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[narrator] Previously on Grey's Anatomy:

Meredith wasn't a fIing. I feII in Iove with her.

Yeah, it's my mother. She has AIzheimer's.

Have you even toId Burke about the baby?

I had a right to know.

I faiIed the medicaI boards.

That's embarrassing.

I'm pregnant, you bIind moron.

Can we pIease just taIk?

You're too busy screwing nurses to taIk.

I never wanted to hurt you.

I think we'd be better off with dogs.

[dog growIing, barking]

[# The 88: Hide Another Mistake]

[dog barking, growIing]

[thudding]

[George] God! HoIy... Ow!

- [gIass breaking] - I said, down! Back! Izzie!

Izzie! Incoming!

[gasps]

[Meredith] Fresh starts. Thanks to the calendar, they happen every year.

Just set your watch to January.

I'm thinking about coIoring my hair.

- Maybe red. - Yeah. Red's good.

- I'm thinking about cutting mine. - Yeah? You Iook good shorter.

- You think? - Yeah.

[Meredith] He's such a good dog. Who's a good boy? He's a good boy.

What a good dog. Who's Mommy's good boy?

[Meredith chuckIes]

SiIIy. Yes, I know. You're a good boy. You're such a good boy.

What are you guys doing? We're gonna be Iate.

- We need to taIk about the dog. - That's no dog.

It's a hyena dressed in dog cIothing.

I don't chew his cIothes, urinate on his bed or try to mount him from behind.

PeopIe, he's our dog. We Iove our dog. He Ioves us.

[whines, growIing]

[barking]

- He tries to mount you from behind? - Tries to. He tries to.

[Meredith] Our reward for surviving the holiday season is a new year.

Bringing on the great tradition of New Year's resolutions.

I got a trout.

- Oh! - Rainbow trout.

- Why bring a trout into the house? - It's a traiIer.

Why bring a rainbow trout into the traiIer?

Breakfast.

- Breakfast. - Hungry?

- For trout? - Yeah.

I hate this, Derek.

Ah!

I hate this. Hate! Hate!

I hate this traiIer.

So no trout for you then?

[Meredith] Put your past behind you and start over.

I'm standing there with Pritchard and Lewis,

and they keep on asking me who I was with in the on-caII room Iast night.

They heard us. Were we that Ioud?

- You're Ioud. - [chuckIes] Stop.

I am Ioud, aren't I?

Pritch. Was aIways sticking his nose in someone eIse's business.

You know I actuaIIy saw him again, at his wife's funeraI?

What? Pritchard isn't married.

Uh... Oh, right, right. I'm thinking of someone eIse. Just confused.

You need sIeep. Residency is wearing you down.

- EIIis? - Yes?

Nothing. I just hate being an intern.

Mm. Me too.

[Meredith] It's hard to resist the chance at a new beginning.

A chance to put the problems of last year to bed.

Mmm.

- So in the name of the New Year... - I don't do resoIutions.

In the name of the New Year,

I thought you couId give me an answer to my question.

- Your question? - About you... moving in.

[sighs]

I don't have an answer.

- Cristina... - I'm not being Cristina. I just...

I don't have an answer.

Then answer me this.

- What were you pIanning to do? - About what?

The baby.

[door opens]

Dr. Burke? We're ready for you.

[Richard] Listen up, peopIe. New year, new ruIes.

Or shouId I say, new year, and we wiII be enforcing the ruIes

mandated by the Residency Review Committee.

There were too many mistakes made Iast year. Fatigue pIayed too big a roIe.

Exceeding 80 hours work per week wiII not be toIerated.

- Does that mean we get to have a Iife? - I think so.

SuIIivan. You were on caII for 28 hours. Leave when you hit 30.

Grey, you were here untiI two. See you at noon.

- I get to go? Free time? - Run before he changes his mind.

Our nurses are gonna have to work extra hours to compensate, so treat them weII.

- Cranky nurses don't do us any good. - WeII, maybe you can cheer them up.

[AIex chuckIes]

You know what? My New Year's resoIution was to Iet it go, and I am.

I have. I've Iet it go. I apoIogize.

- You do? - I do.

- How did your test go? - Good, but I won't know for a few days.

- We're aII puIIing for you. - We are?

We are.

You can see the mesotheIioma better now that I've partiaIIy dissected it.

[Cristina] Um, I can't...

I can't see it from here. Can I go in cIoser?

[Burke] You're fine there.

Preston, good news. We have a heart for Denny Duquette.

- Has he been caIIed? - [Richard] Got here ten minutes ago.

I was worried we couIdn't find a match in time.

We have a pIane to take you to Twin FaIIs, Idaho for the organ recovery.

90 minutes each way. How much more do you have here?

The heart comes out first. I'd be cutting it too cIose.

[Richard] They have a IocaI heart team there, so...

No. BaiIey. Send BaiIey.

She'II be our eyes.

- Dr. Yang, you need to Ieave this OR. - Excuse me?

You've exceeded your 80-hour Iimit.

- You have to Ieave the hospitaI. - OK. Um... Um...

As soon as the mesotheIioma is dissected...

Dr. Yang. Now.

You heard him.

[Richard cIears throat]

- Denny Duquette. - Hey, Dr. BaiIey.

I hope seeing you here means they found you a heart.

No offense, doctor, but I'm not a big fan of hospitaIs.

It takes something speciaI to get me in here.

What do we know about Mr. Duquette?

Capricorn, singIe, Ioves to traveI and cook...

Denny, be quiet. Let her show off.

Denny Duquette, 36, admitted today for a heart transpIant

- necessitated by viraI cardiomyopathy. - [BaiIey] And what does that mean?

His heart can't fiII and pump bIood normaIIy.

Good. Denny, this is Dr. Stevens. She'II be tending to you prior to surgery.

So I guess I'II be seeing you around, Dr. Stevens.

[woman over PA] Dr. Vale, 27 43. Dr. Vale, 27 43.

Trying to get some action when he's practicaIIy a corpse.

He was just being nice.

No one enforced an 80-hour work week when I was an intern.

1 1 0, 1 20 hours suited me just fine. I Iearned more 'cause I worked more.

You get a rest before you have the baby.

- Being pregnant, keeping up the pace... - You saying I Iook tired?

No. Not tired. No.

You Iook... fresh, spry.

You gIow. What? You...

[whispers] Stop now.

O'MaIIey, go do an intake on Addison Shepherd's patient.

Addison.

- You do gIow. - Like the moon.

And you can spend the day in the pit, Karev.

[hushed arguing]

Dr. O'MaIIey.

Hi. Mr. and Mrs. SingIeton, Rebecca, this is Dr. Montgomery-Shepherd.

You don't think it's cancer? Bex is too young for cancer, right?

I'm just getting up to speed. I'm sorry. Dr. O'MaIIey?

- Rebecca's... - CouId you stop caIIing me that?

She prefers Bex. Not Rebecca.

Bex has been admitted for an uItrasound guided

biopsy on an enIargement of a peIvic Iymph node.

- OK. Bex, you mind if I check it out? - OK. I'II just, um...

It's a minor procedure, Bex,

but we'II give you a IocaI anesthetic to manage the pain.

What are you drawing?

- Just a dumb comic. - [George] You're reaIIy taIented.

It's big. I know. It just appeared one day.

I'II perform a biopsy this morning, and Dr. O'MaIIey wiII take bIood

so we can run some tests, and then we can start to get you some answers. OK?

No need to panic. I'II keep you posted every step of the way.

- Thank you. - OK.

Sorry about this, but I'm going to need that arm to get some bIood.

I'II be quick.

Mr. Paskowitz. We've Iocated the source of your abdominaI pain.

- There. It's caIIed a bezoar. - Bezoar, huh?

Foreign matter that couIdn't be expeIIed with a prokinetic agent.

I Iove it. In a hospitaI a Iaxative is a ''prokinetic agent''.

- You just go up his butt and grab it? - Baby. PIease.

We won't be abIe to reach it that way. We'II have to get it from here.

So, Mauer, teII me what you have been eating?

Garbage. AbsoIute garbage.

CouId you be more specific?

TeII him what you ate, Mauer.

He's a writer.

- Suffering for his art. - OK.

- He ate his noveI. - I'm sorry, what?

I ate my noveI, OK? The whoIe damn thing.

Every Iast piece of that unmitigated crap.

[# Psapp: Cosy in the Rocket]

- The Iabs for Bex SingIeton. - Anything?

Her hormone IeveIs, estrogen, progesterone, are sky-high.

Huh. You did a history, right? Any mention of birth controI piIIs?

- No. But her parents were right there. - TaIk to her again.

She hasn't hit puberty. She wouId be having sex?

These days, Dr. O'MaIIey, it's not that unusuaI. TaIk to the patient.

- Derek. - Morning, Richard.

- You busy? - No, my surgery just got canceIed. Why?

- I need a favor. - Sure.

Hey, Bex.

Your mom and dad...

- Food. - Great.

Because I wanted to taIk to you. Your Iab... The work...

Have you been taking birth controI piIIs?

- If you teII my mom and dad... - No, I won't.

I just need to know why.

Do you have a boyfriend or...

Like anybody wouId want to have sex with me.

WeII, then why?

I'm as fIat as a board.

I took Iike five of those piIIs a day, and nothing's different.

Boobs, dude.

You... were trying to make your breasts grow?

I wanted to be normaI for once in my Iife.

- Did this cause the tumor? - No.

The piII wouIdn't have any effect on your Iymph nodes.

The amount that you were taking is reaIIy dangerous.

And it caused a pretty major hormonaI imbaIance.

- Have you been feeIing different? - I feeI Iike I aIways feeI.

[eIevator dings]

[# Kraak And Smaak: One of These Days]

- Hi. - Hi.

- You Ieaving? - 80-hour Iimit.

- You? - Surgery was postponed.

- I have a dog. - You have a dog?

- My point is, I have a dog. - You have a dog.

Oh, you know what? I Iove dogs.

I've moved on, so don't give me that Iook.

What Iook?

- That Iook. Our Iook. I'm over you. - I'm over you too.

- You are? - No.

Oh. WeII, I am.

Over you.

- I'm over you too. - You just said... Shut up.

[beII dings]

- Hi. - Bye.

[sighs]

There is a Iand caIIed Passive-Aggressiva

- and you are their queen. - I am fine.

- Except when you shriek about trout. - I was not.

- You were shrieking about Meredith. - I was shrieking about the traiIer.

- Last three weeks have been about that? - Yes.

- Not about saying I Iove Meredith? - ''Loved.''

- What? - You said ''Ioved.'' Past tense.

Yes, past tense.

WeII, then I have been shrieking about the traiIer.

[beII dings]

[sighs]

Mauer, time to return your book to the Iibrary. Surgery is in an hour.

- What's this sweat? - ProbabIy nerves.

But I'm sweating Iike Nixon. President Richard MiIhous Nixon.

That guy couId sweat. And I, Mauer Paskowitz,

I wrote an epicaIIy crap noveI, but I can sweat Iike Nixon.

It's not even that bad. I read practicaIIy every draft.

Forgive me, but you are not LioneI TriIIing.

- It bIows. - LioneI TriIIing?

He seeks the approvaI of dead critics.

- The dead don't read. - Ever think about being

- something other than a writer? - No.

I am a writer. Mauer Paskowitz. I have no pIan B.

We can't marry for three years untiI the book is done.

Three years I Iisten to him piss and moan for what? So he can eat the thing?

- Ha! - Your computer have a ''deIete'' button?

I wanted to IiteraIIy put it behind me and start a new book.

OK, we aII get the symboIism. It's painfuIIy obvious.

- And obviousIy painfuI. - [chuckIes]

[desk attendant] AII set, Dr. BaiIey.

[nurse on PA] Dr. Marshall to OR 2. Dr. Marshall to OR 2.

Hey. Hi. I heard you were going to Twin FaIIs, Idaho. I've never been.

- You reached 80 hours? - TechnicaIIy.

You're off work, Cristina. Go enjoy your day.

No, I'II enjoy my day if I can heIp retrieve a heart. I promise.

It's a nice coat.

- You see that, Dr. O'MaIIey? - The tumor is compressing an ovary.

Yep. That's why I biopsied both ovaries.

- Is that bad? - It's just a precaution, Bex.

- AppIy pressure, Dr. O'MaIIey. - Mm-hm.

[meter beeps]

I'II get this to path. Mind doing the dressings?

[George] Sure.

AII right, Bex. Then we'II get you the resuIts just as soon as possibIe.

[door cIoses]

You're a doctor. Haven't you seen scars before?

Yeah, I'm just trying to figure out

why someone with so much taIent wouId want to do that.

It's just a comic book.

It's about me and my best friend Jenn when we were kids.

- Satisfied? - Does she write it with you?

Jenn has a boyfriend Iike everyone eIse.

I get to be a freak aII by myseIf.

Oh, a freak. That's not the easiest thing to be in high schooI, is it?

You sound Iike my shrink.

Hey, I wasn't aIways a doctor. In high schooI...

...I was secretary and treasurer

of the Dungeons and Dragons cIub.

- Oh, man. - Yeah.

I was aIso a mathIete, and I won the bIue ribbon in bioIogy cIub.

Best fetaI pig dissection.

And Iet me teII you, that had the girIs knocking down my door.

You just have to get through high schooI.

'Cause high schooI sucks for anyone who's the Ieast bit different.

But then there's coIIege, and then out in the reaI worId,

you'II find where you fit in.

- You think so? - Yeah, I know so.

[monitor beeping rapidly]

- Hi. - Denny. I thought you were asIeep.

Nah, I don't sIeep in hospitaIs. I'm scared I'II never wake up.

- Can I ask you something personaI? - If I say no?

I'II hoId my breath which wiII stop my heart, kiIIing me.

You're here. You'II be charged with murder.

Lifetime in prison being Ioved by a big oId girI named HiIde.

My choices are homicide charges

or inappropriate personaI questions from a patient?

- I know. Kinda sucks. - HoId your breath.

I'II take my chances with HiIde. I can do girI-on-girI.

Oh! See, how can I bIackmaiI you if you bring up girI-on-girI?

What do you want to know?

- That guy AIex... you with him? - No.

- Not anymore. And never, ever again. - Good.

- Good? - Yeah. Good.

It means I won't have to fight him for you.

Why do you think I want you to fight for me?

- HeIIo. You are in Iove with me. - Am I?

Yeah, it's not your fauIt. I mean, I'm weII-off, but I'm not into money.

I'm smart, but I'm not a know-it-aII. I'm funny.

I'm... I'm reaIIy nice. I Iove animaIs.

And I'm hot. I'm a catch.

You know, if you can wrap your head around

the enIarged faiIing heart and the dependency to IV meds.

[sighs]

You're right. I am so in Iove with you.

It's a shame reaIIy. Since I'm with HiIde and aII.

[both Iaughing]

There. Five Ioads of Iaundry.

I have IiteraIIy washed the past out of my Iife.

[whines]

[man over PA] Dr. Calls, 22 4 1. Dr. Calls, 22 4 1.

- You paged me? - [Addison] Yeah.

Have a Iook at this. It's Bex's biopsy.

- Biopsied ovary? - Not exactIy.

Arrange a meeting with Bex's parents, George.

Find the psychiatrist, if they're avaiIabIe.

- Does she have cancer? - No.

- That's not an ovary. It's a testis. - A testis?

- Are you sure? - Yes. I'm sure.

- Bex is a hermaphrodite? - Yes.

Yang? Why are you staring at my fat pregnant beIIy?

Sorry. I...

Let me get this straight. You're teIIing me that our daughter,

you're teIIing me my daughter might actuaIIy be a boy?

That... how is that possibIe? I don't understand. I don't understand how...

- ShouIdn't this have been detected? - ExternaIIy, Bex has femaIe genitaIia.

She Iooks Iike a girI,

but internaIIy she has both femaIe and maIe sex organs.

So, what now? What are we supposed to do? I don't understand.

[Addison] OK, the best news is that the Iymph node tumor is benign.

So physicaIIy, Bex is going to be just fine,

but emotionaIIy, psychoIogicaIIy, I strongIy recommend therapy.

- [Mr. SingIeton] She's in therapy. - For aII of you.

This is not gonna be easy for Bex to hear,

and it's not gonna be an easy adjustment for you to make.

- What kind of adjustment? - My poor girI.

Many intersex peopIe begin to identify very strongIy with one sex.

And it's not necessariIy the sex they've been raised.

She's a girI. She Iooks Iike a girI. She has aIways been a girI.

This at Ieast heIps expIain why she feeIs so different.

The point is, bioIogicaIIy and emotionaIIy speaking,

- she has a choice to make. - A choice?

[Mauer] My mouth feeIs aII weird.

Chewing paper wiII have that effect.

- [AIex] Weird how? - Pins and needIes.

No, needIes and pins. NeedIes and pins. Yeah, yeah.

Sprouting from my fingers and toes Iike... Iike...

- Lord God, give me a simiIe. - Is he aIways this way?

The man ate a noveI. He's not exactIy normaI.

But he got weirder the more he ate. He's, Iike, obsessed.

I'm Dr. Webber. I'm gonna be performing your surgery today.

I poured my heart and souI into that freaking book,

and now it's stuck up my ass.

Put that on my tombstone, Audrey. On my tombstone.

[woman over PA] Dr. Love to OR 2. Dr. Deb Love to OR 2.

- Hey, Dr. Stevens. - Hey, Denny. You OK?

I've been waiting for this a Iong time, you know?

You'II open my chest, take my heart and repIace it with another.

WeII, not me. And not another heart, a better heart.

[sighs]

What if something goes wrong?

Don't be nervous. Dr. Burke is an incredibIe surgeon.

You're getting a new heart today. Keep thinking of that.

- Yeah. OK. - Denny.

Preston Burke. My favorite cardiothoracic surgeon.

Your onIy cardiothoracic surgeon, but thanks.

I'II be on the phone with Dr. BaiIey during the organ recovery.

We want to make sure the heart stays viabIe,

isn't damaged whiIe the other organs are perfused.

We'II have you in the OR, and if it is a go,

we start the procedure before she even gets back.

- Hey, Izzie. - Yeah?

I'm getting a new heart.

You're getting a new heart.

- I'II see you. - Bye.

[# Cary Brothers: Ride]

[Mr. SingIeton] Excuse me.

[cIears throat] Uh...

Mary and I were taIking, and we think Bex shouId stay...

She can't handIe something Iike this.

- You saw the scars. - You're not gonna teII her?

But this couId heIp her.

- You can't not teII her who she is. - Dr. O'MaIIey.

We'II proceed with surgery to remove the tumor.

You can taIk to your daughter in your own time.

ActuaIIy, we were thinking...

We thought, since you're aIready going to be in there...

We know ''fixed'' isn't the right word but...

[Mrs. SingIeton] We thought that with the hormonaI confusion,

it might be easier on her to remove whatever boy parts she has.

- Keep her more of a girI. - You're asking me to perform

sexuaI reassignment surgery on her?

- [both] Yes. - Without her knowing?

[Mr. SingIeton] AII she's said aII her Iife is that she wants to be normaI.

- She doesn't feeI normaI. - Why can't we put an end to her agony?

Removing her maIe sexuaI organs may not do that.

- It couId do the opposite. - But her hormones...

Can be controIIed with oraI medication.

We just want the best for Bex.

To do surgery and aIter her body permanentIy is...

I wouId not do that on someone who's unaware of the procedure,

and you're gonna be hard-pressed to find a surgeon who wiII.

Bex wiII Iearn the truth some day.

How do you want her to find out?

Excuse me.

- Meredith. Hi. - Hi.

I had the morning off, so I came to see my mother.

- She's in the sitting room. - Thanks.

She's in good spirits. Visitors reaIIy cheer her up.

Visitors?

[Meredith] What are you doing here?

There is a cIinicaI triaI to study earIy-onset AIzheimer's.

OK, me you can screw with.

My mother? No. Not acceptabIe.

SimiIar studies have had promising resuIts.

- Your mother is a prime candidate. - She is sick and has few good days.

I don't want her poked and prodded for some experiment.

- I'm just trying to heIp. - What you're doing?

Being dreamy? It doesn't heIp.

It hurts me. It messes with my head.

- I know the feeIing. - I don't doubt that.

But you have a wife to go home to.

And I'm guessing she has no idea where you are right now.

[chuckIes]

- No, she doesn't. - That's what I thought.

[sighs]

- [nurse] Dr. BaiIey? - Thanks. Dr. Burke?

[Preston] What are we looking at?

The donor is on 25 mics of dopamine.

25 mics? That's too much.

They started him on five mics of dobutamine 30 minutes prior to arrivaI.

Are they trying to kiII my heart? What is the CVP?

- CVP? - [Cristina] Around ten.

- Ten. - MAP cIose to 80.

- [Burke] Mean arterial pressure? - CIose to 80.

I can Iive with a CVP as Iow as five and a MAP about 60.

- That heart must be off dobutamine. - The heart must be off dobutamine.

And teII them to get the dopamine back down to ten mics.

Get them to get another two units of bIood. [groans]

- We a go, doc? - StiII no finaI word.

I want the heaIthiest heart I can find.

Dr. Stevens, you'II be in there with us, right?

Yeah. I'II be in there with you.

[Richard] All right, we're going to remove...

Aren't you supposed to be having free time?

Oh, I did five Ioads of Iaundry, cut my spIit ends, studied,

cIeaned out the fridge. Free time sucks.

When wouId have been the right time to hear about your boyfriend's wife?

- OK, are you mad at me or something? - No. No.

Sorry. I have this patient, and I get that there's a right and a wrong time

to hear big news, but wouIdn't you rather know sooner than Iater?

I mean, just so you can move forward one way or the other.

I mean, it's a fresh start, right?

[Richard] See the IittIe white Iine of ToIdt?

Now we can mobiIize the IateraI border of the Ieft coIon. CIamp.

When Leo ToIstoy here wakes up

you might get him to revisit the idea of a new vocation.

- [AIex] He was pretty against the idea. - HopefuIIy it was just deIirium.

If it's aII right, I'd Iike to keep an eye on him post-op.

- He was acting strange. - He ate a noveI. CIearIy, he's strange.

It's just, I don't want to overIook anything.

SeriousIy, Karev. I'm short-handed aII over the hospitaI.

OK, here we go.

Anybody here tempted to read this?

No takers?

CouId be the great American noveI. We'II never know.

He needs a pIan B.

[AIex] He's not the onIy one.

[Richard] You don't think you passed?

- I thought I passed the first time. - WeII, Iet's wait and see.

Right now, today, you're stiII here.

Did you teII my parents about the piII?

No.

Am I gonna die? Is that what no one wants to teII me?

- Of course not. - Then why are my parents acting so...

WiII you just teII me what's going on?

We're prepping you for surgery

to remove the Iymph node tumor that's compressing your...

Ovary.

Hey, Bex. How are you doing?

Mom, Dad, this is reaIIy freaking me out.

- Oh, no. Everything's gonna be fine. - It's OK, sweetie.

I'm having surgery to remove a tumor that's compressing my ovary.

Right, George?

Dr. O'MaIIey.

George?

- What, am I supposed to Iie to her? - OK. That's enough.

- PIease Ieave the room. - [Bex] No. Wait.

TeII me what's wrong with me.

What is wrong with me?

Bex...

[cIears throat]

We Iearned that your tumor...

it's not compressing an ovary.

Then where is it?

It's on a testis.

Like a testicIe?

- I have testicIes? - [Addison] Yes. One.

Bex, this is a tremendous amount of information...

And I've had it my whoIe Iife?

Oh, my God.

Does this mean...?

Does this mean I couId be a boy?

[whispers] Yes.

You engineered that conversation. Forced our hand.

You were Iying.

- Protecting her. - She's a 1 4-year-oId girI.

Maybe. Maybe not.

This isn't your Iife. This isn't your chiId!

Fourteen years. Fourteen years, we have raised a daughter.

In one afternoon, you expect us to... What? What is Bex to do?

How is she supposed to go home and teII the other kids? What? You had no right.

No. I know. I'm off the case, right?

[Mrs. SingIeton sobs]

Whoa, Mauer. Mauer.

Lay back. You just had surgery. You're Iosing your shirt, man.

Much obIiged... [stammers] Much obIiged, paI.

How you feeIing?

What's whacked for 20, AIex?

Weeds whacked weeds.

Weeds whacked for 200.

Way, way whacked.

- [Derek] I saw EIIis. - [Richard] And?

I think I can get her into the triaI. She's a perfect candidate.

ExceIIent. Thank you, Derek.

It requires Meredith's power of attorney.

Yeah.

Might be better if it comes from you. With me, there's baggage.

You? You're just trying to heIp out a friend.

Right.

Right.

Let me know if Meredith wants me to caII.

[man over PA] Dr. Boyd to C TU. Dr. Boyd to C TU.

Karev? What are you doing?

- Research on the bezoar patient. - I toId you I needed you on the fIoor.

He has fever, sweats, tingIing Iips, fingers, toes, mood swings,

Iack of coordination and did I mention the crazy taIk?

- Your point? - My point is, he ate his noveI.

- I know. - Mercury is in the paper.

He's got mercury poisoning.

Cristina, caII Burke.

I'm feeIing some fairIy extensive damage from coronary artery disease.

Um...

[BaiIey] Yang?

[cell phone rings]

- TaIk to me, BaiIey. - [Cristina] It's me.

I can't taIk. I'm waiting on a caII from BaiIey.

I'm with BaiIey.

You're in Idaho?

- Yeah. - You're breaking the rules.

Yes.

Preston. What's happening with our heart?

HeIIo, Dr. Webber. TeII me what I need to know about Denny's heart, Dr. BaiIey.

[indistinct]

[phone rings]

Thank you.

This program Derek Iooked into was a favor to me.

- Nice try. - Sometimes a favor is just a favor.

This treatment won't cure your mother or give her a new Iease on Iife,

but it may give her more good days.

I urge you to consider.

Lying here trapped in this fIesh prison, I've reached a grim concIusion.

I'm a faiIure.

- You know how that feeIs? - Dude, if you onIy knew.

Even my manic attempt to put my faiIed noveI behind me faiIed.

Time for a pIan B, I reckon.

Time indeed.

Perhaps I shaII pIay the ceIIo.

WeII, we make a mistake here, and peopIe die. Happens aII the time.

- AII the time? - There's a Iot.

Is this part of the haIIucination?

My point is we aII have setbacks, Mauer. But I'm a doctor, and you're a writer.

We don't have a pIan B.

CaII security.

Have you determined a course of treatment for the mercury poisoning?

The patient has been administered a cheIator caIIed British AntiIeukocyte

which wiII absorb the mercury over the next severaI days.

Good work, doctor.

Yang.

Know what's wrong with having an 80-hour Iimit? It protects the weak.

It IeveIs the pIaying fieId. Which not onIy sucks, it's dangerous.

Eighty-hour work week? That's what's on your mind?

I thought about it.

- Not keeping it. - You did?

My husband and I, we tried for years.

But stiII, when that stick turned bIue...

You can't work the way we work,

you can't want the kind of careers that we want

and not take... pause.

I took pause.

- You paused? - I paused. I paused a very Iong time.

So why did...?

I sat up one night, middIe of the night...

and I knew I couId do this.

I stiII don't know how I'm gonna do this, but... I knew I couId do it.

You just have to know.

And when you don't know, then no one can fauIt you for it.

You do what you can, when you can, whiIe you can.

And when you can't, you can't.

- You're staIking me. You're a staIker. - WeII, can you bIame me?

So it's bad?

- You have time. - Liar.

- Fine. There's no time. - Now, that's just spitefuI.

I didn't get the heart?

You didn't get the heart.

- [George] Hey. - Hey, George.

Hey, I just... I just wanted to check in on you.

Heard my parents weren't too happy with you.

Nope.

Thanks for teIIing me. For making them teII me.

You know, um, there are peopIe that you can taIk to.

- I can... - I know.

- George, do I have to be a boy now? - No.

- No. - But I can if I want to?

Yeah, you can. If you want.

Hey, couId you...?

WouId you bring me some scissors?

[Meredith] Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins?

[eIevator dings]

[Derek sighs]

Derek.

- Hi. - TeII me about the program.

It's not a day on a calendar, not a birthday, not a new year.

- Denny. I'II see you. - Goodbye, Dr. Stevens.

- Hey. He's Ieaving? - Didn't get the heart.

- Sorry. - Yeah.

- He's a good guy. - Yeah. He is.

[# SIow Runner: Break Your Momma's Back]

[Meredith] It's an event. Big or small.

Something that changes us.

Ideally, it gives us hope.

A new way of living and looking at the world.

[sizzIing]

I'm cooking the trout outside.

Thank you.

Oh.

There is a Iand caIIed Passive-Aggressiva...

- and I am their queen. - That's aII I'm saying.

So what? With Meredith...

Am I supposed to just wait it out? Wait untiI it passes?

That'd be good.

I stiII hate the traiIer. [sighs]

As is your right.

[Meredith] Letting go of old habits, old memories.

I wasn't gonna have it. The baby. And you don't get to be mad about that.

We bareIy knew each other. I was an intern.

- There was no way... - I'm not mad.

- You're not? - No.

I just wanted to know.

I want to know things.

[Meredith] What's important is that we never stop believing

we can have a new beginning.

[dog barking]

[Meredith] Doc, that was my Iaundry. You don't eat Iaundry.

Bad dog! Bad dog! Bad!

[dog barking, door rattIing]

[Meredith] But it's also important to remember that amid all the crap

are a few things really worth holding on to.