All language subtitles for Alcoholist.2016.WEB-DL.XviD.MP3-FGT

Goddamn it.
Go away.

Fucking
right now!

Get out!
Now, please!

Please!

Wake up.

Can't be late...

Because if that happens,
you know who they're
going to blame.

Dad, can I play
peppa pig?

Not now, sunshine,
daddy's working.

I told you not to move
those units till Friday.

Hold on a second.

Yeah, frank?

Yeah, just don't do anything
till I get there.

17th attempt.
I failed again.

I did everything
by the book.

I respected
the timeline.

It was right before dawn
when I started my watch.

But, something went wrong.

Stopping drinking
didn't give me the results
that I expected.

I try to resist
for a few hours at a time,

but instead of feeling better,
i feel less clear,

weak,

and if that's not enough

something's in this house.

Seven hours until
my next attempt.

Bang. Bang.

Note to self.

He is a routine person.

I was right there.

Almost.

Almost.

I resisted until now,

but this asshole's late!
Fuck!

Baby steps
to self-control.

He wakes up very early
every morning 6:00 am.

And then the asshole goes
and has breakfast,

then he gets
in his fucking car

and he goes to work
every fucking day.

Yes!

Fuck!

Hey, hey, hey, hey.

Hi, good evening.

Can I take you aside?

Would you like to do
this alcohol test?

It's free,
so don't worry.

All you have to do is just
blow into this device

and we'll be able to tell you
how much alcohol

you have in your blood.

Is that okay?
Are you ready?

Go, blow.

Blow.

Do you uh, do you want to go
out the back door, dude?

Can I?

-Perfect. That's great.
-Thank you.

Do you know
how dangerous
it is to drive

for you
and other people

after drinking half
a bottle of 80-proof whiskey?

I shouldn't even
tell you this,

but there's
a police checkpoint
just down the road

waiting to bust
people like you.

Is that what you want?

Thanks for the tip,
I'll take a shortcut.

A shortcut?

On the highway?

Listen, I don't really have
much time to waste here,

would you consider
leaving me alone?

Where do you live?

-What?
-I asked you where you live.

I can drive you home.

And I can get my co-workers
to come pick me up.

Are you serious?

Listen, you see right now,
you only have two options.

One, you drive drunk,
get busted,

lose your license
for a year,

maybe do some time.

Or two... I drive

and you can make
yourself comfortable

and sip
your Tennessee whisky.

And I can take you
home safely.

Absolutely not.

This surveill--

have the cars
stop at 10.

My name's Claire.

Take a right
right here.

You can drop me right--
right here.

Here?
Are you sure?

Yes, I'm sure.
I know where I live.

Okay, well, I'll just call
my assistant

so she can come
and pick me up.

Actually, I would--

--perfect.

Where the hell are you,
Claire? Can you see me?

Yes, I see your lights.

Continue onto the end
of the road,

-I'll be here.
-Hurry up.

-Yes.
-I'm coming.

Okay, I'm coming.

Claire, what the hell
are you thinking?

So?

Shit.

Fuck.

Fuck.

Shit.

What is going on here?

Goddamn alcoholic.

Hey, move your car!

Hey, move your car, hey.

Hello?
Can you move this car?

Hey, do you know where
this bozo is?

Hey, do you know where
the owner of this car is?

Take off
your headphones.

Headphones.

No, no,
your headphones.

Nah.

What do you want?

Can I come in?

Go away.

Remove your foot

or else I'll have
to smash it.

I'm asking you
to get off my property.

How long have you been dry
before last night?

Seven hours?
Less than a day?

Is there anyone
watching your health?

When at a certain level
of dependency

it can be dangerous
quitting cold Turkey.

Harmful.

Listen,
i have your stuff here.

I made a mistake
by taking it last night.

I'm sorry.

It was an impulsive
decision

and I came here
to return it to you.

I don't want you
to come inside.

--Who's there?

-Nobody.
-Are you sure?

Yes, I'm sure.

Listen, I've dealt
with people like you before.

Little psycho
head trips.

There's something
you should know.

You can't help me.

Sure.

I understand.

No, you don't understand.

What the fuck
are you thinking?

Coming to my house,
trying to come inside?

Thatta girl, thatta girl.

Thank you.

Jesus.

All right.
Just don't do
any of that.

Oh, shit.

I love you.

But if you're
empty inside,

I don't really
need your company.

-Is everything okay?
-Good.

Trevor says tonight
I'm gonna be a moderator.

Don't worry,
you're gonna nail it.

I hope so.

You'll see, everything's gonna
be back to normal soon.

Danny! You look good.

Better.

But that beard,
you gotta get after it.

What do you want, dad?

Just to spend some
time with my son.

I never see you.

Well, what can I say?

You look good.

I'm serious, son.

Wow, it all comes
down to this, right?

The education we gave you,
the tuition we paid,

opportunities
with the company,

all those sacrifices,

and here you are
like this.

It was a shock
for everybody,

but you have
to be strong.

God, stop.

You never cared
about them.

What did you
come here for?

It's about the company,
isn't it?

Do you know how many fathers
support their family

working for us?
Hmm?

If I behaved like you,

what do you think
would happen to these people?

I am not working
for you anymore.

You see, I got a call
this morning

from, uh, head of security
in my company.

He wants me to report
a break-in

in one of
our headquarters.

Nothing was taken,

hardly any damage,

just a couple of bottles
from the company fridge.

The strange thing is,

the thief knew
the alarm codes.

Do you know anything,
Danny?

Get out!

I'm giving you
one week's time

to register yourself
in a rehabilitation clinic.

I want you
to clean yourself up

and come back
and work for me.

Otherwise,
I'll have you arrested.

And believe me,

I will do it.

Honey, didn't you say
that you wanted

to talk to him?

-What?
-The neighbor?

Didn't you say that
as soon as he got home

there was something
that you wanted to ask him?

Oh, yep, yep.

Hello?
Can you come out here
for a sec?

We need to talk.

Hey, hello?

Listen, you can't pull
that shit off anymore,

do you understand me?

I use that street,
my wife uses that street,

you can't just park
in the middle of the road.

If you do it again,
i swear by Christ,

I will have you towed.

Hey!

You fucking drunk.

I can't sleep more than
three or four hours a night.

When I put my head
on the pillow,

my jaw starts
throbbing.

Even the good ones
are starting to go bad.

And since I can't
drink anymore,

the pain is unbearable,

and, so, if anyone
can help me out,

I found a doctor
who can fix me up

for next to nothing...

If anyone can find it
in their heart

to help me out.

Thank you, Jim,
for sharing your experience.

Okay, guys,
let's support Jim.

Hey...

Did the board
mention anything

about giving me
a group?

Yes.

And what did
they say?

It's just a bit
too soon, Claire.

But it's already
been three months.

Well, after what happened,

you know, everybody,
including myself,

feels that you need
a bit more time

before you should interact
with patients directly.

You little shit.

When I started
working here

you hadn't even
finished high school.

That's true.

And now
I'm your supervisor.

And as your supervisor,

I suggest you chill
the fuck out

until further notice.

They've asked me
to keep an eye on you.

You're gonna fucking die.

You're gonna
fucking die.

You're gonna fucking die.

You're gonna
fucking die.

Claire?

Did I dial
the right number?

-Claire?
-It's me.

Is this
a bad time? Um...

Just thought we could talk
for a minute.

Listen, I made a mistake
by showing up yesterday.

I don't think
I'm the right person

to help you.
At least, not right now.

Okay, uh,
i understand, then.

-I shouldn't have called.
-No, no, no, no.

You can call anytime.

It-- it's great
that you're ready
to get help.

It's just that i--

I don't wanna
take your case right now.

I've got colleagues,

people who I trust
who can help you.

I'm just so sick.

I have these
stabbing pains inside,

and i-- I don't know
if it's my liver

and-- and i--

I need meds.

Something that can
keep me off the booze

for a little while.

I-- i-- I see things
that don't exist

and i-- the pain
doesn't stop.

I--

hurt myself, I don't--
i don't know in, I just--

-stay calm.
-But I can't live
like this anymore, okay?

Okay, don't do
anything stupid.

I'm gonna come and see you
after I finish up, okay?

I-- i-- I won't.

-Promise?
-Yeah, yeah, I promise

I promise. Yeah, yeah, yeah...

Yes, yes.

Can you please check
if this is correct?

And...

-Hey, Hannah.
-Hey.

Did Trevor leave you,
by any chance,

the keys
to the dispensary?

No, I have mine.
Do you need them?

Well, I have to submit
the meds inventory

to the board before lunch
and I had a little setback.

Mm-hmm.
Just hurry up, okay?

And bring them back
when you're done.

You're welcome.

-And now this one.
-Thanks.

What the fuck
are you doing, Claire?

Stay out of this.
You didn't see me here.

Stealing
medication now?

Look, I'm warning you
right now, put it back.

--I said, put it back.

Don't you ever
touch me.

Claire-- I'm-- I'm gonna
tell the board about this.

You can consider
yourself fired.

Do you know
what happens here

when people get reported
for sexual harassment?

-You're a psycho bitch.
-I know.

So how are you feeling?

Are you still in pain?

Yes.

Can you show me
where it hurts?

What kind of hallucinations
are you having?

None.

You told me
on the phone

that you were having
hallucinations.

No hallucinations
whatsoever.

Well, maybe...

I should
take these back
to the clinic then.

Give me those.

First you tell me
what you see.

First you give me
those fucking pills.

Listen, I know
what is happening to you.

It's my job.

When you stop drinking
at your level of addiction

it can be
very dangerous.

No, stop!

No!

Don't do it.

When was the last time
you used alcohol?

If it hasn't been
at least eight hours

those anti-psychotics
could kill you.

Goddamn it.
Fucking bitch.

Stop!

No!

No!

--Bullshit. Answer me.

--Stop!

Stop.

I never-- I never
wanted to scare you.

Okay?
You understand?

And I wouldn't

ever think
about hurting you, okay?

-Okay.
-All right,
so can we just--

can we work on this
together, okay?

You wanna--
you wanna help me,
right?

I- I don't even
know your name.

Okay, so, here's
what we're gonna do.

Okay, we're just gonna--
we're just gonna talk

like two good friends,
all right?

The fact is,
i do see things

that don't exist.

And I need those drugs,

but I don't think
i can stay sober

for eight hours.

-You follow me?
-Mmm.

I tried to stay clean.

I'd count the hours,
but I just can't do it.

That's why you have
to help me.

You just have
to stay with me

until I can take
those fucking pills.

God.

Okay,
i don't think--

I don't have anyone else
to talk to about this.

Please, just stay with me,
it's not that long,

it's not that long,
it's just eight hours,

okay? Just please.
I'm desperate, okay?

Please?

Are you sure
you don't want any?

I don't know.

How are you feeling?

You haven't said a word
to me in seven hours.

Do you think
it would help?

Anything that can
take your mind off
drinking, yes.

Don't give me
that recycled
psychobabble bullshit.

Look, Daniel,
i know exactly
how you feel.

You don't know
a goddamn thing.

Have any of you ever
woke up in your own piss,

choking on your own vomit,
and not knowing who the fuck
you're with?

Then you wanna come to me
with these sympathetic faces

saying,
"i know exactly
how you feel."

Don't you fuckin' dare.

It's time.

So how long till
these babies begin?

Just a few minutes.

Good.

Well, if you're
not feeling better

and you become dizzy,

you can take an extra two
in an hour,

but I wouldn't do it
considering your condition.

Yes, well,
then, go away.

I can stay a little bit
longer if you want.

No, no, no,
that's all right.

I say no.

-No?
-Yeah.

Get out of my house!

Yeah.
Yeah.

Yeah.

What's going on
tonight?

What's going on?

Yeah, you wanna
fuck with me?

You don't wanna
fuck with me.

Go ahead and start
whenever you like.

And I can say anything.
Are-- are you sure?

I mean,
i have shown up here,

I got stories that would
give you the creeps.

Don't worry,
anything you say

will stay between
these four walls.

Once I had to have
surgery on my trachea.

They told me
that I couldn't
have any alcohol

for six weeks.

So after two days
i locked myself

in a hospital room
and gave myself

a cherry enema.

You know,
that's probably enough.

Let's take a break, okay?

I mean, was that weird,
guys?

Claire, do you still
have my keys?

Trevor asked me a lot
of questions when you left.

If something's goin' on,
you can tell me.

Okay, honey?
I'm recording.

-Honey!
-Yeah.

Do you have--
oh, okay!

-Let's make Stevie and Laura's.
-Okay.

Let's open some presents.
Okay.

Right, this one first.
This one...

Something special?

Yeah? Do you
want it or not?

Yes.

I hope you like
that one.

All right, let's see...

Yay!

Can you inflate it?

Here's your doll.
Here's your doll...

This anger-- this anger
that I feel inside

is eating me up.

Some days I feel
it's not the alcohol

that's making me unclear.

It's this fucking anger.

This fucking anger
that I can't express.

I can't fucking
express it.

That is why I have
to close the book.

I have to kill.

I have to delete him
once and for all.

Answer. Come on.
Answer.

Can I hire you
as my new hairdresser?

Yeah.

Give me that.

What are you doing?

Sweetie, did you hear
the doorbell?

Why don't you go up
and see mommy?

Hello.

I am parked
on county line road.

I don't know
the exact address,

but I am next
to an old house,

on top of the hill.

If something
happens to me.

--What are you doing here?

Don't-- I'm not gonna
hurt you.

God.

Did you do it?

Did you kill
that man?

No, I didn't kill him.

Give me some money.

Whatever you have
in your pockets.

Anything will be fine.

What is this,
blackmail?

No, no, no.

If you hire me,
I'm required to honor
my patient's privacy.

Anything you tell me
will be kept a secret.

Silent, I promise.

And what are you
gonna do?

After you've given me
the third degree

are you gonna report me
to the police?

How many people
have you hurt, killed?

I have never hurt anyone.
Never.

And don't
ask me that again.

Have you ever lost
consciousness?

-Blackout?
-Yeah.

Have you found evidence
of violence when you wake up?

-Maybe.
-Destroyed objects?

Yeah, a few.

Blood on your clothes?

This is not a joke.
Do you understand me?

And you?
Do you understand me?

There is only one person
in this world

that I want
to see suffering,

and that is the man
that lives next door.

To see him suffering
is not enough.

I want him dead.

And what has this man
ever done to you?

He took everything.

My wife.

My daughter.

...the documents submitted
and hear

incredible testimony
of both sides.

I find in favor
of the defendant,

all causes of action
are hereby dismissed.

Counsel will meet
with me Thursday

to discuss costs, fees,
and disbursements.

That man didn't show up
to any of the hearings.

Not one.

Didn't even come to say
he was sorry.

He was afraid
of seeing my face.

They said that
he was too ashamed.

That he couldn't
take it.

That-- that the incident
had destroyed him.

And that he couldn't
move on

unless he stopped
talking about it.

Forgetting.

And me? I...

I tried--
i just started drinking

and drinking

just to forget
his name.

"Such a tragic turn
of events."

That's what everybody
kept repeating to me

over and over
while I was falling.

How did you
end up here?

Money has never been
a problem in my family.

He doesn't know
who you are?

No, I've got somebody
else's identity.

To him I'm just
Michael fordas,

the alcoholic
that moved in across
the street.

If you hate him so much,
and all you want

is to see him dead,

then why haven't
you killed him yet?

Why?

Why?

Why?
You ask me why?

Look at my face!

I am not well.

And my health conditions
have hindered me

from being able
to go through with it.

Believe me,
I've-- I've tried.

Maybe you're not
interested

in the fact
that he has a family?

You had one.

No, I am not interested.
I don't want to know.

Till ten minutes ago
i didn't even know

he had a daughter.

Now are you gonna
ask me that if--

if that makes
a difference?

No, it does not
make a difference.

Are you finished?

Do you really want
to stop drinking?

Yes, and if you think
that's gonna change my mind,

then you are
completely wrong.

I don't care.
I don't.

And you really can do
what you want.

Kill him.

There's one thing
that I find in life

is that people
learn how to deal

with their own guilt
on their own.

When do you want
to start?

When?

I-- I think...

Do you hear them?

Do I hear what?

Don't tell me
you drank again

after taking those pills.

Uh!

You have one new message.

I am parked
on county line road.

I don't know
the exact address--

message deleted.

Wake up!
Mr. fordas?

Michael.

Who the hell are you?

What are you doing
in my house?

I'm sorry.
I tried knocking,
but nobody answered.

The door was open,
so I let myself in.

Can I be informal,
Michael?

Well, I just need to check
the electrical junctions.

There was damage
to the system last night.

You know, all these
houses out here,

they're all
in the same grid.

What the fuck
are you talking about?

You haven't noticed
the blackouts?

Lights going in and out?

Yeah, i-- I told him
that there's no problem

at our house.

And these houses
have the same wiring.

If there's damage,
i-- I gotta check it out.

There's nothing
i can do.

Can you show me
where the fuse box is,
Michael?

I'll only steal
a few minutes
of your time.

In the basement?

Okay, it's in the basement.

I'll check it out.

Do you think
i don't know who you are?

What you're doing
in this house?

The difference
between you and me,

I would never let
anything bad

happen to my family.

And that bitch
you call your wife,

I should have
hit her twice.

Come on, Danny!

You can't kill me.
You don't have the guts.

Well, everything
seems fine.

No damage.

We'll just call it
a false alarm.

You have a good day.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry,
i couldn't get him
to follow me.

I tried, I mean,
I'll come back tomorrow.

I'll make up
some excuse that i--

that I saw his cables
were being chewed up
by rats--

no, no,
it's a bad idea.

I thought you wanted
to have a look around
the house.

Look, let's just leave it,
okay, Harold?

If this drunk
is bothering you,

I can teach him
a lesson.

I'll cock block his juice
every half an hour.

That'll drive
anybody crazy.

Let it go.

Look, if he bothers me again,
I'm gonna call the cops.

-But I can handle--
-i just don't want

to get in trouble
because of that asshole.

That's final, Harold.

I don't remember exactly
what we said last night.

The offer you made,

still stand?

It's not up to me.

It's up to you.

I don't know how serious
of a commitment

you wanna make.

Take your fucking--
wrist-- fucking watch.

You wanna bury me
in the back yard and--

do black magic on me?

Fine.

Just-- no clinics, okay?

No doctors,
no clinics, I promise.

You just have
to make sure that this
is really what you want.

I need to be sober.

Well, if that's the case,
then there's a place

where I need you to go,

and you will wait
for me there

until I finish
my shift.

No problem.
I'll talk to you then.

Oh, if you're looking
for your keys

you're wasting
your time.

You're in no condition
to drive,

it's too dangerous for you
and for others.

Take a bus.

Take a little walk.

It will help you
clear your mind.

Give me the address.

1201 pine Avenue.

What do I do
once I'm there?

Wait for me.

Have you felt
the need to have a drink
in front of you?

Why?

Why would you
send me here?

You're fucking crazy.

This is where
my life ended.

The first few hours
are the most complicated.

I just needed to understand
your level of dedication.

I was supposed to spend
the day with them.

But my work...

Was too much.

It was all piling up
against me.

Everything
was going wrong.

So I stayed
in the office instead.

On a Saturday.

If I just would have
driven them myself.

We could have stopped
for junk food,

Katherine would have
gotten in the water
a few minutes,

and then asked me
to go home.

My daughter, she--

she was always tired
of everything.

Our job's one
of the most stressful jobs

you can imagine.

When someone like Leonard
goes to his sponsor,

and says he can't
take it anymore,

well, it's a huge loss
to all of us.

Leonard,
how many years
have you been coming

to aa meeting?

-Two years.
-Two years?

Two years you've been
clean and sober.

Now you just want
to leave like that.

What does leaving
mean to you?

Leaving,
you choose to die.

Staying,
you choose to live.

I know you guys
look at me

like I'm some stupid
fucking kid

who doesn't know shit
about addiction.

But I watched
my father die

with 30 bottles of wine
around him,

and a needle
in his fuckin' arm.

So I know what the end
looks like, all right?

Now that brings me back
to the key question

the foundation
of our health group.

What exactly are you
looking for from us?

Turning your abstinence
into something pleasant?

Impossible.

Those nightmares that keep you
guys up at night, right?

Do you want them
to go away?

It's not gonna happen.

All right?
The addict crosses a line

that leaves
no easy way out.

Believe me,
if I could erase

this shit from your heads
i would do that.

But we don't
do magic here.

This is reality,
not a children's storybook.

We're here to help you
work on yourself.

Here you have
specialists

who are ready
to fucking help you.

But you have to realize
that when all these
demons come out,

and they're gonna
come out,

you have to face them
alone.

But this is a fight
you have to struggle through.

Nobody's gonna fight
that fight for you.

So if you wanna go leave
through that door

and start using again,
just go on and do it.

All right, you don't have
to explain yourself to us.

Just to you.

All right,
let's take a break.

Five minutes.

And then I wanna hear
all your stories

when we come back,
all right?

Hey, I could use
Claire's help

with this new group
that's coming in.

What do you think?

You didn't hear?

What?

Claire took leave.

For how long?

I sent you the memo.

You didn't-- you didn't
get the memo?

What's wrong?

You're unhappy?

Come on.

Look, it was the best way
to solve the situation.

Why are there police
inside your house?

My father,

he came around
a few days ago

threatening to have
me arrested

if I didn't comply
with his ultimatum.

Sounds like you have someone
who actually cares for you.

He doesn't care
about me.

My signature's
on too many documents

to leave things
as they are.

All the firms
that he put in my name

are all being audited.

Well, there's a place
where you could stay
for a while,

it's not a clinic,
an extreme form
of treatment,

but I understand
if you're not up for it.

Nobody has been here
for years.

How long
would I stay here?

Well, the way I see it
is that the conventional
method

is like trying
to wake someone up

who's in a coma,
by whispering
in their ear.

This method is like
a bucket of ice water
to the face.

It's shocking.

But it's much
more effective.

-How many days?
-Three days.

72 hours is the time
the body needs

to weaken its addiction
to alcohol.

You'll be alone.

You won't be able
to leave.

Twice a day you will receive
food, water and meds.

Nothing else.

You won't be able
to see me.

You won't have
any contact with me.

Are you ready
to take this step?

Yes.

Daniel, I personally
guarantee

that you will come out
of here clean.

Hey! It's cold.
Goddamn it.

Claire, please,
do you hear me?

It's cold in here.

Please, god,
it's cold in here.

I'm too cold.

Please.

Hey!

Hey, hey!
I gotta get
out of here, okay?

Fucking let me out of here,
I'm gonna fucking die.

I swear to fucking god,
i will fucking kill you,
you bitch!

You evil, fucking bitch,
i will fucking kill you

when I get out of here,
you fucking, fucking--

--bitch.

My god.

Hey! Hey! Hey!

Please!
I'm desperate.

I'm des--
dehydrating.

Dehydrated.

Please, just give me
a drink.

Goddamn it.
This is a fucking dream.

This isn't a fucking--
it's not a dream.

I can't do this
anymore!

I can't
resist anymore,
please.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Today you can come out.

Are you ready?

Yes.

These are the keys
of your car.

You can go and take
a hot shower over there,

I'll wait for you.

There's another place
i want to take you to after.

Okay?

Where are you going?

Are we gonna
stay here for long?

Look, I know I said
i would do anything
you want,

but I can't accept
to be treated like this.

I'll wait for you
in the car.

Do you think it's easy
to digest all the shit

you've been eating
all these years?

I never said that.

This is my last patient.

He died three months ago.

Do you wanna know
how long it took him
to get clean?

No.

Almost seven years.

The worst case
I've ever had.

He got to the clinic
right before I started
working there.

I fought with him
for him.

And in the end
we made it.

I told him to go back home
to his family,

so he could get back
on his feet for a while.

When you're at the source
of so many problems,

it's difficult
to forget the past.

He wasted
too much time.

And then he didn't
have any left.

So for this reason,

chose to ask
for my help again.

He asked me
to help him move on.

Maybe you won't
believe it,

but never for one second
did I think

that I would be
making him change
his mind.

I knew I had
to be with him

at that moment.

And I crossed
the line a therapist
should never cross.

It was my duty
to stay with him,

close to him
at that time,

beyond everything.

What the hell does this
have to do with me?

This is just the beginning
of your path.

It's just to let you know
that if anything happens,

I'll always
be there for you.

This is for you.

If you're not ready.

What does this mean?

You want me
to start again?

If you want it.

Is that what you want?

You should support me.

This is what
your body wants.

-Stop.
-I can't control you.

Stop!

The relapse is part
of the rehabilitation.

I don't wanna
hear you anymore.

Claire.
It's Hannah.

Please open the door
for a sec.

It's not right you
leaving us like this.

We need you.

Open up.

I know you.

Don't listen
to that asshole, Trevor.

I need time alone.

And I need time
to be left alone.

But you've always
been there for me,

since we started
all this.

So now I have
to be there for you.

I'm not asking.

I always ask myself
if I could have done
what you did.

You did it because you think
with your heart.

Hannah, I'm done
with all of you, okay?

And I know you're trying
to help me, but I'm done.

Okay?
Just stay out, please.

Oh, god.
Oh, god.

Oh, god.

Oh, god.
Oh, god!

Hey! Hey!

Hey!

Oh, shit.

Oh, god.
Oh, god.

Okay. Okay.
Come here.

Hey! Hey!

There's a man hurt.
I need help.

Stay here.
That won't help.

Get him ready.

Hey!
Hey!

Hey!

God.

Fuck!

Do you know how you feel
when you receive a call

like, how you suddenly
understand your whole life

will be devoted to it?

Like a mother of a son.

I won't be able to have
a child growing inside of me.

I think it's
just like that.

The man who I chose to love
decided to dedicate his life

to something else.

During his darkest days,

the only time
he forgot to meet me

was when the alcohol
weakened his memory.

During those moments
i thought

that a disease so strong
could not be defeated.

I hoped time
would change him,

when he realized
we were gonna be a family.

Every time he beat me,

I was able to erase
the pain,

but not that night.

Not the night
when he killed the life

that was growing
inside of me.

No one regrets the death
of that man.

And I don't regret taking
the steps that I took

to make it happen.

I'm here for you.

I'm here.
Trust me.

How's your head?

It hurts like hell.

Those dreams that I had,

I feel better.

Well, I gave you
some methadone

to help you sleep.
That's why you feel better.

And you don't have any
abstinence symptoms anymore

for a couple of days.

You know
you don't have
to feel ashamed.

What you did was a very
positive thing.

Trying to kill myself
could be a positive thing?

Jesus, you're worse
than I am.

You tried
to kill yourself.

And your body reacted
and made a choice.

Today
you could be dead.

Now, how does
that make you feel?

Right now it makes me feel
like I have a headache.

Everything that you
ever cared about

won't mean anything
any more.

It's a very
special day for you.

The only special day
i have is...

I get my hands
on that son of a bitch.

You just wanna
kill that man.

-Is that it?
-Yeah.

Of course I want
to kill him.

Daniel.

You don't have to pretend
with me anymore.

I know who you are.

What?

I've watched
all your home videos.

Weeks and weeks to invent
any kind of excuse

to not pull
the trigger.

It's because i--
i need help, isn't it?

That's right, yeah.

I know, because being
in that state of mind

is a very
comfortable place.

You're wrong.

Is killing
the man next door

really your only
purpose in life?

Because I want you
to recover.

But if you need this
to happen,

you can't postpone
anymore.

Today you'll decide.

Hello.
Veronica?

I'm just leaving now.

Don't tell me
he's cancelled.

Oh, no, no, no,
I'm just calling to
confirm the meeting.

I'm honestly, I'm actually
already here waiting for you.

And bring your daughter.

The focus group
is about to start

and the girls will be
very happy to meet her.

Oh, good. Neil will
be so excited.

Do you really think
there's room for another
counselor?

It's been so long
since I've practiced.

No, that's exactly
why I want to meet you--

before, and we'll discuss
everything in detail.

Don't worry, okay?

So see you in a bit.

So, you're all set.

Do what you have to do.

"The patient exhibits
homicidal tendencies.

Daniel's rehabilitation
can't be fully effective...

He needs to kill
his neighbor."

Oh, my god.

No, no.

No, no!

-It's very nice here.
-Yeah, it's beautiful.

Mommy, can we bring
Angelica next time?

Well, of course, love.

Who's Angelica?

Oh, Angelica's
her sister.

I would have brought her,
but she just got back

from school camp,
and she was so tired.

Is everything okay?