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Cool. Okay, compose yourself.
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Okay.
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Greetings everyone, I...
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Greetings everyone,
I'm Anya. Whoa.
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Greetings everyone, my name...
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Greetings everyone.
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Hi, I'm, no. Hi, I'm Anya.
Mind. No, greetings, greetings.
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Greetings.
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Okay.
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Greetings everyone, I'm Anya.
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Welcome to Mind Body Spirit.
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Mind Body Spirit is so much
more than a fitness channel.
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It is a journey
to self discovery,
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and aligning our
mind, body, and spirit
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is the closest we can
get to our truest selves.
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But in order to
make that discovery,
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we've gotta be
willing to take risks.
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So get ready to step
outta your comfort zone.
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Go for it. Be brave.
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Don't become a lost soul
floating through the void. Woo.
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Like me, before
my morning coffee.
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My grandmother gave me
this house in her will.
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She passed away
about a year ago.
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And I never really
got to meet her.
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Didn't really know
her that well.
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But, you know, it
really felt like a,
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the universe telling me to
make a change in my life.
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So that's what I did. I
moved out to California.
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I left my old life
behind. Yes, thank you.
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And I took a risk and...
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so can you.
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I promise, if you stick with me,
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then we will go to
places you never imagine.
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Shit.
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I promise, if you stick with me,
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then we will go to places
that you can never imagine.
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We will recharge our
minds, reclaim our bodies,
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because our bodies
are the places
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that our spirits call home.
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You ready?
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Today, we are going to dive
right into a balancing posture.
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So, we're going to
meet in Savasana.
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No, no, Tadasana.
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♪ Tadasana
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Meaning in Tadasana,
standing posture,
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we're going to root our
feet into the ground,
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lift one knee up to the heart,
stretch all the way back,
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squeeze those inner
thighs, engage that core.
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And if you discover
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that you are a little bit
limited in flexibility,
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don't let that hold you
back, just go with the flip.
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Now, if you start to
lose your balance,
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which will probably happen,
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you know, just
get right back up.
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Like my friend Kenzi says,
"Practice make powerful."
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Okay, I guess I need
some practice here too...
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Shit. Ow!
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Damn it!
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Stupid.
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You gotta do it. You gotta
do it. You gotta do it, Anya.
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No way.
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That's definitely a door.
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Fuck it.
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Oh...
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So, welcome to my
grandma's hidden pantry.
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I will just put this down here
on the weird candle bread.
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Okay, that's weird.
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Oh, Jesus.
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Nope, I guess not.
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Yikes.
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Whoa.
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What the fuck?
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Oh, geez!
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Oh, Jesus, fuck!
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Okay.
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Okay.
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Hello?
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Shit.
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Verasha.
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"For my Anya."
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"For my Anya."
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Greetings everyone,
welcome back.
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The passage-
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The passage that I was
just reading to you
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was written to me by my
grandmother, Verasha.
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I was never allowed to meet
her. My mom never let me.
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Family drama.
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I, I never knew that she was
a teacher, a healer like me.
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'Cause it runs in our blood.
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This house is the place
that her spirit called home.
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I guess I just,
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I never realized how much
of her was still here.
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Hi grandma.
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So she dedicated this
journal to me. I don't know.
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She wanted somebody in our
family to know what she did,
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where she went.
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She spent her lifetime
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reconnecting with her Slavic
heritage, my heritage,
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collecting rituals like this.
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A lot of it is in Russian.
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She translated some of it
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and then phoneticized some
other passages for me.
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"The path to self-discovery
is paved with doubt."
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But every step you
take brings you closer
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to who you really are.
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To not be afraid in this
journey, in this life,
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you are not alone.
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"Whenever you are lost, you
can find yourself here."
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I wish you knew how much
those words meant to me.
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How much she's inspired me.
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I mean, she just, she
experienced so much.
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I just...
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I wish...
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I wish I could be like her.
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And someday I will.
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But right now, I
am here with you.
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So let's get moving, shall we?
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We're going to start
in a balancing posture.
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Don't be afraid. I am
right here with you.
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Root your feet into the ground,
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float one knee up to your heart,
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and kick it back behind you
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as you lengthen
through your spine.
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And if you fall, you know,
just get back up, right?
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It's called practice
for a reason.
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Woo. Alright, hold here for
a couple of deep breaths in.
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Digging into that heel.
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One more. In.
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And as you come
back to your feet,
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don't just plop down, float
your knee back to your heart,
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and then let it drop
back down to the ground.
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And that's it. You did
it. Great job, everyone.
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Thank you so much
for joining me.
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Thank you for listening to me,
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and I really hope we can
really become one mind,
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one body, one spirit together.
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Yeah.
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Cool.
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This is KenziFit.
You ready to sweat?
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If you wanna unlock your body,
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you have to unleash your mind.
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Don't listen to that voice
inside you that says you can't,
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because you can.
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Why meditate when
you can "sweatitate."
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Only on KenziFit.
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Hi baby.
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Hi, Lenka.
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Anya, you know,
I hate that name.
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Your grandmother
always called me that.
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Hi, Lenny.
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Come on, we can do
better than that.
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- How about "mom?"
- Sure.
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That was fun. Did you call me
just to give me a hard time?
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You told me to call
you once I got settled.
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So you're settled.
Is this news?
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- Mom...
- I'm just asking.
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You're so far from home.
No friends, no family.
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Grandma's family.
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Verasha is dead, Anya.
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Boris! Enough!
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Okay, fine. Your grandmother
was family, but...
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Go on.
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She wasn't the woman
you think she was.
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Boris! Boris!
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You know, you've always told
me about who she wasn't,
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but you've never actually
told me who she was.
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You never told me
she was spiritual.
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I can't tell you about a
woman who was never around.
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That's a pretty heavy
pour, sweetheart.
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Verasha only came back
when she needed something.
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All she did was take
and take and take.
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And now she's
taking you from me.
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Jesus, mom, she hasn't
taken me from you.
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If anything, she's
given me a place
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to finally figure
myself out, you know?
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And you can't do
that here at home?
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I, I can move my things
out of your room.
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I'm not coming home, okay?
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I've literally spent all that
I have just to get out here.
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Anya, I know that.
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I just wanna make sure that
you're safe, that you're okay.
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I'm okay.
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Good. I just wanna help you.
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Yeah, well then you should have.
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This fucking dog.
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Boris, you get out
of here right now!
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Asshole! Quick!
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Did you ever think
that maybe grandma
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felt like she had to
leave to find herself?
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And why would you say that?
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Because she said
so in her journal.
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I see. Is that
what you believe?
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It's, it's not about
what I believe.
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That's what I have to do.
That's what I am doing.
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Anya, I just, I just don't
want you to waste your life
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obsessing over your grandmother.
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Obsessing? I am
not obsessing, mom.
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That's not what I meant, baby.
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You just, you get
so lost in things.
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And I am not there
to pull you out.
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I know what I'm doing.
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Of course, you do.
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But listen, if you wanna find
yourself, go find yourself.
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Go anywhere. Just
not, not there.
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None of us knew
that place existed.
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Yeah, well maybe she
didn't want you to know.
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Maybe all of this was
always just for me.
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Maybe she saw herself in me
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in a way that she
could never see in you.
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Oh, Anya, I promise you,
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you are nothing like her.
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- Goodbye, Lenka.
- Anya-
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Hey guys!
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Oh my God. I'm sorry. Reflex.
- That's okay.
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Do your thing, girl.
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Yeah, no, totally. No worries.
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Okay.
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Welcome everyone, I'm Anya.
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And today we have a
very special guest.
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This is Kenzi Duffert.
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Oh, I, I don't use that
name professionally.
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- Fuck! Oh, I'm sorry-
- No, that's okay.
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- I'm so sorry.
- That's totally cool.
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- I'm sorry.
- Don't worry about it.
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Thank you for doing
this with me again.
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Yeah, of course, chigger.
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Your mom said that you
were really struggling,
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so I'm happy to help.
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- Yes, thank you.
- Yeah.
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Okay.
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Welcome everyone, I am Anya,
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and today we have a
very special guest.
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This is KenziFit.
- Hey guys.
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Kenzi and I grew up together
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and we recently reconnected
when I moved out here.
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And I'm just so excited to
partner with her on today's video
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and to really learn about
how she's connecting
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with her fan base.
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I'll be guiding you
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through my 10 minute total
body takeover strength flow,
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a little bit of yoga, a
little bit of lifting,
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and a lot of sweat.
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So get ready.
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Okay, how do you
normally kick things off?
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Um, well, let's, I don't know,
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I kind of keep things
pretty loose, you know,
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and it's all about
the discovery process.
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All my things are about-
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Ah ha. So how do
you kick things off?
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Process.
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Well, usually I start talking
about how I'm feeling and-
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- Okay.
- Yeah.
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First tip.
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Right.
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No one gives a shit
about how you feel.
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People only care
about themselves.
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They want structure,
not a therapy session.
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So you gotta be fearless.
- Fearless.
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Um, you're also going to
want to build your brand.
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Something that
helps you stand out,
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you know, find your thing.
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Oh, um...
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What about, what about this?
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- Oh, God.
- This is my grandma's.
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And she was like collecting
all these rituals
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from our homeland and it's...
267
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Um, I mean, that might
be a little too obscure.
268
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People want things
that they know,
269
00:20:41,936 --> 00:20:43,764
but like with a little
extra personality.
270
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So remix some yoga flows,
pepper in some Sanskrit.
271
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Yeah, I know.
272
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I just, I don't really feel
comfortable teaching a language
273
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that I don't actually
speak, you know?
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Fake it till you make it.
275
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Listen, people don't really care
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as long as you seem authentic.
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But this is authentic.
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No one wants to read old books.
279
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Look, you wanna be
successful, right?
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Yeah. Yes.
281
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So, how many videos
have you dropped so far?
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I just started recording them.
283
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I was gonna, I was gonna
release them all when I'm ready.
284
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Okay, so you haven't
put anything out yet?
285
00:21:28,939 --> 00:21:31,222
Well, no, I just, I didn't
want it to seem like bullshit,
286
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I wanted it to be true to me.
287
00:21:34,336 --> 00:21:36,077
Okay, well, you're not
gonna get any views
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if you don't have
anything to watch.
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Oh girl, that is not even
a tip. That's just a fact.
290
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Okay.
291
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Oh shit, I have to teach
a class in like an hour.
292
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Can we do this?
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Yeah, absolutely.
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- Like now-ish.
- Okay. Yep. Cool.
295
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Namaste, bitches.
296
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We're getting started with
two hand front race swings.
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Thirty seconds starts now.
298
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And up!
299
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And up!
300
00:22:17,988 --> 00:22:18,988
And up!
301
00:22:19,990 --> 00:22:21,296
Keep that core tight!
302
00:22:23,254 --> 00:22:25,474
Feeling the burn, Anya.
- Oh yeah.
303
00:22:25,605 --> 00:22:28,869
- Yeah, this is intense.
- Yes. Get it, girl.
304
00:22:28,999 --> 00:22:30,958
- Woo. Wow.
- Woo.
305
00:22:31,088 --> 00:22:33,743
Up and up! Squeeze
your glutes.
306
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- Squeezing.
- Up to the sky.
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Smile through the pain!
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Okay.
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Hi everyone. Ugh.
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Hey, hi. Greetings.
Namaste, whatever.
311
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Everyone has this voice
inside of themselves
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that really feels like
their truth, right?
313
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But then there's all
these other voices
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that are telling you
that that truth is a lie.
315
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And...
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maybe they're right,
317
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but it's really hard to know
which voice to listen to.
318
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But the most important
thing is that we make space
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for ourselves to listen, right?
320
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So in the interest
of an open mind,
321
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we are going to do a
mindful meditation.
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Find yourself in Sukhasana.
323
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You know what? Nah, forget that.
324
00:23:40,070 --> 00:23:43,465
Just sit however you want, but
make sure you're comfortable.
325
00:23:43,596 --> 00:23:46,990
Feel yourself
connecting to the earth.
326
00:23:47,121 --> 00:23:51,299
Lengthen your spine.
Soften your eyes.
327
00:23:51,430 --> 00:23:53,780
Inhale into your belly.
328
00:23:57,131 --> 00:23:59,786
Exhale. Let it all go.
329
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Inhale into your belly.
330
00:24:07,924 --> 00:24:12,102
Exhale. Let it go.
331
00:24:12,233 --> 00:24:17,412
And in.
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00:24:17,543 --> 00:24:18,543
And out.
333
00:24:21,851 --> 00:24:22,851
And in.
334
00:24:26,203 --> 00:24:28,031
And as you continue this rhythm,
335
00:24:28,162 --> 00:24:30,294
clear your mind of the chatter.
336
00:24:30,425 --> 00:24:32,775
Quiet every voice, but your own.
337
00:24:34,908 --> 00:24:36,257
And in.
338
00:24:42,176 --> 00:24:47,007
And out.
339
00:24:47,137 --> 00:24:48,137
And in.
340
00:24:52,012 --> 00:24:53,187
And out.
341
00:24:56,756 --> 00:24:59,106
Keep it going. Inhale in.
342
00:25:03,023 --> 00:25:04,415
Exhale. Let it go.
343
00:25:07,941 --> 00:25:09,203
One final breath in.
344
00:25:14,643 --> 00:25:19,430
Exhale, let it all go.
345
00:25:29,745 --> 00:25:30,745
Shit.
346
00:25:35,969 --> 00:25:36,969
Hello.
347
00:25:38,406 --> 00:25:40,974
And sometimes your
meditations get cut short,
348
00:25:41,104 --> 00:25:42,715
but you know, that's okay,
349
00:25:42,845 --> 00:25:45,152
because it's all a part
of the journey, right?
350
00:25:46,327 --> 00:25:48,155
And I don't know about you,
351
00:25:48,285 --> 00:25:52,551
but I really felt like I
was finally given the chance
352
00:25:52,681 --> 00:25:54,509
to listen to myself.
353
00:25:54,640 --> 00:25:57,077
So I hope you did too.
354
00:26:03,605 --> 00:26:04,713
Hey guys, KenziFit here
355
00:26:04,737 --> 00:26:08,001
with my daily dose
of damn good advice.
356
00:26:08,131 --> 00:26:11,221
Never be afraid of how
powerful you really are.
357
00:26:11,352 --> 00:26:14,442
Discover the power
you have inside you.
358
00:26:14,573 --> 00:26:16,413
Don't wait for the universe
to give you a sign.
359
00:26:16,531 --> 00:26:18,881
Discover it for yourself.
360
00:26:19,012 --> 00:26:21,362
Click the link below to
sign up for my new discover-
361
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Whenever you are lost, you
can find yourself here.
362
00:27:11,238 --> 00:27:13,283
Last night I realized
363
00:27:14,545 --> 00:27:16,852
Verasha was trying
to tell me something.
364
00:27:16,983 --> 00:27:19,899
Everything that I
was looking for,
365
00:27:20,029 --> 00:27:24,207
my path, my answers,
they are all right here.
366
00:27:28,559 --> 00:27:31,127
This is a traditional
Slavic ritual
367
00:27:31,258 --> 00:27:35,610
called "prisoyedineniye"
or "the joining."
368
00:27:35,741 --> 00:27:37,917
It is a month long
daily practice
369
00:27:38,047 --> 00:27:40,789
curated by my ancestors
generations ago
370
00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:44,140
meant to join the
soul back to the body,
371
00:27:45,228 --> 00:27:49,450
the ultimate
spiritual centering.
372
00:27:49,580 --> 00:27:53,672
My grandmother, she saw
how this culture takes
373
00:27:53,802 --> 00:27:56,370
and takes and takes and
never gives anything back.
374
00:27:56,500 --> 00:27:59,286
So she found something in
the history of our people.
375
00:28:04,421 --> 00:28:07,903
I know that these videos
started out as one thing,
376
00:28:08,034 --> 00:28:11,690
but I truly believe that
they can be so much more.
377
00:28:13,082 --> 00:28:14,649
I don't know how
to speak Sanskrit.
378
00:28:16,956 --> 00:28:21,438
I am an influencer
imposter living a lie.
379
00:28:22,657 --> 00:28:25,704
And I don't know how
far I'll have to go
380
00:28:25,834 --> 00:28:27,706
to start living my truth, but...
381
00:28:30,230 --> 00:28:31,622
this feels like the first step.
382
00:28:37,106 --> 00:28:40,066
For years, I was a
slave to caffeine.
383
00:28:40,196 --> 00:28:41,371
Working on Wall Street,
384
00:28:41,502 --> 00:28:43,547
I would drink like
12 espressos a day.
385
00:28:45,898 --> 00:28:47,900
But when I went on a
business retreat in Bali,
386
00:28:49,640 --> 00:28:53,427
I tried Chamisal tea.
387
00:28:53,557 --> 00:28:55,124
It fueled my mind and my body
388
00:28:55,255 --> 00:28:57,474
in a way I had
never felt before.
389
00:28:58,911 --> 00:29:00,521
And I knew it was my job
390
00:29:00,651 --> 00:29:02,828
to bring that
experience to the world.
391
00:29:04,220 --> 00:29:06,919
So I quit corporate life
392
00:29:07,049 --> 00:29:09,660
and turned my liquid
capital into liquid dreams.
393
00:29:12,663 --> 00:29:13,663
This is RthNrgy,
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00:29:15,318 --> 00:29:17,320
a sacred blend of earth's
greatest treasures.
395
00:29:35,164 --> 00:29:36,383
The hollowing,
396
00:29:37,993 --> 00:29:38,993
the cleansing,
397
00:29:40,866 --> 00:29:41,866
the many,
398
00:29:44,217 --> 00:29:45,522
the expansion.
399
00:29:47,698 --> 00:29:50,832
These are the core pillars of...
400
00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:52,877
the joining.
401
00:29:54,531 --> 00:29:56,969
I know this might all
seem a little strange,
402
00:29:57,099 --> 00:30:01,800
but, it's like I said, discovery
is all about taking risks.
403
00:30:03,366 --> 00:30:05,412
We gotta be fearless, right?
404
00:30:05,542 --> 00:30:09,198
We're never gonna
know how far we can go
405
00:30:09,329 --> 00:30:10,504
until we go there.
406
00:30:20,383 --> 00:30:25,432
The first step to finding
yourself is finding your voice.
407
00:30:25,562 --> 00:30:28,217
♪ La la la la la
408
00:30:28,348 --> 00:30:30,654
No, I'm sorry. Ignore me.
409
00:30:30,785 --> 00:30:31,893
Was a joke, don't ignore me.
410
00:30:31,917 --> 00:30:35,790
Hey guys, welcome to
day one of our practice.
411
00:30:35,921 --> 00:30:38,837
We're going to be kicking
off our journey with...
412
00:30:38,967 --> 00:30:40,055
the hollowing.
413
00:30:40,186 --> 00:30:43,537
It is an incantation,
a guided vocal chant,
414
00:30:43,667 --> 00:30:46,845
meant to bring the
voice back to the body,
415
00:30:46,975 --> 00:30:50,283
and really open us up
for what's about to come.
416
00:30:50,413 --> 00:30:52,241
I know it might feel
a little bit silly,
417
00:30:52,372 --> 00:30:54,896
but you know, just
trust your voice,
418
00:30:55,027 --> 00:30:58,378
listen to your voice,
love your voice.
419
00:30:58,508 --> 00:31:03,383
I will be following Verasha
and you will be following me.
420
00:31:03,513 --> 00:31:04,819
Everyone inhale in.
421
00:31:12,174 --> 00:31:17,092
♪ I am
422
00:31:20,487 --> 00:31:22,706
♪ Oh, I am
423
00:31:30,932 --> 00:31:35,894
♪ I am
424
00:31:39,375 --> 00:31:41,551
♪ Oh, I am
425
00:31:50,778 --> 00:31:55,739
♪ I am
426
00:31:58,351 --> 00:32:03,312
♪ I am
427
00:32:07,273 --> 00:32:12,191
♪ I am
428
00:32:13,366 --> 00:32:15,498
♪ Oh, I am
429
00:32:35,344 --> 00:32:36,344
Did you hear that?
430
00:32:41,916 --> 00:32:45,180
Well, I'm sure my
neighbors heard something.
431
00:32:45,311 --> 00:32:49,445
Well done, everyone. That
was great. Really awesome.
432
00:32:49,576 --> 00:32:52,622
I hope you take
your voice with you
433
00:32:52,753 --> 00:32:54,276
into the rest of your day.
434
00:32:54,407 --> 00:32:56,757
And until then...
435
00:33:00,935 --> 00:33:02,763
Day three, y'all.
436
00:33:02,893 --> 00:33:06,506
Like Verasha says,
"Strong body, strong mind.
437
00:33:06,636 --> 00:33:08,116
Find the shape that fits you."
438
00:33:09,335 --> 00:33:11,380
Verasha's recipe,
439
00:33:11,511 --> 00:33:13,469
a healthy body is
a receptive body.
440
00:33:13,600 --> 00:33:16,342
If this is as far as you
can go, that's great.
441
00:33:16,472 --> 00:33:18,039
It's only day six.
442
00:33:18,170 --> 00:33:20,259
Just push yourself a
little further each time.
443
00:33:21,477 --> 00:33:22,477
And remember,
444
00:33:25,090 --> 00:33:26,787
make space in your body,
445
00:33:26,917 --> 00:33:29,050
make space for your spirit.
446
00:33:30,095 --> 00:33:31,139
Oh shit. Cheers.
447
00:33:36,753 --> 00:33:39,060
I am receiving this.
448
00:34:10,831 --> 00:34:12,572
The cleansing.
449
00:34:12,702 --> 00:34:15,792
So, now that we've hollowed
out a space within us,
450
00:34:15,923 --> 00:34:17,620
we are going to clear
out all the crap
451
00:34:17,751 --> 00:34:19,535
that's stuck down inside.
452
00:34:19,666 --> 00:34:21,842
So the next phase
of our practice
453
00:34:21,972 --> 00:34:25,498
is going to be kind of
like a detoxifying purge.
454
00:34:25,628 --> 00:34:28,196
It's really all about
getting rid of anything
455
00:34:28,327 --> 00:34:30,894
and everything that
no longer serves us.
456
00:34:31,025 --> 00:34:32,157
Don't freak out.
457
00:34:32,287 --> 00:34:35,595
This is a very, very
common holistic practice.
458
00:34:35,725 --> 00:34:38,641
It is called a throat
cleanse. You can look it up.
459
00:34:38,772 --> 00:34:41,688
It's kind of like a nasal
cleanse, which I've done before.
460
00:34:41,818 --> 00:34:42,993
Not a big deal.
461
00:34:43,124 --> 00:34:44,908
All you do is you take a string
462
00:34:45,039 --> 00:34:47,824
and you swallow it on
down in your throat,
463
00:34:47,955 --> 00:34:50,566
and then you take it back out.
464
00:34:50,697 --> 00:34:52,090
And that's it.
465
00:34:52,220 --> 00:34:54,962
Okay, here we go.
We're gonna do it.
466
00:38:10,070 --> 00:38:11,070
Yikes.
467
00:38:18,905 --> 00:38:19,905
Well, that was rough.
468
00:38:21,124 --> 00:38:22,474
I definitely feel lighter.
469
00:38:24,258 --> 00:38:26,565
Spiritually, not so much,
470
00:38:26,695 --> 00:38:29,132
but physically, you
better believe it.
471
00:38:32,962 --> 00:38:38,098
I know I talked a big game
about really taking risks
472
00:38:38,228 --> 00:38:40,492
to discover yourself,
473
00:38:40,622 --> 00:38:44,191
but I think the only
thing that I discovered
474
00:38:44,322 --> 00:38:46,541
is that I can keep throwing up
475
00:38:46,672 --> 00:38:49,675
even after my stomach
is completely empty.
476
00:38:50,850 --> 00:38:53,983
Maybe I missed something.
477
00:38:56,725 --> 00:38:58,553
Maybe I did it
wrong. I don't know.
478
00:39:00,642 --> 00:39:03,123
Maybe I'm not ready for this.
479
00:39:05,125 --> 00:39:06,605
So today
480
00:39:08,433 --> 00:39:11,958
I am going to stick
with what I know.
481
00:39:13,351 --> 00:39:15,701
A classic seated vinyasa flow.
482
00:39:17,224 --> 00:39:21,663
So find a comfortable
seat on your sits bones,
483
00:39:23,230 --> 00:39:24,318
and...
484
00:39:26,668 --> 00:39:28,104
lengthen through your spine,
485
00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:33,109
lifting away from the ground
486
00:39:33,240 --> 00:39:35,808
out through the
crown of your head.
487
00:39:35,938 --> 00:39:37,157
Lifting, lifting, lifting.
488
00:39:41,509 --> 00:39:43,816
Lifting,
489
00:39:43,946 --> 00:39:46,296
lifting, lifting,
490
00:39:49,125 --> 00:39:50,125
lifting.
491
00:39:53,782 --> 00:39:54,782
Jesus.
492
00:40:00,310 --> 00:40:04,793
Okay, so something
just happened there.
493
00:40:04,924 --> 00:40:06,142
I don't know what it was.
494
00:40:06,273 --> 00:40:07,337
Maybe it was just a feeling,
495
00:40:07,361 --> 00:40:10,625
but it definitely felt powerful.
496
00:40:10,756 --> 00:40:14,455
And listen, yeah, maybe I am
crazy to keep going with this.
497
00:40:14,586 --> 00:40:15,804
Definitely not not crazy.
498
00:40:18,894 --> 00:40:23,464
I have discovered something
powerful in these pages,
499
00:40:23,595 --> 00:40:28,121
in this practice,
something beyond me.
500
00:40:28,251 --> 00:40:29,644
That is where Verasha went,
501
00:40:29,775 --> 00:40:31,385
and that is where
she wants me to go.
502
00:40:31,516 --> 00:40:36,129
And I, I've gotta be fearless
in order to get there.
503
00:40:36,259 --> 00:40:37,259
It...
504
00:40:38,697 --> 00:40:41,003
Otherwise, I'll just end up
right back where I started
505
00:40:41,134 --> 00:40:42,134
and...
506
00:40:48,968 --> 00:40:50,230
I hope you can understand,
507
00:40:51,971 --> 00:40:53,451
and I hope you're still with me.
508
00:41:37,843 --> 00:41:38,931
Hi.
509
00:41:39,061 --> 00:41:40,715
Right, day 12,
510
00:41:40,846 --> 00:41:45,415
the next part of our practice
is called "the many."
511
00:41:45,546 --> 00:41:48,854
But there's only
half a page here.
512
00:41:48,984 --> 00:41:52,466
It's like a poem or a
riddle or something.
513
00:41:52,597 --> 00:41:56,383
"The many selves
share only one mind.
514
00:41:56,514 --> 00:42:00,518
And you can't see the truth
when your thoughts are blind."
515
00:42:31,505 --> 00:42:32,505
Blind eye.
516
00:42:56,138 --> 00:42:58,140
Come on, Anya, get burned.
517
00:43:30,869 --> 00:43:32,087
Oh, geez.
518
00:43:34,699 --> 00:43:37,615
Okay, so, the many.
519
00:43:39,312 --> 00:43:44,012
The journal says that this is
a remedy for the cleansing.
520
00:43:46,754 --> 00:43:49,931
Kind of like an herbal
elixir to heal the body
521
00:43:50,062 --> 00:43:51,933
and expand the mind.
522
00:43:54,240 --> 00:43:59,114
So, okay, "you must
consider your many self"
523
00:43:59,724 --> 00:44:01,421
all facets of your being.
524
00:44:01,551 --> 00:44:03,684
"So you might see
yourself as one whole."
525
00:44:05,555 --> 00:44:08,167
So essentially, you gotta relax.
526
00:44:10,038 --> 00:44:11,300
So I know that most of you
527
00:44:11,431 --> 00:44:13,912
don't have a mystery
bottle of tea leaves
528
00:44:14,042 --> 00:44:16,349
hiding around in your dead
grandma's secret crawlspace.
529
00:44:16,479 --> 00:44:19,004
But you know, you can use
any kind of herbal remedy
530
00:44:19,134 --> 00:44:20,135
that you have,
531
00:44:20,266 --> 00:44:22,877
maybe some CBD, whatever
mellows you out.
532
00:44:27,055 --> 00:44:30,189
Last time I did shrooms,
I was at the zoo,
533
00:44:30,319 --> 00:44:33,671
and I cried for like six hours.
534
00:44:37,065 --> 00:44:38,719
Let's hope that
doesn't happen again.
535
00:44:40,808 --> 00:44:43,419
Cheers, Verasha. Cheers to you.
536
00:44:46,118 --> 00:44:47,118
Here we go.
537
00:44:49,774 --> 00:44:50,774
Ugh. Woo.
538
00:44:53,081 --> 00:44:54,081
Ah, gross.
539
00:44:55,910 --> 00:44:56,910
Okay.
540
00:44:59,305 --> 00:45:00,305
Gross.
541
00:45:13,841 --> 00:45:15,756
I definitely do feel a
little calmer though.
542
00:45:18,237 --> 00:45:21,762
So, yes.
543
00:45:21,893 --> 00:45:25,635
The next thing that we
have to do is we have to...
544
00:45:28,421 --> 00:45:29,509
So the next...
545
00:45:34,470 --> 00:45:35,471
next thing...
546
00:48:10,322 --> 00:48:12,019
Hello?
547
00:48:12,150 --> 00:48:13,368
Hello.
548
00:48:13,499 --> 00:48:17,024
Anya, are are you all
right? It's so late.
549
00:48:18,678 --> 00:48:22,943
Anya, are you all
right? It's so late.
550
00:48:23,074 --> 00:48:25,250
Anya, is that you?
551
00:48:27,295 --> 00:48:29,055
Who am I speaking to?
- Who am I speaking to?
552
00:48:34,389 --> 00:48:36,348
Anya, are you, are you there?
553
00:48:39,786 --> 00:48:40,786
Anya?
554
00:48:41,744 --> 00:48:42,744
Hello?
555
00:48:43,659 --> 00:48:44,659
Anya?
556
00:48:47,054 --> 00:48:49,927
Anya? Anya, are you there?
557
00:48:51,406 --> 00:48:52,755
Mom?
558
00:48:52,886 --> 00:48:54,932
Anya? Honey, what is going on?
559
00:48:56,716 --> 00:49:00,981
- We're okay.
- We, who's there with you?
560
00:49:01,112 --> 00:49:04,854
I'm, I'm okay. I
don't, I don't know.
561
00:49:04,985 --> 00:49:06,726
I just had a bad dream.
It's, it's nothing.
562
00:49:06,856 --> 00:49:08,989
I'm sorry I called.
563
00:49:09,120 --> 00:49:10,686
Are you sure you're okay?
564
00:49:14,734 --> 00:49:15,822
Who is there with you?
565
00:49:16,910 --> 00:49:17,910
Grandma.
566
00:49:39,715 --> 00:49:41,152
Hey, thank you so
much for coming.
567
00:49:41,282 --> 00:49:42,544
Yeah, for sure.
568
00:49:46,592 --> 00:49:47,592
Oh...
569
00:49:49,464 --> 00:49:51,336
we've been redecorating.
570
00:49:53,077 --> 00:49:54,077
I guess so.
571
00:49:58,386 --> 00:50:00,171
Kinda looks like
my grandma's house.
572
00:50:00,301 --> 00:50:01,301
Thank you.
573
00:50:07,482 --> 00:50:09,876
So how are the videos going?
574
00:50:12,183 --> 00:50:15,925
I'm really excited to show
you what I've been working on.
575
00:50:16,056 --> 00:50:17,362
I can't wait.
576
00:50:24,630 --> 00:50:26,719
Jesus, Anya, have
you been eating?
577
00:50:28,634 --> 00:50:30,810
I've been focusing
on making space.
578
00:50:32,072 --> 00:50:34,727
Well, maybe you make space for
a Caesar wrap or something.
579
00:50:41,821 --> 00:50:44,258
Look, are you, are you
sure you wanna shoot this?
580
00:50:45,825 --> 00:50:46,825
Why?
581
00:50:49,176 --> 00:50:52,788
You look not great?
582
00:50:54,094 --> 00:50:55,094
I'm fine.
583
00:50:58,533 --> 00:50:59,533
Okay.
584
00:51:10,371 --> 00:51:11,981
Is someone else here?
585
00:51:13,157 --> 00:51:15,246
No, it's just us.
586
00:51:30,870 --> 00:51:35,092
Hi everyone, welcome back to
Mind Body Spirit, I'm Anya.
587
00:51:35,222 --> 00:51:38,921
It's day 17. Let's get
started with today's practice.
588
00:51:40,749 --> 00:51:43,361
And I'm Kenzi from KenziFit.
589
00:51:43,491 --> 00:51:45,276
Right.
590
00:51:45,406 --> 00:51:47,321
Do you wanna start over again?
591
00:51:47,452 --> 00:51:48,583
No, not really.
592
00:51:53,501 --> 00:51:54,850
And this is Kenzi.
593
00:51:54,981 --> 00:51:57,897
She'll be joining us
for today's practice.
594
00:51:58,027 --> 00:52:01,118
The expansion, the joining.
595
00:52:03,685 --> 00:52:04,685
Wait, sorry.
596
00:52:06,471 --> 00:52:09,213
Can, can we stop this a second?
597
00:52:09,343 --> 00:52:11,650
I, I thought this was
gonna be like a flow.
598
00:52:11,780 --> 00:52:13,304
What, what is this?
599
00:52:14,914 --> 00:52:16,742
This is Verasha.
600
00:52:18,874 --> 00:52:21,573
- What the fuck is a Verasha?
- My grandmother.
601
00:52:24,097 --> 00:52:28,362
- Okay, can we cut?
- Why? What's wrong?
602
00:52:28,493 --> 00:52:31,887
I'm, I'm not doing whatever
this is. This isn't my thing.
603
00:52:32,018 --> 00:52:33,541
Yeah, I know. It's my thing.
604
00:52:33,672 --> 00:52:35,369
Okay, great for you, I guess,
605
00:52:35,500 --> 00:52:38,024
but like this isn't
on brand for me.
606
00:52:38,155 --> 00:52:39,504
Like, what even is this?
- Hey!
607
00:52:39,634 --> 00:52:43,116
Whoa. Chill. Jesus,
Anya, look at yourself.
608
00:52:44,770 --> 00:52:49,470
I have been looking at myself
more than you ever will.
609
00:52:55,128 --> 00:52:57,086
What the fuck is your deal?
610
00:52:57,217 --> 00:52:59,219
I'm just trying to help you.
611
00:53:00,394 --> 00:53:03,919
I don't need your help, cunt!
612
00:53:09,273 --> 00:53:10,273
You know what?
613
00:53:12,841 --> 00:53:13,841
Good.
614
00:53:14,930 --> 00:53:17,672
The only reason that I am here
615
00:53:17,803 --> 00:53:21,241
is because your mom begged
me to come and check on you
616
00:53:21,372 --> 00:53:24,331
and make sure you didn't try
to fucking kill yourself again.
617
00:53:26,203 --> 00:53:28,484
I don't need to be a guest
star on your shitty video diary
618
00:53:28,596 --> 00:53:30,685
that nobody's gonna
fucking watch.
619
00:53:30,816 --> 00:53:31,936
I actually have a following.
620
00:53:32,034 --> 00:53:34,602
I actually help
people feel good.
621
00:53:34,733 --> 00:53:35,995
I'm not just...
622
00:53:36,125 --> 00:53:39,825
I am not just sitting around
in this stupid fucking room
623
00:53:39,955 --> 00:53:41,218
starving myself
624
00:53:41,348 --> 00:53:43,568
and getting lifestyle tips
from the book of the dead.
625
00:53:45,265 --> 00:53:47,267
Who the fuck do
you think you are?
626
00:53:47,398 --> 00:53:49,661
Your whole entire fucking career
627
00:53:49,791 --> 00:53:52,229
is built on the backs
of people like Verasha,
628
00:53:52,359 --> 00:53:54,796
people with the fucking fortitude
to go out into the world
629
00:53:54,927 --> 00:53:56,755
and experience real shit.
630
00:53:56,885 --> 00:53:59,192
You, you bounce your tits
around doing some jumping jacks,
631
00:53:59,323 --> 00:54:01,126
and you think that you're
changing people's lives.
632
00:54:01,150 --> 00:54:02,630
Are you fucking kidding me?
633
00:54:02,761 --> 00:54:04,806
You consume other
people's cultures
634
00:54:04,937 --> 00:54:08,332
and then shit them back out
into leopard-neon spandex.
635
00:54:08,462 --> 00:54:10,072
Kenzi, you're a
fucking colonizer!
636
00:54:10,203 --> 00:54:13,424
- Oh my God!
- This is real.
637
00:54:13,554 --> 00:54:16,688
This is truth. This is my
heritage and I am living it.
638
00:54:19,343 --> 00:54:20,343
Oh...
639
00:54:21,214 --> 00:54:22,346
my fucking God!
640
00:54:24,086 --> 00:54:26,567
Anya, are you serious?
641
00:54:27,742 --> 00:54:28,961
Colonizer?
642
00:54:29,091 --> 00:54:31,659
You need a fucking Taco Bell.
643
00:54:32,530 --> 00:54:34,358
At least back when
you actually ate food.
644
00:54:35,402 --> 00:54:36,577
I mean, what?
645
00:54:36,708 --> 00:54:37,578
You seriously think that
your weird fucking grandma
646
00:54:37,709 --> 00:54:39,188
traveled the world?
647
00:54:40,189 --> 00:54:43,584
She probably never even
left this fucking house.
648
00:54:44,455 --> 00:54:49,111
Just some sad old lady
getting drunk on Vodka
649
00:54:49,242 --> 00:54:52,724
and making up stories because
her family abandoned her.
650
00:54:58,382 --> 00:54:59,992
Keep your fucking
Siberian bullshit.
651
00:55:02,255 --> 00:55:05,650
Fuck you, fuck your
grandma. Have a great life.
652
00:55:05,780 --> 00:55:07,826
I am done with this and
I am so done with you.
653
00:55:29,369 --> 00:55:30,529
And I am taking this with me.
654
00:55:30,588 --> 00:55:31,284
Hey!
655
00:55:31,415 --> 00:55:32,415
Get out!
656
00:55:35,157 --> 00:55:37,595
- What the fuck, Anya?
- Get out.
657
00:55:37,725 --> 00:55:38,725
Get out!
658
00:55:40,641 --> 00:55:45,429
You fucking psycho!
659
00:57:33,798 --> 00:57:35,321
Anya, what is the
matter with you?
660
00:57:35,452 --> 00:57:36,714
Why haven't you called me back?
661
00:57:36,844 --> 00:57:39,064
Kenzi's mom said you
two got in a fight.
662
00:57:39,194 --> 00:57:42,937
Yeah, I'm sorry. I, I
meant to call you earlier.
663
00:57:43,068 --> 00:57:44,243
I just-
664
00:57:44,373 --> 00:57:45,612
I've been so worried about you.
665
00:57:45,636 --> 00:57:46,332
I almost called the police.
666
00:57:46,463 --> 00:57:48,856
Mom, I'm sorry. Okay?
667
00:57:50,554 --> 00:57:51,554
You look sick.
668
00:57:52,947 --> 00:57:54,601
I, I need help.
669
00:57:56,473 --> 00:57:58,823
Okay. Okay. I'll get the
first flight out there.
670
00:57:58,953 --> 00:58:01,347
No, mom, I need help
671
00:58:04,132 --> 00:58:05,438
translating something.
672
00:58:12,184 --> 00:58:14,229
- No.
- Mom, please.
673
00:58:14,360 --> 00:58:16,405
I said no.
674
00:58:16,536 --> 00:58:17,406
Please.
675
00:58:17,537 --> 00:58:18,537
Anya.
676
00:58:20,061 --> 00:58:21,236
Mom, please.
677
00:58:23,717 --> 00:58:26,111
I don't, I don't
know what I'm doing.
678
00:58:30,115 --> 00:58:31,195
What has she done to you?
679
00:58:32,291 --> 00:58:34,859
I, I don't know.
I don't know. And-
680
00:58:34,989 --> 00:58:38,340
Anya, this is why I never told
you about your grandmother.
681
00:58:41,039 --> 00:58:45,173
The day I heard Verasha died,
all I felt was happiness,
682
00:58:47,567 --> 00:58:49,613
because I knew she would
never come back for you.
683
00:58:49,743 --> 00:58:51,658
Jesus, mom.
684
00:58:51,789 --> 00:58:55,270
- Anya, come home, please.
- Okay.
685
00:58:58,535 --> 00:58:59,666
I am sorry, mom.
686
00:59:01,450 --> 00:59:04,715
I am so sorry that I
didn't listen to you,
687
00:59:07,761 --> 00:59:09,720
but I need you to
translate this for me.
688
00:59:12,026 --> 00:59:14,115
But I need you to
help me for once,
689
00:59:16,291 --> 00:59:21,122
because if I don't find
a way to finish this,
690
00:59:21,949 --> 00:59:25,257
then I will never escape it
and I can't keep running.
691
00:59:27,781 --> 00:59:32,133
So please, please tell
me what this says.
692
00:59:45,103 --> 00:59:46,103
Show me.
693
00:59:54,242 --> 00:59:55,242
So...
694
00:59:57,028 --> 00:59:58,595
she translated most of it
695
00:59:58,725 --> 01:00:02,599
and, and phonetized some
other places, but not this.
696
01:00:03,643 --> 01:00:07,604
And it looks like it's in
the same alphabet, I think.
697
01:00:09,214 --> 01:00:11,608
It might be just a
different dialect or...
698
01:00:11,738 --> 01:00:13,261
- Anya. Anya.
- What does it say?
699
01:00:14,349 --> 01:00:17,396
I, I can't, I can't say it.
700
01:00:17,526 --> 01:00:19,790
- Mom, please tell me.
- Anya.
701
01:00:19,920 --> 01:00:24,098
- Mom, please tell me.
- Anya, I can't say it.
702
01:00:24,229 --> 01:00:28,755
It doesn't make
any sense - What?
703
01:00:28,886 --> 01:00:32,803
It's, it's, it's some
sort of ancient tongue.
704
01:00:32,933 --> 01:00:36,241
It's barely even Russian.
I don't know what this is.
705
01:00:38,591 --> 01:00:41,333
Anya. Anya, please come home.
706
01:01:18,805 --> 01:01:20,372
You fucking bitch.
707
01:01:21,503 --> 01:01:22,679
I've been lying to you
708
01:01:25,943 --> 01:01:27,858
because my grandmother
has been lying to me.
709
01:01:31,035 --> 01:01:35,604
You see this symbol, the
top of all the ritual pages?
710
01:01:36,649 --> 01:01:39,043
Yeah, I thought, I thought
that it was like a, a flourish
711
01:01:39,173 --> 01:01:40,522
or a signature or something.
712
01:01:40,653 --> 01:01:41,653
But...
713
01:01:43,351 --> 01:01:44,351
it's not.
714
01:01:47,138 --> 01:01:48,138
It's a fucking key
715
01:01:51,185 --> 01:01:53,666
to what's hidden in these pages.
716
01:01:56,364 --> 01:01:59,019
These aren't words of wisdom.
717
01:01:59,890 --> 01:02:03,589
It's fucking backwards
black magic bullshit.
718
01:02:05,069 --> 01:02:08,115
This was never meant
to cleanse my spirit.
719
01:02:08,246 --> 01:02:11,118
This was meant to
destroy my spirit.
720
01:02:12,772 --> 01:02:14,992
It was meant to
destroy my spirit
721
01:02:17,255 --> 01:02:18,473
and make room for hers.
722
01:02:24,784 --> 01:02:25,784
And I...
723
01:02:33,053 --> 01:02:36,404
followed blindly because it's
easier than facing myself.
724
01:03:32,765 --> 01:03:35,768
Verasha, please, please,
Verasha, you don't have,
725
01:03:35,899 --> 01:03:37,378
you don't have to do this.
726
01:03:37,509 --> 01:03:40,164
Please, please.
No, please, please.
727
01:03:41,295 --> 01:03:42,427
Please, please.
728
01:03:57,746 --> 01:04:00,880
Hey guys, it's
Kenzi from KenziFit.
729
01:04:01,011 --> 01:04:03,361
Frown Lines looking fierce.
730
01:04:03,491 --> 01:04:08,148
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01:04:09,628 --> 01:04:12,022
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732
01:04:12,152 --> 01:04:16,591
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733
01:04:16,722 --> 01:04:18,724
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736
01:04:26,514 --> 01:04:27,776
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737
01:04:35,959 --> 01:04:38,962
Hi Kenzi, this is Anya speaking.
738
01:04:40,006 --> 01:04:42,443
I can't tell you how sorry I
am for my behavior earlier.
739
01:04:44,054 --> 01:04:45,098
I feel so ashamed.
740
01:04:48,362 --> 01:04:49,842
To be perfectly honest with you,
741
01:04:51,539 --> 01:04:54,803
I think a lot of that anger
came from a place of jealousy.
742
01:04:57,197 --> 01:05:01,680
I mean, you're just so
worldly and wise and kind.
743
01:05:04,074 --> 01:05:05,162
And sometimes, sometimes,
744
01:05:07,599 --> 01:05:10,428
sometimes I feel
like I can't compete.
745
01:05:15,085 --> 01:05:16,279
There's this little
voice inside of me
746
01:05:16,303 --> 01:05:18,958
that just won't let be myself.
747
01:05:21,526 --> 01:05:23,136
And I just wanna
tell her to let go.
748
01:05:26,792 --> 01:05:27,792
It's okay.
749
01:05:29,447 --> 01:05:30,447
It's okay.
750
01:05:39,718 --> 01:05:42,808
But until then, I sincerely
hope you can forgive me.
751
01:05:43,940 --> 01:05:45,245
And as a sign of good faith,
752
01:05:45,376 --> 01:05:46,875
I would love to have you over
to record some more videos
753
01:05:46,899 --> 01:05:47,987
and bury the old hatchet.
754
01:05:52,644 --> 01:05:53,950
Wishing you wellness my friend.
755
01:05:56,039 --> 01:05:57,039
Namaste.
756
01:06:35,078 --> 01:06:36,470
Are you filming me?
757
01:06:37,732 --> 01:06:40,431
Yes. Is that all
right with you?
758
01:06:41,867 --> 01:06:42,868
Yeah, sure.
759
01:06:46,176 --> 01:06:48,178
Holy shit, are you
okay? What happened?
760
01:06:49,266 --> 01:06:50,266
Oh, this.
761
01:06:51,572 --> 01:06:54,836
I hit my head while I was
rearranging some furniture.
762
01:06:54,967 --> 01:06:56,055
It looks like it hurt.
763
01:06:57,361 --> 01:06:58,361
I'm fine now.
764
01:07:01,408 --> 01:07:05,543
I'm sorry. I shouldn't
have said, I mean earlier.
765
01:07:09,590 --> 01:07:10,590
I'm sorry.
766
01:07:35,790 --> 01:07:36,790
Do you wanna sit?
767
01:08:02,904 --> 01:08:06,343
I am sorry for
getting so heated.
768
01:08:06,473 --> 01:08:07,473
It's just...
769
01:08:09,389 --> 01:08:12,697
being this, this perfect person
770
01:08:12,827 --> 01:08:15,613
is just so fucking
stressful, you know?
771
01:08:17,963 --> 01:08:22,098
I completely understand.
And I'm sorry too.
772
01:08:24,491 --> 01:08:26,014
I shouldn't have
said those things.
773
01:08:30,454 --> 01:08:32,195
Are you sure you're okay?
774
01:08:35,372 --> 01:08:36,677
I feel fantastic.
775
01:08:38,897 --> 01:08:39,897
I truly do.
776
01:08:45,599 --> 01:08:46,599
I...
777
01:08:48,863 --> 01:08:50,126
I guess I have to thank you.
778
01:08:51,953 --> 01:08:53,303
- Is that so?
- Yeah.
779
01:08:55,131 --> 01:08:57,568
You know, I don't really agree
780
01:08:57,698 --> 01:09:00,092
with the way you handled things,
781
01:09:00,223 --> 01:09:02,877
and I was pretty
fucking upset with you.
782
01:09:04,314 --> 01:09:06,881
But what you said,
783
01:09:09,406 --> 01:09:10,450
it wasn't bullshit.
784
01:09:12,496 --> 01:09:17,501
We're all just borrowing,
stealing, I guess,
785
01:09:17,631 --> 01:09:19,459
just like taking
pieces of things
786
01:09:19,590 --> 01:09:21,679
and making them our identity
787
01:09:22,680 --> 01:09:24,725
without really thinking
about where they come from.
788
01:09:27,424 --> 01:09:28,424
And I guess,
789
01:09:32,472 --> 01:09:37,129
I guess I just don't really
know who I am without them.
790
01:09:40,306 --> 01:09:42,787
You're you. That's
all you can be.
791
01:09:50,055 --> 01:09:51,883
I mean, I put in the work.
792
01:09:52,013 --> 01:09:54,146
It's not like easy,
793
01:09:54,277 --> 01:09:58,281
but I'm not, you know,
special or whatever.
794
01:10:01,893 --> 01:10:02,893
But you are.
795
01:10:08,204 --> 01:10:09,640
How hard did you hit your head?
796
01:10:19,650 --> 01:10:21,304
I am glad you're here.
797
01:10:25,917 --> 01:10:27,048
I'm glad I am too.
798
01:10:35,796 --> 01:10:38,930
Okay, so what exactly
did you have in mind?
799
01:10:45,502 --> 01:10:46,894
It's a guided meditation.
800
01:10:48,331 --> 01:10:50,637
I practiced it on my
own a few nights ago,
801
01:10:50,768 --> 01:10:52,465
but it's supposed to be better
802
01:10:52,596 --> 01:10:54,989
when someone else
is guiding you.
803
01:10:56,426 --> 01:10:59,211
Cool. You, you
wanna do an intro?
804
01:11:00,952 --> 01:11:03,128
I recorded an
introduction earlier,
805
01:11:03,259 --> 01:11:06,087
but perhaps we can say "hello."
806
01:11:06,218 --> 01:11:09,395
Okay. Yeah. Cool. Kick it off.
807
01:11:16,750 --> 01:11:20,624
Welcome back everyone
to Mind Body Spirit.
808
01:11:22,495 --> 01:11:24,715
We have a familiar guest today.
809
01:11:24,845 --> 01:11:27,892
Hey guys, KenziFit here.
810
01:11:28,022 --> 01:11:30,155
I will be guiding you
through a meditation.
811
01:11:30,286 --> 01:11:32,592
And Kenzi here, will
be my first recipient.
812
01:11:36,553 --> 01:11:39,991
Find yourself in a
comfortable corpse pose.
813
01:11:41,514 --> 01:11:43,255
Whatever feels best to you.
- Okay.
814
01:11:54,962 --> 01:11:59,706
Allow your back body
to sink to the ground.
815
01:12:04,581 --> 01:12:08,802
Let your belly rise
and fall with a breath.
816
01:12:15,809 --> 01:12:18,986
Sink deeper with every exhale.
817
01:12:36,221 --> 01:12:37,221
In
818
01:12:41,313 --> 01:12:46,187
And out.
819
01:12:47,188 --> 01:12:48,188
In...
820
01:12:52,324 --> 01:12:53,847
- Oh. Okay.
- It's okay.
821
01:12:57,111 --> 01:12:58,852
And as you relax,
822
01:12:58,983 --> 01:13:03,596
your partner will gently reach
your arms out to your sides,
823
01:13:06,817 --> 01:13:11,561
extending away from your ribs,
824
01:13:16,130 --> 01:13:18,306
allowing your breath to
fill into your lungs,
825
01:13:18,437 --> 01:13:22,876
reaching their full capacity.
826
01:13:25,792 --> 01:13:26,792
In
827
01:13:29,100 --> 01:13:31,624
And out.
828
01:13:35,193 --> 01:13:37,108
Continue with this rhythm.
829
01:13:49,294 --> 01:13:50,294
In
830
01:13:54,517 --> 01:13:55,909
And out.
831
01:13:56,040 --> 01:13:57,040
This is really nice.
832
01:14:05,441 --> 01:14:07,051
So how long should I-
833
01:15:45,105 --> 01:15:47,804
I am ready to
receive all of you.
834
01:17:23,726 --> 01:17:28,078
- Hello?
- Anya? Jesus, are you okay?
835
01:17:28,208 --> 01:17:29,993
I have been calling you nonstop.
836
01:17:30,123 --> 01:17:34,867
Oh, don't worry. I'm
fine. I slept well.
837
01:17:36,260 --> 01:17:37,522
I feel rested now.
838
01:17:38,871 --> 01:17:40,003
That's a relief.
839
01:17:41,787 --> 01:17:43,963
It's, it's good to
hear your voice.
840
01:17:44,094 --> 01:17:47,053
Hmm. It's good to
hear your voice too.
841
01:17:49,099 --> 01:17:50,927
What happened with the journal?
842
01:17:53,103 --> 01:17:55,279
Well, I put that behind me.
843
01:17:55,409 --> 01:17:57,237
Oh, good.
844
01:17:58,848 --> 01:17:59,848
Good.
845
01:18:03,548 --> 01:18:05,158
Anya?
846
01:18:05,289 --> 01:18:10,207
I was trying so hard
to be someone else
847
01:18:10,773 --> 01:18:12,383
that I finally found myself.
848
01:18:16,082 --> 01:18:18,911
I think it's time
I come home, Lenka.
849
01:18:22,393 --> 01:18:24,264
I look forward to
seeing you again.
850
01:18:27,050 --> 01:18:28,181
I love you, Anya.60264
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