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so

uh

crazy woman

so

huh

ah speak of the devil how'd it go
great do you get your source absolutely

dana we're gonna put rose and bloom on your
story excuse me you're short on manpower

you know i hate losing to the post we're not
gonna lose to the post i'll get me started

on the journal we're not gonna lose to the
journal either especially not with my help

what are you gonna do i got sambar you actually
talked to him we're sitting down next week when

i want to hear everything you got my
monday's page one meeting mean time

you two exchange notes when next week it's not
set yet oh okay so all of this is predicated on

a meeting you don't actually have no no i just
said it's not set yet but we're sitting there

no you said it wasn't set yet no i said it's not
said no yes he just says sandberg and suddenly

he's on my story because i've come to you a
thousand times and it's never been that easy

when you sit down with him tell him
i said hi because i just had that

meeting that you think you're gonna get dana what

hang on a minute it's me i heard what happened

frozen blue is telling everybody he's on your
story now oh i can't stand his looks smug ass

why are you still breastfeeding jordan's
one because the world health organization

recommends it for up to two years and beyond
kid's got a mouth full of teeth dee he's gonna

be able to spell milk pretty soon doesn't
it hurt it's a good way for us to stay close

how you doing my blouse is almost
dry i'm not asking about your blouse

please don't isolate yourself i'm not isolated
we're talking right now you know what i mean

dee you come here you work you go home
that's all you ever did i'm a single mother

all right you're not gonna talk
to me you better talk to someone

i am fine i don't think you're
fine i'll tell you if i wasn't

now if you will excuse me i have to go make
sure little rose emblem stays off my story

how you doing manny so a little man earlier
not so little anymore who you tell her

hi sorry i'm late how is he taking his nap still
oh i hope he's not coming down with something

no no that boy around wild in the park
i had to pry him away thank you kalisha

you should go at home oh okay let me finish up
and i'll see you tomorrow morning all right okay

so

so

here i come

tell them everything

okay

dear jordan i want you to know
that it's all right for boys to cry

sometimes crying can release
a lot of pain and stress

it has nothing to do with your manhood

your father wrote that

he wrote this whole thing just for you

i thought you should hear it because

you cry a lot

dear jordan if you are reading this it means
that we got through the sorrowful years somehow

and that you are old enough to understand
all that i am about to tell you

the first time i saw your father charles monroe
king was in the living room of the house where i

grew up it was the spring of 1998 and i was
visiting your grandfather for his birthday

my baby

oh

oh

so baby how's dwayne doing mike
come on mama i told you we broke up

well flames rekindled look at your brother
remember when he and charlene fell out

yeah i was shocked she took him back you
never know did you call him now why would

i do that well you're the one who said he's so
perfect mommy works on wall street i believe

i know we are not getting back together okay it's
over you never know mom some things you do know

ah

grace

bless us o lord for these gifts we're about
to receive from thy bounty and praise our lord

oh smoking rebound here

you all know this house is downwind right

you know i don't smoke you can't think when
you're high but help you relax i'm relaxed

you think i need to relax what do you
bro yes okay maybe i'm a little type a

little they stress me out why do you think i'm
staying at a hotel savory to be out here get high

i just don't understand how she stays
with him all these years she loves it

that is not love it's fear she's scared
to end up alone is that how it is mike

is that how it is being married because

are you scared you're gonna end up alone
no no really [ Transcript By SHIBAMOON ] sometimes i wish you

will leave me tomorrow but are you happy yeah
we fight as [ Transcript By SHIBAMOON ] but yeah see there's hope

now i just gotta find the right guy good
luck men are luxurious not necessities

apparently not it's cold out
here i see y'all inside all right

hi hi i'm a friend of your fathers
oh are you dana dana i'm a journalist

and you are oh i'm uh first sergeant charles
king at your service huh you're a soldier

nice man your father was a
dress auction back in the day

i just came by to hang this one early birthday
present 761st tank time some of the bravest men to

fight in world war ii me and your dad a tanker so
share mutual admiration what do you think about it

it's beautiful

is that pointillism yes ma'am it is you know like
joycerat it takes a bit more time but i think it's

worth you drew that yes ma'am technically
it's a pain but i won't hold it against you

you know sarge talks about you a lot

all three here's problem joy is he
here yes ma'am he's not on the porch

i told him to wait there while i finish
hanging this excuse me real quick

morning daddy oh good morning
happy birthday know it's not

until tomorrow but these are cigars
so don't let mommy see him thank you

so your friend's in there finish
putting my picture up here not yet

but you're going to love it

he's uh talented isn't he and good looking

did we meet him yet she's been
out with your mom all morning

huh

just tell them that you've got
something at your hotel and

your sister wants to borrow your car
daddy i'm just trying to help don't

excuse me hi can i ask you a favor i
left my cell phone back at my hotel

and my sister needs to bring my car when she
gets back would you mind giving me a ride

you mind if i turn on the radio no sure what kind
of music do you like there should be a cd in there

spanish

you don't talk much do you yeah i do
i mean when i got something to say

okay

so my dad was your drill sergeant yes man he
taught me how to be a soldier i'm lucky i met him

both of you folks they've been there

sorry

take the girl out of the city you
can't take the city out of the girl

you know i'm a journalist so i have to
ask my parents have been there for you how

i'm going through a divorce oh

i'm sorry don't be

mom's a great listener and pop always invites
me over to watch ball games pop yes ma'am i mean

don't get me wrong i love my parents but i don't
think i would have made it through without yours

you might seem so surprised
you didn't grow up with them

what about you what about me

you seeing someone i'm surprised my parents
didn't tell you since you all talk so much

i'm single recently

hey listen i'm supposed to go to
the house tomorrow for the barbecue

i could pick you up on my way if you want

yeah that'd be great pals oh 900

early

that's perfect

no housekeeping come back
later it's charles king who

uh what what time is it uh 8 49.
i'm so sorry don't worry about it

i'll be right out it's okay take your time

i won't be longer i promise
whenever you're ready i'll be here

i'm so sorry it was worth the wait

i'm hot

you hungry i could eat

so what made you join the army

discipline travel and i love my country

so i always wanted to serve plus
the camo just brings out my eyes

it's a tough way to make a living yes ma'am it is

you know you don't have to call me
ma'am i know i don't want to either

belgium waffles and i've got scrambled
eggs and oatmeal got you a little extra

brown sugar you sure you don't want some fruit
or something uh no thank you i'm fine thanks man

let me know if you need anything excuse
me hi uh i'm gonna need some hot sauce

for those hash browns and uh a
little warm up please sure thing

so how long have you been in the army one second

all right thank you uh it's been 11 years
i plan on doing another nine and hopefully

retiring a sergeant major then i'm gonna
focus on my art oh who's your favorite artist

you ask a lot of questions

occupational hazard well if you must know i
have two george soro yeah and claw my name

he's my number one i mean i mess
around a bit with pointillism but

monet style i mean who's messing with him

you um got a little bit right oh
something all right other side

just all right you're smudging me uh you want
i don't even know got a little bit yep thanks

you know i saw some of monet's
work at the met in new york

i've never been to new york oh it's so different
when you can see the brush strokes up close

and i've actually never seen a real monday
in person you should get up there sometime

see the pain

maybe i will

look at that yeah baby hey hey hey come on
over me first sergeant king just call him

why in the world

oh i thought men were luxuries not necessities you
just want to stand there they don't come help me

be lucky you saw him first

i am yes ma'am i mean yes i am are you
sure i was just about to put out dessert

i wish i could fresh apple pie i
got a phone date with my daughter oh

yeah she lives in texas with her mother and i
gotta catch her before she goes to sleep of course

well if you're ever in new york and
want to see that monet look me up

will do

take care you too

what

hello hey guys this is she hey this is
first sergeant charles king oh hello charles

my dad told me he gave me my number three weeks
ago yeah is now a good time to talk um i am kind

of in the middle of something oh okay i can call
you back no no it's fine i have a few minutes

i would have called you sooner

but

i just i want to be honest and
my divorce i just got final

i don't want to make things harder
for you charles no but you're not

you're not that's exactly
why i'm calling you right now

and i'm always going to be thinking about
her you know it's not going to change but

i just want you to know that you don't
have anything to worry about i promise

fair enough

hello

then i want you to know i've been thinking about

you a lot

well you have had three weeks

happy birthday to you happy birthday
to you happy birthday dear mommy

happy birthday to you okay
okay let's blow him out ready

okay now let's get our sugared up

all right time out mommy needs a little break

what are you talking about

what okay what are you looking at what
are you saying silly boy hey daddy

so

so

there's barely any black people let alone black
women no second chances it's like i'm the standard

bearer for every other black person who wants to
work there i understand that but you do love what

you do right it's the new york times of course
i love it for germans that's a dream come true

it's the only time i hate new york when it's
hot and muggy new york is not hot all right

you been to iraq kuwait too desert
storm well was it bad it's bad enough

listen can i call you back
later i got a meeting with

the brass and a few and i do not want to be late

no you hang up are we really doing
this right now i guess we are okay

are you gonna hang up the phone bye

bye

so do you think you'll want more kids well
definitely i always wanted a big family

hey how's your daughter handling it christina
she's she's great beautiful she listens smart

a lot smarter than me i'll tell you that

hold on a second

you know it was uh

it was stressful

stressful for

for everybody well how did you handle it

i felt like a failure

tried to make it work

but you know we we uh we were young we
were kids trying to figure it out and

you know we both were to blame you know so

it hurt

i'm sorry you were hurt i
know it's uh you know i'm

doing good and i love being a father you know
one of the best things that ever happened to me

hey if i didn't go through that
i wouldn't be talking to you

sometimes after dinner my father would announce
he was going to buy milk i never understood how

my mom could just sit there with her head down she
knew he was having an affair the whole town did

one night i came down with this terrible flu

and my mom had to bomb a neighbor's
car to take me to the hospital

and i just remember lying there
on that back seat delirious

when i lifted my head up i saw we
were driving around a parking lot

of a bar on the base how are you i was seven

she was looking for his car

is

no

he used to say that she trapped
him by getting pregnant with me

she was just as trapped as he was

wow

how'd that make you feel

now see you are all up in my
business trying to get me all open

sounds a little too late for that what did you say

alone

enough about me

so what do you do when you're not
turning young men into soldiers

what if i'm not drawing or painting

probably in the gym okay i like the gym too for
the massages the little smoothies at the juice bar

you're telling me you go to the gym and you don't
work out well i'm not exactly the workout type

but i stay active it's a walking city

massage juices smoothies all
that whatever it is you're doing

it's working

i think you were beautiful

but you like this guy or not i can't
he's a soldier my dad was a soldier

it's not like he walks around in uniform all
the time that [ Transcript By SHIBAMOONTranscript By SHIBAMOON ] would be hot so quickly

and he's divorced oh and he has a nine-year-old
daughter so is he a good dad he seems like it i

don't know i don't know he is not exactly my type
look you said he was nice right and he's cute

too yes so what's your problem are you too good
for him you little bougie [ Transcript By SHIBAMOONTranscript By SHIBAMOON ] i barely know him

we've only talked on the phone well if you decide
to let him kiss it just don't shoot your legs

what i know you there is no way
you would ever sleep with a guy

at least not the first time without exfoliating
moisturizing and shaving god is true same

sorry i can't come pick you up don't worry
about it i know you got work if you get lucky

with traffic you should be here about 2 30. you
know i could just stay in a hotel not a problem

of course not don't be silly i mean unless
would you do you want to stay at a hotel no

no i'm good good okay

oh and by the way that cab ride from laguardia
shouldn't cost you more than 30 bucks i usually

tip if he helps me with my bags oh and don't let
him take the queensborough bridge okay general

hopefully all my training and the tank battles
i survived in iraq have prepared me enough for

new york city as you were negro and if i don't
make it oh god i want you to know that i tried

and can you call my mom before you just tell
her that i love her charles you can stop now

guess what huh what chicken butt
you're so corny get off the phone

hey are you there uh yes ma'am i'm right here i'm
i'm sorry maddie uh no problem ms kennedy your

guest has arrived you want me to send them up
yes please i left the key for uh yes ma'am i

got it right here uh can you put him on
real quick sure he wants to talk to you

hey just want to let you know that i
made it in safe mission accomplished

happy to hear so i'm not going to be home for
another couple hours yeah that's fine i'll

get my sketchbook with me so handle your work
okay uh help yourself to anything in the fridge

hey manny uh it's his first time in new york
so just help him out if he needs anything okay

can you see if he has on kind of
worn out sneakers probably dirty

yes man okay you can send them up all right

she says you've been going up
all right thank you you got it

hey there what are you doing get out of here no i
have too much work to do work schmer go get some

there you go

so

hey you how was your day it was good how was
your flight it was what's good welcome home

you smell good thank you i got something for you

this is for you oh my god you like it i do
i really tried to imagine you in my head

what i'm lying i use that photo over

i'm glad you there it

so i know you just got here but
um we should probably talk about

sleeping arrangements i have a
sofa bed it's pretty comfortable

that's fine i have no
problem sleeping on the couch

why you look nervous what do you think
i was gonna say i don't look nervous

i just didn't want to set up any unrealistic
expectations oh well i expect to have a good time

i'm not worried i'll be with you

okay we decided we have i i'm ready
are you yeah what is that olive oil

i have the linguine with clam sauce please like
capri salad to start absolutely and for you sir

i'll have the caesar salad that's it i'm sorry
can you give us one minute of course thank you

what you can get a caesar
salad anywhere drop pasta

that's a lot of carbs you eat mess hot food all
day come on how do you know what i like to eat

well at least get some grilled
chicken in it or something

okay

i really am glad you're here i
just want you to enjoy your weekend

you taste like oregano

oh so we're in broadway no see there's off
broadway and there's off broadway okay so is there

anything actually on broadway yes but it's not
about the street it's all about the size of the

house the house how many seats there are in the
house yes okay the house yes looks like i thought

charles please i appreciate the manners but
you can't keep walking on the outside of

the sidewalk it's new york there are
too many people so i just can't help

it's a force to happen you know what no i'm
sorry thank you the world needs more gentlemen

that's an off off-broadway kiss

that's an off-road kiss and this is

broadway

and the tony award for best kiss goes
too oh hold on who the hell is tony

uh i'm gonna go freshen up really quick
there's water and stuff in the fridge so

help yourself so whatever okay

she's

do you need anything

uh yeah maybe just some corporation
pillows one everyone got me sleeping

i was thinking maybe you could sleep
on one side of the bed if you want

yeah cool

um

we should stop

yes sir

good night

good night

who travels with exercise equipment
i do you look good i slept well

now you need to put all that away i have not
had my coffee yet i remembered lucky black right

yes i do all right so i need you to
get up get in the shower get dressed

we'll go for a run i want to
see more of your city okay

i want to see more of your
city i'll take your state

you know zip code i want to see your area
don't want to see your social security number

show it all to me oh god i want to see it

you know you like it

you know i can't show you
the whole city in one weekend

i guess you gotta come back

um

got to take a shower

i'll keep that in mind close the drapes

i got you

so yeah

you like it

i love it

it's so beautiful

thank you

we've only got four days soldier it's
christmas time in new york up and at them

are you done yet yeah well come on out let me see

get out here please

oh yes i don't know let's try the blazer i
look like someone has an account a fine one

and do you know how expensive these
clothes are it's a christmas gift

no i can't let you do that i want to i know you
don't care about clothes cause clothes don't make

the man baby but the man can make the clothes baby
besides you work hard you deserve more than just

baggy jeans and t-shirts i like munchings
okay well what about the grandpa sneakers

grandpa the only place you should be wearing
those two is the gym they're practical and

they're very comfortable and those aren't
come on now don't look like you don't like it

look at you wow see

fine but i'm keeping my sneakers
i'm paying for half charles half

baby why don't you be my girlfriend
what i want you to be my lady

like officially what do you mean like go steady
you know exactly what that means that's funny no

it's just it's just what we're grown yeah
we're grown enough to commit to one another

charles don't say my name like that

can we talk about this later
talk about it now we have guests

please

however i don't want her hurt i don't want no
that's that's not my intention i know it's not

your intentions but it may happen he actually said
officially that's the sweetest thing i ever heard

oh my god died for him but he can't help it he's
military you can't help it you're falling for him

you know you're strong i am not
i've never seen you like this before

like you like him of course i like him no i
mean you like like him like you really like him

i want a drink it's christmas
i need a drink i need a drink

but you're gonna be good you're doing good yes
yes you said no no i want scotch you weren't

kidding about his ass you could bounce a
quarter off that thing today's the season

just tell me one thing is he good and bad now
you know we wouldn't be talking if he were

don't talk to me like that

julie yeah miss jenny yeah she could talk so
you're gonna answer my question what question

we were talking about earlier
charles you know i care about you

why do we have to define our
relationship because we have one

well what's the hurry there's no
hurry been together for six months

i don't want to give up my career to follow
you around to different military bases

who said anything about that and you don't
even live here you seen somebody else what

are you seeing somebody else no

i'm serious

no

i would never ask you to give up your critters
to follow me around you know that right

yeah i know

i'm not saying this is going to
be easy but we can make this work

how can you be so sure

i can't

i can't predict the future either
but i know we got a shot at one

do you trust me

i already am

you know you could have told
me that earlier right now

now it's going to be your turn

leave them open

hmm

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do you want a ride now you know you don't want
to drive to the airport this early in the morning

it's freezing out

you can put this one under the tree another
one this is for manny the doorman it's a

medtech he's from queens i didn't know you
two were friends we're buddies oh the buddies

bet you didn't know he was worrying no he never
mentioned it that's because you two aren't buddies

this is for you

it's a bunch of grandpa music hey that's grown
man music right there crazy woman am i what crazy

absolutely not

i'm gonna call you one on one

be careful i will

you know you can leave some of your new stuff
here i can clear up some closet space if you want

okay

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hello guess what chicken butt i'm serious okay
what we're doing a whole series on race in america

i'm writing one of the stories and
they want me to be an editor too

this is the biggest opportunity they've ever
given me hey congratulations but if i don't notice

my career at the times will literally be over
women please no no i'm not kidding don't fire me

i can't lose this job charles new york is too
expensive listen they picked you because you're

qualified and you do outstanding work i'm proud
of you thank you baby and i can't wait to read

what you're writing i gotta start flying to
akron once a week before i write anything

i'm not looking forward to that okay well
just give me a couple weeks let me get my

new soldier squared away and i'll see if
i can fly down really yeah i love that

i'll catch the one

you've reached first sergeant charles
king completely the message of the beat

hey sweetie i made it back to akron no
i think i was traveling this got me sick

anyways i uh i can't wait
to see you call me later bye

you've reached first sergeant
charles king please leave the message

charles where are you starting to get worried

charles hey baby where are you i'm at the
hospital one of my soldiers just had a baby

i've been calling you i'm sorry
i have to come to the hospital

dana he's 19 years old you
know he was scared he needed me

they don't have phones at the
hospital it was pretty hectic in here

i tried but i couldn't get away since when is
delivering baby is a part of your job description

how about we both get some sleep tonight and
uh we'll just talk about it in the morning

it is morning and i'm sick as a dog he's stuck in
akron ohio waiting for you i thought you were in a

plane crash i'm sorry i should have called you but
you know i have to be there for my men and what

about me your official girlfriend i haven't seen
you in two months maybe it's only been six weeks

okay i don't i don't think you understand how hurt
i am his wife had complications well what kind

i don't know exactly so you've been there
all night and you don't know anything

all i know is that she needed a c-section i see

so maybe you're the one that's seeing someone
else what is that why you missed your flight what

no no no no no you want to talk to him he's
another room right now no charles you can get your

soldiers to say anything that you want come on now
danny you're talking crazy crazy i've been sitting

in a hotel room for hours waiting on you why
would i lie to you give me a call to let me know

that you were not coming relax i don't need to
relax where you actually i can't do this goodbye

um

hey manny welcome back this vanity
you got a delivery earlier i hope

you don't mind i put it upstairs thanks

what are you doing here

then i screwed up and i'm sorry no
no you can't just show up like this

we haven't spoken in weeks because you
won't during my calls because i didn't

want to talk to you i'm sorry i didn't show up
in akron you were right i should have called

you that night i had no idea where you were
or who you were with i wasn't with anybody

yeah

baby

i'm i'm not your father

i will never be with another woman

i love you you don't love me i do no you
love your men i'm just better looking

i love you

i might have given you a reason to leave me but

i'm never gonna leave you

i love you

i love you

i'm not going anywhere

okay

sometimes i forget you're a soldier

that's your question have
you ever been able to stop me

most combat like my dad never talks
about me um you never talk about iraq

to be honest i don't remember much smiles

sound

training kicks in so it's kind of a blur

are you scared

have you ever actually killed someone

how can you be a soldier and believe in god

i believe in evil too protecting
people who can't protect themselves

um

are you out of your mind don't forget
you're on the street taking fire you

guys looking real weak out here huh
you see these guys for you everybody

look at this okay look at that
they're gonna die for you huh

yeah keep moving your feet

yes

here

excuse me

charles yeah yeah i'm fine i'm fine

yes i'm safe where are you i'm at the office
you're watching this oh my god oh my god

okay i want you to go home and
don't leave call your parents

and tell them not to leave the
house either don't do anything

so you hear from me you got it yeah yes yes
i got i got it i got it all right i gotta go

please be careful

when you follow

hey sweetie how was school why

may i come in

do you want to talk no

jordan monroe king look at me

oh my god baby what happened you got in the fight
with who lance oh i'm calling the principal and

i want to talk to that boy's parents mom no
snitches get stitches if i snitch i'm dead

jordan why were you fighting they called me a
wigger a white [ Transcript By SHIBAMOONTranscript By SHIBAMOON ] they say all kinds of stuff

like what like if i'm black how come
i'm not good at basketball oh sweetie

they said my dad wasn't a soldier they
said if he's black he's probably in prison

okay

come with me

take your coat off sit down

we're in trouble

read it

out loud

jordan you are african-american no
one can ever take that away from you

you will be challenged because of your
complexion in the color of your eyes

but let your character and
deeds shine in everything you do

and never forget where you came from

what's this

your dad wrote it

he wrote everything in there just for you
you're old enough now so i want you to read it

everyone happy birthday to you happy birthday

happy birthday

y'all know it's not my birthday are y'all trying
to scam free dessert well you wouldn't let us

celebrate last year and i know how much
you hate it on the actual day so a wish

you guys open mine first fine

is this what i think it is if you will let
me set you up on days you should at least

have some pleasure i go on dates three dates and
one night stand and over a decade does not count

well do you want to play it in plug it in and
then work your way up to the highest setting

slowly not too slowly you have
one too oh yeah yeah we all do

better than most boyfriends no i don't know
about that football well i do it's better

than my husband half the time i'll tell you
that [ Transcript By SHIBAMOONTranscript By SHIBAMOON ] wish i could plug his asset woof

for attention what's up you think we
could go see my sister in texas soon

christina of course baby we should see her more

my dad said he wanted us to get to know
each other well we can do that come here

how come you barely ever talk about him

well sometimes it hurts to remember

but i think about him all the time and i
read love too that makes me feel better

why don't we have any preachers it we do
just pop one on your desk with the balloons

we'll put more

folded flag like nana and grandpa

the technical

your father

my fellow citizens in this hour american
and coalition forces are in the early stages

of military operations to disarm iraq to free
its people and to defend the world from grand

danger on my order coalition forces have begun
striking selected targets of military importance

what's wrong

hmm

when do you deploy

when can i see you

charles i need to talk to you coming
back right away it's an emergency

is everything okay

are you okay yes but i don't want
to talk about it on the phone

talk about what can you come this weekend please
okay well maybe i can come and see you dana

tell me what's wrong i want to have
a baby what i want to get pregnant

and not just report on it and i want to live
it with you so please have a baby with me

absolutely well you don't well
you don't want to take a second

to think about it i'm not asking for
a puppy i don't need to think about it

what if i can't get pregnant
marry me what marry me

okay okay is that a yes charles
monroe king yes i will marry you

she said yes sir i'm getting married

you're done

what is this a gift we're going to see dad

jordan i have work mom it's on a weekend
it's only washington dc it's not that far

baby give me your auntie a minute please

good luck

you have no right to do this miriam the
hell i don't he's my godson i love him too

who's paying for this it's taken care of so
this was your idea no jordans he emailed me

he needs this trip you both do

hey listen

it's not like charles left you with nothing

we both know that little man in there
is special and he needs you right now

he's not going to be a kid forever

sorry folks we're headed for more choppy air

please return to your seats and keep
your seat belts securely fastened

look at you welcome home it's good to be back

we missed you what i missed you too

no what no soldiers in this house wow just me

there we go go ahead

heartbeat

thank you

i love you too that's one
of those sex yes it's a boy

oh what's up little fella

say he's a boy he's a boy

there's enough money in these accounts so you can
withdraw whenever you need to my combat pay gets

deposited on the 15th of every month i'm not gonna
need to spend much of this so it's gonna add up

okay this is a power of attorney so you can sign
up for my military defendant can i show a question

yeah sure when people go to
war what do they do about sex

i i don't i don't know i never think about it
i'm not worried about getting shot i am horny

i was just thinking that if you need sex in iraq

i mean to help you get through it i want
you to know that you have my permission

have you lost your mind i'm serious me too if you
need human contact or someone to hold or to be

held then i don't want another woman and
i'll never disrespect you or my son like that

and i hope you don't expect me to extend that same

offer because you better
keep that [ Transcript By SHIBAMOONTranscript By SHIBAMOON ] locked up

i want you to keep this someplace safe just
in case nothing is going to happen to you

i know but i got you something about
funeral arrangements or anything like that

what's this it's a journal so you can write
to your son even if it's just a page or two

open it

i um

i don't know what to say what
what do i what do i write

well it's especially for dads so there's
some questions to get you started

tell them who you are

what you believe in

and tell them you love them

just so i know

jordan always remember your thoughts and actions
must be open to change and improvement but your

convictions must be non-negotiable so live by your
convictions and on your journey if you ever get

down and feel like you need to talk to someone
then talk to the one who can do something about

mom it you said my dad couldn't
come home when i was born

no sweetie why

not can you hear me yeah yeah i can
hear you hey baby girl how you doing

i'm good hang on hang on say hi to your son

hey what's up soldier

oh he's kicking here's you he hears you yeah
you know daddy boyce we miss you i miss you too

how are you gainfully employed would
definitely be an understatement

sorry i haven't called you it's been three weeks
where are you i want to look at it on my map

no i can't tell you that thank you for my
pictures though you look beautiful i mean [ Transcript By SHIBAMOONTranscript By SHIBAMOON ]

i love in the belly yeah it's easy for you to say
you're not the one who has to carry him around

it's true it's true can't wait to meet him

which reminds me you need to tell me where
you're coming so i can set a date to be induced

i don't know yet well you must have some idea
haven't you put in a request for your leave

no not yet

wait you're cutting it kind of
close what are you waiting for

i don't know you don't know what

charles yes ma'am what are you telling me

you're not coming are you

hello i just need you to please just try

to understand we just got in
country a couple of months i

that can happen whether you are there or not
it's not like i'm asking you to go to chrome

i can't do this right now david just just
breathe oh please no i know your problem

and you know i love you we need you as much as
they do please please i am begging you hello

i gotta go no don't don't get off this
phone please charles no no no no charles

son i couldn't be at your birth because of the war

i hope you and your mother can forgive me

every time i roll out of that gate
i pray i don't run out of time

time with you time with your mother

so much to do jordan but i had
faith that you are safe and sound

because you're surrounded by strong women

these are your first teachers little prince

and all of these women embody the reasons you
should never ever disrespect or lay your hand

against any woman the woman you choose to be your
partner should guard your friendship first son

and just like you she should be honorable
and take pride in how she carries herself

but remember

and real beauty comes from deep inside

pfc coats here first idea private brain

just take one look at your mind
and that'll tell you what i think

life

welcome home daddy come on meet
your son hey hey oh my god hey hi hi

this boy is so special you're so cute you're
gonna be a blessing to everybody you mean

someone else thought i was his nanny today
he's so light-skinned no one thinks he's

mine he just gets that from my
mom so you know what i did what

then that way people you won't think twice

are you all right

yeah it's just asthma since
when do you have asthma

our bases buy a power plant doc said properly
got it there it's nothing are you sure

yes don't worry about it

but i'm serious though i can get you a ring
we could do the whole thing one more time

jordan could be my best man
you mean get married why not

no i don't want to cram my
whole lives into one visit

i want a real wedding with white cali
lilies and flower girls and tulle dresses

welcoming dresses too

look you've got six weeks left i can wait

let's open up

charles yeah

hey we got a surprise for you oh no you
don't we have enough soldiers in the family

all right fine i'll wait till he's 18
and take him down to the recruiters

but in the meantime put this on
what is this just trust us go

where are we i say we're moving on
out moving on up to the east side

why are you doing this

surprise for you now we're up in the big leagues
but take a night turn it back long as we live

thank you

olive oil

extra virgin just like you

used to be

what's going on

can i get a membership into your little voice club

i don't know biscuit what do you
say should we let her in our club

what's that said your application is pending
pending causing shots as much as i whip my

movies out to feed him that's a good point
hold please you sure i don't know uh she's

good looking all right okay okay fine on
the count of the booby thing you said okay

are you okay

charles

ain't that right biscuits

i don't want this one which one

is this you

how about this one

i don't want this one either

can't you just go awol and stay here
with us so you want to marry a coward

all right bye girl yeah that biscuit

she wasn't like that at work love
you take care of your mother farmer

you

i want you to wear your dress blues
a marianna soldier yeah you are

i love you

i love you more

guess what oh god don't start
guess what no guess what say it

chicken

crazy woman

see you biscuit

take care of her

you know technically you didn't free
the slaves they freed themselves

did they the emancipation proclamation only
applied to confederate states but it also allowed

black people to join the army and open the war
someone's been paying attention in history class

how did my dad die

i told you baby all you said was that a
bomb exploded i won't know what happened

your father was a part of the first
battalion 67th armed regiment from fort texas

they called themselves the death dealers
which was fitting because most of their

missions in iraq took part in a place
the military called the triangle of death

your dad's nickname was top

because of his ring he was in charge of
105 men of charlie company their nickname

was the carnivores your dad's job was and i quote
to teach them to stay alive and kill the enemy

on october 14

2006

he took them on a mission

he could have stayed behind that day
he even let his battle buddy sleep in

her dad would never ask his soldiers
to do anything he wouldn't do himself

he went with it with

that's the kind of man the dad was

we trust in you oh god we trust
in you in the name of the father

and the son in the name of jesus christ

amen the mission was to resupply
a place called the island

it was an isolated spot where
about 60 soldiers were posted

at 10 38 in the morning their convoy
passed a place called jerry fossecker

it was about two miles from the island

is um

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hmm

stay with me

hello i'm good how are you

yeah a couple friends just
walked in what's going on

wait i'm sorry what what happened

where is he nowhere is he tell me where is he

okay

they had a plan in place a secret plan
in case something happened to your father

he didn't want me to be alone
when i heard he was gone

where were we even fighting that war

that depends on who you ask some might say we were
fighting to free a country from a tyrant and stop

terrorists others might say we're the reason
they became terrorists in the first place

but i bet if you asked your father he'd
say he was fighting for his soldiers

to keep them alive and to get them home

but he had to die to do

it that's what heroes do they need

oh

jordan what are you doing working out

my dad said physical fitness is important i've
only got one body i better take care of it

it's working isn't it i'm gonna
go hit the showers and get dressed

maybe we should wait until the rain
lets up no we've got here this morning

get dressed

you brought your soup let's move out

mom

you all right yeah i'm fine

told you the song come out today

uh

let's go

so

what is this i sent an email went a
little viral more people wanted to

come but they couldn't make it jordan
why didn't you just ask me mom hi baby

how are you pumpkin oh my god i
can't believe you guys are here

you helped him with this he
wanted to surprise you it worked

excuse me everybody can i have your attention

mom

thank you all for coming some
of you came from pretty far

i'd like to read this it's from my dad

family means everything jordan

it's why i wake up in the morning it's
why i put on the uniform and risk my life

and the great thing about family is that when
you get older you get to choose who's in it

he underlined the word you

so choose wisely surround yourself
with people that love you for you

and love them back because love is the one
thing in this world that's worth fighting for

so i guess that makes all you my family

mom

since you never got a flag my dad
would want me to make sure you got one

private empire private moment

on behalf of a grateful
nation in charlotte company

we wouldn't be here if it weren't
for top none of us would man

uh

this belongs to you

dear jordan when your father died i thought
my life was over but the truth is it was

just beginning you and your dad both showed me how
beautiful life is when you live it below your neck

and in your heart risky place a heart because
it's fragile so it breaks and it hurts

after your dad left i tried my best to feel
nothing so my heart would never break again

but even pain is better than nothing because
without pain it's impossible to find joy

i hope these words will help you understand
the remarkable love your father and i

shared i want you to have that kind of love
jordan the kind of love that does not ask

her to be anyone other than who she is and that
does not ask any more of you dear heavenly father

my prayer for you jordan is that you carry with
you the knowledge that you will always have two

parents guiding you but my mother's intuition
alone will not be enough to teach you to be a man

for that i give you your father's
journal and the wisdom it contains

its pages should give you an
idea of where you came from

so you can decide on exactly where you're
going i love you son always and forever mom

you