Original subtitles

(bird screeches)

♪♪♪

(Meredith) I ALWAYS SAID I'D BE HAPPIER ALONE.

I'D HAVE MY WORK, MY FRIENDS.

(object scraping)

BUT SOMEONE IN YOUR LIFE ALL THE TIME?

MORE TROUBLE THAN IT'S WORTH.

OKAY. CRIB GOES HERE.

APPARENTLY, I GOT OVER IT.

CHANGING TABLE WILL GO... RIGHT HERE.

(woman) ♪ EASY TO FIND, YOU SEE ♪

BUT YOU CAN'T PLAN A BABY ROOM BEFORE YOU HAVE A BABY.

I MEAN, THAT-- YOU'RE GONNA JINX THE ADOPTION.

NO, THE SOCIAL WORKER WANTS TO SEE WHERE WE LIVE.

THIS IS LIKE A DEATH TRAP.

I'M TRYING TO CREATE A REASONABLE DISTRACTION. OH.

HELLO. JANET, WELCOME.

HOW ARE YOU? THANKS FOR COMING OUT.

OH, BE CAREFUL. WATCH THOSE NAILS. (clatters)

♪ SHE LEAVES THEM THERE ♪

♪ FOR YOU TO FIND ♪

PERFECT FOR A BABY, RIGHT?

♪♪♪

HMM.

♪ YOU LEAVE BEHIND THE WEIGHT OF THE FUTURE ♪

I'M GONNA STOP IN THE LAB.

I'LL SEE YOU AFTER THE INTAKE, OKAY?

OKAY. OH, GOD. I FORGOT IT WAS THE HOBARTS TODAY. (children laughing)

IT ALWAYS BUMS ME OUT WHEN WE HAVE AN ALZHEIMER'S PATIENT

WITH YOUNG KIDS. WELL, THERE'S NO SHAME IN SITTING THIS ONE OUT.

I CAN DO THE INTAKE. STOP TREATING ME LIKE I'M YOUR WIFE.

ON THE TRIAL, I'M A COLLEAGUE.

I'M ALLOWED TO SAY IT BUMS ME OUT.

DOESN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO FEED ME WARM MILK AND RUN A BATH.

TREAT ME LIKE A DOCTOR. RIGHT. SORRY. OKAY. GO DO THE INTAKE, COLLEAGUE.

SHEPHERD, YOU GOT A MINUTE?

I NEED TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT YOUR TRIAL.

OH, UM... WELL, I SHOULD GET MEREDITH.

I JUST GOT A LECTURE ON THE FAILURE TO EXTEND

PROFESSIONAL COURTESY TO ONE'S SPOUSE.

I THINK IT'S BEST YOU DON'T GET MEREDITH.

YOU'RE IN-- IN VERY GOOD HANDS.

I STILL FEEL BAD THAT I'M NOT GONNA BE HERE.

FOR THE SURGERY? I'LL BE UNCONSCIOUS.

THAT'S NOT WHEN I'M GONNA MISS YOU.

OKAY. THEN I GUESS I W--

YOU CAN FEEL BAD ABOUT ALL THE TIME THAT FOLLOWS.

YOU KNOW, WHEN I'M NOT UNDER GENERAL ANESTHESIA,

AND YOU'RE STILL NOT HERE.

YOU'RE HALFWAY AROUND THE WORLD...

WITH ARNOLD.

ANDREW. RAAH!

EXCUSE ME? HE'S A ROCK STAR.

I KIND OF FEEL LIKE

THE SOUND OF AN ADORING CROWD SHOULD FOLLOW HIS NAME.

I DON'T--I DON'T...

IS THAT A COMPLIMENT OR AN INSULT? I DON'T KNOW.

I GUESS IT DEPENDS ON HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT ROCK STARS. OKAY, WELL, ANDREW IS NOT A ROCK ST--

RAAH! OKAY, YOU KNOW WHAT? CAN YOU STOP THAT, PLEASE?

IT'S STARTING TO GET ANNOYING. MY WIFE'S LEAVING. I'M ALLOWED TO BE ANNOYING.

I'M NOT A REAL WIFE,

SO THAT DOESN'T BUY FOR A LOT OF BAD BEHAVIOR.

WELL, YOU'RE MY REAL BEST FRIEND. WHAT DOES THAT GET ME?

I'M SORRY.

DON'T BE. GO BE HAPPY... WITH ANDREW. RAAH!

YOU'RE IMPOSSIBLE.

YEAH, YOU, TOO.

(whispers) MEREDITH, TELL ME EXACTLY WHAT YOU DID.

(lowered voice) I CAN'T TELL YOU.

(lowered voice) WE CAN STILL FIX THIS,

BUT I NEED TO KNOW WHAT YOU DID. IF I TELL YOU, IT'LL MAKE IT WORSE.

IT'S WORSE ALREADY. MEREDITH--

LISTEN, I-I... I LOVE YOU.

AND I'M SORRY.

BUT I CAN'T TELL YOU ANYTHING.

(door opens) YOU WANTED TO BE TREATED LIKE A COLLEAGUE?

I'M GONNA TREAT YOU LIKE A COLLEAGUE. (door closes)

ALEX KAREV INFORMED DR. HUNT

THAT DR. GREY TAMPERED WITH MY CLINICAL TRIAL.

SHE SWITCHED AROUND THE PLACEBOS AND THE DRUGS,

PROBABLY INVALIDATING... MY TRIAL.

IS THIS TRUE?

NOTHING I DID HAS ANY EFFECT-- TELL ME EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED.

I CAN'T DO THAT. DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU'VE DONE?

YOU THINK THE F.D.A. WILL GET ANYWHERE NEAR THIS HOSPITAL

EVER AGAIN? MEREDITH, LOOK AT ME.

IF THIS IS WRONG, IF THERE IS SOMETHING GOING ON,

IF KAREV IS EXAGGERATING,

THIS IS THE PART WHERE YOU HAVE TO TELL ME.

THIS IS THE PART WHERE YOU HAVE TO DENY THE CHARGES.

KICK ME OFF THE STUDY.

THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THE STUDY.

NOTHING I DID CHANGES ANYTHING.

BUT YOU'RE NOT DENYING IT?

(sighs)

I'M GONNA HAVE TO INVESTIGATE WHAT'S GOING ON HERE,

BUT IT LOOKS TO ME LIKE YOU JUST LOST YOUR JOB.

SO THEY'RE PROBABLY GONNA FIRE ME.

ARE YOU HAPPY? OH, COME ON. THEY'RE NOT GONNA--

I WANT YOUR CRAP OUT OF MY HOUSE BY THE END OF THE DAY.

WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT?

(multiple pagers beeping)

(beeping continues)

A 757 WENT DOWN IN THE SOUND.

WE'RE LOOKING AT ABOUT 200 INJURED PASSENGERS.

WE'RE THE DESIGNATED CRISIS CENTER.

FAMILIES WILL BE INSTRUCTED TO COME HERE

TO FIND THEIR LOVED ONES.

WE ARE ACTIVATING SURGE PROTOCOL.

DR. HUNT IS GONNA BE RUNNING THE SHOW.

IT'S GONNA BE CHAOTIC. YOU NEED TO LISTEN CAREFULLY.

YOU NEED TO STAY FOCUSED. DO NOT CONTRIBUTE TO THE PANIC.

NOW GET TO YOUR STATIONS.

DR. BAILEY, LET'S CLEAR ANY BEDS THAT WE CAN.

DISCHARGE OR TRANSFER. OKAY, UH, GREY.

ALL RIGHT, TORRES, YOU'LL BE WITH ME.

KEPNER, SET UP THE E.R. FOR TRIAGE.

OTHER GREY, I WANT YOU RUNNING THE FAMILY CENTER.

TAKE OVER IN THE CAFETERIA. YANG, BLOOD BANK.

UH, WE MIGHT NEED A CANDYMAN. DR. SLOAN WILL BE OUR CANDYMAN.

LET'S BE LIBERAL WITH PAIN MEDS FOR OUR VICTIMS

AND SEDATIVES FOR PATIENTS THAT WE ARE MOVING.

UH, AVERY, YOU CAN HELP HIM OUT. LET'S MOVE, PEOPLE.

WHAT HAPPENED WITH MEREDITH? CRISTINA, I CAN'T--

OWEN. (lowered voice) SHE TAMPERED WITH SHEPHERD'S STUDY.

INVALIDATED THE RESULTS. SHE DESTROYED THE WHOLE THING.

(indistinct conversations)

(man speaks indistinctly)

THERE WAS A PLANE CRASH. THEY'RE GONNA CANCEL YOUR PROCEDURE

AND TRY TO SEND YOU HOME.

YOU NEED TO TELL THEM THAT YOU ARE A D-1.

YOU DON'T NEED TO BE IN PRE-OP,

BUT THAT YOU WANT TO BE MOVED TO A REGULAR ROOM.

THAT WAY, WHEN THE HOSPITAL STARTS DOING SURGERY AGAIN,

YOU'LL BE FIRST IN THE QUEUE. DON'T YOU HAVE A PLANE--

WAIT. DID THEY SHUT DOWN THE AIRPORT?

NO, BUT WE'RE NOT LEAVING TILL IT'S OVER.

THEY NEED SURGEONS AND TRAUMA COUNSELORS.

THESE ARE YOUR FILMS. THEY'RE GONNA SCHEDULE

YOUR SURGERY AT SEATTLE PRESBYTERIAN.

(Owen) SEATTLE PRES CAN'T TAKE ANYMORE. START CALLING COUNTY. (Mark) AVERY!

WHY'D YOU GIVE ME THAT GUY IN THE MIDDLE OF A MASS TRAUMA?

AVERY? THE KID QUIT WEBBER'S STUDY. WHAT KIND OF IDIOT DECIDES

WORKING WITH THE CHIEF OF SURGERY

IS TOO TAXING ON HIS SCHEDULE? HE DIDN'T QUIT BECAUSE HE THINKS IT'S TOO MUCH HARD WORK.

HE QUIT BECAUSE HE THINKS THE CHIEF HAS A SHOT

AT A HARPER AVERY,

AND HE WAS WORRIED THAT IF HIS NAME WAS ON IT,

IT WOULD KILL WEBBER'S CHANCES.

KEPNER, DISCHARGES. (April) YEAH.

(indistinct conversations)

YOU KNOW, SHE'S THE ONLY ONE

WHO EVER GAVE A RAT'S ASS ABOUT YOU,

AND NOW YOU MIGHT HAVE DESTROYED HER CAREER.

YOU SHOULD FIND SOME SKANKY INTERN TO LOVE YOU,

'CAUSE NEXT TIME YOU'RE IN A BURNING BUILDING,

NO ONE IS HANDING YOU A GLASS OF WATER.

(Lexie) PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU GIVE US A CELL PHONE NUMBER--

MATTHEW RUIZ? DO YOU HAVE-- NO ONE FROM THE FLIGHT HAS ARRIVED YET.

AS SOON AS WE GET ANY INFOR-- DO YOU HAVE A LIST OF PEOPLE

THEY'RE BRINGING TO THE HOSPITAL? BECAUSE WE-- FOLKS, IT CAN TAKE EMERGENCY SERVICES QUITE A LONG TIME

TO MOVE AND IDENTIFY PEOPLE IN A SITUATION LIKE THIS.

PLEASE JUST TRY TO BE PATIENT-- EXCUSE ME. I'M SORRY. LOOK, MY WIFE WAS ON THE PLANE.

CAN YOU PLEASE JUST TELL ME-- SIR, AT THIS POINT, WE DON'T HAVE ANY INFORMATION.

PLEASE JUST SIGN THE SHEETS. I'D LIKE TO SPEAK TO YOUR SUPERVISOR.

SOMEBODY THAT KNOWS WHAT'S GOING ON. MA'AM, MY SUPERVISOR DOESN'T HAVE ANY INFORMATION.

NOBODY HAS ANY INFORMATION. PLEASE JUST SIGN THE SHEET.

(indistinct conversations)

DR. HUNT, I HAD WAY TOO MANY DRINKS BEFORE I TOLD YOU THAT.

I-I DIDN'T MEAN FOR-- NOT NOW, KAREV.

LOOK, I TOLD YOU THAT BECAUSE

I DIDN'T THINK SHE SHOULD BE CHIEF RESIDENT,

NOT THAT SHE SHOULD BE FIRED. IF YOU DIDN'T THINK THIS THROUGH,

THEN YOU ARE AS DUMB AS SHE IS.

(indistinct conversations)

(woman speaks indistinctly over p.a.)

(indistinct conversations continue)

HEY.

YOU OKAY?

YEAH. I'M FINE.

UH... THE PLANE WAS FROM BALTIMORE,

WHERE MY PARENTS LIVE.

I'VE TAKEN THAT FLIGHT, UM... WITH MY SON.

YOU WANT TO COME SIT DOWN WITH ME FOR A MINUTE?

(sighs) NO, NO, NO. I CAN'T, UH...

THERE'S TOO MUCH, UH...

OKAY. UM...

I'M JUST GONNA--

I'M JUST GONNA STAND HERE FOR A MINUTE.

IS THAT ALL RIGHT?

(chuckles)

(Cristina) ARE YOU ON ANY MEDICATIONS? (woman) NO.

EVER GIVEN BLOOD BEFORE?

NOPE.

ANY CHANCE YOU'RE PREGNANT?

MM... I DON'T KNOW.

WHEN WAS YOUR LAST PERIOD? NOT SURE.

UH, WHAT WERE YOU DOING,

UM, LAST TIME YOU HAD TO DEAL WITH TAMPONS?

LIKE MAYBE IT WAS ST. PATRICK'S DAY,

AND YOU ATE, UH, FOUR GREEN DOUGHNUTS

AND THOUGHT, WOW, THAT'S DISGUSTING.

I MUST BE HORMONAL. OH, MY GOSH!

YOU'RE RIGHT! EXCEPT IT WAS THESE GROSS COOKIES

WITH GREEN FROSTING.

BUT THAT WAS A WHILE AGO.

UH, I GUESS I HAD MINE AGAIN AROUND EASTER...

(elevator bell dings) 'CAUSE I WAS ALL OVER THE MARSHMALLOW PEEPS.

IT TOTALLY WORKS.

HEY. W-WHAT THE HELL?

(ultrasound whooshing)

IT LOOKS ABOUT 6 WEEKS TO ME.

(clears throat) I TAKE IT THIS WASN'T DELIBERATE.

(sighs)

NO.

OKAY.

YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT OPTIONS?

NO.

(Morgan Taylor Reid's "Brighter" playing)

(man) OFFICIALS SAY IT'S TOO EARLY

TO SPECULATE ON THE CAUSE OF THE CRASH.

BUT HERE'S WHAT WE DO KNOW--

THE FLIGHT ORIGINATED THIS MORNING IN BALTIMORE

CARRYING 183 PASSENGERS AND 18 CREW MEMBERS...

STILL NOBODY? OH, THEIR FAMILIES ARE GOING CRAZY.

WHAT IS TAKING SO LONG?

WELL, FISHING 200 PEOPLE OUT OF THE WATER IS SLOW BUSINESS.

YOU WANT TO PLAY "ANGRY BIRDS"? (Owen) THEY'LL DO TRIAGE AT THE WATERFRONT.

IT TAKES TIME. ACTUALLY, IF THEY'RE TAKING THIS LONG,

THERE'S GONNA BE A LOT OF HYPOTHERMIA. KEPNER. OH, YEAH.

WARM BLANKETS, HEATED LAMPS, AND HEATED I.V. FLUIDS. GOT IT.

YOU POST CHIEF RESIDENT YET? UH, NO. NOT YET.

WHAT'S THE HOLDUP?

(sighs) THE SUSPENSE AIN'T KILLING ME. IT'S GONNA BE GREY.

WELL, I THOUGHT KAREV MADE A GREAT PLAY FOR IT.

A PLANE FULL OF ORPHANS-- THAT'S PRETTY IMPRESSIVE. AH, HE'S ALREADY DECIDED.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO LOBBY FOR YOUR BOY. (Richard) KAREV.

I WANT A WRITTEN ACCOUNT OF EXACTLY WHAT YOU SAW,

EVERY DETAIL--WHEN, WHERE-- OH, LOOK, SIR, I-I DON'T THINK THAT'S--

I-I DON'T WANT TO KNOW WHAT YOU THINK. OKAY?

(Jackson) NEED MORE SEDATIVES.

THE PEOPLE WE'RE TRANSFERRING ARE STARTING TO FREAK OUT.

♪ WHEN I WAS LOST AND LOOKING DOWN ♪

(clears throat)

♪ AND TURNED IT ALL ♪

♪ AROUND ♪

YOU'RE A GOOD MAN, AVERY.

♪ WITH YOUR LIGHT ♪

LEXIE'S YOURS.

TAKE HER. TAKE CARE OF HER.

I'LL STAY OUT OF YOUR WAY.

I KIND OF ALREADY HAVE HER, BUT...

THANK YOU?

YOU'RE WELCOME.

♪♪♪

I NEED TO TALK TO YOU.

♪♪♪

YOU KNOW, I THINK I'M GONNA ORDER PIZZA.

IF YOU WANT, I CAN GET--

I'M PREGNANT.

CRISTINA--

I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS IS HAPPENING.

I KNOW. I KNOW IT'S COMPLICATED.

I KNOW IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN LIKE THIS, BUT...

CRISTINA, THIS COULD BE SOMETHING--

WHAT? NO.

THERE'S NO WAY WE'RE DOING THIS. DO YOU HEAR ME? CRISTINA--

NO, NO. I-I AM NOT THIS UH, UH, BEAUTIFUL VESSEL

FOR ALL THAT MIGHT BE GOOD ABOUT THE FUTURE.

I'M NOT CARRYING YOUR HOPES AND DREAMS. NO. (laughs) I GET TO TALK.

I'M HERE. THERE'S TWO OF US. WE ARE A PARTNERSHIP.

CAN WE JUST--JUST THINK TOGETHER? IS THAT OKAY?

MM-HMM.

I KNOW WHO YOU ARE. I KNOW WHAT YOU WANT.

I LOVE YOU.

I DON'T LOVE THE INCUBATING POTENTIAL OF YOUR WOMB.

I LOVE YOU.

WHY WOULD I WANT TO DO SOMETHING

THAT WOULD MAKE YOU MISERABLE?

DO YOU THINK I LOVE YOU MORE WHEN YOU'RE MISERABLE?

DO YOU THINK I-I-I WANT THAT, YOU RUNNING OFF TO MEREDITH?

YOU THINK I'M LOOKING FOR MORE OF THAT?

BUT... I THINK THERE'S A WAY--

NO, NO! I-I STILL GET TO TALK.

THERE IS A WAY TO MAKE THIS WORK

WITHOUT IT RUINING YOUR LIFE OR DERAILING YOUR CAREER.

I DON'T WANT A BABY.

WELL, YOU HAVE ONE.

ARE...

ARE YOU GETTING ALL LIFE-Y ON ME?

HOW LATE ARE YOU?

THAT DOES NOT MATTER.

OF COURSE IT MATTERS.

OKAY, FINE. YOU TELL ME WHEN LIFE BEGINS.

YOU KNOW, I CAN'T--I CAN'T WAIT TO HEAR THIS ONE.

I DON'T KNOW. DOES IT-- DOES IT HAVE HANDS? (laughs)

(voice breaking) I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU ARE DOING THIS.

I'M JUST ASKING A QUESTION.

I DON'T WANT ONE.

I DON'T HATE CHILDREN. I RESPECT CHILDREN.

I THINK THEY SHOULD HAVE PARENTS WHO WANT THEM.

I WANT THEM.

I WANT THEM, AND MAYBE YOU COULD TO.

I BELIEVE...

YOUR LIFE CAN BE BIGGER THAN YOU THINK IT IS.

I KNOW YOU CAN CONTAIN MORE THAN YOU THINK YOU CAN.

I'M NOT SAYING WE DO THIS. I AM JUST SAYING, LET'S THINK.

LET'S SEE WHAT KIND OF LIFE WE CAN IMAGINE.

CRISTINA YANG...

I IMAGINE SUCH A HUGE LIFE FOR US.

(Richard) ALL RIGHT.

THIS IS AN EXTREMELY SERIOUS ACCUSATION, MEREDITH.

CAN'T YOU TELL ME ANYTHING?

I-I-I-I CAN'T. I-I'M SORRY.

TALK TO ME.

HOW MANY PATIENTS ARE WE TALKING ABOUT HERE?

DID THIS HAPPEN MORE THAN ONCE?

I CAN'T SAY THAT EITHER.

SHE CAN'T SAY ANYTHING.

WE'RE GONNA UNWIND THIS, MEREDITH.

KAREV IS FIGURING OUT WHAT CASES HE WAS ON WHEN HE SAW YOU,

HE'LL NARROW DOWN THE DATES, WE'LL KNOW WHICH PATIENTS--

NOTHING I DID CHANGED THE TRIAL.

UH, FIRE ME. DO WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO. LOOK, YOU DON'T GET TO CHOOSE, OKAY?

(knock on door)

YOU DON'T GET TO DECIDE WHO GETS THE DRUG OR THE PLACEBO.

YOU DON'T GET TO DECIDE WHAT INFORMATION THE TRIAL GETS. (door opens)

ANYTHING I TELL YOU AFFECTS THE TRIAL.

IF YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID, THE TRIAL STAYS BLIND.

THE TRIAL IS OVER. YOU SCREWED ME.

YOU SCREWED THIS HOSPITAL. AND YOU SCREWED YOURSELF.

THIS IS YOUR DISEASE WE'RE TRYING TO CURE.

I MEAN, I COULD'VE PICKED PARKINSON'S... IT WAS ADELE.

OR LOU GEHRIG'S DISEASE, BUT I DID THIS FOR YOU.

DEREK, IT WAS ADELE.

(exhales)

UH, MAYBE I SHOULD PUT

SOME I.V. FLUIDS IN THE HEATER WARM THEM UP? NO.

BUT IF PEOPLE HAVE BEEN IN THE WATER FOR THAT LONG-- APRIL--

BUT IF WE JUST-- (Mark) NO ONE'S COMING.

IF IT'S TAKING THIS LONG, NOBODY SURVIVED.

(sighs)

WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO?

I DON'T KNOW.

WELL, THE PROTOCOL IS FAIRLY CLEAR.

ARE YOU ENCOURAGING HIM TO FIRE ME?

LOOK, DEREK, I BASICALLY PRESSURED HER TO DO IT. MM.

YOU'D HAVE TO FIRE US BOTH.

(door opens)

(door slams)

(sighs)

I'M GONNA HAVE TO SUSPEND YOU

SO IT DOESN'T LOOK SO BAD.

THE STUDY...

I NEED TO TURN THE WHOLE MESS OVER TO THE F.D.A.,

LET THEM FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH IT.

I MEAN, I-I CAN'T. I JUST-- (knock on door)

MEREDITH...

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO...

I KNOW.

EMERGENCY SERVICES HAS BEGUN IDENTIFYING BODIES.

THEY'VE GIVEN US A LIST.

THE AIRLINE REPS ARE ON THEIR WAY.

WE'VE GOT SOCIAL WORKERS HERE AND MORE COMING.

IT'S A LONG LIST. EACH OF YOU HAVE FAMILIES TO INFORM.

SO, UH, PLEASE BE OUTSIDE THE CAFETERIA

INEXACTLYONE HOUR.

YOU'LL CALL ONE FAMILY AT A TIME.

AND YOU'LL BE ASSIGNED A ROOM

TO TAKE THEM TO AND DELIVER THE NEWS.

IT'S GONNA BE A-A LONG DAY.

THAT'S IT.

(indistinct conversations)

DR. HUNT, YOU GAVE CHIEF RESIDENT TO KEPNER?

IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ME OR GREY.

DO YOU THINK ANYONE'S GONNA LISTEN TO KEPNER?

IT'S GONNA BE COMPLETE CHAOS. YOU THINK ANYONE'S GONNA LISTEN TO YOU?

YOU JUST SOLD OUT THE ONE UNIVERSALLY LIKED INDIVIDUAL

AT THIS HOSPITAL. EVERYONE IS GONNA HATE YOU.

A CHIEF RESIDENT'S SUPPOSED TO MANAGE THEIR PEERS,

BE A RESOURCE AND A SUPPORT. AFTER WHAT YOU DID,

DO YOU THINK ANYONE IS GONNA COME TO YOU FOR ANYTHING?

I WAS PLANNING TO GIVE IT TO YOU.

AND NOW?

(woman) SO IT'S POSSIBLE THAT WE'LL NEVER...

THAT WE JUST...

WE JUST WON'T GET THE TREATMENT?

IT'S A POSSIBILITY, YES.

OH, MY GOD. THIS ISN'T RIGHT.

WE'RE SO CLOSE.

HE NEEDS THIS. CAN YOU JUST... IS IT KILLING PEOPLE?

NO. SO GIVE IT TO HIM ANYWAY.

I WISH WE COULD. NO.DON'T GIVE ME THAT.

YOUCAN AND YOU'RE CHOOSING NOT TO. AUDREY--

NO. THEY SAY THERE'S NOTHING THEY CAN DO.

THERE'S A DRUG IN A BOX IN THIS HOSPITAL,

AND YOU WERE ON THE SCHEDULE.

MY CHILDREN'S FATHER IS DISAPPEARING.

GIVE HIM THE DAMN DRUG!

(man speaks indistinctly)

I COULD TAKE A LEAVE FOR SIX MONTHS OR A YEAR.

NO, YOU COULDN'T.

YES, I--SURE, I COULD. THEY'RE NOT GONNA FIRE ME. NO.

STOP SAYING NO. I'M TELLING YOU, I WANT THIS.

I CAN DO THIS.

THISDOES NOT HAVE TO BE YOUR PROBLEM.

IT'LL BE MY PROBLEM. YOU WOULDN'T EVEN--

WHAT, NOTICE? IT'LL BE A BABY.

I'M NOT A MONSTER. IF I HAVE A BABY, I'LL--I'LL LOVE IT.

THAT'S THE PROBLEM.

(laughs) THAT YOU'LL LOVE IT.

THAT--THAT'S A PROBLEM THAT WE CAN WORK WITH.

I'M SORRY. ARE YOU LAUGHING RIGHT NOW?

NO, NO. I'M JUST--I'M NOT-- I JUST...

I LOVE YOU.

WHAT IS SO-- ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME?

YES. I'M JUST TRYING TO FIGURE OUT

SOME KIND OF A COMPROMISE.

OKAY, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? THERE IS NO COMPROMISE.

YOU DON'T HAVE HALF A BABY.

I DON'T WANT ONE.

OKAY, I-IT ISN'T ABOUT WORK.

THIS ISN'T A SCHEDULING CONFLICT.

I DON'T WANT TO BE A MOTHER.

CRISTINA, DO YOU LOVE ME?

OF COURSE I DO.

DO YOU TRUST ME?

I... Y-YES.

YOU'D BE A GREAT MOTHER. YOU WOULD.

I-I KNOW YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME, BUT IT IS TRUE.

JUST SIT WITH THIS FOR A LITTLE WHILE,

THIS TERRIBLE IDEA THAT YOU MIGHT LOVE A BABY.

JUST FOR ME, SIT WITH IT--

DID YOU EVEN HEAR--I MEAN, OKAY. WHY WOULD I DO THAT?

BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME. YOU LOVE ME.

THAT'S WHY.

(Lexie) I HAVE THREE NAMES.

I DON'T THINK I CAN DO THIS THREE TIMES.

ONE FOOT IN FRONT OF THE OTHER.

OH, I'VE GOT SOMETHING THAT'LL CHEER YOU UP.

SLOAN GAVE US HIS BLESSING.

WELL, THAT'S NOT REALLY RIGHT.

MORE LIKE HE GAVE YOU TO ME, WHICH WAS NICE.

ARE YOU SERIOUS?

YEP. THOUGH I PROBABLY OWE HIM A GOAT.

(chuckles)

OKAY.

ALL RIGHT. LET'S DO IT.

(indistinct conversations)

IS THE SCHOMAN FAMILY HERE-- JESSICA AND MAXWELL?

JASON SCHOMAN. HE'S OUR SON.

I'M DR. ALTMAN. WILL YOU FOLLOW ME, PLEASE?

(lowered voice) THEY THINK IT'S GOOD NEWS.

ELAINE CHEN.

MA'AM, I'M DR. SLOAN. WHY DON'T YOU COME WITH ME?

UH, GILDA AND MIGUEL RUIZ?

(lowered voice) THIS IS A NIGHTMARE.

HI, I'M DR. BAILEY. COME WITH ME, PLEASE.

(indistinct conversations)

(sighs)

(Teddy) HEY.

I BROUGHT SOME PUDDING.

THAT'S WHY YOU'RE HERE?

I'VE GOT A GOOD NURSE. SHE'LL HOOK ME UP WITH PUDDING.

I KNOW. IT'S JUST...

OH, I JUST SPENT THE LAST TWO HOURS

TELLING PEOPLE THAT THEIR FAMILY MEMBERS WERE DEAD,

AND I NEEDED TO--WELL, I JUST WANTED TO SAY HI...

(chuckles) OR BYE AGAIN.

I DON'T KNOW. I--

I REALLY TRIED TO BE A GENTLEMAN ABOUT ALL THIS.

BUT NOW YOU NEED TO GET THE HELL OUT. WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

LETTING YOU GO WAS THE WORST THING I'VE EVER DONE.

IT WAS THE MOST PAINFUL THING I'VE EVER DONE, AND I'M A GUY

WHO HAS HAD 82 SURGERIES.

MY THRESHOLD FOR PAIN IS PRETTY HIGH.

YOU NEEDTO GET OUT.

I'M NOT YOUR BEST BUD. I'M NOT YOUR SECURITY BLANKET.

I'M A MAN WHO'S IN LOVE WITH YOU,

WHO WALTZED YOU INTO THE ARMS OF A DAMN KNIGHT ON A HORSE.

SO GO TO GERMANY

AND HAVE LITTLE SPAETZLE-EATING CHILDREN.

AND PLEASE, FOR GOD SAKES,

LEAVE ME ALONE.

(sighs) THE CAFETERIA IS PANDEMONIUM.

WAILING PEOPLE EVERYWHERE.

ARE YOU ADMITTING ANYONE?

NO, WE'RE SIGNING IN A FEW SO WE CAN GIVE 'EM SEDATIVES.

(computer beeps) THAT'S ABOUT IT.

(telephone rings)

(ring)

E.R.

THERE'S A SURVIVOR.

(siren wails)

ARE YOU LEAVING? NO, I DIDN'T GET FIRED.

I KNOW THAT'S DISAPPOINTING TO YOU. MY TRIAL IS ABOUT TO DISAPPEAR.

YOU REALLY WANT TO ACT LIKE I'M THE BAD GUY HERE?

NO, I DON'T. I KNOW THE FACT THAT IT IS ADELE CHANGES THINGS FOR RICHARD,

BUT IT DOESN'T FOR ME. OH, I UNDERSTAND THAT.

YOU COULDN'T POSSIBLY UNDERSTAND THAT.

IF YOU WERE FOCUSED ON THE MILLIONS OF PEOPLE

WITH ALZHEIMER'S WHOSE LIVES COULD'VE BEEN DIFFERENT,

WOULD'VE BEEN BETTER BECAUSE OF THIS DRUG,

THERE'S NO WAY IN HELL YOU WOULD'VE PULLED THIS STUNT.

HOW IS IT THAT YOU DON'T KNOW THE DIFFERENCE

BETWEEN RIGHT AND WRONG?

BECAUSE I DON'T THINK

THAT THINGS ARE SIMPLY RIGHT OR WRONG.

THINGS ARE MORE COMPLICATED THAN THAT.

THIS WAS MORE COMPLICATED THAN THAT.

IT'S COMPLICATED THAT IT WAS ADELE AND RICHARD.

IT'S COMPLICATED THAT WE HAVE A DRUG IN A BOX

THAT COULD HELP HER.

THERE'S NOTHING SIMPLE ABOUT THAT.

I AM VERY SORRY THAT I MESSED EVERYTHING UP.

BUT I WOULD DO IT AGAIN.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO RAISE A CHILD

WITH SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T UNDERSTAND THAT

THERE'S A... A RIGHT AND A WRONG IN THE WORLD.

(elbow's "Lippy Kids" playing)

SO NOW I'M GONNA BE A BAD MOTHER.

THAT'S WHERE WE'RE GOING WITH THIS?

YOU'VE BEEN SAYING IT FOR WEEKS.

MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT.

♪♪♪

OKAY.

(pager beeps and buzzes) MAYBE YOU'RE RIGHT.

I JUST NEED SOME TIME TO THINK.

I JUST... (beeps and buzzes)

I JUST NEED SOME SPACE.

(cell phone chimes)

♪ SETTLING LIKE CROWS ♪

SARAH GORDON--G.C.S. OF 6, HEAD INJURY

AND MULTIPLE CONTUSIONS TO MID-TORSO.

SYSTOLIC 70s IN THE FIELD. (Mark) UNACCOMPANIED MINOR?

YEAH, SHE WAS FLYING ALONE. ON MY COUNT.

ONE, TWO, THREE. OKAY, I NEED X-RAY IN HERE.

WE NEED TO SHOOT A C-SPINE, CHEST, AND PELVIS. (Richard) ABDOMEN'S RIGID.

I'VE GOT THE ULTRASOUND. LARGE HEMATOMA ON THE LEFT TEMPORAL LOBE.

(Teddy) BREATH SOUNDS ARE EQUAL. FOLKS, WE'VE GOT EYES.

LET ME GET IN THERE. SARAH, I'M DR. SHEPHERD.

YOU SEE ALL THESE PEOPLE AROUND YOU?

THEY'RE DOCTORS.

YOU EVER SEEN THIS MANY DOCTORS BEFORE?

HEY, DON'T WORRY. WE'RE ALL HERE TO TAKE CARE OF YOU, OKAY?

HEY, HONEY.

THEY FOUND HIS BODY.

(exhales) BECAUSE HIS WALLET WAS STILL IN HIS POCKET.

THEY SAID BECAUSE THE IMPACT.

I DON'T KNOW.

MAYBE IT WAS FAST.

♪ A FRESHLY PAINTED ANGEL ♪

OH, MY GOD. I'M SO SORRY.

♪ WALKING ON WALLS ♪

(crying) THERE'S NO BATTERY.

I'M PUSHING THE BUTTON. I DON'T HEAR ANYTHING.

HONEY, LET ME TRY, OKAY? THE BATTERY IS DEAD. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA TRY?

(whispers) OKAY, OKAY, OKAY, OKAY.

MA'AM. CAN I HELP YOU?

WE HAVE TO CALL SOMEONE...

(sobs) BUT THE CELL PHONE'S NOT WORKING.

OKAY, WELL, WE HAVE PHONES THAT YOU CAN USE. UH, JENNY.

I'LL DO IT. I'LL DO IT.

(crying) WHY DON'T YOU TAKE A SEAT?

YES, JUST DIAL 9.

♪ BUILD A ROCKET BOYS! ♪

EXCUSE ME. IS THE GORDON FAMILY HERE?

THE GORDONS?

♪ DO THEY KNOW THOSE DAYS ♪

♪ ARE GOLDEN? ♪

THEY FOUND SOMEBODY?

A LITTLE GIRL. UNACCOMPANIED MINOR.

THEY'RE OPERATING ON HER RIGHT NOW.

THANK YOU. YEAH.

WE SHOULD GO HOME, HONEY.

♪ BUILD A ROCKET BOYS! ♪

A LITTLE GIRL MADE IT. SHE'S ALIVE.

I THINK WE SHOULD STAY.

SHE DOESN'T HAVE ANYONE. HER PARENTS AREN'T HERE YET.

I THINK WE SHOULD STAY. GILDA--

IF MATTHEW HAD BEEN...

(sobs)

I WOULD LIKE... TO STAY.

(indistinct conversations)

OKAY.

OKAY.

WE'LL STAY.

♪♪♪

I'LL, UH...

I WILL LET YOU KNOW HOW SHE'S DOING.

♪♪♪

MER.

OH, THE ADOPTION LADY'S PAGING ME. DEREK'S A.W.O.L.

HE'S NOT EVEN SPEAKING TO ME.

WAIT A MINUTE. IS IT A TRUE? WHAT--WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?

I WAS THINKING THAT THE CHIEF'S WIFE

WAS ABOUT TO HAVE SALINE INJECTED IN HER BRAIN

INSTEAD OF A DRUG THAT COULD STOP HER

FROM BEING A GORKED-OUT LUMP. DEREK'S HEAD ALMOST EXPLODED.

ARE THEY GONNA FIRE YOU? I'M SUSPENDED.

THE CHIEF BACKED WAY OFF WHEN HE FOUND OUT IT WAS ADELE.

I DID WHAT I HAD TO DO. MEREDITH--

AND I COULDN'T LIVE WITH MYSELF IF I'D DONE ANYTHING DIFFERENT. (speaking indistinctly)

AND KAREV IS TRYING TO RUINMY LIFE.

MER.

(woman speaking indistinctly over p.a.)

WHAT DID YOU SAY TO HER? I DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING.

JANET, ANYTHING HE SAYS-- CAN YOU JUST SHUT UP FOR ONE SECOND?

THIS ISN'T ABOUT THAT.

(sighs)

WE'RE GRANTING YOU TEMPORARY CUSTODY OF ZOLA,

PENDING THE COMPLETION OF THE PETITION,

AT WHICH POINT, ASSUMING ALL GOES WELL,

YOU'LL BE GRANTED PERMANENT CUSTODY.

AND HER DOCTOR HERE SAYS SHE'S DOING GREAT,

SO YOU CAN TAKE HER HOME...

TODAY.

HER INCISIONS LOOK FINE. SHE'S TOLERATING A NORMAL DIET.

SHE'LL NEED NEURO FOLLOW-UPS. SHE'S STILL ON ANTIBIOTICS.

UH, HERE'S A PRESCRIPTION FOR ANY PAIN MEDS SHE MIGHT NEED,

BUT SHE'S BEEN FINE THE LAST COUPLE OF DAYS.

DO YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS ABOUT ANYTHING?

MEREDITH, DO YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS?

HEY.

OH, HI. YOU DONE?

UH, NO, NO.

I STILL HAVE SOME MORE, UH, FAMILIES.

UH, SORRY I PAGED YOU. I JUST WANTED TO SEE YOUR FACE.

I THINK, YOU KNOW, SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENS,

YOU JUST...

YOU WANT TO BE WITH SOMEONE THAT YOU LOVE.

(sighs)

SO WE'RE BOOKED ON A 9:00 A.M. FLIGHT TOMORROW.

LET'S JUST SPEND THE NIGHT IN SOME FANCY HOTEL,

JUST NEVER GET OUT OF THE BATH.

WHAT? ARE YOU OKAY?

(fusses)

DEREK, I UNDERSTAND THAT YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK TO ME,

BUT THIS IS IMPORTANT.

I NEED TO TALK TO YOU.

I'M YOUR WIFE. YOU NEED TO CALL ME BACK.

(cell phone beeps)

(Zola cries)

(sighs)

(indistinct conversations)

DOES ANYONE KNOW WHERE THERE'S A NURSE

OR AN INFORMATION PERSON?

SHE SHOULD BE RIGHT BACK.

MY DAUGHTER WAS IN THE CRASH.

THEY SAID SHE HAD TO HAVE SURGERY. ARE WE SUPPOSED TO--

YOU'RE MRS. GORDON? YES. SARAH GORDON IS MY D--

THEY'RE STILL OPERATING.

THE DOCTORS HAVE BEEN HERE EVERY HALF-HOUR.

THEY'LL BE HERE ANY MINUTE. SAY, WOULD YOU LIKE SOME COFFEE OR--

I'LL GET IT. I'LL GET IT.

HERE, SIT DOWN. YOU MUST HAVE BEEN DRIVING LIKE CRAZY.

I... I DON'T UNDER-- ARE YOU--

WE HEARD SHE WAS ALONE.

I THOUGHT, AS A PARENT, IF MY CHILD WAS HERE ALONE, I--

WELL, WE ALL THOUGHT THAT

SHE SHOULD HAVE SOMEONE PULLING FOR HER.

THANK YOU.

THAT'S INCREDIBLE.

(woman) DIAPERS

AND SWADDLE BLANKETS... (gurgles)

AND FORMULA. (babbles)

THESE LITTLE BOTTLES ARE GOOD FOR THE DIAPER BAG.

YOU HAVE A DIAPER BAG?

NO. OH, WE'LL GET YOU ONE. WE'VE GOT A FEW IN THE NICU CLOSET.

YOU KNOW, WE HAVE ALL THIS GEAR--

THE PARENTS COME IN, THE BABY DOESN'T MAKE IT,

THEY--THEY DON'T WANT TO SEE THE STUFF,

SO THEY JUST LEAVE IT BEHIND.

NOW HERE'S THE PACIFIERS. SHE LIKES THE GREEN ONES.

IS YOUR HUSBAND PUTTING THE CAR SEAT IN THE CAR?

DON'T HAVE A CAR SEAT. NOT EVEN SURE I HAVE A HUSBAND.

(laughs) SURGEONS, RIGHT?

YOU PROBABLY FORGET WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE WITHOUT A MASK.

WE'LL GET YOU ONE.

YOU'RE PROBABLY GONNA NEED A PORTA-CRIB, TOO.

I'M GONNA THROW IN SOME MORE DIAPER CREAM.

SHE WENT WITH HER DAD TO VISIT HER GRANDPARENTS,

AND HE HAD TO STAY SO HE PUT HER ON THE PLANE,

AND... THERE WAS A FLIGHT ATTENDANT THAT WATCHED HER

AND WAS SUPPOSED TO WALK HER

TO HER CONNECTING FLIGHT IN VANCOUVER.

WE NEVER IMAGINED...

GOD, I'M SORRY.

I NEVER EVEN ASKED. YOU HAD SOMEONE ON THE PLANE.

MY SON--MATTHEW.

OH, I-IS HE IN SURGERY, TOO?

(inhales deeply)

YES.

WILL HE BE OKAY?

(voice breaks) YES, HE WILL.

SARAH'S OUT OF SURGERY. YOU CAN COME SEE HER NOW.

(sniffles)

I'M GONNA PRAY FOR YOUR SON.

(sniffles)

(sniffles and whimpers)

HEY.

CAN YOU STAND UP?

I THOUGHT I WAS PRETTY CLEAR, TEDDY.

JUST SHUT UP AND STAND UP. I-I HAVE TO DO SOMETHING,

AND I CAN'T DO IT WHILE YOU'RE LYING IN A HOSPITAL BED.

I DON'T WANT A GOOD-BYE HUG. IT'S GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER.

IT'S NOT GONNA MAKE ME FEEL A-- CAN YOU JUST STAND UP?

(Civalias' "Anything But You" playing)

YOU'RE MY HUSBAND, AND...

♪ LIKE THE PAINTINGS THAT YOU HANG ♪

AND I THINK I'M FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU.

♪ ONLY YOU CAN READ YOUR MIND ♪

♪ AND YOU DON'T BELIEVE ME WHEN I SAY ♪

♪ THAT YOUR SMILE MAKES MY DAY ♪

(vending machine clatters)

♪ A LITTLE BETTER EVERY TIME ♪

♪ AND I JUST DON'T KNOW ♪

HEY, HOW YOU DOING?

UGH. NOT NOW, MARK.

OH, COME ON, LEXIE. YOU'VE BEEN IN THE DEAD ZONE ALL DAY--

YOU HAVE TO STOP.

YOU GOTTA STOP TALKING TO ME AND CHECKING ON ME

AND TALKING TO MY BOYFRIEND.

I LOVE YOU,

AND I AM ALWAYS GONNA LOVE YOU.

BUT I DON'T WANT TO LOVE YOU.

I WANT TO BE HAPPY, AND JACKSON MAKES ME HAPPY.

AND IF YOU KEEP PULLING AT ME, I'M...

I'LL COME BACK TO YOU.

YOU'RE RIGHT.

I'M SORRY.

YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANTED. YOU WANTED A FAMILY.

SO PLEASE JUST LET ME HAVE WHAT I WANT.

I SAID YOU WERE RIGHT.

I TOLD AVERY I WAS LETTING YOU GO.

DID HE TELL YOU THAT PART? YEAH. IT'S PATERNALISTIC AND WEIRD.

I'M LETTING YOU GO, LEXIE.

THAT MEANS YOU GOTTA...

WALK AWAY.

♪ THERE'S A COLD-BLOODED WAVE ♪

♪ RUNNING THROUGH YOUR VEINS ♪

♪ STRAIGHT INTO YOUR HEART ♪

CHIEF FRIGGIN' RESIDENT. UNBELIEVABLE.

I'M SORRY.

WHAT? DON'T BE. YOU DESERVE IT.

I'M HAPPY.

HI. CAN YOU TAKE THAT FOR ME? THANKS.

I HAVE WHAT I WANT. (sighs) IT'S BEEN SUCH A CRAPPY YEAR.

I CAN'T BELIEVE WE'RE BOTH HAPPY. (laughs)

I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY LIKE ME ENOUGH

TO MAKE ME CHIEF RESIDENT. THEY HATED ME FOR SO LONG.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I ACTUALLY HAVE FRIENDS HERE. WELL, THEY'RE GONNA HATE YOU AGAIN.

IT'S NOW YOUR JOB TO BOSS THEM AROUND.

YOU KNOW HOW MUCH THEY LOVE THAT. (clicking keyboard keys)

OH, GOD. IS THAT TRUE?

(laughs) THAT'S TRUE.

♪ ...BUT YOU ♪

(Zola babbling)

OKAY, SO THIS IS THE HOUSE.

THERE'S ANOTHER HOUSE WHERE YOU'RE GONNA HAVE YOUR OWN ROOM,

BUT THAT, RIGHT NOW, IS JUST WOOD AND NO WALLS,

SO WE'RE GONNA STAY HERE FOR A WHILE.

DEREK? (sighs)

OKAY. HE MIGHT BE A.W.O.L. HE'S HAD A BAD DAY.

AND HE'S A LITTLE... (sighs)

PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW. (continues babbling)

BUT WE'RE GONNA BE FINE.

SO WE HAD A BIG PLAN IF THIS EVER WORKED OUT.

WE WERE GONNA HAVE A LULLABY FROM MALAWI

TO MAKE EVERYTHING FEEL HOMEY FOR YOU.

TO BE HONEST,

RIGHT NOW, I CAN'T EVEN THINK OF AN AMERICAN LULLABY.

LEXIE.

(sighs)

YOU KNOW, A LOT OF PEOPLE LIVE HERE.

IT GETS KIND OF CRAZY SOMETIMES,

AND IT'S USUALLY NOT THIS QUIET.

(sighs)

ALEX.

(exhales deeply)

OKAY.

WE'RE GONNA BE OKAY.

YOU AND I, WE'RE A TEAM, RIGHT?

WE'RE TOUGH. WE HAVE THAT IN COMMON.

I AM VERY GLAD YOU'RE HERE.

I DIDN'T THINK YOUR FIRST DAY WAS GONNA BE QUITE LIKE THIS.

BUT I AM GONNA GET IT TOGETHER,

AND WE ARE GONNA FIGURE IT OUT.

(siren wailing)

TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME.

(chuckles)

I...

I LOVE YOU A VERY GREAT DEAL.

A LOT?

YOU LOVE ME SO MUCH.

I WANT YOU TO REMEMBER THAT.

I MADE AN APPOINTMENT TO TERMINATE THE PREGNANCY.

I'M SORRY IF THIS UPSETS YOU.

I'M SORRY IF THIS ISN'T WHAT YOU WANTED.

BUT... I CANNOT TALK ABOUT IT ANYMORE.

I... NEED TO LIE DOWN. I FEEL LIKE CRAP.

THIS IS A MARRIAGE.

I TIED MY LIFE TO YOU.

YOU DON'T DECIDE THIS WITHOUT ME.

DO YOU SEE ME STANDING HERE? MY HEAD IS KILLING ME.

YOU GIVE IN A MARRIAGE. YOU MAKE SACRIFICES.

I'VE MADE MANY, AND I AM ASKING YOU TO DO SOMETHING FOR ME.

CAN YOU SIMPLY CONSIDER DOING SOMETHING FOR ME?

HAVE A BABY? THIS ISN'T PIZZA VERSUS THAI.

YOU DON'T GIVE A LITTLE ON A BABY. CRISTINA, I AM ASKING YOU--

I AM SAYING NO!

(exhales)

GET OUT.

♪♪♪

ARE YOU--

BECAUSE I'M DENYING YOU A BABY, YOU'RE TRYING--

BECAUSE YOU DENIED ME PART OF THE DECISION,

BECAUSE YOU DENIED ME A MARRIAGE.

OH, HOW DARE YOU-- GET OUT!

♪♪♪

HI.

HEY.

UM, I'M GONNA GO.

I JUST WANTED TO S-SAY GOOD NIGHT.

I WANT TO COME HOME WITH YOU.

N--

OH, NO. I CAN'T. UM, TUCK'S WITH ME TONIGHT.

I CAN MEET YOUR SON. (sighs)

I'M NOT GONNA BITE YOUR SON.

NO, IT'S--IT'S JUST NOT THE RIGHT TIME.

UH-HUH. I-I CAN'T--

THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP. THINGS TODAY WERE BAD.

WE LEAN ON EACH OTHER WHEN THINGS ARE BAD.

THAT INFORMATION'S NOT GONNA HURT YOUR CHILD,

AND IF IT DOES, THEN THIS IS NOT THE RIGHT RELATIONSHIP FOR ME.

(exhales) OKAY.

I CAN CONTROL MYSELF IN YOUR HOUSE.

I'M NOT GONNA TOUCH YOU. OKAY.

YOU JUST--YOU KNOW, YOU COULD TELL HIM I'M YOUR FRIEND.

TELL HIM WHATEVER YOU NEED TO-- OKAY.

♪♪♪

(sighs)

OKAY.

(man) ♪ WHY CAN'T YOU EVER SEE ♪

♪ WHAT'S IN FRONT OF YOU? ♪

(ferry horn blowing)

♪ WHY CAN'T ♪

♪ YOU EVER SEE ♪

♪ WHAT'S IN FRONT OF YOU? ♪

OH. I WAS HOPING YOU WERE DEREK.

SORRY. WELL, HE TOOK OFF,

AND THE HOSPITAL GAVE ME A BABY.

SHE'S UPSTAIRS SLEEPING IN SOME DEAD KID'S PORTA-CRIB.

WOW. UH...

UH, I'M GETTING AN ABORTION...

(voice breaks) AND OWEN JUST KICKED ME OUT OF MY HOUSE.

WHAT? YOU'RE-- (normal voice) PREGNANT.

AND YOU'RE-- GETTING AN ABORTION.

WELL... WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?

(voice breaks) YOU HAD A BUSY, BUSY DAY.

THERE'S A REASON I SAID I'D BE HAPPY ALONE.

(Zola crying)

COME UPSTAIRS. I NEED HELP.

I... (sighs) I CAN'T.

(crying continues)

I GOTTA LIE DOWN.

IT WASN'T 'CAUSE I THOUGHT I'D BEHAPPY ALONE.

(crying continues)

♪ WHY CAN'T... ♪

IT WAS BECAUSE I THOUGHT IF I LOVED SOMEONE...

(bell on door jingles) AND THEN IT FELL APART...

♪ WHAT'S IN FRONT OF YOU? ♪

I MIGHT NOT MAKE IT.

(indistinct conversations)

TELL ME NOT TO GO TO AFRICA.

♪ WHY CAN'T... ♪

ALEX.

GO TO HELL.

♪ WHAT'S IN FRONT OF YOU ♪

IT'S EASIER TO BE ALONE.

BECAUSE WHAT IF YOU LEARN THAT YOU NEED LOVE...

AND THEN YOU DON'T HAVE IT?

WHAT IF YOU LIKE IT

AND LEAN ON IT?

WHAT IF YOU SHAPE YOUR LIFE AROUND IT...

AND THEN...

(Zola babbling)

IT FALLS APART?

CAN YOU EVEN SURVIVE THAT KIND OF PAIN?

(cell phone rings)

(beeps)

LOSING LOVE IS LIKE ORGAN DAMAGE.

♪♪♪

IT'S LIKE DYING.

(groans)

THE ONLY DIFFERENCE IS...

DEATH ENDS.

♪♪♪

THIS?

IT COULD GO ON FOREVER.

(thunder rumbling)

♪♪♪