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Marnie is very sick.

She has shown no signs of neurological improvement and is

still ventilator-dependent.

Is it in Marnie's best interests to continue ventilation or not?

Let's stay on holiday for a bit longer, eh?

Please don't assume Marnie's story is going to be any less beautiful.

It'll just be different.

Marnie, honey, can you do that again, please?

Can you squeeze my hand?

She's going to get better.

You could come to the hospital, if you like?

I'll be better here.

I'm here on behalf of Every Christian Life.

We're here to help.

I think we should consider ending it, the treatment.

I have been fighting for her all my life!

Just me! Not you!

That's just not true. Well, prove it, then!

They say she's in a lot of pain! She is still your child!

Yes! Yes, she is!

Dad, don't go. Don't leave me here.

This is going to be a fight, Nicci.

All we want is to save Marnie's life.

Then, yeah...

..I'm ready.

This programme contains strong language and some scenes which some viewers may find upsetting

So, your line about the marriage is that

"it's a private matter for my husband and I."

Right.

And when they say, "Why does he want her dead and you don't?"

Well, Nihal, he won't say that.

He's excellent.

Right, well, if he hints at it?

Well, then you just hint back that your husband is, in fact,

an arsehole.

Look, whenever it gets hard, just think about Marnie, all right?

That'll get you through. They get a tight 20, then we've got to

get straight off to the solicitor, OK?

Right, tight 20.

Got it.

PRESENTER: Now, over to Laura with the travel.

What's happening with the roads, Laura?

OK?

Hi. Brenda. Nice to meet you. Nihal. Hi.

Hi. Hi.

We've got 45 seconds of travel peace. Oh, right.

It's a pleasure to have you here.

OK, headphones on, if you want them.

Not necessary if not.

Just talk to me. The more casual, the better.

Oh, we're just going to go straight into it?

Yeah. Be yourself. You'll be great.

You'll be great.

It's 7:34.

We're joined this morning by Nicola...

It's Nicci. Uh, Nicci Lloyd,

who is mother to Marnie, who is currently in hospital

and extremely poorly.

Yeah, my daughter has a rare neuromuscular disorder.

She was diagnosed when she was six months old.

And she's 13 now?

Yeah. They-they... they kept telling us she was going to die at two,

four, seven, erm...

..when she was 10, 12.

Now 13.

But she's... she's a strong girl.

You're currently in a dispute with the hospital about the best form

of future care for her?

Well, I think "care" is a kind word for it.

They want to switch off her machines and we want to keep them on.

PHONE BUZZES

CALL DISMISSED CLICK

Hello?

Oh. I've got the wrong place.

Possibly.

My handwriting's awful.

I wrote down 23, but it could equally likely be 33.

Sorry, who are you looking for?

Are you Caitlin Lloyd?

Yeah. Um, Katie.

I'm Greg from Children and Family Legal Services.

Here to talk about Marnie.

I had an appointment with Nicola at 10:00.

Right. Uh...

Yeah, Mum's not good at appointments right now.

Come in. I'll phone her.

Thank you.

So, what are you assessing?

How best to represent Marnie in court.

You're my sister's lawyer? No, not a legal.

I'm a social worker.

The court has appointed me to look after Marnie's welfare.

I sit in court and look after her best interests.

Isn't that our job?

Well, of course,

but the court feels that Marnie should have her own voice.

Your mum talks about her feelings.

Your dad talks about him.

The hospital talks about them.

And I speak to everyone and try to look out for what's best for Marnie.

I'm not AGAINST anyone.

I'm FOR Marnie.

Right, I'll phone her again.

PHONE RINGS

Hey. Are you OK?

Mum, there's a man here to see you from the child legal service thing.

A social worker?

Oh, sh...

Shite.

Um...

I forgot.

Where are you? Er...

I've got... I've got a lawyer thing, and then a TV thing.

A TV thing?

Yeah, it's ridiculous, I know.

Do you want me to speak to him, make it less embarrassing?

No, I'll handle it. Go be a TV star.

CALL DISCONNECT TONE

Everything OK?

Yeah. Yeah.

So, er, could we get you a drink?

Coffee, tea, water, flavoured water?

Er... No, I'm fine.

This is Derek.

Derek's your barrister, and Derek is great.

It is an honour to be involved in this case.

Thank you.

So, what we're doing is building our case from the excellent

medical history you've provided, Nicci.

The hospital has power on its side.

The white coat - even unworn - gives credibility.

So, our role is to promote our alternative hypothesis

that the prognosis they have given was based on poor judgment,

and to propose that alternative treatments are still a possibility.

Right, you think you can show they did a bad job?

We believe we can suggest a bias in the treatment Marnie has received,

particularly from Samantha Woodham.

We're looking for moments when her medical judgment

may have been clouded.

If we can show that, we can show that similar doubt

must be applied to this case.

Anything and everything that you've got in that regard

would be most useful.

And there is some urgency with the court date approaching.

Samantha's a good doctor, though...

No-one's denying that.

And we've had some wonderful responses in terms

of alternate treatments for Marnie.

And we're still circling to find the right doctor to help us...

You haven't found anyone yet?

Well, it takes time, Nicci.

Oh...

PHONE RINGS

Um, it's the hospital. I...

Hello?

I'm on my way.

Do you think you'll win, Nicci?

How's Marnie? Can you give us a comment, please?

Can... can you not, please?

Any change in her condition? Have you seen her?

Can I just go and see my daughter? Thank you.

BUZZER

Thank you.

Journalists are outside.

Yeah. I know.

Can't we do better than this?

I'm going to go in.

Is she OK? Doctor's on her way.

Hey, Marnie. Hey, petal.

Hey, you don't look too bad.

Marnie had a reaction to one of the drugs we had her on.

We've given her some steroids and a dose of adrenaline

and she seems to have settled.

What did you put her on?

It was a reaction to the new antibiotics we've been trying.

She's out of danger.

Right.

I am... I've been...

..aware of what you've been saying on the radio, and...

..I just wanted to say that I'm sorry we weren't able

to provide a care that you...

For what it's worth, I've always cared deeply about Marnie.

DOOR OPENS

What... what's happening?

Just a small reaction.

She'll be back to how she was soon.

Chill-out room.

I need some stuff to cover the chairs and stuff.

That, that... Yeah.

Coat room. Can I do coats?

You're not going to be here at all.

Hang on a minute, Katie.

OK, so I want everything cleared out of here.

Ah... Well, we might not be able to clear out EVERYTHING.

It's got to be a dance floor, Dad.

Well, what do you want gone?

The television. Mm.

These cabinets. Yeah.

The sofa. Ugh...

Well, the cabinets and the telly might be possible,

but I'm not sure the sofa will be.

But it's the biggest thing, Dad.

Yeah, that's exactly the problem.

If we could just put it in the kitchen.

It could be quite cool in the kitchen.

Well, it needs to clear the doors, that's the problem.

It's not enough space otherwise.

All right. Well, I'm sure you'll manage.

Hey. You can't not invite your sister to your party.

I think none of you should be here.

It'll be OK. We'll...

I don't mind.

She can be in your room, if you want more people waiting and watching.

But I think you'll be better going out, the whole lot of you.

Go bowling.

We COULD go bowling.

It's my birthday.

She's going to your party, and we're supervising,

and that's the end of the discussion.

So, I don't have a significant life?

Just a significant sister?

Katie, come on. You're being a child.

I AM a child! And I don't want her here!

POP MUSIC PLAYS

I really like you.

What?

Happy birthday.

Yeah.

Good party.

Sure.

Sorry. My mum and dad are here.

Oh. Uh, right.

I just have to...

Sure. See you.

DOORBELL RINGS

Hi. Hi. Can I come in?

Yeah, yeah, come on in.

Um... I have tea, I think.

The milk is... possibly off.

I can have black tea.

The milk is my fault.

Hello, Uncle Tom. How do?

It's the way the French do it.

Although I believe they use lemon. I don't have lemon.

I've got Jif lemon.

For pancakes.

Uh, yeah, just... just black tea is fine.

Oh. OK, I'm, um...

..I'm going to go out... Right.

..erm... get some milk.

OK.

I may be some time. Right.

Don't let him... Don't let him tidy up.

Everything's there for a reason, OK? I won't.

Yeah, OK.

Bye.

How are you getting on?

Yeah. I'm fine.

One of the most expressive words in the English language.

"How were your exams, Katie?" "Fine."

"How's that nasty friend of yours doing now?"

"Fine."

"How's that graze on your knee."

"Fine."

Which nasty friend?

Ah... I want to say Marcia?

The one who bullied you, you remember.

Marcia?

Do you mean Natalie? Ah.

Do you think you, um, sent me to a school where I might meet a Marcia?

HE LAUGHS

No. Hmm.

Erm...

Thank you. Ow, ow, ow...

Inside? Yeah.

I saw your mum.

At the hospital earlier.

Did you have a nice chat?

No.

Um...

When my mum died...

That's a big when.

Not allowed?

Ah, when she died...

..uh, she said two things to me.

She said,

"If I'd known giving up cigarettes would have got rid of this cough,

"I'd have done it years ago."

So, this is an anti-smoking thing now?

And, um...

..the second thing she said was...

..that I was just like my dad.

I would never reach my full potential...

..because I'm feckless with my own intelligence.

I can't remember the exact phrasing.

I know it contained the word "feckless".

OK, your tea?

Yeah. Tastes a bit, um...

..washing-up-liquidy.

Um...

It's kind of a dark thing to say, isn't it, "feckless"?

My mum felt she had a responsibility to be the guardian

of other people's failings. Oh.

She thought she was helping me.

She wanted to use that moment of her own death...

..to teach me.

So, what did you do?

With the advice? Mm.

I went out and got shit-faced.

And then, um, I sobered up.

And then I...

..got your mum pregnant,

and then I married her.

Got a job...

..that I didn't care about.

Lived a life.

OK.

That's really depressing.

No, no. Not really, because...

Here's the thing.

I loved...

I have loved...

I have loved her, your mum...

..more than I expected to.

And I have loved you

more than I could ever have hoped to.

And I loved Marnie...

..absolutely.

And I think that's an achievement. I mean, not one that my mum,

my mother - she hated the word "mum" - would have understood.

But an achievement... all the same.

And I think what I'm doing

and what I'm saying now...

..is an act of love.

I just needed... to explain that to you.

Did you?

You're disappointed?

Yeah.

Why?

I'm not... I'm not going to back the hospital or embarrass your mum.

I'm just going to say my piece in court...

I mean, if you frame a thought with self-pity,

it seems manageable, right?

Your mum was an arsehole.

So what?

I was giving a context.

You were giving an excuse.

It's what all your generation does.

"I'm not racist, but if you could understand

"where I come from, you'd understand my racist thoughts."

"I'm not transphobic. I'm not homophobic."

I'm not racist or transphobic or homophobic...

Dad, it was your job to love us.

It was your job to be around.

It was your fucking job.

Honestly, so many men - and you see it all the fucking time -

congratulate themselves for being, like, family men.

What does that mean? That they provide?

They don't fuck around? I mean, that's not an achievement.

Yes, but...

You know, this may be an act of love,

but you performed it in a cowardly way.

You just ran. You didn't fight.

What, you wanted World War III?

If you believe something, isn't it better to argue for it?

I was pretty clear about how I felt.

I was trying to not make a situation worse.

So, you just left her and me,

without us really understanding what it meant for us?

No, no... That makes it sound like I abandoned you.

Yeah, cos you did.

I don't give a shit

whether you reached your potential or not. I-I'm...

I'm not marking you.

I'm your daughter. It doesn't matter to me.

All I care about is, like, what you are to me.

I wasn't trying to excuse it. I shouldn't have talked about my mum.

You know what? Like... Dad, this was a test, and you failed it

when you left. I wasn't trying to excuse it. I don't actually feel

like I NEED to excuse it. You know it's a mess...

Dad, you can fuck off!

Marnie lives! And my job is to support Mum,

and actually try and survive.

So, your "love" has helped neither of those things.

Actually, you know what?

It's not my job.

It's actually not my job to support Mum, or you.

I'm supposed to be a fucking teenager!

So, fuck you for doing this to me!

I didn't. Marnie did.

That's interesting you chose to blame her.

I don't blame her. I...

I just acknowledge the fact.

I just acknowledge the fact that her condition...

..caused difficulty. You didn't say her condition, Dad.

You said her name. You're the one who can't visit her.

Yeah. I can't.

Right, so that makes me a dickhead, too. No, you're not...

Is that what you want me to say? No, you're not a dickhead.

Look, I love you and your sister very much.

Yeah, absolutely. You said you love Marnie absolutely.

And I know I haven't been perfect...

You let us down. Please don't do this.

Look, whatever you think, just... just talk about it.

Talk to Mum, and then you and Mum come to a decision,

and then you stand WITH us.

Please stand beside us.

But we disagree on the key decision,

the most important decision we have ever had to make.

And you can't... talk about that,

you can't rationalise it.

You... you can only feel it.

OK.

I'm going to go,

leave you to your feelings.

No, don't do... Don't do that!

Don't do that. Don't...!

DOOR SLAMS

HE SIGHS

TV PLAYS: It's like you say, when you don't have the support,

these things are made even harder. That can't have been easy.

NICCI: Yeah, well people think when you've a disabled daughter

that you're an object of pity.

Fuck off.

You know, they project their insecurities onto you.

But, really, being a parent of a disabled child...

No.

..it's the most beautiful job in the world.

Marnie, you know, she has her downs,

but her ups...

She's... You know, she's complicated, she's sparky,

she's annoying, she's difficult.

But, you know, she's, er... she's joyous.

I wouldn't have missed a single minute of it.

She sounds like a special lady.

Oh, yeah, she is.

Well, I'll tell her you said that.

She has at least one of your records.

Well, you know, she's heard at least one of your records.

Oh, she's a real fan, then.

Fuck off!

DOORBELL RINGS

Listen, I didn't mean...

Oh.

We fixed a time, didn't we?

Greg, from Children and Family Legal Services.

Uh, sorry. I...

..I thought you were someone else.

Maybe I could have a cup of tea?

Ah, there's a coffee truck across the road. Do you mind if...?

Not really supposed to do this in a public place.

But I guess if we walk and talk...

OK, I'll be two minutes.

Unusual, this.

Normally, I'm talking to parents together.

Yeah, I can imagine.

Um... Yeah, but there's no, um, legal...

I'm not... I'm not instructing a solicitor or...

Well, your evidence should be enough.

So, you want to tell me when you knew?

Sorry?

When you knew that you agreed with the hospital

as to what's best for Marnie.

Look, just to be clear, I don't want to turn this

into a me-and-my-wife thing.

You won't.

I'm proud of my marriage.

I'm proud of what we went through.

I'm just interested in your opinion.

It won't be a "he said, she said."

I won't be reporting this.

I couldn't see her any more.

I couldn't see...

..the things that made her... HER.

That's as simple as it gets, really, isn't it?

Are your parents still together?

No.

Did they have...

..different reactions?

To my disability? Yes.

My dad blamed my mum for taking thalidomide.

He wanted a kid he could play football with.

Of course, he could have played football with me.

I mean, I might not have been the best goalie, but otherwise...

However, that didn't occur to him.

So, you... Uh, you were one of the...

..um, thalidomide...? Mm.

Seems a long time ago now, doesn't it?

Easier, I think, when you've got something clear to blame it on.

When you're someone like my dad, that is. No, I get it.

Yeah, my brother has Asperger's.

I'm a bit older, so I was already working when he was diagnosed,

but I saw... some of it.

My dad just got shame mixed up with anger, that's all.

This doesn't have to be... shameful...

..for you.

That's my tuppence, anyway.

My disabled tuppence.

I'm sorry, is that...? Does everybody ask you about...?

Oh, plenty do.

And some are arseholes about it.

I only really talk about it if I feel somebody needs an answer.

OK. So, if you're able,

I'd like you to give me a brief medical history.

Of everything?

From year zero to now.

Well, I'm not sure I'll be able to. Nicci has all the files.

Ah, just your recollection should be enough.

My recollection?

Your story.

Of what happened to Marnie,

and to you.

Right, I don't care what anyone says. We've been on the outside

of this party all night.

We are hitting this dance floor.

We can do the... What's the one with the funny...?

We can do the cha-cha! The cha-cha?

The cha-cha. The cha-cha-cha...

You can do what you like, as long as I don't have to watch.

Why wouldn't you want to watch your father? I'll have you know

that in the '90s, he was known as "The Hips."

Ugh! Was I?

No, of course you weren't.

I'm just trying to ruin your daughter's evening.

It was the '90s. No-one danced properly in the '90s.

What? Everyone danced properly in the '90s!

Ah, if I could take you to the Hacienda, Katie.

I mean, when that place was going...

I can only imagine. Mwah!

I mean, if it was the Roses, you'd dance like this...

Really? If it was the Happy Mondays, you'd dance like this...

No, that's not right! No, it was more...

Like this... No! That's terrible!

Don't watch her.

Marnie, what do you think?

Have we embarrassed your sister enough?

Marnie?

Marnie? Honey?

Oh, Jesus.

She's burning up. Marnie.

You're OK, honey. You're OK, Marnie.

Just breathe.

OK. Mum's here. Mum's here.

Can you drive a bit faster?

Andrew.

It's all right, darling. It's all right. Shit!

I'll put some music on. We don't need music on.

MUSIC: Something Changed by Pulp

It's OK. Deep breath.

Deep breaths.

Fuck it. Bugger this.

We need some help!

We need some help here!

♪ Life could have been very different

♪ But then

♪ Something changed

♪ Do you believe

♪ That there's someone up above?

♪ And does he have...? ♪

MUSIC LEAKS FROM HEADPHONES

ANSWERPHONE: Hey, this is Nicci. Leave a message.

Wow, you're not even answering me now. That's...

That's a bit tight. Um...

Well, just to say...

..Katie came to see me, uh, today.

And, um...

Look, I don't know what you said to her, but we probably need

a rule in place that, um, says that we're not going to be

saying stuff about each...

That... that wasn't a thing. I was...

Oh...

INTERNAL RINGTONE

Hey, this is Nicci. Leave a message.

That wasn't a thing. That was just me dropping my phone.

Hey, this is Nicci. Leave a message.

Anyway, um, I think perhaps we should put, like,

a statute in place, you know?

"Thou shalt not make my child hate thee."

Something like that. Less Roman, obviously.

But, you know, that would be great.

INTERNAL RINGTONE

Hey, this is Nicci. Leave a message.

I really miss you.

And the girls.

I really miss you, and I...

..I don't know what I'm doing here. Am I part of a case?

Am I not? Am I...?

What am I?

PHONE BUZZES

SHE EXHALES

She's not going to die, is she?

Why... why would you say that?

I was mean to her and I didn't say sorry.

Come here.

You're not mean.

Don't think like that, OK?

Hey. Um...

She has an infection.

We've inserted a central line.

Unfortunately, an artery was perforated, but we are...

She is in surgery for vascular repair.

Right, well, that's not great, is it? No, erm...

No.

And I am sorry.

Investigations will happen.

But in the meantime, the important thing is that she is

in the best hands to fix this.

OK. Yeah.

She'll be fine. She'll be fine.

DANCE MUSIC PLAYS

Oh! Never vomit in a bin.

That requires you to look in the bin,

and looking in a bin is where the damage starts.

Top tip, that.

Are you OK?

Huh? Yeah, just dizzy.

Well, dizzy is good.

Are you selling Marnie's diazepam?

Look, don't do that.

Don't be that sort of a prick.

What, I'm the prick?

Oh, my God. My arse feels like it's spinning now, too.

Look, it seemed like an easy win.

An easy win with my sister's pills?

Look, I was going to cut you in.

Or spend it on you. Us.

She's in hospital, and we're selling her drugs?

Well, you were OK with me and you taking them.

Look, are you coming?

Cos we can go to the beach, or...

No, erm...

I'm just going to stay here.

Do you know what? Fuck it.

I don't want to be kissing you in that state anyway.

PHONE BUZZES

Hi. Hi. Um, where...

..where can we meet?

Hey, I've been trying... I've been trying to get hold of you.

Surely we should have spoken to a doctor by now.

Yeah, that can wait.

Erm, this is about Caitlin.

What about Katie? Yeah, um...

..it's all over Twitter. What...?

What's all over Twitter?

She was spotted in a nightclub.

Right, well, that's hardly crime of the century, is it?

Sorry, I know, but...

..they're saying that she has been stealing Marnie's drugs,

using them.

A so-called friend took a picture and put it on Twitter

with a very sanctimonious tweet.

How do I... how do I get on Twitter?

How does that work?

I can send you the picture.

But Marnie's name is on the packet and it's very visible, OK?

So... so we should meet now to talk about it.

Social media can be really difficult to handle, and I think that

what we need to do is just talk it... Oh, God.

No, it's fine, OK?

Listen, it's good, because she's underage,

so they can't print anything.

Yeah, but what... what about police? I mean...

Yeah, it's most likely going to be a theft charge.

But, I mean, you'll hardly prosecute, will you?

How do I get on fucking Twitter?

Oh, shit.

DISCONNECT TONE

PHONE RINGS

Oh, fuck.

Fuck! Shit!

PHONE RINGS

Yeah, she's not at home.

NICCI: You've seen the pictures?

Yeah, I saw.

She wasn't answering the phone, you weren't, so I came over here and...

..she's not here.

SHE SIGHS

I didn't know you were on Twitter.

Uh, I just...

Um, you know, Tim Burgess from The Charlatans started a thing

where we all listened to albums together, so...

OK. Look, what are they saying?

It's being used by people who disagree with

what you're saying, mostly. Arseholes.

You know, um...

"Can't even look after the well child," etc.

They're just doing it to get at you.

Just slinging mud.

Can you send me the photo?

Fine.

That's Hannah.

That's Hannah, she's dancing with Hannah.

KNOCK AT DOOR

BANGING

Nicci! Is Hannah here?

What?

I need to speak to your daughter. Why?

Why? Why would you stop me?

Where's Katie? Is this your mess?

Where is she?

Don't tell me you weren't involved in this. Because I've known you

since you were a little kid, so don't try and...

Hang on. I'm not sure I like this.

Look, it's just dicks being dicks, OK? Look, it'll blow over.

I knew it was you. I could fucking see it! I was just helping her

have a bit of fun. What, by stealing from her sister?!

Well, it's not like Marnie was going to use them, is it?

You are a disgrace.

Do you know that? She is a vulnerable kid. You are an adult,

and you should know better! Nicci, whatever this is, I'm sure...

She's vulnerable.

But you don't even know what and who she fucking is.

You've always been a little liar.

You're a spiteful little bitch! Oi! Oi!

Enough!

Nicci, you need to go. What?!

Do you know what she did?!

Katie is yours, Hannah is mine,

and I will not have you talk to her like that.

Yeah. Of course.

Sorry.

I didn't...

I'm sorry.

So, you WERE in the house? Alice didn't know.

Yeah, well, Hannah did.

Can you stop walking, Mum?

It was a girl called Tricia.

She's mostly OK, actually.

She just saw an opportunity to send a picture into the world

people would actually look at.

Did you...?

Did you do it? Did you take her medication? Did you sell it?

You've seen the pictures.

Yeah, I know, but I want to hear it from you.

Yeah.

Because Hannah asked you to?

No. Because I wanted to.

Well, do you know why?

No.

I've never liked her. Mum, it's not about that.

Telling me that I don't know you.

Yeah, well, you didn't know that I would do this. She doesn't even...

You know, she's so superior.

She doesn't even think I know you're gay.

No, erm...

Uh...

No, I suppose I didn't, erm,

know that... I just wanted you to be the one...

..to tell me.

I just wanted to wait until you were ready. That's all it was.

It felt like it should come from you, rather than me.

You know, I read a book about it, actually,

and I didn't want to be the one to force you...

..out. Right, you...

..you read about it, of course you did.

I need to say three things to you.

Mum, can we just please leave it? No, just...

I'm sorry. The first is that you're lovely.

OK? You are lovely. I'm...

You are one of the loveliest people I have ever met,

and that isn't fucking mum chat, OK?

That's just me being an excellent judge of character.

The second is that I'm so proud of you.

I know how difficult it is, what you've been through,

and I'm sorry for the part that I played in that... OK.

Dad gave me the speech already.

It was reckless, OK?

What you did was reckless. But Hannah's right,

it's not like Marnie was going to be needing it, and...

You know, it's not like your dad and I haven't ever taken drugs, so...

Oh, look, Mum, please don't do this.

No, look, the third thing...

..I want to say to you is that I love you.

And the one promise that I can make, the one promise I know I will keep,

is that whatever happens, whoever you become,

I will fight for you.

I will fight like a fucking tiger. Do you understand?

And I know I don't always notice things, and I know that

I haven't been there for you, and I'm sorry that I haven't,

but when it comes to it...

..you know, if I'm needed, I will fight.

You're not on the radio now, you know.

There's no-one to impress.

I mean it.

Can't you just be angry?

You know, normal parents would be angry.

I stole. I used. I was selfish.

Yeah, you're in pain.

No...! Oh, my God. Fuck that.

I actually just wanted to have fun.

I did a terrible thing, a horrible thing

because I wanted to have fun.

I AM angry.

Yeah, well, then... well, then say that.

Try that. Like, be honest for once.

And... and you're right, you know.

You..you haven't been there,

and I genuinely don't...

Like, I've always tried really hard not to hate you,

because you're my parents...

Right. ..and...

..and I know... I know you love me.

Mum, I know you mean some of what you've just said, but...

..we're really good at pretending in this house,

and... and hiding and being fucking, like...

I don't know.

This is about Marnie.

I love her and I miss her, and...

Fuck the two of you for making it about you.

DOOR OPENS

Hey. Hey.

Uh, I was just about to make some beans for myself,

but I wasn't sure if... I'll do it.

No, I can make them. I can do it. OK.

I love you. We love you.

And I'm sorry you've got tangled up in all this mess.

Andrew, it's maybe not the time to...

I think I'm just going to, um...

Do you mind if I just go to bed?

No. No, not at all.

Look, I... Look, I just want to say

that it's important for you to know how much I love you.

We love you. You said that.

Whatever you do.

Whatever you say.

Whoever...

..you are.

OK. Night.

I shouldn't follow, right? She understands...

That you love her? Yeah.

Yeah, I think she got that message.

Is she OK?

No.

Can I help?

I don't know.

I got your answerphone messages.

Epic, weren't they?

Yeah. Some of your finest work there.

How much did you have to drink?

Hangover was awful.

I bet you went cheap on the wine.

Well, they made me smile.

She's so embarrassed.

I swear to God, if we've done her damage...

No, she's strong, our daughter.

Both our daughters are strong.

They get that from you.

She's really angry with us.

Well, I'm angry, too. Aren't you? I wanted to be with you.

I wanted to be with you, too.

They made you smile?

The messages made you...?

Yeah.

Well, they made me sad, too.

I'd better go. Well, I've not finished...

I think that...

..once they're ready, I don't think I could bear leaving again.

Personal limits. Heart strain. You know, that sort of thing.

There's a doctor from America.

Thinks he can help her. Treat her.

Right.

Yeah, I mean, they haven't connected me with him yet,

but they're... they're quite excited.

Right. That's exciting.

Right, so you're just as dismissive, then?

No.

There's always a doctor, you know,

generally from America or Italy,

somewhere where there's a...

..Christian population, who'll treat your kid, you know?

And they all always promise the world.

Well, sometimes they deliver.

Sometimes miracles happen.

Marnie's already been a miracle.

Tell Katie that I love her.

Don't waste the... beans.

Just... put them in Tupperware or something.

I love you most of everyone in the whole world.

I love you that much, too.

THEY LAUGH

No, Katie.

I need you to know that.

I love you more than Mum, Dad...

Everyone.

And, you know, I don't mind...

..if you hate being my sister.

I don't mind.

Can we just turn this off?

Been a while.

I, um...

I brought some things to change your room a bit.

Now, it is my old one, but...

..I put some new songs on there.

SPEAKER BEEPS

You haven't heard this one yet.

You'll like it.

MUSIC: Running by Pip Millett feat Ghetts

You always liked this poster.

But I, um...

..I took it down and I wouldn't let you have it, cos...

..I'm a dick.

DOOR OPENS

Oh. It's a party.

Oh. Is it OK?

Of course it is. I just need to take readings.

I recognise him.

Uh, yeah, it's Daniel Kaluuya.

I kind of, um...

Well, we both really like him.

Nice eyes. Wish he'd smile more.

No-one smiles any more.

Do they not?

This is hard on you.

It's hard on you, too.

Katie...

..however you feel about what your parents are doing,

it's not about picking sides.

Of course it is.

And I'm on Marnie's side.

Her best interests.

That's what they say, isn't it?

I never had a sister.

Oh, sisters are brilliant.

Yeah.

Well, most of the time.

DOORBELL RINGS

Hey. Hi. Come in.

Thanks for coming over so late.

Thanks for finally calling back.

Do you want wine? Uh, no.

Um...

If this was me, and I realise it's not, um...

..I think what we need is for Katie, whatever the truth of it,

coming out and saying strongly, "This wasn't me.

"It didn't happen."

Do you have kids?

Yeah.

Uh, two boys, seven and 11.

Where are they now?

Well, I left them at home with the chip pan on the stove.

They'll be all right, won't they?

No, they're, uh... they're with their dad.

We're divorced.

Yeah, and I haven't been excommunicated.

I know. I'm... I'm driving.

Stick your head above the fence and people will throw stones,

and they will throw stones at people you love.

And I'm sorry about that.

But the fight will be worth it.

Samantha's a good doctor.

This isn't about whether she's good or not.

This is about establishing that medicine is about opinions

and not just facts.

There's lots of decisions, I think, that have been made for Marnie

along the way that have caused problems.

But the only genuine mistake I can think of...

..she, uh, she fitted a central line when Marnie had an infection

and she perforated an artery.

She perforated an artery?

Yeah, I mean it was fine, you know, in the end.

But... it was a problem.

Do you have a date?

Yeah.

May 24th, 2016.

It was Katie's birthday.

Do you think that'll help?

Well, I mean, it sounds pretty deadly to me.

Sometimes the law presents us with cases of extreme complication.

This is one such case.

What is in the child's best interests?

But applying it is very difficult.

Because that notion of best interests has such complexity.

I do not believe that anyone in this room

does not have this child's best interests in their heart,

and yet a decision has to be made as to what is in her best interests.

I ask that we handle this case with the delicacy it warrants.

That does not mean soft-soaping matters.

We tell the truth, we challenge what we believe to be untruths.

But we do so knowing the gravity that such a decision entails,

and knowing that, above all else, we must keep the child,

we must keep Marnie Lloyd at the forefront of our minds at all times.