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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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- I don't plan to be here
for three weeks.
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I plan to be here
for three months.
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But I want a nice home
in which to live.
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Brilliant.
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- What am I gonna find out
about myself?
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That's the biggest thing,
is to see if I am the man
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that I think I am.
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Oh, yeah. That is a bull trout.
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- My boat is a high risk.
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This could be a decision
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that costs me
the whole experience.
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It's tippy as hell.
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Hey, bear!
[bear growls]
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- If I don't succeed,
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have I just put
a speed bump in life?
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Come on! Come on!
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[laughing]
Yeah!
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Unbelievable!
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♪ ♪
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narrator: In "Alone's"
most terrifying location yet,
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ten participants face
the deadliest predator
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in North America...
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- There here is, right there.
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- Grizzly bears. Hey, bear!
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- There's a lot
of grizzly here.
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I'm gonna have to live
with them.
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- Go on! Get!
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- Every second
we're on the land,
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we're being hunted.
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- Holy *bleep*, mountain lion.
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- He's circling
around my shelter.
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narrator:
Bone-chilling cold...
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- Winter is coming.
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- You combine the wind
with the rain and the cold,
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this place could make
the Arctic look easy.
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- Oh, *bleep*.
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narrator:
And complete isolation.
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- You cannot hide
from yourself,
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mentally and emotionally.
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- Ahh!
- There's no place to go.
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- I am suffering
from loneliness.
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narrator: Who will survive?
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- Yes! Yes!
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- This could be the end.
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- I don't want to tap,
but I don't want to die either.
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- You have to suffer
before you can succeed.
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- [retches]
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narrator:
The last one standing wins.
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- At what point
do I touch the button?
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♪ ♪
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- Hmm, I'm gonna set that
over here
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'cause that'll definitely dry.
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Smoking the underwear
might not be all bad.
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One more try
at warming my butt up,
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and then I'll have
my cup of tea.
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All right.
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It's mostly my butt
that's cold.
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♪ ♪
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Today is--it's a windy day.
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It's not a day
to think about fishing,
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so we will get back
to working on the shelter.
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Cool, so I guess the best
analogy for this, then,
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is that we've basically
framed the house,
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and now we get to shingle.
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We're gonna go around
and collect
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all of the big sheets of bark
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that are just lying
on the forest floor.
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♪ ♪
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All over is this fir.
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When it dies, it leaves
these big huge sheets of bark,
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which is pretty awesome.
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So when I say shingle,
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this is what I mean.
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♪ ♪
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- The one limitation that I've
probably most often run into
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in sort of these long-term
living situations
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would be my size,
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and it is an advantage
in the sense that, you know,
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you can function on a fairly
low number of calories,
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lower than perhaps
bigger people require.
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However, it does limit
how much you can carry,
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how many trips you need to do.
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You know,
you need to do five trips
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when someone else can do two.
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It limits how much
physical activity
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you can really knock out
in a day.
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♪ ♪
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These shingles
will have to overlap,
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but we start at the bottom
and go all the way around,
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and then we do
another layer halfway up,
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and then we put pine duff on
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to fill in
any of the fragments,
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provides a little bit
of insulation.
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♪ ♪
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There's so many reasons
I want to make a pit house.
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They are incredibly efficient
at keeping in heat,
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and I cannot play
fattest-man-wins game.
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♪ ♪
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I need a house where,
when I'm in it,
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no extra calories
are being burned
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because if you have
a lot of wind on your fire,
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it just eats through firewood.
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Oof.
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All right,
so if I sit on the stair,
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you can sort of see
the skylight and the interior.
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And then this is
our next big project:
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the fireplace and chimney.
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That's definitely in the cards,
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but that is a bloody fantastic
day's work.
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That's what that is.
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♪ ♪
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- Here it comes.
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♪ ♪
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Lovely.
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♪ ♪
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Get some vitamin D released
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in this tiny patch of skin.
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♪ ♪
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It's amazing.
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♪ ♪
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I feel like I'm back in Hawaii,
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yet a lot colder and windier.
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♪
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It's been five days since
I've had any meat at all,
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and I want to fish,
but the wind is relentless.
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I can't get my set lines
to stay out
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because the waves just
push them right back to shore.
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I need to get
my line out further,
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so I have an idea for a pier.
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The longest driftwoods
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that I see on my beach
are about 30 feet,
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so my plan is to build
something where I can
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just walk out at least 25 feet
and drop a line.
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That offers me potential
in bad weather.
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I can go out
on my pier anytime,
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and I need deep water
come winter
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because the fish
are gonna push off.
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They're not gonna stay
in the shallows.
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♪ ♪
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Very nice.
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Nice for a pier-sized peg.
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♪ ♪
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I want to utilize engineering
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instead of just building
with logs
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and trying to tie that
together with cordage,
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so I want to put together
kind of a dovetail peg system.
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♪ ♪
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One done! I like it.
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Next!
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[as Arnold Schwarzenegger]
Get to the chopper!
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[shouts as Arnold]
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My son does a better
Arnold impression.
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♪ ♪
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I have a wonderful family
of seven,
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my wife and five kids.
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When I'm successful
at this challenge
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and I get the money,
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we can set sail, literally.
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My wife has the idea
that we'll buy a boat
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and we'll hit the seas.
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That would be awesome.
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♪ ♪
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I reckon that's deep enough
to catch a fish.
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All right.
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I'll give you one guess
which way the wind's blowing.
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Let's straighten it out.
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Nope.
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It just comes right off
of those snow-covered
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glacier mountains.
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I'm debating on waiting
another day for the winds
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and waves to calm down
to set this.
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That's the logical thing to do.
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♪ ♪
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- Can you see it behind me,
over my shoulder?
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I can't tell,
but it's back there.
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Right about here.
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Maybe here? No. Here.
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You can see my boat
in the background.
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Sweetness.
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♪ ♪
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I've been working
on building a boat.
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It's floating great,
seems pretty solid,
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but it's not stable.
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It's very tippy,
so I built outriggers
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so I have something
coming off the boat
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that gives stability.
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So it's another point
of contact on the water,
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so if you lean one way
or lean the other,
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you have now multiple holds
touching the water,
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and they give you kickback,
and they hold you up.
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All right.
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You ready
for the finished product?
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♪ ♪
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I built these outriggers
just like I built the boat,
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so I have a frame,
a fir frame,
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and I have ribs that are
of alder, green alder,
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and thankfully,
I had scrap tarp material
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to cover it with.
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Let's go get on the water.
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♪ ♪
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I think boats are a high-value
and a high-risk entity.
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It is very dangerous
to be out here,
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but if this works
and it's dependable and safe,
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I think
it's gonna give me an edge
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because I can get to places
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where the fish are migrating
or moving through,
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so I'm not just limited
to the bank.
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Oh!
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♪ ♪
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Yeah!
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♪ ♪
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We're stable.
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We're cruising.
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Yes, yes, yes.
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♪ ♪
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Whoo!
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♪ ♪
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Yes, yes, yes, yes.
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♪ ♪
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Big success.
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Love it.
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♪ ♪
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That was awesome.
I'm gonna enjoy this moment.
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I haven't showered
since I've been out here.
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I want to get in the water
so bad and clean myself.
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♪ ♪
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I love this lifestyle,
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living by the Earth
and the land.
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Oof!
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The pride and the fulfillment
when things work,
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when your shelter works,
when your boat works,
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when your bow drill works.
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♪ ♪
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It gives you so much joy,
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and I want to keep living it.
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Whoo!
[laughs]
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♪ ♪
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Oh, that's refreshing.
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♪ ♪
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Oh.
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Holy, *bleep*.
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There's a grizz
walking down the beach.
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear! No!
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[dramatic music]
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♪ ♪
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- Hey, bear!
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear!
[clapping]
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Hey!
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He hasn't even stopped.
He's still walking this way.
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear! No!
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♪ ♪
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I can't believe
I'm *bleep* naked,
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and a bear is freaking
right there.
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I'm gonna have fire
some bangers.
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[popping]
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♪ ♪
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Nothing.
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It's not good.
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Hey, bear! No!
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♪ ♪
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Man, I just got my boat done,
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and I don't want him
to shred it.
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♪ ♪
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Hey, bear!
270
00:13:53,384 --> 00:13:54,488
No!
271
00:13:54,592 --> 00:13:57,319
♪ ♪
272
00:13:57,422 --> 00:13:58,389
No!
273
00:13:58,492 --> 00:14:03,497
♪ ♪
274
00:14:03,601 --> 00:14:06,259
*bleep*. He's coming.
275
00:14:06,362 --> 00:14:09,710
[popping]
276
00:14:09,814 --> 00:14:16,027
♪ ♪
277
00:14:16,131 --> 00:14:19,341
Come on.
278
00:14:19,444 --> 00:14:20,721
Get out of here.
279
00:14:20,825 --> 00:14:22,551
♪ ♪
280
00:14:22,654 --> 00:14:24,208
Hey, bear! No!
281
00:14:24,311 --> 00:14:29,730
♪ ♪
282
00:14:29,834 --> 00:14:32,147
Hey, bear!
283
00:14:32,250 --> 00:14:33,700
I'm over here!
284
00:14:33,803 --> 00:14:36,876
[claps]
285
00:14:36,979 --> 00:14:39,085
Nothing I seem to do
seems to scare him off.
286
00:14:39,188 --> 00:14:41,397
♪ ♪
287
00:14:41,501 --> 00:14:42,847
Hey, bear!
288
00:14:42,951 --> 00:14:45,608
[clapping]
289
00:14:45,712 --> 00:14:46,851
♪ ♪
290
00:14:46,955 --> 00:14:48,163
Hey, bear!
291
00:14:48,266 --> 00:14:50,199
♪ ♪
292
00:14:50,303 --> 00:14:52,098
Ah, *bleep*! Hey!
293
00:14:52,201 --> 00:14:53,789
[claps]
294
00:14:53,893 --> 00:14:56,102
♪ ♪
295
00:14:56,205 --> 00:14:58,863
Hey, bear!
296
00:14:58,967 --> 00:15:00,416
Hello!
297
00:15:00,520 --> 00:15:02,246
♪ ♪
298
00:15:02,349 --> 00:15:05,905
[popping]
299
00:15:14,568 --> 00:15:16,260
I think he's out of here.
300
00:15:18,296 --> 00:15:21,506
Holy *bleep*. That was insane.
301
00:15:23,715 --> 00:15:27,443
I need to get clothes on.
302
00:15:27,547 --> 00:15:34,588
♪ ♪
303
00:15:41,871 --> 00:15:44,564
The bear encounter today
definitely got me
304
00:15:44,667 --> 00:15:46,186
taking it
a little more seriously.
305
00:15:46,290 --> 00:15:47,739
♪ ♪
306
00:15:47,843 --> 00:15:51,674
He didn't really care about me
yelling, throwing rocks.
307
00:15:51,778 --> 00:15:54,091
Even the bear bangers,
he was pretty indifferent.
308
00:15:55,402 --> 00:15:58,923
I'm in his territory,
and I'm the foreigner here,
309
00:15:59,027 --> 00:16:01,029
and he just put me
in my place.
310
00:16:01,132 --> 00:16:03,928
Literally, if it decided
for some reason--
311
00:16:04,032 --> 00:16:05,999
it was hungry,
it was stressed,
312
00:16:06,103 --> 00:16:07,380
it was distressed--
313
00:16:07,483 --> 00:16:08,829
there's nothing stopping it.
314
00:16:08,933 --> 00:16:10,762
If it wanted to
at that moment,
315
00:16:10,866 --> 00:16:12,419
your life is gone.
316
00:16:13,869 --> 00:16:20,910
♪
317
00:16:33,647 --> 00:16:34,890
- [sighs]
318
00:16:41,138 --> 00:16:44,313
No fish this morning,
but luckily,
319
00:16:44,417 --> 00:16:47,420
I've still got
plenty of smoked trout.
320
00:17:00,916 --> 00:17:04,540
Just look at that.
321
00:17:04,644 --> 00:17:06,818
All these nice, thin strips.
322
00:17:06,922 --> 00:17:09,476
It is so unbelievably good.
323
00:17:15,586 --> 00:17:18,175
It doesn't need any seasoning
or anything.
324
00:17:21,281 --> 00:17:27,563
♪
325
00:17:27,667 --> 00:17:32,361
I've never wired together
a stick door before.
326
00:17:33,535 --> 00:17:36,400
So it's all a little new to me.
327
00:17:36,503 --> 00:17:38,988
♪ ♪
328
00:17:39,092 --> 00:17:42,302
I've got a real cabin.
I want a real door.
329
00:17:42,406 --> 00:17:44,891
Psychologically,
I don't want to feel like
330
00:17:44,994 --> 00:17:46,858
I'm on a camping trip.
331
00:17:46,962 --> 00:17:48,584
Oh, yeah.
332
00:17:48,688 --> 00:17:50,931
I want someplace
that feels like home,
333
00:17:51,035 --> 00:17:53,762
something that has
permanence to it.
334
00:17:53,865 --> 00:17:55,833
I just feel like
it's gonna help me
335
00:17:55,936 --> 00:17:58,974
stick around long-term.
336
00:17:59,078 --> 00:18:03,772
Now I need to make some hinges
for the wall,
337
00:18:03,875 --> 00:18:05,739
which is not easy considering
338
00:18:05,843 --> 00:18:08,639
I don't have any way
to drill a hole,
339
00:18:08,742 --> 00:18:11,952
so I'm going to get
creative with that.
340
00:18:12,056 --> 00:18:13,920
♪ ♪
341
00:18:14,023 --> 00:18:17,889
In typical fashion,
I had not preplanned anything.
342
00:18:17,993 --> 00:18:20,168
I just know I want
a door on hinges.
343
00:18:20,271 --> 00:18:21,686
♪ ♪
344
00:18:21,790 --> 00:18:26,105
Then I realized
that I could use my saw
345
00:18:26,208 --> 00:18:27,313
to cut a notch
346
00:18:27,416 --> 00:18:29,556
and continually widen
that notch
347
00:18:29,660 --> 00:18:31,765
to create
almost, like, a hole,
348
00:18:31,869 --> 00:18:35,424
but it would work for a hinge.
349
00:18:35,528 --> 00:18:37,046
It's like that?
350
00:18:43,812 --> 00:18:45,710
I was able to find
some alder branches around
351
00:18:45,814 --> 00:18:49,645
that have 90-degree bends
that I wired onto the door.
352
00:18:49,749 --> 00:18:52,614
Alder is very strong
for its size,
353
00:18:52,717 --> 00:18:54,719
and it has a little bit
of flex to it,
354
00:18:54,823 --> 00:18:56,618
so it's not going to break.
355
00:18:56,721 --> 00:18:58,585
♪ ♪
356
00:18:58,689 --> 00:19:00,794
It's not the most elegant...
357
00:19:03,763 --> 00:19:06,628
But I have a door.
358
00:19:06,731 --> 00:19:08,768
As I'm putting
all this together,
359
00:19:08,871 --> 00:19:10,942
I'm constantly thinking, like,
360
00:19:11,046 --> 00:19:13,428
"What if my wife
was out here?"
361
00:19:13,531 --> 00:19:15,154
Well, she would want it
neat and clean,
362
00:19:15,257 --> 00:19:17,535
and she would want a place
to hang things.
363
00:19:17,639 --> 00:19:19,054
She would want something nice.
364
00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:20,538
♪ ♪
365
00:19:20,642 --> 00:19:22,816
All right.
I'm gonna make a door latch.
366
00:19:22,920 --> 00:19:25,543
♪ ♪
367
00:19:25,647 --> 00:19:27,994
I'm thinking
I can make a latch
368
00:19:28,097 --> 00:19:32,136
that will go in and turn
and lock behind the logs.
369
00:19:32,240 --> 00:19:38,936
♪ ♪
370
00:19:39,039 --> 00:19:41,180
Yeah.
371
00:19:41,283 --> 00:19:42,388
There we go.
372
00:19:44,976 --> 00:19:47,220
Did I spend way too long on it?
373
00:19:47,324 --> 00:19:50,189
Absolutely I did,
but here is my door.
374
00:19:52,363 --> 00:19:54,434
Knock, knock. Can I come in?
375
00:19:54,538 --> 00:19:57,541
Okay. Cool.
376
00:19:57,644 --> 00:19:58,852
Look at that.
377
00:20:04,927 --> 00:20:07,171
It's actually
pretty *bleep* kickass.
378
00:20:07,275 --> 00:20:14,282
♪ ♪
379
00:20:23,325 --> 00:20:27,916
- It was about 10:00
last night.
380
00:20:28,019 --> 00:20:30,229
I don't know why I woke up,
for some reason.
381
00:20:30,332 --> 00:20:31,506
That's rare.
382
00:20:31,609 --> 00:20:34,129
But dead calm.
383
00:20:34,233 --> 00:20:36,338
No wind. No waves.
384
00:20:36,442 --> 00:20:40,549
It stayed that way all night
until about 6:30.
385
00:20:42,102 --> 00:20:44,519
And then it just
started blowing,
386
00:20:44,622 --> 00:20:45,796
and the waves started crashing,
387
00:20:45,899 --> 00:20:49,662
so I think we're just
gonna go for it.
388
00:20:49,765 --> 00:20:52,665
That means
we're putting the pier in,
389
00:20:52,768 --> 00:20:55,115
wind or waves be damned.
390
00:20:55,219 --> 00:21:02,330
♪ ♪
391
00:21:03,331 --> 00:21:06,437
I've got to get off
this shoreline to catch fish.
392
00:21:06,541 --> 00:21:10,199
I'm running down
on my last bit of body fat.
393
00:21:10,303 --> 00:21:12,063
If I get the pier planks
on it,
394
00:21:12,167 --> 00:21:14,411
that should be enough
to hold everything in place,
395
00:21:14,514 --> 00:21:16,205
and then I can
shimmy out there
396
00:21:16,309 --> 00:21:17,621
and set a set line.
397
00:21:17,724 --> 00:21:19,208
Then we'll start
catching fish.
398
00:21:19,312 --> 00:21:21,452
♪ ♪
399
00:21:21,556 --> 00:21:23,420
It's a 1,000 foot deep lake.
400
00:21:23,523 --> 00:21:24,697
Glacier-fed,
401
00:21:24,800 --> 00:21:27,009
so the temperature
is insanely cold.
402
00:21:27,113 --> 00:21:30,737
♪ ♪
403
00:21:39,125 --> 00:21:45,096
♪
404
00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:46,477
[exhales deeply]
405
00:21:46,581 --> 00:21:51,068
♪ ♪
406
00:21:51,171 --> 00:21:52,552
[grunts]
407
00:21:52,656 --> 00:21:53,898
[exhales sharply]
408
00:21:54,002 --> 00:21:55,900
♪ ♪
409
00:21:56,004 --> 00:21:58,178
Oh.
410
00:21:58,282 --> 00:22:02,873
[grunting]
411
00:22:02,976 --> 00:22:04,046
*bleep*.
412
00:22:04,150 --> 00:22:07,015
♪ ♪
413
00:22:11,364 --> 00:22:13,849
What the *bleep*?
414
00:22:13,953 --> 00:22:15,541
*bleep*.
415
00:22:15,644 --> 00:22:22,651
♪ ♪
416
00:22:26,621 --> 00:22:27,691
Damn.
417
00:22:27,794 --> 00:22:32,799
♪ ♪
418
00:22:32,903 --> 00:22:36,700
I made a mistake,
which led to a failure.
419
00:22:36,803 --> 00:22:41,290
Forgot to put that joist,
that little pressure joist,
420
00:22:41,394 --> 00:22:44,708
at the top of those leans,
421
00:22:44,811 --> 00:22:48,712
forcing the middle one tighter
so it wouldn't fall out.
422
00:22:48,815 --> 00:22:50,645
And it fell out.
I bumped it, and it fell out.
423
00:22:50,748 --> 00:22:53,164
I knew it.
424
00:22:53,268 --> 00:22:54,442
I picked it up, and I knew it,
425
00:22:54,545 --> 00:22:55,926
but I was already down
to nothing,
426
00:22:56,029 --> 00:22:58,929
so I forced it, and I should've
stopped, got dressed.
427
00:22:59,032 --> 00:23:00,655
♪ ♪
428
00:23:00,758 --> 00:23:01,794
It's silly.
429
00:23:01,897 --> 00:23:04,072
♪ ♪
430
00:23:04,175 --> 00:23:05,798
Silly.
431
00:23:05,901 --> 00:23:07,282
I think the biggest fear
432
00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,665
we face, usually,
is the fear of failure,
433
00:23:10,768 --> 00:23:14,013
and I think that holds
a lot of people back.
434
00:23:14,116 --> 00:23:17,085
If you don't accept failure
as a part of your journey,
435
00:23:17,188 --> 00:23:18,914
then you'll never
find success.
436
00:23:19,018 --> 00:23:20,606
I appreciate the failure
437
00:23:20,709 --> 00:23:23,471
because that's the only lesson
you're actually gonna learn,
438
00:23:23,574 --> 00:23:25,196
and I know
how to handle failure,
439
00:23:25,300 --> 00:23:26,922
to be optimistic.
440
00:23:27,026 --> 00:23:29,269
Do you give up
after your first failure?
441
00:23:29,373 --> 00:23:31,237
I don't.
I don't give up at all.
442
00:23:31,340 --> 00:23:33,273
♪ ♪
443
00:23:33,377 --> 00:23:37,243
So I've got some work to do...
444
00:23:39,659 --> 00:23:42,490
Before I do that again.
445
00:23:42,593 --> 00:23:49,600
♪ ♪
446
00:24:05,927 --> 00:24:07,411
- I'll be so happy.
447
00:24:10,034 --> 00:24:11,588
I'll stay forever.
448
00:24:15,419 --> 00:24:18,353
Pretty much, if I have a bed
and a dry spot,
449
00:24:18,457 --> 00:24:21,252
I'm in general
pretty damned happy,
450
00:24:21,356 --> 00:24:24,152
so I'm gonna attempt
to make the bed.
451
00:24:24,255 --> 00:24:25,740
We'll start with the frame.
452
00:24:25,843 --> 00:24:28,881
This post is just
the right height.
453
00:24:28,984 --> 00:24:31,262
I'm gonna lash this all down
454
00:24:31,366 --> 00:24:33,333
so they don't move around
all the time.
455
00:24:33,437 --> 00:24:35,266
♪ ♪
456
00:24:35,370 --> 00:24:37,061
Good.
457
00:24:37,165 --> 00:24:39,650
I have been in the outdoors,
458
00:24:39,754 --> 00:24:42,895
rather immersed in it,
from the time I was a child.
459
00:24:42,998 --> 00:24:44,828
I'm originally from Wyoming,
460
00:24:44,931 --> 00:24:46,692
from a tiny town
called Lander.
461
00:24:46,795 --> 00:24:48,279
♪ ♪
462
00:24:48,383 --> 00:24:51,351
So I'm sure that you have
noticed my accent
463
00:24:51,455 --> 00:24:53,940
is not exactly from Wyoming.
464
00:24:54,044 --> 00:24:57,357
I have lived now in England
for 11 years,
465
00:24:57,461 --> 00:24:59,912
long enough to sound funny
in both places.
466
00:25:00,015 --> 00:25:02,052
I don't sound American
to Americans.
467
00:25:02,155 --> 00:25:04,917
I do not sound British
to British people either.
468
00:25:05,020 --> 00:25:07,540
They're not quite sure
what I am or where I'm from,
469
00:25:07,644 --> 00:25:09,197
but it's not fooling anyone.
470
00:25:09,300 --> 00:25:11,095
♪ ♪
471
00:25:11,199 --> 00:25:14,582
Everything is golden,
and then we cover the bed
472
00:25:14,685 --> 00:25:17,895
in grass and then pine boughs,
and then we have a bed.
473
00:25:17,999 --> 00:25:19,241
It's a usable bed
at this point.
474
00:25:19,345 --> 00:25:21,968
It just needs
the squishy bit put on now.
475
00:25:24,212 --> 00:25:25,351
Yeah.
476
00:25:28,665 --> 00:25:35,672
♪
477
00:25:41,574 --> 00:25:44,646
I feel--I feel odd.
478
00:25:44,750 --> 00:25:46,614
Actually, it's been
a really long time
479
00:25:46,717 --> 00:25:48,995
since I felt this feeling,
480
00:25:49,099 --> 00:25:51,929
but I think I'm potentially
481
00:25:52,033 --> 00:25:54,449
a little bit homesick
right now.
482
00:25:54,553 --> 00:25:56,831
♪ ♪
483
00:25:56,934 --> 00:26:00,420
And I'm not 100% sure,
for me, what that means.
484
00:26:00,524 --> 00:26:02,630
Like, what home
am I longing for?
485
00:26:02,733 --> 00:26:04,908
♪ ♪
486
00:26:05,011 --> 00:26:08,394
I need to, I think, acknowledge
the fact that I miss something
487
00:26:08,497 --> 00:26:13,226
from back in my other life,
488
00:26:13,330 --> 00:26:14,883
my life before "Alone."
489
00:26:14,987 --> 00:26:18,438
[laughs]
490
00:26:18,542 --> 00:26:21,441
[humming soft melody]
491
00:26:21,545 --> 00:26:27,586
♪ ♪
492
00:26:27,689 --> 00:26:32,798
♪ I am just ♪
493
00:26:32,901 --> 00:26:38,148
♪ A lonely soul ♪
494
00:26:38,251 --> 00:26:42,877
♪ So where, I ask ♪
495
00:26:42,980 --> 00:26:47,951
♪ Shall I call my ♪
496
00:26:48,054 --> 00:26:53,059
♪ Home? ♪
497
00:26:57,443 --> 00:26:58,789
[chuckles]
498
00:27:05,934 --> 00:27:08,834
[dramatic music]
499
00:27:08,937 --> 00:27:15,944
♪ ♪
500
00:27:29,855 --> 00:27:32,340
- Good morning.
501
00:27:32,443 --> 00:27:35,170
[yawns]
502
00:27:35,274 --> 00:27:37,966
I had some food dreams
last night.
503
00:27:38,070 --> 00:27:40,210
Oh, that's terrible.
This early?
504
00:27:41,660 --> 00:27:44,283
Ay.
505
00:27:44,386 --> 00:27:47,148
[scoffs]
506
00:27:47,251 --> 00:27:50,289
I was in a football tournament,
507
00:27:50,392 --> 00:27:52,325
and they had a room...
508
00:27:54,086 --> 00:27:56,260
That everybody could go to
and just...
509
00:27:56,364 --> 00:27:59,263
[laughs]
510
00:27:59,367 --> 00:28:02,094
Eat all they wanted.
511
00:28:02,197 --> 00:28:04,372
Aww.
512
00:28:07,375 --> 00:28:09,135
[yawns]
513
00:28:09,239 --> 00:28:12,483
So I'm trying to block it out,
514
00:28:12,587 --> 00:28:15,659
try and get some food
of my own out here.
515
00:28:15,763 --> 00:28:20,837
♪ ♪
516
00:28:20,940 --> 00:28:22,286
Mom told me before I left,
517
00:28:22,390 --> 00:28:25,048
the last thing was to look
at the moon,
518
00:28:25,151 --> 00:28:28,396
and know I'm looking
at the same thing.
519
00:28:28,499 --> 00:28:30,018
We'll be looking
at the same time.
520
00:28:30,122 --> 00:28:31,537
♪ ♪
521
00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:34,126
I really want to make
my mom and dad proud.
522
00:28:34,229 --> 00:28:36,369
They've always loved
and supported me.
523
00:28:36,473 --> 00:28:38,958
They're my biggest fans.
524
00:28:39,062 --> 00:28:40,857
I want to do well for them.
525
00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:42,651
♪ ♪
526
00:28:42,755 --> 00:28:45,551
Oh, yeah.
527
00:28:45,654 --> 00:28:47,933
I've got a lot of faith
in this boat.
528
00:28:48,036 --> 00:28:50,452
♪ ♪
529
00:28:50,556 --> 00:28:54,836
This boat is amazing.
I love it. It's solid.
530
00:28:54,940 --> 00:28:57,528
The outriggers
are working perfect.
531
00:28:57,632 --> 00:28:59,876
I feel like
I can go anywhere now,
532
00:28:59,979 --> 00:29:01,463
So I'm gonna go for it.
533
00:29:01,567 --> 00:29:04,087
♪ ♪
534
00:29:04,190 --> 00:29:06,503
Going for a white fish.
535
00:29:09,989 --> 00:29:15,857
♪
536
00:29:15,961 --> 00:29:19,378
My dad and I used to fish
bull trout in Oregon.
537
00:29:22,484 --> 00:29:25,764
Spent a lot of hours
trolling with my dad,
538
00:29:25,867 --> 00:29:28,387
days and days of my life.
539
00:29:28,490 --> 00:29:30,113
I'd love to be trolling
with him.
540
00:29:34,427 --> 00:29:35,497
I got a hit.
541
00:29:35,601 --> 00:29:37,361
♪ ♪
542
00:29:37,465 --> 00:29:41,089
Fish today, baby. Fish today.
Come on, fish. Let's do it.
543
00:29:41,193 --> 00:29:42,642
♪ ♪
544
00:29:42,746 --> 00:29:45,611
Holy *bleep*.
I might have done it.
545
00:29:45,714 --> 00:29:47,613
Yes! Yes, yes!
546
00:29:47,716 --> 00:29:49,684
♪ ♪
547
00:29:49,788 --> 00:29:52,791
Dang it! *bleep*! Ah!
548
00:29:59,107 --> 00:30:02,524
Ahh! So close.
549
00:30:02,628 --> 00:30:08,116
♪ ♪
550
00:30:09,773 --> 00:30:11,395
♪
551
00:30:11,499 --> 00:30:14,122
My dad is what got me
into this lifestyle.
552
00:30:14,226 --> 00:30:15,365
He introduced me
at a young age
553
00:30:15,468 --> 00:30:16,504
to the outdoors,
554
00:30:16,607 --> 00:30:18,230
into hunting, into fishing,
555
00:30:18,333 --> 00:30:21,474
eating wild game,
being outdoors, camping.
556
00:30:21,578 --> 00:30:25,306
And I loved it. This is life!
557
00:30:25,409 --> 00:30:28,688
I've been out here
for at least three hours.
558
00:30:28,792 --> 00:30:32,106
I've had four bites,
no hook-ups, no fish.
559
00:30:32,209 --> 00:30:33,797
♪ ♪
560
00:30:33,901 --> 00:30:36,593
I connect with my body
through this lifestyle.
561
00:30:36,696 --> 00:30:38,698
I connect with my mind
and my heart
562
00:30:38,802 --> 00:30:40,804
more than any other
living situation
563
00:30:40,908 --> 00:30:42,047
I've ever had in my life.
564
00:30:42,150 --> 00:30:43,772
♪ ♪
565
00:30:43,876 --> 00:30:47,431
It's physically, emotionally,
intellectually,
566
00:30:47,535 --> 00:30:50,641
socially more stimulating
than the alternative.
567
00:31:13,906 --> 00:31:16,805
♪
568
00:31:16,909 --> 00:31:20,740
Yes!
It came off right in the boat.
569
00:31:20,844 --> 00:31:22,915
Ha, ha!
570
00:31:23,019 --> 00:31:24,848
Hey.
571
00:31:24,952 --> 00:31:28,231
Hey, I'll take it.
I'll take it. Yes!
572
00:31:28,334 --> 00:31:29,473
♪ ♪
573
00:31:29,577 --> 00:31:31,027
Oh, thank you, fish.
574
00:31:31,130 --> 00:31:32,960
God, I needed a fish today.
575
00:31:33,063 --> 00:31:36,308
♪ ♪
576
00:31:36,411 --> 00:31:38,344
I needed a fish today.
577
00:31:38,448 --> 00:31:40,760
♪ ♪
578
00:31:40,864 --> 00:31:43,315
I am gonna invest
all in right now on fish
579
00:31:43,418 --> 00:31:45,489
because I think that's
the best use of my calories.
580
00:31:45,593 --> 00:31:47,422
That's the best use
of my time.
581
00:31:47,526 --> 00:31:50,460
I'm gonna go fish.
582
00:31:50,563 --> 00:31:53,359
All right, just need to catch
one a day for the next 80 days.
583
00:31:53,463 --> 00:31:54,740
♪ ♪
584
00:31:54,843 --> 00:31:57,294
This boat is not gonna have
a single focus.
585
00:31:57,398 --> 00:31:58,951
I am gonna troll
out of this boat.
586
00:31:59,055 --> 00:32:00,194
I'm gonna jig
out of this boat.
587
00:32:00,297 --> 00:32:01,609
I'm gonna anchor up
in this boat.
588
00:32:01,712 --> 00:32:03,991
I'm gonna set fish traps
at 20 feet, 30 feet,
589
00:32:04,094 --> 00:32:05,337
50 feet, 100 feet.
590
00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:07,615
I'm gonna spend
a lot of time in this boat.
591
00:32:09,134 --> 00:32:11,274
Let's go eat some fish.
592
00:32:11,377 --> 00:32:18,419
♪ ♪
593
00:32:23,907 --> 00:32:27,462
- I've heard what a great smoke
594
00:32:27,566 --> 00:32:29,361
this kinnikinnick is.
595
00:32:30,603 --> 00:32:32,571
And I don't smoke,
596
00:32:32,674 --> 00:32:36,023
but I figured
I'd give it a shot,
597
00:32:36,126 --> 00:32:39,923
so I'm gonna take
this random piece of driftwood,
598
00:32:40,027 --> 00:32:42,788
and I'm just gonna make a pipe
599
00:32:42,891 --> 00:32:45,446
or attempt to make
a little pipe out of it,
600
00:32:45,549 --> 00:32:48,967
and I've got two cameras
just in case I cut myself.
601
00:32:49,070 --> 00:32:50,520
Double the fun.
602
00:32:50,623 --> 00:32:52,694
♪ ♪
603
00:32:52,798 --> 00:32:55,594
Mentally,
the biggest strategy for me
604
00:32:55,697 --> 00:32:57,044
is keep my hands busy,
605
00:32:57,147 --> 00:33:00,530
keep building things,
keep working on things,
606
00:33:00,633 --> 00:33:02,911
and that will keep
my mind distracted
607
00:33:03,015 --> 00:33:04,913
away from what's going on
back home.
608
00:33:05,017 --> 00:33:06,018
♪ ♪
609
00:33:06,122 --> 00:33:09,677
I guess I got to bore down
a hole
610
00:33:09,780 --> 00:33:13,543
with which to put tobaccy.
611
00:33:13,646 --> 00:33:17,029
♪ ♪
612
00:33:17,133 --> 00:33:20,446
There's probably better options
than to stab
613
00:33:20,550 --> 00:33:21,827
right through my quad.
614
00:33:21,930 --> 00:33:23,656
♪ ♪
615
00:33:23,760 --> 00:33:27,902
I have to not allow myself
to think about those things
616
00:33:28,006 --> 00:33:30,560
because if I think
about my wife and my son
617
00:33:30,663 --> 00:33:34,978
and make that the pinnacle
of why I'm out here
618
00:33:35,082 --> 00:33:38,671
and really push
to succeed for them,
619
00:33:38,775 --> 00:33:41,157
then my constant thoughts
about them
620
00:33:41,260 --> 00:33:43,159
will make me miss them
621
00:33:43,262 --> 00:33:46,093
and will distract me
from surviving.
622
00:33:46,196 --> 00:33:48,198
Not a bad little pipe.
623
00:33:48,302 --> 00:33:51,891
Let's get that kinnikinnick out
and pack it up.
624
00:33:52,823 --> 00:33:54,860
I need to be mentally strong
625
00:33:54,963 --> 00:33:58,174
because I have been presented
626
00:33:58,277 --> 00:34:01,660
with a once-in-a-lifetime
opportunity.
627
00:34:01,763 --> 00:34:03,144
It's pretty crumbly.
628
00:34:03,248 --> 00:34:04,939
And if I don't win,
629
00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:07,976
I feel like I'd be doing
a disservice to my family.
630
00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:11,842
That $1/2 million
would allow me
631
00:34:11,946 --> 00:34:14,500
to pay off
all of our bills
632
00:34:14,604 --> 00:34:16,088
and have money left over.
633
00:34:16,192 --> 00:34:17,779
♪ ♪
634
00:34:17,883 --> 00:34:20,403
That would allow me
to work even less
635
00:34:20,506 --> 00:34:22,646
and spend even more time
with my family.
636
00:34:22,750 --> 00:34:28,204
♪ ♪
637
00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:36,281
That's not bad.
638
00:34:36,384 --> 00:34:37,592
Huh!
639
00:34:42,770 --> 00:34:45,738
All right. What's up next?
640
00:34:48,224 --> 00:34:55,231
♪
641
00:35:08,520 --> 00:35:10,177
[squirrel chittering]
642
00:35:10,280 --> 00:35:12,282
- There he is.
643
00:35:12,386 --> 00:35:15,837
[mimicking squirrel chittering]
644
00:35:18,599 --> 00:35:20,256
[squirrel chitters]
645
00:35:20,359 --> 00:35:21,843
We say hello every morning.
646
00:35:24,915 --> 00:35:26,193
So...
647
00:35:30,542 --> 00:35:33,890
If you believe
that you can talk to animals,
648
00:35:33,993 --> 00:35:38,032
meaning communicate your
thought energy in your sound
649
00:35:38,136 --> 00:35:41,104
or in your voice,
650
00:35:41,208 --> 00:35:43,658
do you think
that if you mean no harm,
651
00:35:43,762 --> 00:35:45,626
they can read that?
652
00:35:45,729 --> 00:35:48,284
I'd like to believe so.
653
00:35:48,387 --> 00:35:51,494
I'd like to believe
I'm sending good vibes out
654
00:35:51,597 --> 00:35:54,152
to the local wildlife.
655
00:35:55,222 --> 00:35:57,707
Unfortunately, the vibes that
I'm sending out to the grouse
656
00:35:57,810 --> 00:36:00,986
and the hare is
that I want to eat them,
657
00:36:01,089 --> 00:36:03,989
and therefore, they're like,
"I'm gonna avoid that man."
658
00:36:05,335 --> 00:36:07,820
I tried asking the eagle this
morning to bring me a fish,
659
00:36:07,924 --> 00:36:09,857
but he didn't turn around.
660
00:36:09,960 --> 00:36:17,002
♪ ♪
661
00:36:43,753 --> 00:36:49,897
♪
662
00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:51,830
I have an idea.
663
00:36:51,933 --> 00:36:53,314
For pier number one,
664
00:36:53,418 --> 00:36:56,386
I chose just to block it
like Lincoln Logs
665
00:36:56,490 --> 00:36:59,527
and then put a middle brace
between it,
666
00:36:59,631 --> 00:37:02,668
but I realized
that was my fail point,
667
00:37:02,772 --> 00:37:04,981
and my initial H is pegged.
668
00:37:05,084 --> 00:37:07,086
It's fantastic, solid,
669
00:37:07,190 --> 00:37:10,469
so I decide to peg
my supports into the main.
670
00:37:10,573 --> 00:37:13,058
♪ ♪
671
00:37:13,161 --> 00:37:17,027
We're on mission set
right now, which is find food.
672
00:37:17,131 --> 00:37:19,961
So do everything we can
to get food,
673
00:37:20,065 --> 00:37:22,930
and that includes
beat the elements.
674
00:37:23,033 --> 00:37:26,520
♪ ♪
675
00:37:26,623 --> 00:37:28,349
All right. It's time.
676
00:37:28,453 --> 00:37:35,460
♪ ♪
677
00:37:45,263 --> 00:37:46,471
Beautiful.
678
00:37:46,574 --> 00:37:50,026
♪ ♪
679
00:37:50,129 --> 00:37:51,303
When you're in the wild
680
00:37:51,407 --> 00:37:53,340
and you're in
a survival situation,
681
00:37:53,443 --> 00:37:56,032
if you don't have the ability
to pivot
682
00:37:56,135 --> 00:37:58,897
when things don't go
the way you planned,
683
00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:00,761
then it's gonna be a struggle,
684
00:38:00,864 --> 00:38:02,970
and that's where I think
creative problem-solving
685
00:38:03,073 --> 00:38:04,627
comes into play.
686
00:38:04,730 --> 00:38:07,630
♪ ♪
687
00:38:07,733 --> 00:38:10,288
This is a huge
stepping-stone for me,
688
00:38:10,391 --> 00:38:12,807
to be able to walk out 25 feet
689
00:38:12,911 --> 00:38:15,189
because I know
there's gonna be fish.
690
00:38:15,293 --> 00:38:16,846
This is where
I start thriving.
691
00:38:16,949 --> 00:38:19,745
♪ ♪
692
00:38:19,849 --> 00:38:23,508
Oh, wow.
693
00:38:23,611 --> 00:38:24,612
Awesome.
694
00:38:28,823 --> 00:38:31,723
[dramatic music]
695
00:38:31,826 --> 00:38:38,833
♪ ♪
696
00:38:56,230 --> 00:38:59,026
- Seaweed.
697
00:38:59,129 --> 00:39:01,511
I'll start small, just eat one.
698
00:39:06,274 --> 00:39:09,277
Hmm.
699
00:39:09,381 --> 00:39:10,417
It's crunchy.
700
00:39:18,873 --> 00:39:22,463
Yeah, it doesn't taste good.
Mm-mm.
701
00:39:22,567 --> 00:39:24,500
It's time to get back to work.
702
00:39:24,603 --> 00:39:26,433
♪ ♪
703
00:39:26,536 --> 00:39:29,228
I'm having
zero success fishing.
704
00:39:29,332 --> 00:39:31,714
I need to really finish
the fish basket.
705
00:39:31,817 --> 00:39:34,475
Since I can't catch
a larger trout,
706
00:39:34,579 --> 00:39:37,513
I can hopefully get some
smaller fish with this basket
707
00:39:37,616 --> 00:39:40,516
and maybe cook those up
and make a stew out of those.
708
00:39:40,619 --> 00:39:43,001
I'm gonna wrap this
with cordage just to make sure
709
00:39:43,104 --> 00:39:47,005
it stays the shape that I want.
710
00:39:47,108 --> 00:39:49,214
A fish basket has two baskets,
711
00:39:49,317 --> 00:39:51,596
a smaller basket
inside of a larger basket.
712
00:39:51,699 --> 00:39:55,185
It's a cone shape,
and once they swim into it,
713
00:39:55,289 --> 00:39:56,842
they can't figure out
how to turn around
714
00:39:56,946 --> 00:39:58,154
and swim back out
the same hole
715
00:39:58,257 --> 00:39:59,431
that they came in.
716
00:39:59,535 --> 00:40:01,813
Yeah, I think that's gonna be
all right there.
717
00:40:01,916 --> 00:40:03,642
I'm not really
that far into it,
718
00:40:03,746 --> 00:40:05,644
and I've already lost
quite a bit of weight,
719
00:40:05,748 --> 00:40:07,474
so I have to get some food.
720
00:40:07,577 --> 00:40:11,201
I have to find a better way
to get a fish.
721
00:40:11,305 --> 00:40:14,826
This lake is just
extremely difficult.
722
00:40:14,929 --> 00:40:16,448
I can't get my line
out far enough.
723
00:40:16,552 --> 00:40:18,070
My lures aren't working.
724
00:40:18,174 --> 00:40:20,141
I have to get food soon.
725
00:40:20,245 --> 00:40:23,904
If I don't,
I can't keep enough weight on.
726
00:40:24,939 --> 00:40:28,115
There's so much I wanted to do
and make while I was here,
727
00:40:28,218 --> 00:40:31,014
but I feel like I'm forced
to get things done
728
00:40:31,118 --> 00:40:33,258
so that I can get food.
729
00:40:33,361 --> 00:40:39,644
♪ ♪
730
00:40:39,747 --> 00:40:40,921
I knew coming in here
731
00:40:41,024 --> 00:40:43,199
that I move so fast
through life
732
00:40:43,302 --> 00:40:46,167
that my thoughts don't really
get to catch up with me.
733
00:40:46,271 --> 00:40:48,376
Ah, it's gonna have
to have a rock on it.
734
00:40:48,480 --> 00:40:49,688
♪ ♪
735
00:40:49,792 --> 00:40:52,933
I think that if you want
to clear your mind
736
00:40:53,036 --> 00:40:54,831
and sort things out,
737
00:40:54,935 --> 00:40:57,662
the wilderness is definitely
the place to do that.
738
00:40:57,765 --> 00:40:59,180
♪ ♪
739
00:40:59,284 --> 00:41:01,424
I need to it to be
out there way farther.
740
00:41:01,528 --> 00:41:02,943
♪ ♪
741
00:41:03,046 --> 00:41:06,015
All I keep thinking about
is my family.
742
00:41:06,118 --> 00:41:08,776
My children are
so worried about me.
743
00:41:08,880 --> 00:41:10,778
It's like they're my parents.
744
00:41:10,882 --> 00:41:13,712
I think because of the things
that I went through,
745
00:41:13,816 --> 00:41:15,196
been through a lot of ups
and downs
746
00:41:15,300 --> 00:41:18,406
and some very rough
situations in my life,
747
00:41:18,510 --> 00:41:21,409
and I think they just don't
want to see me get hurt,
748
00:41:21,513 --> 00:41:23,722
but all of those
different situations,
749
00:41:23,826 --> 00:41:25,966
I just learned to adapt.
750
00:41:26,069 --> 00:41:29,694
Okay, the fish basket
is submerged.
751
00:41:29,797 --> 00:41:31,419
♪ ♪
752
00:41:31,523 --> 00:41:33,076
I'm very resilient.
753
00:41:33,180 --> 00:41:34,871
Nothing is gonna
knock me off my path.
754
00:41:34,975 --> 00:41:37,564
I'm just gonna pick myself up,
and I'm gonna keep going.
755
00:41:37,667 --> 00:41:40,532
And I always come back
even stronger than I was.
756
00:41:41,878 --> 00:41:42,879
[stomach growls]
757
00:41:46,158 --> 00:41:53,200
♪
758
00:42:12,668 --> 00:42:16,085
- That's the benefit to having
a mustache like a walrus.
759
00:42:17,431 --> 00:42:19,398
It filters everything
out of your water.
760
00:42:20,365 --> 00:42:22,056
All the large stuff.
761
00:42:25,577 --> 00:42:28,028
The only problem
is kissing the wife.
762
00:42:32,239 --> 00:42:34,724
Maybe I'll shave my beard off
when I go home.
763
00:42:38,072 --> 00:42:45,114
♪
764
00:42:49,428 --> 00:42:51,120
Let's go see if there's a fish.
765
00:42:58,714 --> 00:43:02,096
Oh, my God. Think I got a fish!
766
00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:03,857
♪ ♪
767
00:43:03,960 --> 00:43:05,341
Look at that.
768
00:43:12,417 --> 00:43:19,079
♪
769
00:43:19,182 --> 00:43:20,494
Easy, fella.
770
00:43:20,598 --> 00:43:22,772
♪ ♪
771
00:43:22,876 --> 00:43:24,429
That's a rainbow.
772
00:43:24,532 --> 00:43:26,293
♪ ♪
773
00:43:26,396 --> 00:43:28,847
Rainbow trout.
774
00:43:28,951 --> 00:43:31,919
It's promising.
That's what that is.
775
00:43:32,023 --> 00:43:39,030
♪ ♪
776
00:43:41,066 --> 00:43:44,207
Cooking up
this tiny little guy.
777
00:43:44,311 --> 00:43:47,348
So we're gonna eat
every single piece of him,
778
00:43:47,452 --> 00:43:49,419
for sure.
779
00:43:49,523 --> 00:43:50,973
♪ ♪
780
00:43:51,076 --> 00:43:52,319
I'm excited.
781
00:43:52,422 --> 00:43:54,804
♪ ♪
782
00:43:54,908 --> 00:43:56,944
It's not gonna take much
to get this guy done.
783
00:43:57,048 --> 00:44:00,085
♪ ♪
784
00:44:00,189 --> 00:44:01,535
Wonderful.
785
00:44:01,639 --> 00:44:07,196
♪ ♪
786
00:44:07,299 --> 00:44:08,611
That was his tail.
787
00:44:08,715 --> 00:44:15,653
♪ ♪
788
00:44:16,619 --> 00:44:18,932
Told you.
789
00:44:19,035 --> 00:44:20,416
Every piece.
790
00:44:20,519 --> 00:44:23,522
♪ ♪
791
00:44:23,626 --> 00:44:25,697
All the way down to the lips.
792
00:44:25,801 --> 00:44:28,631
I know who I am,
and I don't have any doubt
793
00:44:28,735 --> 00:44:32,704
about my capability
to succeed in a challenge.
794
00:44:32,808 --> 00:44:34,810
Wow.
795
00:44:34,913 --> 00:44:38,123
That was a fast, fast meal.
796
00:44:38,227 --> 00:44:41,851
I'm just an out-of-the-box
thinker and problem-solver.
797
00:44:41,955 --> 00:44:44,785
Perfect.
798
00:44:44,889 --> 00:44:47,719
And I'll figure out
a way to succeed,
799
00:44:47,823 --> 00:44:51,309
and I don't have that quit
in me when there's a struggle.
800
00:44:57,764 --> 00:45:00,732
[dramatic music]
801
00:45:00,836 --> 00:45:07,843
♪ ♪
802
00:45:17,956 --> 00:45:19,613
[insect buzzes]
803
00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,822
- Oh, yeah,
bug right in the eye,
804
00:45:21,926 --> 00:45:23,686
right when I'm about to talk.
805
00:45:23,790 --> 00:45:24,929
Mm.
806
00:45:27,138 --> 00:45:29,312
While I'm waiting
for my boiled water to cool,
807
00:45:29,416 --> 00:45:31,211
I'm gonna put the one final
808
00:45:31,314 --> 00:45:33,938
most important touch
on the cabin,
809
00:45:34,041 --> 00:45:36,941
and that is
our family initials.
810
00:45:37,044 --> 00:45:39,426
♪ ♪
811
00:45:39,529 --> 00:45:43,361
So I'm gonna put that
on the ridge beam,
812
00:45:43,464 --> 00:45:44,742
J, J, O, A.
813
00:45:44,845 --> 00:45:47,261
♪ ♪
814
00:45:47,365 --> 00:45:49,056
We put that on everything.
815
00:45:49,160 --> 00:45:51,645
That's inscribed
on our wedding bands.
816
00:45:51,749 --> 00:45:54,475
My wife inscribed it
on my ax handle.
817
00:45:54,579 --> 00:45:55,822
♪ ♪
818
00:45:55,925 --> 00:45:58,410
It's on everything.
819
00:45:58,514 --> 00:46:02,898
Now the O is going to be
the fun one,
820
00:46:03,001 --> 00:46:04,727
all curve.
821
00:46:04,831 --> 00:46:08,075
♪ ♪
822
00:46:08,179 --> 00:46:09,352
That's better.
823
00:46:09,456 --> 00:46:14,047
♪ ♪
824
00:46:14,150 --> 00:46:16,532
Now the cabin is complete.
825
00:46:18,016 --> 00:46:21,192
Julia, Jordon, Odin, Aura,
826
00:46:21,295 --> 00:46:22,849
the initials of my wife,
827
00:46:22,952 --> 00:46:25,886
myself, my son,
and my daughter.
828
00:46:27,612 --> 00:46:32,030
♪
829
00:46:32,134 --> 00:46:34,757
[sighs]
830
00:46:34,861 --> 00:46:38,761
♪ ♪
831
00:46:44,940 --> 00:46:48,357
I just had a moment
832
00:46:48,460 --> 00:46:50,566
thinking about my daughter,
833
00:46:50,669 --> 00:46:54,156
and it gets easier
834
00:46:54,259 --> 00:46:56,503
as time goes on,
835
00:46:56,606 --> 00:47:00,541
but I still have
836
00:47:00,645 --> 00:47:03,475
waves of grief
that come over me.
837
00:47:03,579 --> 00:47:10,206
♪ ♪
838
00:47:12,519 --> 00:47:15,625
Now, I'm a very private person.
839
00:47:15,729 --> 00:47:17,904
I don't have a lot of friends.
840
00:47:18,007 --> 00:47:21,631
I don't talk to a lot of people
about personal things,
841
00:47:21,735 --> 00:47:24,634
and very few people
842
00:47:24,738 --> 00:47:29,225
know the details
of what I'm about to say.
843
00:47:36,612 --> 00:47:39,132
My daughter was born
with a heart defect,
844
00:47:39,235 --> 00:47:41,651
and by the time
she was two weeks old,
845
00:47:41,755 --> 00:47:45,138
she had had two
open heart surgeries.
846
00:47:45,241 --> 00:47:47,209
When she was six months old,
847
00:47:47,312 --> 00:47:49,452
she had another
open heart surgery
848
00:47:49,556 --> 00:47:52,317
that lasted over ten hours,
849
00:47:52,421 --> 00:47:55,320
and every six months
after that,
850
00:47:55,424 --> 00:47:57,564
she had catheter procedures
851
00:47:57,667 --> 00:47:59,877
where they would balloon
her arteries.
852
00:48:01,257 --> 00:48:05,606
Her long-term prognosis
was good through childhood,
853
00:48:05,710 --> 00:48:09,956
and yet
we unexpectedly lost her
854
00:48:10,059 --> 00:48:11,716
before she turned four.
855
00:48:11,819 --> 00:48:13,925
♪ ♪
856
00:48:14,029 --> 00:48:17,722
But the most painful things
857
00:48:17,825 --> 00:48:19,586
to deal with,
858
00:48:19,689 --> 00:48:22,451
the most painful memory
859
00:48:22,554 --> 00:48:26,455
are the echoes
860
00:48:26,558 --> 00:48:28,250
of the good times
861
00:48:28,353 --> 00:48:29,941
that are no longer there.
862
00:48:30,045 --> 00:48:31,356
♪ ♪
863
00:48:31,460 --> 00:48:33,876
It wasn't her passing.
864
00:48:33,980 --> 00:48:36,706
It wasn't the trauma
of surgeries.
865
00:48:36,810 --> 00:48:39,330
It was the good times
that are no longer there.
866
00:48:39,433 --> 00:48:40,676
♪ ♪
867
00:48:40,779 --> 00:48:44,507
She was the most dynamic,
868
00:48:44,611 --> 00:48:45,750
most vibrant,
869
00:48:45,853 --> 00:48:49,650
most amazing spark of light
870
00:48:49,754 --> 00:48:51,687
that you could imagine.
871
00:48:51,790 --> 00:48:53,620
♪ ♪
872
00:48:53,723 --> 00:48:54,897
That is the most private part,
873
00:48:55,001 --> 00:48:57,141
the most intimate detail
of who I am.
874
00:48:57,244 --> 00:49:01,800
♪ ♪
875
00:49:01,904 --> 00:49:05,977
And I'm willing to sit here...
876
00:49:06,081 --> 00:49:08,876
♪ ♪
877
00:49:08,980 --> 00:49:13,571
And tell it to a camera
878
00:49:13,674 --> 00:49:15,642
to be seen by who knows...
879
00:49:15,745 --> 00:49:18,162
♪ ♪
880
00:49:18,265 --> 00:49:22,821
Because that little girl
was that magical,
881
00:49:22,925 --> 00:49:25,790
that special
882
00:49:25,893 --> 00:49:29,276
that her tale
883
00:49:29,380 --> 00:49:33,108
should be known
throughout the world.
884
00:49:33,211 --> 00:49:37,215
♪ ♪
885
00:49:37,319 --> 00:49:39,183
She was our little wildflower.
886
00:49:39,286 --> 00:49:41,357
♪ ♪
887
00:49:41,461 --> 00:49:43,256
She bloomed so bright.
888
00:49:43,359 --> 00:49:45,189
♪ ♪
889
00:49:45,292 --> 00:49:46,984
So vibrant.
890
00:49:50,366 --> 00:49:54,198
And then spring was gone,
and so was she.
891
00:49:59,858 --> 00:50:01,343
I love you, Aura.
892
00:50:18,636 --> 00:50:21,535
[dramatic music]
893
00:50:21,639 --> 00:50:28,680
♪ ♪
894
00:50:35,377 --> 00:50:38,000
- Checked my fish basket out.
Nothing in it.
895
00:50:38,104 --> 00:50:39,864
♪ ♪
896
00:50:39,967 --> 00:50:42,039
So I'm just gonna
throw it back out there.
897
00:51:00,505 --> 00:51:02,128
Interesting.
898
00:51:07,202 --> 00:51:08,858
Apparently, every day,
we're gonna do something
899
00:51:08,962 --> 00:51:10,481
a little different.
900
00:51:13,277 --> 00:51:14,657
There we go.
901
00:51:17,419 --> 00:51:18,799
All right.
902
00:51:18,903 --> 00:51:20,698
♪ ♪
903
00:51:20,801 --> 00:51:23,597
I think fish basket would be
more successful in, like,
904
00:51:23,701 --> 00:51:26,876
a pond or, like,
my little creeks at home.
905
00:51:28,015 --> 00:51:29,707
This giant lake, I don't know.
906
00:51:30,984 --> 00:51:34,539
But there's one thing
that is certain for me,
907
00:51:34,643 --> 00:51:36,058
and that is berries,
908
00:51:36,162 --> 00:51:37,887
and they're gonna be
going away.
909
00:51:38,854 --> 00:51:41,201
I can notice every day
that they are,
910
00:51:41,305 --> 00:51:42,651
but I really need to make sure
911
00:51:42,754 --> 00:51:45,447
that I'm getting
as many of these as I can
912
00:51:45,550 --> 00:51:47,725
because it's really
what's keeping me
913
00:51:47,828 --> 00:51:49,830
fed most of the day now.
914
00:51:49,934 --> 00:51:51,798
You can see that
they're starting to fall off
915
00:51:51,901 --> 00:51:53,282
onto the ground,
916
00:51:53,386 --> 00:51:55,974
and then some are drying up
at the top.
917
00:51:56,078 --> 00:51:57,907
♪ ♪
918
00:51:58,011 --> 00:52:02,015
It's funny how some people
need to have other people
919
00:52:02,119 --> 00:52:05,363
in their life
or it affects them terribly.
920
00:52:05,467 --> 00:52:06,951
♪ ♪
921
00:52:07,054 --> 00:52:09,850
And other people
can exist without it.
922
00:52:09,954 --> 00:52:11,197
♪ ♪
923
00:52:11,300 --> 00:52:13,854
They're starting to turn black.
924
00:52:13,958 --> 00:52:16,719
I think for most of my life
I've felt alone
925
00:52:16,823 --> 00:52:19,446
because most of the people
in my life
926
00:52:19,550 --> 00:52:21,207
had always left anyways.
927
00:52:22,277 --> 00:52:26,315
Like, my marriage,
he was never there.
928
00:52:26,419 --> 00:52:29,042
He was always running off and
doing things with his friends
929
00:52:29,146 --> 00:52:32,183
and wanted me to basically
take care of everything,
930
00:52:32,287 --> 00:52:33,840
so I did.
931
00:52:33,943 --> 00:52:37,292
That was no fun
because I worked all the time.
932
00:52:37,395 --> 00:52:39,397
I had to 'cause he wanted
this giant life,
933
00:52:39,501 --> 00:52:41,537
and so I built it.
934
00:52:41,641 --> 00:52:43,712
And when the kids moved out,
935
00:52:43,815 --> 00:52:46,024
he decided he didn't want
to be there either.
936
00:52:49,545 --> 00:52:52,583
And make me able to deal
with being alone.
937
00:52:52,686 --> 00:52:53,756
♪ ♪
938
00:52:53,860 --> 00:52:56,380
I function okay alone.
939
00:52:56,483 --> 00:52:58,865
Well, I got a half a can,
thankfully.
940
00:52:58,968 --> 00:53:02,144
So that's not bad
for one little spot.
941
00:53:02,248 --> 00:53:03,697
♪ ♪
942
00:53:03,801 --> 00:53:08,564
That's just what I need to do
all the time now, every day.
943
00:53:08,668 --> 00:53:12,810
I need to make sure
that I'm doing something
944
00:53:12,913 --> 00:53:16,607
to prepare
for the upcoming days.
945
00:53:17,746 --> 00:53:24,787
♪
946
00:53:33,865 --> 00:53:37,317
- I really thought about going
for a walk,
947
00:53:37,421 --> 00:53:40,527
but really crazy windy day,
948
00:53:40,631 --> 00:53:42,598
and I don't know what it's
gonna bring for weather.
949
00:53:42,702 --> 00:53:44,807
It's hard to tell.
Clouds are moving fast,
950
00:53:44,911 --> 00:53:48,880
and the winds are just howling.
951
00:53:51,055 --> 00:53:51,987
Look at these ducks.
952
00:53:52,090 --> 00:53:53,540
These ducks don't care
953
00:53:53,644 --> 00:53:56,405
about a little wind and wave.
954
00:53:58,027 --> 00:54:01,307
They're headed somewhere,
and you know their feet
955
00:54:01,410 --> 00:54:03,757
are going a million miles
an hour right now.
956
00:54:06,001 --> 00:54:10,350
Just chugging along,
but they've got each other.
957
00:54:10,454 --> 00:54:17,461
♪ ♪
958
00:54:26,918 --> 00:54:31,268
When I began this journey,
I was determined to win
959
00:54:31,371 --> 00:54:33,166
or at least go as far
960
00:54:33,270 --> 00:54:36,100
as I possibly could
before my body gave out.
961
00:54:37,343 --> 00:54:41,036
I came here because this is
the ultimate challenge.
962
00:54:41,139 --> 00:54:43,832
It's the ultimate test
of a survivalist.
963
00:54:43,935 --> 00:54:46,386
It's the ultimate test
of willpower.
964
00:54:46,490 --> 00:54:49,182
It's the ultimate test
of your mind,
965
00:54:49,286 --> 00:54:52,427
your body,
and your spiritual connection.
966
00:54:52,530 --> 00:54:53,876
♪ ♪
967
00:54:53,980 --> 00:54:57,811
And I knew that
the only way to succeed
968
00:54:57,915 --> 00:55:01,677
was to forget about home,
to forget about my wife,
969
00:55:01,781 --> 00:55:05,509
my son, and to forget
about my daughter
970
00:55:05,612 --> 00:55:07,994
and to immerse myself
into this life.
971
00:55:08,097 --> 00:55:11,100
♪ ♪
972
00:55:11,204 --> 00:55:14,449
And I've found
that I can't do that.
973
00:55:14,552 --> 00:55:16,623
♪ ♪
974
00:55:16,727 --> 00:55:20,040
They are woven into the fabric
of my heart and my soul.
975
00:55:20,144 --> 00:55:21,283
♪ ♪
976
00:55:21,387 --> 00:55:23,665
I find myself
977
00:55:23,768 --> 00:55:26,599
continually thinking
of my daughter,
978
00:55:26,702 --> 00:55:29,740
and I realize that
I'm actually going through
979
00:55:29,843 --> 00:55:32,846
the same grieving process
that I am at home.
980
00:55:34,020 --> 00:55:36,781
But the difference is, at home
981
00:55:36,885 --> 00:55:39,301
I can look
into the eyes of my wife,
982
00:55:39,405 --> 00:55:41,648
I can look
into the eyes of my son,
983
00:55:41,752 --> 00:55:45,100
and I see a part of her there,
and that soothes me,
984
00:55:45,203 --> 00:55:47,171
and that comforts me.
985
00:55:47,274 --> 00:55:49,207
And I don't have that here.
986
00:55:49,311 --> 00:55:56,353
♪ ♪
987
00:56:04,361 --> 00:56:07,225
[beeping]
988
00:56:07,329 --> 00:56:10,712
♪ ♪
989
00:56:10,815 --> 00:56:14,647
This is Jordon.
I am officially tapping out.
990
00:56:14,750 --> 00:56:21,757
♪ ♪
991
00:56:27,176 --> 00:56:31,388
I'm ready to head back
and be with my family.
992
00:56:32,561 --> 00:56:36,807
It is a very,
very difficult decision.
993
00:56:36,910 --> 00:56:40,051
You know, if I was here,
and it was cold,
994
00:56:40,155 --> 00:56:41,674
and my shelter burned down,
995
00:56:41,777 --> 00:56:43,503
or there was
a medical emergency,
996
00:56:43,607 --> 00:56:44,780
or I was starving,
997
00:56:44,884 --> 00:56:47,265
everyone would understand
and say,
998
00:56:47,369 --> 00:56:50,096
"Hey, he's got to go,"
999
00:56:50,199 --> 00:56:52,409
but I'm okay with saying,
1000
00:56:52,512 --> 00:56:55,377
"This is who I am,
and this is my time to leave,"
1001
00:56:55,481 --> 00:56:58,967
and to leave for my family
and to leave for myself.
1002
00:56:59,864 --> 00:57:02,557
♪
1003
00:57:02,660 --> 00:57:07,113
I am naturally
such a competitive person.
1004
00:57:07,216 --> 00:57:11,358
I figured that I would have
to be dragged from the show.
1005
00:57:11,462 --> 00:57:13,430
I never thought
that my boundary
1006
00:57:13,533 --> 00:57:16,260
was gonna come
in an emotional form,
1007
00:57:16,363 --> 00:57:19,850
but one of my biggest
takeaways from this
1008
00:57:19,953 --> 00:57:22,404
is that I'm not missing out.
1009
00:57:22,508 --> 00:57:24,233
There are parts of me
1010
00:57:24,337 --> 00:57:27,685
that sometimes longs
for the adventures
1011
00:57:27,789 --> 00:57:29,825
as a younger man,
1012
00:57:29,929 --> 00:57:31,827
but then I come out here,
1013
00:57:31,931 --> 00:57:34,830
and I realize very quickly
1014
00:57:34,934 --> 00:57:37,419
I don't get the same thrill
1015
00:57:37,523 --> 00:57:41,319
out of experiencing
these things by myself.
1016
00:57:41,423 --> 00:57:43,701
The real excitement
comes from sharing
1017
00:57:43,805 --> 00:57:46,980
those moments with my family.
1018
00:57:47,084 --> 00:57:51,019
All this time
seeking to be alone,
1019
00:57:51,122 --> 00:57:53,021
and yet maybe I don't want
to be alone.
1020
00:57:53,124 --> 00:57:56,403
♪ ♪
1021
00:58:00,580 --> 00:58:03,549
[dramatic music]
1022
00:58:03,652 --> 00:58:10,659
♪ ♪
1023
00:58:12,834 --> 00:58:15,595
- Jordon, thank you for sharing
your story with us today.
1024
00:58:15,699 --> 00:58:17,252
You have dealt with tragedy,
1025
00:58:17,355 --> 00:58:19,806
and yet you are
the happiest person,
1026
00:58:19,910 --> 00:58:22,775
and I think that happiness
has got to do
1027
00:58:22,878 --> 00:58:26,192
with this authentic connection
with your family.
1028
00:58:26,295 --> 00:58:28,781
- My wife and son
are everything to me,
1029
00:58:28,884 --> 00:58:31,715
and so possibly winning
$1/2 million,
1030
00:58:31,818 --> 00:58:34,787
all I could think about
was paying off our house
1031
00:58:34,890 --> 00:58:37,444
and any bills
and basically allowing me
1032
00:58:37,548 --> 00:58:40,033
to work less
to spend time with my family.
1033
00:58:40,137 --> 00:58:42,104
- I know, for a lot of people
on the show,
1034
00:58:42,208 --> 00:58:43,934
one of the hardest things is,
1035
00:58:44,037 --> 00:58:45,936
you know, being alone,
but it's more than that.
1036
00:58:46,039 --> 00:58:47,420
It's being alone
with your thoughts.
1037
00:58:47,524 --> 00:58:49,526
- I spent a lot of time
in my life alone
1038
00:58:49,629 --> 00:58:51,493
and doing adventures alone,
1039
00:58:51,597 --> 00:58:54,600
and I thought that I was
really gonna be rekindling
1040
00:58:54,703 --> 00:58:57,499
some of that adventurous spirit
coming out here,
1041
00:58:57,603 --> 00:58:59,639
and going into this,
my strategy
1042
00:58:59,743 --> 00:59:03,885
was really to focus on myself
and my survival tasks at hand
1043
00:59:03,988 --> 00:59:07,060
and not even allow myself
to think about my family.
1044
00:59:07,164 --> 00:59:08,786
- Things like fishing,
just standing there
1045
00:59:08,890 --> 00:59:11,271
for hours and hours, I mean,
it's hard in those moments
1046
00:59:11,375 --> 00:59:12,963
to keep your mind busy.
1047
00:59:13,066 --> 00:59:15,344
- Yeah, and I think that's
when it hit me the hardest.
1048
00:59:15,448 --> 00:59:17,450
It's different when
you're talking about grieving
1049
00:59:17,554 --> 00:59:19,210
because it's a lot harder
to control
1050
00:59:19,314 --> 00:59:21,143
when those moments hit you.
1051
00:59:21,247 --> 00:59:22,835
Once you start doing things
1052
00:59:22,938 --> 00:59:25,354
like picking berries
or fishing,
1053
00:59:25,458 --> 00:59:28,219
your hands may be busy,
but your mind is idle
1054
00:59:28,323 --> 00:59:31,982
and free to wander
to those darker places,
1055
00:59:32,085 --> 00:59:36,400
and I came to the realization
that I actually needed
1056
00:59:36,503 --> 00:59:37,643
my wife and my son.
1057
00:59:37,746 --> 00:59:39,334
They're part
of my coping mechanism
1058
00:59:39,437 --> 00:59:40,991
of dealing with grief.
1059
00:59:41,094 --> 00:59:43,510
Being out there
and trying to process it alone
1060
00:59:43,614 --> 00:59:46,272
was so much more difficult
than I ever imagined.
1061
00:59:46,375 --> 00:59:49,827
The joy of being out here,
of being outdoors,
1062
00:59:49,931 --> 00:59:52,071
of making things
and troubleshooting
1063
00:59:52,174 --> 00:59:54,763
and all that kind of stuff,
1064
00:59:54,867 --> 00:59:56,938
that joy is fading.
1065
00:59:57,041 --> 01:00:00,079
- You compared your time
on "Alone" to gambling.
1066
01:00:00,182 --> 01:00:03,254
- Yeah, it really felt
like a gamble in a way
1067
01:00:03,358 --> 01:00:06,464
because you don't know
how the fishing is going to be.
1068
01:00:06,568 --> 01:00:09,536
You don't know how the game
hunting is going to be.
1069
01:00:09,640 --> 01:00:13,817
Maybe bring my bow just in case
I scare up any grouse.
1070
01:00:14,818 --> 01:00:17,475
You also don't know how
your competitors are doing.
1071
01:00:17,579 --> 01:00:20,168
You're thinking everyone else
has a better fishing hole
1072
01:00:20,271 --> 01:00:21,997
or better hunting grounds.
1073
01:00:22,101 --> 01:00:23,516
- I mean, that was a struggle
for you, right?
1074
01:00:23,620 --> 01:00:25,967
- It absolutely was, you know?
1075
01:00:26,070 --> 01:00:27,796
Here I am on Choko Lake
thinking
1076
01:00:27,900 --> 01:00:31,904
that the fishing is easy,
and that wasn't the case.
1077
01:00:32,007 --> 01:00:34,665
- You spent a ton of time
on that log, your fishing pier,
1078
01:00:34,769 --> 01:00:36,736
and tell us about
that incredible moment
1079
01:00:36,840 --> 01:00:39,739
when you hooked that trout
and dragged it to shore.
1080
01:00:39,843 --> 01:00:42,673
- I was in utter disbelief
when I hooked that fish.
1081
01:00:42,777 --> 01:00:44,848
[laughing]
Yeah!
1082
01:00:44,951 --> 01:00:47,195
Yeah!
1083
01:00:47,298 --> 01:00:52,096
And I was in such shock,
and to finally get that fish
1084
01:00:52,200 --> 01:00:54,685
made me feel
like I did something
1085
01:00:54,789 --> 01:00:57,205
that is actually contributing
to survival,
1086
01:00:57,308 --> 01:00:58,689
and I could not wait
to eat it.
1087
01:00:58,793 --> 01:01:01,209
- Oh, yeah, your joy at the end
of that was just great.
1088
01:01:01,312 --> 01:01:05,144
I totally knew how that fell.
Just, like, so exciting.
1089
01:01:05,247 --> 01:01:07,733
- Whoo!
- Tell me about the importance
1090
01:01:07,836 --> 01:01:09,182
of those small victories
for you.
1091
01:01:09,286 --> 01:01:11,150
- Those small victories
were everything.
1092
01:01:11,253 --> 01:01:13,152
Look what I found.
1093
01:01:13,255 --> 01:01:16,017
So just finding a couple
of gooseberries
1094
01:01:16,120 --> 01:01:18,088
underneath the leaves
or finding
1095
01:01:18,191 --> 01:01:21,022
the perfect alder branch
to make the door handle,
1096
01:01:21,125 --> 01:01:23,196
any little win felt like
1097
01:01:23,300 --> 01:01:25,923
it was just another
check mark of,
1098
01:01:26,027 --> 01:01:27,062
hey, I'm making it.
1099
01:01:27,166 --> 01:01:28,685
I'm getting there.
- Yeah.
1100
01:01:28,788 --> 01:01:30,583
- The remains of the flowers
1101
01:01:30,687 --> 01:01:31,929
look like little suns,
1102
01:01:32,033 --> 01:01:34,932
and that is enough
to make me smile this morning.
1103
01:01:35,036 --> 01:01:36,934
- Now, let's talk about
your permanent shelter.
1104
01:01:37,038 --> 01:01:41,525
- I had a strong plan going in
to make a solid shelter
1105
01:01:41,628 --> 01:01:43,976
and feel like
I actually have a home.
1106
01:01:44,079 --> 01:01:45,322
- Feels good to be in there
1107
01:01:45,425 --> 01:01:46,979
when other things
could be going wrong.
1108
01:01:47,082 --> 01:01:49,567
- Yeah, it's kind of like
when you come home from work,
1109
01:01:49,671 --> 01:01:50,914
and you put down your wallet
1110
01:01:51,017 --> 01:01:52,570
and your keys
in that one spot.
1111
01:01:52,674 --> 01:01:55,435
I wanted to be able to walk
into my shelter and feel like
1112
01:01:55,539 --> 01:01:59,198
I had a place for everything
and everything in its place.
1113
01:01:59,301 --> 01:02:01,787
Spot for my hat at night.
1114
01:02:01,890 --> 01:02:03,892
That's something
that kept me mentally healthy
1115
01:02:03,996 --> 01:02:04,893
during that time.
1116
01:02:04,997 --> 01:02:06,377
- Yeah, totally.
1117
01:02:06,481 --> 01:02:08,517
I always have to have a shelf
of treasures and whatever.
1118
01:02:08,621 --> 01:02:10,485
It doesn't even matter if it's,
like, a pile of leaves.
1119
01:02:10,588 --> 01:02:11,831
I have to have, like, my--
1120
01:02:11,935 --> 01:02:14,731
to feel that kind of sense
of, you're at home,
1121
01:02:14,834 --> 01:02:16,422
and it feels good
to be in there
1122
01:02:16,525 --> 01:02:18,182
when other things
could be going wrong.
1123
01:02:18,286 --> 01:02:19,528
- Exactly.
[both laugh]
1124
01:02:19,632 --> 01:02:21,910
- Jordon, your story
is inspiring.
1125
01:02:22,014 --> 01:02:23,187
Thank you for setting
1126
01:02:23,291 --> 01:02:26,294
such a beautiful example
for us to follow.
1127
01:02:26,397 --> 01:02:27,985
- Thank you.
I'm very, very lucky.
1128
01:02:28,089 --> 01:02:30,954
♪ ♪
1129
01:02:31,057 --> 01:02:33,266
- Holy *bleep*.
Those are bears.
1130
01:02:33,370 --> 01:02:34,923
Hey!
[air horn blares]
1131
01:02:35,027 --> 01:02:38,237
- I need to get some food.
Definitely seeing some grouse.
1132
01:02:40,791 --> 01:02:44,208
- Oh, *bleep*. Hornets.
Ah, *bleep*.
1133
01:02:44,312 --> 01:02:45,554
- Some fresh deer sign.
1134
01:02:45,658 --> 01:02:47,142
That gives me
a little bit of confidence
1135
01:02:47,246 --> 01:02:48,868
that we're gonna have
some deer here.
1136
01:02:51,077 --> 01:02:58,084
♪
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