All language subtitles for S02E17

CLAIRE: Previously,
on The Good Doctor...

DR. HAN: Dr. Murphy,
you shouldn't be in
contact with patients

or their families.
Do you understand?

Don't be stupid.

What? There's
no cameras in here.

(ELEVATOR BELL DINGS)

Dr. Lim, Dr. Melendez.

I do not want to be
a pathologist.

Dr. Han, you need to make me
a surgical resident again.

Hey.

What are you doing up
so early?

I'm not up early.
I never went to bed.

Oh, my God.
Didn't you get my text?

I told you I was spending
the night with Jake.

I don't want to be
a pathologist.

Oh.

It's that still.

Shaun,

no one's life goes exactly
like they dreamed as a kid.

You're still a doctor.
Still saving lives.

Just in a lab instead of
an operating room.

**

Where are you going?

I'm going to walk to work.

The hospital's
four miles away.

Studies have shown
that walking boosts
creative inspiration.

Shaun, I just think...
You don't understand.

You don't understand.

Neither does Dr. Han.

I need to change his mind.

I don't know how.

(DOOR CLOSES)

(BIRDS CHIRPING)

Mmm, we're gonna be late.

So stop.

(CAR HORN HONKS)

(EXHALES SHARPLY)
Mmm.

And don't be smiling at me
when you see me in the hall.

I smile at everyone.
I'm a friendly guy.

You'd be a horrible
poker player.

**

What're you doing?
Murphy's on the corner.

Move it.

That's not where
his bus drops off.
Do you think he saw us?

He's not looking
over here.

Well, that doesn't
mean anything with him.

We got to get out of here
before the light turns.

Let's go! Move it!

**

AOKI:
Through the generous support
of St. Bonaventure Foundation,

we've been able to transport
Kenny and his mother

from their home
in Mississippi.

And we'll be covering
the costs

of surgery
and post-op recovery.

And all I have to do
is buy one CD a month
for the next 100 years.

(LAUGHTER)

No repayment necessary.

We appreciate you allowing us
to share your case

as an educational opportunity
for our staff.

You know what they say,
those who can't, teach.

And as you can see,
I can't do much of anything.

(BREATHES SHARPLY)

Actually, y'all haven't
really seen anything yet.

How about we get
this party started?

The neurofibroma
started as a small bump
near the base of the spine.

(AUDIENCE MURMURING)

In less than six months,

it encircled his abdomen
and grew to over 100 pounds,

the blood supply
becoming so intertwined
with the patient's,

it was deemed inoperable.

But we've been able
to come up with an
innovative surgical plan

that will allow us
to slowly peel the tumor

off the front and back
of his torso in one piece

and give Kenny his life back.

(THEME MUSIC PLAYING)

We didn't expect to see you.

This is just about logistics,
witness lists, scheduling.

The hospital's attorney
could've handled this
on his own, Dr. Han.

I understand,
but I wanted to be here.

Three reasons really.

If my doctors are gonna be
judged in this room,

I wanted to see the place,

see all of you,
and see the mood...

Well, we try to make it
very casual.

(CHUCKLES) I know.

But have you ever
been judged?

I have.

It's scary.

Someone has gone
to the trouble

of checking out
every aspect of your actions,

every decision you've made.

You don't know what they know,
what they're gonna ask,

what could be misunderstood,
misinterpreted.

Also, and this is
kind of embarrassing,

but our lawyer,

probably not the best.
(SIGHS)

I decided to save
a few dollars on him

so I could hire
a private investigator,

check all of you out.

We're not the ones
on trial here.

(CHUCKLES) See?

You say you make it casual,
and then you call it a trial.

Now, I'm sure
she won't find anything.

I mean,
nothing too crazy, right?

Maybe just something
embarrassing.

Maybe a lapse of judgment
here or there.

I mean, like I was saying,
you parse every choice
anyone has made,

gonna be a few things
they'd rather not revisit.
Am I right?

And the third reason?

I thought maybe you'd want
to work out a compromise.

**

(BREATHES DEEPLY)

(WHISPERING)
The surgery went well.

(EXHALES DEEPLY)
We were able
to fully evacuate

the subdural hematoma
without any complications.

It's a good thing you didn't
hesitate to bring her in.

Oh. One advantage of being
an insecure, first-time mom

who panics every time
her child has a slight fever.

Did I just hear you admit
that you're insecure?

The girl who double-majored
in Physics and Chemistry

because the Dean told her
they were the two toughest?

Mom guilt ruins us all.
You'll see.

Whenever you decide
to give up the motorcycle
and settle down.

No way.

My kid's going to kindergarten
on the back of a Ducati.

(CHUCKLES)

I'm sorry. I need to go
check on another patient.

Oh, how long will she need
to stay here?

I'm still not sure
what caused the bleeding.

I didn't see any signs
of an aneurysm or AVM,
so that's good.

I'll have a better idea when
I get the post-op test results
back from Pathology.

(QUIETLY) Thank you.

CARLY: This is why
I love Pathology.

We don't just fix stuff.

We figure out
how it got broken and why.
(DOOR OPENS)

DR. LIM: Good morning.
(DOOR CLOSES)

Just checking to make sure
you got my clot specimen
and blood draws.

Just logged them in.
Great.

And if there's any way to
expedite, I'd appreciate it.

The mom's a friend of mine
and stressed to the max.

I'm pretty sure
the bleed was caused...
Stop.

I'm sorry.
I meant, please stop.

I'd rather not know
what you think.

It causes
confirmation bias.

Copy that.

(INHALES DEEPLY)

Hey. Um...

Did I see you
on Hanover Street
this morning?

I don't know.

Were you on Hanover Street
this morning?

Yes.

I walked to work.

Did you
see anything interesting

on the walk?

Hmm...

S-Shaun?

We can't both expedite
your results

and reminisce
about our morning walks.

Sorry. Carry on.

**

You're totally
freaking out,
aren't you?

No, I'm not freaking out.

All my patients freak out
waiting for
their final test results.

For 48 hours, you don't know
if you've won the lottery

or if you're gonna be dead
in a few months.

Hell, I freak out, too.

It's the only time
I feel helpless.

The treatment's over.

There's nothing left to do
but wait.

I'm a little stressed.

That speech,
not helpful.

My advice.
Embrace it.

You're experiencing
emotions

only a few people on Earth
will ever understand.

The kind Hemingway
wrote about.

I'm more of a Faulkner guy.
You would be.

You don't like Faulkner?
No, I don't like Faulkner.

Nobody
really likes Faulkner.

I like Faulkner.

Right.

(BREATHES DEEPLY)

Anyway,

if there's anything
you need from me,

even if it's just to talk,

you have my direct number.

Do not hesitate to use it.

(INHALES SHAKILY)

I appreciate that.

And I would like
to show my gratitude.

(CLEARS THROAT)
I know I haven't been

the easiest patient
to deal with.

That's not necessary.

I mean, if you want,
you can make a donation
to cancer research.

I already donate.

I wanted to thank you,
not society at large.

How about...
Have you ever tried
Macallan's Sherry Oak 25?

I don't drink.

And I just said
it's not necessary.

How about a weekend at Ojai?
I hear the spa is amazing.

No means no.
I'm not trying to molest you.

(CHUCKLING)
I just want to thank you.

And you have,
and you are very welcome.

Why do you have to control
every little thing?

I have
pepper spray in my purse.
Don't make me use it.

**

(DOOR OPENS, CLOSES)

Carly,
I am gonna need 60 units

of type B-positive
packed red blood cells
held for OR.

60?
Mmm-hmm.

You operating
on a hemophiliac elephant?

Our patient has a 200-pound
neurofibroma.

CARLY: Cool.

There's more
blood in the tumor
than the patient,

so we're gonna have to follow
Massive Transfusion Protocol.

You...

You might need
antifibrinolytic agents
to control the bleeding.

That's a good idea.
Thanks.

I could do some research
on cell salvage techniques.

Cancer is a risk,
but if we were...

I'm sorry, Shaun.

Melendez has put together
a pretty big team,

so we have everything
we need.

**

(QUIETLY) I talked to Murphy.
He definitely saw us.

(QUIETLY)
What'd he say?

It's not what he said.
It's how he acted.

He was clearly uncomfortable
talking to me.

He's uncomfortable
talking to everyone.

We need to get out
in front of this.

Tell Andrews
before someone else does.

We need to figure out
exactly what Murphy saw.

How? We can't just ask him
if he saw us making...

Bread.

We're not gonna get anywhere
with indirect questions.

I'll talk to him.

You think you can read him
better than I can?

No, but if at first
you don't succeed...

Let the man try?

Dr. Han
wants to see you two.

Both of us?
Yep.

Yep.

(SIGHS)

Have a seat.

Actually,
we've been meaning
to talk to you.

The issue is...
Dr. Han met
with the medical board.

We're not going
to be suspended
or reprimanded.

DR. HAN: The hospital
will pay fines
on your behalf,

and you'll need to complete
a few continuing education
classes.

But overall, not bad.

Thank you.

Yeah, thanks.

Does this mean I'm back
on the surgical team?

No. It does not.

You convinced the Board
that he's competent.

You're welcome.

**

(DOOR OPENS)

We got a big problem.
With our tiny patient.

I did a repeat assessment
of the pre-op CT's

and found a trace
subarachnoid bleed.

But there was no bruise
on her scalp.

I know.

The only way she could get
this injury

is if someone shook her,

and they would have to
shake her hard.

S-Someone abused her.

**

No.

I've known Laura
since high school.

She's the most composed,
even-tempered person
I've ever met.

And she's totally devoted
to that baby.

What about the father?

She conceived
via a donor.

A nanny, a relative,
a-a boyfriend
who's been helping out?

She waited
so long for this,

wanted to do
everything herself.

Then it has to be her.

We need to call
Child Protective Services.

No.

Not yet.
(BREATHES DEEPLY)

I'm gonna do an MRI
to rule out benign enlargement
of the extra-axial space.

Before we ruin her life...
Good idea.

Except for the part
about you doing the test.

She's your friend.

You think I'd try to help
someone cover up child abuse?

I don't know you well enough

to know what you
would or wouldn't do
to protect a friend.

I could do the MRI.

I'm not
the mother's friend.

But you are
a pathologist.

Giving MRI's
is not your job.

Page Farmer.
Have him do it.

On it.

**

(WHISPERING) Murphy.

We need to talk.

I don't have a girlfriend.

Okay.

Is that consistent with
what you've deduced and seen
regarding my life?

Yes?

Good.

Enjoy your apple.

**

CLAIRE: It's not fair.

Shaun is being punished
for mistakes

that Han thinks
he might make in the future.

He's not punishing him.

He just saved his ass.

Okay, Kenny.
The MRA's gonna help us map

the blood supply
to the tumor.

If you could just lie still.
No talking until we're done.

Sure, no problem.

We should take a stand.

Meaning what?
Stage a walkout?

How much does one of these
bad boys cost, anyway?

About $3 million.
But it's worthless
unless you stop talking.

Sorry. My bad.

Us getting fired
is not gonna do
anything to help Shaun.

And I'm not even sure
we should be helping him.

Did you ever stop to think
that maybe Han knows
what he's doing?

Shaun has made mistakes,
but he has three more years
of residency.

That is plenty of time
to improve.

Yes, you can build
a winning team through
supportive training,

but you can also do it
by recruiting the best

and pushing them.
Relentlessly.

No feelings.
No charity.
No loyalty.

Those who thrive
and get better

than they ever thought
they could, you keep...

(COMPUTER BEEPS)
...and those who don't,
you cut.

That's not good.
It works for Jeff Bezos
and Bill Belichick.

I'm not talking about
your leadership lecture.
I'm talking about this.

We need to page Melendez.

What are you talking about?
You know me!

How could you possibly believe
I could hurt my baby?

I don't.
Which is why I ordered
the additional tests.

But did you never leave her
with anyone else?

Even for just a few minutes
so that you could take a nap?

Or a bath?

Taking care of a newborn.
It's... It's exhausting.

No. It isn't.

After waiting for so long,
every single moment,
no matter how hard...

It's not exhausting.

It's a joy.

(INHALES DEEPLY)

Laura,
I know you love her,

but you're still human.

You must get tired
sometimes.

I don't! Really.

You don't understand
because you...

Because you haven't
experienced it.

But when you love someone
so much...

The tests.

They have to be wrong.

We expected the tumor to grow
since the last scans,

but not to this extent.

Blood vessels that I thought
we'd be able
to quickly cauterize

are now thicker
than my thumb.

It's impossible
to remove the tumor

without causing you
to bleed to death.

No.

I don't care
how risky it is.

I'd rather die in surgery
than continue to live

with this huge, damn tick
sucking the life out of me.

Kenny, as long as your heart
remains healthy,

you basically will be, too.

And we can do a better job
treating the pain.

I don't want to be treated.

I want to be cured.

I want my life back.

(SIGHS)
I always thought all...

All I had to do
was get enough money,

or find the right doctors...

But if you're telling me
there's no hope...

**

(SHUDDERING BREATH)

(SNIFFLES)

(VOICE BREAKING) I appreciate
everything y'all done.

Or at least tried to do.

The injuries from
shaking a baby

are much different
than from blunt force trauma.

Oh, that's awful...
But also interesting.

It's like you're a detective
in a murder mystery.

Only, thank God,
the baby's not dead.

That's exactly
what Carly said.

She likes solving
medical mysteries.

She's very smart.
And aggressive.

Well, how does
she treat you?
Is she nice?

Yes, she's very nice.

She wants me to stay
in her department.

She thinks we make
a good team.

So it sounds like you have
a case you're interested in

and a coworker you like
who's nice to you.

Maybe Pathology won't be
that bad after all.

(UTENSIL CLINKS)

I have work to do.

(FOOTSTEPS)

(DISH CLATTERS)

(GLASSES CLINK)

Since it seems we're gonna be
working together
for a while longer,

maybe it is time
we came out of the closet.

Maybe?

Are you saying
you want to?

Do you want to?

Maybe.

You're afraid it would
make things awkward?

People seeing us
as a couple?

Yes, obviously.
(BOTH CHUCKLE)

But at the moment,
I'm more afraid

that we wouldn't
be having this conversation

if Murphy
hadn't almost busted us.

Which makes me think
we're not ready to have
this conversation.

It's understandable
if we aren't.

We've both been
in relationships

we thought
were gonna last...

Yeah. Understandable,
but why should we even care
what people at work think?

(BREATHES DEEPLY)

So, should we talk
to Andrews?

Maybe.
What do you think?

Maybe.

**

MAN: Uh, Sawchuck?

Sorry for the wait.
Oh. Thank you.

Excuse me,
duck curry and rice?
40 minutes? Really?

Sorry, the kitchen
fell a bit behind.

It shouldn't be much longer.
You're not just behind.

People have come in after me,
they've gotten their food,
gone home, eaten.

They're in their PJs,
watching a movie.

I'm so sorry.
I'll check right now.

Duck curry.
Here you go, sir.

Duck curry,
brown rice.

White rice.
Um, excuse me.

Duck curry
with brown rice?
Yes.

Connelly?
That's me. Thank you.

What are you guys doing
back there?

I'm so sorry, sir.

You know what?
I'm tired of sorry.

I just... I want my food!

I'm sorry.
It should just be
another minute.

I don't want to wait
any longer!

(EXHALES DEEPLY)

I'm sorry.
Sorry. I'm sorry.

I didn't...
I didn't mean to yell.
I'm so sorry.

Carry on. Carry on.
Enjoy your...

(EXHALES SHARPLY)

**

She's always trying
to one-up us.

Morgan.

She's not staying late because
she wants to do research.

She's staying late so that Han
can see she's staying late.

It's just who she is.
Don't take it personal.

Mmm.

My dad's
a Taekwondo grandmaster.

Coached me growing up.

He always used to say,
"Only you can beat you."

Well,
my mom's a lounge singer,
and she used to say,

"Upstage me
and I'll beat your ass."

You'd think
if you're selling boba,

you'd have straws
wide enough

to get the balls
through the damn thing.

I can't believe
you drink that stuff.

It's like putting
gummy bears
in a drink.

**

You give up?
Want a soda instead?

I see you.

Which is, I assume,
your primary objective.

I didn't even know
you were still here.

I've been reading
the latest journal articles
on neurofibroma...

Go home.

There's nothing you can do
for Kenny Grimm.

And you're gonna have
other patients tomorrow.

(BREATHLESSLY)
I got an idea.

If we embolize the larger
blood vessels to the tumor
before surgery,

we can use
your body's clotting factor
to help clog them.

This should reduce
hemorrhaging during surgery

and allow us
to excise the tumor
without you bleeding out.

We'll steer a catheter through
an artery in your thigh...

Yes.
KENNY'S MOM: Kenny...

Maybe you should
let them finish.

(CHUCKLES)
No, I shouldn't.

And, yes, you should.

Yes, yes, yes.
As soon as possible. Yes.

Thank you.

**

The tests came back.

They confirm
the previous results.

Well, they're wrong.
There must be some other...

There has to be
another test! Please.

Ma'am, you're gonna need
to come with us.

You need help.
From you!

You're my friend,
and you called the police?

Well, someone hurt your baby.
If it wasn't you...

No one hurt my baby!
You're wrong!

How can you not believe me?

**

Just need to get a few more
branches off the aorta
and we're done.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

Well done, Dr. Browne.

(BEEPING CONTINUES)

(MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY)

What's the fluid status?

CVP is 14 and rising.

Get diuretics on deck.
40 milligrams IV Lasix.

Careful. If his pressure
goes too low,

his kidneys won't perfuse.

I need you to keep his CVP
between 8 and 12.

He can't tolerate
much more of this.

We need to get him
to an OR.

Embolizing his vessels caused
third spacing of fluids
to the body and lungs.

We saved the operation,
but now we only have
half the time do it.

(SIGHS) Hey.

Any word?

No, not yet.

Well, i-isn't there someone
from Radiology

who can expedite,
someone who owes you a favor?

Even if there was,
I would not waste it on you
because you do not need it.

You are one
of the most willful
patients I've ever had,

and the finish line
is in sight.

All you need to do
is just run through the tape.

Look, if it helps, as soon as
I'm done with this patient,
we can talk some more.

I can write you a script
for something to help you
with the anxiety,

but I don't think
you need it.

You got this.

DR. HAN: More suction.
DR. MELENDEZ: Me, too.

More sponges.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

DR. LIM: Retract.

DR. MELENDEZ: That's it.

What's his estimated
blood loss?

About 8.5 liters.

The entire human body
typically only has
5.5 liters of blood.

Yeah, I know.

DR. HAN: Let's get
30 more units
on deck of PRBC.

(OBJECT THUDS)

Add cryo, fresh frozen plasma,
and platelets to that.

(BEEPING CONTINUES)

**

We should have checked
for blood breakdown products.

If you don't mind, I'm trying
to pay attention to this.

I wasn't talking to you.

Or about this patient.

(ALL MURMURING SOFTLY)

We need to reexamine the
subdural blood clot specimens.

If there's hemosiderin
deposition and chronic
membranes

including fibrous wall,

it could prove
it was not abuse.

What else could it be?

The tests proved
non-accidental trauma.

Yes.
The tests were right.

**

DR. PARK:
Resected portion is secure.

IV's and central line?

Secure.
Secure.

Okay, everybody,
get in position.
Let's flip this pancake.

On three.
One, two, three.

(STRAINING)

(MONITOR ALARM BEEPING)
Wait. His heart rate spiked.

Lay him back down.
Softly. Softly.

(BEEPING CONTINUES)

(MONITOR BEEPING)
We okay?

Yeah. Just a blip.

DR. HAN: Once more
with feeling.

Ready?
One, two, three.

(GRUNTING)

How are we doing?
Good. He's stable.

All right, swab the posterior
incision site.

DR. HAN: Okay, scalpel
and sponge on a stick.

(MONITOR BEEPING RAPIDLY)
He's crashing.

He's ventilating fine.

We've got no immediate
blood loss or hemorrhaging.

It looks like
distributive shock.

DR. MELENDEZ: I need
STAT labs and initiate
shock resuscitation.

**

He's got a high white count
and what looks to be

a systemic pro-inflammatory
cytokine release.

DR. MELENDEZ: Cutting off
the blood supply
to the tumor

is causing
post embolization syndrome.

I need intra-arterial
lidocaine,

130 milligrams
of methylprednisolone,
and start antibiotics.

Should we be trying
to reverse the embolization?

Restore blood flow
to the tumor?

Well, then, we'd risk him
bleeding out even faster.
We need to abort.

Cut off what
we already excised
and leave the rest.

No. We can't give up.
DR. HAN: We're not giving up.

We're stopping
a futile procedure
to save the patient.

(RAPID BEEPING CONTINUES)

We need to get Murphy in here.
It's a blood flow problem.

Murphy has a special talent
for visualizing
complex anatomy.

We don't have time.
We need to stop the
PES now.

Page Dr. Murphy.
No. Do not page Dr. Murphy.

I get it. You like him.
But we don't have time
for an audition.

DR. MELENDEZ:
I'm trying to save
my patient's life.

My patient.
Which means it's my call.

I am also trying to save
your patient's life,

so I'm urging you
to stop wasting time.

Now we've cut away
almost half.

That's all we can do
right now.

So let's remove it
and give him a chance

to live and fight
another day.

(RAPID BEEPING CONTINUES)

The breakdown products show
the injury that caused
the hematoma

happened at least
seven weeks ago.

When was she born?

A little over
seven weeks ago.

The vacuum delivery
must've caused
a subdural bleed

which re-bled two days ago.

The baby wasn't abused.

(DOOR OPENS)

Shaun, we need you
in the OR.

**

**

Any thoughts,
Dr. Murphy?

You don't have enough time.

You can't fully map
the circulatory system

and remove the tumor
without killing the patient.

It's too complex.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

Well, at least
he was brief
and to the point.

Now, can we do
what I...

But you don't
have to do it quickly.

We slow down,
he bleeds out.

If you clamp the aorta,
it could lower the blood flow
to the tumor enough

to slow the release
of the cytokines.

Clamping the aorta
will kill the intestines,
kidneys, and legs.

Not if we release the clamp
every 10 minutes.

Give it just enough blood
to stop the cytokines

but not so much
that he bleeds to death.

**

Let's do it.

Thank you for the consult,
Dr. Murphy.

DR. MELENDEZ:
Reposition him to lateral.

Secure IV
and central line.

DR. LIM: Secure.
DR. MELENDEZ: 10 blade.

Starting
midline laparotomy.

DR. HAN: Debakey.

DR. MELENDEZ: Opening up
the lesser sac.

Vessel loops.

DR. HAN: Get a Rumel ready.

I need umbilical tape.

(MONITOR BEEPING)

**

(BEEPING CONTINUES)

MRI exams show chronic changes
of surgery and radiation,

but no sign
of residual tumor detected.

No signs.

None.

Zero. Zippo. Zilch.

**

Wow.

We'll do another MRI
in six months just to be sure,

but you are in the clear.

This is exactly
what we hoped for.

Kinehora.

Tuh, tuh, tuh.

Knock on wood.
(KNOCKS ON DESK)

(SIGHS DEEPLY)

Thank you.
Oh, you son of a bitch.

I told you.

You told me no.

It's too heavy
for diamonds.

(OBJECT THUMPING SOFTLY)
Is it a Magic 8 Ball?

Will you just open it?

(CHUCKLES)

I don't like baseball.

I do.

So you got me something
you like?

I caught that foul ball
down the third base line

on my 13th birthday.

My dad was amazed
that I snagged it.

After the game,
we went outside
the stadium.

And I was a shy kid,
but my father pushed me

to ask my favorite players
to sign it, and they all did.

Bert Campaneris,
Rollie Fingers,

Reggie Jackson,
Catfish Hunter.

If it happened today,
it'd all be on video.

But all I have to remember
that awesome day

is that ball.

(CHUCKLES)

(VOICE BREAKING) I wanted
you to have something
that mattered to me.

**

Aaron, I can't.
Oh, yes, you can.

(SOFTLY) Bye.

(SNIFFLES)

Cancer changes people.

I've had patients tell me
it was a blessing.

That their lives
were better after.

They're idiots.

Maybe.

(SNIFFLES)

Would you have thought
of such a wonderful gift
11 months ago?

**

(DOOR CLOSES)

(MONITOR BEEPING)

**

(CLAMP CLICKS)

Care to do the honors?

Let's take it up.

(MACHINERY WHIRRING)

**

(BEEPING CONTINUES)

(SIGHS)
(SIGHS)

(APPLAUSE)

**

(QUIETLY) I'm so sorry.

I should've trusted you.

Please talk to me, Laura.

Yell at me if you want.
I deserve it.

It's not your fault.
Yes, it is.

I should have done
more research,

looked harder
for an alternative diagnosis.

I mean it's not your fault
you are the way you are.

**

You don't understand
the love a mother feels.

I understand that a lot of
mothers abuse their children.

You don't understand love.

Because you've never allowed
yourself to be vulnerable.

Even when you were
married to Kashal,

you never
really committed.

You always expect
the worst in people.

Because that's all
you see in yourself.

(WHISPERING) Okay.

I've never been
in so much pain,

but felt so good.

We'll up your pain meds.

You're still gonna need some
skin and soft tissue grafts,

but the hard part's done.

Your prognosis
is excellent.

Thank y'all so much.

(CHUCKLES)

What am I taking
this thing home in?

A glass bottle?
Y'all got something that big?

(LAUGHS) He's just
being a smart ass.

(CHUCKLING)

(ELEVATOR BELL DINGS)

**

Are you sure
you want to do this?

Shut up.

I saved the patient.

I deserve
to be a surgeon.

Dr. Murphy...

Dr. Han,
I want my old job back.

You're making a mistake.

Am I, Shaun?

Yes.

Because it seems like
you're doing really well
in Pathology.

You made a great save
on an earlier case
and a great save today.

You keep doing well,
and, over time,

we can build to you having
more responsibility.

No.

I'm a surgeon.

**

I am not leaving your office
until you reinstate me.

**

What are you doing, Shaun?

Do you think ordering me
to do something
will change my mind?

Do you really think
it's a good idea to try
and bully me?

I am a surgeon.

I am a surgeon.

Do you realize that
you're proving my point?

That you're
acting immature?

Showing that you don't know
how to communicate

and you can't control
your emotions?

I am a surgeon!

But you do have a talent
that I value.

So I'm gonna give you
one last chance
to maintain your dignity

and leave my office, now.

(EXHALES SHARPLY)

Because if
I have to call security,

you understand that I'm also
gonna have to fire you.

**

I am a surgeon!

I am a surgeon!

I am... I am a surgeon!

I am a surgeon,
Dr. Han!

(ECHOING)
I am a surgeon!

(BREATHING SHAKILY)

(BREATHING SHAKILY)

**

* Holding back the flood

* In this skyscraper town

(BREATHING HEAVILY)

* You gave all
that sweat and blood

* Now you think
you're gonna drown

* You can't tell
that you're bigger

* Than the sea
that you're sinking in

(BREATHING QUICKLY)

* And you don't know
what you got

* But you got it
at your fingertips

(BREATHING SHARPLY)

* Ooh

* You got it in you

(BREATHING QUICKLY)

* Ooh

* You got it in you

* When the lights go out

* And leave you standing
in the dark

* No one ever told you
this would be so hard

* I know you think
your fire is burning out

* But I still see
you shining through

* You got it in you

(BREATHING HEAVILY)

* When the lights go out

* And leave you standing
in the dark

* No one ever told you
this would be so hard

* I know you think
your fire is burning out

* But I still see you
shining through

* You got it in you

* You got it in you

* You got it in you *

**