1 00:00:01,482 --> 00:00:03,103 [Tammy] Cheers to girls' days and getting out of the house 2 00:00:03,275 --> 00:00:04,206 every once in a while. 3 00:00:04,379 --> 00:00:07,379 -[gasps] -Right in my eyeball. 4 00:00:07,551 --> 00:00:10,793 [Tammy] On the surface, it may look like we are typical housewives, 5 00:00:10,965 --> 00:00:12,068 but we're not. 6 00:00:12,241 --> 00:00:14,379 Behind our perfect suburban lives 7 00:00:15,517 --> 00:00:18,000 are the secrets nobody sees. 8 00:00:18,172 --> 00:00:20,172 ♪ Now tell me, how you gonna get ♪ 9 00:00:20,344 --> 00:00:22,517 [Tammy] I was a registered veterinary technician. 10 00:00:22,689 --> 00:00:25,482 [Megan] I was a teacher. I was struggling. 11 00:00:25,655 --> 00:00:28,482 [Bruce] Being on food stamps, not having a place to live. 12 00:00:28,655 --> 00:00:30,172 [Macy] I was full time as a nanny. 13 00:00:30,344 --> 00:00:31,793 I'd wake up before our son. 14 00:00:31,965 --> 00:00:34,586 I would get back in the last hour of his day. 15 00:00:34,758 --> 00:00:37,000 [Drew] What can we do to make the most money 16 00:00:37,172 --> 00:00:39,724 that gives us the most time with our families? 17 00:00:39,896 --> 00:00:41,275 [Tammy] I don't know what the right answer is. 18 00:00:41,448 --> 00:00:43,103 I need your guys' help. 19 00:00:43,275 --> 00:00:46,275 [Tammy] Down the stairs, through the basement, through the garage. 20 00:00:47,275 --> 00:00:50,482 We do full-time adult spicy content for work now. 21 00:00:50,655 --> 00:00:52,482 Whoo! 22 00:00:52,655 --> 00:00:55,586 She would shower and walk away with four or five grand. 23 00:00:55,758 --> 00:00:59,103 Jim and I have kind of been keeping like a big secret. 24 00:00:59,275 --> 00:01:02,517 -Is it a good secret? -Adult content. 25 00:01:03,689 --> 00:01:06,517 I'm known for being the natural MILF. 26 00:01:06,689 --> 00:01:08,379 [producer speaking] 27 00:01:08,551 --> 00:01:09,413 Can you say that? 28 00:01:11,000 --> 00:01:13,103 Let's get some new moms in here. 29 00:01:13,275 --> 00:01:16,379 Started as a fun social media group that we have. 30 00:01:16,551 --> 00:01:18,896 [Brianna] Women like having fun, creating content. 31 00:01:19,033 --> 00:01:21,413 That's the money shot. Make love to the camera. 32 00:01:21,586 --> 00:01:23,206 Thank you guys so much for all your advice. 33 00:01:23,379 --> 00:01:24,689 To living this life together. 34 00:01:26,896 --> 00:01:28,379 One person found out, then two people found out. 35 00:01:28,551 --> 00:01:29,586 I lost my job. 36 00:01:31,172 --> 00:01:33,620 I'm hiding such a huge part of my life. 37 00:01:33,793 --> 00:01:36,000 That's a lot for your kids to take in. 38 00:01:36,172 --> 00:01:38,723 Being a Christian, I do struggle with that. 39 00:01:38,896 --> 00:01:40,310 My dad has no idea. 40 00:01:40,482 --> 00:01:43,378 It was a bit of a earthquake through the family. 41 00:01:43,551 --> 00:01:45,482 -You're still talking. Shut the [bleep] up. -You're right, I am, Jim. 42 00:01:45,655 --> 00:01:48,172 I have no sex life with my wife. 43 00:01:48,344 --> 00:01:49,378 What? 44 00:01:49,551 --> 00:01:51,620 I caught him for, like, the second time. 45 00:01:51,793 --> 00:01:53,482 Divorce is not off the table. 46 00:01:53,655 --> 00:01:55,482 ♪ This kind of thing ♪ 47 00:01:55,655 --> 00:01:57,896 Makes me wonder if we thought it all the way through. 48 00:01:59,378 --> 00:02:01,931 ♪ How you gonna get ♪ 49 00:02:02,068 --> 00:02:05,172 -I manage the talent. -Nobody can manage all this. 50 00:02:18,689 --> 00:02:22,000 Hopefully we won't need it, but safety first. 51 00:02:22,172 --> 00:02:25,379 If anybody needs band aids and stuff, we got it. 52 00:02:25,551 --> 00:02:26,896 I'm Tammy. 53 00:02:27,034 --> 00:02:29,379 I live in the suburbs with my amazing husband, Drew, 54 00:02:29,551 --> 00:02:30,482 and two great kids. 55 00:02:31,724 --> 00:02:33,930 We're your pretty typical suburban family, 56 00:02:34,067 --> 00:02:35,103 for the most part. 57 00:02:36,517 --> 00:02:38,103 -You guys ready to play? -They'll be here soon. 58 00:02:38,275 --> 00:02:39,379 Here you go. 59 00:02:39,551 --> 00:02:41,103 I'm passionate about my faith, 60 00:02:41,275 --> 00:02:42,689 involved in the church community, 61 00:02:43,724 --> 00:02:45,310 and I'm kind of the glue that 62 00:02:45,482 --> 00:02:47,586 keeps this crazy bunch of moms connected. 63 00:02:51,000 --> 00:02:52,103 Bri and I go way back. 64 00:02:52,275 --> 00:02:53,689 She's one of my closest friends. 65 00:02:55,000 --> 00:02:57,620 She always had an eye for the little details. 66 00:02:57,793 --> 00:02:59,275 If she's planning something, 67 00:02:59,448 --> 00:03:02,000 you know she's gonna want it just right. 68 00:03:02,172 --> 00:03:04,103 [Brianna] Make sure you're really good today. 69 00:03:04,275 --> 00:03:05,827 You know that's hard for me. 70 00:03:06,000 --> 00:03:08,000 [laughs] Do I? 71 00:03:08,172 --> 00:03:09,896 [Tammy] And that's Bri's husband, Phil. 72 00:03:10,034 --> 00:03:11,275 He's kind of a cutie, not gonna lie. 73 00:03:11,448 --> 00:03:13,517 -Oh! -[Phil] Yeah, I wish these weren't so pretty. 74 00:03:13,689 --> 00:03:14,793 I was definitely gonna be swiping them. 75 00:03:14,965 --> 00:03:16,034 Thank you for bringing them. 76 00:03:16,206 --> 00:03:17,896 [Tammy] And honestly, they've always looked like 77 00:03:18,034 --> 00:03:19,310 they've had it figured out. -Hey, Phil! 78 00:03:19,482 --> 00:03:21,724 -[Phil] Hi, you guys look very pretty. -How are you? 79 00:03:24,000 --> 00:03:26,517 [Tammy] Miss Macy. We call her Church Girl. 80 00:03:27,896 --> 00:03:30,275 Faith and church are the biggest parts of her life, 81 00:03:30,448 --> 00:03:31,724 which is why we get along. 82 00:03:31,896 --> 00:03:33,689 [Jim] You want to help, little man? 83 00:03:33,862 --> 00:03:36,689 [Tammy] Macy and Jim have the most traditional marriage 84 00:03:36,862 --> 00:03:39,103 in the group. -Hello, buddy. 85 00:03:39,275 --> 00:03:42,379 [Tammy] They are so close, they even share one vehicle. 86 00:03:42,551 --> 00:03:43,724 Where do you guys want this? 87 00:03:43,896 --> 00:03:45,310 [Tammy] Not because they can't afford it. 88 00:03:45,482 --> 00:03:47,103 It's so they can spend more time together. 89 00:03:47,275 --> 00:03:50,689 [Macy] I got all the healthy snacks. 90 00:03:50,862 --> 00:03:53,586 [Heather] Well, this is where they said to go, but I don't see anybody. 91 00:03:53,758 --> 00:03:55,930 -Stop turning it around. -I don't know where to go. 92 00:03:56,067 --> 00:03:58,172 Wasting gas. Suck at driving. 93 00:04:00,103 --> 00:04:03,827 [Tammy] Our girl, Heather, she's a full-time working mom 94 00:04:04,000 --> 00:04:06,689 with a really stressful corporate job. 95 00:04:06,862 --> 00:04:07,793 Help me. 96 00:04:07,965 --> 00:04:09,586 [Tammy] She got pregnant in high school, 97 00:04:09,758 --> 00:04:11,275 had a ton of kids. 98 00:04:11,448 --> 00:04:13,793 -Is this the right way? -I think we go this way. 99 00:04:13,965 --> 00:04:16,379 [Tammy] And to be honest with you, I don't think she's ever known 100 00:04:16,551 --> 00:04:18,000 what an organized, calm life is. 101 00:04:19,620 --> 00:04:22,482 -Said she's at the dock? -The dock across the lake? 102 00:04:22,655 --> 00:04:25,310 -Oh, I see the dock. -Heather! 103 00:04:25,482 --> 00:04:27,275 -[Heather] There they are. -Oh, I see them. 104 00:04:27,448 --> 00:04:30,931 Other side. Go way around. 105 00:04:31,068 --> 00:04:32,793 Do you know if Megan's coming? 106 00:04:32,965 --> 00:04:35,172 -[Tammy] She said she was coming, so yeah. -Got ya. 107 00:04:36,379 --> 00:04:38,103 [Tammy] And then there's Megan. 108 00:04:40,103 --> 00:04:42,689 She was a high-school teacher, and I've lost count 109 00:04:42,862 --> 00:04:44,275 of how many college degrees she has. 110 00:04:45,517 --> 00:04:48,000 Interestingly, everyone in her family, 111 00:04:48,172 --> 00:04:51,206 including her husband Tyler, work in the funeral business. 112 00:04:51,379 --> 00:04:53,689 -How are you? Good. -Good, how are you? 113 00:04:53,862 --> 00:04:55,793 [Tammy] She's like a real-life Morticia Addams. 114 00:04:57,793 --> 00:04:59,586 Did you have any trouble finding the place? 115 00:04:59,758 --> 00:05:01,586 -I know it's kind of off-the-beaten-path. -A little bit, yeah. 116 00:05:01,758 --> 00:05:03,482 -Yeah. -I got lost, too, if it makes you feel any better. 117 00:05:07,482 --> 00:05:08,758 You guys want to go play soccer? 118 00:05:08,758 --> 00:05:10,793 [Tammy] Bri and Megan used to be attached to the hip. 119 00:05:10,965 --> 00:05:12,241 It's right there, baby. 120 00:05:12,241 --> 00:05:14,103 [Tammy] But then, the two of them went through something 121 00:05:14,275 --> 00:05:16,172 that rocked our whole community. 122 00:05:16,344 --> 00:05:18,689 -[thunder rumbles] -Oh, I hear thunder. Just move this over. 123 00:05:18,862 --> 00:05:20,000 I'm checking the weather. 124 00:05:21,793 --> 00:05:23,068 [Tammy] And since then, there's been 125 00:05:23,241 --> 00:05:25,000 this growing tension between them. 126 00:05:27,000 --> 00:05:29,275 But neither one of them want to address it. 127 00:05:30,413 --> 00:05:32,000 -Want me to grab you one? -Sure, thank you. 128 00:05:32,172 --> 00:05:33,517 I don't care which one. I'm not picky. 129 00:05:33,689 --> 00:05:34,896 -Wow, those are pretty. -I know. 130 00:05:35,034 --> 00:05:36,586 [Tammy] Trust me when I tell you, 131 00:05:36,758 --> 00:05:39,172 it has not been easy on the rest of us. 132 00:05:39,344 --> 00:05:41,724 -Do I have carrots in my teeth? -Let me see. 133 00:05:43,275 --> 00:05:44,482 -I don't see anything. -All right, thanks. 134 00:05:44,655 --> 00:05:47,172 -Do I? -No, you're good. 135 00:05:47,344 --> 00:05:50,482 So, kind of, what's the vibe for Phil's hoedown? 136 00:05:50,655 --> 00:05:53,517 Oh, it's like, what you would wear to, like, a normal, 137 00:05:53,689 --> 00:05:56,206 like, party we would go to, but, like, imagine it being, 138 00:05:56,379 --> 00:05:58,379 like, hoedown-style. -[Macy] OK. 139 00:05:58,551 --> 00:06:00,379 -[Tammy] Just turn it up a little bit. -[Brianna] Yeah. 140 00:06:00,551 --> 00:06:02,620 Everybody's invited to the party, so... 141 00:06:02,793 --> 00:06:04,482 Yeah, I think it'll be a good time. 142 00:06:04,655 --> 00:06:06,275 [Tammy] Yeah. 143 00:06:06,448 --> 00:06:09,275 -I need to go shopping, then. -[Emily] Hi. 144 00:06:09,448 --> 00:06:11,689 [Tammy] Hey, Emily's here. 145 00:06:11,862 --> 00:06:13,275 -Hi! -Hey, oh, my gosh. 146 00:06:13,448 --> 00:06:15,413 -Look at those flowers. -That's pretty. 147 00:06:15,586 --> 00:06:16,724 [Emily] We come with gifts. 148 00:06:16,896 --> 00:06:18,344 [Brianna] Oh, and they, like, match the cupcakes. 149 00:06:18,344 --> 00:06:20,172 -I can take this for you, if you want. -[Tammy] Let's find a spot. 150 00:06:21,206 --> 00:06:22,551 [Tammy] Emily is a wild card. 151 00:06:22,551 --> 00:06:25,724 She's new to us and still kind of the outsider of the group. 152 00:06:25,896 --> 00:06:27,586 Guys, this is Emily, for those of you guys 153 00:06:27,758 --> 00:06:28,827 that haven't met her. 154 00:06:29,000 --> 00:06:31,896 -Megan, Heather, Bri, Macy. -Nice to meet you. 155 00:06:32,896 --> 00:06:34,586 [Emily] Let me bug spray you guys. 156 00:06:34,758 --> 00:06:37,517 [Tammy] I thought Emily and her husband Nathan were really fun. 157 00:06:37,689 --> 00:06:38,793 You didn't get my arm. 158 00:06:38,965 --> 00:06:40,379 [Tammy] But not everybody is on board 159 00:06:40,551 --> 00:06:43,068 with letting just anyone into the group. 160 00:06:43,241 --> 00:06:45,206 [Emily] Those are the most beautiful cupcakes I've ever seen. 161 00:06:45,379 --> 00:06:49,206 Seriously? Aren't they really? 162 00:06:49,379 --> 00:06:51,413 All right, ladies, we should break out 163 00:06:51,586 --> 00:06:53,517 my little surprise. -Oh boy! 164 00:06:53,689 --> 00:06:56,068 Cheers to girls' days and getting out of the house 165 00:06:56,241 --> 00:06:59,068 every once in a while. -Oh! 166 00:06:59,241 --> 00:07:00,896 What? [gasps] 167 00:07:01,034 --> 00:07:03,413 OK, here, here. 168 00:07:03,586 --> 00:07:05,586 It went right in my eyeball. 169 00:07:05,758 --> 00:07:08,482 You know, from the outside, we probably look like 170 00:07:08,655 --> 00:07:10,172 every other family in the neighborhood. 171 00:07:10,344 --> 00:07:11,827 Cheers! 172 00:07:12,000 --> 00:07:13,000 -Cheers! -Cheers to wine! 173 00:07:13,137 --> 00:07:14,931 Brooklynn, get out of here. 174 00:07:15,068 --> 00:07:17,482 We're moms, we're wives, we're friends. 175 00:07:17,655 --> 00:07:18,896 [thunder rumbles] 176 00:07:19,034 --> 00:07:23,586 -Guys, it's raining! -Everybody got their kids? 177 00:07:23,758 --> 00:07:25,827 [Tammy] But the truth is, you never really know 178 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:27,793 what's going on in somebody else's life. 179 00:07:27,965 --> 00:07:29,000 [Heather] I see no pavilion. 180 00:07:29,172 --> 00:07:32,172 [Tammy] Everybody's hiding something. 181 00:07:32,344 --> 00:07:37,068 Jesus, I pray right now that you would take away the rain 182 00:07:37,241 --> 00:07:40,000 so we continue to have fun in the sun. 183 00:07:40,137 --> 00:07:41,482 -Amen. -Amen. 184 00:07:41,655 --> 00:07:42,793 [Tammy] Funny thing about secrets. 185 00:07:44,896 --> 00:07:46,379 They never stay buried forever. 186 00:07:50,275 --> 00:07:52,413 [singer vocalizing] 187 00:07:56,379 --> 00:07:58,000 [Tammy] Good morning, Rekishi. 188 00:07:59,793 --> 00:08:01,413 Looking good, Monty. 189 00:08:03,896 --> 00:08:05,103 Why am I so obsessed with plants? 190 00:08:05,275 --> 00:08:06,586 Uh, I'm a nurturer. 191 00:08:06,758 --> 00:08:09,482 I know all the genealogy and family history of all of 192 00:08:09,655 --> 00:08:11,310 my plants. Like, they have names. 193 00:08:11,482 --> 00:08:12,689 I know where I got them from. 194 00:08:12,862 --> 00:08:14,551 I know everything about my plant babies. 195 00:08:17,000 --> 00:08:19,000 [singer vocalizing] 196 00:08:23,689 --> 00:08:25,275 [cat meows] 197 00:08:25,448 --> 00:08:28,413 I am a huge cat lover and plant enthusiast. 198 00:08:28,586 --> 00:08:30,896 [Drew] She spends all of her money on coffee and plants. 199 00:08:31,034 --> 00:08:32,379 No, no, no, I don't. 200 00:08:34,379 --> 00:08:37,068 Oh, gosh -- I have no idea how many plants I have. 201 00:08:37,241 --> 00:08:38,136 It's over 100. 202 00:08:38,309 --> 00:08:40,793 I have several rooms full of plants. 203 00:08:42,620 --> 00:08:45,793 But, like, I bought my shirt online for $20. 204 00:08:45,965 --> 00:08:47,000 Him and I are completely different 205 00:08:47,172 --> 00:08:48,689 when it comes to money. 206 00:08:48,862 --> 00:08:50,103 No one can tell the difference, but this shirt, 207 00:08:50,275 --> 00:08:51,620 I think, was 98 bucks. 208 00:08:51,793 --> 00:08:53,172 -You're ridiculous. -Well -- 209 00:08:53,344 --> 00:08:54,896 This is why I have to be cheap, because... 210 00:08:58,689 --> 00:09:00,827 Drew and I met in college. 211 00:09:01,000 --> 00:09:03,172 I was an RA, resident assistant. 212 00:09:03,344 --> 00:09:06,275 I had to go round up all of the students to go to 213 00:09:06,448 --> 00:09:08,000 some kind of orientation. 214 00:09:08,137 --> 00:09:11,103 I knocked on these girls' door, and this cute little face 215 00:09:11,275 --> 00:09:13,931 looks up at me, wearing just her little nightie. 216 00:09:14,068 --> 00:09:17,275 And I knew right then, like, "That's the one I want." 217 00:09:17,448 --> 00:09:20,586 ♪ I know where I belong ♪ 218 00:09:20,758 --> 00:09:23,586 And we've been together now for almost 15 years. 219 00:09:25,724 --> 00:09:26,793 [Brooklynn] That's a car? 220 00:09:26,965 --> 00:09:28,793 That's a -- that's a wheel. 221 00:09:28,965 --> 00:09:30,586 -[farting] -[giggling] 222 00:09:30,758 --> 00:09:32,689 -[Tammy] Who farted? -Not me. 223 00:09:32,862 --> 00:09:34,482 You all have your own brand. You can smell. 224 00:09:34,655 --> 00:09:36,689 I can tell whoever did it by the smell. 225 00:09:36,862 --> 00:09:39,620 -Nasty. -I didn't! 226 00:09:39,793 --> 00:09:42,068 -I think the lady doth protest too much. -[Tammy] I don't know! 227 00:09:42,241 --> 00:09:44,586 -[grunting] Shut up! -[laughing] 228 00:09:44,758 --> 00:09:47,482 [Tammy] We have two kids, Brooklynn and Cohen. 229 00:09:47,655 --> 00:09:50,206 I had just dreamed I wanted to grow up and get married 230 00:09:50,379 --> 00:09:52,689 and have kids and just have this, like, super, 231 00:09:52,862 --> 00:09:55,482 like, domestic life. And I love that. 232 00:09:55,655 --> 00:09:57,482 -[Brooklynn] Look at the rainbow! -[Tammy] Aw, look! 233 00:09:57,655 --> 00:09:59,310 [Drew] You guys know what the rainbow means? 234 00:09:59,482 --> 00:10:01,379 -[Brooklynn] That you'll be lucky? -No. 235 00:10:01,551 --> 00:10:04,275 -Oh. -The rainbow is a mark of the covenant so that the Lord 236 00:10:04,448 --> 00:10:05,896 promises never to flood the earth again. 237 00:10:07,000 --> 00:10:10,379 I deeply believe in faith, family, God. 238 00:10:10,551 --> 00:10:14,620 My parents always had Christian values, so to be able to show 239 00:10:14,793 --> 00:10:16,689 that to my kids is really special, 240 00:10:16,862 --> 00:10:18,586 and I take that really seriously. 241 00:10:18,758 --> 00:10:20,310 Five minutes, we got to leave for the bus. 242 00:10:20,482 --> 00:10:23,172 -[Brooklynn] I'm already ready. -OK. Look at you go. 243 00:10:23,344 --> 00:10:25,275 I am always doing mom stuff, 244 00:10:25,448 --> 00:10:27,000 getting the kids ready for school. 245 00:10:27,172 --> 00:10:28,793 Let's get to the bus stop. 246 00:10:28,965 --> 00:10:31,000 I'm always involved in extracurricular activities with 247 00:10:31,137 --> 00:10:33,000 the kids and scheduling family time. 248 00:10:33,172 --> 00:10:35,689 -You have cheer and jiu-jitsu today, girl. -OK. 249 00:10:35,862 --> 00:10:37,000 My previous career was 250 00:10:37,137 --> 00:10:38,482 as a registered veterinary technician. 251 00:10:38,655 --> 00:10:40,206 I did that for 20 years. 252 00:10:40,379 --> 00:10:41,827 I absolutely loved it. 253 00:10:42,000 --> 00:10:46,793 But then I did experience a miscarriage between Brooklynn 254 00:10:46,965 --> 00:10:50,344 and Cohen, and that was really hard. 255 00:10:52,827 --> 00:10:55,724 Like, it's hard losing a child, no matter how old they are. 256 00:11:03,275 --> 00:11:05,620 Look both ways. Good. 257 00:11:08,068 --> 00:11:11,275 After my miscarriage, it actually took a while for me 258 00:11:11,448 --> 00:11:13,000 to get pregnant the second time. 259 00:11:14,482 --> 00:11:17,379 When I finally found out I was pregnant with Cohen, 260 00:11:17,551 --> 00:11:19,724 we were told that it was high risk, 261 00:11:19,896 --> 00:11:22,000 and I was working really long hours. 262 00:11:22,172 --> 00:11:25,206 I was on my feet a lot, and I already experienced 263 00:11:25,379 --> 00:11:27,896 a pregnancy loss, I didn't want to potentially do something 264 00:11:28,034 --> 00:11:30,413 that could contribute to that happening again. 265 00:11:32,931 --> 00:11:34,620 So I quit my job. 266 00:11:37,068 --> 00:11:38,379 [Drew] I really felt like 267 00:11:39,620 --> 00:11:41,689 she should have quit her RVT job... 268 00:11:41,862 --> 00:11:43,827 -Oh yeah. -...so long before she actually did. 269 00:11:48,896 --> 00:11:51,275 However, after that, all the financial burden 270 00:11:51,448 --> 00:11:54,379 was on me, which was fine for me at the time, 271 00:11:54,551 --> 00:11:57,586 because I used to work in sales, and I was approaching 272 00:11:57,758 --> 00:11:59,586 six figures a year. 273 00:11:59,758 --> 00:12:03,310 But COVID happened, and I got laid off from my job. 274 00:12:03,482 --> 00:12:05,827 Then we had to decide what we were gonna do after that. 275 00:12:10,586 --> 00:12:13,000 So I decided to get back to work. 276 00:12:14,482 --> 00:12:16,827 For the last couple of years, I've been doing something 277 00:12:17,000 --> 00:12:19,103 a little unconventional. 278 00:12:19,275 --> 00:12:20,379 I'm not exactly hiding it, 279 00:12:20,551 --> 00:12:23,275 but some people might judge me for it. 280 00:12:27,206 --> 00:12:29,172 Yeah, I have a double life. 281 00:12:29,344 --> 00:12:32,896 I am known as Tammy to a lot of my friends, family, 282 00:12:33,034 --> 00:12:35,379 but a lot of people in our online space 283 00:12:35,551 --> 00:12:37,586 know me as Erika Swingz. 284 00:12:37,758 --> 00:12:40,379 ♪ I'm that -- I'm that bitch Yeah ♪ 285 00:12:40,551 --> 00:12:42,689 ♪ I'm that -- I'm that bitch ♪ 286 00:12:42,862 --> 00:12:45,000 And I make adult content. 287 00:12:45,137 --> 00:12:49,206 Erika Swingz is the name that I go by online for my content. 288 00:12:49,379 --> 00:12:54,275 Adult content creation is anything from texting with fans 289 00:12:54,448 --> 00:12:56,379 to, like, selling pictures 290 00:12:56,551 --> 00:12:58,620 to selling worn clothing items. 291 00:13:03,275 --> 00:13:05,896 To making more explicit videos. 292 00:13:06,034 --> 00:13:08,586 OK, Diary Cam. 293 00:13:08,758 --> 00:13:10,103 I'm sure it's gonna be a great time. 294 00:13:11,275 --> 00:13:13,275 It wasn't until doing adult content 295 00:13:13,448 --> 00:13:16,275 that I really came into my confidence. 296 00:13:16,448 --> 00:13:17,344 ♪ Mwah ♪ 297 00:13:17,517 --> 00:13:20,896 When I met Drew, I was very, very shy. 298 00:13:21,034 --> 00:13:24,413 I definitely was very self-conscious about my body. 299 00:13:24,586 --> 00:13:27,620 I did not consider myself attractive at all. 300 00:13:27,793 --> 00:13:29,275 [Drew] She had no self-confidence. 301 00:13:29,448 --> 00:13:30,896 She kept telling me," No, I don't want to wear that 302 00:13:31,034 --> 00:13:34,068 because I don't feel like I could pull that off, whatever." 303 00:13:34,241 --> 00:13:36,517 -Yeah. -And I said, "Babe, you, you are so hot." 304 00:13:36,689 --> 00:13:37,827 And I said, "You know what? 305 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:39,000 I'm gonna post a picture of you online." 306 00:13:39,137 --> 00:13:40,689 And she like, "Really?" 307 00:13:40,862 --> 00:13:42,275 And I was like, "If you're OK with it." 308 00:13:42,448 --> 00:13:44,482 And I was like, "No face. It'd just be like your butt." 309 00:13:44,655 --> 00:13:46,517 And so I posted that online 310 00:13:46,689 --> 00:13:48,000 and it just blew up. 311 00:13:50,172 --> 00:13:52,586 That was the start of her coming out of her shell 312 00:13:52,758 --> 00:13:54,068 and getting a little more confidence. 313 00:13:54,241 --> 00:13:57,172 And it got a ton of attention right off the bat, 314 00:13:57,344 --> 00:13:59,000 and people wanted to see more of her. 315 00:13:59,172 --> 00:14:02,379 Pictures, videos, audio messages. 316 00:14:02,551 --> 00:14:05,689 So I thought maybe I could make money by doing this, 317 00:14:05,862 --> 00:14:09,172 but that was a huge struggle, especially with my faith. 318 00:14:12,931 --> 00:14:14,689 Thank you. 319 00:14:14,862 --> 00:14:18,310 The Bible is a record of us getting to know God better. 320 00:14:20,379 --> 00:14:24,206 Being a Christian and being in the adult content world, 321 00:14:24,379 --> 00:14:25,793 it's just as it sounds. 322 00:14:25,965 --> 00:14:29,000 It is very clashing, so I do struggle with that. 323 00:14:29,137 --> 00:14:30,379 Like, yeah, I'm... 324 00:14:31,379 --> 00:14:33,206 I'm contributing to somebody lusting. 325 00:14:34,931 --> 00:14:36,689 -Thank you. -Thank you, appreciate it. 326 00:14:36,862 --> 00:14:42,517 Sometimes I wrestle with God and think about how my job 327 00:14:42,689 --> 00:14:45,000 and my lifestyle could cost me a normal life. 328 00:14:46,793 --> 00:14:48,689 But I'm not the only one carrying something 329 00:14:48,862 --> 00:14:50,689 that could change everything. 330 00:14:50,862 --> 00:14:53,068 There are secrets in this group, 331 00:14:53,241 --> 00:14:54,517 and once everything comes out, 332 00:14:55,724 --> 00:14:57,000 nobody's lives will be the same. 333 00:14:59,310 --> 00:15:02,827 I think that somebody over there is taking our picture. 334 00:15:03,000 --> 00:15:03,965 [Tammy] Are you for real? 335 00:15:04,103 --> 00:15:05,896 -[Macy] I'll be right back. -[Tammy] OK. 336 00:15:06,034 --> 00:15:09,206 I can get a little nervous because I don't know if someone 337 00:15:09,379 --> 00:15:11,172 might recognize Tammy and think 338 00:15:11,344 --> 00:15:13,068 that I do the same stuff that she does. 339 00:15:14,586 --> 00:15:17,275 I mean, my feelings still are pretty hurt. 340 00:15:17,448 --> 00:15:20,793 Bri did something that I'm still trying to get over. 341 00:15:27,000 --> 00:15:28,482 [singer vocalizing] 342 00:15:35,586 --> 00:15:36,965 -Hey. -Hey. 343 00:15:38,793 --> 00:15:40,172 Think it's safe to cross? 344 00:15:43,379 --> 00:15:45,103 -[Tammy] I think it's OK. -[laughs] 345 00:15:46,448 --> 00:15:49,862 -How are you? -Good -- how are you? 346 00:15:50,000 --> 00:15:52,000 Macy is one of my best friends. 347 00:15:52,137 --> 00:15:54,379 We're both natural, like, nurturers 348 00:15:54,551 --> 00:15:57,896 and peacemakers and women of faith. 349 00:15:58,034 --> 00:16:00,241 [Macy] OK, this is -- this is you, girl. 350 00:16:00,413 --> 00:16:02,896 -You gotta get that. -The cat one. 351 00:16:03,034 --> 00:16:06,103 -Feeling frisky. -OK, everything that I see 352 00:16:06,275 --> 00:16:08,275 with a cat is a yes. -I love it. 353 00:16:12,586 --> 00:16:14,344 Tammy is my friend. 354 00:16:14,517 --> 00:16:18,137 I'm aware and I accept that she's an adult content creator, 355 00:16:18,310 --> 00:16:19,655 but at the same time, 356 00:16:19,827 --> 00:16:22,586 I come from a very conservative background. 357 00:16:22,758 --> 00:16:25,482 All my family and friends are very religious. 358 00:16:25,655 --> 00:16:27,586 Oh, actually, I really like those. 359 00:16:27,758 --> 00:16:30,586 Jim got me this necklace for my birthday one year. 360 00:16:30,758 --> 00:16:33,068 And I used to be really bad about losing jewelry. 361 00:16:33,241 --> 00:16:35,896 -Why am I not surprised? -Especially the stuff that he gets me. 362 00:16:36,034 --> 00:16:37,448 I know. 363 00:16:37,448 --> 00:16:39,379 -You're like, "Where is my -- I don't know." -[Macy] I know. 364 00:16:40,379 --> 00:16:42,482 Sometimes I think I'd lose my head if it wasn't attached 365 00:16:42,655 --> 00:16:44,586 to my body, you know. 366 00:16:44,758 --> 00:16:49,137 Jim and I have been married almost six years. 367 00:16:49,310 --> 00:16:51,689 [Jim] I saw her from across the room at a restaurant one time 368 00:16:51,862 --> 00:16:54,241 with some friends. I asked my buddy, "Who is that?" 369 00:16:54,413 --> 00:16:56,344 And they said, "Oh, that's Macy." 370 00:16:56,517 --> 00:16:58,000 I'm like, "Oh, I'm gonna talk to her." 371 00:16:58,137 --> 00:17:00,862 And I went straight up to her, and she told me to go to church. 372 00:17:01,000 --> 00:17:02,862 [Macy laughs] 373 00:17:03,000 --> 00:17:04,137 That is really pretty. 374 00:17:04,310 --> 00:17:08,068 I wanted to know that he loved Jesus and had 375 00:17:08,241 --> 00:17:09,689 a good relationship with God. 376 00:17:09,862 --> 00:17:12,792 But then he kept consistently coming back to church, 377 00:17:12,964 --> 00:17:16,378 and we built a good friendship. We were friends for a while. 378 00:17:16,550 --> 00:17:17,448 That's not what happened. 379 00:17:19,792 --> 00:17:22,344 So I had lost a lot of weight 380 00:17:22,517 --> 00:17:24,964 before Macy took me seriously. -[Macy] Oh my gosh. 381 00:17:25,103 --> 00:17:29,586 -And, no, I'm playing kind of. -I mean, no, that is true. 382 00:17:29,758 --> 00:17:31,379 I'm glad you were persistent. 383 00:17:31,551 --> 00:17:34,172 I saw some girls at church checking you out or, like, 384 00:17:34,344 --> 00:17:35,896 talking about how cute you were and stuff. 385 00:17:36,034 --> 00:17:37,379 They were, like, 60. 386 00:17:38,896 --> 00:17:41,379 This is exactly what I need at my house. 387 00:17:41,551 --> 00:17:44,103 Ooh, what about these? I love these. 388 00:17:44,275 --> 00:17:46,862 -Those, uh, those are hibiscus. -OK. 389 00:17:47,000 --> 00:17:49,275 These are about, like, the size I need for my monstera 390 00:17:49,448 --> 00:17:51,758 that, um, Jim gave me. -Yeah. 391 00:17:53,689 --> 00:17:55,689 Um...hey. 392 00:17:55,862 --> 00:18:00,103 -Hm? -I think that somebody over there is taking our picture. 393 00:18:01,172 --> 00:18:03,172 Are they for real? 394 00:18:03,344 --> 00:18:06,275 Do people, like, recognize you around here, or...? 395 00:18:06,448 --> 00:18:08,965 I mean, it's possible that somebody recognized me 396 00:18:09,103 --> 00:18:12,517 as Erika Swingz, but, like, out here like this? 397 00:18:15,000 --> 00:18:16,379 -[Macy] I'll be right back. -[Tammy] OK. 398 00:18:18,551 --> 00:18:22,000 [Macy] I grew up in church my whole life, so when I first heard 399 00:18:22,172 --> 00:18:23,793 about adult content, 400 00:18:23,965 --> 00:18:25,655 I didn't even know what it was, honestly. 401 00:18:27,172 --> 00:18:28,862 I was so sheltered, 402 00:18:29,000 --> 00:18:30,896 whenever my mom gave me the sex talk, 403 00:18:31,034 --> 00:18:32,586 she, like, handed me the purity ring 404 00:18:32,758 --> 00:18:35,862 and explained to me, like, to save myself for marriage. 405 00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:37,551 Crap, I don't have it. 406 00:18:37,724 --> 00:18:41,000 So, sometimes when Tammy and I are out in public, 407 00:18:41,137 --> 00:18:43,758 I can get a little nervous because I don't know 408 00:18:43,931 --> 00:18:46,793 if someone might recognize her and think that I do 409 00:18:46,965 --> 00:18:48,689 the same stuff that she does. 410 00:18:56,793 --> 00:19:01,103 So, I typically will always just bring my wig 411 00:19:01,275 --> 00:19:03,586 because then I am in disguise. 412 00:19:03,758 --> 00:19:05,965 -I think he went into one of those stores, so... -Really? 413 00:19:06,103 --> 00:19:08,379 -But just to be safe, 'cause... -OK, yeah. 414 00:19:08,551 --> 00:19:09,586 Do you want to go in the boutique 415 00:19:09,758 --> 00:19:11,379 and see what else we can get? -Yeah. 416 00:19:11,551 --> 00:19:13,000 I know -- I think we need to get something 417 00:19:13,172 --> 00:19:15,068 for Bri and Phil's party, right? 418 00:19:15,241 --> 00:19:18,000 The first time that you showed up to my house with all of it, 419 00:19:18,137 --> 00:19:19,275 it took me some getting used to. 420 00:19:19,448 --> 00:19:20,379 -Yeah. -Yeah. 421 00:19:22,482 --> 00:19:24,275 I just want to see her regular hair, 422 00:19:24,448 --> 00:19:26,862 but I know who's underneath the wig. 423 00:19:27,000 --> 00:19:28,689 That's funny. 424 00:19:28,862 --> 00:19:31,344 If it has the right ones -- I can't see, crap. 425 00:19:31,517 --> 00:19:33,793 -Literally can't see anything. -[Tammy] You want mine? 426 00:19:33,965 --> 00:19:36,068 They're not as, like -- you might be able to see 427 00:19:36,241 --> 00:19:38,379 through them and they're not so restrictive. -Yeah. 428 00:19:38,551 --> 00:19:39,793 Yeah, yeah, 429 00:19:40,896 --> 00:19:42,172 -I know. -[Tammy] Are you... 430 00:19:42,344 --> 00:19:43,448 Is that better? 431 00:19:43,448 --> 00:19:44,896 -Yeah, that's -- that's a lot better. -OK. 432 00:19:45,034 --> 00:19:48,448 Are you going to wear that to the party? 433 00:19:48,620 --> 00:19:50,689 Yeah, that's my plan, because I feel like it's going 434 00:19:50,862 --> 00:19:53,172 to be a lot of content creators, you know what I mean? 435 00:19:53,344 --> 00:19:54,275 Yeah. 436 00:20:03,172 --> 00:20:08,758 So, I'd like to be able to finally, like, just come out 437 00:20:08,931 --> 00:20:10,172 and be honest with everyone 438 00:20:11,344 --> 00:20:16,000 that I'm Julie, also known as Church Girl. 439 00:20:16,137 --> 00:20:18,137 ♪ I'm hot, hey♪ 440 00:20:18,310 --> 00:20:20,896 ♪ Yeah, what you know about it♪ 441 00:20:21,034 --> 00:20:23,896 [Macy] I've been undercover as an adult content creator 442 00:20:24,034 --> 00:20:25,482 for three years now. 443 00:20:27,000 --> 00:20:30,655 I am called Church Girl because I really do love Jesus. 444 00:20:32,448 --> 00:20:36,000 And no one in my normal life knows that I do this. 445 00:20:36,172 --> 00:20:38,275 Whenever I'm not in disguise, 446 00:20:38,448 --> 00:20:39,379 I am... 447 00:20:41,655 --> 00:20:42,689 Oh, God. 448 00:20:44,172 --> 00:20:45,551 Ow! 449 00:20:45,724 --> 00:20:47,482 This is not smooth. [bleep]. 450 00:20:51,000 --> 00:20:52,206 Macy. 451 00:20:54,655 --> 00:20:56,275 ♪ What about it Want to come over Friday night ♪ 452 00:20:56,448 --> 00:20:58,275 ♪ So if that's all -- that's all right ♪ 453 00:20:58,448 --> 00:20:59,482 ♪ Lets ride ♪ 454 00:20:59,655 --> 00:21:00,586 Hey, bud. 455 00:21:02,172 --> 00:21:03,448 Did you have a good nap? 456 00:21:03,620 --> 00:21:05,275 -No. -No? 457 00:21:05,448 --> 00:21:07,000 You wanted to sleep longer? 458 00:21:11,275 --> 00:21:13,000 When we got pregnant with Leo, we were not planning 459 00:21:13,172 --> 00:21:14,758 on having kids at that point. -[Macy] No. 460 00:21:14,931 --> 00:21:16,896 I think a lot of people are like, "Oh, we need to have 461 00:21:17,034 --> 00:21:18,482 "all of our ducks in a row 462 00:21:18,655 --> 00:21:20,379 and everything like that," and... 463 00:21:20,551 --> 00:21:22,379 -We had no ducks. -No. 464 00:21:23,551 --> 00:21:24,551 Take those for me, bud. 465 00:21:26,103 --> 00:21:27,793 I don't like these. 466 00:21:27,965 --> 00:21:29,275 [Macy] I know. 467 00:21:29,448 --> 00:21:32,655 I was working full-time as a nanny when Jim 468 00:21:32,827 --> 00:21:33,896 had his sales job. 469 00:21:34,034 --> 00:21:36,793 He was working, like, 60 hours a week. 470 00:21:36,965 --> 00:21:40,482 I would work all day long. I'd wake up before our son. 471 00:21:40,655 --> 00:21:43,000 I would get back in the last hour of his day. 472 00:21:43,172 --> 00:21:44,689 -I didn't even get to see him. -[Macy] Yeah. 473 00:21:45,965 --> 00:21:49,000 It made my wheels start to turn in my head of, like, 474 00:21:49,137 --> 00:21:54,137 what other ways can we have, like, the money but still 475 00:21:54,310 --> 00:21:55,965 have our time? 476 00:21:56,103 --> 00:22:00,068 And then he heard about content. 477 00:22:00,241 --> 00:22:04,482 The first time I recommended posting her nudes online, 478 00:22:04,655 --> 00:22:06,896 the look on her face was like... 479 00:22:07,034 --> 00:22:09,172 [Macy] Yeah, exactly. Like, is this a test? 480 00:22:09,344 --> 00:22:11,137 -You know? Yeah. -Yeah. 481 00:22:11,310 --> 00:22:12,172 There you go. Five more. 482 00:22:12,344 --> 00:22:13,965 Fast, fast, fast, fast. 483 00:22:14,103 --> 00:22:17,344 Doing adult content wasn't something that I just decided 484 00:22:17,517 --> 00:22:18,896 to do overnight. 485 00:22:19,034 --> 00:22:23,241 It was a lot of, like, internal kind of struggles that 486 00:22:23,413 --> 00:22:27,862 I had to wrestle with and kind of some sleepless nights. 487 00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:31,275 And a lot of conversations between me and Jim. 488 00:22:31,448 --> 00:22:33,586 That was awesome, dude. 489 00:22:33,758 --> 00:22:36,655 What it came down to is time is priceless. 490 00:22:36,827 --> 00:22:39,896 I wanted Jim to have that time back with me, 491 00:22:40,034 --> 00:22:41,862 but more importantly, with Leo. 492 00:22:42,000 --> 00:22:43,000 Good night, bud. 493 00:22:44,275 --> 00:22:45,689 -[Jim] Hey, babe. -[Macy] Hey. 494 00:22:45,862 --> 00:22:49,379 -That's really cringey. -Yeah, that's super cringe. 495 00:22:49,551 --> 00:22:51,068 I'm taking that one out. 496 00:22:51,241 --> 00:22:55,103 So I posted, like, just a little nip slip, 497 00:22:56,172 --> 00:22:59,448 and I was just mind-blown at the reaction that I got. 498 00:22:59,620 --> 00:23:01,000 The compliments she was getting, 499 00:23:01,172 --> 00:23:02,689 she just like fell in love. 500 00:23:04,000 --> 00:23:06,448 Then it just kind of took off from there. 501 00:23:06,620 --> 00:23:09,793 She was doing what they call shower stream. 502 00:23:09,965 --> 00:23:11,241 She would not even make it sexy. 503 00:23:11,413 --> 00:23:14,862 She would shower and walk away with four or five grand 504 00:23:15,000 --> 00:23:16,793 just by taking a shower. 505 00:23:16,965 --> 00:23:21,103 That guy bought three pairs of panties from this next week. 506 00:23:21,275 --> 00:23:24,862 Absolutely no one in my family or my community knows 507 00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:27,000 that I do adult content. 508 00:23:27,137 --> 00:23:29,896 These -- we need to mail these out. 509 00:23:30,034 --> 00:23:32,758 [Jim] They think that Macy's a stay-at-home mom. 510 00:23:32,931 --> 00:23:35,275 -Yeah. -And I do day trading. 511 00:23:35,448 --> 00:23:38,275 [Macy] Did I tell you that Tammy got recognized with me? 512 00:23:38,448 --> 00:23:40,344 I was like, "What the [bleep] is happening?" 513 00:23:40,517 --> 00:23:41,689 I'm sorry. 514 00:23:41,862 --> 00:23:45,793 And having to accept that with us, like, coming out, 515 00:23:45,965 --> 00:23:49,862 that that is probably going to happen to me, 516 00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:51,034 just kind of feel like... 517 00:23:52,758 --> 00:23:54,793 -[Jim] Are you scared? -Yeah, I'm scared. 518 00:23:56,000 --> 00:23:58,034 It's really only a matter of time that people 519 00:23:58,206 --> 00:23:59,689 put two and two together, 520 00:23:59,862 --> 00:24:02,172 that I do adult content. 521 00:24:02,344 --> 00:24:05,482 And we would rather it come out with us being able to tell 522 00:24:05,655 --> 00:24:08,344 our side of the story and control the narrative. 523 00:24:08,517 --> 00:24:11,896 My sin, quote unquote, is out there in public, 524 00:24:12,034 --> 00:24:15,586 but then they're just doing it behind closed doors. 525 00:24:15,758 --> 00:24:17,896 Publicly, it's talked down upon. 526 00:24:18,034 --> 00:24:19,689 Why is that OK, though? 527 00:24:24,689 --> 00:24:25,689 Oh gosh. 528 00:24:29,896 --> 00:24:32,482 I am most worried about my dad. 529 00:24:33,482 --> 00:24:36,137 We are, like, super, super close. 530 00:24:36,310 --> 00:24:39,896 And I feel like he's gonna be disappointed in me. 531 00:24:40,034 --> 00:24:44,103 People that we've been hiding, like, this huge secret from, 532 00:24:44,275 --> 00:24:48,275 that because they're probably not going to agree, that just, 533 00:24:48,448 --> 00:24:50,241 I don't know, it hurts. -[Jim] I get it. 534 00:24:50,413 --> 00:24:53,448 I've pretty much accepted that I'm losing all my friends. 535 00:24:55,448 --> 00:24:56,793 We live in a small town. 536 00:24:56,965 --> 00:25:00,275 Your reputation and your name carries a lot of weight. 537 00:25:00,448 --> 00:25:04,379 So what makes this very difficult and complicated is 538 00:25:04,551 --> 00:25:07,896 that my dad is a pastor, and he has no idea 539 00:25:08,034 --> 00:25:09,862 that I do adult content. 540 00:25:11,689 --> 00:25:12,689 I'm really scared. 541 00:25:14,586 --> 00:25:16,965 Hearing that from you is like a huge lie, 542 00:25:17,103 --> 00:25:19,586 and that's like a slap in the face to me. 543 00:25:19,758 --> 00:25:22,344 I hope it doesn't, you know, boil into something 544 00:25:22,517 --> 00:25:24,862 that it doesn't need to be. -Are we still friends? 545 00:25:34,379 --> 00:25:37,241 [Tammy] Today, Bri and I are out shopping for her husband 546 00:25:37,413 --> 00:25:40,551 Phil's big hoedown for his 37th birthday. 547 00:25:40,724 --> 00:25:41,758 -Hey. -Hi. 548 00:25:41,931 --> 00:25:43,000 Sorry I'm late. How are you? 549 00:25:43,172 --> 00:25:44,482 Oh, my gosh. Hi. 550 00:25:44,655 --> 00:25:47,241 Bri is very sweet and kind-hearted. 551 00:25:47,413 --> 00:25:50,551 People think she's, like, stuck up, and I know that 552 00:25:50,724 --> 00:25:55,379 she is not, but we kind of get each other on that level of 553 00:25:55,551 --> 00:25:57,379 maybe being a little misunderstood. 554 00:25:57,551 --> 00:25:59,862 And I was rushing to get out of the gym, so... 555 00:26:00,068 --> 00:26:01,068 [Brianna] Oh, shoot. 556 00:26:01,068 --> 00:26:02,689 I found way too much cute stuff already. 557 00:26:03,896 --> 00:26:05,689 My name's Brianna, but I go by Bri. 558 00:26:13,344 --> 00:26:14,482 -Hey, Sade. -Hi. 559 00:26:14,655 --> 00:26:15,793 Hi, Mom. 560 00:26:15,965 --> 00:26:18,137 [Brianna] I am married to my husband, Phillip. 561 00:26:18,310 --> 00:26:20,241 Our daughter, Blakely, is five. 562 00:26:20,413 --> 00:26:22,965 It's gonna look like the Easter Bunny came. 563 00:26:23,103 --> 00:26:24,482 I thought the Easter Bunny was a boy. 564 00:26:24,655 --> 00:26:25,896 -[Blakely] No, it's a girl. -[Brianna] Oh. 565 00:26:25,896 --> 00:26:29,137 -Do bunnies lay eggs? -No, they fill eggs with candy. 566 00:26:29,310 --> 00:26:30,482 Ah! 567 00:26:31,793 --> 00:26:33,655 [Brianna] Phillip and I are from the same hometown, 568 00:26:33,827 --> 00:26:35,482 so we knew of each other. -Yeah. 569 00:26:35,655 --> 00:26:38,344 And one day I was just scrolling Facebook and I saw 570 00:26:38,517 --> 00:26:41,482 this really sexy picture of you at work and I was like, "Oh... 571 00:26:42,655 --> 00:26:44,482 that hard-working blue-collar man." 572 00:26:46,896 --> 00:26:49,379 Thank you Jesus for this day. Thank you for my family. 573 00:26:49,551 --> 00:26:52,275 In Jesus' name we pray, amen. -[Brianna and Phil] Amen. 574 00:26:52,448 --> 00:26:54,689 [Brianna] I used to be a high school English teacher. 575 00:26:54,862 --> 00:26:58,862 Being a teacher was always a really big part of my life. 576 00:26:59,000 --> 00:27:02,137 Got my master's degree, after my daughter was born, 577 00:27:02,310 --> 00:27:04,758 my career was very important to me. 578 00:27:04,931 --> 00:27:06,758 -Blow it up. -[imitates explosion] 579 00:27:06,931 --> 00:27:09,241 But, um, you were laid off from work. 580 00:27:09,413 --> 00:27:10,793 Yes, whenever we get laid off, 581 00:27:10,965 --> 00:27:12,482 there's no money coming in, so... 582 00:27:13,965 --> 00:27:14,965 Yeah. 583 00:27:15,103 --> 00:27:17,482 My salary wasn't enough to support our family. 584 00:27:17,655 --> 00:27:19,482 We have a toddler. 585 00:27:19,655 --> 00:27:22,275 We were a couple months behind on rent. 586 00:27:22,448 --> 00:27:25,000 We were struggling with bills at the time. 587 00:27:25,172 --> 00:27:27,275 We didn't know where to turn or what to do. 588 00:27:28,689 --> 00:27:30,000 We're gonna go get some ice cream. 589 00:27:30,137 --> 00:27:31,344 Yay! 590 00:27:31,517 --> 00:27:33,689 [Brianna] I did try to get another job, 591 00:27:33,862 --> 00:27:35,689 but being a teacher, 592 00:27:35,862 --> 00:27:37,448 it's not just a nine-to-five. 593 00:27:37,620 --> 00:27:40,862 You're working at home after hours, grading papers. 594 00:27:41,000 --> 00:27:43,758 I had 120 students. 595 00:27:43,931 --> 00:27:47,482 I needed a job that, like, allowed me to work from home 596 00:27:47,655 --> 00:27:49,482 on my time, 597 00:27:49,655 --> 00:27:51,896 when I was finished with my other work. 598 00:27:52,034 --> 00:27:55,000 The first time I even came across content creation, 599 00:27:55,137 --> 00:27:56,965 I was scrolling on social media, 600 00:27:57,103 --> 00:27:59,896 and I came across Erika's post. 601 00:28:00,103 --> 00:28:01,689 It was PG, though, 'cause it was social media. 602 00:28:01,862 --> 00:28:04,275 And I was like I followed the rabbit hole. 603 00:28:04,448 --> 00:28:06,586 I was like, "What the [bleep] is this?" 604 00:28:06,758 --> 00:28:08,068 And I sent her a message. 605 00:28:08,241 --> 00:28:10,482 That's how I met Tammy. 606 00:28:10,655 --> 00:28:13,275 And when she told me how much money that was coming in, 607 00:28:13,448 --> 00:28:14,896 I was like, it was unbelievable. 608 00:28:15,965 --> 00:28:18,448 So I just decided to give it a try. 609 00:28:18,620 --> 00:28:20,275 -And look at us now. -[laughs] Yeah. 610 00:28:20,448 --> 00:28:22,379 ♪ Still gonna be me I don't mean to be like that ♪ 611 00:28:22,551 --> 00:28:24,137 ♪ All them boys say I'm a little salty ♪ 612 00:28:24,310 --> 00:28:26,034 ♪ But they kind of like it when I get a little ♪ 613 00:28:26,206 --> 00:28:28,000 ♪ Get a little, whoa ♪ 614 00:28:28,172 --> 00:28:31,344 Making the account and making my very first post 615 00:28:31,517 --> 00:28:35,482 was just out of a need to pay the bills 616 00:28:35,655 --> 00:28:36,965 and provide for my family. 617 00:28:38,862 --> 00:28:40,793 [Phil] I felt kind of jealous at first, 'cause I was like, 618 00:28:42,344 --> 00:28:43,482 I was like, "That's a video that I've always 619 00:28:43,655 --> 00:28:44,655 wanted her to send to me." 620 00:28:44,827 --> 00:28:46,137 But yeah, it was all good. 621 00:28:46,310 --> 00:28:47,655 It was hot. 622 00:28:47,827 --> 00:28:51,241 [Brianna] But after we released those videos, 623 00:28:51,413 --> 00:28:53,551 my life completely flipped upside down. 624 00:28:54,586 --> 00:28:57,379 I lost my teaching job, and my face was everywhere. 625 00:28:57,551 --> 00:29:00,068 [reporter] Scandal rocks a small town 626 00:29:00,241 --> 00:29:03,034 as a Missouri woman is fired from her teaching job. 627 00:29:04,448 --> 00:29:07,586 Our lives completely changed, and then it kind of spread 628 00:29:07,758 --> 00:29:11,000 like wildfire from there. The media was going wild. 629 00:29:11,172 --> 00:29:12,896 My page was going wild. 630 00:29:13,034 --> 00:29:18,586 My subscribers went from, like, 500 to 40,000 subscribers 631 00:29:18,758 --> 00:29:20,000 in a matter of days. 632 00:29:22,482 --> 00:29:25,379 I didn't want to... get fired. 633 00:29:25,551 --> 00:29:28,137 It wasn't my goal to be found out. 634 00:29:29,275 --> 00:29:33,689 But I went from making a couple thousand dollars a month, 635 00:29:33,862 --> 00:29:36,379 to a couple hundred-thousand dollars a month 636 00:29:36,551 --> 00:29:40,379 and I mean, within three months, we were at, like, $1.5 million. 637 00:29:42,896 --> 00:29:44,241 How does it look? 638 00:29:44,413 --> 00:29:46,275 [gasps] Oh, yes. 639 00:29:46,448 --> 00:29:47,758 -Is this better? -Yeah. 640 00:29:47,931 --> 00:29:50,000 I like this a whole lot better than the other one. 641 00:29:50,137 --> 00:29:51,103 Yeah. 642 00:29:51,275 --> 00:29:52,275 [Tammy] OK, before I take this off, though, 643 00:29:52,448 --> 00:29:53,689 we have to have a selfie? 644 00:29:53,862 --> 00:29:55,448 -Yeah, we have to take some pictures. -OK. 645 00:29:55,620 --> 00:29:57,344 'Cause I posted that we were going to be together today, 646 00:29:57,517 --> 00:29:58,758 so everyone's probably, like... 647 00:29:58,931 --> 00:30:00,275 -Me too. -...waiting. 648 00:30:00,448 --> 00:30:01,655 Like, everywhere we go, we try to make it 649 00:30:01,827 --> 00:30:04,172 a content opportunity. -All right, three, two, one. 650 00:30:04,344 --> 00:30:05,482 [Tammy] I think that's why they pay. 651 00:30:05,482 --> 00:30:08,068 Like, you could watch any, like, rehearsed thing, 652 00:30:08,241 --> 00:30:09,448 like, online, right? 653 00:30:09,448 --> 00:30:11,689 But, like, our stuff, like, this is our daily life. 654 00:30:11,862 --> 00:30:13,275 This is really what we're doing. 655 00:30:13,448 --> 00:30:16,586 And so, like, people want to know, what are you guys up to? 656 00:30:16,758 --> 00:30:18,137 Yeah. 657 00:30:18,310 --> 00:30:19,758 OK, let's take some spicy ones. 658 00:30:19,931 --> 00:30:21,758 -We got to go in the dressing room. -OK. all right. 659 00:30:21,931 --> 00:30:24,586 A lot of content creators use social media to 660 00:30:24,758 --> 00:30:28,000 gain a following. They get views on social media. 661 00:30:28,172 --> 00:30:30,137 They follow the links, and it will eventually 662 00:30:30,310 --> 00:30:32,655 lead them to the spicy side. 663 00:30:32,827 --> 00:30:34,379 Pay range is definitely... 664 00:30:34,551 --> 00:30:38,000 a couple hundred dollars a month to millions in a year. 665 00:30:38,172 --> 00:30:40,068 It really just depends on followers. 666 00:30:40,241 --> 00:30:41,241 Socials are huge. 667 00:30:42,793 --> 00:30:44,896 So what's the deal with this party anyway? 668 00:30:45,034 --> 00:30:46,758 Who is coming? 669 00:30:46,931 --> 00:30:50,586 [Brianna] Oh, I probably invited too many people, to be honest. 670 00:30:50,758 --> 00:30:52,793 How many people have confirmed, though? 671 00:30:52,965 --> 00:30:56,448 Um, I think Megan and Tyler are coming. 672 00:30:56,620 --> 00:30:57,551 Yeah. 673 00:30:57,724 --> 00:31:00,689 Which makes me nervous, to be honest. 674 00:31:00,862 --> 00:31:02,034 Why? 675 00:31:02,206 --> 00:31:05,000 Um, I mean, I don't really consider us friends anymore, 676 00:31:05,137 --> 00:31:06,793 to be honest. -Really? 677 00:31:09,137 --> 00:31:11,655 Megan and I taught together. 678 00:31:11,827 --> 00:31:15,172 We were friends for several years. 679 00:31:15,344 --> 00:31:17,379 We shared our secrets. 680 00:31:17,551 --> 00:31:22,068 We shared just a bond that was really irreplaceable, 681 00:31:23,379 --> 00:31:28,379 but now the relationship just seems kind of off and distant. 682 00:31:28,551 --> 00:31:31,034 What happened? I -- I really have no idea. 683 00:31:33,137 --> 00:31:35,275 I don't know, like, how much you have, like, heard 684 00:31:35,448 --> 00:31:36,586 or know or... 685 00:31:36,586 --> 00:31:39,000 Megan, at one point, had expressed that she felt 686 00:31:39,172 --> 00:31:42,241 like you guys had, like, grown apart over time. 687 00:31:42,413 --> 00:31:45,068 I mean, I reached out to her, like, literally saying, 688 00:31:45,241 --> 00:31:47,586 "Hey, are we still friends? 689 00:31:47,758 --> 00:31:50,000 Like, 'cause I feel like something's up." 690 00:31:50,172 --> 00:31:52,000 And she's like, "No, I'll always consider you 691 00:31:52,137 --> 00:31:55,172 one of my best friends." So hearing that from you is, like, 692 00:31:55,344 --> 00:31:58,137 a huge lie, and that's, like, a slap in the face to me. 693 00:32:01,758 --> 00:32:06,551 Megan was one of my best friends, and being told that 694 00:32:06,724 --> 00:32:10,103 we aren't close anymore by somebody else, 695 00:32:10,275 --> 00:32:12,689 I think it's bothering me because she has not had 696 00:32:12,862 --> 00:32:15,379 this conversation with me at all. 697 00:32:15,551 --> 00:32:17,655 It would be good for you guys just to, like... 698 00:32:17,827 --> 00:32:18,827 -Hash it out. -...hash it out. 699 00:32:19,000 --> 00:32:21,172 Whatever that comes to, but I hope it doesn't, 700 00:32:21,344 --> 00:32:22,793 you know, boil into something 701 00:32:22,965 --> 00:32:24,172 that it doesn't need to be. 702 00:32:29,172 --> 00:32:34,517 ♪ Ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪ 703 00:32:37,000 --> 00:32:38,275 [waitress] Hey, guys, how you doing? 704 00:32:51,275 --> 00:32:52,689 Hi, you guys can follow me this way. 705 00:32:52,862 --> 00:32:54,172 -Thank you. -OK. 706 00:32:54,344 --> 00:32:58,793 Tonight, Jim, Leo, and I are getting dinner with my dad, 707 00:32:58,965 --> 00:33:01,137 Bruce, my stepmom, Stacey, 708 00:33:01,310 --> 00:33:03,965 and my mother-in-law, Divina. -Hey, guys. 709 00:33:04,103 --> 00:33:06,172 -How you doing? -Sorry we're late. 710 00:33:06,344 --> 00:33:07,655 -Hey, Mace. -[indistinct] 711 00:33:07,827 --> 00:33:09,172 Good to see you. 712 00:33:09,344 --> 00:33:11,103 We've gotten to be, like, a pretty close-knit 713 00:33:11,275 --> 00:33:14,758 family, which I feel like it's really rare nowadays. 714 00:33:14,931 --> 00:33:15,862 -You sit by dad. -Yep. 715 00:33:16,862 --> 00:33:18,689 [producer speaking] 716 00:33:21,137 --> 00:33:25,000 I told Bruce that this show was about moms in St. Louis. 717 00:33:27,482 --> 00:33:29,344 But we have a very friendly town here. 718 00:33:29,517 --> 00:33:31,586 -[Macy] We do. -People are like family. 719 00:33:31,758 --> 00:33:33,689 We'll go to Walmart, or we'll go to any store 720 00:33:33,862 --> 00:33:37,172 over here, and Macy will run into, like, ten people 721 00:33:37,344 --> 00:33:38,896 she's seen from high school. 722 00:33:39,034 --> 00:33:40,482 -Well, it's a small town, you know? -Yeah. 723 00:33:40,655 --> 00:33:41,965 I mean, that's just the way it works. 724 00:33:42,103 --> 00:33:44,034 We run into people that we know all the time, 725 00:33:44,206 --> 00:33:45,551 anytime we go out. 726 00:33:45,724 --> 00:33:48,758 Um, so that's obviously a big reason why we have been 727 00:33:48,931 --> 00:33:51,137 undercover, um... 728 00:33:51,310 --> 00:33:55,551 Because it's a very conservative mindset 729 00:33:55,724 --> 00:33:57,793 that people have around here. 730 00:33:57,965 --> 00:33:59,965 So what have you guys been up to? 731 00:34:00,172 --> 00:34:02,103 Um, just kind of hanging out. 732 00:34:02,275 --> 00:34:04,586 Oh, yeah, we went to the rally races the other day. 733 00:34:04,758 --> 00:34:05,793 You're talking about bicycles. 734 00:34:05,965 --> 00:34:07,586 No, I'm talking about rally racing. 735 00:34:07,758 --> 00:34:09,206 [Bruce] Oh, yeah. We got... 736 00:34:09,206 --> 00:34:12,000 our vehicles twelve years ago... -[Macy] Did I show you any videos 737 00:34:12,172 --> 00:34:13,965 of going to the rally races? -[Divina] No. 738 00:34:14,103 --> 00:34:15,275 Oh, I'll have to show you. 739 00:34:16,896 --> 00:34:18,793 -It was pretty cool. -Can't get your guys'-- 740 00:34:18,965 --> 00:34:22,068 [Macy] Wait, wait, wait, wait. Hold on, oh, I -- no. 741 00:34:22,241 --> 00:34:24,379 I looked at my phone and quickly had to, like, 742 00:34:24,551 --> 00:34:26,275 pull it back so that she couldn't see, 743 00:34:26,447 --> 00:34:27,793 because I realized that I had 744 00:34:27,965 --> 00:34:31,103 all these nudes that I hadn't hid yet. 745 00:34:34,757 --> 00:34:38,862 If my mother-in-law would have seen some of my nudes, 746 00:34:39,000 --> 00:34:40,137 she might have had a heart attack, 747 00:34:40,310 --> 00:34:42,172 then I probably would have passed out. 748 00:34:42,344 --> 00:34:43,896 We have some Southwest egg rolls. 749 00:34:44,034 --> 00:34:45,482 That's so sweet of you. 750 00:34:45,655 --> 00:34:46,793 [Bruce] Hey, let me pray real quick. 751 00:34:46,965 --> 00:34:48,241 Let me pray real quick. 752 00:34:48,241 --> 00:34:49,688 Thank you, Jesus, for this food and all of your blessings. 753 00:34:49,862 --> 00:34:50,862 -Amen. -Amen. 754 00:34:52,757 --> 00:34:54,896 [Macy] My dad is a pastor. 755 00:34:55,034 --> 00:34:58,793 I remember, like, accepting Jesus into my heart 756 00:34:58,965 --> 00:35:01,896 at a really young age. I was in church choir. 757 00:35:02,034 --> 00:35:04,655 I would spend my summers going to church camps, 758 00:35:04,827 --> 00:35:09,689 going to church festivals, like anything church related, 759 00:35:09,862 --> 00:35:11,137 I was pretty much there. 760 00:35:11,310 --> 00:35:14,068 Macy has many wonderful attributes. 761 00:35:14,241 --> 00:35:15,655 Her heart is her... 762 00:35:17,793 --> 00:35:20,275 is my favorite thing about Macy. 763 00:35:20,448 --> 00:35:23,137 -You make me cry. -And your love for Jesus, yeah. 764 00:35:23,310 --> 00:35:25,482 -Thanks. -[Stacey speaking] 765 00:35:31,551 --> 00:35:33,000 But whenever they -- 766 00:35:35,448 --> 00:35:37,068 At the mall she's walking around there... 767 00:35:38,068 --> 00:35:40,551 [Bruce] Yeah. And in today's culture, 768 00:35:40,724 --> 00:35:42,379 being a mother doesn't hold 769 00:35:42,551 --> 00:35:44,137 the value it did, like, in the '60s. 770 00:35:44,310 --> 00:35:47,137 But basically, they have the benefit of Jim with what 771 00:35:47,310 --> 00:35:49,551 he does, that she can, yeah, just be 772 00:35:49,724 --> 00:35:51,482 a committed mother and wife. 773 00:35:51,655 --> 00:35:54,689 That's her job, and she's dedicated to it. 774 00:35:54,862 --> 00:35:56,275 -Give me five. -So thank you for that, Dad. 775 00:35:56,448 --> 00:35:57,689 [Bruce] Yeah. 776 00:35:58,896 --> 00:36:01,034 So are we getting together tomorrow night for ping pong? 777 00:36:01,206 --> 00:36:03,034 -Right after Bible study. -Oh, after Bible study. 778 00:36:03,206 --> 00:36:04,413 Yeah. Yeah. 779 00:36:04,586 --> 00:36:08,172 I want to be able to come out the way that I want to, 780 00:36:08,344 --> 00:36:11,482 but the Macy that my family knows, 781 00:36:13,275 --> 00:36:15,172 they definitely won't ever see 782 00:36:16,172 --> 00:36:18,172 this coming that I do adult content. 783 00:36:19,275 --> 00:36:21,275 And that's why it's really scary, because... 784 00:36:22,793 --> 00:36:24,482 it's gonna throw them a curve ball 785 00:36:24,655 --> 00:36:26,931 and I don't know how they're gonna respond. 786 00:36:29,379 --> 00:36:30,655 -Love you, Dad. -Love you, sweetie. 787 00:36:30,827 --> 00:36:32,137 Thank you for all the kind words. 788 00:36:32,310 --> 00:36:34,103 Oh, thank you. Thank you, sweetie. 789 00:36:34,275 --> 00:36:36,103 Love you very much. 790 00:36:36,275 --> 00:36:38,172 -Whoo! -Happy birthday! 791 00:36:39,689 --> 00:36:41,586 Do you want to go talk? 792 00:36:41,758 --> 00:36:43,793 At this point, the tensions are very high. 793 00:36:43,965 --> 00:36:46,379 -Like, you never talk to me. -Uh... 794 00:36:48,137 --> 00:36:49,103 [Brianna] I'm done with the conversation. 795 00:36:49,275 --> 00:36:50,275 [bleep] pointless. 796 00:36:56,551 --> 00:36:58,896 ♪ The big cities ain't looking pretty ♪ 797 00:36:59,034 --> 00:37:00,551 ♪ From the farm on the hill ♪ 798 00:37:00,724 --> 00:37:01,586 [Tammy] Is this open? 799 00:37:01,758 --> 00:37:03,000 -[Drew] Maybe. -Oh, no, it slides. 800 00:37:05,344 --> 00:37:07,655 -Nice to see you. -Hi. 801 00:37:07,827 --> 00:37:09,586 Do you want a hot dog or hamburger? 802 00:37:09,758 --> 00:37:12,586 -Hey, what's up? -Hey! 803 00:37:12,758 --> 00:37:14,103 Did you copy me? 804 00:37:14,275 --> 00:37:15,344 [Jim] I did. 805 00:37:15,517 --> 00:37:16,689 Phillip is about to come in, 806 00:37:16,862 --> 00:37:18,655 so if we all circle around, that would be sweet. 807 00:37:21,689 --> 00:37:23,137 [cheering] 808 00:37:23,310 --> 00:37:25,379 Happy birthday to you! 809 00:37:29,310 --> 00:37:30,689 -What's up, cousin? -Hey. 810 00:37:31,896 --> 00:37:34,206 -Happy birthday. -Thank you. 811 00:37:35,689 --> 00:37:36,689 Yeah, I might. 812 00:37:36,862 --> 00:37:39,137 So you had a secret name all this time. 813 00:37:39,310 --> 00:37:40,862 -Yep. -[Tammy] Oh, yeah. 814 00:37:41,000 --> 00:37:42,000 I guess I haven't really talked 815 00:37:42,172 --> 00:37:43,413 to you guys that much. -They kept saying that. 816 00:37:43,413 --> 00:37:45,103 I created that name because I was like, I've never met 817 00:37:45,275 --> 00:37:46,896 an ugly Erika in my life. 818 00:37:47,034 --> 00:37:48,655 -[laughs] -Yeah. 819 00:37:48,827 --> 00:37:52,620 When we get together, this is a community where we feel safe 820 00:37:52,793 --> 00:37:55,379 and we can be ourselves and not be judged. 821 00:37:55,551 --> 00:37:58,137 I have, like, my studio downstairs in our basement, 822 00:37:58,310 --> 00:37:59,793 and we have, like, this special, like, 823 00:37:59,965 --> 00:38:01,137 lock on it. -Yeah. 824 00:38:01,137 --> 00:38:03,793 And I, like, the other day, my sister asked me. 825 00:38:03,965 --> 00:38:05,965 She's like, "What's in that room?" 826 00:38:06,103 --> 00:38:08,034 And I was like, "Oh, it's just extra storage. 827 00:38:08,206 --> 00:38:09,793 We just don't want anybody to get into it." 828 00:38:17,413 --> 00:38:20,034 I just don't understand all of this. 829 00:38:20,206 --> 00:38:22,517 [Jim] Hey, you got the Lord on your ass, you know? 830 00:38:28,034 --> 00:38:32,103 We found out watching the local news that Bri was 831 00:38:32,275 --> 00:38:36,448 doing spicy, naughty things and it was a bit of 832 00:38:36,620 --> 00:38:39,448 a earthquake through the family. 833 00:38:39,620 --> 00:38:43,137 It's interesting, Phil. You live an interesting life. 834 00:38:43,310 --> 00:38:44,551 Thank you. Yes. 835 00:38:44,724 --> 00:38:48,172 I am not the only person in my house doing spicy content. 836 00:38:49,241 --> 00:38:50,310 My husband does it as well. 837 00:38:51,793 --> 00:38:53,586 Untie my top, and I'll be like, 838 00:38:53,758 --> 00:38:55,068 -"Oh, no... -Oh, yeah. 839 00:38:55,241 --> 00:38:57,068 ...to see more, watch later." 840 00:38:57,241 --> 00:38:59,241 -Or something like that, yeah. -Mm-hmm, yeah. 841 00:38:59,413 --> 00:39:01,000 Whenever your page started blowing up, 842 00:39:02,344 --> 00:39:05,275 we decided to do content together. 843 00:39:05,448 --> 00:39:07,068 Very naughty things. 844 00:39:07,241 --> 00:39:09,758 I do think it turns out better as a team effort, like. 845 00:39:09,931 --> 00:39:10,793 Oh, yeah. 846 00:39:13,689 --> 00:39:15,965 [indistinct chatter] 847 00:39:16,103 --> 00:39:18,517 -Hi! -Megan and Tyler are here. 848 00:39:18,689 --> 00:39:20,448 -Hello! -Hi! 849 00:39:21,689 --> 00:39:25,000 [Tammy] Our friend group is very tight, so it would be really hard 850 00:39:25,137 --> 00:39:27,517 if things with Bri and Megan were not resolved. 851 00:39:31,448 --> 00:39:33,000 I don't want to have to feel like people have 852 00:39:33,137 --> 00:39:34,241 to choose sides. 853 00:39:37,551 --> 00:39:38,862 Do you want a hot dog or hamburger? 854 00:39:39,000 --> 00:39:39,965 -How are you? -Good. 855 00:39:40,103 --> 00:39:41,275 -How are you? -Which one do you want? 856 00:39:41,275 --> 00:39:43,034 Let's just do a hot dog. That'll be easier. Hot dog. 857 00:39:43,206 --> 00:39:44,137 So it turned out really, really nice. 858 00:39:44,310 --> 00:39:45,551 -Thank you. -Yeah. 859 00:39:45,724 --> 00:39:48,344 [Megan] I was nervous coming to the party 860 00:39:48,517 --> 00:39:50,655 because things aren't the same. 861 00:39:50,827 --> 00:39:54,655 At this point, the tensions are very high between Bri and I. 862 00:39:54,827 --> 00:39:56,137 [Tammy] Don't get between me and my food. 863 00:39:56,310 --> 00:39:58,172 It's gonna get ugly. I'm just saying. 864 00:39:59,482 --> 00:40:01,344 [Megan] Bri and I were friends. 865 00:40:01,517 --> 00:40:04,482 You know, she taught just a few doors down from me. 866 00:40:04,655 --> 00:40:06,689 So, like, we grew close very quickly. 867 00:40:08,206 --> 00:40:12,206 But there was a moment that I realized Bri and I weren't 868 00:40:12,379 --> 00:40:14,241 as close as we once were. 869 00:40:14,413 --> 00:40:17,068 -Do you want to go talk? -Yeah. 870 00:40:17,241 --> 00:40:20,655 But at the same time, I really value this friend group. 871 00:40:20,827 --> 00:40:25,689 I don't want to not be invited or go to these events just 872 00:40:25,862 --> 00:40:27,620 because there's some tension with Bri and I. 873 00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:31,758 The heater's getting better. I'm gonna cover up. 874 00:40:31,931 --> 00:40:33,344 -[Megan] You have a blankie, can I get under? -Yeah. 875 00:40:34,965 --> 00:40:37,034 -How have you been? -Not too bad. 876 00:40:37,206 --> 00:40:38,517 -Yeah? -It's been a long time. 877 00:40:38,689 --> 00:40:40,344 I know, I feel like I haven't talked to you in forever. 878 00:40:40,517 --> 00:40:41,448 I know. 879 00:40:43,896 --> 00:40:45,344 [exhales heavily] Um... 880 00:40:46,551 --> 00:40:49,379 I feel like I have this, like, weird... 881 00:40:50,862 --> 00:40:52,655 frustration. 882 00:40:52,827 --> 00:40:56,137 I was talking with Tammy, and then she was just 883 00:40:56,310 --> 00:40:58,689 mentioning that, like, you had said, 884 00:40:58,862 --> 00:41:00,310 we're not really, like, friends anymore, 885 00:41:00,482 --> 00:41:02,275 and we just grew apart, and I was like, 886 00:41:03,448 --> 00:41:05,551 that's weird. Like, it's news to me. 887 00:41:05,724 --> 00:41:10,551 I mean, I said those things out of a place of hurt, 888 00:41:10,724 --> 00:41:14,413 um, mainly because I felt like I was a part of the group, 889 00:41:14,586 --> 00:41:16,793 and then it felt like I was being excluded from the group 890 00:41:16,965 --> 00:41:19,344 because I wasn't invited to 891 00:41:19,517 --> 00:41:21,413 some of the get-togethers and parties. 892 00:41:21,586 --> 00:41:23,517 It, like, really hurt my feelings that, like, 893 00:41:23,689 --> 00:41:24,793 everybody else was invited, 894 00:41:24,965 --> 00:41:27,034 but I wasn't even invited to that. 895 00:41:27,206 --> 00:41:30,275 But do you understand why I wouldn't invite you? 896 00:41:30,448 --> 00:41:32,758 Like, I had been, like, reaching out to you and, 897 00:41:32,931 --> 00:41:35,448 like, texting and, like... 898 00:41:35,620 --> 00:41:38,551 like, you never talked to me if I didn't message you or, 899 00:41:38,724 --> 00:41:39,965 like, talk to you. 900 00:41:40,103 --> 00:41:42,448 It's just hard, and it's, like, awkward, and, like, 901 00:41:42,620 --> 00:41:44,689 I don't know, like -- like, it sucks. 902 00:41:44,862 --> 00:41:48,689 Like, I lost, like, a huge, like, person in my life. 903 00:41:48,862 --> 00:41:52,068 [Megan] I do understand why Bri's confused about the friendship. 904 00:41:52,241 --> 00:41:56,379 There is a lot that hasn't been said between Bri and I, 905 00:41:56,551 --> 00:41:57,482 but I'm not sure that 906 00:41:57,655 --> 00:42:00,413 I am ready to have that conversation. 907 00:42:00,586 --> 00:42:03,000 I feel like we're repeating what we're saying. 908 00:42:06,655 --> 00:42:08,413 OK, I need a drink or something. 909 00:42:09,551 --> 00:42:10,586 I'll see you downstairs. 910 00:42:11,896 --> 00:42:13,551 I was definitely expecting a little more 911 00:42:13,724 --> 00:42:14,931 from the conversation. 912 00:42:15,068 --> 00:42:18,896 I just don't have clarity on where the distance came from. 913 00:42:20,793 --> 00:42:22,896 I think I'm done with the conversation. 914 00:42:24,758 --> 00:42:27,689 In the back of my mind, there is that nagging feeling 915 00:42:27,862 --> 00:42:32,448 that Bri did something that I'm still trying to get over. 916 00:42:37,172 --> 00:42:39,000 I can't say it. I just can't. 917 00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:47,896 -What the [bleep]? -I don't know. 918 00:42:48,034 --> 00:42:49,793 There's a guy over there watching us. 919 00:42:49,965 --> 00:42:51,448 It's like, somebody found out. 920 00:42:57,793 --> 00:42:59,689 [singer vocalizing] 921 00:42:59,862 --> 00:43:01,689 -Oh, we're all good. -Oh, I'm just kidding. 922 00:43:01,862 --> 00:43:03,103 Yeah, there we go. 923 00:43:05,482 --> 00:43:07,275 I love this gym because they have the kids club, 924 00:43:07,448 --> 00:43:09,482 so you can literally bring your kids, drop them off, 925 00:43:09,655 --> 00:43:13,000 and you have two hours where you can do whatever you want. -Right. 926 00:43:13,172 --> 00:43:18,172 The wig and sunglasses is not on standby at the gym. 927 00:43:18,344 --> 00:43:19,517 So, I'm kind of nervous. 928 00:43:21,413 --> 00:43:23,896 I think I'm still trying to recover from Phil's party. 929 00:43:24,034 --> 00:43:25,931 Oh, yeah, I was gonna say, that was a lot, 930 00:43:26,068 --> 00:43:27,379 but it was a good party. -Oh yeah. 931 00:43:27,551 --> 00:43:29,551 The barn looked amazing. I was like... 932 00:43:29,724 --> 00:43:32,310 I know. It was like drab to fab. 933 00:43:32,482 --> 00:43:34,448 -Mm-hmm. -What the heck? 934 00:43:34,620 --> 00:43:36,551 [Tammy] So, did you and Megan get a chance to talk last night? 935 00:43:38,206 --> 00:43:43,172 So, yeah, Megan said some things about the fact that 936 00:43:43,344 --> 00:43:48,655 we had that get-together at your house, and she was 937 00:43:48,827 --> 00:43:51,379 offended because she didn't get an invite. 938 00:43:52,517 --> 00:43:53,758 I didn't know that. 939 00:43:53,931 --> 00:43:55,034 -[Brianna] Yeah. -[Tammy] I'm sorry. 940 00:43:56,827 --> 00:43:59,620 We really enjoy being together and just having fun. 941 00:43:59,793 --> 00:44:01,586 I don't want to have separate get-togethers. 942 00:44:01,758 --> 00:44:03,896 You know, I want to see the group together as a whole. 943 00:44:06,068 --> 00:44:08,344 I was going to ask you guys, 'cause it's been a while since 944 00:44:08,517 --> 00:44:10,000 we've actually been able to get together. 945 00:44:10,137 --> 00:44:12,379 Like, it's been, what, at least a year since we've done, 946 00:44:12,551 --> 00:44:14,000 like, a MILF House meeting? -For MILF House, yeah. 947 00:44:15,103 --> 00:44:18,724 MILF House is a fun little social media group that we have 948 00:44:18,896 --> 00:44:23,137 that is Bri and Megan and Macy and myself. 949 00:44:23,310 --> 00:44:26,586 Are you guys still wanting to do MILF House? 950 00:44:26,758 --> 00:44:28,172 [Brianna] We have a lot of fun when we do it. 951 00:44:28,344 --> 00:44:29,482 -Yeah, we do. -I do. 952 00:44:29,655 --> 00:44:30,586 It's really fun. 953 00:44:30,758 --> 00:44:32,793 Outside of, like, content, you know? 954 00:44:32,965 --> 00:44:35,241 Like, it's just, like, being playful with each other 955 00:44:35,413 --> 00:44:36,586 and, you know. -Yeah. 956 00:44:36,758 --> 00:44:38,620 The chicken banana one is my favorite. 957 00:44:39,862 --> 00:44:41,000 Chicken banana. 958 00:44:42,827 --> 00:44:44,931 MILF House is, like, a more domesticated, 959 00:44:45,068 --> 00:44:48,034 down version of what we do as adult content creators, 960 00:44:48,206 --> 00:44:50,896 and it just attempts to kind of, like, show people that 961 00:44:51,034 --> 00:44:55,103 we can be fun and, like, wild on the weekends and that, 962 00:44:55,275 --> 00:44:56,206 like, we're moms, too. 963 00:44:57,172 --> 00:44:58,793 There's a guy over there watching us. 964 00:45:00,620 --> 00:45:01,655 Oh, yeah. 965 00:45:03,482 --> 00:45:05,034 Oh, my God, please. 966 00:45:06,103 --> 00:45:08,275 Have you always felt, like, safe here? 967 00:45:08,448 --> 00:45:09,379 Yeah. 968 00:45:09,551 --> 00:45:10,793 Had anyone approached you, like, 969 00:45:10,965 --> 00:45:12,000 in a weird way or anything? 970 00:45:12,000 --> 00:45:14,931 Yeah, no, I've never had anybody be odd about it. 971 00:45:15,068 --> 00:45:17,137 You never know. You're always gonna run into odd people at the gym, 972 00:45:17,310 --> 00:45:18,758 'cause there's just so many people. 973 00:45:18,931 --> 00:45:20,793 But, no, most people here are very nice. 974 00:45:20,965 --> 00:45:22,551 Maybe they're just intimidated to, like, talk to you. 975 00:45:22,724 --> 00:45:24,034 I'm sure that's what that is. 976 00:45:25,551 --> 00:45:27,862 You guys want to get our waters and head over 977 00:45:28,000 --> 00:45:29,068 to the treadmills? -Yeah. 978 00:45:29,068 --> 00:45:31,379 -All right, let's go. -I packed a protein bar. 979 00:45:34,862 --> 00:45:38,103 Hey, girl. Are you at 175 yet? 980 00:45:38,275 --> 00:45:39,275 54. 981 00:45:40,275 --> 00:45:41,413 Keep going. 982 00:45:42,793 --> 00:45:44,482 We have plenty of space for you to put your stuff. 983 00:45:44,655 --> 00:45:46,655 I'm going to take off my glasses, 984 00:45:46,827 --> 00:45:48,793 because if I start sweating with these things on... 985 00:45:50,172 --> 00:45:52,379 -I'm taking it easy today. -You can adjust this. 986 00:45:52,551 --> 00:45:53,655 What are you putting your speed at? 987 00:45:53,827 --> 00:45:56,068 -I'll go 3.5. -Girl, oh my gosh. 988 00:45:56,241 --> 00:45:59,862 -I'm like 1.5. -I'm gonna get my steps in. 989 00:46:01,413 --> 00:46:02,827 -Honestly. -How about two? 990 00:46:03,000 --> 00:46:04,413 There we go. 991 00:46:04,586 --> 00:46:06,793 No, but I was, like, wondering 992 00:46:06,965 --> 00:46:08,931 how you're feeling, like, being out and, like, 993 00:46:09,068 --> 00:46:10,862 you don't have your disguise on? 994 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:13,551 Are you, like, struggling with coming out, you think? 995 00:46:13,724 --> 00:46:15,000 Or, like... 996 00:46:15,137 --> 00:46:17,034 I feel like I'm ready, 'cause I've been undercover 997 00:46:17,206 --> 00:46:20,034 for, like, three years. -That takes so much strength. 998 00:46:20,206 --> 00:46:21,206 Yeah. 999 00:46:22,275 --> 00:46:24,724 [Brianna] I was undercover for three months. 1000 00:46:24,896 --> 00:46:26,655 -I mean, not very long. -Maybe. 1001 00:46:26,827 --> 00:46:29,000 You know, like, your thing, Bri, like, you didn't have a choice. 1002 00:46:29,172 --> 00:46:30,137 Like, somebody found out 1003 00:46:30,310 --> 00:46:31,517 and then leaked that everywhere. 1004 00:46:32,655 --> 00:46:34,724 But I didn't wear a wig. 1005 00:46:34,896 --> 00:46:36,310 -Right. -I didn't... 1006 00:46:38,793 --> 00:46:40,517 -What the [bleep]. -I don't know. 1007 00:46:46,034 --> 00:46:47,689 [Tammy] What is happening right now? 1008 00:46:47,862 --> 00:46:49,034 -Guys. -Yes. 1009 00:46:49,206 --> 00:46:50,310 They're kicking us out. 1010 00:46:50,482 --> 00:46:51,724 -What? -They Googled Brianna. 1011 00:46:51,896 --> 00:46:53,724 Are you serious? 1012 00:46:53,896 --> 00:46:55,827 -We weren't taking naughty pictures. -Right. 1013 00:46:56,000 --> 00:46:57,241 We weren't handing out business cards. 1014 00:46:57,413 --> 00:46:59,275 -We weren't advertising what we do. -[Macy] Yeah. 1015 00:46:59,448 --> 00:47:03,586 This is really freaking scary that I am getting kicked out of 1016 00:47:03,758 --> 00:47:05,655 something that's just part of my normal life. 1017 00:47:05,827 --> 00:47:07,103 [producer] They want no part of this. 1018 00:47:07,275 --> 00:47:08,310 -Are you serious? -That sucks. 1019 00:47:08,482 --> 00:47:10,482 So, let's walk out and get out of here. 1020 00:47:12,620 --> 00:47:13,827 Dude. 1021 00:47:14,000 --> 00:47:16,793 Getting kicked out of the gym is making me realize that 1022 00:47:16,965 --> 00:47:19,689 coming out isn't just about telling the truth. 1023 00:47:20,827 --> 00:47:22,586 What the [bleep]. Can they legally do that? 1024 00:47:22,758 --> 00:47:26,000 It's about knowing that I'm probably gonna be judged 1025 00:47:27,103 --> 00:47:29,862 and treated like I'm not human, 1026 00:47:30,000 --> 00:47:31,620 and I don't know if I'm ready for that yet. 1027 00:47:33,551 --> 00:47:34,551 [producer] Let's go. 1028 00:47:38,482 --> 00:47:41,413 This season on "Double Lives of Suburban Wives." 1029 00:47:41,586 --> 00:47:43,517 This will be like a moms gone wild trip. 1030 00:47:43,689 --> 00:47:44,793 Whoo! 1031 00:47:44,965 --> 00:47:47,034 ♪ Just feeling so...♪ 1032 00:47:47,206 --> 00:47:49,034 -Whoo! -[screams] 1033 00:47:50,482 --> 00:47:51,448 -Cheers. -Cheers. 1034 00:47:51,620 --> 00:47:53,172 -Right? -Yes. 1035 00:47:53,344 --> 00:47:55,793 None of my kids know that I make adult content. 1036 00:47:55,965 --> 00:47:57,620 I haven't wanted to face it. 1037 00:47:58,655 --> 00:48:01,137 Once the kids go to school is when the adult content creating 1038 00:48:01,310 --> 00:48:02,310 starts around here. 1039 00:48:02,482 --> 00:48:03,827 You have all these new toys. 1040 00:48:04,000 --> 00:48:05,068 You have the new Corvette. 1041 00:48:05,241 --> 00:48:06,448 [indistinct] 1042 00:48:06,620 --> 00:48:08,620 In my mind, I'm like, "Are they secret drug dealers?" 1043 00:48:09,758 --> 00:48:13,034 [Macy] Growing up in the church, coming out to my dad 1044 00:48:13,206 --> 00:48:14,965 really terrifies me. 1045 00:48:15,103 --> 00:48:17,448 I want to think that they will still want a relationship 1046 00:48:17,620 --> 00:48:19,517 with me, but I don't really know. 1047 00:48:19,689 --> 00:48:22,965 [Brianna] I always knew the life I chose could have consequences, 1048 00:48:23,103 --> 00:48:25,310 but I never thought that those consequences 1049 00:48:25,482 --> 00:48:27,034 would affect my friends. 1050 00:48:27,206 --> 00:48:28,862 It's so uncomfortable with Megan here. 1051 00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:30,310 Did you guys talk at all? 1052 00:48:30,310 --> 00:48:33,827 Megan acting like she doesn't even know me is ridiculous. 1053 00:48:34,000 --> 00:48:36,034 I feel like you're almost kind of talking like, 1054 00:48:36,206 --> 00:48:39,034 you're close with us, but you're not. 1055 00:48:39,206 --> 00:48:41,965 This group isn't just friendship to me. 1056 00:48:42,103 --> 00:48:44,172 I don't want Emily to ruin that. 1057 00:48:44,344 --> 00:48:46,034 I don't trust my husband. 1058 00:48:46,206 --> 00:48:48,689 We just face issues with content creation. 1059 00:48:48,862 --> 00:48:51,206 Don't put it off on, I haven't pursued you. 1060 00:48:51,379 --> 00:48:54,482 -I feel so miserable right now. -I'm just gonna say it. 1061 00:48:54,655 --> 00:48:57,000 Mom, we have something we need to tell you. 1062 00:48:57,137 --> 00:48:58,862 No, no, no. 1063 00:48:59,000 --> 00:49:01,482 I hate Jim. He's a piece of [bleep]. 1064 00:49:01,655 --> 00:49:02,724 You're still [bleep] talking. 1065 00:49:02,896 --> 00:49:04,206 -Shut the [bleep] up! -You're right, I am, Jim. 1066 00:49:04,206 --> 00:49:07,551 -Our problems are our problems. -I see both sides of the story. 1067 00:49:07,724 --> 00:49:09,379 Do you know things that I don't know? 1068 00:49:09,551 --> 00:49:10,517 What the [bleep]? 1069 00:49:10,517 --> 00:49:12,241 Being honest without any empathy at all 1070 00:49:12,413 --> 00:49:13,620 is just being rude. 1071 00:49:13,793 --> 00:49:15,862 I was looking for girlfriends, 1072 00:49:16,000 --> 00:49:18,448 but I'm not gonna kiss asses to get there. 1073 00:49:18,620 --> 00:49:21,000 These girls all have secrets, and I'm ready 1074 00:49:21,137 --> 00:49:22,413 for everyone to know. 1075 00:49:22,586 --> 00:49:24,379 I just wouldn't be able to forgive that. 1076 00:49:24,551 --> 00:49:26,034 Maybe she's not telling the truth. 1077 00:49:26,206 --> 00:49:27,034 I want a divorce. 1078 00:49:27,206 --> 00:49:28,413 Like, I don't want to be married. 1079 00:49:29,896 --> 00:49:30,827 You shut the [bleep] up! 1080 00:49:31,000 --> 00:49:31,862 -Shut me, shut me up. -OK? 1081 00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:33,034 Shut me up! 1082 00:49:33,034 --> 00:49:34,448 I don't think it's ever gonna be the same.