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John Lennon and Yoko Ono were married in 1969.

They remained virtually inseparable, with one major exception.

Late 1973, John Lennon moved out of his home and lived with May Pang.

She was a young woman who had been to Lennon's personal assistant. What would

you say to people who would say, you are capitalizing, you're making money off

John Lennon?

I think it's very important that people understand that time that nobody knew,

and really I'm coming out to really tell the truth and to straighten out a bit of

history, which have been written in the past, but it's been inaccurate, and I

don't want other people to write my story.

My name is Mei Pang, and this is my story.

I'm a first-generation Chinese-American.

I grew up in New York City's Spanish Harlem.

I wasn't black.

I wasn't Puerto Rican.

I was a minority among minorities.

My parents had a hard life.

They left China to live the American dream.

Because I was a girl, my father, in true Chinese tradition, adopted a son

and abandoned me.

He made me feel unwanted.

My mother had beauty, and she had brains.

She opened up her own Chinese laundry, and not knowing much English, she named

it the OK Laundry.

Daddy was an atheist, and Mom was a Buddhist,

so naturally they sent me to Catholic school.

Dad fought with mom.

I fought with the nuns.

So my only escape was the music.

While all other kids in the neighborhood were dancing to Tito Puente, Joe Cuba,

or James Brown, I was hooked on rock and roll.

Especially these four guys from Liverpool.

The hottest musical group in Great Britain today is the Beatles.

Has anybody guessed why the Beatles emerged from its cellar nightclubs

through national prominence? Ringo has a sexy nose.

They've sold two and a half million records and they earn $5,000 a week.

Have you ever been this crazy about any other entertainer? No, and that's what's

so amazing. We don't know why we're like this.

The London Times has carried the sobering report that the Beatles may

bring their Mersey sound to the United States.

Picture of it now is there was a ship going to discover the new world.

And the Beatles were in the crow's nest.

And we just said, land ho!

And we went somewhere.

As for me, I was going nowhere.

Stuck at home with my abusive father.

My mother was my inspiration to get up and get out of the neighborhood.

To be an independent woman.

I graduated Catholic school.

I hated college. I hated going to school.

So at 18, I dropped out. I jumped on the subway. I wanted to go look for a job.

Next stop, Times Square.

I was scared to death.

I met a girlfriend at a big midtown office building, 1700 Broadway.

She looked at the directory and said, do you realize Apple Records is here?

I said, the Apple Records? The Beatles Apple Records?

Well, guess what?

I'm going to go up and ask them for a job.

Anybody else coming in?

From the minute I got off the elevator, the place was busy.

I found this woman sitting behind the desk.

This lovely person stood in front of me, introduced herself.

She was willing. She was ready. She was a self-starter.

She spoke for herself very well at age 19.

And I asked, I'm looking for a job.

Are there any openings? She said, can you type?

Yes.

Can you file?

Absolutely.

Can you handle the phone? Of course, I said.

Yes.

I was lying through my teeth.

But the next week, I was in the music business.

Sadly, by this time, my favorite group was history.

And from London comes a report that musician Paul McCartney has left the

Beatles, according to a front-page article in the Daily Mirror. The event

is so momentous that historians may one day view it as a landmark in the decline

of the British Empire.

The Beatles are breaking up.

You had to either be a Beatle...

and do nothing else.

Beetles take up your whole life.

That was the problem with it. I mean, it grew into a monster. The beetles was a

period of my life, you know. I've got a long time to go.

After John married Yoko Ono, they left London for America in 1971.

I came over to America and just decided that I'd like to live here.

And Yoko was going on to me about New York. So the next minute we thought,

hey, well, let's stay, you know, isn't it great?

When they came to New York, Apple assigned them the youngest rock and

roller in the office.

Me. Hi.

Hi. Hey.

How did it start? Where did you meet?

I was working for Alan Klein, who was managing John at the time, and him and

Yoko came into town to make two movies.

I was so young and naive.

I didn't even know what avant-garde meant. The first film was called Up Your

Legs Forever.

Over the next three days, celebrity after celebrity were paid a dollar each

to drop their pants for peace.

John and Yoko went last and showed a little more.

Everyone went silent when we did it. You know, just, what are their legs like?

Up Your Legs Forever by Yoko Ono.

Directed by John Lennon and Yoko Ono.

Production assistant Zee Narcota, Tom Balasari and May Pang.

It was my first credit.

The second movie was called Fly.

Dan Richter, an old friend of Yoko's, coordinated the shoot.

A woman is lying naked on a bed by an open window.

A fly flies in the window, lands on her body, walk on her naked body, walks

around, and then flies out the window.

That's the script.

I couldn't understand why she was so still. Then they told me. I wish they

hadn't told me. We tested a bunch of people, and we finally found a woman who

happened to be a heroin addict. And we found that if we gave her a little

heroin, she wouldn't move very much.

John and Yoko always need people. They're doing things all the time, so

they need support people and people to go get stuff.

And so May was, you know, sort of coordinating things.

They asked me to catch flies in the dead of winter. The only place I could think

of was a kitchen of a Chinese restaurant.

We had an enormous number of flies.

In fact, the credits are almost as long as the film because there's so many

people catching flies.

John and Yoko returned to England, and I went back to my death job.

But then came a wonderful surprise.

I guess Yoko really liked me. I guess.

Because two weeks later, I was on my way to magical London.

Their home was called Tittenhurst Park in Ascot.

It was like stepping into a giant 19th century painting.

I certainly had come a long way from Spanish Harlem.

Tittenhurst was where I first met Julian, John's son with his first wife

Cynthia.

He looked at me and he goes, May, would you like to get in the golf cart? I'll

give you a ride. And I thought, oh, how sweet. I didn't think he was going to

take me for a terror ride. Well, I think any excuse to be a little cheeky and

cause a little trouble, I know I was up for that. So, yeah, I do remember taking

May on the golf cart.

I'm not sure whether that was the occasion that I'd broken into a tree or

not. But that was a lot of fun back then, going to a place like Tittenhurst

and then seeing all these people and this mad house. It was a very, very

unique situation.

It sounds so corny to say that every day was a crazy adventure, but it was.

Our first project was a photo shoot for their new album.

Fashion photographer David Bailey was famous for his shots of swinging London

and all the top celebrities.

And he actually asked me.

to get in the pictures.

I found the whole thing quite terrifying, yet it was also incredibly

glamorous.

The next day was even more exciting as the crew set up to film John and Yoko's

new song.

I did the clothes. I put all the clothes on him. I made them look good.

Let's put it that way.

Yoko said to John, when you sing, I want to hold your hand.

People all over the world are hearing that.

Why don't you say something important?

Then John began playing the first chords on the piano.

It just sent a chill because it was so simple and it was so beautiful.

That's when I heard Imagine for the first time.

Imagine all the people.

I realized they wanted people to understand it was more than just a song.

It was a message for a better world.

The only answer for me, if there is any answers to anything, is love.

When we returned to New York, John and Yoko asked me to leave APCO.

and become their full-time assistant.

I was thrilled.

We immediately took over a whole floor at the elegant St. Regis Hotel.

I felt like I was living someone else's life.

That's what happens at quarter to.

Tonight with special guest, John Lennon and Yoko Ono.

Let it down, babe.

Let us know when you're through voting. That's me in the bag talking to Dick

Cavett. We were trying to make a point.

You can't be prejudiced against someone you can't see.

Are you a lady?

Yes, I am.

Would you hold where you are for just a moment?

Just stay where you are. I'm offering you a glass of water.

I don't drink water.

You don't drink water? You look very nice. Yes, you're looking a little pale,

but very nice.

What kinds of things would you do on a daily basis? On a daily basis, how about

the grocery shopping, taking care of everything, working in the studio, the

production assistant, doing clothes, doing the publicity, answering the

phones.

John hadn't spoken with his son for two years, when one day...

I took a call from Julian.

He said, I'd like to speak to my dad.

But all calls had to be vetted first by Yoko.

This is Yoko.

So I said, Julian's on the line. The first words out of her mouth was, you

got to get rid of the call.

This call never happened.

And I was just really taken aback to go into that call and say, I'm sorry, your

father's not here.

Julian again called back a week or two later. And again, I wasn't allowed to

put the call through. And finally,

At one point, I said, Yoko, it's Julian again.

And she said, you can put the call through.

But if John should ask you, is this the first time he's called? You say, yes. I

buzzed John.

Julian's on the line.

And he said, is this the first time he's called?

And I said, yes. I had to line.

But what could I do? Yoko was my boss. But then, so was John.

So I lied to John.

And I lied to Julian, and it hurt.

Yoko was using me, simple as that.

And not for the last time.

Yoko sat in that very chair.

A few weeks later, George Harrison invited me to another taping of the

Tkavitch Show.

I saw the show. It was very nice.

Did you see that? Yeah. It was one thing they forgot to plug, so I thought I'd

plug it for them, and that's their new Christmas record.

We wish you a Merry Christmas. War is over.

Get yours now.

John and Yoko were passionately opposed to the Vietnam War.

They understood that they could use their celebrity to advance world peace.

I always wanted to write something that would be a Christmas record that would

last forever.

They plastered the declaration, war is over if you want it, on billboards all

over the world, from Paris to London to here in Times Square.

What we wanted to do was have something besides white Christmas being played

every Christmas, you know?

So this is Christmas. John invited a children's group, the Harlem Community

Choir, to sing with him on his revolutionary new holiday carol, Happy

Christmas, War is Over.

I was so excited to sing on this track.

And for the first time, I made it onto the singles cover.

Right there, next to Phil Spector, of all people.

That year, I got a pretty cool Christmas card from the Lennons. They opened my

mind to things I never thought about before.

It was the beginning of my own political awakening.

I have an idea of how to get politics across to the people, is to change the

apathy that all the youth have. Our job now is to tell them that there is still

hope and we still have things to do. It isn't over just because flower power

didn't work.

It's only the beginning.

I like Give Peace a Chance for what it was. I think one of the highest moments

was hearing all those people in Washington when the whole anti-war group

was singing it. That was one emotional moment for me.

At the White House, John was labeled an enemy of the people, an

angry anti-war radical.

And a threat to President Nixon's re-election.

When somebody in show business comes and participates in a political rally,

he or she is doing something that is a very great personal

sacrifice and even a personal risk.

It was obvious Nixon wanted John out of the country. Do you think that you will

be deported? I have no idea. Maybe it's just a process.

When I walked out of the courtroom, I couldn't believe the scene outside.

You don't think there's any possibility that the government is trying to harass

the Lenin?

Absolutely not. He was a high-profile figure, and his

activities were being monitored.

Oh, yeah, they picked on me. I'm telling you, when it first started, I was

followed in the car.

And my phone was tapped, and I think they wanted me to know to scare me, and

I was scared, paranoid.

Just when things couldn't get worse, they got a lot worse.

Nixon was re-elected in a landslide.

John and Yoko decided it was time to leave the radical hotbed of the village,

as the government called it, to find something more safe and secure.

They chose a sprawling apartment in the legendary Dakota on Central Park West.

You know, it's secure.

People can't get in and say, I'm Jesus from Toronto.

Changing addresses didn't solve their problems. Just one thing was going wrong

after another.

John didn't take it very well at all.

The critics panned the album. The critics panned the concert. They

basically hated it.

George and Ringo's solo career was skyrocketing, and John and Paul, they

were feuding. He also said the Beatles were bastards.

And you didn't miss the Beatles? When we were together, everybody's talking, it

was wonderful all the time, and all the press and everybody and the people all

saying how great and wonderful, but it wasn't like that at all. They were so

busy being...

John and Paul, they failed to realize who else was around at the time. We

don't want to be the crazy guy when we're 50, you know. Here they are again,

yesterday. All of this took a toll on their marriage. And one drunken night,

Yoko heard John having sex with another woman.

And then Sunday started to make love. And I was just sitting, frozen.

After that, everything seemed to be falling apart.

I've been John and Yoko's personal assistant.

But now, I was convinced I was about to lose my job.

I came to work one morning, and Yoko walked into my office at the Dakota and

said, John and I are not getting along, and I know he's going to start seeing

other people.

and I think I want you to go out with him because I know he needs someone nice

like you.

And it just sort of snapped me back into reality, and I said, excuse me?

I want you to understand, I didn't start this.

And she said, no, no, I know that.

We've been having problems. And you were a 22-year-old secretary at the time,

right? Right. I've been working for them about two, two and a half years at that

point. How did you feel when she asked you to have an affair with her? I was

stunned. I didn't know what to expect. Are you kidding? I can't do that. He's

my employee. He's my boss.

I said, He's your husband.

And she says, no, no, it's okay. You should go and do it.

I want you to go out with him. I know you'll be nice. I know he likes you.

You'll go out with him.

I said, no.

And she said, yes, you will. And she got up and walked out of the room.

How did this come about? You know, I was a naive kid.

I was very, very young at that point. You know, she started telling me all

sorts of things. You'll be fine. And I said, no, I don't want to.

That's your husband. She said, no, no, I want you to go out with him.

She ordered you to have an affair with her husband?

Yeah, she thought it was the best thing since I didn't have a boyfriend.

Of course Yoko had her own version of what happened.

When Yoko decided to interview, well, Yoko.

Is it true that you arranged the love story between John and his assistant,

Maytan?

Well. I don't know. I mean, I don't think it was an arrangement. It was

convenient for John to have an assistant, and she was a very good

assistant.

A very capable person.

I really didn't think it was part of the job. I got a little freaked out. I

didn't understand what was coming.

She had some weird ideas before, but this was, this topped it.

You had no romantic feelings for John. Not at the time.

Yoko knew that John was going to start fooling around on her.

Right. Yoko knew she could control you.

That's true.

Yoko picked the safe choice.

Here, John, go have some fun with May, knowing that she could reel him back in

anytime she wanted.

She was, as you paint her, Yoko Ono, trying to control the affair, control

John, control you.

And she continued to encourage you. Right.

Yoko set it up, John's wife. She actually virtually insisted.

Why did you do it?

John, in the end, pursued me.

We started to spend a lot of time together at the studio, alone.

He began to flirt and pay more attention to me. When we got into the elevator

when we were going to the recording studio, he turned around and he grabbed

me and he kissed me. And I said, just stand over there. I said, don't do this

to me.

And he said, because I've been waiting to do this all day.

I've been asked a million times, what happened?

What changed since you told Yoko no?

Well, what happened was, John.

He looked me in the eye.

He whispered in my ear.

And then, he kissed me.

And before I knew it, John Lennon charmed the pants off me.

After we made love, I started to cry.

What does this mean?

He said, I don't know.

Next morning, John called me into his office and did something that really

surprised me.

He opened up his guitar case and said, I want you to hear something.

Just like a willow tree.

Just like a willow tree.

A breath of spring, you see.

A breath of spring, you see. She gets me through this god awful loneliness.

She gets me through this god awful loneliness.

I knew how much John meant to me. Up until that moment, I didn't realize how

much I meant to John.

John and I spent nights together.

And every morning I would go to the Dakota and see Yoko.

It was not a comfortable situation for me.

This myth that Yoko sent us to L.A. to be together is nothing but a myth.

But what really happened, one day John said, we got to get out of New York,

May.

Just the two of us, away from Yoko.

The whole thing was so spontaneous.

We talked at noon, and at 6 p.m., we were at the airport.

And that, that's how the lost weekend really began.

When John came out to California with me, it was like getting the shit out of

both of us.

Not to spend money. What about John's money problems? I understand that it was

all tied up in litigation.

We were on an allowance of $3,000 a month.

Each Beatle was given $3,000 a month until everything was settled.

And it wasn't a lot because he had two households to take care of, one in New

York and one here in Los Angeles. On top of that, Yoko cut off my salary. The

minute we landed at LAX, we had very little, but we didn't care.

And we reacted like kids or teenagers running around.

He always knew that somebody would pick up the tab or give him a place to stay

because he was, quote, John Lennon.

In Bel Air, where all the Hollywood celebrities live, we borrowed a house

from record producer Lou Adler.

We love taking

pictures of each other.

I've got two tickets to paradise.

Will you pack your bags for me tonight?

I've got two tickets to paradise.

I've got two tickets to paradise.

John had a funny way of letting me know when he was in the mood.

People ask me how John was a little lover. Okay.

John was great.

He was my friend. He was definitely the closest

friend I had at that time. And he, as a lover, he was my teacher.

John's doodle is a perfect illustration of our morning ritual.

Wake up, cock-a-doodle-doo.

Then afterwards, cock-a-doodle-don't. Although, with him it was all the time.

Does that answer it?

I came to realize that when John was a Beatle, he only saw America from an

airport, back of a limo, inside a hotel room, or performing on a stage.

So John wanted to do Vegas like any ordinary tourist.

We checked into Caesar's Palace and had a blast.

That's where we met up with Tony King, head of A&R for Apple Records.

I found a marvelous picture, all having dinner in Las Vegas. And there's a

picture of May and he and Mike Hayeswood and I having dinner in the Chinese

restaurant. And he looks great.

John was more and more relaxed.

And our relationship was changing and growing.

On the way back to L.A., we saw this sign.

Calico goes down, and John's going, yeah, let's go.

For John, it was freedom. It was for him to enjoy himself for once.

Nobody knew it was John.

It was there like everyone else, a tourist.

In between, when we were walking around, John spotted this bike, a Harley

-Davidson Trike. He kept staring at it, and finally I said, Why don't you go and

stand by the bike?

I took one shot, and on top of that, he's wearing my jeans.

A few weeks later, on my 23rd birthday, John wrote me a card.

Happy birth, Pang.

Then he surprised me with the biggest and fastest present I ever got.

John bought me a beautiful orange-red barracuda.

We took it out for a spin.

Look at John's doodle.

It tells you what he thought about my driving.

I'm thinking, help, help.

Later that afternoon, we filmed a commercial for John's new album, Mind

Games.

101A, take two. Okay.

Ladies and gentlemen, Her Majesty, the Queen.

That's our friend Tony King as the Queen of England.

Good evening.

I've been asked to do this commercial. It relates to a gramophone record,

Mind Games, by John Lennon.

Oh, dear, her majesty.

At one point, John lifted up Tony's dress, goosing him.

I snapped a picture.

Don't you know it?

It became our Christmas card.

We signed as a couple, John and May.

And that was when he met Elton.

Tony was sure his two friends would hit it off, and he was so right. I've got to

play Elton.

No, here you are. It's fine.

It was great.

John said to me afterwards, isn't Elton a sweet person?

I got to celebrate my birthday with my John, Elton John, and the Queen of

England.

It was the best birthday of my life.

Tony King made a great queen, a great friend, and

gave John great advice.

Just let people know that you're around and you're okay.

You know how likable you are. People have felt up until now that you've been

rather an angry, radical type of person.

What John's point should do is get yourself known by people again and do

some interviews with American trade, you know.

John loved water.

So his first TV interview was at the beach in Malibu.

Just a fish head. Go away, go away. I watched as he returned to his old,

witty, playful self.

Testing one, two, three, four, five, six, seven. You never seem to ever

really get away from your political experiences.

Do you find you becoming more and more political as life goes on, and your

music and your personal life, or less political?

I just change every five days.

When you think back to that period of time known as Beatlemania, do you miss

it? We all had basically had enough, and nobody knew how to say it.

That's why I say maybe we should have finished it a bit sooner.

John was opening up more to me, to friends.

He even invited journalists over to our home. We started to do things that he

hadn't done before, like interviews.

Invariably, people were basket cases before they got to the house.

They couldn't believe that they were actually going to be from Lebanon.

What qualities do you think you had that attracted John? What was it that he was

looking for?

You know, I've said a lot of different things, and I think we shared a lot of

interest together, especially music.

We can talk about rock and roll, because I was a real rock and roller. I mean, I

am a real rock and roller at heart.

Well, the rock and roll album, folks.

It started in 73 after I finished Mind Game. And so I thought, I don't know.

I'm always in between takes with the Beatles, too. They always jam those

songs. They're my favorite songs.

Can't I have some fun instead of all this writing my feelings in the songs,

you know? John Lennon writes new songs. Is it about him or is it about Paul?

So I thought, I don't know. Who shall I use?

It's a great Phil Spector.

All right. This is one of the greatest sessions of all time. And here we go.

One, two, three.

Jim Keltner. He was an awesome drummer.

John used him on all his albums.

We got with Spector to make a Phil Spector type of record with John.

Great rock and roll cover.

For the first time, he wanted to be just a singer in the band.

All right, I just want to sing. I don't want to know nothing about nothing.

So we started the sessions and they went well.

John was the star.

But Phil Spector, he was the boss.

Hey, we got the man here.

What man?

Any fucking man. Let's go.

Phil was the master of the evening.

I remember the bass drum also on that after that, you know, ringing.

It would start off great. Feeling great, sounding great.

John would be fantastic. But in those two or three hours, everybody just would

be drinking and, you know, doing it and smoking and everything. So it would be

just crazy.

Phil? Phil was definitely out of control.

It

definitely

got crazy, you know. There was 28 guys playing at night.

15 of them were out of their minds, including me.

And the sessions broke down.

Really bomb, you know. I'm not even going to say what happened. Some of it

was ridiculous.

You can't yell war over his plane.

Please accept my fall. It's the only way I can come in. It's your fault.

Then they gradually collapsed into mania, you know.

It's one way of putting it.

Oh, my God.

Phil Spector just shot off his gun.

If you're going to shoot, shoot me.

But don't fuck with me ears, man.

I need them.

I'm going to write your history, so be careful.

That's when the session ended. And, God, the chaos began.

Phil told me to get in the Cadillac with John, and he was just

screaming.

We raced back to the house.

He was screaming bloody murder. Things didn't exactly improve when we got home.

It actually got worse.

He went crazy in the house and destroyed everything.

So then, May was on the telephone. It was very hysterical when she was saying,

you've got to come over.

John's going mad. He's acting like a madman in the house. He's smacking the

place up.

Thank God, Tony arrived.

And there, at the doorstep, is John.

Screaming and shouting.

The only way I knew how to handle it was I just went up and I put my arm down.

And he cried.

Instantly. He just broke down and wept.

Did he become physically abusive to you?

He did a couple of times, yeah. Knock you around a bit?

He threw me against the wall.

The only things I regret in life are hurting myself and

hurting somebody else. He didn't remember the next day and he apologized.

He even cried about it. No, I was a hitter.

I couldn't express myself. I hit, I fought men, I hit women. Because I am

absolutely a violent man who has learned not to be violent and regrets his

violence. Oh, she was treated badly. But you know what?

She loved him so much that she really knew that he was having a hard time. And

she just cared for him, you know? John was drinking a lot.

Whether he remembered it or not, he pushed me hard.

He was just out of control.

Instead of apologizing, he turned away and said, I

don't think it's going to work.

He was breaking my heart.

But I wasn't going to take it anymore.

There was nothing else to say.

I left for New York.

I was able to keep it together all the way to New York City.

Until I got home.

What was I doing with my life?

No job.

No money.

I didn't know what to think.

Was my relationship with John over?

Eventually, I called Yoko to tell her I was back in town.

Yoko insisted.

You have to go back to him right away.

Cynthia and Julian are coming to L.A.

He can't deal with them by himself.

He needs you. To do what?

Make everything nice?

I'm the girlfriend who's supposed to deal with the ex-wife.

The current wife. The son of the ex-wife.

And I don't even think I'm the girlfriend anymore.

And then it occurred to me.

John was trying to get me back.

He couldn't ask me himself.

He had to get Yoko to do it for him.

I agreed to fly back to L.A.

just in time to be with John when Julian and Cynthia arrived.

Where was son Julian all this time? He had some difficulties with that

relationship, didn't he? Yeah, he hadn't seen his son in three years, and he

finally showed up here.

He had felt so guilty not seeing him, and I was being in the middle trying to

put that two together.

I hadn't seen him for a long, long time. I'd had the occasional phone call. I was

scared. I just didn't know what I was going to come up against, and it was

nerve-wracking for the first day or so.

But with May being around, that eased any tensions that were there.

I think May made that a lot easier for me as a young kid.

And he finally got a chance to see his son.

And he said, my God, he's a little man. He can talk to me.

And I said, yeah.

I recall, you know, hanging out with May a lot at that point in time. She was

very playful.

We always had a smile on our face. We were always giggling and playing around.

Even Dad seemed...

A lot lighter in himself and a lot happier in himself.

I became the official tour guide.

I started taking more responsibility for our little group.

Especially the trip that we did to Disneyland.

Gone to heaven on that one. I still remember it fondly.

We snuck into the studio at the Paramount lot.

where we watched them film Happy Days. I remember Happy Days very much going to

the set.

And we walked in, and they were like, oh, my God, it's John Lennon.

Julian Foote, when we ran into a very young Jodie Foster.

And she was the same age as me, and I was a fan even then, and we had a

picture taken, I think. I still have Poloid.

John hadn't seen Cynthia in years.

Since he walked out with Yoko, it was still hard for John to face her.

But I was hoping they could find some kind of closure for Julian's sake.

May and Mum sort of fast became friends.

They got on very, very famously.

They enjoyed each other's company all through the years. They understood each

other very, very well. Yes, due to, I guess, the circumstance that they both

found themselves in.

I made sure that every time that he talked to Martha every week, that it

would never lapse anywhere in between.

May understood, you know, Dad's sensibilities.

dealing with his first young son and having not seen him for a long time.

When I look back, one of the things I am most proud of is helping to reunite

Julian with his dad.

Yoko called incessantly. She wanted a full report.

She was constantly calling every day, 10 calls a day, 15 calls a day. She always

called us.

Fine, she used to call me at 3 in the morning, 4 in the morning, 6 in the

morning, whatever hour.

Yoko never left them alone.

They would say, oh, Yoko called again.

Mae, she was very protective of John. She didn't feel threatened by Yoko.

Please welcome Mae Pang.

She did not realize it was going to turn into such a big love affair.

She thought it would be two weeks, gone, goodbye.

Why didn't the marriage break up?

Why was it breaking up? It was breaking up, and she even asked for a divorce,

and she didn't expect the answer to come from John to say, okay, fine, let's do

it. He realized that he meant it, that she said, oh, no, the stars aren't

right.

She would have to find another way to manipulate him.

On the other hand, John and I were having a great time.

That last weekend that everybody keeps talking about, it wasn't so lost.

People feel more of John than they had in the previous years, and he was out

and about a lot.

It was around this time John started hanging around with a new crowd, a

notorious bunch of musicians known as the Hollywood Vampires.

Started in L.A. at the Rainbow Bar and Grill.

Where every single night it was Harry Nilsson, Alice Cooper, Bernie Taupin,

Mickey Dolenz, Keith Moen, if he was in town. John Lennon was an honorary

member. The last thing John needed.

with a membership to a drinking club, Vampires or Not. I was just hanging

around with Ringo and Harry Nilsson and became a teenage gang. Only we were all

30. Meg was able to kind of navigate all the different things that were going on,

Yoko's phone call, John's drinking and using during that period. And one of the

reasons is she was the only one who wasn't using drugs and drinking.

So, I mean, she had an edge over all of us. I wasn't drinking. I don't drink and

I don't take drugs.

So what happened is when we got together with the guys and they would say, oh,

let's go out and party.

And I'm the one standing going, I didn't fit into that category.

It was a kind of rehash of my youth acting like a teenager in Hollywood, in

public. John would always take himself to the extreme for anything.

I would do something dumb like... The day

began with Yoko's usual

morning call.

All I heard was one side of the conversation.

It started with, Really?

Really. And ended with, Really?

Au revoir. John looked at me. He was stunned.

She slept with somebody.

I said,

I think it's her guitarist, David Spinoza.

If you don't believe me, look at her album cover.

He's definitely more prominent than you.

Her intention was, in effect, to keep John out of the picture so she can hit

on the David Spinoza situation.

I mean, I had no interest at all. But she wanted to realize what it was. She

wanted to produce a record and all that stuff. That would be terrific.

But as far as that other sexual thing, we were together and then we weren't.

You know, my career is fine the way it is. I don't have to go down in rock

history and guess what, you'll go on.

Later that night, we went to the famous Troubadour nightclub to hang out with

Harry Nielsen.

It was a pretty big comeback for the Smothers Brothers.

They were just picked off network television for getting too political.

Around the table was Jack Haley Jr., Pam Greer, Peter Lockhart.

Even Paul Newman was in the house.

It was the first night I drank Brandy Alexander's, which was brandy and milk,

Paul. Oh, you certainly drank them like milk. And I was with Harry Nielsen, who

didn't find there was much coverage of me. Just a bum.

But anyway, he got drunk. And at one point, he just turned around and grabbed

me.

And he kissed me.

And I'm actually struggling. No, I don't want anybody to know that we're

together. And the next day, of course, it was all over the newspapers and then

in Time magazine.

So I got drunk and got rowdy with a friend of mine, and I got thrown out of

the club. We'll see it.

I'm human, you know. I was drunk in Liverpool in the smashed bone boxes.

It didn't get in the paper set.

And then Yoko called.

Hello? And she said, I know May wanted to do this.

And he goes, no, it was me.

John wanted to tell the world that we were together.

The day after the Troubadour, we attended the American Film Institute's

tribute to James Cagney.

Ladies and gentlemen, James Cagney.

There were movie stars and paparazzi everywhere.

Then John and I walked in.

It was a fun time. John and I were just looking at all these movie stars.

And we go, oh, look who's here. It's Mae West. And there's Paul Newman.

All of a sudden, we see this figure walking over in white. And it's Mick

Jagger. Oh, God.

We were like chess pieces.

He was in total white, and we were in total black.

Then, Ron Galea, famous for stalking Jackie Kennedy with his camera, captured

us in public as a couple.

She gained so much strength during that time. Her self-confidence changed

completely. She was becoming confident about who she was.

She was just beautiful.

When she walked in a room, you couldn't miss her because these long legs kind of

took off across the room.

John gave me confidence to express myself.

I wasn't just walking behind anymore. We were the center of attention wherever we

went.

They were seen around town. They did things. That was not the way he had been

in New York. So it was a much more social life than he'd been living.

To escape the

attention, we took a road trip to Palm Springs with Harry Nielsen.

But while we were there, bad news.

Phil Spector was holding the rock and roll tapes hostage, and he wasn't

letting go.

Harry suggested, hey, John, why don't you produce an album for me?

I was just hanging out with, you know, guys, and all we were doing was getting

drunk and, you know, waking up, you know, sick.

So that's why I said to Harry, let's forget this. Let's do something.

So John had this great idea.

He invited the musicians to work on Harry's album and to stay together in

one place.

He chose a house on the Pacific Coast Highway with a famous history.

The

minute you walked

in the front door, you got this story.

Marilyn Monroe met both Bobby Kennedy and John Kennedy here and rendezvoused

with both of them. And, of course, her ghost just stayed there. It felt like

it. All these people living in a house on the beach formerly where Kennedy and

Marilyn had been. John liked the idea of making love in the same bed as JFK and

Marilyn Monroe.

And we rented this house. I thought, get them all in one house and they'll behave

themselves.

It was the wrong thing to do.

I arranged all the sessions, made sure everything ran smoothly.

Harry, John, and I were listening to playback.

I was facing the door, which suddenly opened, and I mouthed to John,

It's Paul and Linda.

John turned as if he had spoken to him that morning and said, Hey, Paul.

Paul asked, Is the session over? Yeah, but we're about to jam. Want to join?

And in that moment, five years of animosity and anger simply disappeared.

I jammed with Paul. I did actually play with Paul, yeah. We did a lot of stuff

in L.A.

Stevie Wonder came in from the studio next door.

So there was 50 other people playing, and they're all just watching me and

Paul.

Linda joined in on organ.

Mal Evans, the original roadie for the Beatles, and me, we grabbed the

tambourine, and the fun began.

This was the last time John and Paul ever played together.

The next day, Paul and Linda came over to the beach house. This was really

crazy. This was L.A. crazy, right up there. Harry Nilsson, who was a lovely,

lovely boy, but went to excess.

Keith Moon, another lovely boy, again went to excess. John, same kind of

thing. And the whole team of them making this record in L.A.

They told me, oh, Paul's coming over.

Paul and Linda are coming. And that was a big deal at that time because there

had been a lot of animosity between them, especially John and Paul.

And Ringo was there too. That was the first time that John and Paul were

actually going to sit down and have civilized talk without lawyers present.

When I saw them together, finally, I thought, this is quite a moment.

I snapped this picture.

Little did I know that Paul was here to deliver a message from Yoko.

I'd been asked by Yoko, Linda and I were asked by Yoko, take a message to John.

I'll see if he's interested.

Took him in the back room like a sort of elder brother, almost.

Sort of said, you know, I'm the go-between.

Do you still love Yoko? Do you want to get back with her?

Here's how you do it. And just gave him what Yoko had said.

You would have to come back to New York.

He can't live with me anymore.

You would have to call, ask me out. I want the romance.

You'd have to send me flowers.

Do it all again.

I don't think that John Orme gave in to her.

John didn't appreciate being told what to do. He wasn't interested in Yoko's

terms and conditions.

He simply said, I'm with May.

And I thought this relationship might have a real future without Yoko.

That's when I straightened out in the middle of that album. That's when I

realized there's something wrong here. You know, this is... crazy man so then i

suddenly was the straight one in the middle of all these mad mad people i

said i suddenly was not one of them you know and i pulled myself back and

finished off the album best i could you know so then after that i came home to

new york while i closed up things in l.a the boys took their act to

new york

John called me every night.

He couldn't believe the reception he got in Central Park.

He told me, come home, May.

I actually began to think our relationship had survived the so-called

lost weekend.

I returned to New York.

To my great relief, I found John clean and sober.

By then, I'd straightened myself out. I was straight and, you know, no drink.

John decided we should move in together.

We ended up finding the perfect apartment.

Can you imagine? I was 23, and my first live-in boyfriend was John Lennon.

We had a view of the East River, which reminded John of the Mersey in

Liverpool.

I remember the apartment very well. It was a really small apartment. It wasn't

Tittenhurst, no. It was on the top floor, I believe, and very steep stairs.

The view was amazing.

It was like being in a little bit of a castle on top of the building

overlooking New York and the river. It was a very, very special little spot.

We took the bedroom and we fixed up the guest room for Julian.

Everything, people always looking at people like me.

Trying to see some secret, or what do they do, what do they do?

Do they go to the bathroom?

Do they eat? Do you? I do, quite a lot.

It was an absolute joy and a pleasure with just Dad and May, and it was just a

happy, happy time, especially in some of the photographs.

You can see that May took of us, of Dad and I together.

We even had cats, Major and Minor.

Which John named after the black and white cheese on the piano.

As an actual New Yorker, I show John around real New York.

Wave or shake your hand, and I get about, and I go to eat, and I'm enjoying

all the things I couldn't do for ten years, you know.

I seem to be the guy in New York that all the Englishmen say hi to, you know.

Oh, it's just good, you know, it's mixed in town, Paul's in town, anybody's songs

are lovely, you know. Paul McCartney, you know, come over to our house, and

Ringo, and George, and...

Alvin. All these people had their best times with John when he was with Mae.

And Nick acknowledged that when John was with Mae was the time that he got to

really see him. Everybody saw John when he was with Mae.

The funny bit, we were trying to get in touch with Paul and Linda for dinner.

We didn't reach them. We left them a message. And as we're coming up 64th

Street in the cab, we look over into the other cab, and it's Paul and Linda.

And all of a sudden, we yell out, and the two Beatles.

John and Paul stick their heads out and they're screaming at one another saying,

I'll talk to you later. And as the car's moving, they split.

And it's wild to see that.

John's favorite place in our apartment was out on the balcony.

And that's where I took a picture of Bob Gruen taking his famous picture.

I remember Dad and May showing me.

where they were on the rooftops and they'd seen the UFO.

Loved the story and the idea that that happened.

We saw a UFO one night and there were two of us standing nude looking at this

thing with no noise, nothing.

Over here, up there, I saw a UFO and it went down the river, turned right at the

United Nations, turned left and then down the river and it looked dark like

black or grey in the middle and had white lights, just looked like light

bulbs, you know.

Just going up, on, up, on, up, on, blink, blink, blink, blink, around the

bottom. John grabbed an envelope and scribbled a picture that looked exactly

like what we saw.

Well, almost.

John immortalized the sighting in this liner note, and it became part of his

legend.

When I was with John, it was the most productive years that he had.

Musical.

I always was a record man, you know. I mean, I liked the studio all the best

once I got the hang of it and the control of it.

Jammed with Mick Jagger.

Worked with Ringo.

Elton John.

David Bowie.

Would you carry me up to him?

Right?

One thing I love the most.

With being in the recording studio, doing production work with John.

I earned production credits on some major albums.

I even sang backup on Number 9 Dreams.

We had met David Bowie through Elizabeth Taylor.

The next minute he says, hello John, I'm doing the...

Cross the universe.

Do you want to come on down?

We sort of made this lick into a song with what happened.

Backwoods piano.

And a couple of things like repeats of Fame.

Fame became Bowie's first number one hit and the beginning of my special

friendship with David.

John wrote the song Goodnight Vienna with Ringo in mind.

So we flew to Los Angeles for the recording and film shoot. During this

time, of course, until Mace told you, he was very, very close, in close contact

with Ringo.

I'm more pleased that Ringo's doing well.

Ringo's very non-judgmental as well.

He let John go through all that shit that John went through without

criticising him.

Ringo just loved him, you know.

Is that Ringo Starr advertising his new album, Goodnight Vienna, on Apple

Records and tapes? It certainly is, John. Why, you look so wonderful. Thank

you. Thanks, John. It's a pleasure, Ringo.

Making music with his friends made John very happy.

So did bonding with his son.

John couldn't wait for Julian to come visit us again.

Imagine, our visits to Long Island Sound were some of the happiest times we had

together.

It touched my heart watching father and son growing closer.

I was very, yeah, I was very, very happy. I think that's probably where my

love of water and sailing and boating comes from.

We are a rock revolving around a golden sun.

We are a billion children rolled into one.

We are a rock revolving around the golden sun.

We are a billion children rolled into one.

Saltwater wells in my eye.

I had a fabulous time. I mean, you can see in the film, happy as a clam.

Smiling and laughing and having a good time.

But there was always a dark cloud hanging over our heads. The danger that

John could be deported at any time. Every now and then they'll say, you've

got 30 days to get out, and then my lawyer will kill them. Accompanied by

his lawyer, John Lennon showed up at Foley Square virtually alone and

unrecognized until waiting newsmen swarmed around him. Your defense must be

costing you a lot of money.

Yeah.

Is it worth it?

It will be. And then, some good news.

Because of the Watergate matter, as president, I must put the interests of

America first.

Therefore, I shall resign the presidency effective at noon tomorrow.

At last, John could finally feel at home in America.

I like to be here because this is where the music came from. This is what

influenced my whole life and got me where I am today, as it were.

I love the place. I'd like to be here. I've got a lot of friends here.

This is where I want to be, you know.

Statue of Liberty. Welcome.

I even brought my own cash.

With Nixon off his back, John was thrilled.

I kept shooting when a BBC film crew captured John.

Celebrating Manhattan.

We were invited to the premiere of an off-Broadway musical based on Sgt.

Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band.

It was a mob scene.

We took our seats.

And then, out of the blue, Yoko showed up.

I whispered to John, Do you want me to give up my seat?

He bluntly said, No.

Have her sit in the back.

Watching the stage, it was like a circus.

It reminded me of the Magical Mystery Tour.

They had all those crazy outfits.

John turns to me and goes, this is so fucking weird.

Once the show was over, we ran right off to the party at the Hippopotamus Club.

I've got to be honest with you.

The first time that I went to Hippo with John, we came in, sat down,

fully expecting to see Yoko.

And there was this young, pretty girl there, and I thought, oh, press agent,

you know, with him. And then I noticed that it was a little more than that.

John was always attracted to strong women.

Sitting in the back of the theater didn't sit well with Yoko.

She told me, she's something you've taken John back.

And I said, what?

She said, something you've taken him back.

She had no explanation. She said, I think it's time.

At this point, John was determined to get back into the studio to complete the

rock and roll album.

I finished it off, and I played it around to a few people that weren't me.

And I played it to the record company. I didn't know what to do with it. I said,

I don't know whether to release it even. I've got it off my chest. I've finished

it. And they all said, this is all right. This is all right. Let's put it

out. I said, it's all right, is it?

OK, we'll put it out.

He was a real media freak.

He'd sit in front of the TV. He would have the music blaring, but the TV was

on at all times.

One night we were cuddling in bed when John got the inspiration for a new song.

We were watching late night television when all of a sudden the famous TV

preacher Reverend Ike comes on. If you're looking in by television, quickly

reach and get a pencil or a pen.

Grab the nearest paper sack if you have to.

John was mesmerized.

Everything you do, everything you want.

Whatever gets you through the night.

John kept repeating the phrase.

Whatever gets you through the night.

Reverend Ike's message became a hook for a new song.

We went straight to the studio to record it.

And who happened to show up?

But Elton John.

He just popped into New York on his way through and walked in the studio.

and said, hey, can I put some piano on that? And I said, sure, you know, go

ahead. And then I said, look, while you're here, do you want to sing

harmony?

From inspiration to creation to collaboration, I was proud to be a part

of the journey.

Then we set out on the biggest PR campaign in Capitol Records history.

You've been listening to John Lennon's new album, Walls and Bridges. Thank you.

It's a pleasure, John.

No, I wouldn't want to be so commercialist to hold up walls and

bridges, number one with a bullet, out now with a new single, number nine,

Dream, at your local store. Thank you, God bless you, and let's get on with

business.

You just did the business. Oh, I did, but it's good.

To promote the album, we stopped at KHJ Radio in Los Angeles.

Good morning, Southern California, it's 619 and 62 degrees in Hollywood.

John was great at schmoozing with fans on the air. I love the...

We were then invited to the Caribou Ranch in Colorado to record with Elton.

John suggested playing Lucy

in the Sky with Diamonds against a reggae beat.

While we were there, we went shopping.

John looked pretty good at the Liverpool cardboard.

Whatever gets you through the night became a number one hit.

It was the first number one I had, actually. I did not expect to get to

number one at all.

I didn't think he'd have a chance in hell.

Elton made a bet with John.

If the single got to number one, he would have to perform live with Elton.

Well, I lived to get nervous about that. In fact, I said, okay, it's time to tell

you Jews.

We got together in New York. It wasn't, you know, and we talked about what we

should do, and we had a rehearsal on Tuesday night.

John was dreading the performance.

But he was a man of his word.

And it was time to pay up.

John hit his nerves by putting on Elton's glasses.

And there were plenty of glasses to go around.

That night we took a limo to Madison Square Garden.

John was so nervous.

Nervous? He was nauseous.

That was Elton's big, big, big, big, big year.

You know, the year when that's your year, and his tour was unbelievable, and

he couldn't believe it.

It had been so long since John had performed live, he didn't know how the

audience would react.

Because he hadn't been on tour since 1966 when it was four amps on the stage.

Backstage, we sat waiting for John's cue.

I was more nervous than I was going on stage.

Seeing as Thanksgiving, we thought we'd make tonight a little bit of a joyous

occasion by inviting someone up to the stage.

And I'm sure it will be no stranger to anybody when I say it's our great

privilege and your great privilege to be here with John Lennon.

And the whole of Madison Square Garden shook as the ground was shaking and all

the limos were like bouncing up and down.

At John's request.

I stood off stage where he would be sure to see me.

It was a magic, magic evening.

It's just one of those magical things. I mean, just completely blew my head off.

This would be John's last live public performance.

After the concert, I found a card with familiar handwriting.

And then I noticed Yoko talking to John.

And we just went to backstage.

And John was sitting there.

And he looked at me, and I looked at him.

And I was smiling, just kind of.

Smiling politely, whatever you call it. She came over, she sent Elton and she

sent John Flowers for the show.

She congratulated them and that was it. And then we all went to the party

afterwards.

Sportcaster Howard Cosell invited us to Monday Night Football.

Now I've got...

A most familiar figure and face for all of you across the country here with me

now. Of the original Beatles, Mr. John Lennon.

John, nice to see you, John.

I want to move that up just a little closer. How are you? What's been your

view of this American professional football scene? It's an amazing event

and site. It makes rock concerts look like tea parties. But I must say, the

first thing I heard when I got in was I'm playing a Beatles tune yesterday,

which cheered me up no end.

Will the Beatles ever reunite?

You never know. You never know. I mean, it's always in the wind. If it looked

like this, it might be worth doing, right?

Ironically, two weeks later, at the Plaza Hotel, arrangements were made

officially dissolving the Beatles.

Closing was scheduled at the Plaza Hotel, a big meeting room.

Paul and Linda in the corner filming it, George walking around the table, and

they're saying to me, where's John?

And I spoke with May initially, and she put John on the phone. She said, John,

where are you? He said, I'm not coming. The stars aren't right.

I wasn't going to argue with him.

Yoko told him not to sign.

Ha! The stars weren't right.

We had a well-timed visit from Julian.

The three of us escaped to Florida.

At Disney World, I was there on the most crowded day of the year, around

Christmas, I think.

And people didn't bother me because I was just one in a million people. I was

just crushed up.

But seeing him is good, you know.

After a few days of unwinding, John finally sat down to sign the contracts.

Linda McCartney had photographed Paul and George signing in New York.

So John said to me, May, get the camera.

Be my Linda.

And that's how the Beatles, who started at the Cavern Club in Liverpool, finally

ended at Disney World.

With the stroke of a pen, the Beatles were no more.

1975 got off to a great start.

John and I were back in New York. At one point, he asked me, he goes, you know, I

was thinking, I wonder what it would be like if I started to write with Paul

again. What do you think?

And I said to him, I said, are you crazy? I said, it would be great. We

might do bits together, you know, we don't know yet. There's every chance we

might just feel like getting together and doing something, you know. And the

Beatles were back on the chart.

We all have albums, singles, everything.

Zooming up the charts, folks, isn't that nice?

Separately, but together.

I was the anchor at WPDI-TV in Philadelphia.

Well, Larry Kane from way back when. Traveling with him with the Beatles was

wonderful.

John, more than anyone else, I remained in touch with. And we invited him to

come down.

And he said, can I go on TV with you? What would you like to do? He said, how

about the weather?

After the program was over, he was telling me about this romance he had

with a beautiful young woman, May Payne.

And he said that we fell in love, and it was really an idyllic life.

I was deeply in love with John.

John often showed his affection with his drawings.

He sketched my favorite animal, a gorilla, sweetly offering flowers and

announcing, I've come for May.

And here he imagines himself floating peacefully through old age, pot-bellied

and content, surrounded by his favorite things, his cat, his ciggy,

his coffee.

There I am, above the clouds, watching over our little house with John as the

walrus. He seemed to be thinking of our future.

And it looked like heaven on earth.

So everything was going great.

What happened?

This is the toughest one.

Yoko had claimed that there's this therapist that, you know, can hypnotize

him and help him quit smoking because he felt that his lungs were going short.

You know, he didn't hold a breath long enough when he sang.

Yoko called up and said, John should come home.

And all of a sudden I got this horrible feeling.

And I didn't want him to go.

And he turned around on the staircase and he looked at me and he said, I'll

come back early.

Whatever restaurant you want to go, we'll go. And make the arrangement of

going down to see Paul and Linda down in New Orleans. Because you're going to

love it. Because I had never been to New Orleans.

He turned to me, gave me a kiss.

He said, I'll be back.

And when he walked out the door, the door slammed behind him.

I had a strange feeling I wasn't going to see him back here again.

So I didn't speak to him the whole weekend.

I tried calling.

And Yoko would say, he's sleeping.

He's in session.

Everything but then to get him on the phone.

But finally, about I don't know how many tries, I said, listen, you know how John

doesn't like to miss a dental appointment.

Please tell him. He's got one on Monday.

And we met there. And we stood outside, and I could see he looked different. He

sounded different.

And afterwards, I went in one direction.

I went in one direction, he was going in the other. And I said, where are you

going?

And he looked at me and he went, uh, home.

I said, well, home is this way, pointing in the direction I was walking.

And then finally he came over to me and he said, listen, Yoko's allowed me to

come home.

Allowed? And I said, whose idea was this?

He goes, really, nobody just came up.

So I knew.

That's not what he was thinking.

The week, week and a half before,

he was just, we were about to buy a house.

We had gone out there. We even took Julian.

We were about to buy a house in Montauk.

The next five years, I saw John.

On and off.

And often we were intimate.

And I know it meant a lot to both of us.

It had been about a little over a year since I had last seen John when he

called out of the clear blue.

We spent an hour and a half on the phone. I said, where are you?

He goes, I'm in Cape Town.

And I went, South Africa?

He said.

We have to find a way for us to get together.

Never would I have thought that would be the last time I would talk to him.

This is the CBS Evening News with Walter Cronkite.

Good evening. The death of a man who sang and played the guitar overshadows

the news from Poland around in Washington tonight.

Former Beatle John Lennon, who was 40, was shot and killed outside his luxury

apartment in New York.

News of Lennon's death touched off a wave of shock and mourning around the

world.

Devoted fans of John Lennon still gather at the site where the former Beatle star

was murdered Monday night.

Visiting overnight was Lennon's 17-year-old son, Julian, who flew in

from London.

That Sunday...

There was a little memorial, and I didn't want to come out, but Tony King

and I decided to take a walk.

May meant something to John.

She wasn't just a little scrubber that he picked up off the street.

She helped him through a very difficult period of his life.

She coped with a lot of shit, and she was a young girl, and her whole life was

turned around as a result of this experience.

It never ended.

And so when it didn't end, life ended it for me.

What happened out there?

what is one of your fondest memories of may can you describe that the fact that

she maintained such a great relationship with mum and the reason i got to see may

a lot more uh and the only i think the main

reason i got to see may a lot more was was because of mum you know and uh love

you and uh i love you too

So, you know, that's, you know, one of the key things, I think, more than

anything.

Indeed.

And look at us now. Still here.

Still here. Still alive and kicking.

Who would have thought?

When I look back at our so-called lost weekend,

When I think about my whole relationship with John, I know I wasn't the only

woman he loved.

He loved Cynthia.

He loved Yoko.

And yes, he loved me.

the only answer for me if there is any answers to anything is love