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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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- I gotta get moved in.
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I didn't think
I would be this far in
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and no long-term shelter
finished.
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Feeling winter gaining on me.
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It was right there.
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- Four rabbits!
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I am so thankful
for this four-rabbit day.
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- [grunting]
[bleep]!
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My body's not giving me
what I need anymore.
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- I am officially tapping out.
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I'm not certain how
I'm gonna move on from here.
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- [pants]
I just lit my shelter on fire.
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[grunts]
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Holy [bleep]!
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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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male narrator:
For the first time,
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ten participants will fight
to survive the Arctic
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for longer than anyone
in "Alone" history:
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a grueling 100 days.
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♪ ♪
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- This is the ultimate
challenge.
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♪ ♪
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- A hundred days in the Arctic
is no joke.
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narrator: If they can endure,
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they'll will
the biggest prize ever:
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$1 million.
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♪ ♪
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- Whoa!
- Holy [bleep]!
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- You can't tap out
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when there's a million bucks
on the line.
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- Oh, my gosh.
- [growls]
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- How hard can you work
for $10,000 a day?
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- It looks like frostbite.
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- [screams]
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- Holy [bleep]!
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narrator: This is "Alone:
Million Dollar Challenge."
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- They're just surrounding
my shelter.
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[wolf growling]
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♪ ♪
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[low dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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[fire whooshing]
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- Oh, [bleep]!
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I just lit my [bleep]
shelter on fire.
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♪ ♪
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No, no, no, no, no, no, no,
nope.
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Nope, this ain't happening.
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No, no, no, no, no.
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Get the [bleep] away
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from my [bleep]damn shelter.
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Nope.
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[grunting]
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Go burn somewhere else, bitch!
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♪ ♪
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Whoo!
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♪ ♪
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Whoo!
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♪ ♪
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Holy [bleep]!
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♪ ♪
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[sighs]
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♪
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Whoo!
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♪ ♪
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Oh, my God.
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I think that should burn out.
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♪ ♪
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Yeah, that just happened.
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♪ ♪
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[exhales hard]
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♪ ♪
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Well, we've got...
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A patch missing
out of my shelter now.
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Pretty big one that's
still smoking up here.
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What happened was
all this soot sticks
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to these dried moss
and dried pine needles,
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and an ember went up,
and it just lit everything up.
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[panting]
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Doesn't help that
it's so damn windy, either.
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That...just made for
a very interesting night.
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[low foreboding music]
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[wind whistling]
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♪ ♪
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Talk about fighting fire
with your freaking hands.
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♪ ♪
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Man.
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That's not how I'm going out.
[bleep] that.
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♪ ♪
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[sighs]
Oh, God.
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Oh, man.
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Here I'm, like, freaking out
and seeing things, but...
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♪ ♪
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I had to stop that.
That would've been it.
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That would've been my story.
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So tomorrow...
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I'll be fixing that, obviously.
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That's priority number one now.
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You gotta be
so careful out here.
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And obviously I'm not using
the same materials
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I used last time.
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[sighs]
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[sucks teeth]
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[tense music]
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♪ ♪
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[wind whistling]
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[wood crackling]
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So Max can't really talk
right now, right?
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He's only, like,
a year and two months old.
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But he has a lot to say
in my head.
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Every morning, he tells me--
he says, "Dad, get up."
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And immediately,
I get out of bed.
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Um...
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I don't feel the best,
but that makes me happy.
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[low ambient music]
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♪ ♪
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Last night was
the coldest night
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'cause I'm missing
a really huge chunk
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out of my shelter right now.
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So we got some
remodeling to do.
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♪ ♪
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Gonna have to start with
taking down my drying rack.
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♪ ♪
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If you wanna stay out here
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and you wanna make it
to the end,
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you gotta do
whatever it takes.
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And we haven't even hit
November yet.
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♪ ♪
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It's just tough
being out here, you know?
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It's work 24/7, which--
kinda what I expected.
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But I'm gonna try and push
through it and overcome.
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[sighing]
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So probably gonna use
this tarp over this spot
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because the embers won't
catch the tarp on fire.
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♪ ♪
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And with a tarp,
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the soot won't really
stick to it that easily.
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And even if it does,
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it's easy to clean off
and wipe off.
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[grunts]
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♪ ♪
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Not gonna lie.
Pretty tired right now.
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♪ ♪
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[tarp crinkling]
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♪ ♪
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[sighs]
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♪ ♪
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I'm gonna take a break.
I gotta warm my hands up.
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[light dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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[water lapping]
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- [breathes deeply]
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Haven't been stretching much.
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It's kinda tough to do when
it's no good flat spot
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and you can't put your hands
on the ground.
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Then I'll do...
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[grunts]
Just stretch the arms out.
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[exhales]
Pull the shoulders down.
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Tilt the neck a little bit.
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Reach the fingers out.
Oh, yeah.
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Roll the wrist in circles.
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Roll the shoulders.
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Feel that open up the chest.
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Never been to a yoga class
or anything, by the way.
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[breathes deeply]
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But I've had girlfriends
that do yoga, so.
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This is like that, right?
[exhales]
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[inhales deeply]
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[wind whistling]
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[delicate music]
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I'm putting a lot of work
into this shelter right now,
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but it's a tough balance
in my priorities
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between protecting myself
from the elements
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with this shelter
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and trying to obtain
all the meat that I need--
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fatty meat, hopefully,
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to keep my weight up.
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I'm getting fed.
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Got lots of hare...
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and that could probably
keep me going,
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but it's not gonna keep me
going while working hard.
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[sighs]
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And from the beginning,
I felt myself losing weight,
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and it doesn't seem to matter
how much I eat.
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I'm definitely losing
weight out here,
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and I'm expending
a lot of energy,
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and it's starting
to get tough.
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Either I get extreme fatigue
or I get crampy.
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All right, break time.
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♪ ♪
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It bothers me that I'm losing
weight this early in the game.
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There's gonna be
constant work to do.
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I'm gonna have to cut up
more trees and logs
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and haul brush
to work on my shelter.
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And I feel like I'm sort of
in a race against myself
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with this weakening body.
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[exhales hard]
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[thumps feet]
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♪ ♪
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Got some damn good-looking logs
coming in, though.
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I've got three ready to go
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on top of what you see
right here.
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So that's gonna get us up
another...foot and a half.
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♪ ♪
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But as long as I can
maintain the strength
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to get this shelter built
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and then keep bringing
in enough food
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to just maintain
and stay warm,
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I don't think this is
a problem for me.
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♪ ♪
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[tense music]
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♪ ♪
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- [laughs]
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[low mysterious music]
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[wind whistling]
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I'm feeling hungry
last few days.
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I've been eating
less and less fish,
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and I've been losing
a lot of my body fat.
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I need some other game
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so I can have a real stash
of food for the long haul.
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'Cause I do have some fish,
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but how long will that last,
you know?
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Bunny tracks over here.
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[curious music]
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When I was growing up
in El Salvador,
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I will go to the countryside
to snare iguanas,
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and that's when
I started learning to hunt.
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So I wanna give it
a try that way.
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Oh, somebody walked
through here.
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♪ ♪
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That looks like a fox.
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♪ ♪
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Right next to the shelter.
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That's not good.
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♪ ♪
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There is a lot of competition
in the area.
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There's a lot of animals
that would love to get
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their hands on my food.
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♪
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[quiet tense music]
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I don't have a spear,
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and it's one of the things
that I wanted to do
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from the beginning.
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I wanna use it just in case
a big predator
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is trying to
get into my shelter.
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I could have at least
a spear to hold them off,
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'cause anything can happen
like that so quick,
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and it's just seconds.
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♪ ♪
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[sticks scraping]
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[quiet calm music]
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♪ ♪
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[animal squeaking faintly]
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[rabbit crying]
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[ominous music]
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I hear a rabbit in my snare.
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[rabbit continues crying]
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I gotta really hurry up.
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I bet a fox right now
is looking for it.
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♪ ♪
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Come on.
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♪ ♪
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♪
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♪
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[music grows]
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[rabbit crying]
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[rabbit crying loudly]
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[rabbit cry stops abruptly]
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[panting]
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My first snare worked.
273
00:14:13,128 --> 00:14:16,027
[quiet tense music]
274
00:14:16,131 --> 00:14:19,203
Let's get in
the shelter before...
275
00:14:19,306 --> 00:14:25,209
before we get another animal
276
00:14:25,312 --> 00:14:30,283
in here because of
the crying sound of this guy.
277
00:14:30,386 --> 00:14:33,700
Somebody else
might want my bunny.
278
00:14:33,803 --> 00:14:35,771
Like a fox.
279
00:14:35,875 --> 00:14:42,433
♪ ♪
280
00:14:43,296 --> 00:14:45,885
Wow, what a rush.
281
00:14:45,988 --> 00:14:47,334
[exhales hard]
282
00:14:47,438 --> 00:14:48,888
♪ ♪
283
00:14:48,991 --> 00:14:50,648
My first snare.
284
00:14:50,751 --> 00:14:53,271
Yes!
More food.
285
00:14:53,375 --> 00:14:54,755
[exhales excitedly]
286
00:14:54,859 --> 00:14:57,137
More food, more days here.
287
00:14:57,241 --> 00:15:02,039
♪ ♪
288
00:15:02,142 --> 00:15:04,179
Wow.
289
00:15:04,282 --> 00:15:07,147
[inquisitive music]
290
00:15:07,251 --> 00:15:14,258
♪ ♪
291
00:15:20,333 --> 00:15:23,336
[wind whistling]
292
00:15:24,889 --> 00:15:26,926
- Good morning.
293
00:15:29,376 --> 00:15:31,447
Guess what I'm chewing on.
294
00:15:34,105 --> 00:15:36,659
[laughs and spits]
295
00:15:36,763 --> 00:15:39,110
I like to chew
on a little spruce,
296
00:15:39,214 --> 00:15:41,354
you know, and brush my teeth
with it.
297
00:15:41,457 --> 00:15:44,460
[brush scraping]
298
00:15:45,772 --> 00:15:47,049
[spits]
299
00:15:47,153 --> 00:15:50,984
It's great, and now my mouth
feels fresh and clean.
300
00:15:51,088 --> 00:15:52,537
Thanks, spruce.
301
00:15:52,641 --> 00:15:54,056
♪ ♪
302
00:15:54,160 --> 00:15:57,991
All right, clean mouth.
Gotta start the day off right.
303
00:15:58,095 --> 00:16:00,200
Let's go on an adventure.
304
00:16:00,304 --> 00:16:03,272
[light music]
305
00:16:03,376 --> 00:16:04,791
I'm kinda curious to see
306
00:16:04,894 --> 00:16:07,725
if there's any fresh tracks
around the lake.
307
00:16:07,828 --> 00:16:11,591
I'm catching a lot of rabbits,
and I'm eating really well,
308
00:16:11,694 --> 00:16:15,215
but I'm still
losing weight too.
309
00:16:15,319 --> 00:16:17,838
There's not a ton of fat
on the rabbits
310
00:16:17,942 --> 00:16:19,323
and that's the thing
I'm worried about,
311
00:16:19,426 --> 00:16:21,773
is not getting
enough fat to eat.
312
00:16:21,877 --> 00:16:23,499
♪ ♪
313
00:16:23,603 --> 00:16:27,193
Having fat is necessary
to make it to 100 days.
314
00:16:27,296 --> 00:16:31,991
♪ ♪
315
00:16:34,096 --> 00:16:37,651
What do we got here?
Some tracks.
316
00:16:38,687 --> 00:16:44,969
Okay, so I think this is my
good friend Mr. Porcupine.
317
00:16:46,384 --> 00:16:48,766
Porcupines have
a bunch of fat on them.
318
00:16:48,869 --> 00:16:51,596
This could help fuel me
for the winter.
319
00:16:52,977 --> 00:16:54,185
Wait a minute.
320
00:16:54,289 --> 00:16:57,982
There is another
line of tracks coming in.
321
00:16:58,086 --> 00:17:02,297
That is very interesting.
322
00:17:02,400 --> 00:17:03,505
♪ ♪
323
00:17:03,608 --> 00:17:06,059
Check this out.
Guess who else we got?
324
00:17:06,163 --> 00:17:08,406
[low ominous music]
325
00:17:08,510 --> 00:17:09,511
Wolf.
326
00:17:09,614 --> 00:17:11,478
♪ ♪
327
00:17:11,582 --> 00:17:15,965
So I really wanna
track this porcupine,
328
00:17:16,069 --> 00:17:19,521
but we got a wolf
going the same way.
329
00:17:19,624 --> 00:17:21,350
Hopefully, we can
catch up to him.
330
00:17:21,454 --> 00:17:22,627
♪ ♪
331
00:17:22,731 --> 00:17:24,560
There's a lot
of competition for food.
332
00:17:24,664 --> 00:17:26,493
All the animals
around here wanna eat.
333
00:17:26,597 --> 00:17:27,563
♪ ♪
334
00:17:27,667 --> 00:17:30,187
So here we go.
335
00:17:30,290 --> 00:17:33,190
[brisk dramatic music]
336
00:17:33,293 --> 00:17:35,261
♪ ♪
337
00:17:35,364 --> 00:17:39,886
I gotta just make sure
I'm not overlooking anything.
338
00:17:39,989 --> 00:17:41,267
Being out here,
339
00:17:41,370 --> 00:17:43,234
I feel like I've kind of
dropped back
340
00:17:43,338 --> 00:17:44,477
into another time,
341
00:17:44,580 --> 00:17:47,583
and I think of
the ancestors often
342
00:17:47,687 --> 00:17:50,103
now that it's getting cold
343
00:17:50,207 --> 00:17:52,071
and getting a little bit
harder
344
00:17:52,174 --> 00:17:54,590
because I know
that the ancestors
345
00:17:54,694 --> 00:17:57,283
went through some
really hard times,
346
00:17:57,386 --> 00:17:59,250
but they made it through,
347
00:17:59,354 --> 00:18:01,528
and they didn't have
a red button to push.
348
00:18:01,632 --> 00:18:05,429
They had to keep going.
They give me so much strength.
349
00:18:05,532 --> 00:18:08,915
Yeah, the tracking's
way harder in here.
350
00:18:09,812 --> 00:18:12,263
His tracks...
351
00:18:12,367 --> 00:18:19,028
just get
totally covered up...
352
00:18:19,132 --> 00:18:20,616
by all this rabbit.
353
00:18:24,033 --> 00:18:26,967
See, now, I don't see
where a porcupine goes.
354
00:18:27,071 --> 00:18:28,728
♪ ♪
355
00:18:28,831 --> 00:18:30,281
Darn.
356
00:18:30,385 --> 00:18:33,181
I was really hopeful,
but there's another porcupine,
357
00:18:33,284 --> 00:18:34,665
so I can come back up here
358
00:18:34,768 --> 00:18:36,874
and hope for some
fresh tracks.
359
00:18:36,977 --> 00:18:38,289
And in the meantime,
360
00:18:38,393 --> 00:18:41,258
I'm just gonna set
a few more snares up here.
361
00:18:41,361 --> 00:18:42,880
♪ ♪
362
00:18:42,983 --> 00:18:45,883
[light tense music]
363
00:18:45,986 --> 00:18:52,959
♪ ♪
364
00:18:56,652 --> 00:18:57,757
[wood crackling]
365
00:18:57,860 --> 00:19:00,139
- I have some work to do today.
366
00:19:00,242 --> 00:19:04,695
It was late when madness
happened outside.
367
00:19:18,226 --> 00:19:20,780
[quiet dramatic music]
368
00:19:25,440 --> 00:19:27,027
♪
369
00:19:31,963 --> 00:19:34,552
♪
370
00:20:25,189 --> 00:20:28,088
♪
371
00:20:37,408 --> 00:20:39,134
Fox.
372
00:20:39,238 --> 00:20:42,137
[low tense music]
373
00:20:42,241 --> 00:20:46,935
♪ ♪
374
00:20:48,833 --> 00:20:51,008
♪
375
00:20:57,014 --> 00:21:04,055
♪
376
00:21:08,094 --> 00:21:09,820
He's not afraid of me.
377
00:21:09,923 --> 00:21:13,133
♪ ♪
378
00:21:16,861 --> 00:21:18,691
♪
379
00:21:18,794 --> 00:21:21,625
Go away.
Go away.
380
00:21:21,728 --> 00:21:22,764
Go away!
[bleep]!
381
00:21:29,840 --> 00:21:33,119
He don't care.
382
00:21:33,222 --> 00:21:36,605
Can't believe he walked just
in front of me like nothing.
383
00:21:36,709 --> 00:21:41,023
♪ ♪
384
00:21:50,412 --> 00:21:53,415
Do not come back here.
The bunny's mine.
385
00:21:54,865 --> 00:21:56,142
Whoo!
He doesn't wanna go away.
386
00:21:56,245 --> 00:21:57,799
He knows that
there's food here.
387
00:21:57,902 --> 00:22:00,008
He's coming this way now.
388
00:22:00,111 --> 00:22:02,838
[low foreboding music]
389
00:22:08,603 --> 00:22:11,916
Do not come back
for my food over here.
390
00:22:12,020 --> 00:22:13,470
♪ ♪
391
00:22:13,573 --> 00:22:16,369
Come on, I'm telling you.
392
00:22:16,473 --> 00:22:19,476
Holy [bleep], man,
this fox.
393
00:22:19,579 --> 00:22:22,099
Sorry guys,
but I'm starting to feel
394
00:22:22,202 --> 00:22:25,136
like this fox might be
a danger for me.
395
00:22:25,240 --> 00:22:32,040
♪ ♪
396
00:22:32,143 --> 00:22:33,455
[arrow whooshes]
397
00:22:34,629 --> 00:22:36,907
That's right.
398
00:22:37,010 --> 00:22:38,909
You don't listen.
399
00:22:40,773 --> 00:22:42,706
Do not come back here.
400
00:22:47,227 --> 00:22:48,574
That was getting too close.
401
00:22:48,677 --> 00:22:49,816
♪ ♪
402
00:22:49,920 --> 00:22:52,440
Yeah, I think that
will deter the fox.
403
00:22:52,543 --> 00:22:55,270
Might make him a little more
scared of humans.
404
00:22:55,374 --> 00:22:58,066
Just surrounding me,
stalking me like that--
405
00:22:58,169 --> 00:23:00,137
that's too much.
406
00:23:17,534 --> 00:23:19,018
♪
407
00:23:22,021 --> 00:23:24,644
♪
408
00:23:24,748 --> 00:23:27,613
[tense music]
409
00:23:27,716 --> 00:23:34,723
♪ ♪
410
00:23:41,937 --> 00:23:45,769
- 40 days is the longest
411
00:23:45,872 --> 00:23:49,842
I've been out
in the wilderness.
412
00:23:50,705 --> 00:23:52,707
That was with Dave.
413
00:23:52,810 --> 00:23:57,505
Big difference, though,
being alone.
414
00:23:57,608 --> 00:23:58,713
I don't like it.
415
00:23:58,816 --> 00:24:00,991
[laughs]
416
00:24:01,094 --> 00:24:02,095
♪ ♪
417
00:24:02,199 --> 00:24:03,718
[grunts]
418
00:24:03,821 --> 00:24:06,445
Dave and I have been
married for eight years.
419
00:24:06,548 --> 00:24:09,724
We have created
a homestead together.
420
00:24:09,827 --> 00:24:12,347
We do everything together.
421
00:24:12,451 --> 00:24:15,833
It's what actually sparked us
to start our business.
422
00:24:15,937 --> 00:24:18,215
Oh, I miss his hugs.
423
00:24:18,318 --> 00:24:20,769
♪ ♪
424
00:24:20,873 --> 00:24:24,048
[sniffles]
Today I miss his hugs.
425
00:24:24,152 --> 00:24:27,189
So now, one of the most
significant experiences
426
00:24:27,293 --> 00:24:30,020
in my life is without him.
427
00:24:30,123 --> 00:24:33,333
And that's a hard pill
to swallow.
428
00:24:33,437 --> 00:24:36,267
♪ ♪
429
00:24:36,371 --> 00:24:39,581
Yeah, I just feel lonely.
Just have to keep busy.
430
00:24:39,685 --> 00:24:40,824
[grunts]
431
00:24:40,927 --> 00:24:43,482
[water churning]
432
00:24:45,311 --> 00:24:48,072
Let's go and check the traps.
433
00:24:48,176 --> 00:24:51,075
[foreboding music]
434
00:24:51,179 --> 00:24:52,698
♪ ♪
435
00:24:57,081 --> 00:25:00,188
♪
436
00:25:00,291 --> 00:25:03,122
My whole story has been about
437
00:25:03,225 --> 00:25:06,435
failing at the moose,
failing at the fish.
438
00:25:06,539 --> 00:25:10,405
Failing at the moose again,
failing at the fish again.
439
00:25:10,509 --> 00:25:14,167
Then sprinkle in
a couple rabbits.
440
00:25:14,271 --> 00:25:15,341
♪ ♪
441
00:25:15,444 --> 00:25:19,414
My will--
my will is slipping.
442
00:25:22,555 --> 00:25:28,216
Okay.
I'm back up to my snares.
443
00:25:31,115 --> 00:25:33,393
♪
444
00:25:37,777 --> 00:25:43,576
♪
445
00:25:45,474 --> 00:25:52,033
♪
446
00:25:52,136 --> 00:25:53,724
Damn it!
447
00:25:53,828 --> 00:25:56,071
♪ ♪
448
00:25:56,175 --> 00:25:57,901
[sighs deeply]
449
00:25:59,074 --> 00:26:02,112
Bad news.
Someone found...
450
00:26:04,217 --> 00:26:06,150
Found my catch.
451
00:26:09,326 --> 00:26:11,121
Ugh!
452
00:26:14,434 --> 00:26:16,229
Damn it!
453
00:26:19,094 --> 00:26:26,101
♪
454
00:26:27,378 --> 00:26:28,310
♪
455
00:26:28,414 --> 00:26:31,037
Ugh, another one!
456
00:26:31,141 --> 00:26:33,592
♪ ♪
457
00:26:33,695 --> 00:26:36,664
Look.
[bleep].
458
00:26:36,767 --> 00:26:39,287
Kinda puts things in
perspective, doesn't it?
459
00:26:39,390 --> 00:26:41,427
♪ ♪
460
00:26:41,530 --> 00:26:43,774
How serious this can be.
461
00:26:43,878 --> 00:26:44,948
♪ ♪
462
00:26:48,883 --> 00:26:50,125
♪
463
00:26:50,229 --> 00:26:53,508
I'm finding it hard
to be motivated now.
464
00:26:53,612 --> 00:26:56,269
I don't have anyone here
to hold my hand
465
00:26:56,373 --> 00:26:58,720
and anyone to tell me
it's gonna be okay
466
00:26:58,824 --> 00:27:01,689
and anyone to show me the way.
467
00:27:01,792 --> 00:27:06,832
It's all me,
and that's a scary thought.
468
00:27:06,935 --> 00:27:08,696
♪ ♪
469
00:27:08,799 --> 00:27:12,182
It's the first time that
I actually want to be home.
470
00:27:12,285 --> 00:27:13,701
[grunts]
471
00:27:13,804 --> 00:27:16,358
One bunny left.
472
00:27:16,462 --> 00:27:17,877
♪ ♪
473
00:27:17,981 --> 00:27:20,017
I really miss Dave.
474
00:27:20,121 --> 00:27:21,743
♪ ♪
475
00:27:21,847 --> 00:27:23,849
[sobbing softly]
476
00:27:23,952 --> 00:27:30,959
♪ ♪
477
00:27:37,276 --> 00:27:40,141
I know this is super weird,
but...
478
00:27:40,244 --> 00:27:41,970
[wood crackling]
479
00:27:43,006 --> 00:27:47,286
[exhales]
I'm just really a huggy person.
480
00:27:49,909 --> 00:27:52,429
I like to hold hands.
481
00:27:54,224 --> 00:27:55,881
I like to kiss.
482
00:27:55,984 --> 00:27:58,573
But here, the only time
I've touched something living
483
00:27:58,677 --> 00:28:00,402
is when I'm about to kill it.
484
00:28:00,506 --> 00:28:02,439
[sniffles]
485
00:28:03,543 --> 00:28:05,753
To have no...
486
00:28:09,273 --> 00:28:12,069
[sniffles]
You know...
487
00:28:12,173 --> 00:28:16,384
no physical contact
is, uh--it's just...
488
00:28:16,487 --> 00:28:18,213
it's like a...
489
00:28:20,733 --> 00:28:22,804
[sniffles]
490
00:28:22,908 --> 00:28:27,878
An emptiness that just
sort of slowly appears.
491
00:28:27,982 --> 00:28:29,949
[sniffles]
492
00:28:32,400 --> 00:28:36,335
And you realize, you know,
something's missing.
493
00:28:38,924 --> 00:28:41,823
[light dramatic music]
494
00:28:41,927 --> 00:28:48,865
♪ ♪
495
00:28:51,177 --> 00:28:52,869
[zipper unzipping]
496
00:28:52,972 --> 00:28:55,078
[fabric rustling]
497
00:29:05,226 --> 00:29:07,297
- Can't somebody invent
a snagless zipper?
498
00:29:07,400 --> 00:29:09,644
It's, like, one in five times
I use a zipper,
499
00:29:09,748 --> 00:29:11,680
it gets hung up on something.
500
00:29:11,784 --> 00:29:14,511
But it's nice to have
this clean, dry rock
501
00:29:14,614 --> 00:29:16,444
to stand on
for changing my clothes.
502
00:29:16,547 --> 00:29:19,723
Man, so much luxury
in this space.
503
00:29:19,827 --> 00:29:22,484
Definitely wanna line my floor
in big, flat stones like this.
504
00:29:22,588 --> 00:29:24,797
I'm gonna do that.
That's my goal.
505
00:29:24,901 --> 00:29:27,696
Have the first shelter on
"Alone" that requires a broom.
506
00:29:27,800 --> 00:29:30,147
[brisk tense music]
507
00:29:30,251 --> 00:29:31,321
♪ ♪
508
00:29:31,424 --> 00:29:32,909
Go out,
check my snares again.
509
00:29:33,012 --> 00:29:35,359
Might have another hare.
We'll see.
510
00:29:35,463 --> 00:29:37,223
♪ ♪
511
00:29:37,327 --> 00:29:40,606
Oh, we got a hare.
512
00:29:42,919 --> 00:29:44,575
This is a beautiful guy
right here.
513
00:29:44,679 --> 00:29:48,096
Kind of ideal size.
514
00:29:48,200 --> 00:29:49,753
All frozen up.
515
00:29:49,857 --> 00:29:51,272
♪ ♪
516
00:29:51,375 --> 00:29:55,138
I'm gonna throw this guy in
my front pocket and take off.
517
00:29:55,241 --> 00:29:58,382
♪ ♪
518
00:29:58,486 --> 00:30:00,039
Oh, there's another hare.
519
00:30:00,143 --> 00:30:03,077
Holy smokes, it's still alive.
520
00:30:03,180 --> 00:30:06,874
Dang, that's not what I want.
521
00:30:06,977 --> 00:30:08,772
♪ ♪
522
00:30:08,876 --> 00:30:10,187
[rabbit crying]
523
00:30:10,291 --> 00:30:13,812
Sorry, dude,
but thank you for your life.
524
00:30:13,915 --> 00:30:15,399
[object thumps heavily]
525
00:30:15,503 --> 00:30:22,510
♪ ♪
526
00:30:27,273 --> 00:30:30,380
Hoo, another hare
this morning.
527
00:30:30,483 --> 00:30:32,140
[bleep].
528
00:30:32,244 --> 00:30:34,039
Unfortunately, another one that
I'm gonna have to dispatch
529
00:30:34,142 --> 00:30:35,695
out here in the field.
530
00:30:35,799 --> 00:30:37,939
This isn't pretty.
I don't like this part--
531
00:30:38,043 --> 00:30:40,977
taking of a life--
but I'm extremely grateful,
532
00:30:41,080 --> 00:30:42,910
and this is with purpose here.
533
00:30:43,013 --> 00:30:45,050
I do need to eat,
and being able to put away
534
00:30:45,153 --> 00:30:48,467
more food is something that
I feel very fortunate to do.
535
00:30:48,570 --> 00:30:50,262
All right,
one last snare to check.
536
00:30:52,333 --> 00:30:55,232
And another hare.
Holy moly.
537
00:30:55,336 --> 00:30:58,166
[light dramatic music]
538
00:30:58,270 --> 00:30:59,409
♪ ♪
539
00:30:59,512 --> 00:31:03,551
It's a four-hare day.
Holy smokes.
540
00:31:03,654 --> 00:31:06,623
I think it's a lucky day.
It's a beautiful, lucky day.
541
00:31:06,726 --> 00:31:10,006
♪ ♪
542
00:31:10,109 --> 00:31:12,594
[wood crackling]
543
00:31:12,698 --> 00:31:14,838
♪ ♪
544
00:31:14,942 --> 00:31:16,978
I think there's a lot
of wisdom in just consuming
545
00:31:17,082 --> 00:31:18,704
the nourishment
that you have on hand
546
00:31:18,807 --> 00:31:20,464
and not trying to
ration it out,
547
00:31:20,568 --> 00:31:22,950
and phrasing it
as "keeping your momentum."
548
00:31:23,053 --> 00:31:24,986
♪ ♪
549
00:31:25,090 --> 00:31:26,954
I definitely gotta
keep my momentum.
550
00:31:27,057 --> 00:31:28,265
Without my momentum,
551
00:31:28,369 --> 00:31:29,818
I don't think I'll keep
bringing in food.
552
00:31:29,922 --> 00:31:32,614
I'll just start tapering off
on all fronts.
553
00:31:32,718 --> 00:31:37,619
♪ ♪
554
00:31:37,723 --> 00:31:40,312
[wolves howling]
555
00:31:43,902 --> 00:31:46,490
Did I just hear a wolf?
556
00:31:51,219 --> 00:31:53,428
Can you hear that?
557
00:31:53,532 --> 00:31:56,535
[wolves howling]
558
00:31:58,399 --> 00:32:00,159
Oh, [bleep].
559
00:32:00,263 --> 00:32:02,472
[wolves continue howling]
560
00:32:02,575 --> 00:32:05,544
That just unleashed, like,
so many potentials of, like,
561
00:32:05,647 --> 00:32:07,960
what other mysteries
lie out here for me.
562
00:32:08,064 --> 00:32:09,617
♪ ♪
563
00:32:09,720 --> 00:32:12,033
I wonder if I should be
scared of wolves--
564
00:32:12,137 --> 00:32:14,311
scared of wolves coming
and trying to get my bunnies.
565
00:32:14,415 --> 00:32:20,697
♪ ♪
566
00:32:20,800 --> 00:32:22,595
Thinking about dealing
with the predators,
567
00:32:22,699 --> 00:32:23,872
there's a potential
that they could be
568
00:32:23,976 --> 00:32:25,874
a threat to my safety.
569
00:32:25,978 --> 00:32:28,291
But the best thing I can do
is just cross that bridge
570
00:32:28,394 --> 00:32:29,878
when you come to it,
and if you have to,
571
00:32:29,982 --> 00:32:32,329
you take down that animal.
572
00:32:32,433 --> 00:32:35,056
♪ ♪
573
00:32:35,160 --> 00:32:36,989
I'm gonna have a hard time
killing a wolf,
574
00:32:37,093 --> 00:32:38,922
except in a moment
of desperation
575
00:32:39,026 --> 00:32:40,889
or maybe for $1 million.
576
00:32:40,993 --> 00:32:43,168
♪ ♪
577
00:32:48,311 --> 00:32:55,318
♪
578
00:33:04,085 --> 00:33:05,604
- Man, I had a [bleep] up dream
579
00:33:05,707 --> 00:33:08,607
that I woke up from
a little while ago.
580
00:33:08,710 --> 00:33:12,093
It was about the drag races,
which I do with my dad.
581
00:33:12,197 --> 00:33:16,580
For some reason, the track
was set up so the finish line
582
00:33:16,684 --> 00:33:18,272
was at the end where
the spectators are,
583
00:33:18,375 --> 00:33:19,928
which is never the case.
584
00:33:20,032 --> 00:33:22,931
And I was there with, like,
all the "Alone" participants,
585
00:33:23,035 --> 00:33:25,313
who were talking about, like,
whether they could make it.
586
00:33:27,453 --> 00:33:30,008
'Cause it's very possible that
no one makes it 100 days.
587
00:33:30,111 --> 00:33:31,319
♪ ♪
588
00:33:31,423 --> 00:33:33,425
[brush scraping]
589
00:33:33,528 --> 00:33:37,532
Is not trying worth giving up
$1 million?
590
00:33:37,636 --> 00:33:39,017
No.
591
00:33:39,120 --> 00:33:43,435
♪ ♪
592
00:33:43,538 --> 00:33:45,057
The thing I think
I'd be most proud to finish
593
00:33:45,161 --> 00:33:46,610
is this shelter.
594
00:33:46,714 --> 00:33:48,543
Like, if I'm gonna finish one
thing out here
595
00:33:48,647 --> 00:33:50,649
before it gets really, really
cold and windy
596
00:33:50,752 --> 00:33:52,927
and that lake's frozen,
it's gotta be that.
597
00:33:53,031 --> 00:33:54,377
♪ ♪
598
00:33:54,480 --> 00:33:56,517
But whatever the opposite
of energized is--
599
00:33:56,620 --> 00:33:59,761
spent, pooped, bushed,
whatever that is--
600
00:33:59,865 --> 00:34:02,350
I'm feeling it, man.
601
00:34:02,454 --> 00:34:04,628
Not too much higher to go
on this little side.
602
00:34:04,732 --> 00:34:07,390
♪ ♪
603
00:34:07,493 --> 00:34:08,667
Oh, that sucks.
604
00:34:08,770 --> 00:34:09,944
♪ ♪
605
00:34:10,048 --> 00:34:10,945
I can just feel it.
606
00:34:11,049 --> 00:34:12,602
My stomach is taking so long
607
00:34:12,705 --> 00:34:15,950
to digest these protein-rich
meals that I'm trying to eat.
608
00:34:16,054 --> 00:34:17,917
And I go out and feel like
I should be energized,
609
00:34:18,021 --> 00:34:19,057
and I just crash.
610
00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:20,368
♪ ♪
611
00:34:20,472 --> 00:34:23,337
[water lapping]
612
00:34:23,440 --> 00:34:25,063
Oh, yup.
613
00:34:26,650 --> 00:34:30,309
Legs are wobbly again.
What's going on?
614
00:34:30,413 --> 00:34:31,690
My stomach's, like...
615
00:34:31,793 --> 00:34:35,590
[makes gurgling noise]
616
00:34:35,694 --> 00:34:38,973
"You should lay down."
617
00:34:39,077 --> 00:34:42,563
[grunts]
Oh, the change is occurring.
618
00:34:42,666 --> 00:34:45,842
I'm becoming lethargic.
619
00:34:45,945 --> 00:34:47,361
It's what I am.
620
00:34:47,464 --> 00:34:49,604
♪ ♪
621
00:34:49,708 --> 00:34:52,297
At this point,
I'm attributing it to the hare
622
00:34:52,400 --> 00:34:55,438
takes energy from me
while I'm digesting it,
623
00:34:55,541 --> 00:34:58,130
which I think is
a pretty safe hypothesis.
624
00:34:58,234 --> 00:35:01,547
♪ ♪
625
00:35:01,651 --> 00:35:04,171
I've got a lot of hard work
to do here.
626
00:35:04,274 --> 00:35:05,724
It's, like, if I don't
have the energy
627
00:35:05,827 --> 00:35:08,416
to do that effectively,
I just can't do it.
628
00:35:08,520 --> 00:35:10,038
♪ ♪
629
00:35:10,142 --> 00:35:11,488
That's the bottom line.
630
00:35:11,592 --> 00:35:15,423
And that's not a scenario
that I think is viable.
631
00:35:15,527 --> 00:35:16,769
♪ ♪
632
00:35:16,873 --> 00:35:19,772
[low tense music]
633
00:35:19,876 --> 00:35:26,848
♪ ♪
634
00:35:28,160 --> 00:35:31,129
[water lapping]
635
00:35:33,441 --> 00:35:35,340
[squirrel squeaks]
636
00:35:41,277 --> 00:35:43,313
- Hands are warmed up.
637
00:35:43,417 --> 00:35:44,659
Toes are cold.
638
00:35:46,282 --> 00:35:48,836
Exercise the toes.
639
00:35:48,939 --> 00:35:52,909
[sighs] We're doing toe
exercises right now.
640
00:35:53,012 --> 00:35:56,464
And a one, and a two,
and a three, and a four.
641
00:35:56,568 --> 00:35:58,156
And a one, and a two,
642
00:35:58,259 --> 00:36:00,537
and a three, and a four.
643
00:36:01,918 --> 00:36:03,816
[chuckles]
644
00:36:03,920 --> 00:36:05,887
[bleep], you going insane
out here.
645
00:36:05,991 --> 00:36:06,923
[laughs]
646
00:36:07,026 --> 00:36:08,338
♪ ♪
647
00:36:08,442 --> 00:36:10,685
[saw rasping]
648
00:36:10,789 --> 00:36:13,550
Fixing my shelter
took a lot of energy.
649
00:36:13,654 --> 00:36:16,277
[exhales hard]
650
00:36:16,381 --> 00:36:18,659
My body is just shot.
651
00:36:18,762 --> 00:36:20,833
I feel tired for everything.
652
00:36:20,937 --> 00:36:25,321
♪ ♪
653
00:36:25,424 --> 00:36:28,220
It has been so much work.
654
00:36:28,324 --> 00:36:31,119
I mean, it's got its rewards.
Don't get me wrong.
655
00:36:31,223 --> 00:36:34,916
Looking at my home right now,
that makes me happy.
656
00:36:35,020 --> 00:36:37,195
But nobody to talk to.
657
00:36:37,298 --> 00:36:39,024
You're sitting out here;
you start wondering.
658
00:36:39,127 --> 00:36:43,235
You're like, "Why?
Why am I doing this?"
659
00:36:43,339 --> 00:36:47,826
And my reasoning
for doing this
660
00:36:47,929 --> 00:36:49,690
is to not quit.
661
00:36:49,793 --> 00:36:55,282
But every single
stinking day is rough.
662
00:36:55,385 --> 00:36:56,938
Man, I'm tired!
663
00:36:57,042 --> 00:36:59,527
[wind whistling]
664
00:36:59,631 --> 00:37:01,080
[wood crackling]
665
00:37:01,184 --> 00:37:05,395
So I've noticed that I keep
getting more and more hungry.
666
00:37:06,810 --> 00:37:09,675
And I have food.
And I'm starving.
667
00:37:09,779 --> 00:37:10,883
But I'm hungry.
I don't know.
668
00:37:10,987 --> 00:37:13,748
It's just, like,
I can't stop the hunger.
669
00:37:13,852 --> 00:37:15,854
And to kinda put it
into perspective for you,
670
00:37:15,957 --> 00:37:18,546
for breakfast, I had fish.
671
00:37:18,650 --> 00:37:20,065
I had dried fish.
672
00:37:21,653 --> 00:37:23,793
An entire fillet.
673
00:37:23,896 --> 00:37:28,729
Like, an entire side of a fish,
not just a fillet.
674
00:37:30,524 --> 00:37:32,526
I've tried to ration
things out.
675
00:37:33,941 --> 00:37:35,908
And I keep eating.
And I keep eating.
676
00:37:36,012 --> 00:37:37,220
And I keep eating.
677
00:37:37,324 --> 00:37:39,222
And it's, like,
I can't get enough.
678
00:37:40,603 --> 00:37:43,053
So it's not a good situation.
679
00:37:43,157 --> 00:37:44,952
I've had to think about it
a lot, obviously,
680
00:37:45,055 --> 00:37:48,335
and I'm, like,
"Whew, come on, come on.
681
00:37:48,438 --> 00:37:50,889
Get your head in the game.
Get your head in the game."
682
00:37:50,992 --> 00:37:53,616
All it takes is
all you get, but...
683
00:37:53,719 --> 00:37:56,619
♪ ♪
684
00:37:56,722 --> 00:37:59,449
I'm not sure I'm willing to
give it everything that I have
685
00:37:59,553 --> 00:38:01,486
to be able to stay out here.
686
00:38:01,589 --> 00:38:03,522
♪ ♪
687
00:38:03,626 --> 00:38:06,007
And it's the--
it sounds bad, right?
688
00:38:06,111 --> 00:38:07,595
It sounds real bad.
689
00:38:07,699 --> 00:38:09,287
This whole thing is,
"Hey, don't quit.
690
00:38:09,390 --> 00:38:10,426
Don't quit."
691
00:38:10,529 --> 00:38:12,220
But...
692
00:38:12,324 --> 00:38:18,434
♪ ♪
693
00:38:18,537 --> 00:38:19,711
You miss everything.
694
00:38:19,814 --> 00:38:21,609
♪ ♪
695
00:38:21,713 --> 00:38:25,855
Everything that you want,
you already have.
696
00:38:25,958 --> 00:38:27,995
♪ ♪
697
00:38:28,098 --> 00:38:29,859
That's a good feeling.
698
00:38:29,962 --> 00:38:31,550
♪ ♪
699
00:38:31,654 --> 00:38:33,241
So I don't know.
700
00:38:33,345 --> 00:38:34,898
Tomorrow, I'm hoping,
is gonna be better,
701
00:38:35,002 --> 00:38:36,590
and we'll see what happens.
702
00:38:36,693 --> 00:38:37,556
One day at a time.
703
00:38:37,660 --> 00:38:42,389
♪ ♪
704
00:38:42,492 --> 00:38:45,392
[dramatic music]
705
00:38:45,495 --> 00:38:50,673
♪ ♪
706
00:38:50,776 --> 00:38:55,263
- I can see why people die
of a lonely heart.
707
00:38:55,367 --> 00:38:58,474
Day 100, it just seems
so far off.
708
00:38:58,577 --> 00:39:03,202
♪ ♪
709
00:39:03,306 --> 00:39:05,204
- I am eating more.
I'm eating a lot.
710
00:39:05,308 --> 00:39:07,379
I'm eating basically
as much as I have time
711
00:39:07,483 --> 00:39:11,003
to process in a day,
but I have to reckon with
712
00:39:11,107 --> 00:39:14,559
the potential reality that
I don't have a high likelihood
713
00:39:14,662 --> 00:39:17,596
of being the last person
standing out here.
714
00:39:17,700 --> 00:39:20,392
♪ ♪
715
00:39:20,496 --> 00:39:23,015
I know my body really well.
And I push my body.
716
00:39:23,119 --> 00:39:24,810
And this is getting
to the point
717
00:39:24,914 --> 00:39:26,881
where I'm actually
worried about my health.
718
00:39:26,985 --> 00:39:28,883
Coming out here
and pushing my body
719
00:39:28,987 --> 00:39:31,679
to a point where
I may do harm to myself,
720
00:39:31,783 --> 00:39:33,405
that's putting my pride
over my son.
721
00:39:33,509 --> 00:39:35,200
♪ ♪
722
00:39:35,303 --> 00:39:38,203
[dynamic music]
723
00:39:38,306 --> 00:39:45,313
♪ ♪
724
00:39:59,742 --> 00:40:01,433
- You guys aren't disappointed,
are you?
725
00:40:01,537 --> 00:40:03,539
[laughs]
726
00:40:04,609 --> 00:40:06,265
Hi.
727
00:40:06,369 --> 00:40:09,959
I've been feeling myself
getting smaller and weaker,
728
00:40:10,062 --> 00:40:11,547
and the days have
gotten difficult.
729
00:40:11,650 --> 00:40:15,136
And I just feel my body
isn't getting what it needs
730
00:40:15,240 --> 00:40:17,173
to be all it can be,
and I wanna be--
731
00:40:17,276 --> 00:40:19,658
I wanna be 100% me, so.
732
00:40:19,762 --> 00:40:21,660
I wanna walk away
in good health,
733
00:40:21,764 --> 00:40:25,077
and I wanna come home
to my family and friends whole.
734
00:40:26,320 --> 00:40:27,425
You know?
735
00:40:27,528 --> 00:40:29,150
With or without
a bunch of money.
736
00:40:29,254 --> 00:40:32,188
[melancholy music]
737
00:40:32,291 --> 00:40:35,467
I of course love the idea
of leaving victorious
738
00:40:35,571 --> 00:40:37,676
with, you know,
my best buds showing up
739
00:40:37,780 --> 00:40:39,506
and congratulating me
on winning
740
00:40:39,609 --> 00:40:42,612
and maybe $1 million richer.
741
00:40:42,716 --> 00:40:45,201
I really think that the way
I was building my shelter
742
00:40:45,304 --> 00:40:47,790
was the way to do it
in the long run,
743
00:40:47,893 --> 00:40:49,136
but I needed more fuel
744
00:40:49,239 --> 00:40:52,242
to power myself
through that project.
745
00:40:52,346 --> 00:40:55,729
But I'm just working with what
seems realistic right now,
746
00:40:55,832 --> 00:40:57,696
and I'm not gonna be the guy
that comes out here
747
00:40:57,800 --> 00:40:59,871
who's just so full of pride
that I'm just gonna try
748
00:40:59,974 --> 00:41:03,530
to push through real physical
hardship to the point
749
00:41:03,633 --> 00:41:04,565
of doing myself harm.
750
00:41:04,669 --> 00:41:05,566
I'm just not gonna do that.
751
00:41:05,670 --> 00:41:08,914
♪ ♪
752
00:41:09,018 --> 00:41:11,917
[suspenseful music]
753
00:41:12,021 --> 00:41:19,028
♪ ♪
754
00:41:21,306 --> 00:41:24,309
[wind whistling]
755
00:41:27,001 --> 00:41:30,004
[wood crackling]
756
00:41:33,387 --> 00:41:35,285
- [sniffles] There's
a lot of good books
757
00:41:35,389 --> 00:41:37,322
written about
northern Labrador.
758
00:41:37,425 --> 00:41:39,358
It makes you--it's a--
759
00:41:39,462 --> 00:41:42,051
makes you romanticize
going there...
760
00:41:44,156 --> 00:41:46,849
if you like that
sort of hardship.
761
00:41:48,713 --> 00:41:51,612
[light dramatic music]
762
00:41:51,716 --> 00:41:53,890
Actually,
there's a book called
763
00:41:53,994 --> 00:41:56,410
"The Lure of
the Labrador Wild."
764
00:41:56,514 --> 00:41:59,620
It's how we got our name
for our company,
765
00:41:59,724 --> 00:42:01,277
Lure of the North.
766
00:42:01,380 --> 00:42:03,486
♪ ♪
767
00:42:03,590 --> 00:42:05,764
That's how we feel
about the north.
768
00:42:05,868 --> 00:42:07,663
It has this pull.
769
00:42:07,766 --> 00:42:10,251
It'll bite your head off
if you're not careful,
770
00:42:10,355 --> 00:42:16,223
but it'll also provide
for you what you need.
771
00:42:17,604 --> 00:42:19,502
[dramatic music]
772
00:42:19,606 --> 00:42:21,090
♪ ♪
773
00:42:21,193 --> 00:42:23,402
I gotta keep pushing today.
774
00:42:23,506 --> 00:42:25,232
Kinda running low on energy,
775
00:42:25,335 --> 00:42:28,580
but it takes energy
to make energy.
776
00:42:28,684 --> 00:42:31,618
Despite all my talk
about being lonely,
777
00:42:31,721 --> 00:42:34,172
I think I just need
to just come to terms
778
00:42:34,275 --> 00:42:36,484
with what I was feeling.
779
00:42:36,588 --> 00:42:40,350
And I'm just going through
a moment, that's all.
780
00:42:40,454 --> 00:42:43,215
♪ ♪
781
00:42:53,536 --> 00:42:55,952
Hmm.
782
00:42:56,056 --> 00:42:58,196
[exhales]
783
00:42:58,299 --> 00:43:00,439
Is that a bunny?
What is that?
784
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:04,202
That's excellent.
I got a rabbit.
785
00:43:04,305 --> 00:43:05,583
♪ ♪
786
00:43:05,686 --> 00:43:09,138
Means there's still
alive bunnies around.
787
00:43:09,241 --> 00:43:10,380
♪ ♪
788
00:43:10,484 --> 00:43:12,348
Good start to the day.
789
00:43:12,451 --> 00:43:15,489
So I've been thinking
about stoicism.
790
00:43:15,593 --> 00:43:19,079
Specifically,
stoicism is about action,
791
00:43:19,182 --> 00:43:21,633
and it's about
setting yourself up
792
00:43:21,737 --> 00:43:23,531
to overcome obstacles
793
00:43:23,635 --> 00:43:27,466
and then having the will
to endure and persist.
794
00:43:27,570 --> 00:43:28,882
♪ ♪
795
00:43:28,985 --> 00:43:30,366
Whoa.
796
00:43:30,469 --> 00:43:32,644
All right, guys.
I came across another one.
797
00:43:33,818 --> 00:43:35,854
That's two for the day.
798
00:43:35,958 --> 00:43:38,408
All right, all right.
799
00:43:38,512 --> 00:43:42,861
And to try everything that you
can to overcome the obstacle,
800
00:43:42,965 --> 00:43:47,728
and if you can't,
then see the good in the bad.
801
00:43:47,832 --> 00:43:50,973
Ay, caramba.
I get another one.
802
00:43:51,076 --> 00:43:54,355
Holy shmoly.
That's three today.
803
00:43:54,459 --> 00:43:57,220
Very grateful.
[laughs]
804
00:43:57,324 --> 00:43:59,222
[sniffles]
Really grateful.
805
00:43:59,326 --> 00:44:01,949
And that, to me,
is stoicism.
806
00:44:02,053 --> 00:44:04,607
[wind whistling]
807
00:44:06,574 --> 00:44:08,853
Good day on the line.
808
00:44:10,509 --> 00:44:12,408
[grunts]
809
00:44:14,237 --> 00:44:15,618
Three bunnies.
810
00:44:15,722 --> 00:44:17,206
[cheerful music]
811
00:44:17,309 --> 00:44:20,140
Let's skin a rabbit.
812
00:44:20,243 --> 00:44:23,212
Nice amount of stomach fat
on this one.
813
00:44:23,315 --> 00:44:26,422
That's nothing to scoff at.
You see all that?
814
00:44:26,525 --> 00:44:28,217
It's quite a bit.
815
00:44:28,320 --> 00:44:31,220
♪ ♪
816
00:44:31,323 --> 00:44:33,015
Hopefully that means
good things
817
00:44:33,118 --> 00:44:36,639
for the arms
and behind the shoulders.
818
00:44:36,743 --> 00:44:41,713
Just trying to keep all the fat
on this body, not the skin.
819
00:44:41,817 --> 00:44:44,647
There's still
hope for me, guys.
820
00:44:46,545 --> 00:44:47,892
♪
821
00:44:49,272 --> 00:44:52,379
♪
822
00:44:52,482 --> 00:44:55,175
[grunts]
823
00:44:55,278 --> 00:44:58,178
[tense music]
824
00:44:58,281 --> 00:45:05,357
♪ ♪
825
00:45:08,982 --> 00:45:10,259
[wood crackling]
826
00:45:10,362 --> 00:45:13,365
- Do you guys ever, like,
talk to yourselves?
827
00:45:13,469 --> 00:45:15,678
What I mean by that is, like,
828
00:45:15,782 --> 00:45:18,025
"Man, what do I gotta do today?
Okay, I gotta do this.
829
00:45:18,129 --> 00:45:21,615
Gotta do that.
Da-da-da."
830
00:45:21,719 --> 00:45:24,066
Right?
You talk to yourself.
831
00:45:24,169 --> 00:45:26,758
[sniffles]
I do that all the time.
832
00:45:28,864 --> 00:45:33,661
But yesterday,
I'm sitting there...
833
00:45:37,217 --> 00:45:39,598
And I was, like,
arguing with myself.
834
00:45:39,702 --> 00:45:42,705
[laughs]
835
00:45:45,328 --> 00:45:47,123
And you're, like,
"Hmm, is that normal?"
836
00:45:47,227 --> 00:45:49,022
I don't know.
837
00:45:51,231 --> 00:45:52,957
But I bet everybody
that goes insane
838
00:45:53,060 --> 00:45:55,683
thinks they're sane, right?
839
00:45:55,787 --> 00:45:58,686
[ominous music]
840
00:45:58,790 --> 00:46:05,279
♪ ♪
841
00:46:05,383 --> 00:46:06,902
I'm doing this for Max,
842
00:46:07,005 --> 00:46:10,146
but been miserable for
quite a long time out here,
843
00:46:10,250 --> 00:46:12,597
and I'm trying to
stay happy about it,
844
00:46:12,700 --> 00:46:15,082
but when you catch yourself
talking to yourself
845
00:46:15,186 --> 00:46:17,844
a little bit too much
and you're just not smiling
846
00:46:17,947 --> 00:46:20,950
and not having fun,
it wears on you.
847
00:46:21,054 --> 00:46:23,263
♪ ♪
848
00:46:23,366 --> 00:46:26,714
Max, man, this is rough.
849
00:46:26,818 --> 00:46:29,683
And I'm sorry,
850
00:46:29,787 --> 00:46:31,823
but buddy,
I'm coming home to see you.
851
00:46:31,927 --> 00:46:34,550
And I'm not sorry about that.
852
00:46:34,653 --> 00:46:36,863
[phone beeps]
853
00:46:40,107 --> 00:46:42,109
Hey, this is Mark,
854
00:46:42,213 --> 00:46:45,492
and, uh,
I'm officially tapping out.
855
00:46:45,595 --> 00:46:48,495
[melancholy music]
856
00:46:48,598 --> 00:46:53,811
♪ ♪
857
00:46:53,914 --> 00:46:56,537
Fox.
858
00:46:56,641 --> 00:46:58,022
You coming to thank me?
859
00:46:58,125 --> 00:46:59,506
♪ ♪
860
00:46:59,609 --> 00:47:01,922
You coming to thank me
for letting you go?
861
00:47:02,026 --> 00:47:03,372
♪ ♪
862
00:47:03,475 --> 00:47:05,132
Yeah, you're welcome.
863
00:47:05,236 --> 00:47:06,444
♪ ♪
864
00:47:06,547 --> 00:47:10,241
Did a lot of good things,
and I'm tired.
865
00:47:10,344 --> 00:47:11,621
♪ ♪
866
00:47:11,725 --> 00:47:13,313
I'll let the fox
have the rabbits.
867
00:47:13,416 --> 00:47:15,384
[laughs softly]
868
00:47:15,487 --> 00:47:16,730
♪ ♪
869
00:47:16,834 --> 00:47:19,664
Hey, that way.
870
00:47:19,767 --> 00:47:21,045
Keep heading west.
871
00:47:21,148 --> 00:47:22,978
♪ ♪
872
00:47:23,081 --> 00:47:26,567
Well, here it is.
873
00:47:26,671 --> 00:47:29,363
♪ ♪
874
00:47:32,263 --> 00:47:34,472
Bittersweet moment
to see you guys.
875
00:47:35,887 --> 00:47:38,786
This experience has been,
for me,
876
00:47:38,890 --> 00:47:40,650
what with Max,
877
00:47:40,754 --> 00:47:42,860
there's a lot of things
I'm missing, that I missed.
878
00:47:42,963 --> 00:47:44,240
Him walking for the first time;
879
00:47:44,344 --> 00:47:45,552
him talking,
saying different things.
880
00:47:45,655 --> 00:47:46,898
'Cause at his age,
881
00:47:47,002 --> 00:47:49,349
it's been a struggle
to be away from everything.
882
00:47:50,591 --> 00:47:52,490
[plaintive music]
883
00:47:52,593 --> 00:47:54,250
♪ ♪
884
00:47:54,354 --> 00:47:56,632
The whole reason why I'm doing
this was to show my son
885
00:47:56,735 --> 00:47:59,669
what it's like to do something
really hard and not quit.
886
00:47:59,773 --> 00:48:03,259
But I want my son to know that
it is okay to quit something
887
00:48:03,363 --> 00:48:05,054
when you are worried
about your health.
888
00:48:05,158 --> 00:48:09,196
You gotta be smart enough
to know when to call it.
889
00:48:09,300 --> 00:48:11,371
Push yourself as hard
as you can,
890
00:48:11,474 --> 00:48:14,684
and then make sure that you're
happy with your decision.
891
00:48:14,788 --> 00:48:16,583
♪ ♪
892
00:48:16,686 --> 00:48:18,481
I remember saying
when I came out here,
893
00:48:18,585 --> 00:48:20,069
"I'd rather die than quit."
894
00:48:20,173 --> 00:48:21,105
No, I wouldn't.
895
00:48:21,208 --> 00:48:22,382
♪ ♪
896
00:48:22,485 --> 00:48:23,486
I'd rather live.
897
00:48:23,590 --> 00:48:27,352
♪ ♪
898
00:48:27,456 --> 00:48:30,908
I wanna go back and appreciate
all the little things
899
00:48:31,011 --> 00:48:32,633
I never appreciated before.
900
00:48:32,737 --> 00:48:34,808
♪ ♪
901
00:48:34,912 --> 00:48:36,223
Pain, misery, and suffering.
902
00:48:36,327 --> 00:48:38,329
I've dealt with it enough.
903
00:48:38,432 --> 00:48:40,538
I'm done.
904
00:48:40,641 --> 00:48:43,575
♪ ♪
905
00:48:47,717 --> 00:48:54,724
♪
906
00:49:07,945 --> 00:49:10,913
[wood crackling]
907
00:49:24,823 --> 00:49:26,894
- Trick or treat!
908
00:49:26,998 --> 00:49:28,689
[laughs]
909
00:49:28,793 --> 00:49:33,453
I'm a porcupine!
[laughs]
910
00:49:33,556 --> 00:49:35,524
Happy Halloween.
911
00:49:35,627 --> 00:49:40,529
I'm honoring--
honoring the porcupine,
912
00:49:40,632 --> 00:49:43,946
because that is who
first greeted me here
913
00:49:44,050 --> 00:49:46,293
and gave me food to eat
on this land,
914
00:49:46,397 --> 00:49:49,365
so I'm a porcupine
for Halloween.
915
00:49:49,469 --> 00:49:50,504
[chittering]
916
00:49:50,608 --> 00:49:53,266
[light dramatic music]
917
00:49:53,369 --> 00:49:57,580
Good evening
and happy Halloween.
918
00:49:57,684 --> 00:50:01,929
So I'm burning an outside fire
to celebrate the ancestors,
919
00:50:02,033 --> 00:50:04,518
and I'm having
an ancestor feast.
920
00:50:04,622 --> 00:50:06,658
I'm putting a whole rabbit
in the pot.
921
00:50:06,762 --> 00:50:10,455
I'm gonna eat this
whole rabbit tonight.
922
00:50:10,559 --> 00:50:14,632
No porcupine, but I'm so
thankful for the rabbits.
923
00:50:14,735 --> 00:50:18,015
Just really taking care of me
in a big way.
924
00:50:18,118 --> 00:50:20,914
♪ ♪
925
00:50:21,018 --> 00:50:23,261
To me, Halloween's, like,
a celebration
926
00:50:23,365 --> 00:50:26,782
of the life-death cycle,
and honoring all the ancestors
927
00:50:26,885 --> 00:50:29,302
and all the ones
that have passed.
928
00:50:29,405 --> 00:50:31,718
♪ ♪
929
00:50:31,821 --> 00:50:33,961
And death has been a pretty
big part of my life
930
00:50:34,065 --> 00:50:37,241
because two of
my brothers have died.
931
00:50:37,344 --> 00:50:39,415
So it's, like,
whatever you lose
932
00:50:39,519 --> 00:50:41,348
you don't take it
for granted anymore,
933
00:50:41,452 --> 00:50:44,213
and I just love
my family so much.
934
00:50:44,317 --> 00:50:46,871
And they're on my mind today.
935
00:50:46,974 --> 00:50:49,736
Connecting to the rabbits,
to the porcupine,
936
00:50:49,839 --> 00:50:52,635
to my brothers,
and all my friends and family
937
00:50:52,739 --> 00:50:55,259
that have passed on
and all my ancestors
938
00:50:55,362 --> 00:50:56,674
that I haven't met before.
939
00:50:56,777 --> 00:50:59,677
[eerie electronic music]
940
00:50:59,780 --> 00:51:03,508
♪ ♪
941
00:51:03,612 --> 00:51:06,028
It's such a powerful
realization, you know?
942
00:51:06,132 --> 00:51:08,548
Like, there's all
these conveniences,
943
00:51:08,651 --> 00:51:09,859
and they're all nice,
944
00:51:09,963 --> 00:51:11,999
but there's something
missing from it.
945
00:51:12,103 --> 00:51:15,106
And that thing that's
missing is right here.
946
00:51:15,210 --> 00:51:17,764
It's a connection.
It's a relationship.
947
00:51:17,867 --> 00:51:19,041
It's a depth.
948
00:51:19,145 --> 00:51:21,285
And it's here,
and it's in this rabbit,
949
00:51:21,388 --> 00:51:23,701
and it's in this fire,
and it's in this land.
950
00:51:23,804 --> 00:51:26,945
And I feel more free
than I've ever felt
951
00:51:27,049 --> 00:51:28,809
because I get to do
what I love.
952
00:51:28,913 --> 00:51:30,397
I love my family,
953
00:51:30,501 --> 00:51:33,193
but I'm loving this
alone time, you know?
954
00:51:33,297 --> 00:51:36,093
I just know that
the longer I am away,
955
00:51:36,196 --> 00:51:38,474
the sweeter it's gonna be
when I see them again.
956
00:51:38,578 --> 00:51:41,512
Because this is an opportunity
to go deep.
957
00:51:41,615 --> 00:51:44,549
♪ ♪
958
00:51:44,653 --> 00:51:48,035
Deeper into the wild,
deeper into myself,
959
00:51:48,139 --> 00:51:50,969
and I want to suck the marrow
out of that.
960
00:51:51,073 --> 00:51:53,040
I wanna go as deep as I can.
961
00:51:53,144 --> 00:51:55,457
♪ ♪
962
00:51:55,560 --> 00:51:57,838
[fabric rustling]
963
00:52:01,704 --> 00:52:04,224
All right, that looks
like a good dinner to me.
964
00:52:04,328 --> 00:52:05,605
♪ ♪
965
00:52:05,708 --> 00:52:10,092
We are having a party tonight.
Oh, yeah.
966
00:52:10,196 --> 00:52:12,819
I got so many people
that I love and care about,
967
00:52:12,922 --> 00:52:15,132
and I wanna do good for them.
968
00:52:15,235 --> 00:52:17,858
The prize money,
it wouldn't just benefit me.
969
00:52:17,962 --> 00:52:20,240
It'd benefit my family,
970
00:52:20,344 --> 00:52:22,863
my friends.
971
00:52:22,967 --> 00:52:25,556
I just can't say it enough.
972
00:52:25,659 --> 00:52:28,766
I am just getting
started out here.
973
00:52:28,869 --> 00:52:36,498
♪ ♪
974
00:52:36,601 --> 00:52:38,983
[dramatic music]
975
00:52:39,086 --> 00:52:41,468
- Welcome to
"Alone: Tales from the Arctic."
976
00:52:41,572 --> 00:52:42,883
I'm Colby Donaldson,
977
00:52:42,987 --> 00:52:44,678
here with Mark, Callie, Joe,
978
00:52:44,782 --> 00:52:46,646
Amós, and Kielyn.
979
00:52:46,749 --> 00:52:48,613
There is so much to discuss.
980
00:52:48,717 --> 00:52:50,719
Two tap outs.
Wolves.
981
00:52:50,822 --> 00:52:53,963
Amós and his run-in with
a fox--but first, Mark.
982
00:52:54,067 --> 00:52:55,965
Let's talk about
that shelter fire.
983
00:52:56,069 --> 00:52:57,450
- And so, I look up.
984
00:52:57,553 --> 00:52:59,176
I see my shelter's on fire.
985
00:52:59,279 --> 00:53:01,661
And I'd like to turn around
986
00:53:01,764 --> 00:53:03,076
and just start being able
to fight it immediately,
987
00:53:03,180 --> 00:53:05,389
but I grab the camera,
I get to my door,
988
00:53:05,492 --> 00:53:07,805
finally get it untied,
get outside.
989
00:53:07,908 --> 00:53:09,945
So I chuck the camera
in the snow,
990
00:53:10,048 --> 00:53:11,222
and luckily,
I got a good enough angle.
991
00:53:11,326 --> 00:53:13,224
You guys could kinda see
what was going on.
992
00:53:13,328 --> 00:53:14,294
- Yep.
993
00:53:14,398 --> 00:53:16,227
- This is not [bleep]
happening.
994
00:53:16,331 --> 00:53:20,127
Go burn somewhere else, bitch!
995
00:53:20,231 --> 00:53:23,027
- Mark, at one point, you said,
996
00:53:23,130 --> 00:53:24,753
"That would've been my story."
997
00:53:24,856 --> 00:53:26,341
Specifically what did you mean
by that?
998
00:53:26,444 --> 00:53:29,102
- If it goes up and
all my equipment's in there,
999
00:53:29,206 --> 00:53:30,862
I would not have been able
to continue on,
1000
00:53:30,966 --> 00:53:32,830
especially
my safety equipment.
1001
00:53:32,933 --> 00:53:35,419
Stuff like this
is still smoldering.
1002
00:53:35,522 --> 00:53:36,903
So that would've been
my story.
1003
00:53:37,006 --> 00:53:38,215
I would've been done
at day 40.
1004
00:53:38,318 --> 00:53:39,837
- Yeah.
1005
00:53:39,940 --> 00:53:42,322
Callie, you're really starting
to see signs of predators.
1006
00:53:42,426 --> 00:53:44,738
You know,
in the porcupine tracks,
1007
00:53:44,842 --> 00:53:46,602
there are wolf tracks
following those.
1008
00:53:46,706 --> 00:53:49,916
Is it any coincidence
that you were starting to see
1009
00:53:50,019 --> 00:53:52,298
more competition for the food
at this point?
1010
00:53:52,401 --> 00:53:54,300
- I don't think
it's a coincidence.
1011
00:53:54,403 --> 00:53:56,474
Winter's really
coming on strong,
1012
00:53:56,578 --> 00:53:59,270
so all the wild animals
are feeling that pressure.
1013
00:53:59,374 --> 00:54:02,377
They all know
how much work it takes
1014
00:54:02,480 --> 00:54:04,965
to be able to stay there
for the arctic winter.
1015
00:54:05,069 --> 00:54:07,692
And they wanna get all
the food that they can,
1016
00:54:07,796 --> 00:54:10,419
so it's no surprise
that we're all seeing
1017
00:54:10,523 --> 00:54:13,250
more and more
sign of predators.
1018
00:54:13,353 --> 00:54:16,391
- Amós, that was
a pretty bold fox
1019
00:54:16,494 --> 00:54:17,806
you had an encounter with
there.
1020
00:54:17,909 --> 00:54:19,117
Talk us through that.
1021
00:54:19,221 --> 00:54:20,602
Tell us what was going on
in your head
1022
00:54:20,705 --> 00:54:22,293
just with his behavior.
1023
00:54:22,397 --> 00:54:23,708
You know, he didn't--
he didn't seem
1024
00:54:23,812 --> 00:54:25,814
very frightened of you,
that's for sure.
1025
00:54:30,681 --> 00:54:34,685
But the fox and everybody else
out there is looking for food.
1026
00:54:34,788 --> 00:54:37,619
And he knew there was
a fresh kill on-site.
1027
00:54:37,722 --> 00:54:40,104
So I didn't want the fox
to just stick around.
1028
00:54:40,207 --> 00:54:44,004
I seen examples
of previous participants
1029
00:54:44,108 --> 00:54:47,318
losing a lot of their food
to animals like the fox.
1030
00:54:47,422 --> 00:54:48,630
- Yeah,
that little bunny buster
1031
00:54:48,733 --> 00:54:50,079
put a pretty good wall
up on him.
1032
00:54:50,183 --> 00:54:52,185
[laughing] I mean, he went
down there for a second.
1033
00:54:52,289 --> 00:54:54,532
I think he's gonna remember
that shot for sure.
1034
00:54:54,636 --> 00:54:56,672
- I told you
that was going to hurt.
1035
00:54:56,776 --> 00:54:59,330
You don't listen.
1036
00:54:59,434 --> 00:55:02,540
- Kie, you were also
experiencing animals wanting
1037
00:55:02,644 --> 00:55:05,578
and ultimately taking some of
your rabbits from the snares.
1038
00:55:05,681 --> 00:55:07,131
How frustrating is that?
1039
00:55:07,234 --> 00:55:08,891
- Yeah,
I was actually surprised
1040
00:55:08,995 --> 00:55:10,617
that it hadn't happened sooner.
1041
00:55:10,721 --> 00:55:12,861
I had over 200 snares
1042
00:55:12,964 --> 00:55:15,139
out on my line.
1043
00:55:15,242 --> 00:55:19,695
And thankfully, I had
a rabbit back at camp already.
1044
00:55:19,799 --> 00:55:20,903
- Yeah.
1045
00:55:21,007 --> 00:55:22,664
There was a moment there
which was
1046
00:55:22,767 --> 00:55:24,942
one of the most
vivid explanations
1047
00:55:25,045 --> 00:55:28,463
and really hit home for me
and I'm sure many other viewers
1048
00:55:28,566 --> 00:55:31,742
when you described
life out there and you said,
1049
00:55:31,845 --> 00:55:34,158
the only time you touch
something living
1050
00:55:34,261 --> 00:55:35,608
is right before you kill it.
1051
00:55:35,711 --> 00:55:38,542
How does that affect you
mentally and emotionally
1052
00:55:38,645 --> 00:55:40,129
in a situation like that?
1053
00:55:40,233 --> 00:55:42,649
- I'm very much
all about connection--
1054
00:55:42,753 --> 00:55:45,411
connection with the land,
the animals,
1055
00:55:45,514 --> 00:55:47,930
and people, and...
1056
00:55:48,034 --> 00:55:51,175
I was feeling like
I needed someone to talk to
1057
00:55:51,278 --> 00:55:53,350
besides the camera, and, um,
1058
00:55:53,453 --> 00:55:57,561
the bunny just, you know,
reminded me so much of my cat.
1059
00:55:57,664 --> 00:56:02,359
And, you know, just holding
that paw of that bunny
1060
00:56:02,462 --> 00:56:05,189
was some sort of comfort
for me.
1061
00:56:05,292 --> 00:56:06,397
- Right.
1062
00:56:06,501 --> 00:56:08,986
Okay, Joe, at this point
in the episode,
1063
00:56:09,089 --> 00:56:12,230
clearly, the lack of progress
with your shelter
1064
00:56:12,334 --> 00:56:13,991
is beginning to weigh on you
a little bit.
1065
00:56:14,094 --> 00:56:16,580
At what point did you realize
that you might've
1066
00:56:16,683 --> 00:56:19,306
made a mistake in terms
of that balancing act--
1067
00:56:19,410 --> 00:56:21,930
you know, taking a little bit
more time to build the shelter
1068
00:56:22,033 --> 00:56:23,690
than maybe you should have?
1069
00:56:23,794 --> 00:56:26,452
- I think as I--my energy level
started to decline,
1070
00:56:26,555 --> 00:56:28,281
I really recognized
that carrying around
1071
00:56:28,385 --> 00:56:31,318
these heavy logs wasn't
as tenable of an option
1072
00:56:31,422 --> 00:56:33,079
as it had been earlier on.
1073
00:56:33,182 --> 00:56:34,839
- I know hindsight's 20/20,
1074
00:56:34,943 --> 00:56:37,290
but if you had to do it
all over again,
1075
00:56:37,394 --> 00:56:39,775
is there anything
you would've done differently?
1076
00:56:39,879 --> 00:56:42,364
- You know, if I could shift
a few things around timewise,
1077
00:56:42,468 --> 00:56:45,125
I would've liked to have gotten
my gillnet in the water
1078
00:56:45,229 --> 00:56:47,507
and stockpiled more food.
1079
00:56:47,611 --> 00:56:49,682
But if I could do it
all over again,
1080
00:56:49,785 --> 00:56:51,200
I don't think my decisions
1081
00:56:51,304 --> 00:56:52,995
would've been
that much different.
1082
00:56:53,099 --> 00:56:55,929
And I think that deciding
to leave when I did
1083
00:56:56,033 --> 00:56:57,655
was the right choice for me.
1084
00:56:57,759 --> 00:56:59,070
- All these months later,
1085
00:56:59,174 --> 00:57:02,177
are you still at peace
with your decision to tap out?
1086
00:57:02,280 --> 00:57:04,731
- I'm at peace with it--
I mean, I definitely
1087
00:57:04,835 --> 00:57:06,457
have played the "should've
would've could've" game,
1088
00:57:06,561 --> 00:57:09,495
but ultimately,
when I decided to leave,
1089
00:57:09,598 --> 00:57:11,082
what played
the biggest part in that
1090
00:57:11,186 --> 00:57:13,464
was not wanting
to fully deplete myself.
1091
00:57:13,568 --> 00:57:19,056
- Well, we were glad
to have you on the show.
1092
00:57:19,159 --> 00:57:21,058
Mark, 40-some odd days in,
and you're starting to note
1093
00:57:21,161 --> 00:57:22,818
that you're getting a little
crazy out there.
1094
00:57:22,922 --> 00:57:24,475
Shed some light on that.
1095
00:57:24,579 --> 00:57:26,615
- The longer you're out there,
the more
1096
00:57:26,719 --> 00:57:29,376
you're just gonna be yourself
and you joke around more.
1097
00:57:29,480 --> 00:57:31,275
But when I caught myself
arguing with myself,
1098
00:57:31,378 --> 00:57:32,690
I was like, pshh, stop.
1099
00:57:32,794 --> 00:57:34,968
Let me think about this.
Okay, that's not right.
1100
00:57:35,072 --> 00:57:36,625
I'm gonna stop cussing.
1101
00:57:36,729 --> 00:57:39,214
They wanna--you're a good man.
1102
00:57:39,317 --> 00:57:42,286
Except when my shelter
catches on fire.
1103
00:57:42,389 --> 00:57:43,908
[chuckles]
1104
00:57:44,012 --> 00:57:45,703
What the [bleep]?
1105
00:57:45,807 --> 00:57:48,775
- Callie, any psychological
effects starting to--
1106
00:57:48,879 --> 00:57:51,778
to weigh in or take effect
on you at this point?
1107
00:57:51,882 --> 00:57:53,297
40-some odd days in?
1108
00:57:53,400 --> 00:57:56,645
- Oh, yeah, but I would say
it's a positive one,
1109
00:57:56,749 --> 00:57:58,475
and one that I would welcome.
1110
00:57:58,578 --> 00:58:02,202
It was a huge
transformative process,
1111
00:58:02,306 --> 00:58:04,929
and I feel like it takes
about that long
1112
00:58:05,033 --> 00:58:08,208
to start dropping into
that mental space.
1113
00:58:08,312 --> 00:58:10,556
- Mark, it seemed like a big
part of this experience
1114
00:58:10,659 --> 00:58:13,973
wasn't just about your son,
but also a lot of it for you
1115
00:58:14,076 --> 00:58:15,975
had to do with
your fellow Recon marines.
1116
00:58:16,078 --> 00:58:17,459
You even took the time
to carve out
1117
00:58:17,563 --> 00:58:19,357
the five paragraphs
of the Recon creed.
1118
00:58:19,461 --> 00:58:22,360
And we have that in some
never-before-seen footage.
1119
00:58:22,464 --> 00:58:23,534
Let's take a look at that.
1120
00:58:23,638 --> 00:58:25,087
[mellow music]
1121
00:58:25,191 --> 00:58:27,849
- I made a Recon Jack.
It's the one that's on my arm.
1122
00:58:27,952 --> 00:58:29,471
Something in
the Recon community
1123
00:58:29,575 --> 00:58:32,370
guys get if they've earned it.
1124
00:58:32,474 --> 00:58:34,372
That's my Jack.
1125
00:58:34,476 --> 00:58:37,514
Recon sniper.
1126
00:58:39,412 --> 00:58:40,655
But it's little things
like that
1127
00:58:40,758 --> 00:58:42,035
that I look at
and I'm like,
1128
00:58:42,139 --> 00:58:44,348
man, you're doing this
for more than yourself.
1129
00:58:44,451 --> 00:58:46,350
[soft dramatic music]
1130
00:58:46,453 --> 00:58:48,076
So the Recon creed--
1131
00:58:48,179 --> 00:58:50,285
I'm carving it into the wood.
1132
00:58:50,388 --> 00:58:52,701
Never shall I forget
the principles I accepted
1133
00:58:52,805 --> 00:58:55,117
to become
a Reconnaissance marine--
1134
00:58:55,221 --> 00:58:58,949
honor, perseverance,
spirit, and heart,
1135
00:58:59,052 --> 00:59:01,227
conquering all obstacles
built large and small.
1136
00:59:01,330 --> 00:59:04,126
I shall never quit.
1137
00:59:04,230 --> 00:59:05,369
There it is--
1138
00:59:05,472 --> 00:59:09,062
all five paragraphs
of the Recon creed,
1139
00:59:09,166 --> 00:59:12,756
written out in tablets on wood.
1140
00:59:12,859 --> 00:59:14,378
♪ ♪
1141
00:59:14,481 --> 00:59:16,553
Forever shall I strive
to maintain
1142
00:59:16,656 --> 00:59:20,246
the tremendous reputation
of those who went before me.
1143
00:59:20,349 --> 00:59:22,420
- Mark,
what is your reaction to that?
1144
00:59:22,524 --> 00:59:24,181
- You know,
while you're out there,
1145
00:59:24,284 --> 00:59:25,665
you've gotta do things
that motivate you--
1146
00:59:25,769 --> 00:59:27,564
my son, priority number one,
1147
00:59:27,667 --> 00:59:28,944
but then also
what I've achieved
1148
00:59:29,048 --> 00:59:30,808
and what I've done in the past
in the military,
1149
00:59:30,912 --> 00:59:33,500
and carving that creed out
with my knife,
1150
00:59:33,604 --> 00:59:35,399
and I made sure
that I was abiding by it,
1151
00:59:35,502 --> 00:59:37,332
'cause I am representing
not only myself,
1152
00:59:37,435 --> 00:59:39,748
but all Recon marines
and scout snipers.
1153
00:59:39,852 --> 00:59:41,474
- And what does that creed
mean to you
1154
00:59:41,578 --> 00:59:43,821
in the context
of the "Alone" experience?
1155
00:59:43,925 --> 00:59:45,340
- To never quit,
1156
00:59:45,443 --> 00:59:47,066
to surpass failure,
1157
00:59:47,169 --> 00:59:48,930
to overcome, to adapt.
1158
00:59:49,033 --> 00:59:50,897
- You seem to be doing
pretty good out there.
1159
00:59:51,001 --> 00:59:52,312
And then all of a sudden,
1160
00:59:52,416 --> 00:59:54,556
you being to say you're tired
and exhausted.
1161
00:59:54,660 --> 00:59:56,385
Was there a pivot point?
What--
1162
00:59:56,489 --> 00:59:58,284
I know there was some
deterioration there.
1163
00:59:58,387 --> 00:59:59,768
Take us through that.
1164
00:59:59,872 --> 01:00:04,531
- Man, day 35 was such a game
changer physically for me.
1165
01:00:04,635 --> 01:00:06,326
My energy levels plummeted
1166
01:00:06,430 --> 01:00:08,501
and it started getting
difficult to breathe.
1167
01:00:08,605 --> 01:00:10,848
I had a pain on the right side
of my back.
1168
01:00:10,952 --> 01:00:13,644
And my vision was going.
I thought it was my diet.
1169
01:00:13,748 --> 01:00:16,474
And so I knew that I couldn't
sustain at this rate.
1170
01:00:16,578 --> 01:00:18,684
And it's a pretty humbling
experience to be able
1171
01:00:18,787 --> 01:00:21,548
to know yourself well enough
to quit when I did.
1172
01:00:21,652 --> 01:00:23,447
- So once you get back
to base camp,
1173
01:00:23,550 --> 01:00:25,035
your journey didn't end there.
1174
01:00:25,138 --> 01:00:29,280
Take us through sort of what
transpired after the evac.
1175
01:00:29,384 --> 01:00:31,697
- My liver and my spleen
were enlarged and infected
1176
01:00:31,800 --> 01:00:33,422
and I had fluid
behind my right lung.
1177
01:00:33,526 --> 01:00:35,010
They told me that my heart
was in the condition
1178
01:00:35,114 --> 01:00:37,530
of an 87-year-old man who's
had a massive heart attack.
1179
01:00:37,634 --> 01:00:39,981
So it turns out that
I had trichinosis,
1180
01:00:40,084 --> 01:00:42,466
a parasite that can go from
not that big of a deal to,
1181
01:00:42,569 --> 01:00:44,157
it'll kill you
in four to six weeks.
1182
01:00:44,261 --> 01:00:45,814
And that's what had put it
into perspective
1183
01:00:45,918 --> 01:00:48,990
that I am super grateful
that I left when I did.
1184
01:00:49,093 --> 01:00:50,750
I'm lucky to be sitting here
1185
01:00:50,854 --> 01:00:52,994
and be able to see my son
every single day,
1186
01:00:53,097 --> 01:00:55,686
so I couldn't be happier
about my decision.
1187
01:00:55,790 --> 01:00:59,000
- Wow, ended up being
the exact right call to make.
1188
01:00:59,103 --> 01:01:00,484
For sure.
1189
01:01:00,587 --> 01:01:03,073
That's it for
"Alone: Tales from the Arctic."
1190
01:01:03,176 --> 01:01:05,351
I'd like to thank
Mark, Callie, Joe,
1191
01:01:05,454 --> 01:01:07,249
Amós, and Kielyn.
1192
01:01:07,353 --> 01:01:09,631
We'll be speaking with the
participants all season long
1193
01:01:09,735 --> 01:01:12,082
following the shows, so make
sure you tune in for that.
1194
01:01:12,185 --> 01:01:14,222
Until next week, as promised,
1195
01:01:14,325 --> 01:01:16,362
here's a sneak peek
of that episode.
1196
01:01:16,465 --> 01:01:17,363
We'll see you then.
1197
01:01:17,466 --> 01:01:18,882
[dramatic musical sting]
1198
01:01:18,985 --> 01:01:21,747
- All right, well,
I guess I gotta try fishing.
1199
01:01:21,850 --> 01:01:23,541
Oh!
[bleep]!
1200
01:01:23,645 --> 01:01:25,164
[grunts]
[bleep].
1201
01:01:25,267 --> 01:01:27,407
[foreboding music]
1202
01:01:27,511 --> 01:01:29,409
- I need fish.
1203
01:01:29,513 --> 01:01:32,033
I need this ice to come in.
1204
01:01:32,136 --> 01:01:35,553
This is so risky.
1205
01:01:35,657 --> 01:01:37,314
♪ ♪
1206
01:01:37,417 --> 01:01:38,315
[grunts]
1207
01:01:38,418 --> 01:01:40,489
♪ ♪
1208
01:01:40,593 --> 01:01:42,802
- Holy [bleep].
1209
01:01:42,906 --> 01:01:45,632
- [whispers]
Muskox everywhere.
1210
01:01:45,736 --> 01:01:47,220
- No, no, no, no, no.
1211
01:01:47,324 --> 01:01:49,498
They're surrounding
my shelter.
1212
01:01:49,602 --> 01:01:51,328
[bleep].
[wolf growls]
1213
01:01:51,431 --> 01:01:54,607
♪ ♪
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