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[film reel rolls]

[bird screeches]

[partition beeps]

[Driver] So you're a singer?

Yep.

[Driver] 'Cause I don't know who you are.

That's okay, you know, I'm not for everybody.

[Driver] No, I mean I drive a lot of famous people,

and I just, I never heard of you before.

[partition beeps]

Hey, I called my boy, he's in a band,

he says he's never heard of you either.

Can you talk to him?

He's on the phone right now?

[Driver] Yeah.

Hi.

[Driver's Son] Hi. This is so embarrassing,

I'm sorry about my dad. He says you're famous?

I've never heard of you. What's your name?

Well, my name is Annie Clark,

but I perform as St. Vincent.

Maybe that's where the confusion lies.

[Driver's Son] Maybe sing one of your songs,

I don't know.

[Driver] Oh, now there's a good idea.

How about if you do one for us there, Ms. Vincent?

Or Mrs. Vincent?

♪ New York isn't New York without you, love ♪

♪ So far and a few blocks to be solo ♪

♪ And if I call you from First Avenue ♪

♪ Where the only motherfucker in this-- ♪

[Driver's Son] Whoa, did she just say MF?

[Driver] Yeah, goodbye, son.

Motherfucker.

Don't worry, we'll find out who you are.

[dramatic music]

[car door beeping]

Hello?

Hello?

Hello?

[dramatic music]

Why was the movie never completed?

All I can say is that

somewhere along the way things went terribly wrong.

[upbeat rock music]

♪ When the earth split in two ♪

♪ I was I ♪

♪ You were you ♪

♪ I'll run for you ♪

♪ Run for me too ♪

♪ When the war rose and fell ♪

♪ And the oceans are swell ♪

♪ I run for you ♪

♪ Run for me too ♪

♪ Come on sir, just give me the answer ♪

♪ Come on sir, now I need an answer ♪

♪ I won't be gone with the goners ♪

♪ Come on sir, just give me the answer ♪

♪ Because I fear ♪

♪ The future ♪

Should I look into the lens?

[Carrie] Uh, I don't think so.

You get it?

Yep.

All right, day one, so exciting.

[Annie] Yay.

Let's roll on everything.

Oh my gosh, great to see you.

Hey.

CB.

I'm so glad you're doing this, thank you.

No, thanks for having me.

I mean I think we're gonna get really great stuff,

and the fans will be very, very excited.

I hope so.

And of course you'll make me look amazing.

[Carrie] Oh, you wanna look amazing?

[Annie] Yeah.

So how should-- like, what should I do?

Just be yourself.

Okay.

Even if that's just me playing video games?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

I just, audience should feel like a fly on the wall.

So we're gonna film everything,

especially if it's you being you.

Tour. [laughing]

[Carrie] Tour is boring.

Yeah, I mean maybe it's good to show that.

Oh, shit.

[gasps] Ooh, oh that's a faster swim.

Okay, let's start at the beginning.

It was supposed to be a music documentary,

concert footage, interviews, you know,

I guess I just wanted people to know who I really am.

[Toko] Yeah. How do I do this? [laughing]

You're doing it right.

But I didn't-- I didn't want the film

to just be random footage.

I wanted it to be intimate and... revealing.

[Man] Here we go.

You know, it's a lot.

It takes a lot of energy to do the show,

and basically everything I do in a day

is geared toward that hour and a half I have on stage.

[audience cheering]

I was excited to have somebody make a movie about me.

I mean, I wanted to know what we'd find

once we stripped away those layers.

And when you have a friend at the helm, you feel protected.

So, I asked my best friend to direct it.

There's nobody who knows me better than Carrie Brownstein.

She's a musician, a writer, a filmmaker,

she's helped me on countless creative endeavors.

And I wanted somebody I could trust to tell my story.

She understands what it's like to be a performer,

but, I mean, more than that, she understands me.

♪ You're the only motherfucker in the city who can stand me ♪

I feel like for a while, maybe it was now,

I think I'm just second guessing,

like... maybe everything was luck before and not skill,

'cause I just, I'm just in an era of failure.

Like, this is my era of failure.

[laughs] You're not a failure in any way, shape or form.

[Carrie] But I mean, by one litmus test,

I mean, I don't, you know.

[Annie] No way. Bee sting.

That's crazy.

[Carrie] It's not crazy.

It's totally crazy.

I think it's me using rational thought.

[Annie] Your pilot was so good, though,

it made me cry.

[Carrie] I know, but we're friends.

I think other people would have liked it if they'd seen it.

I bet it would have made other people cry too, not just me.

You know what was the problem?

It was supposed to be a comedy.

[both laughing]

♪ H-E-L-P ♪

♪ Help me, help me ♪

♪ If you want we could go somewhere else ♪

[audience cheering]

C-cam, this is great.

Hold there.

[Cameraman] Copy that, got it.

[upbeat rock music]

[music stops]

-[fans cheer] -You're amazing.

[fans shouting]

I love you.

Good night, love you. Good night.

Be safe.

You want some tea or anything?

I'm okay.

Where's the rest of the band?

Everyone's already in their bunks,

or they're watching a movie in the back.

I was hoping to get a little after show footage.

[Annie] Uh...

Y'all just did.

I got a double, double word score.

[Carrie] Nice.

[Brian] Damn it.

[Annie] Mm-hmm, read 'em and weep.

You what would could be fun,

we could, uh, throw a little dance party on the bus.

Totally.

We've never done that,

but I love the idea.

Hey, Annie, how did you feel about the show tonight?

Uh...

Can we do this tomorrow?

I'm sorry, I'm just a little bit fried,

and I kind of wanna turn my brain off.

Okay.

[Annie] Ketchup spelled C-a-t-c-h-e-t?

[Brian] It's a British condiment.

[Annie] God damn it.

[Carrie] What is something interesting about Annie?

She's good at writing music.

I don't know.

Do you think she's not interesting?

[Carrie] What do you and Annie like to do on the bus?

Oh the bus?

Oh we snack on some radishes.

Something that tastes like dirt, we really like it.

So, yeah, we go look for farmer's market every town

and try, you know, different radishes.

[Carrie] So, Robert, what is interesting about Annie?

Her music.

- [Carrie] Neil already said that. - Um...

Her dad is in jail.

Okay, cut, I don't think we should go there.

Okay. Not interesting?

Well, you know, I don't wanna exploit her family drama

for the movie.

She's my friend, I'm just gonna...

Let's get you telling us something interesting about her.

Her music.

[guitar playing]

[Annie vocalizing]

[Carrie] That's pretty, Annie.

Is it new?

Yeah.

It's all right, I'm kind of working on it.

It's been hard to come up with anything lately.

You can write a song for the movie.

We can track its progress.

It'd make a nice story.

And we kind of need a story.

Only if you play a guitar solo on it.

[Carrie] Sure.

[guitar sound effect]

It sounds like you already wrote one.

I did, [laughing], it goes like that.

[laughing]

[Annie vocalizing]

Hey, how's the film coming?

Documentary, that's a big step up for you.

Yeah, I hope so.

You know when I tell friends

that you're working in film now,

they are very impressed.

Yeah, I just, I want it to be good.

[Annie] CB, I'm starting on abs.

Yeah, we filmed those yesterday,

and the day before.

When's your next radiation treatment?

Um, Tuesday.

But don't worry about me.

Let's talk about this movie.

I'm so proud of you, Care.

Must be exciting directing your friend.

Yeah, it's really exciting.

♪ Free ♪

Okay, right there.

I love that.

So St. Vincent.

So intense.

I just want a little more

of that in the non-concert footage.

Yeah, well do you really think

I can only be sexual and alluring on stage?

No, but it's not the same.

Yeah, well, we're not so different me and her.

Okay, that wasn't what I was saying.

[gentle music]

A small part of me was starting to second guess myself.

Am I saying the right things?

Do I look okay?

Is this what people want from me?

I was thinking the bridge...

One of the reasons why I wanted to make a documentary

in the first place is because

I would finally be in control of the narrative.

How you actually seem and how you think you seem,

like those, sometimes the gulf is catastrophically wide.

And so the idea is to have how you sound

and how you think you sound be actually very married.

I wanted this film to be different.

I didn't wanna feel pressure to be somebody I'm not.

It's always collaboration.

I think the best skill in being an artist

is knowing who to collaborate with.

You don't own it, it's not about you,

and at its best this feels like

this very ego-less experience.

[Annie] And I don't know if what constitutes important artist is

necessarily good art.

I mean, that puts a huge premium on the present tense.

[Holly] But what litmus test do we have other than now?

We have what lasts.

We have what really moves people's hearts.

I mean half the time people don't even realize

that it's wonderful until like generations later,

and then it's super revered.

Um.

Is everything okay?

I'm sorry, I'm just getting these weird texts

from my girlfriend.

Oh.

I think she's breaking up with me.

Oh God.

I was doing a magazine feature in London,

and I stayed and went to Paris fashion week,

and...

I've been gone for like a month.

Am I a terrible person?

No.

No, you're just doing whatever you have to do.

Yeah, I guess.

You're not a terrible person.

You're not, I promise.

Would you record a message for her for me?

Uh, sure.

My girlfriend does not trust me right now,

but she's a huge, huge fan of yours,

and she would trust you

if you told her that I was a good person.

Uh, yeah.

Hey, this is Annie Clark,

and I just wanted to--

Oh, can you say St. Vincent,

then she'll know who you are.

Right.

Hey, this is St. Vincent,

and I just wanted to say that your girlfriend--

[whispers] Holly.

Holly, uh, loves you very much,

and she's so sorry that she has been gone

so often--

Would you also say that she shouldn't give up on me,

and that there is nobody

who's gonna love her the way I love her?

[phone beeping]

And don't give up hope on her,

because nobody's gonna love you as much as she does.

Okay, well, I'm really sorry.

I hope everything works out.

No, me too.

Should we get back to the interview?

I think we're good.

Really?

That was great, yeah.

That was it?

Yeah, thank you.

Yeah, you know what,

actually, my cousin lives here,

and your people only gave you one ticket to Saturday night.

Do you think you could maybe

look into getting a plus one for me?

Sure.

Thank you.

[Holly] Muah! Thank you.

Bye.

Wow.

Uh, that woman, she didn't listen to anything I said.

I know, but you still did her a favor,

because you're too nice.

Stop being so nice.

I'm not getting her stupid cousin into the show.

[Carrie] Good.

Yeah, don't.

But can you?

I don't want her to be mad at me.

You can cut.

When she's not on screen you can cut.

[Carrie] I like that, yeah.

Conjuring sort of a Patsy Cline.

[Annie] Oh, yeah, yeah.

I feel like, uh... I was thinking about, like, uh,

some croonery.

Like... [vocalizing]

That's nice.

Ah nice.

And then it would be something.

[vocalizing]

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

Like a big like 70's,

kind of like [vocalizing].

Yeah, I like it.

Yeah, that's cool.

[Carrie] A refrain.

[Annie vocalizing]

[Annie] Yeah, I love it.

[Carrie] Like Keith Moon.

What about, what should it be about?

That's up to you.

I mean the alienation of touring.

No.

Yeah, that's not that relatable.

I mean, heartbreak.

No, that is very cloying.

But your call, your call.

What about that, just, well of sorrow

that everybody has from like childhood trauma?

That's very dark,

but I love these ideas, they, they're great.

Just not for this.

[dramatic music]

♪ I'm a monster ♪

♪ And you are my sacred cow ♪

♪ But I can keep running ♪

♪ No, I can't keep on running ♪

[audience cheering]

A cam, go to a two shot.

[Camerawoman] Copy that.

♪ How can anybody have you and lose you ♪

I don't even like to dress a salad, you know?

I'm, like-- I wanna taste the vegetables,

otherwise, why am I eating vegetables?

I wanna taste the earth,

I want to taste the dirt.

So I just kind of throw 'em all together,

and eat 'em about 3:00 p.m.

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Before we get started...

[Annie] Hey.

Hi.

How is it?

Uh, great.

Yeah, no, the live footage is really special.

Are you sure?

Okay, I was thinking,

is there a way to heighten it a little?

You're nerdy and normal in real life, which I love,

but the disparity between that

and who you are onstage is kind of jarring,

you know what I'm saying?

I just wanted to give you guys a little bit

of a heads up that Carrie and I have been talking,

and we think that I should veer more towards

my onstage persona for the documentary.

[Robert] So should we call you St. Vincent?

Oh God no.

Wait, CB, should they?

[Carrie] Uh, I think Annie's okay.

[Annie] Yeah.

I can do an accent.

Want me to be Australian?

Look at this size--

No, no, no.

Oh.

No, please, go for it.

Look at the size of that one.

That's good, but no.

It's just about me making some subtle changes

so that I can be a little bit more interesting.

Exactly.

How about in your new role

you do a formal introduction of the band.

And everyone we're gonna look to the camera.

This is Toko, she's Japanese.

Hi.

[Annie] And this is Neil, he's Neil.

Good day.

And this is Robert, the skins man of the group.

Hello.

Or in lay people's terms, the drummer.

Um,

we got it.

Yeah, we got it.

Great.

Toko's cat got eaten by a coyote,

and Robert's wife had a breeched birth.

The umbilical cord was wrapped around the baby's neck,

like it was trying to hang itself in utero.

And that was after what,

multiple miscarriages.

Oh, my God, I'm so sorry you guys.

Toko, I didn't mean to call you Japanese.

[Neil] Toko is Japanese.

I was thinking maybe this should just be a concert film.

Because I can't be who you want me to be.

No, because what you do on stage

is really hard to duplicate off stage, and that's okay.

I can be St. Vincent all the time.

[Carrie] No, Annie, I was saying I'm wrong.

Let's protect the fact that you're normal,

that your life isn't crazy or interesting enough

to make a documentary about.

[dramatic music plays]

[Security Guard] Pass please.

Oh, I'm playing tonight.

[Security Guard] I need to see a pass to let you in.

So, it's my band,

I'm St. Vincent.

I'm on all the posters.

[Security Guard] Don't know who you are.

Dude.

[Security Guard] Sorry.

Thanks.

[Security Guard] For what?

Sorry.

[testing instruments]

[Toko] Check one, two, check, check.

Can I have my vocal, like monitor, please?

It's my fucking show,

you're gonna save me from fucking ISIS,

fuck you fucking cock.

[Holly] Oh, my lips and teeth turning red from the wine?

- [Sarah] No. - [Holly] You sure?

[Sarah] Yeah.

Smile.

Very good.

I bet Annie asked people to give us the good wine.

She was trying really hard to impress me the other day.

Is she nice?

No, she's a snob.

Totally impenetrable and aloof.

[Sarah] I don't care, I fucking love her music.

[Holly] Me too, she's so beautiful.

[Sarah] I just want her to punch me in the face.

[Holly] Stop it, you're making her

way more interesting than she is.

Where is she anyway?

[Sarah] She's like a boss, you show up late, right?

That's something.

[Holly] You are right about that.

[dramatic music]

[Carrie] This is a little frustrating.

I don't wanna waste 16mm film,

but maybe with a little distance she'll--

CB.

CB, get your cameras.

[Carrie] No, no, we're set up for the live show.

Don't worry.

No, no, no, I want them here now, I changed my mind.

[Carrie] Yes.

Ask me a question.

[Carrie] What kind of question?

Any fucking question.

[Carrie] Annie, what's going through your mind?

How it doesn't matter how I feel on any given night.

That no matter what I owe it all to my fans

to give them my blood, sweat and tears.

[Carrie] Great.

No, I can do it better.

Let's go.

Okay.

I guess we're resetting.

Back to one.

Let's reset and hold here.

Give me the line.

Ask me "Annie, what's going through your mind?"

[Carrie] Annie, what's going through your mind?

Great question.

What's going through my mind?

I guess how it doesn't matter how I feel on any given night,

but I owe it all to my fans

to give them my blood, sweat and tears.

But sometimes I worry I'm not enough.

Sometimes I worry that I might fall.

[Carrie] Wait, do you mean fail?

I feel like fail may be better.

You know what, fail is better.

Okay.

Cue me.

Okay, what's going through your mind.

Annie.

Annie, what's going through your mind?

How I worry that sometimes I won't,

that I have to give--

[Carrie] You were saying

giving all your fans every single night--

You know what, can you just transcribe it?

I'll hit it tomorrow.

Okay, but I think it doesn't have to be perfect.

I like the honesty.

I am being honest about needing you to do that,

and it does have to be perfect.

Here, get me like this.

[Annie snapping fingers]

Cigarette.

You don't smoke though.

I mean that's silly.

This is how actors play rock stars in movies.

Yeah, but you are a rockstar.

I mean, I know rock stars--

Shh.

I love you baby,

but I'm married to the road.

Have a good show.

[upbeat rock music]

♪ Sugar boy ♪

♪ How you mean ♪

♪ How I wish ♪

♪ For somethin' sweet ♪

♪ Oh here I go ♪

♪ A casualty ♪

♪ Hanging from the balcony ♪

♪ Oh here I go ♪

♪ Making a scene ♪

♪ Oh here I am ♪

♪ Your pain machine ♪

♪ I am a lot like you ♪

♪ Boys ♪

♪ I am alone like you ♪

♪ Girls ♪

♪ I am a lot like you ♪

♪ Boys ♪

♪ I am alone like you ♪

[upbeat rock music]

Great.

Oh, so sorry, I'll be right back.

Nice sunglasses.

Will you announce me?

Will you let people know

that I'm walking into the space?

[Carrie clinking glass]

Ladies and gentlemen, St. Vincent.

[people cheering and applauding]

Annie, that was terrific.

I would like to introduce you to my cousin, Sarah.

Sarah, Annie.

Nice to meet you.

Thanks so much for getting me into the show.

It was my pleasure.

It's such a gift to have you here.

Do you think I could take a picture with you?

[Holly] I'll take it.

Actually, no.

I'm so sorry, I think she's really tired.

Or maybe she's just brave.

That kind of honesty is so refreshing.

Finally, a woman speaking her truth.

Yeah.

[dramatic music]

[dramatic music]

Hey Care, it's Dad.

I'm sorry to miss you.

I'm off to Minnesota tomorrow to meet with a specialist.

Still try and see if he could get a day off and come visit.

I know you're crazy busy.

Your uncle is coming with,

so if you can't get ahold of me, try him.

Okay, honey, I love you.

Bye, bye.

[knocking on door]

[knocking on door]

Hey.

Hi.

Did you wanna talk?

Not exactly.

Come in.

Hi, Carrie.

Carrie, you remember my girlfriend, Dakota.

We want you to film us.

I don't have a camera though.

Well, you're a director, so direct.

You can use your phone.

You're the one who wanted this to be more interesting.

Whenever you're ready.

I want this to be artistic,

Scandinavian, European, anything but American.

It's still in English though, right?

Oui.

[Carrie] Okay.

[Annie] CB, can you come closer?

[Carrie] We're set.

Okay, get on the bed, you're too far away.

[Annie] Come.

That's a good angle right there.

[Annie] Okay.

[Carrie] Rolling.

[Annie] I love you.

[Dakota] I love you.

[Annie] Who's face is that?

[Dakota] My face.

Who's lips are those?

[Annie] My lips.

Hey, sorry to interrupt,

there's this thing that people are doing in the film

and television industry

where they hire an intimacy coordinator.

It's for sex scenes,

and it's just to help people

be more comfortable with nudity and touching and consent.

It's okay, I consent.

And she consents, obviously.

Mm-hmm.

The only thing I stipulate is you just don't

show any of my pubic region.

I stipulate nothing.

Please get the camera as close to me as you need.

I guess I should have clarified.

I guess for my comfort,

I would love to just shoot her a text

and see if she could maybe call in and consult.

Yeah, but can we just get this version first?

Yeah, it's better.

[Annie and Dakota laughing]

[Annie] Remember when we went to Tulum

and had those really, really good poached eggs?

Mm-hmm.

That bowl of mixed fruit.

Yeah, was it papaya or mango?

I always get them confused.

I don't know because mangoes--

[phone dinging]

Oh, she just texted,

and she can call in 10 minutes,

if you can just hold off.

Uh, we can't.

No, we can't.

Um, wait, guys, just for legal purposes.

I'm gonna turn the camera on me.

[moaning]

[moaning continues]

[moaning intensifies]

Hi.

Hey, how are you?

I'm great.

Last night was...

magical.

Yeah, glad I was there for it.

Speaking of that, if there's ever

anything you don't want in the movie, just let me know.

I'm not interested in hiding anything.

Okay.

I just thought, I thought we could check in.

It feels like it's been a second

since we actually talked.

About what?

Like, my dad called yesterday,

he wants me to visit him on a day off.

Do we have a day off?

We don't.

How's your mom?

Oh, so now you care about my boring life.

Annie, I feel like we can differentiate

between who we are in the movie and real life.

So, as your friend, I'm asking you, how is your mom?

She is wonderful.

Okay.

Two, three, four.

♪ Follow the power lines back from the road ♪

♪ No one around so I take off my clothes ♪

♪ Am I the only one in the only world? ♪

♪ Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah whoa-oh ♪

♪ Ah-ah-ah-ah... ♪

People understand that when I'm on stage

I'm playing a bigger version of myself.

But what some people fail to understand

is that all of it's me,

and none of it's me.

Sometimes you have to reject not only your former self,

but, also, the people who came along with it.

Annie, so good tonight.

Seriously, like awesome.

[Annie singing]

Annie, just a reminder that I wanted

to film a scene with you and one of your fans.

You know, just to show how intense the connection is.

I feel like people, you know,

they get really emotional around you.

It just might be nice to show that.

Sure, sounds good.

Okay, great.

And then maybe after the show we could play cards

or get a drink or watch a movie on the bus.

Annie?

I think Ms. Vincent is asleep.

She's weird, you don't see that?

I don't really see it at all?

What are you talking about?

I don't know, I just need someone

to make her seem more relatable again.

Oh, well right there, take your pick.

[indistinct chatter]

Hey, excuse me, I'm Carrie.

I'm making a documentary about St. Vincent.

What's your name?

Kim.

Hey, nice to meet you.

You wanna come with me?

I have a surprise for you.

[nervous laughing]

[Annie] Come in.

Annie?

[Annie] Yeah.

Kim.

Meet St. Vincent.

Hi, Kim.

[Kim] This is so amazing.

Aww, so nice to meet you.

Hi, how are you?

I'm--

It's okay.

You literally saved my life.

I start, I've been listening to you since I was 16.

I grew up in Fresno,

and my high school boyfriend

gave me "Strange Mercy" for my birthday.

Two nights before we graduated,

he was killed in a car accident.

Your songs were the only thing that got me through.

I wouldn't be alive without your music.

That means so much to me.

[Kim] I never thought I'd get to tell you that in person.

[Annie] That's just so tragic and so sad.

Don't be sad, it's okay.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry.

It's just a lot, you know?

It's a lot.

[Kim] It must be so hard.

[Annie crying]

[Annie] Actually people

that might not even know your music,

which is most people.

-[Carrie] No. -[Annie] I don't know how to--

[Carrie] Which is fine.

No, but just that they actually

think this is a good film.

[Annie] Yeah I want people to see

how I have to kind of train.

[Carrie] Yeah.

[Annie] To do it.

Like how physical the show is.

[Carrie] It's okay, we'll get your muscles.

[Annie] You see that?

You see that?

[Carrie] Yeah, look at mine.

[Annie] Oh my God.

Not bad, right?

[Annie] That's quite a bush you got there.

Shut up.

[Annie laughing]

I would like to thank,

[Annie] I would like to thank--

[Carrie] I'll thank you first.

[Annie] Okay, I would like to thank Carrie. [laughs]

[Carrie] Annie Cwauk.

Annie Cwauk.

[Annie laughing]

[speaking French]

[speaking French]

[Annie playing the piano] ♪ Driver do you mind ♪

♪ Turn off Patsy Cline ♪

♪ I'm walking on my own tonight ♪

♪ I hate being impolite ♪

♪ No small talk I'm tired ♪

♪ Just wake me when we arrive ♪

Sorry, what was that?

Fatigue.

That's what I was thinking.

♪ Fatigued ♪

I don't think it sings very well.

Okay.

Well, I could do a solo over what you're playing.

[mutters] Okay.

- You know. - [guitar music]

Like a...

You know what?

Honestly, I think I should just work on this song

by myself for a little bit.

Okay.

Maybe I'll just write my own song.

For whose movie?

All right, here's your cappuccino,

and I got you some extra guitar picks.

Thank you.

Sorry, who are you?

Oh, Carrie, I got you a new assistant.

This is--

Kayla. What's up?

Hey.

No, I just thought you could use somebody to hang out with

so you could talk about your dad.

I love dads.

Thanks, Kayla.

Oh, yeah.

[Annie piano music]

♪ Feelings, flashcards, ♪

♪ Fake knife ♪

♪ Real ketchup ♪

♪ Cardboard, cutthroats, ♪

♪ Cowboys of information ♪

♪ Pleasure-Dot-Loathing ♪

♪ Dot-Huey, dot-Newton ♪

♪ It was a lonely, lonely winter ♪

♪ Fuck-less ♪

♪ Porn shark ♪

♪ Toothless ♪

♪ But got a big bark ♪

♪ Live children, blind psychics ♪

♪ Turned online assassins ♪

♪ So Hale-Bopp ♪

♪ Hail Mary ♪

♪ Hail Hagia Sophia ♪

♪ Oh it was a lonely, lonely winter ♪

♪ It's been a lonely, lonely winter ♪

[dramatic music]

I'm gonna miss ya.

Thanks, same here, Brian.

Good times, huh?

Yeah, I really appreciate everything.

Good luck with the uh,

the rest of the tour.

Hey, no problem, good luck to you.

I called the car service,

it should be here soon.

Thanks.

All right, later, dude.

[phone clanking]

[dramatic music]

[knocking on door]

Uncle Pete?

Yep.

I mean, he sounded decent last time we talked.

Well, he's holding up.

Mainly, I think he's just depressed.

You know your dad,

he doesn't like having to count on anybody else for help.

I mean, I tried to visit him

when we went through the Northwest,

but this tour has been

kind of crazy.

Hey, I gotta tell you,

this documentary you're working on,

it's really lifted his spirits.

Now this will be a little embarrassing to hear maybe,

but every doctor and nurse at that hospital

knows all about his daughter, the director.

I have done other things, you know?

[Pete] I know, I know, but this is different.

This is artistic.

Yes.

He's just bragging a little because he loves ya.

Right.

Your dad, he keeps saying,

I gotta be healthy in time for the premier.

When is the premier, by the way?

Well, we'd have to finish the movie

for there to be a premier.

Well, I guess I'm just here to tell you

to finish your movie.

[dramatic music]

Annie?

[dramatic music]

Hi Carrie.

Are you ready to get to work?

Yes.

[dramatic music]

I want a sensory experience.

I wanna bridge the gap

between audience and performer.

I'm no longer interested in gestures

that come solely from the stage.

The audience cheers,

that's all the gesture you need.

Cheering is born of expectation.

It's the audience performing being an audience.

You're playing the biggest shows of your life,

why do you wanna sabotage it?

I want to disrupt the senses.

How are you gonna do that?

By finally admitting the truth.

That the audience doesn't need me,

I'm just a vessel for their feelings.

Also, this is the only item I'll be selling at my shows.

[crowd clamoring]

[dramatic music]

[Audience Member] Say something.

No.

[psychedelic music]

Slipping into this new mode was freeing.

[crowd booing]

[Annie laughing]

[Man] Carrie, give a thought.

[Carrie, echoing] How am I gonna learn?

I feel like I'm in, I'm in the failure era of my life,

where people don't like the shit I'm doing.

I'm not joking.

People don't like what I'm doing.

I'm grappling.

But what's weird is I claim,

and I can't even tell if it's real anymore.

I do think that the artist's role,

the writer's role is to thrash around,

to make mistakes, to be out of step.

But then when I am out of step,

-I feel terrible. -Yeah.

You know, when I'm out of step with what people like,

then I feel down on myself.

But I, but philosophically, I think

no, that's how it should be.

I don't know.

I kind of think I just wanna make things with friends.

It's beautiful today.

[upbeat music]

Hey, Carrie, where's your wig?

[upbeat music]

[Annie] CB.

Where's your wig?

[upbeat music]

[gentle music]

We're in this together.

Are we?

Mm-hmm, me and me.

[upbeat music]

[Woman] There she is.

[dramatic music]

[crowd chattering]

Hey, Care, it's Dad.

It's been a rough week,

but your uncle told me that you seemed good.

And I can't wait to see the movie.

Honey, I am just so happy that you're finally

doing the kind of work that you were always meant to do.

[gentle music]

Um, so, Annie has asked that I do a formal interview

with the two of you.

Mm-hmm.

Cool, great.

I think it's the first time we've ever

gone on the record about our relationship.

Mm, mm-hmm.

Yeah, well, the live sex act

you had me shoot the other night

felt pretty on the record.

Thanks.

How did you meet?

Oh, well, we connected on a very personal level.

Through our agents.

I wasn't even gay at the time.

Nuh-uh, I turned her gay. [laughing]

That's very inspirational... for someone.

How do relationships play into the creative process?

So much of what I write is fueled by romance.

The good, the bad.

For example, when I was working on "Mass Seduction,"

I was-- you know, I was going through

a really hard time in my life,

but what I learned was that sometimes

you have to go to the depth of despair

in order to extract something true.

I don't think I could even write another record

without having my heart totally ripped out.

Well, maybe you just have to write this next one

about being really happy and content.

Yeah.

Baby?

[Dakota] Mm-hmm.

I wanted to propose something.

What?

Right now? On-- on camera?

Oh my God.

I wanted to propose...

that we break up in a few months.

I know it seems really sudden.

What?

And believe me, I am so happy with you,

it's just that I'm too happy,

and I've got another record to write.

And if I don't, you know, really shake things up,

I'm gonna be--

- What? - Yeah, I won't be able to...

- Why are you doing this? - We can do it any way you want.

I mean, it doesn't have to be some, like--

outside a night club or on a red carpet.

It could be just the two of us

in the hotel room just screaming at each other,

or, I don't know, or maybe your parents would come.

No, I don't wanna do that.

You're the only person I have ever wanted to do this with.

This is crazy,

why don't we just break up now?

Let's do that.

- No. - Yeah.

- No. - Yeah.

- Because I love you. - You do?

- Yes. - Really?

Yes. And I'm still on tour.

And I like having you around.

God, Annie that is so fucked up.

I'm sorry if this doesn't align

with your artistic process.

Goodbye, Annie.

St. Vincent.

Dakota, wait.

Hey.

Dakota, don't go.

- I love you. - [door slams]

That was crazy,

what are you doing?

None of that stays in the film.

[Carrie] Annie, what did you expect to happen?

From now on, I need more say

in how other people are going to act.

It's a documentary.

Okay, well, then let's only document

things I can control.

[in Southern accent] Hey y'all, and welcome to Texas.

Come on in, y'all want some ice tea?

I grew up surrounded by music.

Annie always stood out,

even among her siblings.

We all had to share a bed,

and she used to sing us to sleep at night.

Voice of an angel.

Annie was the kindest sister I could ever hope for.

Biggest heart out of anybody I know.

And if she hadn't become a musician,

I could've imagined her starting an orphanage.

Or running for president.

[All] Or curing cancer.

If I wasn't with Molly,

I would marry Annie in a heartbeat.

All right, who's ready to shoot some guns?

[guns firing]

This is mama.

And this is my stepdad, Ray.

These are my brothers and sisters.

These are my nieces and nephews, aunt and uncle.

Say hi everybody.

[All] Hi.

Lovely to meet you guys.

Please don't roll on this.

No, no, no, get this, it's gonna be good.

Okay, I'm serious, this isn't your real family

so it's not really a documentary.

Oh, hush up.

I'll be so mad at you

if you ruin the song.

♪ When I was young ♪

♪ Coach called me ♪

♪ The tiger ♪

♪ I always had a knack with the danger ♪

♪ Living in fear in the Year of the Tiger ♪

♪ Living in fear in the Year of the Tiger ♪

♪ Living in fear in the Year of the Tiger ♪

- [cow mooing] - [milk squirting]

♪ Oh America, can I owe you one ♪

♪ Living in fear in the Year of the Tiger ♪

♪ Living in fear in the Year of the Tiger ♪

♪ Living in fear in the Year of the Tiger ♪

♪ Living in fear in the Year of the Tiger ♪

[bright Western music]

My famous pecan pie.

[everyone cheering]

Famous for being the first one you ever baked.

Famous in that it won the blue ribbon

at the 1998 Texas state fair.

I bet.

To Annie's pie.

[All] To Annie's pie.

[Woman] What y'all waiting for?

Chow down.

[laughing]

So good.

[Woman] So good.

[upbeat music]

[everyone chatting]

[laughing] I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I can't, I can't.

Really, great to meet y'all.

Honestly.

CB.

CB.

Hey, hey, hey.

Wait, wait, wait.

What?

Hey, this is your documentary.

Is it?

Yes.

All of this was your idea.

None of this was my idea.

My idea was to make you

and the film just a little more interesting,

but you would still be yourself,

not playing some stupid role.

I'm not playing a role.

Are you?

Annie, I shouldn't even be here,

my dad's sick.

CB.

I'm sorry.

We're in this together.

I don't want this to be hard on you.

But this is who I am.

[in Southern accent] Why don't you come on inside,

partake in a little Clark family ritual?

It can be hard when you are trying to create something new

and other people doubt your intentions.

[cheering and applauding]

Here I was zeroing in on big themes,

big ideas.

[All] One more song.

One more song.

[Carrie] I had pushed Annie to the breaking point.

I guess I didn't realize

that I had pushed other people there as well.

CB, where are we going?

[car door slams]

CB?

All right.

Okay.

Come on.

Careful.

Careful.

I'm not over dressed am I?

Just a little further.

Just a little further.

Careful, careful, careful.

Okay.

Okay.

You can take your blindfold off.

I thought we could visit your dad.

Annie, do you know how rare it is

for them to allow filming inside?

But they made an exception for us,

'cause someone in there is a huge fan.

Okay, go ahead and tell us what you're feeling.

You wanna go ahead and tell us what you're thinking?

I'm thinking I don't know why the fuck we're here.

We're here because I feel like

I can't elicit anything authentic from you anymore, okay?

And I wanted to get something raw.

So whatever you're feeling right now is okay.

What I'm feeling, that's okay?

Thank you.

[Carrie] Seriously, this is great, just go with it.

But this is fucking bullshit.

Annie, this is what we've been trying to get at,

dirt, grit.

I mean nothing basic or boring,

but also nothing contrived.

Oh yeah, this feels very spontaneous.

Okay, fine.

I guess, whatever.

Okay, we don't have to go in.

We got something real.

You know what, I'm very aware

that the world is full of cruelty,

and pain and garbage, okay,

I know that.

And that's why I make music,

to get away from... this.

[laughing] You can't make the whole thing up

and expect people to buy into it.

Well then I wanna make another kind of film.

[Carrie laughing]

[gentle music]

[dramatic music]

♪ Driver, do you mind ♪

♪ Turn off Patsy Cline ♪

♪ Walking on my own tonight ♪

♪ Hate being impolite ♪

♪ But no small talk I'm tired ♪

♪ Just wake me when we arrive ♪

♪ Oh pick up speed and sandwiches ♪

♪ A Ziploc bag, a fifth of gin ♪

♪ Don't ask me why ♪

♪ Oh, drop me by the burning sand ♪

♪ When hell is near ♪

♪ And heaven [indistinct] ♪

♪ Paradise ♪

♪ Here at the Nowhere Inn ♪

♪ Where nothing and no one wins ♪

♪ Where our last days are spent ♪

♪ Wasted on song and sin ♪

♪ Here at the Nowhere Inn ♪

♪ The hallway's a labyrinth ♪

♪ where [indistinct] ♪

[dramatic music]

♪ Always knew you'd end up here ♪

♪ Been waiting now for years to see you ♪

♪ In my ever lasting mirror ♪

♪ Everybody knows your name ♪

♪ And knows you are to blame ♪

♪ For every trickle of your mama's tears ♪

♪ We're all nowhere ♪

♪ And where are you now ♪

♪ We're all nowhere ♪

♪ And where are you now ♪

♪ You're at the Nowhere Inn ♪

♪ Where nothing and no one wins ♪

[Carrie] Cut.

Cut.

[bell ringing]

Hey, CB, I thought that one was actually really good.

Yeah, it looked great, nice job.

What's wrong?

Well, it just feels weird

to watch you perform a song we wrote together solo.

Hey, do you guys have a minute?

I just wanted to show you the options

for the role of director for tomorrow.

Oh, perfect.

CB, I hope you don't mind,

but I asked Kayla to help us out

with casting the director.

Honestly, I would have asked you,

but you were so busy with your shot list.

I thought you wanted me to be in the narrative film.

Oh, no, I do,

just, you know, played by some exquisite.

You're fired as my assistant.

Oh, no, I don't think you can fire me,

'cause I've just been playing your assistant.

You know, like I'm an actor.

Wait, I'm confused.

I thought that Annie hired you.

[dramatic music]

I don't think I know what we're doing anymore.

[laughing]

Dad?

Are you a part of this, too?

Guilty.

Wait, does that mean you're not sick?

No, no, no, no, I'm very sick,

it's just I'm not your dad.

[laughing]

CB, what don't you understand?

[laughing]

Get in.

[dramatic music]

I'm sorry, I felt really out of it.

Maybe you're just tired.

No, I feel out of control.

I feel completely subsumed.

It always takes sacrifice to create something.

Can we have a normal conversation?

Of course.

What is this?

Who else would we be?

I'm not sure.

I don't know who you are anymore.

I know who I am.

What does it matter if anybody else does?

What story did you think we were trying to tell?

Your story.

This is my story.

I thought the point was for people to get to know you.

And now they will.

CB, are you sure it's me you can no longer find?

Stop the car.

Stop the car.

[screaming]

[dramatic music]

[car door dinging]

Don't get me wrong,

I do feel bad about what happened.

And it's a shame we'll never finish

the movie that we started,

but I think she lost sight

of what we were doing,

whereas I never did.

♪ I'm here at the Nowhere Inn ♪

♪ Where nothing and no one wins ♪

♪ Where our last days are spent ♪

♪ Wasted on song and sin ♪

♪ I'm here at the Nowhere Inn ♪

♪ The hallway's a labyrinth ♪

♪ Here [indistinct] ♪

♪ [indistinct] ♪

♪ We are nowhere, where are you now ♪

♪ We are nowhere, where are you now ♪

♪ We are nowhere, where are you now ♪

♪ We are nowhere, where are you ♪

♪ Where are you, where are you ♪

♪ Where are you, where are you ♪

♪ Where are you, where are you ♪

♪ Where are you, where are you ♪

♪ Where are you, where are you ♪

♪ Where are you, where are you ♪

♪ In a white limousine ♪

♪ In the palm desert hills ♪

♪ We're too far from the sea ♪

♪ So your waves crash on me ♪

♪ Dark shades on your eyes ♪

♪ Singing what doesn't change dies ♪

♪ Driver do you mind ♪

♪ To hit the brakes on this ride ♪

♪ [indistinct] on the road ♪

♪ Tore off my old clothes ♪

♪ I got what I want ♪

♪ But I don't want it all ♪

♪ No, I don't want it all ♪

♪ Footprints in the sand ♪

♪ I lie where they end ♪

♪ Black hawks circling ♪

♪ Over [indistinct] ♪

♪ So ride the white limousine ♪

♪ Into a hungry ravine ♪

♪ All hail its queen ♪

♪ You'll never see me again ♪

♪ [indistinct] on the road ♪

♪ Tore off my old clothes ♪

♪ I got what I want ♪

♪ But I don't want it all ♪

♪ No, I don't want it all ♪

[upbeat music]