1 00:00:17,480 --> 00:00:20,600 We're going to one of the harshest winters in the world. 2 00:00:20,600 --> 00:00:22,200 There is no finish line. 3 00:00:22,200 --> 00:00:27,480 But there's $250,000 waiting for the last person. 4 00:00:27,480 --> 00:00:29,480 I'll do anything to win this thing. 5 00:00:32,120 --> 00:00:34,120 It's snowing! 6 00:00:34,120 --> 00:00:35,120 Winter has arrived. 7 00:00:35,120 --> 00:00:36,600 It's so cold. 8 00:00:36,600 --> 00:00:38,560 Soon that lake will freeze over. 9 00:00:38,560 --> 00:00:40,240 Look at that. 10 00:00:40,240 --> 00:00:42,080 There are no fish. 11 00:00:42,080 --> 00:00:43,480 Oh man. 12 00:00:44,600 --> 00:00:46,880 Alone season four, the North Pole. 13 00:00:46,880 --> 00:00:49,120 It looks like Donkey Kong. 14 00:00:50,400 --> 00:00:53,360 Well, well, well. Hasn't the game just changed? 15 00:01:02,480 --> 00:01:04,480 This is the Arctic Circle. 16 00:01:04,480 --> 00:01:07,320 Mother Nature will show us no mercy. 17 00:01:07,320 --> 00:01:08,920 But I grew up during the war. 18 00:01:08,920 --> 00:01:10,600 Hey, fish! 19 00:01:10,600 --> 00:01:15,120 typing out, where I come from is not an option. 20 00:01:15,120 --> 00:01:18,280 When you hear people say that it is I'm not going to stop, I really believe 21 00:01:18,280 --> 00:01:20,640 that I will not give up in this. 22 00:01:20,640 --> 00:01:21,640 I'm just lost. 23 00:01:21,640 --> 00:01:24,280 I have done all the things You are not supposed to do this. 24 00:01:24,280 --> 00:01:25,280 It's just pain. 25 00:01:25,280 --> 00:01:27,200 We don't give up. 26 00:01:27,200 --> 00:01:29,520 Not until I made this lure and caught a fish with this hair. 27 00:01:29,520 --> 00:01:31,200 Slight hip pain. 28 00:01:31,200 --> 00:01:33,520 Harden your steps, Alyce. 29 00:01:33,520 --> 00:01:35,320 That duck knows where all the fish are 30 00:01:35,320 --> 00:01:37,240 and they always go back to the middle of the lake. 31 00:01:37,240 --> 00:01:38,280 It's where I need to go. 32 00:01:38,280 --> 00:01:41,280 I'm building a damn boat in the Arctic. 33 00:01:41,280 --> 00:01:42,640 It's just so shallow. 34 00:01:42,640 --> 00:01:44,440 That's why I don't catch anything. 35 00:01:44,440 --> 00:01:45,600 I'm going for the deep end. 36 00:01:45,600 --> 00:01:47,360 Operation Canoe. 37 00:01:47,360 --> 00:01:49,320 Or kayaking, whatever you want to call it. 38 00:01:49,320 --> 00:01:51,400 I feel the wind blowing. 39 00:01:54,240 --> 00:01:56,000 Oh no! 40 00:01:56,000 --> 00:01:58,400 What if I don't catch any fish today? 41 00:01:58,400 --> 00:02:00,360 Or tomorrow? Or the next day? 42 00:02:00,360 --> 00:02:03,880 How many failures can I tolerate? 43 00:02:03,880 --> 00:02:07,640 I've struggled with a lot of mental health problems. 44 00:02:07,640 --> 00:02:12,040 I always push myself, even if it means breaking myself. 45 00:02:12,040 --> 00:02:17,280 I told myself I wouldn't continue when I'm mentally worse. 46 00:02:17,280 --> 00:02:20,120 No. 47 00:02:20,120 --> 00:02:21,720 I'm doing well. 48 00:02:21,720 --> 00:02:24,600 I'm doing well. I'm doing well. I'm doing well. 49 00:03:28,320 --> 00:03:30,720 So you know, I'm going to eat here. 50 00:03:30,720 --> 00:03:34,120 But they're just berries. 51 00:03:34,120 --> 00:03:35,880 Berries, berries, berries. 52 00:03:35,880 --> 00:03:42,640 I might have, I don't know, in between one and four cups of berries per day. 53 00:03:44,200 --> 00:03:45,200 Phew! 54 00:03:48,680 --> 00:03:54,960 Because of how much, I just started making a spoon. 55 00:03:54,960 --> 00:03:57,320 A small spoon. 56 00:03:57,320 --> 00:03:59,400 Just for fun, really. 57 00:03:59,400 --> 00:04:01,920 It feels like I'm eating a meal. 58 00:04:01,920 --> 00:04:04,440 I create and I can get about eight berries there. 59 00:04:11,200 --> 00:04:12,280 I'm so... 60 00:04:12,280 --> 00:04:13,280 I feel so chic. 61 00:04:13,280 --> 00:04:14,280 I've got the little finger going. 62 00:04:19,760 --> 00:04:22,440 Sometimes I heat the berries. 63 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:26,960 Oh, If I do, I'll be in for a treat. 64 00:04:26,960 --> 00:04:28,680 I heat the berries. 65 00:04:32,720 --> 00:04:35,960 I wouldn't mind a little fish but with these berries. 66 00:04:35,960 --> 00:04:41,120 Speaking of which, this will be mine first day fishing on the boat. 67 00:04:41,120 --> 00:04:43,160 Wish me luck, guys. 68 00:04:43,160 --> 00:04:44,680 I really hope this thing floats. 69 00:04:44,680 --> 00:04:47,120 Fingers crossed. 70 00:04:47,120 --> 00:04:50,760 Make no mistake, guys, this is survival. 71 00:04:50,760 --> 00:04:54,960 But we have to take risks, even to get fish. 72 00:04:54,960 --> 00:04:55,960 Let's go. 73 00:04:59,360 --> 00:05:01,440 You come with me on the boat. 74 00:05:03,840 --> 00:05:06,640 Okay, let's see if we do that can take this to the water. 75 00:05:10,840 --> 00:05:12,480 Never built a kayak before. 76 00:05:14,400 --> 00:05:16,240 I hope this works, huh? 77 00:05:19,360 --> 00:05:21,880 Not ideal. 78 00:05:21,880 --> 00:05:23,960 I have to be very careful, 79 00:05:23,960 --> 00:05:25,760 because it would be damn dangerous for me 80 00:05:25,760 --> 00:05:27,400 falling into the water at this time. 81 00:05:29,080 --> 00:05:32,880 When I'm in the middle of it more, that's really dangerous. 82 00:05:32,880 --> 00:05:34,600 That cold shock could ruin me. 83 00:05:37,160 --> 00:05:39,720 Hypothermia can kill you pretty quickly. 84 00:05:42,200 --> 00:05:45,000 And I promised Jen, I promised my wife 85 00:05:45,000 --> 00:05:48,840 that I would come home in one functional piece. 86 00:05:50,920 --> 00:05:54,760 If I died, She would be so mad at me. 87 00:06:01,600 --> 00:06:03,080 Oh dear, there's a strong wind. 88 00:06:10,880 --> 00:06:11,880 Here we go. 89 00:06:18,680 --> 00:06:20,760 Holy cow! 90 00:06:24,440 --> 00:06:28,040 Yeah, gosh, it's already pushed me in the bloody rocks. 91 00:06:31,480 --> 00:06:32,480 I can't see water. 92 00:06:34,040 --> 00:06:36,480 Nothing except some I came in on my feet. 93 00:06:38,640 --> 00:06:39,640 We are on the water. 94 00:06:41,680 --> 00:06:43,880 I did it. I actually did it. 95 00:06:45,760 --> 00:06:49,240 Oh, we have a lot of space there. 96 00:06:51,640 --> 00:06:52,880 Yes! 97 00:06:55,120 --> 00:06:56,160 We have a boat. 98 00:06:58,800 --> 00:07:00,200 Damn, I'm going against the wind. 99 00:07:01,960 --> 00:07:04,320 No, let's not get too cocky. 100 00:07:04,320 --> 00:07:06,200 Let's not get too cocky yet. 101 00:07:16,960 --> 00:07:20,760 I won't go into too much depth just in case, just in case 102 00:07:20,760 --> 00:07:22,880 a slow leak that becomes sudden a quick leak. 103 00:07:26,520 --> 00:07:28,360 Paddle works very well. 104 00:07:32,280 --> 00:07:35,080 it's really stable. 105 00:07:35,080 --> 00:07:36,520 I'm impressed. 106 00:07:36,520 --> 00:07:39,480 I'm damn happy with it. 107 00:07:41,960 --> 00:07:43,320 I built a boat. 108 00:07:43,320 --> 00:07:45,360 That's a win today. 109 00:07:45,360 --> 00:07:46,760 Hopefully a fish tomorrow. 110 00:07:48,240 --> 00:07:50,360 it's starting! 111 00:08:13,320 --> 00:08:15,960 How's that for a threesome? camera angle? 112 00:08:19,080 --> 00:08:22,720 So I decided to take it with me my photo appeared today. 113 00:08:25,600 --> 00:08:33,240 This is from Holden at the top from Mirror Peak, and I took it. 114 00:08:35,400 --> 00:08:42,680 And the reason I brought this photo is because a few days 115 00:08:42,680 --> 00:08:48,000 before this photo, I was really having a hard time. 116 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:50,400 I had really bad migraines. 117 00:08:50,400 --> 00:08:53,240 We were camping at high altitude in the snow. 118 00:08:53,240 --> 00:08:55,720 My blood pressure was really low. 119 00:08:57,800 --> 00:09:03,800 And the night before the summit, I had an ultimatum. 120 00:09:03,800 --> 00:09:07,000 If I stayed at camp 121 00:09:07,000 --> 00:09:10,760 or that I would go through it at midnight 122 00:09:10,760 --> 00:09:15,320 to make it before sunrise at 6,400 meters. 123 00:09:15,320 --> 00:09:17,880 I really wanted it so bad. 124 00:09:20,720 --> 00:09:23,280 So I gave myself a bit of a pep talk. 125 00:09:24,720 --> 00:09:28,680 I had to find everything within me, 126 00:09:28,680 --> 00:09:33,840 and I just defied all things I felt. 127 00:09:33,840 --> 00:09:37,960 I pushed on, and i fucking did it. 128 00:09:37,960 --> 00:09:41,960 And I was so very happy with myself, 129 00:09:41,960 --> 00:09:45,040 and I was so proud because I felt so down. 130 00:09:48,080 --> 00:09:52,840 But I also thought about the fact that if I was a guide and 131 00:09:52,840 --> 00:09:56,600 I saw myself as I looked, I wouldn't have let myself go. 132 00:09:57,880 --> 00:10:02,600 The truth is, I could have done that I really hurt myself there. 133 00:10:04,960 --> 00:10:06,320 I could have endangered others. 134 00:10:09,680 --> 00:10:11,880 I always push myself to the limit. 135 00:10:26,520 --> 00:10:27,600 12 days. 136 00:10:31,800 --> 00:10:33,280 I am extremely proud of myself. 137 00:10:46,960 --> 00:10:51,920 Hello, this is Lillian, and I'm officially dropping out. 138 00:11:17,240 --> 00:11:18,800 How are you feeling? 139 00:11:20,640 --> 00:11:24,920 I've been in my head a lot during this time, 140 00:11:24,920 --> 00:11:30,400 and I think I need to know when it's okay to take a step back. 141 00:11:35,680 --> 00:11:37,880 I usually don't do that. 142 00:11:37,880 --> 00:11:41,800 Usually I just go on and on until I hurt myself. 143 00:11:41,800 --> 00:11:45,680 And I feel like I already have a little, 144 00:11:45,680 --> 00:11:48,280 and I just have to learn to just... 145 00:11:51,200 --> 00:11:54,360 ..get rid of that and really take care of myself. 146 00:11:58,120 --> 00:12:01,360 This whole process was intimidating and frightening, 147 00:12:01,360 --> 00:12:03,320 and I've been worried. 148 00:12:05,440 --> 00:12:11,760 But it was an honor to receive to sit here in this beautiful place 149 00:12:11,760 --> 00:12:13,200 and live in it. 150 00:12:14,800 --> 00:12:19,240 And the Arctic Circle is a part of me. 151 00:12:49,040 --> 00:12:52,320 How to wash in the bush. 152 00:12:52,320 --> 00:12:56,880 Take a few lightly used ones underpants, 153 00:12:56,880 --> 00:12:59,280 put it in hot water, 154 00:12:59,280 --> 00:13:00,600 wash your hair. 155 00:13:05,280 --> 00:13:08,360 Another gray old dawn this morning. 156 00:13:08,360 --> 00:13:10,400 Made no sense getting out of bed at all. 157 00:13:12,960 --> 00:13:15,320 Every day is a little harder, I'm telling you. 158 00:13:16,840 --> 00:13:19,840 Waking up with empty insides, going to bed with empty bowels. 159 00:13:21,040 --> 00:13:23,600 Body slowly dissolves itself. 160 00:13:25,400 --> 00:13:27,200 It is not sustainable, 161 00:13:27,200 --> 00:13:30,160 but we will insist. 162 00:13:30,160 --> 00:13:31,640 See what it can do. 163 00:13:37,400 --> 00:13:42,280 I'm looking forward to trying it the new one digs out. 164 00:13:43,720 --> 00:13:45,640 The shelter, the hut. 165 00:13:45,640 --> 00:13:49,920 More than just a hiding place for me, that's my home. 166 00:13:51,680 --> 00:13:55,200 Well, this is where I think I will build my permanent campsite, 167 00:13:55,200 --> 00:14:00,400 in my Taj Mahal overlooking the water. 168 00:14:02,000 --> 00:14:04,960 I gave myself a whole week to get this job done. 169 00:14:06,760 --> 00:14:09,640 I'm not going to rush it. 170 00:14:09,640 --> 00:14:13,080 Screen 101, make sure you reach the bottom of the hole nice and tight. 171 00:14:17,960 --> 00:14:21,840 No stranger to the rather harsh climate. 172 00:14:21,840 --> 00:14:26,160 It's getting cold with a capital C. 173 00:14:26,160 --> 00:14:29,280 Nothing worse than being cold because your body just burns energy 174 00:14:29,280 --> 00:14:31,280 I'm trying to stay warm, so... 175 00:14:33,200 --> 00:14:36,000 ..it's pretty important You have a good hiding place. 176 00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:37,560 That looks good, honey. 177 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:41,920 If you're hot, you don't burn calories, 178 00:14:41,920 --> 00:14:44,080 so you save your body fat just a little bit longer. 179 00:14:46,480 --> 00:14:47,640 It's a lot of work. 180 00:14:47,640 --> 00:14:51,840 As you can see, I still have some work to do. 181 00:14:51,840 --> 00:14:54,240 But I think it's definitely worth it in this environment. 182 00:14:56,560 --> 00:14:57,760 I hope it's worth it. 183 00:15:01,640 --> 00:15:04,800 I just have to watch so I don't crash and burn. 184 00:15:07,840 --> 00:15:11,720 Come together. We can do this. 185 00:15:13,200 --> 00:15:14,520 We can do it. 186 00:15:15,840 --> 00:15:17,200 Yes. 187 00:15:17,200 --> 00:15:19,280 That's a tight fit. 188 00:15:37,960 --> 00:15:41,440 We may end up unplugging Some of those holes are a little bigger, 189 00:15:41,440 --> 00:15:43,840 but she's all tied up. 190 00:15:53,680 --> 00:15:55,400 She looks good. 191 00:15:56,640 --> 00:16:01,160 Ladies and gentlemen, we have officially moved. 192 00:16:01,160 --> 00:16:06,400 One fully insulated winter hut. 193 00:16:06,400 --> 00:16:08,160 Pretty happy. 194 00:16:08,160 --> 00:16:09,160 Can you tell? 195 00:16:11,600 --> 00:16:13,320 I have a good name. 196 00:16:14,360 --> 00:16:15,360 There we have it. 197 00:16:17,560 --> 00:16:19,240 I think it's pretty cool. 198 00:16:20,360 --> 00:16:22,480 Welcome to Guts Ache Inn. 199 00:16:24,480 --> 00:16:25,840 Permanent now. 200 00:16:25,840 --> 00:16:26,840 I'm here forever. 201 00:16:28,440 --> 00:16:31,680 I just have to learn to eat rocks and moss and tree trunks. 202 00:16:35,880 --> 00:16:37,120 honey. 203 00:17:00,040 --> 00:17:02,080 Come on, wind. 204 00:17:02,080 --> 00:17:03,080 Switch off. 205 00:17:04,280 --> 00:17:06,160 I just need to get this in the water. 206 00:17:07,880 --> 00:17:10,200 That was my intention from day one. 207 00:17:10,200 --> 00:17:12,240 Take the kayak out. 208 00:17:12,240 --> 00:17:15,200 Try to get that damn net in the water. 209 00:17:15,200 --> 00:17:16,920 I'm tired of talking about it. 210 00:17:18,480 --> 00:17:23,320 It's now day 13 and I haven't caught any fish yet. 211 00:17:25,960 --> 00:17:27,120 Look at those maggots. 212 00:17:27,120 --> 00:17:28,600 Do you see them? 213 00:17:28,600 --> 00:17:30,360 Do you see that? 214 00:17:30,360 --> 00:17:32,000 That's what I eat. 215 00:17:32,000 --> 00:17:34,400 These maggot mushrooms are definitely of rank. 216 00:17:45,440 --> 00:17:46,520 Hey, damn. 217 00:17:46,520 --> 00:17:47,960 I've made a decision. 218 00:17:50,040 --> 00:17:52,560 I'm going to get the kayak out. Damn. 219 00:17:57,120 --> 00:17:58,560 I have to get fish. 220 00:17:59,680 --> 00:18:01,640 First trip. 221 00:18:01,640 --> 00:18:06,080 You saw what happened to the Titanic, the maiden voyage of the Titanic. 222 00:18:07,320 --> 00:18:10,760 It sank, and I really don't do that wants that to happen to me. 223 00:18:14,720 --> 00:18:17,760 If that kayak fails 300 yards away... 224 00:18:19,920 --> 00:18:21,440 ..I'm not going in anymore. 225 00:18:21,440 --> 00:18:23,440 I can't swim that far at these temperatures. 226 00:18:25,960 --> 00:18:27,680 I'm sitting there on the rocks. 227 00:18:29,560 --> 00:18:30,960 Here goes nothing! 228 00:18:39,400 --> 00:18:41,560 I feel it at the bottom. 229 00:18:42,560 --> 00:18:44,040 hey! 230 00:18:55,760 --> 00:18:57,280 hey. 231 00:18:57,280 --> 00:18:59,120 It's tippy. 232 00:18:59,120 --> 00:19:00,800 It's damn tippy. 233 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:05,440 I feel it on the rocks. 234 00:19:05,440 --> 00:19:06,840 I'm so nervous. 235 00:19:08,400 --> 00:19:12,240 I'm shitting myself here. 236 00:19:31,480 --> 00:19:33,120 I'm so nervous. 237 00:19:34,680 --> 00:19:38,480 I'm shitting myself here. 238 00:19:41,680 --> 00:19:43,000 Come on, go away. 239 00:19:48,160 --> 00:19:51,000 my God. 240 00:19:51,000 --> 00:19:52,200 This is so tip top. 241 00:20:00,000 --> 00:20:04,800 Being out here is very, very risky. 242 00:20:04,800 --> 00:20:05,880 It's tippy. 243 00:20:08,240 --> 00:20:10,000 But I have to try. 244 00:20:10,000 --> 00:20:12,120 I have to try it. I can't try. 245 00:20:16,480 --> 00:20:17,480 Right. 246 00:20:17,480 --> 00:20:19,440 I feel a gust of wind. 247 00:20:19,440 --> 00:20:20,760 That's nice to cool down. 248 00:20:22,560 --> 00:20:24,600 I need a huge supply of fish. 249 00:20:25,680 --> 00:20:28,400 That's the only way I'm going to win this. 250 00:20:30,720 --> 00:20:31,920 I'm going to put out my net. 251 00:20:31,920 --> 00:20:33,240 I'm going to get that thing in the water, 252 00:20:33,240 --> 00:20:34,960 and I'm going to find the bastards. 253 00:20:49,360 --> 00:20:50,760 Good enough for me. 254 00:20:50,760 --> 00:20:52,720 Good enough to fuck Dougy. 255 00:20:52,720 --> 00:20:53,720 Go in there. 256 00:20:55,520 --> 00:20:57,040 That's it. 257 00:20:57,040 --> 00:20:58,240 My net is in the water. 258 00:21:02,280 --> 00:21:04,240 Look, I just came blown onto the shore here. 259 00:21:04,680 --> 00:21:06,000 Let's go back. 260 00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:13,360 One, two, three. 261 00:21:17,920 --> 00:21:19,520 How do you get up? any of these things? 262 00:21:25,920 --> 00:21:26,920 I'm sweating. 263 00:21:31,160 --> 00:21:35,360 Well folks, the kayak worked. 264 00:21:43,600 --> 00:21:46,440 The problem is where I am. 265 00:21:46,440 --> 00:21:50,760 There's nothing near the shore, and I haven't seen a single fish take off yet. 266 00:21:52,680 --> 00:21:54,440 I haven't seen any fish jump yet. 267 00:21:56,160 --> 00:21:59,360 I still haven't seen it one fish on the surface. 268 00:22:03,040 --> 00:22:05,200 I hope there's something in that net. 269 00:22:05,200 --> 00:22:06,640 I just want it to pay off. 270 00:22:06,640 --> 00:22:07,640 You know what I mean? 271 00:22:11,120 --> 00:22:13,160 Holy shit, I have a fish! 272 00:22:13,160 --> 00:22:15,160 I have a fish! 273 00:22:15,160 --> 00:22:17,000 Yes! 274 00:22:18,640 --> 00:22:20,640 come on. 275 00:22:20,640 --> 00:22:22,440 I don't even have a damn net. 276 00:22:22,440 --> 00:22:24,000 it's a pike. 277 00:22:37,440 --> 00:22:40,280 I'm eating fish tonight! 278 00:22:40,280 --> 00:22:44,120 Not the largest in the world, but he is food. 279 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:48,880 Aussie, Aussie, Aussie. 280 00:22:54,040 --> 00:22:56,720 I'm gonna cook the motherfucker. 281 00:22:56,720 --> 00:23:01,800 But first I'm going to throw something lures into the water with its entrails. 282 00:23:06,720 --> 00:23:08,720 See if there's anything there will come ashore tonight. 283 00:23:10,280 --> 00:23:12,200 Little better. 284 00:23:12,200 --> 00:23:13,440 Gotta catch it. 285 00:23:13,440 --> 00:23:16,800 At least I have half a chance to catch it as it comes in. 286 00:23:31,400 --> 00:23:33,680 Slimy pike. 287 00:23:33,680 --> 00:23:37,040 I'm just going to cut him up in a few different pieces 288 00:23:37,040 --> 00:23:40,000 and just put it in the pot. 289 00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:41,720 There's no point in filleting him. 290 00:23:41,720 --> 00:23:44,280 This little bit can boil up... 291 00:23:45,920 --> 00:23:50,600 ..along with his head. 292 00:23:50,600 --> 00:23:52,480 And then I'm going to drink the juices 293 00:23:52,480 --> 00:23:54,120 and suck off the meat. 294 00:23:55,440 --> 00:23:56,560 Like Gollum would. 295 00:24:04,840 --> 00:24:08,600 So this is my first real food for two weeks. 296 00:24:12,560 --> 00:24:13,680 Sweet. 297 00:24:19,520 --> 00:24:24,080 I can feel the goodness of that fish just absorbing into my body, 298 00:24:24,080 --> 00:24:26,080 invading my brain. 299 00:24:26,080 --> 00:24:28,360 I'll tell you what, what a lifesaver. 300 00:24:29,920 --> 00:24:31,800 This meat is a delicious white fish. 301 00:24:33,400 --> 00:24:37,720 Hopefully things aren't too bad now of a domino effect where I caught 302 00:24:37,720 --> 00:24:42,000 that pike, now I use the guts to try to catch more fish. 303 00:24:42,000 --> 00:24:43,680 You know what I mean? 304 00:24:43,680 --> 00:24:46,480 Hopefully now it just starts rolling. 305 00:24:46,480 --> 00:24:47,840 Oh God, that's so good. 306 00:24:50,160 --> 00:24:52,640 A lot better than maggot mushrooms, I'm telling you. 307 00:25:25,240 --> 00:25:27,120 OK. 308 00:25:27,120 --> 00:25:30,080 That's a pot of mushrooms. 309 00:25:31,800 --> 00:25:32,800 Shit. 310 00:25:34,000 --> 00:25:35,000 Bugger. 311 00:25:35,000 --> 00:25:36,480 All good. 312 00:25:36,480 --> 00:25:37,480 Nothing has been wasted. 313 00:25:44,440 --> 00:25:45,760 Cool. 314 00:25:45,760 --> 00:25:47,600 Funny that, isn't it? 315 00:25:47,600 --> 00:25:48,960 Filthy. 316 00:25:48,960 --> 00:25:51,480 It's quite subjective. 317 00:25:51,480 --> 00:25:54,280 There is clean dirt and dirty dirt. 318 00:25:54,280 --> 00:25:55,760 It's pretty clean dirt around here. 319 00:25:57,840 --> 00:25:59,800 You know, city dirt, dirty dirt. 320 00:26:08,320 --> 00:26:12,000 Gosh, the fishing was a challenge, wasn't it? 321 00:26:12,000 --> 00:26:13,960 I've tried a few things. 322 00:26:15,880 --> 00:26:20,800 All I can do is keep coming with ideas and thinking about them. 323 00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:26,040 You know what I don't have thought about trying as bait? 324 00:26:26,040 --> 00:26:27,240 A bit of foot calluses. 325 00:26:29,160 --> 00:26:30,960 Probably smell a little. 326 00:26:36,520 --> 00:26:38,960 I can cut off a small piece of bait off my foot, I think. 327 00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:47,040 Hopefully I get enough of it without being dangerous. 328 00:26:47,040 --> 00:26:49,520 How am I going to do this? 329 00:26:49,520 --> 00:26:51,200 I'm getting a little flustered. 330 00:26:58,840 --> 00:26:59,840 Go in there. 331 00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:13,000 I guess I have to be brave and go a little deeper 332 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,120 then just that small piece of skin. 333 00:27:16,120 --> 00:27:19,200 Maybe I'll use my sharper knife so it's a little more accurate. 334 00:27:25,680 --> 00:27:27,040 It's hard stuff, isn't it? 335 00:27:31,560 --> 00:27:33,800 That's more like it. 336 00:27:33,800 --> 00:27:35,480 God, this knife is so sharp 337 00:27:35,480 --> 00:27:38,040 and I have to put a little sawing work in this. 338 00:27:39,840 --> 00:27:41,240 It feels a little creepy. 339 00:27:43,160 --> 00:27:44,840 Look at that damn snail. 340 00:27:46,320 --> 00:27:47,320 Oh yes. 341 00:27:49,120 --> 00:27:51,440 That remains on the hook crazy good. 342 00:27:58,960 --> 00:28:01,400 Here we go, shedding foot calluses. 343 00:28:06,640 --> 00:28:08,000 What a cast. 344 00:28:12,240 --> 00:28:14,200 Get calluses on your foot. 345 00:28:16,040 --> 00:28:19,120 Let's go, let's go, get calluses on your foot. 346 00:28:22,000 --> 00:28:26,680 The tables are turned, little fish, you can try it humanly. 347 00:28:26,680 --> 00:28:30,520 Not many fish get this opportunity. 348 00:28:30,520 --> 00:28:32,560 It's a full circle. 349 00:28:32,560 --> 00:28:34,040 You eat me, I eat you. 350 00:28:35,880 --> 00:28:40,280 I keep wondering if you guys do that think I'm very strange or not. 351 00:28:40,280 --> 00:28:46,640 I'm trying just for this whole experience, just be myself. 352 00:28:46,640 --> 00:28:51,160 And I know myself as, I'm quite unusual and strange. 353 00:28:51,160 --> 00:28:52,960 I would say: if I am something, 354 00:28:52,960 --> 00:28:57,920 I would call it a neurological... neurospicy or neurodivergent. 355 00:28:57,920 --> 00:29:01,280 Probably just a little... a bit on the unusual side. 356 00:29:02,840 --> 00:29:04,960 But hey, nobody is perfect. 357 00:29:06,200 --> 00:29:09,520 And you can be imperfect and do such crazy things. 358 00:29:14,560 --> 00:29:15,560 Holy shit. 359 00:29:17,440 --> 00:29:19,120 That was quite a bite. 360 00:29:20,520 --> 00:29:22,880 Found something nice the damn foot calluses. 361 00:29:24,360 --> 00:29:25,480 Oh yes. 362 00:29:47,120 --> 00:29:48,120 Stretch. 363 00:29:54,160 --> 00:29:56,560 Well, it's day 14. 364 00:29:56,560 --> 00:29:59,200 The sun hasn't been up that long. 365 00:29:59,200 --> 00:30:01,040 Daylight is getting shorter. 366 00:30:06,000 --> 00:30:07,760 A little daily comb. 367 00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:12,160 Gotta keep this delicious... Oh God, that's bad. 368 00:30:12,160 --> 00:30:13,720 That button is bad. 369 00:30:13,720 --> 00:30:15,040 That's terrible. 370 00:30:15,040 --> 00:30:16,440 That's terrible potential. 371 00:30:18,480 --> 00:30:20,360 and I forgot to update you. 372 00:30:20,360 --> 00:30:21,560 My hip is doing better. 373 00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:23,680 Actually fully functional again. 374 00:30:25,920 --> 00:30:27,280 What's on the agenda today? 375 00:30:28,800 --> 00:30:30,120 I have to go check my gillnet. 376 00:30:35,560 --> 00:30:38,240 Hoping and praying that there is a fish in this net. 377 00:30:40,200 --> 00:30:42,720 And that my lure fishing will catch something today. 378 00:30:44,520 --> 00:30:46,680 I need oily fish. It's that simple. 379 00:30:46,680 --> 00:30:50,320 You need fish to stay here for a long time. 380 00:30:50,320 --> 00:30:52,840 I almost get nervous to watch. 381 00:30:52,840 --> 00:30:55,040 I'm scared like what if there isn't one? 382 00:30:57,160 --> 00:30:58,880 I'm going to crush my little heart. 383 00:31:06,200 --> 00:31:10,240 This is the only place that I can cast a gillnet. 384 00:31:10,240 --> 00:31:14,400 Everywhere else it's just snags, snags for meters from the coast. 385 00:31:15,720 --> 00:31:18,240 So this area is really my top choice. 386 00:31:22,680 --> 00:31:24,680 Come on. 387 00:31:26,920 --> 00:31:29,800 there's a whole bunch of weed. 388 00:31:29,800 --> 00:31:31,480 It's actually ridiculous. 389 00:31:31,480 --> 00:31:35,440 Not one fish, for example. 390 00:31:40,040 --> 00:31:41,040 It's okay. 391 00:31:42,520 --> 00:31:44,200 Just have to try something different. 392 00:31:47,240 --> 00:31:51,040 This may sound stubborn, but I know I'm a good fisherman's wife. 393 00:31:51,040 --> 00:31:54,040 When I moved, I started fishing to the coast in the Pilbara. 394 00:31:54,040 --> 00:31:59,000 And I was surrounded by many fishing fanatics. 395 00:31:59,000 --> 00:32:00,160 Everyone had a boat. 396 00:32:00,160 --> 00:32:02,480 Free time for everyone was spent fishing. 397 00:32:02,480 --> 00:32:04,280 So I had no other choice but to learn. 398 00:32:04,280 --> 00:32:07,320 And I literally became addicted. 399 00:32:07,320 --> 00:32:12,120 In terms of skills, I think I have a bit of that of an advantage when it comes to fishing. 400 00:32:12,120 --> 00:32:14,720 And my greatest strength is fishing is lure fishing. 401 00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:20,800 Guys, I invented a bait. 402 00:32:22,280 --> 00:32:23,520 I'm going to show you how to make it. 403 00:32:23,520 --> 00:32:25,480 It's called the Grayling Gaslighter. 404 00:32:27,320 --> 00:32:32,560 Brought to you by the undersigned, my hair. 405 00:32:32,560 --> 00:32:36,640 I've been excited to make this since I got here. 406 00:32:36,640 --> 00:32:37,640 I haven't had time for it. 407 00:32:39,120 --> 00:32:40,720 And besides, it's not just for grayling. 408 00:32:40,720 --> 00:32:42,640 It's the fish that wants to get it. 409 00:32:42,640 --> 00:32:44,720 I'm sure they all are gonna love it. 410 00:32:44,720 --> 00:32:46,600 It's a crowd pleaser. 411 00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:51,880 So you need a split-shot sinker, a hook. 412 00:32:53,040 --> 00:32:55,080 Here is some hair I prepared earlier. 413 00:32:56,440 --> 00:32:57,720 and you need fishing line. 414 00:32:57,720 --> 00:32:58,760 That would help too. 415 00:33:01,840 --> 00:33:04,000 So we just got this thingamajig. 416 00:33:05,440 --> 00:33:11,480 And then you actually just crimp on the wire. 417 00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:17,720 Here we go, kids. 418 00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:22,040 That's why I colored my hair. 419 00:33:22,040 --> 00:33:25,160 I'm going to show you how it moves in the water. 420 00:33:31,200 --> 00:33:32,800 It works. 421 00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,720 Right. We're going to give her a chance. 422 00:33:38,720 --> 00:33:40,920 We're going to cast the Grayling Gaslighter. 423 00:33:45,360 --> 00:33:47,560 Oh yes. 424 00:33:47,560 --> 00:33:48,560 Wish me luck. 425 00:33:50,640 --> 00:33:51,760 I'll need it. 426 00:33:58,160 --> 00:33:59,880 Yeah, that was a good cast. 427 00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:10,520 Oh no, he got caught. 428 00:34:10,520 --> 00:34:11,880 It's stuck under the tree trunk. 429 00:34:13,760 --> 00:34:15,800 No, that's gone. 430 00:34:17,000 --> 00:34:18,360 That's gone forever. 431 00:34:20,080 --> 00:34:21,320 Oh no. 432 00:34:22,720 --> 00:34:24,280 Oh shit. 433 00:34:31,960 --> 00:34:33,800 Bad news. 434 00:34:33,800 --> 00:34:35,920 I got stuck on a tree trunk. 435 00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:37,360 You know what? 436 00:34:37,360 --> 00:34:39,160 They are easy to make. I can make another one. 437 00:34:39,160 --> 00:34:42,960 You know, this whole area is rough, as if it is inevitable that it will happen. 438 00:34:48,200 --> 00:34:49,480 Oh well. 439 00:34:49,480 --> 00:34:50,480 Please try again. 440 00:34:53,200 --> 00:34:56,920 It's a devastating saying that fishing is your best skill 441 00:34:56,920 --> 00:34:59,760 and you can't do it to catch a single fish. 442 00:34:59,760 --> 00:35:01,000 It feels like shit. 443 00:35:01,000 --> 00:35:05,280 It feels like it's embarrassing. 444 00:35:06,680 --> 00:35:09,880 I thought I would be the fish queen of the season. 445 00:35:09,880 --> 00:35:11,480 That's what I thought. 446 00:35:11,480 --> 00:35:12,480 I'm not even kidding. 447 00:35:17,600 --> 00:35:20,920 It was a bit heartbreaking, if i'm honest. 448 00:35:20,920 --> 00:35:23,240 I thought about fishing was my most important skill. 449 00:35:23,240 --> 00:35:25,600 I'm a bad... I'm terrible at bushcraft. 450 00:35:25,600 --> 00:35:28,320 I'm not a survivalist, but I knew I could fish, 451 00:35:28,320 --> 00:35:30,360 and get no fish, 452 00:35:30,360 --> 00:35:32,400 it was a stab in the heart. 453 00:35:34,160 --> 00:35:36,320 I like fishing. 454 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:39,040 You know, I really like fishing, 455 00:35:39,040 --> 00:35:41,920 and that I can't fish here 456 00:35:41,920 --> 00:35:43,680 makes me feel like I'm not flourishing. 457 00:35:43,680 --> 00:35:46,600 I don't want to play the hunger game. 458 00:35:46,600 --> 00:35:50,800 If I can't get fish here, then what's the point? 459 00:36:35,880 --> 00:36:37,480 Yesterday was a good day. 460 00:36:37,480 --> 00:36:38,840 We caught a small pike. 461 00:36:38,840 --> 00:36:40,160 I got the kayak on the water. 462 00:36:41,800 --> 00:36:46,120 I go out and check mine lines I used last night 463 00:36:46,120 --> 00:36:47,240 those pike intestines. 464 00:36:48,520 --> 00:36:49,520 I hope I have something. 465 00:36:59,720 --> 00:37:00,720 This. 466 00:37:02,480 --> 00:37:03,640 It's stuck. 467 00:37:04,680 --> 00:37:05,960 It was tight. 468 00:37:07,800 --> 00:37:11,640 I just try to feel every pull on the line. 469 00:37:12,960 --> 00:37:13,960 Any sign of life. 470 00:37:16,080 --> 00:37:18,480 You just don't know when there is a big fish. 471 00:37:18,480 --> 00:37:21,120 It's just lying there, addicted. 472 00:37:21,120 --> 00:37:24,080 But it's kind of stuck against a rock. 473 00:37:24,080 --> 00:37:27,080 I'm going to get in the kayak with this one and try to free him. 474 00:37:41,240 --> 00:37:42,360 Nice. 475 00:37:42,360 --> 00:37:46,960 Let's try and see what happens with this catch. 476 00:37:46,960 --> 00:37:48,560 Nice. 477 00:37:48,560 --> 00:37:50,040 Kind and gentle. 478 00:37:53,200 --> 00:37:54,520 the catch is out. 479 00:37:58,920 --> 00:38:00,640 And I'm wearing a fish! 480 00:38:00,640 --> 00:38:02,560 I have a rainbow trout! 481 00:38:04,800 --> 00:38:06,000 Don't lose it. 482 00:38:08,760 --> 00:38:10,560 Yes! 483 00:38:14,040 --> 00:38:15,680 You beauty! 484 00:38:15,680 --> 00:38:17,600 I'm eating fish tonight! 485 00:38:19,840 --> 00:38:21,200 Yes! 486 00:38:21,200 --> 00:38:22,560 Come on! 487 00:38:25,920 --> 00:38:29,160 I caught that trout on pike guts. 488 00:38:31,800 --> 00:38:34,160 It's been dead for a while, it has rigor mortis. 489 00:38:35,720 --> 00:38:36,720 Should I kneel? 490 00:38:45,360 --> 00:38:47,920 Fuck! 491 00:38:49,960 --> 00:38:51,640 Fuck! 492 00:38:54,200 --> 00:38:56,520 Right, that answers that. 493 00:38:56,520 --> 00:38:57,520 No. 494 00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:10,840 I'm really glad I sat down those four lines last night. 495 00:39:10,840 --> 00:39:18,280 But what makes me even happier is this little beauty. 496 00:39:18,280 --> 00:39:19,560 Absolutely beautiful. 497 00:39:21,040 --> 00:39:22,080 Oh God, I'm happy. 498 00:39:25,800 --> 00:39:29,040 So now I have two fish. 499 00:39:30,400 --> 00:39:32,600 I have seven baits in the water. 500 00:39:33,920 --> 00:39:34,920 Here goes nothing. 501 00:39:34,920 --> 00:39:37,360 All using fish intestines. 502 00:39:37,360 --> 00:39:40,120 One, two, three. 503 00:39:41,440 --> 00:39:45,320 I have three aces in the deep water, 504 00:39:45,320 --> 00:39:47,520 one floats, 505 00:39:47,520 --> 00:39:50,880 and I have too my net under water. 506 00:39:50,880 --> 00:39:54,360 One, two, three. 507 00:39:57,000 --> 00:39:59,080 Perfect. 508 00:39:59,080 --> 00:40:04,360 I would love it, for two weeks of good fishing opportunities from the lake 509 00:40:04,360 --> 00:40:07,560 before it freezes, so I have a good supply of fish. 510 00:40:10,360 --> 00:40:12,560 Let's see how that goes. 511 00:40:21,040 --> 00:40:22,480 I just had a snack. 512 00:40:25,040 --> 00:40:26,040 I can tell you. 513 00:40:32,360 --> 00:40:34,280 Do I have a fish here? 514 00:40:34,280 --> 00:40:35,400 I'm wearing a fish. 515 00:40:36,840 --> 00:40:38,280 I got a fish right away. 516 00:40:40,080 --> 00:40:41,320 Take your time. 517 00:40:41,320 --> 00:40:44,120 Take your time. I think it's a small pike. 518 00:40:48,560 --> 00:40:49,840 Take your time. 519 00:40:49,840 --> 00:40:50,840 Do it gently. 520 00:40:54,760 --> 00:40:55,840 Have you seen that? 521 00:40:57,240 --> 00:40:58,600 I have a pike. 522 00:41:00,600 --> 00:41:02,360 Immediately. 523 00:41:04,080 --> 00:41:06,480 This is true I caught that pike yesterday. 524 00:41:06,480 --> 00:41:08,120 Exactly the same place. 525 00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:17,840 Well, just come back of setting me... me of setting lines, 526 00:41:17,840 --> 00:41:22,000 and when I was posting one, I had a snack. 527 00:41:22,000 --> 00:41:23,520 Another small pike. 528 00:41:25,400 --> 00:41:27,320 Do you see them hanging there? 529 00:41:27,320 --> 00:41:29,440 Away from the critters. 530 00:41:31,040 --> 00:41:35,800 Probably just as happy and satisfied as I have been since I came here. 531 00:41:35,800 --> 00:41:38,480 I have 10 lines in the water, 532 00:41:38,480 --> 00:41:41,040 me just in the water, 533 00:41:41,040 --> 00:41:43,360 and I have two fish hanging on the tree. 534 00:41:43,360 --> 00:41:44,360 Fine. 535 00:41:46,560 --> 00:41:49,600 I'm going to start on my permanent shelter. 536 00:41:49,600 --> 00:41:51,040 I have to work on that. 537 00:42:32,480 --> 00:42:35,400 I just arrived at my setline site. 538 00:42:37,560 --> 00:42:40,880 I've never seen the lake before this still and clearly. 539 00:42:40,880 --> 00:42:42,960 I can see to the bottom. 540 00:42:42,960 --> 00:42:47,200 It's quite devastating because this is the first time i see it 541 00:42:47,200 --> 00:42:52,040 what's good underneath in the area I thought was good 542 00:42:52,040 --> 00:42:53,360 fishing spot. 543 00:42:53,360 --> 00:42:55,560 There are still snags. 544 00:42:55,560 --> 00:42:57,120 Do you see that? 545 00:42:57,120 --> 00:42:59,600 I thought that was disappointing. 546 00:42:59,600 --> 00:43:01,200 It's just shallow rock. 547 00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:05,680 And yes, I don't have to lift my landline out of the water. 548 00:43:07,840 --> 00:43:10,360 I can't see anything there. 549 00:43:10,360 --> 00:43:12,400 There is nothing. 550 00:43:12,400 --> 00:43:13,680 It is what it is. 551 00:43:14,960 --> 00:43:17,080 There are no fish here. 552 00:43:19,000 --> 00:43:20,200 There are no fish. 553 00:43:23,640 --> 00:43:26,640 I've lost hope, if I'm completely honest. 554 00:43:31,040 --> 00:43:32,680 I'm going to cast and then this is it. 555 00:43:32,680 --> 00:43:34,520 This is my last day of fishing. 556 00:43:37,120 --> 00:43:38,920 I don't know what else to do. 557 00:43:38,920 --> 00:43:40,760 That's the point. 558 00:43:40,760 --> 00:43:43,360 I've been busy for over two weeks and I didn't catch any fish. 559 00:43:48,800 --> 00:43:51,320 I saw that. 560 00:43:52,880 --> 00:43:55,480 I just saw something. 561 00:43:57,520 --> 00:43:59,000 My God. 562 00:43:59,000 --> 00:44:00,760 There's a damn fish in there. 563 00:44:02,040 --> 00:44:03,880 There is a fish right in front of it. 564 00:44:03,880 --> 00:44:05,880 I saw the bulge. 565 00:44:05,880 --> 00:44:07,160 The bloop. 566 00:44:11,760 --> 00:44:13,120 Another one. 567 00:44:17,240 --> 00:44:19,280 So there are fish. They just don't want my locks. 568 00:44:20,920 --> 00:44:24,920 Maybe I should make flies and actively casting a fly. 569 00:44:27,040 --> 00:44:28,360 Let's make a fly. 570 00:44:36,040 --> 00:44:39,040 I found these bones on the first day. 571 00:44:39,040 --> 00:44:40,960 The first 10 minutes after I landed. 572 00:44:42,400 --> 00:44:43,800 The snail. 573 00:44:43,800 --> 00:44:45,200 Holy shit. 574 00:44:45,200 --> 00:44:46,840 I literally just saw the snail. 575 00:44:48,880 --> 00:44:50,440 I'm going to use that as bait. 576 00:44:51,640 --> 00:44:53,600 I'm going... 577 00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:55,040 I'm sorry, little man. 578 00:44:58,400 --> 00:45:02,520 That is the first important harvest that I found. 579 00:45:02,520 --> 00:45:05,480 I didn't find a single worm since I got here. 580 00:45:05,480 --> 00:45:08,680 I was just about to say I'm going to make something with these bones, 581 00:45:08,680 --> 00:45:10,480 and then me literally just saw this snail. 582 00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:13,040 my God. 583 00:45:13,040 --> 00:45:15,720 I need to start casting this. 584 00:45:20,400 --> 00:45:23,440 I really hope so it's a sign that this is it. 585 00:45:23,440 --> 00:45:27,840 Because I feel so much hope now. 586 00:45:27,840 --> 00:45:29,600 A lot of hope. 587 00:45:29,600 --> 00:45:33,440 Gee, I never thought about a snail could give me this feeling. 588 00:45:33,440 --> 00:45:35,040 It's ridiculous. 589 00:45:36,400 --> 00:45:38,360 Yes honey, this is what it's going to be. 590 00:45:40,120 --> 00:45:43,520 This is the snail of my dreams. 591 00:45:48,080 --> 00:45:49,520 Okay, it's on. 592 00:45:50,920 --> 00:45:52,160 Okay. 593 00:45:53,840 --> 00:45:59,000 If a fat slug catches nothing, then I don't know what it will be. 594 00:46:01,120 --> 00:46:03,480 But I have hope. 595 00:46:39,760 --> 00:46:42,000 I got a head kick. 596 00:46:44,280 --> 00:46:46,640 And then I got another one. 597 00:46:46,640 --> 00:46:48,600 Stay sharp. 598 00:46:48,600 --> 00:46:50,600 Yes, coach. Yes. 599 00:46:50,600 --> 00:46:53,360 I'm working on it. 600 00:46:53,360 --> 00:46:54,520 Stay focused. 601 00:46:54,520 --> 00:46:56,400 You're here for a reason. 602 00:46:56,400 --> 00:46:58,760 Keep moving. 603 00:47:02,680 --> 00:47:04,280 The leaves are falling. 604 00:47:05,800 --> 00:47:10,400 The winter, the cold winter, is coming. 605 00:47:10,400 --> 00:47:14,400 I think today is the day that we need to make a small door 606 00:47:14,400 --> 00:47:16,000 for our shelter. 607 00:47:17,680 --> 00:47:20,080 Rule number one in survival, 608 00:47:20,080 --> 00:47:25,760 you must have a sturdy shelter are protected from the elements, 609 00:47:25,760 --> 00:47:27,240 to keep you warm. 610 00:47:33,880 --> 00:47:37,120 This morning I'm feeling a bit down. 611 00:47:39,400 --> 00:47:41,440 It's just one of those days, right? 612 00:47:41,440 --> 00:47:42,440 Yes. 613 00:47:44,760 --> 00:47:48,080 I think we all have that some of those days in our lives. 614 00:47:51,680 --> 00:47:57,360 But when you come out of the war Zone, you will have bad memories. 615 00:48:00,280 --> 00:48:02,000 so that's one. 616 00:48:06,640 --> 00:48:08,760 Australian, they don't know how lucky they are. 617 00:48:13,120 --> 00:48:18,000 Where we don't have war, there is no killing, dying for no reason. 618 00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:23,600 No such thing. 619 00:48:27,000 --> 00:48:30,520 Our house was bombed. 620 00:48:31,800 --> 00:48:35,320 My sisters, my brother, You know, we were just playing. 621 00:48:36,720 --> 00:48:38,120 Just next to our kitchen. 622 00:48:39,560 --> 00:48:40,600 We were just children. 623 00:48:43,800 --> 00:48:47,680 And so was my mother at the time washing clothes and such 624 00:48:47,680 --> 00:48:50,640 prepare, because you had to evacuate. 625 00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:58,360 And then suddenly, all I saw was huge dust. 626 00:48:58,360 --> 00:49:00,200 It hit me in the face. 627 00:49:01,520 --> 00:49:03,000 And it just shook me. 628 00:49:05,600 --> 00:49:08,040 So I crawled into the kitchen. 629 00:49:09,640 --> 00:49:13,320 And then my mother was still in shock, didn't know what happened. 630 00:49:15,040 --> 00:49:18,600 I shouted at her, but she couldn't hear me. 631 00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:23,480 And then the dust came behind me. 632 00:49:23,480 --> 00:49:26,280 And then she just ran, grabbed me, 633 00:49:26,280 --> 00:49:30,440 and then one by one, she was like a blind man, 634 00:49:30,440 --> 00:49:33,760 go through the dust and cloud and everything. 635 00:49:33,760 --> 00:49:36,760 And just look for my little sister, they were all there. 636 00:49:38,040 --> 00:49:40,400 Everyone hurried some of our neighbors, 637 00:49:40,400 --> 00:49:43,040 they thought we were all gone. 638 00:49:43,040 --> 00:49:48,240 But when they saw us all alive, they cried. 639 00:49:52,360 --> 00:49:56,600 It was like a miracle. 640 00:50:00,120 --> 00:50:05,240 I remember one of our neighbors just grabbed me. 641 00:50:15,640 --> 00:50:17,320 And she was just... 642 00:50:20,760 --> 00:50:25,080 She just held me tight in her chest... 643 00:50:30,000 --> 00:50:31,480 ..while she cried. 644 00:50:40,520 --> 00:50:43,440 Later, a few weeks later, 645 00:50:43,440 --> 00:50:47,600 that lady who held me 646 00:50:47,600 --> 00:50:49,640 while she cried, 647 00:50:49,640 --> 00:50:52,600 she was so happy that we were all still alive... 648 00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:56,840 ..another missile hit her house... 649 00:50:58,600 --> 00:51:02,720 ..while they had breakfast with their children. 650 00:51:02,720 --> 00:51:09,120 Six of their relatives was simply murdered on the spot. 651 00:51:10,440 --> 00:51:16,720 This is just the horror stuff that I witnessed as a child. 652 00:51:20,360 --> 00:51:21,720 It's so much fun. 653 00:51:21,720 --> 00:51:26,080 Once you get the heat in your face, 654 00:51:26,080 --> 00:51:29,880 you just stop and you just scan, it's so much fun. 655 00:51:31,680 --> 00:51:34,840 I know what it means if you have nothing. 656 00:51:36,800 --> 00:51:39,560 Yes, I have trouble catching fish, 657 00:51:39,560 --> 00:51:44,280 but that's not even a little bit shake my strength, 658 00:51:44,280 --> 00:51:48,000 my mental toughness. 659 00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:52,920 That gives me an advantage in this experience. 660 00:52:43,560 --> 00:52:47,240 I'm on my landline where I put it hooked the snail yesterday. 661 00:52:47,240 --> 00:52:48,720 Oh man, I'm nervous. 662 00:52:48,720 --> 00:52:51,600 I'm nervous to watch nervous to take it out. 663 00:52:54,440 --> 00:52:56,480 Today is the day, I feel it. 664 00:52:58,160 --> 00:52:59,480 Today is my lucky day. 665 00:53:06,920 --> 00:53:07,920 Let's see. 666 00:53:26,880 --> 00:53:29,440 Okay, the snail's gone... 667 00:53:33,360 --> 00:53:35,360 ..and the hook is still there. 668 00:53:51,320 --> 00:53:56,920 Okay, okay, more, I understand, I get it. 669 00:54:00,120 --> 00:54:03,040 You know, it really is feels like a kick in the gut. 670 00:54:03,040 --> 00:54:07,480 It's like it's more saying, “No. 671 00:54:07,480 --> 00:54:12,800 'Give up, go home. There are no fish for you here.” 672 00:54:12,800 --> 00:54:17,080 I'm frustrated, I'm hungry, I'm cold. 673 00:54:19,280 --> 00:54:22,560 I need a fish to stay in the game. 674 00:54:22,560 --> 00:54:24,680 I need the calories, I need the fat. 675 00:54:26,480 --> 00:54:28,440 what do you want, crow? 676 00:54:32,960 --> 00:54:36,040 I want to say, “it's a sign, I saw a crow. 677 00:54:36,040 --> 00:54:37,520 "It goes, 'Arrh!'" 678 00:54:37,520 --> 00:54:40,080 But that's not it, it's just a damn crow. 679 00:54:46,120 --> 00:54:48,080 I came in here with an agenda. 680 00:54:48,080 --> 00:54:49,440 I went fishing every day, 681 00:54:49,440 --> 00:54:51,720 I would get all this abundance of fish, 682 00:54:51,720 --> 00:54:54,960 and I would continue up to 50 days. 683 00:54:54,960 --> 00:54:56,600 And that could have happened 684 00:54:56,600 --> 00:54:58,120 and I think if I had fish, 685 00:54:58,120 --> 00:55:01,560 it certainly would have been is the case, but I don't. 686 00:55:01,560 --> 00:55:04,560 What is the difference between if I call it today, 687 00:55:04,560 --> 00:55:06,960 or in three days, or in a week? 688 00:55:06,960 --> 00:55:08,840 If there are no fish, there are no fish. 689 00:55:12,200 --> 00:55:14,400 Maybe today is a good day to go. 690 00:55:15,960 --> 00:55:17,320 You can't fight nature. 691 00:55:21,280 --> 00:55:24,960 And I think I do, I'm fighting nature now. 692 00:55:48,480 --> 00:55:49,880 Hello, Alyce. 693 00:55:49,880 --> 00:55:51,320 Hello, it's Alyce. 694 00:55:51,320 --> 00:55:52,840 I'm officially dropping out. 695 00:55:52,840 --> 00:55:53,920 Okay. 696 00:55:53,920 --> 00:55:55,600 Yes. Yes. 697 00:56:07,240 --> 00:56:10,280 I think it's time to go. 698 00:56:10,280 --> 00:56:12,720 It's time to listen to nature, 699 00:56:12,720 --> 00:56:14,800 listen to my intuition, 700 00:56:14,800 --> 00:56:18,480 and all that says: "Your story ends here." 701 00:56:20,000 --> 00:56:21,280 It was very humiliating. 702 00:56:23,080 --> 00:56:25,640 Maybe it will end like this because this is what I need. 703 00:56:28,800 --> 00:56:30,960 How do you feel now? 704 00:56:30,960 --> 00:56:33,440 At this point I feel ready to go. 705 00:56:35,160 --> 00:56:39,000 Yes, I know that I'm not going to get any fish. 706 00:56:39,000 --> 00:56:42,440 I've tried everything, I gave it 110%. 707 00:56:45,560 --> 00:56:48,920 19 days without fish is really heavy. 708 00:56:48,920 --> 00:56:53,200 But I love this country, and it is It was a great privilege to be here, 709 00:56:53,200 --> 00:56:55,760 on my pack of Sapmi. 710 00:56:58,360 --> 00:56:59,880 But the country says no. 711 00:56:59,880 --> 00:57:01,720 The country now says no. 712 00:57:03,200 --> 00:57:04,520 It's time to go home. 713 00:57:16,160 --> 00:57:20,040 When I landed, When I got off the boat, 714 00:57:20,040 --> 00:57:22,920 and I asked permission of the country, 715 00:57:22,920 --> 00:57:27,880 I said clearly: "I am your disciple, and you are the teacher, 716 00:57:27,880 --> 00:57:29,480 “So teach me what you need.” 717 00:57:30,960 --> 00:57:33,160 Nature had a message for me. 718 00:57:33,160 --> 00:57:34,920 You don't decide what happens. 719 00:57:36,360 --> 00:57:37,520 Nature decides. 720 00:57:45,160 --> 00:57:47,600 I'm officially out of food. 721 00:57:50,600 --> 00:57:52,520 I fucking hate this place. 722 00:57:52,520 --> 00:57:55,760 Hunger certainly strikes. 723 00:57:57,800 --> 00:58:01,680 If I don't get any fish, then could be the end of my time here. 724 00:58:01,680 --> 00:58:03,400 I have to be careful when I'm here. 725 00:58:07,520 --> 00:58:11,880 I'm losing weight I'm hangry, and I'm desperate. 726 00:58:11,880 --> 00:58:14,320 I'll do anything to win this thing. 727 00:58:14,320 --> 00:58:15,760 That's a fish. 728 00:58:15,760 --> 00:58:17,160 It got caught in that net. 729 00:58:17,160 --> 00:58:18,800 I might go for a swim, guys. 730 00:58:18,800 --> 00:58:22,080 If I get hypothermia, I could die. 731 00:58:22,080 --> 00:58:23,560 Fuck! 732 00:58:25,040 --> 00:58:26,400 Hello? 733 00:58:26,400 --> 00:58:28,520 Hello? He's not here. 734 00:58:28,520 --> 00:58:30,160 Hello, buddy? 735 00:58:30,160 --> 00:58:32,160 He's gone. He's actually gone. 736 00:58:32,160 --> 00:58:34,240 He's missing. Call it in. 737 00:58:34,400 --> 00:58:36,640 We need immediate backup for search and rescue operations. 738 00:58:44,300 --> 00:58:45,820 .