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We're going to one of the harshest winters in the world.

There is no finish line.

But there's $250,000 waiting for the last person.

I'll do anything to win this thing.

It's snowing!

Winter has arrived.

It's so cold.

Soon that lake will freeze over.

Look at that.

There are no fish.

Oh man.

Alone season four, the North Pole.

It looks like Donkey Kong.

Well, well, well. Hasn't the game just changed?

This is the Arctic Circle.

Mother Nature will show us no mercy.

But I grew up during the war.

Hey, fish!

typing out, where I come from is not an option.

When you hear people say that it is I'm not going to stop, I really believe

that I will not give up in this.

I'm just lost.

I have done all the things You are not supposed to do this.

It's just pain.

We don't give up.

Not until I made this lure and caught a fish with this hair.

Slight hip pain.

Harden your steps, Alyce.

That duck knows where all the fish are

and they always go back to the middle of the lake.

It's where I need to go.

I'm building a damn boat in the Arctic.

It's just so shallow.

That's why I don't catch anything.

I'm going for the deep end.

Operation Canoe.

Or kayaking, whatever you want to call it.

I feel the wind blowing.

Oh no!

What if I don't catch any fish today?

Or tomorrow? Or the next day?

How many failures can I tolerate?

I've struggled with a lot of mental health problems.

I always push myself, even if it means breaking myself.

I told myself I wouldn't continue when I'm mentally worse.

No.

I'm doing well.

I'm doing well. I'm doing well. I'm doing well.

So you know, I'm going to eat here.

But they're just berries.

Berries, berries, berries.

I might have, I don't know, in between one and four cups of berries per day.

Phew!

Because of how much, I just started making a spoon.

A small spoon.

Just for fun, really.

It feels like I'm eating a meal.

I create and I can get about eight berries there.

I'm so...

I feel so chic.

I've got the little finger going.

Sometimes I heat the berries.

Oh, If I do, I'll be in for a treat.

I heat the berries.

I wouldn't mind a little fish but with these berries.

Speaking of which, this will be mine first day fishing on the boat.

Wish me luck, guys.

I really hope this thing floats.

Fingers crossed.

Make no mistake, guys, this is survival.

But we have to take risks, even to get fish.

Let's go.

You come with me on the boat.

Okay, let's see if we do that can take this to the water.

Never built a kayak before.

I hope this works, huh?

Not ideal.

I have to be very careful,

because it would be damn dangerous for me

falling into the water at this time.

When I'm in the middle of it more, that's really dangerous.

That cold shock could ruin me.

Hypothermia can kill you pretty quickly.

And I promised Jen, I promised my wife

that I would come home in one functional piece.

If I died, She would be so mad at me.

Oh dear, there's a strong wind.

Here we go.

Holy cow!

Yeah, gosh, it's already pushed me in the bloody rocks.

I can't see water.

Nothing except some I came in on my feet.

We are on the water.

I did it. I actually did it.

Oh, we have a lot of space there.

Yes!

We have a boat.

Damn, I'm going against the wind.

No, let's not get too cocky.

Let's not get too cocky yet.

I won't go into too much depth just in case, just in case

a slow leak that becomes sudden a quick leak.

Paddle works very well.

it's really stable.

I'm impressed.

I'm damn happy with it.

I built a boat.

That's a win today.

Hopefully a fish tomorrow.

it's starting!

How's that for a threesome? camera angle?

So I decided to take it with me my photo appeared today.

This is from Holden at the top from Mirror Peak, and I took it.

And the reason I brought this photo is because a few days

before this photo, I was really having a hard time.

I had really bad migraines.

We were camping at high altitude in the snow.

My blood pressure was really low.

And the night before the summit, I had an ultimatum.

If I stayed at camp

or that I would go through it at midnight

to make it before sunrise at 6,400 meters.

I really wanted it so bad.

So I gave myself a bit of a pep talk.

I had to find everything within me,

and I just defied all things I felt.

I pushed on, and i fucking did it.

And I was so very happy with myself,

and I was so proud because I felt so down.

But I also thought about the fact that if I was a guide and

I saw myself as I looked, I wouldn't have let myself go.

The truth is, I could have done that I really hurt myself there.

I could have endangered others.

I always push myself to the limit.

12 days.

I am extremely proud of myself.

Hello, this is Lillian, and I'm officially dropping out.

How are you feeling?

I've been in my head a lot during this time,

and I think I need to know when it's okay to take a step back.

I usually don't do that.

Usually I just go on and on until I hurt myself.

And I feel like I already have a little,

and I just have to learn to just...

..get rid of that and really take care of myself.

This whole process was intimidating and frightening,

and I've been worried.

But it was an honor to receive to sit here in this beautiful place

and live in it.

And the Arctic Circle is a part of me.

How to wash in the bush.

Take a few lightly used ones underpants,

put it in hot water,

wash your hair.

Another gray old dawn this morning.

Made no sense getting out of bed at all.

Every day is a little harder, I'm telling you.

Waking up with empty insides, going to bed with empty bowels.

Body slowly dissolves itself.

It is not sustainable,

but we will insist.

See what it can do.

I'm looking forward to trying it the new one digs out.

The shelter, the hut.

More than just a hiding place for me, that's my home.

Well, this is where I think I will build my permanent campsite,

in my Taj Mahal overlooking the water.

I gave myself a whole week to get this job done.

I'm not going to rush it.

Screen 101, make sure you reach the bottom of the hole nice and tight.

No stranger to the rather harsh climate.

It's getting cold with a capital C.

Nothing worse than being cold because your body just burns energy

I'm trying to stay warm, so...

..it's pretty important You have a good hiding place.

That looks good, honey.

If you're hot, you don't burn calories,

so you save your body fat just a little bit longer.

It's a lot of work.

As you can see, I still have some work to do.

But I think it's definitely worth it in this environment.

I hope it's worth it.

I just have to watch so I don't crash and burn.

Come together. We can do this.

We can do it.

Yes.

That's a tight fit.

We may end up unplugging Some of those holes are a little bigger,

but she's all tied up.

She looks good.

Ladies and gentlemen, we have officially moved.

One fully insulated winter hut.

Pretty happy.

Can you tell?

I have a good name.

There we have it.

I think it's pretty cool.

Welcome to Guts Ache Inn.

Permanent now.

I'm here forever.

I just have to learn to eat rocks and moss and tree trunks.

honey.

Come on, wind.

Switch off.

I just need to get this in the water.

That was my intention from day one.

Take the kayak out.

Try to get that damn net in the water.

I'm tired of talking about it.

It's now day 13 and I haven't caught any fish yet.

Look at those maggots.

Do you see them?

Do you see that?

That's what I eat.

These maggot mushrooms are definitely of rank.

Hey, damn.

I've made a decision.

I'm going to get the kayak out. Damn.

I have to get fish.

First trip.

You saw what happened to the Titanic, the maiden voyage of the Titanic.

It sank, and I really don't do that wants that to happen to me.

If that kayak fails 300 yards away...

..I'm not going in anymore.

I can't swim that far at these temperatures.

I'm sitting there on the rocks.

Here goes nothing!

I feel it at the bottom.

hey!

hey.

It's tippy.

It's damn tippy.

I feel it on the rocks.

I'm so nervous.

I'm shitting myself here.

I'm so nervous.

I'm shitting myself here.

Come on, go away.

my God.

This is so tip top.

Being out here is very, very risky.

It's tippy.

But I have to try.

I have to try it. I can't try.

Right.

I feel a gust of wind.

That's nice to cool down.

I need a huge supply of fish.

That's the only way I'm going to win this.

I'm going to put out my net.

I'm going to get that thing in the water,

and I'm going to find the bastards.

Good enough for me.

Good enough to fuck Dougy.

Go in there.

That's it.

My net is in the water.

Look, I just came blown onto the shore here.

Let's go back.

One, two, three.

How do you get up? any of these things?

I'm sweating.

Well folks, the kayak worked.

The problem is where I am.

There's nothing near the shore, and I haven't seen a single fish take off yet.

I haven't seen any fish jump yet.

I still haven't seen it one fish on the surface.

I hope there's something in that net.

I just want it to pay off.

You know what I mean?

Holy shit, I have a fish!

I have a fish!

Yes!

come on.

I don't even have a damn net.

it's a pike.

I'm eating fish tonight!

Not the largest in the world, but he is food.

Aussie, Aussie, Aussie.

I'm gonna cook the motherfucker.

But first I'm going to throw something lures into the water with its entrails.

See if there's anything there will come ashore tonight.

Little better.

Gotta catch it.

At least I have half a chance to catch it as it comes in.

Slimy pike.

I'm just going to cut him up in a few different pieces

and just put it in the pot.

There's no point in filleting him.

This little bit can boil up...

..along with his head.

And then I'm going to drink the juices

and suck off the meat.

Like Gollum would.

So this is my first real food for two weeks.

Sweet.

I can feel the goodness of that fish just absorbing into my body,

invading my brain.

I'll tell you what, what a lifesaver.

This meat is a delicious white fish.

Hopefully things aren't too bad now of a domino effect where I caught

that pike, now I use the guts to try to catch more fish.

You know what I mean?

Hopefully now it just starts rolling.

Oh God, that's so good.

A lot better than maggot mushrooms, I'm telling you.

OK.

That's a pot of mushrooms.

Shit.

Bugger.

All good.

Nothing has been wasted.

Cool.

Funny that, isn't it?

Filthy.

It's quite subjective.

There is clean dirt and dirty dirt.

It's pretty clean dirt around here.

You know, city dirt, dirty dirt.

Gosh, the fishing was a challenge, wasn't it?

I've tried a few things.

All I can do is keep coming with ideas and thinking about them.

You know what I don't have thought about trying as bait?

A bit of foot calluses.

Probably smell a little.

I can cut off a small piece of bait off my foot, I think.

Hopefully I get enough of it without being dangerous.

How am I going to do this?

I'm getting a little flustered.

Go in there.

I guess I have to be brave and go a little deeper

then just that small piece of skin.

Maybe I'll use my sharper knife so it's a little more accurate.

It's hard stuff, isn't it?

That's more like it.

God, this knife is so sharp

and I have to put a little sawing work in this.

It feels a little creepy.

Look at that damn snail.

Oh yes.

That remains on the hook crazy good.

Here we go, shedding foot calluses.

What a cast.

Get calluses on your foot.

Let's go, let's go, get calluses on your foot.

The tables are turned, little fish, you can try it humanly.

Not many fish get this opportunity.

It's a full circle.

You eat me, I eat you.

I keep wondering if you guys do that think I'm very strange or not.

I'm trying just for this whole experience, just be myself.

And I know myself as, I'm quite unusual and strange.

I would say: if I am something,

I would call it a neurological... neurospicy or neurodivergent.

Probably just a little... a bit on the unusual side.

But hey, nobody is perfect.

And you can be imperfect and do such crazy things.

Holy shit.

That was quite a bite.

Found something nice the damn foot calluses.

Oh yes.

Stretch.

Well, it's day 14.

The sun hasn't been up that long.

Daylight is getting shorter.

A little daily comb.

Gotta keep this delicious... Oh God, that's bad.

That button is bad.

That's terrible.

That's terrible potential.

and I forgot to update you.

My hip is doing better.

Actually fully functional again.

What's on the agenda today?

I have to go check my gillnet.

Hoping and praying that there is a fish in this net.

And that my lure fishing will catch something today.

I need oily fish. It's that simple.

You need fish to stay here for a long time.

I almost get nervous to watch.

I'm scared like what if there isn't one?

I'm going to crush my little heart.

This is the only place that I can cast a gillnet.

Everywhere else it's just snags, snags for meters from the coast.

So this area is really my top choice.

Come on.

there's a whole bunch of weed.

It's actually ridiculous.

Not one fish, for example.

It's okay.

Just have to try something different.

This may sound stubborn, but I know I'm a good fisherman's wife.

When I moved, I started fishing to the coast in the Pilbara.

And I was surrounded by many fishing fanatics.

Everyone had a boat.

Free time for everyone was spent fishing.

So I had no other choice but to learn.

And I literally became addicted.

In terms of skills, I think I have a bit of that of an advantage when it comes to fishing.

And my greatest strength is fishing is lure fishing.

Guys, I invented a bait.

I'm going to show you how to make it.

It's called the Grayling Gaslighter.

Brought to you by the undersigned, my hair.

I've been excited to make this since I got here.

I haven't had time for it.

And besides, it's not just for grayling.

It's the fish that wants to get it.

I'm sure they all are gonna love it.

It's a crowd pleaser.

So you need a split-shot sinker, a hook.

Here is some hair I prepared earlier.

and you need fishing line.

That would help too.

So we just got this thingamajig.

And then you actually just crimp on the wire.

Here we go, kids.

That's why I colored my hair.

I'm going to show you how it moves in the water.

It works.

Right. We're going to give her a chance.

We're going to cast the Grayling Gaslighter.

Oh yes.

Wish me luck.

I'll need it.

Yeah, that was a good cast.

Oh no, he got caught.

It's stuck under the tree trunk.

No, that's gone.

That's gone forever.

Oh no.

Oh shit.

Bad news.

I got stuck on a tree trunk.

You know what?

They are easy to make. I can make another one.

You know, this whole area is rough, as if it is inevitable that it will happen.

Oh well.

Please try again.

It's a devastating saying that fishing is your best skill

and you can't do it to catch a single fish.

It feels like shit.

It feels like it's embarrassing.

I thought I would be the fish queen of the season.

That's what I thought.

I'm not even kidding.

It was a bit heartbreaking, if i'm honest.

I thought about fishing was my most important skill.

I'm a bad... I'm terrible at bushcraft.

I'm not a survivalist, but I knew I could fish,

and get no fish,

it was a stab in the heart.

I like fishing.

You know, I really like fishing,

and that I can't fish here

makes me feel like I'm not flourishing.

I don't want to play the hunger game.

If I can't get fish here, then what's the point?

Yesterday was a good day.

We caught a small pike.

I got the kayak on the water.

I go out and check mine lines I used last night

those pike intestines.

I hope I have something.

This.

It's stuck.

It was tight.

I just try to feel every pull on the line.

Any sign of life.

You just don't know when there is a big fish.

It's just lying there, addicted.

But it's kind of stuck against a rock.

I'm going to get in the kayak with this one and try to free him.

Nice.

Let's try and see what happens with this catch.

Nice.

Kind and gentle.

the catch is out.

And I'm wearing a fish!

I have a rainbow trout!

Don't lose it.

Yes!

You beauty!

I'm eating fish tonight!

Yes!

Come on!

I caught that trout on pike guts.

It's been dead for a while, it has rigor mortis.

Should I kneel?

Fuck!

Fuck!

Right, that answers that.

No.

I'm really glad I sat down those four lines last night.

But what makes me even happier is this little beauty.

Absolutely beautiful.

Oh God, I'm happy.

So now I have two fish.

I have seven baits in the water.

Here goes nothing.

All using fish intestines.

One, two, three.

I have three aces in the deep water,

one floats,

and I have too my net under water.

One, two, three.

Perfect.

I would love it, for two weeks of good fishing opportunities from the lake

before it freezes, so I have a good supply of fish.

Let's see how that goes.

I just had a snack.

I can tell you.

Do I have a fish here?

I'm wearing a fish.

I got a fish right away.

Take your time.

Take your time. I think it's a small pike.

Take your time.

Do it gently.

Have you seen that?

I have a pike.

Immediately.

This is true I caught that pike yesterday.

Exactly the same place.

Well, just come back of setting me... me of setting lines,

and when I was posting one, I had a snack.

Another small pike.

Do you see them hanging there?

Away from the critters.

Probably just as happy and satisfied as I have been since I came here.

I have 10 lines in the water,

me just in the water,

and I have two fish hanging on the tree.

Fine.

I'm going to start on my permanent shelter.

I have to work on that.

I just arrived at my setline site.

I've never seen the lake before this still and clearly.

I can see to the bottom.

It's quite devastating because this is the first time i see it

what's good underneath in the area I thought was good

fishing spot.

There are still snags.

Do you see that?

I thought that was disappointing.

It's just shallow rock.

And yes, I don't have to lift my landline out of the water.

I can't see anything there.

There is nothing.

It is what it is.

There are no fish here.

There are no fish.

I've lost hope, if I'm completely honest.

I'm going to cast and then this is it.

This is my last day of fishing.

I don't know what else to do.

That's the point.

I've been busy for over two weeks and I didn't catch any fish.

I saw that.

I just saw something.

My God.

There's a damn fish in there.

There is a fish right in front of it.

I saw the bulge.

The bloop.

Another one.

So there are fish. They just don't want my locks.

Maybe I should make flies and actively casting a fly.

Let's make a fly.

I found these bones on the first day.

The first 10 minutes after I landed.

The snail.

Holy shit.

I literally just saw the snail.

I'm going to use that as bait.

I'm going...

I'm sorry, little man.

That is the first important harvest that I found.

I didn't find a single worm since I got here.

I was just about to say I'm going to make something with these bones,

and then me literally just saw this snail.

my God.

I need to start casting this.

I really hope so it's a sign that this is it.

Because I feel so much hope now.

A lot of hope.

Gee, I never thought about a snail could give me this feeling.

It's ridiculous.

Yes honey, this is what it's going to be.

This is the snail of my dreams.

Okay, it's on.

Okay.

If a fat slug catches nothing, then I don't know what it will be.

But I have hope.

I got a head kick.

And then I got another one.

Stay sharp.

Yes, coach. Yes.

I'm working on it.

Stay focused.

You're here for a reason.

Keep moving.

The leaves are falling.

The winter, the cold winter, is coming.

I think today is the day that we need to make a small door

for our shelter.

Rule number one in survival,

you must have a sturdy shelter are protected from the elements,

to keep you warm.

This morning I'm feeling a bit down.

It's just one of those days, right?

Yes.

I think we all have that some of those days in our lives.

But when you come out of the war Zone, you will have bad memories.

so that's one.

Australian, they don't know how lucky they are.

Where we don't have war, there is no killing, dying for no reason.

No such thing.

Our house was bombed.

My sisters, my brother, You know, we were just playing.

Just next to our kitchen.

We were just children.

And so was my mother at the time washing clothes and such

prepare, because you had to evacuate.

And then suddenly, all I saw was huge dust.

It hit me in the face.

And it just shook me.

So I crawled into the kitchen.

And then my mother was still in shock, didn't know what happened.

I shouted at her, but she couldn't hear me.

And then the dust came behind me.

And then she just ran, grabbed me,

and then one by one, she was like a blind man,

go through the dust and cloud and everything.

And just look for my little sister, they were all there.

Everyone hurried some of our neighbors,

they thought we were all gone.

But when they saw us all alive, they cried.

It was like a miracle.

I remember one of our neighbors just grabbed me.

And she was just...

She just held me tight in her chest...

..while she cried.

Later, a few weeks later,

that lady who held me

while she cried,

she was so happy that we were all still alive...

..another missile hit her house...

..while they had breakfast with their children.

Six of their relatives was simply murdered on the spot.

This is just the horror stuff that I witnessed as a child.

It's so much fun.

Once you get the heat in your face,

you just stop and you just scan, it's so much fun.

I know what it means if you have nothing.

Yes, I have trouble catching fish,

but that's not even a little bit shake my strength,

my mental toughness.

That gives me an advantage in this experience.

I'm on my landline where I put it hooked the snail yesterday.

Oh man, I'm nervous.

I'm nervous to watch nervous to take it out.

Today is the day, I feel it.

Today is my lucky day.

Let's see.

Okay, the snail's gone...

..and the hook is still there.

Okay, okay, more, I understand, I get it.

You know, it really is feels like a kick in the gut.

It's like it's more saying, “No.

'Give up, go home. There are no fish for you here.”

I'm frustrated, I'm hungry, I'm cold.

I need a fish to stay in the game.

I need the calories, I need the fat.

what do you want, crow?

I want to say, “it's a sign, I saw a crow.

"It goes, 'Arrh!'"

But that's not it, it's just a damn crow.

I came in here with an agenda.

I went fishing every day,

I would get all this abundance of fish,

and I would continue up to 50 days.

And that could have happened

and I think if I had fish,

it certainly would have been is the case, but I don't.

What is the difference between if I call it today,

or in three days, or in a week?

If there are no fish, there are no fish.

Maybe today is a good day to go.

You can't fight nature.

And I think I do, I'm fighting nature now.

Hello, Alyce.

Hello, it's Alyce.

I'm officially dropping out.

Okay.

Yes. Yes.

I think it's time to go.

It's time to listen to nature,

listen to my intuition,

and all that says: "Your story ends here."

It was very humiliating.

Maybe it will end like this because this is what I need.

How do you feel now?

At this point I feel ready to go.

Yes, I know that I'm not going to get any fish.

I've tried everything, I gave it 110%.

19 days without fish is really heavy.

But I love this country, and it is It was a great privilege to be here,

on my pack of Sapmi.

But the country says no.

The country now says no.

It's time to go home.

When I landed, When I got off the boat,

and I asked permission of the country,

I said clearly: "I am your disciple, and you are the teacher,

“So teach me what you need.”

Nature had a message for me.

You don't decide what happens.

Nature decides.

I'm officially out of food.

I fucking hate this place.

Hunger certainly strikes.

If I don't get any fish, then could be the end of my time here.

I have to be careful when I'm here.

I'm losing weight I'm hangry, and I'm desperate.

I'll do anything to win this thing.

That's a fish.

It got caught in that net.

I might go for a swim, guys.

If I get hypothermia, I could die.

Fuck!

Hello?

Hello? He's not here.

Hello, buddy?

He's gone. He's actually gone.

He's missing. Call it in.

We need immediate backup for search and rescue operations.

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