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Tired of playing these games with my heart.

It only hurt. Pinned me apart.

Never want to give my soul away again.

Parting in the shadows.

Protecting my inner peace.

Emptiness inside.

So true

Abigail.

Max?

Come here.

Oh, my goodness. How are you? I'm good. How are you?

I'm good. You know what's so weird?

What? I just had a dream about you last night. That is very weird. That is

really, like, whoa.

Are you living in the city now?

No. Eventually I will. Yeah. But... Wow.

How's the family?

The kids want to be grown?

Um...

What? My husband actually died about a year and a half ago.

Oh, my God. Come here. Oh, thanks.

I'm sorry.

Thanks. It was pretty horrific, honestly.

Illness?

Addiction, actually.

Jesus.

Yeah. I'm sorry.

I had a couple family members die consecutively in a few months.

Like the last couple of years, yeah. That's awesome.

It's hard to come out of the fog. I get it.

You still in real estate?

No, I left. I decided it was time to get back to my original dream.

Oh, yeah? What's that?

Writing.

Really? What kind?

Screenplay.

Nice.

Exciting. Yeah, I really, really love it.

And before the kids were born, I actually sold some scraps. Beautiful.

then you know needed more money yeah yeah jasmine was a lawyer right

yeah but the last 10 years or so of life working less and less

somebody had to pick up yeah i get that are you still painting

yeah absolutely yeah i got a gallery coming up in about two months yeah

yeah thanks i actually just got a new spot down in brooklyn too

Yeah, I called your agency. I was like asking where you were at. They said you

left.

You know, after that whole night marriage, we had to switch it up. We

do it anymore.

Yeah, absolutely.

You should let me make you dinner.

Yeah. What are you doing tomorrow?

Nothing. I'm totally free.

I feel like I shouldn't tell you.

I'm really not that pathetic, I promise.

No, not at all.

Here.

Is your number still the same? Oh, no, no, no. Oh.

Give me your information.

All right.

Great.

How's the fire tomorrow?

Great, yeah. All right.

Awesome. Should I bring anything?

Nah, just bring yourself.

I don't think I can handle that.

It's good seeing you. Good seeing you, too.

See you tomorrow.

Yeah, I'll see you tomorrow.

All right, bye.

Hey.

What did you think?

I, uh, I blew it off, actually.

I, uh, I just ended up walking around the city instead.

Oh, I don't understand why you don't want to get out of that big, empty

It's not healthy.

No, I mean, the kids, you know, both of them just left within the last week

to go abroad.

I went from a full house to just me, you know.

But it takes some time.

You need to move on. You know, you've done the grieving, played the good wife,

all of that.

There's so much work to do, you know?

I mean, there's so much junk I have to go through and packing and... You know,

think you've had survivor guilt or something.

I don't know about that.

Listen, we both tried to help my brother.

He just, you know... Didn't want to be saved.

You know, when we first got together, I realized he was older than me, and he

was probably going to eventually go before me, but in a million years, I

never imagine how.

I think I'm still just processing it, you know?

I don't want to do anything too radical.

Having to hold yourself back from everything is so boring.

Why would you choose that?

I mean, you hid under a rock for ten years. What do you want to do now?

I'm not holding myself back.

I got back into my writing.

And other than that, I just don't know what I want to do, you know?

Well, find that out and your whole universe will open up.

Nice.

I know what I want for you. I want you to download one of those hookup apps

like Tinder or something.

What? I'm not a slut.

No, I'm kidding. You know me. I'm practically a virgin.

And I'm in a relationship. But you've got to get out there if you want to find

man. Seriously, I don't think I need a man.

Okay?

You're single.

Go do what chicks do who are single in the city, but do be careful.

Wow, I was never expecting you to say anything like any of this.

Yeah, get out there.

Get your tits up, your heart out, and go play and have some fun.

Yeah, I think it ends a little fun.

Listen, I gotta go.

Okay. Thanks for the pep talk, sweetie.

Okay. I love you. Love you, too.

Bye.

Thanks.

Yep.

Kids home?

Yep.

Good day?

You okay?

I just wish you wanted to get better or something. I know.

I'm sorry.

I don't... I'm so alone.

I know, and you shouldn't be.

Yeah.

If this ever ends, I don't want to be someone's pretend wife or girlfriend

again.

Oh, what a pretty garden.

I love city gardens, don't you?

Oh, nice. Like move to New Jersey and have a garden.

Some things make you think.

Some things catch your eye.

I've been up and down, chased myself all around.

I'm not really sure.

Oh,

my goodness.

What have you got there?

Beautiful, isn't it?

Wow, do you think it came off someone's outfit, or...? Or maybe from some bird,

but what kind of bird?

I don't know.

I'd say neither.

Really? Mm -hmm.

So you don't know what it means when you find a feather.

The guardian angel is watching you.

It looks like you're about to go through some big changes.

That's why they draw near.

Oh, what's your name? Oh, Freya.

Oh, nice to meet you. I'm Abigail.

Nice to meet you.

Thank you.

Glad you made it.

Do you mind taking off your shoes?

Sure.

Dinner is almost done.

Oh, good.

Hi. Hi.

Good to see you. Good to see you. You look gorgeous.

Oh, thank you. You're sweet.

How was the trip over?

Typical. Saturday travel.

Oh, God.

It's okay. It's all good.

Yeah, cool. That was really good.

What are you talking?

I'm hungry.

Oh, yeah? What are you hungry for?

I don't know.

All kinds of things. Yeah? Yeah.

Well, I've got a lot. Yeah? Oh, yeah. It's a surprise. Nope, nope, nope, nope,

nope. Can I do anything to help?

You being here is enough.

Oh. Actually, no. Actually, I have a bottle of wine. Do you mind opening it?

Oh, I would love a glass of wine, actually. Me too.

Oh, okay. Yeah.

I'll be in there in just a second. I just got to finish this up.

Okay. Yeah. It's a surprise.

Okay. Shoot, shoot.

Shoot, shoot, shoot, shoot.

I'll be in there in just a second.

All right.

All right.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Cheers.

Cheers. Cheers.

That's really good. Yeah?

Yeah. Really good.

Spain. Oh.

Yes.

I'm going to plate the food, and I'll grab it.

Okay. All right.

We're going to feast.

Oh my goodness, wow.

Don't forget.

Pull that napkin.

There you are.

There you are.

Thanks.

Cheers. Thank you so much. Of course.

I'm glad you're here.

Me too.

Wow. Let's eat.

I'm probably going to eat this with my hands. Yeah?

I would love that.

Oh boy. Oh boy. Oh my fingers are so greasy.

Good, though.

So where do you see yourself in the next year?

The next year?

Yeah.

Gosh, I have no idea.

I have no idea.

Yeah, I think you do. I don't know why I asked that question. I think, look, do

you ever, like, there's a lull in the conversation, and you feel like there's

lull in the conversation, and you get to fill it with something fucking generic?

That's what just happens.

Well, thank you for not asking me about the weather. Yeah.

You know, like, with the whole painting thing, I don't know, I'm

always thinking about the end, I guess.

You know, I'm like, how long is this going to last?

I mean, I didn't want to, like, cry, but, I mean, I'm sure, like, dealt with

stuff like that with your husband.

I mean, what about relationships before?

What about them? Just, I don't know.

I think I take everything too fucking seriously.

I'm like this serial monogamous, and that's why I'm like, you know, I'm done.

Yeah.

I think I'm probably the same way. That's probably why I, like, harm it

Mm. Mm -hmm. Like, not, you know.

But at the same time, it's like.

Logical. Right. You know? Yeah.

Like, if you know you do something stupid.

Time after time.

It's hard to get past shit, you know?

I think people can do it easily.

They'll be like, oh, I broke up with somebody.

Well, then they didn't do shit very much.

Then they're just like, okay.

Yeah, but sometimes I can tell that they're, like, ignoring the fact that

they're in pain.

Does that make sense?

I don't know, man. I have a good feeling about you.

Me? Yeah.

Yeah, I feel like...

You know, you've got a bright light. You've got a future ahead of you.

Things are opening up for you. I can see it.

Pretty rad.

Yeah.

So good.

Of course.

Does that clock actually work? I don't think it does.

No. We've been sitting here a while and I really haven't seen the hands move

much.

Yeah, we're in time vortex.

And so, yeah, time stands still. Well, unfortunately,

my train, the time does not stand still. And on Saturdays, the train only runs

once every two hours. So I should probably wrap this up.

Yeah, of course.

You know,

maybe we could do something again sometime. I would love that. Coffee or,

know, I don't know.

Thank you. This is amazing. You are so sweet. You're so fine.

Yeah. I mean, I still have time to eat with my hands. Yeah.

Couldn't be better of.

Well, um, okay.

You're sweet.

Yeah. Hey.

Yeah. I can walk through the door.

Oh, wait. Um, I can get you, I can get you an Uber if you want. Oh, don't be

silly. You don't have to do anything. No, no, it's no trouble at all. No,

really. I just, um, you know, I think it's just probably not a good idea for

to be here. Wait.

Did I, did I say something?

No, I just.

I don't think I'm ready, you know? Yeah, totally.

No, no.

I don't want anything.

Look.

I made dessert.

I mean, it's homemade.

We can have dessert and then we can call it.

Great. All right.

I'll go get it ready.

I hope you are excited.

Because this is the strawberry cheesecake.

Oh, yummy.

Yeah.

Yeah?

Right?

Wow.

Oh, my goodness.

Wow, the strawberry.

Good, right?

They're really good.

This is amazing.

Thank you. Thanks.

Do you like old music?

Old music?

Yeah. I don't know. How old?

Just wait.

It's really good.

Quite the chef.

really beautiful.

Oh, thank you.

You're welcome.

So do you.

Yeah? Yeah.

Yeah. No one's ever called me beautiful before.

Really? Yeah.

Why?

I don't know.

I think men can be beautiful.

Me too. That felt nice.

Oh.

I'm glad.

You are so sweet.

I'm not the best.

Amazing.

What?

Are you okay?

Yeah. Yeah?

Yeah.

Do you want to go for a walk?

A walk?

Yeah, the sun's setting. Oh.

We should catch it.

Sure. Yeah. Okay, yeah, why not?

All right.

Come on.

I'm not telling you. You should tell me. No. What if I'm not allowed to go?

What if I don't know where we're going?

Oh.

Wow, I love your spontaneity.

Thanks. Some people call it ADD. Really? Yeah, but I don't judge it.

Oh, yeah, you shouldn't. I think it's a pretty wonderful quality to have.

Yeah? Yeah.

Nice. Keeps me on my toes.

You're welcome.

A lot of people are boring and don't know how to live.

You certainly know a lot of things.

I keep it interesting.

I try.

Oh, you achieve.

You succeed.

You know, I used to live in the next neighborhood down, Cobble Hill, before

moved to Jersey. Did I know you then?

No, actually.

Yeah,

I love it. I mean, you want to hear something crazy?

Yeah. I almost didn't take the spot.

Really? Yeah.

I got a residency.

What's that?

So they put me up in the apartment, and they pay me a ton of money to paint, and

then they put me up in the gallery.

That's amazing.

It's pretty wild.

It's kind of hard to believe the hype, you know?

How long is this going to last, really?

I mean, I go to these galleries, and I see toilet seats on the wall that sell

for like a quarter of a million dollars.

Well, do you paint on toilet seats?

No. Sounds like you've got nothing to worry about, right?

Hey.

Wait a second.

You were supposed to show me your art, remember?

Yeah, no, what?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Quiet,

quiet. Oh, wait, what's that? Oh, we gotta go.

We dated in college. Now she's got, you know, a husband and kids. We do two

tangerines, frozen mango, two scoops of vegan vanilla protein, and a splash of

lemon juice. It tastes exactly like creamsicle.

Damn. Wow, look at how many lights there are. I know.

This is crazy, isn't it? And I don't think, like, most of those, especially

because it's Wall Street, it's all work.

All work, no play.

Wow.

Accountant.

Probably shredding papers right now.

Most likely.

You miss the city?

Oh, I miss it so much.

I really want to move back.

You should.

Yeah. I don't know, you know, sometimes, I mean, you've got millions of people,

and yet somehow I still feel lonely.

Really? Sometimes.

I feel like people are craving connection, craving

something. Yeah.

But... Me?

Yeah.

Lots of things.

Really? Yeah.

Like what?

I don't know if I should tell you yet.

Okay, so there's a yet, so that means there's a possibility.

Will tell me.

Yeah.

Okay.

We gotta go.

What? Oh, no. No, I got you. Again? Yeah.

So cool, you've never done that before I mean no

Thank you.

Oh, God.

Wait, wait. Oh, I should probably make sure I get that to me.

I think that's something.

Yeah, I understand.

I'm going to go to the bathroom first.

I think I might have left later.

Yeah.

But I need you to show me.

Now? Mm -hmm.

Ready?

These are incredible.

Thank you.

I can see so much.

Like what?

You.

Paint.

Chaos.

They're just paintings.

What happened to you?

What?

They're just paintings.

You don't have to hide from me.

What did the princess say?

I knew it. Don't.

This is what they gave me and I didn't want to take them.

And why do you like it?

Because I'm a fucking princess. Yes, you are.

Thanks for watching!

Hey.

Hey. You okay?

Yeah.

Can't sleep?

No.

Do you...

very much again.

You're by my side.

All I want to do is run, right, baby, with the top down, hold hands, you

we're getting high.

Hello. Oh my god, what is this?

Who would have wrote something so ridiculous?

Um, I made something light.

So that way, would you eat this and then you can tell me what you like and then

I can make it.

I can tell you what I like?

Yeah, you can tell me what you like.

Do you like apples with yogurt?

It's not bad, right?

Really good.

That is so good.

I love apples.

Good morning.

Good morning.

You love feeding people, don't you?

I love feeding you.

Really? Yes.

So what did you like for breakfast?

What does that mean?

Come be in the world.

Hello. Howdy.

I thought we'd go get some money.

Are you hungry?

Come on.

Oh, come on. I'll go get some food.

I'll go put on the gym.

I made all 12 of them necklaces.

Later, we'll try to make out where the lions are or something.

Have you been to the castle in Central?

A long time ago, yeah. Come on, we've got to go to the castle.

Overlooks Prospect Park.

Your arch, I suppose.

Absolutely.

Oh, dear. Yeah.

Yeah. Really?

Absolutely. Wow. You're silly.

I don't believe you.

One day. One day I will own a castle.

Not this one, then. No. But I'll have a dungeon.

Oh. Mm -hmm.

And?

I'll take you there.

Why?

Absolutely. What?

We should go back tomorrow.

I should go home.

Sorry.

You slayed the dragon.

Oh, I need different clothes.

I get it. I get it. You know? Yeah.

I'll come back tomorrow.

All right.

Yeah, I want to play.

Absolutely. Yeah. I mean, I got nothing except for painting.

Goodbye, Castle.

All right, I gotta go.

You'll let me know about tomorrow?

Absolutely.

All right.

Have fun. Thanks.

Yeah. I'll see you tomorrow.

Yeah.

Get home safe.

Everywhere they needed you to be.

Everyone's favorite thing.

And you

break

against the weight.

Nothing more to give someday.

I'm just asking you to stay with me.

Be mine tonight.

If only for a while.

Then morning they can hear.

Just be me.

Do you want your cigarette?

If you eat your muffin, I'll give you the cigarette.

No.

I'm not.

I'll have the cigarette, and then I'll eat the muffin.

Can we just hold on to it maybe and have it later?

I'll wrap it up.

Yeah, wrap it up.

You need

to decide

what you want to do, you know?

What do you mean?

Yeah, you know what I'm talking about.

I... It's not going to go on forever

like that.

Your turn.

Oh, come on, you've waited long, and you know what I mean.

You have to decide what you want to do.

This isn't, this can't go on.

Come in.

Hey. Hello.

I told you we'd come back, right?

Good to see you.

Do you want to see anything?

No. How was your night?

Just a night. Nothing special.

We got some writing done.

That's great.

You?

Yeah, painted.

Too creative?

Creating? Creating, yeah.

You ready to do this?

I'm so ready.

I always have a good feeling.

Come on, let's go. Cool.

Yay.

So you've never been here or you have been here? I've been to the beach, but I

haven't been to Dubai.

When's the last time you've been here? Hey, what's your name?

When's the last time you've been here? Come on, Red. Five years ago? What are

you doing with that loser?

I got money.

He doesn't have money.

I could fucking kill you, man.

Fucking chump.

Leave it. Leave it. Nothing. Just let it go.

Give me a second.

What?

What? Huh?

Huh? What?

Kill me.

Kill me.

Go home and sober up and fucking beat the shit.

No. What is he doing?

Max.

Max.

Max. Max.

What's going on?

What's going on with you? What do you mean?

I mean, what happened with that guy? It was crazy.

And now you're walking ahead of me and ignoring me and...

I mean, what happened? I didn't do anything wrong.

No, you didn't.

The guy was drunk, Abby. He told me he was going to kill me. He's probably

you know, out of his mind for the moment.

I know you went through a lot with your husband, okay? But it's a different

scenario when you're here. You have to set boundaries.

I'm sorry. I'm not trying to yell at you, but I'm just saying, like, it's not

safe out here.

You don't know these people.

I'm going to protect you.

Look, can we... I'm sorry, can we... Can we let go of that energy

and go into the park and have a good time?

Yeah.

Let's go ride some rides.

It sounds like it's actually made out of cans.

I'm not getting on that thing.

So when was this thing built?

17, right when the Revolutionary War ended.

Yeah, thank you.

Oh, man, we're really high up.

Are we going to go?

I think we're going to go to the front again. No, no, no.

I know it. I know it. I can feel it. I can feel it.

It's going to slip any second. What, what, what, what? Really? Okay.

Yeah. Hey, look at me. Look at me.

You're sick.

I promise.

You promised. You have control over this thing. See you later.

Oh, my God.

Ooh,

let's do Spook -O -Rama.

Ooh, that'll...

You ready to get your ass whooped? Oh, you stop.

Oh,

you've got great muscles.

Oh, thank you.

Oh, you teach fitness?

Really? Where do you teach?

Oh, how fun.

Maybe I could come by.

Those games are rigged, man. You got to leave before you lose your shirt. You

know what I mean? We're not going to lose anything.

I'm a good shot, right?

You saw that. You saw that.

We should do bubble cars.

Where's my gas?

It's so fun.

Like, who am I right now? I just don't even know. Who am I? Who am I?

I can't believe you won this.

Oh, come on. It's from my mad target skills, Max.

Your mad flirting skills.

What?

You heard me.

What are you talking about?

You were flirting with the dude. I'm sure that the prizes are not this big.

I wasn't flirting with him.

I wasn't flirting with him. What are you talking about?

Yes, you were.

How can you say that?

That's crazy. Because it's true.

You complimented him on his muscles and told him you were going to go work out

with him. I was being nice, Max.

The poor guy is, like, back there all day, you know, running games.

There's nobody there, even. Like, how boring, you know?

Is this, like, a problem? Is this a thing?

What? No, no, no, no, no. I was... I'm joking. I'm joking. I'm just joking.

I'm joking, yes.

I'm joking.

Sorry.

Pug life.

You won the first one.

From your mad shooting skills.

That's just true.

Whatever, cut off.

You haven't been mad at all, Pug?

Yeah. Yeah?

Did it tickle your belly?

What?

Of being friends for so long.

Yeah. And everything.

Thanks for inviting me for dinner.

Of course.

Little did I know.

I mean, I knew.

I wasn't going to force anything.

I just... I've always had a crush on you.

Seriously? Yeah.

And I know that you've been going through a tough time, and I felt... I

torn. I was like, do I or don't I?

I'm just glad that it happened.

Yeah.

Better than ever, right?

Yeah, yeah, for sure.

So how did you get into art? How did you get into painting?

So when I got into high school, I thought, you know, you can sign up for

whatever you want.

And I signed up for art, not because I wanted to, but because I thought it

be fucking easy.

And my teacher kept trying to teach us for him. I

mean, he didn't try. He did.

I said, I think I was trying to piss him off, you know?

Because I was like, I don't want to do this. I thought this was going to be

fucking easy.

And he started embracing my weird.

And one day he kept me at the class and he was like, you know, you're talented.

And that was the first time I knew anybody.

And he's like, but you need to learn more.

I started learning form, and I started loving art.

What about you?

What started writing?

Crazy shit.

As a kid, I would see things in the world that I really didn't like,

and I didn't have the power to change anything.

So I would make up stories in my head about an alternate reality of the way it

went. Right. And I wrote my third

full -length play when I was in third grade.

It's kind of crazy. But don't you think everybody that does art is kind of

crazy? No, we have to be a little crazy. I've never really known how to do it.

Here you go.

I'm coming with you.

So, how many women have you actually brought back to your little den set up?

den? Yeah.

Let's see.

I'm dead serious.

None. Well, first of all, it's a newspaper, right? I know.

I've been here two months?

Yeah.

I don't know.

I've been working.

I mean, working.

Yeah, but I just think that, I don't know.

I'm a hippie, I guess. I believe in energy and things. So I just want to

sure that, you know, the energy is nice in here when I'm doing my work.

Can I show you?

Stop.

What the fuck is this?

Oh, nice.

Okay.

I just gotta go around.

Oh, really?

Okay,

get to work. I'm working. I'm working.

A piece of paper that has nothing on it.

Well, that did it for sure. That thing knows.

Oh.

Oh.

Oh.

Wow. You are.

You don't have to answer if you don't want to.

I know it's a great question.

Why did you say that?

In 2008, I did an intervention.

And he was so angry because he felt that I outed him.

And he said to me,

He refused to ever sleep in the same bed as me ever again.

And he also would never let me get a divorce.

So at that point, I kind of realized I was basically in jail.

And so I figured out how many years I had to serve out my sentence.

And then I just dove into making money.

Taking care of the kids.

Trying to pretend that I'm a suburban mom, but I've never done that, really.

How are the kids now?

They're okay.

Getting better. But there were a couple of times I would

get in touch with a divorce lawyer or that kind of thing, and they would all

the same thing, that the fact that he was...

trying to kill himself, an alcoholic, and it showed that he had a disease, a

disorder, and if I tried to leave him, I would be forced to support him the rest

of my life.

Yeah. Yeah.

But then there's the other part where, you know, he had saved me from

that situation, and I was just kind

of trying to...

I turned the favor, you know, I wanted to save him.

Yeah. And I even said to him so many times, you know, we don't have to do

You're more than welcome to go and be with somebody else, you know, find your

way, go be alone, move wherever you want. I won't, I would never expect

from him.

I don't know who I am without this problem.

My whole life has been built around it.

In that moment, I knew all my codependence was gone.

All the things that I'd tried for so many years to try to fix myself.

And in that one moment, I was done.

And I felt so guilty that I was actually going to be okay.

Oh, this will bring me back to the energy of

everything that I'm feeling.

So that when, you know, I'm going to feel the way I do right now, all

I have to do is... Yeah,

I'll always have this moment.

Well, I remember when we first met.

You were wearing that summer dress.

Told me everything you liked best, and we danced all night.

Don't remember just what we said.

You were calling me Billy the Kid.

Don't know how many shots we did, but it sure was fun.

Wake up, wake up into the morning. I'm so glad we went to the museum. That was

so wonderful to be back there as a grown -up.

Yeah. You know?

When's the last time you went?

About ten years ago. I think with one of my kids and their field trip. Oh, wow.

But it was a bunch of kids, so, you know, they want to, like, keep it moving

everything. Yeah, you can't read and kind of really dive in. Yeah, really

it, you know? Yeah.

No, that was... Logical.

What did wipe out the dinosaurs? That's the real question.

What do you think?

I don't know. I've got different theories.

I mean, there's the things we're told about a meteor.

Then there's the things that, like... Pangea.

Aliens wanted to, like, have their own hybrid take over, and so they wiped them

out with the great blood. Or there's the...

idea that the great flood is actually something from you know the bible and

yeah i mean i think you wear a cross but do

you actually um yeah really yeah i mean i don't know when

the last time i went to church was i don't think you need church to believe

god no i just think sometimes i missed out on that community aspect

you believe Oh, completely.

Nice. My whole life.

I'd been married about three years, and the alcoholism was really bad, and I was

trying to get through them.

And, you know, it was like, okay, if you don't want to fix yourself for you or

for me or for the kids, then, you know, what about this amazing opportunity of

life and this body that God gave you? Why would you just shun that and

it, this gift?

And he said, I don't believe in God.

And I had the craziest reaction because I thought, whoa, how did I not

know this?

Crap, that explains everything.

And it was something that I made a note of. I thought, you know, okay, it's

clearly an important thing for me that people that I'm close to.

believe in some way i mean i don't i'm i'm not into organized religion either

i've never been i don't think it's necessary god's everywhere you know the

the the earth the air the light yeah you know inside ourselves i mean

everywhere it'd be something that was missing in this other person made

everything else kind of logical yeah and then i spent the rest of the time that

we were together just trying to prove that it's real and

Yeah, but you can't convince people.

No. I mean, all we can do is just show off our light.

Yeah, yeah, exactly.

I like your light.

Thanks. I like your light, too.

Why don't I eat some food?

That's always your answer to everything.

It's either food or a different adventure. Yeah, let's go eat. I think

Tuesday, isn't it?

Holy shit.

It is Taco Tuesday.

Let's do this.

So it makes the life smell better.

Come on.

It's relaxing.

How dare you do that to a bartender.

It's better now because he says, now you won't get fucked up.

Yeah, that's true.

Just put water in your drink. It'll be fine.

Well, the only thing is you can have water when you're drinking, right?

Exactly. That's what I did.

Yeah. Yeah.

Can we make it checkered? Yeah, well, if I had checkered, we could play. I've

never played that.

It is a fun game.

Really? Mm -hmm. Cool.

Do you have to, like... What?

No, no, no. I'm good. It's just... If, uh...

I mean... Do you want to tell me something?

What do you mean?

I mean...

been getting like all kinds of talks and calls and then you never take them in

front of me and i'm just like there's something that i'm hiding you know

making me think no i understand i don't care no like yeah i

mean this isn't anything honestly

because they want to see my progress.

That's it.

Uh... Yeah.

I... I've sent them pictures, so they're fine.

But you really haven't been doing anything?

Yeah.

I haven't really seen you.

I mean,

actually, you know, it would be smart probably to

just kind of take a breath and, you know,

I'm probably still fucked up.

I should probably, you know, I've got things I need to do. I've got things I

should take care of, and I haven't been taking care of them.

Yeah, yeah.

I mean, if you're going to do that, I mean, I should probably do the same

as well. I mean, look, why don't we take, you're right, you're right.

Why don't we take a few days?

A few days?

Yeah. Oh, I like that.

Wait, the night, but.

That's what I'm saying.

Oh,

I leave now.

I leave now. Okay.

All right, all right, all right.

Abby You don't have to leave now

you turn

is you

Oh, my God. I just couldn't do it.

Take me to New York.

Yeah,

get rid of that.

Get rid of that. Here, take this off me. Get this off me.

What?

Nothing.

No, come on.

Me too.

You know, I never had a bar studio in my apartment before.

Really?

Yeah. I've always had to go out for work.

I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing.

Why? It's easily distracting.

Yeah. Normally I don't let anyone in until the work's done.

I'm running out of ideas.

That's what I'm doing.

Oh, yeah?

Hmm.

Maybe.

Maybe.

I think you might be right. Yeah?

What do you think?

I can be up for that. Yeah?

Good.

All right, I've got English tea time or

green tea?

Green. Perfect.

You're going to answer that?

I guess I could. Yeah.

Hey,

Jason.

Hey, how are you doing?

No, I'm good. I'm just sending out my friend back.

Yeah.

Seriously?

Oh, my God.

That sounds incredible.

Yeah, I would love to.

How about tomorrow?

Like 6?

Does that sound good?

Yes. Wow, I can't wait.

Yeah, it'll be great to see you, too.

Aw.

Thanks, love. All right. I'll talk to you later. See you tomorrow. Bye.

Wow. Nice. You got a date. That's fun.

What? A date?

Yeah, tomorrow.

You just said it.

But it's my friend. We used to work together. We'll see.

Cool. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

What?

What?

Nothing. I mean, you call me your friend, and we have sex, and you call

friend, so I'm assuming you fuck your friends, right?

What the hell?

He's showing me an apartment tomorrow.

Max, what is your problem?

I don't have a problem.

Max.

I don't know. You tell me.

What are you doing?

What are you fucking doing?

I'm not doing anything. I asked you a question about a date. That's all. It's

not a date. He's showing me an apartment.

Okay. He's showing you an apartment. Great.

Fine. You know what?

Actually, this is really fucked up.

Yeah, it kind of is. What are you even accusing me of?

Fucking your friends. I don't fuck my friends. I'm your friend. You're fucking

me.

My God.

It's like fucking word salad with you. What the fuck? It's crazy.

No.

I mean, what? You're going to accuse me of flirting with him? Is that what

you're going to accuse me of? I don't... Yes. You are flirting with him. You

flirt with everybody.

Everybody. We don't go anywhere in order for me to fuck with anyone. Oh, I

wonder why we don't go anywhere. Because you always want to just fuck in the sex

bin. You never want to fucking go out.

Oh, my God.

You are fucking crazy, aren't you? You are crazy.

I'm not doing this. I'm done. I'm done. I'm seriously fucking done. I'm not.

This is ridiculous.

Fine.

Fuck it. You know what?

Abby, just wait.

We're going to have a disagreement.

A disagreement?

Yes. This is more than a disagreement. And I gave so many chances to people in

the past. I'm not doing that anymore. Look where that got me.

Look where it got them.

I misspoke. I'm sorry.

You misspoke?

I'm going home.

Abby, just wait a second. No.

Just wait.

Abigail, please, will you stop?

Stop what?

Stop. Just stop. No, don't. No, you can't tell me what to do anymore. You

I'm not telling you anything. I'm just asking you to fucking have a

with me. I tried to have a conversation with you, and you wouldn't do it.

Well, I'm here now.

Let's talk. Talk about what? What is there to talk about? I don't know.

upset, so let's fucking talk about it. You're jealous of nothing.

Okay. There was no reason.

No fucking... There was no reason to be jealous? No. What are you talking about?

You were flirting with him. I was so not flirting with him. I was with you.

Okay. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.

No, but you do this, and with that whole thing about, like, this being a sex

turn, is that all this is for you?

No, that... That was rude, and I'm sorry.

I'm sorry. I put out shit for my husband for years and I didn't want to. I held

my voice in. I didn't say anything.

I'm never doing that again. I'm not your fucking husband.

Okay?

Okay? We can talk.

You know what? We have a conversation about this.

Please. What are you talking about?

I'm sorry.

Don't you ever do that to me.

Don't you ever do that to me.

All this shit.

You can't put the tea back in the bottle.

You can't unsee or unhear the shit that happened today. I can't.

And, my God, why didn't I see it before?

It was there.

I just didn't see it. Why?

I mean, two months into this, and you were showing me this? It's not going to

get better. I know it's not going to get better. Things don't get better. They

get worse.

Okay.

If that's how you feel, that's how you feel.

You know, we're adults. We can talk about this. A relationship, you have to

through things. You know what I mean? You have to work.

I don't need so much work.

Okay. All right.

I'm sorry.

Can we just... Can we just take...

A few days, and then... I got a cup.

Abby...

I haven't figured out that master plan can be

so hard just to be a man.

My father left me when I was young.

Got 20 years, but I wasn't done.

When I get to hear your loving voice, and someday we will

smile, and I'll hold you for a while.

I haven't figured out that math to plan.

We say goodbye to every mom and dad.

We get to love them up, and then we lay them down.

Only get so many days with them around.

And someday I'll rejoice when I

get to hear.

Hey.

Fucked up again, didn't you?

Ha!

Always a fuck up, you and your little brother.

Both.

What the fuck is that?

You're wearing a fucking cross around your neck.

You think God's gonna save you?

You're a piece of shit.

That's life.

Never forget that.

Hello. Hey.

How are you?

Not good.

But I'm still going to go to the yoga retreat in Mexico.

Joe's coming with me. I just won't be able to do much yoga.

A lot of cute guys come to these things. Might be nice for you.

I'm off the guy thing for a bit, actually. What happened to the painter

Eh, done.

Jealousy issues.

And I honestly didn't have it in me to wait around to see if it might be

something else, you know?

Played that game before.

Well, that doesn't sound very fair.

You put up with my brother for years, and now suddenly you can't give a second

chance?

What? You heard me. Oh, come on. You don't know the whole story.

Oh, shut up. It hasn't been long enough for a whole story.

It was two months.

Oh, yeah.

Okay. All right. So, all right, maybe.

How'd you leave it?

I just left.

Did he call or anything?

Yeah, he did, but I didn't pick up.

When did you see him last?

A couple weeks ago.

You just radio silenced him?

Yeah.

So you're just going to leave little messes all around now?

I guess.

Look, I need to get back into my life anyway.

It was fun, but the kids are going to be back from school, and the holidays are

coming.

Are you home?

No, I was in the city for a bit, just walking around. I wanted to be around

people, and I just...

On my way to the supermarket to pick up some things.

Might make a salad.

But I'm going to go back to Manhattan tomorrow.

Let's get a heat wave. It should be really nice.

Well, that sounds encouraging.

Is Mexico hot this time of year?

Yeah.

A little heat never hurt anyone.

Call me anytime. And if I don't hear from you, I'll just call you when I get

back.

All right. Well, have a safe flight and enjoy your vacation.

Okay, I will.

Okay, bye.

Oh, you need to let go of what you've ever thought before.

When one does that, all is well.

Every time.

Every time.

Of course we could sit and chat about it, but now all you need to do is go

within.

The answers are there.

Every time.

Always.

And truly just align with your heart.

There's no way.

There's no way.

What? Hey.

Oh, my God.

That's crazy.

You're stalking me.

No, you are stalking me. No, you're stalking me. This is my favorite park. I

don't know what you're doing. Yeah, he lives in Brooklyn.

Touché. Right?

How have you been?

I'm okay.

How are you?

I'm great.

Yeah? Yeah.

How's painting?

It's good. I mean, I'm just getting ready for the gallery. It's coming up.

Nice. Good. How's the writing?

It's good.

That's good.

Yeah. Yeah.

I mean, I tried to call you a few weeks back, and I figured you didn't want to

talk to us.

No, I'm sorry.

That's okay. Hey, it's okay. I let it go.

I get it. I do.

So, it's good.

Do you want to go somewhere and talk?

Come on.

In the biggest city in the world, would you run into each other twice?

Like crazy.

Yeah, that is pretty crazy.

Just for a little bit.

Yeah, sure, come on. Yeah?

Yeah. All right.

I've been thinking a lot.

Yeah, me too.

I think maybe neither of us was ready.

Yeah, maybe.

I just... I also don't want to let go of what...

You started.

Maybe

after

everything,

maybe I can take you out again?

It's over.

Not again. I promise. Not again.

I'm going to stop.

And every single time, I go back to it.

Every time.

And when she left, I was never... I

would never get into anything like that again, you know?

I know.

I really know.

I've been going to therapy.

Really?

Yeah.

Yeah.

They ask you this little questionnaire at the beginning.

I didn't realize how much I had buried.

My mom died when I was really young.

My dad was an alcoholic.

He really abused her.

He'd come home and beat her with an inch of her life.

This one time he came home and slapped her.

And she had to go to the hospital.

And she died two days later.

Hi.

Okay.

My dad got thrown in jail. Me and my brother went to foster care.

Because they wouldn't keep us together, you know. No one wants two boys.

I'd ride him.

I would ride him.

And then one day he just stopped riding me.

You know, Dean.

And things started to pan out. I got adopted when I was in high school by

older couple.

They were amazing.

But then they passed too.

They passed.

Two months of each other.

She passed and he passed right after.

He missed her.

I don't know how to be around people.

I think that's why I paint.

That's why I feel secluded.

And I think that's why I'm overprotective.

When I find something that I love, I don't want it to go away.

I'm sorry. Don't apologize, please.

I know that we're... I know we're broken.

Broken? Sorry.

No, it's okay. I just think that... I think we should at

least... try.

I want to show you my new painting.

Okay, when?

Now.

Can I show you now?

You alright?

Yeah.

Come on.

It's like the universe.

Yeah.

I love them.

Really? Yeah.

I'm so happy for you.

Thank you.

I mean, I feel like they're actually reflecting what's inside of you now.

It's a reflection of how I feel about you.

I missed you.

I should probably go.

Yeah, yeah. Of course.

Thank you.

For what?

For telling me everything.

Yeah, I mean...

Took a minute.

Yeah.

More work in progress.

Abigail.

I'm sorry.

We can do this.

Let's just try it.

Yeah? Yeah.

Some secrets we keep.

Some secrets we share.

Sometimes we act like there's just nothing there.

Mysteries of life.

Mysteries of death Questions of why we're even here

Drawing breath

There's no secret how

I feel about you No

secret how I feel about you

things must change some things are just strange

some things aren't anything at all

the way that you look

the way that you feel sometimes

you're the only thing

That's real No

secret how I feel about you

No secret how

I feel about you

Don't tell me what's wrong.

Show me what's right.

I know I just need to be with you tonight.

No secret how I feel about you.

No secret how...

No secret how I feel about you No secret

how I feel about you