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It's like I've lived my life

and

it's sort of

all in these boxes

but what

is part of the

profound sadness

is that

I know it's incomplete

as much as I've

filmed and as hard as I've tried

there's nothing I can do

to make

any of it understood.

I know that

that's not true

but it's how I feel.

Hi.

I'm meeting the director of the drama division

to show my son the school.

She was so hard on us.

Right under...

Do you know who that is?

That's a famous actress.

Kelly McGillis.

It sure does.

I miss London bad.

It's just, you know

the first big city I came to

after New York.

So as you have seen now several times

I can't speak without plugging this hole.

This is because

they put a piece of plastic

down my breathing tube

which is also, as everyone knows

where your food goes down

and because the hole is so small

you have to make a choice

when you have this kind of problem whether you

breathe or eat.

Obviously, if you can't breathe, you can't eat.

I used to hate the valley with an absolute passion.

I hate it.

It's so, uh,

it's the rim of hell.

It's where hell begins, right here.

If you look over the edge,

you can look down into hell.

I haven't been out here in fifteen years.

The last time I was out here was making

Kiss Kiss Bang Bang with Robert Downey Jr.

That house was there

but the rest of these houses weren't here

and my Dad bought all the property

and

sold each one of the lots

so he could

decide who his neighbors were gonna be.

This is my old house.

The second house.

It's full of death.

For Joanne, my wife, it was total hell.

Home was just another place to rehearse.

She tried to be supportive but

also just the music

over, and over, and over again.

Jim had this aspiration to

capture this

fleeting

ethereal truth.

I think it's Yeats who said,

I'm paraphrasing but

the idea is

you see a tree and you observe a truth

about the tree

and you're hit with it,

the magic of the tree.

I see this

hole in my throat

and I wonder

whether people wonder

if I've had any fear of dying.

Because I obviously

am

sounding

much worse than I feel.

But it's an obstacle obviously that

is uh

very present with whoever sees me.

And

I have had fears

but none that have ever

been overwhelming

about my life

because I

don't believe in death

and my whole life I've

tried to see the world

as one

piece of life.

That's how I understand it right,

when you pull back

from the planet, you see that

we're all one

life source.

Hi sweetheart.

You're not quite ready yet.

Ok.

I'm going to come...

I'm going to come over to you right?

Pick you up?

Alright.

Sure why not?

Holy cow.

Howdy.

Not bad.

Thank you so much.

Thunderheart.

Thank you.

Fantastic.

Val Kilmer "Chosen by God."

I blew his mind in South India.

I always love it here

in Texas because

my father was born here.

Even though he passed on

I always feel close by when I come to Texas

and um

and um

I'm having such a great time here.

I'd like to thank everybody for

putting on such a great show.

Sometimes

I feel so low and I have the blues

really really hard

about having to

you know, fly around the country.

I don't look great and

I'm selling basically my old self, my old career.

For many people

it's like the lowest thing you can do is

talk about your old pictures and sell photographs

of when you were Batman or

the Terminator...

I don't want to insult any of the other actors

that fly around the world...

But it enables me to

meet my fans and

and what ends up happening is

I feel really grateful rather than humiliated

because there's so many people.

Actors like Tommy Lee Jones

had designed this whole performance

and so had Jim Carrey.

It was just so huge.

I think it made no difference what I was doing.

I tried to be like an

actor on a soap opera.

The way I would turn to Nicole.

Go count how many times

I put my hands on my hips.

I don't know how they come up with this

style of acting

but they seem to go

go to soap opera school.

"Why, why, why would you say that?"

I wanna take a break.

Yeah, my stomach...

I wanna lay down.

John Frankenheimer: Ok. Uh. This has just gone too far.

I can't do it.

If we're going to work this way.

Shut the video camera off.

Val: Are we rehearsing?

JF: We are about to rehearse. Would you please shut the video camera off.

Val: No. Because I'm in a highly emotional state,

because you said earlier to David and I, you were going to leave this movie.

JF: If this continues... I will not

I do not see how I could function under these conditions.

I'm supposed to be doing creative work

and this is not conducive to creating a good scene.

Val: Well -

can I have a minute, because I'm in an emotional state

and I won't be able to read my lines.

JF: By all means, please have a minute.

I'll tell you what. When you guys are ready to rehearse -

Val: I'm ready to rehearse right now.

JF: Shut the video camera off?

Val: I need a witness because of things you've said.

JF: Things that I've said?

Val: Yeah.

Val: You've debated in front of your two lead actors,

on whether you will continue to direct this film.

That puts me in a state of mind -

not conducive to creating.

JF: Please shut the video camera off.

Val: I will keep it on until we're rehearsing.

Gimme a shove.

Big...big...big shove.

Yeah. That's good.

Ah...there we are.

The reason I'm wearing an AZ hat,

is that

I'm going to Arizona

because

my mother passed on,

and

she uh,

right now she doesn't have anyone to cremate her.

It glows in the dark.

It's very pretty.

I like those with that dress.

Ok, time to go!

I wrote something nice last night all about her style.

Her hairdo and her jewelry

they always popped.

I miss my mama.

But I had a vision

that she was so happy

with her youngest son.

Why are we here?

So we're going out to Malibu

because of my wonderful little church

and

my members there, I love them very much.

I've studied all the major religions.

I've always been interested in religions

and

often when I meet someone

I'll end up talking about their faith,

I'll ask them.

I can't help it

I'm a bastard

and I love you.

It's very, very funny.

Malibu, six miles.

Oh look at the ocean.

What would happen if I went into this church service

and I came out speaking perfectly well?

It's a very good lesson for me to study

about victory over the grave.