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- Holy crap, there he is. Total redemption.

Oh, yeah. Dude, he's huge.

First Beaver with the bow in Labrador,

and I'm not gonna need another one for a little while.

- It's very overwhelming for me, but the land told me

how to build the shelter.

I'm so happy.

- First whisky jack.

Really didn't want to shoot him.

They're beautiful birds, but we need food.

- The river levels are starting to drop.

My shoreline gets shallower and shallower,

and I'm noticing that the fish are starting to move

further and further off.

Just lost my fly.

- That's a big track.

Holy *bleep*.

- Every day we live, other things must die.

I got one over here.

It is really hard to break up families.

- This is Igor.

I'm just at a point where I'm really worried about my health,

and I'm tapping out.

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- I can't wait to have this place try and break me.

For the first time on "Alone,"

ten participants fight to survive

in the hunting ground

of the world's largest land predator...

- Oh, my God. Where'd he go?

Those are bear.

- I heard a big animal. - Hey, bear.

- Oh, no, *bleep*.

- Sometimes you eat the bear.

- Sometimes the bear eats you.

Battling merciless conditions...

- This is some hardcore bushwhacking.

- Why does it have to be such a struggle every night?

- I hit it. I hit it.

I hit it.

- I feel more alive every day I'm out here.

- Here comes the rain again.

- Labrador, You're not gonna make it easy for us, are you?

In complete isolation.

- The most dangerous thing out here is myself.

- Look at that.

- The cold ground is just

pulling all the warmth from me.

- How many days can this go on? - Very, very hungry.

- I feel like I'm hitting a wall.

Last one standing wins.

- Only gonna get harder the longer you stay out here.

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- Holy *bleep*.

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I did go back to see if anything

had eaten where I throw all my scraps,

which is, like, the beaver guts,

and I put the trail cam up,

and sure enough, a black bear came,

and it looks like a decent boar,

but right now there's no point in shooting a bear

until it's cold enough to freeze.

It's too frickin' warm,

and I'm not frickin' spending a month

smoking the meat, which you can't even eat

because it still has trichinosis.

♪ ♪

I still really feel like a bear

is gonna be a necessity for me to make this long haul.

I do realize though, now, that handling a bear

before the freeze comes in is far past my capabilities

and my resources,

and being able to preserve that meat

and respect that animal.

So yeah, we might have two more weeks

before we could really think about sticking a bear.

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Top of the morning.

Basically having thoughts about changing up the shelter.

I like the location.

Just the livability for me is not ideal.

I'm gonna be wrecked when it gets to zero degrees.

I'm gonna be burning a ton of firewood

and cutting firewood isn't fun

with an axe all day long.

It is if you're eating pancakes and eggs and omelets,

and I'm all for it.

On smoked beaver meat, no, that's not a good idea,

so we really want to use the shelter to conserve energy,

and that means keep a better ambient temperature.

So I'm thinking a wickiup. That's my go-to shelter.

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A wickiup is a circular structure

much resembling a teepee.

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Timber.

It gives you a lot of flexibility,

and its shape, it's really good in the wind.

It's very easy to set up structurally,

and I want something that I'm comfortable in.

Good headspace in here.

I've got room to stand up, move around.

♪ ♪

I'm gonna stretch this around a little bit.

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That's actually working really well.

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I'ma be okay like this for a little bit.

This is an awesome, awesome shelter.

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- I can hear a grouse over there.

So I'm going to try and get closer

and see if I can get it.

It's a very small target right now.

It's behind one of the main poles of my shelter.

Well, got the wood real good.

If it'd been 3 inches higher,

I'd be having grouse for dinner.

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That's where my broadhead stuck in.

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And boy, it's in there.

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I'm hungry.

It'd be nice to get some food besides squirrel.

I had a pretty good impact, I think,

on this poor little squirrel community.

There we go.

There's no point in dwelling in what's already happened.

Just keep moving forward.

♪ ♪

Hodgepodge is coming together,

but it's taking me longer than I thought it would.

All right, this is the rest of them.

Go ahead and take you up a little bit further.

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There's so many different styles

of shelter out there,

but it's kind of hard to place it.

If somebody has a official name for it,

great, but all I can think to call it

is hodgepodge lodge.

Oh, it'll be so nice when I have a place to sit.

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It's a very Western culture thing to say,

"I've got a goal.

It's gonna be done in this amount of time."

I believe in divine timing,

especially when my body is struggling.

Yay.

I work with the universe

instead of trying to force things.

Yeah, it might cost me more calories in the long run,

but this is more my spiritual path, I guess.

It will be nice to get the hodgepodge done.

All right, that's...

That's pretty darn good.

Now all I need is a grouse.

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- Cruised down to...

About 500 yards from camp.

Perfect shot.

I mean, right through the eye.

Didn't stand a chance, and that's...

That's an instant kill right there.

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I feel great. I mean, it's early days.

We're still in round one of a 12-round fight,

but it feels good to know that I'm not striking out

with hunting and fishing.

Thank you, little guy.

I know it sounds cliché, and I've been saying it a lot,

but every day does feel like a gift out here.

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Another one right there.

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Got him. Got him.

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That one went right through the back of the head.

Awesome.

I hear a third one squeaking.

Must be a little family of 'em.

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I'm gonna save off on these ones,

come back for them when I need them.

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But I've got dinner, two squirrels.

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It's a good start to the day.

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I kind of feel like I'm in a little shop

with this window open.

Hold on a second.

Morning, ma'am, what can I do for you?

Oh, bear meat? No, no.

None of that, I'm afraid.

Oh, trout?

Yeah, maybe tomorrow.

We have...

Crispy squirrel...

Grouse leftovers,

and our new special, berries.

No? No takers?

What a shame.

Come check back on that bear.

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- I think this strategy of just drinking water straight

is bang on, because boiling water,

that's a difficult task.

That's very time-consuming and energy-consuming too,

because you have to always be looking

for firewood and all this stuff.

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I'm Mexican, so I have a pretty hard stomach,

and I've been drinking water straight for ten years.

My approach has risks.

I might, like, be in trouble if I get some pathogens,

but I'm saving energy, saving resources,

saving time.

I haven't had much food in this last week.

I just found, like, a few raspberries.

The prospects of grouse and hare are not very good.

There's absolutely no...

droppings.

I don't think hunting small animals around here

is a viable long-term strategy.

It's looking like my options are fishing...

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And fishing.

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So I've decided I'm gonna build a dock.

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So I'm gonna make, first, a few tripods

and then put some logs on top of them and go from there.

I just want to be able to cast from the main channel,

and if I'm in a dock, I'll have more space.

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I can get water

from a deeper part of the river,

which is probably cleaner.

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There's a seal in the water.

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Hey, seal.

You should bring me some fish.

Bring me some fish.

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See how this works.

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Not too bad. Good job.

It's a small victory for sure.

Now I can cast way better with my rod.

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I'm hungry.

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- It's a brisk morning,

and the sun feels so good.

I'm just gonna warm up my tea.

We could have a lot of snow in the next couple of weeks,

so I'm gonna be super stoked to have a solid shelter done.

I really, really just want to keep working on this shelter...

'Cause it's so fun.

I got a lot of work to do here,

but I definitely need to procure some food.

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Okay.

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Oh, my God.

See why I'm having trouble finding a place to hunt?

Whew.

It's a nice area.

I just heard a squirrel.

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Where are you, little squirrel?

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I hear you, but I don't see you.

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Turn around.

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I got him.

Wow.

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*bleep*

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Ah.

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I have the perfect opportunity,

and I mess it up.

He either made an escape and is hiding

or I can't get to him.

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I just don't want to lose much more weight.

Every animal counts as one,

two, or three days' worth of food,

so every animal that I'm not getting

is another day that I'm not going to be here.

I need to eat.

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- Where were we?

Making traps.

This wishbone deadfall...

can be tricky

to get all the components sized correctly.

So you have to make sure that your faces

oppose each other.

See how that fits.

Pretty darn good.

Be nice to get a belly full of food

because we got a lot of calories burned

from doing the shelter.

So this is home.

The start of it's just gonna be

clearing this area and seeing how far

I can dig into this hill.

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Oh, that feels pretty hard.

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It's gonna take a couple of days.

It's doable though.

This thing's gonna seem like a castle

compared to what I've been living in.

Tell you what though, my arms are getting tired.

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I drove stakes in the ground

to give it some sort of structure.

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It's a bit of an amalgamation.

I'm completely winging it.

I'm making stuff up as I go.

It's going to be a combination of a log cabin,

a mine shaft,

and a little bit of a giant basket.

Boy, are my legs tired.

Lets' go make a chimney.

♪ ♪

There's enough clay in that creek

and rock there, if you had time,

you could build your whole house this way.

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It's important to have some comforts out here...

And this will be the basis on which I build my stove on.

And a hearth is comfort no matter where you are.

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I am liking it.

I think we need to get the tarp.

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And we will be dry tonight.

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Oof, that'll wear you out.

I am hungry.

I got to get some sustenance.

I can feel it in my muscles.

So far, I haven't had any luck with my trapline.

And unfortunately, we're going way up there to check snares.

And guys, we have to. It's not that I want to,

but when you run a trapline, there's a responsibility

to check your snares daily.

It's inhumane not to,

so we're making the haul.

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There's one untriggered.

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Going all the way up to the top.

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Here's our second one,

and it's untriggered.

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Then our spring snare...

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Has been triggered.

*bleep*, look at that! Look at that!

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We got a rabbit. Yes, sir!

Y'all, look!

Oh, my God, what a day!

I'm so ecstatic right now.

Whoo, just calm down, boy.

Where can I even set this thing.

I didn't bring a tripod. Hold on.

Hold on a second.

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First two snares I checked were untriggered,

and then, boom,

in the third one, we got a rabbit.

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Yeah, that's gonna work.

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This is why you got to check 'em.

I just said, coming up the hill,

you got to be diligent and check 'em.

This thing was not barely off the ground.

Something could have come along and taken this food from me.

Not today.

Well, I got a lot of work to do.

I have to gut this thing.

I'm just over the moon.

One rabbit-- one rabbit down.

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It's probably still fine. It was somewhat cool today.

It would have been nice to have him gutted earlier...

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But it's okay.

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I hope that the meat isn't bad.

You definitely can't eat it if it's rotten,

but if it's turned a little bit,

in a survival situation, you can actually eat it.

You just have to cook it a lot longer.

It's so awesome

to unlock another food source,

you know, especially with one drying up.

I mean, I know the fishing will probably come back on

in spits and starts, but I don't think it'll ever be

as good as it was when I first got here.

Here comes rain.

I almost got him completely unzipped.

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Pulling his pajamas off him, like they say where I'm from.

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What I'm seeing in these feet is there's not much meat,

but there's a ton of tendon,

and once that cooks down for a couple hours,

it turns to, like, gelatin.

It's good for you.

I'll add some other things in there,

some greens and some roots

here about halfway through

so they don't boil in there the whole time

and get super bitter.

It's gonna be a good stew.

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So where am I--

mentally, physically-- at this stage of the game?

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There are parts of it that are way easier

than I thought, parts of it

that are way harder than I thought,

but there's just so much life out here.

I've never felt alone in nature.

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And so, yeah,

I'm feeling pretty all right.

Holy *bleep*.

That's so damn good.

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Boom.

Whew!

That gives me shivers. All right.

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I really need to focus on getting food.

I'd like to spend time down at the river,

maybe try a little fishing.

If I could get a whole pile of fish,

that would be killer.

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So I'm hopeful. I'm hopeful.

I feel good.

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My personal goal is to see how deep I can go

spiritually with the land,

learning how to listen, how to be thankful

and make offerings, and the songs I'm singing

keep me in a place of gratitude

and my heart in a good place.

The longer I'm out here, the louder my voice becomes.

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Great timing to come down the river and go fishing.

It is so calm.

Here fishy, fishy, fishy.

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Sh--jeez.

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Oh, jeez. He got off.

Dang, that was a big trout.

That's okay.

There's gonna be another one.

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What the heck? Oh, my God.

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Yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Stay low, stay low. Get into shore.

Whoo! Nice.

Oh, my God, he's big.

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Whew. Oh, my God.

I got a fish, a big one. Whoa.

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Oh, my God.

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Check this one out.

Oh, my God.

That's like 13, 14 inches. Oh, my God.

Mwah. Thank you, thank you.

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The times where I took the time to make my prayer,

to sing a song, to make my offering,

I go fishing, and within 15 minutes,

I had a fish.

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Now, I'm being taken care of,

and my needs are being met.

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All right, you want to see?

There's the first batch.

Oh, there's the eyeball.

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Yes, you do need food, but to stay out here

really takes more than that,

more that spiritual piece

that you're okay with yourself.

I feel very at home.

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The spirit brings me back

into my heart and really grounds me.

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So good.

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- I'm not having too much luck right now with the fish,

but hopefully the dock makes a difference.

Well, I got to say, this is a much better casting spot,

and my rod works better for sure.

Got one. Got one.

Got one.

Got one. It's a good one.

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*bleep*, it went away.

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Come on, come on, come on, come on, come on.

Nice.

*bleep* yeah.

Check it out.

Nice size.

Look at it.

It's pretty beautiful.

Thank you, fish.

I'm happy.

I'm gonna keep fishing.

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Two fish, medium-size.

Nice.

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Third one today.

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Another one, my fourth one.

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*bleep* yeah.

Fifth one today.

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This is my sixth one.

I think I'm getting the hang

out of the fly fishing.

So just want to show you the catch for today so far.

Six.

It's a decent meal for sure.

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Ooh.

Got it.

I don't see this just as a competition.

I'm seeing this as a real survival situation.

That's why, for me, there's no tap out button.

It's irrelevant because I know that in a survival situation,

that would not be an option.

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I think that's one of my edges.

I'm not going to tap out.

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Look at this.

This is my meal for today.

Three fish.

I'm gonna eat my other half on another day.

So, so good.

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- It's nice to keep your tools tuned up,

even if it's just a couple passes.

Just keep the edge a lot cleaner.

Less work over the course of the months.

But then, how many people have even

sharpened an axe, let alone used one in modern society?

How crazy is that? And I use one every day here.

Oh, yeah, good little pop back to it.

Morning axe work.

If you're not starting your day with some axe sharpening,

you're missing out, folks.

Hey, instead of turning on the TV

and watching all the bad things

that are going on somewhere else,

get up and sharpen an axe.

It's a lot more fun.

You can sit by a fire,

and you don't even have to play on your phone.

It's amazing.

We're gonna see if we can make a nice fleshing beam.

See how much we can get off the hide.

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I'm trying to use absolutely every fiber

of this beaver meat.

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I got to scrape the hide completely,

fleshing all the fat and meat off of it.

I'm gonna render that fat

so that it will be preserved.

And I'm working like crazy to get this all done

before I lose any of it.

Generally, fleshing is a lot of work,

even with modern tools.

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A good steel bar and a good beam,

but I don't really have many options.

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All right, we got to test it out.

One beaver hide.

Created a platter for it.

A honking nice tail.

So what we'll do is, we'll scrape this,

and then we'll take off that meat,

and just we'll make a nice meatball,

season it up with salt, of course,

and fry it up tonight.

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It's coming off nice. There we go.

Really good run there.

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There's somebody out here tonight

that would die for this scrap of meat.

I bet they would love to have this hide to eat off of.

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I think I'm just gonna throw all this

in the pan and just fry it all up,

'cause what else am I gonna do with it?

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So basically, roasting some fat down here.

It's so funny that our population looked at fat

in such a negative connotation for so long.

Fat was the enemy. Low-fat food, no fat, low-fat,

and it's, like, the most vital resource.

Just crazy how we come up with this crap.

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Ta-da.

Almost a half tin

of amazing calories.

Oh, man, look at that. That is a lot.

That log is full.

That's got to be-- I don't know.

I've got to have at least 15,000 calories of fat,

could be more, stored up here.

So that plus any meat I get is my diet.

I'm pretty stoked.

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It just bumped a grouse.

Holy crap. He's gonna give me a shot.

I've got so much beaver already,

but I got to take the shot.

Grouse is one of our favorite things

to hunt back home with the dogs.

The amount of meat on there

that is berry-fed, tastes really good.

There's no gaminess, and it is so tender.

It's one of the best eating treats in these woods.

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Oh, just missed.

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Damn.

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Ah, *bleep*.

Just couldn't get it done.

0 for 2.

Tree saved my ass.

One's stuck into it, but it's a blunt.

It'll fall out, and the other one

dropped to the ground, and...

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The bird is still there.

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Maybe get one more shot at this guy.

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Shooting at grouse that are off the ground,

you're dealing with this little internal anxiety.

Anything goes astray, a deflection on a branch,

you lose that arrow forever.

I have no confidence issues with my shooting,

but everyone has bad moments,

so I'm not exempt to having a bad shot here.

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That's when it counts right there.

Yep, shot number three,

but who's counting?

This is survival. Beautiful bird.

Thank you. May your spirit be free.

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Coming into this experience,

I never dreamed in my wildest dream

that I would be harvesting so much food per day,

especially with my bow.

Let's get some guts out.

We may be able to salvage a few of the organs.

Nor did I think it was even possible.

Yeah, organs looks good.

This land has just opened its arms to me

and said, "Here you go."

If you can shoot straight, you're gonna eat well,

and I'm doing it.

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Looks so good.

Trying to keep as much skin on as possible.

The skin's too good, even though I have

a boatload of fat over here.

It's like a whole bowl of high-calorie frosting

that won't kill you like frosting will.

I'm gonna get some grouse, some organs.

I think we're gonna cook up extra.

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Paint on some beaver grease.

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Mandatory.

Grouse wing.

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To die for.

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Mmm.

Crackling like popcorn shrimp.

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Oh, man, that fat bite exploded in my mouth.

And that is it.

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- I overslept.

The reason that I overslept

is I was up...

massaging my belly

and trying to get a *bleep* out last night.

Something is not right in my belly.

I'm gonna eat some of these cranberries...

And hope that settles things a little bit.

I've thought of a few of the worst-case scenarios.

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Giardia, trichinosis...

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Salmonella, E. coli.

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Best-case scenario...

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My stomach's just *bleep* up

from my diet being all over the place, and...

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I wake up tomorrow and feel fine.

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I'm going to stay inside today,

whittle on my spoon for a little bit.

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So I've got two jobs that I love.

I've got both my parents.

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Got everything a man could possibly want.

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Throw 500 grand in there,

that can make other people's lives better.

My mom needs new teeth.

I want a homestead

that's gonna be warm and comfortable and safe.

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I've got a really good life.

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I mean, like, it chokes me up.

I'm just genuinely...

So thankful for my life and everybody in it.

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It is...

time for me to accept the fact that...

I have some kind of gut parasite...

Not indigestion or too many cranberries.

It is--um,

I think I've got giardia.

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So now the question is...

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How long can I live with it...

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And is there anything I can do to treat it?

See how long we can deal with the symptoms.

Maybe they will slowly start to abate on their own.

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Right now, it feels like they're getting worse.

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It's not a good situation.

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- A little stomachache this morning,

so we're gonna just ease into the day today.

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I just need time to retune my body with some qigong.

Ahh.

Ahh.

Let's go find some yarrow.

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There's usually something along these banks here.

I definitely ate a lot of moderately fresh fat

and protein last night and probably overate.

It was cooked thoroughly, but, man,

I'm feeling it a little.

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I definitely think I'm a strong contender.

I just don't see that many people having

as many versatile skills

or the will that I do.

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Oh, that was good.

If I can't get this stomach thing under control,

my productivity goes way down.

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Let's get a little rest.

I think we're gonna focus on the health of the guts.

It'll help the mind, and then we'll just

start getting back to staying busy

and moving forward.

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- I had a nice rest,

so now we're gonna cruise up onto the hill

and collect some birch bark,

and then we'll make that into a tea tonight

that will hopefully help with my intestinal issues.

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The challenge of getting sick in the wilderness

is that you just don't know with any certainty

what exactly is wrong with you.

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So what we're gonna do

is harvest the inner bark

off of the tree very carefully.

Suddenly, that's a whole new level

of self-reliance and a whole different set

of skills that you have to depend upon to self-heal.

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So I won't go...

too crazy on it...

because A, I'm unsure of the dosage...

And B, I'm unsure if it'll work.

So we're gonna mosey on back to the house.

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Really, really not enjoying the punch to the guts.

Oh, *bleep*.

If I got to puke, I just hope I puke soon,

'cause I'm getting frickin' sick of burping up stuff.

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Any foodborne illness that is present

and affects us in modern society

is available here in the woods,

and it's magnified because you don't have soap,

you don't have boiling water all the time to clean with.

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Oh, almost puked right there.

Still feel like *bleep*.

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So when you're touching the hide of the beaver,

you could also be touching your meat,

you could also be touching a piece of fat

that you then eat later...

Don't eat suspect meat off the hide.

So the risk of getting some foodborne illness

is actually quite high

and is amazingly hard to deal with.

I think there's just still something in my stomach

just isn't going through.

Maybe tonight. We'll see.

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- Nice cup of tea, that'll make me feel better.

Let's sit and rest for a minute.

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My stomach feels better. The tea worked perfectly.

Self-care day, that's what I need.

I was worried that if it got worse

and I couldn't hold food down that I might have to tap...

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Oh, I feel so much better.

But whatever it is,

it's feeling mitigated, and I'm managing it,

and it's not gonna take me out of the game.

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- The good news is I'm still alive.

Um, I'm still going through stomach cramps and chills,

and feel like I got a pretty good fever.

My eyes are burning up, and my whole body

is actually burning up in the sleeping bag.

Um, I still want to puke,

but I can't get anything to come up,

so it's just like this.

I just feel stuck.

And every time I think of that meat or fat,

it just makes my guts turn over,

so who knows if I got some on my hands and ate it

or it just wasn't good,

but may be hope that tomorrow is a new day,

and maybe it just goes away,

but we'll see.

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Ugh.

Mother *bleep*.

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God, this *bleep* sucks.

Oh.

I don't know what the hell this beaver--

I got, like, beaver fever.

Oh, that's right up in my stomach.

Oh, holy *bleep*.

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Oh, I got to go again.

*bleep* really?

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♪ ♪

I've never had this kind of relentless turmoil

in my stomach where I'm just both burping and excreting

at the same-- all the time just--

and when it's not, it's just churning

and gurgling and churning.

I'm trying not to talk myself out of tomorrow yet,

but I'm gonna go hit the can.

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It's frickin' almost morning.

I haven't slept all night.

And just nothing--

nothing getting better here.

I just about lost the last of my bowels there,

and I'm super stiff and can barely get around,

so it's the end of the road for me.

This is just *bleep* horrible.

We're gonna go call it in and get some medical help.

I am just miserable.

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I can't even sit in there anymore.

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Now I'm starting to fear just even being able

to get out of here at all before I'm too shot.

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Oh, my God.

Nasty, cold day.

Oh.

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I got to see the seasons change.

♪ ♪

Embraced some serious good

and some *bleep* bad.

But...

this is the end of the journey.

A great adventure I pretty much had,

and thankful for it,

but we got to get out of here.

♪ ♪

Calling this *bleep* in. I'm over.

Good luck to everyone else.

♪ ♪

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Oh.

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Hey, good morning. This is Benji.

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Yeah, I'm officially tapping out.

I've got no more. I'm wicked dehydrated.

- We'll be on our way as soon as we can.

- Thank you.

♪ ♪

Mother--

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Oh, I did not think I was gonna ever have to make that call.

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Mm.

♪ ♪

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My guts are just destroyed.

I just can't stop going to the bathroom

and dry heaving.

I haven't been able to even barely get around.

Thank you.

Oh, that's better.

Oh.

Two days ago, I would have guaranteed you

I would have been the last person,

and then once this thing hit, it just--

it's been a downward spiral.

But I guess that's a lot of life, you know?

You got to appreciate the ups,

'cause eventually you're gonna have downs,

and if you can't deal with that,

then you're never gonna do anything.

So I'm still glad I came out

and got the experience.

It's humbling, but I still learned a lot.

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You don't get what you want. You get what you need.

And I've said that enough times in my life,

and this is a perfect example.

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Figured the strength of my willpower

would get me through the worst thing,

and of course, it didn't.

♪ ♪

I got a little careless there.

I made some mistakes, and you get punished,

especially out here,

and you get punished in other areas of life

when you get careless and you make mistakes.

♪ ♪

Humility is a part of life

and how you handle it's the most important,

and I'm just gonna handle it the best I can

and move forward in my life

and learn from this experience.

♪ ♪

- Oh, there's the weasel.

That's mine. That's--no, that's mine!

- Around the bend is where the beaver dam is.

I'm getting thinner and getting weaker.

I got to get some food.

Oh.

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- My arrow landed in a tree.

It's about 20 feet up.

Might not be the smartest idea.

It's right there.

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*bleep*

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- Oh, I really wouldn't wish this upon anyone.

My body is just heating up and cooling off.

I can't even get a breath without my gut

just wrenching on me.

I need help.

It's just--

it's just taking the life out of me.

We've got to get down to the beach.

Holy *bleep*.

Nasty, cold day, too.

I'm done. Just--that's it.

Nothing worse than feeling like *bleep*

and having to *bleep* tap out, man.

♪ ♪

I thought I had it dialed.

It was just flowing.

I knew where the bear trails were.

I knew where the beavers were.

I loved the food I was eating.

I ate better than I've eaten any time in the woods.

But once this thing hit,

it just became a downward spiral.

♪ ♪

Humility is a part of life,

and how you handle it's the most important thing.

♪ ♪

I needed to be kind of humbled, in a way.

And I think that was one of the lessons,

was that I got a little careless there.

I made some mistakes.

And you get punished, especially out here.

I didn't come and be conservative.

I went and took risk.

So I feel like I just shorted it a little bit

because I feel like there's still so much more

to learn out there about myself and the land.

The fragility of life is very apparent here.

Our lives can turn on a dime.

We can be suffering and our whole world turns.

I think everybody can relate to this.

It really felt like I have in me this strength of will,

and I wanted to really prove it to myself.

That's what I'm most bummed about.

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- And you have no medication allergies,

based on what I asked you before, right?

Yeah, my concern is just figuring out what it is.

The end of your large intestine is super tender there.

And so that's often where these parasites put a foothold in.

- Yeah, so that nausea the last two and a half days

was just death.

- I'm leaning on maybe looking at getting some investigations

early so we have a baseline.

That would be like blood work and a stool sample.

And you've got to realize, right?

You're not around humans out there.

So this isn't the stomach flu.

This isn't a small virus.

- No, I tried to push it off in my head.

But when I just rolled for the last 12, 16 hours

in my sleeping bag and was like,

it doesn't matter how tough I am.

I'm just going to be tough until I'm really *bleep* up.

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Being sick is debilitating.

I'm just glad I went for it and held true to my word

and because I learned so much.

And it was still so worth some of the suffering that went on

and some of the hardship and learning.

But it was all a good part of the growth

that I'm now aware of.

Being very present and living your best life

is never more apparent than doing something like this.

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