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[Tammy] Cheers to girls' days and getting out of the house

every once in a while.

-[gasps] -Right in my eyeball.

[Tammy] On the surface, it may look like we are typical housewives,

but we're not.

Behind our perfect suburban lives

are the secrets nobody sees.

♪ Now tell me, how you gonna get ♪

[Tammy] I was a registered veterinary technician.

[Megan] I was a teacher. I was struggling.

[Bruce] Being on food stamps, not having a place to live.

[Macy] I was full time as a nanny.

I'd wake up before our son.

I would get back in the last hour of his day.

[Drew] What can we do to make the most money

that gives us the most time with our families?

[Tammy] I don't know what the right answer is.

I need your guys' help.

[Tammy] Down the stairs, through the basement, through the garage.

We do full-time adult spicy content for work now.

Whoo!

She would shower and walk away with four or five grand.

Jim and I have kind of been keeping like a big secret.

-Is it a good secret? -Adult content.

I'm known for being the natural MILF.

[producer speaking]

Can you say that?

Let's get some new moms in here.

Started as a fun social media group that we have.

[Brianna] Women like having fun, creating content.

That's the money shot. Make love to the camera.

Thank you guys so much for all your advice.

To living this life together.

One person found out, then two people found out.

I lost my job.

I'm hiding such a huge part of my life.

That's a lot for your kids to take in.

Being a Christian, I do struggle with that.

My dad has no idea.

It was a bit of a earthquake through the family.

-You're still talking. Shut the [bleep] up. -You're right, I am, Jim.

I have no sex life with my wife.

What?

I caught him for, like, the second time.

Divorce is not off the table.

♪ This kind of thing ♪

Makes me wonder if we thought it all the way through.

♪ How you gonna get ♪

-I manage the talent. -Nobody can manage all this.

Hopefully we won't need it, but safety first.

If anybody needs band aids and stuff, we got it.

I'm Tammy.

I live in the suburbs with my amazing husband, Drew,

and two great kids.

We're your pretty typical suburban family,

for the most part.

-You guys ready to play? -They'll be here soon.

Here you go.

I'm passionate about my faith,

involved in the church community,

and I'm kind of the glue that

keeps this crazy bunch of moms connected.

Bri and I go way back.

She's one of my closest friends.

She always had an eye for the little details.

If she's planning something,

you know she's gonna want it just right.

[Brianna] Make sure you're really good today.

You know that's hard for me.

[laughs] Do I?

[Tammy] And that's Bri's husband, Phil.

He's kind of a cutie, not gonna lie.

-Oh! -[Phil] Yeah, I wish these weren't so pretty.

I was definitely gonna be swiping them.

Thank you for bringing them.

[Tammy] And honestly, they've always looked like

they've had it figured out. -Hey, Phil!

-[Phil] Hi, you guys look very pretty. -How are you?

[Tammy] Miss Macy. We call her Church Girl.

Faith and church are the biggest parts of her life,

which is why we get along.

[Jim] You want to help, little man?

[Tammy] Macy and Jim have the most traditional marriage

in the group. -Hello, buddy.

[Tammy] They are so close, they even share one vehicle.

Where do you guys want this?

[Tammy] Not because they can't afford it.

It's so they can spend more time together.

[Macy] I got all the healthy snacks.

[Heather] Well, this is where they said to go, but I don't see anybody.

-Stop turning it around. -I don't know where to go.

Wasting gas. Suck at driving.

[Tammy] Our girl, Heather, she's a full-time working mom

with a really stressful corporate job.

Help me.

[Tammy] She got pregnant in high school,

had a ton of kids.

-Is this the right way? -I think we go this way.

[Tammy] And to be honest with you, I don't think she's ever known

what an organized, calm life is.

-Said she's at the dock? -The dock across the lake?

-Oh, I see the dock. -Heather!

-[Heather] There they are. -Oh, I see them.

Other side. Go way around.

Do you know if Megan's coming?

-[Tammy] She said she was coming, so yeah. -Got ya.

[Tammy] And then there's Megan.

She was a high-school teacher, and I've lost count

of how many college degrees she has.

Interestingly, everyone in her family,

including her husband Tyler, work in the funeral business.

-How are you? Good. -Good, how are you?

[Tammy] She's like a real-life Morticia Addams.

Did you have any trouble finding the place?

-I know it's kind of off-the-beaten-path. -A little bit, yeah.

-Yeah. -I got lost, too, if it makes you feel any better.

You guys want to go play soccer?

[Tammy] Bri and Megan used to be attached to the hip.

It's right there, baby.

[Tammy] But then, the two of them went through something

that rocked our whole community.

-[thunder rumbles] -Oh, I hear thunder. Just move this over.

I'm checking the weather.

[Tammy] And since then, there's been

this growing tension between them.

But neither one of them want to address it.

-Want me to grab you one? -Sure, thank you.

I don't care which one. I'm not picky.

-Wow, those are pretty. -I know.

[Tammy] Trust me when I tell you,

it has not been easy on the rest of us.

-Do I have carrots in my teeth? -Let me see.

-I don't see anything. -All right, thanks.

-Do I? -No, you're good.

So, kind of, what's the vibe for Phil's hoedown?

Oh, it's like, what you would wear to, like, a normal,

like, party we would go to, but, like, imagine it being,

like, hoedown-style. -[Macy] OK.

-[Tammy] Just turn it up a little bit. -[Brianna] Yeah.

Everybody's invited to the party, so...

Yeah, I think it'll be a good time.

[Tammy] Yeah.

-I need to go shopping, then. -[Emily] Hi.

[Tammy] Hey, Emily's here.

-Hi! -Hey, oh, my gosh.

-Look at those flowers. -That's pretty.

[Emily] We come with gifts.

[Brianna] Oh, and they, like, match the cupcakes.

-I can take this for you, if you want. -[Tammy] Let's find a spot.

[Tammy] Emily is a wild card.

She's new to us and still kind of the outsider of the group.

Guys, this is Emily, for those of you guys

that haven't met her.

-Megan, Heather, Bri, Macy. -Nice to meet you.

[Emily] Let me bug spray you guys.

[Tammy] I thought Emily and her husband Nathan were really fun.

You didn't get my arm.

[Tammy] But not everybody is on board

with letting just anyone into the group.

[Emily] Those are the most beautiful cupcakes I've ever seen.

Seriously? Aren't they really?

All right, ladies, we should break out

my little surprise. -Oh boy!

Cheers to girls' days and getting out of the house

every once in a while. -Oh!

What? [gasps]

OK, here, here.

It went right in my eyeball.

You know, from the outside, we probably look like

every other family in the neighborhood.

Cheers!

-Cheers! -Cheers to wine!

Brooklynn, get out of here.

We're moms, we're wives, we're friends.

[thunder rumbles]

-Guys, it's raining! -Everybody got their kids?

[Tammy] But the truth is, you never really know

what's going on in somebody else's life.

[Heather] I see no pavilion.

[Tammy] Everybody's hiding something.

Jesus, I pray right now that you would take away the rain

so we continue to have fun in the sun.

-Amen. -Amen.

[Tammy] Funny thing about secrets.

They never stay buried forever.

[singer vocalizing]

[Tammy] Good morning, Rekishi.

Looking good, Monty.

Why am I so obsessed with plants?

Uh, I'm a nurturer.

I know all the genealogy and family history of all of

my plants. Like, they have names.

I know where I got them from.

I know everything about my plant babies.

[singer vocalizing]

[cat meows]

I am a huge cat lover and plant enthusiast.

[Drew] She spends all of her money on coffee and plants.

No, no, no, I don't.

Oh, gosh -- I have no idea how many plants I have.

It's over 100.

I have several rooms full of plants.

But, like, I bought my shirt online for $20.

Him and I are completely different

when it comes to money.

No one can tell the difference, but this shirt,

I think, was 98 bucks.

-You're ridiculous. -Well --

This is why I have to be cheap, because...

Drew and I met in college.

I was an RA, resident assistant.

I had to go round up all of the students to go to

some kind of orientation.

I knocked on these girls' door, and this cute little face

looks up at me, wearing just her little nightie.

And I knew right then, like, "That's the one I want."

♪ I know where I belong ♪

And we've been together now for almost 15 years.

[Brooklynn] That's a car?

That's a -- that's a wheel.

-[farting] -[giggling]

-[Tammy] Who farted? -Not me.

You all have your own brand. You can smell.

I can tell whoever did it by the smell.

-Nasty. -I didn't!

-I think the lady doth protest too much. -[Tammy] I don't know!

-[grunting] Shut up! -[laughing]

[Tammy] We have two kids, Brooklynn and Cohen.

I had just dreamed I wanted to grow up and get married

and have kids and just have this, like, super,

like, domestic life. And I love that.

-[Brooklynn] Look at the rainbow! -[Tammy] Aw, look!

[Drew] You guys know what the rainbow means?

-[Brooklynn] That you'll be lucky? -No.

-Oh. -The rainbow is a mark of the covenant so that the Lord

promises never to flood the earth again.

I deeply believe in faith, family, God.

My parents always had Christian values, so to be able to show

that to my kids is really special,

and I take that really seriously.

Five minutes, we got to leave for the bus.

-[Brooklynn] I'm already ready. -OK. Look at you go.

I am always doing mom stuff,

getting the kids ready for school.

Let's get to the bus stop.

I'm always involved in extracurricular activities with

the kids and scheduling family time.

-You have cheer and jiu-jitsu today, girl. -OK.

My previous career was

as a registered veterinary technician.

I did that for 20 years.

I absolutely loved it.

But then I did experience a miscarriage between Brooklynn

and Cohen, and that was really hard.

Like, it's hard losing a child, no matter how old they are.

Look both ways. Good.

After my miscarriage, it actually took a while for me

to get pregnant the second time.

When I finally found out I was pregnant with Cohen,

we were told that it was high risk,

and I was working really long hours.

I was on my feet a lot, and I already experienced

a pregnancy loss, I didn't want to potentially do something

that could contribute to that happening again.

So I quit my job.

[Drew] I really felt like

she should have quit her RVT job...

-Oh yeah. -...so long before she actually did.

However, after that, all the financial burden

was on me, which was fine for me at the time,

because I used to work in sales, and I was approaching

six figures a year.

But COVID happened, and I got laid off from my job.

Then we had to decide what we were gonna do after that.

So I decided to get back to work.

For the last couple of years, I've been doing something

a little unconventional.

I'm not exactly hiding it,

but some people might judge me for it.

Yeah, I have a double life.

I am known as Tammy to a lot of my friends, family,

but a lot of people in our online space

know me as Erika Swingz.

♪ I'm that -- I'm that bitch Yeah ♪

♪ I'm that -- I'm that bitch ♪

And I make adult content.

Erika Swingz is the name that I go by online for my content.

Adult content creation is anything from texting with fans

to, like, selling pictures

to selling worn clothing items.

To making more explicit videos.

OK, Diary Cam.

I'm sure it's gonna be a great time.

It wasn't until doing adult content

that I really came into my confidence.

♪ Mwah ♪

When I met Drew, I was very, very shy.

I definitely was very self-conscious about my body.

I did not consider myself attractive at all.

[Drew] She had no self-confidence.

She kept telling me," No, I don't want to wear that

because I don't feel like I could pull that off, whatever."

-Yeah. -And I said, "Babe, you, you are so hot."

And I said, "You know what?

I'm gonna post a picture of you online."

And she like, "Really?"

And I was like, "If you're OK with it."

And I was like, "No face. It'd just be like your butt."

And so I posted that online

and it just blew up.

That was the start of her coming out of her shell

and getting a little more confidence.

And it got a ton of attention right off the bat,

and people wanted to see more of her.

Pictures, videos, audio messages.

So I thought maybe I could make money by doing this,

but that was a huge struggle, especially with my faith.

Thank you.

The Bible is a record of us getting to know God better.

Being a Christian and being in the adult content world,

it's just as it sounds.

It is very clashing, so I do struggle with that.

Like, yeah, I'm...

I'm contributing to somebody lusting.

-Thank you. -Thank you, appreciate it.

Sometimes I wrestle with God and think about how my job

and my lifestyle could cost me a normal life.

But I'm not the only one carrying something

that could change everything.

There are secrets in this group,

and once everything comes out,

nobody's lives will be the same.

I think that somebody over there is taking our picture.

[Tammy] Are you for real?

-[Macy] I'll be right back. -[Tammy] OK.

I can get a little nervous because I don't know if someone

might recognize Tammy and think

that I do the same stuff that she does.

I mean, my feelings still are pretty hurt.

Bri did something that I'm still trying to get over.

[singer vocalizing]

-Hey. -Hey.

Think it's safe to cross?

-[Tammy] I think it's OK. -[laughs]

-How are you? -Good -- how are you?

Macy is one of my best friends.

We're both natural, like, nurturers

and peacemakers and women of faith.

[Macy] OK, this is -- this is you, girl.

-You gotta get that. -The cat one.

-Feeling frisky. -OK, everything that I see

with a cat is a yes. -I love it.

Tammy is my friend.

I'm aware and I accept that she's an adult content creator,

but at the same time,

I come from a very conservative background.

All my family and friends are very religious.

Oh, actually, I really like those.

Jim got me this necklace for my birthday one year.

And I used to be really bad about losing jewelry.

-Why am I not surprised? -Especially the stuff that he gets me.

I know.

-You're like, "Where is my -- I don't know." -[Macy] I know.

Sometimes I think I'd lose my head if it wasn't attached

to my body, you know.

Jim and I have been married almost six years.

[Jim] I saw her from across the room at a restaurant one time

with some friends. I asked my buddy, "Who is that?"

And they said, "Oh, that's Macy."

I'm like, "Oh, I'm gonna talk to her."

And I went straight up to her, and she told me to go to church.

[Macy laughs]

That is really pretty.

I wanted to know that he loved Jesus and had

a good relationship with God.

But then he kept consistently coming back to church,

and we built a good friendship. We were friends for a while.

That's not what happened.

So I had lost a lot of weight

before Macy took me seriously. -[Macy] Oh my gosh.

-And, no, I'm playing kind of. -I mean, no, that is true.

I'm glad you were persistent.

I saw some girls at church checking you out or, like,

talking about how cute you were and stuff.

They were, like, 60.

This is exactly what I need at my house.

Ooh, what about these? I love these.

-Those, uh, those are hibiscus. -OK.

These are about, like, the size I need for my monstera

that, um, Jim gave me. -Yeah.

Um...hey.

-Hm? -I think that somebody over there is taking our picture.

Are they for real?

Do people, like, recognize you around here, or...?

I mean, it's possible that somebody recognized me

as Erika Swingz, but, like, out here like this?

-[Macy] I'll be right back. -[Tammy] OK.

[Macy] I grew up in church my whole life, so when I first heard

about adult content,

I didn't even know what it was, honestly.

I was so sheltered,

whenever my mom gave me the sex talk,

she, like, handed me the purity ring

and explained to me, like, to save myself for marriage.

Crap, I don't have it.

So, sometimes when Tammy and I are out in public,

I can get a little nervous because I don't know

if someone might recognize her and think that I do

the same stuff that she does.

So, I typically will always just bring my wig

because then I am in disguise.

-I think he went into one of those stores, so... -Really?

-But just to be safe, 'cause... -OK, yeah.

Do you want to go in the boutique

and see what else we can get? -Yeah.

I know -- I think we need to get something

for Bri and Phil's party, right?

The first time that you showed up to my house with all of it,

it took me some getting used to.

-Yeah. -Yeah.

I just want to see her regular hair,

but I know who's underneath the wig.

That's funny.

If it has the right ones -- I can't see, crap.

-Literally can't see anything. -[Tammy] You want mine?

They're not as, like -- you might be able to see

through them and they're not so restrictive. -Yeah.

Yeah, yeah,

-I know. -[Tammy] Are you...

Is that better?

-Yeah, that's -- that's a lot better. -OK.

Are you going to wear that to the party?

Yeah, that's my plan, because I feel like it's going

to be a lot of content creators, you know what I mean?

Yeah.

So, I'd like to be able to finally, like, just come out

and be honest with everyone

that I'm Julie, also known as Church Girl.

♪ I'm hot, hey♪

♪ Yeah, what you know about it♪

[Macy] I've been undercover as an adult content creator

for three years now.

I am called Church Girl because I really do love Jesus.

And no one in my normal life knows that I do this.

Whenever I'm not in disguise,

I am...

Oh, God.

Ow!

This is not smooth. [bleep].

Macy.

♪ What about it Want to come over Friday night ♪

♪ So if that's all -- that's all right ♪

♪ Lets ride ♪

Hey, bud.

Did you have a good nap?

-No. -No?

You wanted to sleep longer?

When we got pregnant with Leo, we were not planning

on having kids at that point. -[Macy] No.

I think a lot of people are like, "Oh, we need to have

"all of our ducks in a row

and everything like that," and...

-We had no ducks. -No.

Take those for me, bud.

I don't like these.

[Macy] I know.

I was working full-time as a nanny when Jim

had his sales job.

He was working, like, 60 hours a week.

I would work all day long. I'd wake up before our son.

I would get back in the last hour of his day.

-I didn't even get to see him. -[Macy] Yeah.

It made my wheels start to turn in my head of, like,

what other ways can we have, like, the money but still

have our time?

And then he heard about content.

The first time I recommended posting her nudes online,

the look on her face was like...

[Macy] Yeah, exactly. Like, is this a test?

-You know? Yeah. -Yeah.

There you go. Five more.

Fast, fast, fast, fast.

Doing adult content wasn't something that I just decided

to do overnight.

It was a lot of, like, internal kind of struggles that

I had to wrestle with and kind of some sleepless nights.

And a lot of conversations between me and Jim.

That was awesome, dude.

What it came down to is time is priceless.

I wanted Jim to have that time back with me,

but more importantly, with Leo.

Good night, bud.

-[Jim] Hey, babe. -[Macy] Hey.

-That's really cringey. -Yeah, that's super cringe.

I'm taking that one out.

So I posted, like, just a little nip slip,

and I was just mind-blown at the reaction that I got.

The compliments she was getting,

she just like fell in love.

Then it just kind of took off from there.

She was doing what they call shower stream.

She would not even make it sexy.

She would shower and walk away with four or five grand

just by taking a shower.

That guy bought three pairs of panties from this next week.

Absolutely no one in my family or my community knows

that I do adult content.

These -- we need to mail these out.

[Jim] They think that Macy's a stay-at-home mom.

-Yeah. -And I do day trading.

[Macy] Did I tell you that Tammy got recognized with me?

I was like, "What the [bleep] is happening?"

I'm sorry.

And having to accept that with us, like, coming out,

that that is probably going to happen to me,

just kind of feel like...

-[Jim] Are you scared? -Yeah, I'm scared.

It's really only a matter of time that people

put two and two together,

that I do adult content.

And we would rather it come out with us being able to tell

our side of the story and control the narrative.

My sin, quote unquote, is out there in public,

but then they're just doing it behind closed doors.

Publicly, it's talked down upon.

Why is that OK, though?

Oh gosh.

I am most worried about my dad.

We are, like, super, super close.

And I feel like he's gonna be disappointed in me.

People that we've been hiding, like, this huge secret from,

that because they're probably not going to agree, that just,

I don't know, it hurts. -[Jim] I get it.

I've pretty much accepted that I'm losing all my friends.

We live in a small town.

Your reputation and your name carries a lot of weight.

So what makes this very difficult and complicated is

that my dad is a pastor, and he has no idea

that I do adult content.

I'm really scared.

Hearing that from you is like a huge lie,

and that's like a slap in the face to me.

I hope it doesn't, you know, boil into something

that it doesn't need to be. -Are we still friends?

[Tammy] Today, Bri and I are out shopping for her husband

Phil's big hoedown for his 37th birthday.

-Hey. -Hi.

Sorry I'm late. How are you?

Oh, my gosh. Hi.

Bri is very sweet and kind-hearted.

People think she's, like, stuck up, and I know that

she is not, but we kind of get each other on that level of

maybe being a little misunderstood.

And I was rushing to get out of the gym, so...

[Brianna] Oh, shoot.

I found way too much cute stuff already.

My name's Brianna, but I go by Bri.

-Hey, Sade. -Hi.

Hi, Mom.

[Brianna] I am married to my husband, Phillip.

Our daughter, Blakely, is five.

It's gonna look like the Easter Bunny came.

I thought the Easter Bunny was a boy.

-[Blakely] No, it's a girl. -[Brianna] Oh.

-Do bunnies lay eggs? -No, they fill eggs with candy.

Ah!

[Brianna] Phillip and I are from the same hometown,

so we knew of each other. -Yeah.

And one day I was just scrolling Facebook and I saw

this really sexy picture of you at work and I was like, "Oh...

that hard-working blue-collar man."

Thank you Jesus for this day. Thank you for my family.

In Jesus' name we pray, amen. -[Brianna & Phil] Amen.

[Brianna] I used to be a high school English teacher.

Being a teacher was always a really big part of my life.

Got my master's degree, after my daughter was born,

my career was very important to me.

-Blow it up. -[imitates explosion]

But, um, you were laid off from work.

Yes, whenever we get laid off,

there's no money coming in, so...

Yeah.

My salary wasn't enough to support our family.

We have a toddler.

We were a couple months behind on rent.

We were struggling with bills at the time.

We didn't know where to turn or what to do.

We're gonna go get some ice cream.

Yay!

[Brianna] I did try to get another job,

but being a teacher,

it's not just a nine-to-five.

You're working at home after hours, grading papers.

I had 120 students.

I needed a job that, like, allowed me to work from home

on my time,

when I was finished with my other work.

The first time I even came across content creation,

I was scrolling on social media,

and I came across Erika's post.

It was PG, though, 'cause it was social media.

And I was like I followed the rabbit hole.

I was like, "What the [bleep] is this?"

And I sent her a message.

That's how I met Tammy.

And when she told me how much money that was coming in,

I was like, it was unbelievable.

So I just decided to give it a try.

-And look at us now. -[laughs] Yeah.

♪ Still gonna be me I don't mean to be like that ♪

♪ All them boys say I'm a little salty ♪

♪ But they kind of like it when I get a little ♪

♪ Get a little, whoa ♪

Making the account and making my very first post

was just out of a need to pay the bills

and provide for my family.

[Phil] I felt kind of jealous at first, 'cause I was like,

I was like, "That's a video that I've always

wanted her to send to me."

But yeah, it was all good.

It was hot.

[Brianna] But after we released those videos,

my life completely flipped upside down.

I lost my teaching job, and my face was everywhere.

[reporter] Scandal rocks a small town

as a Missouri woman is fired from her teaching job.

Our lives completely changed, and then it kind of spread

like wildfire from there. The media was going wild.

My page was going wild.

My subscribers went from, like, 500 to 40,000 subscribers

in a matter of days.

I didn't want to... get fired.

It wasn't my goal to be found out.

But I went from making a couple thousand dollars a month,

to a couple hundred-thousand dollars a month

and I mean, within three months, we were at, like, $1.5 million.

How does it look?

[gasps] Oh, yes.

-Is this better? -Yeah.

I like this a whole lot better than the other one.

Yeah.

[Tammy] OK, before I take this off, though,

we have to have a selfie?

-Yeah, we have to take some pictures. -OK.

'Cause I posted that we were going to be together today,

so everyone's probably, like...

-Me too. -...waiting.

Like, everywhere we go, we try to make it

a content opportunity. -All right, three, two, one.

[Tammy] I think that's why they pay.

Like, you could watch any, like, rehearsed thing,

like, online, right?

But, like, our stuff, like, this is our daily life.

This is really what we're doing.

And so, like, people want to know, what are you guys up to?

Yeah.

OK, let's take some spicy ones.

-We got to go in the dressing room. -OK. all right.

A lot of content creators use social media to

gain a following. They get views on social media.

They follow the links, and it will eventually

lead them to the spicy side.

Pay range is definitely...

a couple hundred dollars a month to millions in a year.

It really just depends on followers.

Socials are huge.

So what's the deal with this party anyway?

Who is coming?

[Brianna] Oh, I probably invited too many people, to be honest.

How many people have confirmed, though?

Um, I think Megan and Tyler are coming.

Yeah.

Which makes me nervous, to be honest.

Why?

Um, I mean, I don't really consider us friends anymore,

to be honest. -Really?

Megan and I taught together.

We were friends for several years.

We shared our secrets.

We shared just a bond that was really irreplaceable,

but now the relationship just seems kind of off and distant.

What happened? I -- I really have no idea.

I don't know, like, how much you have, like, heard

or know or...

Megan, at one point, had expressed that she felt

like you guys had, like, grown apart over time.

I mean, I reached out to her, like, literally saying,

"Hey, are we still friends?

Like, 'cause I feel like something's up."

And she's like, "No, I'll always consider you

one of my best friends." So hearing that from you is, like,

a huge lie, and that's, like, a slap in the face to me.

Megan was one of my best friends, and being told that

we aren't close anymore by somebody else,

I think it's bothering me because she has not had

this conversation with me at all.

It would be good for you guys just to, like...

-Hash it out. -...hash it out.

Whatever that comes to, but I hope it doesn't,

you know, boil into something

that it doesn't need to be.

♪ Ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

[waitress] Hey, guys, how you doing?

Hi, you guys can follow me this way.

-Thank you. -OK.

Tonight, Jim, Leo, and I are getting dinner with my dad,

Bruce, my stepmom, Stacey,

and my mother-in-law, Divina. -Hey, guys.

-How you doing? -Sorry we're late.

-Hey, Mace. -[indistinct]

Good to see you.

We've gotten to be, like, a pretty close-knit

family, which I feel like it's really rare nowadays.

-You sit by dad. -Yep.

[producer speaking]

I told Bruce that this show was about moms in St. Louis.

But we have a very friendly town here.

-[Macy] We do. -People are like family.

We'll go to Walmart, or we'll go to any store

over here, and Macy will run into, like, ten people

she's seen from high school.

-Well, it's a small town, you know? -Yeah.

I mean, that's just the way it works.

We run into people that we know all the time,

anytime we go out.

Um, so that's obviously a big reason why we have been

undercover, um...

Because it's a very conservative mindset

that people have around here.

So what have you guys been up to?

Um, just kind of hanging out.

Oh, yeah, we went to the rally races the other day.

You're talking about bicycles.

No, I'm talking about rally racing.

[Bruce] Oh, yeah. We got...

our vehicles twelve years ago... -[Macy] Did I show you any videos

of going to the rally races? -[Divina] No.

Oh, I'll have to show you.

-It was pretty cool. -Can't get your guys'--

[Macy] Wait, wait, wait, wait. Hold on, oh, I -- no.

I looked at my phone and quickly had to, like,

pull it back so that she couldn't see,

because I realized that I had

all these nudes that I hadn't hid yet.

If my mother-in-law would have seen some of my nudes,

she might have had a heart attack,

then I probably would have passed out.

We have some Southwest egg rolls.

That's so sweet of you.

[Bruce] Hey, let me pray real quick.

Let me pray real quick.

Thank you, Jesus, for this food and all of your blessings.

-Amen. -Amen.

[Macy] My dad is a pastor.

I remember, like, accepting Jesus into my heart

at a really young age. I was in church choir.

I would spend my summers going to church camps,

going to church festivals, like anything church related,

I was pretty much there.

Macy has many wonderful attributes.

Her heart is her...

is my favorite thing about Macy.

-You make me cry. -And your love for Jesus, yeah.

-Thanks. -[Stacey speaking]

But whenever they --

At the mall she's walking around there...

[Bruce] Yeah. And in today's culture,

being a mother doesn't hold

the value it did, like, in the '60s.

But basically, they have the benefit of Jim with what

he does, that she can, yeah, just be

a committed mother and wife.

That's her job, and she's dedicated to it.

-Give me five. -So thank you for that, Dad.

[Bruce] Yeah.

So are we getting together tomorrow night for ping pong?

-Right after Bible study. -Oh, after Bible study.

Yeah. Yeah.

I want to be able to come out the way that I want to,

but the Macy that my family knows,

they definitely won't ever see

this coming that I do adult content.

And that's why it's really scary, because...

it's gonna throw them a curve ball

and I don't know how they're gonna respond.

-Love you, Dad. -Love you, sweetie.

Thank you for all the kind words.

Oh, thank you. Thank you, sweetie.

Love you very much.

-Whoo! -Happy birthday!

Do you want to go talk?

At this point, the tensions are very high.

-Like, you never talk to me. -Uh...

[Brianna] I'm done with the conversation.

[bleep] pointless.

♪ The big cities ain't looking pretty ♪

♪ From the farm on the hill ♪

[Tammy] Is this open?

-[Drew] Maybe. -Oh, no, it slides.

-Nice to see you. -Hi.

Do you want a hot dog or hamburger?

-Hey, what's up? -Hey!

Did you copy me?

[Jim] I did.

Phillip is about to come in,

so if we all circle around, that would be sweet.

[cheering]

Happy birthday to you!

-What's up, cousin? -Hey.

-Happy birthday. -Thank you.

Yeah, I might.

So you had a secret name all this time.

-Yep. -[Tammy] Oh, yeah.

I guess I haven't really talked

to you guys that much. -They kept saying that.

I created that name because I was like, I've never met

an ugly Erika in my life.

-[laughs] -Yeah.

When we get together, this is a community where we feel safe

and we can be ourselves and not be judged.

I have, like, my studio downstairs in our basement,

and we have, like, this special, like,

lock on it. -Yeah.

And I, like, the other day, my sister asked me.

She's like, "What's in that room?"

And I was like, "Oh, it's just extra storage.

We just don't want anybody to get into it."

I just don't understand all of this.

[Jim] Hey, you got the Lord on your ass, you know?

We found out watching the local news that Bri was

doing spicy, naughty things and it was a bit of

a earthquake through the family.

It's interesting, Phil. You live an interesting life.

Thank you. Yes.

I am not the only person in my house doing spicy content.

My husband does it as well.

Untie my top, and I'll be like,

-"Oh, no... -Oh, yeah.

...to see more, watch later."

-Or something like that, yeah. -Mm-hmm, yeah.

Whenever your page started blowing up,

we decided to do content together.

Very naughty things.

I do think it turns out better as a team effort, like.

Oh, yeah.

[indistinct chatter]

-Hi! -Megan and Tyler are here.

-Hello! -Hi!

[Tammy] Our friend group is very tight, so it would be really hard

if things with Bri and Megan were not resolved.

I don't want to have to feel like people have

to choose sides.

Do you want a hot dog or hamburger?

-How are you? -Good.

-How are you? -Which one do you want?

Let's just do a hot dog. That'll be easier. Hot dog.

So it turned out really, really nice.

-Thank you. -Yeah.

[Megan] I was nervous coming to the party

because things aren't the same.

At this point, the tensions are very high between Bri and I.

[Tammy] Don't get between me and my food.

It's gonna get ugly. I'm just saying.

[Megan] Bri and I were friends.

You know, she taught just a few doors down from me.

So, like, we grew close very quickly.

But there was a moment that I realized Bri and I weren't

as close as we once were.

-Do you want to go talk? -Yeah.

But at the same time, I really value this friend group.

I don't want to not be invited or go to these events just

because there's some tension with Bri and I.

The heater's getting better. I'm gonna cover up.

-[Megan] You have a blankie, can I get under? -Yeah.

-How have you been? -Not too bad.

-Yeah? -It's been a long time.

I know, I feel like I haven't talked to you in forever.

I know.

[exhales heavily] Um...

I feel like I have this, like, weird...

frustration.

I was talking with Tammy, and then she was just

mentioning that, like, you had said,

we're not really, like, friends anymore,

and we just grew apart, and I was like,

that's weird. Like, it's news to me.

I mean, I said those things out of a place of hurt,

um, mainly because I felt like I was a part of the group,

and then it felt like I was being excluded from the group

because I wasn't invited to

some of the get-togethers and parties.

It, like, really hurt my feelings that, like,

everybody else was invited,

but I wasn't even invited to that.

But do you understand why I wouldn't invite you?

Like, I had been, like, reaching out to you and,

like, texting and, like...

like, you never talked to me if I didn't message you or,

like, talk to you.

It's just hard, and it's, like, awkward, and, like,

I don't know, like -- like, it sucks.

Like, I lost, like, a huge, like, person in my life.

[Megan] I do understand why Bri's confused about the friendship.

There is a lot that hasn't been said between Bri and I,

but I'm not sure that

I am ready to have that conversation.

I feel like we're repeating what we're saying.

OK, I need a drink or something.

I'll see you downstairs.

I was definitely expecting a little more

from the conversation.

I just don't have clarity on where the distance came from.

I think I'm done with the conversation.

In the back of my mind, there is that nagging feeling

that Bri did something that I'm still trying to get over.

I can't say it. I just can't.

-What the [bleep]? -I don't know.

There's a guy over there watching us.

It's like, somebody found out.

[singer vocalizing]

-Oh, we're all good. -Oh, I'm just kidding.

Yeah, there we go.

I love this gym because they have the kids club,

so you can literally bring your kids, drop them off,

and you have two hours where you can do whatever you want. -Right.

The wig and sunglasses is not on standby at the gym.

So, I'm kind of nervous.

I think I'm still trying to recover from Phil's party.

Oh, yeah, I was gonna say, that was a lot,

but it was a good party. -Oh yeah.

The barn looked amazing. I was like...

I know. It was like drab to fab.

-Mm-hmm. -What the heck?

[Tammy] So, did you and Megan get a chance to talk last night?

So, yeah, Megan said some things about the fact that

we had that get-together at your house, and she was

offended because she didn't get an invite.

I didn't know that.

-[Brianna] Yeah. -[Tammy] I'm sorry.

We really enjoy being together and just having fun.

I don't want to have separate get-togethers.

You know, I want to see the group together as a whole.

I was going to ask you guys, 'cause it's been a while since

we've actually been able to get together.

Like, it's been, what, at least a year since we've done,

like, a MILF House meeting? -For MILF House, yeah.

MILF House is a fun little social media group that we have

that is Bri and Megan and Macy and myself.

Are you guys still wanting to do MILF House?

[Brianna] We have a lot of fun when we do it.

-Yeah, we do. -I do.

It's really fun.

Outside of, like, content, you know?

Like, it's just, like, being playful with each other

and, you know. -Yeah.

The chicken banana one is my favorite.

Chicken banana.

MILF House is, like, a more domesticated,

down version of what we do as adult content creators,

and it just attempts to kind of, like, show people that

we can be fun and, like, wild on the weekends and that,

like, we're moms, too.

There's a guy over there watching us.

Oh, yeah.

Oh, my God, please.

Have you always felt, like, safe here?

Yeah.

Had anyone approached you, like,

in a weird way or anything?

Yeah, no, I've never had anybody be odd about it.

You never know. You're always gonna run into odd people at the gym,

'cause there's just so many people.

But, no, most people here are very nice.

Maybe they're just intimidated to, like, talk to you.

I'm sure that's what that is.

You guys want to get our waters and head over

to the treadmills? -Yeah.

-All right, let's go. -I packed a protein bar.

Hey, girl. Are you at 175 yet?

54.

Keep going.

We have plenty of space for you to put your stuff.

I'm going to take off my glasses,

because if I start sweating with these things on...

-I'm taking it easy today. -You can adjust this.

What are you putting your speed at?

-I'll go 3.5. -Girl, oh my gosh.

-I'm like 1.5. -I'm gonna get my steps in.

-Honestly. -How about two?

There we go.

No, but I was, like, wondering

how you're feeling, like, being out and, like,

you don't have your disguise on?

Are you, like, struggling with coming out, you think?

Or, like...

I feel like I'm ready, 'cause I've been undercover

for, like, three years. -That takes so much strength.

Yeah.

[Brianna] I was undercover for three months.

-I mean, not very long. -Maybe.

You know, like, your thing, Bri, like, you didn't have a choice.

Like, somebody found out

and then leaked that everywhere.

But I didn't wear a wig.

-Right. -I didn't...

-What the [bleep]. -I don't know.

[Tammy] What is happening right now?

-Guys. -Yes.

They're kicking us out.

-What? -They Googled Brianna.

Are you serious?

-We weren't taking naughty pictures. -Right.

We weren't handing out business cards.

-We weren't advertising what we do. -[Macy] Yeah.

This is really freaking scary that I am getting kicked out of

something that's just part of my normal life.

[producer] They want no part of this.

-Are you serious? -That sucks.

So, let's walk out and get out of here.

Dude.

Getting kicked out of the gym is making me realize that

coming out isn't just about telling the truth.

What the [bleep]. Can they legally do that?

It's about knowing that I'm probably gonna be judged

and treated like I'm not human,

and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet.

[producer] Let's go.

This season on "Double Lives of Suburban Wives."

This will be like a moms gone wild trip.

Whoo!

♪ Just feeling so...♪

-Whoo! -[screams]

-Cheers. -Cheers.

-Right? -Yes.

None of my kids know that I make adult content.

I haven't wanted to face it.

Once the kids go to school is when the adult content creating

starts around here.

You have all these new toys.

You have the new Corvette.

[indistinct]

In my mind, I'm like, "Are they secret drug dealers?"

[Macy] Growing up in the church, coming out to my dad

really terrifies me.

I want to think that they will still want a relationship

with me, but I don't really know.

[Brianna] I always knew the life I chose could have consequences,

but I never thought that those consequences

would affect my friends.

It's so uncomfortable with Megan here.

Did you guys talk at all?

Megan acting like she doesn't even know me is ridiculous.

I feel like you're almost kind of talking like,

you're close with us, but you're not.

This group isn't just friendship to me.

I don't want Emily to ruin that.

I don't trust my husband.

We just face issues with content creation.

Don't put it off on, I haven't pursued you.

-I feel so miserable right now. -I'm just gonna say it.

Mom, we have something we need to tell you.

No, no, no.

I hate Jim. He's a piece of [bleep].

You're still [bleep] talking.

-Shut the [bleep] up! -You're right, I am, Jim.

-Our problems are our problems. -I see both sides of the story.

Do you know things that I don't know?

What the [bleep]?

Being honest without any empathy at all

is just being rude.

I was looking for girlfriends,

but I'm not gonna kiss asses to get there.

These girls all have secrets, and I'm ready

for everyone to know.

I just wouldn't be able to forgive that.

Maybe she's not telling the truth.

I want a divorce.

Like, I don't want to be married.

You shut the [bleep] up!

-Shut me, shut me up. -OK?

Shut me up!

I don't think it's ever gonna be the same.