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[Our Generation]

[Episode 13]

Did you read my journal?

I just accidentally glanced at it.

What did you see?

I saw you wrote

that I didn't write letters or call you.

And that you never want to get hurt because of me again.

But now,

I don't want you to get hurt because of yourself either.

Cherry, did I scare you today?

Jiang Qiao Xi, you're...

You're so mean.

Always making you cry, right?

Yes.

But even so,

I still want to tell you

that meeting you was the best thing in my life.

Jiang Qiao Xi,

when I look into your eyes,

you are all I see.

Every time I say this name, I only think of Qunshan's sunsets.

All these things belong to you. I gave them to you.

You can't return them to me.

Even if you try to return them,

I won't take them back.

Don't worry, Cherry, I see it now.

I know

what I should live for.

Okay, that's everything.

- Great. - I'll get some more canola flowers.

Okay.

Coming!

Mr. Jiang.

Qiao Xi is inside.

Thank you.

Have a seat.

Sit, sit, please sit.

Come sit down quickly. Let's eat together.

Watch your hand.

Hello?

Did Cherry and Jiang Qiao Xi cry?

Look at Qin Ye Yun's face.

She's probably laughing at us.

So be it.

You can laugh, too, if you feel like it.

From this moment on,

consider the old Jiang Qiao Xi gone.

Now you belong to Qunshan,

and to yourself.

No one can control or confine you anymore.

You'll live as Jiang Qiao Xi from now on.

But no matter what method you use,

you must never hurt yourself or let yourself get hurt again.

I won't.

Because

Cherry sees me for who I am.

And all of Qunshan sees me, too.

Today,

I'm finally free.

Starting today, I don't need any of these things.

I have a name. I'm Jiang Qiao Xi!

He just wanted to find a place far away from all of you.

He disappeared on a hill so close to home.

- Do you really believe it's just— -You can't talk about him like that!

Then how should I talk about him?

Go and ask him yourselves in front of his memorial tablet,

if I've ever wronged him!

Today I'm returning these to you. From now on, I'll only be my true self.

Why? Why?

Is it serious?

Okay, I'm on my way.

What's wrong?

Hai Feng, Qiao Xi's mom, Hong Fei, was in a car accident.

I must go there immediately.

Okay, I'll go with you.

Go quickly! Hurry!

Cherry, come out for a moment.

Mom,

- what's wrong? - Cherry,

Qiao Xi's mother, had a car accident.

We are going to the hospital with Mr. Jiang.

You stay home with Qiao Xi.

What about me?

Don't panic. We'll be at the hospital.

Keep an eye on Qiao Xi.

Hong Fei...

The patient was very fortunate. Her injuries aren't serious.

Mostly soft tissue contusions

and a minor concussion.

She might experience nausea and dizziness in the coming days.

What she needs most now is rest and emotional stability.

I understand that math prodigies often have strong personalities.

But what you're showing now isn't personality, but stubbornness!

Did you just casually give up the Olympiad recommendation chance?

When you could have showcased our country's talents on the world stage,

you refused without hesitation!

Do you realize what you've abandoned?

You have not only given up

but also a chance for First Experimental High School,

no, for the entire city of Jialin to gain recognition!

Principal, please calm down.

Jiang Qiao Xi must have his reasons. Let's communicate properly with him.

I've respected his opinions too much!

That's why he's become so arrogant!

Jiang Qiao Xi, you must value the opportunities you have.

The Director is right. Decisions should be made carefully.

Jiang Qiao Xi, I've always known you as a sensible student.

We understand this is a temporary teenage rebellion.

Take your time to think it through carefully.

I don't understand.

With his brilliant mind, how can he not understand something so simple?

Never mind your parents' sacrifices

or the school's investment in you.

Just think about yourself.

You're still a minor!

Do you know what decisions are truly good for you?

Do you know what decisions show responsibility?

Principal, I'm sorry. Here, let me...

Please, have a seat. My son is...

Lin Qi Le, what are you doing here?

Did you skip class?

It's noon dismissal now.

I came to deliver lunch to Ms. Liang.

Mr. Jiang, this is pigeon soup my mom stewed.

It just finished stewing, so it might still be hot.

How about snakehead fish soup tomorrow?

Thank you so much. We're really troubling your family.

It's fine. We're neighbors.

Helping each other is what we should do.

Jiang Qiao Xi, my parents want you to come home for lunch.

You've been pushing yourself too hard lately.

If we don't call you for meals, you won't eat anything at all.

We literally have to watch you. Let's go.

Okay. Madam, Principal, I'll head out now.

Goodbye, Mr. Jiang, Ms. Liang.

Excuse us.

See how obedient

your son was?

Were those teachers really angry earlier?

Yes. They all want the old Jiang Qiao Xi back,

not the current version.

What should we do, Cherry?

It doesn't matter what others think.

Your opinion matters the most.

What about you?

Which Jiang Qiao Xi do you prefer?

I think the version that makes him the happiest

and makes him love himself

is the better one.

That's such a Cherry thing to say.

Have you been exhausted these past few days?

It's manageable.

Nothing compared to how tired I used to be.

Those same old lectures every day get so tedious.

What about now?

Now... it's slightly better.

Just slightly?

The scenery is beautiful and the sunshine is warm,

yet you're still not satisfied.

True.

Nothing feels warmer than this moment.

If you keep leaning like this, you'll fall.

I won't.

Not with you here beside me.

Do you trust me that much?

Cherry, why have you never asked me

what I want to do in the future?

Those questions

are exhausting to answer.

You've been tired for so long.

You should rest first.

Asking me whether Jiang Qiao Xi will come is pointless.

Even asking him won't help. Only Lin Qi Le would know.

Actually, her parents probably know too, not just her.

That's nonsense. How would Lin Qi Le know something Jiang Qiao Xi himself doesn't?

Cai Fang Yuan isn't lying. It's true.

Back when Jiang Qiao Xi studied with us in Qunshan,

no one could ever find him after school.

The only place to look was Lin Qi Le's house.

He should have bought a bed and lived at their place.

The rest of the time, he might as well have been their biological son.

- Were they really that close? - Lin Qi Le.

Of course.

When is Jiang Qiao Xi returning to school?

I don't know either.

Perhaps when he wants to.

♫ Once again, I am like dust in the night ♫

Lin Qi Le, when does Jiang Qiao Xi plan to return to school?

When he comes back.

Lin Qi Le.

♫ Only to hear the dream's surging tide ♫

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You're just spinning in circles and trying to fool me.

I genuinely don't know.

And you're interrogating me over and over.

♫ My dream! I want to set it free ♫

♫ I want to let you ♫

♫ I want to let you see ♫

♫ The light that shines within me ♫

♫ I want to sing ♫

♫ I want to sing for you ♫

♫ About my loneliness and confusion ♫

♫ I want to forget ♫

♫ I want to forget the plain life I once had ♫

♫ Lost in thought ♫

♫ I gazed intently ♫

♫ Far into the distance ♫

♫ Once again tonight ♫ ♫ I sing with all my heart ♫

♫ The void in my soul ♫ ♫ Mirrors the flow of my blood ♫

♫ Once again in my dream ♫ ♫ I smelled a fragrance scent ♫

♫ Like the scent of white wildflowers ♫ ♫ On a morning road ♫

I thought it was heavier than usual. Who allowed you to board?

Get off. Get off. All right, be careful.

Kids these days have no concept of time, do they?

The one thing I have plenty of now is time.

If you're not short on time now, when will you be?

Wandering around like a vagrant every day, not even attending school.

Go work in a factory. That'd be great.

♫ I want to sing ♫

Jiang Qiao Xi, what exactly does he want?

He quit the national training team,

gave up his guaranteed college admission, and now, he won't even come to school.

What's his endgame?

It's his decision. He'll talk when he's ready.

As a friend, all I can do is support him.

If I were truly worried,

I'd worry only about whether he's eating and sleeping well,

and whether he's truly happy.

If these questions of yours make him unhappy, then I won't ask.

Lin Qi Le, don't you realize how precarious his situation is?

He just wants to be himself. I don't see the danger in that.

♫ Lost in thought ♫

♫ I gazed intently ♫

Cherry.

Qiao Xi, have some ribs.

Thank you, Mrs. Lin.

Let me help you carry the bowls and spoons.

Take the spoons and soup bowls over together.

Guess what kind of soup this is.

Egg drop soup?

- You guessed right. - I ate that.

Thank you, Mr. Lin.

Qiao Xi, I can do it.

No, I can do it.

- Let's do it together. - It's all right.

All right.

Go ahead.

Mr. Lin,

if there's anything you want to ask me, go ahead.

Cherry told us before not to ask anything.

I thought if you want to share, you will.

If not, that's fine too.

But given today's outcome,

saying anything now is unnecessary.

It's okay, Mr. Lin. If you have something to say, I'm ready to listen.

- Are you sure? - Yes.

About your abilities, your talents, so to speak.

What are your thoughts? Any plans?

Do you have any suggestions?

I think Secretary Li has a point.

If you waste your talent like this,

- Dad! - it'd be a shame.

Stop! Even I'm tired of hearing this, let alone Jiang Qiao Xi.

- Just leave this to me. - It's fine. My hands are already wet.

Okay, I'll stop here.

But, even if many people have said it, I still need to say it, because

- Stop. - what I say today is different from others.

I believe

you brought your talent to this world,

not the other way around.

Don't be imprisoned, drained, or exhausted by your talent.

You should use it well to make yourself shine brightly.

Your happiness is what makes your talent worthwhile.

Otherwise, what's wasted isn't your talent,

but your life.

Have I made myself clear?

I understand. But I don't think that's what they meant.

I couldn't say that in front of them.

Now that we're alone, can't we speak freely?

That's the idea. Just for your reference.

Cherry, I really envy you.

In the past, everyone told me not to waste my talent.

But no one really cares about what these talents can do for me.

Only you, Mr. Lin, see my existence beyond these talents.

Wait, only I noticed?

No, I saw it, too.

- And me! - We all saw it. Everyone saw it!

Thank you all. I really needed these words.

They mean a lot to me.

Cherry, see?

Listen to your dad more from now on.

Your dad's advice has been certified by an actual genius.

I will listen to you more.

Why don't you say something to me? I'm listening.

For you?

Then listen carefully< br> to what I'm about to say. It's important.

You can't skip eating carrots.

No!

Dad.

Do you feel satisfied now?

I used to imagine this exact scene to get through lonely days.

Back then, I thought actually doing it would feel satisfying.

But now that the day has come,

I just feel calm.

You're "calm"?

But our family's efforts over these years

are treated like garbage now.

Qiao Xi,

I never imagined you to be so ruthless.

Is there truly no room left for compromise?

Dad,

do you want to keep it as a memento?

Have you eaten? Let me cook for you, Dad.

How's your hand?

Fully healed.

Your mom still hasn't moved on, you know.

Olympiad champions can enter the national team and get direct admission

to Qingbei University.

These are all things she wanted you to achieve.

And you're throwing all of that away?

Dad, I'll take out the trash.

Mom, try this.

It's pretty good.

I made it myself.

Does this mean I have cooking talent too?

Wait,

there are more dishes.

Let me pour you some tea.

You're wasting your talents and intelligence on this nonsense.

Do you want to be a cook?

No.

When I'm cooking, I don't think about anything else.

You just want to destroy yourself.

There are thousands of ways you could take revenge on me.

Why choose math?

Do you remember how I started learning math?

Of course, I do.

You were only four in kindergarten.

While other kids played with toys, you focused on the abacus.

We discovered your math talent then and sent you to Olympiad classes.

Within a year, you brought home many awards.

Everyone said I'd given birth to another genius.

What I remember is when I was in kindergarten, on Mother's Day,

I gave you a drawing of you smiling.

But after receiving it,

you told me that you wanted an Olympiad medal instead.

Later, I got that too.

You were genuinely happy, smiling just like in that painting.

You also took me to the park.

We lay together on the boat,

watching the clouds drift across the sky.

It was the first time I felt happier than the seagulls flying in the sky.

I remember.

I remember all of it.

But later, I found a photo

of you and Jiang Meng Chu together.

The same park. The same boat.

Even the same smile.

I truly wanted your joy to be because of me.

You've always tried to find Jiang Meng Chu's shadow in my eyes.

What I've always wanted is a mother, not mathematics.

You want me to admit that I've failed you, don't you?

Don't you also want me to admit I've wasted the talent you gave me?

Mom, you've been trapped in the identity of being a genius's mother.

You wanted to use me to prove Jiang Meng Chu's existence.

And I'm the same.

I've been trapped in the identity of being a genius teenager.

I want to use rebellion against you to prove that I'm different from Jiang Meng Chu.

But Mom, our mutual resentment is truly meaningless.

What exactly are you trying to say?

If we can't stop resenting each other,

then let's not stop.

Instead, let's first find ourselves.

Our complete selves.

Then maybe when we look at each other,

there'll be no more resentment.

Do you think you're so impressive?

You can cook for me, lecturing me with these grand philosophies.

Let me tell you.

Everything I'm doing now is for your future.

You're about to face this cruel world.

Your ignorance about this world is laughable.

As for the future or the world, I'm indeed clueless.

But the only thing I know is that it's all in my hands,

and only in my hands.

I never expected things to go so smoothly.

Now my website has not only more readers but also more authors.

Most importantly, you know what?

Someone offered 80,000 yuan recently.

Eighty thousand! To buy my website!

Wait. Hold on. Eighty thousand?

Cai Fang Yuan, you're becoming an eighty-thousandaire!

Sell it quickly!

Sell? What nonsense!

I want to create a pure land for Chinese literary creation.

No amount of money could buy this. It's about passion.

A righteous businessman.

What are you eating?

Brain nutrition! It enhances intelligence and memory.

Here.

What's wrong with your brain?

Excellent memory. Quick mind.

These are basic requirements for becoming a pilot.

Next month, the air force recruitment will start.

My turn comes next year.

Judging by current conditions, my physical hardware is definitely qualified.

But my software needs to catch up to ensure perfection.

Qin Ye Yun, you should eat more too. Don't you want to be in business?

Even an outstanding shady businessman needs a smart mind.

Dr. Du, don't you agree?

You know, I've realized our little Qunshan group

is versatile in both arts and sports, covering all walks of life!

- Lin Cherry. - Don't ask me.

I'm still contemplating major life decisions.

Who's asking you?

I wanted to know what Jiang Qiao Xi is thinking.

Yes. We're not pressuring him.

We just want to understand his perspective.

Everyone's planning their futures.

He withdrew his guaranteed admission and never shared his thoughts.

I don't know.

He didn't even tell you?

Jiang Qiao Xi is going too far.

I truly don't know.

Sometimes I feel like he doesn't think about the future at all.

And other times, it seems he's had it all figured out.

Cherry, why don't you ask him then?

How can I?

Any question would pressure him.

Jiang Qiao Xi's always been decisive.

He must have considered it.

I agree. I bet he's already decided.

He's keeping it secret to surprise you, or shock you.

That can't be.

He'll tell us when he's ready.

Have you talked to that Lin girl yet?

What do you really want?

Not yet. How should I approach this, bro?

I've noticed that I'm quite timid around her.

What are you afraid of?

If I tell her, and she asks me to stay,

I'll be lost.

If she tells me to go, I'll be even more confused.

Then it's simple.

Just ask her to come with you.

No, she's very family-oriented. She won't leave.

Then you need to figure out what you truly want, okay?

Even I can't advise you on this.

Think it through.

You're back at school, genius.

You haven't quit math, right?

I don't like math.

How's that possible?

My dad says your math intuition is one in a million.

You solve problems like a skilled butcher dissecting an ox.

How can you abandon such talent after all these years of effort?

I'll head back to class now.

Senior Jiang, is your dislike of math because of Qi Le?

I heard people say that you changed a lot after she transferred to Experimental High.

- I mean— - All my decisions are based on my considerations.

They have nothing to do with Lin Qi Le.

Hi.

I'm leaving.

Why are you back at school? You didn't say anything.

I felt like returning, so I did.

Let's grab supper after the evening study session.

You? What about us two?

Right.

You can go on your own.

You two are everywhere. Get lost!

Jiang Qiao Xi!

Qiao Xi is back.

Jiang Qiao Xi has returned.

You're finally back, Jiang Qiao Xi.

You're finally back, Jiang Qiao Xi.

Long time no see.

When you were away, I copied all the math notes for you.

- You did? You can give it to me. - Right, right.

We thought you weren't coming back to class.

- Do you want it now? I'll get it for you. - Okay, okay.

Get it for him. Didn't you say so?

I'll get it. Where are the problems?

Everyone, turn to page 58.

Is this appropriate? Reading English during math class?

Is this appropriate, Jiang Qiao Xi, the math prodigy?

It's outrageous, Principal.

Look at this troublemaker of yours.

He's been throwing tantrums for over two weeks.

Now he's having a teenage rebellion during class.

He reads English in math class, and math in English class.

Are you sure about his studying math during English class?

Lin Cherry, which country is Jiang Qiao Xi going to study in?

What did you say?

You didn't know?

I... Who said he's going abroad? Who told you that?

Earlier, when I went to the office to collect homework,

Ms. Qu said Jiang Qiao Xi was reviewing TOEFL materials during math class today.

Didn't he tell you?

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He doesn't need to tell anyone.

He's got his own plans for the future.

Why did she leave?

~ Refuse To Be Ordinary ~ Xu Yang

♫ Once again, I am like dust in the night ♫

♫ Blown by the wind ♫ ♫ I can't find a place to rest ♫

"♫ Once again in my dream ♫ ♫ I gazed at the ocean ♫"

♫ Only to hear the dream's surging tide ♫

♫ An incredible power ♫ ♫ Flows through the darkness ♫

♫ My dream! I want to set it free ♫

♫ I want to let you ♫

♫ I want to let you see ♫

♫ The light that shines within me ♫

♫ I want to sing ♫

♫ I want to sing for you ♫

♫ About my loneliness and confusion ♫

♫ I want to forget ♫

♫ I want to forget the plain life I once had ♫

♫ Lost in thought ♫

♫ I gazed intently ♫

♫ Far into the distance ♫

♫ Once again in my dream ♫ ♫ I smelled a fragrance scent ♫

♫ Like the scent of white wildflowers ♫ ♫ On a morning road ♫

♫ An incredible power ♫ ♫ Flows through the darkness ♫

♫ My dream! I want to set it free ♫

♫ I want to let you ♫

♫ I want to let you see ♫

♫ The light that shines within me ♫

♫ I want to sing ♫

♫ I want to sing for you ♫

♫ About my loneliness and confusion ♫

♫ I want to forget ♫

♫ I want to forget the plain life I once had ♫

♫ Lost in thought ♫

♫ I gazed intently ♫

♫ Far into the distance ♫