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Irene has a fever, the poor thing. She didn't sleep all night.

She's in my bed now.

- Have you seen the paracetamol? - No.

I have to go to work. Can you stay with her?

Okay.?-

I'll try to come back for lunch, okay?

Hurry up, I'm going to finish before you.

Yeah, because you have a little

and I have a lot.

So hurry up. I'm going slowly

to stay in the lines. Otherwise I can't.

It's perfect.

It's going to look beautiful.

Here, I'll color this.

When's your Math test?

It's on Tuesday, why?

How is it coming?

Fine, I'm studying.

Great, then you'll pass it.

I'll try.

Don't say "I'll try." I want you to pass it this time.

- I'm on it, Mom. - No, I want you to do it.

Stop, you two. Can we watch TV quietly?

- It was her... - Don't get sucked in.

- The time you're wasting... - You see?

You'll never get it back, Pedro.

Natalia.

Natalia.

Why are you still in bed?

I have nothing to do.

Find something. Do you know what time it is?

It's two in the afternoon.

Come on, get up and we'll have lunch together.

You know something?

What?

When I'm rich, I'm going to buy you a house on the beach.

Wouldn't that be cool?

Two houses on the beach.

- No, one. - Yeah.

One for now. Why do we need two?

Really?

You swear?

With a swimming pool.

And a huge living room.

What more do you want?

But before the terrace, the pool and all that...

Yeah?

We pull up in a Ferrari, right?

I want a Ferrari. You get the house. I want a Ferrari.

Don't use buying me a house

as an excuse to get yourself a Ferrari.

If I'm rich, I get the Ferrari. Totally.

Okay, okay.

Okay.?-

I'd let you drive it.

Today's job, packing and cleaning up. I'll explain it to you.

Here we go.

You see all the wood over here?

All that wood you see in the pile goes here.

The debris and everything left over goes here.

Your dad's a cheapskate, huh?

Ten euros for the whole day? Fuck that.

He's a bastard, yeah.

But you know him. At least he's giving us something.

Yeah, at least we have enough to buy weed.

Listen, I talked to my uncle. He wants us to do a move for him.

I was thinking we could ask your dad to let us use his van.

We can ask, but we'll have to give him something.

- How much? - He'll ask for at least 20 euros.

20 euros with gasoline?

Gasoline separate.

Where's the move? Here in Madrid?

Yeah.

Then it's like 4 or 5 bucks.

My uncle says he'd give us 60 euros.

60 euros?

Can't we ask him for a little more? We can offer to carry the boxes.

I can try, but it won't be easy.

Hi, Mom.

How are you?

Bad. The same.

How is your leg doing?

I took two painkillers.

Hopefully they'll have an effect.

Two painkillers is a lot, Mom.

It really hurts.

It hurts a lot.

Have you moved a little today?

No, I was too tired.

I couldn't.

What do you want for dinner?

Did you bring the chicken?

Fry it.

With a little garlic.

- You want French fries? - Okay.

-22. - And me 23.

-22. - And me 23.

Where are you from?

Madrid.

- Galicia. - Galicia.

Where they dance muñeiras.

So how did the two of you

end up here, on the dark side?

Why did you decide to do porn?

Whose idea was it?

- Yours? - I think it was mine.

Mostly for the money, and just to try it.

And you too?

Because he wanted to, and it's okay to try.

Well, people come here to have a good time

and to make a few bucks while they're at it.

Okay, your sex life...

Well, first let's talk about how you met.

How long have you been together?

Two years and a few months.

A little over two years. And how did you meet?

I have a friend and he's her cousin.

He's my friend's cousin. And I met him at her birthday party.

- At a birthday party? - Yeah.

A birthday with lots of drinking and partying...

Yeah.

And we drank in the street.

Did you hook up the first night? Or did you wait?

A few days. We exchanged phone numbers, whatsapp, all that,

and we got to know each other.

And the moment things became carnal between the two of you

and your love took another shape,

what was that moment like?

Fine, very fast.

A quickie.

The situation, where did it happen?

In a garage, at another party,

in a bed, on a rooftop... Where was it?

It was on the steps of my building.

On the steps.

No wonder it was quick.

After that you started taking your time and putting more into it, right?

Who usually starts it?

Well, she does too. She gets into it.

Yeah, but...

How often do you do it?

- More often before. - Yeah.

Sure, passion and the unknown...

We don't have somewhere to do it a lot of times

and we have to figure out a way to have sex.

So before it was every day and now it's every weekend?

Not that long, maybe every couple of days...

- Yeah. - Or every three days.

And how long does the act last?

The coitus, more or less.

I don't know.

I mean, does he do his part? Does he last a half an hour?

Yes, he does his part.

Or does he last 5 minutes and leave you...

No, I think I do my part. I do my part.

- She has to say it. - She is saying it.

Yes, he does his part.

I like it quick too, so there's no problem.

Right, okay, then.

The future, what do you see in the future?

Together, I mean. You've been together for two years,

but I guess you've imagined marriage, having children, stuff like that?

Not right now.

When there's money, maybe, but until then I think...

Have you tried anal sex?

I tried it, but I didn't do it.

- You didn't like it? - I don't know, it was kind of...

How do you try it without doing it?

Because it isn't... You know what I mean...

Does he bug you about it?

It's just... Nothing goes in through there.

Not even the wind, huh?

I get nervous, I get nervous, I can't.

And what fantasy have you not done yet?

Is there something one of you is really into doing?

Have you done it all? Anything special you want to do?

No, we've tried plenty of stuff. You know...

Anal sex. She's not into it, neither am I.

I'm scrupulous about that stuff. And... I don't know, ask her.

This was your fantasy. Coming here, right?

Yeah, but he means besides this.

Okay, besides this...

For example, doing 15 black dudes or something.

I don't know, maybe on the beach.

- You're romantic. - Yeah, a little.

Okay, let's get to it.

Okay, that's it.

All you do now is sign a contract ceding your image rights.

Everybody does it. I need your ID cards.

I'll snap a photo and we're all set. Have you got them on you?

Mine is outside.

Bring it in and I'll get the contract and take the photo.

Okay, mine is in my bag.

- Can you get mine? - Yeah.

Mine is in my jacket, in the inside pocket.

Here's the money, count it. The 600 we agreed on.

Not bad, huh? 600 euros to have a good time.

In one hour. Who makes that in an hour?

Great, I have your contact info.

I'll call you later or call me if you want to do something else.

I'll see you out.

And nicely done. It turned out great. I'm very pleased.

Would you do it again?

- With you? - Yeah.

Probably.

300 euros in one hour? I would.

And what do you do with 300 euros?

It doesn't go very far.

300 euros doesn't go very far?

It doesn't last long. You spend it fast.

I think the opposite.

In one hour I can get my driver's license,

pay for it and I have money left over.

How much is your license?

About 250, I think, with ten classes.

And if I take less classes, it costs less.

That's what you're spending your money on?

Yeah, honey. What do you want me to say?

I've been wanting to get my damn license for a long time.

What are you doing to do with the money?

I don't know. Between my bus and subway pass,

what I owe my mom and buying a few things...

I'll save whatever's left, I guess.

Hi.

Where is Carlos?

- He's not here. - Did he say where he went?

Probably with a girlfriend.

Stop watching the fucking TV and tell me where Carlos is.

I don't know where he is, period.

Shit, Natalia. You couldn't be more careful?

Fantastic.

Great.

Okay, now what?

What are you going to do?

You have no job, I have no money...

It's not a good time for you to have a baby, Natalia.

What's up?

How are you?

Fine.

Are you sure?

Hey...

Can you give me 15 euros?

Please, hook me up.

I don't have it.

It's for a concert on Saturday.

- Who's playing? - Duo Kie.

You're kidding.

- I swear. I told you, I think. - No.

I bet you weren't listening.

Ask Mom.

She said I don't get a dime until l pass.

Then deal with it.

Come on, please.

Is that a yes?

-15 euros? - Yeah.

What's that money?

Where did you get it?

You want to borrow the 15 euros?

What about all that cash?

I'll lend you 15 euros and keep quiet.

- I'll pay you back. - I hope so.

Raul...

I'm going to stop playing. I can't concentrate.

Wait until we finish this game.

I don't feel like playing.

I don't even know what I'm doing.

It's the nicest thing that can happen to you.

Having a kid with the person you love.

Not for me, it isn't the nicest.

Especially with things as they are, no bullshit.

Things just happen to you, Carlos.

And this happened now. Don't look at it as something bad.

The opposite, it's beautiful.

At least think it over, damn it.

I don't want to...

All I'm thinking is

that I'll have nothing to offer a baby.

I won't be a good father, I'll be nothing.

Why are you being so negative?

I'm not being negative.

You'll find a way to make it work, Carlos.

That's life, you know.

I don't want to sound selfish,

but...

I want to keep doing my own thing.

A baby changes everything.

Yeah, but if you have a stronger body,

they can kick you and the ref won't call it.

Look at Messi and Ronaldo. If Messi gets kicked they call it.

But not if they kick Ronaldo. With Ronaldo they have to draw blood.

When I was little, they called it anytime I got touched.

You were the team crybaby, huh?

Yeah, but you can't take someone out from behind.

You can't let a guy push everyone just because he's stronger.

In life, you need a teacher, I think. I didn't have one.

I got blown off, sent to the back because I was a troublemaker.

The good students get an explanation, but when I asked the teacher,

"Hey, what does this mean?" she'd say "Forget it, you're a bum."

"Go get stoned."

I think if they gave incentives...

In other countries they give you money, 100 or 200 euros,

but you need to get

good grades to get the money.

But Americans and foreigners all come to Spain.

They break something back home and fly here on planes

for free surgery because a knee operation can cost 200,000 euros.

It's pretty, isn't it?

It sure is.

Look, the cookies, the milk... And this, okay?

Go ahead and eat it. Quickly, darling.

Natalia?

Hurry up, we're late!

Natalia.

Take Irene to school, I'll come after.

No, we're going together.

Natalia, come out.

Carlos will go with me.

No, we talked about it yesterday, I'm going with you.

Carlos can come in the afternoon. Come out of there.

Why did you change your mind?

Because.

We agreed we were going together.

You agreed.

Look, Natalia.

If you don't go, you'll have to answer to me.

Are you listening to me?

Look at me.

Look at me.

If you don't go, you're in trouble. Okay?

Are you sure you want to have it?

Yes.

Then your mother...

She isn't up for it, is she?

No.

Well, sweetie,

what you need to do is worry about...

First about yourself. You have the last word.

Don't worry about what other people say.

We're all here to help you,

to do anything we can, to support you,

so you can decide and we'll be there for you.

Yeah, but I don't feel right living at home.

I don't know.

Why don't you move in with Carlos? Can't you?

- No. - Why?

Rosa is practically an invalid.

I already stay there almost every night

and when I fight with Mom.

What would I do there with a baby?

There isn't room for everyone anyway.

I don't know.

I don't know what to say because I can't help you either.

Well...

I'm sorry, sweetie, but I have to go.

I'm meeting Mercedes, she has to go to the doctor

-and I have to go with her. - Okay.

Here.

Give this to your mom.

I know it isn't much, 120 euros,

but tell her that's all I can give her this month.

It's all I've got, I'm sorry.

If she complains, too bad.

- I love you. - Me too.

- Let me know, whatever you decide. - Okay.

Do you feel like going out or not?

- Not really. - Seriously?

Less and less the later it gets.

Should we go home?

No, it's okay.

You want to go out, right?

Yeah, but only if you want to. We can do something else.

No, it's fine. I'm just getting sleepy, that's all.

Lie down for a bit and I'll get you up.

If I lie down I won't get up again.

Geez.

But you feel like it, right?

Yeah, I want to see everyone, but...

Then it's decided, we're going out.

With Natalia, it isn't always fun.

You said she was funny and all that.

But things get tense at home.

Sometimes, right?

Here she's out partying, sure.

Does she cause trouble at home?

Sometimes. Sometimes a lot of trouble.

- She tries to control me. - Is she jealous?

Well, it's more like she has to control me, you know?

I don't do anything. I hang out with Raul, you guys...

They say they're not jealous, but then it all changes.

Yeah, but I don't give her any reason to be jealous.

I go out with you guys, with Raul.

Yeah, but she starts imagining stuff, wondering where you are.

I could do the same thing.

When she goes out with her friends, I don't imagine her cheating on me.

But you're not the jealous type.

Lots of times they freak out for no reason.

They feel like fighting and say: "Today we fight."

She drives me crazy. Sometimes I don't know how to talk to her.

If I'm nice, she thinks I want something.

"Okay, Mom."

"What do you want? Money?"

That's typical. "You want money?" "No, I just want to be nice."

"I love you, Mom." "Why?" "if you don't love me, too bad."

And when I go out and she's in bed because it's after midnight...

I think she sleeps with one eye open. "Where are you going? With who?"

- Mothers have a sixth sense. -"When will you get home?"

But my little sister has her in her pocket.

When she doesn't want to eat,

my mom chews her out and my sister starts crying.

"I'll save it for dinner." Then she brings in a drawing

and my mom just drools and starts pampering her.

Children are smart.

But she needs to eat right, otherwise when she's ten years old...

Where are you going?

I'm just going to tell her something.

- Great song! - Yeah.

It's great. It really hits you.

Potent sound.

Watch out.

- Are we gonna toast or what? - Wait.

To us!

Okay, to us! We're the best!

Keep it real.

I want to hear you say it.

I love you.

Hey, kid, it works with coins.

- I said it works with coins. - I already put them in.

Fucking piece of shit machine!

Are you gonna keep banging it?

Until l feel like stopping! Is it yours or what?

What if you break it and I want something after?

- Then you're fucked. - I'm fucked?

- Yeah, you clown. - First you back off.

- No, I won't. - Back off.

- You're a fucking lunatic. - Who's the one fucking with me?

Who said to stop banging the machine?

You want me to get up? What's wrong with you?

Drop it, Carlos.

- Back off, damn it! - Fucking son of a bitch!

What did he do to you? What did he do?

Let me see... Fuck!

Are you okay?

SEND ME ANOTHER, I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING.

SEND ME ANOTHER, I CAN'T SEE ANYTHING.

HOW ABOUT THIS ONE?

YOUR SCAR IS Too GROSS.

MEET DOWNSTAIRS IN A FEW?

NATALIA HAS SENT YOU A PHOTO.

LOOK WHAT I FOUND TODAY.

ME WHEN I WAS 5.

I'M SICK OF HAVING To Do EVERYTHING MYSELF.

REALLY, CARLOS... Go FUCK YOURSELF

No WONDER, SHE'S So FAT.

No WONDER, SHE'S So FAT.

TELL ME ABOUT IT.

COMING To THE ESPLANADE? WE'RE MEETING THERE.

AT 7:00. DON'T BE LATE LIKE YESTERDAY.

I'LL BE THERE AT 10. SAVE SOME FOR ME, BASTARDS!

I DON'T THINK THERE'S ENOUGH FOR EVERYBODY.

I CAN'T BELIEVE IT! WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?

DAMN!!!!

WHAT HOSPITAL ARE YOU IN?

SHE SLEPT GREAT LAST NIGHT. FINALLY.

I STILL HAVE A WHILE To Go. HOW'S MY LITTLE SNOT DOING?

SHE'S A CHAMP. LOOK.

Baby..-

Wait, she just fell asleep.

Check it out. Look what he gave us.

A friend of his.

Wild, huh?

I won't wake her up.

And the hat.

You're waking her up.

The gloves.

What gloves? Oh, they looked like socks.

She's gonna chant "Cholo Simeone!"

She's an Atlético fan?

If she likes Real Madrid, you're screwed.

Atlético, Cholo Simeone.

Let's wake her up and try it on.

- No. - Come on.

We'll put her back to bed after.

Sweetie...

Julia...

Julia...

She cried the whole night without stopping.

Try to get some rest now.

I don't know what's wrong with her.

Did she have a fever? Was she coughing?

A little.

Wow, look at all these.

Here, give it to Mommy.

Show her.

Wow, how pretty!

It's a three, right?

Two.

Two.

Let me see another one.

Did you take her temperature?

She didn't have a fever?

Five and seven.

I'm taking her to the doctor tomorrow anyway.

Six.

Want me to take Irene and the baby to the park?

No.

Well, take Irene if you want.

- Four. - Four.

We have a lot now.

I'm going to try to sleep.

One.

One.

Yeah, get some rest.

Okay, okay...

Honey, please.

What the fuck is wrong with her? She won't stop crying.

- See if she pooped herself. - What?

See if she pooped herself.

No.

Okay, that's enough.

Take her, I can't get her to stop crying.

Okay.?-

Okay, stop, fuck...

What should I do, prepare a bottle?

Okay. She hasn't eaten?

I don't know, did you feed her?

No.

- Hello. - Good morning.

How are you?

I'd like to speak to the manager.

- What's it about? - To leave my resumé.

We have no positions available at the moment.

Just let me leave it in case you need anyone later on.

To clean or if you get sick or want to take a vacation.

- I'll get her. - Thank you.

There's a girl who wants to leave her resume.

I told her we don't need anyone, that we're not hiring.

Good morning.

- Hello. - Hello.

I wanted to bring you... I told your co-worker.

I wanted to leave my resumé in case you need anything.

We're not hiring anyone right now.

There aren't any openings and we don't need anyone.

I'll leave my phone number...

We're not going to need anyone.

You have sales experience?

I worked in a stationary store and a clothing shop.

Filling in for people, never on staff, but I know how to use the register.

- You've used one before. - Yes.

Okay, Natalia, there's nothing available at the moment,

but we'll hold onto your info and call you if something comes up.

- Okay? -Okay. Thanks.

- Goodbye. - Good luck.

- Put it down there, will you? - Here?

Yeah, in that drawer.

Damn.

She's eating now.

Carlos. She's eating, look.

She's eating.

Good.

Okay...

Have you talked to the lawyer?

How much do you think you can get?

At first he said 15,000.

But the last time he said between 6,000 and 9,000.

Why is it less now?

I don't know. The crisis, who fucking knows?

But he said it will probably be 7,000.

Well, 7 grand in damages isn't bad.

I'd totally let you slash my throat for 7 grand.

You jerk, the guy almost killed me.

And now he's saving your life by paying you 7 grand!

I looked into the utility trucks.

The ones that interest us cost between 4,500 and 6,000.

Used, of course.

- Used? - Of course.

How much do they cost new?

I checked, the best ones are the Sprinter...

The Mercedes Sprinter.

New it costs almost 20 grand, 18,000 or 19,000...

and used it's worth 6 grand.

Then there's the Citroen Partner,

the one that most fits our needs,

which costs around 12,000 new

and 4,500 used.

We'd be sitting pretty in one of those.

Sure, we'd lean towards the Partner,

because the Sprinter at 6,000." there's no way.

If I get 7,000... with the Partner I'd have 2,500 left over.

Think of it as an investment.

It's worth spending the cash.

You're damn right it's worth it.

It's totally worth it.

When's the trial?

Here.

You don't want your rattle?

You don't want your rattle? Listen to the noise it makes.

Listen to the noise it makes.

Look at Granny. Look at Granny.

She wouldn't stop crying, I didn't know what to do.

I got really nervous. Really nervous.

Take it easy, she's okay.

We came home, she was asleep, she was okay.

Maybe she pooped or something.

Natalia left you diapers.

I didn't see them.

I didn't see the diapers. Anyway...

I rocked her... But Natalia should have been here.

Who insulted who first?

He insulted me.

- He insulted you. - Yes.

- And you answered. - Yeah, I think.

Okay, apparently you rode together on the bus

but never exchanged words, is that right?

That's right.

And at the bus station

he started banging a machine and you reprimanded him for it?

He was banging the machine

and I asked him to please stop hitting the machine.

You asked him to please stop hitting the machine.

Did you approach him at any point?

No.

- Did he approach you? - Yes.

Did your girlfriend try to separate you?

Mom, I'm going out.

- Out? - Yeah.

- To do what? - I'm meeting my friends.

- Did you clean your room? - I'll do it later.

Did you wash the dishes?

Were they all mine?

What about this? ls all of this mine?

And this and this and this? It's all mine?

Mom, I'm leaving, they're waiting for me.

Look, Pedro.

Either go up to your room,

clean it up and wash the dishes

or you can leave your keys and don't come back.

Come on, Pedro, do it.

Go to your room! Then wash the dishes!

Mom, stop already. I need the baby to sleep.

She's a sleepy little girl.

She wants to go to sleep.

One of her eyes is closed

and the other one can't stay open.

Come on...

Let's go.

You've never supported me getting the truck or anything.

- Buying the truck was a dead end. - Why?

Because we're poor, period.

What should we do then?

What we're supposed to do: work.

How the hell can I work if there are no jobs?

Sure there are.

There are? Doing what?

I go job hunting every day and I haven't found shit.

Yeah, but you get all fussy about making 10 euros an hour...

Not 10 euros an hour, 10 euros for the whole fucking day!

There you go.

All I said is I want my own truck and job.

How will you get the money for the fucking truck?

Is it a gift? Are you gonna win the lottery?

I thought I was getting the damages.

What the fuck do you want me to do now?

We're going to have to leave.

What?

We have to leave.

Where?

Trini is doing great in Hamburg. She's working.

Hamburg? What are you talking about?

Anywhere is better than here. It's hopeless.

Would you rather stay here and do nothing?

You want to move to Germany?

I'll go anywhere there's work, period.

- Germany or China. - How do you know there's work?

Because everyone's moving to Germany and finding jobs.

- Do you speak German? - I can learn.

Yeah, sure, overnight.

You don't need to speak German to clean toilets.

Yeah, but we totally need a plan.

We can't drive all the way over there just to look for him.

We have to pick a day and do it right.

You need to find out whatever you can about this guy.

Who does he hang out with? What's he like?

I know he stabbed your buddy, so he's no fool.

That says a lot.

I know he lives in Villaverde,

that he deals and he's always...

Villaverde is a big place. We can't just go looking for someone there.

- I know. - More info, Raul.

We need something more solid.

We have to go in prepared, we can't just wing it.

Who is he friends with? That's important.

Where does he hang out?

I know there's a vacant lot, but I don't know where or what time.

If you want I can check it out first

and when I see him, I'll call you.

Then you come and the four of us will kick his ass.

The four of us? Bullshit. Luismi and I.

Whatever you say.

You and your friend stay out of it.

- Got it? - Yeah.

It doesn't sound like it. Pay attention.

- What are you going to do to him? - You don't care.

You don't care if we rape him.

- It's our business. - We'll freak him out, that's all.

I fucking sick of this woman.

Fucking sick of her.

I'm moving out as soon as I can.

Fine, but you've got three more years...

No fucking way. I'm out of here sooner.

- Three years, at least. - No.

You have to pass your classes.

And you have to fix your life.

If you drop out now, you'll end up like Carlos and me.

No, Natalia.

Broke and without a high school diploma.

- What will you do? - I'll figure it out.

I'll go anywhere I have to, I swear.

Seriously.

Just relax, tune her out, lock yourself in your bedroom.

I can't tune her out, this is a jail. It feels like Guantanamo.

Go ahead and lie to her. You can tell her you're studying.

She doesn't even believe me when I am studying.

It doesn't take much to satisfy her.

It really doesn't, Pedro. Don't be so stubborn.

I can't, I really can't.

Or take the easy way out and move in with Dad.

Dad?

He doesn't give a shit about me.

That's the truth, isn't it?

Isn't someone who worries about you better than someone who doesn't care?

It's that kid over there.

Cigarette?

I'm going to smoke one.

So you're the famous Trucho.

So do you like sucking dicks or what? Do you?

- I bet you do, you homo. - No, I don't.

You punch like a pussy.

Do you know why we're here?

Yes, I do.

Very smart. The smartest kid around.

Because of that homo. Because of your friend the homo.

- He's got something to say to you. - Yeah?

We'll see if you're such a bad ass.

What now, asshole?

You're not as cocky now.

You're in deep shit.

If you don't give us the money, we'll kill you.

This is a warning. You're fucked.

How about three euros?

Don't fuck around with me.

That's all I have on me. You want three euros?

Don't fucking laugh at me, I'll smash your face in!

Hold up.

We have all the time in the world.

Did that hurt, you homo? Did it?

- He punches like a pussy. - Like a pussy?

Don't worry, I'll fix this in a hurry.

My buddy hits fucking hard. You'll have a blast with him.

What's up, asshole?

Not laughing now, are you?

Are you scared or what?

You know what you have to do?

From tomorrow on, think only about our money.

- My friend's money. Shut up. - I'm broke!

Are you gonna tell me what happened?

The whole thing sucked.

What did they do?

Mess everything up.

H OW?

Things got out of hand.

Carlos, what happened?

Carlos?

Hey, baby...

I can't take it anymore.

She's been crying all night.

She won't stop and it breaks my heart. I don't know what to do.

You know it's nothing serious.

She's okay, she's healthy. She'll get better.

I know, but I don't like seeing her cry.

I know, it's hard, isn't it?

The first year is the hardest, but after that,

things get better.

And from 5 to 10 is the best age.

After 10 is when the trouble comes. Bigger kids,

bigger problems.

- But it's worth it. - Yeah.

It's just that you don't realize what it's really like

-until you've been there. - Yeah.

They don't tell you how hard it is.

If they did, nobody would have kids. We'd disappear from the planet.

You're very lucky.

She's healthy, she's fine.

- And very pretty. - Very pretty.

You think I never felt like smashing you against the wall

when you were a baby?

I don't know...

I love her more than anything in the whole world.

Of course.

But I hate her with all my heart.

Yeah.

That's being a mother.

Yeah.

I don't know how you managed with three.

I don't know how I do.

Japanese commercials are sick.

Haven't you ever seen one? They're twisted, man, twisted.

There's one that's awesome.

They don't hold back.

There's a milk commercial with a girl,

a girl at the end, like a bukkake.

Splat! All the milk in her face.

They're creepy, the Japanese are mentally depraved.

They come up with some hard core videos.

Their videos are totally depraved. And their video games.

And those videos of street fights blow you away...

Yeah, yeah.

Guys who meet up just to fight.

Groups of like 20 or 30.

Yeah, two on two, four on four...

Or whole gangs.

I got a video the other day on whatsapp with 40, 50 guys.

40 or 50 wearing blue T-shirts and 40 or 50 wearing red T-shirts.

Trying to kill each other. It's madness.

But Google is totally smart, man.

Whenever you wanna buy something on the Internet,

what you're looking for shows up everywhere you go.

You buy some lights, a lamp for your home,

you spend forever looking, and you click on another site

and the advertising banners appear at the bottom.

You look for one and they force one on you.

They sneak the stuff into your head.

It's like subliminal.

Or when commercials have nothing to do with what they're selling.

Suddenly they're like, "Buy this cell phone."

Yeah, weird stuff.

They're always selling you something, trying to sneak shit into your head.

My dad and brother are bummed out and they'll stay that way.

Because they just sit around, they're not looking, not trying.

Being old also has its issues...

My dad is out of work and he's 50 years old.

I understand him not getting hired,

but my brother is 25, 26 now...

And there he is.

I think they hit like a downward spiral.

- My dad is trying to find him a job. - Well...

At least your dad is active, mine just sits at home.

I think they feel worthless, like they have no value.

They get that idea into their head, why bother looking

and here we are.

Unless you find something by accident.

No, but that used to happen maybe 20 years ago.

People don't just walk up to your door and offer you a job anymore.

That doesn't exist anymore.

If you want something, it's like with everything.

If you don't have a boyfriend, it's because you're not looking for one.

It's the same thing with a job.

You need the right attitude. If you want to work,

your karma gets you a job.

It's true you can leave 200 resumés

and maybe get one call back.

But if you leave only two, nobody will ever call.

When I look for a job,

I always have between 50 and 100 resumes in my bag.

The other day I handed out 75.

I don't know how many copies I made.

And of the 75, only two places took them.

They didn't want them. At least take it and give me a little hope.

Sure.

No, I don't think you're worthless, you're not trying hard enough.

How nice to have your support.

You want me to go with you to leave resumés?

No, I just want you to trust me a little. That's it.

But I can see that's hard for you as well.

You don't fucking understand, Carlos.

- What don't I understand? - That we have a baby.

That we have to raise her.

Don't you want to?

You're the only one raising her?

If you don't want to take care of her, just tell me.

Tell me that you don't love me.

- Tell me. - Why are you bringing that up now?

- What do you mean? - Why are you bringing that up?

- Why now? - What do you mean, why now?

What the fuck? I'm asking you.

Knowing if you love me or not? That doesn't matter?

Actually I really don't give a crap.

I forgot you only cared about the money and the baby.

I can't take it anymore.

There's less money and more mouths to feed.

I can't carry the load anymore.

I know.

I don't know...

Maybe you can ask your dad to help us out.

Dad hasn't been around...

for a long time.

Then Carlos.

He should.

What do you think?

I don't know what to do anymore.

- You have to make decisions. - Don't worry.

What are you going to do?

I don't know yet.

Where's my baby's hand? Where is it? It's gone. Where is it?

Here it is! Here it is!

Germany.

Germany?

What would you do in Germany?

Work.

What about the baby?

I'll send for her as soon as I get the money.

Who will you leave her with?

With Mom.

With your mother.

What did your mother say?

I haven't told her yet.

Oh, you haven't told her yet.

You're leaving the baby with her and she has no idea.

- I'll tell her. - You could have at least told her.

You could have at least told her.

I'm going to, it's just I told you first.

I haven't told anyone, only Carlos.

What did Carlos say?

That he's staying here, that he's not going.

What kind of job? As a waitress or whatever you find?

- You'd go there to do that? - Yes.

You can't stay here and do the same thing?

Do you see me working right now? Well then?

But moving away is different.

There's work there. That's the difference.

- But your family is here. - Yeah.

But my family is broke and my family needs me to work.

I got you a present.

Yeah?

Do you want it or not?

- You have it here? - Yeah.

"The easiest and most effective way to learn German at your own pace."

"German Made Easy."

It's German. I learned a little from the book.

What does it mean?

I love you a lot.

Take her to the park, she likes that.

Yeah, I take her sometimes.

But your mother always comes with us

and drives me nuts and I never last long.

But we're fine.

You know what she's like.

Anyway. Hey, you're gonna flip.

What?

You know who Raul hooked up with?

No.

Maria.

Maria who?

Your friend, Maria.

Maria Contreras?

I don't know, I guess. Your friend.

- The brunette? - Yeah.

- But she has a boyfriend. - Had.

She dumped him and hooked up with Raul last weekend.

- You swear? - I swear.

That is too much.

Way too much.

They're like total opposites.

Well...

Maria said she didn't like him. I asked her.

She said she didn't. What a liar.

Raul must have made a move.

Definitely.

So how are things there?

- Okay. - Yeah?

Well, I don't know, the same...

I fill in for Trini sometimes.

I can't wait around for her to get sick to work.

So anyway, I'm going to classes.

I'm doing okay.

Until I can actually hold a conversation...

it's hard to get a job, of course.

But I've learned a lot, I understand.

I can go to the supermarket.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

Well, well.

Little by little.

So is your boyfriend going to appear behind you or not yet?

You are so lame!

No.

Yeah, sure.

Hey, my mom is calling.

You're staying home, right? Can I call you after?

Sure, call me back.

- Please, don't leave. - Okay.

- Okay, bye. -Bye.

- How are you? - Fine, you?

Okay.?-

Things are fine.

- Yeah? - How's my little girl?

- Wait, should I get her? - Yeah.

Here she is. Look at Mommy. Say hi to Mommy.

- Cutie! - Hi!

- Hii! - Say hi!

Hi!

Hi, Mommmy. Wave hi to Mommy.

Hi!

Here, look.

What happened to your hand?

What happened to you?

- You see how she's looking at you? - Yeah.

Is she teething or what?

She has one coming in. She has two and the other one is coming in.

Let me see.

Show Mommy the tooth she hasn't seen. Look, Mommy!

I can't see it.

Make an ugly face.

On, how ugly!

How ugly!

Mommy!

You see? You want to talk, don't you?

Well? How is everything? Let's hear it.

Fine, fine.

You look skinnier.

- Do I? - Yes.

No, I'm not.

All I eat is crap all the time, I should be fatter.

Right.

How are Pedro and Irene?

Pedro got it into his head that he wants to visit you.

He says he's going to work and save up so he can do it.

I would love that,

but I won't believe it until he gets off his ass.

- We'll see. - Yeah.

We'll see, he does these things sometimes.

That's right.

Weird things.

Irene is doing great.