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That was my husband's Ford Galaxy.
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We drove Jamie home from
the hospital in that car.
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My mom was 40 when she had me.
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Everyone told her she was too old
to be a mother.
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I put my hand through the little window,
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and he'd squeeze my finger,
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and I'd tell him life was very big...
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and unknown.
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And she told me that there were animals
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and sky and cities...
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...music, movies.
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He'd fall in love,
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have his own children,
have passions, have meaning,
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have his mom and dad.
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When they got divorced,
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my father moved back east
and left the car with us.
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He calls on birthdays and Christmas.
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Last time I felt close to him
was on my birthday in 1974.
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He bought me mirrored sunglasses.
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I saw the president fall down the
stairs...
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and I threw up on the carpet.
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Since then it's just been us.
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I don't understand. What about you?
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I'm staying here with him 'til the plane
gets safely away.
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No, Richard, no.
What has happened to you?
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- Last night we...
- Last night we said a great many things.
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Listen, Captain,
I am having a party tonight,
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it's my birthday actually,
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and I would like you to drop by
so I can feed you.
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It's not necessary, Mrs. Fields.
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No, Dorothea. No, I... I insist. Please?
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That way I... I can thank you.
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It was a beautiful car.
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Mom, it...
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smelled like gas
and overheated all the time...
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and it was just old.
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What?
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Well it wasn't always old.
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It just got that way all of a sudden.
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You know...
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when the firemen come...
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people don't usually
invite them over for dinner.
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Yeah? Why not?
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Why can't she just move on
and be happy with me
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rather than...
lingering on him?
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My mom just makes me feel
like I'm not good enough.
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It's just, I'm constantly
being compared to my dad.
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Oh, hey, sorry.
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Uh, Jamie's not here right now.
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They're not home.
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Don't.
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I'm taking a picture of everything
that happens to me in a day.
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I don't like having my pictures taken.
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I didn't happen to you.
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Hello?
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- Hey.
- Hi.
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Hi. Here.
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- You okay?
- You aren't gonna believe what happened.
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What?
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Our car burst into flames
in the parking lot.
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- It wh...
- Seriously?
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- Are you okay?
- Yeah.
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You know, we're okay.
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- How did it happen?
- Well I don't know.
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They... they said it was probably
just something electrical.
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We walked out and it was
just sitting there... on fire.
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Oh, man.
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- Yeah.
- I'm sorry.
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So... what happened?
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They never tell you anything,
I... They won't...
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I won't know anything for like a week.
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Oh.
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And I'm... I'm gonna be late on rent.
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That's okay. Don't worry about that.
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Thanks.
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Oh, God.
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What if you had been in the car?
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I wouldn't be here.
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You would've missed me?
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Don't joke.
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It was so much easier
before you got all horny.
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It... it's not like you don't...
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Do it?
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Friends can't have sex
and still be friends.
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I like us like we are, okay?
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Okay.
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Jamie!
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Could you come help me
set up, please?
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Can my mom just chill out?
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She's compensating for her loneliness.
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Dorothea, all that is really
beautiful molding there.
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- It is.
- I want to continue that around the side.
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Right so we're gonna
have to re-match that.
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Now is that...
is that actually wood...
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- That is wood.
- or is that plaster?
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No, the plaster is underneath it.
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The molding on the outside there is wood.
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- So...
- Okay.
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It's gonna take a little bit of time,
but...
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Well, we've got...
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Okay, no, it's good.
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Actually, it was, it was built in 1905,
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and the same family had it forever,
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but they lost all their money
during the war,
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and then there was a fire and...
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You should've been here for that.
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Anyway, so, it was just a mess.
They let it fall apart.
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Then a bohemian inherited it
in the '60s,
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then a bunch of free spirits moved in,
and they lost it to the bank.
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It's beautiful.
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Oh, I... I completely fell in love with it.
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We're connected to the dirt
'cause we came from the dirt.
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The dirt is made of stars and stardust,
in the same way we are,
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so when you put your hands
into that dirt
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and feel the Earth Mother...
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- Uh, William?
- Mm-hmm?
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It looks as though I'm gonna be
in need of a car.
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Do you think you have something
for me out there, cheap?
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Maybe that '49 Deluxe?
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I think we can work something out.
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Maybe we'll trade for rent or something.
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- Thank you.
- Sure.
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Okay. Got through that one.
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All right. Just, um...
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give me a minute and then come out.
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My mom was born in 1924.
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When she was my age
people drove in sad cars
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to sad houses with old phones, no money,
or food, or televisions...
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but the people were real.
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When she was 16,
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the war broke out
and she had to leave school.
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Her dream was to be a pilot
in the Air Force.
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She actually went to flight school.
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But the war ended
before she was done.
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She became the first woman to work
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in the Continental Can Company
drafting room.
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Then she met my dad...
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and then I came.
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Then they got divorced.
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But people from her time
never admit anything went wrong.
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- What do you mean?
- I'm sorry.
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He's too young to have an account
in his name only, little guy.
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No. He... he's a person.
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He's not half a person,
and he's not some cute little guy.
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He has volition and autonomy
and privacy.
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He needs a bank account.
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Can you do that for us?
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Now, Jamie, you can't just keep
skipping school and making excuses.
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Well wait a minute, why not?
Why can't he just skip school
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if he... if he has a legitimate
need to be away?
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Well, then I need a legitimate
real note from you...
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- Okay.
- with your real signature.
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Wow, how did you forge
my signature so well?
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That is ingenious!
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But you should never
forge someone's signature
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or do anything
behind someone's back.
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Please excuse Jamie
from school this morning.
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He was doing volunteer work
for the Sandinistas.
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Please excuse Jamie
from school this morning.
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He was involved in
a small plane accident.
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Fortunately, he was not hurt.
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You're gonna be in for
a legendary surprise.
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It's mahogany underneath.
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She's always trying to
bring a man into my life.
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This is probably Honduran mahogany.
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Really fine, very...
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- This is, like, really, really boring.
- Hey, come on, watch it.
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He's talking about, like, wood and stuff.
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He's helping me out.
Restore the house, okay?
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IBM?
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She writes down her stocks every morning.
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Two-hundred and thirteen point two.
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GE?
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Um, 51.62.
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She smokes Salems
because they're healthier,
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wears Birkenstocks
because she's contemporary.
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She read Watership Down
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and learned how to carve rabbits
out of wood.
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And she never dates a man
for very long.
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Thank you, bye bye.
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Good night, Dorothea.
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- Good night.
- Bye.
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So, I'll see ya later.
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Just don't hang out with
that Chris guy anymore, okay?
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- Good night.
- He's a skeez and he's kinda dumb.
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- Exactly.
- Good night, Dorothea.
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- Happy Birthday.
- Bye, Julie.
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Stop.
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What?
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Thinking that you know
everything that's going on.
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No, I don...
I just think that, you know,
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having your heart broken is a tremendous
way to learn about the world.
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Okay.
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Do you think you're happy?
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Like...
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as happy as you thought you'd be
when you were my age?
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Seriously?
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You don't ask people questions like that.
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You're my mom.
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Especially your mom.
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Look, wondering if you're happy
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is a great shortcut
to just being depressed.
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Give me that.
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What is that?
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It's The Raincoats.
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Can't things... just be pretty?
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"Pretty" music is used
to hide how unfair and corrupt society is.
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Ah.
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Okay, so...
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they're not very good,
and they know that, right?
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Yeah, it's...
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It's like they got all this,
this feeling,
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and they don't have any skill,
and they don't want skill,
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because it's really interesting
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what happens when your passion
is bigger than the tools
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you have to deal with it.
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It creates this energy
that's... that's... that's raw.
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Isn't it great?
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My son was born in 1964.
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He grew up with a meaningless war...
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with protests, with Nixon...
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with nice cars and nice houses...
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computers, drugs, boredom.
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I know him less every day.
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He said it was just a game.
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You breathe real hard
and another kid
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He said you're supposed to come to
a few seconds later...
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- Dude, can I try?
- Yeah.
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but it took Jamie almost
a half an hour to wake up.
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Going to get help!
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- You all right?
- He's fine.
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Can you tell me your name?
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Jamie Fields.
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You got lucky this time.
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Lack of oxygen to the brain
can cause brain damage,
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comas... even death.
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Jamie, why would you do something
so dangerous?
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I don't know. Um...
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I mean, everyone was doing it.
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So you just went along with it?
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- It looked like fun.
- That's just dumb.
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Why would you do something
so stupid?
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Just following along?
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You... you know you almost died, right?
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- You don't need to worry about me.
- Why didn't you think?
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Jamie! Hey!
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Jamie...
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What... what is going on?
What, why...
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What? You're not
gonna talk to me now?
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I'm not the one who doesn't talk.
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What? Come on.
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You scared the hell out of me!
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Why... why did you hurt yourself
like that?
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Why do you smoke yourself to death?
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Hey!
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Why are you fine being sad and alone?
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I, uh...
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I... You... You c...
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You can't talk to me like that.
We don't...
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You don't say that to me.
261
00:18:54,270 --> 00:18:56,900
♪ This day and age we're living in ♪
262
00:18:56,980 --> 00:18:59,400
♪ Gives cause for apprehension ♪
263
00:18:59,730 --> 00:19:01,890
♪ With speed and new invention ♪
264
00:19:02,150 --> 00:19:04,280
♪ And things like third dimension ♪
265
00:19:04,360 --> 00:19:07,080
♪ Yet we get a trifle weary ♪
266
00:19:07,360 --> 00:19:09,940
♪ With Mr. Einstein's theory ♪
267
00:19:10,280 --> 00:19:12,990
♪ So we must get down to Earth
at times ♪
268
00:19:14,160 --> 00:19:17,120
♪ Relax, relieve the tension ♪
269
00:19:17,250 --> 00:19:19,630
♪ No matter what the progress ♪
270
00:19:19,750 --> 00:19:21,960
♪ Or what may yet be proved ♪
271
00:19:22,460 --> 00:19:25,460
♪ The simple facts of life are such ♪
272
00:19:25,840 --> 00:19:30,060
♪ They cannot be removed ♪
273
00:19:35,100 --> 00:19:37,560
♪ You must remember this ♪
274
00:19:37,810 --> 00:19:40,100
♪ A kiss is still a kiss... ♪
275
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I think history has been tough on men.
276
00:19:43,070 --> 00:19:44,780
I mean, they can't be what they were,
277
00:19:45,150 --> 00:19:46,980
and they can't figure out what's next.
278
00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:48,580
What are we talking about?
279
00:19:48,650 --> 00:19:49,690
Men?
280
00:19:50,160 --> 00:19:52,080
I think history and men?
281
00:19:52,160 --> 00:19:54,460
I mean who are your heroes nowadays?
282
00:19:54,700 --> 00:19:56,410
A bunch of privileged drug addicts?
283
00:19:56,540 --> 00:19:59,210
I think maybe you guys
can help me with Jamie.
284
00:19:59,500 --> 00:20:02,260
I think... he needs help...
285
00:20:03,040 --> 00:20:06,500
in figuring out how to be himself
in all this mess.
286
00:20:06,710 --> 00:20:08,420
And I can't be there.
287
00:20:09,170 --> 00:20:11,670
I can't be there with him.
I have to let go.
288
00:20:12,390 --> 00:20:14,560
Is this because of the fainting thing?
289
00:20:14,680 --> 00:20:16,300
- He's fine.
- No.
290
00:20:16,680 --> 00:20:18,220
It's because of everything.
291
00:20:20,270 --> 00:20:22,480
I don't understand what...
What are you asking?
292
00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:24,780
Well, how do you be a good man?
293
00:20:26,320 --> 00:20:28,240
What does that even mean nowadays?
294
00:20:29,360 --> 00:20:31,020
He's... he's only got me.
It's just...
295
00:20:31,820 --> 00:20:33,650
Think about it. It's not enough.
296
00:20:33,910 --> 00:20:35,660
- You're serious?
- Yeah.
297
00:20:35,740 --> 00:20:38,450
What about William?
William's a guy. That's...
298
00:20:38,540 --> 00:20:41,250
He can talk to him about guy things.
299
00:20:41,330 --> 00:20:43,200
Have you ever seen them
have a conversation?
300
00:20:43,290 --> 00:20:45,330
They have nothing in common.
They don't connect.
301
00:20:45,420 --> 00:20:47,760
It's just not working.
I mean, I thought about that.
302
00:20:47,920 --> 00:20:48,960
He...
303
00:20:50,220 --> 00:20:53,310
Well, he likes you and you.
He likes you a lot.
304
00:20:53,720 --> 00:20:54,990
- That... that's...
- He's my friend.
305
00:20:55,010 --> 00:20:56,300
I don't want to be his mom.
306
00:20:57,260 --> 00:20:58,800
Yeah, no. I'm his mom.
307
00:20:59,430 --> 00:21:03,180
I mean don't you need a man
to raise a man?
308
00:21:04,730 --> 00:21:06,310
No. I don't think so.
309
00:21:07,230 --> 00:21:08,270
I mean,
310
00:21:08,570 --> 00:21:11,490
I think you're what's gonna work for him.
311
00:21:15,120 --> 00:21:18,830
I mean... you know him better than anyone.
312
00:21:19,120 --> 00:21:21,420
You know that, and...
313
00:21:21,500 --> 00:21:25,170
you care about him.
You can watch out for him.
314
00:21:25,380 --> 00:21:30,140
And you just share your life.
You're a talented person.
315
00:21:30,260 --> 00:21:31,660
Show him what you're interested in.
316
00:21:31,720 --> 00:21:33,600
You know, he would be lucky to have that.
317
00:21:52,070 --> 00:21:53,120
Help me with what?
318
00:21:53,530 --> 00:21:56,330
Oh, go through this part of your life.
319
00:21:56,410 --> 00:21:58,370
It's not easy. It's not easy for anybody.
320
00:21:59,790 --> 00:22:01,420
- You asked them to help me?
- Yeah.
321
00:22:02,200 --> 00:22:04,370
No, they... they get it.
322
00:22:06,250 --> 00:22:07,300
So they said yes?
323
00:22:07,540 --> 00:22:08,910
Yeah.
324
00:22:09,340 --> 00:22:10,720
- Fuck.
- Hey!
325
00:22:11,840 --> 00:22:14,600
You just feel guilty
'cause it's just me and you.
326
00:22:17,590 --> 00:22:19,130
You don't know what I'm feeling.
327
00:22:20,220 --> 00:22:21,300
Just tell me.
328
00:22:22,180 --> 00:22:24,300
Kid...
329
00:22:24,390 --> 00:22:27,640
You never tell me what you're gonna do.
You just do it.
330
00:22:43,290 --> 00:22:45,290
I got the keys to my stepmom's car.
331
00:22:45,370 --> 00:22:47,410
I'm going to The Starwood.
332
00:22:47,500 --> 00:22:50,760
Tanya and Michelle
are both gonna be there.
333
00:22:51,090 --> 00:22:52,260
Hey, you guys going to LA?
334
00:22:53,420 --> 00:22:55,540
Yeah, I am.
335
00:22:57,130 --> 00:22:58,170
Can I come?
336
00:23:00,010 --> 00:23:02,380
...kissed a girl? Are you ready?
337
00:23:03,270 --> 00:23:05,810
Are you gonna... are you gonna
get with some chick there?
338
00:23:29,460 --> 00:23:30,760
That was Jamie.
339
00:23:31,500 --> 00:23:34,000
He is in, uh, LA.
340
00:23:34,300 --> 00:23:36,850
He and some friends went to a show.
341
00:23:38,470 --> 00:23:41,480
- Oh.
- Yeah. He wanted me to tell you.
342
00:23:42,550 --> 00:23:43,970
Okay.
343
00:23:52,400 --> 00:23:54,070
Aren't you worried or...
344
00:23:57,360 --> 00:23:59,860
He's mad at me and this is his way
of dealing with it...
345
00:24:01,200 --> 00:24:03,250
and he has every right to be mad.
346
00:24:05,330 --> 00:24:06,960
Yeah, but if it makes him this mad,
347
00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:09,530
then maybe it wasn't a good idea.
348
00:24:16,250 --> 00:24:18,790
♪ Got television, got supervision ♪
349
00:24:18,880 --> 00:24:20,460
♪ No decisions for you ♪
350
00:24:20,680 --> 00:24:24,270
♪ Media blitz, media blitz,
media hits, we rule ♪
351
00:24:30,270 --> 00:24:32,030
♪ Don't steal your eyes
off the TV screen ♪
352
00:24:32,100 --> 00:24:33,810
♪ Can you realize we're what we've seen? ♪
353
00:24:33,900 --> 00:24:37,610
♪ Take an injection... ♪
354
00:24:46,490 --> 00:24:47,990
Maybe...
355
00:24:48,750 --> 00:24:50,500
Maybe I did the wrong thing.
356
00:24:51,960 --> 00:24:53,670
Oh, I...
357
00:24:54,630 --> 00:24:56,170
- With the kid, I mean.
- Yeah, I know.
358
00:24:56,250 --> 00:24:59,210
I think that Jamie's energy
is very...
359
00:25:01,800 --> 00:25:03,420
unstable.
360
00:25:05,640 --> 00:25:07,140
Yeah. Well, you're right.
361
00:25:07,220 --> 00:25:08,800
Then, though,
there's an energy crisis.
362
00:25:08,890 --> 00:25:13,970
Maybe that plays into it in some way.
363
00:25:15,810 --> 00:25:17,480
I'm sorry.
364
00:25:19,150 --> 00:25:21,820
You don't have very many
funny lines, do you?
365
00:25:25,410 --> 00:25:26,660
Okay.
366
00:25:54,520 --> 00:25:55,570
Jamie?
367
00:26:04,530 --> 00:26:06,040
Jamie?
368
00:26:29,640 --> 00:26:30,730
Hey.
369
00:26:31,470 --> 00:26:32,720
Hey.
370
00:26:33,680 --> 00:26:35,680
- Everything okay?
- Yeah.
371
00:26:36,440 --> 00:26:37,650
Can I come in?
372
00:26:38,940 --> 00:26:40,150
Sure.
373
00:26:43,940 --> 00:26:46,690
So I had this new idea
for... for my photography
374
00:26:46,780 --> 00:26:51,450
that I was gonna take a picture
of everything that I owned
375
00:26:51,530 --> 00:26:56,740
so it would be a self-portrait of myself
through the stuff that I have.
376
00:27:00,670 --> 00:27:01,720
Can I show you?
377
00:27:02,210 --> 00:27:06,000
That's a bra, birth control,
378
00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:11,480
um, photography by Susan Sontag,
shoes, underwear,
379
00:27:12,260 --> 00:27:13,760
a picture of a picture of my mom.
380
00:27:14,890 --> 00:27:17,100
I'm gonna do a bunch of 'em.
381
00:27:18,730 --> 00:27:21,950
It's a little bit... It's a little bit sad.
382
00:27:26,070 --> 00:27:27,740
You know, all this stuff together.
383
00:27:28,990 --> 00:27:30,830
I don't know why that is.
384
00:27:32,080 --> 00:27:33,120
Not... I mean...
385
00:27:33,870 --> 00:27:35,290
Do you know what I mean?
386
00:27:36,500 --> 00:27:38,300
It's really beautiful, Abbie.
387
00:27:39,170 --> 00:27:42,800
Do you want to fool around...
with me?
388
00:27:45,050 --> 00:27:46,390
Really?
389
00:27:47,880 --> 00:27:49,130
Yeah.
390
00:27:52,350 --> 00:27:53,770
Yeah.
391
00:27:55,270 --> 00:27:56,690
I do.
392
00:28:00,520 --> 00:28:03,810
You know, I'm recovering
from cervical cancer.
393
00:28:07,440 --> 00:28:08,690
I know.
394
00:28:25,550 --> 00:28:27,470
Your hair smells good.
395
00:28:31,590 --> 00:28:33,130
I make my own shampoo.
396
00:28:34,390 --> 00:28:35,850
Of course you do.
397
00:29:04,080 --> 00:29:05,120
Oh.
398
00:29:05,380 --> 00:29:07,970
It's okay, Jeeves, he's back.
399
00:29:08,050 --> 00:29:10,010
You can relax now.
400
00:29:22,890 --> 00:29:24,390
Where were you?
401
00:29:25,610 --> 00:29:26,650
I went to The Starwood.
402
00:29:27,440 --> 00:29:31,400
Saw a show in LA. Had a lot of fun.
403
00:29:33,070 --> 00:29:34,110
Are you drunk?
404
00:29:42,790 --> 00:29:44,090
Don't.
405
00:29:48,340 --> 00:29:49,630
What's wrong?
406
00:29:52,510 --> 00:29:54,510
Tim Trammer came inside me.
407
00:29:58,850 --> 00:30:00,980
I don't want to hear this shit.
408
00:30:02,770 --> 00:30:05,690
We broke
into that old pool at the rec center.
409
00:30:05,770 --> 00:30:07,560
Got loaded.
410
00:30:08,610 --> 00:30:10,110
Fucked around.
411
00:30:12,190 --> 00:30:14,860
And me and Tim ended up
in his mom's Maverick.
412
00:30:21,830 --> 00:30:23,040
Did you just cum?
413
00:30:24,080 --> 00:30:25,700
Yeah.
414
00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:29,550
You said you'd pull out.
415
00:30:32,460 --> 00:30:33,960
Yeah.
416
00:30:34,380 --> 00:30:35,960
Sorry.
417
00:30:37,970 --> 00:30:39,850
I thought we had a deal there.
418
00:30:42,560 --> 00:30:43,900
Fuck.
419
00:30:46,940 --> 00:30:48,690
What are you gonna do?
420
00:30:52,530 --> 00:30:54,200
It'll be fine.
421
00:31:10,960 --> 00:31:13,790
Your mom asked me to, like,
help raise you.
422
00:31:17,340 --> 00:31:19,300
Yeah, I know.
423
00:31:21,850 --> 00:31:23,480
She was raised in The Depression.
424
00:31:24,390 --> 00:31:25,930
Everyone helped raise everyone.
425
00:31:26,310 --> 00:31:28,690
You know,
the whole neighborhood raised the kids.
426
00:31:29,980 --> 00:31:31,570
Sorry.
427
00:31:34,900 --> 00:31:35,940
Can we do therapy?
428
00:31:37,030 --> 00:31:39,330
Jesus, I don't want
to do therapy right now.
429
00:31:39,410 --> 00:31:40,950
- Let's just role play.
- Please, no.
430
00:31:41,030 --> 00:31:44,110
I'll be your mom, and you can tell her
what you want to tell her.
431
00:31:44,540 --> 00:31:45,830
Just do it.
432
00:31:47,540 --> 00:31:49,060
I don't want to talk to my mom right now.
433
00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:50,120
What would you say to her?
434
00:31:53,130 --> 00:31:54,800
Okay.
435
00:31:59,050 --> 00:32:01,340
I don't need your help, Mom.
436
00:32:02,430 --> 00:32:04,060
I've got it.
437
00:32:04,760 --> 00:32:06,050
I'm okay.
438
00:32:09,890 --> 00:32:12,810
Um, I'm gonna need a story.
439
00:32:13,270 --> 00:32:14,310
What?
440
00:32:14,770 --> 00:32:15,810
A story.
441
00:32:16,280 --> 00:32:18,070
- What do you mean?
- Like a... a story.
442
00:32:19,030 --> 00:32:20,080
Um... where... I'm...
443
00:32:25,030 --> 00:32:27,320
I'm just a normal woman,
444
00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:30,580
and you're a photographer,
445
00:32:30,960 --> 00:32:35,170
and so you're photographing me,
but while you're doing it...
446
00:32:36,920 --> 00:32:40,800
you can't help yourself,
and you start touching me.
447
00:32:41,800 --> 00:32:45,010
And you touch me...
448
00:32:46,100 --> 00:32:52,690
and you say...
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry."
449
00:32:55,060 --> 00:32:56,230
Really?
450
00:32:57,690 --> 00:32:59,690
I can't just be myself?
451
00:33:03,490 --> 00:33:04,910
No.
452
00:33:06,530 --> 00:33:07,930
- Okay, so... Do I just, uh...
- Okay.
453
00:33:07,950 --> 00:33:09,410
- Hey, nice to meet you.
- Oh, Hi.
454
00:33:10,200 --> 00:33:13,910
Do I just look in the camera,
or should I look... off to the side?
455
00:33:14,000 --> 00:33:16,040
Let's start that way,
looking in the camera.
456
00:33:16,130 --> 00:33:17,180
Okay. Should I smile?
457
00:33:18,050 --> 00:33:19,430
- Do you like to smile?
- Yeah.
458
00:33:20,130 --> 00:33:22,050
- Okay.
- Okay.
459
00:33:22,880 --> 00:33:23,920
Uh, oh, you took it.
460
00:33:24,220 --> 00:33:25,990
I thought you were gonna
say like, "One, two, three..."
461
00:33:26,010 --> 00:33:27,050
- No.
- Okay.
462
00:33:27,310 --> 00:33:28,980
- I just wait for the moment.
- Okay.
463
00:33:29,100 --> 00:33:30,900
- I just have to fix something.
- Okay.
464
00:33:31,430 --> 00:33:32,720
- Just right here.
- Um, oh.
465
00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:35,400
- I'm sorry.
- Oh, God. No, it's all right.
466
00:33:35,480 --> 00:33:38,940
I don't mind. I'm just...
Never done this before.
467
00:33:39,030 --> 00:33:44,410
I, um, so I'm just a little bit nervous,
but, um, I can, um,
468
00:33:44,490 --> 00:33:47,080
- wear my hair differently if you want.
- Abbie...
469
00:33:48,870 --> 00:33:50,170
Yeah?
470
00:33:52,500 --> 00:33:54,130
I'm sorry.
471
00:33:59,170 --> 00:34:00,960
I'm really sorry.
472
00:34:18,650 --> 00:34:21,990
Julie and I
have been friends since we were little.
473
00:34:26,070 --> 00:34:28,610
She likes to say
she's self-destructive.
474
00:34:30,450 --> 00:34:31,660
Her mother is a therapist.
475
00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:33,240
We used to talk and I...
476
00:34:34,290 --> 00:34:37,420
had a better sense of what was going on
with you. I worry that...
477
00:34:38,040 --> 00:34:40,830
She makes Julie attend
her teen group sessions.
478
00:34:40,920 --> 00:34:42,290
How about the possibility...
479
00:34:43,920 --> 00:34:46,590
that you're choosing boys
who are inappropriate...
480
00:34:47,050 --> 00:34:48,090
unconsciously?
481
00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:51,560
When her mother remarried, Julie changed.
482
00:34:51,640 --> 00:34:53,160
I love this shirt! Don't get me wrong...
483
00:34:53,180 --> 00:34:54,510
When her half-sister Amanda
484
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:58,020
was born with cerebral palsy,
she changed more.
485
00:35:00,110 --> 00:35:01,780
Wow, it looks really pretty on you.
486
00:35:02,190 --> 00:35:04,980
Brings... Just... just makes
your whole face pop.
487
00:35:05,820 --> 00:35:06,860
Like soda. Like pop.
488
00:35:17,250 --> 00:35:19,420
She started fooling around.
489
00:35:21,250 --> 00:35:23,420
She started
sneaking into my house.
490
00:35:24,590 --> 00:35:26,100
Sleeping over.
491
00:35:27,590 --> 00:35:28,750
Why'd you do it?
492
00:35:29,220 --> 00:35:30,640
'Cause I'm crazy.
493
00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:35,350
You wish you were crazy.
494
00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:40,990
Scratch me.
495
00:35:44,360 --> 00:35:46,870
We should go
up the coast somewhere.
496
00:35:48,280 --> 00:35:49,330
Just me and you.
497
00:35:52,200 --> 00:35:54,990
Julie works at the La Cumbre Plaza mall.
498
00:35:55,080 --> 00:36:00,130
Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine,
lily of the valley and rose.
499
00:36:01,500 --> 00:36:03,120
"Sex is a commitment.
500
00:36:03,210 --> 00:36:05,580
Once you're there, you can't
go back to holding hands,
501
00:36:05,670 --> 00:36:08,460
and when you give yourself,
both mentally and physically,
502
00:36:08,720 --> 00:36:10,350
well, you're completely vulnerable."
503
00:36:10,430 --> 00:36:13,140
All he cares about is his new wife,
and her birthday,
504
00:36:13,600 --> 00:36:15,440
and Christmas with her
and her family,
505
00:36:16,640 --> 00:36:18,970
and inviting all of her family to our...
506
00:36:19,060 --> 00:36:24,600
Spring Rain features cinnamon, jasmine,
lily of the valley and rose.
507
00:36:26,030 --> 00:36:28,240
"Of all the misconceptions about love,
508
00:36:28,320 --> 00:36:29,950
the most powerful and persuasive
509
00:36:30,280 --> 00:36:32,290
is the belief
that falling in love is love,
510
00:36:34,240 --> 00:36:36,950
or at least one of the
manifestations of love."
511
00:36:38,200 --> 00:36:40,580
Love is supposed to be
a feeling that you feel.
512
00:36:41,040 --> 00:36:44,910
People say that they're falling in love,
but they're not actually falling in love.
513
00:36:46,210 --> 00:36:48,710
It's a fake connection
that you feel with someone...
514
00:36:49,340 --> 00:36:51,170
and marriage should never happen.
515
00:36:51,590 --> 00:36:55,090
You should have died.
It should have been you!
516
00:36:56,390 --> 00:36:57,440
Die!
517
00:37:40,390 --> 00:37:41,430
Hey, Julie.
518
00:37:42,230 --> 00:37:44,030
- Hey.
- Hi.
519
00:37:44,770 --> 00:37:47,560
So come on in. It's okay. Come in.
520
00:37:48,270 --> 00:37:51,230
- He's not up yet. He, uh...
- Yeah.
521
00:37:51,320 --> 00:37:52,530
Yeah, he got in kinda late.
522
00:37:53,400 --> 00:37:55,400
Okay, you wanna help me
bring this stuff in?
523
00:38:01,330 --> 00:38:03,500
So is, uh, Jamie okay?
524
00:38:03,790 --> 00:38:06,260
Yeah, he's okay.
525
00:38:07,420 --> 00:38:09,260
Yeah, I... I heard him come in last night.
526
00:38:09,630 --> 00:38:11,430
- Oh.
- I was... I was awake.
527
00:38:12,260 --> 00:38:13,300
Right.
528
00:38:13,510 --> 00:38:16,810
Yeah, I was just...
Couldn't sleep, so I was...
529
00:38:18,550 --> 00:38:20,720
you know, listening for him.
530
00:38:35,030 --> 00:38:36,410
How was the show?
531
00:38:37,410 --> 00:38:38,700
It was good.
532
00:38:39,830 --> 00:38:42,790
Next time you take a trip
just let me know, okay?
533
00:38:42,870 --> 00:38:45,280
I won't make too much dinner.
534
00:38:54,340 --> 00:38:56,340
Hey, do the stocks with me?
535
00:38:59,640 --> 00:39:00,850
Here.
536
00:39:06,230 --> 00:39:07,860
Okay. IBM?
537
00:39:10,020 --> 00:39:12,900
IBM, 69.73.
538
00:39:13,440 --> 00:39:16,440
Xerox? You okay?
539
00:39:19,070 --> 00:39:21,360
Xerox, 53.92.
540
00:39:21,450 --> 00:39:22,490
- Stop.
- Okay.
541
00:39:23,240 --> 00:39:25,530
Fifty-three point nine two.
542
00:39:26,330 --> 00:39:27,370
Listen.
543
00:39:27,500 --> 00:39:29,440
Abbie has her appointment today
and I can't be here.
544
00:39:29,460 --> 00:39:30,510
I have to go to work,
545
00:39:30,630 --> 00:39:32,630
so I was hoping that maybe
you could be here
546
00:39:33,300 --> 00:39:36,180
when she gets back
in case she needs some support.
547
00:39:36,720 --> 00:39:38,560
She's going through a lot.
548
00:39:39,470 --> 00:39:43,390
Okay, well, like, what if it's,
like, bad news or something?
549
00:39:44,520 --> 00:39:45,650
Well, you can handle it.
550
00:39:46,100 --> 00:39:49,520
Or if you can't,
you have to start somewhere.
551
00:39:51,310 --> 00:39:53,600
Men always feel like
they have to fix things
552
00:39:53,690 --> 00:39:55,600
for women
or they're not doing anything,
553
00:39:55,690 --> 00:39:58,820
but some things just can't be fixed.
554
00:39:58,950 --> 00:40:00,290
Just be there.
555
00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:03,410
Somehow that's hard for all of you.
556
00:40:05,370 --> 00:40:08,920
Mom, I'm not "all men."
Okay? I'm just me.
557
00:40:09,920 --> 00:40:12,340
Well, yes and no.
558
00:40:16,050 --> 00:40:18,550
What if I have to have full-on chemo...
559
00:40:19,470 --> 00:40:21,600
or get a hysterectomy?
560
00:40:22,390 --> 00:40:24,270
Do you know what that is?
561
00:40:26,470 --> 00:40:28,850
Look, I should just
go with you, you know? I mean...
562
00:40:35,070 --> 00:40:38,120
Your mom did tell me
to share my life with you.
563
00:40:39,400 --> 00:40:41,150
Yeah, I know.
564
00:40:42,280 --> 00:40:44,320
You don't...
565
00:40:44,410 --> 00:40:45,870
Don't worry about her.
She's...
566
00:40:46,120 --> 00:40:47,750
she's from The Depression.
567
00:40:51,420 --> 00:40:52,510
Yeah.
568
00:40:57,590 --> 00:40:59,890
It's good news, Abbie.
569
00:41:01,590 --> 00:41:03,050
There were no malignant cells.
570
00:41:03,930 --> 00:41:05,600
Your biopsy's benign.
571
00:41:09,520 --> 00:41:12,440
And in the future?
572
00:41:13,940 --> 00:41:17,240
There was damage to the muscle wall,
from the surgery.
573
00:41:19,610 --> 00:41:21,730
You have an incompetent cervix.
574
00:41:30,700 --> 00:41:32,410
Incompetent?
575
00:41:33,670 --> 00:41:36,510
It may not be strong enough
to go full term during pregnancy.
576
00:41:37,460 --> 00:41:40,500
As the baby grows, the cervix widens.
577
00:41:41,470 --> 00:41:43,930
If it's weakened, it's likely
to open prematurely.
578
00:41:50,430 --> 00:41:52,010
I'm gonna be okay.
579
00:41:56,360 --> 00:41:59,200
He said that I probably
can't have kids.
580
00:42:05,820 --> 00:42:07,650
Was having Jamie, like...
581
00:42:08,740 --> 00:42:11,030
the biggest thing
that ever happened to you?
582
00:42:16,130 --> 00:42:17,590
I guess so.
583
00:42:19,880 --> 00:42:22,090
- Sorry.
- It's okay.
584
00:42:27,600 --> 00:42:29,640
You'll get through this.
585
00:42:31,640 --> 00:42:33,510
You will get through it.
586
00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:36,430
You will do it.
587
00:42:40,020 --> 00:42:43,690
You'll... This is the really hard part.
And then what happens is,
588
00:42:44,070 --> 00:42:47,080
there's a hard part
and then it gets better.
589
00:42:48,570 --> 00:42:50,530
And then it gets hard again,
but never mind.
590
00:42:54,120 --> 00:42:55,830
I shouldn't have told you that part.
591
00:42:56,710 --> 00:43:00,300
I should have just said it gets better
and then that's it, but...
592
00:43:01,090 --> 00:43:02,130
You got birds?
593
00:43:02,840 --> 00:43:03,890
Is that okay?
594
00:43:04,300 --> 00:43:05,350
Yeah.
595
00:43:08,390 --> 00:43:09,890
So did you name them?
596
00:43:10,470 --> 00:43:11,510
Not yet.
597
00:43:12,100 --> 00:43:14,190
They're a boy and a girl, and...
598
00:43:14,270 --> 00:43:16,480
that they're monogamous
for life, so if...
599
00:43:18,600 --> 00:43:20,600
one of them dies, then the other one...
600
00:43:21,650 --> 00:43:23,660
will die like a week later.
601
00:43:23,940 --> 00:43:25,610
Wow.
602
00:43:27,320 --> 00:43:29,280
Well how 'bout
Maximilian and Carlotta?
603
00:43:30,530 --> 00:43:31,570
I... I...
604
00:43:32,370 --> 00:43:33,870
You know,
they deserve something grand
605
00:43:33,950 --> 00:43:37,280
if they're gonna be monogamous
their whole lives.
606
00:43:37,370 --> 00:43:39,830
Right?
607
00:43:41,750 --> 00:43:45,830
Aw.
608
00:43:48,760 --> 00:43:52,390
Max and Carlotta are really good names.
609
00:43:54,140 --> 00:43:57,230
So, um, you...
610
00:43:57,310 --> 00:44:00,480
you went to the doctor's
and you waited with her.
611
00:44:01,980 --> 00:44:03,350
Yeah.
612
00:44:04,650 --> 00:44:07,060
But I... I told you to wait here.
613
00:44:07,360 --> 00:44:08,400
I, um,
614
00:44:08,780 --> 00:44:10,740
I thought it'd be better to, uh, go and...
615
00:44:11,700 --> 00:44:12,750
really be there.
616
00:44:13,740 --> 00:44:15,110
Wow.
617
00:44:17,540 --> 00:44:19,460
She's really upset.
618
00:44:22,170 --> 00:44:23,970
That must have been a lot to deal with.
619
00:44:24,710 --> 00:44:26,130
I'm fine.
620
00:44:26,710 --> 00:44:27,960
I'm good.
621
00:44:29,090 --> 00:44:31,550
I... I learned a lot.
622
00:44:35,140 --> 00:44:36,350
Abigail Porter?
623
00:44:43,150 --> 00:44:44,650
"Home pregnancy tests
624
00:44:44,730 --> 00:44:46,440
that women can do safely and easily.
625
00:44:47,820 --> 00:44:51,330
A small revolution for women
seeking to take control of their lives."
626
00:45:11,680 --> 00:45:13,520
What the fuck is this?
627
00:45:14,260 --> 00:45:16,840
It's a pregnancy test.
628
00:45:22,440 --> 00:45:23,480
Um,
629
00:45:23,900 --> 00:45:25,360
Abbie's doctor said that, uh,
630
00:45:26,360 --> 00:45:28,910
she wouldn't be able to have kids.
631
00:45:31,200 --> 00:45:33,200
Why'd she take you?
632
00:45:37,790 --> 00:45:39,580
- Is that all of it?
- Yeah.
633
00:45:40,870 --> 00:45:42,280
That's a lot.
634
00:45:42,830 --> 00:45:45,000
- Now what?
- Um...
635
00:45:45,750 --> 00:45:47,750
"Shake for ten seconds."
636
00:45:56,800 --> 00:45:58,430
Okay, um...
637
00:46:03,770 --> 00:46:07,440
Um... "Leave undisturbed for two hours."
638
00:46:09,230 --> 00:46:11,190
Two hours?
639
00:46:12,740 --> 00:46:14,240
That's what it says.
640
00:46:18,240 --> 00:46:21,320
Okay, if it appears, then you're positive,
641
00:46:21,410 --> 00:46:24,870
and if no ring appears here,
then the test is negative.
642
00:46:30,250 --> 00:46:31,460
What do we do for two hours?
643
00:46:37,010 --> 00:46:38,300
Guys don't smoke like that.
644
00:46:38,760 --> 00:46:39,800
Don't hold it like that.
645
00:46:39,890 --> 00:46:42,860
Like... this,
646
00:46:43,230 --> 00:46:44,440
between your two fingers.
647
00:46:44,940 --> 00:46:46,900
- That?
- Yeah. That's better.
648
00:46:51,070 --> 00:46:52,360
Okay now walk. Do like a...
649
00:46:53,110 --> 00:46:55,320
a cool cigarette walk.
650
00:47:04,080 --> 00:47:05,400
Guys aren't supposed to look like
651
00:47:05,460 --> 00:47:07,800
they're thinking about
what they look like.
652
00:47:09,920 --> 00:47:11,300
Watch me.
653
00:47:19,180 --> 00:47:20,520
See?
654
00:47:21,140 --> 00:47:24,060
Smoking's gross.
655
00:47:24,470 --> 00:47:26,140
No, it's not.
656
00:47:27,980 --> 00:47:29,030
It gives you cancer.
657
00:47:31,360 --> 00:47:32,490
This is just my opinion.
658
00:47:32,690 --> 00:47:34,980
I think being strong
is the most important quality.
659
00:47:35,070 --> 00:47:38,660
It's not being vulnerable,
it's not being sensitive.
660
00:47:38,950 --> 00:47:41,710
It's not even...
Honestly, it's not even being happy.
661
00:47:42,620 --> 00:47:43,670
It's about strength
662
00:47:44,410 --> 00:47:47,700
and your durability
against the other emotions.
663
00:47:58,050 --> 00:47:59,710
No ring.
664
00:48:00,970 --> 00:48:02,770
No ring.
665
00:48:11,190 --> 00:48:13,320
- Hey.
- Hey.
666
00:48:15,650 --> 00:48:17,310
Thanks for coming with me.
667
00:48:17,950 --> 00:48:19,280
Yeah, totally.
668
00:48:20,320 --> 00:48:21,990
I made you this.
669
00:48:23,160 --> 00:48:24,290
- It's a mix tape.
- Yep.
670
00:48:25,580 --> 00:48:28,130
These were a bunch of songs that...
671
00:48:28,210 --> 00:48:31,210
I think my life
would have been better
672
00:48:31,540 --> 00:48:35,250
if they had been around
when I was a teenager.
673
00:48:35,550 --> 00:48:38,760
So I'm hoping that
if you listen to them now,
674
00:48:39,170 --> 00:48:42,130
you will be a happier
and more realized person
675
00:48:42,220 --> 00:48:45,810
than I could ever hope to be.
676
00:48:51,770 --> 00:48:53,270
From that night on...
677
00:48:53,360 --> 00:48:55,860
Abbie started telling me everything.
678
00:48:57,070 --> 00:49:00,080
She grew up in Santa Barbara
where everyone is happy,
679
00:49:00,320 --> 00:49:02,440
but that just made her feel crazy.
680
00:49:04,570 --> 00:49:08,030
In 1973, she moved to New York City
and went to art school.
681
00:49:09,120 --> 00:49:11,660
New York City made her feel sane.
682
00:49:11,830 --> 00:49:13,580
It was so fucked up.
683
00:49:14,500 --> 00:49:16,670
She fell in love with photography.
684
00:49:17,840 --> 00:49:19,640
She learned to dance when she got sad.
685
00:49:21,090 --> 00:49:24,880
She saw The Man Who Fell to Earth
and dyed her hair red.
686
00:49:25,010 --> 00:49:27,380
I figured out how to be looked at
687
00:49:27,930 --> 00:49:28,970
by men,
688
00:49:30,020 --> 00:49:34,400
and how to make them excited,
689
00:49:34,810 --> 00:49:36,850
and uncomfortable.
690
00:49:37,520 --> 00:49:38,560
I was so cocky,
691
00:49:39,030 --> 00:49:40,740
and I was so angry
692
00:49:41,280 --> 00:49:44,040
and I was so happy.
693
00:49:47,280 --> 00:49:49,700
She fell in love with her teacher.
694
00:49:56,630 --> 00:49:58,430
Then she went
to Planned Parenthood.
695
00:49:58,960 --> 00:50:00,420
Abigail Porter?
696
00:50:04,090 --> 00:50:07,010
Her friends couldn't
deal with her having cancer,
697
00:50:07,100 --> 00:50:09,020
so she went home to her mom.
698
00:50:09,100 --> 00:50:10,190
Hey, Mom...
699
00:50:11,020 --> 00:50:12,650
Gail, did you ever take...
700
00:50:12,730 --> 00:50:15,940
D.E.S. when you were pregnant with Abbie?
701
00:50:16,900 --> 00:50:18,070
Yes.
702
00:50:19,150 --> 00:50:23,990
I had two miscarriages before Abbie.
The doctor told me to take it.
703
00:50:25,070 --> 00:50:28,570
D.E.S. was a fertility medication.
704
00:50:28,660 --> 00:50:31,500
Doctors prescribed it to women.
705
00:50:31,620 --> 00:50:34,240
Later they found out
that the daughters
706
00:50:34,330 --> 00:50:37,700
of the women who took it
got cervical cancer.
707
00:50:38,250 --> 00:50:41,170
I didn't know that
you had miscarriages.
708
00:50:43,800 --> 00:50:44,890
When her mom found out
709
00:50:44,970 --> 00:50:46,600
it was because she took that drug,
710
00:50:47,180 --> 00:50:48,480
she wouldn't talk about it.
711
00:50:49,600 --> 00:50:52,690
And everything Abbie did made her mad.
712
00:50:53,890 --> 00:50:56,310
So Abbie looked
for another place to live.
713
00:50:58,560 --> 00:50:59,600
- Hi. Hello...
- Hi.
714
00:51:00,190 --> 00:51:03,190
And she started renting the room upstairs.
715
00:51:03,610 --> 00:51:04,690
I'm Abbie.
716
00:51:05,700 --> 00:51:07,660
And she got a job at the news press.
717
00:51:07,740 --> 00:51:08,790
...the landslide.
718
00:51:09,240 --> 00:51:11,030
It shows how erosion along the bluff,
719
00:51:11,580 --> 00:51:14,710
it causes instantaneous
loss of oceanfront property
720
00:51:14,790 --> 00:51:15,920
and... and construction.
721
00:51:17,000 --> 00:51:18,300
Over time, it gradually...
722
00:51:30,390 --> 00:51:31,940
Hi, Dorothea.
723
00:51:32,390 --> 00:51:34,190
Hey, Charlie.
724
00:51:40,110 --> 00:51:42,990
Hey... um...
725
00:51:45,190 --> 00:51:46,400
You wanna go out some time?
726
00:51:47,150 --> 00:51:48,780
Get a drink?
727
00:51:49,530 --> 00:51:51,700
Oh, um...
728
00:51:54,080 --> 00:51:55,750
Yeah.
729
00:51:57,160 --> 00:51:59,830
What the heck, Charlie?
730
00:51:59,920 --> 00:52:02,050
Sure. Okay.
731
00:52:02,210 --> 00:52:04,120
I wasn't sure.
732
00:52:04,210 --> 00:52:05,790
- Uh...
- What?
733
00:52:06,420 --> 00:52:09,380
Some... some of the guys
thought you were a lesbian.
734
00:52:09,470 --> 00:52:13,640
You know, which, look,
I don't have a problem with if you are,
735
00:52:13,890 --> 00:52:15,650
but you're not.
736
00:52:16,180 --> 00:52:18,140
Yeah, no, I am not.
737
00:52:22,360 --> 00:52:24,150
Um, should we go out then?
738
00:52:26,400 --> 00:52:28,270
Okay, yeah. Sure.
739
00:52:28,360 --> 00:52:32,400
You wanna come to dinner
at my house again some time?
740
00:52:34,160 --> 00:52:35,330
You could...
741
00:52:35,700 --> 00:52:37,240
We could do that.
742
00:53:11,200 --> 00:53:13,750
Shit. Julie.
743
00:53:27,380 --> 00:53:29,090
It's really-It's nothing.
744
00:53:29,260 --> 00:53:31,260
I just end up there sometimes.
745
00:53:32,630 --> 00:53:34,300
What do you guys do?
746
00:53:35,010 --> 00:53:36,260
I just sleep.
747
00:53:36,930 --> 00:53:38,130
We talk.
748
00:53:44,690 --> 00:53:46,110
Can I have one?
749
00:53:47,320 --> 00:53:48,780
No, they're really bad for you.
750
00:53:50,110 --> 00:53:51,310
You smoke all the time.
751
00:53:52,200 --> 00:53:54,330
You know when I started,
they weren't bad for you.
752
00:53:54,410 --> 00:53:56,710
They were just stylish, sort of edgy,
753
00:53:56,780 --> 00:53:59,660
so it's different for me.
754
00:54:05,920 --> 00:54:07,260
Okay.
755
00:54:16,510 --> 00:54:18,130
You're good at hiding stuff, huh?
756
00:54:19,390 --> 00:54:21,860
My mom calls it compartmentalizing.
757
00:54:22,520 --> 00:54:24,360
Apparently, I do that a lot.
758
00:54:29,110 --> 00:54:30,610
Are you helping him?
759
00:54:33,360 --> 00:54:35,480
- I'm trying.
- Really?
760
00:54:37,700 --> 00:54:38,750
What about you?
761
00:54:39,370 --> 00:54:41,960
Have you thought about your impact on him?
762
00:54:43,290 --> 00:54:45,380
It's always about the mother.
763
00:54:47,330 --> 00:54:48,370
Like...
764
00:54:48,540 --> 00:54:51,330
do you think you've moved on
since his dad?
765
00:54:52,710 --> 00:54:54,920
You know that you're
not actually a therapist?
766
00:54:58,720 --> 00:55:00,930
I've had new guys, okay?
767
00:55:03,430 --> 00:55:05,350
No one appropriate.
768
00:55:06,900 --> 00:55:08,280
Appropriate?
769
00:55:10,940 --> 00:55:13,650
Guys you're not
gonna risk anything with...
770
00:55:15,700 --> 00:55:17,370
men you don't even really like.
771
00:55:18,370 --> 00:55:20,960
Listen, you're 17, okay?
772
00:55:21,160 --> 00:55:23,710
Maybe you don't know
what's good about these guys
773
00:55:23,790 --> 00:55:25,460
that I really like.
774
00:55:27,540 --> 00:55:28,580
I'm talking about you.
775
00:55:29,920 --> 00:55:32,180
You never seem into it...
776
00:55:33,250 --> 00:55:35,130
except for with William.
777
00:55:37,090 --> 00:55:38,460
But...
778
00:55:39,510 --> 00:55:41,260
he's inappropriate.
779
00:55:43,810 --> 00:55:47,020
Okay, Jesus. Uh, yeah.
780
00:55:50,020 --> 00:55:52,520
It's hard to find someone that I like.
781
00:55:54,440 --> 00:55:56,230
I... I had my chance twice,
782
00:55:56,320 --> 00:55:59,580
but that part of life
just didn't work out for me.
783
00:56:09,670 --> 00:56:11,590
- Bye.
- Bye.
784
00:56:48,120 --> 00:56:49,450
Where were you?
785
00:56:51,620 --> 00:56:53,540
I had some errands.
786
00:56:56,500 --> 00:56:57,540
You did the whole list.
787
00:56:58,630 --> 00:56:59,750
You know all the stocks?
788
00:57:00,470 --> 00:57:01,720
Yeah.
789
00:57:03,680 --> 00:57:06,390
IBM is down, huh?
790
00:57:06,560 --> 00:57:07,900
Sorry. I'll fix it next time.
791
00:57:09,350 --> 00:57:11,720
That...
Good job on that.
792
00:57:27,740 --> 00:57:29,870
- William?
- Yes?
793
00:57:31,660 --> 00:57:33,580
Do I seem stuck to you?
794
00:57:37,550 --> 00:57:38,930
How do you mean?
795
00:57:43,010 --> 00:57:45,680
Well, I, I guess
I wouldn't know, would I?
796
00:57:51,940 --> 00:57:53,780
- Abbie?
- Yes?
797
00:57:54,940 --> 00:57:57,240
Let's go out tonight.
798
00:57:58,020 --> 00:58:00,940
I want to see this modern world.
799
00:58:04,160 --> 00:58:05,410
Can I come?
800
00:58:25,510 --> 00:58:28,720
I don't know if I'm gonna find
an appropriate man here.
801
00:58:29,930 --> 00:58:31,390
Thank you.
802
00:58:42,030 --> 00:58:43,620
What?
803
00:58:54,870 --> 00:58:55,910
What was that?
804
00:58:56,670 --> 00:58:58,300
What does that mean?
805
00:58:59,170 --> 00:59:03,260
Oh... Um... Uh...
806
00:59:03,670 --> 00:59:04,960
I mean you don't kiss a woman
807
00:59:05,170 --> 00:59:07,380
unless you know
what you mean by it.
808
00:59:13,390 --> 00:59:15,220
Aren't you sleeping with Abbie?
809
00:59:17,480 --> 00:59:20,570
That's not something serious.
It's...
810
00:59:22,610 --> 00:59:24,200
Then why do it?
811
00:59:57,100 --> 00:59:58,770
It's 1979.
812
00:59:59,060 --> 01:00:00,890
I'm 55 years old.
813
01:00:01,270 --> 01:00:03,270
This is what my son believes in.
814
01:00:04,230 --> 01:00:05,270
These people...
815
01:00:06,150 --> 01:00:07,940
with this hair...
816
01:00:08,240 --> 01:00:09,410
and these clothes...
817
01:00:09,950 --> 01:00:13,250
making these gestures,
making these sounds.
818
01:00:14,990 --> 01:00:18,030
It's 1979. I'm 55 years old,
819
01:00:18,330 --> 01:00:19,370
and in 1999,
820
01:00:19,670 --> 01:00:22,340
I will die of cancer from the smoking.
821
01:00:26,670 --> 01:00:29,050
Hey. Are you going?
822
01:00:29,760 --> 01:00:30,970
Yeah.
823
01:00:32,010 --> 01:00:35,720
Do me a favor.
Just take care of Abbie.
824
01:00:39,020 --> 01:00:41,980
They don't know this is the end of punk.
825
01:00:42,150 --> 01:00:43,990
They don't know
that Reagan's coming.
826
01:00:45,360 --> 01:00:46,950
It's impossible to imagine
827
01:00:47,030 --> 01:00:50,200
that kids will stop
dreaming about nuclear war,
828
01:00:50,740 --> 01:00:52,620
and have nightmares about the weather.
829
01:00:53,950 --> 01:00:57,200
It's impossible to imagine HIV,
830
01:00:57,870 --> 01:00:59,870
what will happen
with skateboard tricks,
831
01:01:01,120 --> 01:01:02,870
the internet.
832
01:01:03,630 --> 01:01:04,670
You have a good time?
833
01:01:05,130 --> 01:01:06,930
Yeah, it was interesting.
834
01:01:09,550 --> 01:01:11,100
So Abbie has your number, right?
835
01:01:11,470 --> 01:01:14,020
- Yeah.
- Maybe you'll come over for dinner.
836
01:01:14,720 --> 01:01:15,760
I'd like that.
837
01:01:23,860 --> 01:01:25,400
Kid.
838
01:01:28,530 --> 01:01:29,820
It's late.
839
01:01:31,650 --> 01:01:32,900
How was it?
840
01:01:33,240 --> 01:01:37,120
It was... life-changing.
841
01:01:50,760 --> 01:01:53,600
Before I die, I will prepare for Y2K.
842
01:01:54,300 --> 01:01:57,300
I put canned food and water
in the garage.
843
01:01:57,810 --> 01:02:01,270
I put $16,000 dollars' worth of gold coins
844
01:02:01,350 --> 01:02:05,180
into a safe deposit box
at the Bank of Montecito.
845
01:02:09,860 --> 01:02:12,120
I died before the new year,
846
01:02:12,740 --> 01:02:16,000
Dolphin shaped balloons
floated over my head.
847
01:02:16,370 --> 01:02:19,460
They were playing Louis Armstrong
on a boom box.
848
01:02:33,880 --> 01:02:35,000
Jamie?
849
01:02:37,850 --> 01:02:39,480
Hey, sorry. Are you awake?
850
01:02:40,770 --> 01:02:42,060
I just wanted to tell you...
851
01:02:42,930 --> 01:02:48,100
that you have to get out of this town
if you want to have any chance
852
01:02:48,190 --> 01:02:50,070
of an interesting life moving forward.
853
01:02:50,440 --> 01:02:52,190
What happened?
854
01:02:54,860 --> 01:02:56,650
Sorry. Shit.
855
01:02:57,450 --> 01:02:59,040
We don't have sex.
856
01:03:00,200 --> 01:03:01,860
I just sleep here.
857
01:03:04,250 --> 01:03:05,750
Okay.
858
01:03:07,380 --> 01:03:08,420
Can I lay down?
859
01:03:09,090 --> 01:03:10,760
- We were sleeping.
- Just scoot over.
860
01:03:10,840 --> 01:03:13,930
It's okay. I'm just gonna
talk to Jamie for a second.
861
01:03:16,630 --> 01:03:19,880
So Lynette Winters spit on me,
862
01:03:19,970 --> 01:03:21,010
so then I hit her.
863
01:03:21,560 --> 01:03:22,730
Why'd she spit on you?
864
01:03:22,810 --> 01:03:24,270
Because I spit on her,
865
01:03:24,480 --> 01:03:25,870
right before
I was going to New York
866
01:03:25,890 --> 01:03:27,850
and I thought I was never
gonna come back.
867
01:03:28,100 --> 01:03:29,680
It felt very liberating at the time.
868
01:03:29,770 --> 01:03:31,100
- Fucking bitch!
- All right.
869
01:03:31,190 --> 01:03:33,350
And somehow I ended up breaking a chair.
870
01:03:35,990 --> 01:03:37,700
Hey, Julian, I'm sorry.
871
01:03:37,910 --> 01:03:40,160
- You okay?
- Yeah, yeah, I'm fine.
872
01:03:42,540 --> 01:03:43,880
And then William told me
873
01:03:43,950 --> 01:03:45,830
he didn't want
to sleep with me anymore.
874
01:03:46,000 --> 01:03:48,500
What are you saying?
I don't like you!
875
01:03:48,580 --> 01:03:50,120
I don't like you! I don't like...
876
01:03:51,590 --> 01:03:54,090
Just, just, I'm just gonna
talk to Jamie for a second.
877
01:03:55,380 --> 01:03:59,510
Um, you cannot let her sleep here
878
01:03:59,800 --> 01:04:02,380
if she's not having sex with you.
879
01:04:02,510 --> 01:04:04,970
It's disempowering.
880
01:04:05,850 --> 01:04:07,560
Also, you need to get out of this town
881
01:04:09,270 --> 01:04:12,270
before you start working
at a sunglasses shop.
882
01:04:15,320 --> 01:04:16,700
I mean, it goes for you, too.
883
01:04:33,630 --> 01:04:36,970
Jamie, um, here's some books
from a feminism class I took.
884
01:04:37,050 --> 01:04:38,390
I thought it would be helpful
885
01:04:38,720 --> 01:04:40,350
for you to get a woman's perspective.
886
01:04:40,430 --> 01:04:41,640
What happened to your lip?
887
01:04:41,800 --> 01:04:43,300
Oh, I got in a fight.
888
01:04:43,390 --> 01:04:44,850
- You want some apples?
- What?!
889
01:04:44,930 --> 01:04:47,220
There was a fight.
It was... it was ridiculous.
890
01:04:47,310 --> 01:04:49,190
Hold on, is that
Our Bodies, Ourselves?
891
01:04:49,770 --> 01:04:50,820
Yes, it is.
892
01:04:50,980 --> 01:04:52,420
This was a really, really good book.
893
01:04:53,650 --> 01:04:58,370
There's a really good chapter
on home... childbirths.
894
01:04:59,700 --> 01:05:03,500
Home birth actually stunts
the baby's growth personality.
895
01:05:03,660 --> 01:05:06,080
What is a growth personality?
896
01:05:06,160 --> 01:05:07,200
It's a real term.
897
01:05:07,580 --> 01:05:10,130
"And who knows what it means
for a newborn
898
01:05:10,870 --> 01:05:14,410
to see wood walls and carpeted floor
899
01:05:14,500 --> 01:05:17,080
and to smell real human smells
900
01:05:17,170 --> 01:05:20,540
and to feel wool
and cotton and flannel clothes
901
01:05:20,630 --> 01:05:25,800
instead of starchy, white, deodorized"
dot, dot, dot.
902
01:05:25,930 --> 01:05:27,890
To me, that meant, like,
"And what else?"
903
01:05:36,940 --> 01:05:38,400
Women's sexuality,
904
01:05:38,480 --> 01:05:40,730
defined by men to benefit men,
905
01:05:40,820 --> 01:05:43,110
has been downgraded and perverted,
906
01:05:43,200 --> 01:05:44,790
repressed and channeled.
907
01:05:45,660 --> 01:05:48,830
Anatomically, all orgasms
are centered in the clitoris,
908
01:05:48,910 --> 01:05:50,830
whether they result
from direct manual pressure
909
01:05:50,910 --> 01:05:52,080
applied to the clitoris,
910
01:05:52,750 --> 01:05:54,260
indirect pressure resulting from...
911
01:05:54,330 --> 01:05:56,040
Last night, I fucked Heather so hard,
912
01:05:56,130 --> 01:05:57,510
she came like, three times.
913
01:05:59,130 --> 01:06:01,420
How did you stimulate her clitoris?
914
01:06:02,430 --> 01:06:04,020
With my dick.
915
01:06:05,970 --> 01:06:09,010
Women need
direct clitoral stimulation,
916
01:06:09,100 --> 01:06:12,770
like with fingers or a vibrator
or something.
917
01:06:13,770 --> 01:06:16,110
She probably faked it.
Women fake it all the time.
918
01:06:17,190 --> 01:06:19,070
Talking Heads are a bunch of fags.
919
01:06:21,190 --> 01:06:23,020
Actually, there's a girl in their band,
920
01:06:23,110 --> 01:06:25,860
and she's dating the drummer,
so...
921
01:06:28,120 --> 01:06:30,000
Your name's Jamie, right?
922
01:06:30,490 --> 01:06:33,620
Fuckin' art fag.
923
01:06:43,010 --> 01:06:45,260
So what was the fight about?
924
01:06:48,300 --> 01:06:50,510
Clitoral stimulation.
925
01:06:54,100 --> 01:06:55,930
Why do you need to fight about that?
926
01:06:57,100 --> 01:06:58,140
I don't know. I...
927
01:06:58,560 --> 01:07:00,940
I wanna be a good guy, okay?
928
01:07:01,030 --> 01:07:05,700
I just... want to be able
to satisfy a woman.
929
01:07:13,540 --> 01:07:15,920
Kid, I'm sure you will.
930
01:07:31,180 --> 01:07:32,550
Shit.
931
01:07:34,020 --> 01:07:35,690
Jamie!
932
01:07:36,390 --> 01:07:37,720
That's not cool.
933
01:07:37,850 --> 01:07:41,980
Yeah. That's what Matt called me
for liking the Talking Heads.
934
01:07:43,190 --> 01:07:44,480
Uh-huh.
935
01:07:45,280 --> 01:07:48,080
And what is "Black Flag?"
936
01:07:48,700 --> 01:07:50,370
It's a hard core band,
937
01:07:50,450 --> 01:07:55,290
so the people who love Black Flag
hate the Talking Heads.
938
01:07:56,080 --> 01:07:57,700
What?!
939
01:07:57,790 --> 01:08:00,960
The punk scene is very divisive.
940
01:08:01,420 --> 01:08:06,140
Hey! You're all so advanced, aren't you?
941
01:08:07,340 --> 01:08:10,090
The next time a dude
tells you a sex story,
942
01:08:10,180 --> 01:08:13,730
you just have to agree
with everything he says
943
01:08:13,810 --> 01:08:15,770
and act like it's right, even if it's not,
944
01:08:16,930 --> 01:08:18,930
because they don't
wanna be contradicted.
945
01:08:19,020 --> 01:08:21,820
They just wanna live
in their fantasy lands.
946
01:08:24,150 --> 01:08:27,150
How are you doing... with everything?
947
01:08:43,210 --> 01:08:45,460
Whatever you think your life
is going to be like,
948
01:08:45,550 --> 01:08:49,390
just know it's not gonna be
anything like that.
949
01:08:53,260 --> 01:08:54,340
Right.
950
01:09:10,070 --> 01:09:11,860
Take me to that club.
951
01:09:17,290 --> 01:09:18,380
Tonight?
952
01:09:19,910 --> 01:09:22,160
- Hey.
- Hey.
953
01:09:23,290 --> 01:09:25,160
Wow, you look amazing.
Where you going?
954
01:09:26,300 --> 01:09:28,090
We're just gonna go out.
Is that okay?
955
01:09:28,260 --> 01:09:30,050
Well yeah, of course.
And, uh, where?
956
01:09:31,130 --> 01:09:32,250
Just goin' out.
957
01:09:35,140 --> 01:09:36,190
- Bye.
- Bye!
958
01:09:55,320 --> 01:09:56,820
Put that down.
959
01:09:57,660 --> 01:10:00,280
Hey, could I get a beer?
960
01:10:02,960 --> 01:10:06,130
Now say, "I... I'm into older women."
961
01:10:06,500 --> 01:10:08,330
Just say it.
962
01:10:08,920 --> 01:10:10,540
I'm into older women.
963
01:10:10,630 --> 01:10:11,670
Oh...
964
01:10:13,380 --> 01:10:14,420
How old are you?
965
01:10:15,180 --> 01:10:17,140
Age is a bourgeois construct.
966
01:10:18,430 --> 01:10:20,720
Age is a bourgeois construct.
967
01:10:21,390 --> 01:10:22,850
That's a good answer.
968
01:10:23,730 --> 01:10:25,110
Age is a bourgeois construct.
969
01:10:25,400 --> 01:10:26,530
Okay, okay. You get it.
970
01:10:26,940 --> 01:10:29,950
Um, so now
if she asks you any questions,
971
01:10:30,030 --> 01:10:32,990
you just say as little as possible, okay?
972
01:10:33,990 --> 01:10:36,450
Now show me
your most inscrutable face.
973
01:10:48,250 --> 01:10:50,250
I don't really make choices, when they...
974
01:10:50,750 --> 01:10:52,000
about...
975
01:10:52,720 --> 01:10:54,180
about women. They just...
976
01:10:55,340 --> 01:10:56,340
They come to you.
977
01:10:57,470 --> 01:11:00,390
That... that's...
You could have more than that.
978
01:11:03,390 --> 01:11:05,180
But what about you? Why...
979
01:11:06,150 --> 01:11:08,740
I mean, what happened to Jamie's dad?
980
01:11:11,400 --> 01:11:14,230
Well...
981
01:11:15,490 --> 01:11:19,200
He just, no... He just didn't turn out like
I thought he would.
982
01:11:21,330 --> 01:11:22,370
I guess that happens.
983
01:11:23,370 --> 01:11:25,490
There must have been
something good about him.
984
01:11:28,500 --> 01:11:31,620
Um, he was left-handed.
985
01:11:32,550 --> 01:11:35,470
That's it? That's it?
986
01:11:35,550 --> 01:11:37,770
Yes, and I was right-handed.
987
01:11:38,430 --> 01:11:39,480
And so in the morning,
988
01:11:41,350 --> 01:11:43,480
we would look at
the stock reports together,
989
01:11:44,430 --> 01:11:45,470
and...
990
01:11:47,440 --> 01:11:48,760
he could write with his left-hand
991
01:11:48,810 --> 01:11:51,480
and scratch my back
with his right.
992
01:11:54,940 --> 01:11:56,400
And that's it?
993
01:11:58,280 --> 01:11:59,440
I loved that.
994
01:12:04,240 --> 01:12:05,280
Do you ever meditate?
995
01:12:08,620 --> 01:12:09,660
Uh...
996
01:12:10,670 --> 01:12:11,720
I feel the air,
997
01:12:12,380 --> 01:12:14,220
coolness of the air
goes through my nose.
998
01:12:15,670 --> 01:12:17,750
All I'm really doing is...
999
01:12:19,390 --> 01:12:20,600
bringing my attention
1000
01:12:21,890 --> 01:12:24,140
back to my breath.
1001
01:12:24,310 --> 01:12:26,810
So when I take a breath in...
1002
01:12:27,770 --> 01:12:29,320
there's a feeling.
1003
01:12:30,270 --> 01:12:32,020
It's air going in.
1004
01:12:33,570 --> 01:12:35,320
It's air going out.
1005
01:12:36,030 --> 01:12:37,410
It's a good feeling.
1006
01:12:43,830 --> 01:12:46,040
No, it's okay. Go ahead.
I'm just gonna...
1007
01:12:49,330 --> 01:12:50,370
Go ahead.
1008
01:12:51,000 --> 01:12:52,760
I'm just gonna smoke.
1009
01:12:54,090 --> 01:12:55,380
I'm listening.
1010
01:12:57,260 --> 01:12:59,470
All right, I wanna get
on the same page.
1011
01:13:00,430 --> 01:13:01,470
You are such...
1012
01:13:01,930 --> 01:13:05,230
How did you get to be
this person that you are?
1013
01:13:05,310 --> 01:13:08,730
It's so... You're so unusual.
1014
01:13:10,890 --> 01:13:12,270
William's dad managed
1015
01:13:12,350 --> 01:13:13,980
an auto repair shop in Cleveland.
1016
01:13:15,400 --> 01:13:18,660
Engines always made sense to him.
1017
01:13:19,700 --> 01:13:21,620
He tried
to put himself through college,
1018
01:13:21,700 --> 01:13:23,580
but couldn't afford it.
1019
01:13:27,490 --> 01:13:30,450
He met Theresa in 1963.
1020
01:13:30,540 --> 01:13:33,420
She was smart, brave, better off.
1021
01:13:33,500 --> 01:13:34,540
They were in love.
1022
01:13:35,090 --> 01:13:36,220
They'd move to Oakland,
1023
01:13:36,420 --> 01:13:38,750
then to a commune in Sebastopol.
1024
01:13:38,840 --> 01:13:40,970
Well, I learned to be like them, you know?
1025
01:13:41,050 --> 01:13:42,100
And... as it turns out,
1026
01:13:43,720 --> 01:13:45,810
it's a lot easier
than I thought it would be.
1027
01:13:45,890 --> 01:13:48,850
But it wasn't really me
I was doing it for...
1028
01:13:50,310 --> 01:13:53,030
so that I wouldn't lose Theresa.
1029
01:13:54,270 --> 01:13:55,770
He started talking like them,
1030
01:13:55,860 --> 01:13:56,900
looking like them,
1031
01:13:57,400 --> 01:14:01,030
but they made him feel old
and uneducated and poor.
1032
01:14:01,700 --> 01:14:03,240
Theresa started thinking
1033
01:14:03,320 --> 01:14:05,820
William was uptight and possessive
and she left him.
1034
01:14:07,240 --> 01:14:08,320
After Theresa,
1035
01:14:08,410 --> 01:14:10,410
women didn't have to look
one way or the other,
1036
01:14:10,500 --> 01:14:11,540
or be a certain way.
1037
01:14:16,290 --> 01:14:17,330
I think that I just...
1038
01:14:18,590 --> 01:14:19,640
I want to win them over
1039
01:14:20,420 --> 01:14:21,590
so that I won't be lonely.
1040
01:14:22,470 --> 01:14:23,720
You live here?
1041
01:14:24,380 --> 01:14:25,420
I do.
1042
01:14:25,550 --> 01:14:27,050
But once I have them,
1043
01:14:28,100 --> 01:14:29,980
I don't really know
what to do with them.
1044
01:14:38,110 --> 01:14:39,740
You wanna do something later?
1045
01:14:40,780 --> 01:14:42,620
You're sweet.
1046
01:14:43,570 --> 01:14:45,110
I should go.
1047
01:14:46,570 --> 01:14:49,110
What he likes is making bowls.
1048
01:14:49,540 --> 01:14:51,330
He doesn't smell like oil and grease.
1049
01:14:51,410 --> 01:14:53,740
His hands don't look like
dumb mechanic's hands.
1050
01:14:54,410 --> 01:14:56,250
I was using the smaller bowls for a while.
1051
01:14:56,330 --> 01:14:58,500
Um, and then I was kind of feeling
like I needed
1052
01:14:58,840 --> 01:15:00,720
to beat the crap
out of some stuff, so...
1053
01:15:02,010 --> 01:15:05,430
And when it gets a little bit drier,
1054
01:15:05,510 --> 01:15:07,390
you spray everything away.
1055
01:15:08,350 --> 01:15:09,520
Wow.
1056
01:15:10,220 --> 01:15:11,260
It's beautiful.
1057
01:15:17,480 --> 01:15:18,650
What?
1058
01:15:21,360 --> 01:15:22,410
Did you fix it?
1059
01:15:22,730 --> 01:15:23,770
Um...
1060
01:15:23,860 --> 01:15:24,900
Well, maybe...
1061
01:15:25,490 --> 01:15:29,410
It's, uh, part Vol... Volkswagen now.
I had to imp... improvise.
1062
01:15:56,850 --> 01:15:59,470
And how are you gonna get to know
a person way over there?
1063
01:16:00,980 --> 01:16:03,150
What am...
What am I supposed to do?
1064
01:16:04,030 --> 01:16:06,620
Well, just make a little small talk
1065
01:16:06,780 --> 01:16:09,830
and introduce yourself, ask her to dance.
1066
01:16:10,870 --> 01:16:13,080
Okay. Hello, I'm William.
1067
01:16:13,830 --> 01:16:14,880
- Hello.
- Hello.
1068
01:16:15,700 --> 01:16:17,370
- Um, I live downstairs.
- Oh, yeah.
1069
01:16:17,660 --> 01:16:18,830
I'm the one with the cars.
1070
01:16:19,960 --> 01:16:21,470
Would you like to dance with me?
1071
01:16:22,250 --> 01:16:24,920
- Yes. Sure.
- Okay.
1072
01:16:25,010 --> 01:16:26,180
Put your hand out, right?
1073
01:16:27,050 --> 01:16:28,180
Put the other hand here.
1074
01:16:28,760 --> 01:16:30,600
And just be there.
1075
01:16:31,640 --> 01:16:33,350
She just wants a little company.
1076
01:16:34,350 --> 01:16:35,770
Oh.
1077
01:16:36,770 --> 01:16:38,110
Okay.
1078
01:16:40,690 --> 01:16:42,240
That's nice.
1079
01:17:14,810 --> 01:17:17,850
I... I feel like I... I understand you.
1080
01:17:19,690 --> 01:17:21,020
We should get away from here.
1081
01:17:21,600 --> 01:17:23,100
Just... just me and you, you know?
1082
01:17:23,770 --> 01:17:26,560
Go up the coast, be alone somewhere.
1083
01:17:28,320 --> 01:17:30,620
Jamie, you're in love with Julie.
1084
01:17:35,740 --> 01:17:37,360
You can't let her push you around.
1085
01:17:38,330 --> 01:17:40,500
You have to tell her what you want.
1086
01:17:50,630 --> 01:17:53,170
...if you, if you were to listen to it...
1087
01:17:53,260 --> 01:17:54,260
Right.
1088
01:17:54,640 --> 01:17:56,480
What does... what does that mean?
1089
01:17:56,560 --> 01:17:58,400
"Art Fag?" I mean what does...
1090
01:17:58,470 --> 01:18:03,220
If you were to think about it
from more like a sociological perspective,
1091
01:18:03,310 --> 01:18:05,560
what does that come from? "Art Fag."
1092
01:18:05,650 --> 01:18:06,710
- I think we...
- What is that?
1093
01:18:06,730 --> 01:18:09,270
- Abbie understands it.
- Abbie does not understand it.
1094
01:18:09,650 --> 01:18:11,690
She's just a part of it.
1095
01:18:26,670 --> 01:18:28,590
You don't need to like it.
1096
01:18:29,170 --> 01:18:30,830
Okay, what is he saying?
1097
01:18:33,380 --> 01:18:35,460
"Head on my shoulders..."
1098
01:18:37,800 --> 01:18:38,840
"Going berserk..."
1099
01:18:39,770 --> 01:18:40,810
Right.
1100
01:18:40,970 --> 01:18:42,010
Is that interesting?
1101
01:18:42,390 --> 01:18:43,430
I don't know.
1102
01:18:43,850 --> 01:18:44,890
I don't know either.
1103
01:18:45,730 --> 01:18:47,690
I think we're maybe over-thinking this.
1104
01:19:03,830 --> 01:19:05,740
Let's try the Art Fag one.
1105
01:19:08,380 --> 01:19:10,300
Here come the Art Fags.
1106
01:19:14,340 --> 01:19:15,340
Oh, yeah.
1107
01:19:33,030 --> 01:19:34,530
All right, you ready?
1108
01:19:37,200 --> 01:19:38,500
That's it.
1109
01:19:42,080 --> 01:19:43,750
I guess we're more the Art Fag type.
1110
01:19:44,700 --> 01:19:45,700
Uh-huh.
1111
01:19:45,790 --> 01:19:47,250
I like that.
1112
01:19:48,420 --> 01:19:51,010
♪ ...I remember from maps ♪
1113
01:19:53,260 --> 01:19:55,800
♪ I see the shoreline ♪
1114
01:19:57,720 --> 01:20:00,230
♪ I see the whitecaps ♪
1115
01:20:01,680 --> 01:20:05,010
♪ A baseball diamond ♪
1116
01:20:05,850 --> 01:20:08,640
♪ Nice weather down there ♪
1117
01:20:10,520 --> 01:20:13,190
♪ I see the school ♪
1118
01:20:14,690 --> 01:20:17,770
♪ And the houses where the kids are ♪
1119
01:20:19,360 --> 01:20:21,360
♪ Places to park ♪
1120
01:20:23,160 --> 01:20:24,960
♪ By the fac'tries and buildings... ♪
1121
01:20:25,370 --> 01:20:27,580
Come here, inscrutable boy.
1122
01:20:31,840 --> 01:20:33,010
I gave him beer,
1123
01:20:33,420 --> 01:20:38,170
and then I... I taught him
how to verbally seduce women,
1124
01:20:38,260 --> 01:20:41,980
and we drove drunk,
but I stopped that,
1125
01:20:42,350 --> 01:20:43,520
and then he kissed Trish.
1126
01:20:45,270 --> 01:20:47,480
And then we walked home.
1127
01:20:49,810 --> 01:20:51,140
Ah.
1128
01:20:57,240 --> 01:20:58,910
You're not mad?
1129
01:21:00,110 --> 01:21:01,360
You're mad.
1130
01:21:07,870 --> 01:21:12,080
You get to see him out in the world
as a person.
1131
01:21:13,000 --> 01:21:14,790
I never will.
1132
01:21:22,340 --> 01:21:23,630
Just...
1133
01:21:32,020 --> 01:21:33,100
There.
1134
01:22:05,100 --> 01:22:07,440
I can't believe Abbie gave you this book.
1135
01:22:09,350 --> 01:22:10,690
It's interesting.
1136
01:22:13,560 --> 01:22:16,600
What's it like... for girls?
1137
01:22:16,770 --> 01:22:19,690
What? Sex?
1138
01:22:22,070 --> 01:22:23,480
Orgasms.
1139
01:22:26,830 --> 01:22:29,120
Do you really want to know
what it's like?
1140
01:22:32,250 --> 01:22:33,590
Yeah.
1141
01:22:35,040 --> 01:22:36,620
I don't have them.
1142
01:22:38,590 --> 01:22:40,090
What?
1143
01:22:41,300 --> 01:22:43,010
None of my friends do.
1144
01:22:45,930 --> 01:22:47,430
Then why do you do it?
1145
01:22:48,050 --> 01:22:49,180
There's other reasons.
1146
01:22:50,560 --> 01:22:53,020
You know, like the way
that he looks at you...
1147
01:22:56,440 --> 01:22:59,240
or the way they get a little
bit desperate at some point.
1148
01:23:00,820 --> 01:23:03,700
And the little sounds that they make.
1149
01:23:17,210 --> 01:23:19,170
And their bodies...
1150
01:23:21,210 --> 01:23:24,290
'cause you don't exactly know
what they're gonna look like...
1151
01:23:25,930 --> 01:23:28,430
or smell or feel like...
1152
01:23:30,640 --> 01:23:31,900
until you do it.
1153
01:23:36,100 --> 01:23:39,020
But, yeah...
half the time I regret it.
1154
01:23:42,820 --> 01:23:44,780
Then why do you do it?
1155
01:23:47,160 --> 01:23:49,040
'Cause half the time, I don't regret it.
1156
01:24:00,750 --> 01:24:02,370
"I am gregarious.
1157
01:24:02,460 --> 01:24:03,500
Interested in others.
1158
01:24:04,090 --> 01:24:05,260
And I think, intelligent.
1159
01:24:10,350 --> 01:24:12,440
All I ask is to get to know people
1160
01:24:12,510 --> 01:24:14,510
and to have them interested
in knowing me.
1161
01:24:15,140 --> 01:24:16,810
I doubt whether I would marry again
1162
01:24:17,100 --> 01:24:19,810
and live that close
to another individual,
1163
01:24:19,900 --> 01:24:22,240
but I remain invisible.
1164
01:24:23,190 --> 01:24:25,230
Don't pretend for a minute
as you look at me,
1165
01:24:26,150 --> 01:24:28,150
that I am not as alive as you are,
1166
01:24:28,860 --> 01:24:31,860
and I do not suffer from the category
to which you are forcing me.
1167
01:24:36,120 --> 01:24:38,330
I think, stripped down,
I look more attractive
1168
01:24:38,670 --> 01:24:40,590
than my ex-husband...
1169
01:24:41,580 --> 01:24:45,830
...but I am sexually and socially obsolete
and he is not.
1170
01:24:47,170 --> 01:24:49,550
I have a capacity now for
taking people as they are,
1171
01:24:49,800 --> 01:24:50,840
which I lacked at 20.
1172
01:24:52,140 --> 01:24:56,020
I reach orgasm in half the time
and I know how to please,
1173
01:24:56,100 --> 01:24:59,980
yet I do not even dare show a man
that I find him attractive.
1174
01:25:00,400 --> 01:25:03,950
If I do, he may react
as if I have insulted him.
1175
01:25:06,030 --> 01:25:09,870
I'm supposed to fulfill my small functions
and vanish."
1176
01:25:16,240 --> 01:25:17,280
Well...
1177
01:25:18,200 --> 01:25:19,830
What do you think of all that?
1178
01:25:23,380 --> 01:25:26,180
I don't know. Maybe I'm a feminist.
1179
01:25:32,140 --> 01:25:33,140
So...
1180
01:25:38,310 --> 01:25:40,270
You think that's me.
1181
01:25:41,020 --> 01:25:42,650
No, I don't know.
1182
01:25:44,150 --> 01:25:46,650
So you think you know me better
because you read that?
1183
01:25:46,940 --> 01:25:48,440
No, no.
1184
01:25:51,150 --> 01:25:54,280
Then why are you reading it to me?
1185
01:25:57,120 --> 01:26:00,250
Um, I thought it was interesting.
1186
01:26:06,210 --> 01:26:08,000
Okay, well...
1187
01:26:10,670 --> 01:26:13,840
I... I don't need a book
to know about myself.
1188
01:26:21,810 --> 01:26:23,230
Sorry.
1189
01:26:39,700 --> 01:26:42,160
I mean, I appreciate you trying to help.
1190
01:26:42,250 --> 01:26:45,420
I do. I just think
you're taking it too far.
1191
01:26:45,670 --> 01:26:46,710
This stuff with,
1192
01:26:48,250 --> 01:26:50,080
you know, the women's movement
I respect,
1193
01:26:50,170 --> 01:26:52,540
but it's just, it's complicated
1194
01:26:52,630 --> 01:26:54,550
and I think it's too much for him.
1195
01:26:54,630 --> 01:26:57,070
What are... I don't know what
it is that you're talking about.
1196
01:26:57,140 --> 01:26:59,770
- Okay. He's a 15-year-old boy.
- I know.
1197
01:26:59,850 --> 01:27:02,230
You're giving him hard core
feminism, and it-it...
1198
01:27:02,890 --> 01:27:04,570
But he really loves it, and it's really...
1199
01:27:04,640 --> 01:27:06,520
- It's helping him...
- Helping him what?
1200
01:27:07,270 --> 01:27:08,580
It's helping him
become a man, th...
1201
01:27:08,610 --> 01:27:10,090
What you were talking about. It's like...
1202
01:27:10,110 --> 01:27:12,660
Learning about a female orgasm
is helping him be a man?
1203
01:27:12,860 --> 01:27:15,400
Well, what man do you know
that cares anything about that?
1204
01:27:15,490 --> 01:27:17,200
- Look, he's...
- I mean that's a miracle.
1205
01:27:17,280 --> 01:27:18,820
But he is a high school kid, okay?
1206
01:27:19,280 --> 01:27:22,200
It's too much. I'm telling you.
1207
01:27:25,290 --> 01:27:27,550
I think he seems really okay with it.
1208
01:27:29,090 --> 01:27:31,930
You know you don't actually know
what you're doing with him?
1209
01:27:34,260 --> 01:27:38,730
Okay? So... just...
1210
01:27:41,470 --> 01:27:43,260
As you know,
1211
01:27:43,350 --> 01:27:47,530
there is a growing
disrespect for government,
1212
01:27:47,600 --> 01:27:49,930
for schools, the news media
1213
01:27:50,110 --> 01:27:51,240
and other institutions.
1214
01:27:52,480 --> 01:27:56,690
This is not a message
of happiness or reassurance.
1215
01:27:57,280 --> 01:27:59,240
But it is the truth
1216
01:27:59,530 --> 01:28:01,360
and it is a warning.
1217
01:28:02,700 --> 01:28:04,240
It is a crisis... of confidence.
1218
01:28:08,250 --> 01:28:09,300
We can see this crisis
1219
01:28:10,250 --> 01:28:12,790
in the growing doubt
about the meaning of our own lives
1220
01:28:13,420 --> 01:28:15,080
and in the loss of a unity of purpose
1221
01:28:16,420 --> 01:28:18,050
for our nation.
1222
01:28:19,590 --> 01:28:20,630
Too many of us now
1223
01:28:21,760 --> 01:28:26,550
tend to worship self-indulgence
and consumption.
1224
01:28:27,350 --> 01:28:28,390
But we've discovered
1225
01:28:29,400 --> 01:28:31,530
that owning things
and consuming things...
1226
01:28:34,150 --> 01:28:35,190
does not satisfy
1227
01:28:36,360 --> 01:28:39,230
our longing for meaning.
1228
01:28:41,070 --> 01:28:42,860
We always believed...
1229
01:28:43,910 --> 01:28:46,740
that we were part
of a great movement
1230
01:28:46,830 --> 01:28:47,880
of humanity itself...
1231
01:28:49,290 --> 01:28:52,330
involved in a search for freedom.
1232
01:28:57,380 --> 01:29:00,840
We are at a turning point
in our history.
1233
01:29:03,300 --> 01:29:07,430
The path that leads to fragmentation
and self-interest.
1234
01:29:08,770 --> 01:29:12,650
Down that road lies
a mistaken idea of freedom.
1235
01:29:14,610 --> 01:29:18,280
It is a certain route to failure.
1236
01:29:20,860 --> 01:29:22,940
Thank you and good night.
1237
01:29:25,080 --> 01:29:27,460
Wow. He is so screwed.
1238
01:29:28,330 --> 01:29:29,380
No shit.
1239
01:29:29,830 --> 01:29:31,410
It's over for him.
1240
01:29:32,630 --> 01:29:34,970
I thought that was beautiful.
1241
01:29:36,420 --> 01:29:40,670
Well, why didn't you just say,
"I'm sorry, I'm done?"
1242
01:29:41,050 --> 01:29:42,090
My pride.
1243
01:29:42,470 --> 01:29:43,640
- I know.
- Yeah, it's...
1244
01:29:43,760 --> 01:29:46,380
You didn't seem like a prideful person.
You seem humble.
1245
01:29:46,470 --> 01:29:50,010
I left my pride outside today.
1246
01:29:51,100 --> 01:29:53,270
Jamie, would you please wake up Abbie?
1247
01:29:55,480 --> 01:29:58,730
- Yeah. Abbie?
- No, stop it. I'm menstruating.
1248
01:30:00,320 --> 01:30:01,370
Abbie, you know what?
1249
01:30:01,900 --> 01:30:04,610
You're menstruating. Okay.
But do you have to say it?
1250
01:30:05,580 --> 01:30:09,000
Okay? And do we really need to know
everything that's going on with you?
1251
01:30:09,410 --> 01:30:11,660
What? I'm menstruating.
1252
01:30:12,290 --> 01:30:13,330
Why is that a big deal?
1253
01:30:13,540 --> 01:30:16,210
We don't need to hear about that.
Thank you.
1254
01:30:17,380 --> 01:30:19,970
If you ever want to have
an adult relationship with a woman,
1255
01:30:20,050 --> 01:30:22,390
like if you want to have sex
with a woman's vagina,
1256
01:30:22,590 --> 01:30:23,800
you need to be comfortable
1257
01:30:24,220 --> 01:30:27,270
with the fact
that the vagina menstruates,
1258
01:30:27,350 --> 01:30:29,520
and just say menstruation.
It's not a big deal.
1259
01:30:29,600 --> 01:30:33,320
So start saying it now.
Menstruation.
1260
01:30:34,350 --> 01:30:37,230
- Now?
- Yes. Menstruation.
1261
01:30:37,940 --> 01:30:38,980
Menstruation.
1262
01:30:39,280 --> 01:30:41,240
Jamie, no, you don't have to.
1263
01:30:41,690 --> 01:30:43,010
You're saying it like you're scared.
1264
01:30:43,030 --> 01:30:44,220
- Don't say it like you're scared.
- Abbie.
1265
01:30:44,240 --> 01:30:46,250
- Say it like it's normal.
- Menstruation.
1266
01:30:46,490 --> 01:30:48,070
- Menstruation.
- Menstruation.
1267
01:30:48,160 --> 01:30:52,080
Not bad. Julian, menstruation.
You can say it. Right now.
1268
01:30:52,960 --> 01:30:55,800
- I'm sorry.
- Uh, men... menstruation.
1269
01:30:56,130 --> 01:30:58,880
Just keep eye contact with me.
What... Who are you looking at?
1270
01:30:58,960 --> 01:31:01,170
- Menstruation.
- Menstruation.
1271
01:31:01,260 --> 01:31:02,970
Yeah, that's right. Menstruation.
1272
01:31:03,130 --> 01:31:05,960
Charlie, you're quiet. Menstruation?
1273
01:31:06,050 --> 01:31:07,260
Menstruation?
1274
01:31:07,350 --> 01:31:09,640
No, not like a question. Menstruation.
1275
01:31:10,510 --> 01:31:12,970
- Menstruation.
- Now everybody say it together.
1276
01:31:13,560 --> 01:31:15,190
Menstruation.
1277
01:31:15,310 --> 01:31:18,560
Like gentle, happy, but casual.
And...
1278
01:31:18,940 --> 01:31:19,980
Menstruation.
1279
01:31:20,480 --> 01:31:21,520
It's gross, Abbie.
1280
01:31:21,730 --> 01:31:25,730
No, it's... it's not gross.
It's a very deep time creatively,
1281
01:31:25,910 --> 01:31:28,370
and it's emotionally transformative.
1282
01:31:29,080 --> 01:31:30,620
And sex during menstruation
1283
01:31:31,330 --> 01:31:33,040
can be very pleasurable for a woman.
1284
01:31:33,200 --> 01:31:36,290
It can even, like,
relieve some of the cramps.
1285
01:31:36,370 --> 01:31:39,540
Jamie, I also wanna say never
have sex with just the vagina.
1286
01:31:39,630 --> 01:31:41,270
You have to have sex
with the whole woman.
1287
01:31:42,920 --> 01:31:44,960
That's slightly off topic
of what I'm talking about.
1288
01:31:45,010 --> 01:31:46,060
You too? You too, William?
1289
01:31:46,130 --> 01:31:47,960
- I mean... Thank you.
- But that's okay.
1290
01:31:48,390 --> 01:31:50,480
The first time that I got my period,
1291
01:31:50,720 --> 01:31:51,760
I was watching
1292
01:31:52,640 --> 01:31:54,100
One That Flew
Over the Cuckoo's Nest
1293
01:31:54,180 --> 01:31:55,220
with some guy.
1294
01:31:55,690 --> 01:31:57,110
And, um...
1295
01:31:57,600 --> 01:31:59,480
Yeah, I just told him
that I had to leave,
1296
01:32:00,190 --> 01:32:03,570
so I went to the market
and I bought a box of tampons,
1297
01:32:03,650 --> 01:32:06,270
and I read the instructions
on the box and I put one in...
1298
01:32:06,490 --> 01:32:08,180
- Julie?
- and I never told my mom about it,
1299
01:32:08,200 --> 01:32:10,500
but she never asked, so it didn't matter.
1300
01:32:11,660 --> 01:32:14,500
And I never saw the end
of the Cuckoo's Nest.
1301
01:32:17,000 --> 01:32:20,260
Jack Nicholson got a lobotomy,
and so the big Indian guy
1302
01:32:20,500 --> 01:32:22,540
smothered him with a pillow
so that he could,
1303
01:32:22,630 --> 01:32:23,760
you know, be free and...
1304
01:32:24,010 --> 01:32:25,490
Okay, let's talk about
something else.
1305
01:32:25,720 --> 01:32:27,140
- Would you mind?
- When I was 14,
1306
01:32:27,220 --> 01:32:28,560
I had sex for the first time.
1307
01:32:28,720 --> 01:32:29,770
Julie!
1308
01:32:29,890 --> 01:32:31,350
Julie, please. You... Honey...
1309
01:32:32,010 --> 01:32:34,800
I decided one night
that I was just gonna lose my virginity.
1310
01:32:35,020 --> 01:32:36,230
I didn't care who it was to.
1311
01:32:36,520 --> 01:32:38,980
- Julie, you gotta calm down.
- Stop it. Let her talk.
1312
01:32:39,230 --> 01:32:41,530
I picked this guy that
I didn't know at a party...
1313
01:32:42,270 --> 01:32:46,400
and we had fairly painful sex in his van.
1314
01:32:46,490 --> 01:32:48,030
It was just parked on the street.
1315
01:32:48,740 --> 01:32:50,410
He just used spit for lubrication.
1316
01:32:53,660 --> 01:32:55,620
I made it home on time
for curfew, though.
1317
01:32:55,790 --> 01:32:58,540
His carpet smelled
like spilled bong water.
1318
01:33:04,210 --> 01:33:05,370
Okay, um...
1319
01:33:06,460 --> 01:33:08,500
let's call it a night. All right?
1320
01:33:08,630 --> 01:33:10,670
Thanks all for coming.
Show's over, girls.
1321
01:33:12,300 --> 01:33:14,010
Thank you so much for coming.
1322
01:33:16,560 --> 01:33:18,230
Jamie, we need to talk.
1323
01:33:18,980 --> 01:33:20,940
There's a lot of stuff happening, right?
1324
01:33:21,600 --> 01:33:25,390
And I just would like to know
what's going on with you.
1325
01:33:26,320 --> 01:33:28,870
I mean, I know this has all been
a lot for us to deal with.
1326
01:33:30,610 --> 01:33:33,280
Mom, I'm dealing
with everything right now.
1327
01:33:33,870 --> 01:33:36,250
You are dealing with nothing.
1328
01:33:49,670 --> 01:33:51,800
I can't believe you told
everyone all that.
1329
01:33:52,930 --> 01:33:54,930
I can say what I want to say.
1330
01:33:57,140 --> 01:33:58,810
They're gonna think you're some...
1331
01:33:59,770 --> 01:34:01,690
They're gonna get
the wrong idea about you.
1332
01:34:01,770 --> 01:34:02,820
What?
1333
01:34:03,350 --> 01:34:04,890
That I'm a slut?
1334
01:34:07,480 --> 01:34:08,850
Is that what you think?
1335
01:34:13,200 --> 01:34:15,370
You can't sleep here anymore...
1336
01:34:16,280 --> 01:34:17,950
and just want to talk.
1337
01:34:22,000 --> 01:34:23,420
Really?
1338
01:34:26,130 --> 01:34:27,550
Yeah.
1339
01:34:31,090 --> 01:34:32,710
Jamie.
1340
01:34:37,930 --> 01:34:39,430
I'm sorry.
1341
01:34:43,690 --> 01:34:46,150
I am sorry, okay?
1342
01:34:50,730 --> 01:34:53,610
Let's... let's just get out of here.
1343
01:34:55,070 --> 01:34:58,700
Let's go up the coast like...
like you said that we would.
1344
01:35:00,870 --> 01:35:01,910
Just the two of us.
1345
01:35:10,750 --> 01:35:11,920
Mom...
1346
01:35:12,880 --> 01:35:14,670
Julie and I took the car.
1347
01:35:16,800 --> 01:35:18,550
We're taking a trip up the coast...
1348
01:35:19,810 --> 01:35:21,560
just to get away.
1349
01:35:22,520 --> 01:35:24,060
You don't need to worry about us.
1350
01:36:22,490 --> 01:36:24,320
Hey, do you think
that you could, um...
1351
01:36:25,620 --> 01:36:27,330
buy us some, like, wine coolers?
1352
01:36:27,960 --> 01:36:29,090
You can keep the change.
1353
01:36:30,080 --> 01:36:32,830
Strawberry or anything berry, really.
1354
01:36:42,810 --> 01:36:43,850
Hi. What's the matter?
1355
01:36:44,220 --> 01:36:45,260
Hi.
1356
01:36:45,560 --> 01:36:47,940
You changed lanes
in the intersection back there.
1357
01:36:48,640 --> 01:36:50,180
Seriously? That's all?
1358
01:36:51,190 --> 01:36:53,320
I need to see your license
and registration.
1359
01:36:54,320 --> 01:36:56,990
Well, what if I don't have my license?
1360
01:36:58,610 --> 01:37:00,720
Okay, well what's your name,
address and date of birth?
1361
01:37:00,740 --> 01:37:01,790
Do you have that?
1362
01:37:01,950 --> 01:37:04,120
You know,
those are very personal questions,
1363
01:37:04,490 --> 01:37:05,530
and we've just met.
1364
01:37:06,450 --> 01:37:09,330
What's your name?
What's your address, right?
1365
01:37:09,420 --> 01:37:11,380
I mean, it's a little forward.
1366
01:37:38,900 --> 01:37:41,360
I, uh, I love you.
1367
01:37:49,370 --> 01:37:50,910
What's wrong?
1368
01:37:51,830 --> 01:37:52,950
Nothing.
1369
01:37:58,050 --> 01:37:59,140
Tell me.
1370
01:38:05,010 --> 01:38:07,720
I think that I'm too close to you...
1371
01:38:08,930 --> 01:38:10,640
to have sex with you.
1372
01:38:13,150 --> 01:38:14,990
I know it's confusing.
1373
01:38:17,020 --> 01:38:18,230
I'm sorry.
1374
01:38:22,990 --> 01:38:24,330
I can...
1375
01:38:25,120 --> 01:38:26,620
I can help you get over that.
1376
01:38:29,870 --> 01:38:31,990
I don't want to get over that.
1377
01:38:34,880 --> 01:38:36,010
Yes, you do.
1378
01:38:37,840 --> 01:38:39,470
You're being like the other guys.
1379
01:38:40,010 --> 01:38:42,220
I don't wanna just have sex with you.
1380
01:38:43,220 --> 01:38:44,350
I want you.
1381
01:38:45,050 --> 01:38:47,050
But it's your version of me.
1382
01:38:49,180 --> 01:38:50,590
It's not me.
1383
01:38:52,810 --> 01:38:54,970
It would be a lot better
if you just wanted sex.
1384
01:38:56,110 --> 01:38:57,820
You are exactly like the other guys.
1385
01:38:58,980 --> 01:39:01,440
You just seem like you're all modern.
1386
01:39:14,370 --> 01:39:15,990
Jamie.
1387
01:39:17,580 --> 01:39:19,040
Jamie.
1388
01:39:19,880 --> 01:39:20,930
Jamie!
1389
01:39:52,040 --> 01:39:54,960
These people have no sense of humor.
1390
01:40:13,020 --> 01:40:15,730
Having a kid seems like...
1391
01:40:17,060 --> 01:40:18,930
the hardest thing.
1392
01:40:20,650 --> 01:40:21,990
Yeah.
1393
01:40:23,530 --> 01:40:25,450
How much you love the kid...
1394
01:40:29,910 --> 01:40:32,460
You're just pretty much screwed.
1395
01:40:44,710 --> 01:40:46,710
- Well, it's good for you.
- Hi. Uh...
1396
01:40:46,800 --> 01:40:47,930
Hey.
1397
01:40:48,840 --> 01:40:50,960
Julie just called me.
They're in San Louis Obispo.
1398
01:40:51,050 --> 01:40:52,380
She doesn't know where he is.
1399
01:40:52,640 --> 01:40:54,020
She can't find him.
1400
01:40:55,180 --> 01:40:57,010
- I... Would you drive me...
- Yes, I will.
1401
01:40:57,270 --> 01:40:58,730
- ...up there?
- Yep. Let's go.
1402
01:40:58,890 --> 01:41:00,560
- Will you come?
- Yes.
1403
01:41:45,110 --> 01:41:46,740
I'm sorry.
1404
01:41:51,570 --> 01:41:53,150
He came back.
1405
01:41:54,280 --> 01:41:55,950
He's right there.
1406
01:41:57,830 --> 01:42:00,210
Okay. Okay.
1407
01:42:04,250 --> 01:42:05,660
It's okay.
1408
01:42:28,440 --> 01:42:29,690
Well...
1409
01:42:30,190 --> 01:42:31,980
Julie's a pretty complicated woman.
1410
01:42:33,160 --> 01:42:34,750
It's a lot to take on,
1411
01:42:35,070 --> 01:42:36,990
but I'm impressed in a way.
1412
01:42:39,200 --> 01:42:40,280
Whatever.
1413
01:42:50,670 --> 01:42:52,040
Aren't you gonna get Julie...
1414
01:42:52,840 --> 01:42:53,960
to come talk with me?
1415
01:42:54,550 --> 01:42:56,050
Jamie!
1416
01:42:56,220 --> 01:42:57,270
What?
1417
01:42:57,720 --> 01:42:59,300
I... I thought they'd help.
1418
01:43:00,770 --> 01:43:04,270
Well, it just seemed like you
couldn't deal with me anymore.
1419
01:43:06,520 --> 01:43:07,890
Look.
1420
01:43:08,690 --> 01:43:12,440
I wanted... I...
I...
1421
01:43:13,280 --> 01:43:14,660
Look, I...
1422
01:43:16,110 --> 01:43:19,200
I don't want you to end up
in the same place as me.
1423
01:43:21,870 --> 01:43:23,330
What does that mean?
1424
01:43:24,370 --> 01:43:26,700
Well, I wanted you to be happier.
1425
01:43:28,880 --> 01:43:32,890
And I just didn't think
I could do it by myself. I...
1426
01:43:36,340 --> 01:43:37,550
Okay.
1427
01:43:39,600 --> 01:43:41,810
I thought we were fine, though,
just me and you.
1428
01:43:48,940 --> 01:43:50,320
Yeah?
1429
01:43:52,690 --> 01:43:54,060
Yeah.
1430
01:44:27,270 --> 01:44:29,070
Okay. Come on.
1431
01:44:29,190 --> 01:44:30,570
Come on. Dance with your mom.
1432
01:45:29,790 --> 01:45:30,830
- Bye.
- Bye.
1433
01:45:31,460 --> 01:45:32,590
Bye.
1434
01:45:34,460 --> 01:45:35,500
- Be safe.
- Bye.
1435
01:45:35,750 --> 01:45:37,460
Bye. Bye.
1436
01:45:47,140 --> 01:45:49,470
So maybe we don't go back yet.
1437
01:45:52,440 --> 01:45:53,490
Okay.
1438
01:46:03,820 --> 01:46:05,900
Were you and Dad ever in love?
1439
01:46:06,580 --> 01:46:08,000
Sure.
1440
01:46:13,500 --> 01:46:15,080
Or, um...
1441
01:46:16,380 --> 01:46:17,430
Maybe I was just...
1442
01:46:19,760 --> 01:46:21,930
I felt I was supposed to be in love.
1443
01:46:23,010 --> 01:46:25,930
Or I was...
1444
01:46:26,140 --> 01:46:28,810
I was scared I'd never be in love...
1445
01:46:30,890 --> 01:46:32,930
so I... I...
1446
01:46:34,520 --> 01:46:37,350
I just picked
the best solution at the time.
1447
01:46:48,330 --> 01:46:49,960
I wanna bleach my hair.
1448
01:46:50,540 --> 01:46:53,500
Kid... really?
1449
01:46:54,420 --> 01:46:55,840
Yeah.
1450
01:47:04,380 --> 01:47:05,760
Okay.
1451
01:47:10,930 --> 01:47:12,430
Are you lonely?
1452
01:47:13,690 --> 01:47:14,730
Well...
1453
01:47:15,520 --> 01:47:18,600
I might marry Bogart in my next life.
1454
01:47:19,070 --> 01:47:20,110
We'll see.
1455
01:47:20,320 --> 01:47:21,360
I'm thinking about it.
1456
01:47:22,570 --> 01:47:24,490
Uh, he's dead.
1457
01:47:25,740 --> 01:47:27,250
Well...
1458
01:47:27,870 --> 01:47:29,160
This is my next life, right?
1459
01:47:30,160 --> 01:47:31,570
So...
1460
01:47:32,620 --> 01:47:33,660
he may be there.
1461
01:47:33,750 --> 01:47:36,960
He may be around
and we might meet and...
1462
01:47:38,290 --> 01:47:40,790
something might happen between us.
1463
01:47:42,380 --> 01:47:44,540
Okay, um...
1464
01:47:45,430 --> 01:47:47,270
you can't have it in the real world?
1465
01:47:47,890 --> 01:47:50,020
Hey. This is no time
to be rational, sweetie.
1466
01:47:50,890 --> 01:47:52,060
Can you just go with this?
1467
01:47:53,520 --> 01:47:54,560
Yeah. Keep going.
1468
01:47:55,190 --> 01:47:56,570
Okay.
1469
01:47:57,480 --> 01:47:59,110
So he... he knows what I'm thinking,
1470
01:48:00,980 --> 01:48:02,980
and he makes me laugh...
1471
01:48:04,190 --> 01:48:06,650
and he really sees me...
1472
01:48:07,990 --> 01:48:11,830
and you know that he's gonna
do what he says he's gonna do,
1473
01:48:11,910 --> 01:48:14,450
so that's easy.
1474
01:48:15,410 --> 01:48:17,240
He sounds nice.
1475
01:48:18,540 --> 01:48:19,580
Yeah.
1476
01:48:27,300 --> 01:48:28,530
I thought that was just the beginning
1477
01:48:28,550 --> 01:48:30,170
of a new relationship with her...
1478
01:48:32,180 --> 01:48:34,390
where she'd really tell me stuff...
1479
01:48:36,770 --> 01:48:39,530
but maybe it was
never really like that again.
1480
01:48:41,270 --> 01:48:42,940
Maybe that was it.
1481
01:48:44,690 --> 01:48:46,560
In March of 1999,
1482
01:48:47,150 --> 01:48:49,440
I'll start to feel tired and confused.
1483
01:48:50,570 --> 01:48:52,070
When I finally go to the doctor,
1484
01:48:52,330 --> 01:48:54,120
he will say that the cancer
in my lungs
1485
01:48:54,910 --> 01:48:58,790
had already traveled
to my breast and brain.
1486
01:48:59,460 --> 01:49:02,340
I'll try to teach Jamie
what to do with my stocks,
1487
01:49:02,420 --> 01:49:06,140
but my instructions will be
impossible to understand.
1488
01:49:11,930 --> 01:49:13,600
See you later.
1489
01:49:20,020 --> 01:49:23,060
Abbie will take me
to Planned Parenthood...
1490
01:49:23,860 --> 01:49:25,780
and I will go on the pill.
1491
01:49:29,780 --> 01:49:31,790
I will go to NYU
1492
01:49:31,870 --> 01:49:33,870
and lose touch with Jamie
and Dorothea...
1493
01:49:35,700 --> 01:49:38,070
and I will stop talking to my mom.
1494
01:49:39,620 --> 01:49:41,330
I will fall in love with Nicholas...
1495
01:49:42,540 --> 01:49:44,460
and we'll move to Paris...
1496
01:49:45,590 --> 01:49:47,300
and choose not to have children.
1497
01:49:49,590 --> 01:49:51,920
I will stay in Santa Barbara.
1498
01:49:52,430 --> 01:49:54,100
In just two years,
I'll marry Dave.
1499
01:49:56,060 --> 01:49:57,350
A month after I get married,
1500
01:49:58,430 --> 01:50:00,350
Carlotta will die.
1501
01:50:02,650 --> 01:50:06,360
A week later, Max will die, too.
1502
01:50:07,860 --> 01:50:09,530
I will work out of my garage
1503
01:50:09,610 --> 01:50:12,480
and show in local galleries.
1504
01:50:13,700 --> 01:50:15,040
Against my doctor's advice,
1505
01:50:15,530 --> 01:50:16,570
I will get pregnant.
1506
01:50:17,540 --> 01:50:18,580
By the time I'm 34,
1507
01:50:19,370 --> 01:50:20,410
I'll have two boys.
1508
01:50:25,250 --> 01:50:27,790
I'll live with
Dorothea for another year...
1509
01:50:30,130 --> 01:50:34,590
and then I'll open a pottery store
in Sedona, Arizona.
1510
01:50:37,560 --> 01:50:39,560
I'll marry Laurie, a singer-songwriter.
1511
01:50:40,560 --> 01:50:42,320
We'll get divorced in a year.
1512
01:50:43,100 --> 01:50:44,220
Then I'll meet Sandy...
1513
01:50:45,520 --> 01:50:47,140
and continue to do my pottery.
1514
01:50:50,360 --> 01:50:52,650
My mom will meet Jim in 1983.
1515
01:50:54,160 --> 01:50:56,000
They will stay a couple
until she dies.
1516
01:50:57,580 --> 01:50:58,790
On her birthday each year,
1517
01:50:59,700 --> 01:51:02,620
he will buy her a trip on a biplane.
1518
01:51:05,250 --> 01:51:07,620
Years after she's gone,
I will finally get married
1519
01:51:07,710 --> 01:51:09,540
and have a son.
1520
01:51:11,340 --> 01:51:12,550
I will try to explain to him
1521
01:51:12,920 --> 01:51:15,090
what his grandmother was like...
1522
01:51:16,590 --> 01:51:17,970
but it will be impossible.
1523
01:51:26,650 --> 01:51:29,280
♪ You must remember this ♪
1524
01:51:29,650 --> 01:51:31,700
♪ A kiss is still a kiss ♪
1525
01:51:31,780 --> 01:51:35,660
♪ A sigh is just a sigh ♪
1526
01:51:36,530 --> 01:51:39,450
♪ The fundamental things apply ♪
1527
01:51:39,740 --> 01:51:44,240
♪ As time goes by ♪
1528
01:51:45,170 --> 01:51:47,380
♪ And when two lovers woo ♪
1529
01:51:47,750 --> 01:51:49,210
♪ They still say I love you ♪
1530
01:51:49,840 --> 01:51:52,970
♪ On that you can rely ♪
1531
01:51:53,760 --> 01:51:57,100
♪ No matter what the future brings ♪
1532
01:51:57,260 --> 01:52:01,890
♪ As time goes by ♪
1533
01:52:03,100 --> 01:52:06,190
♪ Moonlight and love songs
never out of date ♪
1534
01:52:06,600 --> 01:52:09,560
♪ Hearts full of passion
jealousy and hate ♪
1535
01:52:09,810 --> 01:52:14,440
♪ Woman needs man
and man must have his mate ♪
1536
01:52:14,610 --> 01:52:19,530
♪ That no one can deny ♪
1537
01:52:20,330 --> 01:52:23,080
♪ It's still the same old story ♪
1538
01:52:23,160 --> 01:52:25,530
♪ A fight for love and glory ♪
1539
01:52:25,830 --> 01:52:27,950
♪ A case of do or die ♪
1540
01:52:29,920 --> 01:52:31,590
♪ The world will always welcome...
1541
01:52:54,280 --> 01:52:59,290
♪ Well it seems so real I can see it ♪
1542
01:52:59,910 --> 01:53:04,790
♪ And it seems so real I can feel it ♪
1543
01:53:05,370 --> 01:53:10,330
♪ And it seems so real I can taste it ♪
1544
01:53:11,130 --> 01:53:16,800
♪ And it seems so real I can hear it ♪
1545
01:53:17,090 --> 01:53:22,420
♪ So why ♪
1546
01:53:22,510 --> 01:53:25,090
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1547
01:53:28,310 --> 01:53:33,650
♪ So why ♪
1548
01:53:33,730 --> 01:53:35,940
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1549
01:53:44,370 --> 01:53:49,040
♪ Then it looks so real I can see it ♪
1550
01:53:50,080 --> 01:53:55,210
♪ And it feels so real I can feel it ♪
1551
01:53:55,960 --> 01:54:00,710
♪ And it tastes so real I can taste it ♪
1552
01:54:01,680 --> 01:54:07,270
♪ And it sounds so real I can hear it ♪
1553
01:54:07,430 --> 01:54:12,640
♪ So why ♪
1554
01:54:12,730 --> 01:54:15,070
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1555
01:54:18,860 --> 01:54:23,650
♪ So why ♪
1556
01:54:23,740 --> 01:54:25,860
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1557
01:54:46,100 --> 01:54:51,150
♪ Then it looks so real I can feel it ♪
1558
01:54:51,930 --> 01:54:56,680
♪ And it feels so real I can taste it ♪
1559
01:54:57,900 --> 01:55:01,950
♪ And it tastes so real I can hear it ♪
1560
01:55:03,240 --> 01:55:07,460
♪ And it sounds so real I can see it ♪
1561
01:55:09,370 --> 01:55:14,500
♪ So why ♪
1562
01:55:14,580 --> 01:55:16,870
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1563
01:55:20,300 --> 01:55:25,350
♪ So why ♪
1564
01:55:25,430 --> 01:55:27,560
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1565
01:56:15,270 --> 01:56:20,190
♪ Now it is so real I can see it ♪
1566
01:56:20,980 --> 01:56:25,480
♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪
1567
01:56:26,530 --> 01:56:31,410
♪ And it is so real I can hear it ♪
1568
01:56:32,080 --> 01:56:37,090
♪ And it is so real I can feel it ♪
1569
01:56:38,080 --> 01:56:42,870
♪ So why ♪
1570
01:56:42,960 --> 01:56:45,460
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪
1571
01:56:49,010 --> 01:56:53,890
♪ So why ♪
1572
01:56:53,970 --> 01:56:56,600
♪ Can't I touch it? ♪