1 00:01:39,099 --> 00:01:41,275 Cool. Okay, compose yourself. 2 00:01:45,627 --> 00:01:46,627 Okay. 3 00:01:49,239 --> 00:01:51,111 Greetings everyone, I... 4 00:01:52,721 --> 00:01:55,289 Greetings everyone, I'm Anya. Whoa. 5 00:01:55,419 --> 00:01:58,335 Greetings everyone, my name... 6 00:01:58,466 --> 00:01:59,466 Greetings everyone. 7 00:02:01,425 --> 00:02:06,213 Hi, I'm, no. Hi, I'm Anya. Mind. No, greetings, greetings. 8 00:02:06,343 --> 00:02:07,343 Greetings. 9 00:02:08,911 --> 00:02:09,911 Okay. 10 00:02:11,174 --> 00:02:13,829 Greetings everyone, I'm Anya. 11 00:02:13,959 --> 00:02:17,224 Welcome to Mind Body Spirit. 12 00:02:17,354 --> 00:02:20,575 Mind Body Spirit is so much more than a fitness channel. 13 00:02:20,705 --> 00:02:23,360 It is a journey to self discovery, 14 00:02:23,491 --> 00:02:25,754 and aligning our mind, body, and spirit 15 00:02:25,884 --> 00:02:28,539 is the closest we can get to our truest selves. 16 00:02:28,670 --> 00:02:30,237 But in order to make that discovery, 17 00:02:30,367 --> 00:02:32,239 we've gotta be willing to take risks. 18 00:02:32,369 --> 00:02:35,459 So get ready to step outta your comfort zone. 19 00:02:35,590 --> 00:02:38,158 Go for it. Be brave. 20 00:02:38,288 --> 00:02:42,205 Don't become a lost soul floating through the void. Woo. 21 00:02:42,336 --> 00:02:44,033 Like me, before my morning coffee. 22 00:02:48,124 --> 00:02:50,866 My grandmother gave me this house in her will. 23 00:02:50,996 --> 00:02:52,911 She passed away about a year ago. 24 00:02:53,738 --> 00:02:55,653 And I never really got to meet her. 25 00:02:55,784 --> 00:02:57,064 Didn't really know her that well. 26 00:02:57,133 --> 00:03:01,181 But, you know, it really felt like a, 27 00:03:01,311 --> 00:03:03,531 the universe telling me to make a change in my life. 28 00:03:03,661 --> 00:03:07,796 So that's what I did. I moved out to California. 29 00:03:07,926 --> 00:03:11,756 I left my old life behind. Yes, thank you. 30 00:03:11,887 --> 00:03:15,456 And I took a risk and... 31 00:03:16,457 --> 00:03:18,023 so can you. 32 00:03:18,154 --> 00:03:20,722 I promise, if you stick with me, 33 00:03:20,852 --> 00:03:23,420 then we will go to places you never imagine. 34 00:03:26,380 --> 00:03:27,380 Shit. 35 00:03:30,688 --> 00:03:33,517 I promise, if you stick with me, 36 00:03:33,648 --> 00:03:37,217 then we will go to places that you can never imagine. 37 00:03:37,347 --> 00:03:40,785 We will recharge our minds, reclaim our bodies, 38 00:03:40,916 --> 00:03:42,439 because our bodies are the places 39 00:03:42,570 --> 00:03:44,267 that our spirits call home. 40 00:03:45,355 --> 00:03:46,487 You ready? 41 00:03:47,444 --> 00:03:51,318 Today, we are going to dive right into a balancing posture. 42 00:03:52,188 --> 00:03:55,931 So, we're going to meet in Savasana. 43 00:03:56,061 --> 00:03:58,063 No, no, Tadasana. 44 00:03:58,194 --> 00:04:00,196 ♪ Tadasana 45 00:04:00,327 --> 00:04:02,503 Meaning in Tadasana, standing posture, 46 00:04:02,633 --> 00:04:05,201 we're going to root our feet into the ground, 47 00:04:05,332 --> 00:04:10,032 lift one knee up to the heart, stretch all the way back, 48 00:04:11,947 --> 00:04:15,907 squeeze those inner thighs, engage that core. 49 00:04:16,038 --> 00:04:18,693 And if you discover 50 00:04:18,823 --> 00:04:21,478 that you are a little bit limited in flexibility, 51 00:04:21,609 --> 00:04:24,046 don't let that hold you back, just go with the flip. 52 00:04:24,176 --> 00:04:26,788 Now, if you start to lose your balance, 53 00:04:26,918 --> 00:04:28,442 which will probably happen, 54 00:04:28,572 --> 00:04:31,140 you know, just get right back up. 55 00:04:31,271 --> 00:04:34,622 Like my friend Kenzi says, "Practice make powerful." 56 00:04:34,752 --> 00:04:39,191 Okay, I guess I need some practice here too... 57 00:04:39,322 --> 00:04:40,671 Shit. Ow! 58 00:04:41,846 --> 00:04:42,846 Damn it! 59 00:04:47,504 --> 00:04:48,504 Stupid. 60 00:04:50,594 --> 00:04:52,814 You gotta do it. You gotta do it. You gotta do it, Anya. 61 00:05:04,042 --> 00:05:06,523 No way. 62 00:05:24,628 --> 00:05:25,847 That's definitely a door. 63 00:06:07,541 --> 00:06:08,541 Fuck it. 64 00:06:19,335 --> 00:06:20,335 Oh... 65 00:06:23,426 --> 00:06:27,387 So, welcome to my grandma's hidden pantry. 66 00:06:38,702 --> 00:06:43,359 I will just put this down here on the weird candle bread. 67 00:06:53,108 --> 00:06:54,108 Okay, that's weird. 68 00:07:14,695 --> 00:07:18,960 Oh, Jesus. 69 00:07:19,090 --> 00:07:20,440 Nope, I guess not. 70 00:07:41,939 --> 00:07:42,939 Yikes. 71 00:07:47,771 --> 00:07:48,771 Whoa. 72 00:07:58,086 --> 00:07:59,217 What the fuck? 73 00:08:04,135 --> 00:08:05,223 Oh, geez! 74 00:08:05,354 --> 00:08:06,660 Oh, Jesus, fuck! 75 00:08:10,925 --> 00:08:11,925 Okay. 76 00:08:12,883 --> 00:08:13,883 Okay. 77 00:08:40,955 --> 00:08:41,955 Hello? 78 00:08:53,837 --> 00:08:56,797 Shit. 79 00:09:23,563 --> 00:09:24,563 Verasha. 80 00:09:35,052 --> 00:09:39,927 "For my Anya." 81 00:09:42,625 --> 00:09:43,974 "For my Anya." 82 00:10:02,340 --> 00:10:05,735 Greetings everyone, welcome back. 83 00:10:05,866 --> 00:10:06,866 The passage- 84 00:10:09,521 --> 00:10:12,829 The passage that I was just reading to you 85 00:10:12,960 --> 00:10:16,180 was written to me by my grandmother, Verasha. 86 00:10:16,311 --> 00:10:19,401 I was never allowed to meet her. My mom never let me. 87 00:10:19,531 --> 00:10:21,098 Family drama. 88 00:10:21,229 --> 00:10:25,886 I, I never knew that she was a teacher, a healer like me. 89 00:10:27,888 --> 00:10:30,020 'Cause it runs in our blood. 90 00:10:30,151 --> 00:10:33,110 This house is the place that her spirit called home. 91 00:10:33,241 --> 00:10:35,156 I guess I just, 92 00:10:35,286 --> 00:10:37,898 I never realized how much of her was still here. 93 00:10:40,422 --> 00:10:41,989 Hi grandma. 94 00:10:42,990 --> 00:10:47,081 So she dedicated this journal to me. I don't know. 95 00:10:47,211 --> 00:10:50,258 She wanted somebody in our family to know what she did, 96 00:10:50,388 --> 00:10:51,172 where she went. 97 00:10:51,302 --> 00:10:54,566 She spent her lifetime 98 00:10:55,480 --> 00:10:59,484 reconnecting with her Slavic heritage, my heritage, 99 00:10:59,615 --> 00:11:01,573 collecting rituals like this. 100 00:11:01,704 --> 00:11:03,837 A lot of it is in Russian. 101 00:11:03,967 --> 00:11:05,969 She translated some of it 102 00:11:06,100 --> 00:11:08,406 and then phoneticized some other passages for me. 103 00:11:10,800 --> 00:11:14,891 "The path to self-discovery is paved with doubt." 104 00:11:15,022 --> 00:11:18,286 But every step you take brings you closer 105 00:11:18,416 --> 00:11:20,070 to who you really are. 106 00:11:23,726 --> 00:11:28,513 To not be afraid in this journey, in this life, 107 00:11:28,644 --> 00:11:29,819 you are not alone. 108 00:11:32,648 --> 00:11:35,520 "Whenever you are lost, you can find yourself here." 109 00:11:38,349 --> 00:11:40,569 I wish you knew how much those words meant to me. 110 00:11:42,527 --> 00:11:44,660 How much she's inspired me. 111 00:11:44,791 --> 00:11:47,663 I mean, she just, she experienced so much. 112 00:11:47,794 --> 00:11:48,795 I just... 113 00:11:52,059 --> 00:11:53,059 I wish... 114 00:11:56,019 --> 00:11:58,630 I wish I could be like her. 115 00:12:02,243 --> 00:12:03,723 And someday I will. 116 00:12:06,856 --> 00:12:08,902 But right now, I am here with you. 117 00:12:09,032 --> 00:12:12,253 So let's get moving, shall we? 118 00:12:12,383 --> 00:12:14,690 We're going to start in a balancing posture. 119 00:12:14,821 --> 00:12:17,258 Don't be afraid. I am right here with you. 120 00:12:17,388 --> 00:12:20,174 Root your feet into the ground, 121 00:12:20,304 --> 00:12:23,220 float one knee up to your heart, 122 00:12:23,351 --> 00:12:25,309 and kick it back behind you 123 00:12:25,440 --> 00:12:28,704 as you lengthen through your spine. 124 00:12:31,359 --> 00:12:35,406 And if you fall, you know, just get back up, right? 125 00:12:35,537 --> 00:12:37,017 It's called practice for a reason. 126 00:12:38,714 --> 00:12:43,197 Woo. Alright, hold here for a couple of deep breaths in. 127 00:12:49,203 --> 00:12:50,900 Digging into that heel. 128 00:12:55,818 --> 00:12:57,472 One more. In. 129 00:13:01,911 --> 00:13:04,479 And as you come back to your feet, 130 00:13:04,609 --> 00:13:08,265 don't just plop down, float your knee back to your heart, 131 00:13:08,396 --> 00:13:11,703 and then let it drop back down to the ground. 132 00:13:11,834 --> 00:13:15,316 And that's it. You did it. Great job, everyone. 133 00:13:15,446 --> 00:13:17,318 Thank you so much for joining me. 134 00:13:17,448 --> 00:13:19,581 Thank you for listening to me, 135 00:13:19,711 --> 00:13:24,455 and I really hope we can really become one mind, 136 00:13:26,109 --> 00:13:28,895 one body, one spirit together. 137 00:13:33,943 --> 00:13:34,943 Yeah. 138 00:13:36,032 --> 00:13:37,032 Cool. 139 00:13:42,169 --> 00:13:45,955 This is KenziFit. You ready to sweat? 140 00:13:49,698 --> 00:13:51,831 If you wanna unlock your body, 141 00:13:51,961 --> 00:13:54,572 you have to unleash your mind. 142 00:13:54,703 --> 00:13:57,532 Don't listen to that voice inside you that says you can't, 143 00:13:59,099 --> 00:14:00,317 because you can. 144 00:14:03,625 --> 00:14:07,150 Why meditate when you can "sweatitate." 145 00:14:16,681 --> 00:14:17,987 Only on KenziFit. 146 00:14:30,739 --> 00:14:31,739 Hi baby. 147 00:14:32,610 --> 00:14:33,481 Hi, Lenka. 148 00:14:33,611 --> 00:14:35,787 Anya, you know, I hate that name. 149 00:14:35,918 --> 00:14:38,138 Your grandmother always called me that. 150 00:14:38,268 --> 00:14:39,269 Hi, Lenny. 151 00:14:39,400 --> 00:14:42,229 Come on, we can do better than that. 152 00:14:42,359 --> 00:14:44,361 - How about "mom?" - Sure. 153 00:14:45,536 --> 00:14:49,062 That was fun. Did you call me just to give me a hard time? 154 00:14:49,192 --> 00:14:50,952 You told me to call you once I got settled. 155 00:14:51,064 --> 00:14:53,631 So you're settled. Is this news? 156 00:14:53,762 --> 00:14:56,069 - Mom... - I'm just asking. 157 00:14:56,199 --> 00:14:59,420 You're so far from home. No friends, no family. 158 00:14:59,550 --> 00:15:00,550 Grandma's family. 159 00:15:02,031 --> 00:15:04,425 Verasha is dead, Anya. 160 00:15:05,948 --> 00:15:09,038 Boris! Enough! 161 00:15:09,169 --> 00:15:13,042 Okay, fine. Your grandmother was family, but... 162 00:15:13,173 --> 00:15:14,565 Go on. 163 00:15:14,696 --> 00:15:16,524 She wasn't the woman you think she was. 164 00:15:17,873 --> 00:15:20,789 Boris! Boris! 165 00:15:20,920 --> 00:15:24,097 You know, you've always told me about who she wasn't, 166 00:15:24,227 --> 00:15:26,273 but you've never actually told me who she was. 167 00:15:27,883 --> 00:15:30,320 You never told me she was spiritual. 168 00:15:30,451 --> 00:15:32,571 I can't tell you about a woman who was never around. 169 00:15:34,063 --> 00:15:36,152 That's a pretty heavy pour, sweetheart. 170 00:15:38,894 --> 00:15:40,654 Verasha only came back when she needed something. 171 00:15:40,678 --> 00:15:43,464 All she did was take and take and take. 172 00:15:45,857 --> 00:15:47,250 And now she's taking you from me. 173 00:15:48,556 --> 00:15:51,341 Jesus, mom, she hasn't taken me from you. 174 00:15:51,472 --> 00:15:54,562 If anything, she's given me a place 175 00:15:54,692 --> 00:15:58,087 to finally figure myself out, you know? 176 00:15:58,218 --> 00:16:00,568 And you can't do that here at home? 177 00:16:00,698 --> 00:16:03,484 I, I can move my things out of your room. 178 00:16:03,614 --> 00:16:05,660 I'm not coming home, okay? 179 00:16:05,790 --> 00:16:09,185 I've literally spent all that I have just to get out here. 180 00:16:09,316 --> 00:16:11,753 Anya, I know that. 181 00:16:12,580 --> 00:16:15,713 I just wanna make sure that you're safe, that you're okay. 182 00:16:15,844 --> 00:16:16,976 I'm okay. 183 00:16:17,106 --> 00:16:19,630 Good. I just wanna help you. 184 00:16:21,545 --> 00:16:23,025 Yeah, well then you should have. 185 00:16:30,990 --> 00:16:34,123 This fucking dog. 186 00:16:34,254 --> 00:16:36,647 Boris, you get out of here right now! 187 00:16:36,778 --> 00:16:37,953 Asshole! Quick! 188 00:16:41,913 --> 00:16:44,525 Did you ever think that maybe grandma 189 00:16:44,655 --> 00:16:49,095 felt like she had to leave to find herself? 190 00:16:49,225 --> 00:16:50,922 And why would you say that? 191 00:16:51,053 --> 00:16:54,752 Because she said so in her journal. 192 00:16:56,885 --> 00:16:59,322 I see. Is that what you believe? 193 00:16:59,453 --> 00:17:02,238 It's, it's not about what I believe. 194 00:17:02,369 --> 00:17:05,241 That's what I have to do. That's what I am doing. 195 00:17:05,372 --> 00:17:09,376 Anya, I just, I just don't want you to waste your life 196 00:17:09,506 --> 00:17:10,744 obsessing over your grandmother. 197 00:17:10,768 --> 00:17:14,207 Obsessing? I am not obsessing, mom. 198 00:17:14,337 --> 00:17:16,035 That's not what I meant, baby. 199 00:17:16,165 --> 00:17:19,038 You just, you get so lost in things. 200 00:17:19,168 --> 00:17:21,214 And I am not there to pull you out. 201 00:17:21,344 --> 00:17:22,389 I know what I'm doing. 202 00:17:23,781 --> 00:17:25,044 Of course, you do. 203 00:17:26,045 --> 00:17:29,874 But listen, if you wanna find yourself, go find yourself. 204 00:17:30,005 --> 00:17:33,748 Go anywhere. Just not, not there. 205 00:17:36,098 --> 00:17:37,621 None of us knew that place existed. 206 00:17:37,752 --> 00:17:40,363 Yeah, well maybe she didn't want you to know. 207 00:17:40,494 --> 00:17:42,409 Maybe all of this was always just for me. 208 00:17:42,539 --> 00:17:44,063 Maybe she saw herself in me 209 00:17:44,193 --> 00:17:45,977 in a way that she could never see in you. 210 00:17:47,153 --> 00:17:50,112 Oh, Anya, I promise you, 211 00:17:51,418 --> 00:17:53,159 you are nothing like her. 212 00:17:54,247 --> 00:17:55,378 - Goodbye, Lenka. - Anya- 213 00:18:16,834 --> 00:18:17,966 Hey guys! 214 00:18:18,097 --> 00:18:21,622 Oh my God. I'm sorry. Reflex. - That's okay. 215 00:18:21,752 --> 00:18:22,449 Do your thing, girl. 216 00:18:22,579 --> 00:18:24,146 Yeah, no, totally. No worries. 217 00:18:26,583 --> 00:18:27,583 Okay. 218 00:18:30,109 --> 00:18:31,936 Welcome everyone, I'm Anya. 219 00:18:32,067 --> 00:18:34,113 And today we have a very special guest. 220 00:18:34,243 --> 00:18:37,377 This is Kenzi Duffert. 221 00:18:37,507 --> 00:18:39,857 Oh, I, I don't use that name professionally. 222 00:18:39,988 --> 00:18:41,487 - Fuck! Oh, I'm sorry- - No, that's okay. 223 00:18:41,511 --> 00:18:43,426 - I'm so sorry. - That's totally cool. 224 00:18:43,557 --> 00:18:44,957 - I'm sorry. - Don't worry about it. 225 00:18:45,341 --> 00:18:47,561 Thank you for doing this with me again. 226 00:18:49,476 --> 00:18:51,260 Yeah, of course, chigger. 227 00:18:51,391 --> 00:18:53,191 Your mom said that you were really struggling, 228 00:18:53,219 --> 00:18:54,219 so I'm happy to help. 229 00:18:56,352 --> 00:18:59,442 - Yes, thank you. - Yeah. 230 00:19:01,966 --> 00:19:02,966 Okay. 231 00:19:03,838 --> 00:19:05,970 Welcome everyone, I am Anya, 232 00:19:06,101 --> 00:19:07,842 and today we have a very special guest. 233 00:19:07,972 --> 00:19:11,193 This is KenziFit. - Hey guys. 234 00:19:12,412 --> 00:19:13,761 Kenzi and I grew up together 235 00:19:13,891 --> 00:19:16,720 and we recently reconnected when I moved out here. 236 00:19:16,851 --> 00:19:20,507 And I'm just so excited to partner with her on today's video 237 00:19:20,637 --> 00:19:22,552 and to really learn about how she's connecting 238 00:19:22,683 --> 00:19:24,119 with her fan base. 239 00:19:24,250 --> 00:19:25,947 I'll be guiding you 240 00:19:26,077 --> 00:19:28,515 through my 10 minute total body takeover strength flow, 241 00:19:28,645 --> 00:19:30,952 a little bit of yoga, a little bit of lifting, 242 00:19:31,082 --> 00:19:32,519 and a lot of sweat. 243 00:19:32,649 --> 00:19:33,649 So get ready. 244 00:19:36,392 --> 00:19:39,439 Okay, how do you normally kick things off? 245 00:19:39,569 --> 00:19:43,225 Um, well, let's, I don't know, 246 00:19:43,356 --> 00:19:45,749 I kind of keep things pretty loose, you know, 247 00:19:45,880 --> 00:19:47,708 and it's all about the discovery process. 248 00:19:47,838 --> 00:19:49,275 All my things are about- 249 00:19:49,405 --> 00:19:50,426 Ah ha. So how do you kick things off? 250 00:19:50,450 --> 00:19:51,450 Process. 251 00:19:52,974 --> 00:19:56,543 Well, usually I start talking about how I'm feeling and- 252 00:19:56,673 --> 00:19:58,588 - Okay. - Yeah. 253 00:19:58,719 --> 00:19:59,719 First tip. 254 00:20:01,417 --> 00:20:02,417 Right. 255 00:20:05,334 --> 00:20:07,641 No one gives a shit about how you feel. 256 00:20:07,771 --> 00:20:09,773 People only care about themselves. 257 00:20:09,904 --> 00:20:13,255 They want structure, not a therapy session. 258 00:20:13,386 --> 00:20:15,605 So you gotta be fearless. - Fearless. 259 00:20:16,606 --> 00:20:19,305 Um, you're also going to want to build your brand. 260 00:20:20,741 --> 00:20:22,960 Something that helps you stand out, 261 00:20:23,091 --> 00:20:24,223 you know, find your thing. 262 00:20:25,267 --> 00:20:26,486 Oh, um... 263 00:20:28,183 --> 00:20:30,925 What about, what about this? 264 00:20:31,055 --> 00:20:33,057 - Oh, God. - This is my grandma's. 265 00:20:33,188 --> 00:20:35,103 And she was like collecting all these rituals 266 00:20:35,234 --> 00:20:36,931 from our homeland and it's... 267 00:20:37,061 --> 00:20:40,587 Um, I mean, that might be a little too obscure. 268 00:20:40,717 --> 00:20:41,912 People want things that they know, 269 00:20:41,936 --> 00:20:43,764 but like with a little extra personality. 270 00:20:43,894 --> 00:20:47,158 So remix some yoga flows, pepper in some Sanskrit. 271 00:20:48,159 --> 00:20:49,770 Yeah, I know. 272 00:20:49,900 --> 00:20:52,183 I just, I don't really feel comfortable teaching a language 273 00:20:52,207 --> 00:20:54,253 that I don't actually speak, you know? 274 00:20:54,383 --> 00:20:56,037 Fake it till you make it. 275 00:20:56,167 --> 00:20:57,038 Listen, people don't really care 276 00:20:57,168 --> 00:20:58,605 as long as you seem authentic. 277 00:20:58,735 --> 00:20:59,823 But this is authentic. 278 00:20:59,954 --> 00:21:01,347 No one wants to read old books. 279 00:21:05,525 --> 00:21:07,178 Look, you wanna be successful, right? 280 00:21:10,007 --> 00:21:11,748 Yeah. Yes. 281 00:21:12,662 --> 00:21:15,143 So, how many videos have you dropped so far? 282 00:21:16,492 --> 00:21:19,016 I just started recording them. 283 00:21:19,147 --> 00:21:23,630 I was gonna, I was gonna release them all when I'm ready. 284 00:21:24,631 --> 00:21:28,025 Okay, so you haven't put anything out yet? 285 00:21:28,939 --> 00:21:31,222 Well, no, I just, I didn't want it to seem like bullshit, 286 00:21:31,246 --> 00:21:33,422 I wanted it to be true to me. 287 00:21:34,336 --> 00:21:36,077 Okay, well, you're not gonna get any views 288 00:21:36,207 --> 00:21:37,774 if you don't have anything to watch. 289 00:21:40,299 --> 00:21:42,736 Oh girl, that is not even a tip. That's just a fact. 290 00:21:44,999 --> 00:21:45,999 Okay. 291 00:21:48,263 --> 00:21:49,936 Oh shit, I have to teach a class in like an hour. 292 00:21:49,960 --> 00:21:51,614 Can we do this? 293 00:21:52,833 --> 00:21:53,833 Yeah, absolutely. 294 00:21:53,877 --> 00:21:55,575 - Like now-ish. - Okay. Yep. Cool. 295 00:22:01,668 --> 00:22:03,234 Namaste, bitches. 296 00:22:03,365 --> 00:22:06,368 We're getting started with two hand front race swings. 297 00:22:06,499 --> 00:22:08,109 Thirty seconds starts now. 298 00:22:13,462 --> 00:22:16,552 And up! 299 00:22:16,683 --> 00:22:17,858 And up! 300 00:22:17,988 --> 00:22:18,988 And up! 301 00:22:19,990 --> 00:22:21,296 Keep that core tight! 302 00:22:23,254 --> 00:22:25,474 Feeling the burn, Anya. - Oh yeah. 303 00:22:25,605 --> 00:22:28,869 - Yeah, this is intense. - Yes. Get it, girl. 304 00:22:28,999 --> 00:22:30,958 - Woo. Wow. - Woo. 305 00:22:31,088 --> 00:22:33,743 Up and up! Squeeze your glutes. 306 00:22:33,874 --> 00:22:35,745 - Squeezing. - Up to the sky. 307 00:22:35,876 --> 00:22:37,094 Smile through the pain! 308 00:22:40,707 --> 00:22:41,707 Okay. 309 00:22:42,970 --> 00:22:44,101 Hi everyone. Ugh. 310 00:22:46,321 --> 00:22:50,151 Hey, hi. Greetings. Namaste, whatever. 311 00:22:52,588 --> 00:22:56,592 Everyone has this voice inside of themselves 312 00:22:56,723 --> 00:22:59,987 that really feels like their truth, right? 313 00:23:01,336 --> 00:23:04,295 But then there's all these other voices 314 00:23:04,426 --> 00:23:06,226 that are telling you that that truth is a lie. 315 00:23:06,297 --> 00:23:07,647 And... 316 00:23:09,126 --> 00:23:10,519 maybe they're right, 317 00:23:12,260 --> 00:23:16,960 but it's really hard to know which voice to listen to. 318 00:23:20,050 --> 00:23:24,272 But the most important thing is that we make space 319 00:23:24,403 --> 00:23:27,536 for ourselves to listen, right? 320 00:23:27,667 --> 00:23:30,539 So in the interest of an open mind, 321 00:23:30,670 --> 00:23:34,325 we are going to do a mindful meditation. 322 00:23:34,456 --> 00:23:36,023 Find yourself in Sukhasana. 323 00:23:37,111 --> 00:23:39,940 You know what? Nah, forget that. 324 00:23:40,070 --> 00:23:43,465 Just sit however you want, but make sure you're comfortable. 325 00:23:43,596 --> 00:23:46,990 Feel yourself connecting to the earth. 326 00:23:47,121 --> 00:23:51,299 Lengthen your spine. Soften your eyes. 327 00:23:51,430 --> 00:23:53,780 Inhale into your belly. 328 00:23:57,131 --> 00:23:59,786 Exhale. Let it all go. 329 00:24:01,788 --> 00:24:04,399 Inhale into your belly. 330 00:24:07,924 --> 00:24:12,102 Exhale. Let it go. 331 00:24:12,233 --> 00:24:17,412 And in. 332 00:24:17,543 --> 00:24:18,543 And out. 333 00:24:21,851 --> 00:24:22,851 And in. 334 00:24:26,203 --> 00:24:28,031 And as you continue this rhythm, 335 00:24:28,162 --> 00:24:30,294 clear your mind of the chatter. 336 00:24:30,425 --> 00:24:32,775 Quiet every voice, but your own. 337 00:24:34,908 --> 00:24:36,257 And in. 338 00:24:42,176 --> 00:24:47,007 And out. 339 00:24:47,137 --> 00:24:48,137 And in. 340 00:24:52,012 --> 00:24:53,187 And out. 341 00:24:56,756 --> 00:24:59,106 Keep it going. Inhale in. 342 00:25:03,023 --> 00:25:04,415 Exhale. Let it go. 343 00:25:07,941 --> 00:25:09,203 One final breath in. 344 00:25:14,643 --> 00:25:19,430 Exhale, let it all go. 345 00:25:29,745 --> 00:25:30,745 Shit. 346 00:25:35,969 --> 00:25:36,969 Hello. 347 00:25:38,406 --> 00:25:40,974 And sometimes your meditations get cut short, 348 00:25:41,104 --> 00:25:42,715 but you know, that's okay, 349 00:25:42,845 --> 00:25:45,152 because it's all a part of the journey, right? 350 00:25:46,327 --> 00:25:48,155 And I don't know about you, 351 00:25:48,285 --> 00:25:52,551 but I really felt like I was finally given the chance 352 00:25:52,681 --> 00:25:54,509 to listen to myself. 353 00:25:54,640 --> 00:25:57,077 So I hope you did too. 354 00:26:03,605 --> 00:26:04,713 Hey guys, KenziFit here 355 00:26:04,737 --> 00:26:08,001 with my daily dose of damn good advice. 356 00:26:08,131 --> 00:26:11,221 Never be afraid of how powerful you really are. 357 00:26:11,352 --> 00:26:14,442 Discover the power you have inside you. 358 00:26:14,573 --> 00:26:16,413 Don't wait for the universe to give you a sign. 359 00:26:16,531 --> 00:26:18,881 Discover it for yourself. 360 00:26:19,012 --> 00:26:21,362 Click the link below to sign up for my new discover- 361 00:27:05,406 --> 00:27:09,192 Whenever you are lost, you can find yourself here. 362 00:27:11,238 --> 00:27:13,283 Last night I realized 363 00:27:14,545 --> 00:27:16,852 Verasha was trying to tell me something. 364 00:27:16,983 --> 00:27:19,899 Everything that I was looking for, 365 00:27:20,029 --> 00:27:24,207 my path, my answers, they are all right here. 366 00:27:28,559 --> 00:27:31,127 This is a traditional Slavic ritual 367 00:27:31,258 --> 00:27:35,610 called "prisoyedineniye" or "the joining." 368 00:27:35,741 --> 00:27:37,917 It is a month long daily practice 369 00:27:38,047 --> 00:27:40,789 curated by my ancestors generations ago 370 00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:44,140 meant to join the soul back to the body, 371 00:27:45,228 --> 00:27:49,450 the ultimate spiritual centering. 372 00:27:49,580 --> 00:27:53,672 My grandmother, she saw how this culture takes 373 00:27:53,802 --> 00:27:56,370 and takes and takes and never gives anything back. 374 00:27:56,500 --> 00:27:59,286 So she found something in the history of our people. 375 00:28:04,421 --> 00:28:07,903 I know that these videos started out as one thing, 376 00:28:08,034 --> 00:28:11,690 but I truly believe that they can be so much more. 377 00:28:13,082 --> 00:28:14,649 I don't know how to speak Sanskrit. 378 00:28:16,956 --> 00:28:21,438 I am an influencer imposter living a lie. 379 00:28:22,657 --> 00:28:25,704 And I don't know how far I'll have to go 380 00:28:25,834 --> 00:28:27,706 to start living my truth, but... 381 00:28:30,230 --> 00:28:31,622 this feels like the first step. 382 00:28:37,106 --> 00:28:40,066 For years, I was a slave to caffeine. 383 00:28:40,196 --> 00:28:41,371 Working on Wall Street, 384 00:28:41,502 --> 00:28:43,547 I would drink like 12 espressos a day. 385 00:28:45,898 --> 00:28:47,900 But when I went on a business retreat in Bali, 386 00:28:49,640 --> 00:28:53,427 I tried Chamisal tea. 387 00:28:53,557 --> 00:28:55,124 It fueled my mind and my body 388 00:28:55,255 --> 00:28:57,474 in a way I had never felt before. 389 00:28:58,911 --> 00:29:00,521 And I knew it was my job 390 00:29:00,651 --> 00:29:02,828 to bring that experience to the world. 391 00:29:04,220 --> 00:29:06,919 So I quit corporate life 392 00:29:07,049 --> 00:29:09,660 and turned my liquid capital into liquid dreams. 393 00:29:12,663 --> 00:29:13,663 This is RthNrgy, 394 00:29:15,318 --> 00:29:17,320 a sacred blend of earth's greatest treasures. 395 00:29:35,164 --> 00:29:36,383 The hollowing, 396 00:29:37,993 --> 00:29:38,993 the cleansing, 397 00:29:40,866 --> 00:29:41,866 the many, 398 00:29:44,217 --> 00:29:45,522 the expansion. 399 00:29:47,698 --> 00:29:50,832 These are the core pillars of... 400 00:29:51,877 --> 00:29:52,877 the joining. 401 00:29:54,531 --> 00:29:56,969 I know this might all seem a little strange, 402 00:29:57,099 --> 00:30:01,800 but, it's like I said, discovery is all about taking risks. 403 00:30:03,366 --> 00:30:05,412 We gotta be fearless, right? 404 00:30:05,542 --> 00:30:09,198 We're never gonna know how far we can go 405 00:30:09,329 --> 00:30:10,504 until we go there. 406 00:30:20,383 --> 00:30:25,432 The first step to finding yourself is finding your voice. 407 00:30:25,562 --> 00:30:28,217 ♪ La la la la la 408 00:30:28,348 --> 00:30:30,654 No, I'm sorry. Ignore me. 409 00:30:30,785 --> 00:30:31,893 Was a joke, don't ignore me. 410 00:30:31,917 --> 00:30:35,790 Hey guys, welcome to day one of our practice. 411 00:30:35,921 --> 00:30:38,837 We're going to be kicking off our journey with... 412 00:30:38,967 --> 00:30:40,055 the hollowing. 413 00:30:40,186 --> 00:30:43,537 It is an incantation, a guided vocal chant, 414 00:30:43,667 --> 00:30:46,845 meant to bring the voice back to the body, 415 00:30:46,975 --> 00:30:50,283 and really open us up for what's about to come. 416 00:30:50,413 --> 00:30:52,241 I know it might feel a little bit silly, 417 00:30:52,372 --> 00:30:54,896 but you know, just trust your voice, 418 00:30:55,027 --> 00:30:58,378 listen to your voice, love your voice. 419 00:30:58,508 --> 00:31:03,383 I will be following Verasha and you will be following me. 420 00:31:03,513 --> 00:31:04,819 Everyone inhale in. 421 00:31:12,174 --> 00:31:17,092 ♪ I am 422 00:31:20,487 --> 00:31:22,706 ♪ Oh, I am 423 00:31:30,932 --> 00:31:35,894 ♪ I am 424 00:31:39,375 --> 00:31:41,551 ♪ Oh, I am 425 00:31:50,778 --> 00:31:55,739 ♪ I am 426 00:31:58,351 --> 00:32:03,312 ♪ I am 427 00:32:07,273 --> 00:32:12,191 ♪ I am 428 00:32:13,366 --> 00:32:15,498 ♪ Oh, I am 429 00:32:35,344 --> 00:32:36,344 Did you hear that? 430 00:32:41,916 --> 00:32:45,180 Well, I'm sure my neighbors heard something. 431 00:32:45,311 --> 00:32:49,445 Well done, everyone. That was great. Really awesome. 432 00:32:49,576 --> 00:32:52,622 I hope you take your voice with you 433 00:32:52,753 --> 00:32:54,276 into the rest of your day. 434 00:32:54,407 --> 00:32:56,757 And until then... 435 00:33:00,935 --> 00:33:02,763 Day three, y'all. 436 00:33:02,893 --> 00:33:06,506 Like Verasha says, "Strong body, strong mind. 437 00:33:06,636 --> 00:33:08,116 Find the shape that fits you." 438 00:33:09,335 --> 00:33:11,380 Verasha's recipe, 439 00:33:11,511 --> 00:33:13,469 a healthy body is a receptive body. 440 00:33:13,600 --> 00:33:16,342 If this is as far as you can go, that's great. 441 00:33:16,472 --> 00:33:18,039 It's only day six. 442 00:33:18,170 --> 00:33:20,259 Just push yourself a little further each time. 443 00:33:21,477 --> 00:33:22,477 And remember, 444 00:33:25,090 --> 00:33:26,787 make space in your body, 445 00:33:26,917 --> 00:33:29,050 make space for your spirit. 446 00:33:30,095 --> 00:33:31,139 Oh shit. Cheers. 447 00:33:36,753 --> 00:33:39,060 I am receiving this. 448 00:34:10,831 --> 00:34:12,572 The cleansing. 449 00:34:12,702 --> 00:34:15,792 So, now that we've hollowed out a space within us, 450 00:34:15,923 --> 00:34:17,620 we are going to clear out all the crap 451 00:34:17,751 --> 00:34:19,535 that's stuck down inside. 452 00:34:19,666 --> 00:34:21,842 So the next phase of our practice 453 00:34:21,972 --> 00:34:25,498 is going to be kind of like a detoxifying purge. 454 00:34:25,628 --> 00:34:28,196 It's really all about getting rid of anything 455 00:34:28,327 --> 00:34:30,894 and everything that no longer serves us. 456 00:34:31,025 --> 00:34:32,157 Don't freak out. 457 00:34:32,287 --> 00:34:35,595 This is a very, very common holistic practice. 458 00:34:35,725 --> 00:34:38,641 It is called a throat cleanse. You can look it up. 459 00:34:38,772 --> 00:34:41,688 It's kind of like a nasal cleanse, which I've done before. 460 00:34:41,818 --> 00:34:42,993 Not a big deal. 461 00:34:43,124 --> 00:34:44,908 All you do is you take a string 462 00:34:45,039 --> 00:34:47,824 and you swallow it on down in your throat, 463 00:34:47,955 --> 00:34:50,566 and then you take it back out. 464 00:34:50,697 --> 00:34:52,090 And that's it. 465 00:34:52,220 --> 00:34:54,962 Okay, here we go. We're gonna do it. 466 00:38:10,070 --> 00:38:11,070 Yikes. 467 00:38:18,905 --> 00:38:19,905 Well, that was rough. 468 00:38:21,124 --> 00:38:22,474 I definitely feel lighter. 469 00:38:24,258 --> 00:38:26,565 Spiritually, not so much, 470 00:38:26,695 --> 00:38:29,132 but physically, you better believe it. 471 00:38:32,962 --> 00:38:38,098 I know I talked a big game about really taking risks 472 00:38:38,228 --> 00:38:40,492 to discover yourself, 473 00:38:40,622 --> 00:38:44,191 but I think the only thing that I discovered 474 00:38:44,322 --> 00:38:46,541 is that I can keep throwing up 475 00:38:46,672 --> 00:38:49,675 even after my stomach is completely empty. 476 00:38:50,850 --> 00:38:53,983 Maybe I missed something. 477 00:38:56,725 --> 00:38:58,553 Maybe I did it wrong. I don't know. 478 00:39:00,642 --> 00:39:03,123 Maybe I'm not ready for this. 479 00:39:05,125 --> 00:39:06,605 So today 480 00:39:08,433 --> 00:39:11,958 I am going to stick with what I know. 481 00:39:13,351 --> 00:39:15,701 A classic seated vinyasa flow. 482 00:39:17,224 --> 00:39:21,663 So find a comfortable seat on your sits bones, 483 00:39:23,230 --> 00:39:24,318 and... 484 00:39:26,668 --> 00:39:28,104 lengthen through your spine, 485 00:39:30,280 --> 00:39:33,109 lifting away from the ground 486 00:39:33,240 --> 00:39:35,808 out through the crown of your head. 487 00:39:35,938 --> 00:39:37,157 Lifting, lifting, lifting. 488 00:39:41,509 --> 00:39:43,816 Lifting, 489 00:39:43,946 --> 00:39:46,296 lifting, lifting, 490 00:39:49,125 --> 00:39:50,125 lifting. 491 00:39:53,782 --> 00:39:54,782 Jesus. 492 00:40:00,310 --> 00:40:04,793 Okay, so something just happened there. 493 00:40:04,924 --> 00:40:06,142 I don't know what it was. 494 00:40:06,273 --> 00:40:07,337 Maybe it was just a feeling, 495 00:40:07,361 --> 00:40:10,625 but it definitely felt powerful. 496 00:40:10,756 --> 00:40:14,455 And listen, yeah, maybe I am crazy to keep going with this. 497 00:40:14,586 --> 00:40:15,804 Definitely not not crazy. 498 00:40:18,894 --> 00:40:23,464 I have discovered something powerful in these pages, 499 00:40:23,595 --> 00:40:28,121 in this practice, something beyond me. 500 00:40:28,251 --> 00:40:29,644 That is where Verasha went, 501 00:40:29,775 --> 00:40:31,385 and that is where she wants me to go. 502 00:40:31,516 --> 00:40:36,129 And I, I've gotta be fearless in order to get there. 503 00:40:36,259 --> 00:40:37,259 It... 504 00:40:38,697 --> 00:40:41,003 Otherwise, I'll just end up right back where I started 505 00:40:41,134 --> 00:40:42,134 and... 506 00:40:48,968 --> 00:40:50,230 I hope you can understand, 507 00:40:51,971 --> 00:40:53,451 and I hope you're still with me. 508 00:41:37,843 --> 00:41:38,931 Hi. 509 00:41:39,061 --> 00:41:40,715 Right, day 12, 510 00:41:40,846 --> 00:41:45,415 the next part of our practice is called "the many." 511 00:41:45,546 --> 00:41:48,854 But there's only half a page here. 512 00:41:48,984 --> 00:41:52,466 It's like a poem or a riddle or something. 513 00:41:52,597 --> 00:41:56,383 "The many selves share only one mind. 514 00:41:56,514 --> 00:42:00,518 And you can't see the truth when your thoughts are blind." 515 00:42:31,505 --> 00:42:32,505 Blind eye. 516 00:42:56,138 --> 00:42:58,140 Come on, Anya, get burned. 517 00:43:30,869 --> 00:43:32,087 Oh, geez. 518 00:43:34,699 --> 00:43:37,615 Okay, so, the many. 519 00:43:39,312 --> 00:43:44,012 The journal says that this is a remedy for the cleansing. 520 00:43:46,754 --> 00:43:49,931 Kind of like an herbal elixir to heal the body 521 00:43:50,062 --> 00:43:51,933 and expand the mind. 522 00:43:54,240 --> 00:43:59,114 So, okay, "you must consider your many self" 523 00:43:59,724 --> 00:44:01,421 all facets of your being. 524 00:44:01,551 --> 00:44:03,684 "So you might see yourself as one whole." 525 00:44:05,555 --> 00:44:08,167 So essentially, you gotta relax. 526 00:44:10,038 --> 00:44:11,300 So I know that most of you 527 00:44:11,431 --> 00:44:13,912 don't have a mystery bottle of tea leaves 528 00:44:14,042 --> 00:44:16,349 hiding around in your dead grandma's secret crawlspace. 529 00:44:16,479 --> 00:44:19,004 But you know, you can use any kind of herbal remedy 530 00:44:19,134 --> 00:44:20,135 that you have, 531 00:44:20,266 --> 00:44:22,877 maybe some CBD, whatever mellows you out. 532 00:44:27,055 --> 00:44:30,189 Last time I did shrooms, I was at the zoo, 533 00:44:30,319 --> 00:44:33,671 and I cried for like six hours. 534 00:44:37,065 --> 00:44:38,719 Let's hope that doesn't happen again. 535 00:44:40,808 --> 00:44:43,419 Cheers, Verasha. Cheers to you. 536 00:44:46,118 --> 00:44:47,118 Here we go. 537 00:44:49,774 --> 00:44:50,774 Ugh. Woo. 538 00:44:53,081 --> 00:44:54,081 Ah, gross. 539 00:44:55,910 --> 00:44:56,910 Okay. 540 00:44:59,305 --> 00:45:00,305 Gross. 541 00:45:13,841 --> 00:45:15,756 I definitely do feel a little calmer though. 542 00:45:18,237 --> 00:45:21,762 So, yes. 543 00:45:21,893 --> 00:45:25,635 The next thing that we have to do is we have to... 544 00:45:28,421 --> 00:45:29,509 So the next... 545 00:45:34,470 --> 00:45:35,471 next thing... 546 00:48:10,322 --> 00:48:12,019 Hello? 547 00:48:12,150 --> 00:48:13,368 Hello. 548 00:48:13,499 --> 00:48:17,024 Anya, are are you all right? It's so late. 549 00:48:18,678 --> 00:48:22,943 Anya, are you all right? It's so late. 550 00:48:23,074 --> 00:48:25,250 Anya, is that you? 551 00:48:27,295 --> 00:48:29,055 Who am I speaking to? - Who am I speaking to? 552 00:48:34,389 --> 00:48:36,348 Anya, are you, are you there? 553 00:48:39,786 --> 00:48:40,786 Anya? 554 00:48:41,744 --> 00:48:42,744 Hello? 555 00:48:43,659 --> 00:48:44,659 Anya? 556 00:48:47,054 --> 00:48:49,927 Anya? Anya, are you there? 557 00:48:51,406 --> 00:48:52,755 Mom? 558 00:48:52,886 --> 00:48:54,932 Anya? Honey, what is going on? 559 00:48:56,716 --> 00:49:00,981 - We're okay. - We, who's there with you? 560 00:49:01,112 --> 00:49:04,854 I'm, I'm okay. I don't, I don't know. 561 00:49:04,985 --> 00:49:06,726 I just had a bad dream. It's, it's nothing. 562 00:49:06,856 --> 00:49:08,989 I'm sorry I called. 563 00:49:09,120 --> 00:49:10,686 Are you sure you're okay? 564 00:49:14,734 --> 00:49:15,822 Who is there with you? 565 00:49:16,910 --> 00:49:17,910 Grandma. 566 00:49:39,715 --> 00:49:41,152 Hey, thank you so much for coming. 567 00:49:41,282 --> 00:49:42,544 Yeah, for sure. 568 00:49:46,592 --> 00:49:47,592 Oh... 569 00:49:49,464 --> 00:49:51,336 we've been redecorating. 570 00:49:53,077 --> 00:49:54,077 I guess so. 571 00:49:58,386 --> 00:50:00,171 Kinda looks like my grandma's house. 572 00:50:00,301 --> 00:50:01,301 Thank you. 573 00:50:07,482 --> 00:50:09,876 So how are the videos going? 574 00:50:12,183 --> 00:50:15,925 I'm really excited to show you what I've been working on. 575 00:50:16,056 --> 00:50:17,362 I can't wait. 576 00:50:24,630 --> 00:50:26,719 Jesus, Anya, have you been eating? 577 00:50:28,634 --> 00:50:30,810 I've been focusing on making space. 578 00:50:32,072 --> 00:50:34,727 Well, maybe you make space for a Caesar wrap or something. 579 00:50:41,821 --> 00:50:44,258 Look, are you, are you sure you wanna shoot this? 580 00:50:45,825 --> 00:50:46,825 Why? 581 00:50:49,176 --> 00:50:52,788 You look not great? 582 00:50:54,094 --> 00:50:55,094 I'm fine. 583 00:50:58,533 --> 00:50:59,533 Okay. 584 00:51:10,371 --> 00:51:11,981 Is someone else here? 585 00:51:13,157 --> 00:51:15,246 No, it's just us. 586 00:51:30,870 --> 00:51:35,092 Hi everyone, welcome back to Mind Body Spirit, I'm Anya. 587 00:51:35,222 --> 00:51:38,921 It's day 17. Let's get started with today's practice. 588 00:51:40,749 --> 00:51:43,361 And I'm Kenzi from KenziFit. 589 00:51:43,491 --> 00:51:45,276 Right. 590 00:51:45,406 --> 00:51:47,321 Do you wanna start over again? 591 00:51:47,452 --> 00:51:48,583 No, not really. 592 00:51:53,501 --> 00:51:54,850 And this is Kenzi. 593 00:51:54,981 --> 00:51:57,897 She'll be joining us for today's practice. 594 00:51:58,027 --> 00:52:01,118 The expansion, the joining. 595 00:52:03,685 --> 00:52:04,685 Wait, sorry. 596 00:52:06,471 --> 00:52:09,213 Can, can we stop this a second? 597 00:52:09,343 --> 00:52:11,650 I, I thought this was gonna be like a flow. 598 00:52:11,780 --> 00:52:13,304 What, what is this? 599 00:52:14,914 --> 00:52:16,742 This is Verasha. 600 00:52:18,874 --> 00:52:21,573 - What the fuck is a Verasha? - My grandmother. 601 00:52:24,097 --> 00:52:28,362 - Okay, can we cut? - Why? What's wrong? 602 00:52:28,493 --> 00:52:31,887 I'm, I'm not doing whatever this is. This isn't my thing. 603 00:52:32,018 --> 00:52:33,541 Yeah, I know. It's my thing. 604 00:52:33,672 --> 00:52:35,369 Okay, great for you, I guess, 605 00:52:35,500 --> 00:52:38,024 but like this isn't on brand for me. 606 00:52:38,155 --> 00:52:39,504 Like, what even is this? - Hey! 607 00:52:39,634 --> 00:52:43,116 Whoa. Chill. Jesus, Anya, look at yourself. 608 00:52:44,770 --> 00:52:49,470 I have been looking at myself more than you ever will. 609 00:52:55,128 --> 00:52:57,086 What the fuck is your deal? 610 00:52:57,217 --> 00:52:59,219 I'm just trying to help you. 611 00:53:00,394 --> 00:53:03,919 I don't need your help, cunt! 612 00:53:09,273 --> 00:53:10,273 You know what? 613 00:53:12,841 --> 00:53:13,841 Good. 614 00:53:14,930 --> 00:53:17,672 The only reason that I am here 615 00:53:17,803 --> 00:53:21,241 is because your mom begged me to come and check on you 616 00:53:21,372 --> 00:53:24,331 and make sure you didn't try to fucking kill yourself again. 617 00:53:26,203 --> 00:53:28,484 I don't need to be a guest star on your shitty video diary 618 00:53:28,596 --> 00:53:30,685 that nobody's gonna fucking watch. 619 00:53:30,816 --> 00:53:31,936 I actually have a following. 620 00:53:32,034 --> 00:53:34,602 I actually help people feel good. 621 00:53:34,733 --> 00:53:35,995 I'm not just... 622 00:53:36,125 --> 00:53:39,825 I am not just sitting around in this stupid fucking room 623 00:53:39,955 --> 00:53:41,218 starving myself 624 00:53:41,348 --> 00:53:43,568 and getting lifestyle tips from the book of the dead. 625 00:53:45,265 --> 00:53:47,267 Who the fuck do you think you are? 626 00:53:47,398 --> 00:53:49,661 Your whole entire fucking career 627 00:53:49,791 --> 00:53:52,229 is built on the backs of people like Verasha, 628 00:53:52,359 --> 00:53:54,796 people with the fucking fortitude to go out into the world 629 00:53:54,927 --> 00:53:56,755 and experience real shit. 630 00:53:56,885 --> 00:53:59,192 You, you bounce your tits around doing some jumping jacks, 631 00:53:59,323 --> 00:54:01,126 and you think that you're changing people's lives. 632 00:54:01,150 --> 00:54:02,630 Are you fucking kidding me? 633 00:54:02,761 --> 00:54:04,806 You consume other people's cultures 634 00:54:04,937 --> 00:54:08,332 and then shit them back out into leopard-neon spandex. 635 00:54:08,462 --> 00:54:10,072 Kenzi, you're a fucking colonizer! 636 00:54:10,203 --> 00:54:13,424 - Oh my God! - This is real. 637 00:54:13,554 --> 00:54:16,688 This is truth. This is my heritage and I am living it. 638 00:54:19,343 --> 00:54:20,343 Oh... 639 00:54:21,214 --> 00:54:22,346 my fucking God! 640 00:54:24,086 --> 00:54:26,567 Anya, are you serious? 641 00:54:27,742 --> 00:54:28,961 Colonizer? 642 00:54:29,091 --> 00:54:31,659 You need a fucking Taco Bell. 643 00:54:32,530 --> 00:54:34,358 At least back when you actually ate food. 644 00:54:35,402 --> 00:54:36,577 I mean, what? 645 00:54:36,708 --> 00:54:37,578 You seriously think that your weird fucking grandma 646 00:54:37,709 --> 00:54:39,188 traveled the world? 647 00:54:40,189 --> 00:54:43,584 She probably never even left this fucking house. 648 00:54:44,455 --> 00:54:49,111 Just some sad old lady getting drunk on Vodka 649 00:54:49,242 --> 00:54:52,724 and making up stories because her family abandoned her. 650 00:54:58,382 --> 00:54:59,992 Keep your fucking Siberian bullshit. 651 00:55:02,255 --> 00:55:05,650 Fuck you, fuck your grandma. Have a great life. 652 00:55:05,780 --> 00:55:07,826 I am done with this and I am so done with you. 653 00:55:29,369 --> 00:55:30,529 And I am taking this with me. 654 00:55:30,588 --> 00:55:31,284 Hey! 655 00:55:31,415 --> 00:55:32,415 Get out! 656 00:55:35,157 --> 00:55:37,595 - What the fuck, Anya? - Get out. 657 00:55:37,725 --> 00:55:38,725 Get out! 658 00:55:40,641 --> 00:55:45,429 You fucking psycho! 659 00:57:33,798 --> 00:57:35,321 Anya, what is the matter with you? 660 00:57:35,452 --> 00:57:36,714 Why haven't you called me back? 661 00:57:36,844 --> 00:57:39,064 Kenzi's mom said you two got in a fight. 662 00:57:39,194 --> 00:57:42,937 Yeah, I'm sorry. I, I meant to call you earlier. 663 00:57:43,068 --> 00:57:44,243 I just- 664 00:57:44,373 --> 00:57:45,612 I've been so worried about you. 665 00:57:45,636 --> 00:57:46,332 I almost called the police. 666 00:57:46,463 --> 00:57:48,856 Mom, I'm sorry. Okay? 667 00:57:50,554 --> 00:57:51,554 You look sick. 668 00:57:52,947 --> 00:57:54,601 I, I need help. 669 00:57:56,473 --> 00:57:58,823 Okay. Okay. I'll get the first flight out there. 670 00:57:58,953 --> 00:58:01,347 No, mom, I need help 671 00:58:04,132 --> 00:58:05,438 translating something. 672 00:58:12,184 --> 00:58:14,229 - No. - Mom, please. 673 00:58:14,360 --> 00:58:16,405 I said no. 674 00:58:16,536 --> 00:58:17,406 Please. 675 00:58:17,537 --> 00:58:18,537 Anya. 676 00:58:20,061 --> 00:58:21,236 Mom, please. 677 00:58:23,717 --> 00:58:26,111 I don't, I don't know what I'm doing. 678 00:58:30,115 --> 00:58:31,195 What has she done to you? 679 00:58:32,291 --> 00:58:34,859 I, I don't know. I don't know. And- 680 00:58:34,989 --> 00:58:38,340 Anya, this is why I never told you about your grandmother. 681 00:58:41,039 --> 00:58:45,173 The day I heard Verasha died, all I felt was happiness, 682 00:58:47,567 --> 00:58:49,613 because I knew she would never come back for you. 683 00:58:49,743 --> 00:58:51,658 Jesus, mom. 684 00:58:51,789 --> 00:58:55,270 - Anya, come home, please. - Okay. 685 00:58:58,535 --> 00:58:59,666 I am sorry, mom. 686 00:59:01,450 --> 00:59:04,715 I am so sorry that I didn't listen to you, 687 00:59:07,761 --> 00:59:09,720 but I need you to translate this for me. 688 00:59:12,026 --> 00:59:14,115 But I need you to help me for once, 689 00:59:16,291 --> 00:59:21,122 because if I don't find a way to finish this, 690 00:59:21,949 --> 00:59:25,257 then I will never escape it and I can't keep running. 691 00:59:27,781 --> 00:59:32,133 So please, please tell me what this says. 692 00:59:45,103 --> 00:59:46,103 Show me. 693 00:59:54,242 --> 00:59:55,242 So... 694 00:59:57,028 --> 00:59:58,595 she translated most of it 695 00:59:58,725 --> 01:00:02,599 and, and phonetized some other places, but not this. 696 01:00:03,643 --> 01:00:07,604 And it looks like it's in the same alphabet, I think. 697 01:00:09,214 --> 01:00:11,608 It might be just a different dialect or... 698 01:00:11,738 --> 01:00:13,261 - Anya. Anya. - What does it say? 699 01:00:14,349 --> 01:00:17,396 I, I can't, I can't say it. 700 01:00:17,526 --> 01:00:19,790 - Mom, please tell me. - Anya. 701 01:00:19,920 --> 01:00:24,098 - Mom, please tell me. - Anya, I can't say it. 702 01:00:24,229 --> 01:00:28,755 It doesn't make any sense - What? 703 01:00:28,886 --> 01:00:32,803 It's, it's, it's some sort of ancient tongue. 704 01:00:32,933 --> 01:00:36,241 It's barely even Russian. I don't know what this is. 705 01:00:38,591 --> 01:00:41,333 Anya. Anya, please come home. 706 01:01:18,805 --> 01:01:20,372 You fucking bitch. 707 01:01:21,503 --> 01:01:22,679 I've been lying to you 708 01:01:25,943 --> 01:01:27,858 because my grandmother has been lying to me. 709 01:01:31,035 --> 01:01:35,604 You see this symbol, the top of all the ritual pages? 710 01:01:36,649 --> 01:01:39,043 Yeah, I thought, I thought that it was like a, a flourish 711 01:01:39,173 --> 01:01:40,522 or a signature or something. 712 01:01:40,653 --> 01:01:41,653 But... 713 01:01:43,351 --> 01:01:44,351 it's not. 714 01:01:47,138 --> 01:01:48,138 It's a fucking key 715 01:01:51,185 --> 01:01:53,666 to what's hidden in these pages. 716 01:01:56,364 --> 01:01:59,019 These aren't words of wisdom. 717 01:01:59,890 --> 01:02:03,589 It's fucking backwards black magic bullshit. 718 01:02:05,069 --> 01:02:08,115 This was never meant to cleanse my spirit. 719 01:02:08,246 --> 01:02:11,118 This was meant to destroy my spirit. 720 01:02:12,772 --> 01:02:14,992 It was meant to destroy my spirit 721 01:02:17,255 --> 01:02:18,473 and make room for hers. 722 01:02:24,784 --> 01:02:25,784 And I... 723 01:02:33,053 --> 01:02:36,404 followed blindly because it's easier than facing myself. 724 01:03:32,765 --> 01:03:35,768 Verasha, please, please, Verasha, you don't have, 725 01:03:35,899 --> 01:03:37,378 you don't have to do this. 726 01:03:37,509 --> 01:03:40,164 Please, please. No, please, please. 727 01:03:41,295 --> 01:03:42,427 Please, please. 728 01:03:57,746 --> 01:04:00,880 Hey guys, it's Kenzi from KenziFit. 729 01:04:01,011 --> 01:04:03,361 Frown Lines looking fierce. 730 01:04:03,491 --> 01:04:08,148 Clear the years away with Renuyu, age defying day cream. 731 01:04:09,628 --> 01:04:12,022 Handcrafted with natural ingredients 732 01:04:12,152 --> 01:04:16,591 to leave your skin feeling fresh and you feeling younger. 733 01:04:16,722 --> 01:04:18,724 Click the link below and enter promo code Kenzi 734 01:04:18,855 --> 01:04:20,813 for 10% off your order. 735 01:04:20,944 --> 01:04:24,686 Renuyu. Feel new. Look new. Live new. 736 01:04:26,514 --> 01:04:27,776 Absolve your skin. 737 01:04:35,959 --> 01:04:38,962 Hi Kenzi, this is Anya speaking. 738 01:04:40,006 --> 01:04:42,443 I can't tell you how sorry I am for my behavior earlier. 739 01:04:44,054 --> 01:04:45,098 I feel so ashamed. 740 01:04:48,362 --> 01:04:49,842 To be perfectly honest with you, 741 01:04:51,539 --> 01:04:54,803 I think a lot of that anger came from a place of jealousy. 742 01:04:57,197 --> 01:05:01,680 I mean, you're just so worldly and wise and kind. 743 01:05:04,074 --> 01:05:05,162 And sometimes, sometimes, 744 01:05:07,599 --> 01:05:10,428 sometimes I feel like I can't compete. 745 01:05:15,085 --> 01:05:16,279 There's this little voice inside of me 746 01:05:16,303 --> 01:05:18,958 that just won't let be myself. 747 01:05:21,526 --> 01:05:23,136 And I just wanna tell her to let go. 748 01:05:26,792 --> 01:05:27,792 It's okay. 749 01:05:29,447 --> 01:05:30,447 It's okay. 750 01:05:39,718 --> 01:05:42,808 But until then, I sincerely hope you can forgive me. 751 01:05:43,940 --> 01:05:45,245 And as a sign of good faith, 752 01:05:45,376 --> 01:05:46,875 I would love to have you over to record some more videos 753 01:05:46,899 --> 01:05:47,987 and bury the old hatchet. 754 01:05:52,644 --> 01:05:53,950 Wishing you wellness my friend. 755 01:05:56,039 --> 01:05:57,039 Namaste. 756 01:06:35,078 --> 01:06:36,470 Are you filming me? 757 01:06:37,732 --> 01:06:40,431 Yes. Is that all right with you? 758 01:06:41,867 --> 01:06:42,868 Yeah, sure. 759 01:06:46,176 --> 01:06:48,178 Holy shit, are you okay? What happened? 760 01:06:49,266 --> 01:06:50,266 Oh, this. 761 01:06:51,572 --> 01:06:54,836 I hit my head while I was rearranging some furniture. 762 01:06:54,967 --> 01:06:56,055 It looks like it hurt. 763 01:06:57,361 --> 01:06:58,361 I'm fine now. 764 01:07:01,408 --> 01:07:05,543 I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said, I mean earlier. 765 01:07:09,590 --> 01:07:10,590 I'm sorry. 766 01:07:35,790 --> 01:07:36,790 Do you wanna sit? 767 01:08:02,904 --> 01:08:06,343 I am sorry for getting so heated. 768 01:08:06,473 --> 01:08:07,473 It's just... 769 01:08:09,389 --> 01:08:12,697 being this, this perfect person 770 01:08:12,827 --> 01:08:15,613 is just so fucking stressful, you know? 771 01:08:17,963 --> 01:08:22,098 I completely understand. And I'm sorry too. 772 01:08:24,491 --> 01:08:26,014 I shouldn't have said those things. 773 01:08:30,454 --> 01:08:32,195 Are you sure you're okay? 774 01:08:35,372 --> 01:08:36,677 I feel fantastic. 775 01:08:38,897 --> 01:08:39,897 I truly do. 776 01:08:45,599 --> 01:08:46,599 I... 777 01:08:48,863 --> 01:08:50,126 I guess I have to thank you. 778 01:08:51,953 --> 01:08:53,303 - Is that so? - Yeah. 779 01:08:55,131 --> 01:08:57,568 You know, I don't really agree 780 01:08:57,698 --> 01:09:00,092 with the way you handled things, 781 01:09:00,223 --> 01:09:02,877 and I was pretty fucking upset with you. 782 01:09:04,314 --> 01:09:06,881 But what you said, 783 01:09:09,406 --> 01:09:10,450 it wasn't bullshit. 784 01:09:12,496 --> 01:09:17,501 We're all just borrowing, stealing, I guess, 785 01:09:17,631 --> 01:09:19,459 just like taking pieces of things 786 01:09:19,590 --> 01:09:21,679 and making them our identity 787 01:09:22,680 --> 01:09:24,725 without really thinking about where they come from. 788 01:09:27,424 --> 01:09:28,424 And I guess, 789 01:09:32,472 --> 01:09:37,129 I guess I just don't really know who I am without them. 790 01:09:40,306 --> 01:09:42,787 You're you. That's all you can be. 791 01:09:50,055 --> 01:09:51,883 I mean, I put in the work. 792 01:09:52,013 --> 01:09:54,146 It's not like easy, 793 01:09:54,277 --> 01:09:58,281 but I'm not, you know, special or whatever. 794 01:10:01,893 --> 01:10:02,893 But you are. 795 01:10:08,204 --> 01:10:09,640 How hard did you hit your head? 796 01:10:19,650 --> 01:10:21,304 I am glad you're here. 797 01:10:25,917 --> 01:10:27,048 I'm glad I am too. 798 01:10:35,796 --> 01:10:38,930 Okay, so what exactly did you have in mind? 799 01:10:45,502 --> 01:10:46,894 It's a guided meditation. 800 01:10:48,331 --> 01:10:50,637 I practiced it on my own a few nights ago, 801 01:10:50,768 --> 01:10:52,465 but it's supposed to be better 802 01:10:52,596 --> 01:10:54,989 when someone else is guiding you. 803 01:10:56,426 --> 01:10:59,211 Cool. You, you wanna do an intro? 804 01:11:00,952 --> 01:11:03,128 I recorded an introduction earlier, 805 01:11:03,259 --> 01:11:06,087 but perhaps we can say "hello." 806 01:11:06,218 --> 01:11:09,395 Okay. Yeah. Cool. Kick it off. 807 01:11:16,750 --> 01:11:20,624 Welcome back everyone to Mind Body Spirit. 808 01:11:22,495 --> 01:11:24,715 We have a familiar guest today. 809 01:11:24,845 --> 01:11:27,892 Hey guys, KenziFit here. 810 01:11:28,022 --> 01:11:30,155 I will be guiding you through a meditation. 811 01:11:30,286 --> 01:11:32,592 And Kenzi here, will be my first recipient. 812 01:11:36,553 --> 01:11:39,991 Find yourself in a comfortable corpse pose. 813 01:11:41,514 --> 01:11:43,255 Whatever feels best to you. - Okay. 814 01:11:54,962 --> 01:11:59,706 Allow your back body to sink to the ground. 815 01:12:04,581 --> 01:12:08,802 Let your belly rise and fall with a breath. 816 01:12:15,809 --> 01:12:18,986 Sink deeper with every exhale. 817 01:12:36,221 --> 01:12:37,221 In 818 01:12:41,313 --> 01:12:46,187 And out. 819 01:12:47,188 --> 01:12:48,188 In... 820 01:12:52,324 --> 01:12:53,847 - Oh. Okay. - It's okay. 821 01:12:57,111 --> 01:12:58,852 And as you relax, 822 01:12:58,983 --> 01:13:03,596 your partner will gently reach your arms out to your sides, 823 01:13:06,817 --> 01:13:11,561 extending away from your ribs, 824 01:13:16,130 --> 01:13:18,306 allowing your breath to fill into your lungs, 825 01:13:18,437 --> 01:13:22,876 reaching their full capacity. 826 01:13:25,792 --> 01:13:26,792 In 827 01:13:29,100 --> 01:13:31,624 And out. 828 01:13:35,193 --> 01:13:37,108 Continue with this rhythm. 829 01:13:49,294 --> 01:13:50,294 In 830 01:13:54,517 --> 01:13:55,909 And out. 831 01:13:56,040 --> 01:13:57,040 This is really nice. 832 01:14:05,441 --> 01:14:07,051 So how long should I- 833 01:15:45,105 --> 01:15:47,804 I am ready to receive all of you. 834 01:17:23,726 --> 01:17:28,078 - Hello? - Anya? Jesus, are you okay? 835 01:17:28,208 --> 01:17:29,993 I have been calling you nonstop. 836 01:17:30,123 --> 01:17:34,867 Oh, don't worry. I'm fine. I slept well. 837 01:17:36,260 --> 01:17:37,522 I feel rested now. 838 01:17:38,871 --> 01:17:40,003 That's a relief. 839 01:17:41,787 --> 01:17:43,963 It's, it's good to hear your voice. 840 01:17:44,094 --> 01:17:47,053 Hmm. It's good to hear your voice too. 841 01:17:49,099 --> 01:17:50,927 What happened with the journal? 842 01:17:53,103 --> 01:17:55,279 Well, I put that behind me. 843 01:17:55,409 --> 01:17:57,237 Oh, good. 844 01:17:58,848 --> 01:17:59,848 Good. 845 01:18:03,548 --> 01:18:05,158 Anya? 846 01:18:05,289 --> 01:18:10,207 I was trying so hard to be someone else 847 01:18:10,773 --> 01:18:12,383 that I finally found myself. 848 01:18:16,082 --> 01:18:18,911 I think it's time I come home, Lenka. 849 01:18:22,393 --> 01:18:24,264 I look forward to seeing you again. 850 01:18:27,050 --> 01:18:28,181 I love you, Anya.