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[owl hooting]

[Nick] This is not what I expected to happen today.

Can't believe we waited so long.

Do not say it.

No.

-Why are we-- -Nick!

-[Nick] Why are we like this though? -No!

-[Nick] It's a simple question. Come on! -Stop it!

[Nick grunts, sighs happily]

You don't mind that I kept my shirt on, do you?

Charlie, I loved every second of what just happened.

[chuckles softly]

Good.

Me too.

[gentle music playing]

Although I feel like we're gonna have to practice.

-A lot. -Oh yeah, yeah.

-Oh, loads. Loads of practice. -Yeah.

-Absolutely loads of practice. -Yeah.

[music intensifies]

[Nick] Do you think it counts as sex…

if it's just touching?

I think it counts.

I think sex can be all sorts of things.

Yeah.

There's still loads of things we could do.

You've been researching, haven't you?

-You've been on Google. -No, of course I haven't been researching.

Okay, maybe a little bit.

-Gonna look at your Internet history. -Absolutely not.

-[Charlie] Yes, I am. -Seriously, don't do that. Charlie.

[music fades]

[pensive music playing]

You've been looking at unis.

Um… yeah.

Yeah. Me and the girls are gonna go on a little road trip to… visit some of them.

Some of these are really far away.

[Nick] But my top choices are local.

I've been kinda worried about being away from you.

Well, all your top choices are close by, right?

And you'll definitely get in, so…

I'll help you study.

[kissing]

[music building]

[music intensifies]

[distant door opening]

Is that your mum?

Oh, yeah, probably. She said she was gonna be home around now.

[gasps] Oh my God! I…

[Nick chuckles]

Nick, where… where… where are my jeans?

-Where are they? -[giggling]

-Why are you laughing? This isn't funny. -Why are you so stressed out about it?

-[Charlie] Where are they? Help me! -[Nick] You took them off.

-[Charlie] Help me find them! -[Nick] No.

[gentle music playing]

[Nick chuckles softly]

-I love you. -[chuckles softly]

-I love you. -[chuckles softly]

[music fades out]

[Tori] Hi.

[slurping]

[chuckles]

Don't look at me like that. You come home in Michael's clothes all the time.

That's different.

You can just tell me you're dating. It's obvious.

You don't know what you're talking about.

[mum] Charlie.

-You've got this. -Okay.

All right?

[dad] I'll, uh…

I'll leave you two to, uh… talk.

[mum] I'm sorry I snapped.

I'm always gonna worry about you, Charlie. I can't help it. I'm your mum.

[hesitates] But I know I can be… overbearing.

My mum was a bit like this too.

She… Well, she was never very nice to me.

She was controlling and sometimes…

Anyway, I swore I wouldn't become like her,

but I think,

in some ways, maybe I have.

[Charlie] You're not.

You're not like her.

But I can be quick to anger, and that's unfair on you.

I know you worry about me.

And I know that I've been ill, but…

but I just want to live my life like a normal teenager.

[mum] And you're sensible. I know you are.

But I also think that boyfriend sleepovers are a really big step, emotionally.

I would feel much less worried about you if you waited a few more weeks,

just till your GCSEs are over.

Can that be our compromise?

[optimistic music playing]

Okay. Fine.

Thank you, Charlie.

I'm sorry I got angry too.

Oh.

You don't have to be sorry. [chuckles]

["Love You" by Flowerovlove playing]

♪ Turning ♪

♪ Over a new leaf ♪

♪ I ♪

♪ Need to see what's over there ♪

♪ For me ♪

♪ For me ♪

♪ Running ♪

♪ Over the bridge ♪

♪ Hoping… ♪

-What are you smiling about? -♪ There's no more fear in me… ♪

Oh. It happened, didn't it?

[chuckles]

-Oh my God! -Oh my God, it happened! It happened!

♪ Love you ♪

♪ And I'll always love you forever ♪

♪ Love you ♪

♪ And I'll always love you, okay… ♪

[inaudible]

[inaudible]

♪ Love you ♪

♪ And I'll always… ♪

Your exam starts… now.

♪ Love you ♪

♪ And I'll always love you the same ♪

[distant clattering]

-Is that your mum? -Yeah.

[Tara giggling]

Imogen, are you sure you've got enough stuff?

Well, I had to reduce my skincare routine. I had a whole other bag.

-[Tara] Okay. -[Imogen] Road trip!

You'll be back for the fête on Saturday? Our band starts at 4 p.m.

Yeah, I'll be there. Don't worry. We'll drive up that morning.

Nick, come on, we've got to get going.

[excited squealing in car]

-Bye. -Bye.

[Tara] You all ready?

-[Elle] Yeah, we're going! -[Nick] Someone take my bag, please.

[girls] Yeah! Woohoo!

["Right Here, For Now" by Bakar playing]

[Imogen] Uni trip! Uni trip!

-Uni trip! Uni trip! -[Tara] I love you!

-[Elle] Is it too early to open snacks? -[Tara] It's never too early.

-[Elle] I'm starving. -[Tara] We've got crisps.

♪ I'm not who's the guy that hurt you ♪

♪ You know who to turn to ♪

♪ Stand on who you are… ♪

It's literally only 15 minutes away from your house.

-[Nick] Yep. -[guide] What you thinking of studying?

-Art. -Law or politics.

International relations. Mm.

Uh…

-[guide] Do much art in your spare time? -[Elle sighs] Yeah.

I haven't lately, but…

♪ I can't wait Till you're right here, yeah… ♪

This is one of our accommodation blocks. Do you wanna take a look inside?

Uh, well, we all live pretty close by, so we'll probably just, uh, stay at home.

I don't wanna stay in Truham. I wanna go somewhere new.

[sighs] Yeah, same, and I wanna go somewhere with a big queer scene.

I need my people around me.

What did you like about Kent? That's your top choice, isn't it?

Uh, yeah. Yeah, well, it'd be nice to live at home.

My mum won't be on her own, and I'd be close to Charlie.

What about when Charlie goes to uni the next year?

[Elle] Yeah, if he leaves, then you'll still be apart.

Yeah. Yeah, that's true.

[clock chiming]

[Imogen] You don't mind sharing?

Why would I mind?

I dunno.

Girls and boys sharing a room…

It's a bit silly though, isn't it? I mean, girls and boys can just be friends.

Yeah. Yeah.

-It's weird I used to like you. [chuckles] -Oh, weird? Okay.

I mean, not weird. No! Ah!

Um… [clicks tongue]

Not weird. Um…

Oh, it'll… it'll sound bad if I say it.

Oh, right, well, now you have to say it, surely?

I'm not sure I did like you

like that.

Okay.

I think I kind of felt, um,

like, a pressure to have a boyfriend.

You know, because I was a cool girl, and that's what cool girls do.

And I think I, um…

I liked having attention from boys.

It made me feel important

and like I was… doing life right.

I don't think I liked Ben either, or my Year 10 boyfriend.

I don't think I've ever liked a boy,

actually,

when I really think of it.

Sorry, that probably makes no sense.

No, I…

I get it.

[emotional gasp]

Who even am I? [inhales shakily]

-You're my friend. -[chuckles softly]

["Close One" by FIZZ playing]

♪ Yeah, that was a close one… ♪

[Elle] This is very Legally Blonde.

-♪ Yeah, that was a close one ♪ -♪ We were really going through it ♪

♪ Guess we dodged another bullet ♪

♪ Close… ♪

So what do you think?

I think I kinda hate it.

Yep.

[music fades out]

[sighs] That's it, then.

I don't want Oxford.

I don't want any more academia.

I have no idea what I'm gonna do with my life.

-A gap year's always an option. -[Tara] Yeah, maybe.

That's Darcy's plan.

-Have you ever thought about a gap year? -I think I want the uni experience.

You know? Meeting new people and uni sports.

Societies. I've no idea what I'd do with a year off.

-You and Charlie'd think of a few things-- -[Tara] Elle!

[Elle] What?

Tao mentioned you two have been keeping each other… entertained.

-[Tara] Elle! -Ow, that hurt.

-Nicholas, tell us everything right now! -You don't have to.

-No. No, he absolutely does. -[Elle giggles]

-[Imogen] Everything. -No!

-This is so embarrassing. -[scoffs] It's a rite of passage.

-Important purchases must be made. -[Tara] That's basically how it works.

[Imogen] God, there's so much involved.

[discomfiting music playing]

-[plastic bag rustling] -I hate you guys so much.

You'll be thanking us when you and Charlie are--

Elle!

-[card reader beeps] -[Elle chuckles]

-[band playing soft rock music] -[Sahar singing]

-[music stops] -[both] Whoo!

-[Isaac] Yeah! -[Tao] Woo-hoo!

Was that okay? I feel like I messed up the chorus a bit.

That was great. Seriously.

It was really good.

Studio tour with me, Tao Xu.

Drum, for drumming.

Oh, I'm so nervous.

You'll be fine, Charlie, and we'll all be there cheering you on.

-[Charlie chuckles softly] -[Isaac] Oh!

-What? -I just… I just love you.

Um, excuse me. Where's my hug?

-Come here, then! -[Tao chuckles]

-[Tao] Wha-ha! -Tao!

-[Charlie and Isaac] Ow! -Aah!

-[Charlie] Tao! -[Tao] Okay.

You know, I watch the video you guys made me all the time.

Whenever I feel down, I just put it on.

I need to make a new one, then. This was not my best work.

Why are you being all soppy?

I just don't think I tell you enough how important you are to me.

-Aaah! -[all chuckle]

-Guys, we have a band practice, so can we… -He's gotta go play drums.

-[Charlie] Not my fault. It's Tao's! -What's this song about, Sahar?

-Uh, that's personal. -I thought it was about Imogen.

Don't keep talking about us like we're star-crossed lovers.

Just because we kissed doesn't mean we found the one, like you guys have.

Definitely about Imogen.

Okay, it's about her, but that's not the point,

so let's get this show on the road, please.

One, two, three, four.

♪ How much of myself can I give away ♪

♪ Till there's nothing left… ♪

[Charlie] Morning. I can't wait for my exam to be over today,

and I can't wait to see you tomorrow.

I'm really nervous about this performance, so I'm gonna need a good-luck hug.

And then tomorrow night, I…

I'm staying over at yours tomorrow night, if you want.

Anyway, I love you. Bye.

[guide] Hello, everyone. Welcome to Leeds University.

So I'm going to be your tour guide today. My name is Will.

What are you thinking of studying?

Maybe sports science or psychology. Haven't really decided yet.

♪ Don't you ever leave ♪

♪ I can hear you saying "Joe, Joe, Joe…" ♪

[Will] So, yeah, we've got our library over here.

-It's too gray, y'know? -Well, I think he's loving it.

Clubs and societies and stuff if you…

And these are our main sports facilities.

-[Tara] Nick plays rugby. -[Will] Awesome!

-Shall we go and look at the rugby pitch? -Yeah. Yeah, sure.

Yeah? Come on, let's go.

Would you be looking to carry on with rugby at uni?

-Yeah. Yeah, definitely. -[whistle blows]

My partner's actually on one of the teams. Josh!

[playful jeering]

[boy 1] Josh, concentrate! Come on!

[boy 2] Get on it, Josh!

♪ I still hear you saying "Joe, Joe, Joe" ♪

♪ 'Cause you're nothing without me ♪

[Geoff] Sounds like you've been enjoying yourself.

[chuckles softly] Yeah.

You've been much more upbeat these past couple of months.

I was gonna ask if maybe we could make our sessions once every other week,

rather than weekly.

I've been feeling… okay recently.

I mean, obviously I still have bad days, but… less often.

I'm very glad to hear it, Charlie.

-Fortnightly it is. -[chuckles softly]

Okay. Cool.

Do you think I'll ever get to the point where I

don't have any intrusive thoughts or anything?

Like, will I ever be free of them?

Well, it's not impossible, but you shouldn't feel

that any wobbly moments you have are a failure.

-They're just normal. -Yeah. [chuckles softly]

And I've got people in my life who can help me

if things get really bad again.

That's very true.

I think I've realized that,

even though I love Nick,

I need other people.

My sister, my parents when they're not being annoying,

my friends.

My therapist.

And that doesn't mean our relationship isn't strong.

In fact, I think it's stronger now than ever.

I hope you know that I'm gonna write that down

and read it back to you when you're feeling crap.

[both chuckle]

[inhales deeply]

-[pensive music playing] -[cell phone clicks]

[chuckles]

[keypad clicking]

[sighs]

[inhales deeply, sighs]

[sighs, huffs]

You really liked Leeds. More than Kent.

-Yeah. -Do you wanna talk about it?

[Nick sighs softly]

-Look, if I move away, it'll hurt Charlie. -[groans] Nick.

-You're a bit of a people pleaser. -Elle!

No, he needs to hear this.

You're always putting everyone else's feelings above your own.

I know how you feel about long distance. I'm in the same boat.

But you have to put yourself first right now.

Yeah, and Charlie will support you. He just wants you to be happy.

[Nick] It's not just about him.

I'm afraid of being away from him.

I don't know who I am without him.

Maybe it's time to find out.

["A Good Thing" by Claud playing]

♪ You're at my house, but I feel gone ♪

♪ You piss me off, you turn me on ♪

♪ I push you off, but I'm on top… ♪

-[distorted rumbling] -[laughter]

-[resolute sigh] -[distorted rumbling fades]

♪ Can't decide what side I'm on ♪

♪ Are you thinking what I'm thinking? ♪

[knocking on door]

[Tori] Are you ready for the big performance?

We're leaving in a minute.

[chuckles softly] I'm ready.

♪ What if we just Leave a good thing alone? ♪

♪ Don't try to fix it if it isn't broke… ♪

That Ferris wheel is so cool.

-[dad] I know. -[Charlie] So cool.

♪ But we'll never know… ♪

-[mum] Are you gonna go on? -[Charlie] I am.

[Tori] Yeah!

♪ We're looking for the answers… ♪

-Hello. -[Darcy] Hi!

-Ah! Fit you, then? -[squealing]

[slurping]

The others better hurry if they wanna make the concert on time.

[Isaac] You're just missing Elle.

Four days is like 40 years in Tao and Elle time.

-[Tao] Okay firstly, rude! -[giggling]

Secondly, I'm actually fine about it.

I don't need to be with Elle every single second of every day.

-Wow. -[Tao] I'm a grown man.

-[Sahar] Cheers to that. -Yes, cheers to that.

-[Isaac chuckles] -Oh.

-Charles. -[Charlie chuckles] Hey, Michael.

-I think Tori's with my parents. -She's not. She's avoiding me.

[Charlie] Oh. Why?

Well, I, uh, may have posed the question about us being boyfriend and girlfriend.

I assumed you already were.

[Michael] Well, what does boyfriend and girlfriend mean anyway?

They're just words we made up to label common experiences.

They shouldn't matter.

I don't care what society thinks about our relationship as long as we're happy.

If she doesn't wanna label it, I literally don't care.

I just figured we should have a conversation, but now…

[gentle music playing]

…I wish I hadn't said anything.

Want me to go find her?

[chuckles softly]

[whimsical music playing]

[indistinct chatter]

[playful yelling, squealing]

[chuckles softly]

[music softens]

[Charlie] Michael's looking for you.

-Oh… -[chuckles softly] Where are we going?

So you don't wanna be Michael's girlfriend?

-[sighs] What does "girlfriend" even mean? -[chuckles]

You're having a weird amount of trouble with labels for a straight couple.

We're not a couple.

Well… he really likes you.

[Tori] Yes. [sighs]

I'm aware.

[Charlie] And how do you feel?

I don't ever feel anything.

That's not true.

You feel so much.

It's just trapped inside.

I understand what that's like.

-Don't use your Geoff crap on me. -[chuckles]

You're nothing like me.

I wish I was like you.

You're

hopeful.

You try.

Have you not been doing anything but try to help me for the last year?

Whether you wanna be Michael's girlfriend doesn't matter.

You have so much love to give.

You don't have to give it all to me.

[Tori] Well, I wanted to.

I'd do it all again.

[gentle music playing]

I know, but…

[inhales shakily]

I'm okay now, Tori.

Yeah, I'll still have bad days, but

I'm okay.

[Tori inhales deeply]

[music intensifies]

-[laughter] -[playful yelling]

[sentimental music playing]

[chuckles]

[cell phone dings, vibrates]

[tense music building]

-[horns honking] -[Nick sighs]

-This is so bad. -What's our ETA?

-Like, quarter past four. -[Elle sighs]

We're gonna miss the band. Charlie needs me there.

-[girl 1] That one's all right. -[Sahar] Let's do this one.

-[strumming note] -[girl 1] Okay, awesome.

[indistinct chatter]

[Sahar] This is my last one.

-[girl 1] Oh, it's okay. -[girl 2] Yeah, that was good.

-[Nick] We're so late! -[Imogen] Put your foot down!

-Drive! -Hurry up!

-I'm going at the speed limit. -Can everyone stop shouting?

[applause]

[cheering]

Hello, everyone. Hello, Truham. How are we doing?

[audience cheering]

[dad] Go, Charlie!

Good. We're Queer Intentions, in case you don't know.

We're gonna sing a few songs for you. Are you ready to rock?

[audience cheers] Yeah!

[Sahar] Are you ready to rock?

[audience cheers] Yeah!

-[Sahar] Okay. Right. -[whooping]

[band playing soft rock music]

♪ I'll tidy up my life ♪

♪ C'est la vie ♪

♪ I'm putting up a fight… ♪

[whooping]

♪ That's just me ♪

♪ I don't even know what it becomes ♪

♪ I don't even care ♪

♪ That was us ♪

♪ I'm gonna live my life… ♪

[cheering]

♪ C'est la vie… ♪

[Isaac] Go, Charlie!

[vocalizing]

♪ They pull you left ♪

♪ They pull you right ♪

♪ C'est la vie ♪

♪ But don't lose sight… ♪

-[Nick] Guys, hurry! -[Tara] We're gonna miss it!

[Imogen] Wait for me!

[Nick] Imogen, if you can't run in those shoes, take them off!

-[Tara] Come on! -[Nick] Hurry up!

-I can see them! -[Tara] Quick!

♪ C'est la vie… ♪

-[Elle] Sorry. -[Nick] Sorry.

[Elle] Excuse me!

Sorry, excuse me.

[Elle] Sorry.

[cheering]

[applause]

[Elle] Hi!

[cheering, whistling]

[Tao] Go, Charlie!

[chuckling]

[Tao] Whoo!

-♪ I will find my voice… ♪ -[camera clicks]

♪ C'est la vie ♪

♪ Determinée comme une boss ♪

♪ C'est la vie ♪

♪ Love is not a choice ♪

♪ C'est la vie ♪

♪ Mon esprit est féroce! ♪

[chuckles]

[vocalizing]

[vocalizing]

Whoo!

[Tao] C'est la vie!

[raucous cheering]

I love you, Charlie!

[whistling, cheering]

[Charlie chuckling]

[Nick] Oh! You did it! You're amazing.

[gentle music playing]

-Sorry I wasn't there before you went on. -It's okay.

-I was okay. -[chuckles softly]

[electricity fizzing, crackling]

-You look so good right now. -[chuckles]

-Nick. -[Tao] Charlie!

[cheering]

-Superstar! -[Darcy] Charlie!

-[Mr. Spring] Sure you're gonna try that? -Yeah, I think so. If I'm brave enough.

-Okay. Come here, Charlie. -Bye.

-All right. Have fun. -Get home safe.

-[Charlie] See you tomorrow. -All right. Bye.

[Nick and Charlie chatter indistinctly]

-He's fine. -I know.

And we've got a free house.

["The Outsiders" playing]

[Sahar laughs] Okay, let's go.

All right, you ready?

♪ …of the town we outgrew ♪

♪ My car in the front yard With the boombox that I bought… ♪

[Tara screaming]

Yay!

[Tao] We win! We win! We win!

Ooh! That was close.

[Sahar] No, no, no, no. Thanks.

[indistinct chattering]

[Charlie] No. Books are banned tonight.

I've been thinking

about going to art school in Europe.

Like Paris or Berlin or something.

-[chuckles softly] -What?

Wow.

-That's… that's so cool. -[chuckles softly]

I need to find a job though.

My mum's not gonna pay for international travel.

I mean, she doesn't even pay for my bus fare to school, so, yeah.

-[Isaac] We might have to ask… -[Charlie] I'd be up for it.

♪ My car in the front yard With the boombox I bought without you ♪

♪ Find a way To make it make sense again… ♪

Bye.

[all] Bye.

-[Charlie] Are you going? -[Tara] See you! Bye.

Bye.

So are they dating, or…

I'm not really sure.

-Hey, you two! [laughs] -[Darcy] Hey!

-[Gran] Oh, my darling. -Hello!

Hello. How are you?

-♪ My friends versus your friends… ♪ -[electricity fizzing, crackling]

♪ …of the town we outgrew ♪

♪ My car in the front yard ♪

♪ With the boombox That I bought without you ♪

♪ Find a way To make it make sense again… ♪

[breathing heavily]

Wait, let me help.

[music fades out]

[breathing heavily]

Take mine off.

Please.

Are you sure?

Yeah.

[Nick chuckles softly]

[chuckles softly]

["Million Little Reasons" by Oscar Lang playing]

I love you.

And you are so fucking hot.

-♪ There's a million little reasons… ♪ -[Nick chuckles softly]

♪ For why I like your smile ♪

♪ There's a million little reasons ♪

-♪ For why I like your style… ♪ -[both chuckle]

-♪ If I tried… ♪ -[both chuckle softly]

♪ To write ♪

♪ Them down… ♪

[moans softly]

-[chuckling] -♪ I'd run out of ink… ♪

-[chuckling] No, it's not. -That's what you said!

It's all right.

♪ There's a million little reasons ♪

♪ For why I want you here ♪

♪ There's a million little reasons ♪

♪ For why I want you near ♪

♪ If I tried ♪

♪ To write ♪

-♪ Them down… ♪ -[leaves rustling]

[twinkling]

♪ I'd run out of ink ♪

[vocalizing]

[music fades out]