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Just walk.

(COMPOSED MUSIC)

NARRATOR: 18 celebrity recruits...

..volunteered to give up
their privileged lives.

Everybody strip.

To take on the infamous
SAS selection course.

Go!

This is not a game!

They took on the most dangerous
and life-threatening missions

in order to push themselves
physically...

Suck it up number two.

..and mentally.

Aww, this hurts!

(INAUDIBLE).

Move!
Ahhh!

They were forced to confront
their inner demons.

Just take your (BLEEP) chin.
I told you.

And come face to face
with their true selves.

I love you
with all my heart and soul.

(MUMBLES).

And in the end...
Number 16.

..there was only one.

You have successfully
passed this course.

Yes, staff.
Well done.

Now all celebrity recruits...

Yay, we're home!

..are returning to base camp
for the final time.

I'm actually glad to be here.

Yeah, yeah.
We're not running,

we're not like having Bergens on,
no one is yelling at us.

This is beautiful.

As they debrief and share
their life changing experiences...

..on SAS Selection.

Alright guys,
welcome to the debrief.

On this course, you know
how important a debrief is.

After every task we debrief
to improve in the future.

So, what you've learned
about yourselves, about each other.

What you've taken home with you,
what you're going to do different.

And this is an open
and honest conversation.

So, at the end of selection,
there were four people.

Number four, Jana,

number 11, Mark,

number 16, Sam,

and then John, number 14.

Now these guys managed to get
all the way to the last day.

So Jana over to you,
how did you find the course?

It was extraordinary.
Yeah.

You know I learned a lot,

I, I didn't have the last the last
1% as you know,

we talked about that
on the final day,

particularly as it got tougher
and tougher and tougher

towards the end, physically
and mentally,

but I can hands down say it's one of
the greatest experiences of my life.

Oh, really?
Yeah.

Mark.

I came in here knowing that
it's probably going to be

the hardest thing I've ever done

and without a doubt it was
the hardest thing I've ever done,

but I actually learned
more about myself

which I didn't think I would.

I gained confidence and I then
mentally got stronger as well

and peeling back those...

Like, so many things that I
peeled back every single day.

There's no more onion left brother.

Hey, listen I'm going to talk
as long as I want! Alright?

(BLEEP) hell, it's took to this day
to find the real you.

(LAUGHTER)

Yeah, anyways it was amazing,

thank you very much
for the opportunity, yes.

Come on then John, how about you?

I'll share the similar sentiments,
I'm not going to go on.

Yeah, made some really good friends
and learned a lot about myself.

You think you stop learning
when you get to a certain age

but yeah, a whole new uh,

like you said those (BLEEP) layers,
those onions.

Oh my days.

Oh, that's OK for you to say that,
but if I (BLEEP) say that...

(LAUGHTER)
..jeez.

I'm saying you had no onion left,
brother.

You know what I mean,
you pulled your onions apart.

(LAUGHTER)

No it was brilliant
and I appreciate the opportunity.

How about you Sam?

You obviously uh passed the course,
the only one to pass the course.

Yeah.
Yee-hooo!

Thank you.

No it was just a wonderful
experience.

I actually really enjoyed the course
as, as silly as that sounds

um, the process has been magnificent
and I'll take so many things from it

and I learned some great lessons
you guys have...

Speak a lot of wisdom each day.

I always like the idea
of being a sponge,

sit and soak up what I like and what
I don't like I'll leave behind.

But I, I picked up more than
I left behind on this course,

it's been uh, it's been a great
experience so thank you very much.

Yeah, Sam!

Good man!

He actually said in the car
when we left,

he actually said to me, he was like,

"Oh, I actually thought it was going
to be a little harder than that."

(LAUGHS)

Hey, John leave the jokes to us
yeah?

Let's move on to day one.

First task. The gassing.

Oh!

Tell us about the gassing.

Um.
(BLEEP)

Did I pass out?

I still haven't worked out
if I passed out.

Thought you were trying to
lick my boots,

I don't know what
you were doing.

Look at me, hey, it's a bit rude
not to look at someone.

(GAGGING)

What's, what's your name?

(CHOKING) Emma!

Look at me,
what's your name?

Alicia!
Alicia.

Dan Ewing.

What?
I can't breathe, I can't breathe!

Help me, help me, please help me.
Calm down, calm down, calm down.

To me, to me,
do not touch your face.

Was you expecting that?
ALL: No. No way!

Mark, you came out
of that gas chamber

like you've been brought up
on the stuff.

(INAUDIBLE).

Put it on your left arm.
OK, what's your name?

Mark.
Mark what?

Philippoussis.
Philippoussis.

And what do you do Mark?
I'm a professional tennis player.

Professional tennis player,
OK, are you still playing tennis?

Retired.

I actually said that
to a couple of the guys,

I'd rather do the gas
a couple more times than do this.

It was hard, don't get me wrong

but some of the, I preferred it
than some of the tasks.

It's horrendous.

We do a lot of it
and all the stuff we do,

all operations,
pre-deployment of operations

is in a gas type environment...
(SAM COUGHS)

..cause that's the worst thing
we can go up against

and if you can fight and work
in that, you can do alright.

So, that as a start was brutal.

To me, to me.

You didn't like it Manu, did you?

Well for me that was the beginning
of the end.

I need to talk about shit right now.

I am forever pissed off
because I left early

and I went home struggling.

I know I've made the right decision
on the day.

Yeah.

But I've been pissed off since
that I didn't stay longer.

When I saw that car dangling
from the crane,

I went, "I'm out."

(COMPOSED MUSIC)

You haven't even tried it
number six, have you?

I know.
You know?

Yep,
I'm giving you my number, Staff.

You sure?
Yep.

As soon as I said I'm going
I wanted to come back straight away,

I had more in to me.

But I didn't give myself the,
the chance to give myself more

and I'm, I, I'm forever pissed off.

I've got to be completely honest
with you.

If you gave me another chance
I'd come back to you guys.

I trained hard physically.

I've lost 15 kilos in two years

and I was ready physically
to do anything

and I lost that completely.

It was the wrong decision.

It was the wrong decision.

You know what I want to do?

Is I, I think the four of you
running a (BLEEP) restaurant for me

when you've never run one before.

Yeah.

Ultimately, in the moment,
you can have a malfunction.

Yeah!

Well always grab that and say,
think about what you're doing.

Stop, pause.

And we give everyone that chance.

Number 12 get here.
Nah, I'm too scared.

So what.
I am.

Listen, listen this
is what you're going to do,

you're going to get
in that vehicle first.

You're going to sit in there,
feel it...

..and you might change your mind.

I'm taking off for the team,
staff.

I'm a liability to the team
and I know that, staff.

Think about what you're doing.

Number 15.

No it's done.

Everyone has a chance
on this course.

I, I know I'm empty. That's it.

You're done?
Yep.

(CRYING)

I've given my all, that's it.

Thank you.

We don't fault you on that
because it's your time to decide.

Some of you exited the course early,
Brynne, how did you find it?

I think I came in thinking that
I would do a lot better than I did.

Get off your (BLEEP) knees!

The more you're on your knees,
the more I'll keep you here.

I can't do it.

If you can't do it, get up and give
me your (BLEEP) armband.

I'm done, I'm done, I'm done.

The rest of you,
stay in the press up position.

I knew that physically I was not
strong enough to do the stuff.

Mentally I'm quite strong.

And I mean, somebody can
antagonise me and talk shit to me

and everything and that's not
going to get to me.

But, physically I need to definitely
step up my fitness game by so much

and maybe become a little more
coordinated

'cause I stacked it twice just,
I don't even know how.

Get up, get up!

OK. (PANTING)

Get up! Get the (BLEEP) up,
stand up!

(LAUGHS)

So what did you learn
on your short time

'cause obviously you were
the first one to go.

Did you take anything
from the course?

It's really hard.

(LAUGHS)

Like, I knew it would be hard but...

Alright listen,
you walk through these gates,

that's the main thing, you know.

People can say what they want,
think what they want

but to expose yourselves
that takes guts and courage

so listen, well done for that.
Thank you.

Erin.
Yes.

You exited the course early.
Yeah, I was next.

So, we were doing our beasting and I
couldn't pick up Dan, you're heavy.

Sorry, mate, so sorry, mate.
Dan's a fat bastard.

Dan's fault.

I can't!

Put a bit of effort in!

I'm trying, Staff.

If you can't do it, then you're not
going to last tomorrow.

We will keep going

until number ten gets number (BLEEP)
nine around this parade square.

Go up, go, good job, Ezy.

Oh, god!
I got ya.

I'm sorry.

Ahhhh!
Shut up 14.

Listening to everyone
getting beasted

because of my lack of ability,
um, I couldn't do it.

I can't do it to them.

You can't do that to them, can you?
I can't.

Um, yeah, I was, oh, here we go,
I knew I would be the first to cry!

Yeah, I was disappointed
in the effort that I put in

and um, at the end of the day though
this is a selection course

and I'm in amongst some of the most
incredible athletes in the world.

You are.

And I am someone who is really hard
on themselves

and a bit of an overachiever

and yeah, like I've, I've never done
anything physically before.

Put me in a pair of heels
or some sequins

and I'm much more comfortable than,
than army boots

and um, it was really like a,
a reality check I suppose

just about how incredibly tough
it is what you do

and to see how well everyone else
did was really amazing so.

You should come into this course
physically fit you know?

On top of your game really.

Anyone that's come physically
unprepared,

we'll thrash you until you drop
and then (BLEEP) you off.

'Cause ultimately you know trying to
constantly bring up the back end

and those that are dragging behind.

It's not fair on the front runners
and the core group.

What that relates to
is the battlefield.

You know if it's too much here

and you have that VW mind-set
on the battlefield.

You're not going to make it off,
it's as simple as that.

I'm one of those assholes who will
judge a book by its cover.

Like couldn't deal with Koby.

Bad blood between recruits...

We had our disagreements.

..and Koby gives the DS
a piece of his mind.

I didn't really judge people,

who like,
my peers who are around me yeah.

But I judge you guys, yeah.

I thought you were kind of pricks.

Base camp for me is like going
camping, I suppose.

There's like that hose thing
for a shower.

Turn around.

There's no hot water.

Those are your toilets.

That's where you go for piss
and shit.

Oh, the toilets were disgusting.

The hole in the side?

Yeah, a bit confronting.

This is ridiculous huh?

I had a poo with the poo.

Just don't want eye contact.

We both had a number two together

and I will cherish that
for the rest of my life.

Alright guys, this is your debrief

about the course
that you've just done.

This is about what you guys learned.

First impressions of each other.

Be honest with each other,
when you looked around,

did you think (BLEEP) hell,
what's that nob doing on the course?

I thought it was
the Olympic village.

Lots of, loads of athletes.

When we did selection

I remember standing on a square
of 280 odd people

and looked down the line
and we all do it.

I've got no chance here.

Look at the size of him,
look at the size of that.

You talk yourself out of it
and by day two, three,

you look around
and half of them are gone.

You, you grow with confidence then.

Did you feel any of that
with your new group?

What did you feel Emma,
what did you feel?

When I arrived with everybody?

Yeah, you're first impressions.
Um.

Was it daunting to see
the athletes and...

Oh, absolutely.

You know people, especially
being a politician, right?

These guys have all got
six packs, yeah.

I'm a pen pusher from Canberra.

Like, I know how to write policy.

I don't know how to run 5k's
with a Bergen on my back.

Obviously like I'm probably
physically the weakest...

'Cause you're...

..but I trained pretty hard
and so I looked at everybody else

and I went right, this is not
challenge of me against them,

it's a challenge of me against me.

I'd said you know,
I'm here to prove to Australia

that I'm not what was written

and I quickly learned
when the mirror was help up,

I didn't have anything to prove
to anyone out there.

I had to prove it to me.

It was about learning
to believe in myself again.

So, short and sweet ride

and I'll come back for season three.

Isabelle.

You're sitting all quiet
there on the end.

What's your first impressions

when you, when you saw
the, saw everyone and.

Um, yeah, just like there's so many
athletes here

and so many strong people

but I felt like we all connected
quite quickly,

where other people had weaknesses
and other people had strengths,

we kind of started to get
each other a little bit more.

What about the athletes?

Um, for me, I, I found it
actually quite comforting

'cause I, there was a couple
of familiar faces.

One of them being Jana,

I actually remember
when I was ten years old

my mum was at the Olympics with Jana

and they actually
made the Olympic final together

in the 4x4 100m relay.

That must of made you feel awesome.

You're not making Jana feel old
and alright now Jess it's fine.

Sorry, no, but I actually remember
I uh, I was ten years old

and Jana had this gold scooter.

Yeah.

And I was riding around this,
the Olympic village

on Jana's scooter as a ten year,
ten-year-old kid

and so for me having Jana here
was really comforting.

Um, it made me feel pretty strong

and you know we shared some you know
memories and conversations.

Gained strength from others right?
We did. We did. Yeah for sure.

That's exactly what you should do.

Number 13, first impressions.

You know you're,
you're the oldest on the course. Um.

Thanks for reminding me.

You've got a lot of wisdom,
a lot of knowledge, Olympian.

A lot of pressure on you really.

Yeah, well when I saw everyone
when we first met

and I looked around

and I'm like there is no one
near my age, except Manu.

Hey, hey, hey.
Grandma, grandpa.

And Billy.
I'm (BLEEP) older than you.

Billy and I share the same
birth year.

Um, but uh yeah,
it was pretty intimidating,

very intimidating.
Yeah.

I knew that was going to be one of
the things that I came in with

which was going to be a weakness.

Come on grandma, move!

(BLEEP) hell, stopwatch
has ran out of numbers.

Where's your Bergen number 13!

Why are you wet!
Why are they carrying your Bergen!

Because I fell over.

Because you're a burden that's why.

Who's the weakest amongst the group?

Number 13, staff.

13, staff.

13, staff.

13, staff.

13, Staff.

It was a massive challenge
but you know, I thought,

if I get this opportunity
and I say no to it.

I'll always regret it

and I just didn't want to regret it
as injured and as broken,

as old as I am or was, um...

Can I just say though none of us,
well, I don't know about you guys,

but I never for a second thought,
oh, Kez is the oldest

and she's going to be no good.

I was like she's an Olympian,
she has a gold medal.

I remember watching you when...
Yeah, but that was 20 years ago.

But, but it doesn't,
but it doesn't matter.

Look at you, you look fit,
you look amazing.

Oh, thanks.
You were just as much a team player.

You out lasted me.
Yeah, well.

She's a beast, look at her go.

Go!

Well done.
Bloody hell, I want to be 55.

I think I pushed my joints
right to the end.

Well, she's got you on crutches.

And you know what when I picked up
the crutches from the pharmacy,

it says (BLEEP) number 13
on there!

Oh, did it?
It is.

There you go.
It's meant to be!

But you know what, I'll heal

and for me it was the most
incredible experience.

You came into it
with an open heart.

Amazing.

Dan, first impressions.

You came in and we identified
straight away you know,

that you are quite um,
out there, you know.

And you are,
you're a spiritual person.

Yeah.
Which is great.

Number nine.

Staff.

What's the name of your spaceship?

I don't have a spaceship, staff.

On this course,
I knew what I was getting into.

I knew what I signed up for.

But until you're in there
and the DS are yelling at you.

Stop! Stop!

You have no idea what's coming.

You were embarrassed
that you were the only one

to reverse out of that contact.

No, staff I wasn't embarrassed.

Stop!
I made a mistake.

(BLEEP) stop!

You've done really (BLEEP)
annoying me now.

It was the hardest physical,
mental, emotional

and maybe even spiritual challenge
of my life.

But you know what?
No hard feelings at all.

I think I'm a quite
a positive person

and I think that's one of
my best qualities.

I love it.
Yep.

I'm going back
a better version of myself.

Simple as that.

I had a ball, Staff.
That's the honest answer.

Good.

Was it good to get back to area 51?

Staff, you know as well as I do.

I'm joking, yeah.

There was some big characters
in here wasn't there?

Koby, you come from a
different background you know,

did you come in here thinking

(BLEEP) hell,
I'm not going to fit in?

Yeah, definitely.
My wife was scared for me actually.

See there you go.

She said, "Mate, I don't know
if you should do this."

Really? See.

Now I've got my own opinions of
people yeah, and my own, own morals,

the way I see things and they're
a lot different to other people.

So, I was kind of running that risk

but whatever I've done,
I'm proud of, mate

so, and it was really hard-core

so I take my hat off to anyone that
done it, after me and before me.

I had a sore back but I didn't want
to do that shit, bro.

I've got a bad back, man,
I'm out of here!

And who enjoyed Koby
as duty recruit?

ALL: Aww.

I can't wait.

I'm now duty recruit.
Oh, cool.

I'm the boss.

I'll get a pen and you guys write
down what you need with your number.

I just want to see the doctor.

Yeah, well you're going to have
to write that down then.

It's going to take so much
more time Koby doing it this way.

Well, it's, it's your time not mine.

From now on if I'm serving hey...
It's a good idea.

You don't go over and smash your
food and come over and go.

Yeah.
Oh, oh, oh, I've had two spuds!

You know?
Yeah, I just need one.

Shits changed around here alright?

Jett, there's a bit of friction
there number two.

To be honest
I'm one of those assholes

who will judge a book by its cover.

Like, couldn't deal with Koby.

(BURPS)

That's pretty (BLEEP) gross to do
while I'm eating bra.

Well, I couldn't hold it in.
Then (BLEEP) walk away.

We had our disagreements

but it's not until you start
to go day by day,

challenge by challenge that
you understand more and more

about people

and Koby's life growing up
was super hard,

I'm very fortunate with my family
and everything else growing up

that I was kind of comfortable
in a way, Koby never had that.

Or it's not until you open that book
and you get in there

and you start to learn the
finer detail of someone's life

and where they've,
what's led them to get to that point

that you start to understand

and why they do things
the way they do.

Obviously, we see his picture
on the board,

really every bit about him,
this bad boy image.

You know want to be a gangster

and actually we watched you, mate,
and what a character.

Yeah, big time.

It's easy to listen to media,
listen to bullshit

and the rest of it

but when gave us your story in
there, I was like (BLEEP) hell.

Yeah.
We didn't want you to go.

We never wanted you to go,
because he's a morale booster.

Yeah, big time.

Yeah, I got here didn't I, mate
Aye?

Just remember I'm coming to Bali.

I know where you live.

I don't really like judge people,
like my peers,

who are around me, yeah?

I judge you guys, yeah.

Brave man.
Here we go, cause we're judging you.

Now when I thought about this,
I thought you were kind of pricks

and you're kind of like
this and that

but then I listened to the words
you guys were saying

and I just want to say
no matter you guys go in life,

like keep helping people
what you guys are doing,

you're not making TV shows,

you're like, helping people
and you're good to talking to men,

you know, who need help.

There's a lot of hard men out there

but not all hard men can talk to
weak men and stuff, you know?

Yeah, it's only because
we've been there and you know

we, we've, we've done it
that we can understand it

and that's why we get so emotionally
connected with guys.

You know it's an emotional journey
that we go on.

You know those weaknesses
and strengths that we speak about,

well, we all have them.

You know, Koby, amazing to go to
for a bit of morale,

you know, Sam for a bit of strength.

You've got knowledge and wisdom
back there.

It's like you know,
identify that straight away

and then use it to your advantage,

use it for the advantage
of the group

and um, never judge
a book by its cover.

When you join the military,
it's almost you against us.

And that's the way it is.

When we went through training
and you bond.

And when you walk away from here
tonight,

most of you will stay in touch
forever

'cause you've all been
in the same boat.

You've all fought for a position,
survival, whatever it is.

And I'll tell you now,
that bond will never, never go away.

I hated watching everyone
pummel everyone

You were squealing Kerri
and getting belted.

A blow by blow account...

Something needs to overcome you
to get in that mode

of wanting to pummel
and kill someone.

..of the most brutal task.

To me it was just like,
'can you put it back in?

'Cause I just want to get back in
and try and get him.

Right here is aggression
of the highest form.

This is milling.

This isn't boxing.

No defending yourselves.

The only form of defence is attack.

The milling.

This was by far the most brutal
milling that we've seen.

Pick an opponent number 15.
16.

Good choice.

Fight!

That was pretty hard
for the majority of you

and also the reactions
whilst you are watching

was something that we've never
experienced before either.

That's it, go on.
Go on! Come on!

Come on 15, keep going!

Number 15, 16.
That was a fight.

Was there rivalry there
straight away?

Was it AFL versus NRL?

A mate of mine before I came in,

he just said if you get the choice
and you're boxing anyone

just pick the biggest guy,
no matter what.

Sammy was the one.

I suggest you fight your (BLEEP)
mate next time.

Yeah.

He was a bit quicker
than I thought he was, Sammy.

Stop!

Watching you go for it
that's exactly what we wanted.

Head up, when the chips are done,
all against you and you did.

Stupid mistake,
but there you (BLEEP) go.

I was nervous
on the other side of it

when we got there I thought I really
didn't want to fight anyone,

'cause I know I'm a lot bigger
and heavier,

so if I had to fight anyone
it would of been Heath.

I just looked at it logically like
it's going to go for 30 seconds,

we've got gloves on, head gear on,
what's the worst that can happen?

Might get a bit of a bloody nose
or a bit stunned

but um, Heath's a tough opponent.

I've watched him play for ten years
so I took it for what it was,

simple, just a,
swing the arms a few times and...

I like the way that you said that
you were wearing head gear

because I had a (BLEEP) job
getting that thing on yours.

You know that was the biggest
challenge of the entire course.

It's always controversial
the milling.

You know people,
you want to watch it

or you don't want to watch it.

Especially when you see
women fighting,

believe it or not
we've had as many fights with women

out on the battlefield
as we have with blokes.

And that's true.

When somebody's in front of you,
you can't look at gender,

you can't look at, it's do or die.

Number 18, come out here.

Who wants to fight number 18?

Number 13, lets' do it.
OK.

Fight!

Keep going number 18, keep going!
Keep going!

Keep going, let's go!
Keep going number 18, keep going.

Stop.

No one likes being punched in
the face, it's (BLEEP) horrible.

Stop, stop!

Get up!

Ask yourself if this is
the job that you want to do.

But then, witnessing it as well
and by the looks on your faces...

..that was pretty hard
for the majority of you.

Bonnie.

I thought I'd be cool with it.

I was kind of mentally preparing
myself for some kind of fight

or something

and the whole time
watching everybody,

I think because we got to know
each other and it was so brutal.

It was tough.

And like I love these guys,
like, it was like, there were tears.

I was feeling emotional everyday
actually.

But yeah that was hard.
Well, I hated it.

I'm just going to put my hand up.
Yeah, over to you.

I hated watching everyone
pummel everyone

and you were squealing, Kerri,
and getting belted

and I hated listening to that.

And we were last to go, Jana and I.

You two, go and glove up.

Make it a (BLEEP) good one.

Fight!

And I just hated every second
of the fighting

and emotion
completely overwhelmed me.

And I just opted out.

Do you want to quit?

Right, go over and see the medic.
Move.

You cracked on
and you did the fight basically

and it was a shame

because you would of only had
to stand there

for another second or two max.

I know, I wonder why I didn't?

I'm just trying to understand
where your thought process was

because ultimately
you pretty much cracked it.

Yeah, I did.

I cracked it, I probably lost
the plot a little bit, yeah.

It was a shame.

I keep wondering whether,

if my son or daughter
were standing next to me

and I needed to fight
for their lives,

I wonder whether
I would of continued to fight

because I just took flight
and I just gave up.

Something needs to overcome you

to get in that mode of wanting
to pummel and kill someone.

Yep.
And I didn't have it.

And I trained lots of aspects
coming into this

but I didn't train emotion.

I don't know
if you can train emotion.

For 20 years I've been taught
on the tennis court

play how you must, not how you feel.

You know, you can't fight or box

or try and kill someone
by how you feel.

You just must do it.

And I didn't do that that night.

Talk me through your experience Pete
and your dislocated arm.

I remember seeing that pop.

Fighting Mark I didn't realise how
long his arms were

which was pretty hard
challenging guy to try and fight.

And Mark got some good shots on me
and I fell backwards

and then the arm popped.

Elbow, elbow, out of joint.

Your elbows come out of joint.

I remember picking you up, Pete,
and you saying put it back in,

I want to go again.
Yeah.

Um, and your elbow was here.

I thought I said that to the doc,
did I say that to you?

Any excuse to get out of it.

I was disappointed
because he got the better of me

and all I wanted to do was get back
and, and have another go.

So, for me it was just like
can you put it back in,

cause I just want to get back in
and try and get him.

Mark, how do you feel breaking
a musician's arm?

You know what
I've never had a fight.

I've never punched anyone
in my life.

No one's ever punched me.

I've never done any boxing,
I've never done any glove work.

You guys were like who wants to
fight number 14

and all the guys are putting up
their hands and I was like,

I don't want to fight anyone.

The only thing I was thinking was,

just because I'm the biggest
please God do not pair me with Sam.

I just thought,
I was shitting my pants.

So when Heath picked Sam,

I was like, thank God.

And when it's time for Pete and I,

I'm like, alright,
well this is going to happen.

It's either him or me, pretty much,
my mind-set was you know.

I tell you what, you did what you
did throughout the whole course?

And that was, surprised us.

You really pulled it out of the bag.

Maybe you should start a new career.

The milling is to see if you've got
the aggression to go there

and then to stop because
that's what the battlefield is like.

We could be going into a room
with enemy combatants,

next room, women and children,
can we switch on and off.

And also witnessing
what you have to witness,

that's why we get you there
to watch it.

It's like, and you said about
your friends, it's hard you know,

you've got to know each other
for a couple of days

and you've got to punch them.

Well, listen, imagine your (BLEEP)
pal that's dead in front of ya,

you've got to get him on your
shoulder and get him out there.

It's not just about beating the shit
out of each other,

even though we did enjoy this one,
so excellent effort on that.

Best one we've had.
Yeah, it is.

100%.

Do you remember collapsing?

I remember seeing spots.

Yeah, that wasn't much fun.

You tested my ceiling level
of my athleticism.

Pushed to breaking point.

I knocked on the gates of hell

and I saw the grim reaper
like three times that day, staff.

In order to defeat their demons.

That was a rebirth for you that day.

Oh, thank you, staff.
That means a lot.

The team challenges,
they were just absolutely brutal.

Go!

The helicopter
where we had to drop into the water,

I actually swallowed a bit of water

and I had a little bit of
a panic attack.

Don't panic.

I'm afraid of really,
really tight spaces.

Lets go, let's go.

You can do this, let's go.
I'm very claustrophobic.

It's pretty hard confronting
my fears of claustrophobia.

So, I've actually ticked the box
there.

It was tough.

I was certainly quite afraid
of falling from high, high heights.

Lean back.

All a sudden there I was hanging
off a rock and being let go.

I was petrified.
Break, break, break!

Some of those kind of things,

I'll never have that opportunity
again in life to do.

So, it was pretty amazing.

You OK?
Yep.

The DS have no mercy.

The next debrief point
is the toughest task.

Number 16,
what was your toughest task.

Uh, definitely for me
was the last challenge.

Probably the worst position
I could be in.

(BLEEP) my shoulders cooked.

I came in with a pretty bad
left shoulder.

It sort of finished my career,
physically my left shoulder,

I thought might prevent me from
competing as well as others.

I've taught myself that pain
can only get to a ten.

Then after that
it doesn't get any worse,

so if you can sit at ten
and hold it,

then, you can do it alright.

So, I can hold the ten for a while.

Hang.

(GRUNTING)

(BLEEP)

I just give it my best shot and
deal with the pain afterwards.

It's a distraction isn't it?
A...

You know, you know it could,
could give at any time.

Total distraction but one thing
I, I tried to do

is distract the distraction
with another distraction.

So, that's for me,

I made the food
a really big point in my head.

I played on a trick on my brain that

um, I made the food a focal point
of my...

Suffering.
..to complain about.

I made that bigger than what it was

because I know it'd
take my mind away from my shoulder.

You going to throw it away?
Yeah, man.

(BLEEP), no way brother.
I'm just offering, do you want it?

Oh, if you're going to
throw it away, I'm eating.

Yeah, no way,
you cannot throw food away.

(SPEAKS FRENCH)

Oh, boss, even better for me.

In my food bowl every day
I would rim it out basically.

I, and I rim, I'd rim
Steffs out as well.

You know we got the bowl

and I would take every last piece
of food available.

Good.

I'll never waste food again
in my life

because you know
we take it for granted.

It taught me a big lesson but going
back to the last challenge.

That was the hardest challenge for
me but um it, it taught me a lot.

That was amazing mate.

Jana your lack of being able
to take oxygen in.

Yeah that was.
Blue lips.

That was not much fun.

Do you remember on
the combat assault course?

Yeah, yeah, that wasn't much fun.

Attack, let's go! Let's go,
let's go, let's go! All the way!

I'm so cooked!

Being an elite athlete
all your life,

you put a certain standard of
yourself

of where you think you are
athletically.

Get your, stand up.
Stand by.

You tested my ceiling level of
my athleticism

and it, that was
an extraordinary feeling

to get to that point.

Head up number four.
Number four, get in the game.

Do you remember collapsing?

Oh, I don't remember it
actually happening

but I remember seeing spots.

Head up, head up, head up.
Sorry.

Stand up. Stand up.
Stand up, stand up.

Stand up.
Stand up, stand up, stand up.

Realising I hit
my very low reserve level.

Open your eyes, stand up.

I didn't actually know I could take
myself to that level, and I wish...

It was amazing.

Yeah, I wish I could of done that
more.

I asked for a 100%
and you gave (BLEEP) a 110.

Don't quit on me again.
I was going, seeing stars.

Don't quit on me again,
I'll tell you now.

(JOHN SPEWING)

John, asthma.

I didn't know it was that bad.
I was just really cold.

Uh, it just became something
I had to deal with.

The cold air hit, hit my chest
and I just battled to breathe.

Let me down, let me down!

I had this Bergen
that weighed more than me

and I've turned into skin and bones

and because of the cold air,

my chest started closing in
and the harness closed my chest.

I gave Sam the walkie talkie,
I said go in and get me down!

And Sam's going no look around,
look around.

I tell you.

I said get me the (BLEEP) down.
I want to go down.

So, by the time I saw you Ollie.

No I tell you, do you know the first
thing that I thought

I thought he's (BLEEP)
got his head down.

He's having a nap.
You were like that.

You got down to the ground.

I was just about to come unhook you
and you're gone.

And I thought, (BLEEP) he's dead!

You alright, you alright?

Yeah.

What's up with you? You alright?
What's up with you?

Um, just asthma.
A bit exhausted.

Hold that.

It's a commendable effort,
you know to come on this

and then get to where you got and
well get to any stage of the course

and be dealing with asthma
as well so...

Well done, mate.
Thanks, Ollie.

Jessica,
what was your hardest task?

Ooo-uh.
I think we know that one, don't we?

We do, don't we Jess?

For me, toughest task was our...
the one that I completed with Dan.

Now let's go.
Let's go Jess.

We had to carry a casualty.

Walk together.

I knocked on the gates of hell

and I saw the grim reaper
like three times that day, staff.

Let's go, let's (BLEEP) go!
Let's go Jess, hurry up.

It's OK.

Come on! Come on,
come on arms, come on.

It's OK.

I got to about a 150m and I thought
my arms were going to fall off.

Stand up, stand up.
Stand up, seriously I got you.

I'm done. I can't do anymore, staff.

That's it.
Stand up, you got me.

Stand up!
I can't do anymore!

Stand up! Get up!

Come here,
come here, look at me.

I can't do anymore.

Look at me in the (BLEEP) eye...

There were a few tears.
A few?

A few.

It flooded the (BLEEP)
railway track.

Hey, get together, look at me.
We are not weak! You are not weak!

Yeah, it was hard.

I remember Dan
getting me face to face

and he just said you know
what are we doing this for?

We're doing this for our kids.

We're going to get this done.

We're not stopping when we're tired.
We're stopping when we're done.

Look at me in the eyes.

So that sort of gave me that last,
that bit of boost of strength

and yeah, I just envisioned seeing
my beautiful son

at that finish line

and that's what got me there

and I think I've always sort of
always questioned

my own capabilities.

That's been something
that's held me back a lot in life.

Never thinking that I was
good enough.

You know I now know that I'm,
I'm capable of anything

if I put my mind to it
and I believe in myself

and you know if there's one thing
I'm going to take away

from this experience is that I can't
use no longer in my vocabulary.

Good.
I'm super proud of myself you know

and I, I think my son's going to be
um proud of his mum.

You know what?
You were amazing.

Honestly that was amazing.

And you got through that
and fair play to Dan.

Yep.

Talk about a team member.

That was the best team motivation as
a pair that we saw on this course.

That was amazing Dan.

He ultimately helped you
get through that.

He did.

Your determination, amazing.
Different person.

Thank you, staff.

You're going to make me cry.

On a different level.

I've been a bit of a victim
to my past,

but throughout this journey
I feel like I'm a new person.

That was a rebirth for you that day.
Oh, it was.

I saw you die, but I saw you
grow so much in that day.

Yeah. Oh thank you, staff,
that means a lot.

Thanks Dan.
Yeah, no worries.

The DS saw potential in me.

Well done, Jessica.
Thank you.

And they continue to see
things in me

that I have failed to see in myself
but I do now.

Mentally the psychological side
of the whole course is intriguing.

Why are you here?

I want to go back to my family
the best version I can.

I was forced to quit and I don't
want to be forced to quit again.

I've lost it all.

You start learning more
about yourself,

about how you want to change things
moving forward in your life

for the better.

I'm a perfectionist.

Like I know you can't achieve
perfection but I aim for that

and I expect everyone around me
as well.

The best thing for you to do
is to be present here.

You'll learn an awful lot
about yourself I reckon.

I think the DS saw me
as a human being.

They didn't really care about
my indiscretions, my career.

There's no in between with people
like us and you're one of us.

They look straight at the person,
the person who I am,

they look into my soul and see
what courage and character I have.

Be prepared to be knocked back
a step and go again.

Think of those people that are
doubting you.

Let them be your motivation.

What could I have done better?

'Cause that way you're always
bettering yourself.

I kind of feel like
I've found my purpose, you know?

Yeah.
I'm feeling peace.

Yeah, that's good, man.

Well, that's what you're meant to do
here.

It's just a great lesson in life,

whether you've got to go through
14 days of pain to get there,

but it's, it's worth it at the end.

One which is huge for me
is, is sacrifice.

We signed the dotted line to give
the ultimate sacrifice

for our queen and country,

for each other,
for the job that we do.

When you're willing to give
the ultimate sacrifice,

i.e. yourselves,
there's no task too big,

how much are you willing
to sacrifice

in order to get the job done?

You know time away from your loved
ones, time away from your children,

time away from what,
whatever it may be.

That's sacrifice in itself.
Mark, sacrifice?

To be honest,

the one who was most excited was my
wife for me to come because she...

Get rid of you for two weeks.

Yeah.

You're a 100% right,
probably what it is.

She's got only two kids
to take care of, instead of three.

Um, the toughest thing was, was not
communicating with them you know.

Then actually I kind of
got used to it

and then you gave us
the second last day,

a video call where we actually spoke
to and I broke down.

Like...

Hey guys (CRYING)
WIFE: Hi, my love.

I miss you.

You guys, Daddy's OK,
he's just, is, misses you guys.

SON: Daddy, I miss you.
I miss you too.

It really affected me,

where I had to snap myself out of it
cause I got into the comfort zone.

I had just, you've been here,
it's almost done.

You know you got,
you get to see them in two days.

Just put them behind you, you know.

So it was a very,
it was a beautiful moment

but it's kind of almost screwed me
at the same time.

You got through it right?
Yeah.

And you used it.

And you used it right?
I did, I did.

And some of you use your emotions
to get through the course

and some of you cut yourself off
from your, your emotions.

And I suppose John
you're a prime example of that

with your phone call home.

Where you just completely
cut it off, didn't you?

Yeah, I wasn't doing it.

Yeah.
No chance.

Talk us through that.

Towards the back end, last two days,
I got extremely emotional.

Just sat down and saw the phone,

and I saw the display pic
and I saw my kids

and I just thought nah,
I couldn't handle it.

I thought, no, that's not it.

I'm going to give you a couple of
minutes to speak to your loved ones.

Make sure you press
the camera button

in the centre of those three, yeah?

Hey. What, what do you want to do?
Talk to me.

No thanks. No thank you.
OK.

I'm focused.

And when I was an athlete.
I never wanted distractions.

I just wanted to focus on
what I was doing

and I'll enjoy the good times
afterwards.

I sort of felt like,
that's my private life,

and my emotions are my emotions

and that's the one little bit
I've got left is that for me.

So, I, I just didn't, I just didn't
feel like I wanted to share that

and I'll go home
and I'll do it when I get home

and show them my love
and share that with them.

This course is designed to see
how you deal with that.

How you process it
and how you learn from it.

Anyone else find the sacrifice hard?
Yeah, Jessica?

Yeah.

I think the greatest sacrifice a
person can you know ever make

is one where they're away
from their kids.

So, I definitely found it comforting
that there was a lot of other mums

um, on the course with me
and you know there were times

where we really confided
in one another

and spoke openly about our kids

and it made the experience
a lot easier to deal with.

I think it's empowering as well to,
to show other women

that you know just because you,
you are a mum, life doesn't stop.

That we can continuously
keep pushing ourselves.

Absolutely.

Yeah, it's not only women.

Sorry, sorry well...

No it's true, no because to
be honest with you,

I went home and I realised
how selfish I've been sometimes

thinking of my career.
My success. What I want to do.

I want to be on S...

I remember when I said to my wife,
I want to be on SAS,

she said don't be a (BLEEP) wit.

And I'm like I'm going to
do this shit.

I'm going to be a (BLEEP) wit.

And, and yeah I,
I went back to work.

I went back to my businesses.
I went back to my family,

I'm like I, I've been selfish.
I just wanted to be here.

Jana you had a bit of a wobble
after we spoke about our regrets,

didn't we?
We did.

We said you know what do we regret
in life or you know

is there something that we could...

What are you ashamed of?
Yeah, ashamed of.

In my final year of medical school,

I budgeted what I thought was
I budgeted well for, my family.

As a single mum with three kids
to get through medical school

and then found myself unable
to pay the mortgage, unable to pay,

put food on the table for three kids

because I decided
to chase success again.

I think that was such a vulnerable,
open moment for us

to really discover
why we're here in all truth

and why we shouldn't be here in,
in other aspects as well.

And I've often prioritised success
and dreams and chasing big goals

and realising that sometimes people
get dragged on that journey

with you.

Anyway I realised I have
a beautiful family at home,

a beautiful life

and then maybe my biggest challenge

was actually to go
and be with my kids

rather than chase this dream of,
being in a SAS,

selection course recruit.

My kids grew up where
I was on a war path all their lives.

I never (BLEEP) saw them.
They didn't know where I was.

They'd watch the news every night
and think,

(BLEEP) hell, is that my dad?

You know and but to me,
I was doing it for a good reason.

Not just for me.

I was doing it to make the world
a better (BLEEP) place

with what I was doing, you know?

Well I look back on it now

and I think, oh, I could of spent
more time at home.

And I'm trying to make up
that time now.

So, it's about
what's the greater gain?

You know you're going to go back a
better person for your family

and for you.
Exactly that.

So, as long as you've got that on
your mind

and you're doing it for
the right reasons.

Then it's, it's (BLEEP)
worth a sacrifice.

Number 16.

Sam joins an exclusive club.

You have successfully passed
this course.

Thank you, staff.

It was one of the hardest decisions
I think we've ever had to be honest.

This course will not be
for most of you.

You've got three outs.

One you VW, you voluntarily withdraw
yourself from the course.

You take your number off
and you hand it to one of the DS.

It's a posh way of saying, I quit.

Two, we will (BLEEP) you off.
We will cull you.

You're just not good enough.
You're too weak.

The third out,
is that you complete this course.

In the last course,
three people passed.

I'll be shocked if three of you
pass this course.

Passing our selection process,

it was a hard decision,
wasn't it, from the DS?

Yeah, it was one of the hardest
decisions I think we've ever had,

to be honest.

'Cause we had, John, Mark and Sam
at the end there

and Jana you just left
just before that.

With Jana it was like,

we were tearing our teeth out
really, weren't we?

You just give everything and more,
you had nothing else to give

and you put your balls on the line,
lady balls as well.

It was amazing.

Well done, well done.

It was a complete roller coaster
of anxiety.

Let's go, come on!

To incredible accomplishments...

..I've learned I'm stronger than
I thought was in certain things.

I've never ever seen
a woman do that.

You're my first!

That I also have some
vulnerabilities

that I wasn't expecting.

Oh, embarrassing.

Particularly, as it got tougher and
tougher and tougher towards the end.

Go faster, faster, let's move!

Eventually I gave everything
I had.

I pushed as hard as I could.

So, I don't feel like I've left
anything on the ground.

You deserve this, you deserve this.
I, I'm giving everything.

Come on! Give it everything
and more then.

Yeah, it was just extraordinary.

Alright absolutely, legendary.

Thank you.
Brilliant. Absolutely brilliant.

How about you John?

What was it like being there
at the end?

You having completed the course.

When you said it was over it was a
big relief that the course was done.

This was totally out of
my comfort zone.

The anxiety was at 10,000 every day.

Everything left!

The course breaks you down,

not only physically, but mentally,
emotionally.

But to be able to complete it
was really cool.

That's why I came on the course,

to see if I can still go
the way I used to as an athlete.

Move, move, move!

And I'm walking away humbled,
stronger...

..and walking away with
a different mind-set.

(JOHN YELLS)

I didn't miss my goal
and I'll jog on a happy man.

And Mark, to be honest,

I was like how the (BLEEP)
is number 11 still here, right?

My goal coming in here was,
I wanted to complete the course.

And I honestly felt
I had the mind-set.

Roller coaster, physically,
emotionally, psychologically.

It was incredible.

Please let them know Daddy's
always there by their sides.

I came here to better myself,

to upgrade myself and my goal
is go back a better father,

a better husband,
a, a better son, a better friend.

You've achieved that?
A 100%.

This is, without a doubt
changed my life.

I said at the beginning
and I don't say it to scare you.

I don't say it to put you off.

It is literally most of you,
will not pass this course.

For those of you that passed
selection, i.e. Sam.

What's your biggest learning
from it?

I mean, passing the course I put
myself at the end before I started

and then I figured out...

Well I tried to figure out
what would get me there.

Go!

(BLEEP)

As painful as it was.

(BLEEP) I've got you, staff.

I had a wonderful experience.

Early on during the course I tried
to teach my brain to love the hate.

(GUNSHOTS)

Stop! Stop!

Whilst having some fun
throughout the tough moments.

I loved it.

I've delved as deep as I've ever
done into my own personal downfalls,

my insecurities.

Two days after I retired,
I separated my marriage.

Yeah.

My weaknesses, my strengths,
made myself more aware of who I was.

This course was a great platform
to do that.

To see where you can go mind
and body.

I wanted to give you guys respect
coming here and do it justice.

I respect you four men.

To what you guys have done,

um pretty, you're all impressive
in your own right.

Sam. Amazing. You were just
that level above everyone.

You know I would of loved to pass
all three of you,

even all four of you.

But unfortunately you can thank Sam
for...

Your amazing.

..for you know just tipping
that scale and hats off to you mate.

Oh, thanks.

You know, especially with coming in,
taking it seriously,

hats off to the people that came in
and took it seriously.

It's been an absolute pleasure
meeting every one of you.

You know, some we've known
for longer than others

but it's been an, an amazing
experience for us well.

Keep pushing outside that,
that comfort zone

because that's where the growth is.

Well done.

To even like consider coming on this
is a ballsy move,

cause you know you've all
got profiles

and to come out on this and expose
yourselves like you do

and you have done is a testament to
your courage and yourself really.

I know you've come on here
and a few of you like had self-doubt

but you believed in yourself
to come through those gates,

so hats off to you there.

Unbelievable. And then everyone
that's finished at different stages.

You've done it to the best of
your ability.

So, for me I'm impressed
with everyone to be fair.

Every single one of you have stepped
through that gate.

You're all (BLEEP) winners if you
want to call it winners.

All of you.

This course was an absolute pleasure

so thank you everyone so much,
all of you.

Sam.

Congratulations, mate.

Absolutely outstanding effort.

I think I learned more
in three days

than in two years of (BLEEP) therapy

trying to get over all my shit,
you know?

(INDISTINCT CHATTER AMONGST EVERYONE)