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Previously on The L Word:
Generation Q...

[Sophie]
What if we bring to light

everyday queer stories?

I love it.

[Shane] I did have something
to do with your breakup.

I care about you, Tess.

[Pippa] If you offered
a real opportunity,

I would find that hard
to pass up.

[Angie] My donor,
he's in kidney failure,

-and he needs a kidney.
-[Bette] No.

-Shouldn't we hear her out?
-Look, you don't have

-a say in this.
-Babe, babe...

That Bette, I don't how you

-ever married her.
-What?

We have to try
to make this work.

-I'm just so pissed.
-You got through it.

Now we can focus
on more fun stuff.

We're open to you
reaching out to Marcus.

Finley's not that bad.

-I know that. I love her.
-So do I.

♪ I want you, Finley,
I want you! ♪

-Oh, my... excuse me.
-Dani? Dani...

♪ singers vocalizing ♪

[moaning]

-I want to dance with you.
-Yeah. Of course. Yeah.

Not as friends.

♪♪♪

[whispers]
Oh, fuck.

I told you I'd let
you know if my feelings

for you changed, and they have.

♪♪♪

♪ panting ♪

♪ Let's skip small talk ♪

♪ Eyes meet, lips lock ♪

♪ We're just bodies
in a sleepwalk... ♪

-[grunts]
-[laughter]

♪ We're not done yet ♪

♪ Living life without a regret ♪

♪ Call us wanton,
call us impure... ♪

-[smack]
-Ooh, fuck.

♪ That we're uncalled for ♪

Ooh!

♪ Say we're toxic
without a cure ♪

-[moaning]
-♪ Say we're wrong ♪

♪ To not want something more ♪

♪ Or, or, or, or,
or, or, or, or ♪

♪ Or, or, or, or, or-or ♪

♪ More, or, or, or, or, or... ♪

-[panting]
-[moaning]

♪ Or, or, or-or ♪

♪ We don't need more ♪

♪ Oh ♪

♪ 'Cause that's not
what we're searching ♪

♪ We don't need more... ♪

[passionate moaning]

♪ 'Cause that's not what
we're searching for... ♪

[moans]

[both panting]

♪ Or, or, or, or, or,
or, or, or, or, or, or-or ♪

Should we, like...

drink water or eat or something?

[exhales sharply]

Yeah, yeah.

-Probably should.
-Okay.

But wait, wait. Maybe not.

Maybe not.

[both moaning]

[Alice]
Tom's kind of great. No.

-[Bette] I got it.
-No, no.

Oh, okay.

Well, I'm happy for you, Alice.

-You seem pretty smitten.
-Well, we'll see.

I mean, it has been a very
nice way to move on from Nat.

-Mm...
-And Gigi?

Is probably playing head games
with someone else.

Yeah, yeah.

[indistinct chatter]

Did I summon them?

Oh, fuck.

They're both here?
That is so gay.

♪ "Girls Will Be Girls"
by AG featuring Suzy Shinn ♪

♪ Girls will be girls
will be girls ♪

♪ Just like girls will be
girls will be girls ♪

♪ Oh, my girls will be girls
will be girls ♪

♪ What's it to you? ♪

You know what's super weird?

It's like together,
they're one big, giant ex.

But then one of them is your ex,
and then one of them is my ex.

Well, actually,
the other one is also my ex.

Yeah, well, it's really some
of your finest work.

-Thank you.
-[phone ringing]

Oh, shoot,
I've-I've ignored him twice.

I've got to get this call.

Hi, Isaac.

Hey, Bette. I'm gonna go say hi

to be nice.
I'll meet you by the car.

Okay. Be strong.

You're moving on.
No, not you, Isaac.

[huffs]

Hi!
[laughs]

[laughs]
Hi.

What are you doing here?

I was having brunch
with Bette inside.

-Oh. Wow.
-Yeah.

Great.

How are you?

Good. Good-good.

-Very, very, very good.
-Good?

-Yeah.
-Good. Yeah. Me, too.

[inhales sharply]

And I'm just here
with Gigi going over

the schedule.
We're not, you know,

-together.
-I didn't think you guys were.

-Yeah, I wasn't...
-Yeah, I hope you don't

think that.
It's just logistics.

Right, I know
how you love those.

-[Nat] Yeah.
-[Alice] Yep.

-Okay, good seeing you.
-Yeah.

-It was great.
-Good to see you.

-Okay.
-This is nice.

-Mm-hmm, it's great. Okay.
-Okay.

-All right. Bye.
-Later, later.

So how was that?

That was... nice?

Hmm.

♪ I'm a beast ♪

♪ I'm a legend ♪

♪ Yeah, you'll need
a safe word with me... ♪

Um... that's new.

You got some new moves, huh?

Yeah. You like that?

Um...

Oh, yeah!

[panting]

[Tess] I'm excited
for our charity event tonight.

Yeah, so I'm thinking
we do a $1K buy-in.

And then we can donate
ten percent to the MS Society.

It's amazing.

-You like it?
-Yeah, it's great.

Like, I...

-feel like I'm gonna cry.
-No, no.

Don't, don't do that.

Okay, I won't.

But seriously?

Thank you for doing this for me.

It's my pleasure, Tess.

Okay. Um...

I'm gonna go hang out
with my anonymous friends now.

Okay.

I'll call you after.

-Have a good meeting.
-Thank you.

[engine starts]

[sighs]

Christ.

[Angie]
I don't know.

Maybe hearing
about what my donor's parents

did for a living would be cool.

Maybe, but... are you sure
you want it to be so formal?

With, like, written-out
questions and everything?

Well, yeah. 'Cause what

if I freeze and forget
everything I wanted to ask him?

I guess.

Do you like this look?

Hmm?

There's a suit version, too.

[Angie]
Yeah.

So cute.

I just may not get another
chance 'cause I don't know

if my moms will let me
see him more than once.

Uh-huh.

Do you think he would
tell me if he's...

ever been arrested
or what his biggest regret is?

Oh, my God. What if he,
like, killed someone?

That'd be nuts.

Yeah. Totally.

Hey, you're def gonna
come hang out

at the park
tomorrow night, right?

For sure.

Cool.

-Are you...?
-See ya.

Okay.

Bye.

[Bette]
Hi.

You came.

You said you had a real offer,
so here I am.

Can I get you
some water or coffee?

No, thanks.

Just...

Well, the CAC

is mounting a group show
of artists of color

whose work addresses
Black Lives Matter.

-Hmm.
-I pitched the idea

of building the show around you.

Did they laugh in your face?
[laughs]

They most certainly did not.

I think I'll take
that water now.

This is a good thing.

This is a museum show.

-[water pouring]
-Guaranteed.

I, um...

I was promised the world
when I was 22.

I was a kid.

And I actually felt
like I deserved it.

You did deserve it.

Then and now.

I had to walk away, though.

Before I ever had a chance
to really settle into my work.

-I mean, you were so young.
-Right.

And my whole sense of my self
was wrapped up in my work.

There was no separation.

So any kind of rejection was
personal.

Deep.

I can understand that.

But now here we are,

30 years, pounds later...
[chuckles]

walking into this office,

hearing the great Bette Porter

say to me that,
that I can have it all back

if I get back on that ride.

You don't have
to take that ride alone.

I will protect you.

I need you to understand
that I don't know

if I would survive
that journey again.

I bare my soul in my work.

My soul.

I know that.

'Cause I can feel it.

Please.

Let me take care of it.

'Cause, truly, nothing...
nothing has ever

made me feel so...

seen... as your work.

And that includes the new work.

I mean, you-you are reckoning
with your own queerness

and your own Blackness
in-in ways that I have...

barely begun
to unpack for myself.

I do it all for my son.

Whether she knows it or not,
I do everything for my daughter.

Okay.

"Okay," what?

Okay, I'm in.

[Bette]
I know.

I know,
I can't believe it, either.

Yes, okay, yes.

We'll-we'll work out
the logistics.

Yeah, I know it's gonna be
a quick turnaround,

but we'll get it done.

All right, talk soon. Bye.

[phone buzzing]

[exhales sharply]

Hi, Carrie.

[crowd cheering]

We're all suckers
for a good love story, right?

Well, these two...

almost make me believe
that if you find the right one,

it can last a lifetime.

So it is my pleasure
to introduce you

to Patty and June Healey-Waters.

[Sophie]
This is the Quiet Rebellion.

I know you've been together
for 43 years,

but I don't know how
it all started.

-Well...
-I-I was a mail carrier.

And I had an apartment
on Gardner.

-What are you doing?
-Hi.

We got to get out there.
We're missing it.

No, no. It's playing right here.

-Oh, God. Everything's wet.
-Oh.

I feel like my socks are
fucking plastered to my leg.

[laughs]
Get it off me.

[Sophie]
So gross.

[Finley]
Ow!

-Ooh, oof!
-I'm sorry.

[laughing]
Okay.

Oh, God, ugh.

-Hi.
-Hi.

Oh, God, you look good.

We can stay back here, okay?

What are you talking about?

I want to see everybody
flipping out for you.

Oh, but what
if it doesn't go well?

What, are you scared?

[scoffs]
Of course I'm scared.

This is the moment
of my professional life.

I mean... millions of people are

gonna see this thing
that I made.

Hey. Hey, they're gonna love it.

Come here.

They are.

-Hey, you want to know why?
-Hmm?

It's important.

And it's also
really fucking good.

That's nice.

It's true.

You're the bestest
and the smartest.

-Yeah? Okay.
-Yeah, you know that.

Say more stuff.

[chuckles]
And the sexiest.

[both moaning]

And the best kisser.

Mm-hmm.
[chuckles]

[audience cheering]

I'm so glad you enjoyed that
as much as I did.

Would you like
to see more of those?

-[audience cheering]
-[woman whoops]

Okay, because my producer
Sophie Suarez

worked her ass off
on that segment,

and I am so proud of her,

so let's all give her
a big round of applause!

[cheering]

All right, everybody,
that's our show.

And always remember, stay gay

and say no to patchouli.
Thank you!

-[cheering]
-[applause]

That was good, Alice.
Really good.

Real...? Oh, listen.
I can't take all the credit.

I have to give it to Sophie.

I'd like
to congratulate her myself.

Okay, oh, great, great,
great, come on.

Uh, listen, she would love that,

because she's kind of shitting
bricks in the greenroom,

-and she'll be really relieved.
-[chuckles]

I always find
if you surround yourself

with a more youthful staff,

it just kind of brings
a life and, and an energy

to the show that I...

-[moaning]
-[Sophie gasps]

[Finley]
Oh, shit.

-Everything okay?
-[clattering]

Yeah, they're naked.
They're, um...

uh... um...

They're totally exposed.

Emotionally.

Oh, okay.

Well, maybe I can come back.

You know what? Now's not
a good time, but call...

[Gigi]
So I walk

by the car... thank you...
car window...

-Chicken?
-Sí, señora.

-Thank you.
-Walk by the car window

and I see her fucking head

popping out of the sunroof.

[laughs]
Oh, my God.

No, I literally...

It took everything in me not
to knock on the window

and fuck with Alice a little.

You absolutely
should've done it.

I mean, there will be
plenty of chances.

That woman's love
for public sex knows no bounds.

[sighs]

So, we gonna talk
about the other night?

I was hoping to just
skip over it, actually.

[laughs]
Okay.

She's a "lock it in the closet

and throw away the key" type.

My favorite.

No, I just...

Um...

If you don't feel
the same way, that's okay.

I'm a big girl.

I can handle it.

No, I just thought it was
kind of shitty, actually.

Me telling you I have feelings
for you was shitty?

Well...

I had a fucking horrible night.

To see the two of them
like that, it...

-Mm-hmm.
-And then...

you made me feel good.

But then I needed a friend.

So we're friends?

It-It's all just too fast.
[sighs]

Okay. We can slow down.

And it's Bette.

I don't think she'll care.

I would never want someone to
feel the way I did when Sophie--

I don't think Bette had
very strong feelings for me.

I find that hard to believe.
[chuckles]

If that's what this is
really about,

you need to talk to her.

Hey, guys, what the fuck?!

-[Finley stammers]
-Barry wanted to see you.

My God. He did?

I-I'm sorry.

Look, I'm so sorry. I-I-I just
got really nervous and then...

Can this just be my fault?

I don't even work here anymore.

What is it about that couch?

Well, I think
it's less about the couch

and more about the location
of the room.

Right?

I'll stop talking.

[sighs]

You know what,
I like you two together.

I do. Big fan.

I just want to see less of it.

-We can do that.
-Copy. Less.

Febreze the shit out
of that couch before you leave.

-Absolutely.
-Copy. Febreze-ing.

[Angie] Jordi's amazing
for so many reasons.

But it-it just feels like we're
dealing with different stuff.

Mm. Like with my dad?

Exactly.

In the beginning she was cool.

But now she just seems
preoccupied...

with other stuff.

Like prom and parties.

That seems kind of fun,
actually.

Yeah, no, totally.

Um... but earlier today,

I was trying to think
of questions to ask your dad

for when I meet him, which
you would think would be easy,

but it's actually super hard.

Well, if you want,
I can answer anything.

Or if you want help
thinking of questions,

I could do that, too.

Yes, that's the type of stuff

I want her to say, but...

-she just...
-She doesn't.

Yeah.

Have you ever broken up
with somebody before?

Mm-mm.

♪ Last night, called you
a hundred times ♪

♪ Felt so alone ♪

♪ In my bedroom ♪

♪ So lost, I don't even ♪

♪ Know why you are feelin'
just like home... ♪

Oh, man.

What do you want for dinner?

Uh...

I could do Chinese,
pizza, mac and cheese.

-Your call.
-Do you know how to cook?

Yeah, I can make stuff.
What do you want?

No, I just...

want to know
if you can feed yourself.

Oh, I see.

-Like a test.
-[Sophie sighs]

No, that's not what I meant.

Think I'm like a big kid,
don't you?

Well, you...

kind of, sort of are.

Look, I know I'm not
as grown up as Dani.

-Okay.
-Or whatever, but my parents

kicked me out
when I was 18, so...

sort of different circumstances.

I never compared you
to her, okay?

Would never do that.

It's fine, whatever.

If you got doubts about me,
I want to know.

I don't, okay?

It's just...

-I...
-What?

Look, we just know each other
in, you know, one...

way, and... I'm trying
to get to know you

in a different way.

Okay. What do you want to know?

I'm an open book.

Okay... well...

hmm.

Do you want kids?

Hell yes.
Like a fuck-ton of 'em.

[laughs]
Okay.

What else you got?

Well... what about...

career ambitions?

Uh...
[laughs]

I'm hoping
this reffing kids' soccer

kind of turns into a real thing.

But...

I'm also down to be
a stay-at-home baby daddy.

-[Sophie chuckles]
-And, yes, before you even ask,

of course
you can be my sugar mama.

Ooh... okay.

What, you want me to go
to an online college?

Get a degree
in the medical field?

-I can do that.
-[clears throat]

-I've seen the commercials.
-Mm-hmm.

Uh, or I can, uh,

donate my body to science.

You know,
bunch of blood donating,

medical trials.

♪ peppy pop music ♪

♪♪♪

♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh ♪

-♪ Wow ♪
-♪ Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh ♪

Oh, I don't know why
I'm so stressed out.

I just want everything
to be perfect.

I promise you it's gonna be
a great night.

I just want to move to an island
somewhere, you know?

Yeah? I don't know,
I've always thought

about moving
to the mountains in...

Colorado.

That's the exact opposite
of an island.

It's not gonna rain, is it?

I don't know, it might.
[clears throat]

Well, what do we do if it does?

We get wet.

♪ Celebrate ♪

♪ Let's get together ♪

[laughter]

♪ Celebrate ♪

♪ Celebrate ♪

♪ With you and me... ♪

-Wow, look at this.
-Hey.

All right.

Look at us,
all on time and shit.

-Oh, you like that?
-So responsible.

Look at that.

-[Alice] Hey.
-Oh, no.

It's nice to see
you two dressed up.

Or wearing anything, really.

Oh. Good one.
Yeah, we deserve that.

Uh, well,
thanks for being so cool.

I was just really horrified
by the whole thing.

Oh, my God, I've done
worse, first of all.

But there's
a lot of network people here,

so you can make nice.

-Okay. That's awesome.
-Sounds good.

Yeah, we got it.

Wow! Hi. Okay.

Are you, are you two...?

We j... Us? We just...
hang out and stuff.

Oh. Yep.

Just hanging.

-Okay...
-Sounds totally believable.

[Shane]
Hey.

[Alice]
Pretty much all we do.

So glad you guys made it.

-Hi.
-Hi.

-And you made it.
-Yes.

-Hi. Good to see you.
-Been a while, yeah.

Yeah, it has.

Happy to be here.

Okay, well, I live to mingle.

Really ready to work
this room, so, um...

We're gonna grab a drink, yeah.

Great. You crazy kids have
fun, though, huh?

Well, I'm, uh, gonna go
to the bathroom.

Okay.

What's up with that?

-Nothing.
-Right.

Just two friends sharing
their love of trashy TV.

You come in the same car?

Yes. For the environment.

We're very into charity.

-[clears throat]
-Oh, God.

Okay, it's just sex.

Look, I just, I hope you
both are on the same page.

Otherwise that's
gonna get messy.

I know, I know.

But it's casual.
It's really casual.

That's good.
What does Tom think?

What are you, Oprah?

Well, fuck me for caring
about your well-being.

Jesus.

Oh, Al.

What?

-Look, look.
-What?

-[Alice] Oh, my God.
-That has to be Pippa.

That has to be her.

Finally.

Oh, there they are.

Hey!

Alice, Shane,
this is Pippa Pascal.

-Hi! Nice to meet you.
-Hi.

It is so nice
to finally meet you.

Oh, well, thank you

for allowing me to crash
your marvelous event.

Of course.
I'm glad you could make it.

It's a really nice place
to bring a date, you know?

-Good lighting, romantic...
-Um, actually

we are out celebrating the fact

that Pippa has agreed
to sign with the gallery.

-That's huge.
-Oh, congratulations.

Thank you, thank you very much.

No, thank you, 'cause this one,

she goes on and on and on
and on and on and on about you.

-Alice.
-Please tell me, I would love

-to hear more about that.
-I mean, that was just going on

-for months, right?
-I would say years.

-No... ha, years.
-Definitely years.

"I wish she'd notice me.
What can I do?"

-That sounds--
-No.

[Shane]
Is that Carrie?

Oh. Yeah. She called
and asked if she could come,

even though Tina was out
of town. I couldn't say no.

Very nice of you.

There's no reason
we can't all get along.

-At separate tables.
-I got it covered.

We're gonna go try
to find our table.

Very nice meeting you both.

-You, too.
-Pleasure to meet you, Pippa.

So, years, huh?

Well, I like her.

I have a really good feeling
about those two.

Yeah.

You ever seen Dumb and Dumber?

-No. Why?
-[Tess] Shane.

-No reason.
-Shane.

Hi. Uh, I got to run inside.

See you in a bit.

Oh, yeah. Do your thing.
Hey, where's Nat?

Do y...? Is there, like,
a long line for the bathroom?

-Bathroom's right there.
-Alice?

-Hmm?
-Hey.

-Oh, hey, Carrie.
-How are you?

-Good.
-Good.

-You look great.
-Thank you.

I just wanted you to know
I love the show this season.

-It's fantastic.
-Aw, that's really sweet.

I mean, a lesbian
talk show host?

That's me.

It's unprecedented.

I know... Well, there's Ellen.

-Yeah. Yeah.
-Yeah.

But, yeah, after that,
I can't think of anyone.

It was like... road wide open.

No, you're, like, paving
the way for everybody.

-Yeah.
-It's ama... It means a lot

to a lot of people.
It means a lot to me.

Thank you.
Have you been to a talk show?

-Never.
-I can get you tickets.

-Are you kidding?
-No. I could do... I mean,

-I could call my producer and...
-Oh, I would love it.

-Oh...
-That's something. What?

I have to go to the bathroom.
I have to go to the bathroom.

-Okay, nature calls. I get it.
-Um...

-listen, say hi to Tina.
-I will.

And also I'm gonna get you
those tickets.

Thank you so much, Alice.

-And a mug, if you want a mug.
-I'd love a mug.

You think Alice is the top?

No, Nat is in charge
in the house.

-No. What? I can't picture that.
-Yeah.

-I thought she was fucking Tom.
-Me, too.

I was just gonna ask her how
riding the "D" was, but she...

-Oh, God.
-[Barry] Sophie!

There you are.

Barry, hi.

I'm sorry I missed you
the other day.

I know, I'm sorry
that I missed you, really.

The segment is phenomenal.

[exhales]
Thank you.

[chuckles] Thank you so much.
I'm-I'm super proud of it.

But, really, I wanted to thank
you for giving me the freedom

to-to find it, you know?

It's been super fulfilling,
and--

I'm Sarah Finley.

Barry.

Hey, I got an Uncle Barry.

Nowhere near
as good-looking as you, though.

-I promise.
-[chuckles]

I, uh, I-I watched Sophie

put that segment together,
and I was... blown away.

Uh, she's... you know,
heart-in-my-gut kind of feeling.

-Thanks, babe.
-[Barry] Yeah. Yeah.

-Of course.
-You know, I responded to it,

too, which I think is impressive

considering I'm not exactly
the, uh...

-target audience.
-Right, 'cause you're

a straight white man
in America, Barry?

-Oh!
-Hey, it's okay.

You can say it. We're in a safe
space, here, Bar. [chuckles]

[laughs]
Looks like we're running low.

Why don't you let me buy
you two a round?

Absolutely.

[Lightminded's "Out Here Livin'"
playing]

[Carrie]
That's for you. Thanks so much.

-Thank you.
-Carrie.

-Hey, Shane.
-How you doing?

I'm good, thank you.
How are you?

-I'm good.
-Great.

It's a beautiful evening. You
made this place look so great.

Yeah.

I don't like small talk.

I just wanted to check
to see how you are.

-Me?
-Yeah, you.

I'm good. Really great.

Thank you. This actually helps

take the edge off
a little bit, right here.

[chuckles]

-Full disclosure, Carrie.
-Yeah.

Um, took a friend
to an AA meeting.

And I saw you there.

I know it's not my business,
I just...

I love Tina. She's family, so

-if there's anything I can do...
-Oh, no, no, no, no, no.

I was there for my OA meeting.

You know, for eating,
not for drinking.

At least not yet.
[chuckles]

Slippery slope.
I am allowed to have these.

96 calories. Vodka soda.

Cheers.

I am sorry, Carrie.
I misunderstood.

No, no, yeah, I get it. I mean,

I would've thought
the same thing.

You know, come on.
I'm a 60-year-old woman

who's been on antidepressants
half her life.

You know?
It's got to be booze or food.

It's not gonna be sex, you know?

[chuckles]
Although I've seen that bunch,

and they are not
what you would expect.

Not my business either way.

I just, I want you
to have a good night,

and-and just know the secret's
safe with me, okay?

Okay. Actually, Shane, it's
not really a secret, you know?

My life is kind of an open book.

Yeah, you know,
I haven't been, uh...

feeling like myself.

I've needed to go to a meeting
as I try to navigate your world.

-My world? What world?
-Well, um...

like you, you know,
just you all, I mean...

-Tina's friends and trying to...
-Right. [clears throat]

-Right.
-...fit in.

It won't surprise you,
I don't think, to hear

that I'm still sort of
struggling with Bette Porter.

[sighs]
Yeah.

Look, that's a, uh...
delicate situation,

and you just have
to give it time.

Just every time I'm around her,
Shane, I feel like

I'm a different species,
you know?

-You're not.
-I mean, I just,

if she got to know me,

I think she would
really like me.

You got to give it time,
all right?

-All right.
-Just-just be patient.

Yeah, I just feel
like I really want to try,

because, I mean,
something's got to change.

-Go slow, all right?
-Okay.

-Thank you, thank you.
-Yes, yes. Okay.

-Thank you. All right.
-Have a good night, Carrie.

-I'll see you downstairs.
-Can I get another one quick?

[engine shuts off]

Okay, I can do this.

We can still be friends.

[phone chimes and buzzes]

[phone chiming]

What the...?

♪ I wanna be a great one ♪

♪ I wanna be
a great one ♪

♪ I wanna make
a billion dollars ♪

Oh, my God.

♪ Bring it to my pops, say,
"Daddy, what you prayed for" ♪

♪ What is life? What is love? ♪

♪ What are lies?
What is trust? ♪

♪ What is everything? ♪

♪ Everything is nothing
without you ♪

♪ What is life?
What is love? ♪

♪ What are lies?
What is trust? ♪

♪ What is everything?
Everything is nothing ♪

♪ Without you ♪

♪ Ooh, ooh ♪

♪ Nothing, nothing, nothing ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Everything is nothing
without you ♪

♪ Ooh ♪

♪ Without you, without you ♪

-♪ Ooh ♪
-♪ Ooh ♪

♪ What is life? What is love? ♪

♪ What is time?
What is choice? ♪

♪ What is everything? ♪

♪ Everything is nothing
without you ♪

♪ What is life?
What is love? ♪

-Aah!
-[Jordi laughs]

♪ I hope I am enough ♪

♪ What is everything? ♪

♪ Everything is nothing
without you ♪

♪♪♪

Will you go to prom with me?

Yes. Yes.

Oh, my God.

♪ Ooh, I got ahold of you ♪

♪ And you don't even
understand ♪

♪ That I could break
your heart in two... ♪

Hey, Bette.

Hey, Carrie.

Mind if I join you tonight?

Oh, I would have loved that.

But I'm here
with a friend actually.

-Really?
-Yeah.

Okay.

It's so funny,
I just had a total flashback

of my high school
in Staten Island,

that when I would ask
all the cool girls

if I could sit
with them at lunch,

they would just, like, you know,
whisper, "She's such a dyke."

Oh, God. I'm so sorry.

That was obviously not
my intention.

Oh, no, I didn't mean that.

-At all.
-No, no, I know. Yeah.

Well, if it's any consolation,
I mean, I had

a similar experience...

-but it was soccer camp.
-Yeah.

There were two girls,
and they would whisper

"Nigger dyke" behind my back.

They'd try to get me
to sit in the back

of the bus
as some kind of joke.

Wow.

Okay.

But it pissed me off, I got MVP.

-No, good for you.
-[laughs]

Anyway,
we don't need to compete at

-the oppression Olympics, do we?
-No, no!

-Not at all, definitely not.
-No. Right. Good.

'Cause my plan was just
to sort of hang out with you

tonight and see if we could
maybe bond, you and me.

Uh, well, as I said,
I'm-I'm here with a friend,

so tonight's
not really the night.

-[lively chatter]
-Seriously?

Really?

[sighs]

Look, I-I know I've been
harsh in the past.

Um, and out of respect for Tina

and you and my love for Angie,

I'm-I'm completely happy
to be totally civil.

But I-I think anything
beyond that

is just totally unnecessary,
you know?

Okay?

You know what, Bette?

On the way here tonight,
I was feeling really good.

You know, I had,
like, a bounce in my step.

I got this new outfit on, and...

then I was up there
and I saw you.

I just want you to know,

it does not feel good
to be around you.

It really doesn't.

Feels like I'm a kid
in some kind of trouble.

Okay, that, to me,

sounds like that's your baggage.

-Okay. That's a good point.
-Yeah.

That's a really good point. I...

I guess...

that I just wanted your,
um, your blessing.

Maybe your just acceptance
would be nice.

You know what, if you think
what you have with Tina

is working, and you feel
really good about it,

then I don't see
why you would care

what I think about you.

Right?

-Right.
-[Pippa] Hi.

-[Bette] Hey.
-Am I interrupting?

No. Not at all.

You have a good night, Carrie.

Here you go.

-Cheers.
-Yeah, indeed.

♪ Oh, I like the way
I'm movin' in my body now ♪

♪ My body now ♪

♪ Oh, oh, I like the way
I'm movin' in my body now ♪

♪ My body now ♪

♪ Oh, oh, I like the way
I'm movin' in my body now ♪

♪ My body now ♪

♪ Oh, oh, I like the way
I'm movin' in my body now ♪

♪ My body now ♪

♪ Fire, sparks ignite ♪

♪ Rising from the ground,
lighting up the sky ♪

[fading]
♪ Who knows or who cares why? ♪

[sighs]

[Nat moaning]

[stall door opens]

Hey!

Oh, Dani.

-Hey.
-Hi, we were just, um...

In the stall... together.

Yeah, that, uh, tracks actually.

You might want to get
a really good lather on those.

Is Gigi here with you?

No.

No, we're not...

I actually wanted to ask Bette
whether she'd have a problem

if Gigi and I were to...

-Oh. No, no, no, no.
-Oh!

I don't think she'd mind at all.

I don't think so.
Yeah, not at all.

In fact, if you think Gigi's
gonna work for you,

I mean, you know,
I'd be grateful.

-You know?
-[all laughing]

We'd be grateful,
I think, is what she means.

Yeah, well, they just broke up,

so I want to be respectful.

No, I don't think
she would mind.

Not a bit.

-Okay.
-Yeah.

And, for what it's worth,

um, Gigi's really into you.

-Oh.
-Yeah, I had lunch with her

the other day,
and I haven't seen her

like this in a long time.

That's true.

Yeah.

[Cannons' "Fire for You"
playing]

[sighs]

♪ I was on fire for you ♪

[indistinct chatter]

♪ Where did you go? ♪

♪ I could have died for you ♪

♪ How could you not know? ♪

Hey.

I come in peace.

Oh, boy.

Look, dude,
I'm so fucking sorry.

No, you're not.

No, I am. Like...

I hope I didn't...

you know, fuck you up.

That's generous of you.

You're, like...
I-I'm trying to be an adult,

and you're, like,
the most adult person I know.

I think that says more
about you than it does me.

But we're, like, the same age.

And I think
the similarities end there.

You're also scary, really scary.

But I mean that as,
like, a compliment.

Like, I think
you're good at that.

Finley, what? What?

I just, I, um...

I... want to be better.

Like, how do I get it together?

Get a job?

Don't steal people's fiancées?

Yeah. I don't think that's it...

Okay, I don't fucking know,
then.

I'm so sick of people
thinking I have it together.

Because all that means
is that...

unlike you...

people aren't inclined
to hold me when I need it most.

And if you ever use
that against me, so help me God,

I will actually kill you.

Can I hug you?

No.

Go get your girlfriend.

It's a good thing
that this is a charity,

or I'd pissed about losing
all that money.

Oh, no, no. It was completely
worth it to me.

-Really?
-To see you out of your element.

-Oh, my God. Really?
-Yeah. Oh, no.

I have
a very deep sense of relief

that you are very bad
at something.

Oh, that just,
that's not even fair.

Yeah, I'm not even ashamed
to admit it.

Wow. Not even ashamed?

No.

[MOONZz's "Found You" playing]

♪ Before you I was shooting
the clock to kill time ♪

♪ Catching my breath,
lost my mind ♪

♪ All of my heart,
all this time ♪

♪ I didn't know, I didn't know ♪

♪ I found you ♪

Let's get out of here.

[Nat] Yeah, we went there,
like, every summer.

Tell me you went to the taco
place over by the wharf.

Constantly.
Oh, my God, it's amazing.

-Okay, I was working there.
-When?

-Every day.
-Really? Oh, my God.

We probably crossed paths.
That's crazy.

-Thank you.
-Well--

-Nice meeting you.
-It was a pleasure.

Oh, my God, that woman
at the bar asked me

if I thought you looked
like Alice on TV.

[chuckles]
That's funny. What'd you say?

I said you were much prettier.

That's sweet.

So, do you want to finish these
and then go back to my place?

Aren't the kids, um,
with the sitter tonight?

Yeah.

I... It's, like, the sneaking
around thing we're doing,

it's, like, fun and it's sexy,
but I just, I don't know.

All right, well,
we don't have to.

Oh, God.

What is it?

Well, don't make me tell you

why this isn't gonna work.

[chuckles softly]
But I thought

-we were doing this.
-What's changed?

-Nothing.
-Nothing.

-Right. Nothing's changed.
-So...

So why would you...?

I don't know. I...
It felt familiar, it felt good.

Right. It felt good.

So why-why would we stop that?

-You know exactly why.
-I don't. No...

I don't know.

You know why.

[sighs]

-Are you gonna cry?
-No.

-No, don't cry.
-[Nat sniffles]

Butch up a little.

-[chuckles softly]
-Sorry.

Don't make me laugh.

Okay, I won't.

Okay, but you were
acting so weird.

Yeah, 'cause I didn't want to,
like, blow the surprise.

Oh, yeah,
it was definitely a surprise.

There was a lot going on.

It was awesome.

And honestly
I'm kind of relieved.

What do you mean?

I thought it was getting
down to the wire.

And I thought I was gonna have
to go to prom alone.

-Shut up.
-[Angie laughs]

[slurping]

[indistinct chatter]

Excuse me?

-Hi.
-Hello. I would still like

to play some more poker.
There's nobody here.

Oh, um,

we're actually wrapping up

-for the night.
-Yeah? Oh, oh, oh!

I'm not done with that.
Right there. Thank you.

Wow, everybody's just
buzzing around here.

You know me? Did we meet?

-Yeah, we met earlier.
-Yeah, I'm Carrie.

-I'm an, I'm an attorney.
-Hi. Hi.

-Yeah, I'm a lawyer, so...
-That's great.

I passed the bar
in two states actually.

-Oh, wow.
-Yeah, so, I have the money

and everything, and I would
like to play some more.

It's kind of late, though.

Um, maybe I could call you
a Lyft or something?

[Carrie] That would be very good
because my phone isn't working

because I don't know
the password.

-Hey, Carrie.
-Hi, Shane.

-How you feeling?
-I feel all right.

Yeah?

I bumped into Bette Porter.

Yeah?

And?

It did not go good.

I'm sorry, Carrie.

Me, too, Shane.

Me, too, but I'm just gonna...

I'm just gonna
forget it ever happened.

-Are you okay?
-No, I'm fine.

I'm fine. I'm absolutely fine.

Maybe we should take her home.

I mean, I don't want her
throwing up in a Lyft.

Okay, so she can
throw up in my car?

I mean...

Phone, can you tell me
my password?

-Carrie, Carrie.
-Yes?

How about we go home, hmm?

-When? Now?
-Now. I'm gonna drive you home.

-You are?
-Yeah, don't worry about that.

-You're gonna drive me home?
-Yeah, you're on the way.

-Thank... Whoa!
-Oh. You good?

-Oh, no. I'm okay.
-Okay.

That was surprising.

Okay, all right, just through
that door right over there.

-Okay.
-You have everything?

-Will you get the chips for me?
-I didn't bring my chips.

-No, no. No, no, no, no...
-I have my chips.

-I'm gonna take care, I got it.
-Tess-Tess has your,

-has your chips.
-I'll take care of it.

[Finley]
I did something naughty.

I talked to Dani.

What?!

-You did wh--?
-Yeah, I did.

-No.
-I did.

I told her I was sorry
I fucked up her life.

[laughing]
Oh, my God...

I know. It's bad, it's bad.

I just, I want it
to be better for you.

That's so wrong.

What are you talking about?

I want to, like, you know,

fucking love you better,
and I felt like she might have

a heads-up on how to do that.

Oh, come on, she doesn't know
how to do that.

-Hey.
-Okay.

You love me better than anyone.

All right? You don't know that?

-No, I guess I...
-What?

[both laugh]

-Stop.
-You're drunk.

You... are so charming.

Yeah, but not in,
like, a good way.

Oh, come on, you charmed
the pants off of Barry.

I told him he was good-looking.
That's not...

Yes. Yes. And he loved it.

And you were just yourself.

You know, that's hard to do.
I can't do that shit.

-Really?
-Yeah.

-Okay.
-Yeah.

-[snickers]
-Mm.

I lose myself all the time.

[deep breath]
Ooh.

I lose myself at work...

I lost myself with Dani.

But with you, it's just...

I can just be myself with you.

And I...

I don't have to think about it.

Mm. You're perfect.

Okay.

You're so perfect.

[both moaning]

Mmm, you trying to stick some
tongue in, in a parking lot?

-Hell yeah.
-[Finley laughs]

Mm. Mm-mm.

-[Sophie groans]
-You're drunk, dude.

Mm...

You're drunk!

-[Sophie exhales]
-You're drunk.

-Oh, did you, did I finish this?
-Okay.

-Okay.
-Yeah. That act...

this actually checks out.

Are you okay to drive?

'Cause I'm... I'm about to barf.

-Shit.
-Yeah, I got it, drunkie.

-You got this?
-Get in the car. You got it?

-Yeah.
-It's a long ten feet.

-You sure you can make it?
-I... yeah.

Take your first left.

[chuckles softly]

[buzzer sounding]

You're a lot more dramatic
than I thought.

I couldn't ask Bette.

Okay.

She seemed like she had
something going on.

Bad timing.

Yeah. Exactly.

And...

I saw Nat and Alice.

Oh.

I mean...

who are you?

You know who I am.

But why have you been
with everybody I know?

-Oh. [sputters]
-I'm sorry, but...

No, that is such
an exaggeration.

I know, I know, but...

can I trust you?

I'd like to think so.

Because...

I've been hurt.

What do you want?

Huh?

Is this... real?

Are you real?

♪ "Teach" by Zeina ♪

[thunder rumbling]

♪ I'll teach you how to kiss it,
teach you how ♪

♪ To touch it,
teach you how to lick it ♪

♪ No one else's business ♪

♪ Teach you how to kiss it,
hit it like you miss it ♪

♪ Let me be your healing... ♪

Come in.

♪ I'm coming over,
you know what I want... ♪

Come in.

I can't. I can't.

Not yet.

♪ And the length you givin' me
got potential... ♪

It's real.

It's very real.

♪ Make that thang cry
until you drown ♪

♪ Third, it's okay if you
don't last the first time ♪

♪ You got to go
round for round ♪

♪ Go deep in my sea,
don't be shy with your hands ♪

♪ You know
where they should be ♪

[thunder cracks]

[thunder rumbling]

Jesus.

-Hey.
-Hi. Okay.

Here, can you hold that?

Yeah. I got it.

-Hey, Carrie.
-Do you need some help, sweetie?

-I love Tina.
-Take that, take that.

Hey, I know, I know you do.

-I love Angie.
-I know. I do, too.

-She's the greatest, isn't she?
-She's the greatest.

-All right, watch...
-She's the best.

-Yeah.
-Everyone else is...

I don't know,
you people are so beautiful.

I'm not like you guys.

Oh, no, no. Don't say that,
Carrie. Watch your step.

Watch your step.
All right, there's one more...

-I'm all right.
-Okay.

Oh, boy. I wanted Bette to say
that I was good enough.

But I don't even think
I'm good enough.

[crying]
So why did I do that?

You know?
Do you think I'm good enough?

Oh. Yes, we do.
You're just drunk, sweetie.

-Yeah, yeah.
-No. This is not just tonight.

People have always thought

that I'm sort of a problem.

Look, Carrie, we all feel
that way at some point.

We're gonna get you settled

and warm, and I promise you
it's gonna be okay.

Yeah, we're gonna get you water

-and a-a cozy bed.
-Yeah, yeah.

I don't think
you guys understand.

You know?

I just can't live like this

the rest of my life.

I don't think I can marry Tina.

[Bette] Okay, wait for me.
I'm gonna come get you.

All right, you go on ahead.

-You go in.
-Okay.

Oh, th... Oh!

This is, uh,
Kismet Russell's latest.

"Color Conversion." Okay.

All right, and now...

What, uh, what are you...?

Wait. You'll see. You'll see.

-[typing]
-[computer beeps]

[exhales]

[gasps]
Oh, damn.

[gasps]
Oh.

Let there be light, yo.

♪ Locking eyes
across the silence ♪

♪ I think you feel it, too ♪

♪ Bite my tongue, turn my head ♪

♪ Don't wanna run to you... ♪

I love it.

♪ I say just have me ♪

It's...

♪ I know it's crazy ♪

It's amazing.

Yeah.

♪ Slow down ♪

♪ I want you,
I want you so bad now ♪

♪ I don't wanna stop,
need you to control it... ♪

[chuckles softly]

♪ In the heat of the moment ♪

♪ I gotta slow down ♪

♪ I gotta slow down ♪

♪ I gotta, I gotta slow down ♪

♪ I can't escape this ♪

♪ But I just wanna taste it ♪

♪ And save some for later ♪

♪ But then again ♪

♪ If you really want me ♪

♪ I say just have me ♪

♪ You make me feel crazy ♪

♪ Crazy ♪

-[both panting]
-♪ I just can't help myself ♪

♪ Damn, I gotta slow down ♪

♪ I want you,
I want you so bad now ♪

[panting]

♪ I don't wanna stop,
need you to control it ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm losin' grip
in the heat of the moment ♪

[panting]

[gasps]

♪ I gotta slow down ♪

♪ I gotta,
I gotta slow down... ♪

Ah. Poor thing.

I know.

-Were you that kind of drunk?
-Oh, no.

-I was much worse than that.
-Really?

Oh, yeah. No, come on.
She didn't break a bone

-or a dish.
-[both laugh]

Well, look,
seriously, thank you.

I truly couldn't have
done that alone.

Shane.

♪ I say just have me ♪

♪ I know it's crazy ♪

♪ I gotta, I gotta slow down ♪

♪ I want you,
I want you so bad now ♪

♪ I don't wanna stop,
need you to control it ♪

♪ 'Cause I'm losin' grip
in the heat of the moment ♪

♪ I gotta slow down ♪

♪ It's gettin' heavy,
hope we're ready ♪

♪ What have we got into? ♪

♪ You kiss my neck,
I pull your hair... ♪

-What?
-What?

I can't look at you?

Shit.

God, you're so hot.

Oh, now I know you're drunk.

No, I really mean it. You are.

I want you.

-Oh, yeah?
-Yeah.

-Like now.
-Oh, shit.

[Sophie moaning]

[exhales]

♪ Slow down ♪

♪ I want you,
I want you so bad now... ♪

That feel good?

Yeah.

♪ 'Cause I'm losin' grip
in the heat of the moment ♪

♪ I gotta slow down ♪

[siren chirps]

Oh, shit.

[officer]
Pull over.

[laughing]
Oh, my God!

What?

Oh, Christ, this fucking button.

Oh, man.

God, do you think
they can see in here?

I think I have some hand sanny
in the glove compartment.

Fuck, I don't.
Okay, that's fine.

Whatever. You can talk
your way out of anything.

You're okay.

[exhales]

You're okay, right?

Right?

♪ dance pop music ♪

[indistinct radio transmission]

♪ Baby, I'm a bad dream ♪

♪ Gonna have to give it up ♪

♪ Oh, baby, I'm a bad dream ♪

♪ Tell me
when you've had enough ♪

♪ 'Cause, baby,
I'm a bad dream ♪

♪ Yeah, you got to give it up ♪

♪ Baby, I'm a bad dream ♪

♪ Let me know
when it's enough ♪

♪ There's a fire in the garden ♪

♪ A madness burnin' ♪

♪ Hot knife to the shoulder ♪

♪ Leads ya to the altar ♪

♪ If you lose control ♪

♪ Don't come look for me ♪

♪ In the middle of the night ♪

♪ Baby, I'm a bad... ♪