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I'm officially tapping out today.

My body's unable to function efficiently and safely.

Tapping out is the only sensible option.

I want to celebrate what I did

and the new chapter of this journey.

Moose head almighty!

Give me the strength to continue this journey.

I can give you hare.

Ugh.

Our body is breaking down.

That's me pushing out as hard as I can.

Ugh!

Seven-bunny day. Ha ha!

We're back in this fight, baby.

Yeesh.

We just had a bear raid that's pulled fish heads

and the remains of stuff out of the weir.

There's a genuine weariness and fatigue

that is slowly, slowly coming over me.

Humans were meant to be with other humans.

The longingness for loved ones,

for affection, that's increasing.

Need batteries, man.

I feel like they've gotten even worse.

It's just...

the temps have gotten colder.

But, yeah, it seems like they're even more--

more fussy now.

I don't think there's any other cables.

The camera and battery maintenance

is just relentless.

It's all the stuff you don't know about.

It never makes the show, but--

You think you know...

but you don't.

That's why you have to do it yourself.

All right, go down and check on trap line.

Check the snares. Check for sign.

To be honest, there's a fear around this cold snap.

The fear is that, eventually,

it's not gonna cycle anymore.

It's just gonna be cold,

and it's gonna be very, very challenging.

Just keep moving, keep warm.

And I'm worried

about the potential hardship ahead.

Nothing happened on those ones.

I have this fear that that potential hardship

might overshadow the amazing and beautiful journey

that I've been on out here.

Keep moving.

Keep the hands warm.

And that's really hard to face.

Nothing through those ones.

Oh, my gosh.

I got another snowshoe hare.

Oh! Yes!

Oh, it's wrapped right around.

Yes!

Another...

another awesome snowshoe hare.

Whew! Hands are cold, though.

Let me just check that other snare while I'm here.

The reality is that I'm choosing to be out here.

I'm choosing to be uncomfortable,

and I'm choosing to face hardship,

and it's not an easy choice to continue to make.

Oh, no way!

No way!

I got a second one!

Oh, that is unreal.

Oh!

Ha!

I know what I'm gonna be doing for the rest of the day.

Outdoor fire, drying out the sleeping bag,

processing snowshoe hare.

Yes!

Let's go!

Yes.

It's challenging to choose hardship

and to choose to step outside your comfort zone

and continue to keep doing it.

I'll have a little bit of a look at the gillnet

as I walk past.

Oh.

Oh!

Yes!

Yes!

Yes!

I can see inconnu down there!

The gillnet's back, baby!

The gillnet's back.

Let's get it out.

Not every day is gonna be an amazing day.

Not every day is gonna make the highlight reel.

But every day is worthwhile.

Oh.

All right. Chill, dude. Chill.

That is a good size. I really want to bring that in.

I think about the value of just showing up each day

and just trying and just putting in the work.

Come on, chill. Chill, inconnu. Chill.

Almost there. We're almost there.

Come on.

Every day is important, and every day is all you have.

And you might not have all the answers...

You might not know exactly what you need to do

to reach those goals, but just take that step,

and you'll get there.

Ugh!

Yes!

Look at it!

Wow!

What a day of abundance.

Whoo-hoo!

Okay, now let's see how bad it is.

What do you say?

Oh, shoot, yeah, you're too skinny, that's for sure.

I mean...

the question is...

should I start eating like crazy?

I mean, the point is, I feel good, but...

I guess that this is too skinny.

I'm not sure about my weight.

I--

just to be on the safe side, I'll start eating more fat.

I'm a bit concerned they might pull me out

because I'm too skinny.

If I would be here...

without medical checks...

I wouldn't be concerned.

But they have the final decision.

If they say, Ziga, no, then it's over.

I need more fats,

so I'm going to do some fishing.

Before the ice, I had, like, wonderful fishing days.

In three days, I caught six fish.

It really sustained me for a long time.

But zero success

since the ice has covered lake and river.

Okay.

Time to get gillnet out.

I hope I finally catch something.

To be honest, I find it slightly hopeless.

But you know what? Let's give it at least a try.

There's a bit of frustration, because I'm seeing sun

very, very low on the horizon.

And I know that, soon enough,

sun won't rise anymore,

so I'm very close to the polar night.

Gosh.

Like I didn't put any insulation.

So thick.

And then it will get so much harder.

And if you don't have food, people start to tap out.

Finally.

And I just want to set myself up for success

as much as I can.

Holy moly.

Damn it. Ugh.

This got even frozen.

[bleep].

Now I broke it.

The pole. [bleep].

[bleep] damn it.

So I have a pole on which is attached the gillnet,

and it goes this direction,

and it got broken somewhere in between,

meaning that I have to cut a new hole

and get it out somehow.

I hope I don't have to cut everything four meters long.

Like, come on, seriously, guys?

Oh, [bleep] damn it.

Well...

Have to do it.

Come on!

Oh. [bleep] my life.

Guys, this chopping gets really exhausting.

Okay, one meter would be here.

Wow, that's more than 20 centimeters.

I'm not down yet. Crazy.

I never thought this would happen so quick.

Well, now you are movable, for sure.

Not totally.

Okay, guys, so now let's see if I have a...

single fish or not.

So much effort...

so much time.

I know.

You can probably estimate, also, the calorie intake.

Nothing.

Nothing at all.

Okay, I think that's the end

of gillnet fishing, for sure.

I'm thinking to try active fishing.

So I guess that's it.

What's up, guys?

Got a fire going.

It's windier than hell out there, but I got no choice.

It's too cold outside.

Smoke's billowing in, but, luckily, I got a crack

where I cut my ridge pole.

It clears out pretty quick in here, which is nice, but...

That's nice, but in the same sense, that's why I get cold.

So...

my feet have literally been freezing

for the last, like, month.

I heat up my rocks. I put 'em in my sleeping bags.

But I wake up to freezing cold.

Didn't do much sleeping, I don't think.

And then I'm so skinny right now.

I'm doing some crazy yoga in that sleeping bag,

trying to get my feet up to my damn chest to warm them.

It's weird, though, because it's not, like, a--

a deep cold.

It's like, my feet are still getting the circulation.

Like, I'm not worried about frostbite.

I have all the feeling.

But it's just, like,

the outside of them are freezing.

Message received.

Med check day today.

We'll get this warmed up, wait for our check-in.

Just keep feeding fuel to the bad boy.

They might be coming already.

Let's quickly eat at least a bit.

Okay, that's it.

Can you tell me how you're doing, how you're feeling?

I am really good.

Are you getting good sleep at nighttime?

Oh, yeah, I sleep a lot.

Yeah, got it. Thank you.

Okay.

And what are you eating these days?

Since I shot the moose,

I'm cooking pretty much three times a day.

Any kind of dizziness? Not at all.

Good. Okay, got it.

One confident step forward, please.

Okay, thank you. You may go back inside, sir.

How are you doing?

Overall, actually, pretty good.

Like, I've eaten really, really well out here.

I'm eating three meals a day.

And, also, I've still got beaver fat left,

so I'm putting that in

with the snowshoe hare, 'cause it's quite lean.

Good.

Whew.

That's chilly.

Okay, I'm good.

All right.

Last one. Great.

Whew.

Take a nice big deep breath for me.

Any shortness of breath?

No, but, like, I'll be walking out.

It's just-- I know it's from the smoke.

Okay.

Any fever, chills, sweats? Anything like that?

Chills. Definitely some chills.

Fever, chills, sweats-- - No. Yeah, not sickness.

No, just cold. Oh, okay.

It's my body don't got the fat,

so it's, like, not insulated. Okay.

Good. When was the last one?

Two days ago, because I've been eating

all those rabbits. Okay.

Any weird swelling coming up around the body?

Nothing.

100%.

Yep.

Thank you, Aaron. Yeah. Okay, cool.

Thank God.

Another one and done.

Let's go and check bunny snares.

Hopefully get three to four bunnies,

but we've taken a lot of bunnies out of here,

so I don't know how many are left.

After the med check, I'm happy.

We're still in the fight,

and now I've got to keep working, keep pushing forward.

One snare, zero.

I need to stay in this.

I feel like we're so close to the end.

There's probably three or four people left.

I guarantee you somebody's getting on fish.

Somebody's probably got a big game animal down,

and I'm just over here living off pure rabbits.

Nothing.

I'm starting to get worried.

I feel that the medics are looking at my food intake,

and I'll get pulled in a med check or two

if I don't catch any fish or get fat.

Where the [bleep] are all the bunnies at?

But it's like, I haven't caught a fish since, like, day seven?

And, like, the wasted energy and calories

I've done trying to fish is insane.

Got one.

And I know there's such thing as rabbit starvation,

but it's either that, or I don't eat.

Caught a bunny. That's good.

And hopefully I can eat the rabbits

long enough to win.

It's the game in survival, man.

You find a system that's somewhat working,

and you stick to it.

Got the fire ripping.

Got a bunny in the oven, cooking up.

Day 74 is a wrap.

That's insane.

I have a new sense of, like,

okay, we're-- we're in this [bleep] now.

This is--you know, we got a week to two weeks left.

Like, I'm so close to winning this thing,

I can taste it.

But seen maybe a couple things I shouldn't have.

I think I seen how much I weigh.

And...

and my blood pressure.

Hopefully they don't come back for [bleep] two weeks.

But they're gonna come back in a week, guaranteed,

because my condition is obviously

not getting any better.

I've lost a lot of weight.

So, if I'm not done this in a week,

then I got to try to convince the doc

to not pull me and give me one more week.

This is all speculation and...

me probably thinking way too deep into it,

but this is how my brain works when I'm competing.

The mind is a crazy thing when you want something bad enough.

You got a lot of time to think out here, clearly, huh?

Man, had a truly epic sleep.

It's good to pass the medical

and not have any sort of, like, weight warning

or any worries in regards to that.

So that was good.

And...

I'm still here.

I was really hopeful.

I'd been...

Sort of imagining and hoping that...

my wife would be here for...

the next med check...

and she obviously isn't.

But, yeah, it takes a bit to sort of...

to think about and to digest...

definitely.

Okay.

Goals--get up and sort out the spruce boughs

at the top of the shelter

to help hopefully improve...

the ventilation up there.

Smoke seems to be building up a bit,

so I'm gonna try and change the boughs out.

I know we're starting to get closer and closer

towards the end of this experience.

I want to finish strong, but, also,

I want to finish positively as well.

I don't know whether the finish line for me

is winning or not,

but however my experience is gonna finish out here,

I don't want to stumble or fall short.

I want to finish right, but it's hard, man.

It's really hard to continue to choose the difficult path.

You can kind of see

that you got all of this creosote stuff here

that just builds up and gets really thick--

flammable as well.

I love my home, but, also, it's no longer a sanctuary,

in the sense that you're spending

so long in the sleeping bag.

And, particularly, with the smoke as well,

it's hard to hang out around the fire, and...

yeah, it's becoming less enjoyable.

All right.

So fingers crossed that's gonna result in me

being able to hang out a bit more

and not get smashed by the smoke.

So when you're laying, like, in the sleeping bag

for, like, 16 hours-- and it's dark for 16 hours--

the doubts can start to kind of creep in.

You know, you start to miss home more.

You start to miss the comforts,

and you start to, you know, wonder about how long

the competition's gonna be

and how long you're gonna be out here for as well.

So it's difficult. It's really difficult.

And when it gets really cold, yeah, it hits you hard--

both physically and mentally.

It really...

it really gets to you,

especially, yeah, in the dark by yourself.

All right, let's get this fire...

back up and toasty.

The possibility of winning would be very special.

A nice fire going right now.

Interested to see how the smoke goes.

Oh, we'll see.

But when I really think about it now,

it's being here in the hopes that I give my wife

the opportunity to be able to come out here,

to go on an adventure,

to travel to the other side of the world,

to come to the Arctic and see this beautiful place

and have that experience.

She deserves it.

Ventilation on top.

Burning lovely.

And so I continue on.

Amazing journey.

Love to everyone...

especially my wife and son.

Guys, now it's time to get fish...

fishy fish.

Although I still have moose--

and I calculated I eat,

like, two to three kilos of moose per day--

I'm still losing weight.

Okay.

So I think I should keep on fishing

because I need some supplement of more fatty meat,

which comes with fish.

Whoo-hoo.

The bait are going off these hooks.

I should replace it with the other one.

But, first, do some active fishing.

I really think I have enough food

for a bit more than a month,

but just recently I started to think more about,

what if somebody else caught something big?

Okay.

I mean, if this happened,

that's gonna be definitely the longest competition ever.

So far, I'm quite proud of myself,

but I hope I can still last long enough to win.

And I hope to share this with my younger brother,

because since the beginning, we were, just, you know,

very young guys trying new stuff in the forest.

For example, we had different signs

to know where is somebody.

I mean, it was really simple.

Like, you know, one whistle was, basically, where are you?

And then another guy respond with one whistle--

oh, I'm here.

Come on, fishy.

We realized it's much less disturbing for wildlife

if you are whistling than if you're shouting.

We combined skills and learned from each other

over all these years,

so winning would be

a victory also for my brother.

Come on, man.

I spent so much time on ice fishing,

and, somehow, I can't get a fish.

Maybe somebody found a really sweet spot

and is catching a lot of fish from one area,

but I'm not catching anything.

I don't know.

Nothing.

I'm mentally prepared for 100 days,

but I need to be food-wise as well.

It's gonna be dark soon, so I am to go back.

Luckily, I remember that I have still

a lot of bones that have quite some fat in them.

This can actually really help me

in lasting longer here.

Okay, I have big backbone here in the shelter,

so I'll cut a few pieces and put it in a pot.

It's still a bit frozen, so...

it doesn't go that smoothly.

Nice to cut it in half.

It's gonna be easier.

Okay.

I'm actually already looking forward

to eating parts that people usually throw away...

'cause, yes, on ribs and backbone,

there is not much meat, but it's quite a lot of fat.

There are going to be very, very nice and fatty soups.

I know that some people find it

a bit disgusting or whatever,

but when you're out here, you understand

why this is important, and you will embrace it.

How to not be picky on food and how to figure out

which parts of animals are valuable--

it's very important for survival.

So this part of backbone

is entirely processed.

And look at this.

This is just from the interior of backbone.

I could sometimes just pull them out.

Sometimes I use a knife or a stick

and can imagine this is emptied.

Gosh, I think I can really eat an entire moose.

Like, really, entire, from bone marrow

to, basically, every single piece of meat and organ.

That's my main strategy now.

I think that's much better strategy

than breaking ice like crazy trying to catch this fish.

Okay, now I think it's time to put this outside.

And then let's eat some fat.

Very, very nice.

I am getting skinny.

Doesn't look too bad.

She is what she is, isn't it?

I think by now you know how bad I want to win.

Like, when I get depressed or I want to quit,

I just tell myself five things I want if I win this.

Dump trailer with a Bobcat,

start a business with my best friend, Todd,

buying and renovating houses

and selling them or renting them.

Then there's a house I want to buy.

A couple acres-- put a garden,

raise some bunnies.

So who knows?

Mama didn't raise no quitter.

Ugh.

Back to business.

Stick to the routine, Aaron.

Stick to the routine.

I hope we get some big bunny numbers today.

Canada will provide.

I'm telling you-- this isn't a little jaunt

to do my little trap line,

but if you ain't working, eating--

wasn't eating--

it was working...

Hunting, trapping, or fishing, you're slowly quitting.

Eating-- that's all I can think about.

Sound effects help.

I know people are gonna judge me by, like,

ah, yeah, he's working too hard.

He's working all his calories away.

That's why he's so skinny, and he might get pulled.

Nothing there.

But that won't bother me.

It's who I am. It's how I operate.

We had one right there. Yeah, nothing.

I've set goals for myself in life.

Like, me and Melissa wanted a house.

So I worked out of town, I worked weekends,

I worked long hours,

and I knew I would get it

because of how hard I was working,

how hard Melissa was working, and what we were sacrificing.

And that's how I feel about this.

You do the work, you get rewarded.

That's just the way it is.

There's not a [bleep] lick of sign in here.

I think we're wasting our time, guys.

I'm definitely slowing down in my walking.

My stride's a little shorter.

Take a breather.

But it is any day now that somebody can win.

Just got to suffer, suffer hard now.

[bleep], yeah. We got a bunny.

Oh, yes.

Oh, that's awesome.

Not expecting this today, but...

♪ Got ourselves a bunny

Greatly appreciated.

I filled my glove with snow.

Now my hands are numb.

[bleep].

Ouch.

Okay.

I say we head back to camp.

I need to go...

Sit down.

I'm getting weak, guys.

Getting weak.

But we're pushing.

I said I would, and I'm gonna.

But it's getting hard.

I, uh--I definitely got two weeks in me,

though, till 90.

But it's just-- if 90 is gonna be enough,

my body's not gonna push me past that--I know it.

I'm too skinny. I'm too weak.

So...

unfortunately, 90 will be the end.

Just give me the damn win here.

Okay.

For cooking, I will use more strange stuff.

I mean, already now in the morning,

I ate kidneys, which have a bit of piss taste.

So I will continue today in this way.

Okay, let's have a close look

of what I'm cooking today.

Okay, so these two

are two pieces of moose [bleep].

And this is more inner part.

And here is still some hair that I want to remove...

and cut into smaller pieces so it will fit.

This is a testicle of moose.

So let's cook it.

And this part with hair...

can go away.

I hope...

it tastes good.

Okay, today's special-- moose [bleep].

Okay, I know that half of world's population

prefer it hard, but I hope it's soft enough.

Let's see.

It's pretty much a tendon.

Well, taste--nothing special.

Like normal tendon, really.

In this wilderness, I'm most proud of the respect

for each animal that I catch.

Not throwing any piece of meat away

or part of the body.

Okay. And now testicles.

I hope they taste better than kidneys.

I really started, you know, eating

all parts of tiny squirrels,

and then I just apply this also to huge moose.

Not especially good but totally fine.

Also, still a bit chewy...

But much better than the [bleep].

Bam, bam!

We're back for another episode of "Eat Yo' Bunny".

It's so good.

I think I found a new delicacy.

Rip off the ribs and eat the spine

with the marrow in it-- ho-ly.

It's good.

It has, like, the same texture as, like, a chip, too.

Ah, it's perfect temperature.

From day one, I figured if I can make it to day 90,

I'd win.

But, unfortunately, my lack of shooting skills

have made this a long, drawn-out fight

instead of a relaxing, comforting

fat-nutrient stay.

That's what it is.

It's my own fault. It's my own shortcomings.

We just need to keep going, though.

Don't feel like doing too much today,

to tell you the honest truth.

But we need firewood.

Such an easy task is becoming hard.

Come on, weakling.

Ay, yi, yi.

Just drains me.

Hiya!

I've caught over 90 bunnies.

And although they're delicious and good,

they're not giving me the nutrients I need

to run my trap line, to do my firewood.

And the thing is, is, like, I can't work less,

or I won't have nothing to eat.

I'm slowly dying out here, essentially.

My body's wasting away.

On top of that, the lack of fats

don't insulate me for sleeping,

so my mental stability

has been going up and down.

I'm having more frequently bad days.

And it feels like I'm cracking.

Everything is such a task.

[bleep]. Let's do it.

About ready to shoot this [bleep].

I'll get you, you [bleep].

[bleep].

Yes.

Yes.

[bleep].

I hate bows.

Oh, I shouldn't have done that.

What the [bleep] is happening to me here?

Flinging arrows at frickin' squirrels.

These are the mistakes you don't make, guys,

and I'm making them again.

My mind is breaking down.

I could make this all end if I wanted to.

We've done enough. You've proved a point.

You can do it.

Everybody will be proud of you.

People quit way earlier.

There's no shame.

I'm starting to believe it.

We might be fighting a losing battle no matter what.

I'm out here just struggling.

Feet haven't been warm in frickin' I don't know when.

Hands are tattered, body's broken.

This is dismal, guys, really dismal in here.

Can't sleep at all,

so I'm carving something for my son.

I'm just thinking maybe, like,

matching, like, little necklace pendant things to wear

might be really nice.

And, yeah, he's got cool, like, opals

and rocks and everything.

Like, he's just--he's a little bit of a collector

in that regard.

We call them bowerbirds because back home

there's a bird called a bowerbird

that collects shiny things

and puts it in its nest to attract a mate.

And so anybody who collects shiny things like that

is kind of a bit of a bowerbird.

And so my son's a bit of a bowerbird.

There's nothing I can do in this world

that will give me so much more fulfillment

and joy and purpose than being a dad.

My son, Lockie-- he's just the most beautiful,

perfect, and just loving human,

and I'm so, so proud we get to raise him

and to see him grow and flourish.

Well, it's getting there.

Gonna cut it off.

I've kind of struggled with the idea

that I do this for my son,

but in doing this, I'm also away from my son.

Yeah, that's something that doesn't sit with me 100%.

So it's getting there.

There's a little thing, and you can turn it.

You can see it's got some etching down the side there--

some triangles, which I'll--

I'm gonna actually...

cut out some to make it more...

3D.

Yeah, I think about, like, my relationship

with my dad growing up.

And I just get this sense of just absence

of, like, just not a lot of time spent together.

He was just--he was working a lot of the time.

And...

it's like, if I want to be a better dad,

how about just spend more time with your son?

But in another sense, you know,

this is an amazing opportunity,

to be able to have a body of work

that he'll always be able to look back and see,

and in a way that is so unique and challenging,

and it'll really force me to step outside my comfort zone

and embrace and to grow and to bring that back

into our lives moving forward.

And then on the back, I'll write something.

So I'll inscribe something.

You know, I try and think, like, that's worth the absence

of me being a dad.

That's worth the risks.

That's worth the time lost spent with my boy,

because that's some of the most cherished time

that I can ever spend on this planet

is spending time with my boy.

So it's a gamble. It's a compromise.

It's hopefully a trade-off that I think is worthwhile.

And that's it. Done.

As you can see, it...

got some etching down the side there.

And on the back, it says, "I love you always, son.

Love Dad."

For my boy.

For my boy.

And then drink up.

And then I'm definitely looking forward

to hopping into bed.

I can feel within my body

that it's kind of going through ups and downs

with energy,

and that's also related to my mind

of how I'm feeling about staying out here.

And now that it's really cold

and you're just out in the elements,

it just slows you down and makes things really difficult.

Like, what's, like, real mental

and physical fatigue,

and what is something

that I'm just projecting into myself?

Sweet.

All right, let's go, let's go, let's go.

No, no, no. Come on.

Yeah!

Yoo-hoo!

Oh, that is a good-sized pike, my friend.

There you go. There's my ax.

Yoo-hoo!

That is a big pike.

Yes!

Ah.

What a way

to finish off the day.

This is the perfect example

of how much of a mental game this thing is.

Like, just going down before to fill the pot up with water,

my legs just felt heavy.

Body just felt lethargic.

And just being like, oof, yep.

And then seeing that pike in there--

All right, we're on. This is the time to work.

Yes, feeling good.

Pumped now, really pumped and psyched.

That's awesome.

Yeah, buddy.

I'm realizing that when I think, like,

maybe my body is sort of, like, winding down,

it's like, no, I'm winding myself down mentally,

and that's affecting me physically

and realizing that I might have more left in me

than what I actually realize.

Just stay focused

and don't talk yourself out of this.

All right.

Would you take a look at that?

That is a 70-centimeter pike.

When you think you're coming to the end

and then all of a sudden, like, you get a pike like that,

you just feel this rush of energy and this surge,

and you're like...

No, Nero.

No, buddy, it's not over till it's actually over, dude.

You're still good. You're still in it.

We're still good, man.

That is just epic.

That is awesome.

So, so, so happy with that.

Yes!

Yes!

What's up, guys?

Day 78.

This is happening.

Outside it is anyways.

Inside I'm not doing nothing.

It's so windy outside, it's insane.

I can't have a fire.

I can't do nothing, so I'm just gonna hang out in here...

take the day off.

My body needs it anyways.

I can feel it, so it's a forced rest day.

If I was to design it right now,

I'd be having a fire, relaxing,

cooking a bunny, warm...

chitchatting, have a moose hanging.

That would be how it should have been,

but I'm literally paying the price

for my own faults, which is how life is, I guess.

But [bleep] Murphy, is it hard.

It's hard, I guess, 'cause I don't got the nutrients.

It's hard 'cause I don't got the food.

I don't know.

But I've done what I can do.

I can't do no more.

I've pushed...

and pushed.

I'm skin and bones.

I'm eating so much, and it's just like,

it's not going on my body.

It's a losing battle.

I just feel like I'm so close.

We'll keep pushing, though.

That's all I can do is just push my body.

Moose-hide cleaning.

Hey, at the moment, I'm just eating

pretty much the stuff that I cut yesterday

from this moose hide.

Yeah, at least the thicker parts

I removed from the hide.

So...

It's a lot of dirt...

a lot of hair...

but also a lot of fat, so it's good.

I hope I won't get any digestion problems,

but I don't think so.

I know. You see this piece?

This is basically fat part from the hide.

Very chewy, dirty...

but fatty.

This is, like, what I'm eating pretty much.

Quite chewy, so...

It takes time.

Okay.

Today's plan-- I'm getting ready for snaring.

And I think I'm ready to go.

I'm eating this moose quite fast.

Really, I think that, in one month,

I can eat an entire moose.

If somebody else has a big game

and if this guy will be as stubborn as I am,

I'm pretty sure this will go over day 100.

So this is why my plan is not to just sit

on this pile of moose meat

and wait until things end

but to be very active

and also try to get even more food.

Okay, this place is very active--

super active with hares.

Let's set for a snare just here.

This experience-- this is something

I really wanted for many, many years.

And I truly said to my wife,

there are basically two situations

when I would have to go no matter what.

And one was going on "Alone,"

and the second one was going on Mars.

So now I'm here,

but maybe the time of my life

or the best moments are gone.

Now, with this snow and darkness and everything,

I mean, I like this experience, definitely,

but I wouldn't like it to go forever and ever

and ever and ever.

Okay, I think I will go set a few more.

I know a part of me still wants to be home

for Christmas...

back to my family and wife and my son.

Okay.

But not knowing how long this can last

and not knowing if you should go home

and enjoy your time there,

like, if you're going home empty-handed anyway,

or go to your max and hope to win.

It's really more psychological from now on.

So five snares for hares,

and I would be very surprised...

if I don't catch anything,

'cause this place is very active.

Yeah, now I'm going back to eat something.

Gosh.

No [bleep] way.

I have one bunny.

Crazy.

I mean, yeah.

I have quite some lean meat, but...

At some point,

I will also consume this moose to the end.

So going for these guys...

is gonna be more and more important.

Okay, I know that you don't see much, but...

quite often in the evenings, I walk here

with this view...

on mountains...

Because this reminds me of...

basically, my childhood.

We were going with my family and family friends

to one ski resort.

This ski resort had a very nice view on Triglav,

which is the highest mountain in Slovenia.

And it was placed--

I mean, we were south of Triglav, so...

I mean, each time I look at the north

and look to Triglav,

and here I'm also looking to the north

and looking to these mountains.

And this really reminds me of this...

ski resort.

So, in all this, like,

completely new environment for me,

I try to find some similarities with my home.

Of course, I think about also my wife and my son.

I would just love to be with them now,

just sit in a corner and watch them

and listen to them and be happy to be with them.

But I should really try to enjoy this time.

The time of sunlight--

it's getting shorter and shorter,

and it will disappear at some point.

So it somehow gives me this feeling

of sun and darkness,

life and death,

pain and joyfulness,

and, you know, all this life cycle.

Really feels being alive

and part of this world in a way.

So, yeah, I'll put on my gloves and absorb this a bit longer

and then go back to the hut and close it for tonight.

Jeez, that is so cold.

There's what my shelter looks like from the inside--

just completely iced up.

When you're out here in the darkness,

you analyze everything.

Why are you testing me so hard?

[bleep] damn.

I'm gonna [bleep] show you, though.

I think I entered the third phase of survival,

which is pretty much staying alive.

I feel this numbness on my feet.

It can be frostbite.

As each day goes by, the possibility

of actually winning this

starts to become more and more real.

We're ready to pack it in, but I don't want to quit.

I want the win.

If I continue, I'm risking a lot.

You're [bleep] kidding me.

But I have to keep on going.