1 00:00:24,759 --> 00:00:26,820 It's Kate. I'm officially tapping out. 2 00:00:27,900 --> 00:00:29,520 I just craved people. 3 00:00:30,540 --> 00:00:31,780 Oh, you're a beauty. 4 00:00:32,439 --> 00:00:36,260 It's so wild to think that just a few days ago I hadn't eaten anything. 5 00:00:36,500 --> 00:00:42,480 I've got a system that can work and I can procure food, which is the game. 6 00:00:42,940 --> 00:00:47,880 Can't get fishing to work here. Now is the time to finally head east and see is 7 00:00:47,880 --> 00:00:48,880 there a fishing spot. 8 00:00:49,140 --> 00:00:50,680 Oh, wow, this is really nice. 9 00:00:51,000 --> 00:00:52,660 Dear God, thank you. Tomorrow. 10 00:00:53,340 --> 00:00:54,340 We are moving. 11 00:00:54,900 --> 00:00:57,420 I haven't gone this long without eating anything. 12 00:00:57,820 --> 00:00:59,280 There's this constant stress. 13 00:00:59,560 --> 00:01:01,660 Got to get food, got to get food, got to get food. 14 00:01:01,900 --> 00:01:02,900 Hey! 15 00:01:02,940 --> 00:01:03,940 How good? 16 00:01:04,420 --> 00:01:05,420 Fortunes have changed. 17 00:01:06,420 --> 00:01:09,480 Yes, I'm playing the $250,000 here, people. 18 00:01:12,440 --> 00:01:15,620 We're halfway to the South Pole. We're going to be totally alone. 19 00:01:16,880 --> 00:01:19,800 It's Tasmania, it's cold, it's rain, it's snow. 20 00:01:21,380 --> 00:01:22,700 We're all going to leave. 21 00:01:23,340 --> 00:01:30,260 changed forever holy what is this 22 00:01:30,260 --> 00:01:36,980 place it's like i came through from hell mother nature's kicking my ass this 23 00:01:36,980 --> 00:01:43,760 experience yes is just as much a mind game 24 00:01:43,760 --> 00:01:50,760 oh my heart as it is a survival game to another 25 00:01:50,760 --> 00:01:51,760 way 26 00:01:52,320 --> 00:01:55,420 $250,000 prize would change my life. 27 00:01:56,360 --> 00:02:00,780 So once in a lifetime opportunity comes at a cost. 28 00:02:29,290 --> 00:02:32,910 First glow of the morning is visible over the ridge line. 29 00:02:33,750 --> 00:02:39,710 Hopefully it might be a clear day. It's clear to the horizon, but then grey 30 00:02:39,710 --> 00:02:40,710 cloud above. 31 00:02:45,770 --> 00:02:46,890 Day 26. 32 00:02:47,610 --> 00:02:49,410 I mean, I've been here nearly a month. 33 00:02:49,750 --> 00:02:50,750 It's good. 34 00:02:51,370 --> 00:02:53,570 You know, we've started. 35 00:02:55,159 --> 00:02:59,120 And psychologically for some people, that might be where they've picked a 36 00:02:59,120 --> 00:03:00,120 line, you know. 37 00:03:02,640 --> 00:03:06,840 So I reckon people will be going home in the next few days. 38 00:03:08,060 --> 00:03:13,640 Whilst this makes no difference to me, it helps for me to think I'm making 39 00:03:13,640 --> 00:03:16,080 progress. I feel like I'm closer. 40 00:03:16,800 --> 00:03:22,520 But I need to keep the food coming in so I can stay out here for a long time. 41 00:03:24,780 --> 00:03:30,280 That's why I'm looking at going swimming in bloody, who knows how deep it is, 42 00:03:30,400 --> 00:03:36,960 middle of winter Tasmania, to try and free up a snag with, I think, 43 00:03:37,060 --> 00:03:39,400 something big on it. 44 00:03:41,400 --> 00:03:47,120 Put the lines out and then half an hour later, one of the ones over there was 45 00:03:47,120 --> 00:03:51,420 pulled taut and locked off on a snag. It wasn't taut before. 46 00:03:52,700 --> 00:03:56,820 Something with strength has pulled it and then got jammed. 47 00:03:57,920 --> 00:04:02,020 It must have, I think, a big eel or a big fish on it. 48 00:04:04,760 --> 00:04:07,960 We've been avoiding thinking about the water temperature. 49 00:04:11,000 --> 00:04:12,300 It's going to suck regardless. 50 00:04:16,100 --> 00:04:17,540 I need those eels. 51 00:04:18,740 --> 00:04:19,779 I need the hooks. 52 00:04:20,380 --> 00:04:21,620 It's hard to find bait. 53 00:04:22,570 --> 00:04:27,130 I can't think of a decent enough reason not to try and swim down to four metres 54 00:04:27,130 --> 00:04:28,450 and unfree it. 55 00:04:29,570 --> 00:04:34,230 An eel is a day, maybe even two days longer of being out here, you know. 56 00:04:34,930 --> 00:04:36,970 This is going to be invigorating. 57 00:04:37,630 --> 00:04:40,530 It's going to be completely dark once I get past a metre. 58 00:04:41,550 --> 00:04:46,070 What could be a problem is if I go down and the line's loose above me and then I 59 00:04:46,070 --> 00:04:47,590 come up and it gets caught around my neck. 60 00:04:49,430 --> 00:04:53,440 All right. So I need to be able to cut the line in case it tangles around me. 61 00:04:54,040 --> 00:04:56,540 So I've been memorising how to do this blindfolded. 62 00:04:59,200 --> 00:05:05,120 And that's my sharp blade there cut because I'm going to be swimming down 63 00:05:05,120 --> 00:05:09,120 and I might have line above me. I'm going to mitigate that risk by tying the 64 00:05:09,120 --> 00:05:15,000 line taut above me so I can follow it down, count the metres down and then 65 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:17,020 free it hopefully and then go up. 66 00:05:22,060 --> 00:05:25,560 All right, dry bag, shaky fitment. 67 00:05:35,860 --> 00:05:39,840 Oh, shit! 68 00:05:40,420 --> 00:05:41,480 Woo! 69 00:05:44,360 --> 00:05:46,760 Ah, shit! 70 00:06:00,340 --> 00:06:01,340 That's bloody chilly. 71 00:06:02,040 --> 00:06:05,080 I'll get used to it in a bit and I'll stop faffing about whinging. 72 00:06:10,260 --> 00:06:12,340 Happy thoughts. 73 00:06:13,740 --> 00:06:14,740 Happy thoughts. 74 00:06:23,480 --> 00:06:26,600 I need this bloody eel, man. 75 00:06:27,700 --> 00:06:29,480 Oh, it could be a big trout. 76 00:06:29,880 --> 00:06:31,420 I can't afford to miss it. 77 00:06:34,100 --> 00:06:37,440 If I get it, it's going to taste even bloody better, I tell you. 78 00:06:39,740 --> 00:06:41,440 So I want this line to be vertical. 79 00:06:43,840 --> 00:06:44,940 Cool, now I've got a guide. 80 00:06:45,840 --> 00:06:47,620 And I'm just going to slowly go down the meter. 81 00:07:03,280 --> 00:07:04,280 I'm too buoyant. 82 00:07:05,980 --> 00:07:07,160 I'm going to go down head first. 83 00:07:48,280 --> 00:07:49,500 Fishy, fishy, fishy, 84 00:07:50,240 --> 00:07:52,780 fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. 85 00:07:54,320 --> 00:07:58,080 Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. 86 00:07:59,080 --> 00:08:01,260 Day 26, I believe. 87 00:08:01,800 --> 00:08:03,800 Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. Singing a fish 88 00:08:03,800 --> 00:08:04,800 calling song. 89 00:08:05,300 --> 00:08:08,380 Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. A little dance, a 90 00:08:08,380 --> 00:08:11,440 little fishy dance, all kind of like fishy, fishy on a log. 91 00:08:11,660 --> 00:08:16,460 Fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy, fishy. I've had a pretty good run. I've had six 92 00:08:16,460 --> 00:08:17,460 fish. 93 00:08:17,960 --> 00:08:19,180 In like four days. 94 00:08:19,880 --> 00:08:21,320 That's pretty epic. 95 00:08:23,440 --> 00:08:26,600 But my goal is not just to survive in the wild, but to thrive. 96 00:08:27,880 --> 00:08:30,880 I absolutely want to be the last woman standing. 97 00:08:31,220 --> 00:08:34,100 I want to win this. I really want to win this. 98 00:08:35,299 --> 00:08:38,419 I think the tide might be starting to rise. 99 00:08:39,480 --> 00:08:45,140 At high tide, it is impossible to fish without getting my lines caught and 100 00:08:45,140 --> 00:08:46,140 losing hooks. 101 00:08:46,760 --> 00:08:52,560 And every hook's precious, which means I need to do a really concerted push 102 00:08:52,560 --> 00:08:59,480 to clear out the mudflats of as much debris as possible so 103 00:08:59,480 --> 00:09:03,080 that when the tide's high, I've got some fishable areas that aren't going to 104 00:09:03,080 --> 00:09:04,080 snag. 105 00:09:04,380 --> 00:09:09,400 Oh, I don't want to go in the mud. I don't want to go in the mud. 106 00:09:11,020 --> 00:09:12,300 I have to go in the mud. 107 00:09:16,750 --> 00:09:19,030 I've been dreading this job for days. 108 00:09:22,110 --> 00:09:24,670 It snags on snags on snags. 109 00:09:26,750 --> 00:09:30,790 And there's a bit of urgency with it because the tide's coming back in now. 110 00:09:32,130 --> 00:09:36,370 And I think when the tide comes in, it comes in just quickly over a couple of 111 00:09:36,370 --> 00:09:37,370 days. 112 00:09:48,970 --> 00:09:54,650 And I'm kind of mapping the terrain, so when it's underwater, I kind of have an 113 00:09:54,650 --> 00:10:01,390 idea of where the snags are, so I can put my lines where they're not. 114 00:10:05,090 --> 00:10:08,530 Such a balance between the doing and conserving calories. 115 00:10:09,190 --> 00:10:11,130 Oh, fuck me sideways. 116 00:10:11,650 --> 00:10:15,250 I need to spend the calories to get calories. 117 00:10:16,710 --> 00:10:17,710 It's a dance. 118 00:10:19,820 --> 00:10:21,340 Oh, you prick. 119 00:10:21,860 --> 00:10:23,820 Just fucking come out. 120 00:10:25,200 --> 00:10:27,200 All right. 121 00:10:31,620 --> 00:10:32,620 Come on. 122 00:10:32,940 --> 00:10:33,940 Come on. 123 00:10:34,640 --> 00:10:37,060 Just for fuck's sake, come out, please. 124 00:10:41,200 --> 00:10:42,200 Oh, here we go. 125 00:10:42,840 --> 00:10:44,840 Got it. 126 00:10:50,670 --> 00:10:51,670 There you are. 127 00:10:51,810 --> 00:10:55,090 Getting pretty bloody knackered. 128 00:10:58,970 --> 00:11:03,690 I mean, look at this. 129 00:11:04,050 --> 00:11:07,670 That's just... 130 00:11:07,670 --> 00:11:12,450 Mattarella. 131 00:11:14,810 --> 00:11:17,410 I've gotta say, I'm a little... 132 00:11:18,300 --> 00:11:24,960 disconcerted by how exhausted I am just means that I'm having to like 133 00:11:24,960 --> 00:11:30,440 recalibrate what's possible like what I'm actually capable of 134 00:11:30,440 --> 00:11:36,320 I'm hungry my belly's definitely switched on 135 00:11:36,320 --> 00:11:43,020 because I've had food for four days yeah 136 00:11:43,020 --> 00:11:45,940 it's got to that point of going all right I expect food now 137 00:11:49,390 --> 00:11:50,390 Where is it? 138 00:12:47,360 --> 00:12:53,500 Nah. The line goes down into a deep bloody tangle of logs. 139 00:12:55,140 --> 00:12:59,840 I felt the line go through the fork and I reached down and I couldn't reach any 140 00:12:59,840 --> 00:13:03,420 further. There's no way I was going to get under all that because it's black 141 00:13:03,420 --> 00:13:04,420 down there. 142 00:13:05,720 --> 00:13:07,000 That sucks. 143 00:13:09,860 --> 00:13:11,180 I was kind of hoping. 144 00:13:14,130 --> 00:13:15,990 That sucks. No way I'm going to get that line off. 145 00:13:18,090 --> 00:13:20,810 It's really snaggy out there. I don't think I'm going to fish there anymore. 146 00:13:20,910 --> 00:13:21,910 It's just crap everywhere. 147 00:13:22,910 --> 00:13:24,350 So I'm just going to snap it off. 148 00:13:24,690 --> 00:13:25,870 There's nothing else I can do. 149 00:13:27,510 --> 00:13:28,510 I'm feeling tired. 150 00:13:29,030 --> 00:13:31,630 That swim, it took energy out of me, that whole process. 151 00:13:31,870 --> 00:13:33,050 I mean, there's a fair bit of effort involved. 152 00:13:34,510 --> 00:13:36,790 And really, there was no result, unfortunately. 153 00:13:38,450 --> 00:13:41,330 But it was the right decision to try because... 154 00:13:41,850 --> 00:13:46,870 if i get taken out of here on weight grounds i want to know that i did 155 00:13:46,870 --> 00:13:48,370 absolutely everything i could 156 00:13:48,370 --> 00:14:05,850 good 157 00:14:05,850 --> 00:14:06,850 morning 158 00:14:14,190 --> 00:14:18,430 If the rain stops today on day 26 we are moving camp. 159 00:14:19,590 --> 00:14:24,690 We're going to the Bay of Plenty in the land of the wide grey cloud. 160 00:14:25,330 --> 00:14:26,650 We're going to love it there. 161 00:14:27,870 --> 00:14:34,790 The other day we decided to explore the eastern boundary finally and it's 162 00:14:34,790 --> 00:14:35,790 beautiful. 163 00:14:39,070 --> 00:14:40,990 So many wallaby prints. 164 00:14:42,700 --> 00:14:44,000 as little hooks of their toes. 165 00:14:44,800 --> 00:14:46,120 Lots of wildlife around. 166 00:14:46,820 --> 00:14:48,680 They must love the fresh water. 167 00:14:48,920 --> 00:14:50,440 Look at that. Oh, glorious. 168 00:14:51,840 --> 00:14:54,140 Because that just looks like an eel paradise up there. 169 00:14:56,160 --> 00:14:57,920 Setting up a new campsite. 170 00:14:59,740 --> 00:15:00,900 Fair bit of risk. 171 00:15:01,120 --> 00:15:02,500 Lots of energy involved. 172 00:15:03,780 --> 00:15:06,620 But you really need some meat. 173 00:15:09,040 --> 00:15:10,040 Okey dokey. 174 00:15:11,150 --> 00:15:14,270 hooks off the bank line and roll it up. 175 00:15:14,550 --> 00:15:18,450 I've been surviving off greens like sausage and water ribbon for the past 26 176 00:15:18,450 --> 00:15:22,530 days, but I haven't caught a single fish or critter. 177 00:15:23,350 --> 00:15:25,950 Plant only is not quite balanced enough diet. 178 00:15:27,170 --> 00:15:33,930 Time to pack up the possum trap for the sake of energy to move camp and be able 179 00:15:33,930 --> 00:15:37,930 to keep going and going. I think it's worth it. We just need those proteins to 180 00:15:37,930 --> 00:15:39,770 start coming in so that... 181 00:15:40,200 --> 00:15:42,360 I can stay out here as hopefully the longest. 182 00:15:43,780 --> 00:15:48,020 I think it's better than the chances of sitting here and then just going, time 183 00:15:48,020 --> 00:15:49,120 for the doctors to take me away. 184 00:15:54,760 --> 00:15:57,700 I didn't realise packing would burn up so much energy. 185 00:15:58,700 --> 00:16:00,040 Just keep stuffing. 186 00:16:03,200 --> 00:16:04,560 It's not waterproof, but it's in. 187 00:16:05,560 --> 00:16:08,380 I might only be able to carry a third of it at a time, so... 188 00:16:08,600 --> 00:16:13,960 if that's three shuttles that's the whole trip six times okay 189 00:16:13,960 --> 00:16:19,160 trip one here we go 190 00:16:19,160 --> 00:16:25,980 let's see how far we get oh the knee 191 00:16:25,980 --> 00:16:28,040 sore already that's a bad start 192 00:16:39,310 --> 00:16:40,590 It's exciting to be moving. 193 00:16:40,990 --> 00:16:42,310 I just have to take it slowly. 194 00:16:42,670 --> 00:16:43,670 We'll get there. 195 00:16:50,210 --> 00:16:51,330 It's a huge investment. 196 00:16:52,630 --> 00:16:53,630 Huge. 197 00:16:53,990 --> 00:16:55,470 I can only hope it pays off. 198 00:17:25,810 --> 00:17:28,730 Okay. Just another half-cave rock rubble. 199 00:17:31,370 --> 00:17:32,370 Oh, wow. 200 00:17:32,670 --> 00:17:34,310 That's gonna be tricky to drag one past. 201 00:17:37,850 --> 00:17:38,850 We'll work it out. 202 00:17:39,950 --> 00:17:40,950 We always do. 203 00:18:04,490 --> 00:18:10,050 The pelican case, the big camera case, so bulky, so difficult to handle. 204 00:18:12,110 --> 00:18:13,670 Don't go into the creek, please. 205 00:18:14,170 --> 00:18:16,070 I can already feel it in the right knee. 206 00:18:16,270 --> 00:18:17,670 I'm burning heaps of energy. 207 00:18:17,970 --> 00:18:19,590 It's hard to know if I'm wasting time. 208 00:18:22,190 --> 00:18:24,770 Just relying on me being more resilient than the others. 209 00:18:29,790 --> 00:18:31,810 Well, we made it. 210 00:18:32,330 --> 00:18:33,570 Just need to repeat that trip. 211 00:18:34,410 --> 00:18:35,410 Two more times. 212 00:18:36,110 --> 00:18:37,110 Oh, wow. 213 00:18:39,830 --> 00:18:41,010 Time to start heading back. 214 00:18:41,750 --> 00:18:42,930 Make my bed for the night. 215 00:18:54,830 --> 00:18:59,610 I'm totally exhausted after that big journey and to only be a fraction of the 216 00:18:59,610 --> 00:19:00,610 way there. 217 00:19:00,730 --> 00:19:02,510 A sense of impending doom. 218 00:19:03,910 --> 00:19:05,150 Have I done the right thing? 219 00:19:06,850 --> 00:19:09,390 In the past, my faith has helped me get through hard times. 220 00:19:10,010 --> 00:19:12,610 I'm going to have to lean on God to carry me further. 221 00:19:14,270 --> 00:19:15,650 We are committed. 222 00:19:17,170 --> 00:19:18,730 I think that's it for the day. 223 00:19:20,930 --> 00:19:25,030 Tomorrow, I hope for sunshine and we'll push on. 224 00:19:46,030 --> 00:19:50,430 I'm pretty much just waiting for dark at this point to pull my lines. 225 00:19:50,730 --> 00:19:55,590 Normally I'd have them pulled by now, but I'm just leaving it as late as 226 00:19:55,590 --> 00:19:57,990 possible tonight, just in case. 227 00:20:00,770 --> 00:20:05,230 Here's the rain, which means I'm going to be slopping around in the mud, 228 00:20:05,370 --> 00:20:07,650 pulling my lines in the rain. 229 00:20:09,070 --> 00:20:10,070 Bugger. 230 00:20:12,930 --> 00:20:14,110 Back in the mud. 231 00:20:20,800 --> 00:20:23,520 mud there's still one last check 232 00:20:23,520 --> 00:20:30,480 wait hang on there 233 00:20:30,480 --> 00:20:36,520 you are i see you there's a fish no come on 234 00:20:36,520 --> 00:20:40,720 here we go gotcha i 235 00:20:40,720 --> 00:20:44,800 got another fish 236 00:20:45,950 --> 00:20:46,990 That's seven. 237 00:20:48,610 --> 00:20:50,690 Lake has given me seven fish. 238 00:20:52,650 --> 00:20:53,650 Fish. 239 00:20:53,930 --> 00:20:55,850 That is just so much abundance. 240 00:20:58,910 --> 00:21:00,030 Thank you, fish. 241 00:21:04,630 --> 00:21:08,450 I'm going to hang this beauty up and have him for breakfast. 242 00:21:10,230 --> 00:21:13,830 I mean, I kind of want him now, but... 243 00:21:14,030 --> 00:21:16,390 I've got through today with a hungry belly. 244 00:21:19,290 --> 00:21:24,370 I can get through the night with a hungry belly and then wake up and then 245 00:21:24,370 --> 00:21:29,770 have this, like, special treat in the morning. Like, oh, my goodness, I can 246 00:21:29,770 --> 00:21:34,150 cook him up and salt him and eat him and deliciousness. 247 00:21:35,070 --> 00:21:38,350 Whereas now I'd be stumbling around in the dark with a head torch and it's just 248 00:21:38,350 --> 00:21:39,350 not quite the same. 249 00:21:39,770 --> 00:21:41,810 But I'm so very, very thankful. 250 00:21:42,620 --> 00:21:43,620 to have a fish. 251 00:21:44,420 --> 00:21:46,140 Very, very, very thankful. 252 00:22:14,800 --> 00:22:17,320 I think this place is a rubbish fishing spot. 253 00:22:18,400 --> 00:22:21,520 It's a mud slippery dip. There's logs everywhere. 254 00:22:21,720 --> 00:22:22,720 You get snag. 255 00:22:23,660 --> 00:22:30,260 So today I'm going to kayak to the West River and see 256 00:22:30,260 --> 00:22:31,840 if I can find something there. 257 00:22:32,380 --> 00:22:37,320 I mean, fish is it as far as meat goes here, so I've got to do everything. 258 00:22:38,740 --> 00:22:44,980 What I don't want to do is paddle there and then get... hit by rain at a front, 259 00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:50,040 get wet, cold and have nothing to show for it when I get back. 260 00:22:53,860 --> 00:22:56,640 Wind's picking up a bit, clouds come from the northwest. 261 00:22:59,800 --> 00:23:01,900 It just, it's got a bit of an ominous feel. 262 00:23:03,180 --> 00:23:07,540 Gust of wind in a kayak is, in a really unstable kayak, is enough to send you 263 00:23:07,540 --> 00:23:08,540 over. 264 00:23:09,200 --> 00:23:12,280 But there's no weather forecast here. 265 00:23:13,740 --> 00:23:19,420 I know if I get to lunchtime or mid-afternoon and it stayed acceptable, 266 00:23:19,580 --> 00:23:21,240 I'd be like, oh, I should have gone, I should have gone. 267 00:23:25,640 --> 00:23:27,480 Hasn't got worse over the last hour. 268 00:23:29,760 --> 00:23:31,500 I think I'm just going to take the risk and go. 269 00:23:32,920 --> 00:23:36,020 Yeah, I'm just going to take the risk and do it. It's make or break. I have to 270 00:23:36,020 --> 00:23:37,020 try everything I can. 271 00:23:37,620 --> 00:23:40,420 If I don't, I will just starve out here. 272 00:23:41,890 --> 00:23:45,430 So I'm gonna get stuck into it get going as quick as I can 273 00:23:45,430 --> 00:23:51,830 It is easy to 274 00:23:51,830 --> 00:23:58,050 just want to get out of here This desolate foodless 275 00:23:58,050 --> 00:24:04,890 Environment I've been dropped in But I don't want to be in that state of mind. 276 00:24:04,950 --> 00:24:05,950 I still want to be 277 00:24:06,820 --> 00:24:10,200 Looking forward, okay, what's the next move? How can I get the bait? When are 278 00:24:10,200 --> 00:24:12,700 the fish coming on? How can I get the trap? What am I doing wrong? 279 00:24:13,940 --> 00:24:16,120 Let me get ready to cast here. 280 00:24:17,360 --> 00:24:21,300 Because everyone else out here that's still here must be hurting. 281 00:24:21,720 --> 00:24:25,140 And that difference in frame of mind between, oh, hurry up and take me out, 282 00:24:25,260 --> 00:24:27,860 as opposed to, no, I'm staying here, what can I do? 283 00:24:29,440 --> 00:24:31,140 That honestly could be the difference. 284 00:24:31,700 --> 00:24:33,360 So I've got to stay in that frame of mind. 285 00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:37,440 Oh, yeah. Cold breeze in the face. 286 00:24:37,660 --> 00:24:38,660 Yeah. 287 00:24:39,420 --> 00:24:42,060 Love it. Yeah, bare legs, wet feet. 288 00:24:42,460 --> 00:24:45,040 Love it. Love it. Mm, yeah. 289 00:24:45,420 --> 00:24:46,420 Give me more. 290 00:24:49,580 --> 00:24:50,580 More. 291 00:24:52,660 --> 00:24:53,800 Maybe there. 292 00:25:08,970 --> 00:25:10,270 That went pretty well, really. 293 00:25:11,370 --> 00:25:16,590 Now I'm just going to get some dry clothes on my legs and do what I came 294 00:25:16,590 --> 00:25:19,710 here to do in the first place, which was to catch a fish. 295 00:25:34,830 --> 00:25:35,910 Man, it's strange. 296 00:25:37,110 --> 00:25:38,150 I dreamt it. 297 00:25:38,490 --> 00:25:41,970 I was sleeping at home, my king-size bed with my wife next to me. 298 00:25:43,230 --> 00:25:44,250 It was Saturday. 299 00:25:45,430 --> 00:25:47,090 My wife got up before me. 300 00:25:47,570 --> 00:25:48,570 That's strange. 301 00:25:48,750 --> 00:25:51,190 She was talking to me as she walked down the hallway. 302 00:25:51,770 --> 00:25:56,830 And I heard my daughter Charlotte from the next room say, What was that, Mum? 303 00:25:59,830 --> 00:26:04,550 And then I think I went to move to get up and realised I was still here. 304 00:26:06,210 --> 00:26:07,210 Ah. 305 00:26:12,270 --> 00:26:17,230 My poor wife's just going four whole weeks, six without her husband, running 306 00:26:17,230 --> 00:26:19,950 the farm, running the house. 307 00:26:20,610 --> 00:26:22,430 She's giving up a lot for me to be here. 308 00:26:23,310 --> 00:26:26,870 But I said I'll be persistent and give it all that I've got. 309 00:26:27,070 --> 00:26:32,690 So we'll see it through to the end and we'll be successful or we would have 310 00:26:32,690 --> 00:26:33,690 done our best. 311 00:26:36,530 --> 00:26:37,810 Time to move everything out. 312 00:26:38,750 --> 00:26:41,270 I think it's better to do a few light trips rather than... 313 00:26:41,790 --> 00:26:42,930 Really heavy one. 314 00:26:43,430 --> 00:26:46,130 Yeah, that's not too bad. Wood sign's gone. 315 00:26:47,290 --> 00:26:48,290 It's happening. 316 00:26:48,870 --> 00:26:51,510 There's no going back now. We just have to do it. 317 00:26:51,770 --> 00:26:53,150 Take it easy, Michael. 318 00:26:53,990 --> 00:26:55,150 Slow it down some. 319 00:26:56,270 --> 00:26:58,110 We've got all day, nearly. 320 00:27:02,290 --> 00:27:03,370 Let's find our corners. 321 00:27:04,850 --> 00:27:07,790 The magnitude of this move is starting to dawn on me. 322 00:27:10,090 --> 00:27:13,070 Oh man, my old home, it's nothing. 323 00:27:22,170 --> 00:27:27,770 Okay, here we go to the new land. 324 00:27:28,690 --> 00:27:31,630 The big investment to hopefully have fish. 325 00:27:49,040 --> 00:27:51,540 So glad I did not eat this fish last night. 326 00:27:52,540 --> 00:27:55,860 Amazing to wake up knowing that I have a fish ready to eat. 327 00:27:56,780 --> 00:28:01,320 I was feeling my body in the night and feeling how much fat has come off it. 328 00:28:02,060 --> 00:28:06,440 I want the fat that I have to last me two more months. It won't. There's no 329 00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:08,560 way. It's shredding off me. 330 00:28:09,140 --> 00:28:13,280 It's like playing with my belly going, come on, be more. 331 00:28:13,560 --> 00:28:15,500 The first time in my life I'm going... 332 00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:20,640 I need more fat on my belly instead of, oh, no, I've got a fat belly. 333 00:28:22,040 --> 00:28:26,340 I am never going to look at fat on a human the same way again. 334 00:28:27,240 --> 00:28:28,940 So it's good to have a fish. 335 00:28:29,940 --> 00:28:32,980 It's probably putting back a tenth of what I need. 336 00:28:34,060 --> 00:28:35,820 I probably need ten of these fish. 337 00:28:37,820 --> 00:28:38,820 But it's something. 338 00:28:47,340 --> 00:28:48,720 So the fishing is great. 339 00:28:49,540 --> 00:28:54,320 Knowing that I can catch fish and knowing I'll get better at catching 340 00:28:54,320 --> 00:28:56,040 fish, this is good. 341 00:28:56,820 --> 00:29:02,100 But the fish, the calories in a fish aren't enough. I need, like, I need an 342 00:29:02,100 --> 00:29:03,100 animal. 343 00:29:04,400 --> 00:29:10,320 I need to be able to, like, hoof down half a kilo of protein a 344 00:29:10,320 --> 00:29:13,700 day. 345 00:29:19,920 --> 00:29:23,120 Probably got about another month before I'm skinny. 346 00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:25,340 It's not enough days. 347 00:29:27,020 --> 00:29:29,920 So I think that's the only thing that would take me out is if I got too 348 00:29:29,920 --> 00:29:30,920 skinny. 349 00:29:40,220 --> 00:29:44,420 I've made it to the West River with no rain. 350 00:29:45,520 --> 00:29:46,880 Ready to start exploring. 351 00:29:49,680 --> 00:29:55,760 For these last four weeks. It's actually gone reasonably quick because I've been 352 00:29:55,760 --> 00:29:56,760 so busy. 353 00:29:57,040 --> 00:30:00,120 I am just going to have a quick cast out here because I can't resist it. 354 00:30:00,820 --> 00:30:05,480 When it slows down though, once I've explored every food avenue and I'm just 355 00:30:05,480 --> 00:30:09,000 trying to conserve energy, that's when each day will take forever. 356 00:30:11,080 --> 00:30:14,040 And that's when you start to... 357 00:30:14,780 --> 00:30:15,840 Think about leaving early. 358 00:30:17,240 --> 00:30:21,960 I've got to be careful, though, that I don't do tasks just for my mental well 359 00:30:21,960 --> 00:30:22,960 -being. 360 00:30:31,220 --> 00:30:36,980 Anywhere else in Australia that has trout this remote, this unfished, 361 00:30:37,120 --> 00:30:41,820 you'd see some. 362 00:30:42,820 --> 00:30:44,900 particularly in a spot like this with a river coming in. 363 00:30:47,720 --> 00:30:52,480 I've got to tough it out mentally and still be really stingy with energy. 364 00:30:52,860 --> 00:30:55,760 Come on, man. Why is there no bloody trout in here? It's ridiculous. 365 00:30:59,380 --> 00:31:00,380 Ridiculous. 366 00:31:06,360 --> 00:31:07,360 Shit, it's raining. 367 00:31:15,530 --> 00:31:18,270 I want to hurry home and not get smashed. 368 00:31:25,410 --> 00:31:26,410 Fuck's sake. 369 00:31:29,310 --> 00:31:30,310 Fuck. 370 00:31:34,910 --> 00:31:36,310 I really don't want to get wet. 371 00:31:37,910 --> 00:31:40,150 I really do not want to get saturated. 372 00:31:41,950 --> 00:31:44,650 I'm going to be shivering, wasting energy. 373 00:31:46,350 --> 00:31:49,110 My metabolism is so slow it's going to take forever to warm up. 374 00:31:53,690 --> 00:31:54,690 Fuck's sake. 375 00:31:55,410 --> 00:31:58,630 I just need to stay focused and just get home. 376 00:32:07,030 --> 00:32:09,830 Alone Australia is brought to you by Kia. 377 00:32:10,300 --> 00:32:14,620 Experience the ultimate human endurance as 10 contestants battle to survive 378 00:32:14,620 --> 00:32:19,080 alone in the Tasmanian wilderness, with the winner taking home a prize worth 379 00:32:19,080 --> 00:32:20,480 $250,000. 380 00:32:48,560 --> 00:32:53,340 I've played Russian roulette with the weather on the kayak a lot and it's just 381 00:32:53,340 --> 00:32:55,460 now starting to catch up with me, I think. 382 00:32:56,700 --> 00:32:58,460 Now the rain's really coming down. 383 00:33:00,680 --> 00:33:02,900 As you get more tired, you get more prone to mistakes. 384 00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:05,320 You end up just trying to force something. 385 00:33:06,040 --> 00:33:07,160 I only made one then. 386 00:33:10,520 --> 00:33:13,640 I know I want to get out of this rain before my pants get absolutely 387 00:33:13,640 --> 00:33:14,640 saturated. 388 00:33:15,980 --> 00:33:20,200 If I had to walk home in freezing clothes, it would set me back a day or 389 00:33:20,200 --> 00:33:21,800 two maybe in energy levels. 390 00:33:22,340 --> 00:33:25,360 You know, it's not such a big deal when you've got full energy load, but when 391 00:33:25,360 --> 00:33:27,860 you've got low energy, everything is just harder. 392 00:33:28,640 --> 00:33:29,640 Fuck. 393 00:33:30,780 --> 00:33:33,360 What the fuck happened there? It's pulling that crack. 394 00:33:36,460 --> 00:33:39,620 I've got a crack in the plastic. 395 00:33:41,860 --> 00:33:42,860 Far out. 396 00:33:45,649 --> 00:33:49,310 tired, frustrated and grumpy, to be honest. 397 00:33:53,690 --> 00:33:59,270 I've just got to make sure I don't make any stupid mistakes because, you know, 398 00:33:59,290 --> 00:34:01,990 one mistake here can just snowball into other mistakes. 399 00:34:02,810 --> 00:34:07,230 I don't want to make this the deciding factor in the chain of events that takes 400 00:34:07,230 --> 00:34:08,230 me out. 401 00:34:36,340 --> 00:34:40,820 I don't know how I'm supposed to get these fucking boots off, Jesus fucking 402 00:34:40,820 --> 00:34:41,820 Christ. 403 00:34:54,139 --> 00:34:58,900 Like I said, I'm tired and I'm over it right now. 404 00:35:06,610 --> 00:35:09,910 Time for me to just take a big chill pill. 405 00:35:18,830 --> 00:35:25,650 When I was a teenager, I made the mistake of thinking 406 00:35:25,650 --> 00:35:27,170 that, yeah, I can do anything. 407 00:35:29,090 --> 00:35:31,250 Lots of things that I aimed for didn't happen. 408 00:35:32,210 --> 00:35:33,410 You know, life goals. 409 00:35:34,620 --> 00:35:37,760 I'd always wanted to fly fighter planes as a little kid when I watched Top Gun. 410 00:35:38,800 --> 00:35:44,320 So I joined the army as a pilot, flew army helicopters for eight years and 411 00:35:44,320 --> 00:35:46,940 from that opened up an opportunity to go and fly fast jet. 412 00:35:47,340 --> 00:35:50,880 First time I applied didn't get in, second time didn't get in, third time 413 00:35:50,880 --> 00:35:51,880 finally got in. 414 00:35:54,180 --> 00:35:58,180 So I flew fast jet throughout the fast jet training system. 415 00:36:04,770 --> 00:36:10,630 going at absolutely 100% of my brain power, studying every waking hour for 416 00:36:10,630 --> 00:36:11,770 years. 417 00:36:12,570 --> 00:36:16,910 I put 100% effort in and I just didn't pass the course. 418 00:36:18,990 --> 00:36:21,890 I wasn't able to keep up with the other guys on the course. 419 00:36:23,430 --> 00:36:27,850 Whilst it was disappointing from one angle, I felt in some ways it was almost 420 00:36:27,850 --> 00:36:31,850 like a relief because when you throw yourself 100% at something... 421 00:36:32,300 --> 00:36:34,380 You don't really have any regrets afterwards. 422 00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:00,460 Day 28 423 00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:02,960 Four weeks. 424 00:37:03,700 --> 00:37:07,000 It feels like nothing and it feels like forever. 425 00:37:09,280 --> 00:37:14,080 I'm getting to the point where I can't really connect with my life outside of 426 00:37:14,080 --> 00:37:15,080 this. 427 00:37:15,800 --> 00:37:19,680 The solitude really isn't getting to me at all. 428 00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:22,080 I have so much company. 429 00:37:22,300 --> 00:37:24,700 I mean, the birds come and say hello. 430 00:37:28,800 --> 00:37:30,560 The lake feels like... 431 00:37:30,860 --> 00:37:37,480 an alive thing for me just because there aren't any humans doesn't mean i feel 432 00:37:37,480 --> 00:37:43,580 alone it just means there aren't any humans i 433 00:37:43,580 --> 00:37:50,100 catch myself wondering how everybody else is doing how many of them are left 434 00:37:50,100 --> 00:37:56,960 while i was harvesting i just went into 435 00:37:56,960 --> 00:37:58,220 this whole kind of like 436 00:37:59,260 --> 00:38:03,920 exploration of why the solitude here isn't bothering me. 437 00:38:04,900 --> 00:38:08,320 I mean, I'm a mammal. I need other mammals. 438 00:38:08,720 --> 00:38:13,660 And I started picking at the threads of the question of, like, well, how come? 439 00:38:13,780 --> 00:38:14,780 Like, why? 440 00:38:15,280 --> 00:38:22,240 And I just got to this bit, this nub, which is that when Blaze died, I made a 441 00:38:22,240 --> 00:38:24,880 decision that... 442 00:38:28,080 --> 00:38:29,240 Humans are going to die. 443 00:38:29,700 --> 00:38:30,700 They're going to leave. 444 00:38:32,960 --> 00:38:37,240 And if you love, you love knowing that they're going to leave. 445 00:38:38,820 --> 00:38:44,780 The way I've adapted and defend myself now against that kind of pain 446 00:38:44,780 --> 00:38:48,080 is just to not need anyone. 447 00:38:49,740 --> 00:38:52,160 And since she's left, I've loved. 448 00:38:52,720 --> 00:38:54,400 I've loved. I've loved deeply. 449 00:38:57,130 --> 00:38:59,010 But I haven't let myself need anyone. 450 00:39:00,030 --> 00:39:06,710 Because if I need them and they leave me, then I don't know if I can 451 00:39:06,710 --> 00:39:08,030 bear the heartbreak again. 452 00:39:13,250 --> 00:39:16,630 Because it nearly killed me the first time, you know, losing her. 453 00:39:18,550 --> 00:39:25,470 Like to bear the unbearable and to dance 454 00:39:25,470 --> 00:39:26,470 the undanceable. 455 00:39:28,650 --> 00:39:30,370 I made it. I made it through. 456 00:39:35,490 --> 00:39:38,650 There's a part that's like, I don't know if I could do that again. 457 00:39:43,750 --> 00:39:49,030 And I'm only really just seeing it now in the solitude of this place. 458 00:39:57,710 --> 00:40:02,370 And it means there's just a level of vulnerability that I don't, that I don't 459 00:40:02,370 --> 00:40:04,210 show the people I love. 460 00:40:06,890 --> 00:40:11,530 And I don't want to hold back. You know, I don't want to hold, I don't want to 461 00:40:11,530 --> 00:40:13,710 hold back from any part of that expression. 462 00:40:16,750 --> 00:40:23,370 So in that, in that de-armoring and in that shedding, 463 00:40:27,660 --> 00:40:29,120 I do want someone here. 464 00:40:32,260 --> 00:40:35,040 I want a hug right now. 465 00:40:38,500 --> 00:40:39,840 I want a hug. 466 00:40:43,120 --> 00:40:45,980 And I want to look them in the eyes and say, I need you. 467 00:41:21,279 --> 00:41:23,260 Okay, there's years in the far distance. 468 00:41:25,140 --> 00:41:26,140 So close. 469 00:41:28,920 --> 00:41:30,660 Getting a little slicker every time. 470 00:41:32,820 --> 00:41:34,020 What a journey. 471 00:41:36,100 --> 00:41:39,940 It felt impossible last night when I lay in bed and thought about everything that 472 00:41:39,940 --> 00:41:40,940 could go wrong. 473 00:41:41,120 --> 00:41:44,060 It was a huge effort, but yeah, we made it through. 474 00:41:44,280 --> 00:41:46,180 No more searching for better places. 475 00:41:46,460 --> 00:41:47,520 It's a pick and stick. 476 00:41:48,360 --> 00:41:51,260 Right now, I feel kind of a little elated. 477 00:41:53,100 --> 00:41:54,100 Okay. 478 00:41:54,460 --> 00:41:55,460 So we're here. 479 00:41:56,240 --> 00:41:57,480 And come and have a look why. 480 00:42:00,100 --> 00:42:01,100 Look at all this. 481 00:42:01,900 --> 00:42:04,300 All this goodness flowing straight out of the forest. 482 00:42:05,240 --> 00:42:06,960 And look how shallow it is. 483 00:42:07,320 --> 00:42:09,680 So there's going to be fish anywhere that's here. 484 00:42:10,280 --> 00:42:11,280 And grass. 485 00:42:11,300 --> 00:42:12,300 Have you seen grass before? 486 00:42:16,060 --> 00:42:17,060 There's hope now. 487 00:42:20,680 --> 00:42:22,360 We'd like to have a shelter in here somewhere. 488 00:42:23,040 --> 00:42:24,500 It looks super sheltered. 489 00:42:24,780 --> 00:42:25,780 Let's have a look. 490 00:42:29,480 --> 00:42:30,880 Man, it doesn't look too bad at all. 491 00:42:32,860 --> 00:42:35,540 Okay, so level ground somewhere around here. 492 00:42:36,420 --> 00:42:39,420 Three and a half metres by three and a half, say. 493 00:42:39,820 --> 00:42:42,020 One, two, three. 494 00:42:43,600 --> 00:42:44,680 Don't want to cut down that tree. 495 00:43:01,290 --> 00:43:03,850 Alone Australia is brought to you by Kia. 496 00:43:04,330 --> 00:43:08,650 Experience the ultimate human endurance as 10 contestants battle to survive 497 00:43:08,650 --> 00:43:13,090 alone in the Tasmanian wilderness, with the winner taking home a prize worth 498 00:43:13,090 --> 00:43:14,530 $250,000. 499 00:43:52,750 --> 00:43:55,070 Ouch. I wasn't expecting that. 500 00:43:56,070 --> 00:43:58,050 The top half of the tree broke off. 501 00:43:58,510 --> 00:43:59,510 Let's do a quick look. 502 00:44:02,290 --> 00:44:03,290 Yes, there. 503 00:44:03,510 --> 00:44:04,790 I think it's bruised already. 504 00:44:05,230 --> 00:44:06,610 It's going red already too. 505 00:44:07,010 --> 00:44:09,190 Man, these mini deadfalls are a killer. 506 00:44:09,610 --> 00:44:10,610 Or a bruiser. 507 00:44:12,250 --> 00:44:14,450 Just time, so time critical today. 508 00:44:16,510 --> 00:44:17,910 I'm just starting to get a bit cold. 509 00:44:18,610 --> 00:44:19,910 I haven't that shelter done yet. 510 00:44:22,910 --> 00:44:24,070 Okay, over we go. 511 00:44:26,030 --> 00:44:28,790 The move. That was really hard work. 512 00:44:29,830 --> 00:44:30,830 Man. 513 00:44:31,050 --> 00:44:33,290 How many calories did I burn? 514 00:44:33,870 --> 00:44:36,090 I probably lost another kilo or so. 515 00:44:37,910 --> 00:44:39,170 Have I done the right thing? 516 00:44:41,790 --> 00:44:42,790 I'm exhausted. 517 00:44:43,290 --> 00:44:44,290 I'm hungry. 518 00:44:44,450 --> 00:44:45,450 I'm cold. 519 00:44:46,910 --> 00:44:51,130 Been nicely fishing right now or tonight, but I think we've just got to 520 00:44:51,130 --> 00:44:52,150 focus on getting through today. 521 00:45:08,590 --> 00:45:10,910 There's some music and some food. 522 00:45:13,710 --> 00:45:14,750 Oh, what's that? 523 00:45:15,750 --> 00:45:18,490 I just heard a slosh down here. 524 00:45:20,510 --> 00:45:21,510 There's my line. 525 00:45:22,850 --> 00:45:24,710 Yes, I got a very small trout on. 526 00:45:25,430 --> 00:45:26,970 Very small brown trout. 527 00:45:33,090 --> 00:45:39,060 He's in the net, but the net, I can't... Pull this line out. 528 00:45:42,960 --> 00:45:44,660 Same bloody problem. 529 00:45:46,680 --> 00:45:47,960 Oh shit. 530 00:45:51,980 --> 00:45:54,320 Come on, come on, come on. 531 00:45:56,060 --> 00:45:57,800 Far out. 532 00:46:04,120 --> 00:46:05,740 Head in the net. 533 00:46:14,630 --> 00:46:15,630 Yes. Yes. 534 00:46:16,550 --> 00:46:17,550 Yes. 535 00:46:19,310 --> 00:46:22,670 I got a brown trout. Let's go up the bank. Let's get him well away from the 536 00:46:22,670 --> 00:46:23,910 bloody water's edge. 537 00:46:24,650 --> 00:46:26,630 Oh, how bloody great is that? 538 00:46:28,470 --> 00:46:30,050 Lovely pan size. 539 00:46:30,450 --> 00:46:31,450 Brown trout. 540 00:46:32,250 --> 00:46:33,250 Yes. 541 00:46:36,230 --> 00:46:39,310 Man, that is so good. 542 00:46:40,880 --> 00:46:42,100 Hello Southern Cross. 543 00:46:43,380 --> 00:46:46,060 You're looking down on me. Thanks, mate. You did a good job. 544 00:46:47,600 --> 00:46:48,600 Oh, man. 545 00:46:49,740 --> 00:46:56,000 It feels so bloody good, man. Like, when you're relying on food to survive, 546 00:46:56,200 --> 00:47:00,440 like, it just, it is amazing when you get it. 547 00:47:01,600 --> 00:47:03,740 All right, there he is. Look at him. 548 00:47:04,720 --> 00:47:07,500 Beautiful. He's one of the most beautiful trout I've ever seen in my 549 00:47:07,500 --> 00:47:11,180 life. Even though he's certainly not the biggest, but he's the one that I need to 550 00:47:11,180 --> 00:47:12,180 eat the most. 551 00:47:16,940 --> 00:47:18,520 I can't wait to get home. 552 00:47:19,920 --> 00:47:22,060 Give my wife a big, long cuddle. 553 00:47:25,680 --> 00:47:26,740 See the kids. 554 00:47:27,760 --> 00:47:29,380 They're the coolest little dudes. 555 00:47:31,080 --> 00:47:35,080 It would just be really nice to show them this place, just show them around. 556 00:47:35,960 --> 00:47:37,740 This is my bed and this is... 557 00:47:38,040 --> 00:47:39,040 The paddy melon trap. 558 00:47:42,100 --> 00:47:44,960 You've got to be very careful about thinking about that kind of thing, 559 00:47:45,040 --> 00:47:50,820 because that shifts your focus from what it should be. My focus should be, how am 560 00:47:50,820 --> 00:47:51,820 I going to survive this thing? 561 00:47:57,740 --> 00:48:00,500 Oh, man. 562 00:48:02,880 --> 00:48:03,880 Life is good. 563 00:48:06,839 --> 00:48:10,080 last good man you got to enjoy it you got to enjoy what you work for 564 00:48:39,790 --> 00:48:40,790 It does. 565 00:48:41,550 --> 00:48:42,690 We're at the new home. 566 00:48:43,890 --> 00:48:46,150 It's still raining. It's rained since I got here. 567 00:48:47,910 --> 00:48:51,350 The shelter's working pretty well. It does get a little breezy in this way. 568 00:48:51,850 --> 00:48:54,750 So we'll just chuck that tarp up against that and make a wall there. 569 00:49:01,670 --> 00:49:03,290 Legs a bit sore after yesterday. 570 00:49:03,890 --> 00:49:04,890 Better than nothing. 571 00:49:06,630 --> 00:49:08,810 It's a good day to be laying in bed for the whole day. 572 00:49:10,310 --> 00:49:14,590 It's just taking it all easy now, conserving energy, finding food, 573 00:49:14,810 --> 00:49:18,850 and getting through to the end. 574 00:49:21,870 --> 00:49:24,010 This is the most extreme thing I've ever done. 575 00:49:25,210 --> 00:49:30,070 It's a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, but it comes at a cost. 576 00:49:30,870 --> 00:49:32,690 Cost to me, cost to my family. 577 00:49:39,600 --> 00:49:40,600 Day 29. 578 00:49:41,960 --> 00:49:47,000 It continues day by day by day by day by day by day. 579 00:49:48,440 --> 00:49:53,800 So just sitting in here, it's pretty easy to snuggle up under the blanket, 580 00:49:54,100 --> 00:50:00,920 under the dry part of the sleeping bag and just have the time go by, 581 00:50:01,060 --> 00:50:03,360 as long as you don't think about what you're missing out on. 582 00:50:32,810 --> 00:50:33,870 Good morning family. 583 00:50:35,110 --> 00:50:36,430 Look what we're up to. 584 00:50:36,810 --> 00:50:39,150 One, two, three, four weeks. 585 00:50:43,790 --> 00:50:50,350 Five weeks really, isn't it? 586 00:50:57,330 --> 00:51:01,750 I miss you guys so much. 587 00:51:06,009 --> 00:51:07,670 I'm doing well out here, really. 588 00:51:08,450 --> 00:51:11,090 Each day, I just potter on and get through. 589 00:51:11,390 --> 00:51:14,730 When I think of you guys, oh, my heart. 590 00:51:18,850 --> 00:51:21,350 I've been crying before now, but I'm crying now. 591 00:51:27,550 --> 00:51:29,950 This move might have been a big mistake. 592 00:51:32,930 --> 00:51:33,930 I've been starving. 593 00:51:34,430 --> 00:51:40,590 since day one i haven't caught any fish so i've been doing it tough i'm not 594 00:51:40,590 --> 00:51:46,630 going to be well soon and i'm only getting worse it's not much fun out here 595 00:51:46,630 --> 00:51:51,850 it's getting harder so much riding on this just doing everything i can 596 00:51:51,850 --> 00:51:58,670 nobody breathe i need the meat the amount 597 00:51:58,670 --> 00:52:03,980 of weight that i'm losing is a concern All my waking thoughts are about how to 598 00:52:03,980 --> 00:52:06,340 get food. If I don't get an animal, I'm done here. 599 00:52:08,160 --> 00:52:09,160 Holy shit. 600 00:52:09,540 --> 00:52:10,600 Holy shit.