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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:01:11,200 --> 00:01:13,990 That was my husband's Ford Galaxy. 2 00:01:14,920 --> 00:01:18,010 We drove Jamie home from the hospital in that car. 3 00:01:19,590 --> 00:01:21,890 My mom was 40 when she had me. 4 00:01:22,340 --> 00:01:24,550 Everyone told her she was too old to be a mother. 5 00:01:25,930 --> 00:01:27,770 I put my hand through the little window, 6 00:01:27,850 --> 00:01:29,100 and he'd squeeze my finger, 7 00:01:29,180 --> 00:01:33,260 and I'd tell him life was very big... 8 00:01:34,390 --> 00:01:35,810 and unknown. 9 00:01:36,650 --> 00:01:38,740 And she told me that there were animals 10 00:01:38,820 --> 00:01:40,740 and sky and cities... 11 00:01:41,320 --> 00:01:43,700 ...music, movies. 12 00:01:44,200 --> 00:01:45,240 He'd fall in love, 13 00:01:45,990 --> 00:01:49,710 have his own children, have passions, have meaning, 14 00:01:50,030 --> 00:01:52,160 have his mom and dad. 15 00:01:53,160 --> 00:01:55,160 When they got divorced, 16 00:01:55,250 --> 00:01:57,590 my father moved back east and left the car with us. 17 00:01:58,750 --> 00:02:00,540 He calls on birthdays and Christmas. 18 00:02:01,920 --> 00:02:05,880 Last time I felt close to him was on my birthday in 1974. 19 00:02:06,800 --> 00:02:09,010 He bought me mirrored sunglasses. 20 00:02:10,350 --> 00:02:13,020 I saw the president fall down the stairs... 21 00:02:14,140 --> 00:02:15,640 and I threw up on the carpet. 22 00:02:19,110 --> 00:02:21,610 Since then it's just been us. 23 00:02:21,690 --> 00:02:23,190 I don't understand. What about you? 24 00:02:23,280 --> 00:02:25,300 I'm staying here with him 'til the plane gets safely away. 25 00:02:25,320 --> 00:02:27,070 No, Richard, no. What has happened to you? 26 00:02:27,160 --> 00:02:29,790 - Last night we... - Last night we said a great many things. 27 00:02:34,200 --> 00:02:37,490 Listen, Captain, I am having a party tonight, 28 00:02:37,580 --> 00:02:38,870 it's my birthday actually, 29 00:02:39,170 --> 00:02:42,220 and I would like you to drop by so I can feed you. 30 00:02:42,300 --> 00:02:43,840 It's not necessary, Mrs. Fields. 31 00:02:43,920 --> 00:02:47,380 No, Dorothea. No, I... I insist. Please? 32 00:02:47,930 --> 00:02:49,720 That way I... I can thank you. 33 00:02:50,600 --> 00:02:52,390 It was a beautiful car. 34 00:02:54,600 --> 00:02:56,360 Mom, it... 35 00:02:56,430 --> 00:02:58,890 smelled like gas and overheated all the time... 36 00:03:00,190 --> 00:03:02,240 and it was just old. 37 00:03:03,610 --> 00:03:04,910 What? 38 00:03:08,280 --> 00:03:09,490 Well it wasn't always old. 39 00:03:09,820 --> 00:03:11,490 It just got that way all of a sudden. 40 00:03:12,240 --> 00:03:13,280 You know... 41 00:03:14,200 --> 00:03:15,620 when the firemen come... 42 00:03:16,910 --> 00:03:19,490 people don't usually invite them over for dinner. 43 00:03:21,790 --> 00:03:23,290 Yeah? Why not? 44 00:03:37,100 --> 00:03:39,220 Why can't she just move on and be happy with me 45 00:03:39,310 --> 00:03:42,810 rather than... lingering on him? 46 00:03:43,150 --> 00:03:45,490 My mom just makes me feel like I'm not good enough. 47 00:03:46,110 --> 00:03:48,580 It's just, I'm constantly being compared to my dad. 48 00:04:45,750 --> 00:04:48,250 Oh, hey, sorry. 49 00:04:49,880 --> 00:04:52,210 Uh, Jamie's not here right now. 50 00:05:10,780 --> 00:05:12,330 They're not home. 51 00:05:13,360 --> 00:05:15,400 Don't. 52 00:05:17,030 --> 00:05:19,910 I'm taking a picture of everything that happens to me in a day. 53 00:05:21,540 --> 00:05:23,750 I don't like having my pictures taken. 54 00:05:24,420 --> 00:05:26,420 I didn't happen to you. 55 00:05:34,340 --> 00:05:35,880 Hello? 56 00:05:36,550 --> 00:05:38,170 - Hey. - Hi. 57 00:05:38,260 --> 00:05:39,800 Hi. Here. 58 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:44,400 - You okay? - You aren't gonna believe what happened. 59 00:05:44,480 --> 00:05:45,530 What? 60 00:05:45,850 --> 00:05:47,980 Our car burst into flames in the parking lot. 61 00:05:48,400 --> 00:05:50,200 - It wh... - Seriously? 62 00:05:50,270 --> 00:05:51,310 - Are you okay? - Yeah. 63 00:05:51,440 --> 00:05:52,480 You know, we're okay. 64 00:05:52,780 --> 00:05:54,700 - How did it happen? - Well I don't know. 65 00:05:54,900 --> 00:05:57,360 They... they said it was probably just something electrical. 66 00:05:57,450 --> 00:06:01,170 We walked out and it was just sitting there... on fire. 67 00:06:01,240 --> 00:06:02,320 Oh, man. 68 00:06:03,120 --> 00:06:05,330 - Yeah. - I'm sorry. 69 00:06:07,380 --> 00:06:10,340 So... what happened? 70 00:06:11,050 --> 00:06:13,800 They never tell you anything, I... They won't... 71 00:06:13,880 --> 00:06:16,170 I won't know anything for like a week. 72 00:06:16,260 --> 00:06:17,600 Oh. 73 00:06:20,010 --> 00:06:22,640 And I'm... I'm gonna be late on rent. 74 00:06:23,390 --> 00:06:25,180 That's okay. Don't worry about that. 75 00:06:26,060 --> 00:06:27,310 Thanks. 76 00:06:36,110 --> 00:06:37,400 Oh, God. 77 00:06:41,370 --> 00:06:42,830 What if you had been in the car? 78 00:06:43,540 --> 00:06:46,420 I wouldn't be here. 79 00:06:47,370 --> 00:06:49,250 You would've missed me? 80 00:06:53,590 --> 00:06:54,640 Don't joke. 81 00:07:07,730 --> 00:07:11,610 It was so much easier before you got all horny. 82 00:07:16,150 --> 00:07:18,440 It... it's not like you don't... 83 00:07:19,490 --> 00:07:20,660 Do it? 84 00:07:25,370 --> 00:07:28,540 Friends can't have sex and still be friends. 85 00:07:30,420 --> 00:07:33,340 I like us like we are, okay? 86 00:07:37,880 --> 00:07:39,420 Okay. 87 00:07:40,640 --> 00:07:41,680 Jamie! 88 00:07:42,100 --> 00:07:44,390 Could you come help me set up, please? 89 00:07:45,600 --> 00:07:47,230 Can my mom just chill out? 90 00:07:48,230 --> 00:07:50,690 She's compensating for her loneliness. 91 00:07:53,310 --> 00:07:55,600 Dorothea, all that is really beautiful molding there. 92 00:07:55,690 --> 00:07:57,590 - It is. - I want to continue that around the side. 93 00:07:57,610 --> 00:07:59,440 Right so we're gonna have to re-match that. 94 00:07:59,530 --> 00:08:01,330 Now is that... is that actually wood... 95 00:08:01,410 --> 00:08:02,910 - That is wood. - or is that plaster? 96 00:08:02,990 --> 00:08:04,490 No, the plaster is underneath it. 97 00:08:04,580 --> 00:08:06,330 The molding on the outside there is wood. 98 00:08:06,410 --> 00:08:07,530 - So... - Okay. 99 00:08:07,620 --> 00:08:08,720 It's gonna take a little bit of time, but... 100 00:08:08,750 --> 00:08:09,790 Well, we've got... 101 00:08:10,540 --> 00:08:11,580 Okay, no, it's good. 102 00:08:11,670 --> 00:08:14,800 Actually, it was, it was built in 1905, 103 00:08:14,880 --> 00:08:16,380 and the same family had it forever, 104 00:08:16,460 --> 00:08:18,580 but they lost all their money during the war, 105 00:08:18,800 --> 00:08:20,180 and then there was a fire and... 106 00:08:20,800 --> 00:08:22,300 You should've been here for that. 107 00:08:22,390 --> 00:08:25,690 Anyway, so, it was just a mess. They let it fall apart. 108 00:08:25,760 --> 00:08:28,180 Then a bohemian inherited it in the '60s, 109 00:08:28,390 --> 00:08:31,260 then a bunch of free spirits moved in, and they lost it to the bank. 110 00:08:31,350 --> 00:08:32,390 It's beautiful. 111 00:08:32,560 --> 00:08:34,430 Oh, I... I completely fell in love with it. 112 00:08:34,610 --> 00:08:36,850 We're connected to the dirt 'cause we came from the dirt. 113 00:08:36,900 --> 00:08:40,530 The dirt is made of stars and stardust, in the same way we are, 114 00:08:40,610 --> 00:08:45,400 so when you put your hands into that dirt 115 00:08:45,700 --> 00:08:47,780 and feel the Earth Mother... 116 00:08:51,620 --> 00:08:52,790 - Uh, William? - Mm-hmm? 117 00:08:53,120 --> 00:08:55,660 It looks as though I'm gonna be in need of a car. 118 00:08:55,750 --> 00:08:58,370 Do you think you have something for me out there, cheap? 119 00:08:58,800 --> 00:09:01,010 Maybe that '49 Deluxe? 120 00:09:01,090 --> 00:09:03,670 I think we can work something out. 121 00:09:03,760 --> 00:09:05,730 Maybe we'll trade for rent or something. 122 00:09:06,510 --> 00:09:08,550 - Thank you. - Sure. 123 00:09:10,270 --> 00:09:12,150 Okay. Got through that one. 124 00:09:13,100 --> 00:09:14,220 All right. Just, um... 125 00:09:14,850 --> 00:09:16,640 give me a minute and then come out. 126 00:09:47,050 --> 00:09:49,550 My mom was born in 1924. 127 00:09:50,430 --> 00:09:53,430 When she was my age people drove in sad cars 128 00:09:53,520 --> 00:09:58,740 to sad houses with old phones, no money, or food, or televisions... 129 00:09:59,820 --> 00:10:01,700 but the people were real. 130 00:10:02,490 --> 00:10:03,780 When she was 16, 131 00:10:04,320 --> 00:10:06,440 the war broke out and she had to leave school. 132 00:10:07,280 --> 00:10:09,280 Her dream was to be a pilot in the Air Force. 133 00:10:10,700 --> 00:10:12,410 She actually went to flight school. 134 00:10:12,830 --> 00:10:15,290 But the war ended before she was done. 135 00:10:16,580 --> 00:10:18,000 She became the first woman to work 136 00:10:18,080 --> 00:10:20,290 in the Continental Can Company drafting room. 137 00:10:22,050 --> 00:10:24,050 Then she met my dad... 138 00:10:24,800 --> 00:10:26,060 and then I came. 139 00:10:27,090 --> 00:10:28,840 Then they got divorced. 140 00:10:29,890 --> 00:10:33,730 But people from her time never admit anything went wrong. 141 00:10:34,730 --> 00:10:36,730 - What do you mean? - I'm sorry. 142 00:10:36,810 --> 00:10:40,180 He's too young to have an account in his name only, little guy. 143 00:10:40,480 --> 00:10:42,100 No. He... he's a person. 144 00:10:42,190 --> 00:10:45,400 He's not half a person, and he's not some cute little guy. 145 00:10:45,740 --> 00:10:48,660 He has volition and autonomy and privacy. 146 00:10:48,860 --> 00:10:49,990 He needs a bank account. 147 00:10:50,700 --> 00:10:52,150 Can you do that for us? 148 00:10:53,240 --> 00:10:56,740 Now, Jamie, you can't just keep skipping school and making excuses. 149 00:10:56,830 --> 00:10:59,500 Well wait a minute, why not? Why can't he just skip school 150 00:11:00,330 --> 00:11:03,750 if he... if he has a legitimate need to be away? 151 00:11:04,090 --> 00:11:06,550 Well, then I need a legitimate real note from you... 152 00:11:06,970 --> 00:11:08,810 - Okay. - with your real signature. 153 00:11:08,930 --> 00:11:12,890 Wow, how did you forge my signature so well? 154 00:11:13,850 --> 00:11:15,350 That is ingenious! 155 00:11:16,680 --> 00:11:18,970 But you should never forge someone's signature 156 00:11:19,100 --> 00:11:20,930 or do anything behind someone's back. 157 00:11:22,400 --> 00:11:24,570 Please excuse Jamie from school this morning. 158 00:11:24,650 --> 00:11:27,980 He was doing volunteer work for the Sandinistas. 159 00:11:28,530 --> 00:11:30,450 Please excuse Jamie from school this morning. 160 00:11:30,530 --> 00:11:32,530 He was involved in a small plane accident. 161 00:11:32,780 --> 00:11:34,950 Fortunately, he was not hurt. 162 00:11:35,450 --> 00:11:38,700 You're gonna be in for a legendary surprise. 163 00:11:38,790 --> 00:11:40,090 It's mahogany underneath. 164 00:11:40,290 --> 00:11:42,870 She's always trying to bring a man into my life. 165 00:11:42,960 --> 00:11:44,750 This is probably Honduran mahogany. 166 00:11:45,420 --> 00:11:46,460 Really fine, very... 167 00:11:46,840 --> 00:11:49,810 - This is, like, really, really boring. - Hey, come on, watch it. 168 00:11:49,880 --> 00:11:51,490 He's talking about, like, wood and stuff. 169 00:11:51,510 --> 00:11:53,630 He's helping me out. Restore the house, okay? 170 00:11:53,720 --> 00:11:54,760 IBM? 171 00:11:55,180 --> 00:11:56,780 She writes down her stocks every morning. 172 00:11:56,810 --> 00:11:58,360 Two-hundred and thirteen point two. 173 00:11:58,980 --> 00:12:00,440 GE? 174 00:12:01,650 --> 00:12:03,610 Um, 51.62. 175 00:12:03,860 --> 00:12:05,910 She smokes Salems because they're healthier, 176 00:12:05,980 --> 00:12:08,360 wears Birkenstocks because she's contemporary. 177 00:12:09,570 --> 00:12:10,690 She read Watership Down 178 00:12:10,780 --> 00:12:13,570 and learned how to carve rabbits out of wood. 179 00:12:14,950 --> 00:12:17,410 And she never dates a man for very long. 180 00:12:19,080 --> 00:12:20,580 Thank you, bye bye. 181 00:12:20,830 --> 00:12:22,330 Good night, Dorothea. 182 00:12:22,710 --> 00:12:24,380 - Good night. - Bye. 183 00:12:24,790 --> 00:12:25,830 So, I'll see ya later. 184 00:12:26,880 --> 00:12:28,780 Just don't hang out with that Chris guy anymore, okay? 185 00:12:28,800 --> 00:12:30,850 - Good night. - He's a skeez and he's kinda dumb. 186 00:12:30,930 --> 00:12:32,890 - Exactly. - Good night, Dorothea. 187 00:12:33,760 --> 00:12:35,840 - Happy Birthday. - Bye, Julie. 188 00:12:38,850 --> 00:12:39,900 Stop. 189 00:12:40,100 --> 00:12:41,600 What? 190 00:12:43,810 --> 00:12:45,850 Thinking that you know everything that's going on. 191 00:12:45,940 --> 00:12:48,400 No, I don... I just think that, you know, 192 00:12:48,480 --> 00:12:51,770 having your heart broken is a tremendous way to learn about the world. 193 00:12:56,830 --> 00:12:58,120 Okay. 194 00:13:01,910 --> 00:13:03,540 Do you think you're happy? 195 00:13:04,670 --> 00:13:05,760 Like... 196 00:13:07,130 --> 00:13:09,760 as happy as you thought you'd be when you were my age? 197 00:13:10,840 --> 00:13:11,880 Seriously? 198 00:13:12,090 --> 00:13:14,090 You don't ask people questions like that. 199 00:13:15,340 --> 00:13:16,380 You're my mom. 200 00:13:19,640 --> 00:13:20,680 Especially your mom. 201 00:13:21,100 --> 00:13:22,600 Look, wondering if you're happy 202 00:13:22,730 --> 00:13:24,860 is a great shortcut to just being depressed. 203 00:13:25,100 --> 00:13:26,270 Give me that. 204 00:14:08,310 --> 00:14:09,980 What is that? 205 00:14:10,860 --> 00:14:12,780 It's The Raincoats. 206 00:14:19,280 --> 00:14:21,820 Can't things... just be pretty? 207 00:14:23,500 --> 00:14:27,210 "Pretty" music is used to hide how unfair and corrupt society is. 208 00:14:28,130 --> 00:14:29,800 Ah. 209 00:14:32,090 --> 00:14:33,140 Okay, so... 210 00:14:34,050 --> 00:14:36,970 they're not very good, and they know that, right? 211 00:14:37,380 --> 00:14:39,050 Yeah, it's... 212 00:14:39,890 --> 00:14:41,890 It's like they got all this, this feeling, 213 00:14:42,470 --> 00:14:44,850 and they don't have any skill, and they don't want skill, 214 00:14:44,930 --> 00:14:46,430 because it's really interesting 215 00:14:46,520 --> 00:14:51,150 what happens when your passion is bigger than the tools 216 00:14:51,230 --> 00:14:52,940 you have to deal with it. 217 00:14:53,070 --> 00:14:57,410 It creates this energy that's... that's... that's raw. 218 00:14:58,200 --> 00:14:59,950 Isn't it great? 219 00:15:17,260 --> 00:15:20,930 My son was born in 1964. 220 00:15:24,220 --> 00:15:26,550 He grew up with a meaningless war... 221 00:15:27,480 --> 00:15:31,240 with protests, with Nixon... 222 00:15:32,360 --> 00:15:34,660 with nice cars and nice houses... 223 00:15:35,230 --> 00:15:39,860 computers, drugs, boredom. 224 00:15:44,200 --> 00:15:47,160 I know him less every day. 225 00:15:52,710 --> 00:15:55,000 He said it was just a game. 226 00:15:55,960 --> 00:15:57,750 You breathe real hard and another kid 227 00:16:05,970 --> 00:16:09,180 He said you're supposed to come to a few seconds later... 228 00:16:09,270 --> 00:16:10,860 - Dude, can I try? - Yeah. 229 00:16:10,940 --> 00:16:15,360 but it took Jamie almost a half an hour to wake up. 230 00:16:29,410 --> 00:16:30,450 Going to get help! 231 00:16:48,180 --> 00:16:50,100 - You all right? - He's fine. 232 00:16:55,810 --> 00:16:57,020 Can you tell me your name? 233 00:16:58,480 --> 00:16:59,520 Jamie Fields. 234 00:17:18,800 --> 00:17:19,930 You got lucky this time. 235 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:23,250 Lack of oxygen to the brain can cause brain damage, 236 00:17:23,970 --> 00:17:25,890 comas... even death. 237 00:17:31,230 --> 00:17:35,900 Jamie, why would you do something so dangerous? 238 00:17:38,520 --> 00:17:40,480 I don't know. Um... 239 00:17:41,280 --> 00:17:43,160 I mean, everyone was doing it. 240 00:17:44,780 --> 00:17:46,150 So you just went along with it? 241 00:17:47,070 --> 00:17:49,240 - It looked like fun. - That's just dumb. 242 00:17:49,330 --> 00:17:51,130 Why would you do something so stupid? 243 00:17:51,580 --> 00:17:52,630 Just following along? 244 00:17:53,250 --> 00:17:55,880 You... you know you almost died, right? 245 00:17:56,040 --> 00:17:58,710 - You don't need to worry about me. - Why didn't you think? 246 00:17:59,750 --> 00:18:01,540 Jamie! Hey! 247 00:18:04,010 --> 00:18:05,100 Jamie... 248 00:18:05,930 --> 00:18:08,430 What... what is going on? What, why... 249 00:18:09,470 --> 00:18:11,970 What? You're not gonna talk to me now? 250 00:18:14,350 --> 00:18:15,890 I'm not the one who doesn't talk. 251 00:18:16,350 --> 00:18:18,310 What? Come on. 252 00:18:19,020 --> 00:18:21,230 You scared the hell out of me! 253 00:18:22,190 --> 00:18:24,150 Why... why did you hurt yourself like that? 254 00:18:24,530 --> 00:18:26,200 Why do you smoke yourself to death? 255 00:18:26,360 --> 00:18:27,650 Hey! 256 00:18:28,660 --> 00:18:32,080 Why are you fine being sad and alone? 257 00:18:34,160 --> 00:18:35,200 I, uh... 258 00:18:35,750 --> 00:18:39,510 I... You... You c... 259 00:18:40,000 --> 00:18:41,680 You can't talk to me like that. We don't... 260 00:18:41,710 --> 00:18:43,790 You don't say that to me. 261 00:18:54,270 --> 00:18:56,900 ♪ This day and age we're living in ♪ 262 00:18:56,980 --> 00:18:59,400 ♪ Gives cause for apprehension ♪ 263 00:18:59,730 --> 00:19:01,890 ♪ With speed and new invention ♪ 264 00:19:02,150 --> 00:19:04,280 ♪ And things like third dimension ♪ 265 00:19:04,360 --> 00:19:07,080 ♪ Yet we get a trifle weary ♪ 266 00:19:07,360 --> 00:19:09,940 ♪ With Mr. Einstein's theory ♪ 267 00:19:10,280 --> 00:19:12,990 ♪ So we must get down to Earth at times ♪ 268 00:19:14,160 --> 00:19:17,120 ♪ Relax, relieve the tension ♪ 269 00:19:17,250 --> 00:19:19,630 ♪ No matter what the progress ♪ 270 00:19:19,750 --> 00:19:21,960 ♪ Or what may yet be proved ♪ 271 00:19:22,460 --> 00:19:25,460 ♪ The simple facts of life are such ♪ 272 00:19:25,840 --> 00:19:30,060 ♪ They cannot be removed ♪ 273 00:19:35,100 --> 00:19:37,560 ♪ You must remember this ♪ 274 00:19:37,810 --> 00:19:40,100 ♪ A kiss is still a kiss... ♪ 275 00:19:40,350 --> 00:19:42,680 I think history has been tough on men. 276 00:19:43,070 --> 00:19:44,780 I mean, they can't be what they were, 277 00:19:45,150 --> 00:19:46,980 and they can't figure out what's next. 278 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:48,580 What are we talking about? 279 00:19:48,650 --> 00:19:49,690 Men? 280 00:19:50,160 --> 00:19:52,080 I think history and men? 281 00:19:52,160 --> 00:19:54,460 I mean who are your heroes nowadays? 282 00:19:54,700 --> 00:19:56,410 A bunch of privileged drug addicts? 283 00:19:56,540 --> 00:19:59,210 I think maybe you guys can help me with Jamie. 284 00:19:59,500 --> 00:20:02,260 I think... he needs help... 285 00:20:03,040 --> 00:20:06,500 in figuring out how to be himself in all this mess. 286 00:20:06,710 --> 00:20:08,420 And I can't be there. 287 00:20:09,170 --> 00:20:11,670 I can't be there with him. I have to let go. 288 00:20:12,390 --> 00:20:14,560 Is this because of the fainting thing? 289 00:20:14,680 --> 00:20:16,300 - He's fine. - No. 290 00:20:16,680 --> 00:20:18,220 It's because of everything. 291 00:20:20,270 --> 00:20:22,480 I don't understand what... What are you asking? 292 00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:24,780 Well, how do you be a good man? 293 00:20:26,320 --> 00:20:28,240 What does that even mean nowadays? 294 00:20:29,360 --> 00:20:31,020 He's... he's only got me. It's just... 295 00:20:31,820 --> 00:20:33,650 Think about it. It's not enough. 296 00:20:33,910 --> 00:20:35,660 - You're serious? - Yeah. 297 00:20:35,740 --> 00:20:38,450 What about William? William's a guy. That's... 298 00:20:38,540 --> 00:20:41,250 He can talk to him about guy things. 299 00:20:41,330 --> 00:20:43,200 Have you ever seen them have a conversation? 300 00:20:43,290 --> 00:20:45,330 They have nothing in common. They don't connect. 301 00:20:45,420 --> 00:20:47,760 It's just not working. I mean, I thought about that. 302 00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:48,960 He... 303 00:20:50,220 --> 00:20:53,310 Well, he likes you and you. He likes you a lot. 304 00:20:53,720 --> 00:20:54,990 - That... that's... - He's my friend. 305 00:20:55,010 --> 00:20:56,300 I don't want to be his mom. 306 00:20:57,260 --> 00:20:58,800 Yeah, no. I'm his mom. 307 00:20:59,430 --> 00:21:03,180 I mean don't you need a man to raise a man? 308 00:21:04,730 --> 00:21:06,310 No. I don't think so. 309 00:21:07,230 --> 00:21:08,270 I mean, 310 00:21:08,570 --> 00:21:11,490 I think you're what's gonna work for him. 311 00:21:15,120 --> 00:21:18,830 I mean... you know him better than anyone. 312 00:21:19,120 --> 00:21:21,420 You know that, and... 313 00:21:21,500 --> 00:21:25,170 you care about him. You can watch out for him. 314 00:21:25,380 --> 00:21:30,140 And you just share your life. You're a talented person. 315 00:21:30,260 --> 00:21:31,660 Show him what you're interested in. 316 00:21:31,720 --> 00:21:33,600 You know, he would be lucky to have that. 317 00:21:52,070 --> 00:21:53,120 Help me with what? 318 00:21:53,530 --> 00:21:56,330 Oh, go through this part of your life. 319 00:21:56,410 --> 00:21:58,370 It's not easy. It's not easy for anybody. 320 00:21:59,790 --> 00:22:01,420 - You asked them to help me? - Yeah. 321 00:22:02,200 --> 00:22:04,370 No, they... they get it. 322 00:22:06,250 --> 00:22:07,300 So they said yes? 323 00:22:07,540 --> 00:22:08,910 Yeah. 324 00:22:09,340 --> 00:22:10,720 - Fuck. - Hey! 325 00:22:11,840 --> 00:22:14,600 You just feel guilty 'cause it's just me and you. 326 00:22:17,590 --> 00:22:19,130 You don't know what I'm feeling. 327 00:22:20,220 --> 00:22:21,300 Just tell me. 328 00:22:22,180 --> 00:22:24,300 Kid... 329 00:22:24,390 --> 00:22:27,640 You never tell me what you're gonna do. You just do it. 330 00:22:43,290 --> 00:22:45,290 I got the keys to my stepmom's car. 331 00:22:45,370 --> 00:22:47,410 I'm going to The Starwood. 332 00:22:47,500 --> 00:22:50,760 Tanya and Michelle are both gonna be there. 333 00:22:51,090 --> 00:22:52,260 Hey, you guys going to LA? 334 00:22:53,420 --> 00:22:55,540 Yeah, I am. 335 00:22:57,130 --> 00:22:58,170 Can I come? 336 00:23:00,010 --> 00:23:02,380 ...kissed a girl? Are you ready? 337 00:23:03,270 --> 00:23:05,810 Are you gonna... are you gonna get with some chick there? 338 00:23:29,460 --> 00:23:30,760 That was Jamie. 339 00:23:31,500 --> 00:23:34,000 He is in, uh, LA. 340 00:23:34,300 --> 00:23:36,850 He and some friends went to a show. 341 00:23:38,470 --> 00:23:41,480 - Oh. - Yeah. He wanted me to tell you. 342 00:23:42,550 --> 00:23:43,970 Okay. 343 00:23:52,400 --> 00:23:54,070 Aren't you worried or... 344 00:23:57,360 --> 00:23:59,860 He's mad at me and this is his way of dealing with it... 345 00:24:01,200 --> 00:24:03,250 and he has every right to be mad. 346 00:24:05,330 --> 00:24:06,960 Yeah, but if it makes him this mad, 347 00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:09,530 then maybe it wasn't a good idea. 348 00:24:16,250 --> 00:24:18,790 ♪ Got television, got supervision ♪ 349 00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:20,460 ♪ No decisions for you ♪ 350 00:24:20,680 --> 00:24:24,270 ♪ Media blitz, media blitz, media hits, we rule ♪ 351 00:24:30,270 --> 00:24:32,030 ♪ Don't steal your eyes off the TV screen ♪ 352 00:24:32,100 --> 00:24:33,810 ♪ Can you realize we're what we've seen? ♪ 353 00:24:33,900 --> 00:24:37,610 ♪ Take an injection... ♪ 354 00:24:46,490 --> 00:24:47,990 Maybe... 355 00:24:48,750 --> 00:24:50,500 Maybe I did the wrong thing. 356 00:24:51,960 --> 00:24:53,670 Oh, I... 357 00:24:54,630 --> 00:24:56,170 - With the kid, I mean. - Yeah, I know. 358 00:24:56,250 --> 00:24:59,210 I think that Jamie's energy is very... 359 00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:03,420 unstable. 360 00:25:05,640 --> 00:25:07,140 Yeah. Well, you're right. 361 00:25:07,220 --> 00:25:08,800 Then, though, there's an energy crisis. 362 00:25:08,890 --> 00:25:13,970 Maybe that plays into it in some way. 363 00:25:15,810 --> 00:25:17,480 I'm sorry. 364 00:25:19,150 --> 00:25:21,820 You don't have very many funny lines, do you? 365 00:25:25,410 --> 00:25:26,660 Okay. 366 00:25:54,520 --> 00:25:55,570 Jamie? 367 00:26:04,530 --> 00:26:06,040 Jamie? 368 00:26:29,640 --> 00:26:30,730 Hey. 369 00:26:31,470 --> 00:26:32,720 Hey. 370 00:26:33,680 --> 00:26:35,680 - Everything okay? - Yeah. 371 00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:37,650 Can I come in? 372 00:26:38,940 --> 00:26:40,150 Sure. 373 00:26:43,940 --> 00:26:46,690 So I had this new idea for... for my photography 374 00:26:46,780 --> 00:26:51,450 that I was gonna take a picture of everything that I owned 375 00:26:51,530 --> 00:26:56,740 so it would be a self-portrait of myself through the stuff that I have. 376 00:27:00,670 --> 00:27:01,720 Can I show you? 377 00:27:02,210 --> 00:27:06,000 That's a bra, birth control, 378 00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:11,480 um, photography by Susan Sontag, shoes, underwear, 379 00:27:12,260 --> 00:27:13,760 a picture of a picture of my mom. 380 00:27:14,890 --> 00:27:17,100 I'm gonna do a bunch of 'em. 381 00:27:18,730 --> 00:27:21,950 It's a little bit... It's a little bit sad. 382 00:27:26,070 --> 00:27:27,740 You know, all this stuff together. 383 00:27:28,990 --> 00:27:30,830 I don't know why that is. 384 00:27:32,080 --> 00:27:33,120 Not... I mean... 385 00:27:33,870 --> 00:27:35,290 Do you know what I mean? 386 00:27:36,500 --> 00:27:38,300 It's really beautiful, Abbie. 387 00:27:39,170 --> 00:27:42,800 Do you want to fool around... with me? 388 00:27:45,050 --> 00:27:46,390 Really? 389 00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:49,130 Yeah. 390 00:27:52,350 --> 00:27:53,770 Yeah. 391 00:27:55,270 --> 00:27:56,690 I do. 392 00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:03,810 You know, I'm recovering from cervical cancer. 393 00:28:07,440 --> 00:28:08,690 I know. 394 00:28:25,550 --> 00:28:27,470 Your hair smells good. 395 00:28:31,590 --> 00:28:33,130 I make my own shampoo. 396 00:28:34,390 --> 00:28:35,850 Of course you do. 397 00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:05,120 Oh. 398 00:29:05,380 --> 00:29:07,970 It's okay, Jeeves, he's back. 399 00:29:08,050 --> 00:29:10,010 You can relax now. 400 00:29:22,890 --> 00:29:24,390 Where were you? 401 00:29:25,610 --> 00:29:26,650 I went to The Starwood. 402 00:29:27,440 --> 00:29:31,400 Saw a show in LA. Had a lot of fun. 403 00:29:33,070 --> 00:29:34,110 Are you drunk? 404 00:29:42,790 --> 00:29:44,090 Don't. 405 00:29:48,340 --> 00:29:49,630 What's wrong? 406 00:29:52,510 --> 00:29:54,510 Tim Trammer came inside me. 407 00:29:58,850 --> 00:30:00,980 I don't want to hear this shit. 408 00:30:02,770 --> 00:30:05,690 We broke into that old pool at the rec center. 409 00:30:05,770 --> 00:30:07,560 Got loaded. 410 00:30:08,610 --> 00:30:10,110 Fucked around. 411 00:30:12,190 --> 00:30:14,860 And me and Tim ended up in his mom's Maverick. 412 00:30:21,830 --> 00:30:23,040 Did you just cum? 413 00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:25,700 Yeah. 414 00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:29,550 You said you'd pull out. 415 00:30:32,460 --> 00:30:33,960 Yeah. 416 00:30:34,380 --> 00:30:35,960 Sorry. 417 00:30:37,970 --> 00:30:39,850 I thought we had a deal there. 418 00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:43,900 Fuck. 419 00:30:46,940 --> 00:30:48,690 What are you gonna do? 420 00:30:52,530 --> 00:30:54,200 It'll be fine. 421 00:31:10,960 --> 00:31:13,790 Your mom asked me to, like, help raise you. 422 00:31:17,340 --> 00:31:19,300 Yeah, I know. 423 00:31:21,850 --> 00:31:23,480 She was raised in The Depression. 424 00:31:24,390 --> 00:31:25,930 Everyone helped raise everyone. 425 00:31:26,310 --> 00:31:28,690 You know, the whole neighborhood raised the kids. 426 00:31:29,980 --> 00:31:31,570 Sorry. 427 00:31:34,900 --> 00:31:35,940 Can we do therapy? 428 00:31:37,030 --> 00:31:39,330 Jesus, I don't want to do therapy right now. 429 00:31:39,410 --> 00:31:40,950 - Let's just role play. - Please, no. 430 00:31:41,030 --> 00:31:44,110 I'll be your mom, and you can tell her what you want to tell her. 431 00:31:44,540 --> 00:31:45,830 Just do it. 432 00:31:47,540 --> 00:31:49,060 I don't want to talk to my mom right now. 433 00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:50,120 What would you say to her? 434 00:31:53,130 --> 00:31:54,800 Okay. 435 00:31:59,050 --> 00:32:01,340 I don't need your help, Mom. 436 00:32:02,430 --> 00:32:04,060 I've got it. 437 00:32:04,760 --> 00:32:06,050 I'm okay. 438 00:32:09,890 --> 00:32:12,810 Um, I'm gonna need a story. 439 00:32:13,270 --> 00:32:14,310 What? 440 00:32:14,770 --> 00:32:15,810 A story. 441 00:32:16,280 --> 00:32:18,070 - What do you mean? - Like a... a story. 442 00:32:19,030 --> 00:32:20,080 Um... where... I'm... 443 00:32:25,030 --> 00:32:27,320 I'm just a normal woman, 444 00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:30,580 and you're a photographer, 445 00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:35,170 and so you're photographing me, but while you're doing it... 446 00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:40,800 you can't help yourself, and you start touching me. 447 00:32:41,800 --> 00:32:45,010 And you touch me... 448 00:32:46,100 --> 00:32:52,690 and you say... "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." 449 00:32:55,060 --> 00:32:56,230 Really? 450 00:32:57,690 --> 00:32:59,690 I can't just be myself? 451 00:33:03,490 --> 00:33:04,910 No. 452 00:33:06,530 --> 00:33:07,930 - Okay, so... Do I just, uh... - Okay. 453 00:33:07,950 --> 00:33:09,410 - Hey, nice to meet you. - Oh, Hi. 454 00:33:10,200 --> 00:33:13,910 Do I just look in the camera, or should I look... off to the side? 455 00:33:14,000 --> 00:33:16,040 Let's start that way, looking in the camera. 456 00:33:16,130 --> 00:33:17,180 Okay. Should I smile? 457 00:33:18,050 --> 00:33:19,430 - Do you like to smile? - Yeah. 458 00:33:20,130 --> 00:33:22,050 - Okay. - Okay. 459 00:33:22,880 --> 00:33:23,920 Uh, oh, you took it. 460 00:33:24,220 --> 00:33:25,990 I thought you were gonna say like, "One, two, three..." 461 00:33:26,010 --> 00:33:27,050 - No. - Okay. 462 00:33:27,310 --> 00:33:28,980 - I just wait for the moment. - Okay. 463 00:33:29,100 --> 00:33:30,900 - I just have to fix something. - Okay. 464 00:33:31,430 --> 00:33:32,720 - Just right here. - Um, oh. 465 00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:35,400 - I'm sorry. - Oh, God. No, it's all right. 466 00:33:35,480 --> 00:33:38,940 I don't mind. I'm just... Never done this before. 467 00:33:39,030 --> 00:33:44,410 I, um, so I'm just a little bit nervous, but, um, I can, um, 468 00:33:44,490 --> 00:33:47,080 - wear my hair differently if you want. - Abbie... 469 00:33:48,870 --> 00:33:50,170 Yeah? 470 00:33:52,500 --> 00:33:54,130 I'm sorry. 471 00:33:59,170 --> 00:34:00,960 I'm really sorry. 472 00:34:18,650 --> 00:34:21,990 Julie and I have been friends since we were little. 473 00:34:26,070 --> 00:34:28,610 She likes to say she's self-destructive. 474 00:34:30,450 --> 00:34:31,660 Her mother is a therapist. 475 00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:33,240 We used to talk and I... 476 00:34:34,290 --> 00:34:37,420 had a better sense of what was going on with you. I worry that... 477 00:34:38,040 --> 00:34:40,830 She makes Julie attend her teen group sessions. 478 00:34:40,920 --> 00:34:42,290 How about the possibility... 479 00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:46,590 that you're choosing boys who are inappropriate... 480 00:34:47,050 --> 00:34:48,090 unconsciously? 481 00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:51,560 When her mother remarried, Julie changed. 482 00:34:51,640 --> 00:34:53,160 I love this shirt! Don't get me wrong... 483 00:34:53,180 --> 00:34:54,510 When her half-sister Amanda 484 00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:58,020 was born with cerebral palsy, she changed more. 485 00:35:00,110 --> 00:35:01,780 Wow, it looks really pretty on you. 486 00:35:02,190 --> 00:35:04,980 Brings... Just... just makes your whole face pop. 487 00:35:05,820 --> 00:35:06,860 Like soda. Like pop. 488 00:35:17,250 --> 00:35:19,420 She started fooling around. 489 00:35:21,250 --> 00:35:23,420 She started sneaking into my house. 490 00:35:24,590 --> 00:35:26,100 Sleeping over. 491 00:35:27,590 --> 00:35:28,750 Why'd you do it? 492 00:35:29,220 --> 00:35:30,640 'Cause I'm crazy. 493 00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,350 You wish you were crazy. 494 00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:40,990 Scratch me. 495 00:35:44,360 --> 00:35:46,870 We should go up the coast somewhere. 496 00:35:48,280 --> 00:35:49,330 Just me and you. 497 00:35:52,200 --> 00:35:54,990 Julie works at the La Cumbre Plaza mall. 498 00:35:55,080 --> 00:36:00,130 Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine, lily of the valley and rose. 499 00:36:01,500 --> 00:36:03,120 "Sex is a commitment. 500 00:36:03,210 --> 00:36:05,580 Once you're there, you can't go back to holding hands, 501 00:36:05,670 --> 00:36:08,460 and when you give yourself, both mentally and physically, 502 00:36:08,720 --> 00:36:10,350 well, you're completely vulnerable." 503 00:36:10,430 --> 00:36:13,140 All he cares about is his new wife, and her birthday, 504 00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:15,440 and Christmas with her and her family, 505 00:36:16,640 --> 00:36:18,970 and inviting all of her family to our... 506 00:36:19,060 --> 00:36:24,600 Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine, lily of the valley and rose. 507 00:36:26,030 --> 00:36:28,240 "Of all the misconceptions about love, 508 00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:29,950 the most powerful and persuasive 509 00:36:30,280 --> 00:36:32,290 is the belief that falling in love is love, 510 00:36:34,240 --> 00:36:36,950 or at least one of the manifestations of love." 511 00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:40,580 Love is supposed to be a feeling that you feel. 512 00:36:41,040 --> 00:36:44,910 People say that they're falling in love, but they're not actually falling in love. 513 00:36:46,210 --> 00:36:48,710 It's a fake connection that you feel with someone... 514 00:36:49,340 --> 00:36:51,170 and marriage should never happen. 515 00:36:51,590 --> 00:36:55,090 You should have died. It should have been you! 516 00:36:56,390 --> 00:36:57,440 Die! 517 00:37:40,390 --> 00:37:41,430 Hey, Julie. 518 00:37:42,230 --> 00:37:44,030 - Hey. - Hi. 519 00:37:44,770 --> 00:37:47,560 So come on in. It's okay. Come in. 520 00:37:48,270 --> 00:37:51,230 - He's not up yet. He, uh... - Yeah. 521 00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:52,530 Yeah, he got in kinda late. 522 00:37:53,400 --> 00:37:55,400 Okay, you wanna help me bring this stuff in? 523 00:38:01,330 --> 00:38:03,500 So is, uh, Jamie okay? 524 00:38:03,790 --> 00:38:06,260 Yeah, he's okay. 525 00:38:07,420 --> 00:38:09,260 Yeah, I... I heard him come in last night. 526 00:38:09,630 --> 00:38:11,430 - Oh. - I was... I was awake. 527 00:38:12,260 --> 00:38:13,300 Right. 528 00:38:13,510 --> 00:38:16,810 Yeah, I was just... Couldn't sleep, so I was... 529 00:38:18,550 --> 00:38:20,720 you know, listening for him. 530 00:38:35,030 --> 00:38:36,410 How was the show? 531 00:38:37,410 --> 00:38:38,700 It was good. 532 00:38:39,830 --> 00:38:42,790 Next time you take a trip just let me know, okay? 533 00:38:42,870 --> 00:38:45,280 I won't make too much dinner. 534 00:38:54,340 --> 00:38:56,340 Hey, do the stocks with me? 535 00:38:59,640 --> 00:39:00,850 Here. 536 00:39:06,230 --> 00:39:07,860 Okay. IBM? 537 00:39:10,020 --> 00:39:12,900 IBM, 69.73. 538 00:39:13,440 --> 00:39:16,440 Xerox? You okay? 539 00:39:19,070 --> 00:39:21,360 Xerox, 53.92. 540 00:39:21,450 --> 00:39:22,490 - Stop. - Okay. 541 00:39:23,240 --> 00:39:25,530 Fifty-three point nine two. 542 00:39:26,330 --> 00:39:27,370 Listen. 543 00:39:27,500 --> 00:39:29,440 Abbie has her appointment today and I can't be here. 544 00:39:29,460 --> 00:39:30,510 I have to go to work, 545 00:39:30,630 --> 00:39:32,630 so I was hoping that maybe you could be here 546 00:39:33,300 --> 00:39:36,180 when she gets back in case she needs some support. 547 00:39:36,720 --> 00:39:38,560 She's going through a lot. 548 00:39:39,470 --> 00:39:43,390 Okay, well, like, what if it's, like, bad news or something? 549 00:39:44,520 --> 00:39:45,650 Well, you can handle it. 550 00:39:46,100 --> 00:39:49,520 Or if you can't, you have to start somewhere. 551 00:39:51,310 --> 00:39:53,600 Men always feel like they have to fix things 552 00:39:53,690 --> 00:39:55,600 for women or they're not doing anything, 553 00:39:55,690 --> 00:39:58,820 but some things just can't be fixed. 554 00:39:58,950 --> 00:40:00,290 Just be there. 555 00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:03,410 Somehow that's hard for all of you. 556 00:40:05,370 --> 00:40:08,920 Mom, I'm not "all men." Okay? I'm just me. 557 00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:12,340 Well, yes and no. 558 00:40:16,050 --> 00:40:18,550 What if I have to have full-on chemo... 559 00:40:19,470 --> 00:40:21,600 or get a hysterectomy? 560 00:40:22,390 --> 00:40:24,270 Do you know what that is? 561 00:40:26,470 --> 00:40:28,850 Look, I should just go with you, you know? I mean... 562 00:40:35,070 --> 00:40:38,120 Your mom did tell me to share my life with you. 563 00:40:39,400 --> 00:40:41,150 Yeah, I know. 564 00:40:42,280 --> 00:40:44,320 You don't... 565 00:40:44,410 --> 00:40:45,870 Don't worry about her. She's... 566 00:40:46,120 --> 00:40:47,750 she's from The Depression. 567 00:40:51,420 --> 00:40:52,510 Yeah. 568 00:40:57,590 --> 00:40:59,890 It's good news, Abbie. 569 00:41:01,590 --> 00:41:03,050 There were no malignant cells. 570 00:41:03,930 --> 00:41:05,600 Your biopsy's benign. 571 00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:12,440 And in the future? 572 00:41:13,940 --> 00:41:17,240 There was damage to the muscle wall, from the surgery. 573 00:41:19,610 --> 00:41:21,730 You have an incompetent cervix. 574 00:41:30,700 --> 00:41:32,410 Incompetent? 575 00:41:33,670 --> 00:41:36,510 It may not be strong enough to go full term during pregnancy. 576 00:41:37,460 --> 00:41:40,500 As the baby grows, the cervix widens. 577 00:41:41,470 --> 00:41:43,930 If it's weakened, it's likely to open prematurely. 578 00:41:50,430 --> 00:41:52,010 I'm gonna be okay. 579 00:41:56,360 --> 00:41:59,200 He said that I probably can't have kids. 580 00:42:05,820 --> 00:42:07,650 Was having Jamie, like... 581 00:42:08,740 --> 00:42:11,030 the biggest thing that ever happened to you? 582 00:42:16,130 --> 00:42:17,590 I guess so. 583 00:42:19,880 --> 00:42:22,090 - Sorry. - It's okay. 584 00:42:27,600 --> 00:42:29,640 You'll get through this. 585 00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:33,510 You will get through it. 586 00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:36,430 You will do it. 587 00:42:40,020 --> 00:42:43,690 You'll... This is the really hard part. And then what happens is, 588 00:42:44,070 --> 00:42:47,080 there's a hard part and then it gets better. 589 00:42:48,570 --> 00:42:50,530 And then it gets hard again, but never mind. 590 00:42:54,120 --> 00:42:55,830 I shouldn't have told you that part. 591 00:42:56,710 --> 00:43:00,300 I should have just said it gets better and then that's it, but... 592 00:43:01,090 --> 00:43:02,130 You got birds? 593 00:43:02,840 --> 00:43:03,890 Is that okay? 594 00:43:04,300 --> 00:43:05,350 Yeah. 595 00:43:08,390 --> 00:43:09,890 So did you name them? 596 00:43:10,470 --> 00:43:11,510 Not yet. 597 00:43:12,100 --> 00:43:14,190 They're a boy and a girl, and... 598 00:43:14,270 --> 00:43:16,480 that they're monogamous for life, so if... 599 00:43:18,600 --> 00:43:20,600 one of them dies, then the other one... 600 00:43:21,650 --> 00:43:23,660 will die like a week later. 601 00:43:23,940 --> 00:43:25,610 Wow. 602 00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:29,280 Well how 'bout Maximilian and Carlotta? 603 00:43:30,530 --> 00:43:31,570 I... I... 604 00:43:32,370 --> 00:43:33,870 You know, they deserve something grand 605 00:43:33,950 --> 00:43:37,280 if they're gonna be monogamous their whole lives. 606 00:43:37,370 --> 00:43:39,830 Right? 607 00:43:41,750 --> 00:43:45,830 Aw. 608 00:43:48,760 --> 00:43:52,390 Max and Carlotta are really good names. 609 00:43:54,140 --> 00:43:57,230 So, um, you... 610 00:43:57,310 --> 00:44:00,480 you went to the doctor's and you waited with her. 611 00:44:01,980 --> 00:44:03,350 Yeah. 612 00:44:04,650 --> 00:44:07,060 But I... I told you to wait here. 613 00:44:07,360 --> 00:44:08,400 I, um, 614 00:44:08,780 --> 00:44:10,740 I thought it'd be better to, uh, go and... 615 00:44:11,700 --> 00:44:12,750 really be there. 616 00:44:13,740 --> 00:44:15,110 Wow. 617 00:44:17,540 --> 00:44:19,460 She's really upset. 618 00:44:22,170 --> 00:44:23,970 That must have been a lot to deal with. 619 00:44:24,710 --> 00:44:26,130 I'm fine. 620 00:44:26,710 --> 00:44:27,960 I'm good. 621 00:44:29,090 --> 00:44:31,550 I... I learned a lot. 622 00:44:35,140 --> 00:44:36,350 Abigail Porter? 623 00:44:43,150 --> 00:44:44,650 "Home pregnancy tests 624 00:44:44,730 --> 00:44:46,440 that women can do safely and easily. 625 00:44:47,820 --> 00:44:51,330 A small revolution for women seeking to take control of their lives." 626 00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:13,520 What the fuck is this? 627 00:45:14,260 --> 00:45:16,840 It's a pregnancy test. 628 00:45:22,440 --> 00:45:23,480 Um, 629 00:45:23,900 --> 00:45:25,360 Abbie's doctor said that, uh, 630 00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:28,910 she wouldn't be able to have kids. 631 00:45:31,200 --> 00:45:33,200 Why'd she take you? 632 00:45:37,790 --> 00:45:39,580 - Is that all of it? - Yeah. 633 00:45:40,870 --> 00:45:42,280 That's a lot. 634 00:45:42,830 --> 00:45:45,000 - Now what? - Um... 635 00:45:45,750 --> 00:45:47,750 "Shake for ten seconds." 636 00:45:56,800 --> 00:45:58,430 Okay, um... 637 00:46:03,770 --> 00:46:07,440 Um... "Leave undisturbed for two hours." 638 00:46:09,230 --> 00:46:11,190 Two hours? 639 00:46:12,740 --> 00:46:14,240 That's what it says. 640 00:46:18,240 --> 00:46:21,320 Okay, if it appears, then you're positive, 641 00:46:21,410 --> 00:46:24,870 and if no ring appears here, then the test is negative. 642 00:46:30,250 --> 00:46:31,460 What do we do for two hours? 643 00:46:37,010 --> 00:46:38,300 Guys don't smoke like that. 644 00:46:38,760 --> 00:46:39,800 Don't hold it like that. 645 00:46:39,890 --> 00:46:42,860 Like... this, 646 00:46:43,230 --> 00:46:44,440 between your two fingers. 647 00:46:44,940 --> 00:46:46,900 - That? - Yeah. That's better. 648 00:46:51,070 --> 00:46:52,360 Okay now walk. Do like a... 649 00:46:53,110 --> 00:46:55,320 a cool cigarette walk. 650 00:47:04,080 --> 00:47:05,400 Guys aren't supposed to look like 651 00:47:05,460 --> 00:47:07,800 they're thinking about what they look like. 652 00:47:09,920 --> 00:47:11,300 Watch me. 653 00:47:19,180 --> 00:47:20,520 See? 654 00:47:21,140 --> 00:47:24,060 Smoking's gross. 655 00:47:24,470 --> 00:47:26,140 No, it's not. 656 00:47:27,980 --> 00:47:29,030 It gives you cancer. 657 00:47:31,360 --> 00:47:32,490 This is just my opinion. 658 00:47:32,690 --> 00:47:34,980 I think being strong is the most important quality. 659 00:47:35,070 --> 00:47:38,660 It's not being vulnerable, it's not being sensitive. 660 00:47:38,950 --> 00:47:41,710 It's not even... Honestly, it's not even being happy. 661 00:47:42,620 --> 00:47:43,670 It's about strength 662 00:47:44,410 --> 00:47:47,700 and your durability against the other emotions. 663 00:47:58,050 --> 00:47:59,710 No ring. 664 00:48:00,970 --> 00:48:02,770 No ring. 665 00:48:11,190 --> 00:48:13,320 - Hey. - Hey. 666 00:48:15,650 --> 00:48:17,310 Thanks for coming with me. 667 00:48:17,950 --> 00:48:19,280 Yeah, totally. 668 00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:21,990 I made you this. 669 00:48:23,160 --> 00:48:24,290 - It's a mix tape. - Yep. 670 00:48:25,580 --> 00:48:28,130 These were a bunch of songs that... 671 00:48:28,210 --> 00:48:31,210 I think my life would have been better 672 00:48:31,540 --> 00:48:35,250 if they had been around when I was a teenager. 673 00:48:35,550 --> 00:48:38,760 So I'm hoping that if you listen to them now, 674 00:48:39,170 --> 00:48:42,130 you will be a happier and more realized person 675 00:48:42,220 --> 00:48:45,810 than I could ever hope to be. 676 00:48:51,770 --> 00:48:53,270 From that night on... 677 00:48:53,360 --> 00:48:55,860 Abbie started telling me everything. 678 00:48:57,070 --> 00:49:00,080 She grew up in Santa Barbara where everyone is happy, 679 00:49:00,320 --> 00:49:02,440 but that just made her feel crazy. 680 00:49:04,570 --> 00:49:08,030 In 1973, she moved to New York City and went to art school. 681 00:49:09,120 --> 00:49:11,660 New York City made her feel sane. 682 00:49:11,830 --> 00:49:13,580 It was so fucked up. 683 00:49:14,500 --> 00:49:16,670 She fell in love with photography. 684 00:49:17,840 --> 00:49:19,640 She learned to dance when she got sad. 685 00:49:21,090 --> 00:49:24,880 She saw The Man Who Fell to Earth and dyed her hair red. 686 00:49:25,010 --> 00:49:27,380 I figured out how to be looked at 687 00:49:27,930 --> 00:49:28,970 by men, 688 00:49:30,020 --> 00:49:34,400 and how to make them excited, 689 00:49:34,810 --> 00:49:36,850 and uncomfortable. 690 00:49:37,520 --> 00:49:38,560 I was so cocky, 691 00:49:39,030 --> 00:49:40,740 and I was so angry 692 00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:44,040 and I was so happy. 693 00:49:47,280 --> 00:49:49,700 She fell in love with her teacher. 694 00:49:56,630 --> 00:49:58,430 Then she went to Planned Parenthood. 695 00:49:58,960 --> 00:50:00,420 Abigail Porter? 696 00:50:04,090 --> 00:50:07,010 Her friends couldn't deal with her having cancer, 697 00:50:07,100 --> 00:50:09,020 so she went home to her mom. 698 00:50:09,100 --> 00:50:10,190 Hey, Mom... 699 00:50:11,020 --> 00:50:12,650 Gail, did you ever take... 700 00:50:12,730 --> 00:50:15,940 D.E.S. when you were pregnant with Abbie? 701 00:50:16,900 --> 00:50:18,070 Yes. 702 00:50:19,150 --> 00:50:23,990 I had two miscarriages before Abbie. The doctor told me to take it. 703 00:50:25,070 --> 00:50:28,570 D.E.S. was a fertility medication. 704 00:50:28,660 --> 00:50:31,500 Doctors prescribed it to women. 705 00:50:31,620 --> 00:50:34,240 Later they found out that the daughters 706 00:50:34,330 --> 00:50:37,700 of the women who took it got cervical cancer. 707 00:50:38,250 --> 00:50:41,170 I didn't know that you had miscarriages. 708 00:50:43,800 --> 00:50:44,890 When her mom found out 709 00:50:44,970 --> 00:50:46,600 it was because she took that drug, 710 00:50:47,180 --> 00:50:48,480 she wouldn't talk about it. 711 00:50:49,600 --> 00:50:52,690 And everything Abbie did made her mad. 712 00:50:53,890 --> 00:50:56,310 So Abbie looked for another place to live. 713 00:50:58,560 --> 00:50:59,600 - Hi. Hello... - Hi. 714 00:51:00,190 --> 00:51:03,190 And she started renting the room upstairs. 715 00:51:03,610 --> 00:51:04,690 I'm Abbie. 716 00:51:05,700 --> 00:51:07,660 And she got a job at the news press. 717 00:51:07,740 --> 00:51:08,790 ...the landslide. 718 00:51:09,240 --> 00:51:11,030 It shows how erosion along the bluff, 719 00:51:11,580 --> 00:51:14,710 it causes instantaneous loss of oceanfront property 720 00:51:14,790 --> 00:51:15,920 and... and construction. 721 00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:18,300 Over time, it gradually... 722 00:51:30,390 --> 00:51:31,940 Hi, Dorothea. 723 00:51:32,390 --> 00:51:34,190 Hey, Charlie. 724 00:51:40,110 --> 00:51:42,990 Hey... um... 725 00:51:45,190 --> 00:51:46,400 You wanna go out some time? 726 00:51:47,150 --> 00:51:48,780 Get a drink? 727 00:51:49,530 --> 00:51:51,700 Oh, um... 728 00:51:54,080 --> 00:51:55,750 Yeah. 729 00:51:57,160 --> 00:51:59,830 What the heck, Charlie? 730 00:51:59,920 --> 00:52:02,050 Sure. Okay. 731 00:52:02,210 --> 00:52:04,120 I wasn't sure. 732 00:52:04,210 --> 00:52:05,790 - Uh... - What? 733 00:52:06,420 --> 00:52:09,380 Some... some of the guys thought you were a lesbian. 734 00:52:09,470 --> 00:52:13,640 You know, which, look, I don't have a problem with if you are, 735 00:52:13,890 --> 00:52:15,650 but you're not. 736 00:52:16,180 --> 00:52:18,140 Yeah, no, I am not. 737 00:52:22,360 --> 00:52:24,150 Um, should we go out then? 738 00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:28,270 Okay, yeah. Sure. 739 00:52:28,360 --> 00:52:32,400 You wanna come to dinner at my house again some time? 740 00:52:34,160 --> 00:52:35,330 You could... 741 00:52:35,700 --> 00:52:37,240 We could do that. 742 00:53:11,200 --> 00:53:13,750 Shit. Julie. 743 00:53:27,380 --> 00:53:29,090 It's really-It's nothing. 744 00:53:29,260 --> 00:53:31,260 I just end up there sometimes. 745 00:53:32,630 --> 00:53:34,300 What do you guys do? 746 00:53:35,010 --> 00:53:36,260 I just sleep. 747 00:53:36,930 --> 00:53:38,130 We talk. 748 00:53:44,690 --> 00:53:46,110 Can I have one? 749 00:53:47,320 --> 00:53:48,780 No, they're really bad for you. 750 00:53:50,110 --> 00:53:51,310 You smoke all the time. 751 00:53:52,200 --> 00:53:54,330 You know when I started, they weren't bad for you. 752 00:53:54,410 --> 00:53:56,710 They were just stylish, sort of edgy, 753 00:53:56,780 --> 00:53:59,660 so it's different for me. 754 00:54:05,920 --> 00:54:07,260 Okay. 755 00:54:16,510 --> 00:54:18,130 You're good at hiding stuff, huh? 756 00:54:19,390 --> 00:54:21,860 My mom calls it compartmentalizing. 757 00:54:22,520 --> 00:54:24,360 Apparently, I do that a lot. 758 00:54:29,110 --> 00:54:30,610 Are you helping him? 759 00:54:33,360 --> 00:54:35,480 - I'm trying. - Really? 760 00:54:37,700 --> 00:54:38,750 What about you? 761 00:54:39,370 --> 00:54:41,960 Have you thought about your impact on him? 762 00:54:43,290 --> 00:54:45,380 It's always about the mother. 763 00:54:47,330 --> 00:54:48,370 Like... 764 00:54:48,540 --> 00:54:51,330 do you think you've moved on since his dad? 765 00:54:52,710 --> 00:54:54,920 You know that you're not actually a therapist? 766 00:54:58,720 --> 00:55:00,930 I've had new guys, okay? 767 00:55:03,430 --> 00:55:05,350 No one appropriate. 768 00:55:06,900 --> 00:55:08,280 Appropriate? 769 00:55:10,940 --> 00:55:13,650 Guys you're not gonna risk anything with... 770 00:55:15,700 --> 00:55:17,370 men you don't even really like. 771 00:55:18,370 --> 00:55:20,960 Listen, you're 17, okay? 772 00:55:21,160 --> 00:55:23,710 Maybe you don't know what's good about these guys 773 00:55:23,790 --> 00:55:25,460 that I really like. 774 00:55:27,540 --> 00:55:28,580 I'm talking about you. 775 00:55:29,920 --> 00:55:32,180 You never seem into it... 776 00:55:33,250 --> 00:55:35,130 except for with William. 777 00:55:37,090 --> 00:55:38,460 But... 778 00:55:39,510 --> 00:55:41,260 he's inappropriate. 779 00:55:43,810 --> 00:55:47,020 Okay, Jesus. Uh, yeah. 780 00:55:50,020 --> 00:55:52,520 It's hard to find someone that I like. 781 00:55:54,440 --> 00:55:56,230 I... I had my chance twice, 782 00:55:56,320 --> 00:55:59,580 but that part of life just didn't work out for me. 783 00:56:09,670 --> 00:56:11,590 - Bye. - Bye. 784 00:56:48,120 --> 00:56:49,450 Where were you? 785 00:56:51,620 --> 00:56:53,540 I had some errands. 786 00:56:56,500 --> 00:56:57,540 You did the whole list. 787 00:56:58,630 --> 00:56:59,750 You know all the stocks? 788 00:57:00,470 --> 00:57:01,720 Yeah. 789 00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:06,390 IBM is down, huh? 790 00:57:06,560 --> 00:57:07,900 Sorry. I'll fix it next time. 791 00:57:09,350 --> 00:57:11,720 That... Good job on that. 792 00:57:27,740 --> 00:57:29,870 - William? - Yes? 793 00:57:31,660 --> 00:57:33,580 Do I seem stuck to you? 794 00:57:37,550 --> 00:57:38,930 How do you mean? 795 00:57:43,010 --> 00:57:45,680 Well, I, I guess I wouldn't know, would I? 796 00:57:51,940 --> 00:57:53,780 - Abbie? - Yes? 797 00:57:54,940 --> 00:57:57,240 Let's go out tonight. 798 00:57:58,020 --> 00:58:00,940 I want to see this modern world. 799 00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:05,410 Can I come? 800 00:58:25,510 --> 00:58:28,720 I don't know if I'm gonna find an appropriate man here. 801 00:58:29,930 --> 00:58:31,390 Thank you. 802 00:58:42,030 --> 00:58:43,620 What? 803 00:58:54,870 --> 00:58:55,910 What was that? 804 00:58:56,670 --> 00:58:58,300 What does that mean? 805 00:58:59,170 --> 00:59:03,260 Oh... Um... Uh... 806 00:59:03,670 --> 00:59:04,960 I mean you don't kiss a woman 807 00:59:05,170 --> 00:59:07,380 unless you know what you mean by it. 808 00:59:13,390 --> 00:59:15,220 Aren't you sleeping with Abbie? 809 00:59:17,480 --> 00:59:20,570 That's not something serious. It's... 810 00:59:22,610 --> 00:59:24,200 Then why do it? 811 00:59:57,100 --> 00:59:58,770 It's 1979. 812 00:59:59,060 --> 01:00:00,890 I'm 55 years old. 813 01:00:01,270 --> 01:00:03,270 This is what my son believes in. 814 01:00:04,230 --> 01:00:05,270 These people... 815 01:00:06,150 --> 01:00:07,940 with this hair... 816 01:00:08,240 --> 01:00:09,410 and these clothes... 817 01:00:09,950 --> 01:00:13,250 making these gestures, making these sounds. 818 01:00:14,990 --> 01:00:18,030 It's 1979. I'm 55 years old, 819 01:00:18,330 --> 01:00:19,370 and in 1999, 820 01:00:19,670 --> 01:00:22,340 I will die of cancer from the smoking. 821 01:00:26,670 --> 01:00:29,050 Hey. Are you going? 822 01:00:29,760 --> 01:00:30,970 Yeah. 823 01:00:32,010 --> 01:00:35,720 Do me a favor. Just take care of Abbie. 824 01:00:39,020 --> 01:00:41,980 They don't know this is the end of punk. 825 01:00:42,150 --> 01:00:43,990 They don't know that Reagan's coming. 826 01:00:45,360 --> 01:00:46,950 It's impossible to imagine 827 01:00:47,030 --> 01:00:50,200 that kids will stop dreaming about nuclear war, 828 01:00:50,740 --> 01:00:52,620 and have nightmares about the weather. 829 01:00:53,950 --> 01:00:57,200 It's impossible to imagine HIV, 830 01:00:57,870 --> 01:00:59,870 what will happen with skateboard tricks, 831 01:01:01,120 --> 01:01:02,870 the internet. 832 01:01:03,630 --> 01:01:04,670 You have a good time? 833 01:01:05,130 --> 01:01:06,930 Yeah, it was interesting. 834 01:01:09,550 --> 01:01:11,100 So Abbie has your number, right? 835 01:01:11,470 --> 01:01:14,020 - Yeah. - Maybe you'll come over for dinner. 836 01:01:14,720 --> 01:01:15,760 I'd like that. 837 01:01:23,860 --> 01:01:25,400 Kid. 838 01:01:28,530 --> 01:01:29,820 It's late. 839 01:01:31,650 --> 01:01:32,900 How was it? 840 01:01:33,240 --> 01:01:37,120 It was... life-changing. 841 01:01:50,760 --> 01:01:53,600 Before I die, I will prepare for Y2K. 842 01:01:54,300 --> 01:01:57,300 I put canned food and water in the garage. 843 01:01:57,810 --> 01:02:01,270 I put $16,000 dollars' worth of gold coins 844 01:02:01,350 --> 01:02:05,180 into a safe deposit box at the Bank of Montecito. 845 01:02:09,860 --> 01:02:12,120 I died before the new year, 846 01:02:12,740 --> 01:02:16,000 Dolphin shaped balloons floated over my head. 847 01:02:16,370 --> 01:02:19,460 They were playing Louis Armstrong on a boom box. 848 01:02:33,880 --> 01:02:35,000 Jamie? 849 01:02:37,850 --> 01:02:39,480 Hey, sorry. Are you awake? 850 01:02:40,770 --> 01:02:42,060 I just wanted to tell you... 851 01:02:42,930 --> 01:02:48,100 that you have to get out of this town if you want to have any chance 852 01:02:48,190 --> 01:02:50,070 of an interesting life moving forward. 853 01:02:50,440 --> 01:02:52,190 What happened? 854 01:02:54,860 --> 01:02:56,650 Sorry. Shit. 855 01:02:57,450 --> 01:02:59,040 We don't have sex. 856 01:03:00,200 --> 01:03:01,860 I just sleep here. 857 01:03:04,250 --> 01:03:05,750 Okay. 858 01:03:07,380 --> 01:03:08,420 Can I lay down? 859 01:03:09,090 --> 01:03:10,760 - We were sleeping. - Just scoot over. 860 01:03:10,840 --> 01:03:13,930 It's okay. I'm just gonna talk to Jamie for a second. 861 01:03:16,630 --> 01:03:19,880 So Lynette Winters spit on me, 862 01:03:19,970 --> 01:03:21,010 so then I hit her. 863 01:03:21,560 --> 01:03:22,730 Why'd she spit on you? 864 01:03:22,810 --> 01:03:24,270 Because I spit on her, 865 01:03:24,480 --> 01:03:25,870 right before I was going to New York 866 01:03:25,890 --> 01:03:27,850 and I thought I was never gonna come back. 867 01:03:28,100 --> 01:03:29,680 It felt very liberating at the time. 868 01:03:29,770 --> 01:03:31,100 - Fucking bitch! - All right. 869 01:03:31,190 --> 01:03:33,350 And somehow I ended up breaking a chair. 870 01:03:35,990 --> 01:03:37,700 Hey, Julian, I'm sorry. 871 01:03:37,910 --> 01:03:40,160 - You okay? - Yeah, yeah, I'm fine. 872 01:03:42,540 --> 01:03:43,880 And then William told me 873 01:03:43,950 --> 01:03:45,830 he didn't want to sleep with me anymore. 874 01:03:46,000 --> 01:03:48,500 What are you saying? I don't like you! 875 01:03:48,580 --> 01:03:50,120 I don't like you! I don't like... 876 01:03:51,590 --> 01:03:54,090 Just, just, I'm just gonna talk to Jamie for a second. 877 01:03:55,380 --> 01:03:59,510 Um, you cannot let her sleep here 878 01:03:59,800 --> 01:04:02,380 if she's not having sex with you. 879 01:04:02,510 --> 01:04:04,970 It's disempowering. 880 01:04:05,850 --> 01:04:07,560 Also, you need to get out of this town 881 01:04:09,270 --> 01:04:12,270 before you start working at a sunglasses shop. 882 01:04:15,320 --> 01:04:16,700 I mean, it goes for you, too. 883 01:04:33,630 --> 01:04:36,970 Jamie, um, here's some books from a feminism class I took. 884 01:04:37,050 --> 01:04:38,390 I thought it would be helpful 885 01:04:38,720 --> 01:04:40,350 for you to get a woman's perspective. 886 01:04:40,430 --> 01:04:41,640 What happened to your lip? 887 01:04:41,800 --> 01:04:43,300 Oh, I got in a fight. 888 01:04:43,390 --> 01:04:44,850 - You want some apples? - What?! 889 01:04:44,930 --> 01:04:47,220 There was a fight. It was... it was ridiculous. 890 01:04:47,310 --> 01:04:49,190 Hold on, is that Our Bodies, Ourselves? 891 01:04:49,770 --> 01:04:50,820 Yes, it is. 892 01:04:50,980 --> 01:04:52,420 This was a really, really good book. 893 01:04:53,650 --> 01:04:58,370 There's a really good chapter on home... childbirths. 894 01:04:59,700 --> 01:05:03,500 Home birth actually stunts the baby's growth personality. 895 01:05:03,660 --> 01:05:06,080 What is a growth personality? 896 01:05:06,160 --> 01:05:07,200 It's a real term. 897 01:05:07,580 --> 01:05:10,130 "And who knows what it means for a newborn 898 01:05:10,870 --> 01:05:14,410 to see wood walls and carpeted floor 899 01:05:14,500 --> 01:05:17,080 and to smell real human smells 900 01:05:17,170 --> 01:05:20,540 and to feel wool and cotton and flannel clothes 901 01:05:20,630 --> 01:05:25,800 instead of starchy, white, deodorized" dot, dot, dot. 902 01:05:25,930 --> 01:05:27,890 To me, that meant, like, "And what else?" 903 01:05:36,940 --> 01:05:38,400 Women's sexuality, 904 01:05:38,480 --> 01:05:40,730 defined by men to benefit men, 905 01:05:40,820 --> 01:05:43,110 has been downgraded and perverted, 906 01:05:43,200 --> 01:05:44,790 repressed and channeled. 907 01:05:45,660 --> 01:05:48,830 Anatomically, all orgasms are centered in the clitoris, 908 01:05:48,910 --> 01:05:50,830 whether they result from direct manual pressure 909 01:05:50,910 --> 01:05:52,080 applied to the clitoris, 910 01:05:52,750 --> 01:05:54,260 indirect pressure resulting from... 911 01:05:54,330 --> 01:05:56,040 Last night, I fucked Heather so hard, 912 01:05:56,130 --> 01:05:57,510 she came like, three times. 913 01:05:59,130 --> 01:06:01,420 How did you stimulate her clitoris? 914 01:06:02,430 --> 01:06:04,020 With my dick. 915 01:06:05,970 --> 01:06:09,010 Women need direct clitoral stimulation, 916 01:06:09,100 --> 01:06:12,770 like with fingers or a vibrator or something. 917 01:06:13,770 --> 01:06:16,110 She probably faked it. Women fake it all the time. 918 01:06:17,190 --> 01:06:19,070 Talking Heads are a bunch of fags. 919 01:06:21,190 --> 01:06:23,020 Actually, there's a girl in their band, 920 01:06:23,110 --> 01:06:25,860 and she's dating the drummer, so... 921 01:06:28,120 --> 01:06:30,000 Your name's Jamie, right? 922 01:06:30,490 --> 01:06:33,620 Fuckin' art fag. 923 01:06:43,010 --> 01:06:45,260 So what was the fight about? 924 01:06:48,300 --> 01:06:50,510 Clitoral stimulation. 925 01:06:54,100 --> 01:06:55,930 Why do you need to fight about that? 926 01:06:57,100 --> 01:06:58,140 I don't know. I... 927 01:06:58,560 --> 01:07:00,940 I wanna be a good guy, okay? 928 01:07:01,030 --> 01:07:05,700 I just... want to be able to satisfy a woman. 929 01:07:13,540 --> 01:07:15,920 Kid, I'm sure you will. 930 01:07:31,180 --> 01:07:32,550 Shit. 931 01:07:34,020 --> 01:07:35,690 Jamie! 932 01:07:36,390 --> 01:07:37,720 That's not cool. 933 01:07:37,850 --> 01:07:41,980 Yeah. That's what Matt called me for liking the Talking Heads. 934 01:07:43,190 --> 01:07:44,480 Uh-huh. 935 01:07:45,280 --> 01:07:48,080 And what is "Black Flag?" 936 01:07:48,700 --> 01:07:50,370 It's a hard core band, 937 01:07:50,450 --> 01:07:55,290 so the people who love Black Flag hate the Talking Heads. 938 01:07:56,080 --> 01:07:57,700 What?! 939 01:07:57,790 --> 01:08:00,960 The punk scene is very divisive. 940 01:08:01,420 --> 01:08:06,140 Hey! You're all so advanced, aren't you? 941 01:08:07,340 --> 01:08:10,090 The next time a dude tells you a sex story, 942 01:08:10,180 --> 01:08:13,730 you just have to agree with everything he says 943 01:08:13,810 --> 01:08:15,770 and act like it's right, even if it's not, 944 01:08:16,930 --> 01:08:18,930 because they don't wanna be contradicted. 945 01:08:19,020 --> 01:08:21,820 They just wanna live in their fantasy lands. 946 01:08:24,150 --> 01:08:27,150 How are you doing... with everything? 947 01:08:43,210 --> 01:08:45,460 Whatever you think your life is going to be like, 948 01:08:45,550 --> 01:08:49,390 just know it's not gonna be anything like that. 949 01:08:53,260 --> 01:08:54,340 Right. 950 01:09:10,070 --> 01:09:11,860 Take me to that club. 951 01:09:17,290 --> 01:09:18,380 Tonight? 952 01:09:19,910 --> 01:09:22,160 - Hey. - Hey. 953 01:09:23,290 --> 01:09:25,160 Wow, you look amazing. Where you going? 954 01:09:26,300 --> 01:09:28,090 We're just gonna go out. Is that okay? 955 01:09:28,260 --> 01:09:30,050 Well yeah, of course. And, uh, where? 956 01:09:31,130 --> 01:09:32,250 Just goin' out. 957 01:09:35,140 --> 01:09:36,190 - Bye. - Bye! 958 01:09:55,320 --> 01:09:56,820 Put that down. 959 01:09:57,660 --> 01:10:00,280 Hey, could I get a beer? 960 01:10:02,960 --> 01:10:06,130 Now say, "I... I'm into older women." 961 01:10:06,500 --> 01:10:08,330 Just say it. 962 01:10:08,920 --> 01:10:10,540 I'm into older women. 963 01:10:10,630 --> 01:10:11,670 Oh... 964 01:10:13,380 --> 01:10:14,420 How old are you? 965 01:10:15,180 --> 01:10:17,140 Age is a bourgeois construct. 966 01:10:18,430 --> 01:10:20,720 Age is a bourgeois construct. 967 01:10:21,390 --> 01:10:22,850 That's a good answer. 968 01:10:23,730 --> 01:10:25,110 Age is a bourgeois construct. 969 01:10:25,400 --> 01:10:26,530 Okay, okay. You get it. 970 01:10:26,940 --> 01:10:29,950 Um, so now if she asks you any questions, 971 01:10:30,030 --> 01:10:32,990 you just say as little as possible, okay? 972 01:10:33,990 --> 01:10:36,450 Now show me your most inscrutable face. 973 01:10:48,250 --> 01:10:50,250 I don't really make choices, when they... 974 01:10:50,750 --> 01:10:52,000 about... 975 01:10:52,720 --> 01:10:54,180 about women. They just... 976 01:10:55,340 --> 01:10:56,340 They come to you. 977 01:10:57,470 --> 01:11:00,390 That... that's... You could have more than that. 978 01:11:03,390 --> 01:11:05,180 But what about you? Why... 979 01:11:06,150 --> 01:11:08,740 I mean, what happened to Jamie's dad? 980 01:11:11,400 --> 01:11:14,230 Well... 981 01:11:15,490 --> 01:11:19,200 He just, no... He just didn't turn out like I thought he would. 982 01:11:21,330 --> 01:11:22,370 I guess that happens. 983 01:11:23,370 --> 01:11:25,490 There must have been something good about him. 984 01:11:28,500 --> 01:11:31,620 Um, he was left-handed. 985 01:11:32,550 --> 01:11:35,470 That's it? That's it? 986 01:11:35,550 --> 01:11:37,770 Yes, and I was right-handed. 987 01:11:38,430 --> 01:11:39,480 And so in the morning, 988 01:11:41,350 --> 01:11:43,480 we would look at the stock reports together, 989 01:11:44,430 --> 01:11:45,470 and... 990 01:11:47,440 --> 01:11:48,760 he could write with his left-hand 991 01:11:48,810 --> 01:11:51,480 and scratch my back with his right. 992 01:11:54,940 --> 01:11:56,400 And that's it? 993 01:11:58,280 --> 01:11:59,440 I loved that. 994 01:12:04,240 --> 01:12:05,280 Do you ever meditate? 995 01:12:08,620 --> 01:12:09,660 Uh... 996 01:12:10,670 --> 01:12:11,720 I feel the air, 997 01:12:12,380 --> 01:12:14,220 coolness of the air goes through my nose. 998 01:12:15,670 --> 01:12:17,750 All I'm really doing is... 999 01:12:19,390 --> 01:12:20,600 bringing my attention 1000 01:12:21,890 --> 01:12:24,140 back to my breath. 1001 01:12:24,310 --> 01:12:26,810 So when I take a breath in... 1002 01:12:27,770 --> 01:12:29,320 there's a feeling. 1003 01:12:30,270 --> 01:12:32,020 It's air going in. 1004 01:12:33,570 --> 01:12:35,320 It's air going out. 1005 01:12:36,030 --> 01:12:37,410 It's a good feeling. 1006 01:12:43,830 --> 01:12:46,040 No, it's okay. Go ahead. I'm just gonna... 1007 01:12:49,330 --> 01:12:50,370 Go ahead. 1008 01:12:51,000 --> 01:12:52,760 I'm just gonna smoke. 1009 01:12:54,090 --> 01:12:55,380 I'm listening. 1010 01:12:57,260 --> 01:12:59,470 All right, I wanna get on the same page. 1011 01:13:00,430 --> 01:13:01,470 You are such... 1012 01:13:01,930 --> 01:13:05,230 How did you get to be this person that you are? 1013 01:13:05,310 --> 01:13:08,730 It's so... You're so unusual. 1014 01:13:10,890 --> 01:13:12,270 William's dad managed 1015 01:13:12,350 --> 01:13:13,980 an auto repair shop in Cleveland. 1016 01:13:15,400 --> 01:13:18,660 Engines always made sense to him. 1017 01:13:19,700 --> 01:13:21,620 He tried to put himself through college, 1018 01:13:21,700 --> 01:13:23,580 but couldn't afford it. 1019 01:13:27,490 --> 01:13:30,450 He met Theresa in 1963. 1020 01:13:30,540 --> 01:13:33,420 She was smart, brave, better off. 1021 01:13:33,500 --> 01:13:34,540 They were in love. 1022 01:13:35,090 --> 01:13:36,220 They'd move to Oakland, 1023 01:13:36,420 --> 01:13:38,750 then to a commune in Sebastopol. 1024 01:13:38,840 --> 01:13:40,970 Well, I learned to be like them, you know? 1025 01:13:41,050 --> 01:13:42,100 And... as it turns out, 1026 01:13:43,720 --> 01:13:45,810 it's a lot easier than I thought it would be. 1027 01:13:45,890 --> 01:13:48,850 But it wasn't really me I was doing it for... 1028 01:13:50,310 --> 01:13:53,030 so that I wouldn't lose Theresa. 1029 01:13:54,270 --> 01:13:55,770 He started talking like them, 1030 01:13:55,860 --> 01:13:56,900 looking like them, 1031 01:13:57,400 --> 01:14:01,030 but they made him feel old and uneducated and poor. 1032 01:14:01,700 --> 01:14:03,240 Theresa started thinking 1033 01:14:03,320 --> 01:14:05,820 William was uptight and possessive and she left him. 1034 01:14:07,240 --> 01:14:08,320 After Theresa, 1035 01:14:08,410 --> 01:14:10,410 women didn't have to look one way or the other, 1036 01:14:10,500 --> 01:14:11,540 or be a certain way. 1037 01:14:16,290 --> 01:14:17,330 I think that I just... 1038 01:14:18,590 --> 01:14:19,640 I want to win them over 1039 01:14:20,420 --> 01:14:21,590 so that I won't be lonely. 1040 01:14:22,470 --> 01:14:23,720 You live here? 1041 01:14:24,380 --> 01:14:25,420 I do. 1042 01:14:25,550 --> 01:14:27,050 But once I have them, 1043 01:14:28,100 --> 01:14:29,980 I don't really know what to do with them. 1044 01:14:38,110 --> 01:14:39,740 You wanna do something later? 1045 01:14:40,780 --> 01:14:42,620 You're sweet. 1046 01:14:43,570 --> 01:14:45,110 I should go. 1047 01:14:46,570 --> 01:14:49,110 What he likes is making bowls. 1048 01:14:49,540 --> 01:14:51,330 He doesn't smell like oil and grease. 1049 01:14:51,410 --> 01:14:53,740 His hands don't look like dumb mechanic's hands. 1050 01:14:54,410 --> 01:14:56,250 I was using the smaller bowls for a while. 1051 01:14:56,330 --> 01:14:58,500 Um, and then I was kind of feeling like I needed 1052 01:14:58,840 --> 01:15:00,720 to beat the crap out of some stuff, so... 1053 01:15:02,010 --> 01:15:05,430 And when it gets a little bit drier, 1054 01:15:05,510 --> 01:15:07,390 you spray everything away. 1055 01:15:08,350 --> 01:15:09,520 Wow. 1056 01:15:10,220 --> 01:15:11,260 It's beautiful. 1057 01:15:17,480 --> 01:15:18,650 What? 1058 01:15:21,360 --> 01:15:22,410 Did you fix it? 1059 01:15:22,730 --> 01:15:23,770 Um... 1060 01:15:23,860 --> 01:15:24,900 Well, maybe... 1061 01:15:25,490 --> 01:15:29,410 It's, uh, part Vol... Volkswagen now. I had to imp... improvise. 1062 01:15:56,850 --> 01:15:59,470 And how are you gonna get to know a person way over there? 1063 01:16:00,980 --> 01:16:03,150 What am... What am I supposed to do? 1064 01:16:04,030 --> 01:16:06,620 Well, just make a little small talk 1065 01:16:06,780 --> 01:16:09,830 and introduce yourself, ask her to dance. 1066 01:16:10,870 --> 01:16:13,080 Okay. Hello, I'm William. 1067 01:16:13,830 --> 01:16:14,880 - Hello. - Hello. 1068 01:16:15,700 --> 01:16:17,370 - Um, I live downstairs. - Oh, yeah. 1069 01:16:17,660 --> 01:16:18,830 I'm the one with the cars. 1070 01:16:19,960 --> 01:16:21,470 Would you like to dance with me? 1071 01:16:22,250 --> 01:16:24,920 - Yes. Sure. - Okay. 1072 01:16:25,010 --> 01:16:26,180 Put your hand out, right? 1073 01:16:27,050 --> 01:16:28,180 Put the other hand here. 1074 01:16:28,760 --> 01:16:30,600 And just be there. 1075 01:16:31,640 --> 01:16:33,350 She just wants a little company. 1076 01:16:34,350 --> 01:16:35,770 Oh. 1077 01:16:36,770 --> 01:16:38,110 Okay. 1078 01:16:40,690 --> 01:16:42,240 That's nice. 1079 01:17:14,810 --> 01:17:17,850 I... I feel like I... I understand you. 1080 01:17:19,690 --> 01:17:21,020 We should get away from here. 1081 01:17:21,600 --> 01:17:23,100 Just... just me and you, you know? 1082 01:17:23,770 --> 01:17:26,560 Go up the coast, be alone somewhere. 1083 01:17:28,320 --> 01:17:30,620 Jamie, you're in love with Julie. 1084 01:17:35,740 --> 01:17:37,360 You can't let her push you around. 1085 01:17:38,330 --> 01:17:40,500 You have to tell her what you want. 1086 01:17:50,630 --> 01:17:53,170 ...if you, if you were to listen to it... 1087 01:17:53,260 --> 01:17:54,260 Right. 1088 01:17:54,640 --> 01:17:56,480 What does... what does that mean? 1089 01:17:56,560 --> 01:17:58,400 "Art Fag?" I mean what does... 1090 01:17:58,470 --> 01:18:03,220 If you were to think about it from more like a sociological perspective, 1091 01:18:03,310 --> 01:18:05,560 what does that come from? "Art Fag." 1092 01:18:05,650 --> 01:18:06,710 - I think we... - What is that? 1093 01:18:06,730 --> 01:18:09,270 - Abbie understands it. - Abbie does not understand it. 1094 01:18:09,650 --> 01:18:11,690 She's just a part of it. 1095 01:18:26,670 --> 01:18:28,590 You don't need to like it. 1096 01:18:29,170 --> 01:18:30,830 Okay, what is he saying? 1097 01:18:33,380 --> 01:18:35,460 "Head on my shoulders..." 1098 01:18:37,800 --> 01:18:38,840 "Going berserk..." 1099 01:18:39,770 --> 01:18:40,810 Right. 1100 01:18:40,970 --> 01:18:42,010 Is that interesting? 1101 01:18:42,390 --> 01:18:43,430 I don't know. 1102 01:18:43,850 --> 01:18:44,890 I don't know either. 1103 01:18:45,730 --> 01:18:47,690 I think we're maybe over-thinking this. 1104 01:19:03,830 --> 01:19:05,740 Let's try the Art Fag one. 1105 01:19:08,380 --> 01:19:10,300 Here come the Art Fags. 1106 01:19:14,340 --> 01:19:15,340 Oh, yeah. 1107 01:19:33,030 --> 01:19:34,530 All right, you ready? 1108 01:19:37,200 --> 01:19:38,500 That's it. 1109 01:19:42,080 --> 01:19:43,750 I guess we're more the Art Fag type. 1110 01:19:44,700 --> 01:19:45,700 Uh-huh. 1111 01:19:45,790 --> 01:19:47,250 I like that. 1112 01:19:48,420 --> 01:19:51,010 ♪ ...I remember from maps ♪ 1113 01:19:53,260 --> 01:19:55,800 ♪ I see the shoreline ♪ 1114 01:19:57,720 --> 01:20:00,230 ♪ I see the whitecaps ♪ 1115 01:20:01,680 --> 01:20:05,010 ♪ A baseball diamond ♪ 1116 01:20:05,850 --> 01:20:08,640 ♪ Nice weather down there ♪ 1117 01:20:10,520 --> 01:20:13,190 ♪ I see the school ♪ 1118 01:20:14,690 --> 01:20:17,770 ♪ And the houses where the kids are ♪ 1119 01:20:19,360 --> 01:20:21,360 ♪ Places to park ♪ 1120 01:20:23,160 --> 01:20:24,960 ♪ By the fac'tries and buildings... ♪ 1121 01:20:25,370 --> 01:20:27,580 Come here, inscrutable boy. 1122 01:20:31,840 --> 01:20:33,010 I gave him beer, 1123 01:20:33,420 --> 01:20:38,170 and then I... I taught him how to verbally seduce women, 1124 01:20:38,260 --> 01:20:41,980 and we drove drunk, but I stopped that, 1125 01:20:42,350 --> 01:20:43,520 and then he kissed Trish. 1126 01:20:45,270 --> 01:20:47,480 And then we walked home. 1127 01:20:49,810 --> 01:20:51,140 Ah. 1128 01:20:57,240 --> 01:20:58,910 You're not mad? 1129 01:21:00,110 --> 01:21:01,360 You're mad. 1130 01:21:07,870 --> 01:21:12,080 You get to see him out in the world as a person. 1131 01:21:13,000 --> 01:21:14,790 I never will. 1132 01:21:22,340 --> 01:21:23,630 Just... 1133 01:21:32,020 --> 01:21:33,100 There. 1134 01:22:05,100 --> 01:22:07,440 I can't believe Abbie gave you this book. 1135 01:22:09,350 --> 01:22:10,690 It's interesting. 1136 01:22:13,560 --> 01:22:16,600 What's it like... for girls? 1137 01:22:16,770 --> 01:22:19,690 What? Sex? 1138 01:22:22,070 --> 01:22:23,480 Orgasms. 1139 01:22:26,830 --> 01:22:29,120 Do you really want to know what it's like? 1140 01:22:32,250 --> 01:22:33,590 Yeah. 1141 01:22:35,040 --> 01:22:36,620 I don't have them. 1142 01:22:38,590 --> 01:22:40,090 What? 1143 01:22:41,300 --> 01:22:43,010 None of my friends do. 1144 01:22:45,930 --> 01:22:47,430 Then why do you do it? 1145 01:22:48,050 --> 01:22:49,180 There's other reasons. 1146 01:22:50,560 --> 01:22:53,020 You know, like the way that he looks at you... 1147 01:22:56,440 --> 01:22:59,240 or the way they get a little bit desperate at some point. 1148 01:23:00,820 --> 01:23:03,700 And the little sounds that they make. 1149 01:23:17,210 --> 01:23:19,170 And their bodies... 1150 01:23:21,210 --> 01:23:24,290 'cause you don't exactly know what they're gonna look like... 1151 01:23:25,930 --> 01:23:28,430 or smell or feel like... 1152 01:23:30,640 --> 01:23:31,900 until you do it. 1153 01:23:36,100 --> 01:23:39,020 But, yeah... half the time I regret it. 1154 01:23:42,820 --> 01:23:44,780 Then why do you do it? 1155 01:23:47,160 --> 01:23:49,040 'Cause half the time, I don't regret it. 1156 01:24:00,750 --> 01:24:02,370 "I am gregarious. 1157 01:24:02,460 --> 01:24:03,500 Interested in others. 1158 01:24:04,090 --> 01:24:05,260 And I think, intelligent. 1159 01:24:10,350 --> 01:24:12,440 All I ask is to get to know people 1160 01:24:12,510 --> 01:24:14,510 and to have them interested in knowing me. 1161 01:24:15,140 --> 01:24:16,810 I doubt whether I would marry again 1162 01:24:17,100 --> 01:24:19,810 and live that close to another individual, 1163 01:24:19,900 --> 01:24:22,240 but I remain invisible. 1164 01:24:23,190 --> 01:24:25,230 Don't pretend for a minute as you look at me, 1165 01:24:26,150 --> 01:24:28,150 that I am not as alive as you are, 1166 01:24:28,860 --> 01:24:31,860 and I do not suffer from the category to which you are forcing me. 1167 01:24:36,120 --> 01:24:38,330 I think, stripped down, I look more attractive 1168 01:24:38,670 --> 01:24:40,590 than my ex-husband... 1169 01:24:41,580 --> 01:24:45,830 ...but I am sexually and socially obsolete and he is not. 1170 01:24:47,170 --> 01:24:49,550 I have a capacity now for taking people as they are, 1171 01:24:49,800 --> 01:24:50,840 which I lacked at 20. 1172 01:24:52,140 --> 01:24:56,020 I reach orgasm in half the time and I know how to please, 1173 01:24:56,100 --> 01:24:59,980 yet I do not even dare show a man that I find him attractive. 1174 01:25:00,400 --> 01:25:03,950 If I do, he may react as if I have insulted him. 1175 01:25:06,030 --> 01:25:09,870 I'm supposed to fulfill my small functions and vanish." 1176 01:25:16,240 --> 01:25:17,280 Well... 1177 01:25:18,200 --> 01:25:19,830 What do you think of all that? 1178 01:25:23,380 --> 01:25:26,180 I don't know. Maybe I'm a feminist. 1179 01:25:32,140 --> 01:25:33,140 So... 1180 01:25:38,310 --> 01:25:40,270 You think that's me. 1181 01:25:41,020 --> 01:25:42,650 No, I don't know. 1182 01:25:44,150 --> 01:25:46,650 So you think you know me better because you read that? 1183 01:25:46,940 --> 01:25:48,440 No, no. 1184 01:25:51,150 --> 01:25:54,280 Then why are you reading it to me? 1185 01:25:57,120 --> 01:26:00,250 Um, I thought it was interesting. 1186 01:26:06,210 --> 01:26:08,000 Okay, well... 1187 01:26:10,670 --> 01:26:13,840 I... I don't need a book to know about myself. 1188 01:26:21,810 --> 01:26:23,230 Sorry. 1189 01:26:39,700 --> 01:26:42,160 I mean, I appreciate you trying to help. 1190 01:26:42,250 --> 01:26:45,420 I do. I just think you're taking it too far. 1191 01:26:45,670 --> 01:26:46,710 This stuff with, 1192 01:26:48,250 --> 01:26:50,080 you know, the women's movement I respect, 1193 01:26:50,170 --> 01:26:52,540 but it's just, it's complicated 1194 01:26:52,630 --> 01:26:54,550 and I think it's too much for him. 1195 01:26:54,630 --> 01:26:57,070 What are... I don't know what it is that you're talking about. 1196 01:26:57,140 --> 01:26:59,770 - Okay. He's a 15-year-old boy. - I know. 1197 01:26:59,850 --> 01:27:02,230 You're giving him hard core feminism, and it-it... 1198 01:27:02,890 --> 01:27:04,570 But he really loves it, and it's really... 1199 01:27:04,640 --> 01:27:06,520 - It's helping him... - Helping him what? 1200 01:27:07,270 --> 01:27:08,580 It's helping him become a man, th... 1201 01:27:08,610 --> 01:27:10,090 What you were talking about. It's like... 1202 01:27:10,110 --> 01:27:12,660 Learning about a female orgasm is helping him be a man? 1203 01:27:12,860 --> 01:27:15,400 Well, what man do you know that cares anything about that? 1204 01:27:15,490 --> 01:27:17,200 - Look, he's... - I mean that's a miracle. 1205 01:27:17,280 --> 01:27:18,820 But he is a high school kid, okay? 1206 01:27:19,280 --> 01:27:22,200 It's too much. I'm telling you. 1207 01:27:25,290 --> 01:27:27,550 I think he seems really okay with it. 1208 01:27:29,090 --> 01:27:31,930 You know you don't actually know what you're doing with him? 1209 01:27:34,260 --> 01:27:38,730 Okay? So... just... 1210 01:27:41,470 --> 01:27:43,260 As you know, 1211 01:27:43,350 --> 01:27:47,530 there is a growing disrespect for government, 1212 01:27:47,600 --> 01:27:49,930 for schools, the news media 1213 01:27:50,110 --> 01:27:51,240 and other institutions. 1214 01:27:52,480 --> 01:27:56,690 This is not a message of happiness or reassurance. 1215 01:27:57,280 --> 01:27:59,240 But it is the truth 1216 01:27:59,530 --> 01:28:01,360 and it is a warning. 1217 01:28:02,700 --> 01:28:04,240 It is a crisis... of confidence. 1218 01:28:08,250 --> 01:28:09,300 We can see this crisis 1219 01:28:10,250 --> 01:28:12,790 in the growing doubt about the meaning of our own lives 1220 01:28:13,420 --> 01:28:15,080 and in the loss of a unity of purpose 1221 01:28:16,420 --> 01:28:18,050 for our nation. 1222 01:28:19,590 --> 01:28:20,630 Too many of us now 1223 01:28:21,760 --> 01:28:26,550 tend to worship self-indulgence and consumption. 1224 01:28:27,350 --> 01:28:28,390 But we've discovered 1225 01:28:29,400 --> 01:28:31,530 that owning things and consuming things... 1226 01:28:34,150 --> 01:28:35,190 does not satisfy 1227 01:28:36,360 --> 01:28:39,230 our longing for meaning. 1228 01:28:41,070 --> 01:28:42,860 We always believed... 1229 01:28:43,910 --> 01:28:46,740 that we were part of a great movement 1230 01:28:46,830 --> 01:28:47,880 of humanity itself... 1231 01:28:49,290 --> 01:28:52,330 involved in a search for freedom. 1232 01:28:57,380 --> 01:29:00,840 We are at a turning point in our history. 1233 01:29:03,300 --> 01:29:07,430 The path that leads to fragmentation and self-interest. 1234 01:29:08,770 --> 01:29:12,650 Down that road lies a mistaken idea of freedom. 1235 01:29:14,610 --> 01:29:18,280 It is a certain route to failure. 1236 01:29:20,860 --> 01:29:22,940 Thank you and good night. 1237 01:29:25,080 --> 01:29:27,460 Wow. He is so screwed. 1238 01:29:28,330 --> 01:29:29,380 No shit. 1239 01:29:29,830 --> 01:29:31,410 It's over for him. 1240 01:29:32,630 --> 01:29:34,970 I thought that was beautiful. 1241 01:29:36,420 --> 01:29:40,670 Well, why didn't you just say, "I'm sorry, I'm done?" 1242 01:29:41,050 --> 01:29:42,090 My pride. 1243 01:29:42,470 --> 01:29:43,640 - I know. - Yeah, it's... 1244 01:29:43,760 --> 01:29:46,380 You didn't seem like a prideful person. You seem humble. 1245 01:29:46,470 --> 01:29:50,010 I left my pride outside today. 1246 01:29:51,100 --> 01:29:53,270 Jamie, would you please wake up Abbie? 1247 01:29:55,480 --> 01:29:58,730 - Yeah. Abbie? - No, stop it. I'm menstruating. 1248 01:30:00,320 --> 01:30:01,370 Abbie, you know what? 1249 01:30:01,900 --> 01:30:04,610 You're menstruating. Okay. But do you have to say it? 1250 01:30:05,580 --> 01:30:09,000 Okay? And do we really need to know everything that's going on with you? 1251 01:30:09,410 --> 01:30:11,660 What? I'm menstruating. 1252 01:30:12,290 --> 01:30:13,330 Why is that a big deal? 1253 01:30:13,540 --> 01:30:16,210 We don't need to hear about that. Thank you. 1254 01:30:17,380 --> 01:30:19,970 If you ever want to have an adult relationship with a woman, 1255 01:30:20,050 --> 01:30:22,390 like if you want to have sex with a woman's vagina, 1256 01:30:22,590 --> 01:30:23,800 you need to be comfortable 1257 01:30:24,220 --> 01:30:27,270 with the fact that the vagina menstruates, 1258 01:30:27,350 --> 01:30:29,520 and just say menstruation. It's not a big deal. 1259 01:30:29,600 --> 01:30:33,320 So start saying it now. Menstruation. 1260 01:30:34,350 --> 01:30:37,230 - Now? - Yes. Menstruation. 1261 01:30:37,940 --> 01:30:38,980 Menstruation. 1262 01:30:39,280 --> 01:30:41,240 Jamie, no, you don't have to. 1263 01:30:41,690 --> 01:30:43,010 You're saying it like you're scared. 1264 01:30:43,030 --> 01:30:44,220 - Don't say it like you're scared. - Abbie. 1265 01:30:44,240 --> 01:30:46,250 - Say it like it's normal. - Menstruation. 1266 01:30:46,490 --> 01:30:48,070 - Menstruation. - Menstruation. 1267 01:30:48,160 --> 01:30:52,080 Not bad. Julian, menstruation. You can say it. Right now. 1268 01:30:52,960 --> 01:30:55,800 - I'm sorry. - Uh, men... menstruation. 1269 01:30:56,130 --> 01:30:58,880 Just keep eye contact with me. What... Who are you looking at? 1270 01:30:58,960 --> 01:31:01,170 - Menstruation. - Menstruation. 1271 01:31:01,260 --> 01:31:02,970 Yeah, that's right. Menstruation. 1272 01:31:03,130 --> 01:31:05,960 Charlie, you're quiet. Menstruation? 1273 01:31:06,050 --> 01:31:07,260 Menstruation? 1274 01:31:07,350 --> 01:31:09,640 No, not like a question. Menstruation. 1275 01:31:10,510 --> 01:31:12,970 - Menstruation. - Now everybody say it together. 1276 01:31:13,560 --> 01:31:15,190 Menstruation. 1277 01:31:15,310 --> 01:31:18,560 Like gentle, happy, but casual. And... 1278 01:31:18,940 --> 01:31:19,980 Menstruation. 1279 01:31:20,480 --> 01:31:21,520 It's gross, Abbie. 1280 01:31:21,730 --> 01:31:25,730 No, it's... it's not gross. It's a very deep time creatively, 1281 01:31:25,910 --> 01:31:28,370 and it's emotionally transformative. 1282 01:31:29,080 --> 01:31:30,620 And sex during menstruation 1283 01:31:31,330 --> 01:31:33,040 can be very pleasurable for a woman. 1284 01:31:33,200 --> 01:31:36,290 It can even, like, relieve some of the cramps. 1285 01:31:36,370 --> 01:31:39,540 Jamie, I also wanna say never have sex with just the vagina. 1286 01:31:39,630 --> 01:31:41,270 You have to have sex with the whole woman. 1287 01:31:42,920 --> 01:31:44,960 That's slightly off topic of what I'm talking about. 1288 01:31:45,010 --> 01:31:46,060 You too? You too, William? 1289 01:31:46,130 --> 01:31:47,960 - I mean... Thank you. - But that's okay. 1290 01:31:48,390 --> 01:31:50,480 The first time that I got my period, 1291 01:31:50,720 --> 01:31:51,760 I was watching 1292 01:31:52,640 --> 01:31:54,100 One That Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest 1293 01:31:54,180 --> 01:31:55,220 with some guy. 1294 01:31:55,690 --> 01:31:57,110 And, um... 1295 01:31:57,600 --> 01:31:59,480 Yeah, I just told him that I had to leave, 1296 01:32:00,190 --> 01:32:03,570 so I went to the market and I bought a box of tampons, 1297 01:32:03,650 --> 01:32:06,270 and I read the instructions on the box and I put one in... 1298 01:32:06,490 --> 01:32:08,180 - Julie? - and I never told my mom about it, 1299 01:32:08,200 --> 01:32:10,500 but she never asked, so it didn't matter. 1300 01:32:11,660 --> 01:32:14,500 And I never saw the end of the Cuckoo's Nest. 1301 01:32:17,000 --> 01:32:20,260 Jack Nicholson got a lobotomy, and so the big Indian guy 1302 01:32:20,500 --> 01:32:22,540 smothered him with a pillow so that he could, 1303 01:32:22,630 --> 01:32:23,760 you know, be free and... 1304 01:32:24,010 --> 01:32:25,490 Okay, let's talk about something else. 1305 01:32:25,720 --> 01:32:27,140 - Would you mind? - When I was 14, 1306 01:32:27,220 --> 01:32:28,560 I had sex for the first time. 1307 01:32:28,720 --> 01:32:29,770 Julie! 1308 01:32:29,890 --> 01:32:31,350 Julie, please. You... Honey... 1309 01:32:32,010 --> 01:32:34,800 I decided one night that I was just gonna lose my virginity. 1310 01:32:35,020 --> 01:32:36,230 I didn't care who it was to. 1311 01:32:36,520 --> 01:32:38,980 - Julie, you gotta calm down. - Stop it. Let her talk. 1312 01:32:39,230 --> 01:32:41,530 I picked this guy that I didn't know at a party... 1313 01:32:42,270 --> 01:32:46,400 and we had fairly painful sex in his van. 1314 01:32:46,490 --> 01:32:48,030 It was just parked on the street. 1315 01:32:48,740 --> 01:32:50,410 He just used spit for lubrication. 1316 01:32:53,660 --> 01:32:55,620 I made it home on time for curfew, though. 1317 01:32:55,790 --> 01:32:58,540 His carpet smelled like spilled bong water. 1318 01:33:04,210 --> 01:33:05,370 Okay, um... 1319 01:33:06,460 --> 01:33:08,500 let's call it a night. All right? 1320 01:33:08,630 --> 01:33:10,670 Thanks all for coming. Show's over, girls. 1321 01:33:12,300 --> 01:33:14,010 Thank you so much for coming. 1322 01:33:16,560 --> 01:33:18,230 Jamie, we need to talk. 1323 01:33:18,980 --> 01:33:20,940 There's a lot of stuff happening, right? 1324 01:33:21,600 --> 01:33:25,390 And I just would like to know what's going on with you. 1325 01:33:26,320 --> 01:33:28,870 I mean, I know this has all been a lot for us to deal with. 1326 01:33:30,610 --> 01:33:33,280 Mom, I'm dealing with everything right now. 1327 01:33:33,870 --> 01:33:36,250 You are dealing with nothing. 1328 01:33:49,670 --> 01:33:51,800 I can't believe you told everyone all that. 1329 01:33:52,930 --> 01:33:54,930 I can say what I want to say. 1330 01:33:57,140 --> 01:33:58,810 They're gonna think you're some... 1331 01:33:59,770 --> 01:34:01,690 They're gonna get the wrong idea about you. 1332 01:34:01,770 --> 01:34:02,820 What? 1333 01:34:03,350 --> 01:34:04,890 That I'm a slut? 1334 01:34:07,480 --> 01:34:08,850 Is that what you think? 1335 01:34:13,200 --> 01:34:15,370 You can't sleep here anymore... 1336 01:34:16,280 --> 01:34:17,950 and just want to talk. 1337 01:34:22,000 --> 01:34:23,420 Really? 1338 01:34:26,130 --> 01:34:27,550 Yeah. 1339 01:34:31,090 --> 01:34:32,710 Jamie. 1340 01:34:37,930 --> 01:34:39,430 I'm sorry. 1341 01:34:43,690 --> 01:34:46,150 I am sorry, okay? 1342 01:34:50,730 --> 01:34:53,610 Let's... let's just get out of here. 1343 01:34:55,070 --> 01:34:58,700 Let's go up the coast like... like you said that we would. 1344 01:35:00,870 --> 01:35:01,910 Just the two of us. 1345 01:35:10,750 --> 01:35:11,920 Mom... 1346 01:35:12,880 --> 01:35:14,670 Julie and I took the car. 1347 01:35:16,800 --> 01:35:18,550 We're taking a trip up the coast... 1348 01:35:19,810 --> 01:35:21,560 just to get away. 1349 01:35:22,520 --> 01:35:24,060 You don't need to worry about us. 1350 01:36:22,490 --> 01:36:24,320 Hey, do you think that you could, um... 1351 01:36:25,620 --> 01:36:27,330 buy us some, like, wine coolers? 1352 01:36:27,960 --> 01:36:29,090 You can keep the change. 1353 01:36:30,080 --> 01:36:32,830 Strawberry or anything berry, really. 1354 01:36:42,810 --> 01:36:43,850 Hi. What's the matter? 1355 01:36:44,220 --> 01:36:45,260 Hi. 1356 01:36:45,560 --> 01:36:47,940 You changed lanes in the intersection back there. 1357 01:36:48,640 --> 01:36:50,180 Seriously? That's all? 1358 01:36:51,190 --> 01:36:53,320 I need to see your license and registration. 1359 01:36:54,320 --> 01:36:56,990 Well, what if I don't have my license? 1360 01:36:58,610 --> 01:37:00,720 Okay, well what's your name, address and date of birth? 1361 01:37:00,740 --> 01:37:01,790 Do you have that? 1362 01:37:01,950 --> 01:37:04,120 You know, those are very personal questions, 1363 01:37:04,490 --> 01:37:05,530 and we've just met. 1364 01:37:06,450 --> 01:37:09,330 What's your name? What's your address, right? 1365 01:37:09,420 --> 01:37:11,380 I mean, it's a little forward. 1366 01:37:38,900 --> 01:37:41,360 I, uh, I love you. 1367 01:37:49,370 --> 01:37:50,910 What's wrong? 1368 01:37:51,830 --> 01:37:52,950 Nothing. 1369 01:37:58,050 --> 01:37:59,140 Tell me. 1370 01:38:05,010 --> 01:38:07,720 I think that I'm too close to you... 1371 01:38:08,930 --> 01:38:10,640 to have sex with you. 1372 01:38:13,150 --> 01:38:14,990 I know it's confusing. 1373 01:38:17,020 --> 01:38:18,230 I'm sorry. 1374 01:38:22,990 --> 01:38:24,330 I can... 1375 01:38:25,120 --> 01:38:26,620 I can help you get over that. 1376 01:38:29,870 --> 01:38:31,990 I don't want to get over that. 1377 01:38:34,880 --> 01:38:36,010 Yes, you do. 1378 01:38:37,840 --> 01:38:39,470 You're being like the other guys. 1379 01:38:40,010 --> 01:38:42,220 I don't wanna just have sex with you. 1380 01:38:43,220 --> 01:38:44,350 I want you. 1381 01:38:45,050 --> 01:38:47,050 But it's your version of me. 1382 01:38:49,180 --> 01:38:50,590 It's not me. 1383 01:38:52,810 --> 01:38:54,970 It would be a lot better if you just wanted sex. 1384 01:38:56,110 --> 01:38:57,820 You are exactly like the other guys. 1385 01:38:58,980 --> 01:39:01,440 You just seem like you're all modern. 1386 01:39:14,370 --> 01:39:15,990 Jamie. 1387 01:39:17,580 --> 01:39:19,040 Jamie. 1388 01:39:19,880 --> 01:39:20,930 Jamie! 1389 01:39:52,040 --> 01:39:54,960 These people have no sense of humor. 1390 01:40:13,020 --> 01:40:15,730 Having a kid seems like... 1391 01:40:17,060 --> 01:40:18,930 the hardest thing. 1392 01:40:20,650 --> 01:40:21,990 Yeah. 1393 01:40:23,530 --> 01:40:25,450 How much you love the kid... 1394 01:40:29,910 --> 01:40:32,460 You're just pretty much screwed. 1395 01:40:44,710 --> 01:40:46,710 - Well, it's good for you. - Hi. Uh... 1396 01:40:46,800 --> 01:40:47,930 Hey. 1397 01:40:48,840 --> 01:40:50,960 Julie just called me. They're in San Louis Obispo. 1398 01:40:51,050 --> 01:40:52,380 She doesn't know where he is. 1399 01:40:52,640 --> 01:40:54,020 She can't find him. 1400 01:40:55,180 --> 01:40:57,010 - I... Would you drive me... - Yes, I will. 1401 01:40:57,270 --> 01:40:58,730 - ...up there? - Yep. Let's go. 1402 01:40:58,890 --> 01:41:00,560 - Will you come? - Yes. 1403 01:41:45,110 --> 01:41:46,740 I'm sorry. 1404 01:41:51,570 --> 01:41:53,150 He came back. 1405 01:41:54,280 --> 01:41:55,950 He's right there. 1406 01:41:57,830 --> 01:42:00,210 Okay. Okay. 1407 01:42:04,250 --> 01:42:05,660 It's okay. 1408 01:42:28,440 --> 01:42:29,690 Well... 1409 01:42:30,190 --> 01:42:31,980 Julie's a pretty complicated woman. 1410 01:42:33,160 --> 01:42:34,750 It's a lot to take on, 1411 01:42:35,070 --> 01:42:36,990 but I'm impressed in a way. 1412 01:42:39,200 --> 01:42:40,280 Whatever. 1413 01:42:50,670 --> 01:42:52,040 Aren't you gonna get Julie... 1414 01:42:52,840 --> 01:42:53,960 to come talk with me? 1415 01:42:54,550 --> 01:42:56,050 Jamie! 1416 01:42:56,220 --> 01:42:57,270 What? 1417 01:42:57,720 --> 01:42:59,300 I... I thought they'd help. 1418 01:43:00,770 --> 01:43:04,270 Well, it just seemed like you couldn't deal with me anymore. 1419 01:43:06,520 --> 01:43:07,890 Look. 1420 01:43:08,690 --> 01:43:12,440 I wanted... I... I... 1421 01:43:13,280 --> 01:43:14,660 Look, I... 1422 01:43:16,110 --> 01:43:19,200 I don't want you to end up in the same place as me. 1423 01:43:21,870 --> 01:43:23,330 What does that mean? 1424 01:43:24,370 --> 01:43:26,700 Well, I wanted you to be happier. 1425 01:43:28,880 --> 01:43:32,890 And I just didn't think I could do it by myself. I... 1426 01:43:36,340 --> 01:43:37,550 Okay. 1427 01:43:39,600 --> 01:43:41,810 I thought we were fine, though, just me and you. 1428 01:43:48,940 --> 01:43:50,320 Yeah? 1429 01:43:52,690 --> 01:43:54,060 Yeah. 1430 01:44:27,270 --> 01:44:29,070 Okay. Come on. 1431 01:44:29,190 --> 01:44:30,570 Come on. Dance with your mom. 1432 01:45:29,790 --> 01:45:30,830 - Bye. - Bye. 1433 01:45:31,460 --> 01:45:32,590 Bye. 1434 01:45:34,460 --> 01:45:35,500 - Be safe. - Bye. 1435 01:45:35,750 --> 01:45:37,460 Bye. Bye. 1436 01:45:47,140 --> 01:45:49,470 So maybe we don't go back yet. 1437 01:45:52,440 --> 01:45:53,490 Okay. 1438 01:46:03,820 --> 01:46:05,900 Were you and Dad ever in love? 1439 01:46:06,580 --> 01:46:08,000 Sure. 1440 01:46:13,500 --> 01:46:15,080 Or, um... 1441 01:46:16,380 --> 01:46:17,430 Maybe I was just... 1442 01:46:19,760 --> 01:46:21,930 I felt I was supposed to be in love. 1443 01:46:23,010 --> 01:46:25,930 Or I was... 1444 01:46:26,140 --> 01:46:28,810 I was scared I'd never be in love... 1445 01:46:30,890 --> 01:46:32,930 so I... I... 1446 01:46:34,520 --> 01:46:37,350 I just picked the best solution at the time. 1447 01:46:48,330 --> 01:46:49,960 I wanna bleach my hair. 1448 01:46:50,540 --> 01:46:53,500 Kid... really? 1449 01:46:54,420 --> 01:46:55,840 Yeah. 1450 01:47:04,380 --> 01:47:05,760 Okay. 1451 01:47:10,930 --> 01:47:12,430 Are you lonely? 1452 01:47:13,690 --> 01:47:14,730 Well... 1453 01:47:15,520 --> 01:47:18,600 I might marry Bogart in my next life. 1454 01:47:19,070 --> 01:47:20,110 We'll see. 1455 01:47:20,320 --> 01:47:21,360 I'm thinking about it. 1456 01:47:22,570 --> 01:47:24,490 Uh, he's dead. 1457 01:47:25,740 --> 01:47:27,250 Well... 1458 01:47:27,870 --> 01:47:29,160 This is my next life, right? 1459 01:47:30,160 --> 01:47:31,570 So... 1460 01:47:32,620 --> 01:47:33,660 he may be there. 1461 01:47:33,750 --> 01:47:36,960 He may be around and we might meet and... 1462 01:47:38,290 --> 01:47:40,790 something might happen between us. 1463 01:47:42,380 --> 01:47:44,540 Okay, um... 1464 01:47:45,430 --> 01:47:47,270 you can't have it in the real world? 1465 01:47:47,890 --> 01:47:50,020 Hey. This is no time to be rational, sweetie. 1466 01:47:50,890 --> 01:47:52,060 Can you just go with this? 1467 01:47:53,520 --> 01:47:54,560 Yeah. Keep going. 1468 01:47:55,190 --> 01:47:56,570 Okay. 1469 01:47:57,480 --> 01:47:59,110 So he... he knows what I'm thinking, 1470 01:48:00,980 --> 01:48:02,980 and he makes me laugh... 1471 01:48:04,190 --> 01:48:06,650 and he really sees me... 1472 01:48:07,990 --> 01:48:11,830 and you know that he's gonna do what he says he's gonna do, 1473 01:48:11,910 --> 01:48:14,450 so that's easy. 1474 01:48:15,410 --> 01:48:17,240 He sounds nice. 1475 01:48:18,540 --> 01:48:19,580 Yeah. 1476 01:48:27,300 --> 01:48:28,530 I thought that was just the beginning 1477 01:48:28,550 --> 01:48:30,170 of a new relationship with her... 1478 01:48:32,180 --> 01:48:34,390 where she'd really tell me stuff... 1479 01:48:36,770 --> 01:48:39,530 but maybe it was never really like that again. 1480 01:48:41,270 --> 01:48:42,940 Maybe that was it. 1481 01:48:44,690 --> 01:48:46,560 In March of 1999, 1482 01:48:47,150 --> 01:48:49,440 I'll start to feel tired and confused. 1483 01:48:50,570 --> 01:48:52,070 When I finally go to the doctor, 1484 01:48:52,330 --> 01:48:54,120 he will say that the cancer in my lungs 1485 01:48:54,910 --> 01:48:58,790 had already traveled to my breast and brain. 1486 01:48:59,460 --> 01:49:02,340 I'll try to teach Jamie what to do with my stocks, 1487 01:49:02,420 --> 01:49:06,140 but my instructions will be impossible to understand. 1488 01:49:11,930 --> 01:49:13,600 See you later. 1489 01:49:20,020 --> 01:49:23,060 Abbie will take me to Planned Parenthood... 1490 01:49:23,860 --> 01:49:25,780 and I will go on the pill. 1491 01:49:29,780 --> 01:49:31,790 I will go to NYU 1492 01:49:31,870 --> 01:49:33,870 and lose touch with Jamie and Dorothea... 1493 01:49:35,700 --> 01:49:38,070 and I will stop talking to my mom. 1494 01:49:39,620 --> 01:49:41,330 I will fall in love with Nicholas... 1495 01:49:42,540 --> 01:49:44,460 and we'll move to Paris... 1496 01:49:45,590 --> 01:49:47,300 and choose not to have children. 1497 01:49:49,590 --> 01:49:51,920 I will stay in Santa Barbara. 1498 01:49:52,430 --> 01:49:54,100 In just two years, I'll marry Dave. 1499 01:49:56,060 --> 01:49:57,350 A month after I get married, 1500 01:49:58,430 --> 01:50:00,350 Carlotta will die. 1501 01:50:02,650 --> 01:50:06,360 A week later, Max will die, too. 1502 01:50:07,860 --> 01:50:09,530 I will work out of my garage 1503 01:50:09,610 --> 01:50:12,480 and show in local galleries. 1504 01:50:13,700 --> 01:50:15,040 Against my doctor's advice, 1505 01:50:15,530 --> 01:50:16,570 I will get pregnant. 1506 01:50:17,540 --> 01:50:18,580 By the time I'm 34, 1507 01:50:19,370 --> 01:50:20,410 I'll have two boys. 1508 01:50:25,250 --> 01:50:27,790 I'll live with Dorothea for another year... 1509 01:50:30,130 --> 01:50:34,590 and then I'll open a pottery store in Sedona, Arizona. 1510 01:50:37,560 --> 01:50:39,560 I'll marry Laurie, a singer-songwriter. 1511 01:50:40,560 --> 01:50:42,320 We'll get divorced in a year. 1512 01:50:43,100 --> 01:50:44,220 Then I'll meet Sandy... 1513 01:50:45,520 --> 01:50:47,140 and continue to do my pottery. 1514 01:50:50,360 --> 01:50:52,650 My mom will meet Jim in 1983. 1515 01:50:54,160 --> 01:50:56,000 They will stay a couple until she dies. 1516 01:50:57,580 --> 01:50:58,790 On her birthday each year, 1517 01:50:59,700 --> 01:51:02,620 he will buy her a trip on a biplane. 1518 01:51:05,250 --> 01:51:07,620 Years after she's gone, I will finally get married 1519 01:51:07,710 --> 01:51:09,540 and have a son. 1520 01:51:11,340 --> 01:51:12,550 I will try to explain to him 1521 01:51:12,920 --> 01:51:15,090 what his grandmother was like... 1522 01:51:16,590 --> 01:51:17,970 but it will be impossible. 1523 01:51:26,650 --> 01:51:29,280 ♪ You must remember this ♪ 1524 01:51:29,650 --> 01:51:31,700 ♪ A kiss is still a kiss ♪ 1525 01:51:31,780 --> 01:51:35,660 ♪ A sigh is just a sigh ♪ 1526 01:51:36,530 --> 01:51:39,450 ♪ The fundamental things apply ♪ 1527 01:51:39,740 --> 01:51:44,240 ♪ As time goes by ♪ 1528 01:51:45,170 --> 01:51:47,380 ♪ And when two lovers woo ♪ 1529 01:51:47,750 --> 01:51:49,210 ♪ They still say I love you ♪ 1530 01:51:49,840 --> 01:51:52,970 ♪ On that you can rely ♪ 1531 01:51:53,760 --> 01:51:57,100 ♪ No matter what the future brings ♪ 1532 01:51:57,260 --> 01:52:01,890 ♪ As time goes by ♪ 1533 01:52:03,100 --> 01:52:06,190 ♪ Moonlight and love songs never out of date ♪ 1534 01:52:06,600 --> 01:52:09,560 ♪ Hearts full of passion jealousy and hate ♪ 1535 01:52:09,810 --> 01:52:14,440 ♪ Woman needs man and man must have his mate ♪ 1536 01:52:14,610 --> 01:52:19,530 ♪ That no one can deny ♪ 1537 01:52:20,330 --> 01:52:23,080 ♪ It's still the same old story ♪ 1538 01:52:23,160 --> 01:52:25,530 ♪ A fight for love and glory ♪ 1539 01:52:25,830 --> 01:52:27,950 ♪ A case of do or die ♪ 1540 01:52:29,920 --> 01:52:31,590 ♪ The world will always welcome... 1541 01:52:54,280 --> 01:52:59,290 ♪ Well it seems so real I can see it ♪ 1542 01:52:59,910 --> 01:53:04,790 ♪ And it seems so real I can feel it ♪ 1543 01:53:05,370 --> 01:53:10,330 ♪ And it seems so real I can taste it ♪ 1544 01:53:11,130 --> 01:53:16,800 ♪ And it seems so real I can hear it ♪ 1545 01:53:17,090 --> 01:53:22,420 ♪ So why ♪ 1546 01:53:22,510 --> 01:53:25,090 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1547 01:53:28,310 --> 01:53:33,650 ♪ So why ♪ 1548 01:53:33,730 --> 01:53:35,940 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1549 01:53:44,370 --> 01:53:49,040 ♪ Then it looks so real I can see it ♪ 1550 01:53:50,080 --> 01:53:55,210 ♪ And it feels so real I can feel it ♪ 1551 01:53:55,960 --> 01:54:00,710 ♪ And it tastes so real I can taste it ♪ 1552 01:54:01,680 --> 01:54:07,270 ♪ And it sounds so real I can hear it ♪ 1553 01:54:07,430 --> 01:54:12,640 ♪ So why ♪ 1554 01:54:12,730 --> 01:54:15,070 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1555 01:54:18,860 --> 01:54:23,650 ♪ So why ♪ 1556 01:54:23,740 --> 01:54:25,860 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1557 01:54:46,100 --> 01:54:51,150 ♪ Then it looks so real I can feel it ♪ 1558 01:54:51,930 --> 01:54:56,680 ♪ And it feels so real I can taste it ♪ 1559 01:54:57,900 --> 01:55:01,950 ♪ And it tastes so real I can hear it ♪ 1560 01:55:03,240 --> 01:55:07,460 ♪ And it sounds so real I can see it ♪ 1561 01:55:09,370 --> 01:55:14,500 ♪ So why ♪ 1562 01:55:14,580 --> 01:55:16,870 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1563 01:55:20,300 --> 01:55:25,350 ♪ So why ♪ 1564 01:55:25,430 --> 01:55:27,560 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1565 01:56:15,270 --> 01:56:20,190 ♪ Now it is so real I can see it ♪ 1566 01:56:20,980 --> 01:56:25,480 ♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪ 1567 01:56:26,530 --> 01:56:31,410 ♪ And it is so real I can hear it ♪ 1568 01:56:32,080 --> 01:56:37,090 ♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪ 1569 01:56:38,080 --> 01:56:42,870 ♪ So why ♪ 1570 01:56:42,960 --> 01:56:45,460 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 1571 01:56:49,010 --> 01:56:53,890 ♪ So why ♪ 1572 01:56:53,970 --> 01:56:56,600 ♪ Can't I touch it? ♪ 106844