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Now those are beautiful eyes.

'Kay, blue eyes, look straight ahead.

That's good.

Alright.

How's Emily? She must be, what, two now?

Twenty-two months. She's amazing. I'm so in love with her.

- I know the feeling. - How's Samantha?

She's great. She's still pulling down straight A's.

And she gets more beautiful every day. It's just amazing.

They're perfect, aren't they?

You never want them to grow up.

No, you don't. You don't.

Will you just try to read this with your right eye?

Okay.

Z. C. S. R. H. N...

Okay, here's the hard part.

...so she screams into the phone, 'My husband's passed out!

I don't know what to do! I can't wake him up! '

And the operator asks, 'Well, what happened, ma'am? '

So she's mortified but she figures she's got to tell the truth, right?

So she says in this really panicky little voice,'I was giving him a blow job. '

So she just keeps on going, she's like 'I guess I'm just really good at it.

I got these lips, they're really spongy. '

And she goes on for five minutes describing her technique to the operator!

- I can't believe you did that. - I had to! She deserved it

- Hey, guys! - She was a witch.

- Please, guys! - Oh, no! Hannah! Not again!

- C'mon, not again... - Please... Please...

Okay, okay...

You want spongy lips, baby?

- Hey, Mrs. Marris. - Hi, Amelia. Taylor. Boys.

Hi.

Is Sam home?

Yeah, she's doing her homework.

Actually, we came by to pick her up to study.

It's getting a little close to dinnertime.

Just for a couple of hours, we promise.

We get way more done in a group.

Okay, one sec, one second...

Sam?

Sam?!

- Sam? - What?

- Why is your door locked? - Privacy.

You're studying with the music this loud?

Is that what you came up here to ask me about?

No. Your friends are downstairs.

Oh, cool.

Honey, dinner's at seven.

Really? I never knew that.

Why is the most beautiful woman in the world in my kitchen?

Turn around.

Not until you say it.

That's fine, I can work back here.

You know I will.

I've looked into fifteen pairs of eyes today.

But my day doesn't begin until I look into yours.

Hey, Sam honey. How was your day, sweetheart?

Same as every other day.

Can you help out with dinner before you go upstairs?

What am I, a housewife?

Sam, that's no way to talk to your mother.

Sorry. I have homework. Can I go upstairs?

- That's you. - Me?

- That's you. - No, it's not.

- Oh, yeah, that's you. - No, it's not. I hope not.

That's you about twenty years ago.

Jesus!

Can I sleep over at Taylor's tomorrow night?

Again?

I want to hang out with her before we leave.

Yeah, you gotta pack, though.

I'll do it tomorrow morning.

And your room...

I mean, can you just try and clean your room just a little bit?

- Are you done? - Yeah, yeah, thank you.

- Dad? Can I? - Here, take your mom's.

Please, please, can I?

I don't know, she's got to get ready for the trip.

It's been a while since we had a night alone together.

That's true.

Do you promise or do you really promise?

I really promise.

Can we trust her?

I think so.

Promise you'll get everything done.

Swear.

All right.

Okay, thank you.

Yes, get going.

I need you home by nine tomorrow morning.

Yes, I know.

How about a kiss?

- No. - Why?

Because it's embarrassing.

Why? There's no one else here.

Mom, I'm sixteen and you still think I'm ten.

I didn't realize you're too old to kiss your mother.

Yeah, well, I am.

Okay... Just a little kiss?

Happy?

Hey, hon... I think...

What is that?

Don't look, don't look... Turn...

Close your eyes. Look straight ahead.

- What's this? - You've seen nothing.

Hoping that is dinner.

- C'mon... Come this way. - Okay.

When did you learn to do all this?

Well, I've been married to a great cook for seventeen years so...

I picked up a few things.

It smells good!

Look at this...

Oh, my God!

Well, I don't know how this all happened.

I gotta get the mail, I came back in and all this stuff was here.

Just like this, I don't know.

Shit, my chicken!

It's so beautiful, honey.

Yeah, I was four months pregnant then.

Yeah, and you send me out

into the streets of Provence at four in the morning,

second night of our honeymoon, to find you a roast beef on rye.

And all they have, all they have is like tongue or brains.

- That's all they have. - Tongue or brains, what difference!

Well, I was a desperate man.

I knew if I didn't come home with big hunk of meat...

I wasn't going to get any for the rest of the trip.

What do you see, Dr. Marris?

It's a little dark but...

I see...

the first and last woman I'll ever love.

Come with me.

You're the best.

Thank you so much. Such a sweet thing.

I don't know...

Right here.

She looks exhausted.

Oh, yeah, I bet she didn't sleep last night. She can nap in the car.

- But you can't. - Yeah, I'll get some coffee.

Your lips are spongy... I love you too.

- I'm sorry, sweety. Sorry, darling. - Call me when you get there.

Have a nice weekend.

Okay.

You be good, kid.

I'm not a kid.

That's right, you're not. You're not a kid. I'm bad.

- My bad. It's my bad. - Oh, it's my bad. My bad.

- Goodbye. - Peace out. Peace.

Word. Word out.

Mom! Are you taking my picture?

I already told you, I hate it when you take my picture.

Why don't you listen to me?

Oh, honey, it was just one shot.

You're an amateur.

You take pictures of buildings, of cows, of nothing.

When are you going to do something real?

What?

Can we talk?

Why do you constantly have to talk about everything?

I just want to know what's going on with you.

Why you're acting this way?

I want things to be better between us, Sam.

Yeah, well, it's never going to happen.

So just get over it.

Why am I the bad guy?

You don't treat your father like this.

Because he's not on my back all the time.

He treats me like an adult.

No, he spoils you. And you're not an adult.

Well, I'm not a baby either.

- Someone has to put their foot down... - Mom, I can take care of myself, okay?

Jesus.

I...

Look, just don't be mad at me because I care about you.

I love you.

Yeah, well... maybe a little bit too much.

Mom... Mom! Look out!

Marris. Hannah and Samantha Marris!

M... A... R... R... I... S!

Um, second floor.

Hannah?

She opened her eyes.

Hannah! You're in the hospital.

Do you remember you were in an accident?

I'm going to remove your breathing tube.

I need you to blow out.

- Now. - Breathe out.

- Deep breaths. - Hannah, breathe out.

That's it.

Cough! Cough!

Hannah...

What's... What's happened?

I don't...

- It'll be okay, baby. - What's happened?

- You had an accident. - An accident?

- You had a car accident. - A car accident?

- Where's Sam? - Sam's fine.

What happened to Sam?

She's right here.

Oh, Sam! Oh, Sam!

- I'm so sorry. - It's not your fault.

- I'm so sorry. - It's not your fault.

I didn't know, I didn't see... I didn't see it.

It's gonna be okay. I love you.

- I didn't see it. - I love you.

I love you.

She's crashing!

Sam... Bring me closer... Bring me closer...

Sam!

- Quick! Bring the... - Give me her hand.

- What? - Give me her hand!

- Sir... - Give me her hand.

Sam!

Sam!

Sam! Sam! Sam!

Get another doctor in here! Now!

Sam! Sam!

- Paddles... - The mother's collapsing.

Paddles...

Hurry up, set the dopamine drip right open.

Get her around high epi, pulse...

Get those paddles ready.

Charge 200...

One... Two...

All clear!

Charge 300! All clear!

Charging.

Charging 200! Clear!

Paddles! Clear! Charge 200!

Charge to 260! Everyone clear! Charging!

Piece of patch on her right now. Chest Compression.

She's not capturing. She's throwing PBC.

Chest Compression.

Come on...

Let's call it.

5:52?

So sorry... We did everything we could.

Doctor, she's got a pulse!

- Hold that. - We've got a rythm.

OK. Let's move it to the ICU.

Keep ventilating her.

Sam?

Sam?

How's Sam?

How are you feeling?

- Where's Sam? - What? What?

Where's Sam? Where is she?

My voice sounds different.

You sound like you.

You sound like Sam.

Sam...

I gotta...

I gotta tell you something.

Oh, Sam... Your mother died, Sam.

- My mother died? - Yeah.

My mom died... Oh, God.

In the accident.

My mother lives in Boston.

Your grandmother lives in Boston, Sam, your grandmother.

Why do you keep calling me Sam?

Because that's your name, honey.

Oh my...

Do you hurt? What's wrong?

Those are not... I need to see a mirror...

I need to see a mirror...

Oh, I got this stuff for you from home.

I need to see a mirror. That's not my hand.

You have some bruises.

- Oh, God... Oh, God... - You're okay.

Oh, God!

- Sam! - It's not me!

- Sam! - It's not me!

Honey! Honey! Stop that!

What happened to me?

Where's my daugther?

Sam!

What happened to me? What happened?

Where's my daughter?

We've already ruled out a traumatic brain injury with the CAT scans.

Physically, she's okay.

What can it be then?

It could be anything from an extreme case

of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder to delirium even.

But my guess is that this is simply a case

of temporary mental dysfunction. She's confused.

Temporary?

Mr. Marris, your daughterjust went through an extremely traumatic ordeal,

the accident and the death of her mother.

Sometimes it's just too much for the mind to handle.

I'm very, very sorry, sir, about your wife. Take care.

Sam, want me to make something for?

Our first date...

You took me to see The Cure at Jones Beach and afterwards,

we sat by the water for four hours and kissed.

When you dropped me off you told me that

no one had ever looked at you the way I look at you. '

I saw my entire future that night.

And next day I could smell your Ralph Lauren cologne on me.

And it's still my favorite smell.

Did your mother tell you that?

Ben, this is me. Hannah. Your wife.

And I don't know where our daughter is.

Yeah...

Daddy, daddy...

Hey, Sam. Sssh.

What the hell?

You're cooking.

I hope spinach and mushroom's okay, it's all I had...

You don't cook.

Sit.

You had a nightmare last night. You were talking in your sleep.

I was? What did I say?

You called out for your Daddy. You called out for me.

You sounded like you did when you were a little girl.

Daddy? I said 'Daddy'?

Was it me? Was it my voice? Did it sound like...

Sure, it sounded like you, Sam.

She must be in here somewhere.

If I called out 'Daddy' then there was... It was her.

Honey, I think you're confused because of the accident.

What you're talking about is impossible.

You have a two-inch mole on your right thigh.

It's shaped kind of like a peanut and we measured it once with a ruler.

And you sneak a cigarette when you drink.

And you like it when I rub your back until you fall asleep at night.

And... And your day doesn't begin until you come home

and you look me in the eyes and you say it.

It's not proof. That's not proof.

Somebody could have told you that.

Your mother could have told you that... Your mother told...

Your mother could have told you that.

Ben, come in here.

Ben!

What do you see, Dr. Marris? What do you see?

What the fuck... Cut it out! I want you to stop right now, okay!

I'm terrified, I'm so scared but I'm not crazy,

and I'm not confused and I'm not delirious and I'm not mentally ill.

Something has happened to me and I don't know what it is

and I need you to believe me because it's true.

I can't even begin to try to comprehend

what you're trying to tell me!

All I know is that we're going to my wife's funeral this morning!

That much is true!

Oh my God, what am I going to tell my family and my friends and?

I don't know what happened but it's true and you have to believe me.

Sam...

Stop calling me that!

Neither of us have any real idea of what's going on.

But the doctor said it was temporary. So I think we wait.

Look at me... Until then, we keep this a secret, okay?

Between us. No exceptions.

Now, into God's keeping,

we commend our sister Hannah, here departed.

We commit her body to the ground.

Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust...

Trusting in God's great mercy.

Grant Hannah eternal rest, O Lord,

and let light perpetual shine upon her.

May her soul and the souls of all the departed,

through your divine mercy,

rest in peace. Amen.

Oh, Sam, darling, there are some friends of yours outside.

Friends?

- Hey! - Sam...

We're really sorry about your mom. I mean it's...

Got you some shit.

- What? - I knew you'd need it.

Maybe we should go smoke out in the car, huh?

Give it to me. I'll do it. I'll light it for you.

- You okay? - You fucked the car!

You all right?

Just off...

Here...

No.

- All right... - You sure?

Hey, so you got your wish, huh?

What?

Well, she's gone. Forever. It came true. Ow!

Show some fucking tact, asshole.

Who's a fucking asshole?

She's...

- I have to go, I'm sorry. - Sam...

- Well, wait. Do you want us to like? - I didn't mean it like...

Thanks. Good fucking job! Well done.

Sam!

Honey...

I'm so happy to see you.

You have no idea I'm so sorry.

I can't even imagine what you're going through.

You have no idea.

You can call us anytime if you need anything.

Thank you. I know I can always count on you guys.

I mean... thanks.

Sam, are you all right?

I can't do this alone.

Sam's friends just came over here to smoke pot with her on the porch.

And if she was there, she would have been smoking pot with them, too.

- You're smoking pot? - No, I'm not smoking pot!

And she has a tattoo on her ass. Did you know that?

It says 'Justin'. Who is Justin?

And she told her friends she wished I was dead.

Why would she say something like that, I...

- Teenagers say things like that... - That's my daughter!

I would never have said anything like that when I was sixteen.

- No, you wouldn't have. - She has a tattoo...

You believe me?

Yeah, I do.

Where is she?

I don't know, but we're gonna find out, I promise.

Excuse me...

May I help you?

Yeah, I'm looking for information on...

I don't know exactly how to put this...

transference or possession?

- Excuse me... - Things of that nature.

You mean, like, demonic?

No. More like... spiritual.

In a small African village, a woman was in a coma

after a serious illness and she miraculously revived.

When did this happen?

About ten years ago.

But when she woke up, she said she was someone else,

a young girl who had died that same day

in a village over a hundred miles away.

The woman knew intimate details, everything about the young girl's life.

Were they from the same family?

As far as I was able to determine, the two were complete strangers.

I mean, no connection between them whatsoever.

The woman recovered from her illness but retained the girl's personality.

Seven years?

That's how long I'm supposed to live like this? Seven years!

I have no idea.

- I wish I were dead. - Don't say that. Do not say that!

Listen to what we're saying.

What are we even talking about here?

I still think it's physical, it has to be...

It's not physical!

An undetected case of temporal lobe seizure or

abnormal electrical activity in the brain...

I think there's a medical explanation for what you're dealing with.

Where is she?

Is she sleeping?

Is she still here?

And if she is, does that mean

one of us is going to disappear completely?

What do I have to do to get her back?

I think we have to be patient.

I think we have to wait for Sam to come back.

And I think you need to take care of yourself for her.

And I think you need to go back to school in Sam's place.

We need to take care of her life for her,

so it's there for her when she returns, you agree?

Yeah...

What's wrong?

You know, Ben, I haven't been to school

in like twenty years, I don't...

You always did great in school.

But Sam's in all honors classes and I didn't even go to college.

But that was a choice you made.

It's not because you weren't smart enough.

That was a conscious decision.

I don't know about that.

I do. I remember.

Don't make excuses, I don't want you coming home

with anything less than an A minus.

Fuck you.

I'm fucking so freaked out.

You went through her books? You know all the classes she's taking.

You definitely look the part.

That's all that matters, right?

It is.

You're going to be fine. Now, go.

Okay... Jesus.

Hey, Sam,

don't do drugs.

That's my girl.

Hey, who are you and what did you do with Sam?

What up with the floods, sista?

- You smokin' the chronic again? - It's not good for you... Don't do that!

- Yeah, cos we getjealous. - That's right, we getjealous.

No. It's not good for you.

Where's my locker?

Oh, my God. I'm going to pee...

I'm gonna do my pants! That's too funny.

- Sam! That's so excellent... - Are you all right beneath all your hair?

That's so excellent... Come...

Come on.

'Where's my locker? '

I gotta go, but I'll see you later. Be good!

Did you smoke seriously?

- Sam, it's this one. - Oh, God...

Do you know what my combo is?

Isn't it your dad's birthday?

- Right! - Yeah...

Dad's birthday...

I missed you, so don't be late, all right, I need those notes.

Okay...

Ian!

You like having my name on your ass?

Now, you're mine and every other guy you fuck is gonna know it.

I'm married! What the fuck! Who are you?

So, that's the game you wanna play, huh?

What the fuck are you doing?

All right, all right, you're a desperate housewife.

- Every afternoon... - Get off me!

...we go to a motel and I fuck your brains out.

You've never had dick this good or this hard in your life...

- What is your problem? - What's my problem?

You liked playing with me before!

Stay away from me, don't touch me again, okay?

Sam...

I'm sorry, can you just excuse me a moment?

You can relax, I'll just be one second.

I'll get the phone right here.

- Hello? - Hi, it's me.

I can't do this,

- Honey, calm down. Calm down. - Someone's gonna find out.

What happened?

I was at my locker

and these kids are so young but they act like they're old.

And they're not and they're having sex.

What? You're having sex?

Yes, I'm having sex with more than one person, I think.

Jesus Christ!

Are you okay?

No, no, I...

Let me... I'm gonna come down there.

I'm gonna come down and pick you up. I'll be down in like ten minutes.

- I've gotta go, I've got class. - No, just hold...

That was my daughter.

Sorry, that was my dad.

Tara Corbett.

Hi, Tara, Miss Corbett. This is Ben, Ben Marris. I called earlier today.

Yes, hi.

Sam just called me, she's very upset

and I was just wondering if maybe you could take a look at her,

- look on her, check up on her. - Don't worry.

I'll go find her and call you back.

Thank you.

Samantha!

Sam?

Honey, are you okay?

I just wanted to see how your first day back was going.

I know how overwhelming this must be, coming back so soon.

I think you're so brave.

I just want you to know that I'm here for you as a friend.

If there's anything I can do, you just ask, okay?

Who are you again?

I'm Tara.

I'm your guidance counselor.

- Okay... - Right.

Well, thank you, I appreciate the...

That's what I'm here for.

Thank you.

She used my birthday...

I just wanted to call and thank you, for today.

It really helps to know that there's somebody there looking after her.

You're very welcome. That's what I'm here for.

That's great. Okay, I'll...

I'm really glad you called, Ben.

Well, thank you. I thank you. We'll speak soon.

Hey, it's just me.

No, it's not, though.

Why don't we pop in a DVD tonight, huh, like we used to?

I have homework.

Today started off pretty bad and just got worse...

My friend Carol is having a party. I'm really excited to go...

I can't believe Mom and Dad made me move to this horrible place.

How could they do this to me?

It's so incredibly selfish, there are no words.

I have no control, no say. I'm at their mercy and it blows.

How could they ever think this boring little nothing of a town

would be better than Boston?

...the slope of a curve at a point

is the slope of its tangent line at that point,

defined as the limit of the slopes of the secant lines...

I feel like the biggest freak on the planet.

I don't know a single person in this school.

They're all probably stupid drug addicts anyway.

No one will even look at me.

Little by little, I'm going to disappear into thin air

until I become completely, one hundred percent invisible.

What's wrong? You seem out of it.

I'm just tired.

Look, I know you've been through a lot

but I don't want to see your chances of getting into a top college go away.

College?

We've had this discussion.

You can get into an Ivy League school.

Your PSAT scores prove it.

But you have to maintain your grades.

I'm not going to coddle you like the rest of your teachers.

Okay, thank you.

Also, what's up with your handwriting?

What?

You're not printing anymore. The essay's in script.

Oh... I changed my handwriting? I didn't like it.

I thought it was kind of... childish, so I started writing differently.

No reason. Okay, see you tomorrow.

Yeah.

I miss you.

Well, what are you... What are we doing?

I'm getting some dirty looks.

- Fuck 'em. - That's nice.

Is that what they teach you at school?

We can't.

Speaking of school,

there's a party happening in a couple of weeks.

- Party happening? - Yeah! Party happening.

Some kid's parents are going out of town, you know, typical...

But you're not going to go, right?

Yeah, I'm gonna go. Sam would go, so...

Well, maybe I'll come with you.

- I don't think so. - I think so. I'll just show...

I'm not going to bring my father to a party with me, thank you.

No.

I wanted that, you know.

I needed that.

You gotta be careful. You're drinking a lot.

You're drinking like a fish. Like a frat boy.

It's the rebellious thing. Comes with the body.

I have to pee. I'll be right back.

Sam...

Sam...

Sam...

Dad...

Hannah...

Yeah.

Tara Corbett is here. New patient.

Hi.

Hi...

These photographs in the hall... They're beautiful. Who took them?

Um... My wife.

Oh, she was a photographer?

Well, yeah... Not professionally, but yes.

I'm very sorry about what happened.

How can I help you?

I think I might need glasses.

Oh, well, you've come to the right place.

I've been putting it off for a while so...

Yeah, everybody does. Nobody wants to come to see me.

I think it's time.

Well, have a seat. Come on...

Now, er...

No, I'll take your money later.

He's just finishing up with a patient.

Why don't you stick your head in? I'm sure he won't mind.

Okay, thank you.

Okay, open wide and look straight ahead.

Straight ahead...

Straight ahead... Come a little closer.

There you go. Wide. Right there.

You're missing a button.

What?

Oh... Yeah...

Hannah?

So, do you interact with all of your female patients that way?

- What? - Don't play dumb, okay!

It's not attractive.

She's Sam's... She's your guidance counselor...

Yes, yes, I know that.

Thank you by the way for siccing her on me when I was at school.

I met with her on your first day back to try to smooth things over.

And then I called her after you called me, hysterical.

- She's been very helpful. - Yeah, I bet she has been.

Then she came in for glasses. End of story.

I saw the way that you looked at her. I saw it.

You betrayed our trust after twenty years.

Jesus, isn't that a little extreme?

Don't talk to me about extreme, okay.

Nothing happened.

Fuck you.

Jesus, you're insane! I told you! Nothing happened!

Yeah, but you considered it, didn't you?

I'm married. I love my wife.

- And where is your wife? - Standing right in front of me.

But you can't have sex with her?

No. And I don't think I ever will again

since her body is six feet underground.

That's your third one.

Yeah, so?

You think drinking is going to help you forget?

That's the idea.

You're pathetic.

I don't know what the hell I'm supposed to do.

You've got a thirty-six year old wife

in the perfect body of a sixteen year old.

I'm like every man's wet dream.

And how many have you had?

Two... three... I lost count...

Dance with me. Please.

Sometimes I hate getting good grade.

It's so overrated.

It's not like I'm a genius or anything, either.

It's just the stuff comes easily to me.

At Winsor, everyone cared about their grades

and no one looked at you like you were a leper if you got straight A's.

But here, most of the kids don't give a shit about school.

And the teachers don't seem to care.

All they do is keep telling these shitty students how wonderful they are.

And they stick me in honors classes,

so everyone hates me even more than

they already do if that's even possible.

It's totally uncool to be smart here.

The only thing people care about is being popular.

You sure you want to go in there by yourself?

Yeah.

I'll pick you up later.

No... I'll get a ride.

No, I'll pick you up. It's no sweat.

No. I'll get a ride.

Hey, you forgot your coat.

- I'll be fine. - It's cold.

Goodnight. Goodbye.

Oh my God! Baby girl!

Hey, you see my man? He's hot, huh?

Fuck that... Come on!

Stay here.

You came! It's so good!

I'm so happy you're here. It's crazy!

Wow! Look at her go!

I know!

What is that?

I don't know! Grain alcohol and something!

If I drink this I'm gonna get wasted!

Exactly! Now drink!

Okay.

Get away from me, I don't want to talk to...

Listen, listen, listen...

Listen, I just wanted to say sorry

for freaking out that day by the locker.

I should have been more sensitive about your mom and stuff.

But I mean I want things to be the way they were before.

I miss you. I want to be with you.

- Okay, stop it. - What is your problem?

I can't do this, okay. Whatever we had before...

So you're cutting it off?

...is definitely over. Sorry... - Just like that?

You know, I thought...

you were different from all the other losers here, Sam!

I thought you were a risk-taker. I thought you were different.

Where you been?

At that party.

You been drinking?

A little.

That smells like more than a little.

I'm exhausted. I'm going to bed.

Yeah, from partying?

Why are you talking to me like this?

- Like how? - Like a child.

What else were you doing there?

Talking. Dancing. Drinking...

And?

And what? What are you asking me?

I can't deal with this right now, okay. I'm going to bed.

I'm talking to you like a child because you're acting like one.

I'm not a child!

I'm looking for my child!

Do you realize that we had no idea who she was?

Maybe that's why she's gone, Ben.

Maybe she just wanted us to understand her.

And maybe this is what I have to do to get her back.

You know what, you trusted her more than you trust me.

That is not true.

Yes, it is. You never used to interrogate her

when she came home in the middle of the night.

That's because you were always the one that did that.

Who do you see standing in front of you?! Who? Tell me!

Stop asking me that, I don't know. I don't know!

So you want me to live our daughter's life but according to your rules?

Do you remember what it was like to feel happy

and sad and horny all in the same second?

Do you know what this is like for me

to have all these hormones raging through my body all the time?

I'm notjust living Sam's life,

I'm feeling it only I can't fucking get laid! And I'm married!

I know the fucking feeling!

And no more parties for you, you hear me? No more!

What am I, a prisoner in my own house?

Asshole!

I came here because I can't talk to you at home.

You understand.

I just feel like I'm losing you.

Again.

And I don't know what to do about that.

I need your help.

Can you help me?

Please, everyone, welcome our newest member,

Samantha Marris.

Okay, we really need to focus on the student life section

so I need everyone to shoot as much film as

they can over the next month.

The shots should be candid, okay?

Our goal is to get a picture of every student in the school,

so start with your friends if you want,

and then you can go from there.

We'll meet next week,

see what we've got, and then assign the rest.

Now, this is where you can show me your perspective,

how you see your life as a high school student.

Capture on film something you've never been able to verbalize.

Okay? See you next week.

What are you doing?

You scared me.

Sorry. What's that?

Sam's diary.

You're writing in it?

Let me take a look.

No, it's personal.

So I was thinking...

I need to start figuring out where I'm going to apply to college.

You would really go?

Don't you think I have to?

Well, Williams is an excellent school

and you could stay at home and go there.

Yeah, but I think Sam was aiming for Ivy League.

I think Williams is just as good as any of those.

Yeah.

This isn'tjust about Sam, is it?

Ben...

I always put you and Sam first and I never put myself first.

I gave up my education so that you could have yours, which was fine.

But now I'm getting a second chance.

Are you saying that you have regrets?

No...

No, of course not,

but everything is different now.

Oh, yeah.

That's great but you might want to crop it here next time...

- Sort of bring it up... Yeah. - Okay.

Are you fucking crazy?

You're not going to make me feel stupid!

I didn't do that on purpose, I swear.

Yeah, I mean... I absolutely love your pictures.

They have a very distinctive point of view. You're talented.

You really think so?

Yeah, and I want you to help me edit the student life section.

Can you meet me after school tomorrow?

Don't take a picture of me, I look like ass today.

You look like ass every day.

So don't get why you're doing the shit. You freak.

Arrgh, more class.

Hey, excuse me... Excuse me, I'm Ben Marris. Samantha's father.

- Yeah, I know. Yeah. - You are?

- Ethan. - Ethan, right...

Right, Ethan. I just wanted to talk to you about Samantha.

- What about her? - I just wanted to know what she's...

You know, how she's doing? How's she doing?

- She's fine. - Yeah?

- Yeah. - Is she dating anyone?

- I don't know... - Is she doing drugs?

Look, I don't feel comfortable talking to you about that

- so I don't want to discuss it. - I understand that. I get that.

But I'm her father, you know.

I'm a little concerned, so I'd just like to know.

- She doesn't do drugs. - At all?

Well, not since before the accident.

She's totally cleaned out. But I wouldn't let anything happen to her.

I love Sam. I'd do anything for her.

- What did you say? - I love Sam.

You don't even know who she is, man!

- I know who she is... - Do you even know what love is?

- Well, I guess... - You think it's just the good stuff?

Life can throw some horrible shit in your way.

Love is much more complicated than that.

Love is being with someone when things are hard. And staying...

Love is honesty and courtesy and friendship and respect.

The first step towards loving someone is not fucking them.

It's caring about them. That's how it starts.

Yeah...

I gotta go.

Ethan! Ethan, hold up...

- No, no, no, I gotta go. - Come here. No...

Hi.

Where's our daughter? It's been months.

I don't know.

Where's my wife?

- I'm right here... - No, you're not.

You haven't been here for a while.

I made a decision to be Sam because I couldn't be me.

It was too painful.

Well, you seem to have a pretty good handle on it.

I'm just as surprised as you are:

So it doesn't even bother you anymore that we can't be together?

Oh, that's not fair...

Why are you taking money?

Three months ago you pulled away from me.

You have no idea what this is like for me.

- I've got sixteen year- old boys - What do you need that money for?

Rubbing up against me all day.

Believe me, I have turned down my share of offers.

And so have I.

You know what, this was your idea.

Yes, but I'm stuck!

I can't move forward and I can't move back as long as Sam's gone...

I don't know how you can do this!

How you can just take her life and forget about ours?

This is still a marriage!

- Oh, right, so I can't have a life? - Very selfish...

- Right, everything... - It's not about...

Everything was great when I was just a housewife!

According to Ethan, you have even more of a life than you know about.

- You're checking up on me? - Yes. Because you don't talk to me.

You don't seem to realize that I'm the outsider in all this.

I don't get to feel Sam the way you do.

Oh, you're looking for pity? You're so fucking selfish!

You don't seem to understand...

If our daughter comes back, where do you think I'm gonna go?! Where?!

Hannah!

Hey... Hannah!

Hannah, I'm sorry.

I'm sorry that I doubted you. I just...

I just can't lose this family.

I have nothing without it. We have this beautiful life together

and it doesn't make any sense without you.

I feel like I'm going insane, Hannah...

I feel like I've gone insane.

Please, I need you here with me.

Even if it means we have to live like this always, I could do it.

I could learn how to live with it. I swear I could figure it out.

It'd be all right. See, I believe you.

Do you believe me?

You know, I've had fifteen doors slammed in my face today

but my day doesn't begin until you slam a door in my face.

Ha ha...

Hannah, come on...

Come on... Hannah!

Hannah!

- Oh my God... - Yeah!

- Baby girl! - We've all been waiting.

Get in here, get in here!

Ben! Hey...

- Hi, Maggie. - Ben, hi, how are you?

- It's been forever. - Good, good.

We're fantastic. Eric, Eric...

Have you guys seen Sam anywhere?

- No, no... - Shit!

Not around here. Is everything okay?

It's fine. No, it's just you know kids being kids and all, you know...

Have you checked with her friends?

Yeah... No. I don't really know where they hang out, so I just...

I think some of her friends hang out at Bulkley Street.

- Yeah, that's right. - Bulkley? Thanks.

Okay, Ben, hey, if you need anything,

- you know, call us. - Yes, thank you.

Yo, you guys ready?

He got the stuff.

What is it?

Special K.

Like the cereal?

It's ketamine, you know, it's totally rad.

It makes you like hallucinate and totally dissociate from your body,

you know, like it feels like you're rising above it.

Oh, my God, I did it at a rave.

It was totally spiritual. Crazy!

Hello?

Hello?

No, thank you. No, I don't want any.

You sure? It's okay,

- nothing's going to happen. - Come on!

Yo, it's the bomb, you gotta try it.

Don't you wanna take a break from being you for a few hours?

How does this work?

Here, put that up.

Snort it hard. Hard!

What happened? Sam...

- It's okay, Sam. Back up, back up! - She's entered a K hole.

What's going on? What's going on?

Shit!

Why was she screaming? Tell me! Why? Why was she screaming?

She just took a drug. She's just having a bad trip.

- What drug did she take? - She took ketamine.

She'll be fine in like fifteen minutes. She'll be okay.

She's not doing drugs, huh? Did you give it to her?

- Who did? - We all did!

- Who did? - We all did.

I did, okay! Will you just...

Calm down!

Dad?

Dad?

Dad!

What are you doing in my room?

Sam?

Sam, is that you?

- Yeah. - Oh, God!

Dad... Stop.

Dad, stop!

Did mom clean my room?

You don't remember?

Don't remember what?

Anything?

- Like? - The accident.

You don't remember.

Where's mom?

Mom! Mom!

Mom!

Mom! Mom!

Mom! Mom!

Mom! Mom! Where is she?

Mom! Mom!

Mom! Mom!

Mom!

- Sam. - Is she okay?

Should we call an ambulance?

- No, she just fainted. - But what happened?

It's nothing... it's really... It's just...

She had a nightmare. She'll be fine, she just fainted.

Thank you, thank you...

Did we sleep like this all night?

I think so.

I miss that.

Hannah?

Yeah?

Sam came back last night.

I know.

If she saw you now, she'd change her mind.

Keep reading.

'But if Mom didn't marry Dad, I wouldn't be here.

I don't know, maybe if I could have seen what she was like at my age.

Truthfully, it's not like any of my friends' parents are so great.

Mom's always on my back,

but Taylor's mother doesn't give a shit about her.

So compared to her, I guess I got pretty lucky.

I don't know why I have such a hard time admitting this but deep down,

I do love her.

I mean, she's the only mom I'll ever have, right? ' See that?

Ever since that night, when she came back,

I've been feeling her inside me.

Like how? Honey?

I don't know. I can't explain it really. I just feel it.

It's like very day, she's here and she's becoming more pronounced.

She's coming back, Ben.

Sorry, I'm not feeling very well.

I would... I'd like to reschedule this, please.

- Go ahead. - Yep, sorry.

I love you, Ben.

You're the love of my life.

I love you, too. So much.

Say it.

I've looked into fifteen pairs of eyes today

but my day doesn't begin until I look into yours.

Good morning, Sam.

Hi, dad.

Do you... Do you remember now?

The accident?

Your mother and I have a secret we want to share with you.

It's from your mother. I'll wait outside.

Hi, sweetheart.

I don't know what your father has told you already

but I wanted you to hear something from me.

Remember when you said in the car that

I would never understand what your life is like?

Well, you were right.

I wouldn't have ever even come close to understanding.

But something happened,

which I can't really explain but it's been incredible

and I got to live your life for you while you were gone.

And I got to feel what you feel,

and go through what you go through every day.

And I got to know your friends.

And I got to know you

and I think that you are a brilliant, beautiful, intelligent girl

and I want you to find whatever it is in life that makes you happy,

and go do it.

And I want you to take care of your father for me.

He will...

He will be okay but he needs you to help him get over this.

You made me want to be a better person, Sam,

so thank you.

And I love you more than anything.

I love you too, Mom.

Hey, what's up with your handwriting?

My mom wrote like this.

You really miss her a lot.

Yeah, but I think she's still here somewhere.

Ooh, hi!

Hi!

- C'mon, let's go! - Go where?

To the ice cream shop.

I don't know.

C'mon, ice cream shazzup.