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[Tammy]
Previously on "Double Lives
of Suburban Wives."

[Bridgette]
I got your Mother's Day gift.

-[Brooke] Close your eyes.
-Thank you.

My name is Heather.

-That's so sweet.
-Hey!

I was making $16 an hour,
and we just had our fourth kid.

[Shawn]
To be able to feed four kids,

I mean, that runs you $400
or $500 a week anyways.

[Heather]
I started thinking about
part-time content creation,

and finally we decided
to give it a try.

Let me know what you think
in the comments.

My mother-in-law, my kids,

none of them know
that I make adult content.

The Bible is a record of us
getting to know God better.

Being a Christian and being
in the adult content world,

it is very clashing.
So I do struggle with that.

I'm contributing
to somebody lusting.

Thank you, Jesus, for this food
and all of your blessings.

-Amen.
-[all] Amen.

My name is Macy, and I've been
an adult content creator

for three years now.

Absolutely no one in my family
or my community knows

that I do adult content.

What makes this very difficult
is that my dad is a pastor.

Coming out, I'm probably
gonna be judged,

and I don't know
if I'm ready for that.

You wanna go talk?

At this point,
the tensions are very high.

-Like, you never talk to me.
-Uh...

Bri was my best friend.

Once I got outed and put
on leave, Bri was there for me.

[reporter] A second teacher is
pulled from the classroom

when her adult content site
was found.

But Bri did something that
I'm still trying to get over.

Well, I've asked you
multiple times

what's going on
with our friendship and you --

Our friendship
has been gone for a while.

I think you're just
the one that didn't realize it.

[Brianna] I'm confused 'cause
I'm not clear on anything.

I believe that Bri outed me to
the newspapers three years ago.

That's what blew my life up

and made me lose
the job that I love.

She took that from me.

[suspenseful music playing

-Girl, that was a lot.
-Yeah.

It just makes me
so uncomfortable.

I'm gonna take
my glasses off.

-That's how you know --
[chuckles].
-I know.

Come sit down.
I wanna just chat with you.

I knew it was going to happen.

And listen, like, obviously
nobody wants to, like,

be fighting, especially when
we're all in a friend group.

But, like, we have
to figure this out.

I love Megan.
I love Bri.

It's just hard
where we go from here.

Things didn't exactly go
the way I thought they would.

Not at all.
I...

was mind blown.

I thought we were just gonna
be like, "Alright guys,

like let's talk about this,
let's figure it out."

I did not realize
that things went so deep.

[Macy] 'Cause like,
they used to be best friends.

So it's like...
-[Tammy] There's a missing piece

of the puzzle here.
-Yeah -- yeah.

At this point, I don't know
what to think.

I understand where they're
both coming from, right?

Like, I do see Megan
won't communicate.

And I understand that would be
frustrating, right?

-In any relationship.
-[Tammy] Mm-hmm.

-And...
-But that that's
still between them.

-[Macy] Yes.
-But unfortunately,
it is bleeding out

to the rest of the group.

And, like, we can't progress
until they figure it out.

-Yeah.
-Even as that
interaction was going on...

I'm like, "There's no way
we could do a live or a TikTok

or... with that tension, man."
-[Tammy] No, I don't think that

it's not possible.

I really don't want
Milf House to die.

I feel like
it helped our friendships.

And from a business aspect,
whenever we post videos,

it does help me grow
my followers.

And so, because my whole life
is about to change,

I can't afford
to not have Milf House.

But I do not see
Milf House happening

if Megan and Bri are
both still at it.

I just don't see it possible
at this point.

-[Tammy] Hey.
-Hi.

[Macy] Hey.

-Give it to me straight.
-OK.

-Um...
-Listen, I know
I can be a bitch,

and I know I can be harsh.
-[Tammy] I've never said that.

No, I'm owning that myself.

When I get frustrated,
like, I have a tone.

But I'm beyond frustrated.

I'm like,
"You won't communicate."

-Mm-hmm.
-You -- I...

Yeah.
No, I get --

I get your frustration.

I'm just like,
"What the [bleep] is going on?"

It would be great if Megan
could just talk and...

share what the heck is going on.

Because that's like what
friends, adults, like people

that are supposed to be
able to work together

should be able to do.

[exhales] This was not
on my 2026 bingo card.

I could've go my whole
life without this drama,

Because I feel like
she's holding something back.

[slurping]

[retro music playing]

I'm making
world's best sandwich.

OK!

My name's Emily
and I'm a mom of four children.

I have six cats, one dog,
and my husband

who's definitely
my emotional support animal.

-Kash, do you want mayo?
-No.

-OK.
-Can you add
those hot chips on mine?

-[Emily] Yes.
-[Amelia] Yeah, can you add
the hot chips on mine too?

-[Emily] Yes.
-And half a slice
of that mustard.

Yes, half a slice
of mustard cheese coming up.

Nolan is our oldest.
He's 17.

Kash, our second oldest,
he's 15.

Emerson, he's 12 years old.

And Amelia, she's eight

and she's the queen
of the house.

How many world's best
sandwiches am I making?

Just make one big one
for me and Kash to share.

I feel like I'm
a Betty Crocker mom

for this day and age.
I clean.

-[60's music playing]
-[meowing]

[Emily] I cut everyone's hair
in the house.

I cook, I like to have
dinner done by a certain time.

We have dinner
at the table every day.

-Team -- what team are you on?
-Rome.

-[Emily] Hello.
-[Nathan] Hey.

-[children] Hi.
-[Amelia] Hi!

Hey, guys.

I grabbed such a hot wife

while we were working together.

[Emily] He was my boss.

She did not think
I was a hot husband.

-She made that very clear.
-It was your walk.

-Yeah, I walk like a duck.
-It was your feet like this.

[Amelia] Mommy, next time,
can you take off the crust?

[Emily]
Yes, I'm so sorry.

We were really good
friends first.

One thing led to another.

And, you know,
just my great personality,

you know,
must have been it.

So when he says
his personality won me over,

I guess that really did do it.

Yeah -- not my looks.

You're so cute.

And we had just decided
we're gonna do this thing.

♪ It's always worth it
with you, ah-ooh ♪

-Yeah.
-And we've been
having babies ever since.

We're good at it.

♪ There's nothing
quite as sweet ♪

This weekend we're going
to the reptile show in Chicago.

[Kash]
Oh, this weekend?

Yeah, when I say we, I mean me
and your mother, not you guys.

[Kash]
Yeah, I know.

When are the other
snakes coming?

-[Nathan] Tomorrow, I have
to pick them up.
-Oh.

I have a normal nine-to-five
job as a store manager,

and I'm a business owner.
I'm a snake keeper.

[Emily]
So we also have a snake business
with 23 snakes,

some of the most rare
reticulated pythons in America.

Yep.

We wanna be safe,
so all the enclosures I built

were 100% custom.
They're very secure.

-We have babies.
-Eve had her babies?

[Nathan] Yes.
Yep.

She has a few more in there.

Now she has at least 53 eggs,

so we're already
11 above last time.

It is just a really strong,
odd passion that he has,

and I couldn't handle it
for a long, long time.

I had nightmares
about it every single night.

And so now I'm finally
in a place that I have rose

to the occasion,
and I can handle it,

and I wanna make sure that
he can do what he wants to do.

[Nathan] She laid them
around her neck.

[Emily]
Like, on top of her?

Yeah, her head was just
sticking out amongst

all these eggs.

There's lots
of names for them.

I don't remember
all their names.

[Emily]
I remember them.

Their names are... Swift...

Herman, Khaleesi,
Gretel, Foursquare.

-[Nathan] Charlie K.
-[Emily] Yes.

-Piper!
-Piper.

Yes.
Piper.

And some baby snakes.
They are not named.

So there's something else
I wanna talk to you about.

Are you pregnant?

-Not funny.
-I had a vasectomy,

so I don't know.

No, oh, the party.
So Phil's birthday party.

Yeah, I'm gonna go over here
so I can keep an eye on her.

So Tammy and Drew
invited us to Phil's party,

and they're great.

And then a couple of couples

we've only talked
to once or twice.

The crowd at Phil's birthday
party was wonderfully open

with everyone there.

And that's fantastic,
and that's wonderful for them.

We are not
necessarily like that.

But we do have similar
interests and things in common,

because I'm a stay-at-home mom,

but I'm also
an adult content creator.

♪ I wanna get down with you ♪

♪ Hold it up, don't stop,
I feel the groove ♪

♪ Yeah, it's a mood ♪

What I do is very different

from typical
spicy adult content.

I live in the kinky weird stuff.

Wedgie content is really
great because it's always

in leggings.
There's never any nudity.

So, giantess is a fetish
that people enjoy,

which is being a giant.

How do you keep
getting in here?

Some people want me
to feed them.

Have some more.

I do fart content.

Breathe deep.
Take those farts.

It's very popular.

Yeah, you want those farts,
don't you?

I love to make people's
fantasies come true.

If I can do it, I will do it.

The reason why we went to
content creation, we were poor.

[Emily]
$200 a week grocery budget
for six people.

That is not enough.

You know, life was
very challenging at times.

We went from being
on food stamps,

not having a place to live.

We lived with her mom
for quite a while.

We both had to work
full-time jobs.

So when she would come home,
I would give her a smack

on the ass, and then
I would go to work,

and then I didn't see her.

We have a friend,
she mentioned that she was

gonna start something
on this spicier website.

So I inquired a little bit more
about it, and I said,

"Let's just give it
a shot," right?

And it was,
"No, no, no, no, no."

[Emily] I was a little
nervous at first.

I was really insecure,
but content creating helped me

open up.
I wasn't always vanilla.

I was a bit of a wild child,
and then you turn into a mom,

and then you kind of forget
that you are also a woman.

It helped me rediscover who
I was and helped me regain

my confidence,
and then Nathan was like,

"Alright, this is awesome!"

I do lots of fetish content,
but I'm also known for

being the natural milf.
It's OK, I'm not ashamed.

I'm a mother to many.

I have the cellulite, I have
the stretch marks, you know,

I have the sagginess,
and people ask me to see

my stretch marks.
They ask to see my cellulite.

Most of them are fun little
dancing videos.

Most of them are
body positivity.

I accidentally stumbled upon
this corner of the Internet

that actually loves me for
who I am, this weird,

quirky gal,
so how cool is that?

Look at this big,
beautiful belly.

I need it bigger.

You need to eat when I say, OK?
You're not fat enough.

So I just wanted to go over
Phil's birthday party.

I had a better time
than I thought I would.

Yeah.

But Megan actually
texted me after.

Oh.

I didn't see it
'till earlier this morning.

-She wanted to go to brunch.
-Which is great, you know?

-Maybe it could be the beginning
of my peopling journey.
-[Nathan] Yeah.

Peopling is just some weird
name that popped into my head

and I said it.

I just say things
that come into my brain.

It just means
being out with the people

that aren't related to me.

[Nathan] With you not having
very many friends,

I think this is awesome.
-Yep.

I have been pregnant nonstop
for so many years.

I never did the girlfriends
at the bar kind of situation.

But now that the kids are
a little older, it would be

a nice change of pace
to have some girlfriends.

I do think that that would be
a fun little mix up

to throw into the Emily life.

-Little by little.
-Mm-hmm.

I'm gonna...

ease my way in.

Let me dip some toes,
see how it goes.

I know that trying
to make friends

with an existing group
of friends is very difficult.

But, you know, who knows?

Maybe these are my people.
We'll see.

[Tammy] I know you don't
wanna go to church.

The only way I would ever go
back is if I like sat down

with the pastor was like,
"Hey, I do this,

"like if you're gonna
kick me out anyway,

"just tell me now
and I just won't come

to your stupid old church."

The last church that I was at,
we were kicked out.

I'm feeling nervous,
but I'm ready to confront Bri.

This is scary for me.

The [bleep] did I do
that was like so terrible?

God, I don't
wanna cry yet, um...

Let me get a drink
for this conversation.

[upbeat music playing]

-[meowing]
-Amelia.

Of course, the cat wants food.

Not like she wasn't fed
this morning.

Babe, I think I'm gonna
have the kids help me

whenever we get back
from church

with cleaning up their rooms
'cause it was a disaster

from the barbecue yesterday

and hopefully catch
a quick nap myself.

[Drew]
Maybe you should pray for it.

Are you gonna answer
my prayer so I can get a nap?

[Drew] I guess.

I've been attending church
on and off since high school.

What's even more important for
me with attending and knowing

my faith and growing my faith
is being able to show that

to my kids, and I take
that really seriously.

-Hey guys!
-[Cohen] Yeah?

You have like five minutes until
we have to leave for church,

so get your stuff ready, OK?

[Cohen]
I'm putting away my games.

OK, thank you.
Just hurry it up, please.

I don't wanna be late.

Today I'm trying a brand new
church because the last church

that I was at, I had been
very involved for a few years.

I was called by the pastor
and we had a conversation.

He said he got
an anonymous report

that I was a content creator.

And essentially he told me,
you know,

"You know what
you're doing is wrong."

And, um -- but quickly went
into personal attacks.

[Drew] He just berated us
and belittled us.

And then we were kicked out.

That's why I don't go
back to that church.

And that's why I'm hesitant
to attend any other church now.

[Tammy] I know
you don't wanna go to church,

but I miss having
you there with us.

I'm not going there unless...

The only way I would ever go
back is if I, like, sat down

with the pastor and was like,
"Hey, I do this.

"Like, if you're gonna
kick me out anyway,

"just tell me now
and I just won't come

to your stupid old church."

It, like, has to be,
I don't know,

has to be the way
I kind of want it there,

rather than just going there
to be going there.

I have all my own pages.

I work with her.

The benefits of doing this are
that I get to spend more time

with my family, which is of
high importance as a Christian

to spend quality time
with your family,

your wife, your kids,

but then we're doing it
the wrong way.

But then whenever I was doing
it the quote-unquote right way,

I didn't see them at all.

And so I'm stuck wrestling
between am I pleasing God?

Am I doing the right thing
for my family?

And it's just all over the place

and it's something
I struggle with.

Literally every single day
I'm thinking about this.

If I go there, I can't stand
whenever these people have

their church face on.

You know what I mean?
-I know.

Some of those people
that they're only there

to socialize and mingle
and network and whatever else.

And that feels disgusting.

-That's why I don't go.
-I know.

I mean, listen,
there's definitely some

discrepancies that I have
with it, too.

But, like,
I'm working through it.

I love being there.

I love being involved and,
like, having the kids there.

And I wish that you would be
sitting next to me.

Maybe one day.
Not today.

Alright.
I've got to grab the kids.

Otherwise, we're gonna be late.

-So, I'll see you later.
-Have fun -- love you.

Bye.

Alright, guys, time to go.

The new church
that I'm attending today

does not know
that I do content.

So once again, I'm not
revealing all the details.

Yeah.

How can I feel safe
at church again,

not knowing if I'm gonna
be kicked out again?

Cohen, are you done?

[Cohen] One second.

[Tammy]
Cohen, Brooklynn, come on.

[Brooklynn]
I'm still getting ready.

Have you seen my sweater?

♪♪

[Rhonda]
Hi! -- How are you?

[Emily] Good.
How are you?

[Rhonda] Good.
I was just coming to see you.

Everybody kind of keeps
to themselves on my street.

Other than me and Rhonda.

We, you know,
stop in the middle

of the street and we gossip.

It's so hot outside.

It is hot.
I can't believe it's 80 today.

I know, and then
in a few days, it's gonna be 30,

and we'll all be sick.
-[Rhonda] Yeah.

-That's why I stay in the house.
-[Emily] Yeah.

-How's your shoulder?
-[Rhonda] It's getting there.

It's getting there.
I just keep going to PT.

So I saw your little
new toy Corvette.

-[Emily] Yeah, [chuckles].
-[Rhonda] Yeah.

[Emily] I think
everybody heard it too.

-[engine revving]
-Damn!

-Whoo -- whoo!
-It works!

But it's beautiful.

[Emily] He's very excited.
It was, um,

kind of a
spur-of-the-moment purchase.

And how long
are we keeping this one?

[Emily]
Only time will tell.

-I'm keeping
the Escalade though.
-[Rhonda] Well, yeah.

[Emily]
That's mine and I'm keeping it.

So you have all these new toys,
you have the new Escalade,

the new Ram truck, the Corvette.
-[Emily] Mm-hmm.

-Mm-hmm.
-In my mind I'm like,
"Are they secret drug dealers?"

-[laughing]
-No.

I mean, 'cause they're
like bam, bam, bam,

all within like what,
two months, a month and a half?

We're not secret drug dealers.
That I know for sure.

Once I started
making more money,

we started buying more toys.

And I've noticed

some looks
around the neighborhood

as we drive through with
our expensive cars and such.

I do not think Rhonda suspects
about my content creation.

You know, and I don't know
who to tell, if I should tell,

when I should tell.

I think I'll tell Rhonda
one of these days.

I'm pretty sure I'll tell her.

We have a reptile show.
It's in Chicago.

If you could just
peek out your window
every once in a while.

-I can do that, that's easy.
-[Emily] That's all I need.

OK, well when you get
back from Chicago,

do you wanna go get some lunch?
-[Emily] Yeah.

-OK.
-Yeah, yeah, yeah.

[Rhonda] Emily's a homebody
'cause I don't see her much.

She's content being at home,
taking care of the kids,

taking care of the house.

She's really quiet,
but we gotta go out.

She needs some education.

I'm gonna go in, I'm sweating.

-I'll see you later.
-[Emily] Alright.

-Have a good day.
-See you, bye.

♪♪

Once the kids go to school

is when the adult content
creating starts around here.

Five, five customs waiting.

I usually have
a list of waiting customs.

Like right now I have five.

A custom video is a video
that a customer wants,

so they're getting exactly what
that specific person is wanting.

So we got the chests,

because I started
accumulating so many toys

from subscribers as gifts.

I didn't know where
to keep them all,

and I didn't want a child
to stumble upon them.

So my kids think
that there's, like,

Christmas presents in there.

I don't know
what else to tell them.

Like, "Stay out of it!"

Is that what you like?

You do want it to pop?

Are you sure?

Some girls make
a couple million per year,

some girls make more than that.

The more you work,
the more you're gonna make.

You have to post every day,
multiple times a day.

I'm posting, I'm responding
to messages,

I'm filming videos.

Dog hair.

The type of content that makes
the most money for me,

something that is unusual,
not widely seen,

something that is
more difficult to find.

I think the most unusual
request that I've received

is laying eggs.

So for $2,000,
I walked like a chicken

and talked to my baby egg.

Don't you worry,
Mommy will take care of you.

Then we can go
and post that video

on all of our other platforms
to sell, and it can go on

to make thousands of dollars.

Are we ready to pop?

-[pop]
-Mm.

Oh, I worked up a sweat.

With that being said,
I am definitely the man

of the house, the breadwinner.

The spicy content
certainly brings in

well over what
Nathan's job's bringing.

At some point, balloons became
a part of my mortgage payment.

How weird is that?

Until next time, balloons.

Why were you so upset?

The pastor said that --

"I don't understand
how you could like

what you see in the mirror
every day."

[classical music playing]

[Tammy] Can you take
the kids to the playroom?

I'm just gonna sit
here and pray.

Alright, you guys
be good, OK?

-Catch you in a little bit.
-You gonna be good?

-Love you. I love you, girl.
-[Brooklynn] Bye.

Jodie is like a mom to me
and a grandma to my kids.

I could not imagine
our life without Jodie.

She goes to kids' events
with us.

She goes to birthday parties
with us.

She is always doing stuff
with our family.

A lot of times we get mistaken.

She's like, "Is this your mom?"

And I'm like,
"No, but pretty much, yes."

I wanna go to church again

because I know
that God knows our hearts.

I know that God
does not leave us,

and it puts my mind at ease

that I'm not relying on myself,

and I need God's grace
and God's love.

You alright?

[chuckles]
Yeah.

[Jodie]
I love you and those kids.
It's like you're my own.

[sniffles]

So why were you so upset?
It just happened?

I was thinking, you know,
of course, about everything.

[Jodie] Yeah.
[Tammy] That conversation,

whenever the pastor called me,

I expected more questions
about it.

-[Jodie] Mm-hmm.
-And understanding.

And it really quickly
turned into a conversation of...

The line he said to me
that really hit home

was when he said,

"I don't understand
how you could

like what you see
in the mirror every day."

When Tammy and Andrew
explained to me what they did

with their life
and in their lifestyle,

I did not judge them.
I have no room to judge.

It's not something
I would choose,

but that is their choice.

And as long
as nobody's getting hurt,

I don't care what you do.

[Tammy]
The thing that broke me so much,
too, is, like, the pastor had

said that, you know, I'm still
allowed to come to church,

you know, aka, like,
"You can still come and tithe,

but I'm going to cut you off
from serving."
-Right, right.

And the thing that really,
I think, struck a chord

with Drew was not allowing me
to serve there anymore.

What you choose to do,
your lifestyle,

that's your business.
-I know.

-[Jodie] It's not his
business, you know?
-I know.

I wanted to be mad.

Right, right.
I agree.

You never think it would
happen in that way, in such

a personal way.
-[Jodie] Right, exactly.

I know that my life and living
that to the fullest would not

be made possible if I had such
a hardened heart like that.

[Jodie]
Right, right.

And wouldn't ever allow
God to work in my life.

-So I pray every day.
-Yeah.

Gotta keep my heart soft,
because it's really easy

to get it hurt.
-[Jodie] Right.

I am emotional because there's
been so much going on lately

with Bri and Megan beefing
and us getting kicked out

of the gym and everything.

And now I am worried with
what happens being kicked out

of my last church that when
this church finds out, like,

what they're gonna do.

If, like, the friend group
falls apart

and I don't have
my church community,

like what am I left with?

-Thanks for listening.
-Well, of course, anytime.

-[Tammy speaking]
-[Jodie] I love you too.

I'll just be frank, like,
I feel like you're almost kind

of talking like you're close
with us, but you're not.

I'm not trying to be mean.

I'm just trying
to protect this group.

♪♪

So, I think I ended up
passing out at like 12:30,

trying to play like
my little farming game.

-I have a farm game too.
-[Macy] I am such a nerd.

-Do you really?
-Yeah.

Oh my god, that's hilarious.

After the barbecue
and all that tension with Bri,

I decided to plan the brunch

because I, you know, wanted
some downtime with the girls.

I wanted, you know, to see
how everybody was doing

and to see
where everybody stands.

-[notification chime dings]
-Oh, Emily just texted.
She's almost here.

[Emily]
Oh, I almost fell!

-[Megan] Hi!
-Hi!

-How are you?
-[Emily] Good, how are you?

-[Megan] I'm good, thank you.
-[Emily] Good!

-Oh, you look so cute.
-Oh, thanks!

-These are my sitting shoes.
-[chuckling]

I can't wear them
anywhere else.

Coming to brunch is
a little bit uncomfortable.

I don't know
these girls very well.

And it's hard for me to make
friends because on film,

I am great.
I am spot-on.

But in real life, I am awkward
in real life in person.

But I am keeping in mind that
this is an opportunity to make

friends and get to know people,
so I am still excited.

Tammy's barbecue.
Did you guys all go?

-Yes.
-[Megan] Yeah,
we were able to go.

[Emily]
So, tell me all the stuff.

Oh, I mean,
it was a good time.

Alright, ladies,
I got [indistinct].

Oh, wow.
Beautiful.

So, yeah, I felt
a little awkward.

Why?
What happened?

Tell me.
Tell me!

Kind of felt drug
into a conversation

that wasn't really for me.

I think the tension
came from Bri and I.

But it was
a tense conversation.

[Emily] Well, who brought up
an intense conversation

at a barbecue?

That's a, kind of,
a good question.

-Um...
-[Emily] It looks
like Heather knows.

-[laughing]
-I mean...

Tammy is the one that
initiated the conversation,

but I think it was kind
of one of those things, like,

elephant in the room.

Is that why you guys
kind of pulled back from,

you know, hanging out?

I'm a little bit caught off
guard by Emily asking

so many questions
about what's been going on

with Megan and Bri.

Like, she's the new girl
in the friend group,

and I'm just trying
to understand, like,

where her head's at.

Right now, I'm trying
to prevent Emily from really

stirring the pot between
things with Megan and Bri.

Bri and I just grown apart,
but really, like,

that's between Bri and I.

So, like, I wasn't
comfortable airing that out

in front of the whole group...
-Right.

...um, last night,
so I really didn't.

Like, I didn't wanna
talk about it,

and so I really didn't.

And I really hope and wish
that it is something

that we can move past,
like, and still be friends.

-[Heather] Yeah, like --
-[Emily] Maybe not --

-Distanced friends, like...
-[Emily] Yeah.

...friendly, for sure,

which right now
we're not able to do.

Like, we didn't even speak

except for that one moment.
-Yeah.

[Megan] So, the last time
I saw Bri was at the barbecue,

and I felt very ambushed,
but I don't want these issues

with Bri to affect the group.

I value all
of their friendships.

I need to talk to Bri about
the fact that she was the one

that outed me.
I need to get it over with.

I'm just trying
to mentally prepare.

I just know, like, you guys
used to be best friends,

and so it's like, obviously,
there's a good foundation there.

Ultimately, like, you guys
need to hash it out.

-And I think you guys can, um...
-Yes.

Emily, I'm honestly
kind of like,

I'll just be frank, like,

kind of interested
of like you being here today,

just because, like, we all have
been like really close friends,

but, like, I feel like you're
almost kind of talking like

you're close with us,

but you're not.
Like...

[Emily] Um...

I was just asking questions.

You know, I was just
inquiring about the barbecue

that we were invited to
and couldn't come.

You know, I know that you guys
are all much closer,

and you know, I'm kind
of the outsider currently,

but, you know,
that's all that was.

-I didn't mean anything by it.
-OK.

I'm not trying to be mean.

I'm just trying
to protect this group,

because this group
isn't just friendship to me.

It's a support system.

And with me coming out,

I'm going to need that
more than ever.

And I don't want Emily
to ruin that.

I think it was innocent.

[Emily] You know, I was just
speaking in the sense

that I couldn't
understand conflict.

Mm-hmm.

-[Heather] I get that?
-OK.

I think Macy has
me misunderstood,

because I was just inquiring,
asking questions,

trying to get to know them,
trying to figure out

what the events were
that unfolded,

and I think maybe she took that
as kind of intrusive

on their group,
their friendship.

That wasn't
what I was trying to do.

[Macy]
Are you guys, like, undercover
or anything like that?

-Mnh-mnh.
-[Heather] I think
it's crazy, though,

that you're not undercover,
and your hometown

doesn't even know.

You know, everyone
who's important to us knows,

then [bleep] everyone else.
-[Macy] Right -- right.

-Yeah.
-Have you ever told
any of your friends?

No.
Not yet.

So I'm gonna be, like,
more on the side of you,

and I'm not
telling anyone else.

So once it comes out
is when it's gonna be known.

-[Macy] Yeah.
-So, a little nervous
about that.

[Macy]
Oh, yeah.

When we do come out,
just mentally preparing myself

that probably
we'll lose some friends.

-[Megan] Yeah, you will.
-[Macy] You know?

And it sucks,
because it's like, we've been

such good friends,
but, like, now that you know

the real me, the real Macy,

now you're gonna
be judgmental.

And I looked at Tammy,
which she shared about,

like, how she was asked
to leave the church.

-I'm that church girl, right?
-Right.

So it's like one place that
is supposed to be like

the most non-judgmental,
the loving, caring, like all

the, like, characteristics
of Jesus is a place that, like,

she felt like
she's the most judged.

-You know, like, sorry --
-[Megan] No, you're fine.

[Macy]
It should not be like that.

Like, Jesus literally
hung out with the sinners.

He hung out
with the prostitutes.

For you, it's probably just
really nerve-wracking
thinking...

-Yes.
-...that if she had
to deal with that,

what's coming up for you.
-Yeah -- yeah.

Like, hopefully I can
still go to church.

The possibility that
once everything's out there,

there might be some churches
that might not want me to come

makes me, like,
really emotional.

I just hope that people
would treat me and my husband

with the same kindness that
we try to treat other people.

Anyway, sorry.
I didn't mean to go get so deep

and emotional there, guys.

Macy was judging me so
hardcore about simply trying

to make friends.

When she's so afraid about
her church disowning her

when they find out
what she does for a living,

she's doing to me exactly
what her church

is gonna do to her
when they find out.

So...

I'm feeling nervous,
but I'm also ready

to, you know,
confront Bri head-on.

God, I don't wanna
cry yet, um...

I feel like...

[tense music playing]

[tense music playing]

Today I am meeting
for lunch with Bri,

and we are going to talk
about what's going on

with our friendship.

I'm feeling nervous,
but I'm also ready

to, you know, confront Bri.
I have to know the truth.

[Brianna]
Megan invited me for lunch,

and so I am feeling
a little nervous

but really just knowing, um,

that we need to have
a open and honest conversation.

I really just want to just
try to get clarity and, like,

I'm very conflicted right now
because, like, this whole topic

is really frustrating to me.

So I don't really know
where the truth lies right now.

-[Megan] Hi.
-[Brianna] Hey.

She did get my drink order.

I didn't know what you wanted,
but she should be coming back.

-Yeah.
-So...

[exhales]

I think I'm just gonna
do a salad today.

I can't do salad 'cause
it gets stuck in my teeth.

-Oh.
-[chuckling]

-All right, sweet pea, let me
put that raspberry mojito.
-Yes, thank you.

And we have with lemon...

Can I get you something?

-Uh, can I get a Pepsi?
-Pepsi?

-Of course,
I'll be back with that.
-[Megan] Thank you.

-[background chatter]
-[tense music playing]

Um...

Hmm.

Well, I mean...

I don't know, like...

I don't really
wanna, like, start.

-I mean, like...
-[Megan] Yeah.

You know, like, I'm here, like,

you asked me to be here.
-Right.

And I just kind of wanna
listen, I guess first, and...

I don't know.
I don't know.

-It's, like...
-Yeah -- this is scary for me.

And God,
I don't wanna cry yet, um...

I just, I know this is
something that we both need,

and I just wanted to do it,

like, in a controlled setting,

I guess, like not
in front of other people.

-Mm-hmm.
-And I know

that I struggle so much with
connecting and, like, opening up

and I have these walls put up.

I feel like a bad friend for

shutting you out
at Phil's party.

And that's why I think
I kind of shut down.

I didn't know, like,
what to say.

I was very hurt.

I feel like you just, like,
stared at me and was, like,

"Yeah, that's hard."

Like, and I was like, "Oh."

That was very,
like, cold response.

So when Tammy like pulled us
aside to have the conversation

in the street, had definitely
had a tone and I was harsh

and I was angry.

And I definitely recognized
that, like,

it was a hostile tone
and I was frustrated.

And then
when you came back with,

[scoffs]

"Our friendship was
over so long ago."

I was like,
like, knife to my stomach.

And, like,
that made me just feel like,

"What the [bleep] did I do?"

Like, what have I --
what did I do

that was, like, so terrible?

I feel like,

you know, Tyler and I have
had the conversation

about, like, who outed me?

You know, it did cross
my mind before.

I feel like that maybe
you had outed me.

Let me get a drink
for this conversation.

[sighs]

If it was you who outed me
to like the newspapers,

I just wouldn't be able
to forgive that.

I'm like, it happened to her,
maybe she wanted somebody

to, like, go through it with.
-Um...

I saw some pictures on Facebook.
What's going on?

So some photos
of me were leaked.

And Aunt Kim does
not know about

our adult content creation.

Me and Nathan have been
doing adult content.

[Brianna]
And I'm totally not opposed
to getting in the hot tub.

Maybe like try to get
a little content in.

-Yes.
-Yeah.

We've been doing this
for so long,

but obviously for so long
it's been hidden

and it's been private.

-Sure.
-OK.

-Yeah? OK.
-Yeah.

After the type of content
we made last night,

now I know that it's gonna be
very, very, very exposed.

I mean, I have kids.
It's just hard.

It's hard to think about.

Makes me wonder if we thought
it all the way through.

I'm not one to hold on
to yucky feelings,

but if anybody brings drama,
if I've had a drink in me,

I will come back at them.

Oh my gosh.