1 00:00:05,384 --> 00:00:08,249 [dramatic music] 2 00:00:08,353 --> 00:00:15,291 ♪ ♪ 3 00:00:15,394 --> 00:00:16,982 - I don't plan to be here for three weeks. 4 00:00:17,086 --> 00:00:18,604 I plan to be here for three months. 5 00:00:18,708 --> 00:00:20,261 But I want a nice home in which to live. 6 00:00:20,365 --> 00:00:21,607 Brilliant. 7 00:00:21,711 --> 00:00:23,126 - What am I gonna find out about myself? 8 00:00:23,230 --> 00:00:25,370 That's the biggest thing, is to see if I am the man 9 00:00:25,473 --> 00:00:26,371 that I think I am. 10 00:00:26,474 --> 00:00:28,959 Oh, yeah. That is a bull trout. 11 00:00:29,063 --> 00:00:30,513 - My boat is a high risk. 12 00:00:30,616 --> 00:00:32,135 This could be a decision 13 00:00:32,239 --> 00:00:34,103 that costs me the whole experience. 14 00:00:34,206 --> 00:00:35,207 It's tippy as hell. 15 00:00:40,454 --> 00:00:41,903 Hey, bear! [bear growls] 16 00:00:42,007 --> 00:00:43,491 - If I don't succeed, 17 00:00:43,595 --> 00:00:45,804 have I just put a speed bump in life? 18 00:00:45,907 --> 00:00:47,840 Come on! Come on! 19 00:00:47,944 --> 00:00:50,153 [laughing] Yeah! 20 00:00:50,257 --> 00:00:53,605 Unbelievable! 21 00:00:53,708 --> 00:01:00,405 ♪ ♪ 22 00:01:01,406 --> 00:01:05,030 narrator: In "Alone's" most terrifying location yet, 23 00:01:05,134 --> 00:01:08,102 ten participants face the deadliest predator 24 00:01:08,206 --> 00:01:09,897 in North America... 25 00:01:10,000 --> 00:01:11,036 - There here is, right there. 26 00:01:11,140 --> 00:01:12,934 - Grizzly bears. Hey, bear! 27 00:01:13,038 --> 00:01:14,039 - There's a lot of grizzly here. 28 00:01:14,143 --> 00:01:15,109 I'm gonna have to live with them. 29 00:01:15,213 --> 00:01:16,455 - Go on! Get! 30 00:01:16,559 --> 00:01:18,008 - Every second we're on the land, 31 00:01:18,112 --> 00:01:19,009 we're being hunted. 32 00:01:19,113 --> 00:01:20,632 - Holy *bleep*, mountain lion. 33 00:01:20,735 --> 00:01:22,461 - He's circling around my shelter. 34 00:01:22,565 --> 00:01:23,911 narrator: Bone-chilling cold... 35 00:01:24,014 --> 00:01:25,637 - Winter is coming. 36 00:01:25,740 --> 00:01:27,535 - You combine the wind with the rain and the cold, 37 00:01:27,639 --> 00:01:29,434 this place could make the Arctic look easy. 38 00:01:29,537 --> 00:01:31,125 - Oh, *bleep*. 39 00:01:31,229 --> 00:01:32,989 narrator: And complete isolation. 40 00:01:33,093 --> 00:01:34,922 - You cannot hide from yourself, 41 00:01:35,025 --> 00:01:36,061 mentally and emotionally. 42 00:01:36,165 --> 00:01:38,650 - Ahh! - There's no place to go. 43 00:01:38,753 --> 00:01:41,204 - I am suffering from loneliness. 44 00:01:41,308 --> 00:01:42,792 narrator: Who will survive? 45 00:01:42,895 --> 00:01:44,276 - Yes! Yes! 46 00:01:44,380 --> 00:01:46,865 - This could be the end. 47 00:01:46,968 --> 00:01:49,212 - I don't want to tap, but I don't want to die either. 48 00:01:49,316 --> 00:01:51,697 - You have to suffer before you can succeed. 49 00:01:51,801 --> 00:01:53,182 - [retches] 50 00:01:53,285 --> 00:01:56,185 narrator: The last one standing wins. 51 00:01:56,288 --> 00:01:58,635 - At what point do I touch the button? 52 00:01:58,739 --> 00:02:05,815 ♪ ♪ 53 00:02:25,628 --> 00:02:27,802 - Hmm, I'm gonna set that over here 54 00:02:27,906 --> 00:02:29,597 'cause that'll definitely dry. 55 00:02:30,322 --> 00:02:32,462 Smoking the underwear might not be all bad. 56 00:02:34,395 --> 00:02:37,053 One more try at warming my butt up, 57 00:02:37,157 --> 00:02:41,022 and then I'll have my cup of tea. 58 00:02:59,593 --> 00:03:00,904 All right. 59 00:03:01,008 --> 00:03:03,666 It's mostly my butt that's cold. 60 00:03:03,769 --> 00:03:05,495 ♪ ♪ 61 00:03:05,599 --> 00:03:07,463 Today is--it's a windy day. 62 00:03:07,566 --> 00:03:09,189 It's not a day to think about fishing, 63 00:03:09,292 --> 00:03:12,951 so we will get back to working on the shelter. 64 00:03:13,054 --> 00:03:15,505 Cool, so I guess the best analogy for this, then, 65 00:03:15,609 --> 00:03:18,025 is that we've basically framed the house, 66 00:03:18,128 --> 00:03:20,579 and now we get to shingle. 67 00:03:20,683 --> 00:03:23,168 We're gonna go around and collect 68 00:03:23,272 --> 00:03:25,446 all of the big sheets of bark 69 00:03:25,550 --> 00:03:28,622 that are just lying on the forest floor. 70 00:03:28,725 --> 00:03:33,765 ♪ ♪ 71 00:03:33,868 --> 00:03:36,492 All over is this fir. 72 00:03:37,769 --> 00:03:41,807 When it dies, it leaves these big huge sheets of bark, 73 00:03:41,911 --> 00:03:44,258 which is pretty awesome. 74 00:03:44,362 --> 00:03:49,090 So when I say shingle, 75 00:03:49,194 --> 00:03:50,885 this is what I mean. 76 00:03:50,989 --> 00:03:52,680 ♪ ♪ 77 00:03:52,784 --> 00:03:55,442 - The one limitation that I've probably most often run into 78 00:03:55,545 --> 00:03:57,375 in sort of these long-term living situations 79 00:03:57,478 --> 00:03:58,893 would be my size, 80 00:03:58,997 --> 00:04:02,311 and it is an advantage in the sense that, you know, 81 00:04:02,414 --> 00:04:06,038 you can function on a fairly low number of calories, 82 00:04:06,142 --> 00:04:08,869 lower than perhaps bigger people require. 83 00:04:08,972 --> 00:04:11,699 However, it does limit how much you can carry, 84 00:04:11,803 --> 00:04:13,460 how many trips you need to do. 85 00:04:13,563 --> 00:04:14,875 You know, you need to do five trips 86 00:04:14,978 --> 00:04:16,704 when someone else can do two. 87 00:04:16,808 --> 00:04:19,707 It limits how much physical activity 88 00:04:19,811 --> 00:04:22,158 you can really knock out in a day. 89 00:04:22,262 --> 00:04:24,194 ♪ ♪ 90 00:04:24,298 --> 00:04:26,438 These shingles will have to overlap, 91 00:04:26,542 --> 00:04:28,509 but we start at the bottom and go all the way around, 92 00:04:28,613 --> 00:04:30,925 and then we do another layer halfway up, 93 00:04:31,029 --> 00:04:32,272 and then we put pine duff on 94 00:04:32,375 --> 00:04:34,791 to fill in any of the fragments, 95 00:04:34,895 --> 00:04:36,483 provides a little bit of insulation. 96 00:04:36,586 --> 00:04:38,726 ♪ ♪ 97 00:04:38,830 --> 00:04:41,108 There's so many reasons I want to make a pit house. 98 00:04:41,211 --> 00:04:45,250 They are incredibly efficient at keeping in heat, 99 00:04:45,354 --> 00:04:49,979 and I cannot play fattest-man-wins game. 100 00:04:50,082 --> 00:04:53,948 ♪ ♪ 101 00:04:54,052 --> 00:04:57,124 I need a house where, when I'm in it, 102 00:04:57,227 --> 00:04:59,299 no extra calories are being burned 103 00:04:59,402 --> 00:05:02,750 because if you have a lot of wind on your fire, 104 00:05:02,854 --> 00:05:05,028 it just eats through firewood. 105 00:05:05,132 --> 00:05:07,272 Oof. 106 00:05:08,791 --> 00:05:12,277 All right, so if I sit on the stair, 107 00:05:12,381 --> 00:05:17,144 you can sort of see the skylight and the interior. 108 00:05:17,247 --> 00:05:21,321 And then this is our next big project: 109 00:05:21,424 --> 00:05:23,426 the fireplace and chimney. 110 00:05:23,530 --> 00:05:26,187 That's definitely in the cards, 111 00:05:26,291 --> 00:05:28,983 but that is a bloody fantastic day's work. 112 00:05:29,087 --> 00:05:30,330 That's what that is. 113 00:05:30,433 --> 00:05:37,440 ♪ ♪ 114 00:05:55,355 --> 00:05:56,908 - Here it comes. 115 00:05:57,011 --> 00:06:04,087 ♪ ♪ 116 00:06:12,544 --> 00:06:13,925 Lovely. 117 00:06:14,028 --> 00:06:15,271 ♪ ♪ 118 00:06:15,375 --> 00:06:18,101 Get some vitamin D released 119 00:06:18,205 --> 00:06:20,310 in this tiny patch of skin. 120 00:06:20,414 --> 00:06:23,244 ♪ ♪ 121 00:06:23,348 --> 00:06:24,418 It's amazing. 122 00:06:24,522 --> 00:06:27,490 ♪ ♪ 123 00:06:27,594 --> 00:06:30,251 I feel like I'm back in Hawaii, 124 00:06:30,355 --> 00:06:34,739 yet a lot colder and windier. 125 00:06:38,018 --> 00:06:39,882 ♪ 126 00:06:39,985 --> 00:06:43,782 It's been five days since I've had any meat at all, 127 00:06:43,886 --> 00:06:48,200 and I want to fish, but the wind is relentless. 128 00:06:48,304 --> 00:06:50,548 I can't get my set lines to stay out 129 00:06:50,651 --> 00:06:53,516 because the waves just push them right back to shore. 130 00:06:53,620 --> 00:06:55,587 I need to get my line out further, 131 00:06:55,691 --> 00:06:58,590 so I have an idea for a pier. 132 00:06:58,694 --> 00:07:00,005 The longest driftwoods 133 00:07:00,109 --> 00:07:03,215 that I see on my beach are about 30 feet, 134 00:07:03,319 --> 00:07:05,804 so my plan is to build something where I can 135 00:07:05,908 --> 00:07:09,946 just walk out at least 25 feet and drop a line. 136 00:07:10,050 --> 00:07:13,191 That offers me potential in bad weather. 137 00:07:13,294 --> 00:07:15,676 I can go out on my pier anytime, 138 00:07:15,780 --> 00:07:18,092 and I need deep water come winter 139 00:07:18,196 --> 00:07:19,577 because the fish are gonna push off. 140 00:07:19,680 --> 00:07:21,268 They're not gonna stay in the shallows. 141 00:07:21,371 --> 00:07:23,684 ♪ ♪ 142 00:07:23,788 --> 00:07:25,928 Very nice. 143 00:07:26,031 --> 00:07:27,688 Nice for a pier-sized peg. 144 00:07:27,792 --> 00:07:30,070 ♪ ♪ 145 00:07:30,173 --> 00:07:32,348 I want to utilize engineering 146 00:07:32,452 --> 00:07:34,592 instead of just building with logs 147 00:07:34,695 --> 00:07:37,146 and trying to tie that together with cordage, 148 00:07:37,249 --> 00:07:41,150 so I want to put together kind of a dovetail peg system. 149 00:07:41,253 --> 00:07:44,636 ♪ ♪ 150 00:07:44,740 --> 00:07:48,157 One done! I like it. 151 00:07:48,260 --> 00:07:49,572 Next! 152 00:07:52,955 --> 00:07:55,992 [as Arnold Schwarzenegger] Get to the chopper! 153 00:07:56,096 --> 00:07:57,787 [shouts as Arnold] 154 00:08:01,515 --> 00:08:03,966 My son does a better Arnold impression. 155 00:08:04,069 --> 00:08:05,623 ♪ ♪ 156 00:08:05,726 --> 00:08:07,590 I have a wonderful family of seven, 157 00:08:07,694 --> 00:08:10,075 my wife and five kids. 158 00:08:10,179 --> 00:08:11,594 When I'm successful at this challenge 159 00:08:11,698 --> 00:08:13,458 and I get the money, 160 00:08:13,562 --> 00:08:15,943 we can set sail, literally. 161 00:08:16,047 --> 00:08:18,912 My wife has the idea that we'll buy a boat 162 00:08:19,015 --> 00:08:21,155 and we'll hit the seas. 163 00:08:21,259 --> 00:08:22,536 That would be awesome. 164 00:08:22,640 --> 00:08:25,539 ♪ ♪ 165 00:08:25,643 --> 00:08:28,438 I reckon that's deep enough to catch a fish. 166 00:08:33,823 --> 00:08:35,204 All right. 167 00:08:35,307 --> 00:08:37,724 I'll give you one guess which way the wind's blowing. 168 00:08:45,352 --> 00:08:47,147 Let's straighten it out. 169 00:08:50,012 --> 00:08:51,876 Nope. 170 00:08:51,979 --> 00:08:54,223 It just comes right off of those snow-covered 171 00:08:54,326 --> 00:08:56,536 glacier mountains. 172 00:08:56,639 --> 00:08:59,262 I'm debating on waiting another day for the winds 173 00:08:59,366 --> 00:09:01,886 and waves to calm down to set this. 174 00:09:05,924 --> 00:09:09,134 That's the logical thing to do. 175 00:09:09,238 --> 00:09:16,245 ♪ ♪ 176 00:09:25,737 --> 00:09:27,912 - Can you see it behind me, over my shoulder? 177 00:09:40,372 --> 00:09:42,789 I can't tell, but it's back there. 178 00:09:45,205 --> 00:09:49,105 Right about here. 179 00:09:53,006 --> 00:09:54,870 Maybe here? No. Here. 180 00:09:57,148 --> 00:09:59,115 You can see my boat in the background. 181 00:09:59,219 --> 00:10:00,772 Sweetness. 182 00:10:00,876 --> 00:10:03,603 ♪ ♪ 183 00:10:03,706 --> 00:10:05,777 I've been working on building a boat. 184 00:10:05,881 --> 00:10:08,849 It's floating great, seems pretty solid, 185 00:10:08,953 --> 00:10:10,851 but it's not stable. 186 00:10:10,955 --> 00:10:14,303 It's very tippy, so I built outriggers 187 00:10:14,406 --> 00:10:16,443 so I have something coming off the boat 188 00:10:16,546 --> 00:10:18,031 that gives stability. 189 00:10:18,134 --> 00:10:20,481 So it's another point of contact on the water, 190 00:10:20,585 --> 00:10:22,449 so if you lean one way or lean the other, 191 00:10:22,552 --> 00:10:25,279 you have now multiple holds touching the water, 192 00:10:25,383 --> 00:10:27,799 and they give you kickback, and they hold you up. 193 00:10:28,800 --> 00:10:30,940 All right. 194 00:10:31,044 --> 00:10:33,149 You ready for the finished product? 195 00:10:33,253 --> 00:10:34,703 ♪ ♪ 196 00:10:34,806 --> 00:10:37,809 I built these outriggers just like I built the boat, 197 00:10:37,913 --> 00:10:40,570 so I have a frame, a fir frame, 198 00:10:40,674 --> 00:10:43,056 and I have ribs that are of alder, green alder, 199 00:10:43,159 --> 00:10:45,403 and thankfully, I had scrap tarp material 200 00:10:45,506 --> 00:10:46,853 to cover it with. 201 00:10:46,956 --> 00:10:48,820 Let's go get on the water. 202 00:10:48,924 --> 00:10:54,757 ♪ ♪ 203 00:10:54,861 --> 00:10:59,555 I think boats are a high-value and a high-risk entity. 204 00:10:59,659 --> 00:11:01,764 It is very dangerous to be out here, 205 00:11:01,868 --> 00:11:06,044 but if this works and it's dependable and safe, 206 00:11:06,148 --> 00:11:07,805 I think it's gonna give me an edge 207 00:11:07,908 --> 00:11:09,254 because I can get to places 208 00:11:09,358 --> 00:11:11,325 where the fish are migrating or moving through, 209 00:11:11,429 --> 00:11:13,396 so I'm not just limited to the bank. 210 00:11:13,500 --> 00:11:16,123 Oh! 211 00:11:16,227 --> 00:11:18,056 ♪ ♪ 212 00:11:18,160 --> 00:11:19,886 Yeah! 213 00:11:19,989 --> 00:11:22,129 ♪ ♪ 214 00:11:22,233 --> 00:11:24,166 We're stable. 215 00:11:24,269 --> 00:11:25,961 We're cruising. 216 00:11:26,064 --> 00:11:28,239 Yes, yes, yes. 217 00:11:28,342 --> 00:11:31,242 ♪ ♪ 218 00:11:31,345 --> 00:11:32,657 Whoo! 219 00:11:32,761 --> 00:11:39,664 ♪ ♪ 220 00:11:39,768 --> 00:11:42,356 Yes, yes, yes, yes. 221 00:11:42,460 --> 00:11:44,565 ♪ ♪ 222 00:11:44,669 --> 00:11:46,326 Big success. 223 00:11:46,429 --> 00:11:47,327 Love it. 224 00:11:47,430 --> 00:11:49,191 ♪ ♪ 225 00:11:49,294 --> 00:11:52,194 That was awesome. I'm gonna enjoy this moment. 226 00:11:52,297 --> 00:11:54,921 I haven't showered since I've been out here. 227 00:11:55,024 --> 00:11:57,820 I want to get in the water so bad and clean myself. 228 00:11:57,924 --> 00:12:02,238 ♪ ♪ 229 00:12:02,342 --> 00:12:04,965 I love this lifestyle, 230 00:12:05,069 --> 00:12:07,381 living by the Earth and the land. 231 00:12:07,485 --> 00:12:08,866 Oof! 232 00:12:08,969 --> 00:12:11,075 The pride and the fulfillment when things work, 233 00:12:11,178 --> 00:12:13,733 when your shelter works, when your boat works, 234 00:12:13,836 --> 00:12:15,010 when your bow drill works. 235 00:12:15,113 --> 00:12:16,770 ♪ ♪ 236 00:12:16,874 --> 00:12:18,910 It gives you so much joy, 237 00:12:19,014 --> 00:12:20,878 and I want to keep living it. 238 00:12:20,981 --> 00:12:23,156 Whoo! [laughs] 239 00:12:23,259 --> 00:12:24,709 ♪ ♪ 240 00:12:24,813 --> 00:12:26,642 Oh, that's refreshing. 241 00:12:26,746 --> 00:12:29,714 ♪ ♪ 242 00:12:29,818 --> 00:12:31,129 Oh. 243 00:12:32,682 --> 00:12:34,098 Holy, *bleep*. 244 00:12:34,201 --> 00:12:36,065 There's a grizz walking down the beach. 245 00:12:36,169 --> 00:12:40,552 ♪ ♪ 246 00:12:40,656 --> 00:12:43,348 Hey, bear! No! 247 00:12:49,389 --> 00:12:52,288 [dramatic music] 248 00:12:52,392 --> 00:12:59,433 ♪ ♪ 249 00:13:03,990 --> 00:13:05,129 - Hey, bear! 250 00:13:05,232 --> 00:13:07,925 ♪ ♪ 251 00:13:08,028 --> 00:13:11,860 Hey, bear! [clapping] 252 00:13:11,963 --> 00:13:13,689 Hey! 253 00:13:13,793 --> 00:13:16,519 He hasn't even stopped. He's still walking this way. 254 00:13:16,623 --> 00:13:18,211 ♪ ♪ 255 00:13:18,314 --> 00:13:20,661 Hey, bear! No! 256 00:13:20,765 --> 00:13:23,664 ♪ ♪ 257 00:13:23,768 --> 00:13:25,632 I can't believe I'm *bleep* naked, 258 00:13:25,735 --> 00:13:28,152 and a bear is freaking right there. 259 00:13:28,255 --> 00:13:29,912 I'm gonna have fire some bangers. 260 00:13:31,017 --> 00:13:33,088 [popping] 261 00:13:33,191 --> 00:13:36,574 ♪ ♪ 262 00:13:36,677 --> 00:13:38,990 Nothing. 263 00:13:39,094 --> 00:13:41,821 It's not good. 264 00:13:41,924 --> 00:13:44,306 Hey, bear! No! 265 00:13:44,409 --> 00:13:46,515 ♪ ♪ 266 00:13:46,618 --> 00:13:48,241 Man, I just got my boat done, 267 00:13:48,344 --> 00:13:49,898 and I don't want him to shred it. 268 00:13:50,001 --> 00:13:51,416 ♪ ♪ 269 00:13:51,520 --> 00:13:53,280 Hey, bear! 270 00:13:53,384 --> 00:13:54,488 No! 271 00:13:54,592 --> 00:13:57,319 ♪ ♪ 272 00:13:57,422 --> 00:13:58,389 No! 273 00:13:58,492 --> 00:14:03,497 ♪ ♪ 274 00:14:03,601 --> 00:14:06,259 *bleep*. He's coming. 275 00:14:06,362 --> 00:14:09,710 [popping] 276 00:14:09,814 --> 00:14:16,027 ♪ ♪ 277 00:14:16,131 --> 00:14:19,341 Come on. 278 00:14:19,444 --> 00:14:20,721 Get out of here. 279 00:14:20,825 --> 00:14:22,551 ♪ ♪ 280 00:14:22,654 --> 00:14:24,208 Hey, bear! No! 281 00:14:24,311 --> 00:14:29,730 ♪ ♪ 282 00:14:29,834 --> 00:14:32,147 Hey, bear! 283 00:14:32,250 --> 00:14:33,700 I'm over here! 284 00:14:33,803 --> 00:14:36,876 [claps] 285 00:14:36,979 --> 00:14:39,085 Nothing I seem to do seems to scare him off. 286 00:14:39,188 --> 00:14:41,397 ♪ ♪ 287 00:14:41,501 --> 00:14:42,847 Hey, bear! 288 00:14:42,951 --> 00:14:45,608 [clapping] 289 00:14:45,712 --> 00:14:46,851 ♪ ♪ 290 00:14:46,955 --> 00:14:48,163 Hey, bear! 291 00:14:48,266 --> 00:14:50,199 ♪ ♪ 292 00:14:50,303 --> 00:14:52,098 Ah, *bleep*! Hey! 293 00:14:52,201 --> 00:14:53,789 [claps] 294 00:14:53,893 --> 00:14:56,102 ♪ ♪ 295 00:14:56,205 --> 00:14:58,863 Hey, bear! 296 00:14:58,967 --> 00:15:00,416 Hello! 297 00:15:00,520 --> 00:15:02,246 ♪ ♪ 298 00:15:02,349 --> 00:15:05,905 [popping] 299 00:15:14,568 --> 00:15:16,260 I think he's out of here. 300 00:15:18,296 --> 00:15:21,506 Holy *bleep*. That was insane. 301 00:15:23,715 --> 00:15:27,443 I need to get clothes on. 302 00:15:27,547 --> 00:15:34,588 ♪ ♪ 303 00:15:41,871 --> 00:15:44,564 The bear encounter today definitely got me 304 00:15:44,667 --> 00:15:46,186 taking it a little more seriously. 305 00:15:46,290 --> 00:15:47,739 ♪ ♪ 306 00:15:47,843 --> 00:15:51,674 He didn't really care about me yelling, throwing rocks. 307 00:15:51,778 --> 00:15:54,091 Even the bear bangers, he was pretty indifferent. 308 00:15:55,402 --> 00:15:58,923 I'm in his territory, and I'm the foreigner here, 309 00:15:59,027 --> 00:16:01,029 and he just put me in my place. 310 00:16:01,132 --> 00:16:03,928 Literally, if it decided for some reason-- 311 00:16:04,032 --> 00:16:05,999 it was hungry, it was stressed, 312 00:16:06,103 --> 00:16:07,380 it was distressed-- 313 00:16:07,483 --> 00:16:08,829 there's nothing stopping it. 314 00:16:08,933 --> 00:16:10,762 If it wanted to at that moment, 315 00:16:10,866 --> 00:16:12,419 your life is gone. 316 00:16:13,869 --> 00:16:20,910 ♪ 317 00:16:33,647 --> 00:16:34,890 - [sighs] 318 00:16:41,138 --> 00:16:44,313 No fish this morning, but luckily, 319 00:16:44,417 --> 00:16:47,420 I've still got plenty of smoked trout. 320 00:17:00,916 --> 00:17:04,540 Just look at that. 321 00:17:04,644 --> 00:17:06,818 All these nice, thin strips. 322 00:17:06,922 --> 00:17:09,476 It is so unbelievably good. 323 00:17:15,586 --> 00:17:18,175 It doesn't need any seasoning or anything. 324 00:17:21,281 --> 00:17:27,563 ♪ 325 00:17:27,667 --> 00:17:32,361 I've never wired together a stick door before. 326 00:17:33,535 --> 00:17:36,400 So it's all a little new to me. 327 00:17:36,503 --> 00:17:38,988 ♪ ♪ 328 00:17:39,092 --> 00:17:42,302 I've got a real cabin. I want a real door. 329 00:17:42,406 --> 00:17:44,891 Psychologically, I don't want to feel like 330 00:17:44,994 --> 00:17:46,858 I'm on a camping trip. 331 00:17:46,962 --> 00:17:48,584 Oh, yeah. 332 00:17:48,688 --> 00:17:50,931 I want someplace that feels like home, 333 00:17:51,035 --> 00:17:53,762 something that has permanence to it. 334 00:17:53,865 --> 00:17:55,833 I just feel like it's gonna help me 335 00:17:55,936 --> 00:17:58,974 stick around long-term. 336 00:17:59,078 --> 00:18:03,772 Now I need to make some hinges for the wall, 337 00:18:03,875 --> 00:18:05,739 which is not easy considering 338 00:18:05,843 --> 00:18:08,639 I don't have any way to drill a hole, 339 00:18:08,742 --> 00:18:11,952 so I'm going to get creative with that. 340 00:18:12,056 --> 00:18:13,920 ♪ ♪ 341 00:18:14,023 --> 00:18:17,889 In typical fashion, I had not preplanned anything. 342 00:18:17,993 --> 00:18:20,168 I just know I want a door on hinges. 343 00:18:20,271 --> 00:18:21,686 ♪ ♪ 344 00:18:21,790 --> 00:18:26,105 Then I realized that I could use my saw 345 00:18:26,208 --> 00:18:27,313 to cut a notch 346 00:18:27,416 --> 00:18:29,556 and continually widen that notch 347 00:18:29,660 --> 00:18:31,765 to create almost, like, a hole, 348 00:18:31,869 --> 00:18:35,424 but it would work for a hinge. 349 00:18:35,528 --> 00:18:37,046 It's like that? 350 00:18:43,812 --> 00:18:45,710 I was able to find some alder branches around 351 00:18:45,814 --> 00:18:49,645 that have 90-degree bends that I wired onto the door. 352 00:18:49,749 --> 00:18:52,614 Alder is very strong for its size, 353 00:18:52,717 --> 00:18:54,719 and it has a little bit of flex to it, 354 00:18:54,823 --> 00:18:56,618 so it's not going to break. 355 00:18:56,721 --> 00:18:58,585 ♪ ♪ 356 00:18:58,689 --> 00:19:00,794 It's not the most elegant... 357 00:19:03,763 --> 00:19:06,628 But I have a door. 358 00:19:06,731 --> 00:19:08,768 As I'm putting all this together, 359 00:19:08,871 --> 00:19:10,942 I'm constantly thinking, like, 360 00:19:11,046 --> 00:19:13,428 "What if my wife was out here?" 361 00:19:13,531 --> 00:19:15,154 Well, she would want it neat and clean, 362 00:19:15,257 --> 00:19:17,535 and she would want a place to hang things. 363 00:19:17,639 --> 00:19:19,054 She would want something nice. 364 00:19:19,158 --> 00:19:20,538 ♪ ♪ 365 00:19:20,642 --> 00:19:22,816 All right. I'm gonna make a door latch. 366 00:19:22,920 --> 00:19:25,543 ♪ ♪ 367 00:19:25,647 --> 00:19:27,994 I'm thinking I can make a latch 368 00:19:28,097 --> 00:19:32,136 that will go in and turn and lock behind the logs. 369 00:19:32,240 --> 00:19:38,936 ♪ ♪ 370 00:19:39,039 --> 00:19:41,180 Yeah. 371 00:19:41,283 --> 00:19:42,388 There we go. 372 00:19:44,976 --> 00:19:47,220 Did I spend way too long on it? 373 00:19:47,324 --> 00:19:50,189 Absolutely I did, but here is my door. 374 00:19:52,363 --> 00:19:54,434 Knock, knock. Can I come in? 375 00:19:54,538 --> 00:19:57,541 Okay. Cool. 376 00:19:57,644 --> 00:19:58,852 Look at that. 377 00:20:04,927 --> 00:20:07,171 It's actually pretty *bleep* kickass. 378 00:20:07,275 --> 00:20:14,282 ♪ ♪ 379 00:20:23,325 --> 00:20:27,916 - It was about 10:00 last night. 380 00:20:28,019 --> 00:20:30,229 I don't know why I woke up, for some reason. 381 00:20:30,332 --> 00:20:31,506 That's rare. 382 00:20:31,609 --> 00:20:34,129 But dead calm. 383 00:20:34,233 --> 00:20:36,338 No wind. No waves. 384 00:20:36,442 --> 00:20:40,549 It stayed that way all night until about 6:30. 385 00:20:42,102 --> 00:20:44,519 And then it just started blowing, 386 00:20:44,622 --> 00:20:45,796 and the waves started crashing, 387 00:20:45,899 --> 00:20:49,662 so I think we're just gonna go for it. 388 00:20:49,765 --> 00:20:52,665 That means we're putting the pier in, 389 00:20:52,768 --> 00:20:55,115 wind or waves be damned. 390 00:20:55,219 --> 00:21:02,330 ♪ ♪ 391 00:21:03,331 --> 00:21:06,437 I've got to get off this shoreline to catch fish. 392 00:21:06,541 --> 00:21:10,199 I'm running down on my last bit of body fat. 393 00:21:10,303 --> 00:21:12,063 If I get the pier planks on it, 394 00:21:12,167 --> 00:21:14,411 that should be enough to hold everything in place, 395 00:21:14,514 --> 00:21:16,205 and then I can shimmy out there 396 00:21:16,309 --> 00:21:17,621 and set a set line. 397 00:21:17,724 --> 00:21:19,208 Then we'll start catching fish. 398 00:21:19,312 --> 00:21:21,452 ♪ ♪ 399 00:21:21,556 --> 00:21:23,420 It's a 1,000 foot deep lake. 400 00:21:23,523 --> 00:21:24,697 Glacier-fed, 401 00:21:24,800 --> 00:21:27,009 so the temperature is insanely cold. 402 00:21:27,113 --> 00:21:30,737 ♪ ♪ 403 00:21:39,125 --> 00:21:45,096 ♪ 404 00:21:45,200 --> 00:21:46,477 [exhales deeply] 405 00:21:46,581 --> 00:21:51,068 ♪ ♪ 406 00:21:51,171 --> 00:21:52,552 [grunts] 407 00:21:52,656 --> 00:21:53,898 [exhales sharply] 408 00:21:54,002 --> 00:21:55,900 ♪ ♪ 409 00:21:56,004 --> 00:21:58,178 Oh. 410 00:21:58,282 --> 00:22:02,873 [grunting] 411 00:22:02,976 --> 00:22:04,046 *bleep*. 412 00:22:04,150 --> 00:22:07,015 ♪ ♪ 413 00:22:11,364 --> 00:22:13,849 What the *bleep*? 414 00:22:13,953 --> 00:22:15,541 *bleep*. 415 00:22:15,644 --> 00:22:22,651 ♪ ♪ 416 00:22:26,621 --> 00:22:27,691 Damn. 417 00:22:27,794 --> 00:22:32,799 ♪ ♪ 418 00:22:32,903 --> 00:22:36,700 I made a mistake, which led to a failure. 419 00:22:36,803 --> 00:22:41,290 Forgot to put that joist, that little pressure joist, 420 00:22:41,394 --> 00:22:44,708 at the top of those leans, 421 00:22:44,811 --> 00:22:48,712 forcing the middle one tighter so it wouldn't fall out. 422 00:22:48,815 --> 00:22:50,645 And it fell out. I bumped it, and it fell out. 423 00:22:50,748 --> 00:22:53,164 I knew it. 424 00:22:53,268 --> 00:22:54,442 I picked it up, and I knew it, 425 00:22:54,545 --> 00:22:55,926 but I was already down to nothing, 426 00:22:56,029 --> 00:22:58,929 so I forced it, and I should've stopped, got dressed. 427 00:22:59,032 --> 00:23:00,655 ♪ ♪ 428 00:23:00,758 --> 00:23:01,794 It's silly. 429 00:23:01,897 --> 00:23:04,072 ♪ ♪ 430 00:23:04,175 --> 00:23:05,798 Silly. 431 00:23:05,901 --> 00:23:07,282 I think the biggest fear 432 00:23:07,386 --> 00:23:10,665 we face, usually, is the fear of failure, 433 00:23:10,768 --> 00:23:14,013 and I think that holds a lot of people back. 434 00:23:14,116 --> 00:23:17,085 If you don't accept failure as a part of your journey, 435 00:23:17,188 --> 00:23:18,914 then you'll never find success. 436 00:23:19,018 --> 00:23:20,606 I appreciate the failure 437 00:23:20,709 --> 00:23:23,471 because that's the only lesson you're actually gonna learn, 438 00:23:23,574 --> 00:23:25,196 and I know how to handle failure, 439 00:23:25,300 --> 00:23:26,922 to be optimistic. 440 00:23:27,026 --> 00:23:29,269 Do you give up after your first failure? 441 00:23:29,373 --> 00:23:31,237 I don't. I don't give up at all. 442 00:23:31,340 --> 00:23:33,273 ♪ ♪ 443 00:23:33,377 --> 00:23:37,243 So I've got some work to do... 444 00:23:39,659 --> 00:23:42,490 Before I do that again. 445 00:23:42,593 --> 00:23:49,600 ♪ ♪ 446 00:24:05,927 --> 00:24:07,411 - I'll be so happy. 447 00:24:10,034 --> 00:24:11,588 I'll stay forever. 448 00:24:15,419 --> 00:24:18,353 Pretty much, if I have a bed and a dry spot, 449 00:24:18,457 --> 00:24:21,252 I'm in general pretty damned happy, 450 00:24:21,356 --> 00:24:24,152 so I'm gonna attempt to make the bed. 451 00:24:24,255 --> 00:24:25,740 We'll start with the frame. 452 00:24:25,843 --> 00:24:28,881 This post is just the right height. 453 00:24:28,984 --> 00:24:31,262 I'm gonna lash this all down 454 00:24:31,366 --> 00:24:33,333 so they don't move around all the time. 455 00:24:33,437 --> 00:24:35,266 ♪ ♪ 456 00:24:35,370 --> 00:24:37,061 Good. 457 00:24:37,165 --> 00:24:39,650 I have been in the outdoors, 458 00:24:39,754 --> 00:24:42,895 rather immersed in it, from the time I was a child. 459 00:24:42,998 --> 00:24:44,828 I'm originally from Wyoming, 460 00:24:44,931 --> 00:24:46,692 from a tiny town called Lander. 461 00:24:46,795 --> 00:24:48,279 ♪ ♪ 462 00:24:48,383 --> 00:24:51,351 So I'm sure that you have noticed my accent 463 00:24:51,455 --> 00:24:53,940 is not exactly from Wyoming. 464 00:24:54,044 --> 00:24:57,357 I have lived now in England for 11 years, 465 00:24:57,461 --> 00:24:59,912 long enough to sound funny in both places. 466 00:25:00,015 --> 00:25:02,052 I don't sound American to Americans. 467 00:25:02,155 --> 00:25:04,917 I do not sound British to British people either. 468 00:25:05,020 --> 00:25:07,540 They're not quite sure what I am or where I'm from, 469 00:25:07,644 --> 00:25:09,197 but it's not fooling anyone. 470 00:25:09,300 --> 00:25:11,095 ♪ ♪ 471 00:25:11,199 --> 00:25:14,582 Everything is golden, and then we cover the bed 472 00:25:14,685 --> 00:25:17,895 in grass and then pine boughs, and then we have a bed. 473 00:25:17,999 --> 00:25:19,241 It's a usable bed at this point. 474 00:25:19,345 --> 00:25:21,968 It just needs the squishy bit put on now. 475 00:25:24,212 --> 00:25:25,351 Yeah. 476 00:25:28,665 --> 00:25:35,672 ♪ 477 00:25:41,574 --> 00:25:44,646 I feel--I feel odd. 478 00:25:44,750 --> 00:25:46,614 Actually, it's been a really long time 479 00:25:46,717 --> 00:25:48,995 since I felt this feeling, 480 00:25:49,099 --> 00:25:51,929 but I think I'm potentially 481 00:25:52,033 --> 00:25:54,449 a little bit homesick right now. 482 00:25:54,553 --> 00:25:56,831 ♪ ♪ 483 00:25:56,934 --> 00:26:00,420 And I'm not 100% sure, for me, what that means. 484 00:26:00,524 --> 00:26:02,630 Like, what home am I longing for? 485 00:26:02,733 --> 00:26:04,908 ♪ ♪ 486 00:26:05,011 --> 00:26:08,394 I need to, I think, acknowledge the fact that I miss something 487 00:26:08,497 --> 00:26:13,226 from back in my other life, 488 00:26:13,330 --> 00:26:14,883 my life before "Alone." 489 00:26:14,987 --> 00:26:18,438 [laughs] 490 00:26:18,542 --> 00:26:21,441 [humming soft melody] 491 00:26:21,545 --> 00:26:27,586 ♪ ♪ 492 00:26:27,689 --> 00:26:32,798 ♪ I am just ♪ 493 00:26:32,901 --> 00:26:38,148 ♪ A lonely soul ♪ 494 00:26:38,251 --> 00:26:42,877 ♪ So where, I ask ♪ 495 00:26:42,980 --> 00:26:47,951 ♪ Shall I call my ♪ 496 00:26:48,054 --> 00:26:53,059 ♪ Home? ♪ 497 00:26:57,443 --> 00:26:58,789 [chuckles] 498 00:27:05,934 --> 00:27:08,834 [dramatic music] 499 00:27:08,937 --> 00:27:15,944 ♪ ♪ 500 00:27:29,855 --> 00:27:32,340 - Good morning. 501 00:27:32,443 --> 00:27:35,170 [yawns] 502 00:27:35,274 --> 00:27:37,966 I had some food dreams last night. 503 00:27:38,070 --> 00:27:40,210 Oh, that's terrible. This early? 504 00:27:41,660 --> 00:27:44,283 Ay. 505 00:27:44,386 --> 00:27:47,148 [scoffs] 506 00:27:47,251 --> 00:27:50,289 I was in a football tournament, 507 00:27:50,392 --> 00:27:52,325 and they had a room... 508 00:27:54,086 --> 00:27:56,260 That everybody could go to and just... 509 00:27:56,364 --> 00:27:59,263 [laughs] 510 00:27:59,367 --> 00:28:02,094 Eat all they wanted. 511 00:28:02,197 --> 00:28:04,372 Aww. 512 00:28:07,375 --> 00:28:09,135 [yawns] 513 00:28:09,239 --> 00:28:12,483 So I'm trying to block it out, 514 00:28:12,587 --> 00:28:15,659 try and get some food of my own out here. 515 00:28:15,763 --> 00:28:20,837 ♪ ♪ 516 00:28:20,940 --> 00:28:22,286 Mom told me before I left, 517 00:28:22,390 --> 00:28:25,048 the last thing was to look at the moon, 518 00:28:25,151 --> 00:28:28,396 and know I'm looking at the same thing. 519 00:28:28,499 --> 00:28:30,018 We'll be looking at the same time. 520 00:28:30,122 --> 00:28:31,537 ♪ ♪ 521 00:28:31,640 --> 00:28:34,126 I really want to make my mom and dad proud. 522 00:28:34,229 --> 00:28:36,369 They've always loved and supported me. 523 00:28:36,473 --> 00:28:38,958 They're my biggest fans. 524 00:28:39,062 --> 00:28:40,857 I want to do well for them. 525 00:28:40,960 --> 00:28:42,651 ♪ ♪ 526 00:28:42,755 --> 00:28:45,551 Oh, yeah. 527 00:28:45,654 --> 00:28:47,933 I've got a lot of faith in this boat. 528 00:28:48,036 --> 00:28:50,452 ♪ ♪ 529 00:28:50,556 --> 00:28:54,836 This boat is amazing. I love it. It's solid. 530 00:28:54,940 --> 00:28:57,528 The outriggers are working perfect. 531 00:28:57,632 --> 00:28:59,876 I feel like I can go anywhere now, 532 00:28:59,979 --> 00:29:01,463 So I'm gonna go for it. 533 00:29:01,567 --> 00:29:04,087 ♪ ♪ 534 00:29:04,190 --> 00:29:06,503 Going for a white fish. 535 00:29:09,989 --> 00:29:15,857 ♪ 536 00:29:15,961 --> 00:29:19,378 My dad and I used to fish bull trout in Oregon. 537 00:29:22,484 --> 00:29:25,764 Spent a lot of hours trolling with my dad, 538 00:29:25,867 --> 00:29:28,387 days and days of my life. 539 00:29:28,490 --> 00:29:30,113 I'd love to be trolling with him. 540 00:29:34,427 --> 00:29:35,497 I got a hit. 541 00:29:35,601 --> 00:29:37,361 ♪ ♪ 542 00:29:37,465 --> 00:29:41,089 Fish today, baby. Fish today. Come on, fish. Let's do it. 543 00:29:41,193 --> 00:29:42,642 ♪ ♪ 544 00:29:42,746 --> 00:29:45,611 Holy *bleep*. I might have done it. 545 00:29:45,714 --> 00:29:47,613 Yes! Yes, yes! 546 00:29:47,716 --> 00:29:49,684 ♪ ♪ 547 00:29:49,788 --> 00:29:52,791 Dang it! *bleep*! Ah! 548 00:29:59,107 --> 00:30:02,524 Ahh! So close. 549 00:30:02,628 --> 00:30:08,116 ♪ ♪ 550 00:30:09,773 --> 00:30:11,395 ♪ 551 00:30:11,499 --> 00:30:14,122 My dad is what got me into this lifestyle. 552 00:30:14,226 --> 00:30:15,365 He introduced me at a young age 553 00:30:15,468 --> 00:30:16,504 to the outdoors, 554 00:30:16,607 --> 00:30:18,230 into hunting, into fishing, 555 00:30:18,333 --> 00:30:21,474 eating wild game, being outdoors, camping. 556 00:30:21,578 --> 00:30:25,306 And I loved it. This is life! 557 00:30:25,409 --> 00:30:28,688 I've been out here for at least three hours. 558 00:30:28,792 --> 00:30:32,106 I've had four bites, no hook-ups, no fish. 559 00:30:32,209 --> 00:30:33,797 ♪ ♪ 560 00:30:33,901 --> 00:30:36,593 I connect with my body through this lifestyle. 561 00:30:36,696 --> 00:30:38,698 I connect with my mind and my heart 562 00:30:38,802 --> 00:30:40,804 more than any other living situation 563 00:30:40,908 --> 00:30:42,047 I've ever had in my life. 564 00:30:42,150 --> 00:30:43,772 ♪ ♪ 565 00:30:43,876 --> 00:30:47,431 It's physically, emotionally, intellectually, 566 00:30:47,535 --> 00:30:50,641 socially more stimulating than the alternative. 567 00:31:13,906 --> 00:31:16,805 ♪ 568 00:31:16,909 --> 00:31:20,740 Yes! It came off right in the boat. 569 00:31:20,844 --> 00:31:22,915 Ha, ha! 570 00:31:23,019 --> 00:31:24,848 Hey. 571 00:31:24,952 --> 00:31:28,231 Hey, I'll take it. I'll take it. Yes! 572 00:31:28,334 --> 00:31:29,473 ♪ ♪ 573 00:31:29,577 --> 00:31:31,027 Oh, thank you, fish. 574 00:31:31,130 --> 00:31:32,960 God, I needed a fish today. 575 00:31:33,063 --> 00:31:36,308 ♪ ♪ 576 00:31:36,411 --> 00:31:38,344 I needed a fish today. 577 00:31:38,448 --> 00:31:40,760 ♪ ♪ 578 00:31:40,864 --> 00:31:43,315 I am gonna invest all in right now on fish 579 00:31:43,418 --> 00:31:45,489 because I think that's the best use of my calories. 580 00:31:45,593 --> 00:31:47,422 That's the best use of my time. 581 00:31:47,526 --> 00:31:50,460 I'm gonna go fish. 582 00:31:50,563 --> 00:31:53,359 All right, just need to catch one a day for the next 80 days. 583 00:31:53,463 --> 00:31:54,740 ♪ ♪ 584 00:31:54,843 --> 00:31:57,294 This boat is not gonna have a single focus. 585 00:31:57,398 --> 00:31:58,951 I am gonna troll out of this boat. 586 00:31:59,055 --> 00:32:00,194 I'm gonna jig out of this boat. 587 00:32:00,297 --> 00:32:01,609 I'm gonna anchor up in this boat. 588 00:32:01,712 --> 00:32:03,991 I'm gonna set fish traps at 20 feet, 30 feet, 589 00:32:04,094 --> 00:32:05,337 50 feet, 100 feet. 590 00:32:05,440 --> 00:32:07,615 I'm gonna spend a lot of time in this boat. 591 00:32:09,134 --> 00:32:11,274 Let's go eat some fish. 592 00:32:11,377 --> 00:32:18,419 ♪ ♪ 593 00:32:23,907 --> 00:32:27,462 - I've heard what a great smoke 594 00:32:27,566 --> 00:32:29,361 this kinnikinnick is. 595 00:32:30,603 --> 00:32:32,571 And I don't smoke, 596 00:32:32,674 --> 00:32:36,023 but I figured I'd give it a shot, 597 00:32:36,126 --> 00:32:39,923 so I'm gonna take this random piece of driftwood, 598 00:32:40,027 --> 00:32:42,788 and I'm just gonna make a pipe 599 00:32:42,891 --> 00:32:45,446 or attempt to make a little pipe out of it, 600 00:32:45,549 --> 00:32:48,967 and I've got two cameras just in case I cut myself. 601 00:32:49,070 --> 00:32:50,520 Double the fun. 602 00:32:50,623 --> 00:32:52,694 ♪ ♪ 603 00:32:52,798 --> 00:32:55,594 Mentally, the biggest strategy for me 604 00:32:55,697 --> 00:32:57,044 is keep my hands busy, 605 00:32:57,147 --> 00:33:00,530 keep building things, keep working on things, 606 00:33:00,633 --> 00:33:02,911 and that will keep my mind distracted 607 00:33:03,015 --> 00:33:04,913 away from what's going on back home. 608 00:33:05,017 --> 00:33:06,018 ♪ ♪ 609 00:33:06,122 --> 00:33:09,677 I guess I got to bore down a hole 610 00:33:09,780 --> 00:33:13,543 with which to put tobaccy. 611 00:33:13,646 --> 00:33:17,029 ♪ ♪ 612 00:33:17,133 --> 00:33:20,446 There's probably better options than to stab 613 00:33:20,550 --> 00:33:21,827 right through my quad. 614 00:33:21,930 --> 00:33:23,656 ♪ ♪ 615 00:33:23,760 --> 00:33:27,902 I have to not allow myself to think about those things 616 00:33:28,006 --> 00:33:30,560 because if I think about my wife and my son 617 00:33:30,663 --> 00:33:34,978 and make that the pinnacle of why I'm out here 618 00:33:35,082 --> 00:33:38,671 and really push to succeed for them, 619 00:33:38,775 --> 00:33:41,157 then my constant thoughts about them 620 00:33:41,260 --> 00:33:43,159 will make me miss them 621 00:33:43,262 --> 00:33:46,093 and will distract me from surviving. 622 00:33:46,196 --> 00:33:48,198 Not a bad little pipe. 623 00:33:48,302 --> 00:33:51,891 Let's get that kinnikinnick out and pack it up. 624 00:33:52,823 --> 00:33:54,860 I need to be mentally strong 625 00:33:54,963 --> 00:33:58,174 because I have been presented 626 00:33:58,277 --> 00:34:01,660 with a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. 627 00:34:01,763 --> 00:34:03,144 It's pretty crumbly. 628 00:34:03,248 --> 00:34:04,939 And if I don't win, 629 00:34:05,043 --> 00:34:07,976 I feel like I'd be doing a disservice to my family. 630 00:34:08,080 --> 00:34:11,842 That $1/2 million would allow me 631 00:34:11,946 --> 00:34:14,500 to pay off all of our bills 632 00:34:14,604 --> 00:34:16,088 and have money left over. 633 00:34:16,192 --> 00:34:17,779 ♪ ♪ 634 00:34:17,883 --> 00:34:20,403 That would allow me to work even less 635 00:34:20,506 --> 00:34:22,646 and spend even more time with my family. 636 00:34:22,750 --> 00:34:28,204 ♪ ♪ 637 00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:36,281 That's not bad. 638 00:34:36,384 --> 00:34:37,592 Huh! 639 00:34:42,770 --> 00:34:45,738 All right. What's up next? 640 00:34:48,224 --> 00:34:55,231 ♪ 641 00:35:08,520 --> 00:35:10,177 [squirrel chittering] 642 00:35:10,280 --> 00:35:12,282 - There he is. 643 00:35:12,386 --> 00:35:15,837 [mimicking squirrel chittering] 644 00:35:18,599 --> 00:35:20,256 [squirrel chitters] 645 00:35:20,359 --> 00:35:21,843 We say hello every morning. 646 00:35:24,915 --> 00:35:26,193 So... 647 00:35:30,542 --> 00:35:33,890 If you believe that you can talk to animals, 648 00:35:33,993 --> 00:35:38,032 meaning communicate your thought energy in your sound 649 00:35:38,136 --> 00:35:41,104 or in your voice, 650 00:35:41,208 --> 00:35:43,658 do you think that if you mean no harm, 651 00:35:43,762 --> 00:35:45,626 they can read that? 652 00:35:45,729 --> 00:35:48,284 I'd like to believe so. 653 00:35:48,387 --> 00:35:51,494 I'd like to believe I'm sending good vibes out 654 00:35:51,597 --> 00:35:54,152 to the local wildlife. 655 00:35:55,222 --> 00:35:57,707 Unfortunately, the vibes that I'm sending out to the grouse 656 00:35:57,810 --> 00:36:00,986 and the hare is that I want to eat them, 657 00:36:01,089 --> 00:36:03,989 and therefore, they're like, "I'm gonna avoid that man." 658 00:36:05,335 --> 00:36:07,820 I tried asking the eagle this morning to bring me a fish, 659 00:36:07,924 --> 00:36:09,857 but he didn't turn around. 660 00:36:09,960 --> 00:36:17,002 ♪ ♪ 661 00:36:43,753 --> 00:36:49,897 ♪ 662 00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:51,830 I have an idea. 663 00:36:51,933 --> 00:36:53,314 For pier number one, 664 00:36:53,418 --> 00:36:56,386 I chose just to block it like Lincoln Logs 665 00:36:56,490 --> 00:36:59,527 and then put a middle brace between it, 666 00:36:59,631 --> 00:37:02,668 but I realized that was my fail point, 667 00:37:02,772 --> 00:37:04,981 and my initial H is pegged. 668 00:37:05,084 --> 00:37:07,086 It's fantastic, solid, 669 00:37:07,190 --> 00:37:10,469 so I decide to peg my supports into the main. 670 00:37:10,573 --> 00:37:13,058 ♪ ♪ 671 00:37:13,161 --> 00:37:17,027 We're on mission set right now, which is find food. 672 00:37:17,131 --> 00:37:19,961 So do everything we can to get food, 673 00:37:20,065 --> 00:37:22,930 and that includes beat the elements. 674 00:37:23,033 --> 00:37:26,520 ♪ ♪ 675 00:37:26,623 --> 00:37:28,349 All right. It's time. 676 00:37:28,453 --> 00:37:35,460 ♪ ♪ 677 00:37:45,263 --> 00:37:46,471 Beautiful. 678 00:37:46,574 --> 00:37:50,026 ♪ ♪ 679 00:37:50,129 --> 00:37:51,303 When you're in the wild 680 00:37:51,407 --> 00:37:53,340 and you're in a survival situation, 681 00:37:53,443 --> 00:37:56,032 if you don't have the ability to pivot 682 00:37:56,135 --> 00:37:58,897 when things don't go the way you planned, 683 00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:00,761 then it's gonna be a struggle, 684 00:38:00,864 --> 00:38:02,970 and that's where I think creative problem-solving 685 00:38:03,073 --> 00:38:04,627 comes into play. 686 00:38:04,730 --> 00:38:07,630 ♪ ♪ 687 00:38:07,733 --> 00:38:10,288 This is a huge stepping-stone for me, 688 00:38:10,391 --> 00:38:12,807 to be able to walk out 25 feet 689 00:38:12,911 --> 00:38:15,189 because I know there's gonna be fish. 690 00:38:15,293 --> 00:38:16,846 This is where I start thriving. 691 00:38:16,949 --> 00:38:19,745 ♪ ♪ 692 00:38:19,849 --> 00:38:23,508 Oh, wow. 693 00:38:23,611 --> 00:38:24,612 Awesome. 694 00:38:28,823 --> 00:38:31,723 [dramatic music] 695 00:38:31,826 --> 00:38:38,833 ♪ ♪ 696 00:38:56,230 --> 00:38:59,026 - Seaweed. 697 00:38:59,129 --> 00:39:01,511 I'll start small, just eat one. 698 00:39:06,274 --> 00:39:09,277 Hmm. 699 00:39:09,381 --> 00:39:10,417 It's crunchy. 700 00:39:18,873 --> 00:39:22,463 Yeah, it doesn't taste good. Mm-mm. 701 00:39:22,567 --> 00:39:24,500 It's time to get back to work. 702 00:39:24,603 --> 00:39:26,433 ♪ ♪ 703 00:39:26,536 --> 00:39:29,228 I'm having zero success fishing. 704 00:39:29,332 --> 00:39:31,714 I need to really finish the fish basket. 705 00:39:31,817 --> 00:39:34,475 Since I can't catch a larger trout, 706 00:39:34,579 --> 00:39:37,513 I can hopefully get some smaller fish with this basket 707 00:39:37,616 --> 00:39:40,516 and maybe cook those up and make a stew out of those. 708 00:39:40,619 --> 00:39:43,001 I'm gonna wrap this with cordage just to make sure 709 00:39:43,104 --> 00:39:47,005 it stays the shape that I want. 710 00:39:47,108 --> 00:39:49,214 A fish basket has two baskets, 711 00:39:49,317 --> 00:39:51,596 a smaller basket inside of a larger basket. 712 00:39:51,699 --> 00:39:55,185 It's a cone shape, and once they swim into it, 713 00:39:55,289 --> 00:39:56,842 they can't figure out how to turn around 714 00:39:56,946 --> 00:39:58,154 and swim back out the same hole 715 00:39:58,257 --> 00:39:59,431 that they came in. 716 00:39:59,535 --> 00:40:01,813 Yeah, I think that's gonna be all right there. 717 00:40:01,916 --> 00:40:03,642 I'm not really that far into it, 718 00:40:03,746 --> 00:40:05,644 and I've already lost quite a bit of weight, 719 00:40:05,748 --> 00:40:07,474 so I have to get some food. 720 00:40:07,577 --> 00:40:11,201 I have to find a better way to get a fish. 721 00:40:11,305 --> 00:40:14,826 This lake is just extremely difficult. 722 00:40:14,929 --> 00:40:16,448 I can't get my line out far enough. 723 00:40:16,552 --> 00:40:18,070 My lures aren't working. 724 00:40:18,174 --> 00:40:20,141 I have to get food soon. 725 00:40:20,245 --> 00:40:23,904 If I don't, I can't keep enough weight on. 726 00:40:24,939 --> 00:40:28,115 There's so much I wanted to do and make while I was here, 727 00:40:28,218 --> 00:40:31,014 but I feel like I'm forced to get things done 728 00:40:31,118 --> 00:40:33,258 so that I can get food. 729 00:40:33,361 --> 00:40:39,644 ♪ ♪ 730 00:40:39,747 --> 00:40:40,921 I knew coming in here 731 00:40:41,024 --> 00:40:43,199 that I move so fast through life 732 00:40:43,302 --> 00:40:46,167 that my thoughts don't really get to catch up with me. 733 00:40:46,271 --> 00:40:48,376 Ah, it's gonna have to have a rock on it. 734 00:40:48,480 --> 00:40:49,688 ♪ ♪ 735 00:40:49,792 --> 00:40:52,933 I think that if you want to clear your mind 736 00:40:53,036 --> 00:40:54,831 and sort things out, 737 00:40:54,935 --> 00:40:57,662 the wilderness is definitely the place to do that. 738 00:40:57,765 --> 00:40:59,180 ♪ ♪ 739 00:40:59,284 --> 00:41:01,424 I need to it to be out there way farther. 740 00:41:01,528 --> 00:41:02,943 ♪ ♪ 741 00:41:03,046 --> 00:41:06,015 All I keep thinking about is my family. 742 00:41:06,118 --> 00:41:08,776 My children are so worried about me. 743 00:41:08,880 --> 00:41:10,778 It's like they're my parents. 744 00:41:10,882 --> 00:41:13,712 I think because of the things that I went through, 745 00:41:13,816 --> 00:41:15,196 been through a lot of ups and downs 746 00:41:15,300 --> 00:41:18,406 and some very rough situations in my life, 747 00:41:18,510 --> 00:41:21,409 and I think they just don't want to see me get hurt, 748 00:41:21,513 --> 00:41:23,722 but all of those different situations, 749 00:41:23,826 --> 00:41:25,966 I just learned to adapt. 750 00:41:26,069 --> 00:41:29,694 Okay, the fish basket is submerged. 751 00:41:29,797 --> 00:41:31,419 ♪ ♪ 752 00:41:31,523 --> 00:41:33,076 I'm very resilient. 753 00:41:33,180 --> 00:41:34,871 Nothing is gonna knock me off my path. 754 00:41:34,975 --> 00:41:37,564 I'm just gonna pick myself up, and I'm gonna keep going. 755 00:41:37,667 --> 00:41:40,532 And I always come back even stronger than I was. 756 00:41:41,878 --> 00:41:42,879 [stomach growls] 757 00:41:46,158 --> 00:41:53,200 ♪ 758 00:42:12,668 --> 00:42:16,085 - That's the benefit to having a mustache like a walrus. 759 00:42:17,431 --> 00:42:19,398 It filters everything out of your water. 760 00:42:20,365 --> 00:42:22,056 All the large stuff. 761 00:42:25,577 --> 00:42:28,028 The only problem is kissing the wife. 762 00:42:32,239 --> 00:42:34,724 Maybe I'll shave my beard off when I go home. 763 00:42:38,072 --> 00:42:45,114 ♪ 764 00:42:49,428 --> 00:42:51,120 Let's go see if there's a fish. 765 00:42:58,714 --> 00:43:02,096 Oh, my God. Think I got a fish! 766 00:43:02,200 --> 00:43:03,857 ♪ ♪ 767 00:43:03,960 --> 00:43:05,341 Look at that. 768 00:43:12,417 --> 00:43:19,079 ♪ 769 00:43:19,182 --> 00:43:20,494 Easy, fella. 770 00:43:20,598 --> 00:43:22,772 ♪ ♪ 771 00:43:22,876 --> 00:43:24,429 That's a rainbow. 772 00:43:24,532 --> 00:43:26,293 ♪ ♪ 773 00:43:26,396 --> 00:43:28,847 Rainbow trout. 774 00:43:28,951 --> 00:43:31,919 It's promising. That's what that is. 775 00:43:32,023 --> 00:43:39,030 ♪ ♪ 776 00:43:41,066 --> 00:43:44,207 Cooking up this tiny little guy. 777 00:43:44,311 --> 00:43:47,348 So we're gonna eat every single piece of him, 778 00:43:47,452 --> 00:43:49,419 for sure. 779 00:43:49,523 --> 00:43:50,973 ♪ ♪ 780 00:43:51,076 --> 00:43:52,319 I'm excited. 781 00:43:52,422 --> 00:43:54,804 ♪ ♪ 782 00:43:54,908 --> 00:43:56,944 It's not gonna take much to get this guy done. 783 00:43:57,048 --> 00:44:00,085 ♪ ♪ 784 00:44:00,189 --> 00:44:01,535 Wonderful. 785 00:44:01,639 --> 00:44:07,196 ♪ ♪ 786 00:44:07,299 --> 00:44:08,611 That was his tail. 787 00:44:08,715 --> 00:44:15,653 ♪ ♪ 788 00:44:16,619 --> 00:44:18,932 Told you. 789 00:44:19,035 --> 00:44:20,416 Every piece. 790 00:44:20,519 --> 00:44:23,522 ♪ ♪ 791 00:44:23,626 --> 00:44:25,697 All the way down to the lips. 792 00:44:25,801 --> 00:44:28,631 I know who I am, and I don't have any doubt 793 00:44:28,735 --> 00:44:32,704 about my capability to succeed in a challenge. 794 00:44:32,808 --> 00:44:34,810 Wow. 795 00:44:34,913 --> 00:44:38,123 That was a fast, fast meal. 796 00:44:38,227 --> 00:44:41,851 I'm just an out-of-the-box thinker and problem-solver. 797 00:44:41,955 --> 00:44:44,785 Perfect. 798 00:44:44,889 --> 00:44:47,719 And I'll figure out a way to succeed, 799 00:44:47,823 --> 00:44:51,309 and I don't have that quit in me when there's a struggle. 800 00:44:57,764 --> 00:45:00,732 [dramatic music] 801 00:45:00,836 --> 00:45:07,843 ♪ ♪ 802 00:45:17,956 --> 00:45:19,613 [insect buzzes] 803 00:45:19,717 --> 00:45:21,822 - Oh, yeah, bug right in the eye, 804 00:45:21,926 --> 00:45:23,686 right when I'm about to talk. 805 00:45:23,790 --> 00:45:24,929 Mm. 806 00:45:27,138 --> 00:45:29,312 While I'm waiting for my boiled water to cool, 807 00:45:29,416 --> 00:45:31,211 I'm gonna put the one final 808 00:45:31,314 --> 00:45:33,938 most important touch on the cabin, 809 00:45:34,041 --> 00:45:36,941 and that is our family initials. 810 00:45:37,044 --> 00:45:39,426 ♪ ♪ 811 00:45:39,529 --> 00:45:43,361 So I'm gonna put that on the ridge beam, 812 00:45:43,464 --> 00:45:44,742 J, J, O, A. 813 00:45:44,845 --> 00:45:47,261 ♪ ♪ 814 00:45:47,365 --> 00:45:49,056 We put that on everything. 815 00:45:49,160 --> 00:45:51,645 That's inscribed on our wedding bands. 816 00:45:51,749 --> 00:45:54,475 My wife inscribed it on my ax handle. 817 00:45:54,579 --> 00:45:55,822 ♪ ♪ 818 00:45:55,925 --> 00:45:58,410 It's on everything. 819 00:45:58,514 --> 00:46:02,898 Now the O is going to be the fun one, 820 00:46:03,001 --> 00:46:04,727 all curve. 821 00:46:04,831 --> 00:46:08,075 ♪ ♪ 822 00:46:08,179 --> 00:46:09,352 That's better. 823 00:46:09,456 --> 00:46:14,047 ♪ ♪ 824 00:46:14,150 --> 00:46:16,532 Now the cabin is complete. 825 00:46:18,016 --> 00:46:21,192 Julia, Jordon, Odin, Aura, 826 00:46:21,295 --> 00:46:22,849 the initials of my wife, 827 00:46:22,952 --> 00:46:25,886 myself, my son, and my daughter. 828 00:46:27,612 --> 00:46:32,030 ♪ 829 00:46:32,134 --> 00:46:34,757 [sighs] 830 00:46:34,861 --> 00:46:38,761 ♪ ♪ 831 00:46:44,940 --> 00:46:48,357 I just had a moment 832 00:46:48,460 --> 00:46:50,566 thinking about my daughter, 833 00:46:50,669 --> 00:46:54,156 and it gets easier 834 00:46:54,259 --> 00:46:56,503 as time goes on, 835 00:46:56,606 --> 00:47:00,541 but I still have 836 00:47:00,645 --> 00:47:03,475 waves of grief that come over me. 837 00:47:03,579 --> 00:47:10,206 ♪ ♪ 838 00:47:12,519 --> 00:47:15,625 Now, I'm a very private person. 839 00:47:15,729 --> 00:47:17,904 I don't have a lot of friends. 840 00:47:18,007 --> 00:47:21,631 I don't talk to a lot of people about personal things, 841 00:47:21,735 --> 00:47:24,634 and very few people 842 00:47:24,738 --> 00:47:29,225 know the details of what I'm about to say. 843 00:47:36,612 --> 00:47:39,132 My daughter was born with a heart defect, 844 00:47:39,235 --> 00:47:41,651 and by the time she was two weeks old, 845 00:47:41,755 --> 00:47:45,138 she had had two open heart surgeries. 846 00:47:45,241 --> 00:47:47,209 When she was six months old, 847 00:47:47,312 --> 00:47:49,452 she had another open heart surgery 848 00:47:49,556 --> 00:47:52,317 that lasted over ten hours, 849 00:47:52,421 --> 00:47:55,320 and every six months after that, 850 00:47:55,424 --> 00:47:57,564 she had catheter procedures 851 00:47:57,667 --> 00:47:59,877 where they would balloon her arteries. 852 00:48:01,257 --> 00:48:05,606 Her long-term prognosis was good through childhood, 853 00:48:05,710 --> 00:48:09,956 and yet we unexpectedly lost her 854 00:48:10,059 --> 00:48:11,716 before she turned four. 855 00:48:11,819 --> 00:48:13,925 ♪ ♪ 856 00:48:14,029 --> 00:48:17,722 But the most painful things 857 00:48:17,825 --> 00:48:19,586 to deal with, 858 00:48:19,689 --> 00:48:22,451 the most painful memory 859 00:48:22,554 --> 00:48:26,455 are the echoes 860 00:48:26,558 --> 00:48:28,250 of the good times 861 00:48:28,353 --> 00:48:29,941 that are no longer there. 862 00:48:30,045 --> 00:48:31,356 ♪ ♪ 863 00:48:31,460 --> 00:48:33,876 It wasn't her passing. 864 00:48:33,980 --> 00:48:36,706 It wasn't the trauma of surgeries. 865 00:48:36,810 --> 00:48:39,330 It was the good times that are no longer there. 866 00:48:39,433 --> 00:48:40,676 ♪ ♪ 867 00:48:40,779 --> 00:48:44,507 She was the most dynamic, 868 00:48:44,611 --> 00:48:45,750 most vibrant, 869 00:48:45,853 --> 00:48:49,650 most amazing spark of light 870 00:48:49,754 --> 00:48:51,687 that you could imagine. 871 00:48:51,790 --> 00:48:53,620 ♪ ♪ 872 00:48:53,723 --> 00:48:54,897 That is the most private part, 873 00:48:55,001 --> 00:48:57,141 the most intimate detail of who I am. 874 00:48:57,244 --> 00:49:01,800 ♪ ♪ 875 00:49:01,904 --> 00:49:05,977 And I'm willing to sit here... 876 00:49:06,081 --> 00:49:08,876 ♪ ♪ 877 00:49:08,980 --> 00:49:13,571 And tell it to a camera 878 00:49:13,674 --> 00:49:15,642 to be seen by who knows... 879 00:49:15,745 --> 00:49:18,162 ♪ ♪ 880 00:49:18,265 --> 00:49:22,821 Because that little girl was that magical, 881 00:49:22,925 --> 00:49:25,790 that special 882 00:49:25,893 --> 00:49:29,276 that her tale 883 00:49:29,380 --> 00:49:33,108 should be known throughout the world. 884 00:49:33,211 --> 00:49:37,215 ♪ ♪ 885 00:49:37,319 --> 00:49:39,183 She was our little wildflower. 886 00:49:39,286 --> 00:49:41,357 ♪ ♪ 887 00:49:41,461 --> 00:49:43,256 She bloomed so bright. 888 00:49:43,359 --> 00:49:45,189 ♪ ♪ 889 00:49:45,292 --> 00:49:46,984 So vibrant. 890 00:49:50,366 --> 00:49:54,198 And then spring was gone, and so was she. 891 00:49:59,858 --> 00:50:01,343 I love you, Aura. 892 00:50:18,636 --> 00:50:21,535 [dramatic music] 893 00:50:21,639 --> 00:50:28,680 ♪ ♪ 894 00:50:35,377 --> 00:50:38,000 - Checked my fish basket out. Nothing in it. 895 00:50:38,104 --> 00:50:39,864 ♪ ♪ 896 00:50:39,967 --> 00:50:42,039 So I'm just gonna throw it back out there. 897 00:51:00,505 --> 00:51:02,128 Interesting. 898 00:51:07,202 --> 00:51:08,858 Apparently, every day, we're gonna do something 899 00:51:08,962 --> 00:51:10,481 a little different. 900 00:51:13,277 --> 00:51:14,657 There we go. 901 00:51:17,419 --> 00:51:18,799 All right. 902 00:51:18,903 --> 00:51:20,698 ♪ ♪ 903 00:51:20,801 --> 00:51:23,597 I think fish basket would be more successful in, like, 904 00:51:23,701 --> 00:51:26,876 a pond or, like, my little creeks at home. 905 00:51:28,015 --> 00:51:29,707 This giant lake, I don't know. 906 00:51:30,984 --> 00:51:34,539 But there's one thing that is certain for me, 907 00:51:34,643 --> 00:51:36,058 and that is berries, 908 00:51:36,162 --> 00:51:37,887 and they're gonna be going away. 909 00:51:38,854 --> 00:51:41,201 I can notice every day that they are, 910 00:51:41,305 --> 00:51:42,651 but I really need to make sure 911 00:51:42,754 --> 00:51:45,447 that I'm getting as many of these as I can 912 00:51:45,550 --> 00:51:47,725 because it's really what's keeping me 913 00:51:47,828 --> 00:51:49,830 fed most of the day now. 914 00:51:49,934 --> 00:51:51,798 You can see that they're starting to fall off 915 00:51:51,901 --> 00:51:53,282 onto the ground, 916 00:51:53,386 --> 00:51:55,974 and then some are drying up at the top. 917 00:51:56,078 --> 00:51:57,907 ♪ ♪ 918 00:51:58,011 --> 00:52:02,015 It's funny how some people need to have other people 919 00:52:02,119 --> 00:52:05,363 in their life or it affects them terribly. 920 00:52:05,467 --> 00:52:06,951 ♪ ♪ 921 00:52:07,054 --> 00:52:09,850 And other people can exist without it. 922 00:52:09,954 --> 00:52:11,197 ♪ ♪ 923 00:52:11,300 --> 00:52:13,854 They're starting to turn black. 924 00:52:13,958 --> 00:52:16,719 I think for most of my life I've felt alone 925 00:52:16,823 --> 00:52:19,446 because most of the people in my life 926 00:52:19,550 --> 00:52:21,207 had always left anyways. 927 00:52:22,277 --> 00:52:26,315 Like, my marriage, he was never there. 928 00:52:26,419 --> 00:52:29,042 He was always running off and doing things with his friends 929 00:52:29,146 --> 00:52:32,183 and wanted me to basically take care of everything, 930 00:52:32,287 --> 00:52:33,840 so I did. 931 00:52:33,943 --> 00:52:37,292 That was no fun because I worked all the time. 932 00:52:37,395 --> 00:52:39,397 I had to 'cause he wanted this giant life, 933 00:52:39,501 --> 00:52:41,537 and so I built it. 934 00:52:41,641 --> 00:52:43,712 And when the kids moved out, 935 00:52:43,815 --> 00:52:46,024 he decided he didn't want to be there either. 936 00:52:49,545 --> 00:52:52,583 And make me able to deal with being alone. 937 00:52:52,686 --> 00:52:53,756 ♪ ♪ 938 00:52:53,860 --> 00:52:56,380 I function okay alone. 939 00:52:56,483 --> 00:52:58,865 Well, I got a half a can, thankfully. 940 00:52:58,968 --> 00:53:02,144 So that's not bad for one little spot. 941 00:53:02,248 --> 00:53:03,697 ♪ ♪ 942 00:53:03,801 --> 00:53:08,564 That's just what I need to do all the time now, every day. 943 00:53:08,668 --> 00:53:12,810 I need to make sure that I'm doing something 944 00:53:12,913 --> 00:53:16,607 to prepare for the upcoming days. 945 00:53:17,746 --> 00:53:24,787 ♪ 946 00:53:33,865 --> 00:53:37,317 - I really thought about going for a walk, 947 00:53:37,421 --> 00:53:40,527 but really crazy windy day, 948 00:53:40,631 --> 00:53:42,598 and I don't know what it's gonna bring for weather. 949 00:53:42,702 --> 00:53:44,807 It's hard to tell. Clouds are moving fast, 950 00:53:44,911 --> 00:53:48,880 and the winds are just howling. 951 00:53:51,055 --> 00:53:51,987 Look at these ducks. 952 00:53:52,090 --> 00:53:53,540 These ducks don't care 953 00:53:53,644 --> 00:53:56,405 about a little wind and wave. 954 00:53:58,027 --> 00:54:01,307 They're headed somewhere, and you know their feet 955 00:54:01,410 --> 00:54:03,757 are going a million miles an hour right now. 956 00:54:06,001 --> 00:54:10,350 Just chugging along, but they've got each other. 957 00:54:10,454 --> 00:54:17,461 ♪ ♪ 958 00:54:26,918 --> 00:54:31,268 When I began this journey, I was determined to win 959 00:54:31,371 --> 00:54:33,166 or at least go as far 960 00:54:33,270 --> 00:54:36,100 as I possibly could before my body gave out. 961 00:54:37,343 --> 00:54:41,036 I came here because this is the ultimate challenge. 962 00:54:41,139 --> 00:54:43,832 It's the ultimate test of a survivalist. 963 00:54:43,935 --> 00:54:46,386 It's the ultimate test of willpower. 964 00:54:46,490 --> 00:54:49,182 It's the ultimate test of your mind, 965 00:54:49,286 --> 00:54:52,427 your body, and your spiritual connection. 966 00:54:52,530 --> 00:54:53,876 ♪ ♪ 967 00:54:53,980 --> 00:54:57,811 And I knew that the only way to succeed 968 00:54:57,915 --> 00:55:01,677 was to forget about home, to forget about my wife, 969 00:55:01,781 --> 00:55:05,509 my son, and to forget about my daughter 970 00:55:05,612 --> 00:55:07,994 and to immerse myself into this life. 971 00:55:08,097 --> 00:55:11,100 ♪ ♪ 972 00:55:11,204 --> 00:55:14,449 And I've found that I can't do that. 973 00:55:14,552 --> 00:55:16,623 ♪ ♪ 974 00:55:16,727 --> 00:55:20,040 They are woven into the fabric of my heart and my soul. 975 00:55:20,144 --> 00:55:21,283 ♪ ♪ 976 00:55:21,387 --> 00:55:23,665 I find myself 977 00:55:23,768 --> 00:55:26,599 continually thinking of my daughter, 978 00:55:26,702 --> 00:55:29,740 and I realize that I'm actually going through 979 00:55:29,843 --> 00:55:32,846 the same grieving process that I am at home. 980 00:55:34,020 --> 00:55:36,781 But the difference is, at home 981 00:55:36,885 --> 00:55:39,301 I can look into the eyes of my wife, 982 00:55:39,405 --> 00:55:41,648 I can look into the eyes of my son, 983 00:55:41,752 --> 00:55:45,100 and I see a part of her there, and that soothes me, 984 00:55:45,203 --> 00:55:47,171 and that comforts me. 985 00:55:47,274 --> 00:55:49,207 And I don't have that here. 986 00:55:49,311 --> 00:55:56,353 ♪ ♪ 987 00:56:04,361 --> 00:56:07,225 [beeping] 988 00:56:07,329 --> 00:56:10,712 ♪ ♪ 989 00:56:10,815 --> 00:56:14,647 This is Jordon. I am officially tapping out. 990 00:56:14,750 --> 00:56:21,757 ♪ ♪ 991 00:56:27,176 --> 00:56:31,388 I'm ready to head back and be with my family. 992 00:56:32,561 --> 00:56:36,807 It is a very, very difficult decision. 993 00:56:36,910 --> 00:56:40,051 You know, if I was here, and it was cold, 994 00:56:40,155 --> 00:56:41,674 and my shelter burned down, 995 00:56:41,777 --> 00:56:43,503 or there was a medical emergency, 996 00:56:43,607 --> 00:56:44,780 or I was starving, 997 00:56:44,884 --> 00:56:47,265 everyone would understand and say, 998 00:56:47,369 --> 00:56:50,096 "Hey, he's got to go," 999 00:56:50,199 --> 00:56:52,409 but I'm okay with saying, 1000 00:56:52,512 --> 00:56:55,377 "This is who I am, and this is my time to leave," 1001 00:56:55,481 --> 00:56:58,967 and to leave for my family and to leave for myself. 1002 00:56:59,864 --> 00:57:02,557 ♪ 1003 00:57:02,660 --> 00:57:07,113 I am naturally such a competitive person. 1004 00:57:07,216 --> 00:57:11,358 I figured that I would have to be dragged from the show. 1005 00:57:11,462 --> 00:57:13,430 I never thought that my boundary 1006 00:57:13,533 --> 00:57:16,260 was gonna come in an emotional form, 1007 00:57:16,363 --> 00:57:19,850 but one of my biggest takeaways from this 1008 00:57:19,953 --> 00:57:22,404 is that I'm not missing out. 1009 00:57:22,508 --> 00:57:24,233 There are parts of me 1010 00:57:24,337 --> 00:57:27,685 that sometimes longs for the adventures 1011 00:57:27,789 --> 00:57:29,825 as a younger man, 1012 00:57:29,929 --> 00:57:31,827 but then I come out here, 1013 00:57:31,931 --> 00:57:34,830 and I realize very quickly 1014 00:57:34,934 --> 00:57:37,419 I don't get the same thrill 1015 00:57:37,523 --> 00:57:41,319 out of experiencing these things by myself. 1016 00:57:41,423 --> 00:57:43,701 The real excitement comes from sharing 1017 00:57:43,805 --> 00:57:46,980 those moments with my family. 1018 00:57:47,084 --> 00:57:51,019 All this time seeking to be alone, 1019 00:57:51,122 --> 00:57:53,021 and yet maybe I don't want to be alone. 1020 00:57:53,124 --> 00:57:56,403 ♪ ♪ 1021 00:58:00,580 --> 00:58:03,549 [dramatic music] 1022 00:58:03,652 --> 00:58:10,659 ♪ ♪ 1023 00:58:12,834 --> 00:58:15,595 - Jordon, thank you for sharing your story with us today. 1024 00:58:15,699 --> 00:58:17,252 You have dealt with tragedy, 1025 00:58:17,355 --> 00:58:19,806 and yet you are the happiest person, 1026 00:58:19,910 --> 00:58:22,775 and I think that happiness has got to do 1027 00:58:22,878 --> 00:58:26,192 with this authentic connection with your family. 1028 00:58:26,295 --> 00:58:28,781 - My wife and son are everything to me, 1029 00:58:28,884 --> 00:58:31,715 and so possibly winning $1/2 million, 1030 00:58:31,818 --> 00:58:34,787 all I could think about was paying off our house 1031 00:58:34,890 --> 00:58:37,444 and any bills and basically allowing me 1032 00:58:37,548 --> 00:58:40,033 to work less to spend time with my family. 1033 00:58:40,137 --> 00:58:42,104 - I know, for a lot of people on the show, 1034 00:58:42,208 --> 00:58:43,934 one of the hardest things is, 1035 00:58:44,037 --> 00:58:45,936 you know, being alone, but it's more than that. 1036 00:58:46,039 --> 00:58:47,420 It's being alone with your thoughts. 1037 00:58:47,524 --> 00:58:49,526 - I spent a lot of time in my life alone 1038 00:58:49,629 --> 00:58:51,493 and doing adventures alone, 1039 00:58:51,597 --> 00:58:54,600 and I thought that I was really gonna be rekindling 1040 00:58:54,703 --> 00:58:57,499 some of that adventurous spirit coming out here, 1041 00:58:57,603 --> 00:58:59,639 and going into this, my strategy 1042 00:58:59,743 --> 00:59:03,885 was really to focus on myself and my survival tasks at hand 1043 00:59:03,988 --> 00:59:07,060 and not even allow myself to think about my family. 1044 00:59:07,164 --> 00:59:08,786 - Things like fishing, just standing there 1045 00:59:08,890 --> 00:59:11,271 for hours and hours, I mean, it's hard in those moments 1046 00:59:11,375 --> 00:59:12,963 to keep your mind busy. 1047 00:59:13,066 --> 00:59:15,344 - Yeah, and I think that's when it hit me the hardest. 1048 00:59:15,448 --> 00:59:17,450 It's different when you're talking about grieving 1049 00:59:17,554 --> 00:59:19,210 because it's a lot harder to control 1050 00:59:19,314 --> 00:59:21,143 when those moments hit you. 1051 00:59:21,247 --> 00:59:22,835 Once you start doing things 1052 00:59:22,938 --> 00:59:25,354 like picking berries or fishing, 1053 00:59:25,458 --> 00:59:28,219 your hands may be busy, but your mind is idle 1054 00:59:28,323 --> 00:59:31,982 and free to wander to those darker places, 1055 00:59:32,085 --> 00:59:36,400 and I came to the realization that I actually needed 1056 00:59:36,503 --> 00:59:37,643 my wife and my son. 1057 00:59:37,746 --> 00:59:39,334 They're part of my coping mechanism 1058 00:59:39,437 --> 00:59:40,991 of dealing with grief. 1059 00:59:41,094 --> 00:59:43,510 Being out there and trying to process it alone 1060 00:59:43,614 --> 00:59:46,272 was so much more difficult than I ever imagined. 1061 00:59:46,375 --> 00:59:49,827 The joy of being out here, of being outdoors, 1062 00:59:49,931 --> 00:59:52,071 of making things and troubleshooting 1063 00:59:52,174 --> 00:59:54,763 and all that kind of stuff, 1064 00:59:54,867 --> 00:59:56,938 that joy is fading. 1065 00:59:57,041 --> 01:00:00,079 - You compared your time on "Alone" to gambling. 1066 01:00:00,182 --> 01:00:03,254 - Yeah, it really felt like a gamble in a way 1067 01:00:03,358 --> 01:00:06,464 because you don't know how the fishing is going to be. 1068 01:00:06,568 --> 01:00:09,536 You don't know how the game hunting is going to be. 1069 01:00:09,640 --> 01:00:13,817 Maybe bring my bow just in case I scare up any grouse. 1070 01:00:14,818 --> 01:00:17,475 You also don't know how your competitors are doing. 1071 01:00:17,579 --> 01:00:20,168 You're thinking everyone else has a better fishing hole 1072 01:00:20,271 --> 01:00:21,997 or better hunting grounds. 1073 01:00:22,101 --> 01:00:23,516 - I mean, that was a struggle for you, right? 1074 01:00:23,620 --> 01:00:25,967 - It absolutely was, you know? 1075 01:00:26,070 --> 01:00:27,796 Here I am on Choko Lake thinking 1076 01:00:27,900 --> 01:00:31,904 that the fishing is easy, and that wasn't the case. 1077 01:00:32,007 --> 01:00:34,665 - You spent a ton of time on that log, your fishing pier, 1078 01:00:34,769 --> 01:00:36,736 and tell us about that incredible moment 1079 01:00:36,840 --> 01:00:39,739 when you hooked that trout and dragged it to shore. 1080 01:00:39,843 --> 01:00:42,673 - I was in utter disbelief when I hooked that fish. 1081 01:00:42,777 --> 01:00:44,848 [laughing] Yeah! 1082 01:00:44,951 --> 01:00:47,195 Yeah! 1083 01:00:47,298 --> 01:00:52,096 And I was in such shock, and to finally get that fish 1084 01:00:52,200 --> 01:00:54,685 made me feel like I did something 1085 01:00:54,789 --> 01:00:57,205 that is actually contributing to survival, 1086 01:00:57,308 --> 01:00:58,689 and I could not wait to eat it. 1087 01:00:58,793 --> 01:01:01,209 - Oh, yeah, your joy at the end of that was just great. 1088 01:01:01,312 --> 01:01:05,144 I totally knew how that fell. Just, like, so exciting. 1089 01:01:05,247 --> 01:01:07,733 - Whoo! - Tell me about the importance 1090 01:01:07,836 --> 01:01:09,182 of those small victories for you. 1091 01:01:09,286 --> 01:01:11,150 - Those small victories were everything. 1092 01:01:11,253 --> 01:01:13,152 Look what I found. 1093 01:01:13,255 --> 01:01:16,017 So just finding a couple of gooseberries 1094 01:01:16,120 --> 01:01:18,088 underneath the leaves or finding 1095 01:01:18,191 --> 01:01:21,022 the perfect alder branch to make the door handle, 1096 01:01:21,125 --> 01:01:23,196 any little win felt like 1097 01:01:23,300 --> 01:01:25,923 it was just another check mark of, 1098 01:01:26,027 --> 01:01:27,062 hey, I'm making it. 1099 01:01:27,166 --> 01:01:28,685 I'm getting there. - Yeah. 1100 01:01:28,788 --> 01:01:30,583 - The remains of the flowers 1101 01:01:30,687 --> 01:01:31,929 look like little suns, 1102 01:01:32,033 --> 01:01:34,932 and that is enough to make me smile this morning. 1103 01:01:35,036 --> 01:01:36,934 - Now, let's talk about your permanent shelter. 1104 01:01:37,038 --> 01:01:41,525 - I had a strong plan going in to make a solid shelter 1105 01:01:41,628 --> 01:01:43,976 and feel like I actually have a home. 1106 01:01:44,079 --> 01:01:45,322 - Feels good to be in there 1107 01:01:45,425 --> 01:01:46,979 when other things could be going wrong. 1108 01:01:47,082 --> 01:01:49,567 - Yeah, it's kind of like when you come home from work, 1109 01:01:49,671 --> 01:01:50,914 and you put down your wallet 1110 01:01:51,017 --> 01:01:52,570 and your keys in that one spot. 1111 01:01:52,674 --> 01:01:55,435 I wanted to be able to walk into my shelter and feel like 1112 01:01:55,539 --> 01:01:59,198 I had a place for everything and everything in its place. 1113 01:01:59,301 --> 01:02:01,787 Spot for my hat at night. 1114 01:02:01,890 --> 01:02:03,892 That's something that kept me mentally healthy 1115 01:02:03,996 --> 01:02:04,893 during that time. 1116 01:02:04,997 --> 01:02:06,377 - Yeah, totally. 1117 01:02:06,481 --> 01:02:08,517 I always have to have a shelf of treasures and whatever. 1118 01:02:08,621 --> 01:02:10,485 It doesn't even matter if it's, like, a pile of leaves. 1119 01:02:10,588 --> 01:02:11,831 I have to have, like, my-- 1120 01:02:11,935 --> 01:02:14,731 to feel that kind of sense of, you're at home, 1121 01:02:14,834 --> 01:02:16,422 and it feels good to be in there 1122 01:02:16,525 --> 01:02:18,182 when other things could be going wrong. 1123 01:02:18,286 --> 01:02:19,528 - Exactly. [both laugh] 1124 01:02:19,632 --> 01:02:21,910 - Jordon, your story is inspiring. 1125 01:02:22,014 --> 01:02:23,187 Thank you for setting 1126 01:02:23,291 --> 01:02:26,294 such a beautiful example for us to follow. 1127 01:02:26,397 --> 01:02:27,985 - Thank you. I'm very, very lucky. 1128 01:02:28,089 --> 01:02:30,954 ♪ ♪ 1129 01:02:31,057 --> 01:02:33,266 - Holy *bleep*. Those are bears. 1130 01:02:33,370 --> 01:02:34,923 Hey! [air horn blares] 1131 01:02:35,027 --> 01:02:38,237 - I need to get some food. Definitely seeing some grouse. 1132 01:02:40,791 --> 01:02:44,208 - Oh, *bleep*. Hornets. Ah, *bleep*. 1133 01:02:44,312 --> 01:02:45,554 - Some fresh deer sign. 1134 01:02:45,658 --> 01:02:47,142 That gives me a little bit of confidence 1135 01:02:47,246 --> 01:02:48,868 that we're gonna have some deer here. 1136 01:02:51,077 --> 01:02:58,084 ♪