All language subtitles for October.Baby.2011.1080p.BluRay.H264.AAC-RARBG

[Birds Chirping]

♪♪ [Slow Rock]

[Man]
♪ The human heart is
a scary part in fact ♪

♪ 'Cause I could break you
and you could break me back ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Though my head
says just forget it ♪

♪ You'll get hurt
and you'll regret it ♪

♪ Ask me now
and I won't hesitate ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm fearful of heights
and you take me higher ♪

♪ What came with you
was a view to admire ♪

♪ I've always been
the kind to contemplate ♪

♪ But you like the kind
that don't hesitate ♪

♪ So excuse me
while I fall for you ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Excuse me
while I fall for you ♪

[Man #2]
Quiet, please!

♪ Thought about it
long and hard today ♪

[Mouthing Words]

♪ I realized
I'm standing in our way ♪

♪ Hey, hey ♪

[Clears Throat]

♪ Ask me now ♪

♪ And I won't ♪

Excuse me.

♪ Hesitate ♪

You know, if you haven't
learned your lines by now,

probably too late.

Thanks.
Real encouraging.

Nice outfit.

So, you nervous?
Yes.

[Chuckles]

- So where are you sitting?
- Front row, center balcony,
with Alanna.

Oh. I didn't know
she was coming.

Yeah. You kidding?
We wouldn't miss it.

[Man]
Got your tickets.
Got your tickets.

Got your programs.
Programs, five dollars.

Hey. Hey.

Oh, hey, sweetie.
Hey. Mmm.

I'm sorry I'm late.
I got your text.
Yeah?

But I had to do a total
knee replacement at 4:00.
Took three hours. Can you fix this?

They need to quit
treating you like a resident.

I think they think
I am a resident.
You have the tickets?

- I don't. I thought you did.
- Hey, sir and madam.

May I please see
your tickets real quick?

Let's check 'em out,
make sure these babies
are legit.

Oh. Uh-oh.
You guys are bronze package.
Problem?

Um, minor.
I can bump you guys up
to platinum package.

It's a small fee, $22.

Basically, it's better A.C.
In the building, better seats.

And the proceeds go to
a charity, a really cool one.
You're Truman.

- I'm... My German?
- Our daughter's in the play.
It starts now. We gotta go.

Yes, I am Truman.
She's told us
all about you.

All right. Thanks for buying
the platinum package!

[Chattering]
Excuse me. Hey.

Hey.
[Kisses]

How are you?
I'm good.

Get a program?
No, I didn't.

I'll just
look off yours.

So that took a while.

Uh, yeah.
I went to see a friend.

How is she?

She's nervous.

Well, I guess
I would be too.

[Man]
Thank you
for joining us tonight-

Excuse us.
For our production.

A special welcome
to our alumni and guests.
Good to have you.

We are proud of
our spring production...

one of our enduring traditions
here at the university.

This year, we are featuring
some fresh new faces.

So join me as we
welcome to the stage our cast,

as they perform
an original play
written by yours truly.

[Applause]

Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. Thank you.

So without further ado,
I present to you Annabella.

Whoo-whoo!

[Whistling]

- Annabella?
- Is that you, Desmond?

Hello, Annabella.

You can dispense
with the pleasantries,
Desmond.

It's a bit trifle,
don't you think?

If you'd just let me explain,
I'm confident we would agree.

You need to know
that my family has, well,
certain standards for me.

Standards
which I do not meet?

[Labored Breathing]
Admit it, Desmond. Please.

[Gasping]

- "I've realized"...
- I've...

I've realized that...
I have certain standards
that you do not meet.

That's not right.
It's time I set sail
on my own.

It's time I discovered
the life I've always dreamed of
but thought impossible.

[Heartbeat]

[Muffled]
Get it together, Hannah.

I'm leaving, Desmond.

Leaving?

Where, Annabella?

[Labored Breathing]
I'm...

[Groans]

[Whispers]
I want...

[Wheezing]
Hannah!

Excuse me.

- [Father]
Hannah?
- [Coughing]

- [Wheezing]
- Hannah?

- Hannah!
- [Gasps]

[Voice Muffled, Echoing]

Get her inhaler.
It's in the brown bag!

- Get her inhaler, now!
- We need Hannah's bag!

Hannah. No, no.
Hannah. No.

Listen to me.
Hannah. Hannah!

[No Audible Dialogue]

[Siren Wailing, Distant]

[Woman On P.A., Indistinct]

Um, Dr. Jacob Lawson.
Is he in surgery?

[Typing]

Thanks.

Yeah. But what
I'd like to do is maybe
a few more tests.

Just to make sure.
Sure.

[Indistinct]

Hi, sweetie.

I was looking for you.
They said you'd be here.

What was that about?
Does he...
Does he know what happened?

Uh...
[Chuckles]

No, no, no. The full
test results won't be in
for another couple days.

But your P.E.F. Levels
were fine when you
stayed here overnight.

So Dr. Stewart thinks
it's good for us all
to go home.

Is that not what you think?

Yeah. N-No, I do.
I agree.

I... I agree
with Dr. Stewart.

He's a specialist.
We need to do what he says.

All right. Well, I'm gonna
go get changed, I guess.

Okay.

[Bell Chiming]

If you would just
let me explain, I'm
confident we would agree.

You need to know
that my family...

they, well,
have certain standards
for me.

[Woman]
Standards
which I do not meet?

Admit it, Desmond. Please.

It's time I discovered the life
I've always dreamed of
but thought impossible.

[Phone Ringing]

[Keys Jingling]

Predictions?

Is there something
you're not telling me, Dad?

I was thinking about
asking you the same thing.

[Door Opens, Closes]

Jacob?
Hi.

Hey, Grace, Hannah.

[Softly]
Hi.

It's good to see
you all again.

Although I wish it was
under better circumstances.

So how have you felt this week?
Any new symptoms or problems?

No. I feel fine.

Well, I've looked
at your E.E.G. And M.R.I.,

and it looks as though we need
to reconsider our current
management of the epilepsy.

Stress, sleep deprivation
and alcohol can increase
your risk of seizures.

Since you haven't had
a seizure since childhood,
I just have to ask...

L-L-Look. I don't do drugs.
I don't drink.
I don't smoke. I haven't-

If that's what you mean.

Oh. I see.

B.P.D., acute asthma,
seizures,
multiple hip surgeries...

most when you were
too young to remember.

I remember some.

[Clears Throat]

Hannah, I believe
that everything
you've suffered from...

is related.

Why am I sick?

You were born
very prematurely.
Twenty-four weeks.

Premature birth
or low birth weight...

and a traumatic delivery
can be associated
with this condition.

I was premature,
and that's why I'm sick.

Hannah, we're concerned
about you...

because of the physical
and emotional symptoms
that you're having.

What do you...
What do you mean, um,
emotional?

Your father
e-mailed me this.

"I feel dead inside.

No. Something worse
than death.

I am still a child,
a child trying to find
a place in this world.

I have so many unanswered
questions, questions I feel
but can't even begin to speak...

because there are
no words to express them.

Something is missing.

Why, God, do I feel...

do I feel unwanted?

Why do I feel I have
no right to exist?

Why do I spend more time
wanting to end my life
than live it?"

You... You read my journal?

Hannah, I believe
that what you're feeling
is normal,

and is even expected.

What is...
What is this about?

What? What?

Hannah, we're not
your biological parents.

Hang on. That's, uh...
That's not how
I wanted to tell you.

Why didn't you tell me
I was adopted?

[Clears Throat]
Okay. Um...

Hannah, you were born premature
because you are the survivor
of a failed abortion.

[Mouths Words]

Your physical and I believe
your emotional symptoms...

can be traced to this,
as they have in other cases.

I-I-I can only speak
to your physical symptoms.

But I'm suggesting that you
begin treatment for your
psychological symptoms as well.

Immediately.

Now, I'm prescribing
a new medication
to help control your seizures,

and you have to continue
to take your current medication.

- Hannah.
- Don't-

I have to go.

- Hey. I don't think
that's a good idea.
- Don't touch me.

[Rock Splashes]

[Beeping]

[Line Ringing]

[Man]
Hello?
[Chattering]

Hi.
Hey. I can't hear you.

[Man #2]
I have set your iron
on fire.

[Man #1]
Can I call you back?

Jason, the iron's on fire.
No, it's too...

It's in my hand.
It's really loud in here.
I'm sorry.

Can I call you back?
The iron's on fire.

[Scoffs]
Sure. That's fine. Whatever.

Call me back.

Bye.

[Sighs]

[Rock Splashes]

- We didn't even talk about it
before you sent the e-mail.
- What am I supposed to do?

I find out my daughter
is contemplating suicide.
Am I supposed to do nothing?

- I don't think so.
- It's not like that.

Hannah, sweetheart.
Please sit down. Uh...

We need to talk to you.
You've had 19 years
to talk to me.

I can understand
why you would feel that way,

but, please, I would like
to talk to you now, so sit-

I don't want to sit down.
I don't want to talk about it.

- Then what do you want?
- I want to see my birth certificate.

Why?
Because I want to know
who I am. I...

This is who
you are, Hannah.

Okay. Well, I wanna know
who my birth mother is.
I wanna know how I can find her.

- I can't do that.
- Why?

Because I can't.
I can't-
[Sighs]

All right. I can't do that
because I have no idea
who your birth mother is.

- I have no idea
where she is, when she...
- Here.

It's your birth certificate.

Thank you.

[Footsteps Depart]

[Door Closes]
[Sighs]

[Vehicle Approaches]

[Engine Off]
[Door Opens]

Wh-Wh...
Who's there?

Hello?

It's me.
You can put down
the pepper spray.

Great.

How did you know
I was here?

You are
way too predictable.

I am not.
"I am not."

[Sighs]

Can I come in?
No. I'm mad at you.

What are you doing?
I am taking off my shoes.

Why are you
taking off your shoes?

Because... I'm sorry.

And I don't like
when people are mad at me.

Especially you.

So you doing all right?

No.

You want to
talk about it?

Mmm... No.

My whole... life
is a lie.

Why do you say that?

The hip surgeries,

the nightmares,
the... asthma,

the seizures...

All of it's connected.

My parents
aren't my parents.

They adopted me.

And...

they adopted me
because my birth mother
tried to abort me.

I guess I wasn't
supposed to survive.

And I barely did.

All I know...
Well, all they will
let me know...

is that I was born
in a hospital
in Mobile, Alabama,

which is 12 hours away.

And I don't know
how I would get there.

Or if I did go,
what I would do.

I just-
I want answers.

I want answers
to all these questions.

I want to be able
to get on with my life.
You know?

Because right now,
I just feel stuck.

Like there's...
Like there's no way out.

♪♪ [Rock Ballad, Faint]

I'm stuck in this place
that I hate.

♪♪ [Man Singing, Indistinct]
[Mutters, Chuckles]

Told you
I didn't want to
talk about it.

Wow. Hannah, I...

I'm sorry.

I don't know
what else to say. Uh...

I imagine things
are pretty terrible
right now.

But they'll get better.

♪♪ [Continues]

That's really... optimistic.

Look. Things are
gonna work out.
Okay? I promise.

You'll know what to do.

What makes you
so sure?

I know you.

I don't even
know me.

[Cell Phone Ringing]

Who's that?
Alanna.

I'll just call her back.
No, no, no.
You can answer it.

Are you sure?
Yeah. I mean,
you should.

[Ringing Continues]

Hello?

Hey.

No, no.
Just hanging out.
What's up?

Um... Yeah.
Yeah, sure.
[Inhaler Rattling]

I guess you can come.

Look, can I...
Actually,
can I call you back?

Yeah.
No, I promise.

All right.
Thanks. See you.

♪♪ [Continues]

I am officially the worst
at planning road trips.

Three days
before we leave,

and we have
no idea where we're going.

Awesome.

Look.

Get in my car.
I'll take you home.

We both have
exams tomorrow.

That's the last thing
on my mind right now,
Jason.

I know, but we need to s...

I need to study.

[Sighs]
Come on.

Just agree reluctantly.
Please?

♪♪ [Grows Louder]

Okay, you stalker.

♪ Whoa, I'll make it
without you ♪

♪ In my life ♪

♪ I'll make it
without you ♪

♪ And though my body's
laying here ♪

♪ It's my mouth
that must be lying now ♪♪

Behold.

Wow.

What a piece of junk.
It's vintage classic.

[Jason]
It's vintage junk.
Look at it.

- It's dead.
- It's not dead.

This is your cousin's?
Yes.

What does he look like?

Not nearly
as good as the van.

[Jason]
By the way, I think I know
where we're going.

[Clears Throat]

You have
a wild side, Hannah.

What?

I know you got one
deep down in there
somewhere. I mean...

Don't you ever wanna
just go crazy?

[Patrons]
Shh!
No, I don't.

I need you
to have a wild side,
Hannah.

Can I hear you say
Mardi Gras?

[Patrons]
Shh!
Shh! No, you can't.

And are you even aware
that you're in a library
right now?

So, did Truman
tell you?
Tell me what?

Well, spring break.
We finally decided
on New Orleans.

And we want you
to come.

Come on, Hannah.
NOLA. Mardi Gras!

[Patrons]
Shh!

You know, uh, Mardi Gras
didn't actually start
in New Orleans?

Yeah, it began
in Mobile, Alabama.

Which is on our way,
so I figured, you know,

if we got some time,
we can swing by there
and check it out.

It's a pretty cool place.

Yeah. Thank you
for the history lesson.

I'm just saying, I don't want
anyone to feel like
they're stuck on this trip.

You know? Like, if someone
wants to go somewhere,
they should go.

I was doing just fine
before you came over here.

Do you think I'm ready
for a trip like that?

I think
it's now or never.

- It's now or never!
- [Patrons]
Shh!

- Come on!
- [Hannah]
Can't believe this.

Who's that?
Sir, this is a library.

[Door Alarm Chiming]

Jason.
Hey, Mr. Lawson.

How are you?
I'm fine. Thanks for
getting back to me.

Yeah.
Let me guess.
You're Truman, right?

Yup. Yeah.

This the charity
you were telling me about?

What is going on?
I thought I fixed that.

[Clears Throat]
This is the classic upon which
we'll be taking our voyage.

Our Millennium Falcon,
if you will.

[Man]
Her name is Evelyn.
Hey, who's the old dude, man?

[Truman]
Remember Hannah?
Yeah. The spaz?

- Yeah.
This is her dad.
- Oh. Hey, dude.

- Who are you?
- Bmac. His cousin.

And, uh, you know,
I'm driving them
to their thing,

'cause this is my baby,
you know?

[Jacob] I'm sorry. What did
you say your name was again?
Bmac.

No, your name.
Your real name.
Your actual name.

I-I go by Bmac.
Seriously, why...

Truman, I came here
to talk to Jason. You mind?
A little privacy, please?

Absolutely. You...
You should do that.

- Whatever, man.
- I'm sorry.
What can I do for you?

Hannah's sick. You know that.
So why did you invite her?

[Clears Throat]
Uh...

Dude. What's that guy's
problem, man?

It's your beard.
You look like the Unabomber.
Whatever, man.

I don't know.
I figured she might
have some fun.

Fun.
Yeah.

Honestly, I was just
trying to help.

You're not helping, Jason.
You're not helping at all.

In fact, you've made
my position very uncomfortable.

I'm sorry.

[Sighs]

Look, Hannah's not listening
to me right now, and I...

Look, Mr. Lawson.
I can't get
in the middle of this.

You're in the middle of this,
Jason, like it or not.

You are smack-dab
in the middle of this thing.

And I got stuff
going on at my house
you have no idea about.

So I would appreciate it
if you would just take
my side on this thing, okay?

Hmm?

[Sighs]
Fine.

Yeah.

I wouldn't go 10 feet
in that thing if I were you.

- [Object Clatters]
- She can hear you!

I didn't know that-
that sticks and stones
could break your beard.

[Object Clatters]
[Truck Departs]

[Alarm Clock Beeping]
[Man On Radio]
Here on the Jon Walden show,

Revocation Radio,
your true...

[Continues, Indistinct]

[Groans]
The sun is up,
and you're still here?

[Clicks Tongue]
Yup.

Gotta go
to the clinic today.

Although...
Wish I was going in scrubs.

Had a really good
talk with Hannah.

- About?
- About the trip.

Told her I didn't think
she should go,

be better
if she stayed here.

I don't necessarily think
she agreed with me,
but I do think she understood.

So, she's not going?

[Clicks Tongue]
I told her that we trusted her
to make the right decision.

So I think we're good.

Okay.
I'm gonna get some coffee.
You want some coffee?

Sure.

[Cabinet Door Closes]

♪♪ [Pop]
♪♪ [Man Vocalizing]

♪♪ [Continues]

♪ It's love ♪

♪♪ [Continues, Indistinct]
[Laughing]

[All Chattering]

No, no, no. Don't put in
your headphones, Diego.

Attention, van.
Diego doesn't want to talk
about our problem.

This is really a surprise.

[Bmac] Everyone wishes
they had headphones
at this point.

[Truman]
Fat Man's burgers are the best-

You do not know
what you're talking about
when it comes to burgers...

That is actually meat fillers,
which are little yellow pellets
that come in a cardboard box.

Like, seriously. When you cook
a burger, all the bad stuff
drains down into the grill.

[Hannah]
It's in your body. It's inside...

[Bmac]
We're not listening to you.
You're making me really angry...

♪♪ [Continues, Loud]

♪♪ [Vocalizing Continues]

♪ It's love ♪♪
♪♪ [Ends]

♪♪ [Acoustic Guitar]
♪ That's the meaning of life ♪

♪ That's the meaning of love ♪

♪ And that's the meaning
of everything ♪

♪ And that's all you need
to know about everything ♪♪

Yeah.
Wow. You're really good.

Thanks. That actually
was supposed to be a jingle
for a barbecue company,

but they thought
it was too deep.

[Woman]
You know, you should go
on one of those reality shows.

[Bmac]
I don't think so. Those things
are rigged, I think.

You know, sometimes
I write songs based on dreams
I imagine other people have.

- [Siren Whoops]
- Tow truck!
[Grunts]

[Chatter On
Police Radio]
Are you with the tow truck?

Sir, step away
from the vehicle.

- [Radio: Feedback]
- You been drinking?

No. Of course not.
Why does everybody always
think I've been drinking?

- Explain this to me.
- Oh. When...

Nobody ever tells you
you can't drive
on the beach, man.

They do it on TV
all the time.
Also, running...

Curly Top, do you see
any hotels on this beach?
Yes. No.

- Any restaurants or bars?
- Is this a trick question?
No.

Yeah. It's because
it's a land preserve.

For what?
Set aside for
endangered turtle eggs.

Turtle eggs? Dude, seriously?
Am I being punked?
Like, what's...

- [Radio Chatter Continues]
- No, that's... No.

- $5,000?
- He's the owner
and the driver.

N-No! Truman!
You're the one who told me
to drive here!

I don't even know
your real name.
What is... Bro...

Okay. Listen.
I don't have time for this.
I need to impound this car.

I'm gonna ask all of you to
please pick up your belongings
and make your way to the curb.

- I'm gonna also
need your names.
- Our... Our real names?

- Excuse me?
- Sir, can I just
say something?

This is my first trip
like this, okay?

I've never done anything
like this before.

And the only reason that I came
is because I'm trying to get
to Mobile, Alabama, because...

Okay, listen, ma'am.
I don't have time for this.

I'm gonna have to ask all of you
to make your way down...
No. Just listen.

I promise. I have
a really good excuse.

See, I'm trying
to get to Mobile because...

I just found out I'm adopted.

Like, last week.

And this is my only chance
to find out who I really am.

I mean, to find my mother and...

Well, I think she lives there.
At least I hope.

And we probably deserve
everything that
you're trying to say,

but, really, I...

[Sighs]

I've got... $93.50...
No, $93.40. This'll help...

Ma'am, I'm not
gonna take your money.
Just take it.

I'm not gonna
take your money.

Seriously. That was in...
I thought- Comple...

Hey, uh... Thanks so much
for letting us off the hook...

Don't talk to me.

Take care of this?
Yeah.

Let's push it, y'all.
Come on. Push, push, push!

Come on, Evelyn.
You can do it, Evelyn.
I know it's painful!

[Jason]
Truman's not
doing anything.

I'm... I'm hurt...
[Hannah] Truman, I've
been doing all of this.

In my legs
right now.

You did it.

♪♪ [Rock]

[Man]
♪ The love ♪

♪ That you've tried
to find a way ♪

Hey, Hannah.

[Car Horn Honks]

Hey, I think...
I just wanted you to know,

I think it's really brave
what you're doing, you know?

Like the whole, you know,
thing with your mom and...

I just hope you find,
you know, whatever it is
that you're looking for,

'cause, you know,
it's important.

So I really
shouldn't eat burgers?

I guess it's just so hard for me
to think about
eating healthy food.

I mean, like...
just weirds me out.

Like, and tofu?
What's that stuff?

Who came up with the idea
to take a bean...

and turn it into a sandwich
that tastes like
a hamburger remotely?

I mean, vegans always try
to tell you that, like,
tofu tastes like real beef.

That is untrue.

♪ Will make us one ♪

♪ Will
make us one ♪

♪♪ [Fades]

[Truman]
Jojo. You ever know
a guy named Jojo?

I've never even heard
of a guy named Jojo.

[Sighs]
This is literally
the worst hotel I've ever seen.

It looked better
on the Internet.

Where, at
NormanBatesHotel. Com?

HotelMonkey. Biz.

I'm sleeping in the car.

Hannah, you will be
rooming with Alanna.

- Is there another option?
- No. Danielle paid double
for her own room.

I'm sleeping here in the van,
so you can have my room.

No, that won't work,
because you're staying with me.

And neither Hannah nor Alanna
would... would stay with me.
Would you?

Get away from me,
Truman.

[Door Slams]
Respect Evelyn!

[Pills Rattling]

That's a lot
of pills.

Yeah.
[Chuckles]
It's ridiculous, huh?

[Scoffs]

You know what I think?

I think you just
like to use this stuff.

That way people
have to be nice to you,
you know?

Like, "Poor little Hannah.
So wounded."

I'm sorry.
I didn't mean...

Okay. You never mean to do anything,
but that's the point. You still do.

Why did you even
come on this trip anyway?

Jason invited me.

We didn't want you to.

He's just...
too nice to say it.

Um... I usually get up early,
but I can set an alarm
if you want.

Hannah, just go to sleep.
What is wrong with you?

[Sighs]

[Bmac Snoring]

[Hannah Muttering]
[Door Rattling]

[Grunts, Sputters]

What's going on?
It's just me.

What are you doing?

Getting some stuff.
Go back to sleep.

[Door Closes]

Hannah! Hannah.
What's going on?

I'm leaving.

- It's the middle of the night.
Can we talk about this?
- I don't wanna talk about it.

I'm... I'm leaving,
and you're staying here
with your... girlfriend!

I realize that I'm a problem,
and that I never
should have come here,

so you can just go to
New Orleans with everybody else
in your posse...

and just have fun or whatever.

I don't even
care anymore.

You're not making sense.
What is wrong?

Apparently I'm what's wrong.

Look. I'm leaving.
Don't follow me.

Dude. Her dad's
gonna kill you, man.

He's scary, man.

♪♪ [Ballad]

[Man]
♪ Have a seat
upon this branch of mine ♪

♪ It's been a while, honey ♪

♪ I think I feel fine ♪

[Sighs]

♪ I see the question mark
atop your spine ♪

♪ I've got a ladder, honey ♪

♪ Won't you let me climb ♪
♪♪ [Fades]

Sorry it took me so long.

The only rental place
that was open was by
the airport, so... took a while.

I don't need
your charity, Jason.

Yeah, you do.

What? So we're just gonna
go to Mobile together or what?

Beats walking.

What would
Alanna think?

Doesn't matter
what she thinks.

This was my decision.
All right? She knows that.

Now get in.
I don't have time for this.

- Why do you care?
- I care about you, all right?

No. I'm not the kind of girl
who just gets in a car
with anybody.

Right. But you will
hitchhike by yourself-

I wasn't hitchhiking.
I was walking.

Okay. No, that's
equally smart.

I would've been fine.
Mm-hmm.

♪♪ [Rock]
[Man]
♪ But we all lost track ♪

♪ Soon as we got control ♪

♪ So show me the way ♪

♪ I wanna be like that ♪

♪ Yeah ♪

♪ And I wanna hear you
call my name ♪

♪ And not look back ♪

♪ 'Cause all the faint lights ♪

♪ They left me
stranded and lost ♪

♪ Reaching through
empty pockets ♪

♪ Trying to pay my cost ♪

♪ I put up a fight ♪
♪♪ [Fades]

You remember
when we were nine, I think?

When you were nine,
I was eight and a half.

Yes. Thank you for that
unnecessary correction.

I was nine,
you were eight and a half.

And we would go
with the Thompson kids,
remember, and we would...

Race to the water?
Yeah.

This all just
reminded me of it.

♪ All the faint lights ♪

- ♪ They left me
stranded and lost ♪
- [Laughs]

♪ Reaching through
empty pockets ♪

♪ Trying to pay my cost ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ I put up a fight ♪
[Hannah Squeals]

♪ Oh, no
But now it's taking its toll ♪

[Laughing]

♪ Oh ♪

♪ I'm waiting
for something to set fire ♪

[Laughing]
♪ Wake up my soul ♪♪

♪♪ [Ends]

Hey.
Hi.

I have $90 and change,
or something like that.

And... [Chuckles]
A phone that doesn't work
because the ocean broke it.

- The ocean broke it?
- Shh.

Do you have a towel?
The cheapest we have
is 110.

Unless, uh,
you are Triple "A."

- Oh, yeah. We are.
We have all three A's.
- Yeah.

[Jason]
But we need
separate rooms, really.

[Hannah]
Yes, because
we're not together.

Like that.
No.

[Typing]

Triple "A" is 99.

Mmm. Only one room
available at that rate.

The only other room
I have is, uh,
the luxury suite.

299.

Uh... That...
That sounds great.

- Uh, we just need
the regular room, though.
- The very regular room.

[Jason]
Standard.
Mm-hmm. This...

- Maybe next time.
- Yeah.

[Chattering,
Chuckling]

I'm freezing.

This is awkward.

Yeah. Definitely
only one bed.

Yeah.

[Whispers]
Are you asleep?

I literally
just laid down.
Oh, yeah.

Sorry.

Are you okay
down there?

Well, you know,
I usually prefer...

the king-size floor,
but this is all they had, so...

I'll make do.

That's funny.
You're funny.

Do you think
I'm being weird
about all this?

Why are we whispering?

I don't know.
I mean, you're, like,
the popular college guy.

Girls... They find you attractive
and enjoy your company.

Would you think
it was weird if I said...

I'd never been
with anybody before?

Ph... Physically speaking?

Which is purely
a hypothetical statement,
of course.

Um...
Oh, that...
Sorry.

I didn't-
[Chuckles]
I didn't mean to get into that.

- Good night.
- Good night.

I can feel you down there,
judging me.

Like you think this is
totally ridiculous.

Like I'm some sort of
Christian homeschooling freak.

- I'm a Chr...
- You thought it.

- I did?
- I thought so.

No. That was a question.

Look. Here's the thing.

What's so wrong
with not having a wild side?

I mean, I'm glad
about the fact...

that I haven't done these...
things with...

And... And...

I... I have a wild side.

You've seen me
play Scrabble.

I'm wild.

What are you thinking?

[Scoffs]
I, uh... I think...

You know what?
[Sighs]

I can't do this.
No matter
what the circumstances.

Hannah,
where are you going?

Stop judging me.

[Lamp Crashes]

Wow.

[Man]
♪ Don't want
to sound ridiculous ♪

♪ But I think you know
I'm sick of this ♪

♪ And I kinda think
that we can bend, do you? ♪

♪ I'll try to be
a better friend to you ♪

Go away.

Hello?

You're not a freak,
Hannah.

♪ That I was
only looking out for me ♪

♪ Instead of getting you
the help you need ♪
[Sighs]

Well. Good night.

♪ Who do you think you are? ♪

♪ Who do I think I am? ♪

♪ Barely listening ♪

♪ To my oldest ♪

♪ My oldest friend ♪

[Phone Ringing]

♪♪ [Fades]
[Sighs]

Was there a problem
with the room?

No.
[Clears Throat]

No. No, the room was fine.

Because
there's no refund,

no matter where
you, uh, sleep.

Hannah, I'm...

I'm sorry.

[Rattling Door]

Mmm.

I do have a wild side.

Can't believe
you just broke in.

I didn't break in.
The door was open.

It was the back door,
and you pried it open.

[Scoffs]
I used to wander in the old
O.R. At my dad's hospital.

Cool thing is, all the files
and all the equipment
are still there.

[Door Closes]
[Jacob]
Hello?

[Sighs]
I'm home.

[Keys Clatter]
[Sighs]

Oh, scrubs.
You got your wish.

Yeah.

[Sighs]
You talk to Hannah today?

I tried to call her
a couple of times.

Cell phone not working?

I don't think that girl
is ever gonna grow up.

I remember the first time
I held her in my arms.

I couldn't believe
something so small could
have such a power over me.

And I did see him smile.

Wonder if she's ever
gonna be able to...

see things
from our perspective?

I think
we should tell her.

Tell her what?

Everything.

Oh.

No. She couldn't handle it.

[Chuckling]

I think she could.

No, she couldn't.
Trust me.

And I think we need
to trust our daughter.

- [Man]
All right. Turn.
- [Shutter Clicking]

- No light. We can't see you.
- [Cries]

[Sighs]
[Whistle Blows]

[Door Closes]

[Sighs]

[Typing]

Breaking and entering.
Do you, uh...

[Finger Tapping]
Do you understand
the consequences?

You do?

Yeah, no. Not really.

All right. Look.
Why were you there?

Alanna, don't freak out.

[Sighs]
Something happened, and...

Long story short,
me and Hannah are in jail.

Yeah. It's not like
we planned it.

You got yourself into this.
Get yourself out.

Alanna, pl...
[Dial Tone]

We'd gone so far,
and the hospital was all I had.

It's the only place
that I had left.

It was a dead end.

[Scoffs]

You know, if you're gonna...
put me in jail,

please just get it over with.

'Cause... [Sighs]
My dad's gonna kill me.

Owens Free Clinic.

My dad's gonna kill me.

He's gonna kill you too.

[Chuckling]

This, uh...

What are the odds?

I had some dealings
with this clinic.

Um, there were some
bomb threats,
death threats and whatnot.

I dealt with a doctor
and two nurses,

and the reason I recall this
is because...

one of the nurses
was just, well...

She was very kind to me.
Um...

Here you go.
This is one of her statements.

The signatures are the same.
Mm-hmm.

Why would she sign
my birth certificate?

Um... No idea.

Her name is Mary.

Mary Rutledge.

[Typing]

Um, phone is unlisted.

There's just an address, and...

It hasn't been verified
in quite a while.

[Muttering]

[Paper Shuffling]
Good luck.

Wait. What about
all the...

Don't worry
about it. Um...

Look, I'm... I'm very sorry
for this misunderstanding,
all right?

I hope you won't
think badly of our city
and you'll come back again.

So, we're free to go?

Yeah.

[Chuckles]

Jackie out there will,
uh, get your stuff
and check you out.

Oh. You know what?
Wait a minute.

What will you say?
I-I mean, if you find your mother,
what will you say?

I'm just-
I'm just curious.

I don't know.

Well...

My wife
has this thing she says.

"To be human
is to be beautifully flawed."

And... Well, she's...

She's five months pregnant
with our fourth,

so I think I understand
what you're going through
and how hard it must be.

So... You know, life
isn't always black and white.

So, hate the crime,
not the criminal.

All right. Good luck.
[Hannah]
Thank you.

Do you want me
to go with you?

[Knocking]

Yes.
Can I help you?

Are you Mary?
Yes.

I don't know how else to...

Why did you sign this?

[Exhales]
How did you find me?

A police officer
recognized your signature.

Oh.

Sergeant Dodd.

You do favor her.

She was
a pretty girl.

Barely 18.

I wasn't much older,
but...

I was older.

You know, the girls
that came there,

they really knew
what they wanted,
you know.

They were sure of it.

But your mother,

she was conflicted.

I'm the one that took her
in the back and prepped her
for the procedure.

The abortion?

Yes.
The abortion.

She tried to convince me
that she was making
the right decision.

But, you know,
she was really trying to
convince herself.

She told me
she didn't even know
the fella.

Didn't know
his name.

Met him at a bar
and...

had a night together,
and then he was gone.

I listened.

Listened to her like I did
a hundred girls before her.

Nodded.
Told her I understood.

For some of those girls,
I was their only friend.

Halfway through...

Well, something
must have gone wrong.

I wish I knew what.

But...

when I went
to see your mother,

she was just awakening,

and the doctor
was telling her that it
had been a failed attempt.

Is that... normal?

For him.

[Sighs]

There were things
that happened there.

Terrible things.

Things they had me do.

When you hear something
enough times,

somehow you start
to believe it.

It was tissue.
That's what they told us.

It was tissue
that couldn't survive.

Nonviable tissue.

Your mother...

came back
the next day.

She said she wanted
to finish the procedure,

that she had to go to school,
she had to have a career,

and she knew she couldn't
do that with the baby,

so this was the only way.

I took one look at her,
and I knew she was in labor...

and too young and naive
to know it.

I had two choices.

I chose to take her
to the hospital.

When we got there,
she was ready to deliver.

She begged me to stay.

I was really
the only one she had,

so I did.

Your brother came first.
I'll always...

Brother?

I'm sorry.
What are you talking about?

Hannah, your mother
was carrying twins.

And your brother
came first.

And I'll always
remember him.

He was so teeny.

He was less than a pound.

And he was...

damaged.

His arm was missing.
Completely gone.

Torn off during
the failed attempt.

And he was just-

I saw him
shakin' there.

I saw the pain.

And I didn't see
no tissue.

I just saw the face
of a child.

But you
were the big surprise.

Nobody knew about you.
Not even your mother.

And you came out-

Big eyes.

Just beautiful.

I never went back
to that clinic.

And I never
nursed again.

Was this mine?

Your mother's.

She gave it to me
when she left the hospital.

Then she just left.

They looked for her,
but she had
changed her name...

and she was long gone.

My brother...
How long did...

How long before,
you know, he...

Hannah, your parents
adopted both of you.

I-I would come by
now and then...

and see you
in the N.I.C.U.

They were always there.

They sat right by
the incubators...

and would read
passages of the Bible.

They were praying people.
I remember.

And he fought hard.

He never did
leave the hospital.

He died four months
after y'all were born.

I know where
your birth mother is.

I saw her
not long ago.

And she did
get that education.

And she does
have that career.

H-Her name is, uh,
Cindy Hastings now.

She works at a law firm
in town.

Finally home,
after all that running.

I've needed
to have my say.

Thank you.

[Sniffling, Sobbing]

[Sobbing Continues]

[Paper Ripping]

[Sobbing Continues]

Hi.

Hey.
You gonna
go see her?

Yeah. I have to.

You know, I'm s...

I'm starting to think...
that I shouldn't have
found out about all of this.

Because... deep down,

there's always
just been this...

feeling...

Nothing that's happened
is your fault.

[Sobbing]

[Knocking]

Come in.

[Door Opens]

Hey.

Gonna be okay?

All right. Well, we gotta go
sleep in the ice machine
or something.

How are you paying
for this?

I saved a few bucks
for this trip.

Don't worry.
I'll bill you later.

Hey, Jason?

You know what the last thing
was that I remember
before I blacked out?

The last thing
that went through my mind?

Falling.

[Sighs]
Falling into perfect blue water,

holding your hand.

Why have you always
been there for me?

Good night.

[Door Opens]

[Door Closes]

[Woman]
♪ I love you more
than words could say ♪

♪ When you're sleeping,
I'm awake ♪

♪ Tears on my pillowcase ♪

♪ Only one thing matters
in this life ♪

♪ Will you make it
to the other side? ♪

♪ And do you believe
in bridges? ♪

♪ Well, I know
where you are ♪

♪ And I see
where you're coming from ♪

♪ 'Cause I've been there
myself♪

♪ Put my faith
in a man-made God ♪

♪ I know where you are ♪♪

♪♪ [Fades]

Can I help you?

I'm here to see
Cindy Hastings.

Oh, she's out
at the moment.
Would you like to wait?

Do you have a restroom
I could use?

Thanks.
[Phone Rings]

Cornwell and Hastings,
attorney at law.
How may I help you?

Uh, yeah.
She's really booked up
for the day though.

Monday.
Mm-hmm.

Hi.

Can I help you?

I, uh... I'm sorry.

Um, Stacy didn't tell me
that I had another appointment.

I'm sorry that I'm just,
like, in your office like this.

Um... I-I'm Hannah.
I'm... I'm Hannah Lawson.

Are you, uh,
one of the new interns?

You know, I would love
to talk, but I have
a lunch appointment.

I was...

I was born October 7, 1991,

at Mobile General Hospital.

I ca... I guess
I came here...

because I hoped that that, um...
that meant something to you.

Um...

Uh, Stacy, uh,
could you, uh,

please cancel my lunch
and hold all my calls.

I didn't know
what you wanted.

Hey, honey. You ready?

Uh, we gotta go.
Lily's waiting for us
in the lobby.

- [Cindy Clears Throat]
- Oh. I'm sorry.

Uh, who's this?

I, um...

I have...
I have no idea.

I don't know.

I'm Hannah.

Hi, Hannah.

I don't know where you
got your information from,
but it's not correct.

I-I don't know what
you're referring to.

I can't take
any more cases
right now, but, um,

Raymond, uh...
Raymond down the hallway,
perhaps he can...

he can help you
with your civil dispute.

I'm sorry.

Hannah! Hey!

Look, I'm really sorry.

Yeah, she just- She
didn't even say anything.
No.

It wasn't me.
I swear.

- Are you following me now?
- Get in the car, Hannah.
I'm taking you home.

No! I'm not going anywhere
with you. How do you
even know where we are?

His girlfriend called me to
tell me where you were. She also
told me you had been arrested.

I can't believe
that you would lie to me.

You can't believe
I would lie to you.

- Get in the car.
We're going home now.
- No.

- Get in the car, now.
- Fine!

Fine.

Mr. Lawson...

Stay out of this,
Jason.
Mr. Lawson, I...

I said, stay out of it!

I know how
you must feel about this.

You have no idea
how I must feel about this,

and you can't know until
you have a daughter of your own.

So stay out of it!

She's not
your daughter.

And she has every right
to find out who she is.

I'm gonna make this
very simple.

You stay away
from my daughter.

You don't call her. You make
no contact whatsoever.
Do you understand me?

You lied to me, Jason.

I expected much more
from you.

Look at me.

[Engine Starts]

We gonna talk about this,
or what?

Until we get this whole thing
straightened out, I don't think
you should go back to school.

I see no reason in the world
why I should continue funding
this sort of behavior.

What happened down there
anyway?

Why do you care?

Why do I care?
I care because
I'm your father.

I love you.
If you loved me,
you would have told me.

[Woman On P.A. System,
Indistinct]

You wanna know the truth?
I'll tell you the truth.

It was three month...

Three months
after we adopted you,
we find out that the m...

the medical bills
are not gonna be covered
by the insurance.

We lose everything... the house.
We have to file for bankruptcy.

I am one year... one year away
from finishing med school.

So tell me something, Hannah.
How does that make me
the bad guy?

I'm sorry
I was such a burden!

Th-That is not
what I said.

It's what you meant.

Hannah, stop.

Stop!
[Luggage Thuds]

What was his name?

What was whose name?

My brother.

I... I found...

I found my mom.

[Voice Breaking]
Sweetheart, I always meant
to tell you about that.

Great.

Jonathan.

Your brother's name
was Jonathan.

[Car Horn Honking]

Hey, guys.

Oh, look.
The prodigal returns.

Hey.

Where's Alanna?
Good to see you too,
buddy.

You know, if you
had been here,

maybe I wouldn't
have had the audacity
to drink somethin' called a...

hand grenade.

That would have been
a good thing,

'cause about three sips in,
you don't know
who you are anymore.

Now, when I say
I have no recollection
of those events,

I mean I don't remember...

anything.

Nothing.

Not the argument.

Not the fight.

Not this guy.
This little shiner.

Oh, and look.
It comes with a court date.

Faux frais.
Disorderly conduct.

I have a criminal record,
Jason.

I'd like to go home.

Oh, I got your luggage.
It's in my room.

Thanks, buddy.

I wanted to say that...

I went too far and...

I'm sorry.

Where are you going?
Home.

We're going home
tomorrow.

I'm going home tonight.

[Man]
♪ This isn't easy ♪

♪ This isn't clear ♪

♪ And you don't
need Jesus ♪

♪ Till you're here ♪

♪ Then confusion
and the doubts you have ♪

♪ Up and walk away ♪

♪ They walk away ♪

♪♪ [Continues]
[Jason]
Dr. Lawson. It's Jason.

I, uh...
I-I wanted to say that...

I was wrong.

[Clears Throat]
And I won't be
seeing Hannah anymore.

I'm sorry.

♪ When a heart breaks ♪♪

[Knocking]

Hey.
Can I come in?

Yeah, sure.

What's all this?

It's financial aid stuff.

Honey, he's... not gonna
take you out of school.

He's just upset.

I want to try
to explain.

This is you?

Yes.

You look so pretty
in this picture.

You look pregnant.

I was.

Twenty weeks
in that picture.

Twins.

You were pregnant with twins?

What happened?

We, uh...

We lost them.

I started volunteering
at this pregnancy crisis center.

There was this
beautiful cathedral...

around the corner,

and I would go there
to pray at lunch.

And I'll never forget.

October 17.

I went back to work...

and I saw a bulletin,
and it said,

"Twins. Abandoned.
Twenty-four weeks."

And we knew.

You and your brother...

would have been
the same age.

Hannah.
[Sniffling]

You are our miracle.

That's why it's so hard
to let you go, honey.

You mean so much
to us.

I know.

♪♪ [Guitar]
[Hannah]
Which cathedral?

[Grace]
Oh.

It was beautiful.

[Woman]
♪ Well, I guess I could
have stayed ashore ♪

♪ Didn't have to go ♪

♪ They say sometimes
to find yourself♪

♪ You gotta let go ♪

♪ And the water's cold
around me now ♪

♪ So far ♪

♪ Below ♪

♪ And I hear a voice
beside me now ♪

♪ Just try to let it go ♪

♪ And I'm just here ♪

♪ On the ocean floor ♪

♪ But the world's not ♪

♪ Moving anymore ♪

♪ In the quiet ♪

♪ Something has ♪

♪ Changed ♪

♪ I can hear a thought ♪

♪ Call my name ♪♪

Excuse me.

I'm sorry,

but we need to close
for the evening.

Oh, uh...
I didn't know.

I'm... I've never
been here before.

I'm Hannah.

Um... Hello.

Um...

We have services daily,

if you'd like
to come back.

I'm actually a...
I'm Baptist.

I guess
you should know that.

[Chuckling]

And...

why did you come?

I don't know, really.

I guess I'm trying to
figure out how to let go of...

things.

"Things"?

Can't figure out...

how to let go...

of the fact that
I feel hatred for myself...

and others.

There. I said it.

What is it
that you want to say?

Just-
[Exhales]

Say what you feel.

Well, three weeks ago
I found out that
my entire life is a lie.

So I went on a trip.

I thought if I went,
that I...

would get
all these answers,

and somehow when I got back,
I would feel different.

But I don't.

My parents
aren't really my parents.

[Sighs]

And my real parents...

tried to abort me.

And I have a brother.

Well, I had a brother.

He died shortly after
the, um...

I'm angry at my parents
for not telling me sooner...

and making me think
that I was just like
everybody else.

I'm angry at my real mom...

for... for not wanting me.

Why didn't she want me?
What's so wrong with me?

I found her.

And she still
doesn't want me.

And I feel guilty.

Part of me feels like...

[Sighs]

He should be alive...

and I shouldn't.

I wonder if he would have
been a better person than me,

what he would have been like.

I just- I...

I just hate myself...

for feeling this way.

[Exhales]

I see.

[Exhales]

This, uh, cathedral...

was built in 1893.

Named for Saint Paul
the Apostle.

It's...
[Chuckles]

Magnificent.

He wrote a letter
to the church
at Colossae and said,

"Because we have been
forgiven by God,

we should forgive
each other."

In Christ,
you are forgiven.

And because
you are forgiven,

you have the power
to forgive.

To choose to forgive.

Let it go.

Hatred is a...

burden...

you no longer
need to carry.

Only in forgiveness...

can you be free,
Hannah.

A forgiveness
that is...

well beyond
your grasp...

or mine.

[Chuckles]

A forgiveness
that you...

you can't find
on a trip...

or even
in this cathedral.

"But if the Son
shall set you free,

you will be free
indeed."

Well...
[Laughs]

I guess you'd better
close up then, huh?

What was
your brother's name?

His name was Jonathan.

Jonathan wants you
to live your life, Hannah.

Live it to the full.

[Knocking]

Come in.

[Sighs]
Um...

I've been giving this
a lot of thought,

and I wanted to tell you
that I...

am sorry.

I'm sorry that I...

overreacted.

So you're still
enrolled in school.

Thanks, Dad.

And I think you should
probably pack.

What for?

What's this?

I know that you
need to finish this.

But, with your permission,

I'd like to be there
when you do.

Uh...

But there is this one place
I would like to take you...

on the way,
if it's okay with you.

Sure.

The doctor said there wasn't
much brain activity, but...

I saw him smile.

We truly believed
that God would heal him.

We were just so young,
we didn't know
what to tell ourselves,

so naturally
we never told you.

Days became years,
years became decades,

and you still didn't know.

After he died,
I just remember holding you.

I would hold you for hours.
I would not let you
out of my sight.

'Cause I was afraid
that if I lost you too...

So I would just hold you
because I couldn't let go.

And, sweetheart,
I still haven't.

[Sniffling]
And I'm sorry, Hannah.
I'm sorry for the journal.

I'm sorry for keeping
so much from you,
for how controlling I've been.

But, sweetheart,
it's not because
I don't trust you.

It's because I'm trying,
honestly, to learn
how to trust God again.

So please,

don't, uh...

Dad.

Yeah?

I...

I love you.

And it's okay.

Yeah?

Thank you
for bringing me here.

Sure this is
how you wanna do it?

[Mouths Word]

S...
[Intercom Beeps]

Stacy, can...

[Sniffles]

[Sobbing]

[Phone Ringing]

[Beep]
Hello?

Jason.
It's Dr. Lawson.

Listen, I wanted to say
that I assumed the worst
about you.

But Hannah talked to me.

She told me how
you treated her with respect,

how much you cared,

and I think
you should call her.

I, uh...

Listen, I'm not saying
that I think you
have to call her.

But I just think
that you should.

I'm not trying to pry.

I just want to know
what your intentions are
about my daughter.

I love her.

You need to call her.

Yeah.
[Chuckles]
Okay. Yeah.

I-I definitely will.

Thanks.

Ah, this stupid...

Hi, baby.
Hi.

♪♪ [Piano,
Man Singing]

[Chuckles]

[Phone Ringing]

Oh.

[Hannah]
Hello?

What? A date?

Like, me and you?

[Luggage Tumbling
Down Stairs]

What about my dad?

Yeah. I mean, I do.
I mean... I will.

♪♪ [Continues]
Are you sure?

♪ I wish you might ♪

Bye.

♪ Oh-ohh ♪

♪ If everything ♪

♪ You said to me ♪
[Squealing]

♪ Has been true ♪

♪ Mm-mmm ♪

♪ Then all my stars
are leading ♪

♪ Me to you ♪

♪ Ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh ♪♪

♪♪ [Continues, Fades]
[Hannah]
This is stupid.

You're stupid. You wanna
ruin the surprise?
Yes!

I dressed for dinner.
Five times, actually.
Five times?

I don't go
on a lot of dates,
obviously.

Yeah.

Whoa!
I'm good.
Okay. Are you sure?

My dad is scary.
Yeah, I know that.

Okay, ready?
Three, two, one.
Open 'em.

♪ Ahhh ♪

I thought
you should finish.

Finish what?
Your play.

What do you think?

I think we need actors.

Don't worry.
I was in a play once.

Kindergarten.
Okay.

I was Sheep #5.

Helo, Desmond.
You can dispense
with the pleasantries.

A bit trifle,
don't you think?

I think...
[Laughs]

They ex... They have
high exp- They have expec...
Standards for me.

Standards for me.

I'm pretty terrible,
aren't I?
Yes.

Yeah. Well, look,
when I was Sheep #5,
I didn't have lines.

I just- I wore
a sweaty wool suit.

I did not just say that.
That is ridiculous.

Um...
I don't suppose
you're talking to...

[Laughing]

[Man]
♪ Love as an anchor ♪

[No Audible Dialogue]
♪ There's nothing to do ♪

♪ But give in ♪

♪ Give in ♪

♪ Mirrorless eyes ♪

♪ Give off a reflection ♪

♪ The moonlight is fair ♪

♪ As we rise again ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love we've left ♪

♪ Behind? ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We'll never find ♪

♪ We're giving into ♪

♪ The sweet desperation ♪

♪ When all this is through ♪

♪ We'll give in
Give in ♪

♪ Channels of grace ♪

♪ Give off the aroma ♪

♪ Of love mixed with pain ♪

♪ And hope raised again ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We've left behind? ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We'll never find? ♪

Okay, I think
this is the last of it.

Call us.
All right?

Let us know
who your roommate is.

- Try not to pick anybody too weird.
- I'll be fine, Dad.

I promise.
[Laughing]
Okay.

I've gotta go.

Bye, Dad.
Hey.

Mmm.
Bye, sweetie.

Mr. Lawson.

♪ Give off the aroma ♪

♪ Of love mixed with pain ♪

♪ And hope raised again ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ Can we move on ♪

♪ From the love ♪

♪ We've left behind? ♪

♪♪ [Fades]

Thank you.

For what?

For wanting me.

♪ From the love
we'll never find? ♪

[Gasps]
Gotta go.

You gotta go.

I love you, baby.

♪ The world is broken ♪

♪ Into many pieces ♪

♪ But the brokenness ♪

♪ Is beautiful ♪

♪ My heart is broken ♪

♪ By beauty's mysteries ♪

♪ But the brokenness ♪

♪ Is beautiful ♪

♪ Is beautiful ♪♪

Um, well, initially,
Jon called me.

He said, "We think that you
would play the birth mother
in this film."

Jon e-mailed me the script,

and of course I was so excited,

I think I sat down
that very night.

I got to the point
of the birth mother,

and, um, I was...
I was so overwhelmed.

I started crying over it because...

the story actually had been
truly written for me.

And Jon and Andy didn't even
know my backstory at all.

And she read it...

and literally called me back,
just weeping about the script
and said,

"How did you know?"

And we said,
"What are you talking about?"

And she said, um,
"Twenty years ago
I was working in a law firm"...

Which is very similar
to the story.

She said she was in a relationship,
she found out she was pregnant...

and she decided
to have an abortion.

[Rigby]
It was easier
to get rid of the child,

to not be questioned again,

rather than
to have a child...

and be looked upon at that time
like another failure.

Um...

[Chuckles]
And...

so many times,

uh, I think especially
as young women,

we carry that, um...

that burden that we're gonna
look like a failure,

that...
that it's shameful.

And, um, you know,
you can hide a secret
for a long time...

of abortion...

unless you
verbally speak about it.

"Nobody knows.

Nobody knows except
my husband, my therapist
and some people like that."

And we were blown away
by that.

And she said, "I feel like
this is God telling me it's time
for me to share my story."

I just remember hearing Jon
on the other line going,
"Wow. Like, wow."

From the post-abortive mother,
it was very important
to be very sensitive to that...

and for this to be
a healing movie for them.

And so having Shari's voice
and having her play the role
was just phenomenal...

to make sure that that
came across very authentic
and very sensitive.

[Jon Erwin]
Uh, I think... I think
as we went forward,

uh, and filmed her scene,

she wasn't acting.

I mean, it was as real
as you could get.

It was one of the more
moving things I've ever seen.

[Rigby] We went into it, and I
remember the cameras rolling and...

I just- Right as I walked into
the room, I just knew that-

I just knew
that the Lord was with me...

and that it was just...

complete healing.

And the moment
that I slide down that door
and that I'm crying...

and I'm feeling that-

That wasn't acting.

That was my moment
with God,

and him with me,

to say, "It's okay, it's over,

and you've been forgiven."

[Man]
♪ We have it all ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Livin' and dyin' ♪

♪ Laughin' and cryin' ♪

♪ We have the whole world ♪

♪ Or have nothin' ♪

♪ I know there are
hard times ♪

♪ But we make it ♪

♪ With every sunrise ♪

♪ Comes a new life ♪

♪ These are the things ♪

♪ That make us feel like ♪

♪ We have it all ♪

♪ These are the times ♪

♪ That make us realize ♪

♪ We have it all ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ A father's love ♪

♪ A wedding dance ♪

♪ New year's dreams ♪

♪ A toast with friends ♪

♪ A soldier
comin' home from war ♪

♪ A faith, a hope
for so much more ♪

♪ A brand-new life ♪

♪ A mother's prayer ♪

♪ Shooting stars ♪

♪ Ocean air ♪

♪ A lover's kiss ♪

♪ And hard good-byes ♪

♪ Fireworks ♪

♪ And Christmas lights ♪

♪ These are the things ♪

♪ That make us feel ♪

♪ Alive ♪

♪ These are the times ♪

♪ That make us realize ♪

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]

♪ Life is beautiful ♪

♪♪ [Vocalizing]
♪ These are the days ♪

♪ That make us feel ♪

♪ Alive ♪
♪ Life is beautiful ♪

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