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[Tammy] Previously on "Double Lives of Suburban Wives."

[Bridgette] I got your Mother's Day gift.

-[Brooke] Close your eyes. -Thank you.

My name is Heather.

-That's so sweet. -Hey!

I was making $16 an hour, and we just had our fourth kid.

[Shawn] To be able to feed four kids,

I mean, that runs you $400 or $500 a week anyways.

[Heather] I started thinking about part-time content creation,

and finally we decided to give it a try.

Let me know what you think in the comments.

My mother-in-law, my kids,

none of them know that I make adult content.

The Bible is a record of us getting to know God better.

Being a Christian and being in the adult content world,

it is very clashing. So I do struggle with that.

I'm contributing to somebody lusting.

Thank you, Jesus, for this food and all of your blessings.

-Amen. -[all] Amen.

My name is Macy, and I've been an adult content creator

for three years now.

Absolutely no one in my family or my community knows

that I do adult content.

What makes this very difficult is that my dad is a pastor.

Coming out, I'm probably gonna be judged,

and I don't know if I'm ready for that.

You wanna go talk?

At this point, the tensions are very high.

-Like, you never talk to me. -Uh...

Bri was my best friend.

Once I got outed and put on leave, Bri was there for me.

[reporter] A second teacher is pulled from the classroom

when her adult content site was found.

But Bri did something that I'm still trying to get over.

Well, I've asked you multiple times

what's going on with our friendship and you --

Our friendship has been gone for a while.

I think you're just the one that didn't realize it.

[Brianna] I'm confused 'cause I'm not clear on anything.

I believe that Bri outed me to the newspapers three years ago.

That's what blew my life up

and made me lose the job that I love.

She took that from me.

[suspenseful music playing

-Girl, that was a lot. -Yeah.

It just makes me so uncomfortable.

I'm gonna take my glasses off.

-That's how you know -- [chuckles]. -I know.

Come sit down. I wanna just chat with you.

I knew it was going to happen.

And listen, like, obviously nobody wants to, like,

be fighting, especially when we're all in a friend group.

But, like, we have to figure this out.

I love Megan. I love Bri.

It's just hard where we go from here.

Things didn't exactly go the way I thought they would.

Not at all. I...

was mind blown.

I thought we were just gonna be like, "Alright guys,

like let's talk about this, let's figure it out."

I did not realize that things went so deep.

[Macy] 'Cause like, they used to be best friends.

So it's like... -[Tammy] There's a missing piece

of the puzzle here. -Yeah -- yeah.

At this point, I don't know what to think.

I understand where they're both coming from, right?

Like, I do see Megan won't communicate.

And I understand that would be frustrating, right?

-In any relationship. -[Tammy] Mm-hmm.

-And... -But that that's still between them.

-[Macy] Yes. -But unfortunately, it is bleeding out

to the rest of the group.

And, like, we can't progress until they figure it out.

-Yeah. -Even as that interaction was going on...

I'm like, "There's no way we could do a live or a TikTok

or... with that tension, man." -[Tammy] No, I don't think that

it's not possible.

I really don't want Milf House to die.

I feel like it helped our friendships.

And from a business aspect, whenever we post videos,

it does help me grow my followers.

And so, because my whole life is about to change,

I can't afford to not have Milf House.

But I do not see Milf House happening

if Megan and Bri are both still at it.

I just don't see it possible at this point.

-[Tammy] Hey. -Hi.

[Macy] Hey.

-Give it to me straight. -OK.

-Um... -Listen, I know I can be a bitch,

and I know I can be harsh. -[Tammy] I've never said that.

No, I'm owning that myself.

When I get frustrated, like, I have a tone.

But I'm beyond frustrated.

I'm like, "You won't communicate."

-Mm-hmm. -You -- I...

Yeah. No, I get --

I get your frustration.

I'm just like, "What the [bleep] is going on?"

It would be great if Megan could just talk and...

share what the heck is going on.

Because that's like what friends, adults, like people

that are supposed to be able to work together

should be able to do.

[exhales] This was not on my 2026 bingo card.

I could've go my whole life without this drama,

Because I feel like she's holding something back.

[slurping]

[retro music playing]

I'm making world's best sandwich.

OK!

My name's Emily and I'm a mom of four children.

I have six cats, one dog, and my husband

who's definitely my emotional support animal.

-Kash, do you want mayo? -No.

-OK. -Can you add those hot chips on mine?

-[Emily] Yes. -[Amelia] Yeah, can you add the hot chips on mine too?

-[Emily] Yes. -And half a slice of that mustard.

Yes, half a slice of mustard cheese coming up.

Nolan is our oldest. He's 17.

Kash, our second oldest, he's 15.

Emerson, he's 12 years old.

And Amelia, she's eight

and she's the queen of the house.

How many world's best sandwiches am I making?

Just make one big one for me and Kash to share.

I feel like I'm a Betty Crocker mom

for this day and age. I clean.

-[60's music playing] -[meowing]

[Emily] I cut everyone's hair in the house.

I cook, I like to have dinner done by a certain time.

We have dinner at the table every day.

-Team -- what team are you on? -Rome.

-[Emily] Hello. -[Nathan] Hey.

-[children] Hi. -[Amelia] Hi!

Hey, guys.

I grabbed such a hot wife

while we were working together.

[Emily] He was my boss.

She did not think I was a hot husband.

-She made that very clear. -It was your walk.

-Yeah, I walk like a duck. -It was your feet like this.

[Amelia] Mommy, next time, can you take off the crust?

[Emily] Yes, I'm so sorry.

We were really good friends first.

One thing led to another.

And, you know, just my great personality,

you know, must have been it.

So when he says his personality won me over,

I guess that really did do it.

Yeah -- not my looks.

You're so cute.

And we had just decided we're gonna do this thing.

♪ It's always worth it with you, ah-ooh ♪

-Yeah. -And we've been having babies ever since.

We're good at it.

♪ There's nothing quite as sweet ♪

This weekend we're going to the reptile show in Chicago.

[Kash] Oh, this weekend?

Yeah, when I say we, I mean me and your mother, not you guys.

[Kash] Yeah, I know.

When are the other snakes coming?

-[Nathan] Tomorrow, I have to pick them up. -Oh.

I have a normal nine-to-five job as a store manager,

and I'm a business owner. I'm a snake keeper.

[Emily] So we also have a snake business with 23 snakes,

some of the most rare reticulated pythons in America.

Yep.

We wanna be safe, so all the enclosures I built

were 100% custom. They're very secure.

-We have babies. -Eve had her babies?

[Nathan] Yes. Yep.

She has a few more in there.

Now she has at least 53 eggs,

so we're already 11 above last time.

It is just a really strong, odd passion that he has,

and I couldn't handle it for a long, long time.

I had nightmares about it every single night.

And so now I'm finally in a place that I have rose

to the occasion, and I can handle it,

and I wanna make sure that he can do what he wants to do.

[Nathan] She laid them around her neck.

[Emily] Like, on top of her?

Yeah, her head was just sticking out amongst

all these eggs.

There's lots of names for them.

I don't remember all their names.

[Emily] I remember them.

Their names are... Swift...

Herman, Khaleesi, Gretel, Foursquare.

-[Nathan] Charlie K. -[Emily] Yes.

-Piper! -Piper.

Yes. Piper.

And some baby snakes. They are not named.

So there's something else I wanna talk to you about.

Are you pregnant?

-Not funny. -I had a vasectomy,

so I don't know.

No, oh, the party. So Phil's birthday party.

Yeah, I'm gonna go over here so I can keep an eye on her.

So Tammy and Drew invited us to Phil's party,

and they're great.

And then a couple of couples

we've only talked to once or twice.

The crowd at Phil's birthday party was wonderfully open

with everyone there.

And that's fantastic, and that's wonderful for them.

We are not necessarily like that.

But we do have similar interests and things in common,

because I'm a stay-at-home mom,

but I'm also an adult content creator.

♪ I wanna get down with you ♪

♪ Hold it up, don't stop, I feel the groove ♪

♪ Yeah, it's a mood ♪

What I do is very different

from typical spicy adult content.

I live in the kinky weird stuff.

Wedgie content is really great because it's always

in leggings. There's never any nudity.

So, giantess is a fetish that people enjoy,

which is being a giant.

How do you keep getting in here?

Some people want me to feed them.

Have some more.

I do fart content.

Breathe deep. Take those farts.

It's very popular.

Yeah, you want those farts, don't you?

I love to make people's fantasies come true.

If I can do it, I will do it.

The reason why we went to content creation, we were poor.

[Emily] $200 a week grocery budget for six people.

That is not enough.

You know, life was very challenging at times.

We went from being on food stamps,

not having a place to live.

We lived with her mom for quite a while.

We both had to work full-time jobs.

So when she would come home, I would give her a smack

on the ass, and then I would go to work,

and then I didn't see her.

We have a friend, she mentioned that she was

gonna start something on this spicier website.

So I inquired a little bit more about it, and I said,

"Let's just give it a shot," right?

And it was, "No, no, no, no, no."

[Emily] I was a little nervous at first.

I was really insecure, but content creating helped me

open up. I wasn't always vanilla.

I was a bit of a wild child, and then you turn into a mom,

and then you kind of forget that you are also a woman.

It helped me rediscover who I was and helped me regain

my confidence, and then Nathan was like,

"Alright, this is awesome!"

I do lots of fetish content, but I'm also known for

being the natural milf. It's OK, I'm not ashamed.

I'm a mother to many.

I have the cellulite, I have the stretch marks, you know,

I have the sagginess, and people ask me to see

my stretch marks. They ask to see my cellulite.

Most of them are fun little dancing videos.

Most of them are body positivity.

I accidentally stumbled upon this corner of the Internet

that actually loves me for who I am, this weird,

quirky gal, so how cool is that?

Look at this big, beautiful belly.

I need it bigger.

You need to eat when I say, OK? You're not fat enough.

So I just wanted to go over Phil's birthday party.

I had a better time than I thought I would.

Yeah.

But Megan actually texted me after.

Oh.

I didn't see it 'till earlier this morning.

-She wanted to go to brunch. -Which is great, you know?

-Maybe it could be the beginning of my peopling journey. -[Nathan] Yeah.

Peopling is just some weird name that popped into my head

and I said it.

I just say things that come into my brain.

It just means being out with the people

that aren't related to me.

[Nathan] With you not having very many friends,

I think this is awesome. -Yep.

I have been pregnant nonstop for so many years.

I never did the girlfriends at the bar kind of situation.

But now that the kids are a little older, it would be

a nice change of pace to have some girlfriends.

I do think that that would be a fun little mix up

to throw into the Emily life.

-Little by little. -Mm-hmm.

I'm gonna...

ease my way in.

Let me dip some toes, see how it goes.

I know that trying to make friends

with an existing group of friends is very difficult.

But, you know, who knows?

Maybe these are my people. We'll see.

[Tammy] I know you don't wanna go to church.

The only way I would ever go back is if I like sat down

with the pastor was like, "Hey, I do this,

"like if you're gonna kick me out anyway,

"just tell me now and I just won't come

to your stupid old church."

The last church that I was at, we were kicked out.

I'm feeling nervous, but I'm ready to confront Bri.

This is scary for me.

The [bleep] did I do that was like so terrible?

God, I don't wanna cry yet, um...

Let me get a drink for this conversation.

[upbeat music playing]

-[meowing] -Amelia.

Of course, the cat wants food.

Not like she wasn't fed this morning.

Babe, I think I'm gonna have the kids help me

whenever we get back from church

with cleaning up their rooms 'cause it was a disaster

from the barbecue yesterday

and hopefully catch a quick nap myself.

[Drew] Maybe you should pray for it.

Are you gonna answer my prayer so I can get a nap?

[Drew] I guess.

I've been attending church on and off since high school.

What's even more important for me with attending and knowing

my faith and growing my faith is being able to show that

to my kids, and I take that really seriously.

-Hey guys! -[Cohen] Yeah?

You have like five minutes until we have to leave for church,

so get your stuff ready, OK?

[Cohen] I'm putting away my games.

OK, thank you. Just hurry it up, please.

I don't wanna be late.

Today I'm trying a brand new church because the last church

that I was at, I had been very involved for a few years.

I was called by the pastor and we had a conversation.

He said he got an anonymous report

that I was a content creator.

And essentially he told me, you know,

"You know what you're doing is wrong."

And, um -- but quickly went into personal attacks.

[Drew] He just berated us and belittled us.

And then we were kicked out.

That's why I don't go back to that church.

And that's why I'm hesitant to attend any other church now.

[Tammy] I know you don't wanna go to church,

but I miss having you there with us.

I'm not going there unless...

The only way I would ever go back is if I, like, sat down

with the pastor and was like, "Hey, I do this.

"Like, if you're gonna kick me out anyway,

"just tell me now and I just won't come

to your stupid old church."

It, like, has to be, I don't know,

has to be the way I kind of want it there,

rather than just going there to be going there.

I have all my own pages.

I work with her.

The benefits of doing this are that I get to spend more time

with my family, which is of high importance as a Christian

to spend quality time with your family,

your wife, your kids,

but then we're doing it the wrong way.

But then whenever I was doing it the quote-unquote right way,

I didn't see them at all.

And so I'm stuck wrestling between am I pleasing God?

Am I doing the right thing for my family?

And it's just all over the place

and it's something I struggle with.

Literally every single day I'm thinking about this.

If I go there, I can't stand whenever these people have

their church face on.

You know what I mean? -I know.

Some of those people that they're only there

to socialize and mingle and network and whatever else.

And that feels disgusting.

-That's why I don't go. -I know.

I mean, listen, there's definitely some

discrepancies that I have with it, too.

But, like, I'm working through it.

I love being there.

I love being involved and, like, having the kids there.

And I wish that you would be sitting next to me.

Maybe one day. Not today.

Alright. I've got to grab the kids.

Otherwise, we're gonna be late.

-So, I'll see you later. -Have fun -- love you.

Bye.

Alright, guys, time to go.

The new church that I'm attending today

does not know that I do content.

So once again, I'm not revealing all the details.

Yeah.

How can I feel safe at church again,

not knowing if I'm gonna be kicked out again?

Cohen, are you done?

[Cohen] One second.

[Tammy] Cohen, Brooklynn, come on.

[Brooklynn] I'm still getting ready.

Have you seen my sweater?

♪♪

[Rhonda] Hi! -- How are you?

[Emily] Good. How are you?

[Rhonda] Good. I was just coming to see you.

Everybody kind of keeps to themselves on my street.

Other than me and Rhonda.

We, you know, stop in the middle

of the street and we gossip.

It's so hot outside.

It is hot. I can't believe it's 80 today.

I know, and then in a few days, it's gonna be 30,

and we'll all be sick. -[Rhonda] Yeah.

-That's why I stay in the house. -[Emily] Yeah.

-How's your shoulder? -[Rhonda] It's getting there.

It's getting there. I just keep going to PT.

So I saw your little new toy Corvette.

-[Emily] Yeah, [chuckles]. -[Rhonda] Yeah.

[Emily] I think everybody heard it too.

-[engine revving] -Damn!

-Whoo -- whoo! -It works!

But it's beautiful.

[Emily] He's very excited. It was, um,

kind of a spur-of-the-moment purchase.

And how long are we keeping this one?

[Emily] Only time will tell.

-I'm keeping the Escalade though. -[Rhonda] Well, yeah.

[Emily] That's mine and I'm keeping it.

So you have all these new toys, you have the new Escalade,

the new Ram truck, the Corvette. -[Emily] Mm-hmm.

-Mm-hmm. -In my mind I'm like, "Are they secret drug dealers?"

-[laughing] -No.

I mean, 'cause they're like bam, bam, bam,

all within like what, two months, a month and a half?

We're not secret drug dealers. That I know for sure.

Once I started making more money,

we started buying more toys.

And I've noticed

some looks around the neighborhood

as we drive through with our expensive cars and such.

I do not think Rhonda suspects about my content creation.

You know, and I don't know who to tell, if I should tell,

when I should tell.

I think I'll tell Rhonda one of these days.

I'm pretty sure I'll tell her.

We have a reptile show. It's in Chicago.

If you could just peek out your window every once in a while.

-I can do that, that's easy. -[Emily] That's all I need.

OK, well when you get back from Chicago,

do you wanna go get some lunch? -[Emily] Yeah.

-OK. -Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Rhonda] Emily's a homebody 'cause I don't see her much.

She's content being at home, taking care of the kids,

taking care of the house.

She's really quiet, but we gotta go out.

She needs some education.

I'm gonna go in, I'm sweating.

-I'll see you later. -[Emily] Alright.

-Have a good day. -See you, bye.

♪♪

Once the kids go to school

is when the adult content creating starts around here.

Five, five customs waiting.

I usually have a list of waiting customs.

Like right now I have five.

A custom video is a video that a customer wants,

so they're getting exactly what that specific person is wanting.

So we got the chests,

because I started accumulating so many toys

from subscribers as gifts.

I didn't know where to keep them all,

and I didn't want a child to stumble upon them.

So my kids think that there's, like,

Christmas presents in there.

I don't know what else to tell them.

Like, "Stay out of it!"

Is that what you like?

You do want it to pop?

Are you sure?

Some girls make a couple million per year,

some girls make more than that.

The more you work, the more you're gonna make.

You have to post every day, multiple times a day.

I'm posting, I'm responding to messages,

I'm filming videos.

Dog hair.

The type of content that makes the most money for me,

something that is unusual, not widely seen,

something that is more difficult to find.

I think the most unusual request that I've received

is laying eggs.

So for $2,000, I walked like a chicken

and talked to my baby egg.

Don't you worry, Mommy will take care of you.

Then we can go and post that video

on all of our other platforms to sell, and it can go on

to make thousands of dollars.

Are we ready to pop?

-[pop] -Mm.

Oh, I worked up a sweat.

With that being said, I am definitely the man

of the house, the breadwinner.

The spicy content certainly brings in

well over what Nathan's job's bringing.

At some point, balloons became a part of my mortgage payment.

How weird is that?

Until next time, balloons.

Why were you so upset?

The pastor said that --

"I don't understand how you could like

what you see in the mirror every day."

[classical music playing]

[Tammy] Can you take the kids to the playroom?

I'm just gonna sit here and pray.

Alright, you guys be good, OK?

-Catch you in a little bit. -You gonna be good?

-Love you. I love you, girl. -[Brooklynn] Bye.

Jodie is like a mom to me and a grandma to my kids.

I could not imagine our life without Jodie.

She goes to kids' events with us.

She goes to birthday parties with us.

She is always doing stuff with our family.

A lot of times we get mistaken.

She's like, "Is this your mom?"

And I'm like, "No, but pretty much, yes."

I wanna go to church again

because I know that God knows our hearts.

I know that God does not leave us,

and it puts my mind at ease

that I'm not relying on myself,

and I need God's grace and God's love.

You alright?

[chuckles] Yeah.

[Jodie] I love you and those kids. It's like you're my own.

[sniffles]

So why were you so upset? It just happened?

I was thinking, you know, of course, about everything.

[Jodie] Yeah. [Tammy] That conversation,

whenever the pastor called me,

I expected more questions about it.

-[Jodie] Mm-hmm. -And understanding.

And it really quickly turned into a conversation of...

The line he said to me that really hit home

was when he said,

"I don't understand how you could

like what you see in the mirror every day."

When Tammy and Andrew explained to me what they did

with their life and in their lifestyle,

I did not judge them. I have no room to judge.

It's not something I would choose,

but that is their choice.

And as long as nobody's getting hurt,

I don't care what you do.

[Tammy] The thing that broke me so much, too, is, like, the pastor had

said that, you know, I'm still allowed to come to church,

you know, aka, like, "You can still come and tithe,

but I'm going to cut you off from serving." -Right, right.

And the thing that really, I think, struck a chord

with Drew was not allowing me to serve there anymore.

What you choose to do, your lifestyle,

that's your business. -I know.

-[Jodie] It's not his business, you know? -I know.

I wanted to be mad.

Right, right. I agree.

You never think it would happen in that way, in such

a personal way. -[Jodie] Right, exactly.

I know that my life and living that to the fullest would not

be made possible if I had such a hardened heart like that.

[Jodie] Right, right.

And wouldn't ever allow God to work in my life.

-So I pray every day. -Yeah.

Gotta keep my heart soft, because it's really easy

to get it hurt. -[Jodie] Right.

I am emotional because there's been so much going on lately

with Bri and Megan beefing and us getting kicked out

of the gym and everything.

And now I am worried with what happens being kicked out

of my last church that when this church finds out, like,

what they're gonna do.

If, like, the friend group falls apart

and I don't have my church community,

like what am I left with?

-Thanks for listening. -Well, of course, anytime.

-[Tammy speaking] -[Jodie] I love you too.

I'll just be frank, like, I feel like you're almost kind

of talking like you're close with us, but you're not.

I'm not trying to be mean.

I'm just trying to protect this group.

♪♪

So, I think I ended up passing out at like 12:30,

trying to play like my little farming game.

-I have a farm game too. -[Macy] I am such a nerd.

-Do you really? -Yeah.

Oh my god, that's hilarious.

After the barbecue and all that tension with Bri,

I decided to plan the brunch

because I, you know, wanted some downtime with the girls.

I wanted, you know, to see how everybody was doing

and to see where everybody stands.

-[notification chime dings] -Oh, Emily just texted. She's almost here.

[Emily] Oh, I almost fell!

-[Megan] Hi! -Hi!

-How are you? -[Emily] Good, how are you?

-[Megan] I'm good, thank you. -[Emily] Good!

-Oh, you look so cute. -Oh, thanks!

-These are my sitting shoes. -[chuckling]

I can't wear them anywhere else.

Coming to brunch is a little bit uncomfortable.

I don't know these girls very well.

And it's hard for me to make friends because on film,

I am great. I am spot-on.

But in real life, I am awkward in real life in person.

But I am keeping in mind that this is an opportunity to make

friends and get to know people, so I am still excited.

Tammy's barbecue. Did you guys all go?

-Yes. -[Megan] Yeah, we were able to go.

[Emily] So, tell me all the stuff.

Oh, I mean, it was a good time.

Alright, ladies, I got [indistinct].

Oh, wow. Beautiful.

So, yeah, I felt a little awkward.

Why? What happened?

Tell me. Tell me!

Kind of felt drug into a conversation

that wasn't really for me.

I think the tension came from Bri and I.

But it was a tense conversation.

[Emily] Well, who brought up an intense conversation

at a barbecue?

That's a, kind of, a good question.

-Um... -[Emily] It looks like Heather knows.

-[laughing] -I mean...

Tammy is the one that initiated the conversation,

but I think it was kind of one of those things, like,

elephant in the room.

Is that why you guys kind of pulled back from,

you know, hanging out?

I'm a little bit caught off guard by Emily asking

so many questions about what's been going on

with Megan and Bri.

Like, she's the new girl in the friend group,

and I'm just trying to understand, like,

where her head's at.

Right now, I'm trying to prevent Emily from really

stirring the pot between things with Megan and Bri.

Bri and I just grown apart, but really, like,

that's between Bri and I.

So, like, I wasn't comfortable airing that out

in front of the whole group... -Right.

...um, last night, so I really didn't.

Like, I didn't wanna talk about it,

and so I really didn't.

And I really hope and wish that it is something

that we can move past, like, and still be friends.

-[Heather] Yeah, like -- -[Emily] Maybe not --

-Distanced friends, like... -[Emily] Yeah.

...friendly, for sure,

which right now we're not able to do.

Like, we didn't even speak

except for that one moment. -Yeah.

[Megan] So, the last time I saw Bri was at the barbecue,

and I felt very ambushed, but I don't want these issues

with Bri to affect the group.

I value all of their friendships.

I need to talk to Bri about the fact that she was the one

that outed me. I need to get it over with.

I'm just trying to mentally prepare.

I just know, like, you guys used to be best friends,

and so it's like, obviously, there's a good foundation there.

Ultimately, like, you guys need to hash it out.

-And I think you guys can, um... -Yes.

Emily, I'm honestly kind of like,

I'll just be frank, like,

kind of interested of like you being here today,

just because, like, we all have been like really close friends,

but, like, I feel like you're almost kind of talking like

you're close with us,

but you're not. Like...

[Emily] Um...

I was just asking questions.

You know, I was just inquiring about the barbecue

that we were invited to and couldn't come.

You know, I know that you guys are all much closer,

and you know, I'm kind of the outsider currently,

but, you know, that's all that was.

-I didn't mean anything by it. -OK.

I'm not trying to be mean.

I'm just trying to protect this group,

because this group isn't just friendship to me.

It's a support system.

And with me coming out,

I'm going to need that more than ever.

And I don't want Emily to ruin that.

I think it was innocent.

[Emily] You know, I was just speaking in the sense

that I couldn't understand conflict.

Mm-hmm.

-[Heather] I get that? -OK.

I think Macy has me misunderstood,

because I was just inquiring, asking questions,

trying to get to know them, trying to figure out

what the events were that unfolded,

and I think maybe she took that as kind of intrusive

on their group, their friendship.

That wasn't what I was trying to do.

[Macy] Are you guys, like, undercover or anything like that?

-Mnh-mnh. -[Heather] I think it's crazy, though,

that you're not undercover, and your hometown

doesn't even know.

You know, everyone who's important to us knows,

then [bleep] everyone else. -[Macy] Right -- right.

-Yeah. -Have you ever told any of your friends?

No. Not yet.

So I'm gonna be, like, more on the side of you,

and I'm not telling anyone else.

So once it comes out is when it's gonna be known.

-[Macy] Yeah. -So, a little nervous about that.

[Macy] Oh, yeah.

When we do come out, just mentally preparing myself

that probably we'll lose some friends.

-[Megan] Yeah, you will. -[Macy] You know?

And it sucks, because it's like, we've been

such good friends, but, like, now that you know

the real me, the real Macy,

now you're gonna be judgmental.

And I looked at Tammy, which she shared about,

like, how she was asked to leave the church.

-I'm that church girl, right? -Right.

So it's like one place that is supposed to be like

the most non-judgmental, the loving, caring, like all

the, like, characteristics of Jesus is a place that, like,

she felt like she's the most judged.

-You know, like, sorry -- -[Megan] No, you're fine.

[Macy] It should not be like that.

Like, Jesus literally hung out with the sinners.

He hung out with the prostitutes.

For you, it's probably just really nerve-wracking thinking...

-Yes. -...that if she had to deal with that,

what's coming up for you. -Yeah -- yeah.

Like, hopefully I can still go to church.

The possibility that once everything's out there,

there might be some churches that might not want me to come

makes me, like, really emotional.

I just hope that people would treat me and my husband

with the same kindness that we try to treat other people.

Anyway, sorry. I didn't mean to go get so deep

and emotional there, guys.

Macy was judging me so hardcore about simply trying

to make friends.

When she's so afraid about her church disowning her

when they find out what she does for a living,

she's doing to me exactly what her church

is gonna do to her when they find out.

So...

I'm feeling nervous, but I'm also ready

to, you know, confront Bri head-on.

God, I don't wanna cry yet, um...

I feel like...

[tense music playing]

[tense music playing]

Today I am meeting for lunch with Bri,

and we are going to talk about what's going on

with our friendship.

I'm feeling nervous, but I'm also ready

to, you know, confront Bri. I have to know the truth.

[Brianna] Megan invited me for lunch,

and so I am feeling a little nervous

but really just knowing, um,

that we need to have a open and honest conversation.

I really just want to just try to get clarity and, like,

I'm very conflicted right now because, like, this whole topic

is really frustrating to me.

So I don't really know where the truth lies right now.

-[Megan] Hi. -[Brianna] Hey.

She did get my drink order.

I didn't know what you wanted, but she should be coming back.

-Yeah. -So...

[exhales]

I think I'm just gonna do a salad today.

I can't do salad 'cause it gets stuck in my teeth.

-Oh. -[chuckling]

-All right, sweet pea, let me put that raspberry mojito. -Yes, thank you.

And we have with lemon...

Can I get you something?

-Uh, can I get a Pepsi? -Pepsi?

-Of course, I'll be back with that. -[Megan] Thank you.

-[background chatter] -[tense music playing]

Um...

Hmm.

Well, I mean...

I don't know, like...

I don't really wanna, like, start.

-I mean, like... -[Megan] Yeah.

You know, like, I'm here, like,

you asked me to be here. -Right.

And I just kind of wanna listen, I guess first, and...

I don't know. I don't know.

-It's, like... -Yeah -- this is scary for me.

And God, I don't wanna cry yet, um...

I just, I know this is something that we both need,

and I just wanted to do it,

like, in a controlled setting,

I guess, like not in front of other people.

-Mm-hmm. -And I know

that I struggle so much with connecting and, like, opening up

and I have these walls put up.

I feel like a bad friend for

shutting you out at Phil's party.

And that's why I think I kind of shut down.

I didn't know, like, what to say.

I was very hurt.

I feel like you just, like, stared at me and was, like,

"Yeah, that's hard."

Like, and I was like, "Oh."

That was very, like, cold response.

So when Tammy like pulled us aside to have the conversation

in the street, had definitely had a tone and I was harsh

and I was angry.

And I definitely recognized that, like,

it was a hostile tone and I was frustrated.

And then when you came back with,

[scoffs]

"Our friendship was over so long ago."

I was like, like, knife to my stomach.

And, like, that made me just feel like,

"What the [bleep] did I do?"

Like, what have I -- what did I do

that was, like, so terrible?

I feel like,

you know, Tyler and I have had the conversation

about, like, who outed me?

You know, it did cross my mind before.

I feel like that maybe you had outed me.

Let me get a drink for this conversation.

[sighs]

If it was you who outed me to like the newspapers,

I just wouldn't be able to forgive that.

I'm like, it happened to her, maybe she wanted somebody

to, like, go through it with. -Um...

I saw some pictures on Facebook. What's going on?

So some photos of me were leaked.

And Aunt Kim does not know about

our adult content creation.

Me and Nathan have been doing adult content.

[Brianna] And I'm totally not opposed to getting in the hot tub.

Maybe like try to get a little content in.

-Yes. -Yeah.

We've been doing this for so long,

but obviously for so long it's been hidden

and it's been private.

-Sure. -OK.

-Yeah? OK. -Yeah.

After the type of content we made last night,

now I know that it's gonna be very, very, very exposed.

I mean, I have kids. It's just hard.

It's hard to think about.

Makes me wonder if we thought it all the way through.

I'm not one to hold on to yucky feelings,

but if anybody brings drama, if I've had a drink in me,

I will come back at them.

Oh my gosh.