Yep. Come on.

-I'm sorry. -No, no.

You got it. You got it.

Your dad always did this stuff.

Oh, well, I'm sure you built a thing or two in your life.

No, no. No, no.

-That was always his domain. -Oh, come on.

It doesn't want to go in there.

-Oh. -Um...

♪ Flying around, saving face... ♪

Wh-Why did you stay with him?

♪ Why are you at the wake? ♪

♪ Cursing my name... ♪

It would've been harder to leave.

♪ Look how my tears ricochet ♪

And I loved him. (sighs)

Yeah, me, too.

I think I got it.

♪ Never knowing what they'll mean... ♪

And that's the heartbeat.

-LILY: Mm. -JULIE: Look at that.

Do you want to know?

You can tell already?

I can.

♪ You know I didn't want to... ♪

Okay.

Yeah. Yeah.

-Yeah? -Yeah.

Okay.

♪ You wear the same jewels that I gave you... ♪

-Can you see that? -Uh-huh.

JULIE: That's her little head.

Hi.

Hi, baby girl.

Her, huh? (chuckles)

♪ You used to tell me I was brave... ♪

Hi.

Hi, my baby girl.

♪ Cursing my name ♪

♪ Wishing I stayed ♪

♪ Look at how my tears ricochet ♪

♪ And I can go anywhere I want ♪

♪ Anywhere I want, just not home ♪

♪ And you can aim for my heart, go for blood ♪

♪ But you would still miss me in your bones ♪

♪ And I still talk to you ♪

♪ When I'm screaming at the sky ♪

♪ And when you can't sleep at night ♪

♪ You hear my stolen lullabies ♪

(sighs) It's always...

Yeah. Oh, thank you.

♪ I didn't have it in myself ♪

♪ To go with grace ♪

♪ And so the battleships will sink beneath... ♪

Is she kicking?

Oh, yeah.

(sighs) Yeah.

♪ You had to kill me, but it killed you ♪

♪ Just the same, cursing my name... ♪

All right.

Here you go. Grab this side.

Thank you.

Yeah, perfect. I can clean all this up, so...

Okay. (sighs)

♪ Cursing my name ♪

♪ Wishing I stayed ♪

♪ Look at how my tears ricochet. ♪

Do you want to feel... before you go?

I-If you want.

-Is she kicking now? -(chuckles) Always.

Yeah.

-Uh, yes. -Yeah. Okay.

Yeah, go ahead. Yeah.

-Here. Right here. -Oh.

(chuckles) There she is.

Yeah.

Big old noggin. You feel that?

Yeah, that's Emmy.

I saw you guys before. I just...

-Mm-hmm. -I didn't...

Yeah.

-She's beautiful. -Oh. (chuckles)

Thanks.

Are you still with...

No.

No, no, it's-- it's, uh, just us.

Oh.

Wow.

♪ You know that I've been there, too... ♪

-Are... you with anyone? -How's the store?

♪ Feels like the world's gonna end ♪

No.

♪ But I'll get you through ♪

Not yet.

♪ If it's the last thing I do ♪

♪ I'm gonna love ♪

♪ The hell out of you ♪

♪ Take all the pain ♪

♪ That you're going through ♪

♪ I'll bring you heaven ♪

♪ If that's what you need ♪

♪ 'Cause you've always loved ♪

♪ The hell out of me ♪

♪ You brought resounding techniques for my grounding ♪

♪ When I ♪

♪ Had lost it a little too far from the middle to find ♪

♪ Some solace from all this exhaustion ♪

♪ And monsters of mine ♪

♪ So you better know ♪

♪ That I'll bring you home ♪

♪ I'm gonna love ♪

♪ The hell out of you ♪

♪ Take all the pain ♪

♪ That you're going through ♪

♪ And I'll bring you heaven ♪

♪ If that's what you need ♪

♪ 'Cause you've always loved ♪

♪ The hell out of me ♪

♪ Me ♪

♪ In the moment you feel half complete ♪

♪ Know the moments are temporary ♪

♪ When the fear fuels the fire underneath ♪

♪ I'm gonna love ♪

♪ The hell out of you ♪

♪ Take all the pain ♪

♪ That you're going through ♪

♪ And I'll bring you heaven ♪

♪ Yeah, if that's what you need ♪

♪ 'Cause you've always loved ♪

♪ The hell out of me ♪

♪ You've always loved ♪

♪ The hell out of me. ♪

♪ Notice me ♪

♪ Take my hand ♪

♪ Why are we ♪

♪ Strangers when ♪

♪ My love is strong? ♪

♪ Why carry on without me? ♪

♪ And every time I try to fly, I fall ♪

♪ Without my wings, I feel so small ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby ♪

♪ And every time I see you in my dreams ♪

♪ I see your face, it's haunting me ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby ♪

-♪ I make believe - I make believe ♪

-♪ That you are here - That you are here ♪

-♪ It's the only way - It's the only way ♪

-♪ I see clear - I see clear ♪

-♪ What have I done? - What have I done? ♪

♪ You seem to move on easy ♪

♪ And every time I try to fly, I fall ♪

♪ Without my wings, I feel so small ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby ♪

♪ And every time I see you in my dreams ♪

♪ I see your face, you're haunting me ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby ♪

♪ And every time I try to fly, I fall ♪

♪ Without my wings, I feel so small ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby ♪

♪ And every time I see you in my dreams ♪

♪ I see your face, it's haunting me ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby ♪

♪ I guess I need you, baby. ♪