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Please.

Please what, doll?

I need to...

I know all about your needs.

You need...

Get up.

Should I get dressed?

Yes.

Come.

Did I do something wrong?

No.

Are you ever gonna light that?

My mom's dead.

I'm so sorry.

Don't be.

I should tell her.

If you think that's best.

Hello?

Sam?

Is this a good time?

Y-yes. Yeah...

Yeah. Hey, it's good to hear your voice.

Yeah, you too.

Umm.

Hey, um... I want to talk to you about something.

What do you wanna talk about?

Better if we talk in person.

Can you meet me at the church? We can talk there.

Why can't we talk about it right now?

Hello?

Just... -Hello? Hello? Just hold on a second.

Yeah.

All right.

Sorry.

I'm here.

Umm, I got a text from Dad.

You know, it's been almost 5 years, there's a reason for that.

But who's counting, right...

So, the church.

Yeah.

You're always really criptic, you know that?

Yeah. Well, whatever.

Just come talk to me, ok?

Yeah, yeah. All right. Just text me when, all right?

Ok.

Hey Bobbi-

Yeah?

I'm gonna hug you, and it's going to be hard to breathe.

Yeah. I'll see ya.

Ok.

Huh.

That went well.

Mhm.

It makes me happy to see you smile.

Show me.

So you wanted to talk.

I haven't been here in so long.

It's funny how some things stay the same, right?

Fine. Yes.

Mom's dead.

Hmm.

Dad tell you?

He sent me a text.

Of course. Mhm. Yeah.

Did he say anything to you?

Dad? No, he hasn't talked to me in years.

Hmm... Why's that?

I think he always liked you better...

because you guys have the same face.

And he always liked his face, so...

Ah yes, of course... Yeah.

Well...

suddenly I'm considering a change of face.

No! Don't do that, that's like, the only thing...

...he ever gave you, you got to keep that shit.

So, how'd she go?

Oh. Um, she um...

She died of... caring too much.

Yeah, right!

If only, right?

Yeah.

Overdose.

Something good I guess.

Yeah. I suppose so.

Yeah.

She always liked the good shit.

Hey. You wanna smoke?

How long has it been since we've smoked together?

Like. Right now?

Yeah... -Like here? Right now. I have some...

Dude. We're in a fucking church. It's ok. I have some stuff.

This guy's been dead for years, he's not gonna mind.

That's true, man.

You think Jesus smoked weed?

Little bit? ...Oh shit

Jesus smoke a little ganj.

I... maybe... yeah...

Oh, God.

Holy shit.

Attagirl.

Body of Christ, huh?

Ugh.

Well I know it's been a long time but, it just doesn't feel that way, you know?

I feel like I just saw you.

You know I was married for 4 years, right?

Right.

It was like.

Four years of Shitsville for me, you know?

Like the first year was cool because I liked...

...fucking him a lot, but then it was just.

Just errands and like... organizing shit.

Like fucking shelves... that guy loved a shelf.

He loved a shelf.

Like, every weekend it was like. "We got to measure for the shelves" like "we got to...

...measure this piece of wood" like "we got to find enough nut-sockets for these shelves".

What the fuck is a nut-socket?

I have NO idea. I have no idea. Ok? I just knew that we needed some.

I don't know. You like shelves? How do you feel about shelves?

Do I like shelves? Yeah.

I like putting things upon a shelf.

But I think overall, I am neutral.

You're shelf neutral. I am shelf neutral.

Yes. That's quite a position to take in these days.

Yeah, well.

I don't know, it was like...

I feel like I lost myself, like

like there was this really strong weight... on my chest

and like I couldn't get it off, and people would just be like "You got to...

...work through marriage" like, "Marriage is hard work. You got to compromise."

Like, fucking 'compromise' is like the fucking word of the day right now. Like, everyone...

...just talks about it all the time, and I just... I don't even know what that means.

And then I'm wondering like, who are these people? Like, are...

...they legally licensed advice givers, these fucking people.

Are they, are they the villagers... like the fuckin'...

Are they like the townsfolks... townsfolk... townsfolks.

Is it.. Is it t-towns.

So would you say that you wouldn't get married again?

What I'm saying is... like what I'm going to say now is that.

Like.

None of that stuff matters.

You know?

Like, this matters.

You matter.

Hey, you wanna go on a road trip with me?

No.

No. Fuck... No.

Where?

Oh.

We'll go and get mom's ashes.

I don't wanna go back to that house, it's so scary. - But...

...you have the summer off and what else are you gonna do?

How do you know I have the summer off?

Are you like creepin' on me? You're creepin'...

...on me.. -Yes. - You fucking weirdo.

This is real, Sammy.

This right here.

Like... Come on... Like this. Like this bench? -No... The bench...

...is real. - You know what I mean... -We are sitting on the bench.

Fuck! Ok, fine I'll go. Jesus Christ. Oh.

Woo! Who wants a date with Wonder Woman?

I do. -Take a number baby. Oh my. How the tables have turned.

So do you guys ever turn the tables?

God. No.

So how does this work?

I own her. She's my property.

And how is Carlos?

Carlos is fuckin' sexy. -Aww. That's really deep.

Really deep. You really tapped into his spirit.

So do you like being property?

Of a sexy, powerful woman. Yes.

Is that you? Sexy, powerful woman?

Fuck off.

Good talk.

Well, I think we should break in.

To the house? -Yeah. I don't wanna see Laura.

Who knows what she's up to, right?

Stupid shit, stupid Laura shit.

Hey, do you want a distraction? What? Check this out. Ok.

Ally!

Sit here

I want you on your back, ok? Ok.

Put your head here. Come down.

Sit up a little bit... Scoot up.

Ok. Put your head down.

Ok... you ready? Tap 3 times if you want out. Ok.

Oh my God. What are you doing? Shh. It's ok.

Here we go

Bobbi! -..Shh shh. - Oh my god. Can we like. Not do this right now?

Ok? Ready? One more time.

Oh my god. -One more time. I can't believe...

Okay.

Okay. Nice and easy. Right?

Was that fun?

All right. Do you feel better?

So this is how people get kidnapped, right?

Yeah it is. - No... -All we have to do is start giggling.

I mean, yes. Technically, we are asking for it.

Well, it's pretty cute.

Yeah. Yeah it is.

I can't wait to get kidnapped here.

Fantastic.

Ok. I need to go find a place to pee and not get poison ivy.

Does she have a fanny-pack?

Yeah, I think so...

Hm.

So what's your deal, kiddo?

Don't do that.

What?

Call me 'kiddo'

I figured you'd like that.

No. That's what men say to women when they want to give them some advice.

What? Women don't say that to other women?

They do. Just like you did, and it sounds condescending.

You're not like everyone else.

How do you know that?

'Cause I know Bobbi. And I know how she feels about you.

'Kiddo'...

Yeah I guess I hate that. I'm sorry. It's just like a habit.

I'm just... I'm like trying to understand.

They're MY choices. Professor.

It is what it is. There's really nothing to understand.

Yeah but... like what makes someone want to be someone else's slave?

I NEED to belong to her.

She often tells me that I saved her but, really... she freed me.

From what?

From the rules other people live by.

They just don't work for me. And then I met Bobbi and she...

...was so bold, and I just knew things could be different.

I knew I could live by her rules.

And I just so, so badly wanted to be all hers.

Fuck

Jesus Christ.

...My god.

Ugh. My pants are wet. Fuck.

Like, does she let you like stuff?

Of course! I mean, she wants me to be happy. And she knows what's best for me.

And I love to be taken care of.

So what do you like?

I sing.

What about you?

I teach.

As you seem to know.

Teach what?

English... I like the way it sounds.

Professor sounds like a romantic... Yeah right.

What do you sing?

I sing opera.

Yeah that makes sense. You seem like, really intense.

Does it show? Yeah, a little bit...

I hope it's a good thing.

Does she make you sing for her?

Yeah. I love it.

That must be really something.

To like, own... a thing like you.

I mean, you have so much access to her and she is not an easy puppy to break into.

Speaking of, where is she? Oh I'm pretty sure she's dead. - No!

Ok I'm gonna go out there, and if I'm not back in 30 send the...

...rescue squad. And just keep an ear out for gang-banging sounds

Roger that. I'll be listening for your moans of agony.

Hey! That's a nice sight.

This is the worst day of my life. I know. Right? Oh my god.

This is terrible. I don't know who came up with this idea.

I don't know who it was. But...

Hey, you know... I like your sister.

Yeah? Yeah.

Did you guys bond?

I think so, yeah.

What'd you talk about?

Well, I feel like she's a little curious about us.

Huh. How so?

Well she said something to me, she said "It must...

...be really something to own a thing like you."

No! -Yeah! What the hell... Yeah.

Well I can't say I blame her... You're such a pretty girl.

You are. You're just a pretty girl.

You know what I think? What?

I think you're a little slut. ...Oh. Yes.

Are you a little slut?

Yes, Mistress.

Yeah.

Tell me you're a little slut. ...I'm a little slut.

Do you know what happens to dirty girls who are little sluts?

I think I do... -Yeah? Yeah.

Is that what you wanted?

Yes. Yes!

Oh my God. Are you guys fucking?

You guys are fucking! -No... Bobbi just peed her pants!

What do you mean you peed your pants? It was..

Wait. Why are you wearing a fanny-pack instead of pants. - No...

There was the thing and... What the hell is going on? Shh.

I... I don't... -I love you so much. - You...

...were, you were what? Like, slapping her butt?

We were clapping! -I have to show you something.

I don't understand. It's a celebration.

Someone tell me why she peed her pants. -It was a very...

...powerful stream, Sam. And then it was in an angle and...

Jesus Christ. I'm fucking freezing. How is she asleep?

I think I have frostbite. Maybe she's pretending.

Poke.

Pooooke.

You know it wasn't that long of a trip so why'd you have us stop here?

You always do that to me.

Do what?

Play dumb.

You play dumb. You know why I had us stop, you know why.

But you have this way of making it seem like, like it's unimportant...

...to you. You know? Like you could have done without it.

It's...

Isn't it obvious, huh? That I just wanted to spend some time together.

It's not that it's not... important to me. But I can't tell...

...if I'm here for you, or if I'm here for you to put on a show.

What are you talking about?

You showing off with her, in the forest.

I don't know know... -I mean. Come on you really...

...thought I wouldn't find you? Give me a break.

Maybe? I... I guess we're weird. And, maybe I'm trying to show you my weird.

So you want me to be ok with waterboarding some girl?

Maybe. I mean what else was I supposed to do? - Come on.

You want me to bring her home to Mom and Dad and feed her string beans. Fucking chicken.

And everybody will pat us on the back and say. "Gee Ally. We thought you were swell!"

You know that was never our life.

We're finally here. Sam. Ok.

In real life. Not just in my head.

And you're treating me like, a dog who brings a dead bird inside...

...the house, and to them it's a gift, but then you punish it.

And there you are, you know? Hitting me on the head with a newspaper.

I don't want a family that prays before dinner because that's bullshit.

I wanna hit her hard, and I want you to be ok with...

...it. Because I want you to see it how I see it.

You want me to be OK with hitting her?

It's not that simple and you know it. Ok? You're playing dumb again.

Listen. I don't mean to disrespect your little bird but...

I just. I can't see it that way. I just. I'm sorry.

It's really hard for me to see what you did.

You jealous?

No!

Goodnight, sleepy dead bird.

I really liked that analogy.

Thank you.

I don't want this to end.

I don't want the trip to be over.

So, who's gonna put all this shit away?

Isn't that like, a lesbian thing?

Those are the other kind. No. Yeah.

Oh.

Works for me.

Ally.

Come on in. Hi.

I know. I know... Um. You said you wanted me to bring...

...some work so, I didn't want to come empty handed.

Okay...

Well, um. Let's just say that you came by empty-handed.

Yes. All right.

You're not a natural, you know? But we do what we can. So, we'll do what we can.

Do you like art?

Yes, very much... that's why I'm here.

Tell me more about that.

My mom was a painter.

I used to watch her paint and.

Her breathing would slow down to this... rhythmic stillness.

Her lips would part and I just would watch all the stress wash away from her

I mean, she wasn't normally stressed. I just...

...mean she was herself then, more than ever.

We can get you there.

Hi, pretty.

Hi. What are you thinking?

The day we met.

My favorite day. I loved you right away.

Do you love me still?

More than ever.

The fuck is this? You like picking grey hairs out?

Dude... -They need to come out... You look like a celery stock.

A celery stock! -Very nice... -Alright so. Who's excited for tomorrow?

I'm not really that excited... And I wanna stay here.

Why? -I don't want to see her. - Why you always got to be a Debbie Downer? Dude

Debbie... -I don't... -This is like super exciting,

all right? - Debs... -We should be celebrating.

Ally, go get us our liquid candy please. Excuse me, Debbie.

What's your deal, man? -I'm not... I don't have a deal. I just... -Ok well depressed...

...goth went out of style in like 96' so, knock that shit off. -That was my time.

I know. It was a time for all of us. It was a time to shine. Here guys.

Thank you. Here... Mhm. Mhm. All right.

All right.

Here we go. You ready? I'm ready. Ready as I'll be.

To closure. To closure.

Oh my God. It's awful. ...Fuck.

Alright. -Are these plastic? Yeah... Yeah.

Debs

(chatter) Actually that was some cheap shit. -It was awful... - Remember...

...that time when mom left for like. Vacation for like a party. And that guy...

You don't have to stop. Like it's totally fine. -No. - Do what you got to do. -Mhm.

You're right.

What's going on?

What's going on is that I'm an asshole, and now she's...

...holding back, and that you don't have to do it anymore.

Really? Yeah!

And you won't have a problem? No it's totally fine.

Are you sure? Mhm.

See I don't even care, 'cause I don't even care.

Cool... If you say so

I'll be right back.

Is everything ok with you two?

Yeah.

I mean, it's just, you know... It's like, the way it is.

What do you mean?

Well I think it's really hard for her because, she wants me to care for her.

But, and I know you've noticed this, I am not capable of caring for anybody, so.

Come on.

What? What is it you're not saying?

I'm... saying what I'm saying.

I hear what you're saying. I do. But obviously something else is going on here.

I mean what you're saying just doesn't have anything to do with this.

So, what is it? I mean, are we making you uncomfortable?

No! No.

You're really beautiful.

You're both beautiful together.

So does it. Like. Feel like you're a part of...

...her? Is that, is that what it feels like?

Yeah... Yeah. I'd say so.

So do you think that um...

Do you... Do I think what?

Nevermind.

Hey Bobbi... Hmm?

Do you remember that time when I kissed you on the lips?

Where are you going with this? Do you remember?

Yeah. Ok what of it?

Do you know why I did it?

Well I really try not to think about it.

You had just told me that you liked girls.

And you were so fragile.

And then at school I saw you in the hallway after those girls had left you.

And...

You were crying.

But you wouldn't tell me why.

Do you know what that did to me?

Do you know what it did to me? No.

Hold on a second.

Do you know what it did to me?

Do you know what it was like...

To see your little face...

So pure... and just, wanting to be loved.

And then, you'd give me these tight little hugs, and you just wouldn't let go.

You were so, so soft

and sweet, and loving, and giving everybody a second chance.

And that day. I knew that you had experienced real...

...pain. And I knew that it would make you hard.

So what else was I supposed to do.

To make you know that you were loved?

You could of thought of something else.

No! No. I could have acted differently, but I couldn't think of anything else.

I'm not bothered by you.

You're both... different.

I'm different. I'm different.

I... I'm an idiot who doesn't know how else to show things!

Sam...

It's ok.

Hey.

Do it for me.

Hey.

Hi...

You were supposed to protect me from feeling this way.

I have one limit.

I have one fucking thing that I ask of you.

I know.

I know.

I'm supposed to be your baby girl.

But you are, sweetie.

Let's just go do this.

No. No. Let's go home, ok?

I'm gonna take you home.

You need to have this. I need you to have this.

No! I need you, ok? All I need is you.

It consumes you... I can see that now.

So if you're going to have used me like this at least let it be for something.

I never should have answered when you called me. -Yeah so that's the...

...answer, huh? Let's just redo the past five years all over again.

I'm toxic to you, don't you get that? I can't fucking take care of you!

That's all I'm supposed to do. Is just take care of you -Not now! -And I just can't! - Ok...

...not now! You wanna disappear again, fine. Just don't do this shit right fucking now!

Ally? What?

Don't snap at me. I made a mistake, it...

...doesn't give you the right to disrespect me.

Bullshit. Excuse me?

No. I fucking hate that word.

No! You do not have the right to wrecklessly reign over me.

Please.

Excuse me?

Why do you do that?

What?

Say "excuse me" when you really want to say my name?

Oh... Um.

Out of respect, I suppose.

Would you like to say something in it's place?

Like what?

You don't mind if I have a drink, do you? Of course not.

Would you like one? Um. Sure.

Why don't you call me Mistress.

Let me hear you say it.

Mistress.

And how does that feel... in your mouth?

It feels good... Mistress.

Well.

This isn't how I imagined we'd arrive but, we're here, right?

Yeah.

Right.

Listen, things aren't going to go back to the way they were, all right?

They're just not

Laura: Leave it at the door!

Get the fucking door. Jesus.

As I live and breathe.

And to what do I owe this soon to be... displeasure. Huh?

You're always such a fucking optimist. Oh, I'm only kidding dear.

It's always nice to see you two.

I gather you are some kind of lesbian now?

Help yourself.

You don't mind, do you?

I do mind. But I'm afraid of your kind so, go right ahead.

Just watch it Bobbi, take it easy

I'm cool. All right? I'm calm.

When'd you cut your hair? Looks good

I knew you were the runt of the litter. But I never...

...imagined you'd turn out to be this crass, dearie.

Yeah. Well, you know. Life's full of surprises. - Would...

...you just lay off her? She's had a rough day, all right.

We heard about Mom, and we just wanted to make sure you were ok.

That right?

Yeah.

Well as you can see. The place is kind of empty now.

My sister was all I ever had.

Much like you two have each other.

You're a riot. They were just like us, Sammy. - Just like us. -Exactly like us.

Well you might not care but, she meant something to me, Goddamnit.

Why would we not care? Like, like how could we possibly not care?

Well, I don't see why you would.

You were nothing but a tax write-off. Fuck you. Jesus Christ.

It was always so easy to get to you. - Yeah well all...

...the men in the town thought the same thing about you.

Half the men in this town feel whatever I want them...

...to feel. The other half didn't make the cut, sweetie.

Rest assured, it was not the other way around.

There's no use. I know.

Listen to your sister.

Now really, enough of this.

It's just too easy. What do you want?

How'd she die?

You know we weren't doing... it was just another night

Carol had it in her that... she wanted to listen to that song.

You know... that "Johnny 99".

"But the cover" she kept saying. Had to be the Cash cover.

She said "Now you take the boss, and you put him in the same room with my man, the...

...Man in Black. Well, there's no limit to what I might do in those circumstances".

"I might not help if it turns out I felt extremely generous!"

I said to her "It's just a cover, darling. Who said...

...anything about a room? Much less, one with you in it!"

Of course you can guess what she said.

She said "A girl can dream!" Yes. Yes.

She said that just about every other sentence.

Oh. You two... make me sad.

Almost like you didn't know her at all. Well, we were nothing but a tax writeoff.

Oh, that's no excuse!

She must have played that song about ten times.

You know how a little bump made her dance all night.

She was up... She was flying.

We didn't do anything out of the ordinary.

Smoothie came by, asked about you, by the way.

Smoothie's still around, huh?

Oh, yes. You should see. He hasn't aged a bit.

Those dark skin fellas never age. They'll outlive us all, I can promise you.

Well he still remembers you.

And I always knew that you always liked a bad boy.

I'm surprised you ever paid attention.

Yeah.

Well, honey, there's a limit.

You can have a dark one... or a pusher.

But if you go on having both, you can guarantee you'll end up the team mascot.

And that's the kind of thing that only goes well in your head.

Not enough water in the Pacific to wash that shame off.

Fuck.

No. Now that's... That's really excellent advice

I don't even know what to say to you.

Well you could just finish the story, but listen if you have any more advice...

Well I disappeared for a... bit.

I got to watching some video, on the YouTube.

You know how they just suck you in.

I left the room for 20 tops.

The song stopped playing and I called her name.

Didn't hear a thing.

She was...

Well, she was just not herself.

Something else entirely.

There was... nothing I could have done.

There was nothing I could have done.

You believe me. Don't you, dearie?

Where is she?

Oh I-I keep her over there, by the cassettes.

Figured I'd put her in that royal blue she always loved to wear.

She's just about the loveliest thing I have in this house.

The only damn thing worth anything.

Hey, um. Where do you keep the Xanax?

Excuse me, girls. I'm just gonna go wash up.

Ready? Go!

Bobbi stop looking for the shit. Ok! Let's just go!

Go, go, go, go.

We got it! Shh! Wait!

You think she saw? I don't know. Just go! Ok!

Don't fall, don't fall! Ok ok ok!

Oh. Where'd she go?

Oh God.

Oh. Ok. All right just... Oh no.

No, no. Fuck. No no. It's all right.

She probably just ran out... No she's gone. Ran out for something.

It's ok. Ok? -Fuck. She'll be right back, ok?

It's fine. You're just freaking out 'cause of the coke... -Fuck.

Just let it wear off and everything'll be good. She'll come back... - No.

Yeah! -I'm gonna lose her. -No you're not. Yeah. God you're such a fucking worry wart.

Just calm down, allright? Let's just chill here for a second.

All right. Ok. Just breathe.

Breathe.

We got Mom back, right? Huh?

Think she ever loved us?

Mom?

Fuck. I guess it doesn't matter. I don't think it matters.

They were really close, huh?

I guess so.

Who cares.

Who cares about any of this. God.

You wanna just put her back?

Yeah.

Can you go 'cause my leg is still fucked up.

Did we fuck up again?

No...

No.

All right? Tt's gonna be all right. We just got to let bygones be bygones.

You got to stop feeling sorry for yourself. Allright, Bobbi?

You fucked up, but you'll get over it.

No, I hurt her Sam. I really hurt her. I know.

I know but... You'll make it up to her.

You guys are solid. Anyone can see that.

I'm so sorry.

I know that's not enough.

I know that.

I made a terrible mistake.

Is this how you feel when I disappoint you?

No.

You're perfect.

I'm fucked up. I crossed a line.

Have I ever crossed a line with you?

No. All you've ever done is keep me from falling apart.

Things with Sam, they're not...

Well, they're just not like other things.

I can't be composed around her.

It's like I'm flailing.

But I could have done it for you.

It's not us.

It's just a thing that happened.

All I've ever wanted to do was keep you from these ugly things.

Yeah, things got ugly...

But in a way it was kind of beautiful because...

...it was you who made me feel this way.

Is everything beautiful in your eyes?

Everything's beautiful in my eyes when you're in front of me.

Would you hurt me?

No. Never.

No. I mean-I want you to.

I'm just so fucked up. I need to...

Balance things out physically.

Ok. Ok. Ok!

Thank you.

I forgive you.

Woo! Yay! Beautiful!

Happy Birthday!

Do you love me? Yes!