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I'm wearing Dad's favorite tie today.

He told me,

"It suits you better than me. You'll use it more than I ever did."

CONDOLENCES FROM PASTOR LEO MARQUEZ

I'm sure we've all heard Dad say things similar to that.

Even when he had nothing, if he could help and had the chance to…

He would.

Dad taught me a lot of things.

But one thing he wasn't able to teach me was how to live without him.

It's hard.

But I'm glad to know that Dad will finally be in the company

of our Holy Lord.

His suffering has ended…

For he has accepted

eternal life

in the company of our Holy Lord.

Cecil.

Excuse me. Excuse me, ma'am.

Ma'am.

You bitch.

Ma'am…

You can't just die.

Is this how you get back at me?

Because I stole your first kiss?

Because you're still a virgin?

A backdoor virgin!

- Let's go over there. - Right.

There's food on the table, feel free to help yourselves.

You may be at the wrong funeral. How did you know my dad?

Are you Dad's ex?

Ma'am.

Did you hear that?

He thinks I'm your ex!

Please. You've sucked more dicks than I ever have!

- Otep! - Ma'am, that's enough.

Ma'am, come this way, please.

That's enough. Don't tell lies in church.

Ma'am, have some respect for the dead. Please.

Why? Did you respect him when he was alive?

You! You've never sucked dicks?

- How pathetic. - Rude.

- Ma'am, let's go. - What a foul mouth.

- I'm sorry. - Such a crass lady.

Ma'am.

If it weren't for you, Otep would still be alive.

We'd still be hitting the club.

Since the day you were born,

you've been killing your father little by little.

Fuck you!

Ma'am, that's enough.

Have some respect for the dead. Let's go outside.

That's enough!

- What? Still against gays, huh? - That's enough, we're in church.

I hope his ghost haunts you, you damn hypocrites!

Careful. Watch your hands.

I WISH YOU HAD TOLD ME

What are you doing? Turn off the lights.

Did you lock the gate?

It's so humiliating.

So embarrassing for the pastor.

Just pray for your dad.

You know a soul can't go to heaven

if it hasn't been given a proper blessing, right?

Remember your Aunt Vangie's cousin's child?

Every night, she's been dreaming about their soul burning in hell

just because their burial wasn't blessed.

Sweetie.

Seph.

Go visit the pastor, okay?

Tell him you didn't know anything, that it's not true.

What's not true?

What matters now is that you make it to Portugal.

I don't want to be humiliated anymore.

Let's just pray that it doesn't affect your mission.

-LOVE YOU, SON -HOW'S TRAINING?

-YOU GUYS EAT -SON, TV'S BROKEN

-OK, DAD, I'll FIX IT LATER -WHERE ARE YOU, SON?

-OKAY, EAT YOUR MEAL -WAKE ME UP WHEN YOU'RE HOME

- HOW ARE YOU? YOU OK? - SON, COME HOME

-I'M SORRY, SON -I'll WAIT FOR YOU

DAD, WHO'S CECIL?

Wow.

The princess has finally come out.

You better pay for this.

- So? Have you received a letter? - Not yet.

Relax, we're just going to the club, okay?

Come on. Let's go.

Okay.

Relax. We're just going to the club, there'll be lots of hot guys there.

- I'm not letting anyone arrest me there. - Quiet!

Yuck! Over my dead, beautiful body!

Stop it.

Mom.

Mom, let me.

- What's that, Mom? - Just stuff from your dad's room.

- Some of these can be thrown away. - Mom, let me. I'll do this.

- You don't have to… - Please.

We can give some of those away.

You can pack up this bed too.

I'll head out to file for your dad's pension.

I might be back late.

Deal with that first. Take them to church.

After that, water your dad's plants. Don't forget.

RHYTHMS OF THE ALHAMBRA

ECHOES OF SPAIN

EXPOSED BOY BAND SECRETS

Amen, Holy Lord.

Please guide Paula Mercado,

whom we love dearly,

and hope to deliver from Satan…

And from her sinful desire of lusting after the same sex.

Amen!

Your love is divine

Your love is faithful

Your love is true

Your love is enough

Your love is divine

Your love is faithful

Your love is true

Your love is enough

Hey, it's the pastor.

- Hi, Pastor. - Hi, Pastor.

Pastor, good morning.

Pastor, these are some of Dad's clothes.

They might be of some use to the church.

Pastor, I'm begging you.

If you would, please bless my dad.

Please have mercy on his soul.

Your evangelical mission is coming up, and…

You wouldn't want to miss out on that.

But blessing him won't take long.

Uh, Seph…

What you're asking for isn't that simple.

Did you hear what they were talking about in church?

They all feel betrayed by your lying father.

Marlon, you know that's not true.

All we're asking from you is a little compassion.

That's the preaching of our Holy Lord.

Don't take it too hard, son.

Good thing you were at mission training when your dad's illness was at its worst.

Up until his death. What was his disease again?

AIDS, right?

Cancer, sir.

Have you donated the funeral collection to the church?

CECIL DA BISH WORKS @ CR8Z

Excuse me.

Hello?

Hello?

Excuse me, ma'am. I'm sorry to bother you.

Do you remember where you went last night?

Do I look like a nutjob?

Maybe you went to the wrong place.

My dad died of cancer.

Can you come with me to our church?

So we can explain…

Are you drunk?

No, you are.

Me? You want me to go to your church?

Yuck.

You brat. Give it back!

Give it back.

I'm not dumb enough to show up at the wake of someone I didn't know.

What's my dad's name, then?

See?

You're even dumber than me. You don't know your dad's name?

Just admit it.

What are you, a cop? I've changed.

Listen.

You didn't know your dad the way I knew him.

Got it?

God knows the truth.

We're going around in circles here.

You act like you know everything,

but you didn't know your dad was gay?

Well, now you do. Am I still the one who messed up?

Fag!

Hello.

RAFAEL PEÑA CÓRDOBA, SPAIN

WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?

Mom?

Oh, this heat!

Oh, Lord, it's so hot. I'll take a bath later.

Seph, ignore it.

I'm going to your Auntie Nida's.

I'll stay there for a few days. Take some time off, get some rest.

Wanna come?

Oh, right, you can't.

Have you spoken to the pastor?

Yes, Mom.

What did he say?

Will it affect your trip to Portugal?

No, Mom.

Thank goodness.

Thank you, Holy Lord. Thank you, Pastor.

Mom, about…

About Cecil…

Oh, come on. Seriously?

That's what's been bugging you?

She's nobody, sweetie.

Your dad was a ladies man, so women were always after him.

Never mind her.

I'm gonna go shower. I can't take this heat anymore.

I'll clean this up later.

Just put them in the sink. I'll wash them later. Okay?

Okay?

Marlon.

Hey, Marlon.

I can't help you.

Just hear me out, Marlon. Please.

Seph, you should pray.

Didn't my father help a lot of people in our church?

- Remember… - Marlon.

The devil shows himself when messengers are about to embark.

He'll try to lead us astray from the Holy Lord.

Honey.

Hey.

Honey, your sister is throwing up again.

- Again? - Yeah.

Let's go.

What if I don't go to Portugal?

You go ahead.

I'll be right there.

What are you talking about?

Don't you feel ashamed in front of the Holy Lord?

I never would've guessed.

How long have you known my dad?

We've been together since way back when.

We'd go to the club a lot.

And your dad could move those damn hips.

I'm kidding.

Cut me some slack.

Your dad was good at only two things.

First, dancing.

Second, he could keep secrets.

Loosen up. Move those hips. Come on!

- What? - Like this.

Like that!

Twirl, girl.

Stop looking over your shoulder.

Just relax. Like this.

Do it like this.

Come on, darling. Enjoy!

Move your shoulders.

- Shoulders? - Wanna smoke?

Is he your type? Come here.

- What…? - Come.

Move!

Ces.

- Hi. - We're gonna shake hands again?

- What's your name? - Otep.

Hi, Otep.

Otep, mi amor.

- Excuse me! - Hey, what the...?

Where are you going?

- Hey! - Excuse me.

Excuse me.

What's wrong with him?

Does stupidity run in your family?

Have you been watching the news?

Have you seen who this fucking government is rounding up?

For all we know, you or that hot guy could be gone tomorrow.

We're running out of time!

Kiss whoever you want while you still have the chance!

Ces.

Is it possible

to fall in love with a pen pal?

You're impossible.

You've been pen pals with him since God-knows-when,

yet nothing's happened.

You're still a virgin.

You know what? You have a better chance hooking up with that cutie

than with that Spanish guy of yours.

He'd sneak out.

He would still visit me from time to time.

He was stubborn.

We were the only ones who understood each other.

That man loved me.

Despite who I am.

People like your father

are the ones who should be in Heaven.

Not like those people in your church.

Well, darling, so what if your dad was gay?

Did he love you any less?

He didn't, did he?

He loved you so much.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7.

"A person who loves perseveres,

always trusts,

always hopes,

"always bears everything."

What the fuck?

You really are stupid.

Delusional, masochist, faggot!

You just found a pen pal in the papers, and now you're in love? Dumbass!

You can't even dance. Your shoulders are stiff as hell!

Where on earth did you find this?

Gosh. This is what irked me about your dad.

Always going on about "Love is this, love is that,"

throwing in Bible quotes and everything.

Gosh, if you only knew.

C. Fray Albina, 7, 14439 Algallarín,

Córdoba, Spain.

See? I still remember it.

Otep was supposed to go see his man in Spain.

So he saved up, prayed day and night.

Delusional, masochist, toxic!

- Gosh! - Here.

I'll wear this.

I heard it's cold there. How do I look, Ces?

Let me see.

It fits!

Your outfit needs these.

- What? - Put these on.

Wear these. There.

Looking fresh!

Yeah, fresh from the dumpster.

Ces.

I promise I'll write to you every day until you get sick of me.

I'm already sick of you.

- Get lost. - Ouch.

Hey. Just find yourself a boyfriend.

- You've got so many admirers, right? - Fine, let me just kiss you.

Consider it practice.

Of course, you'll be smooched by your lover boy from now on.

Why won't you just stay?

- I'm gonna tear this up. - Hey, don't.

Hey, stop worrying.

I'm gonna miss you.

And now, it's time for us to listen to spiritual declarations.

Perhaps you'd like to take the lead?

"The past week has not been easy for me."

"As it says in 1 Corinthians 10:13,

'No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind.'"

"That's why I feel grateful to all of you,

especially to you…"

ESPECIALLY TO YOU, PASTOR LEO

Dad showed this to us.

He was everyone's refuge.

He never judged nor thought badly of anyone.

Every day, he would remind me of 1 Corinthians 13:4-7.

"A person who loves perseveres,

always trusts…

Always hopes…

"Bears everything."

May we live as examples of the teachings of our Holy Lord.

You there, go home. Otherwise, you'll have to come with us.

Otep!

What's this in your room?

This won't take long. I'll just show you.

I'll just show you this video game, okay?

Your sister is volunteering to become my assistant.

Right, sister?

While you're away…

Are you okay?

Such a good kid. I hope more members take after you.

Sit down.

Oh, by the way.

Congratulations. You're on your way to Portugal.

There.

In two to three weeks, you'll receive an email about your posts.

We need to secure the budget for the regional congregation.

So make sure nothing goes wrong. Is that clear?

Go now.

And don't let the devil's influence reach you.

Look, I kept this. Good thing it's still in one piece.

What's this?

Your dad asked me to send this to his man in Spain.

But he changed his mind all of a sudden.

Hey! Leave it. Don't open it.

Don't open it.

That's Rum's.

What are you gonna do?

You gonna read it?

Or are you gonna send it?

Don't tell me you're going to see him.

Seph, I'm telling you.

Does stupidity really run in your family?

I won't read it.

The Holy Lord will be upset.

I won't read it, I promise.

It's just the two of us here, and you still think you can fool me?

Dumbass!

WHAT SHOULD I DO, DAD?

DO YOU WANT ME TO FIND RUM, DAD?

DAD COME DOWNSTAIRS, SON

COME DOWNSTAIRS, SON

Seph.

Sit.

Come here, quick.

You'll like this.

Here.

Come here.

It's my favorite tie.

Do you know how to tie this?

Dad…

I know, I know…

Fine, I'll go see a doctor.

Don't worry, I'll live.

What's with that face, Seph?

Seph?

Huh? What's wrong, son?

Why are you looking at me like that?

Dad…

Seph, you can tell Dad.

Son?

What should I do, Dad?

If you see him, tell him I'm sorry. Okay?

Who?

I couldn't reach him then.

Hopefully, he'll feel it through the letter.

Dad…

Why did you choose me over Rum?

Oh, dear.

Dad. Stay here, Dad. Don't go.

Stay here.

Seph…

Seph…

Seph, I never went away.

Don't go. Please, don't go.

It's okay, son. Don't cry.

Stay with me, Dad. Don't go, please.

Please?

WE JUST LANDED, DAD.

BIBLE

LOVE

Seph.

Seph.

Sorry, coming.

Seph.

Your phone.

Dad…

We're here in Portugal.

I'm almost in Spain.

I'll find him soon.

Rum.

I'm excited, Dad.

HIRING: ENGLISH TEACHER

I still don't know how,

but I'll find a way.

NAZARÉ, PORTUGAL TO CÓRDOBA, SPAIN

I feel scared too.

But now, my faith is stronger than my fear.

I know I can find him for you.

Dad,

hang in there.

I'm almost there.

MISS YOU, DAD

What's wrong?

What?

You look like you saw a ghost.

Marlon, how…

How much is our allowance again?

Why do you ask?

No reason.

Take this.

Call your mom. But…

We can only call twice a week.

MISS YOU, SON. HOW ARE YOU? HAVE YOU DELIVERED MY LETTER?

What took you so long? I'm dying in here.

Look at you, all dressed up to the nines.

He's gone.

Damn you, woman!

You're unbelievable.

Here.

Put this on. It's for you.

This is so beautiful, darling.

I really love the colors.

- You know, this'd look even better if… - Huh?

…you try it on.

- What? No! I don't want to. - Try it on!

You know, all the queens wear these.

- Come on... - I said no!

RAFAEL PEÑA, 7 FRAY ALBINA STREET, ALGALLARÍN, CÓRDOBA, SPAIN

I'll drop this at the post office right away. Give it to me.

Ces…

Could you hold on to it a bit longer?

Just for a little while.

I'll tell you when to send it.

Just keep it for now.

- Auntie. - Yes, darling?

Why didn't Dad send his last letter?

'Cause he was delusional.

He knew that if he sent it, Rum would stop writing.

He was scared Rum would never feel the same way about him.

I told him, "He's just a pen pal."

"Not meeting him won't kill you."

But I guess that killed him in the end.

Uh…

I'll book a ticket.

I'm gonna find Rum.

Son of a bitch!

Are you nuts?

How? You'll be on your own.

Did you request a transfer without telling me?

No, I didn't.

Are you sure? You can't transfer without a companion.

- Is there something you're not telling me? - Yes.

- Seriously. - Why should I tell you?

I'm worried. Can you take care of yourself in Spain?

You're so serious.

- Well, I'm worried. - I can do this, man.

Hurry up, then.

We'll leave early tomorrow.

I'll get my ticket at the station.

Hey, wait. Marlon.

- What are you doing? - What do you think I'm doing?

They're strict about following the handbook.

We share one phone. What if you get lost?

I'll stay with you until you meet your new coordinator or companion.

But, Marlon, what about the mission head?

You just spoke to him, didn't you?

Right.

Dibs on this one.

Thank you.

Drive safe.

- Hello. - Hello, Auntie.

Yes, darling?

I'm here at Rum's.

This is the right address, right?

"7 Fray Albina Street, 14439,

Algallarín, Córdoba, Spain."

Fuck. You made it? Is he still alive?

Holy shit.

I don't know. It's like…

It's like there's no one here.

So what now? Are we just gonna chat here?

Tell me if that Rum guy actually exists. Okay?

Okay. Hang on.

I wonder what he looks like now.

Dad, I've arrived.

And, yes,

everything Rum said in all those letters is true.

It's like all your memories are alive in every corner of this place.

Even though I know you never made it to Spain.

It feels like a dream.

I see the world Rum promised you.

It's quiet.

Free.

It's as if the photos buried long ago have come back to life.

What if you had made it here?

What if you and Rum had met?

Maybe your heart would've been at peace.

Here. Eat this.

DAD, DOES RUM STILL LIVE THERE?

I HAVE LOTS TO TELL YOU, DAD

Where is everybody?

Siesta.

If this was the Philippines, kids would be outside playing.

But here, it feels like people hide from the sun.

Well, what if we split up?

So we can cover more…

- You know. - We can't.

Come on.

I'm not a child, I can take care of myself.

Fine.

Can you do it?

I'll handle this.

Sir! Hello, sir!

No. I don't speak English.

- Let's go. - Hey.

- Did you really have to say that? - Why? It's true.

- Hola. - Yes?

- No. - No problem a.

Gracias.

Come on.

Oh, look.

There's a park 15 minutes away.

It should be busy.

Marlon, wait up.

Hold on. I think I dropped my pamphlet.

You go ahead, I'll meet you there.

I won't be long.

Señor?

I already told you, I'm not interested.

What?

What?

Go to hell.

Señor. Sorry.

Seph, where are you going?

Run, mi amor.

FRIENDS OF THE PATIOS OF CÓRDOBA ASSOCIATION

What's your...?

Do you want to go back to your country in a box?

What?

- Get out of here. - Rafael!

I don't speak Spanish.

Don't touch my orchids!

Just leave. Rafael.

- What's his problem? - Leave, please.

Tour… Yes.

Yes.

Yes, Filipino!

- Yes. - He's the owner of this orchid.

Yes. Thank you. Sorry.

Seph.

Marlon. I found it.

Let's go.

Marlon, come on.

Did you study the handbook?

Whether you like it or not, we'll be together 24/7 for three years.

Hey. Are you even listening?

Huh?

I said, are you listening?

Yeah.

Didn't I tell you not to go there?

DAD, I FINALLY FOUND RUM!

YOU HAVEN'T GIVEN IT TO HIM? GO SEE RUM

I'M RUNNING OUT OF TIME, SON

Sir, hola.

Yes, Catholic.

- No! - Yes.

He died of cancer!

Dammit.

I was talking nicely!

Dammit.

Damn, you have lots of meds.

Could've been a mild stroke.

Yes?

I'd rather die than thank an idiot like you.

Idiot.

Where have you been?

Give me the money.

I've spent all of it.

All of it?

Seph, I need that.

Give it back. Is it here?

It's gone. I spent it.

- Marlon, what are you doing? - I need that money.

I said, it's gone.

What's this?

This is why we're in Spain?

Nobody told you to come with me.

Give it back.

I said, give it back!

What?

Are you gonna report me to the pastor?

That motherfucking pastor!

This is my fault.

I shouldn't have come here.

You can go home if you want.

My sister's pregnant, Seph.

Michelle's only 16.

That's why I need the money.

I need to work to support her while she's pregnant.

That goddamn pastor.

I'm pretty sure

that damn pastor won't take responsibility for what he did to my sister.

Seph, I don't even know what kind of prayer to say now.

He's got us by the neck.

Our house, our livelihood…

We don't have a life outside the Church anymore.

This is my fault.

I didn't do anything.

I couldn't…

I couldn't protect her, Seph.

He screwed us all, Marlon.

But that doesn't mean we won't fight back.

Will that change anything?

What do you plan to do with that letter?

I'm not going home until…

I deliver this to Rum.

For Dad.

Hola.

- The restaurant is there… - I'm interested. The job?

- Interested in the restaurant job? - Job.

Do you have any experience waiting tables?

Sweetie,

your mission head and the entire church have been looking for you.

Marlon's not picking up either.

Is Dad there, Mom?

My God, Seph, don't scare me like that.

I've been wanting to leave this house. Where are you?

Come home, sweetie.

Mom, why did you marry Dad?

Why are you changing the subject?

What's going on with you, Joseph? Huh?

- Hola. - Goddammit.

Sir! How are you?

I have brought…

I have brought food.

In case you are…

Hungry.

Idiot!

I have salmorejo.

My ass!

Where…

Where…

Use English.

Yes.

Gracias.

Hey, this seems pretty far.

And idiots like you go to the cities.

Like love.

Like love.

This salmorejo, is…

"Muy bueno."

"Muy bueno."

Tu salmorejo… Your salmorejo… Not good.

It's crap.

- "Lleno." - "Lleno."

Lleno de mierda.

You're nuts.

The simpa.

Rafael! He's doing it again! Who's paying this check?

It's just a joke.

Now! Let's go!

Look at him.

Some flowers?

Flowers?

In the Philippines, we call that "one-two-three."

Eat and run.

This old guy's so slow.

What do you mean, "you're old"? Well, I'm young!

Chains.

JOSEPH MARIANO RAFAEL PEÑA

Thank you, idiot.

Seph.

Did you give it to him?

Dad.

Why are you doing that?

It feels…

As if there's something wrong with me.

Something I have to fix.

But that's not the real you, is it?

Why would you let them decide for you?

I chose to live the only way I knew how to.

I'm sorry, Dad.

Maybe if you hadn't forced yourself to be a father to me…

You would have probably been happier.

I never regretted having you.

You were the reason I kept going.

Why didn't you tell me?

I didn't want you to carry my burden.

Maybe if you'd never had me,

you would've gone to Rum. Am I right?

1 Corinthians 13:4-7.

"A person who loves perseveres,

always trusts,

always hopes,

"bears everything."

I love you.

And I'll wait for you.

Handsome boy.

Otep, meet Joy.

Seph.

Where are you?

By the way…

This is enough to get you home.

What are you gonna do, Marlon?

I don't know. They said Michelle's pregnancy is complicated.

I'll deal with that asshole when I get back home.

But what about you?

Michelle needs it more than I do.

Just call me if you need anything, okay?

Be careful out there.

Take care, Marlon.

You too.

How's it going over there?

I'm gonna go see that bastard later.

Get out of this person's body now!

Get out!

Get out!

Out! Get out!

Get out!

Brothers and sisters, we are now witnessing

the fruits of our faith in the Holy Lord.

I don't think so!

- That shameless woman again. - Don't make a scene.

Get her out.

Is this what you do here? Touch women without their consent?

Pastor!

When you say, "Lead by example," do you turn them into rapists like you?

I knew it! That pastor is a pervert!

You monster!

If I were you, I wouldn't let him touch me!

Fuck you!

These are the hands of the Holy Lord.

You're even using God's name to justify that shit.

Serves him right! He's a rapist!

- That's enough! - Enough!

You monster!

You're the devil! The devil!

You're the damn devil!

Michelle, that's enough.

But maybe he already told me everything.

In his own way.

'Cause I know

he loved me enough.

He loved me sincerely.

Mi amor…

PASTOR SILVA (MISSION HEAD) CALLING

FOR DAD

Subtitle translation by: Darina O'Hagan