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[tense music]

[birds chirping]

[students chattering]

[light music]

[camera clicking]

[camera clicking]

[chimes ringing]

[bike bell ringing]

[camera clicking continues]

[camera clicking]

What's that?

[man] Oh, it's, uh, it's nothing.

Doesn't look like nothing.

Uh, I'm just playing with some images I downloaded.

Uh-huh.

So you can get all up inside my body

but I can't get inside your head?

-Is that it? -[chuckles]

No, it's just, I'm not trying to hide anything from you.

It's just... [sighs]

The whole thing changes when I try to put it into words.

The inspiration just becomes lifeless

the moment I struggle to define it.

-Anyway, it's a stupid idea. -No, hey, listen...

-It is. -No, seriously, like...

I didn't mean to pry.

I'm sorry, okay? You have your process.

And I totally get that. And I respect it.

[computer clicks]

A coyote.

If he's alone, he'll eat the rat.

[coyote snarling]

But if he's got some help

and he's in his pack, he'll eat the deer.

Now, if he's really desperate,

he'll even eat the carrion.

It's pretty cool, right?

I mean, he doesn't give a shit.

He just needs to feed. [chuckles]

It's fucking cool.

[bell ringing]

[students chattering]

Mr. Gleason, can I talk to you about my grade?

Yeah.

How can I help you, Mr. Young?

Well, I don't understand why you gave me a C minus.

Well, I...

I think you may be in over your head.

You see, every one of your classmates

has been studying photography with me

since freshman year.

-[door slamming] -Fuck that prick.

What he thinks he likes will change

the moment someone innovative transforms the conversation.

Shit. I mean, Maybe he's right.

Look at me, listen.

It doesn't matter, hey.

It doesn't matter if he hates you.

It doesn't matter if he loves you.

All that matters is what inspires you.

[gentle music]

You'll be okay.

Yeah, thank you.

Come on, let's get out of here.

[lounge music in distance]

[knocking]

[Max] Every moment of my life is filtered

through an ever changing collage of memories.

Happy memories and tragic ones.

[creepy music]

My memories are at the core of everything I think,

everything I feel.

[dramatic piano music]

Even the love and fear I feed

can point to memories as their common ancestor.

Snapshots, life fragments forever reinterpreted and relived.

The most intimate relationships I have

are with my memories.

Some I love, some I loathe.

But there is no memory that I seem capable

of living without.

[dramatic drums]

[tense music]

[clicking]

[pulse pounding]

[pills clicking]

-You okay? -[camera clicking]

My career is dead.

I'm fucking dead.

Yeah.

Your adoring public awaits.

Oh, right.

I, uh, saw Winston Guest arrive.

-[groaning] -[camera clicks]

[coughing]

Mm-mmm.

Mm-mmm, come on.

[Max scoffs]

He said I devolved a once promising art-form.

It's not his job to sell your work, it's mine.

Good, because if that was the case,

he'd be doing a shit job.

It's just one opinion, one man.

Yeah, but it's the only one that people actually read.

No, that's not actually true.

Besides, what he says does not diminish

your powerful work in any way.

It doesn't, not in my eyes, not in anyone with a desire to search

beyond conventional prosaic bullshit.

-[camera clicking] -[Max] Truth?

Truth.

I don't know why I do it.

And I don't know who I do it for.

-Yeah. -Hey, you're a genius.

[jazz music in distance]

Trust in here.

Everything will work out.

Okay.

-Come on. -You know, I never knew there were so many different forms

of the word amateur. You know, I think he used it as a noun, and adjective

and even an adverb.

Take a breath.

[exhales]

[jazz music]

Mr. Guest, hello.

Thank you so much for coming.

Ah, Miss Stewart.

I'm sure you remember Mr. Maxfield Young.

Mr. Guest, it's good to see you again, sir.

Ah, yes, young Mr. Young.

I'm certain that we all doubt the sincerity

of that statement, huh?

You know, I appreciate your constructive criticism.

I think it's helped me grow as an artist.

Well, I had hoped so.

Well, I was very sincerely moved by your early work,

and consequently the potential of your entire career,

but these subsequent forays are

just one-dimensional, altogether impersonal.

I respectfully disagree, Mr. Guest.

Well.

I am extremely confident when I say

that at this moment in time,

you are Mr. Young's greatest asset.

I'll thank you for the champagne and say goodnight.

-I'll walk you out. -Oh.

[keys jingling]

[door creaking]

[pots clanking]

[sighs]

Shit.

Hey, you know I'd offer you something to drink

but all I've got is tap water.

[chuckles] I wouldn't wash my dirty socks

in unfiltered tap water.

[chuckles] Yeah, I know, right?

Do you want to go to my place?

I've got wine... and water.

Yeah, I don't know what the big deal is with my place.

Well, if you can get past the chain-smoking cat lady.

Yeah, right.

Shit. [sniffles]

Look, it's not that big of a deal, okay?

Besides, Whole Foods, mm?

-Alright. -It's right down there.

-There's that. -Mm-hmm.

Oh, you know what?

Oh, shit, I think I actually

left it downstairs.

Back in a second.

[pulse thumping]

[clattering in distance]

[breathing heavily]

[Kali] Are you working on a new concept?

Uh... nothing, nothing.

[pulse thumping]

[pulse thumping]

[heartbeat intensifies]

[eerie music]

Everyone's scared to look truth in the face.

[echoed voice] Look truth in the face.

[somber music]

Fuck.

[screaming]

[eerie music]

Fuck you! Fucking all wasted!

[sobbing]

Fuck!

So you're just going to act like nothing's up?

I'm only gone a few days.

Max, come on.

You sure you don't want me to come with?

Keep you company?

Road trip could be good for us.

Yeah.

No, I know, um, I just...

I think I need to be alone right now.

Okay?

You know, I'm hoping the solitude will clear my head.

And maybe reboot some creativity?

I don't just want a lover, Max.

I can get a lover anywhere.

I want a best friend.

Yeah.

[somber music]

[car door closes]

[Max] I don't know that I've ever been in love.

Someone once told me that when you feel romantic love...

you're really just infatuated

with the way the other person sees you.

[eerie music]

The reflection they cast is forgiving,

without judgment.

Eventually, you train them to see you

the way you see yourself.

And the illusion of love vanishes.

Another one of my dad's pearls of wisdom.

[camera clicking]

[Raine] Max Young.

That's a good name.

[camera clicking]

[woman] So how come I don't know you, Max Young?

You're in my Biology class.

-[Max] Yeah. -[camera clicks]

English Lit too.

[woman] So are you like super creative or super creepy?

[camera clicking]

Well, look, I just wanted to pay you back

for the two subs you gave those Felch twins.

[camera clicking]

[gentle music]

[knocking]

[woman] Who's at the door?

Let's see that.

Who's at the door?

Max Young.

Yeah. [chuckles]

Wow. Almost didn't recognize you, Max.

Hey. I hope I'm not catching you at a bad time, right?

No. No, man, seems like ages since we've seen you.

-Yeah. -When was the last time?

Jimmy, why don't you take him upstairs?

I'll be right up, okay?

All right, yeah.

-It was good seeing you, Max. -Yeah, Jimmy.

Hey, I'm sorry for not staying in touch, you know?

Hey, it's hard to keep tabs

on the little people while you're blowing up, right?

Jimmy, the baby.

Okay, I'll be right up.

-Yeah. -Thanks.

Bye. [makes playful sound]

Take care, Max.

What, What are you doing showing up here

unannounced after all this time?

Yeah, I, uh, you know, I just thought that...

You thought?

You thought that we were friends,

that we'd welcome you with open arms

and make up the guest room for you?

[scoffs]

Oh, I...

You know, I didn't know how you'd feel.

Yeah, you're goddamn right you don't know how I feel right now.

Raine was my best friend.

My entire world.

I loved her.

Yeah.

You know,

you know I loved her too.

Shut the fuck up, okay?

Don't come to my house and say that to me, please.

You were together, what, six, eight months?

I knew everything about her,

she knew everything about me.

You were the fucking mystery man

and you are still playing that card.

Get the fuck...

[slamming]

-[camera clicking] -[people chattering]

Un-fucking-believable.

[chuckles]

Dude, you got here so fast.

That's impressive shit.

-Keep it. -Thanks.

No, thank you.

[party music]

[sighs]

[man] Where've you been?

I got to tell you...

you got the nicest ass that I have ever seen.

Don't fucking touch me.

[man] Come on, I got some blow.

[Raine] It'll take a lot more than that, Chuckie.

It'll be fun, baby.

A little blow for blow.

Do you think you can just talk to me however the fuck you want

'cause I jerked you off once in ninth grade?

I mean, if you could even really call it that

as I remember you were spewed and spent

before I even touched your fucking belt buckle.

It's really embarrassing, Chuckie, you should probably get that checked out.

You fucking cunt!

Shit.

Are you okay?

I think my bike cable broke

and I lost control. My bad.

Whoah, whoah, dudes, dudes, wait, wait. Uh, uh,

could I interest you in a couple

of ham and cheese footlongs as my apology?

Yeah?

Cool, all right.

[man grunts]

Who the fuck was that?

Fuck if I know, man.

[somber music]

[camera clicking]

-Hey. -Oh, jeez.

-[chuckles] -Whoa.

Pretty dangerous with that thing.

[chuckles]

So why'd you run off?

I didn't run off, I just,

-I had to get back to work. -Hmm.

Don't I know you?

I mean, I've seen you around.

Aren't you in my Biology class?

Yeah, English Lit too.

Huh.

So are you like super creative or super creepy?

[chuckles]

What's your name?

Max.

-Max Young. -Max Young.

That's a good name.

So how come I don't know you, Max Young?

I just moved here in the beginning of senior year.

Hmm.

Well, look, I just, um,

I just wanted to pay you back

for the two subs you gave those Felch twins.

[chuckles] No, it's cool.

[stammers] It was the end of the night

and they were takeouts nobody picked up, so.

I thought you just said you had to get back to work.

-Are we done? -[chuckles]

Yeah.

We're done.

I'm sorry. I'm weird.

-You think? -Yeah, it's just I'm not real social, you know?

I don't relate to things

that most people think about and vice versa.

You think you know me but you don't.

Whoa, wait, Raine.

[chuckles]

You know my name?

I never introduced myself.

[gentle piano music]

Right, I, um.

I think I heard somebody call you.

Ah.

Right.

Do you want to hang out?

[Max] I feel as though I've been turned inside out.

Everything exposed, unprotected,

vulnerable to a world that brushes by with its filthy hands.

I try to wash and disinfect but I can't.

[clears throat]

[music playing on radio]

Find everything all right?

Yeah, thanks.

Max Young?

Hey, Calvin.

How are you, man?

What are you doing here?

Well, I , uh... I came to pay my respects.

[scoffs]

It's 8.50.

Yeah.

[cashier ringing]

[cashier closing]

[eerie music]

Thanks.

[heavy breathing]

[man's echoed voice] She's got like the perfect body.

Oh, shit.

I'd let her fuck me to death.

[Kali] I don't just want a lover, Max.

I want a best friend.

[Raine echoed voice] You're the coolest fucking person I've ever met.

[baby giggling]

[camera clicking]

[Raine] You live here?

I live right across the way.

[Max] Yeah, I know.

What do you mean you know? [chuckles]

I've seen you walk by.

[crickets chirping]

So. [chuckles]

Uh, do you want to come in?

Wait, I thought the Walters lived here.

They do.

We're house sitting.

My mom and Mrs. Walters were roommates in college.

Cool.

I wonder how long it took them to collect all these books.

Ah. [chuckles]

The books are the only possessions in the room

that are mine.

Clothes?

Yeah.

Well, some of them.

Whoah.

These Yale Shakespeare Editions must be like

200 years old.

More like 100.

[Raine chuckles]

So how did you possibly amass all of these volumes?

Uh, Some of them I got from my mom

but most of them I bought from like Amazon and eBay.

You got all these books online?

Yeah.

You know, you'd be surprised.

I mean,

most people treat their old books like garbage.

But, no. I feel a kinship with my books.

I think it's a critical component in a person's life.

The books you've read and the one's you haven't.

Mm.

So how many of these books have you read?

I mean, I read them when I first get them.

[chuckles] So all of them?

[chuckles] Well, some of them I'd already read

so I usually don't read them again.

Yeah, you, uh, wouldn't want to appear obsessive.

So are you a Maxwell or a Maximilian?

Maxfield.

Maxfield?

Is that a family name?

Have you read this?

[chuckles] Oh, man, had it read to me is more like it.

God, I haven't seen that in forever.

I miss being a kid.

When the fantasy worlds were real.

Yeah, same.

It's the first edition, 1897.

-Holy shit. -Yeah.

You know this was the first book

that Maxfield Parish illustrated?

He also did the original cover for Arabian Nights.

He used photographs as the basis for his work.

And then he would alternate between

oils and glaze to get a 3D effect.

Amazing artist, right?

He's like way ahead of his time.

So you were named after Maxfield Parish?

I was inspired by his work when I was a kid.

Maxfield Young?

-You're a junior? -Hm.

Technically, once the senior is deceased

the junior suffix is removed.

Huh.

I thought you just said you were named

after Maxfield Parish.

No, I said I was inspired by him when I was a kid.

Mm-hmm.

Okay, I see how you work.

How'd your dad die?

Heroin overdose.

[gentle music]

So is, like, your mom going to come busting in up on us?

She's gone.

She's pretty good about respecting my privacy.

That's refreshing.

My parents pretend to be all evolved and shit,

while secretly monitoring my every move

-like the fucking NSA. -[chuckles]

Which is why my mom thinks I'm having a little sleepover tonight

at my brother's.

[gentle piano music]

[light clicking]

[sped-up ambient sounds]

[camera clicking]

[birds chirping]

[Raine groans]

-Good morning. -Hey.

How did you sleep?

Mmm. As good as ever.

Hey, do you want to go with me to a party?

[groaning]

I'm not really a party kind of guy.

-Are you saying you're inflexible and don't change? -No, I'm not.

You only possess certain characteristics and you're only going to possess those

-and only those characteristics? -No, I'm not.

'Cause I got to say, like, if that's the case,

that's a fucking deal-breaker for me, man.

I can't be with some guy who has some bullshit

preconceived notion of himself.

We're not set in stone.

We're 60 percent water, we're human beings.

We're designed to be fluid!

It's a Saturday night for fuck's sake!

Whoah, whoah, okay.

[Max chuckles]

I mean, I, think, I--

I think I could go to a party.

You think you could go?

Okay, well, want to know what I think?

I think

that you

-gave in so quick. -Oh. [chuckles]

-You are such a little pussy. -That's a good one.

You know that? like 2.5 seconds. It's a world record.

-Is it really? -Yeah. It's pretty humiliating,

-I'm embarrassed. -Is it? Okay.

-No, don't tickle. -I'm embarrassed for you.

-I'll get you back. -Oh, will you?

I'm a tickle master. Come here, come here. [laughing]

Okay, why don't you put your money where your mouth is!

-[Max] Come here! -[Raine chuckling]

[Max] Even when I sleep, my mind refuses to quiet.

[gentle music]

Constant rambling thoughts

with no apparent origin, no destination.

When I was a little kid, sleep was my best friend.

We're not so close anymore.

[eerie music]

[car door closes]

[car starting]

[knocking]

[door opens]

Hey.

Did I not make myself clear last night?

I don't have anything to say to you.

Yeah, you did, um.

Can we talk, Lucy, please?

[stammers] It will just take a minute.

What is it that can't wait till after

we brush our teeth?

I know it's been a while since I've been back.

You know, I lost touch and, um...

you know, things changed.

Things changed, yeah.

Is that what you came by to tell me

at the fucking break of dawn, that things changed?

Were you and Raine close

right up until she died?

Why the fuck would you ask me that?

Nah, it's just...

I was hoping that, uh...

like, you could help me fill in some blanks.

Yeah?

Let me fill in this blank for you.

If I see you back here, I'm going to call the cops, okay?

So go away, Max

-[baby cooing] -Okay, let's go buddy.

-[slamming] -[camera clicks]

[pages flicking]

¶ I don't want to love Someone like you ¶

¶ Give you all the money Give you all the time ¶

¶ Loving you and loving how You take it in the brine ¶

¶ I don't want to... ¶

-Come dance with me. -Hmm. Mmm-mm.

-Come on. -No, no, no, no.

-Today is the day. -I can't.

You don't really have a choice, so.

-I've got no rhythm. -You have rhythm, honey.

It's just dormant.

Come on, come play with me.

-Dormant? -Yeah, you know, undeveloped.

-[chuckles] -Breathe, stop thinking for like one second, okay?

Just move.

Move the way that you feel when you watch me.

-Okay. -Okay?

You feel too much.

I love that you don't have any tattoos or piercings.

[Max] Really?

Yeah.

You know all my friends think

it's this... unique form of self-expression.

Indigenous people have been doing it

for thousands of years, blah, blah, blah.

Okay, first of all,

you don't live in a fucking indigenous culture

so what the fuck does that have to do with anything?

And unique?

Please.

I don't know one person, one person

in our senior class [chuckles]

who hasn't altered their flesh in some way, you know?

I mean, even my grandmother has a Tweety Bird

-tattooed on her ass. -[chuckles]

-Really? -[chuckles]

It's like if you want to be unique...

try being yourself.

You know, I never thought about getting a tattoo.

I know.

¶ Your love, your love Will let me down ¶

¶ Your love, your love Will let me down... ¶

[tense music]

[Raine] Max?

[gravel rustling]

[Raine's echoed voice] I'll do it with you.

Are you serious?

[dramatic piano music]

Max?

I need you to promise me.

Max.

Do you promise?

[crow cawing]

Promise me, Max.

[sighing] Jesus. You okay?

[sighing]

[Max] I promise.

Okay?

[Raine] Okay.

[camera clicking]

[Max] I just don't get small talk.

What do you mean you don't get it?

It's small talk, what's not to get?

Everything is small.

The amount of words,

the level of investment,

the world from which you pull your subject matter, small.

Yeah, I know what it means. I'm just incapable of it, okay?

[chuckles] I can't start it and I can't finish it.

Or you are a brilliant conversationalist

brimming with insights.

[guests chattering]

[Raine] Come on.

Okay now, you're the coolest fucking person I've ever met.

Now mingle.

[man coughing]

[party music in the distance]

[guests chattering]

I love you, Max.

Thank you.

-What's up, Chuck? -Hey, man.

-Thanks. -Don't thank me, Thank my mama's back surgery.

Hey, Chuck. Look who showed up.

[Chuck] What's that fucking faggot doing here?

You know what? I'm going to fuck him up,

then I'm going to fuck that bitch.

[Lucy] Raine!

Ooh, Hi! [groans excitedly]

It's so good to see you.

You look hot.

Thank you very much.

Is that for me?

Yes, drink this.

Mmm. God, you look gorgeous.

Thank you.

This is Max.

These are my friends, Jan, and Jane

and I think you know Lucy.

-Oh. Oh-ho! -Yes, yes.

-No! -Come on. Just a second, come on.

This is-- What, who is playing this?

This has got-- we have to change this right now,

-Now? -Yes.

-Come on, now. -I'll be right back.

-Raine, come on! -Coming, I'm coming.

So are you going to, like, like suck my soul?

[giggling]

[imitates shouting]

[giggling]

[party music]

[Lucy] Just then we downed monstrous curls

behind this tar barrel. [chuckles]

[Raine chuckles] You remember that?

-[Lucy chuckles] -Okay, so out of all the things

-that they could have chosen... -Yeah, well--

...Tweedledee and Tweedle-fucking-dum?

That's really sad, is what it is.

-It is a tragedy. -It kind of upsets me,

like I want to cry a little bit in my soul.

-Well, you have to tell them. -Me?

-You know that, right? -Oh, right, I'm going to tell them.

-You have to. -No fucking way.

It's your responsibility. Like, really?

No, no way!

Nobody, nobody ever wants to hear the truth.

-No. -No, not about themselves.

-Not about that. -Not about the world.

Nope. So like, what do you get inside the truth?

Like, okay, tragedy.

-Mm-hmm. -Heartbreak.

-And it's fucking random. -Mmm.

So the only way to live with it all

is to simply not give a fuck.

[party music]

I was Batman for Halloween three years ago.

¶ Midway between The end and the start ¶

¶ I cried like a baby ¶

¶ And I tore you apart ¶

¶ Midway between The end and the start ¶

¶ I cried like a baby ¶

¶ I tore you apart ¶

Basically, I guess what I'm trying to say is the...

entire fucking world is scared to death!

Swinging in the dark! [chuckles]

You know, and all I see are cowards.

[kisses teeth] Coward, coward, coward, coward,

it's fucking cowards everywhere.

Hm. You're remarkably cheery tonight.

-And why? -Come on.

How long are you planning on dating Mr. Subdued?

-That's clever. -Did you like that?

-Yeah, I see what you did there. -Yeah, I thought the bookworm in you

would appreciate that little double entendre.

Yeah, well, it's really more of a pun.

-Oh, is it? -Yeah.

Oh, well, who fucking really cares, really right? I mean--

[stammers] The point is, what are you,

what are you doing with this guy, Raine?

Are you serious?

You haven't said two words to him.

Give him a chance, he'll grow on you, I promise.

I don't see it.

I just don't see it, I'm sorry.

Okay, well, you don't have to see it.

You just have to try.

Just pretend for one night, for me, okay?

Oh, okay. [chuckles]

I guarantee he'll think I am,

like, crazy about him tonight, so.

-Why is that? -Why?

Oh, I don't know. Um, oh, yeah. Oh, yeah,

'cause we'll be rollin'!

[party music]

Come on, do drugs with me. Please, do drugs with me.

Come on, it's been forever!

I told you I don't do that stuff anymore.

-Oh, oh, please. -Oh, okay.

What, like, Mr. Straight Lace doesn't approve

of the Raine that we all know and love,

-like the actual Raine? -Very funny.

Yeah, his name is Max, I told you that.

Uh, okay.

Yeah, that's cool.

Go play house with Max, that's cool.

Go make a soup. [sniggers]

Seriously?

I-- seriously?

-Hey. -[scoffs]

What was that?

Yeah, no, that's it. Just die

before you even live.

-Hey. -Right? that's the motto

-of the great masses! -Shh, shh,

-You're getting out of-- -Right?!

-No, you're done. -Am I right?

You're getting out of control.

Just read about it in a book.

-Okay, she can do that. -Great.

Yeah, stop, all right?

Yeah, stop.

Just calm, breathe.

So, how'd you hook up with Raine Bennett?

[chuckles] I have no idea.

Dude, I've been dreaming about that hot ass

since, like, seventh grade.

She's got the perfect body, man.

I'd-- Oh, I'd hit that so hard.

I mean, I'd let her fuck me to death.

[chuckles] Hey.

You ready to go?

Yes.

See you, Calvin.

-Oh, my god, who says that? -I know.

You seem like you were having a really nice time.

You know what? I think you were right.

I do have a surprising number

of small thoughts in my head.

So it's the cocky little cunt and her delivery bitch.

[Raine screams]

-[bashing] -[Max grunts]

-[bashing] -[tense music]

[camera clicking]

I love this book.

You know, I think it's got to be my favorite novel

of all time.

Dude, you read like 10 books a week.

How can you remember all the books you've read?

I have no idea.

What's so great about it?

Everything.

Okay, Mr. Specific, maybe just, like,

-a touch more detail. -chuckles]

Well, he likes to get into taboo shit.

You know, sex with children, dead bodies.

Ew, that sounds horrible.

No, I'm not explaining it very well.

[Raine chuckles]

You just, you have to read it.

Yeah, well, after that little Cliff note,

I don't think that's very likely.

It's more about human nature and perception.

The thin line between reality and illusion.

And you're not really sure what's real.

The narrator and the author are both heroin addicts.

I really want to meet your mom.

[dramatic piano music]

Yeah.

Yeah, most definitely.

And what about us?

[Max] It's all I think about.

The truth is elusive, evasive,

polymorphic, a matter of perspective.

Context, leave out a single word, a specific detail,

change the emphasis, the truth mutates, it adapts.

The truth is the ultimate survivor.

And it's a ghost.

It can manipulate your heart, distort your mind.

[camera clicking]

My truth, your truth, God's truth.

[man's echoed voice] No precaution is taken.

[tense music]

[distorted voices]

[high-pitched ringing]

[sounds intensify]

[TV narrator] All the people in this room are heroin users.

Heroin is the strongest,

most devastating opiate that exists.

Its possession is absolutely prohibited

in the United States.

A hype will bring this narcotic to a--

Jesus. [chuckles]

You scared the shit out of me.

Nobody answered when I rang the bell.

What you watching, Maxie?

I guess that's a stupid question.

I've sort of become obsessed

with learning about heroin use

and the whole underground culture

that surrounds it.

I think I'm going to try it, just once,

so I know what it's like.

You know, I think I need to know what it's like.

Wait a minute, are you serious?

-Yeah. -That's fucking insane. What? [chuckles]

What more do you need to know?

I mean, it fucks up your world,

it changes who you are on a core level.

I can do it just the one time.

-Whoah. -Okay?

-Okay. -No, I mean, look.

-[Raine scoffs] -It's not that big of a deal, okay?

I mean, I know--

Besides, I think it would help me kill off some demons.

More like give birth to some new ones.

Raine, I'm disciplined, okay?

You know that, okay?

-Max. -I can do this.

Discipline has absolutely nothing to do with it, okay?

This is heroin.

What would your mom think?

Oh... come on.

What happened to not caring what people think?

Max, baby, your mind is all twisted on this, okay?

If you think that I'm going to stand back

and watch you trash your life,

or like condone it or whatever,

you're fucking nuts!

Hey, trash-- come on.

Look, hear me out, okay?

What if when we die, we discover, hey,

we discover that the goal in life

was to simply have as many different

experiences as possible?

I mean, maybe my dad was right.

[chuckles nervously]

Think about it.

Human beings instinctively seek out alternate realities.

It's in our DNA.

There's no judgment.

No one's defined reality.

It's all an illusion, Raine.

Max.

I'm not playing this fucking game, okay?

Intravenous drug use is a fucking deal breaker for me.

-Is that right? -Yeah.

Well, you know, I think I read somewhere

that ultimatums are bad for relationships.

I'm serious, Max, you shoot heroin, we're done.

[chuckles] So, what?

Are you just going to use our relationship

as a bargaining chip, is that it?

No, I'm not.

I'm using the truth.

Shit.

I got to get to work.

Throw your bike in the jeep, I'll drive you.

[TV narrator] ...disease of one type

may be directly transmitted into the bloodstream of another.

[gentle piano music]

[car door opens]

[car door closes]

[car door opens]

Hey, Raine.

Can you pass me my cell?

Thank you.

Don't be giving away any free subs.

Right.

[door closes]

[keys jingling]

Oh, shit.

[phone ringing]

[phone ringing]

[radio music]

[knocking]

[woman] Yeah?

Hi.

I'm Raine.

[woman laughing]

I finally get to meet you, Raine!

I'm Carol.

-Wow. [chuckles] -Hi, nice to meet you.

You know, I don't think Max is home though. He's already off at work.

Yeah, I know, um, I actually just left my backpack upstairs.

Oh. You want to come get it?

Yeah, if that's okay.

-Cool, come on in. -Thanks.

It's nice to get you alone, you know?

[chuckles]

I've been wondering how he's doing

'cause I feel like I've been missing in action.

Oh, um, he's good, you know.

-You think? -We're just hanging out, yeah.

-Yeah. -I worry about him, I just worry about him

'cause new situations are hard and his new school...

Is he making any friends? [chuckles]

Uh, some, you know.

[stammers] He just is a recluse.

He kind of stays in his room.

-Yeah, definitely. -He doesn't reach out.

-Keeps to himself. -And I try and leave him room with that

because of all he's been through with his mom.

And I can't imagine finding my mother

so soon after losing my dad.

[clears throat]

It makes me so angry, these pharmaceutical drugs.

[sighs and chuckles]

But you know, he's an amazing young man.

He's just through it all, so strong.

-Yeah. -Yeah.

Yeah. Well, I don't know if he told you about us,

but I wanted him to come live with me.

His mom was my roommate and I loved her so much.

We were college roommates and I told her

if anything ever happened, you know, I would be there.

[sighs]

But now I'm glad you're there, really.

So good to meet you.

-I'm just going to... -Oh, yeah, sorry. [chuckles]

-Thank you. -Yeah.

[camera clicking]

[camera clicking]

[Raine] Max.

[gravel rustling]

I'll do it with you.

Tonight.

Are you serious?

Just this one time, okay?

Once. And then we never do it again.

Yeah.

Max... I need you to promise me.

Promise me, Max.

Yeah.

Hey, come here.

I promise.

Okay, promise.

Okay.

[gentle piano music]

[sighing] Jesus.

[camera clicking]

[eerie music]

[Max's echoed voice] Not that big of a deal.

[scoffing]

Will you do that?

Please.

[Max] Yeah.

[Raine] It's fucking cool.

Just this one time, okay?

And then we never do it again.

[light eerie music]

[camera clicking]

[Max] Hey. Are you sure this is cool?

Yeah, Lucy's parents are still in San Diego.

Right, but, I mean,

do you think Lucy will be cool with this?

[chuckles] I think out of all people

Lucy would be cool with it.

[Max] Right.

[Lucy giggling]

[radio music]

-[knocking] -[Lucy] Whoah, what?!

-Lucy. -[Jimmy] Shit, hello?

-Hey. -[Lucy] Raine?!

-Yeah, it's me. -[Lucy] Okay, hold this.

Hang on.

-What up? -Hi.

Hey. What's up, Raine?

-Hey, Max. -Sorry to interrupt you guys.

Just wondering if you had anywhere private

-we could hang in. -Ah, shit.

Bad girl, back on the hit.

Don't make a big deal about it.

Choose one of the, like, 17 rooms, dude.

-Cool. -Knock yourself out, crazy kids.

-[playful screaming] Ouch! -[Jimmy giggles]

[door opens]

[door creaking]

[door closes]

I'll wash my hands.

[water running]

[Raine] Where'd you get all that stuff?

I've been collecting it for a while.

You know, a piece here and there.

Well, you seem organized.

I like that.

[clears throat] Anything worth doing...

-...is worth doing right. -[chuckles]

I'd appreciate if you didn't quote my grandma

as I'm about to shoot narcotics into my vein.

Yeah. [chuckles]

[lighter clicks]

[sighs]

Okay.

[Max clears his throat]

Okay, I'll do this.

[sighs]

So... tie this here.

-How's that? -Tight.

[they chuckle]

Good.

They say it's supposed to be trippy the first time.

I bet.

Will you do it?

You know,

you know, I've never done this before either.

Yeah. [chuckles] I know, I just,

you know, you've watched a lot of videos

of people doing it. You've done your research,

and I think I'd feel better if you did it.

Please?

Yeah, okay.

You ready?

[sighs]

[exhales]

Oh, Raine.

Raine.

[exhales]

[exhales]

Hey.

Babe, hop up, come on.

Come here, hey.

Woah.

[exhales]

Hey.

[gentle piano music]

Babe.

Raine, Raine, wake up.

[somber piano music]

Raine, come on, come on.

Raine, wake up.

[somber piano music]

[Lucy screaming]

[siren sounding]

[dramatic piano music]

[music intensifies]

[camera clicking]

[eerie violin music]

[camera clicking]

[Raine] What more do you need to know?

I mean it, fucks up your world.

It changes who you are on a core level.

You just have to try.

Do drugs with me!

Do drugs with me.

-Do it. -Drop it.

-Come on, it'll be fun. -I told you

I don't do that stuff anymore.

I loved her.

Just pretend for one night for me, okay?

We should stop.

Why don't you just go play house

with Max and Raine?

I loved her too.

Make soup, why don't you go do that?

Don't you fucking say that to me.

-Okay. -Babe.

Oh, that's cool, just like

why don't you just die before you even live!

[knocking]

[Lucy] I always thought that I blamed you

but I blamed myself.

I wanted to give you this.

Raine's mom gave it to me a long time ago

when we were going through some of her stuff.

I was going to throw it away but I... I never did.

So, when you came by the other day,

I couldn't sleep, and I was looking for something to read

and there it was.

You know, I...

I used to think my dad was a superhero.

He had this indestructible vibe about him.

And this, um, this one time,

he told me, "If you want to escape from prison,

first you have to admit that you're in prison."

You know, freedom was kind of his big thing.

Physical freedom, economic freedom...

freedom from social taboos.

So, he...

[sighs]

...imprisoned himself in his own cynicism.

He said, uh...

that we are all dishonest with ourselves

so we can never be honest with each other.

Do you think that's true?

Are you asking me if I lie to myself?

Yeah, I do.

It's the only way I know.

[Lucy] Do you want a cup of coffee?

I'm going to make some, so.

Yeah.

Yeah, that'd be great.

-Okay. -Thanks.

[sighs]

[sighs]

Kali, hi.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm fine.

Hey, do you want to fly out to meet me?

Yeah, I mean, you know,

maybe we could drive back together.

There's some things I got to tell you about my past.

So cold. [chuckles]

[moaning]

[they chuckle]

[they moan]

Come here.

Come here.

[moaning]

-[chuckles] -I'm going to take a shower.

-Yeah? -Yeah.

You want to come?

Mm-hmm.

-With me? -Yeah.

Hey, you know what?

You go ahead, I'm just going to check something really quick.

[water pouring]

Hey, you coming?

Max?

[eerie music]

[piano music]

[somber piano music]

[Raine] Baby, your mind is all twisted on this, okay?

If you think that I'm going to stand back

and watch you trash your life,

or like condone it or whatever,

you're fucking nuts!

[Max] Hey, trash-- come on.

Look, hear me out, okay?

What if when we die, we discover, hey,

we discover that the goal in life was to simply have

as many different experiences as possible?

[camera clicking]

¶ It's always been you and me ¶

¶ It's always been you You and me ¶

¶ It's always you and me ¶

¶ It'll always be you and me ¶

¶ Oooh ¶

¶ Oooh ¶

¶ All my time ¶

¶ Hmmm, look for The riddle in this rhyme ¶

¶ If I don't need to cry ¶

¶ These memories of you They flood my mind ¶

¶ You held me close Kiss my bones ¶

¶ Gave me the key I needed most ¶

¶ I love you so Won't let you go ¶

¶ Never thought the other Side was so damn close ¶

¶ With you and me ¶

¶ It's always been you You and me ¶

¶ It was always you and me ¶

¶ Will always be you and me ¶

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¶ I'm doing time ¶

¶ Hmm, cold sweating tripped Upon another high ¶

¶ Looking for you in my mind ¶

¶ My prison is my Mission of my vision ¶

¶ To change my paradigm ¶

¶ I miss your touch ¶

¶ You're all I ever need ¶

¶ Baby, when you take My hand it's ecstasy so ¶

¶ I close my eyes Hoping to find ¶

¶ A sweet release of the Memories that I locked inside ¶

¶ Of you and me ¶

¶ It's always been you You and me ¶

¶ It's always you and me ¶

¶ It'll always be ¶

¶ When I close my eyes ¶

¶ Raining shadows on me ¶

¶ Though I live in lies ¶

¶ It's the only Way that I know ¶

¶ And the thunder could Kill me or save me ¶

¶ But I hold you closer And it's farther ¶

¶ Than we ever could be ¶

¶ Oooh ¶

¶ Push you farther till You couldn't breathe ¶

¶ Oooh ¶

¶ Hold you closer Till I couldn't see ¶

¶ Oooh ¶

¶ You and me ¶

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¶ It's always been you and me ¶

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