Original subtitles

♪You are the sun in my life♪

♪You're the light of my love♪

♪When I'm lost in the dark♪

♪Every shadow fades away♪

♪You are the sun in my life♪

♪You're the light of my love♪

♪When I'm lost in the dark♪

♪Every shadow fades away♪

[Shine On Me]

[Adapted from Gu Man's novel, Shine On Me]

[Episode 12]

Thanks everyone for being here.

Here you are.

- Boss. - Boss.

As we're friends,

I'm not doing the rounds, okay?

Oh, knock it off.

We know you're

a lightweight.

Let's all raise our glasses.

Okay, come on.

Congrats.

- Alright. - Congrats.

- Congrats. - Congrats.

Sorry.

It's fine.

You okay, Xigua?

I'm good.

Come on.

Boss, Xiang Qun,

happy wedding.

Happy wedding.

Happy wedding.

- Happy wedding. - Happy wedding.

♪Always just one step away♪

♪You pretend your smile is strong♪

Happy wedding.

Sorry about that.

I totally fumbled the glass.

I owe three shots for that one.

♪But the pain still shows through♪

♪You are the sun in my life ♪

♪Yet I could not reach you through the long night♪

♪I can only wait in silence♪

♪Hoping the dawn will break♪

♪You are the sun in my life ♪

♪Yet I could not reach you through the long night♪

♪I'm still waiting in silence♪

I...

I'm gonna hit the restroom.

♪Hoping the dawn will break♪

Go ahead.

I should head back soon.

What's your number?

Same as before.

Mine too.

Send me your bank details.

I mean,

I ruined your clothes.

Don't worry about it.

Fair enough.

Haven't congratulated you yet.

Perfect match.

Same to you.

Congrats.

Nie Xiguang.

Why were you

looking at me like that?

Playing both sides,

or just not over me?

I was shocked when Ye Rong apologized

to me yesterday.

I thought she'd spend her whole life

pretending

nothing ever happened,

and never owning up to it.

But since she did apologize,

it reminded me

I still owe her an answer.

She asked me back then

if I still had feelings for you.

I think I can finally answer her now.

No, I really don't.

Tell her

to relax.

I couldn't care less

about others' happiness.

No need to fill Ye Rong in.

But it's a weight

off my shoulders.

It's actually pathetic.

I didn't realize

a promise

had such a short shelf life.

Promise?

You mean me?

Since when did we

warrant a word like that?

Even so, I'm not giving up.

I'll keep liking you,

until the day

you finally return the feeling.

Give me time. I'll win you over.

It's not like I'm made of stone.

When someone likes me

and actually treats me right,

my feelings are bound to shift.

It's only natural.

True.

You're only human, right?

Feelings change. That's no mystery.

Others' feelings also change.

Nie Xiguang,

thank you for bringing me back

to my senses.

♪The world's in high gear, and you're just gone♪

♪Full house at the diner, but I'm sitting alone♪

♪Even the ones who hold each other closest♪

♪Still ache with the fear of drifting away♪

♪I wonder if my caring is just getting in your way♪

♪In joy or sorrow, who will keep you near?♪

♪May this silent wish of mine♪

♪Reach your sky♪

♪Give it a few years, and we'll both be a blur♪

♪All those moments, lost and out of reach♪

♪Who's gonna tend to your wandering heart?♪

♪When the winter wind leaves the world so bare♪

♪Hoping you still feel me near♪

Just ignore me.

I'll be fine in a second.

Just give me a minute.

How am I supposed to ignore you...

when you're so vulnerable?

Honestly, confessing my feelings here...

is not exactly my style.

But with you crying like this,

I'd be an idiot

not to seize the moment.

Nie Xiguang,

what am I supposed

to do with you?

♪I was walking on a cloudy road♪

♪No direction, no place to go♪

♪Then you appeared and lit my way♪

Back at the banquet hall,

I was tearing myself apart wondering if I should come over.

♪You turned my night into golden day♪

I told myself...

♪Two-way love, it's a fire so bright♪

"You're nearly thirty.

Stop acting

like a teenager."

♪You are the sun in my life, my light♪

But I lost my composure anyway.

I'm so far gone.

♪We shine together, we rise, we glow♪

And yet, I'm here...

♪Two hearts beating, the world will know♪

wishing your feelings change soon.

Nie Xiguang.

Don't play dumb with me.

I'm not.

I'm just figuring this out myself.

I didn't even get a chance to fake it.

I grabbed these from my car.

Go get changed.

You bought all these beautiful dresses.

It'd be a shame

not to show them off.

♪Two-way love, it's a fire so bright♪

♪You are the sun in my life, my light♪

♪We shine together, we rise, we glow♪

♪Two hearts beating, the world will know♪

♪The world spins fast but we stay still♪

♪In your arms, time bends to my will♪

♪Your love's a mirror, I see me true♪

♪Two-way love, I'm complete with you♪

♪Two hearts beating, the world will know♪

There you are.

You've been gone like forever.

Good thing the others cleared out,

or there wouldn't be any food left for you.

Actually, we're heading out now.

So soon?

It started snowing again

while I was grabbing her clothes.

The roads might get tricky later.

Fair enough.

We'll be off, then.

Drive safe.

Bye.

- Bye. - Bye.

See ya.

Xiguang,

are you guys leaving so soon too?

No way.

Did you really change

into another outfit?

This looks gorgeous on you too.

You're totally outshining

my bridal wardrobe

with all these changes.

That's just because

she accidentally got her dress stained.

The snow is going to get a lot worse later.

Traffic will be a nightmare,

so we've decided to head out now.

But how are you guys getting back?

Xiguang,

he was drinking.

No way he's driving, right?

We'll grab a cab.

I'll have someone pick up the car later.

Okay. Safety first.

Thanks for coming,

you guys.

I'll let you get going.

Go, do your thing.

Let's catch up soon.

See you.

Take good care of her, okay?

Apparently, my confession

just knocks people speechless.

Sorry.

Nie Xiguang,

it shouldn't be like this

if you're turning me down.

You should be holding your head high and saying,

"Lin Yusen,

I'm not exactly falling for you.

You haven't made the cut."

Instead of acting like this,

as if you owe me

something.

That's not it.

It's not that you didn't make the cut.

It's just...

I haven't

quite moved on

from someone I used to care for.

You saw it

back there.

If you're going to be with someone,

you need to be all in.

And right now,

I'm just not there.

Actually,

back at the hotel,

I lied.

I said

I'd be an idiot

not to seize the moment.

But in fact,

confessing to you then

is where the real stupidity would have been.

It would've made a mockery

of the whole "annual plan" I stayed up all night

mapping out.

But

it turns out

these things

don't follow a script.

It's a first for me.

Quite the experience, actually.

I knew you'd turn me down,

but

so soon?

Now what?

My pride

is taking a bit of a hit.

Anyway, it was expected.

It's like being handed

a death sentence with a tumor,

only to be told

it's benign.

Alright.

I guess we'll just have to play the long game.

Let's leave it at that for now.

We'll pick this up back in Suzhou.

A

tumor?

That was

a clumsy metaphor.

I'm not going back to Suzhou.

I'm

heading to Wuxi.

I still have

a day and a half of leave, anyway.

And I haven't seen

my mom in ages.

Besides, I've been really craving her...

You don't need a reason to go home.

Alright then.

Let me at least drop you

at the station.

No, it's fine.

I'll just

grab a cab.

Nie Xiguang,

are you going

to avoid me forever now?

No.

It feels wrong

to let you help me,

knowing I can't give you what you want.

Well,

I'm not exactly an expert at this.

But isn't this just

how

the whole "pursuit" thing works?

So,

not only are you turning me down,

you're telling me I'm not even allowed to try?

What if I'm never going

to...?

I don't want

to string you along like that.

Nie Xiguang.

It's one thing to have no confidence in yourself,

but why do you have so little faith in me?

Didn't you say

I was great at everything I do?

You're the kind of girl

who can't even

bring herself to say

a flat-out "Never to accept me".

With a heart as soft as yours,

how much of a failure would I be

if I couldn't win you over?

Too scared to let me give you a ride?

I'm just courting you.

This isn't some business deal.

I'm not looking for an ROI.

Why do you feel like

you owe me

just for saying no?

I want this

to be something good for you,

not a weight on your shoulders.

You say...

you still have feelings for him.

That's fine.

Take your pick.

♪Will we ever be close, you and me?♪

♪Oh, wherever you are, whatever you want♪

♪Don't hesitate to call me, just let me know♪

♪I hope you'll never forget♪

♪My heart has only you♪

♪Every moment of every day♪

♪Our love's gonna find a way♪

I'm completely worn out today.

Let's just grab a cab.

I'll give you a lift.

I'm heading that way anyway.

No, it's okay.

I've still got some work to finish up.

And the subway is a straight shot.

See you around.

Zhuang Xu, stop right there.

There's something

I've been wanting to say since yesterday.

I thought

maybe it's all in the past

and it didn't really

matter anymore.

But now I just can't

keep it in anymore.

Why didn't you tell me you moved

to Investment Banking at Huaya?

It was just a standard transfer.

Nothing special.

Then why were you so quick

to bring it up

the moment you saw her today?

You can say it was Zhuo Hui who brought it up.

But you'd rather tell Zhuo Hui than me?

And another thing,

where did you go

when you walked out suddenly?

You just bolted out of here to find her.

Don't you feel...

humiliated?

It has nothing

to do with you.

Nothing to do with me?

Why?

Didn't we grow up together?

Aren't we childhood sweethearts?

Did you never once

have feelings for me?

I didn't know

that I had to be held accountable for feelings

that were never even confirmed.

Are you blaming me?

Yes.

I was cautious, I know.

But

is that so wrong?

If I were still the same person

I used to be,

I could afford to be reckless

and risk everything,

because I could actually

back us up.

But

am I that person anymore?

No, I'm not.

I learned the hard way

how cruel the world can be,

and how quickly people change.

Is it really a crime

that I didn't want to rush into this?

I just value

our bond too much.

What if we got together

only to realize

it wasn't working?

Would reality tear us apart so badly

that we couldn't even stay friends?

How thoughtful of you.

You're so much more mature than I am.

Are you mocking me?

Are you taking out

all the frustration you felt

with Nie Xiguang

on me?

Why do you keep bringing her into this?

What's between us

has never had anything to do with her.

Am I the one bringing her into this?

If she hadn't met you

and started pursuing you,

things wouldn't be so messy between us.

What exactly

did you tell her about us

back in college?

Is it about Zhuang Xu?

Yes.

Him?

Even though

we've been neighbors since childhood,

I don't really know him that well.

You're asking the wrong person.

Xiguang is going all out

to win over Zhuang Xu.

How can you be so unfazed?

Aren't you worried

she'll actually steal him away?

Don't you think

she's the perfect touchstone?

She's from a wealthy family,

and she's got the looks.

If Zhuang Xu

can turn down this golden opportunity,

I might actually believe

he'll never have a change of heart.

Still...

you seem so sure of yourself.

You've got Zhuang Xu wrapped around your finger, right?

What did she tell you?

You believe her over me?

Always that same line.

Sometimes I think

maybe whatever's between you and her

was never about me at all.

You're just

using me

to one-up her.

She's your imaginary enemy...

but it was never about me.

What are you talking about?

Ye Rong,

do we really have to

spell it out?

Forget it.

It doesn't matter anymore.

Life finally

beat some sense into me.

It's best

if we just move on.

Move on?

So that's how it is.

Makes sense.

Your female colleagues in Investment Banking

might come from an even more powerful family

than Nie Xiguang.

However,

you don't have to be so full of yourself

or insult me like this.

Did you really think

I wouldn't have

better options than you

in a city like Shanghai?

Good to know.

I used to

always take your word for it.

Thanks, Senior.

Nie Xiguang.

It was her.

The senior made it very clear:

the interview calls went out

first thing Monday afternoon.

I was on that list.

But that afternoon,

Nie Xiguang was the only one in the dorm.

She took the call,

but she never told me.

There must be a mix‑up.

I don't think she'd do something like that.

Why wouldn't she?

The facts are right in front of you.

Tell me, Zhuang Xu.

Why wouldn't she?

Are you saying she didn't have a motive?

Why do you trust her so much?

Maybe the person making the calls

just missed your name.

Zhuang Xu.

You've changed.

You weren't always like this.

I really thought you were the only constant in my life.

Let me tell you something:

that is exactly who Nie Xiguang is.

She's arrogant and self-centered.

She just has to have whatever she wants,

and couldn't care less

about others' feelings.

But I didn't think

she'd go this far.

If you don't believe me,

go ask your senior.

There's always a record

of those calls, isn't there?

If they never made the call,

I'll apologize for my suspicions.

But if they did,

you have to stand by me.

I'm going to confront her in front of everyone.

Xu,

is Jiang Rui's cousin

into you?

Who told you that?

Rong told me.

She wasn't bad-mouthing her.

She just seemed a bit upset.

Jiang Rui's cousin

seems pretty overbearing.

Knowing full well about you and Rong,

she still bragged in the dorm

about how she's going to win you over.

I see.

Xu,

do you like her?

I don't think what she's doing

is right.

Focus on your studies.

This is none of your business.

Just a few more lessons for Jiang Rui.

After that, I'm done.

Xu.

[Inpatient]

How about

we borrow from Aunt

to settle with Jiang Rui's cousin?

Why are you bringing this up?

Rong said

everyone at your school knows

about Jiang Rui's cousin lending you money.

No one knows who spread it,

but

she's been saying in the dorm

that she helped you,

so you're bound to end up with her.

I've already paid the price for trusting you.

♪Rainy days leave my hair all damp♪

♪Sunny days dry the sheets in the light♪

♪I feel alone in this city♪

♪No conversations, just the quiet air♪

♪The days since you're gone♪

[Huaya Bank]

♪I still haven't learned to move on♪

♪Each quiet night falls around me♪

♪Even with the lights on, they glow dim and pale♪

♪All I can do is call out loud♪

♪To hide the dull ache inside♪

♪I grip regret so tight♪

♪And cast it into the shining firework sky♪

♪Even if love fades too fast♪

♪I'll bless you with the grace I have♪

♪You're gone for good♪

♪I crave no warmth in winter♪

♪And let the sweat run wild in summer♪

♪In the bustling city♪

♪I'm still lost in yesterday♪

So, what do you think?

Isn't it about time?

Come on, give me a guy's take,

and help me break it down.

If I confess now,

do you think I've got a good shot?

You should've gone for it ages ago.

Why bother earning brownie points?

You don't need them.

Never mind.

Actually, it's still a bit too soon for that.

Let me give it some thought

and come up with the perfect plan.

What plan?

I pulled an all-nighter to finish one.

Care for a look?

That color

looks great on you.

Right?

Ms. Zhou.

It's been ages since I last saw you.

Look at you, all grown up

and more stunning than ever.

Why do you still have such dark circles

when you slept in so late?

I didn't sleep well.

There's soy milk,

youtiao, and pancakes in the kitchen.

Just ask Ms. Yan to warm them up for you.

Once you're done, come have a chat

with Ms. Zhou.

Okay.

Eat over here.

Okay.

Xiguang,

I heard

you're working in Suzhou?

She applied all by herself.

Turns out the place

is actually a Yuancheng investment.

Small world, right?

So,

I figured I'd let her learn the ropes there.

It's nice and all,

but if she's not working in Wuxi,

dating becomes such a hassle.

You don't want her ending up

with some guy from Suzhou.

That's a bit of a stretch.

She's still young.

Honestly,

I haven't even given it a thought.

Has no one come to you wanting to set her up?

Oh, there are plenty,

but the matches didn't seem right,

so I turned them all down.

Xiguang.

You can date,

but you need

to take your time.

You should date for at least two years

to see his true character, okay?

Ideally,

it should be someone local.

Suzhou is just way too far.

Exactly.

Just listen to your mother.

Remember Ms. Sun's daughter?

She married someone from Zhejiang.

And now?

They only get to see each other

once every month or two.

I got it.

Look at her, she's blushing.

She's got her head buried in her bowl.

Oh, by the way,

your uncle mentioned

that for Chinese New Year,

our family should go on a trip abroad.

Would you like to go?

Where to?

He suggested Switzerland.

We'd rent a chalet

and go skiing.

I'm still on the fence, though,

as you've always been afraid of flying.

I'm fine.

If you want to go, Mom, we'll go.

But if it's for skiing,

why do we have to go abroad?

We can do that here,

like Xinjiang or Changbai Mountain.

Why fly so far?

I only have a few days off anyway.

True.

Flying abroad

takes over twenty hours.

I've never been

to Changbai Mountain.

It might be worth a visit.

I'll talk to your aunt.

After you finish breakfast,

go visit your grandparents.

You might not

have much time to spend with them

during Chinese New Year.

Okay.

After lunch

at your grandparents',

be back early.

You've still got that trip to Suzhou.

Got it.

Should I pack some Jingqiao sesame cakes for you?

If you're the one craving them, just buy some.

Don't use me as an excuse.

I'll get going.

Bye, Ms. Zhou.

Drive safe.

Take it easy, okay?

Got it.

Since when did Xiguang start driving?

I made her get her license right after the gaokao.

So you're still in touch

with your former in-laws?

I don't go there myself.

But Xiguang does.

Those are two separate matters.

Her grandparents are really kind.

Back when I first got married,

Nie Chengyuan and I were busy running the business,

and my parents weren't in good health.

So Xiguang was basically raised by them.

They've built a real bond.

And now,

with my parents gone,

I can't let Xiguang

lose that bond

with them either.

- Grandma! - Sweetheart!

Welcome back!

[Grandma of Xiguang] Why didn't you tell me you were coming?

I needed to prep the meal.

I called

Grandpa earlier.

He said you were home.

That old man

hasn't told me a thing.

He isn't even back yet.

He must've forgotten.

Are you going to the fields?

I'll join you.

Okay, let's go.

I've

opened up a new spot

for broccoli.

Don't you city folks love that stuff?

I'll save the best ones for you when they're ready.

- Okay? - Alright.

Park the car inside.

Okay.

Guang.

Here.

Let's go.

Come on.

Grandma, who's that guy?

That's Qian Fangping's father.

Homewreckers will get what's coming to them.

That old scumbag

has been trouble since he was young,

always a total sleazebag.

Never did a day's work in the fields.

These days he's just some wannabe fortune-teller,

still messing around pretending to be all mystical.

He's absolute trash, through and through,

always out there swindling people.

Your father is such a good-for-nothing.

That home-wrecker Qian

literally

tore our family apart.

I swear, your dad must be cursed to have met her.

Guang, don't worry.

If she ever tries to marry your dad,

I will

lie down right at your dad's office door

and not let him leave.

Grandma,

when my parents were getting a divorce,

you tried that too.

I was just about to lie down,

and you pulled me back up.

Alright.

Let's go.

I'm not afraid of him anyway.

♪A patch of heavy clouds above♪

♪That winding, twisting road we walk♪

♪Stopping and going countless times♪

♪Love feels less rushed that way♪

♪The rain from yesterday has finally cleared♪

♪And today the sunshine feels so warm and bright♪

♪I used to hide away in the corner♪

♪But now I long to follow close behind you♪

♪How much longer must I keep missing out?♪

♪When it's only you who makes my heart race♪

♪I've rushed through the endless crowd♪

♪I'm holding your hand at this moment♪

♪Clutching tight, with tender arms♪

♪I just want to keep your gentle smile♪

♪I've made it past the endless trials♪

♪I'm gazing into your eyes at this moment♪

♪No turning back or fear of winter's chill♪

♪The sunlight shines like you♪

♪And like me♪

♪Dreams realized, broken and gone♪

♪Nothing more than a dream all along♪

♪Wake up to the bright lights on the streets♪

♪I'm here by your side♪

♪The sky dimmed, deepened and died♪

♪Nothing more than some rain inside♪

♪Open the window to boundless blue skies♪

♪Side by side, just you and I♪

♪Side by side, just you and I♪