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It's Kate. I'm officially tapping out.

I just craved people.

Oh, you're a beauty.

It's so wild to think that just a few days ago I hadn't eaten anything.

I've got a system that can work and I can procure food, which is the game.

Can't get fishing to work here. Now is the time to finally head east and see is

there a fishing spot.

Oh, wow, this is really nice.

Dear God, thank you. Tomorrow.

We are moving.

I haven't gone this long without eating anything.

There's this constant stress.

Got to get food, got to get food, got to get food.

Hey!

How good?

Fortunes have changed.

Yes, I'm playing the $250,000 here, people.

We're halfway to the South Pole. We're going to be totally alone.

It's Tasmania, it's cold, it's rain, it's snow.

We're all going to leave.

changed forever holy what is this

place it's like i came through from hell mother nature's kicking my ass this

experience yes is just as much a mind game

oh my heart as it is a survival game to another

way

$250,000 prize would change my life.

So once in a lifetime opportunity comes at a cost.

First glow of the morning is visible over the ridge line.

Hopefully it might be a clear day. It's clear to the horizon, but then grey

cloud above.

Day 26.

I mean, I've been here nearly a month.

It's good.

You know, we've started.

And psychologically for some people, that might be where they've picked a

line, you know.

So I reckon people will be going home in the next few days.

Whilst this makes no difference to me, it helps for me to think I'm making

progress. I feel like I'm closer.

But I need to keep the food coming in so I can stay out here for a long time.

That's why I'm looking at going swimming in bloody, who knows how deep it is,

middle of winter Tasmania, to try and free up a snag with, I think,

something big on it.

Put the lines out and then half an hour later, one of the ones over there was

pulled taut and locked off on a snag. It wasn't taut before.

Something with strength has pulled it and then got jammed.

It must have, I think, a big eel or a big fish on it.

We've been avoiding thinking about the water temperature.

It's going to suck regardless.

I need those eels.

I need the hooks.

It's hard to find bait.

I can't think of a decent enough reason not to try and swim down to four metres

and unfree it.

An eel is a day, maybe even two days longer of being out here, you know.

This is going to be invigorating.

It's going to be completely dark once I get past a metre.

What could be a problem is if I go down and the line's loose above me and then I

come up and it gets caught around my neck.

All right. So I need to be able to cut the line in case it tangles around me.

So I've been memorising how to do this blindfolded.

And that's my sharp blade there cut because I'm going to be swimming down

and I might have line above me. I'm going to mitigate that risk by tying the

line taut above me so I can follow it down, count the metres down and then

free it hopefully and then go up.

All right, dry bag, shaky fitment.

Oh, shit!

Woo!

Ah, shit!

That's bloody chilly.

I'll get used to it in a bit and I'll stop faffing about whinging.

Happy thoughts.

Happy thoughts.

I need this bloody eel, man.

Oh, it could be a big trout.

I can't afford to miss it.

If I get it, it's going to taste even bloody better, I tell you.

So I want this line to be vertical.

Cool, now I've got a guide.

And I'm just going to slowly go down the meter.

I'm too buoyant.

I'm going to go down head first.

Fishy, fishy, fishy,

fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy.

Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy.

Day 26, I believe.

Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. Singing a fish

calling song.

Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. A little dance, a

little fishy dance, all kind of like fishy, fishy on a log.

Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. I've had a pretty good run. I've had six

fish.

In like four days.

That's pretty epic.

But my goal is not just to survive in the wild, but to thrive.

I absolutely want to be the last woman standing.

I want to win this. I really want to win this.

I think the tide might be starting to rise.

At high tide, it is impossible to fish without getting my lines caught and

losing hooks.

And every hook's precious, which means I need to do a really concerted push

to clear out the mudflats of as much debris as possible so

that when the tide's high, I've got some fishable areas that aren't going to

snag.

Oh, I don't want to go in the mud. I don't want to go in the mud.

I have to go in the mud.

I've been dreading this job for days.

It snags on snags on snags.

And there's a bit of urgency with it because the tide's coming back in now.

And I think when the tide comes in, it comes in just quickly over a couple of

days.

And I'm kind of mapping the terrain, so when it's underwater, I kind of have an

idea of where the snags are, so I can put my lines where they're not.

Such a balance between the doing and conserving calories.

Oh, fuck me sideways.

I need to spend the calories to get calories.

It's a dance.

Oh, you prick.

Just fucking come out.

All right.

Come on.

Come on.

Just for fuck's sake, come out, please.

Oh, here we go.

Got it.

There you are.

Getting pretty bloody knackered.

I mean, look at this.

That's just...

Mattarella.

I've gotta say, I'm a little...

disconcerted by how exhausted I am just means that I'm having to like

recalibrate what's possible like what I'm actually capable of

I'm hungry my belly's definitely switched on

because I've had food for four days yeah

it's got to that point of going all right I expect food now

Where is it?

Nah. The line goes down into a deep bloody tangle of logs.

I felt the line go through the fork and I reached down and I couldn't reach any

further. There's no way I was going to get under all that because it's black

down there.

That sucks.

I was kind of hoping.

That sucks. No way I'm going to get that line off.

It's really snaggy out there. I don't think I'm going to fish there anymore.

It's just crap everywhere.

So I'm just going to snap it off.

There's nothing else I can do.

I'm feeling tired.

That swim, it took energy out of me, that whole process.

I mean, there's a fair bit of effort involved.

And really, there was no result, unfortunately.

But it was the right decision to try because...

if i get taken out of here on weight grounds i want to know that i did

absolutely everything i could

good

morning

If the rain stops today on day 26 we are moving camp.

We're going to the Bay of Plenty in the land of the wide grey cloud.

We're going to love it there.

The other day we decided to explore the eastern boundary finally and it's

beautiful.

So many wallaby prints.

as little hooks of their toes.

Lots of wildlife around.

They must love the fresh water.

Look at that. Oh, glorious.

Because that just looks like an eel paradise up there.

Setting up a new campsite.

Fair bit of risk.

Lots of energy involved.

But you really need some meat.

Okey dokey.

hooks off the bank line and roll it up.

I've been surviving off greens like sausage and water ribbon for the past 26

days, but I haven't caught a single fish or critter.

Plant only is not quite balanced enough diet.

Time to pack up the possum trap for the sake of energy to move camp and be able

to keep going and going. I think it's worth it. We just need those proteins to

start coming in so that...

I can stay out here as hopefully the longest.

I think it's better than the chances of sitting here and then just going, time

for the doctors to take me away.

I didn't realise packing would burn up so much energy.

Just keep stuffing.

It's not waterproof, but it's in.

I might only be able to carry a third of it at a time, so...

if that's three shuttles that's the whole trip six times okay

trip one here we go

let's see how far we get oh the knee

sore already that's a bad start

It's exciting to be moving.

I just have to take it slowly.

We'll get there.

It's a huge investment.

Huge.

I can only hope it pays off.

Okay. Just another half-cave rock rubble.

Oh, wow.

That's gonna be tricky to drag one past.

We'll work it out.

We always do.

The pelican case, the big camera case, so bulky, so difficult to handle.

Don't go into the creek, please.

I can already feel it in the right knee.

I'm burning heaps of energy.

It's hard to know if I'm wasting time.

Just relying on me being more resilient than the others.

Well, we made it.

Just need to repeat that trip.

Two more times.

Oh, wow.

Time to start heading back.

Make my bed for the night.

I'm totally exhausted after that big journey and to only be a fraction of the

way there.

A sense of impending doom.

Have I done the right thing?

In the past, my faith has helped me get through hard times.

I'm going to have to lean on God to carry me further.

We are committed.

I think that's it for the day.

Tomorrow, I hope for sunshine and we'll push on.

I'm pretty much just waiting for dark at this point to pull my lines.

Normally I'd have them pulled by now, but I'm just leaving it as late as

possible tonight, just in case.

Here's the rain, which means I'm going to be slopping around in the mud,

pulling my lines in the rain.

Bugger.

Back in the mud.

mud there's still one last check

wait hang on there

you are i see you there's a fish no come on

here we go gotcha i

got another fish

That's seven.

Lake has given me seven fish.

Fish.

That is just so much abundance.

Thank you, fish.

I'm going to hang this beauty up and have him for breakfast.

I mean, I kind of want him now, but...

I've got through today with a hungry belly.

I can get through the night with a hungry belly and then wake up and then

have this, like, special treat in the morning. Like, oh, my goodness, I can

cook him up and salt him and eat him and deliciousness.

Whereas now I'd be stumbling around in the dark with a head torch and it's just

not quite the same.

But I'm so very, very thankful.

to have a fish.

Very, very, very thankful.

I think this place is a rubbish fishing spot.

It's a mud slippery dip. There's logs everywhere.

You get snag.

So today I'm going to kayak to the West River and see

if I can find something there.

I mean, fish is it as far as meat goes here, so I've got to do everything.

What I don't want to do is paddle there and then get... hit by rain at a front,

get wet, cold and have nothing to show for it when I get back.

Wind's picking up a bit, clouds come from the northwest.

It just, it's got a bit of an ominous feel.

Gust of wind in a kayak is, in a really unstable kayak, is enough to send you

over.

But there's no weather forecast here.

I know if I get to lunchtime or mid-afternoon and it stayed acceptable,

I'd be like, oh, I should have gone, I should have gone.

Hasn't got worse over the last hour.

I think I'm just going to take the risk and go.

Yeah, I'm just going to take the risk and do it. It's make or break. I have to

try everything I can.

If I don't, I will just starve out here.

So I'm gonna get stuck into it get going as quick as I can

It is easy to

just want to get out of here This desolate foodless

Environment I've been dropped in But I don't want to be in that state of mind.

I still want to be

Looking forward, okay, what's the next move? How can I get the bait? When are

the fish coming on? How can I get the trap? What am I doing wrong?

Let me get ready to cast here.

Because everyone else out here that's still here must be hurting.

And that difference in frame of mind between, oh, hurry up and take me out,

as opposed to, no, I'm staying here, what can I do?

That honestly could be the difference.

So I've got to stay in that frame of mind.

Oh, yeah. Cold breeze in the face.

Yeah.

Love it. Yeah, bare legs, wet feet.

Love it. Love it. Mm, yeah.

Give me more.

More.

Maybe there.

That went pretty well, really.

Now I'm just going to get some dry clothes on my legs and do what I came

here to do in the first place, which was to catch a fish.

Man, it's strange.

I dreamt it.

I was sleeping at home, my king-size bed with my wife next to me.

It was Saturday.

My wife got up before me.

That's strange.

She was talking to me as she walked down the hallway.

And I heard my daughter Charlotte from the next room say, What was that, Mum?

And then I think I went to move to get up and realised I was still here.

Ah.

My poor wife's just going four whole weeks, six without her husband, running

the farm, running the house.

She's giving up a lot for me to be here.

But I said I'll be persistent and give it all that I've got.

So we'll see it through to the end and we'll be successful or we would have

done our best.

Time to move everything out.

I think it's better to do a few light trips rather than...

Really heavy one.

Yeah, that's not too bad. Wood sign's gone.

It's happening.

There's no going back now. We just have to do it.

Take it easy, Michael.

Slow it down some.

We've got all day, nearly.

Let's find our corners.

The magnitude of this move is starting to dawn on me.

Oh man, my old home, it's nothing.

Okay, here we go to the new land.

The big investment to hopefully have fish.

So glad I did not eat this fish last night.

Amazing to wake up knowing that I have a fish ready to eat.

I was feeling my body in the night and feeling how much fat has come off it.

I want the fat that I have to last me two more months. It won't. There's no

way. It's shredding off me.

It's like playing with my belly going, come on, be more.

The first time in my life I'm going...

I need more fat on my belly instead of, oh, no, I've got a fat belly.

I am never going to look at fat on a human the same way again.

So it's good to have a fish.

It's probably putting back a tenth of what I need.

I probably need ten of these fish.

But it's something.

So the fishing is great.

Knowing that I can catch fish and knowing I'll get better at catching

fish, this is good.

But the fish, the calories in a fish aren't enough. I need, like, I need an

animal.

I need to be able to, like, hoof down half a kilo of protein a

day.

Probably got about another month before I'm skinny.

It's not enough days.

So I think that's the only thing that would take me out is if I got too

skinny.

I've made it to the West River with no rain.

Ready to start exploring.

For these last four weeks. It's actually gone reasonably quick because I've been

so busy.

I am just going to have a quick cast out here because I can't resist it.

When it slows down though, once I've explored every food avenue and I'm just

trying to conserve energy, that's when each day will take forever.

And that's when you start to...

Think about leaving early.

I've got to be careful, though, that I don't do tasks just for my mental well

-being.

Anywhere else in Australia that has trout this remote, this unfished,

you'd see some.

particularly in a spot like this with a river coming in.

I've got to tough it out mentally and still be really stingy with energy.

Come on, man. Why is there no bloody trout in here? It's ridiculous.

Ridiculous.

Shit, it's raining.

I want to hurry home and not get smashed.

Fuck's sake.

Fuck.

I really don't want to get wet.

I really do not want to get saturated.

I'm going to be shivering, wasting energy.

My metabolism is so slow it's going to take forever to warm up.

Fuck's sake.

I just need to stay focused and just get home.

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I've played Russian roulette with the weather on the kayak a lot and it's just

now starting to catch up with me, I think.

Now the rain's really coming down.

As you get more tired, you get more prone to mistakes.

You end up just trying to force something.

I only made one then.

I know I want to get out of this rain before my pants get absolutely

saturated.

If I had to walk home in freezing clothes, it would set me back a day or

two maybe in energy levels.

You know, it's not such a big deal when you've got full energy load, but when

you've got low energy, everything is just harder.

Fuck.

What the fuck happened there? It's pulling that crack.

I've got a crack in the plastic.

Far out.

tired, frustrated and grumpy, to be honest.

I've just got to make sure I don't make any stupid mistakes because, you know,

one mistake here can just snowball into other mistakes.

I don't want to make this the deciding factor in the chain of events that takes

me out.

I don't know how I'm supposed to get these fucking boots off, Jesus fucking

Christ.

Like I said, I'm tired and I'm over it right now.

Time for me to just take a big chill pill.

When I was a teenager, I made the mistake of thinking

that, yeah, I can do anything.

Lots of things that I aimed for didn't happen.

You know, life goals.

I'd always wanted to fly fighter planes as a little kid when I watched Top Gun.

So I joined the army as a pilot, flew army helicopters for eight years and

from that opened up an opportunity to go and fly fast jet.

First time I applied didn't get in, second time didn't get in, third time

finally got in.

So I flew fast jet throughout the fast jet training system.

going at absolutely 100% of my brain power, studying every waking hour for

years.

I put 100% effort in and I just didn't pass the course.

I wasn't able to keep up with the other guys on the course.

Whilst it was disappointing from one angle, I felt in some ways it was almost

like a relief because when you throw yourself 100% at something...

You don't really have any regrets afterwards.

Day 28

Four weeks.

It feels like nothing and it feels like forever.

I'm getting to the point where I can't really connect with my life outside of

this.

The solitude really isn't getting to me at all.

I have so much company.

I mean, the birds come and say hello.

The lake feels like...

an alive thing for me just because there aren't any humans doesn't mean i feel

alone it just means there aren't any humans i

catch myself wondering how everybody else is doing how many of them are left

while i was harvesting i just went into

this whole kind of like

exploration of why the solitude here isn't bothering me.

I mean, I'm a mammal. I need other mammals.

And I started picking at the threads of the question of, like, well, how come?

Like, why?

And I just got to this bit, this nub, which is that when Blaze died, I made a

decision that...

Humans are going to die.

They're going to leave.

And if you love, you love knowing that they're going to leave.

The way I've adapted and defend myself now against that kind of pain

is just to not need anyone.

And since she's left, I've loved.

I've loved. I've loved deeply.

But I haven't let myself need anyone.

Because if I need them and they leave me, then I don't know if I can

bear the heartbreak again.

Because it nearly killed me the first time, you know, losing her.

Like to bear the unbearable and to dance

the undanceable.

I made it. I made it through.

There's a part that's like, I don't know if I could do that again.

And I'm only really just seeing it now in the solitude of this place.

And it means there's just a level of vulnerability that I don't, that I don't

show the people I love.

And I don't want to hold back. You know, I don't want to hold, I don't want to

hold back from any part of that expression.

So in that, in that de-armoring and in that shedding,

I do want someone here.

I want a hug right now.

I want a hug.

And I want to look them in the eyes and say, I need you.

Okay, there's years in the far distance.

So close.

Getting a little slicker every time.

What a journey.

It felt impossible last night when I lay in bed and thought about everything that

could go wrong.

It was a huge effort, but yeah, we made it through.

No more searching for better places.

It's a pick and stick.

Right now, I feel kind of a little elated.

Okay.

So we're here.

And come and have a look why.

Look at all this.

All this goodness flowing straight out of the forest.

And look how shallow it is.

So there's going to be fish anywhere that's here.

And grass.

Have you seen grass before?

There's hope now.

We'd like to have a shelter in here somewhere.

It looks super sheltered.

Let's have a look.

Man, it doesn't look too bad at all.

Okay, so level ground somewhere around here.

Three and a half metres by three and a half, say.

One, two, three.

Don't want to cut down that tree.

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Ouch. I wasn't expecting that.

The top half of the tree broke off.

Let's do a quick look.

Yes, there.

I think it's bruised already.

It's going red already too.

Man, these mini deadfalls are a killer.

Or a bruiser.

Just time, so time critical today.

I'm just starting to get a bit cold.

I haven't that shelter done yet.

Okay, over we go.

The move. That was really hard work.

Man.

How many calories did I burn?

I probably lost another kilo or so.

Have I done the right thing?

I'm exhausted.

I'm hungry.

I'm cold.

Been nicely fishing right now or tonight, but I think we've just got to

focus on getting through today.

There's some music and some food.

Oh, what's that?

I just heard a slosh down here.

There's my line.

Yes, I got a very small trout on.

Very small brown trout.

He's in the net, but the net, I can't... Pull this line out.

Same bloody problem.

Oh shit.

Come on, come on, come on.

Far out.

Head in the net.

Yes. Yes.

Yes.

I got a brown trout. Let's go up the bank. Let's get him well away from the

bloody water's edge.

Oh, how bloody great is that?

Lovely pan size.

Brown trout.

Yes.

Man, that is so good.

Hello Southern Cross.

You're looking down on me. Thanks, mate. You did a good job.

Oh, man.

It feels so bloody good, man. Like, when you're relying on food to survive,

like, it just, it is amazing when you get it.

All right, there he is. Look at him.

Beautiful. He's one of the most beautiful trout I've ever seen in my

life. Even though he's certainly not the biggest, but he's the one that I need to

eat the most.

I can't wait to get home.

Give my wife a big, long cuddle.

See the kids.

They're the coolest little dudes.

It would just be really nice to show them this place, just show them around.

This is my bed and this is...

The paddy melon trap.

You've got to be very careful about thinking about that kind of thing,

because that shifts your focus from what it should be. My focus should be, how am

I going to survive this thing?

Oh, man.

Life is good.

last good man you got to enjoy it you got to enjoy what you work for

It does.

We're at the new home.

It's still raining. It's rained since I got here.

The shelter's working pretty well. It does get a little breezy in this way.

So we'll just chuck that tarp up against that and make a wall there.

Legs a bit sore after yesterday.

Better than nothing.

It's a good day to be laying in bed for the whole day.

It's just taking it all easy now, conserving energy, finding food,

and getting through to the end.

This is the most extreme thing I've ever done.

It's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, but it comes at a cost.

Cost to me, cost to my family.

Day 29.

It continues day by day by day by day by day by day.

So just sitting in here, it's pretty easy to snuggle up under the blanket,

under the dry part of the sleeping bag and just have the time go by,

as long as you don't think about what you're missing out on.

Good morning family.

Look what we're up to.

One, two, three, four weeks.

Five weeks really, isn't it?

I miss you guys so much.

I'm doing well out here, really.

Each day, I just potter on and get through.

When I think of you guys, oh, my heart.

I've been crying before now, but I'm crying now.

This move might have been a big mistake.

I've been starving.

since day one i haven't caught any fish so i've been doing it tough i'm not

going to be well soon and i'm only getting worse it's not much fun out here

it's getting harder so much riding on this just doing everything i can

nobody breathe i need the meat the amount

of weight that i'm losing is a concern All my waking thoughts are about how to

get food. If I don't get an animal, I'm done here.

Holy shit.

Holy shit.