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What is this thing called love?

This funny thing called love?

Just who can solve its mystery?

Why should it make a fool of me?

I saw you there That wonderful day You

took my love And threw it away And so

I ask the Lord In heaven above What is

this thing Called love?

What's the deal?

I thought you liked it when I do this.
You're a maestro. That's not it.

Then what?

God, Abigail, I'm a fraud.

I've led you to believe I'm something
I'm not.

Many things I'm not.

I'm not simple.

I'm not halting.

I'm not even a lesbian. I have a
boyfriend back in Palo Alto.

What? I'm not done.

I am a damn good beach volleyball
player.

And I've gotten even better over the
past six months. Good enough to turn

However, I'm also a PhD candidate at
Stanford.

And I've been living an assumed life.

So I could write my doctoral thesis
about a woman living an assumed life.

I'm not done.

The assumed identity was to give me the
freedom to gauge how people would react

to this odd person I created. But I
never really thought through the ending.

Which is where I am now.

And where I am now is very much in love
with you, Abigail.

And I just want to be with you.

No matter who I am.

Hold on.

Hold on.

You're not some monosyllabic freak of
nature?

No. And you've been lying to me this
whole fucking time, deceiving me with

elaborate, twisted persona?

Yes.

I mean, I only really put up with how
bizarre you were because you were a

in bed, but this?

This means we can actually talk.

You aren't filled with contempt and
dismissal for the betrayal of your

Oh, see, I am so digging that you can
come up with stuff like that.

Okay, now this whole you love me thing,
you for real?

Completely.

Small world.

Because maybe I love you too.

Filled with the contempt and dismissal
for the betrayal of your heart.

That shit rocks.

Hey, what a surprise.

Can I come in? Yeah, yeah. Sure, come on
in.

Can I get you something to drink? Are
you kidding?

Scotch. All right.

So, uh... What's going on?

The fact is I stink at small talk. You?

No.

Michael.

I came over because I'm concerned about
you.

You're off your game.

Yeah, I know.

Just can't go into it.

Don't have to.

What? There are no secrets between Joss
and her mother.

I would kill if they just had a few.

So who's this cop?

Man, I can't believe Joss said something
about it. Michael, a lot of guys have

things that happen in their lives.

We're men.

We're libidos in three -piece suits.

Talk to me.

Her name is Liz.

I was hanging upside down in my car,
dying, and suddenly she was there.

Saving me.

It was probably the last time we
actually got along.

We're like molecules in chaos.

It's insane between us.

I blew it, Arthur.

I blew it.

Liz, moving in with some guy named
Highway.

Highway. Highway.

I always wanted a cool name like that.

My pop always says, when you're unhappy,
the best strategy is to look at things

differently. I told him that was a
cliche.

You know what he says? He says, Mikey,
one man's cliche is another man's God.

I tried calling him earlier. He's off
buying some floating casino in France.

I could really use some advice.

Well, I'm not very good at relationship
counseling. I've been married to the

same woman a long time, and I have no
idea who she is.

But in this life, you need a woman who
can see right through you and points it

out.

Stuff that's hidden way down deep inside
every man, underneath the heartache and

the cigar smoke that gets ignored
otherwise.

Yeah.

Maybe I'm just overthinking it.

Papa always says, let your dick lead the
way.

Well, with his alimony, he should know.

I gotta head back.

I just wanted to make sure your head
wasn't in the oven.

Thanks for checking up on me. You're my
best attorney. You unravel, I'm screwed.

No, I won't.

Arthur, I just want you to know I do
love your daughter. It's just... I

understand.

People aren't simple, Michael.

That's what it makes it all worth
showing up for.

We never lost it, did we?

Whatever love is infinite.

William Blake.

You gave me that book on my 25th
birthday. I remember, Yosemite.

That was a great weekend.

Except for that damn bear.

I know.

Highway? Yeah.

I've never lived with a guy.

It's no big deal. We just take care of
each other.

I never thought that as a kid. Neither
did I.

Everything's going to be fine, baby.

Don't you worry.

You're always in the way of making me
feel okay.

It's just that I'm not easy to live
with.

Are you trying to talk you out of this
or me?

Good talking.

She never told me how to Michael take
it.

Bad. Good.

You should have.

You're a hell of a lot to lose, honey.

A hell of a lot to lose.

I gotta go pee, okay?

Lizzie.

What?

Maybe we should just drop this before
the next thing one of us says is, fuck

you. I'd hate it if you did, but I'm
dying to. Walk out, Liz. It's not

temporary. With you and me, Michael,
everything is temporary.

Now have I told you how much I love your
cock?

inside of me.

What's the occasion?

Us.

I missed you.

I missed you more.

It doesn't get better than this.

Hi. Hi.

Come on in.

Michael, meet Hal and Casey.

Which one's which?

Who might this be?

I'm kidding. Come on, come on.

Be very gracious. We brought champagne.

Oh, thank you, thank you.

So, if I may, Michael shared with me
that a woman he's known and recently

Casey and I began to explore our
connection.

Has left him for another man.

A man named Freeway. Highway.

That's painful.

I'm sorry, Michael.

Thanks, Hal.

Feelings are tender things.

Thank you, Casey.

Can I say something?

This may not be a good time for you to
be alone.

To the end of sadness.

Let's be honest, Michael.

You're a man, and men like to go into
the cave.

I think that you could use a hug.

Oh, God, Casey, look at your nipples.

Just being close to him made them hard.

You have such a strong energy, Michael.

It's very strong. I've never seen your
nipples react so fast, Grace.

It could be the AC. I've got a strong
unit.

Oh, I can vouch for that.

Please don't hide away.

You need support.

And we are here.

It's good to connect when we're in pain.

Amen.

P .S.?

as pussy here.

That right there?

That's why I got into this polyamory
shit.

I want you inside me, Michael.

I've missed you.

Let the voicemail pick it up.

Smoke some weed.

Get it on.

Chantal, what's going on?

Michael's expecting you.

Hey, Mom.

How are you, darling?

Terrible.

How was your flight?

Oh, French airline. They serve wine with
breakfast.

Claude sent his regrets.

And... His condolences.

He's off in Chad with Sarkozy.

Figures.

How is Claude, anyway?

Who knows? The French never open up.

Thank God.

You look beautiful, Mom.

I can't help that.

His fiancée said he went out laughing.

I think I know why.

Giant part of my life.

Mine, too.

Never stopped.

He never stopped loving you. I never
stopped loving him.

We used to talk two or three times a
week.

Really?

He never said.

I was his therapist.

He did like to talk about himself.

Oh, God, your father's ideal companion
with a full -length mirror.

Pop was his own religion, minus a
commandment or two.

Michael, I assume that you do know that
I'm the one who's really been running

these companies all these years, keeping
them in the black.

Yeah, I knew.

Never told them that I did.

Well,

thanks to my unstinting efforts, he was
ridiculously wealthy.

When your father was planning his
estate, I insisted that he leave a nice

to Chantal and the other exes.

Very nice of you, Mom. By the way,
Jocelyn called me. She told me the whole

story. I hope not.

People change, Michael.

There is someone else out there for you.

I think I already found her.

And then I lost her.

Then find her again.

I'm missing you.

Forever.

Who am I going to call at two in the
morning?

Me?

Michael, I'm so sorry.

I loved Vic.

He loved you.

If you ever want to talk, I'm here for
you, no matter what.

Thanks, Jess.

I felt so connected when we made love.

Maybe it's not over.

So, no KP and Hal?

We had a fight.

Long story.

Let me guess, Hal's an asshole.

They both are.

You okay?

No.

You take all the time you need.

I'll handle it.

Michael, I think it was a one of a kind.

Luther, I didn't recognize you with
shoes.

Might I assume I'll be seeing you in the
office tomorrow?

Absolutely, sir.

Bright and early, ready to embrace Lady
Justice.

Thanks for cleaning up for my dad. I'm
honored to have known him.

But that's not why I cleaned up. The
fact is, our fates have tumbled.

TaintedTush .com has crashed. We've lost
it all. We're broke. I'm canceling my

booth.

You're not devastated?

No.

I've just grown up.

And Luther, your boots?

I'm buying them for you.

Okay.

I had this whole speech planned about my
dad, how he was this force of nature,

which everybody said he was.

And lusty, and rich, and lusty.

All things that would make him bust out
of that urn and smack the crap out of

me, because it didn't come from the
heart.

You see, with my father, nothing
separated him and his passion from the

the world.

He blurted things out.

And he was always right there in front
of me.

But I never really got his message,
which was to live life without fear.

Fixed Rathmore with fearless, which also
meant he lived life without regret.

How did I miss this?

Because I do not live fearlessly like my
father did.

So, I hedge my bets.

And I miss precious things.

Because I'm scared.

Or I bury my emotions.

Or I don't listen to what my heart is
telling me.

I let fear get the best of me.

Why couldn't I figure this out
yesterday? Would it change my life?

I want you to know this.

You didn't miss a minute of life.

From now on, neither will I.

I love you.

My mom and my stepmom Chantal and I need
to take my pop out and give him the

burial at sea he always wanted.

Thank you.

Thank you all for coming.

It was just lovely, Michael.

I suppose I should let your father's
attorney tell you this, but... Oh,

God, he's such a bore.

The thing is, Vic left you this boat.

This boat.

You're kidding.

No, he knew you loved it.

So it's specified in his will that the
boat is yours. With one caveat, you have

to go somewhere. Once a year... and have
a big adventure.

And I assume that means fist fights and
pirates.

Lots of pirates.

Call me when they get there.

Oh, Mom.

Beautiful service.

I came to pay my respects.

I thought your dad was great.

I thought the same about you.

Where's Highway?

We're over.

How come?

The more I thought about being with him,
the more I couldn't sleep.

And I kept on looking at a photograph of
you and me from Catalina.

You know what I thought?

A guy you thought would ruin everything?

No. A girl who never looked happier in
her whole life.

And a girl who would die if she played
him.

So those things that you said in your
speech, do you mean them?

I never meant anything more in my life.

So now that you're not playing it safe,
what's next?

I want to be with you.

Deal. Just like that? I auditioned you
long enough. I auditioned you. You got

the part.

My father wanted his ashes spread at
sea.

You want to come?

You always loved going swimming.

I had a feeling Liz would come back.

Life is short.

It's longer with you in it.

How about we drop off my mom and Chantal
and go somewhere in my new boat?

Like where?

Anywhere.

I always wanted to go there.