Original subtitles

They started calling us computers.

People began vanishing and the cleaning began.

You were dirty if you looked different.

You were dirty if you refused to live the way they dictated.

You were dirty if you showed any form of opposition at all.

And if you were dirty... It was only a matter of time.

Yea, yea, yea, just, okay.

You will repeat after me.

Your name is Jane 57821.

My name is Jane 57821.

I am a dirty computer.

I am a dirty computer.

I am ready to be cleaned.

I am ready to be cleaned!

Unfortunate, my dear. Cleaners please initiate the nevermind.

♪ Your so damn electic, you, alright ♪

♪ you know you got that juice, you know you got that juice ♪

♪ You know you got that juice, uh huh, now squeeze all that passionfruit, squeeze ♪

♪ Ain't no one fresher than you, ain't no one ♪

I need sector clearance.

Prepare for retinal scan.

Jane 57821 cleared.

♪ Down dog, don't think about it, down dog, don't think about it ♪

♪ Down dog, you're number one, down dog, and don't you doubt it ♪

♪ Down dog, don't think about it, down dog ♪

♪ You told us, we hold these truths to be self-evident ♪

♪ That all men and women are created equal ♪

♪ And that they are endowed by their creator ♪

♪ With certain inalienable rights, among these ♪

♪ Life, Liberty, and the, and the pursuit of happiness ♪

♪ Young black wild and free

♪ naked in a limousine

♪ oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh

♪ ridin through the hood real slow ♪

♪ I love it when I smell the trees ♪

♪ Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh, uh

♪ I just wanna party hard

♪ sex in the swimming pool

♪ oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh

♪ I don't need a lotta cash

♪ I just wanna break the rules

♪ oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh

♪ oh, we don't need another ruler ♪

♪ All of my friends are kings

♪ oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh, ohh ♪

♪ I am not America's nightmare, I am the American dream, oh oh oh oh ♪

♪ Just let me live my life, I want a crazy classic life ♪

♪ I want a crazy classic life

♪ so if the world should end tonight ♪

♪ I had a crazy classic life

♪ I don't need a diamond ring, I don't wanna waste my youth ♪

♪ I don't wanna live on my knees, I just gotta tell the truth ♪

♪ I don't wanna be locked down, I don't wanna cheat on you ♪

♪ Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh

♪ I just wanna find a god and I hope she loves me too ♪

♪ Oh oh oh oh, ohhh

♪ we don't need another ruler, we don't need another fool ♪

♪ Oh oh oh oh, yea oh oh oh oh

♪ I am not America's nightmare, I am the American cool, oh oh ♪

♪ Just let me live my life

♪ I want a crazy classic life

♪ I want a crazy classic life ♪

♪ So if the world should end tonight ♪

♪ I had a crazy classic life

♪ I want a crazy classic life

♪ I want a crazy classic life ♪

♪ So if the world should end tonight ♪

♪ I had a crazy classic

♪ life

♪ ohhh ohhhh

♪ oh, a crazy classic life

♪ Yo, uh, yo yo yo uh

♪ handcuffed in the bando

♪ white boy in the sandles

♪ police like a Rambo

♪ blow it out blow it out like a candle sambo ♪

♪ Me and you was friends but to them we the opposite ♪

♪ The same mistake I'm in jail you on top of shit ♪

♪ You livin life while I'm walkin' round moppin' shit ♪

♪ Tech kid backpack now you a college kid ♪

♪ All I wanted was to break the rules like you ♪

♪ All I wanted was for them to love me too ♪

♪ But no matter where it was I always stood out ♪

♪ Black Waldo dancin with the thick brows ♪

♪ We was both runnin naked at the luau ♪

♪ We was both on shrooms prayin' face down waist down ♪

♪ Member when they told ya I was too black for ya? ♪

♪ Now my black popping like a bra strap on ya ♪

♪ I was kicked out said I'm too loud ♪

♪ Kicked out said I'm too proud ♪

♪ But all I really ever felt was stressed out ♪

♪ Kinda like my Afro when it's pressed out ♪

♪ Ahhhh

Good morning, Jane.

Jane?

My name is Maryapple 53.

I'm here to escort you from the darkness into the light.

Zen.

You won't be able to move your legs for a while

I didn't think I was ever going to see you again.

Did they hurt you?

Is it okay if I call you Jane?

What?

It's what we have in your file, right? Yeah...

If there's anything else you'd rather be called, you just let me know.

I'm here to make your experience sweet as pie.

Why are you talking to me like you don't know me zen?

Like I said, my name is Maryapple 53,

and I don't know you, at least not yet.

But what I do know is that you have some bugs.

So we are here to get you clean.

We'll be with you shortly.

♪ I'm not the kinda girl you take home to your mama now ♪

♪ I tell you no lies, I tell no lies ♪

♪ Your code is programmed not to love me but you can't pretend ♪

♪ Oh what a surprise

♪ maybe it's lust maybe it's love maybe it never ends ♪

♪ Oh say your goodbyes

♪ Say'em now, play in my hair and nibble there all on my mocha skin ♪

♪ Yeah, just take a byte

♪ take a byte, just take a byte ♪

♪ Help yourself, help yourself ♪

♪ It's alright, it's alright ♪

♪ I won't tell, it feels so good when you nibble on it ♪

♪ Take a byte, just take a byte ♪

♪ Help yourself, you look so good just help yourself ♪

♪ Don't think twice, don't think twice ♪

♪ I won't tell

You will repeat after me.

I will repeat after you.

Your name is Jane 57821.

My name is Jane 57821.

I am a dirty computer.

I am a dirty computer.

I am ready to be cleaned.

I am ready to be cleaned.

Ready for cleaning.

She's ready for cleaning! I heard her, I heard her actually, but um which

well? Which... which memory exactly?

Any memory you see. Trash 'em and bag 'em.

Yes, yes. Trash and bag. Okay.

♪ I live my life in a magazine

♪ I live my life on a TV screen ♪

♪ I live my life on birth control ♪

♪ I lost my mind on rock and roll ♪

♪ And I, I, I hear the sirens callin' ♪

♪ And the bombs are fallin' in the streets we're all, screwed ♪

♪ And I, I, I it's my birthday baby ♪

♪ Thought I'd go sex crazy but I feel so screwed ♪

♪ Sex, body, we're gonna crash your party ♪

♪ Let's get screwed

♪ I don't care, I don't care ♪

♪ You fucked the world up now

♪ we'll fuck it all back down

♪ let's get screwed

♪ I don't care

♪ we'll put water in your guns

♪ we'll do it all for fun, let's get screwed ♪

♪ I, I, I hear the sirens callin' ♪

♪ And the bombs are fallin' in the streets we're all ♪

♪ The streets we're all, screwed ♪

♪ I, I, I it's your birthday baby ♪

♪ Thought we'd go sex crazy but we feel so screwed ♪

♪ I, I, I hear the sirens callin' ♪

♪ And the bombs are fallin' in the streets we're all ♪

♪ Streets we're all screwed

♪ Haha we're so screwed

♪ let's get screwed

♪ I don't care

♪ let's get screwed

♪ I don't care

♪ see everything is sex except sex which is power ♪

♪ You know power is just sex

♪ you screw me and I'll screw you too ♪

♪ Everything is sex except sex which is power ♪

♪ You know power is just sex

♪ now ask yourself who's screwing you ♪

♪ 100 men telling me cover up my areolas ♪

♪ While they blocking equal pay sipping on they Coca colas ♪

♪ Ohhh, fake news, fake boobs, fake food what's real ♪

♪ Still in the matrix eating all the blue pills ♪

♪ Ohh, the devil met with Russia and they just made a deal ♪

♪ We were marching through the streets they were blocking every bill ♪

♪ I'm tired of hoteps tryna tell me how to feel for real ♪

♪ Yeah, yeah this is my palace

♪ champagne in my chalice

♪ I got it all covered like a wedding band ♪

♪ Wondaland, so my alias is Alice ♪

♪ And we gon start a muthafuckin' pussy riot ♪

♪ Or we gone put em on a pussy diet ♪

♪ Look at that I guarantee I got'em quiet ♪

♪ Look at that I guarantee they all inspired ♪

♪ A-town made it out there

♪ straight out Kansas City yeah we made it out there ♪

♪ Celebrated, graduated made it pass, fail ♪

♪ Sassy, classy, kool aid with the Kale ♪

♪ Momma was a g, she was cleaning hotels ♪

♪ Poppa was a driver, I was working retail ♪

♪ Kept us in the back of the store ♪

♪ We ain't hidden no more, moonlit nigga, lit nigga ♪

♪ Already got an Oscar for the casa ♪

♪ Running down grammys with the family ♪

♪ Prolly give a Tony to the homies ♪

♪ Prolly get an Emmy dedicate it to the highly melanated ♪

♪ Archandroid orchestrated

♪ yeah we highly melanated

♪ archandroid orchestrated

♪ yeah, jaminati still jammin

♪ box office numbers and they doing outstanding ♪

♪ Runnin outta space on my damn bandwagon ♪

♪ Rememba when they used to say I looked too mannish ♪

♪ Black girl magic y'all can't stand it ♪

♪ Y'all can't ban it, made out like a bandit ♪

♪ They been trying hard just to make us all vanish ♪

♪ I suggest they put a flag on a whole 'nother planet ♪

♪ Jane bond, never Jane Doe

♪ and I django never sambo

♪ black and white, yeah that's always been my camo ♪

♪ It's looking like y'all gone need sommo ammo ♪

♪ I cut'em off, I cut'em off I cut'em off like Van Gogh ♪

♪ Now pan right for the angle

♪ I got away with murder, no scandal, huh ♪

♪ Cue the violins and violas

♪ we gave you life, we gave you birth ♪

♪ We gave you god, we gave you earth ♪

♪ We fem the future, don't make it worse ♪

♪ You want the world? Well what's it worth? ♪

♪ Emoticons? Decepticons?

♪ And autobots, who twist the plot ♪

♪ Who shot the sheriff, then fled to Paris ♪

♪ In the darkest hour, spoke truth to power ♪

♪ Made a fandroid outta your girlfriend ♪

♪ Let's get caught downtown in a whirlwind ♪

♪ And paint the city pynk, paint the city pynk ♪

♪ And tuck the pearls in just in case the world end, huh ♪

♪ And nigga down dog, nigga move back ♪

♪ Take a seat you are not involved ♪

♪ And hit the mute button, let the vagina have a monologue ♪

♪ Mansplaining I fold'em like origami ♪

♪ What's a wave baby Thissa Tsunami for the culture, I kamikaze ♪

♪ I put my life on the life line ♪

♪ If she the G.O.A.T. Now would anybody doubt it? ♪

♪ If she the G.O.A.T. Now would anybody doubt it? ♪

♪ Do anybody got it? Do anybody got it? I say anybody got it? ♪

I don't know what this is,

this doesn't even look like a memory.

What is that, that a dream?

You just pull the content, keep moving.

Uhh, yeah but, what is it?

Delete it and move on.

What just delete everything?

Yeah. Just delete it.

War is old. So is sex.

Let's play god. You go next.

Hands go up. Man go down.

Try my luck. Stand my ground.

Die in church. Live in jail.

Say her name. Twice in hell.

Uncle Sam. Kissed a man.

They called this place "the house of the new dawn".

This place where they drained us of our dirt...

And all the things that made us special.

And just when you thought you could remember something,

just when you thought you could see the past clearly,

they would hit you with nevermind.

This gas would take over,

and then you were lost. Sleeping.

And you didn't remember anything at all.

Jim crow Jesus. Rose again.

♪ Pink like the inside of your, baby ♪

♪ Pink behind all of the doors, crazy ♪

♪ Pink like the tongue that goes down, maybe ♪

♪ Pink like the paradise found ♪

♪ Pink when you're blushing inside, baby ♪

♪ Pink is the truth you can't hide, maybe ♪

♪ Pink like the folds of your brain, crazy ♪

♪ Pink as we all go insane...

♪ So here we are in the car

♪ leaving traces of us down the boulevard ♪

♪ I wanna fall through the stars ♪

♪ Getting lost in the dark is my favorite part ♪

♪ Let's count the ways we could make this last forever ♪

♪ Sunny money keep it funky

♪ touch yo top and let it down

♪ yeah somethin like that

♪ Owww! Somethin like that

♪ yeah somethin like that

♪ 'cause boy it's cool, if you got blue ♪

♪ We got the pink

♪ Pink like the lips around your, maybe ♪

♪ Pink like the skin that's under, baby ♪

♪ Pink where it's deepest inside, crazy ♪

♪ Pink beyond forest and thighs ♪

♪ Pink like the secrets you hide, maybe ♪

♪ Pink like the lid of your eye, baby ♪

♪ Pink is where all of it starts, crazy ♪

♪ Pink like the holes of your heart ♪

♪ So here we are in the car

♪ leaving traces of us down the boulevard ♪

♪ I wanna fall through the stars ♪

♪ Getting lost in the dark is my favorite part ♪

♪ Let's count the ways we could make this last forever ♪

♪ Sunny money keep it funky

♪ touch yo top and let it down

♪ yeah somethin' like that

♪ Owww! Somethin' like that

♪ yeah somethin' like that

♪ 'cause boy it's cool, if you got blue ♪

♪ We got the pink

♪ yeah somethin' like that

♪ Owww! Somethin' like that

♪ yeah somethin' like that

♪ 'cause boy it's cool, if you got blue ♪

♪ We got the pink, I just wanna, I just wanna, I just wanna paint the town ♪

♪ I Don"t wanna to hide my love ♪

♪ I just wanna hold your hand

♪ and be the one that you think of ♪

♪ When you need a holiday

♪ when you wanna drink roseé ♪

♪ I just wanna paint your toes

♪ in the morning kiss your nose ♪

♪ 'Cause when I'm with you I Don"t feel afraid ♪

♪ Maybe this love will indoctrinate ♪

♪ I echo every word that you say ♪

♪ The way you feel yeah I feel the same way ♪

♪ Remember the night when I combed your hair ♪

♪ I hope I don't freak you out when I stared ♪

♪ I donate my truth to you like I'm rich ♪

♪ The truth is my love ain't got no off switch ♪

♪ So if the walls come tumbling down ♪

♪ And if the ocean really does drown ♪

♪ And if my memories never come back ♪

♪ I"ll still remember where we first was naked at ♪

♪ Picture our faces in new oasis ♪

♪ When we made love we left many traces ♪

♪ Just like the blush that's on your cheeks ♪

♪ Deep inside we"re all just pink ♪

♪ Pink like the inside of your, baby ♪ -♪ we're all just pink

♪ pink like the folds in your doors, maybe ♪ -♪ we're all just pink

♪ pink like you're fingers in my, maybe ♪

♪ Pink is the truth you can't hide ♪

♪ Pink like your tongue going round, baby ♪

♪ Pink like the sun going down, maybe ♪

♪ Pink like the holes in your heart, baby ♪

♪ Pink is my favorite part

♪ Yeah

♪ baby don't make me spell it out for ya ♪

♪ All of the feelings that I've got for ya ♪

♪ Can't be explained but I can try for ya ♪

♪ Yeah baby don't make me spell it out for ya ♪

♪ You keep on askin' me the same questions, why ♪

♪ And second guessing all my intentions ♪

♪ Should know by the way I use my compression ♪

♪ That you got the answers to my confessions ♪

♪ It's like I'm powerful with a little bit of tender ♪

♪ An emotional sexual bender

♪ mess me up yeah but no one does it better ♪

♪ There's nothin better

♪ that's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ Uh huh

♪ so good so good so, fuckin real uh huh ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ You know I love you so please don't stop it ♪

♪ You got me right here in your Jean pocket ♪

♪ Layin' your body on a shag carpet, ooh ♪

♪ You know I love it so please don't stop it, ah ah ♪

♪ It's like I'm powerful with a little bit of tender ♪

♪ An emotional sexual bender

♪ mess me up yeah but no one does it better ♪

♪ There's nothin better

♪ that's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ Uh huh so good so good so fuckin real uh huh ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ Oh! That's just the way that I feel now baby ♪

♪ Good god, I can't help it, uh, hey ♪

♪ That's just the way that I feel, yeah ♪

♪ Please! I can't help it!

♪ It's like I'm powerful with a little bit of tender ♪

♪ An emotional sexual bender

♪ mess me up yeah but no one does it better ♪

♪ There's nothin better

♪ damn

♪ that's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel uh huh ♪

♪ So good so good so fuckin real uh huh ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ Oooo, that's just the way you make me feel, you make me feel ♪

♪ So good so good so, fuckin real, so good so good ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

♪ That's just the way you make me feel ♪

They're taking everything away from me.

Huh.

I don't even remember how we met anymore...

I'm not sure if any of this actually happened

Listen.

Thinking will only make it harder.

It's best if you just enjoy the process.

Accept it.

People used to work so hard to be free.

But we're lucky here.

All we have to do is forget.

But I don't want to forget you.

You don't have a choice.

♪ Oooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo

♪ oooooo ooooo ooooo ooooo

♪ sometimes a mystery sometimes I'm free ♪

♪ Depending on my mood or my attitude ♪

♪ Sometimes I wanna roll or stay at home ♪

♪ Walking contradiction guess im factual and fiction ♪

♪ A little crazy, a little sexy a little cool ♪

♪ Little rough around the edges but I keep it smooth ♪

♪ I'm always left of center and that's right where I belong ♪

♪ I'm the random minor note you hear in major songs ♪

♪ And I like that

♪ I don't really give a fuck if I was just the only one, who likes that ♪

♪ I never like to follow, follow all around, the chase is on ♪

♪ Oh me oh me oh me oh my

♪ oh me oh me oh me oh my I

♪ oh me oh me oh me oh my

♪ I like that

♪ I Don"t care what I look like but I feel good ♪

♪ Better than amazing and better than I could ♪

♪ Told the whole world I'm the venom and the antidote ♪

♪ Take a different type of girl to keep the whole world a float ♪

♪ Cause I'm crazy and I'm sexy then I'm cool ♪

♪ Little rough around the edges but I keep it smooth ♪

♪ I'm always left of center and that's right where I belong ♪

♪ I'm the random minor note you hear in major songs and I like that ♪

♪ I don't really give a fuck if I was just the only one who likes that ♪

♪ I never like to follow, follow all around, the chase is on ♪

♪ Oh me oh me oh me oh my

♪ oh me oh me oh me oh my I

♪ oh me oh me oh me oh my

♪ I like that

♪ I remember when you called me weird ♪

♪ We was in math class, third row I was sittin' by you ♪

♪ Right before Mr. Ammon's class ♪

♪ Cause my mama couldn't afford new J's, Polo, ♪

♪ Thrift stores, thrift clothes, that was all I knew ♪

♪ Do you remember?

♪ I remember when you laughed when I cut my perm off and you rated me a 6 ♪

♪ I was like, damn

♪ but even back then, with the tears in my eyes I always knew I was the shit ♪

♪ I like that

♪ I don't really give a fuck if I was just the only one who likes that ♪

♪ I never like to follow, follow all around, the chase is on ♪

♪ Oh me oh me oh me oh my

♪ oh me oh me oh me oh my I

♪ I like that

♪ oh me oh me oh me oh my

♪ I like that

♪ I like that ♪

Wh-what is that? That's not memory.

What part of delete everything you don't understand?

Mother Victoria? May I speak with you for a minute?

I hope this is important.

It's about Jane 57821.

Go on.

It's as if she remembers me.

Like really knows me. She tells me things about myself.

About where I'm from.

She says that my name was zen.

And I made films, played instruments.

And she says that, that we were in love.

That's enough. Now you know that's impossible.

A dirty mind will do anything to survive.

Right now she's dirty.

Tomorrow after the walk she'll be clean.

And if she's lucky in a few days she'll be a torch just like you.

And we'll have all this nonsense behind us.

Yes, mother.

♪ La la la la ooooo la la la la ooooo la la la ♪

♪ Ia la la la ooooo la la la la oooo la la la ♪

♪ Iaaaaaa

I thought we deleted this beach stuff already.

You remember...

It's too late.

Just walk.

♪ Ohhhhhhh oooo ohhhhh

♪ oooooo oohhhh oooooo

Good morning. Che Achebe. Patient 06756.

Jane? I'm Maryapple 54 and I'm your torch.

That means that I'm here to bring you from the darkness into the light.

Let's go. ♪ Alone, don't fight your war alone ♪

I always used to say I would never hurt a fly...

But I would put one to sleep.

♪ We will win this fight

♪ let all souls be brave

♪ we'll find a way to heaven

♪ we'll find a way

♪ war is old, so is sex, let's play god ♪

♪ You go next, hands go up, man go down ♪

♪ Try my luck, stand my ground, die in church ♪

♪ Live in jail, say her name, twice in hell ♪

♪ Uncle Sam kissed a man

♪ Jim crow Jesus, Rose again

♪ I like my woman in the kitchen ♪

♪ I teach my children superstitions ♪

♪ I keep my two guns on my blue nightstand ♪

♪ A pretty young thang, she can wash my clothes ♪

♪ But she'll never ever wear my pants ahhhhh ♪

♪ I pledge allegiance to the flag ♪

♪ Learned the words from my mom and dad ♪

♪ Cross my heart and I hope to die ♪

♪ With a big ol piece of American pie ♪

♪ Love me baby

♪ love me for who I am

♪ falling angels

♪ sing and clap yo hands

♪ don't try to take my country ♪

A dirty computer is someone who is told because of

their sexual orientation, their gender, the class that

they come from... Those that are in those

marginalized groups, being told that they

have these bugs, that they have these viruses

and they need to be cleansed.

But dirty computers don't see their bugs and

their viruses as negatives.

They see them as features, as attributes, something

to be celebrated.

My name is Jane 57821.

I am a dirty computer.

I am a dirty computer.

I am ready to be cleaned.

I am ready to be cleaned.

So on the album you have three, three different stages.

The first few songs represent the reckoning, you know

realizing that hey, I represent to society a dirty computer.

It's like the first time a black person is

called a nigga, or the first time a woman

is called a bitch by a man and having to reckon

with what that means. And then you have the

celebration towards the middle of the album where

you have those songs like 'pynk' and 'make me feel'

and 'django Jane' that's saying hey,

despite being a dirty computer, despite what the world

says about me, I'm going to celebrate my bugs,

I'm going to celebrate my viruses.

Y'know, I'm going to be the best fucking dirty

computer I can be.

And then when you get to a song like 'American',

that's a part of the reclamation.

That's saying that I am a dirty computer,

but I too am American.

You know my ancestors helped build this country.

We worked hard - blood, sweat, and tears.

And those are the stages, and so visually what

we wanted to do was we wanted to create a story that

allowed you to focus in on what it would mean to have

those in the position of power erase your identity.

When we were working on the music,

we were envisioning this dystopian near-future um society,

an America that had kind of succumbed to,

I guess the worst impulses of our current president

and it became something really sickening and dangerous.

We were trying to figure out: How can we take the music,

how can we take a film, how can we tell this like really

cool story with these elements?

We had come into the story with ummm seeing that Jane

had been captured and put in this institution.

So 'crazy classic life' is a memory.

They're erasing her memory, so this is how we get to

see what the outside world looks like.

What her experience was before she got put in.

The fact that these songs and this album and these

concepts came along at this point in our history of this

country was really gripping and poignant.

We use that as fuel.

With 'I like that' I was

trying to accomplish making a video that really celebrated

black girl magic. I kind of knew where she was going and what direction

she was going in with her project before it even came out, and I wanted to kind of show

that she was going to be stripping down a little bit and showing

a little bit more of herself and being more vulnerable.

The song is about embracing the things that make you

unique even if it makes others uncomfortable.

And so it was important to sort of exaggerate certain images

to show that my world y'know how I see life umm is

just slightly different, y'know it's, it's surreal.

On one of our shoot days we umm,

we shot with a umm, an actual peacock.

So he started to take flight behind Janelle and she like

freaked out and like ran off set and said she was done,

basically like that was the end of the shoot day,

but we got everything we needed so it was cool.

♪ It's like I'm powerful

♪ with a little bit of tender

♪ an emotional sexual bender

With 'make me feel' I knew that I wanted

to come out with a focus on duality.

And 'make me feel' with the song and what

it represents in terms of women's empowerment and agency

over your body and image it was important to have clothing

and dancing and just like performance that gave you

the rawest sexy most unfiltered version of who I am.

When Janelle put on that chain mask and she came out

I was just blown away.

Like that was my favorite outfit,

and I had seen her practicing in rehearsal like how

she was gonna interact with the guitar and things

like that and I was like 'wow I can't wait to shoot that.'

so I did 'make me feel' and 'django Jane'

at the same time and I knew I wanted those to go together.

What you don't know is there is a video for 'django Jane'

that did not get released.

'Django Jane' was a ah an interesting come about.

Uh very different than your average music video.

Um I had been working with the team on 'dirty computer'

and 'django Jane' was obviously like an essential keystone

piece of the project.

And they shot a really cool video with a great team,

but uh as many of us in the music video world know

visual effects are time consuming

and expensive and the 'django Jane' video was initially entirely

green screen, so as deadlines were coming and I was kind

of tracking along with the video and watching progress

there was this moment where you realize there

was no chance of finishing it in its original form.

We didn't have an idea for django until Sunday

morning before our Monday evening shoot.

So in the span of three and a half, maybe four days

we wrote the video, shot the video, edited the video,

colored the video and upload it and it was just a total

whirlwind of a process.

♪ Pink like the inside of your baby ♪

♪ Pink behind all of the doors crazy ♪

The infamous vagina pants,

the labia pants, the flower pants. They have so many names.

I was actually calling them

the coochie pants at first, but then everybody

just calls them vagina pants and I guess that's

what they are, so a friend of mine

who is a designer Duran Dontick,

he uhh made some sketches and sent them over to Janelle

and I think Janelle had a really clear idea of

what she wanted from them as well so she sent notes back

and then he sent a new version and kind of went

back and forth and he flew in the night before ahhh

we were gonna shoot this scene and uhh came

to the desert with these pants and put them on her

and the dancers and made some adjustments

and yeah we shot the next day.

Doing the fitting I was like I can't believe it.

I just kept opening my legs, closing them, open them,

close them. I mean, they're very fun.

There's some women in the 'pynk' video

that don't have on the pants because one of the things

we wanted to say is that you don't have to have

a vagina to be a woman.

You don't have to look like her to be respected

and so umm for us we wanted to just showcase the diversity.

We wanted to be as inclusive as possible,

uhhh and we also wanted, yeah we, we wanted to do something fun.

It took two, two and a half years probably

to make this thing and during that time

there was probably a good ten times that

all of us were throwing in the towel,

it's not happening, it's not gonna happen, it's over.

The label was, you know, emailing us, we're costing

so many people money. I'm spending money,

we're spending money as wonderland.

Oh it was stressful, but it really, really happened the way it was supposed to.

I kind of walked away with this, this feeling of pride that, y'know

we're able to make this content, we're able

to show these different sides of humanity and

show there's beauty in the imperfections

So I think there are some really, really, really heartbreaking moments.

One in particular is when Tess is walking me down

the hall and I'm going to get my last dose of

nevermind and y'know I'm basically gonna become a torch.

And I just remember when we were doing that scene

it was just, uh, painful, just going through it and

just thinking about what it would really mean to lose your identity.

To have, have two actors that already know each other really helps,

'cause we didn't have rehearsals.

Tessa was a trooper. She was filming Westworld, she was filming another movie,

and she was with us.

And her schedule was bananas.

When it was time for her to like forget me

and to be like a torch, she was very convincing

to the point that I was just like, "this is, this is next level."

It's as if she remembers me, like really knows me.

She tells me things about myself, about where I'm from.

She says that my name was zen.

It's just kinda crazy, 'cause it all lived, it all lived

and died in that one day where like we're either

going to have a great day today and this thing is

gonna make it, or if we have a horrible day today

this whole project is gonna be crazy.

The last scene was that hallway scene,

and we knew by that time that if it was gonna work

it was going to really have to come together,

and um they did it they, it really came together

and they really did.

It was important that I was working with women

on this project, and black women in particular and

Lacey Duke was one of my first picks to work with.

She knows my music, she knows me as a person,

as an artist and we would just have great conversations

around art and around the importance of making

sure that our stories are told and we had so much fun.

Emma Westonburg, um I love her.

I saw her work online through a friend and

I was just blown away. When she sent the treatment

over for 'pynk' I was like you ma'am, your mind is crazy,

let's do this. I love working with Andrew as well,

uhh he came through.

I'm telling you like Andrew came through.

We were able to connect over this story, over what

it meant to be a dirty computer, how important it was

to create something that dirty computers could

feel umm seen by, you know celebrated and loved.

Chuck lightning really did help bring this story together

and write it up and make sure that all of our ideas were there.

Chuck knows me best because we did the

album together, so he knew the integrity of the project.

Nate Wonder and Wynne Bennett putting them in the room

as producers umm on this project was just incredible.

I would just watch them take so many amazing like new and

interesting synth sounds and like they exceeded my expectations.

Alan Ferguson has been around since like the Genesis of us making visuals.

He did 'many moons' and he's believed in me

umm when nobody on the visual side even knew who I was.

He said, "I'll do this." Like he's put in

a lot of blood, sweat, and tears like us.

The ambition for it. Wanting to push the boundaries. I really respected that.

Y'know I really hope the film kind of shows

there is a world out there and there is a community

and there is a rebellion that you can be a part of.

And you don't have to fall into line with the way that you're supposed to be.

I think we all believed in the message so much.

You know that we just wanted to help,

so it really didn't matter you know if

who had the idea, at the end of the day

everybody was pitching in to make sure that

we could make this emotion picture umm

and Janelle's vision come um to life and be as great as it could possibly be.

It was great to work with Janelle and her wonderland team.

She and her team really have fun in collaborating and

in actually in the making of and I think that is uhhh

what makes beautiful stuff, and that is worthwhile as well.

What I'm learning throughout this process is like, freedom is not free.

It comes with a price. It comes with great sacrifice

and I'm realizing that more and more and more

as I've done this project and I've put out these visuals.

I'm just thankful y'know to be able to have an outlet,

to be able to have songs, to be able to have visuals

a story that allows me, even in my darkest hours,

even in my most insecure moments,

in my most vulnerable moments that I can put on

'dirty computer' and you know I can reconnect with who I am

and, and what I am, and be proud of my dirt

and be proud of where I come from and I can find myself again.

♪ I pledge allegiance to the flag ♪

♪ Learned the words from my mom and dad ♪

♪ Cross my heart and I hope to die ♪

♪ With a big ol' piece of American pie ♪

♪ Love me baby, love me for who I am ♪

♪ Fallen angels singing, "clap your hands" ♪

♪ Don't try to take my country, I will defend my land ♪

♪ I'm not crazy, baby, naw

♪ I'm American, I'm American ♪

♪ I'm American, I'm American

♪ seventy-nine cent to your dollar ♪

♪ All that bullshit from white-collars ♪

♪ You see my color before my vision ♪

♪ Sometimes I wonder if you would fly would it help you make a better decision? ♪

♪ I pledge allegiance to the flag ♪

♪ Learned the words from my mom and dad ♪

♪ Cross my heart and I hope to die ♪

♪ With a big ol' piece of American pie ♪

♪ Just love me baby, love me for who I am ♪

♪ Fallen angels singing, "clap your hands" ♪

♪ Don't try to take my country, I will defend my land ♪

♪ I'm not crazy, baby, naw

♪ I'm American, I'm American ♪

♪ I'm American, I'm American

♪ let me help you in here

♪ until women can get equal pay for equal work ♪

♪ This is not my America

♪ until same gender loving people can be who they are ♪

♪ This is not my America

♪ until black people can come home from a police stop ♪

♪ Without being shot in the head ♪

♪ This is not my America

♪ until poor whites can get a shot at being successful ♪

♪ This is not my America

♪ I can't hear nobody talkin' to me ♪

♪ Just love me baby, love me for who I am ♪

♪ Fallen angels singing, "clap your hands" ♪

♪ Don't try to take my country, I will defend my land ♪

♪ I'm not crazy, baby, naw

♪ I'm American, love me baby

Action! ♪ I'm American, love me for who I am, fallen angels ♪

Let's go. ♪ Until Latinos and latinas don't have to run from walls ♪

♪ This is not my America

♪ but I tell you today that the devil is a liar ♪

♪ Because it's gon' be my America before it's all over ♪

♪ Please sign your name on the dotted line ♪