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OKAY, SO I WAS MISERABLE.

AND I STAYED MISERABLE FOR ABOUT A YEAR.

AND THEN I DECIDED THAT I WAS

BORED WITH BEING MISERABLE.

I MEAN, AFTER A WHILE

HOW MUCH CAN YOU ENJOY YOUR OWN MISERY?

IT'S TIME TO STOP.

THE ONLY WAY I KNEW TO GET OUT OF IT

WAS TO LEAVE WHERE I WAS FROM,

LEAVE THE HOUSE I WAS MISERABLE IN,

STOP LOOKING AT MY MISERABLE MIRROR

IN MY MISERABLE BATHROOM IN MY MISERABLE HOUSE,

GET ON A PLANE AND FLY TO NEW YORK CITY,

CHANGE MY LIFE, CHANGE MY PLACE, GO BACK TO THE

PLACE I WAS FROM BEFORE ALL MY MISERY STARTED,

START ANEW, START A NEW LIFE.

AND I DID.

NEW YEAR'S EVE I GOT ON A PLANE,

THE RED-EYE FROM LOS ANGELES TO NEW YORK.

I ARRIVED EARLY IN THE MORNING, EXHAUSTED.

* IT'S A MOST UNUSUAL DAY *

* FEEL LIKE THROWING MY WORRIES AWAY *

* AS AN OLD NATIVE-BORN CALIFORNIAN WOULD SAY *

* IT'S A MOST UNUSUAL DAY *

* OH, THIS WEATHER'S AMAZING THEY SAY *

* THERE'S A MOST UNUSUAL SKY *

* NOT A SIGN OF A CLOUD PASSING BY *

* AND IF I WANT TO SING *

* THROW MY HEART IN THE RING *

* IT'S A MOST UNUSUAL DAY *

* THERE ARE PEOPLE MEETING PEOPLE *

* THERE IS SUNSHINE EVERYWHERE *

* THERE ARE PEOPLE GREETING PEOPLE *

* AND A FEELING OF SPRING IN THE AIR *

* IT'S A MOST UNUSUAL TIME *

* I KEEP FEELING MY TEMPERATURE CLIMB *

* IF MY HEART WON'T BEHAVE IN THE USUAL WAY *

* WELL, THERE'S ONLY ONE THING TO SAY *

* IT'S A MOST UNUSUAL, MOST UNUSUAL *

* MOST UNUSUAL DAY. *

OH, JESUS.

(KNOCKING ON DOOR)

OKAY.

WHO IS IT?

WHO IS IT?

YEAH?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY APARTMENT?

I LIVE HERE.

3C?

YEAH.

I'M MOVING IN.

OH, SORRY. WE'RE MOVING OUT TOMORROW.

I'VE GOT THE PLACE FOR THE FIRST.

NO, NO, WE'RE HERE THROUGH THE FIRST.

I'VE GOT THIS PLACE STARTING THE FIRST.

NO, NO, WE HAVE IT THROUGH THE FIRST-

I HAVE IT ON THE FIRST.

WE HAVE IT THROUGH THE FIRST.

I HAVE IT ON THE FIRST - THIS IS THE FIRST.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

IS THERE SOME SUPER WE CAN CHECK THIS WITH?

DON'T WAKE HIM UP AT THIS HOUR, HE'S REAL SURLY.

JUST COME IN AND WE'LL FIGURE IT OUT.

I DIDN'T SLEEP, I JUST GOT ON THE RED-EYE

FROM LOS ANGELES.

COME IN, WE'LL HAVE SOME TEA.

IT'LL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER

AND WE'LL FIGURE IT OUT.

DID MY STUFF ARRIVE?

YEAH, THE FURNITURE'S GREAT.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT'S GREAT?

IT'S NICE, YOU HAVE WONDERFUL TASTE.

COME ON, I'VE GOT GINGER TEA, IT'LL FIX ANYTHING.

YOU OKAY?

YEAH.

THE KITCHEN'S HERE.

CAN I LEAVE THIS SOMEWHERE?

JUST ANYWHERE IS FINE.

MY GOD, IT'S STARTED TO SNOW!

JUST SIT DOWN, TAKE YOUR COAT OFF.

I THINK I SHOULD FIND A PHONE.

TAKE YOUR COAT OFF, RELAX.

I'LL MAKE YOU SOME TEA.

GINGER TEA, EVERYTHING WILL BE-

NO, NO, I DON'T NEED THAT.

GINGER IS ONE OF THREE THINGS

THAT'S REALLY GOOD FOR YOU

- GINGER, GARLIC AND ONIONS.

GINGER TASTES GREAT.

I DON'T LIKE GINGER.

IT'S GOOD FOR YOUR HEART AND YOUR BLOODSTREAM

AND YOUR IMMUNE SYSTEM.

I KEEP A POT ON ALL WINTER LONG.

WHO ARE YOU?

I'M DREW, HI.

AND IF YOU DO THAT, YOU DON'T GET SICK.

ARE YOU SICK?

I'M A LITTLE SICK I THINK.

IT'S COLD IN NEW YORK, I JUST GOT OFF THE PLANE.

I'LL MAKE TWO KINDS OF TEA, YOU'LL TRY GINGER.

WHEN ARE YOU GUYS GOING TO BE OUT?

TOMORROW.

WHO ARE YOU?

OH, MY GOD, ANOTHER ONE.

WHY IS EVERYBODY UP?

HOW MANY OF YOU ARE THERE?

OH, MY GOD.

WE WERE UP UNTIL 5:30 TALKING ABOUT LIFE

AND WHAT WE'RE GOING TO DO WITH OUR LIVES

WHEN WE GET OUT OF HERE.

WHEN I DON'T GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY BODY ACHES

AND I DON'T FUNCTION VERY WELL.

NOT THAT I FUNCTION SO WELL WHEN I'M NOT TIRED.

I DON'T FEEL TOO GOOD EITHER.

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SHOULD DO?

YOU TAKE A LEMON AND PEEL THE YELLOW PART

OFF THE LEMON, LEAVE THE WHITE,

YOU PUT IT IN QUARTERS IN A VERY HOT BATH

AND THEN YOU GET IN THE BATH

AND YOU DRINK IT WHILE YOU'RE IN THERE.

THIS IS ALL VERY NICE, I HAVE TO GO TO SLEEP.

I'M HUNGRY.

WHY DON'T YOU EAT?

IT'S NOT ABOUT FOOD.

WHERE'S A PHONE? HELLO?

SORRY.

I WANT TO CALL A HOTEL AND GET A RESERVATION

AND GO TO BED. I'VE GOT TO GO TO SLEEP.

WILL YOU BE OUT TOMORROW?

WHAT IS THIS STUFF DOING HERE STILL?

WE DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH IT.

I CAN'T TAKE IT WITH ME

AND NEITHER CAN THE GIRLS.

I DON'T WANT IT.

WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH IT?

IT'S REALLY PERFECT IN THIS ROOM.

YOU MIGHT WANT TO KEEP IT.

YOU MIGHT LIKE IT IN HERE, IT WORKS.

I'M MOVING IN WITH A FAMILY SO I REALLY

CAN'T TAKE ANYTHING AND ANNIE'S PLACE

IS GOING TO BE REALLY SMALL.

WHAT ABOUT THE OTHER ONE, THE THIRD GIRL?

LUCY'S MOVING TO LA, IT'S KIND OF FAR

TO DRIVE ANYTHING LIKE THIS.

SO IF YOU WANT ANYTHING HERE

LET ME KNOW AND WE'LL TALK.

THE PHONE'S RIGHT THERE.

YOU CAN MAKE ANY CALLS YOU WANT.

MY COUCH... THAT'S MY CHAIR.

YEAH, IT'S NICE. YOU GOT ANY KIDS?

KIDS? NO.

I'M GOING TO PUT SOME CLOTHES ON.

I'LL BE BACK IN A BIT.

SNOW.

IT'S A GOOD OMEN.

IT MIGHT BE MY CUE TO GO TO WARMER WEATHER.

NO.

YEAH, MANHATTAN INFORMATION, PLEASE.

I'M GOING TO GIVE UP EVERYTHING

THAT'S BAD FOR ME THIS YEAR.

I'M GOING TO GIVE UP CAFFEINE, ALCOHOL, SUGAR.

I ALREADY GAVE UP GRASS LAST YEAR SO I DON'T HAVE

TO GIVE UP THE GRASS THIS YEAR, THANK GOD.

I'M GOING TO GIVE UP MEN.

WHAT YOU'RE GIVING UP- YOU'RE GIVING ME UP.

I'M NOT GIVING YOU UP.

I'M GIVING NEW YORK UP.

AND I'M GIVING UP MEN.

I'M GOING TO LOS ANGELES AND I'M NOT GOING TO

LET ONE MORE CREEPY ASSHOLE INTO MY LIFE.

I'M GOING TO GIVE UP DIET CANDIES.

RESERVATIONS PLEASE.

YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING?

YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO TO LOS ANGELES

TO GIVE MEN UP, YOU CAN GIVE MEN UP HERE.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO CHANGE A CITY TO GIVE UP A MAN.

I CAN'T GIVE THIS MAN UP IN NEW YORK.

THAT'S THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING

I'VE EVER HEARD.

IT'S NOT, ANNIE. I'VE TRIED THIS ALREADY.

RESERVATIONS PLEASE.

DO YOU HAVE ANY ROOMS FOR TONIGHT, PLEASE?

NOT TONIGHT?

YOU DON'T HAVE TO GO AWAY.

I HAVE TO GO.

NO, YOU DON'T.

IT'S SOMETHING THAT YOU WANT TO DO.

SO MAYBE YOU SHOULD COME WITH ME.

OH, VERY FUNNY.

I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DO THIS.

I'M JUST COMPLETELY TERRIFIED ABOUT IT.

IT'S GOING TO BE OKAY, ANNIE.

I KNOW IT'S GOING TO BE OKAY, I MEAN

I ABSOLUTELY KNOW THIS IS GOING TO BE FINE

AND THIS IS A GOOD IDEA, I JUST HATE CHANGE.

I HATE ANY KIND OF CHANGE.

RESERVATIONS PLEASE.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN THEY'RE CLOSED?

WHO DO I SPEAK TO ABOUT RESERVATIONS THEN?

I DON'T WANT A TOLL FREE NUMBER.

THERE'S NO HOTELS.

(PHONE RINGING)

HELLO?

HI MOM. NO, I'M OUT OF BREATH

'CAUSE I RAN FROM THE KITCHEN.

WHAT? YES, I KNOW.

SO THE NEW TENANT CAN PUT A PHONE IN THE KITCHEN.

I'M SO GLAD THIS WHOLE PERIOD IS OVER.

WHAT WHOLE PERIOD?

THIS WHOLE "IT", THIS WHOLE PERIOD,

THIS LAST TWO MONTHS FROM NEW YEAR'S,

CHRISTMAS, THANKSGIVING -

A WEEK BEFORE THANKSGIVING IS WHEN IT ALL STARTS.

I'M UP BECAUSE I'VE GOT 100 THINGS TO DO AND-

IT'S EARLY, YES, WELL, THIS GUY IS HERE.

NO, I WOULD STILL BE SLEEPING.

LUCY!

YES, MOM. YES, MOM.

I WILL, I WILL, I WILL.

YES, I WILL REMEMBER EVERYTHING.

I'VE GOT A PACKING LIST.

YES, LIKE A VERY GOOD GIRL, I DO.

IT DOESN'T HELP THAT I START EATING SUGAR

AROUND THANKSGIVING AND THEN I USUALLY EAT SUGAR

FROM THANKSGIVING ALL THE WAY TO NEW YEARS EVE

SO IT'S A BIOLOGICAL DEPRESSION AS WELL AS

A PSYCHOLOGICAL DEPRESSION

AND IT LASTS UNTIL JANUARY 2ND.

HOLD ON A SECOND.

THE MAYFLOWER HOTEL, PLEASE.

LUCY!

YEAH.

YOU DON'T HAVE ANYTHING AT ALL?

I CAN'T HEAR ANOTHER ONE OF THESE THINGS.

NOW IT'S JANUARY 1ST AND

I'M STARTING TO COME OUT OF IT.

WELL, I'M GLAD FOR YOU.

I JUST GOT HIM TO THINK IT WAS

A SEMANTIC MISUNDERSTANDING.

WHAT DID YOU TELL HIM?

I THOUGHT WE WERE HERE THROUGH THE FIRST.

IT SAID "THROUGH THE FIRST"

AND MY UNDERSTANDING IS THROUGH THE FIRST

BUT THEN HE SAID WE WERE CUT OFF ON THE-

ANYWAY, IT DOESN'T MATTER.

I FEEL SO STRONG, I FEEL SO HOPEFUL.

I'M COMPLETELY DETERMINED THAT I'M GOING TO DO

EVERYTHING THAT'S GOOD FOR MYSELF.

I'M JUST LOOKING AT THIS GUY I SHOT LAST WEEK.

HE WAS FLIRTING WITH ME A LOT.

I MEAN, HE MIGHT BE VOLUNTEER MATERIAL.

OH, STOP.

I'M JUST LOOKING!

LOOK AT THE GENETICS, YOU KNOW.

THEY'D BE BEAUTIFUL KIDS, THOUGH.

HE'S AN ACTOR.

TRUST ME, YOU DON'T WANT THAT.

I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE TO LIVE WITH HIM,

I'M TALKING ABOUT A DONOR HERE.

THIS WOULD BE A BEAUTIFUL COMBINATION.

YOU CAN STAY HERE WITH US, CAN'T YOU?

WHERE CAN I STAY WITH YOU?

IT'S BIG, IT'S JUST FOR ANOTHER DAY.

YOU'RE SICK ANYWAY,

YOU CAN'T BE WORRIED ABOUT THESE THINGS.

YEAH, I'M TRYING TO THINK OF ANOTHER HOTEL.

WE POLISHED OFF A LOT OF CHAMPAGNE.

(LAUGHING)

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

I CAN'T FIND A HOTEL.

THEY'RE ALL BOOKED BECAUSE IT'S NEW YEAR'S.

STAY, THIS PLACE IS HUGE.

JUST STAY, WE'RE GOING TO BE GONE TOMORROW.

THANK YOU, BUT WHERE WOULD I SLEEP?

YOU CAN SLEEP ANYWHERE.

I'LL SLEEP ON THIS COUCH, I'M GOING TO BE

PACKED AND OUT OF THAT ROOM - SOON I HOPE.

WHAT DO YOU DO, WHAT DO YOU GIRLS DO?

I WORK IN AN ART GALLERY.

PUBLIC RELATIONS.

YOU DO PUBLIC RELATIONS?

WELL, I HAVE DINNER WITH THE ARTISTS -

DINNERS AND DRINKS.

HOW ABOUT YOU?

I'M A PHOTOGRAPHER.

I'M HAVING A BABY. THIS TIME NEXT YEAR

I WILL HAVE A CHILD IN MY ARMS.

(LAUGHING)

WHO'S THE LUCKY GUY?

I DON'T KNOW YET.

I WILL FIND SOMETHING GENETICALLY PERFECT,

OR CLOSE TO PERFECT...

SOMETHING GENETICALLY SUITABLE

AND GET KNOCKED UP.

I'M GOING TO FIND A MAN IN THE NEXT THREE MONTHS

AND HAVE A BABY.

SHE'LL DO IT.

WHAT DO YOU DO?

UH, RIGHT NOW I DO VOICES FOR CARTOONS.

VOICES FOR CARTOONS?

I DO ALL THE FEMALE CHARACTER VOICES FOR SOME

CARTOONS AND, HEY, I DO SOME MALE ONES TOO;

IT DEPENDS WHAT THE JOB CALLS FOR,

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?

WHAT DO YOU DO?

I'D LIKE TO GO TO THE BATHROOM IF I COULD.

I WILL SEE YOU LATER.

(LAUGHING)

OH, GOD.

WHO IS THIS GUY?

HE'S SO WEIRD.

I THINK I'M GOING TO GIVE UP MY ROOM

BECAUSE HE LOOKS LIKE HE'S IN A PANIC.

YEAH, HE'S PANICKED.

NO MORE PANICKED THAN ME, BUT PANICKED.

OH, HONEY.

I'M NOT PANICKED REALLY.

I HAVE TO PACK.

YEAH.

NO!

YOU WANNA HELP?

NO.

PLEASE?

NO.

THERE'S SO MUCH STUFF IN THAT ROOM.

(PHONE RINGING)

MOM, IT'S FINE. I'M GONNA BE FINE.

WE DISCUSSED THIS 40 TIMES NOW, COME ON!

WHAT?

I JUST FEEL REALLY ABANDONED.

OH, DON'T FEEL ABANDONED, HONEY.

GOODBYE, OKAY? OKAY, GOODBYE.

WE DON'T- OKAY, I WILL.

GOODBYE, GOODBYE, GOODBYE.

I JUST FEEL REALLY ABANDONED.

DON'T START.

AND I FEEL COMPLETELY BETRAYED.

GOODBYE, OKAY? GOODBYE!

YES. (KISS) GOODBYE.

YES, I LOVE YOU, GOODBYE.

YOU MAKE CONNECTIONS WITH FRIENDS AND YOU

LIVE TOGETHER FOR FOUR YEARS AND THEN IT'S OVER.

RELATIONSHIPS CHANGE.

HI.

WHAT DID YOU DECIDE TO DO?

ABOUT WHAT?

ABOUT WHERE YOU'RE GOING TO SLEEP?

I'LL SLEEP RIGHT HERE.

THAT'S OKAY.

NO, I'LL SLEEP ON THE COUCH OUT THERE.

I'LL SLEEP ON THE COUCH, IT'S NOT A PROBLEM.

NO, I DON'T WANT TO MAKE YOU SLEEP ON THE COUCH.

WHAT ARE YOU WATCHING?

IT'S A TAPE OF ME SWIMMING WITH DOLPHINS.

YOU SWIMMING WITH DOLPHINS?

YEAH, I WENT TO THIS GREAT PLACE IN KEY LARGO.

THAT'S AMAZING. ISN'T IT SCARY?

NO, IT'S NOT SCARY.

ONCE YOU GET OVER THE INITIAL SHOCK OF

HOW ENORMOUS THEY ARE AND HOW MUCH

THEY LOOK LIKE SHARKS WHEN ALL THAT'S

STICKING OUT OF THE WATER IS THE FIN.

YOU HANG OUT IN THE WATER WITH THE DOLPHINS

AND THEY SORT OF DECIDE WHAT TO DO.

THEY'LL SWIM AROUND AND SUDDENLY SHOW UP

NEXT TO YOU AND YOU GRAB ONTO THEIR FIN

AND THEY'LL TAKE YOU TO THE BOTTOM

AND SHOW YOU AROUND. IT'S GREAT.

THAT'S FANTASTIC.

IT'S REALLY GREAT.

HE FOLLOWED ME EVERYWHERE I WENT.

HE FOLLOWED YOU EVERYWHERE YOU WENT?

DID THEY EVER GET SEXUALLY EXCITED?

THEY'RE A RANDY BUNCH.

EVERYTHING YOU'VE HEARD IS TRUE.

THEY ARE, INDEED.

HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH THAT?

IT'S FUNNY, ACTUALLY.

IT'S NOT THREATENING, IT'S PRETTY AMUSING.

IT'S DIFFERENT.

THEY'RE ONLY INTERESTED IN YOUR KNEES.

IT'S THE CORRESPONDING AREA.

IF YOUR FEET WERE A TAIL, THEN YOUR KNEES...

IF YOUR FEET WERE A TAIL- AAH.

SO THEY ARE GOING FOR THE EQUAL AREA

BUT IT HAPPENS TO HIT YOU IN THE KNEES.

IT'S LIKE THERE ARE ELECTRICAL CHARGES

GOING THROUGH THE WATER.

WHEN YOU'RE UNDER THE WATER YOU CAN HEAR SOUND

ALL AROUND YOU BUT YOU CAN'T SEE THEM AND

IT'S LIKE THIS CLICKING SORT OF CRACKLING SOUND

AND IT TRAVELS FROM ONE SIDE

THROUGH YOUR HEAD AND OUT THE OTHER.

AND WHEN THEY'RE OUT OF THE WATER THEY SORT OF GO

AH-AH-AH-AH-AH. LIKE THAT.

WHAT ABOUT THESE GUYS HERE?

THAT'S A CHIMPANZEE THAT I TAUGHT FOR A WHILE.

I TAUGHT HIM HOW TO SPEAK SIGN LANGUAGE

FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS.

YOU TAUGHT THIS GUY?

THIS IS ALL THE SAME CHIMPANZEE?

YEAH, AT DIFFERENT STAGES.

THAT'S YOU!

THAT'S ME AT A DIFFERENT STAGE OF DEVELOPMENT.

THAT'S RIGHT, IT'S A LITTLE YOU.

YEAH, IT'S A LITTLE ME.

HOW LONG DID YOU LIVE WITH THEM?

FOR TWO YEARS ON AND OFF.

HOW DO YOU KNOW HOW TO SPEAK SIGN LANGUAGE?

I LEARNED, TO TEACH HIM.

I HELPED TO RAISE HIM.

I WAS INVOLVED IN A PROJECT IN ORDER TO SEE

WHETHER CHIMPANZEES HAD THE CAPACITY FOR

SENTENCE STRUCTURE AND I OFFERED MY SERVICES.

I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU'RE DOING,

I DON'T CARE WHY YOU'RE DOING IT,

I'LL DO ANYTHING. I'LL CHANGE DIAPERS,

I'LL CLEAN YOUR KITCHEN, I'LL DO ANYTHING.

AND SO I DID.

I MISS HIM.

I BET.

SO YOU'VE GOT DOLPHINS AND CHIMPANZEES?

SOME OF THE BEST COMPANY YOU'RE GOING TO FIND.

YOU DON'T LIKE PEOPLE TOO MUCH I GUESS.

NO, I LIKE PEOPLE BUT ONCE IN A WHILE

IT'S NICE TO HANG OUT WITH A CHIMP, YOU KNOW?

I'M NOT A CHIMP AND I'M NOT A DOLPHIN

BUT I NEED A PLACE TO SLEEP.

WELL, YOU CAN CERTAINLY SLEEP...

RIGHT HERE?

IN WHATEVER ROOM IN THIS HOUSE...

RIGHT HERE?

WILL YOU JOIN ME?

I'LL TAKE THE COUCH BUT FEEL FREE TO HAVE THE ROOM.

DID YOU EVER SLEEP WITH THE CHIMPANZEE?

HE DIDN'T SLEEP IN BED WITH ME BUT HE WOULD

HAVE NIGHTMARES PERIODICALLY AND CLIMB IN

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.

SORT OF OOH OOH! AH! AH!

OOH OOH AH AH! SORT OF LIKE THAT.

IF I DO THAT THEN I CAN JUMP INTO BED...

OKAY.

OOH OOH AH AH!

OOH OOH AH AH AH!

YOU'RE A VERY WEIRD MIXTURE.

I DON'T KNOW HOW TO INTEGRATE YOU

WITH THESE OTHER TWO PEOPLE I SEE HERE.

THEY'RE NICE BUT THEY'RE-

THEY'RE VERY SWEET.

BUT THEY ARE A LITTLE-

THEY'RE DIFFERENT.

THEY'RE DIFFERENT, YEAH.

I'VE HAD TRAINING.

AT DEALING WITH THE DIFFERENT - OH, I SEE.

CHIMPS, DOLPHINS AND ROOMMATES.

I'M JUST GOING TO GO TO SLEEP RIGHT HERE

IF YOU DON'T MIND.

HOW ABOUT YOU GO HANG OUT IN THE LIVING ROOM

AND WHEN I'M CLEARED OUT OF HERE IT'S YOURS.

I'VE GOT TO PACK.

I CAN'T STAND THAT SOUND.

PLEASE, I REALLY...

COULD YOU TAKE THAT STUFF

AND PACK IT SOMEWHERE ELSE?

I'LL PACK IT OUT OF THIS ROOM, OKAY?

CAN I PILE IT UP AND TAKE OFF?

SHHH.

I'M OUT OF HERE, OKAY?

TWO MORE SECONDS.

YOU'RE NICE, I'M SORRY.

NO, I UNDERSTAND.

YOU NEED SLEEP, YOU'RE NOT FEELING WELL.

IT'S FREEZING IN NEW YORK.

GOOD NIGHT, HAPPY DREAMS.

I'M SORRY.

SEE YOU LATER TONIGHT.

BYE.

SO WHAT ELSE IN HERE IS MINE THAT I NEED TO TAKE?

I'VE GOT MY BATHING SUIT...

THIS BLACK BATHING SUIT.

WHERE'D YOU GET IT? I WANT ONE LIKE IT.

KEEP MINE.

REALLY? I LOVE YOU.

I LOVE YOU TOO.

WHAT ELSE HAVE I GOT HERE THAT I HAVE TO TAKE?

(DOORBELL)

HEY.

OH, MOTHER, PLEASE LET'S NOT TALK ABOUT THIS AGAIN.

I'VE MADE A NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION.

IT'S GOING TO BE VERY DIFFERENT NOW.

I'M NOT GOING TO CALL YOU,

I'M GOING TO LEAVE YOU TOTALLY ALONE.

I'M GOING TO LET YOU BE YOUR OWN PERSON.

I KNOW I'VE BEEN A PAIN IN THE ASS,

I'VE BEEN CALLING YOU EVERY MORNING.

I WON'T DO THAT ANYMORE.

YOU KNOW THAT WHEN I MAKE A RESOLUTION

I STICK TO IT.

I STOPPED SMOKING, I STOPPED DRINKING.

JUST STAY HERE UNTIL YOU LINE SOMETHING UP

AND YOU KNOW WHAT YOU'RE DOING.

WHAT'S THE POINT OF GOING TO LA

AND GOING TO THAT JUNGLE?

AH, IT'S JUST RIDICULOUS.

THANK YOU, I'LL REMEMBER THAT.

PLEASE DON'T WEAR THAT RIBBON, IT'S SO WRINKLED.

MY RIBBON IS FINE, I WEAR IT ALL THE TIME.

IT LOOKS IT.

THANKS. YOU WANT TO DO ME A FAVOR?

STOP WEARING THE FUR.

I'LL STOP WEARING THE RIBBON

IF YOU STOP WEARING THE FUR.

I'M NOT BUYING ANY MORE FURS AFTER THIS.

I WASN'T GOING TO SAY THIS BECAUSE I DON'T

THINK IT'S FAIR TO SAY THIS BUT YOU'RE MY ONLY

CHILD AND I DON'T THINK IT'S FAIR OF YOU TO LEAVE

THE CITY THAT I'M IN AND JUST LEAVE ME HERE ALONE.

YOU'VE GOTTA BE KIDDING ME.

MOM, I'M NOT LEAVING YOU HERE ALONE.

YOU'VE GOT 40,000 FRIENDS.

THAT'S NOT THE SAME THING.

IF I PROMISE THAT I'M NOT GOING TO BOTHER YOU-

THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOUR BOTHERING ME,

THIS IS ABOUT MY LIFE.

BUT YOU'RE SO WONDERFUL AT WHAT YOU DO.

I WATCH THOSE CARTOONS ALL THE TIME.

THEY'RE WONDERFUL.

THE ONE ABOUT THE DOG AND THE CAT -

YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT.

THEY'LL BE IN RE-RUNS BEFORE YOU KNOW IT.

JUST BECAUSE I GO DOESN'T MEAN THE CARTOON GOES.

YOU HAVE MADE A NAME FOR YOURSELF,

YOU HAVE A BRILLIANT, WONDERFUL CAREER.

WHY SPOIL IT ALL?

YOU WON'T FIND A JOB THERE, POSSIBLY,

YOU'LL COME BACK HERE AND THEY WON'T TAKE YOU BACK.

I WOULD APPRECIATE A LITTLE BIT OF SUPPORT.

DON'T TELL ME I'M NOT GOING TO GET

ANYTHING DONE THERE.

THAT'S NOT WHAT I NEED TO HEAR.

I'M SAYING YOU POSSIBLY MIGHT NOT.

WELL, THANK YOU FOR POSSIBLY MIGHT NOT.

MOM, CAN WE STOP NOW?

I'M NEVER GOING TO BOTHER YOU AGAIN.

SOMEONE ORDERED-

NO ONE ORDERED THIS FOOD!

I DON'T WANT THIS FOOD!

I'M SORRY I JUST DON'T WANT THE FOOD HERE.

WE GOT THE PHONE CALL AND SOMEONE ORDERED THE FOOD.

THERE IS NO ONE HERE THAT COULD ORDER THIS FOOD.

THIS FOOD IS DRIVING ME NUTS!

JUST WAIT A SECOND,

I'LL TELL YOU WHO ORDERED IT, OKAY?

HOLD ON...

RICHARDS, APARTMENT 3C.

LUCY, WHY WOULD YOU ORDER THIS FOOD

AND TORTURE ME LIKE THIS?

$124.87.

I WON'T BE ABLE TO REACH YOU.

OH, MY GOD.

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT CAN HAPPEN AT MY AGE.

OH, MY GOD.

I'M BEGGING YOU, PLEASE TAKE THE FOOD AWAY.

CALM DOWN, TAKE IT EASY.

I'M SORRY I CAN'T TAKE THE FOOD BACK.

WHY NOT?

BECAUSE SOMEONE ORDERED IT.

WE PREPARED THIS STUFF FOR YOU GUYS.

THERE'S A TRAY OF PASTA SALAD, THERE'S A TRAY OF

TUNA SALAD, A TRAY OF ZUCCHINI SALAD

AND THERE'S TWO BOXES OF COOKIES.

WHAT YOU SEE IS WHAT YOU GET.

I'M HAVING A COMPLETE ANXIETY ATTACK.

I WOULD DO ANYTHING NOT TO HAVE THIS FOOD HERE!

JUST GET IT OUT OF HERE!

I'M GOING CRAZY OVER THIS FOOD!

GET IT OUT!

JUST TAKE IT EASY.

I SAID I'D MAKE GOOD ON IT, JUST GET RID OF IT!

WHERE'S LUCY?

FORGET LUCY, FORGET RICHARDS,

SHE MADE A MISTAKE!

WHERE IS SHE? LET HER TELL ME, OKAY?

WHERE'S THE KITCHEN AT?

I'M GOING TO PUT THIS IN THE KITCHEN,

YOU GET LUCY TO GIVE ME A CHECK, OKAY?

JESUS CHRIST.

(DOOR BEING UNLOCKED)

HEY, HOW ARE YOU DOING?

I'M OKAY.

DO YOU MIND THAT I'M HERE?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?

I JUST CAME TO SEE YOU.

I HEARD YOU'RE MOVING TO THE WEST COAST.

YEAH, I AM.

THANKS FOR TELLING ME. I APPRECIATE IT.

I DIDN'T WANT TO TELL ANYBODY.

ANYWAY, I BROUGHT SOME STUFF.

THIS IS ALL THE STUFF I HAVE THAT'S YOURS.

DON'T DO THIS HERE, DON'T DO THIS HERE.

JUST TAKE IT.

WHAT IS THIS?

THIS IS YOURS, AND THIS.

LITTLE WORSE FOR WEAR BUT IT'S YOURS.

PLEASE DON'T DO THIS HERE, DAMMIT.

STOP!

I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANYTHING

TO TALK ABOUT REALLY.

WHAT CAN I SAY?

I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU CAN SAY.

I DON'T THINK WE NEED TO TALK.

I DON'T THINK WE NEED TO BE HERE

AND THERE'S PEOPLE COMING OVER.

ANYTHING THAT I SAY-

I JUST HAVE TO ACT NOW, YOU KNOW?

MY ACTIONS ARE GOING TO BE WHAT YOU SEE

BECAUSE ANYTHING I SAY

IS JUST GOING TO BE BULLSHIT, YOU KNOW?

IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY TO ME

YOU SHOULD SAY IT.

YOU HAVE TO GIVE ME SOME TIME.

IF YOU GO WHAT AM I GOING TO DO?

CALL YOU ON THE PHONE AND GET IT TOGETHER THAT WAY?

YOU HAD A LOT OF TIME.

I DIDN'T HAVE TIME, TWO MONTHS WE TOOK OFF.

FOR TWO MONTHS WE HAD A LOT OF TIME

AND I THINK I'VE SEEN EVERYTHING

THERE IS TO SEE WITH THIS.

NOW I KNOW WHAT'S IMPORTANT.

SO NOW CAN YOU GIVE ME THE CHANCE

WHEN I KNOW WHAT'S OVER ME?

WHAT IS GOING TO BE IN LA?

I'M GONNA BE IN LA, AWAY FROM YOU.

I'LL CALL YOU EVERY DAY THEN.

WELL, I MAY NOT TALK TO YOU.

WELL, THEN I'LL CALL YOU TWICE A DAY.

LUCY... LOOK.

I SEE YOU.

I SEE YOU! I KNOW EVERYTHING

THAT THERE IS TO KNOW ABOUT US.

I DON'T THINK THERE'S ANY REASON

FOR US TO DO THIS AGAIN.

DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY TIMES YOU FUCKED AROUND

ON ME AND LEFT ME SITTING THERE AND LIED TO ME AND

TREATED ME AS IF I WAS THE ONE WHO WAS MISTAKEN?

DO YOU KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE?

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT FEELS LIKE.

I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE.

NOBODY DOES THAT TO YOU.

YOU'VE DONE IT TO ME.

IF I'VE DONE THAT TO YOU AND I ADMIT THAT I HAVE

I GUESS I HAVE BECAUSE BY THE END OF THIS GODDAMN

THING WE WERE BOTH DOING THE SAME THING, BILLY.

WE WERE BOTH DOING THE SAME THING

AND THAT'S WHY I'M GOING.

BECAUSE THAT'S NOT ME.

AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I'M TURNING INTO YOU

AND I REALLY DON'T BELIEVE

THAT'S WHO YOU ARE EITHER.

BUT I CAN'T PLAY THAT GAME ANYMORE.

I CAN'T WAIT AROUND FOR MY THEORY

TO BE PROVEN TRUE.

I JUST NEED ONE MORE CHANCE, ALRIGHT?

JUST ONE.

YOU'RE WHAT I WANT NOW.

OKAY, JUST STAY.

THERE ARE PEOPLE COMING OVER AND

YOU CAN JUST STAY AND WE'LL TALK ABOUT IT LATER.

JUST STAY, OKAY?

*

*

WHAT CAN I TELL YOU ABOUT ME?

WHY ARE YOU GOING TO LOS ANGELES?

REALLY, WHY ARE YOU GOING?

I'M LEAVING THINGS THAT I THINK NEED TO BE

LEFT BEHIND AND I'M HOPEFULLY MOVING ON

TO SOME THINGS THAT I CAN LOOK FORWARD TO.

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO GET AWAY FROM?

A NO-WIN SITUATION.

DO YOU MIND MY TOUCHING YOUR KNEE THIS WAY?

WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING MY KNEE THAT WAY?

I FOUND MYSELF TOUCHING YOUR KNEE.

IT'S A NICE KNEE AND IT'S TOUCHABLE.

IT'S PURELY AFFECTION AT A VERY SAFE DISTANCE.

THAT'S FINE.

STAY THERE AND MY KNEE WILL STAY WHERE IT IS.

NO, I HAVE NO INTEREST IN APPROACHING CHILDREN

WITH ANY SEXUALITY WHATSOEVER.

I'M LOOKING FOR ADULTS IN LIFE.

NOTHING PERSONAL.

I KNOW THAT'S A HARD REJECTION FOR YOU, BUT...

I CAN'T TAKE IT!

I KNOW, IT'S HARD, ISN'T IT?

REALLY, I DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT AT ALL.

I'M SORRY BUT I JUST CAN'T ACCEPT

YOUR KIND OFFER OF SEXUAL FAVORS.

SO WHY'D YOU COME HERE?

TO NEW YORK?

TO NOT BE IN LOS ANGELES.

TO NOT BE ALONE IN MY HOUSE-

IN OUR HOUSE, THE HOUSE THAT WAS AN "OUR" HOUSE

AND IS NOW A "MY" HOUSE IN LOS ANGELES.

THE HOUSE I'D BEEN LIVING HAPPILY IN FOR A LONG TIME

AND NOW I AM NOT IN IT WITH THE PERSON I WAS HAPPY WITH

SO I COME BACK TO THE CITY THAT I'M FROM

THINKING I CAN START MY LIFE OVER AGAIN HERE

AND FIND A WAY TO BE HAPPY AGAIN HERE

LIKE I WAS BEFORE... BEFORE.

BUT WHAT I THINK I PROBABLY

HAVE TO COME TO TERMS WITH

IS THE FACT THAT IT'S TOO LATE TO DO THAT.

YOU GET TO A CERTAIN POINT IN LIFE

AND YOU CAN'T START AGAIN.

OH, I DON'T AGREE WITH THAT.

WHETHER YOU AGREE OR NOT- IT'S VERY SWEET

OF YOU TO SAY YOU DON'T AGREE WITH IT,

BUT YOU HAVE NO WAY OF KNOWING YET.

I DO KNOW.

YOU DON'T KNOW.

THERE'S NO REASON WHY YOU SHOULDN'T

BE ABLE TO START AGAIN.

THERE'S NO MORE REASON THAT YOU

SHOULDN'T BE ABLE TO START AGAIN THAN

THAT I SHOULDN'T BE ABLE TO START AGAIN.

ONE GENERATION IS ABOUT THE REASON, DIFFERENT.

WHEN YOU START AND YOU'VE GOT THIS ENTIRE FUTURE

TO LOOK FORWARD TO AND IT HASN'T HAPPENED YET

IT'S TOTALLY DIFFERENT THAN WHEN IT'S HAPPENED

AND IT DIDN'T WORK AND THEN YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO

START AGAIN AND IT'S A VERY HARD THING TO

IMAGINE DOING AND I THINK PROBABLY

THE GROWN-UP THING TO DO IS TO COME TO TERMS

WITH THE FACT THAT IT'S TOO LATE.

I DON'T THINK GIVING UP IS THE GROWN-UP THING

TO DO IN LIFE.

I WASN'T TALKING ABOUT GIVING UP.

SOUNDS TO ME LIKE YOU'RE GIVING UP.

I'M TALKING ABOUT GIVING IN TO REALITY,

I'M TALKING ABOUT GIVING IN TO THE TRUTH OF THE

FACT THAT REALITY IS THAT AFTER A CERTAIN NUMBER

OF YEARS YOU CAN'T BEGIN AGAIN AS IF YOU WERE -

WHAT ARE YOU, 25, 26 YEARS OLD?

YOU CAN'T DO THAT WHEN YOU'RE 45 OR 46 YEARS OLD.

IT'S A TOTALLY DIFFERENT THING.

YOU CAN'T SUDDENLY PRETEND THAT YOU'VE GOT

THAT SAME SPAN OF LIFE IN FRONT OF YOU AND THE SAME

TIME TO GO OUT THERE AND HOPE TO MEET THE PERSON

AND TO FIND THAT BALANCE BETWEEN ALL THE THINGS

NECESSARY IN ORDER FOR YOU AND THAT OTHER PERSON

TO START A LIFE TOGETHER.

ESPECIALLY IF LIKE ME YOU HAVEN'T HAD CHILDREN YET

AND YOU WANT DESPERATELY TO HAVE CHILDREN

AND YOU DON'T THINK THERE'S ANY WAY TO DO IT.

IT'S A VERY DANGEROUS DREAM TO HOLD ONTO.

SO MAYBE IT'S BETTER AND GROWN AND MORE IN TOUCH

WITH REALITY TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE FACT

THAT THIS IS WHAT IT IS, THAT YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE,

IT IS TOO LATE AND FIND ANOTHER LEVEL IN LIFE,

ANOTHER LEVEL OF ENJOYMENT OF LIFE

OTHER THAN EXPECTANCY, OTHER THAN ROMANTIC HOPE,

OTHER THAN DREAMING STILL OF MEETING SOMEBODY,

OTHER THAN PLACING YOUR ENTIRE FANTASY LEVEL,

YOUR HOPEFULNESS LEVEL, YOUR HAPPINESS LEVEL

ON A DREAM THAT IS APPROPRIATE FOR

SOMEBODY OF 25 AND NOT SOMEBODY OF 45.

WELL, MAYBE THE NEXT RELATIONSHIP IN YOUR LIFE

WILL EXIST ON ANOTHER LEVEL.

YEAH, AND MAYBE NOT.

OR MAYBE THAT OTHER LEVEL WILL BE

SOME KIND OF COMPROMISE LEVEL.

A LEVEL WHERE IT'S NICE BUT IT'S NOT EVERYTHING.

AND IT'S OKAY BUT IT'S NOT TOTAL,

AND IT DOESN'T SATISFY WHAT REALLY HAS TO BE DONE.

(DOORBELL)

HI, HAPPY NEW YEAR.

WINONA, I'D LIKE YOU TO MEET MY FRIEND,

DR. STADTHAGEN.

NICE TO MEET YOU, COME ON IN.

LET ME TAKE YOUR UMBRELLA.

I THINK EVERYBODY HAS THE POSSIBILITY

TO START AGAIN,

TO START SOMEWHERE IN THEIR LIFE AGAIN,

TO HAVE CHILDREN LATE IN LIFE,

TO HAVE LOVE LATE IN LIFE.

LATE IN LIFE?

YOU'RE NOT LATE - I LOOKED AT YOUR FACE

AS SOON AS I SAID THAT.

I DIDN'T- YOU'RE TALKING LIKE YOU'RE

AT THE END OF THE GODDAMN ROAD, MISTER.

LATE IN FUCKING LIFE, IS YOUR WORDS.

I AM RESPONDING TO YOUR ATTITUDE.

IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LATE IN LIFE.

I AM PRENATAL ACCORDING TO YOU,

SO LOOK AT WHERE YOU ARE.

YOU'RE ONLY JUST BEGINNING.

YEP.

I'M FEELING STRANGELY LIKE THE OLDER MAN.

I GUESS THAT COMES TO EVERYBODY

AT ONE MOMENT OR ANOTHER...

FEELING THAT YOU'RE THE OLDER MAN.

I ALWAYS WAS THE YOUNGEST ONE,

AND EVERYBODY ELSE WAS OLDER

SO IT'S VERY WEIRD TO SUDDENLY WAKE UP ONE DAY

- AND THAT'S EXACTLY HOW IT SEEMS -

YOU WAKE UP ONE DAY AND FIND YOURSELF PLAYING A PART.

I'M PLAYING THE PART OF THE OLDER MAN.

THAT'S A LITTLE WEIRD.

WHERE ARE YOU PLAYING THIS ROLE?

WELL, WITH YOUR KNEE.

(LAUGHING)

KNEES.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

LITTLE DRINK...

(DOORBELL)

DAD?

I WANT TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT

THIS CALIFORNIA THING.

BUT I CAN'T DO IT RIGHT NOW.

IT HAS TO BE RIGHT NOW, YOU'RE LEAVING TOMORROW.

WHY DON'T I JUST CALL YOU IN AN HOUR OR SOMETHING.

HONEY, I DON'T THINK IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN.

IT WILL, I SWEAR. I'LL CALL YOU IN AN HOUR.

YOU GOT SOMEBODY HERE? WHAT'S GOING ON?

THERE'S A COUPLE OF PEOPLE HERE BUT I'VE GOT

SO MUCH STUFF TO DO AND YOU DIDN'T CALL.

I DON'T HAVE TO CALL, I'M YOUR FATHER.

TEN MINUTES IS ALL I WANT, TEN MINUTES!

I CAN'T DO IT NOW, DADDY!

HONEY, I'VE THOUGHT ABOUT IT,

I'VE GOT TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT IT.

I CANNOT LET YOU GO TO CALIFORNIA

JUST LIKE THAT!

FINE, TEN MINUTES, OKAY?

THAT'S ALL I'M GIVING YOU AND THEN YOU'LL GO?

I'LL GO AS SOON AS WE'RE THROUGH TALKING.

FIFTEEN MINUTES.

TEN MINUTES, DADDY.

I'M YOUR FATHER, I MAY DIE TOMORROW.

YOU'RE NOT GOING TO DIE, YOU'VE GOT TEN MINUTES.

BUT DON'T DO IT WITH AN ATTITUDE.

HONEY, LIFE IS LIKE A TV SITCOM.

YOU GOTTA KNOW WHERE THE LAUGHS ARE AND

ALWAYS REMEMBER, WHEN THINGS GET EMOTIONAL

YOU KNOW THERE'S A COMMERCIAL COMING UP.

OH, GOD, DAD.

I KNOW THESE THINGS.

I HAVEN'T SPENT YEARS WRITING THEM FOR NOTHING.

PEARLS OF WISDOM.

I DON'T KNOW THAT I WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE

TO MAKE THIS TRIP WITHOUT THAT ADVICE.

HAVE YOU MADE ANY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS?

I'M GIVING UP ALL MY COMPULSIVE BEHAVIOR.

ALL OF IT?

I WAS A HIT, I LEFT A HIT, YOU DON'T SEE ME OUT THERE.

FINE, I HAVE TO GO THERE AND BE A HIT.

AND GET HURT?

I CAN HANDLE BEING HURT, OKAY?

I CAN GET HURT WHEREVER I GO, I'M GOING TO LA.

HONEY, IT'S LIKE WALKING INTO A STRANGE PARTY.

YOU DON'T KNOW ANYBODY THERE,

I'M NOT THERE ANYMORE.

YOU THINK IT'S EASY?

YOU KNOW WHAT THAT PLACE IS LIKE?

WHY DO WE HAVE TO TALK OUT HERE?

I FEEL LIKE I'M IN A...

I CAN'T COME UP WITH ANYTHING NOW.

I'VE GOT MY PHILOSOPHY,

NOW HERE'S MY ADVICE AND TAKE IT, PLEASE.

DO NOT GO TO LA. DON'T GO.

I'M GOING TO GIVE UP ANSWERING

THE PERSONAL ADS IN THE NEW YORK REVUE.

(DOORBELL)

LAZLO.

I CAME TO WISH YOU BON VOYAGE!

NOW THIS ONE IS COLD.

SO WE'LL DRINK IT NOW.

THIS ONE YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO PUT IN THE FREEZER.

MMM.

THE RADIATOR'S BEEN BANGING AND BANGING

AND MAKING THE MOST HORRIBLE NOISE.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT THAT NOW.

ALRIGHT, I WON'T COMPLAIN.

THE NEW TENANT IS HERE, HE SHOWED UP A DAY EARLY.

YOU WANT TO MEET HIM?

HE SEEMS LIKE A NICE GUY.

WHAT DID YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT?

I CAN'T TALK HER OUT OF GOING TO LA.

THE KID'S SO DETERMINED

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE.

BROOKS, YOU GOTTA LET HER GO.

IT'S NOT ME LETTING HER GO,

IT'S NOTHING TO DO WITH THAT.

SHE'S GOING TO GET HURT OUT THERE.

YOU HAVE TO LET HER GET HURT

AND LEARN ON HER OWN.

OH, COME ON.

MY LITTLE WHITE DOVE.

WHY DO YOU ALWAYS CALL ME THAT?

THAT'S THE LULLABY.

LITTLE WHITE DOVE IS FLYING AND SHE MEETS

GOD'S LITTLE ANGEL AND THE ANGEL ASKS

"WHERE ARE YOU GOING, HUMAN SOUL?"

AND THE SOUL SAYS "I'M TRYING TO REACH HEAVEN".

I'M TRYING TO REACH HEAVEN.

HEAVEN.

I NEVER TOLD YOU THE ENGLISH WORD?

NO.

YOU'RE HER FATHER. WHATEVER YOU SAY

AT THIS POINT IN HER LIFE SHE'S GOING TO RESIST.

LET HER LEARN IT.

IF IT'S THAT BAD SHE'LL FIND OUT.

THEN IT WILL BE TOO LATE,

LIKE GOING INTO COMBAT AND DYING.

YOU WENT THERE.

YOU HAD THE EXPERIENCE.

OH, GOD. THERE'S NOT GOING TO BE

ANYBODY LIKE YOU IN CALIFORNIA.

COME ON.

I'M GOING TO GET IN SOME TINY APARTMENT, SOME GIRL

IN GYM SHORTS IS GOING TO LIVE IN THE BUILDING.

"OH, HI, YOU NEED SOMETHING?

WHAT CAN I GET YOU?

OH, REALLY?

I DON'T THINK WE HAVE THAT HERE.

I DON'T THINK THEY EVEN SELL IT IN LA".

THE BRAIN CELLS DIE THE MINUTE YOU HIT LAX,

I'M NOT KIDDING.

IT'S NOT A PLACE FOR A YOUNG, VITAL PERSON.

WHO MADE THESE SPOTS ALL OVER THE WALLS?

NOT ME. THEY MOVED ALL THAT

FURNITURE IN AND EVERYTHING.

WELL, OH, NO.

I'M GOING TO MISS YOU SO MUCH.

THIS REALLY HURTS.

ME TOO.

LISTEN, THE REASON I FEEL I CAN TALK TO YOU

ABOUT THIS IS YOU'RE A LITTLE MORE MATURE

THAN THE OTHER GIRLS

AND FRANKLY I'M ATTRACTED TO YOU.

DOES IT BOTHER YOU IF I SAY THAT?

NO, BROOKS.

BECAUSE I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN.

REMEMBER WHEN YOU HELPED ME THAT NIGHT?

DO YOU REMEMBER?

WOW, DON'T MENTION THAT.

NO, BECAUSE I CAME IN AND I WAS REALLY UPSET.

I WAS IN SHOCK.

BUT YOU TOOK ME INTO YOUR BED AND YOU HELD ME

AND YOU ALSO- BUT IT... DIDN'T WORK.

YOU HEAR THAT?

STOP.

THAT'S NOTHING TO BRAG ABOUT.

I'M NOT BRAGGING.

I SHOULD HAVE A RAINCHECK FOR THAT NIGHT.

YOU CAN HAVE A RAINCHECK.

OH, YEAH?

WELL!

(DOORBELL)

HAPPY NEW YEAR.

WHAT USUALLY MAN SAY WHEN, YOU KNOW,

AS AN EXCUSE WHEN THEY CAN'T PERFORM?

WHAT DO THEY SAY?

WHAT DO THEY BLAME?

THEY SAY THEY'VE HAD A LOT TO DRINK.

YEAH?

THEY SAY THEY'RE REALLY TIRED.

YOU KNOW, BORING STUFF LIKE THAT.

BUT NOBODY EVER BELIEVES THEM.

DID I SAY ANYTHING?

THAT WAS THE BEST PART, YOU DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING.

WHY DO YOU THINK I, YOU KNOW, DIDN'T?

I DON'T KNOW BUT I DIDN'T CARE BECAUSE

WE JUST HELD EACH OTHER ALL NIGHT.

OF COURSE I HAVE ONE FOR YOU.

OH, GREAT.

YOU LIKE IT?

OH, THAT'S A NICE ONE.

I'M SO SAD ALL OF A SUDDEN.

WE DON'T WANT TO LEAVE YOU.

WE DON'T WANT TO GO!

WE'RE NEVER GOING TO BE LIKE THIS AGAIN.

YEAH, YOU BOTH SMELL GOOD.

OKAY, NOW WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO?

NOW YOU MAKE A WISH WHILE I'M TYING THE KNOT.

I KNOW WHAT THAT IS.

ARE YOU WISHING FOR A BOY OR A GIRL?

A GIRL. A GIRL WOULD BE NICE.

OOH AH AH AH.

I DON'T THINK I WANT TO DO IT.

WHY?

BECAUSE WHAT IF I MAKE A WISH AND IT COMES TRUE?

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I WANT.

WHAT IF I WISH FOR SOMETHING AND IT'S THE

WRONG THING AND I GET IT AND I'M NOT READY.

YOU MAKE A NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION,

YOU MAKE A NEW YEAR'S WISH.

YOU STOP SOMETHING AND YOU START SOMETHING.

BUT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT TO WISH FOR.

WISH FOR SOMETHING REALLY SIMPLE,

SOMETHING REALLY NICE.

YEAH?

OKAY.

MAKE YOUR WISH WHILE I'M TYING IT ON.

HI.

GOD, THERE'S SO MANY PEOPLE OUT THERE.

I KNOW.

I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO.

I GOTTA GO, ANNIE.

IT'S JUST KIND OF SAD, ISN'T IT?

IT IS SAD.

BUT IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT.

IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT FOR YOU,

IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT FOR ME.

*

*

LUCY, I WANT TO TALK.

I HAVE TO TALK TO YOU.

THIS IS A MAJOR THING, WHY DON'T YOU JUST...

WHY ARE YOU SO CONCERNED?

YOU CAME OUT OF MY WIFE'S WOMB!

YOU'RE MY DAUGHTER.

THIS IS NEW, THIS FATHER OF THE YEAR STUFF.

I'M FINE, OKAY?

THERE ARE A LOT OF PRETTY GIRLS HERE,

I'M SURE THERE'S SOMEBODY YOU CAN TALK TO.

I'M FINE.

LUCY, COME ON.

AS OF TODAY NO MORE SEX. UNLESS I KNOW

EVERY WOMAN THE GUY HAS BEEN WITH

THAT I WANT TO BE WITH, I'M NOT FUCKING HIM.

THE THERAPY I DO WITH WOMEN ENTAILS THEIR

SEXUALITY AND THE PROBLEMS RELATED TO IT.

AND I FOUND THE PERFECT SYSTEM TO OVERCOME

THE PROBLEM OF MANY PSYCHIATRISTS GETTING

INVOLVED IN THE ADVANTAGE OF THE RELATIONSHIP

THEY HAVE WITH WOMEN AND THEN SEDUCING

OR OTHERWISE HAVING SEX WITH THEM.

WHAT I DO IS IT'S IMPERATIVE THAT I HAVE

SEX WITH WOMEN BEFORE THERE'S EVEN ANY HINT

THAT I PERFORM THERAPY ON THEM.

I DON'T FEEL LIKE DYING FROM SEX.

I'M SUPPOSED TO GET TESTED NOW?

THEN HAVING THAT OUT OF THE WAY THERE'S

NO OBSTACLE AND I'M FREE TO ENGAGE IN THERAPY.

HOW DO YOU KNOW WHERE HE'S BEEN?

HOW DO YOU KNOW WHERE YOU'VE BEEN?

I GOT TESTED.

I DON'T BELIEVE THAT.

I DID, I GOT TESTED.

EXCUSE ME, YOU ARE A...?

PSYCHOSEXOLOGIST.

OH, I SEE.

STOPPING SEX IS SO BOGUS.

I MEAN, STOP DRUGS.

THAT'S WHY I DO PROFESS

TO SOME EXPERTISE IN THIS FIELD.

NOTHING WILL EVER GO UP THIS NOSE.

YOU THINK YOU CAN KEEP TO IT?

I KNOW I CAN.

YOU KNOW, I HAVE TO TELL YOU,

IT'S COMPLETELY INCONSIDERATE

TO SMOKE THAT SMELLY THING

AND HAVE DISREGARD FOR PEOPLE LIKE THAT.

IT ALSO SHOWS SOMETHING VERY

UNFORTUNATE ABOUT YOUR SEXUAL CHARACTER.

TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF THE REST OF MY LIFE

WITH A CLEAR NASAL PASSAGE.

IF YOU CAN IMAGINE, THE SHAPE OF THAT THING

AND WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO SUBSTITUTE IT FOR.

HEY!

SUBCONSCIOUS OR UNCONSCIOUS FEAR

OF IMPOTENCY ON YOUR PART.

EVERYBODY OKAY?

WE'RE TALKING ABOUT LIFE AND DEATH AND DRUGS.

YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY SURE IT'S OVER

BETWEEN YOU AND LUCY?

IT DOESN'T MATTER. SHE'S SURE.

SHE'S SURE IT'S OVER.

BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT?

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT.

YOU WANT ANYTHING? NO?

A CRANBERRY JUICE AND VODKA.

CRANBERRY JUICE, OKAY.

I'M GOING TO LA.

LISTEN, EVERYBODY OUT THERE IS BISEXUAL.

MAYBE YOU'LL MAKE A WISH.

WHAT IS THIS?

IT'S A WISH BRACELET.

A WISH BRACELET?

WHERE DO YOU GET THOSE?

I MADE THEM.

(DOORBELL)

OH, THANK GOD IT'S YOU.

IF I EVER NEEDED TO TALK TO YOU IT'S NOW.

MY FATHER'S DRIVING ME OUT OF MY MIND.

FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE HE'S PLAYING

FATHER KNOWS BEST, HE'S GOT SO MUCH ADVICE

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH HIM.

I CAN'T SHUT HIM UP BECAUSE

HE DOESN'T WANT ME TO LEAVE.

AND THE GIRLS - I MEAN, ANNIE'S SO GODDAMNED

DEPRESSED AND SHE'S MAKING ME FEEL GUILTY

FOR LEAVING BECAUSE IF I LEAVE

HER WHOLE FUCKING LIFE FALLS APART.

I'VE GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE.

WILLIAM'S ON THE GODDAMN FIRE ESCAPE

FUCKING AROUND WITH MARJORIE.

IT'S OUTRAGEOUS.

HE COMES OVER HERE,

I THINK I'M GOING, YOU KNOW.

I'VE GOTTEN HIM OUT OF MY LIFE AND I DON'T WANT TO

TALK TO HIM AND HE SHOWS UP HERE AND HE SAYS TO ME

"DON'T GO, DON'T GO" AND I START THINKING,

OKAY, DON'T GO.

YOU SHOULDN'T LEAVE SOMEBODY WHO YOU LOVE,

YOU SHOULDN'T LEAVE A RELATIONSHIP

IF YOU THINK IT'S GOING TO WORK.

AND I PUT SO MUCH TIME INTO THIS,

MAYBE I'M NUTS, YOU KNOW? MAYBE I'M NUTS

TO WALK AWAY FROM THIS WHOLE THING.

WHAT THE FUCK AM I GOING TO DO IN CALIFORNIA?

IT'S HOLLYWOOD FOR CHRIST SAKE.

I LOVE THIS GUY, I MEAN I LOVE HIM.

I MAY BE AN ASSHOLE BUT I LOVE HIM.

AND THEN I WATCH HIM DO THIS SHIT, YOU KNOW,

AND HE MAKES THESE PROMISES TO ME

AND I START BELIEVING HIM.

I START BELIEVING HIM AGAIN.

I THINK HE MEANS IT THIS TIME.

HE REALLY MEANS IT BECAUSE HE'S A GOOD

PERSON, HE'S GOT A GOOD SOUL AND A GOOD HEART

AND HE REALLY LOVES ME, YOU KNOW?

I KNOW HE LOVES ME, AND I KNOW HE LOVES ME MORE

THAN ANY OF THESE PEOPLE THAT HE CAN'T KEEP HIS

GODDAMN HANDS OFF OF, THAT HE HAS TO GO FOR

BECAUSE THEY'RE GOING FOR HIM.

BUT I KNOW THAT WHAT WE HAVE

IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN THAT.

AND MAYBE I'M AN IDIOT TO WALK AWAY FROM IT

AND STOP FIGHTING.

WHAT AM I DOING?

WHAT IF I GO OUT THERE AND I REALIZE

WHAT A MISTAKE I'VE MADE AND HE'S OFF

NECK DEEP IN SOME OTHER RELATIONSHIP

BECAUSE HE CAN'T STAND TO BE BY HIMSELF?

AND THEN I DON'T KNOW WHO'S GOING TO BE

MORE UNHAPPY, HIM OR ME?

YOU'RE LISTENING TO THE WRONG VOICES.

YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO YOUR VOICE.

IT'S A HASSLE NOW.

BUT IT'S A TEMPORARY HASSLE.

ALL OF THAT NONSENSE GOES AWAY.

YOU HAVE TO REMAIN, AND THE YOU THAT HAS TO

REMAIN HAS TO BE STRONGER THAN WHAT'S HERE NOW.

AND IT CAN'T BE STRONGER

UNLESS THERE'S A LITTLE BIT OF TROUBLE.

IT LOOKS LIKE IT'S SO BIG, IT'S SO ENORMOUS,

BUT IT'S NO MATCH FOR ANY OF THE DREAMS YOU HAVE.

IT'S NO MATCH FOR THE TALENT, IT'S NO MATCH FOR

ANY OF THE STRENGTH, THE STRENGTH THAT'S INSIDE.

THOSE PEOPLE MATTER IN A CERTAIN WAY BUT NOT

IN ANY WAY TO EQUAL THE POWER THAT'S INSIDE YOU.

YOU GOTTA KEEP DREAMING.

THINK OF ALL THE PHENOMENAL THINGS

WE TALKED ABOUT YOU BEING ABLE TO DO.

YOU CAN DO IT.

SO WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT ABOUT, HUH?

WHAT BULLSHIT?

YOUR BULLSHIT, WHAT IS YOUR BULLSHIT ABOUT?

YOU HAVE TO BE MORE SPECIFIC.

WHAT KIND OF BULLSHIT?

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOUR BULLSHIT IS?

I KNOW WHAT SOME OF MY BULLSHIT IS.

WELL, WHAT IS THE BULLSHIT YOU KNOW ABOUT?

WHAT MAKES YOU INTERESTED?

BULLSHIT IS MY LIFE.

DID YOU EVER MAKE A WISH

WHEN YOU BLEW OUT YOUR CANDLES?

DID YOU EVER TIE A STRING AROUND YOUR FINGER?

THERE'S SOMETHING VERY DISTURBING

ABOUT WHAT'S GOING ON HERE.

AND YOU MANIFEST THE DISTURBANCE.

I EMBODY IT.

YOU EMBODY THE DISTURBANCE.

THAT DOES NOT MEAN THAT YOU ARE

WHAT'S DISTURBING.

IT DOES MEAN THAT THE DISTURBANCE

RESTS IN YOUR BODY.

AND IN YOUR BULLSHIT.

YUP.

AND YOUR BULLSHIT IS CONSIDERABLE.

THIS IS COMING FROM SOMEONE WHO KNOWS?

I DO RECOGNIZE SOMETHING ABOUT IT OBVIOUSLY.

SOMETHING FAMILIAR.

SOMETHING FAMILIAR, YES.

I CAN SAY IT'S FAMILIAR.

BUT THE DIFFERENCE IS,

AND THIS MAY BE JUST CHRONOLOGICAL...

YEAH?

BUT I DOUBT IT.

THE DIFFERENCE SEEMS TO BE THAT

UNDERNEATH MY BULLSHIT IS A REALITY

THAT CAN COME TO THE SURFACE

WHEN IT IS ENGAGING ANOTHER HUMAN BEING.

UNDERNEATH YOUR BULLSHIT

THERE SEEMS TO BE MORE BULLSHIT.

WHEN I TIE IT AROUND YOUR WRIST

YOU MAKE A WISH TO YOURSELF.

AND YOU WEAR IT UNTIL IT FALLS OFF

AND THEN YOUR WISH WILL COME TRUE.

UNDERNEATH YOUR BULLSHIT IS THERE SOMEBODY REAL?

THERE'S SOMEBODY REAL WHO HAPPENS TO THINK

THAT THE BULLSHIT IS SO INTERESTING

THAT HE CAN'T GET RID OF IT.

OH, YOU'VE LEARNED THAT THIS BULLSHIT

IS INTERESTING.

IMAGINATIVE BULLSHIT DOESN'T SMELL AS BADLY.

AH, DON'T BE CUTE WITH ME.

YOU DON'T TRUST THAT UNDERNEATH YOUR BULLSHIT

WHAT YOU'VE REALLY GOT IS INTERESTING,

THAT ANYBODY'S GOING TO GIVE A SHIT, RIGHT?

I HAVE TO BITE THIS OFF...

TELL ME ABOUT LUCY.

IT'S PRIVATE.

I'M INTERESTED IN WHAT YOU'RE DOING TO LUCY.

WHY DO YOU DO THIS BULLSHIT WITH LUCY?

I DON'T KNOW.

IT SEEMS TO ME THAT YOU'RE SAYING TO ME,

IF I UNDERSTAND YOU CORRECTLY, THAT

YOU'RE AFRAID IF YOU LET PEOPLE SEE WHO YOU ARE

THEY'RE GOING TO SEE THAT NOBODY'S THERE...

OR WHOEVER'S THERE ISN'T WORTH ANYTHING.

NOT THAT NOBODY'S THERE,

I'M SURE SOMEBODY'S THERE, THAT THE PERSON

THAT'S THERE IS CORRUPT AND IS BAD.

YOU THINK YOU'RE BAD?

I DON'T KNOW BAD, BUT, YEAH, MAYBE IT IS BAD.

YOU REALLY BELIEVE YOU'RE BAD IN SOME WAY?

YES.

WHAT WAY?

WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID WILL SHOW UNDERNEATH?

YOU'RE SAYING SOMETHING NEGATIVE WILL SHOW.

DARK.

DARK? IT'S OBVIOUSLY VERY APPEALING

ON A CERTAIN LEVEL TO WOMEN, THAT DARKNESS,

AND YOU KNOW THAT AND YOU USE IT.

BUT WHEN WOMEN ARE ATTRACTED TO ME

IT'S NOT FOR THE DARKNESS,

IT'S FOR WHAT THEY CONSIDER TO BE LIGHT.

BUT THEY'RE NOT SEEING YOU.

RIGHT, I THINK THAT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH

WHY THERE'S SO MUCH MISTREATMENT GOING ON

FROM ME TO PEOPLE I FEEL MISUNDERSTAND ME

OR DON'T UNDERSTAND ME.

OR AREN'T GETTING WHAT I FEEL MYSELF TO BE

SO I PUNISH THEM.

DOES THAT HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH THE REASON

SHE'S GOING TO CALIFORNIA?

I IMAGINE IT DOES. WHETHER SHE WANTS TO

TELL ME THAT OR NOT IS UP TO HER.

HAS SHE TOLD YOU THAT?

YEAH, SHE'S TOLD ME THAT.

THAT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH IT?

WELL, SURE. I MEAN, WHAT DID YOU THINK?

I DON'T KNOW. I DON'T KNOW HER.

I JUST WALKED INTO HER SITUATION HERE

AND I'M SEEING SOMETHING VERY FRAUGHT.

DO YOU MIND MY ASKING YOU THESE QUESTIONS?

NOT REALLY.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE GETTING OUT OF IT.

WHY DO YOU CARE?

I DON'T KNOW, I'M TRYING TO UNDERSTAND-

THESE PEOPLE ARE GOING TO BE OUT OF YOUR LIFE

SO WHY DO YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THEM?

I'M A WRITER SO I LIKE TO TRY TO UNDERSTAND

HUMAN BEHAVIOR.

SHE'S AN EXTREMELY TALENTED GIRL.

AND MORE THAN THAT, SHE'S APPROACHING

THE TIME WHEN SHE REALLY IS GOING TO NEED

ALL THE SUPPORT NECESSARY TO MAKE A DECISION

TO HAVE A CAREER AND NOT TO DO THIS

MICKEY MOUSE BUSINESS SHE'S BEEN DOING.

THE LITTLE VOICES ARE GREAT,

SHE'S MAKING ABOUT A GRAND A WEEK.

WHEN I TALK TO A MAN, LIKE YOU,

IF YOU'RE NICE TO ME OR YOU GIVE ME SOMETHING

I WANT TO GIVE YOU SOMETHING BACK

BUT IT'S GOING TO BE A PAT ON THE BACK

OR A BOOK OR A BEER OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.

WHEN A GIRL IS NICE TO ME

I WANT TO GIVE A KISS, OR SEX.

THAT'S THE WAY I LEARNED HOW TO PAY BACK.

IT'S A NERVOUS REACTION.

KISSING SOMEBODY'S A NERVOUS REACTION?

IN A WAY.

I DON'T KNOW THE WORD FOR IT.

IT'S A CONFUSION.

WHERE DO THINGS GO FURTHER?

HOW DO YOU GET CLOSER?

WHEN DO YOU STOP TALKING?

WHEN DO YOU KEEP TALKING?

I SEE.

DO YOU SEE?

YOU STILL THINK IT'S BULLSHIT.

I CAN TELL BECAUSE...

YEAH, A LITTLE BIT.

YOU MAY THINK IT'S REAL,

YOU MAY BE IN MORE TROUBLE THAN I REALIZED.

WHAT DO YOU DO?

I WRITE TOO.

YOU WRITE TOO? WHAT DO YOU WRITE?

I'VE WRITTEN POETRY AND I WRITE FICTION.

SENSITIVE POETRY YOU CAN GIVE TO WOMEN?

AS SEDUCTION? POETRY SEDUCTION?

YOU'VE DONE YOUR SHARE OF POETRY SEDUCTION,

HAVEN'T YOU?

IT HAS BEEN USED, YES.

WHAT? DON'T GIVE ME BULLSHIT.

YOU'RE GIVING THEN YOU'RE WITHHOLDING.

WHAT IS THAT?

IT WAS A LINE, IT WAS A SEDUCTION.

"BEST POEMS ARE IN THE BARROOMS".

WHO WERE YOU SEDUCING

WHEN YOU WERE GIVING ME THAT LINE?

YOU.

I THOUGHT YOU DON'T SEDUCE MEN.

IN A DIFFERENT WAY.

HOW?

WITHOUT THE KISS.

YUP.

I GOTTA SHOW YOU THIS.

OKAY, LET'S SEE.

THAT'S MY WISH PICTURE.

IT'S A NICE PICTURE.

THAT'S WHAT I WANT TO LOOK LIKE

WITH MY OWN CHILD IN A YEAR AND A HALF.

IN A YEAR AND A HALF?

WELL, THAT BABY'S ABOUT SIX MONTHS OLD,

SO A YEAR AND A HALF, YEAH.

I NEED YOUR SUPPORT AS MY BIG BROTHER

IF I'M GOING TO DO THIS.

YOU DIDN'T TELL ME...

YOU'VE GOT A BOYFRIEND?

NO. I'M GOING TO DO IT ON MY OWN.

LET ME SEE IF I GOT THIS.

TELL ME IF I GOT THIS, OKAY?

YOU'RE ANGRY AT THEM BECAUSE THEY DON'T SEE

WHO YOU REALLY ARE UNDERNEATH THEREFORE

YOU DON'T SHOW THEM WHO YOU ARE UNDERNEATH

AS A PUNISHMENT AGAINST THEM

NOT BEING ABLE TO SEE WHO YOU ARE UNDERNEATH.

SOMETHING LIKE THAT BUT NOT THAT CHRONOLOGICAL.

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR MOTHER.

TELL YOU ABOUT MY MOTHER?

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR MOTHER.

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP

WITH YOUR MOTHER.

THIS MUST START WITH YOUR MOTHER, NO?

SURE, DOESN'T YOURS?

WE'RE NOT TALKING ABOUT ME.

I KNOW AND IT'S BOTHERING ME

THAT WE'RE NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU.

YOU WANT TO TALK ABOUT ME?

WE'LL TALK ABOUT ME NEXT.

YOU REALLY WANT TO TALK ABOUT YOU, DON'T YOU?

TELL THE TRUTH.

SURE.

OKAY, WE BOTH WANT TO TALK ABOUT YOU

SO WE'RE IN AGREEMENT.

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR MOTHER.

I CAN'T WAIT ANYMORE.

I GOTTA DO IT. I JUST HAVE TO DO IT.

THE RELATIONSHIPS AREN'T WORKING OUT AND

I CAN'T WAIT AROUND FOR ONE TO TRY TO HAPPEN.

I'M GOING TO DO IT ALONE.

I GOTTA BE A MOM.

MY MOTHER'S VERY OVERPROTECTIVE.

SHE'S STILL VERY MUCH IN MY LIFE

WHICH IS A PROBLEM.

I'M NOT ABLE TO MAKE THE TRANSITION FROM BEING

AN ADOLESCENT OR SOMEBODY WHO'S SHELTERED

BY THEIR MOTHER INTO A RELATIONSHIP WHERE

I CAN TREAT HER AS A FRIEND OR AS AN ADULT.

AND WE'RE BOTH GUILTY OF NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THIS

AND IT SEEMS TO ME THAT IT'S FUCKING UP

MY RELATIONSHIPS WITH WOMEN.

NOWADAYS MOST FAMILIES DIVORCE AND THERE'S

SINGLE PARENTS WITH A LOT OF STRIFE.

THIS WAY IT WOULD BE A SINGLE PARENT

FROM THE BEGINNING.

WITHOUT THE DIVORCE AND THE MESS IN THE MIDDLE.

DON'T FORGET WHAT HAPPENED TO US.

MAMA LEFT WHEN I WAS TEN.

THAT WASN'T FAIR.

PAPA WAS NOT A GOOD MOTHER.

THAT'S WHY I'M SUCH A GOOD MOTHER.

I HAD TO TAKE UP THE SLACK.

AND WE DID OKAY.

WE COULD HAVE DONE BETTER MAYBE

IF SHE'D BEEN AROUND.

MAYBE THIS CHILD SHOULD HAVE A REAL FATHER

INSTEAD OF SOME KIND OF MYSTERY MAN.

HE'LL HAVE HIS UNCLE MARLIN.

YEAH?

ARE YOU SEDUCTIVE WITH YOUR MOTHER?

I IMAGINE I AM, YEAH.

IS SHE SEDUCTIVE WITH YOU?

I THINK SO, PROBABLY.

I THINK THAT ALL SONS ARE SEDUCTIVE

WITH THEIR MOTHERS AND VICE VERSA.

ARE YOU DARK WITH YOUR MOTHER?

YES. I SHOW HER ONLY THAT SIDE.

YOU ONLY SHOW HER THE DARK SIDE?

HOW DOES SHE RESPOND?

I GUESS SHE APPROVES OF IT.

I GUESS THAT'S PART OF IT.

MY MOTHER READS DARKNESS AS DEPTH.

IF YOU'RE DOWN, IF YOU'RE BROODING,

IT'S PERHAPS A PROFUNDITY.

BROODING, AT LEAST SHE'LL GIVE ME THE

BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT, YOU KNOW.

MY SPIRITUAL TEACHER TOLD ME THAT I CAN

EITHER BE IN LOVE OR I CAN BE IN FEAR.

AND WHICH IS IT?

WELL, RIGHT NOW I'M IN FEAR.

YOU KNOW WHEN YOU SEE SOMEBODY

BREAKING A CEMENT BRICK WITH THEIR HAND?

THEY THINK RIGHT THROUGH THE PAIN.

SO YOU HAVE TO DO EXACTLY THE SAME THING.

IT'LL WORK OUT BUT YOU HAVE TO HAVE

CONFIDENCE ENOUGH TO GET THROUGH IT ALL.

AND TONIGHT YOU SHOULD ENJOY YOURSELF,

IT'S A PARTY.

TAKE A DRINK, SEE ME IN THE MORNING.

I MEET PEOPLE, I MEET PEOPLE ON THE STREET.

YOU MEAN IF I STOPPED YOU ON THE STREET

YOU WOULD TALK TO ME?

I MIGHT.

I DID IN 1983 ON 57TH STREET AND THEN I WENT

TO EUROPE, HE SENT ME A ROUND-TRIP TICKET.

YOU KNOW WHAT I'M ALSO GOING TO GET RID OF?

CALL WAITING.

CALL WAITING?

YEAH.

WHY?

IT'S A DEPENDENCY.

IT PUTS MY LIFE INTO DIFFERENT, LIKE,

STRANGE PRIORITIES.

BUT WHAT IF YOU HAVE AN IMPORTANT CALL?

THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS AN IMPORTANT CALL.

WHY DID YOU GET ME HERE?

BECAUSE I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE ANGRY.

I WOULDN'T HAVE DONE ANYTHING IF YOU HADN'T

TOLD ME THE TWO OF YOU WEREN'T TOGETHER.

COME ON, MARJORIE, GIVE ME A BREAK.

YOU KNOW HOW LONG WILLIAM AND I HAVE BEEN TOGETHER

AND HOW LONG WE HAVEN'T.

IT'S A TOTALLY USELESS ARGUMENT.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

IT'S ABSURD. HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME?

YOU'RE SUPPOSED TO BE MY FRIEND!

I AM YOUR FRIEND.

YOU HAVE A VERY NICE WAY OF SHOWING IT.

I NEED MORE FRIENDS LIKE YOU.

YOU KNOW WHO YOU LOOK LIKE, DON'T YOU?

LOUISE BROOKS?

THE SILENT FILM STAR, LOUISE BROOKS.

YOU LOOK JUST LIKE HER.

DO I?

YOU WERE BORN ABOUT 50 YEARS TOO LATE.

BUT FOR ME IT'S PERFECT.

JUST FORGET IT, OKAY?

IT'S OVER, IT WON'T HAPPEN.

WHAT I CAME HERE TO DO

IS TO GIVE YOU A WISH BRACELET.

KEEP YOUR FUCKING WISH BRACELET, MY DARLING,

OR GIVE IT TO SOMEBODY THAT YOU CARE ABOUT.

THE TWO OF YOU TOGETHER IS LIKE THE ODD COUPLE,

YOU KNOW?

I MEAN, HOW DID YOU MEET THIS DOCTOR?

I DON'T CARE ABOUT SEX!

THAT'S JUST IT THAT YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT SEX!

I'M NOT INTERESTED IN SEX.

I KNOW, WHY DO YOU THINK I'M INTERESTED

IN DOING THERAPY WITH YOU?

BECAUSE I'LL HAVE THE PLEASURE OF

SEEING YOU APPRECIATE SEX.

I DON'T WANT SEX NOW!

I'LL SEE YOU COMPLETELY CURED

AND I'LL GO ON WITH ANOTHER CASE OF MINE.

YOU'LL HAVE SEX WITH ME THEN LEAVE ME?

YOU'LL ABANDON ME?

I ANSWERED A PERSONAL AD...

HE PUT OUT A PERSONAL?

YES, HE DID AND I ANSWERED IT.

IT WOULD IMMEDIATELY SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS,

IT'S NOT THOSE DRAWN OUT,

NONSENSICAL INTROSPECTIVE THERAPIES.

QUICK DIRECT ACTION THERAPY.

HOW LONG WOULD IT TAKE?

I'M TAKING AN AD OUT TOMORROW,

ARE YOU SERIOUS?

LOOK, I DON'T WANT TO JERK YOU AROUND.

I DELIVER THE GROCERIES.

I WORK FOR THEIR GROCERY STORE.

DID YOU BRING A RUBBER?

A WHAT?

ANTHONY, DON'T BULLSHIT ME.

DID YOU BRING A RUBBER?

DID I BRING A RUBBER?

IS THERE AN ECHO IN HERE?

UH, NO, I DIDN'T BRING A RUBBER.

ARE YOU KIDDING?

SO WE'LL STOP ON THE WAY HOME.

YOU'RE GOING HOME WITH ME?

WE DEFINITELY DO HAVE AN ECHO IN HERE. YEAH.

I'M JUST NOT USED TO SOMEONE

BEING THAT FORWARD WITH ME, YOU KNOW?

DIDN'T I ASK WHAT YOU'RE DOING AFTER THIS?

HANG OUT AND HAVE A DRINK OR SOMETHING.

A LITERATE, INTELLIGENT-

ILLITERATE?

OH, A LITERATE GENTLEMAN.

INTELLIGENT, CULTURED...

THAT'S ME.

GENTLE...

THAT'S ME.

GEE WHIZ, I COULD TAKE AN AD OUT.

COME ON, START THE NEW YEAR'S OFF WITH A POP.

YOU SERIOUS?

OH, HI DR. STADTHAGEN.

I SEE YOU KNOW MY NAME.

AS A MATTER OF FACT I HEARD MY NAME

BEING MENTIONED.

I AM FASCINATED BY THE STORY OF HOW YOU MET.

WHAT? AND YOU ALWAYS TELL ME

NOT TO TELL PEOPLE ABOUT IT?

IT'S A GREAT STORY.

DO YOU REALIZE HOW VALUABLE YOU ARE TO ME?

WHY DO YOU THINK I'M PAYING WHAT I PAY YOU?

I KNOW I'M VALUABLE TO YOU.

SOME PEOPLE ARE VERY ASHAMED TO ADMIT IT.

I MET ONE MAN THROUGH THE PERSONALS WHO ONLY AGREED

TO MEET ME IN A PLACE WHERE THEN HE COULD SAY

AFTERWARDS IF ANYBODY ASKED US WHERE WE MET

WE WOULD SAY WE MET AT THE CARNEGIE HALL BOX OFFICE

BUYING TICKETS.

YOU'RE A LOVELY WOMAN, YOU KNOW THAT?

HAD YOU EVER DONE THIS BEFORE?

OH, YES, I'VE DONE THIS BEFORE BUT I DON'T HAVE

AN ORDINARY REASON FOR DOING IT.

YOU EXCITE THE HELL OUT OF ME.

I DO? REALLY?

I LOOK FORWARD TO COMING TO WORK.

REALLY?

I HAVE FANTASIES THAT MAYBE

WE'LL HAVE AN AFFAIR.

REALLY?

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT IT?

WHY DO YOU SAY IT'S NOT THE ORDINARY REASON

FOR MEETING PEOPLE?

YOU WANT TO MEET PEOPLE BECAUSE YOU'RE LONELY.

WE WANT TO MEET PEOPLE BECAUSE WE'RE LONELY.

I'M SURPRISED THAT YOU DON'T KNOW ME

WELL ENOUGH...

TO KEEP THIS ILLUSION ABOUT MY BEING LONELY-

I'M NOT LONELY IN THE LEAST.

YOU'RE NEVER LONELY?

LET ME FEEL YOUR HAND. DOES BLOOD RUN THERE?

I LIKE YOU, I THINK YOU'RE A VERY NICE PERSON

AND I DON'T WANT TO HURT YOUR FEELINGS.

LOOK, YOU'VE GOT THE JOB

WHETHER YOU HAVE AN AFFAIR WITH ME OR NOT.

I COULDN'T POSSIBLY HAVE AN AFFAIR WITH YOU.

I DON'T HAVE AFFAIRS WITH MEN.

I BELIEVE, COMPLETELY CONTRARY TO THE CLASSICAL

PSYCHOANALYTIC POINT OF VIEW,

THAT YOU DON'T DETACH YOURSELF FROM PEOPLE

BUT THAT YOU ATTACH YOURSELF VERY MUCH

TO THE PEOPLE YOU GIVE THERAPY TO.

NOT LIKE THESE FALSE PSYCHIATRISTS WHO GAIN

CONTROL OVER PEOPLE AND THEN HAVE SEX WITH THEM,

SO I HAVE SEX WITH THE WOMEN FIRST

AND IF THEY'RE SUITABLE I HAVE THERAPY WITH THEM.

YOU LIKE KIDS?

KIDS? YEAH, I SUPPOSE. YEAH.

YOU WANT THEM SOMETIME?

YEAH, I DEFINITELY DO.

DEFINITELY?

I NEED TO PUT IN THESE ADS, I NEED TO

CONTINUE TO HAVE SEX WITH THESE WOMEN.

YES, BUT YOU DON'T KNOW WHY.

IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY WANTING TO

HAVE SEX WITH THEM, IT HAS NOTHING TO DO

WITH ANYTHING EMOTIONAL OR PHYSICAL.

IT HAS TO DO WITH THE FACT THAT

THAT HAS TO BE GOTTEN OVER WITH

SO THERE'S NOTHING INTERFERING WITH

THE THERAPY WORKING PROPERLY.

BUT YOUR HEART. ..

WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT IRRELEVANT SUBJECTS?

I'M TALKING ABOUT A RATIONAL SYSTEM I HAVE.

THAT'S RIGHT, RATIONAL SYSTEM, ALL UP HERE.

THE IDEA IS TO GET THIS GOING A BIT MORE TOO,

YOU KNOW?

YOU'RE IN A VERY PRIMITIVE AND CHILDISH WAY JEALOUS,

AND THAT'S SO PREPOSTEROUS

EVEN TO THINK YOU'D BE JEALOUS.

I AM JEALOUS, BUT THERE'S NOTHING

WRONG WITH BEING JEALOUS.

I'M A PASSIONATE WOMAN,

THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH BEING JEALOUS!

HOW TALL ARE YOU?

6'1" WHY?

I'M SIX FOOT, I CAN NEVER FIND ANYBODY

TALL ENOUGH SO THAT'S ENCOURAGING.

TALL ENOUGH?

YEAH.

SO YOU MAKE A RESOLUTION?

WELL, YOU KNOW, WHAT I WANT FOR THIS YEAR

AND FOR EVERY YEAR FROM NOW ON IS

I WANT GOD TO STOP SAYING "NOT YET".

HE SAYS THIS TO YOU?

HOW OLD ARE YOU?

TWENTY-THREE.

TWENTY-THREE? YOUNG.

I GUESS.

NO, IT'S YOUNG. BELIEVE ME.

YEAH, IT IS.

YOU'RE REALLY CUTE.

DO YOU EVER GO OUT WITH OLDER WOMEN?

YEAH, I DO.

WOULD YOU LIKE TO GO OUT WITH ME?

IT WOULD BE A NEW EXPERIENCE FOR ME

BECAUSE I ALWAYS GO OUT WITH OLDER MEN.

YEAH? REALLY? WHEN?

IT REALLY DEPENDS, UM, LET ME LOOK AT MY BOOK.

I DON'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME.

WHAT'S YOUR WISH FOR THE NEW YEAR?

I WANT TO GET BACK INTO TELEVISION.

I LEFT TOO SOON.

FEES STARTED GOING UP ASTRONOMICALLY

AFTER I LEFT.

ALL MY FRIENDS ARE RICHER THAN ME

'CAUSE THEY STAYED IN TELEVISION.

IF I GET BACK INTO TELEVISION I CAN MAKE

ENOUGH MONEY TO NOT WORRY ABOUT DOING TV.

WANT TO SING ME A LULLABY ONE LAST TIME?

(SINGING SOFTLY)

(SINGING SOFTLY)

WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM?

WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN MY ROOM?

I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO BE OUT THERE ANYMORE.

ALL THE STUFF GOING ON OUT THERE.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

YOUR FRIENDS ARE TOTALLY INSANE.

EVERYBODY SEEMS NUTS OUT THERE.

SOMETHING DEPRESSING ABOUT IT TOO,

I DON'T KNOW WHAT THAT IS.

SOMETHING MADE ME MOODY AND WEIRD.

WHY IS IT GETTING YOU MOODY AND WEIRD?

I DON'T KNOW WHY YOU'RE SUSCEPTIBLE

TO SOME OF THEM.

ONE OF THEM.

WHY DOES THAT GET YOU MOODY?

I DON'T KNOW. MAYBE 'CAUSE I THINK

YOU'RE WORTH MORE THAN THAT.

THANK YOU.

WHAT DID YOU COME HERE FOR?

ESCAPE.

I SHOULD ESCAPE, HUH?

IS THIS WHERE I SHOULD ESCAPE TO?

THIS IS PRETTY NICE. HI.

SO WHY ARE YOU SUSCEPTIBLE TO THIS GUY

YOU'RE SUSCEPTIBLE TO?

I DON'T KNOW. I JUST AM.

YOU ARE, HUH?

NOT SO MUCH ANYMORE.

REALLY. I'M OKAY.

WHAT DID YOU WANT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT?

HENRY THE BEAR.

THE BEAR OR THE MALLARD?

THE MALLARD.

THERE YOU GO.

WHAT?

THIS DAY'S BEEN WEIRD FOR ME, I'LL TELL YOU THAT.

WHY?

WELL, I THOUGHT I HAD FORGOTTEN CERTAIN

FEELINGS THAT I THOUGHT I WAS NEVER GOING TO

FEEL AGAIN, AND THEN I BEGIN TO THINK PERHAPS

I CAN FEEL SOME OF THOSE FEELINGS AGAIN.

NOT THAT I'M FEELING THOSE FEELINGS ABOUT YOU,

BUT IT'S FEELING STUFF.

AS I'M NEVER GOING TO SEE YOU AGAIN I WANTED TO

TELL YOU THAT I FIND YOU VERY SEXUALLY ATTRACTIVE,

THAT I GET ALL KINDS OF FEELINGS AROUND YOU.

I ALWAYS HAVE.

I FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT YOU.

YEAH?

YOU HAPPEN TO BE THE SOURCE TO WHICH THIS

STUFF IS DIRECTED BUT IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU.

I KNOW IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU AND

YOU KNOW I KNOW IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU.

SO IT'S STILL VERY NICE TO BE REMINDED

THAT ONE CAN FEEL CERTAIN STUFF.

EVEN IF IT'S TOWARD A WEIRD BABY LIKE YOU.

THE REASON I NEVER DID ANYTHING IS BECAUSE LUCY-

THAT WOULD BE STUPID.

I NEVER SHIT WHERE I EAT, YOU KNOW?

I WAS ALWAYS TAUGHT THAT.

SO YOU DON'T HAVE A REAL GOOD SENSE

OF WHAT YOU'RE WORTH?

MAYBE NOT.

I CAN TELL YOU IT STRIKES ME THAT

YOU'RE WORTH A GREAT DEAL.

A REALLY GREAT DEAL AND IT SEEMS INSANE TO ME

THAT YOU DON'T GO FOR SOMEBODY WHO KNOWS

HOW MUCH YOU'RE WORTH.

THAT THAT DOESN'T GET REINFORCED IN

ANY KIND OF RELATIONSHIP YOU SHOULD HAVE.

WELL, SOON.

SOON?

YEAH.

MAYBE NOW.

MAYBE NOW? WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

WHEN I WAS A LITTLE GIRL I HAD THESE SAME

KIND OF FEELINGS ABOUT MY FATHER.

THAT YOU HAVE FOR ME?

ONLY I WAS A CHILD.

BUT I KNEW THAT HE DIDN'T LIKE MY MOTHER

SO I GREW UP WITH THIS SENSE OF SHAME.

WHAT ABOUT?

LIKING HIM THAT WAY.

SEXUALLY?

YOU LIKED YOUR FATHER SEXUALLY?

SO MAYBE IT'S JUST BETTER TO GET MY OWN APARTMENT

AND NOT HAVE TO BE AROUND ALL THESE MEN ANYMORE

AND DEAL WITH ALL THIS STUFF.

AND FEEL ASHAMED.

I FEEL THAT WAY TOO.

YOU DO?

A LOT, YEAH. ABOUT SEX.

THERE'S SOMETHING EVEN IN THE BEGINNING

OF IT, I ALREADY FEEL ASHAMED OF

WHAT HASN'T HAPPENED YET SOMETIMES.

I'M SORRY. I CAN'T DO THIS.

YOU SURE?

I CAN'T. I'M SORRY I REALLY CAN'T.

OF COURSE YOU CAN.

NO, I CAN'T.

YOU DON'T GET IT, I REALLY CAN'T.

NO ONE'S EVER MADE ME FEEL

SEXUALLY DESIRABLE BEFORE.

I GET THESE FEELINGS AROUND YOU.

THEY'RE VERY STRONG.

I HOPE IT'S NOT BECAUSE YOU'RE LUCY'S BOYFRIEND.

NO. SIT HERE FOR A SECOND.

COME ON.

COME ON, SERIOUSLY.

DREW, I CAN'T DO THIS.

WILL YOU PLEASE GIVE ME ONE MORE MOMENT?

I'M SERIOUS.

ONE MOMENT MEANS ONE MOMENT,

IT DOESN'T MEAN ONE SECOND.

THAT'S ALL THE TIME I GOT.

WAIT A MINUTE.

I'M SORRY.

IT WAS GREAT.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT MADE ME DO THIS.

I REALLY DON'T.

THAT'S OKAY.

OKAY?

YEAH.

SHHH. DON'T GET NERVOUS, IT'S OKAY.

I SHOULDN'T HAVE DONE THIS.

I JUST MET YOU AND I HAD TOO MUCH TO DRINK

AND I'M REALLY SORRY.

SHH SHH, IT'S OKAY.

IT'S GOOD FOR ME.

I'M SORRY.

WHAT DO YOU THINK?

MAYBE.

WANT TO SIT DOWN HERE?

I'LL MOVE OVER.

OH, HERE WE GO.

HERE WE GO.

BUT I REALLY- THIS IS WRONG.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

I SWEAR TO GOD, YOU MUST THINK I'M CRAZY.

DO YOU REALIZE THE INCREDIBLE PAIN

MY ARM IS IN?

I'M SORRY, LET ME FIX YOUR ARM.

WHAT IS- ARE WE TALKING ABOUT A KISS?

WHAT ARE WE TALKING ABOUT?

A KISS.

A KISS THAT YOU GOT ALREADY?

I'M SORRY I SHOULDN'T HAVE GIVEN YOU.

WHAT IS THIS?

YOU MAKE ME FEEL LIKE I'M 18 YEARS OLD.

I DON'T MEAN TO.

IT'S BOTH A GOOD AND A BAD THING.

THIS PART OF IT WASN'T BAD, I DON'T WANT TO

GO BACK TO THIS PART OF BEING 18.

SO FORGET THIS EVER HAPPENED, OKAY?

I'VE GOT THESE SENSATIONS ALONG-

AH! FORGET THIS EVER HAPPENED.

I DIDN'T COME IN HERE, I DIDN'T DO THIS,

AND I HAVE A LOAD OF PEOPLE OUT THERE

I HAVE TO GO DEAL WITH.

I THOUGHT THERE WAS NOBODY IN HERE.

I THOUGHT I WAS COMING INTO MY ROOM

AND HERE YOU WERE AND I DON'T KNOW WHY I DID THAT.

BECAUSE YOU'RE A BABY, AREN'T YOU?

I'M A TOTAL FOUR-YEAR-OLD.

OKAY, ALRIGHT.

LET ME JUST HOLD YOU THEN.

OKAY, HOLD ME. ONE MINUTE.

ONE MINUTE.

A MINUTE AND A HALF.

THEN I HAVE MANY PEOPLE I HAVE TO-

SHH, OKAY.

OH, MY GOD, I FELL ASLEEP.

SHH.

I GOTTA GO.

WHY?

I'VE GOTTA GO OUT THERE. OKAY?

OKAY.

YOU SLEEP.

OH, GOD.

GET OUT OF MY HOUSE.

GET OUT!

I WANT YOU OUT.

HOLD ON A SECOND.

OUT!

COME HERE. JUST WAIT, COME HERE.

OUT, DAMMIT!

GET OUT!

LUCY, YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND.

THERE'S AN EXPLANATION.

WHAT IS THE EXPLANATION?

I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT.

JUST GET OUT!

I'M NAKED, DON'T THROW ME OUT LIKE THIS!

IT'S COLD OUT THERE, COME ON!

LUCY!

JUST GIVE ME MY PANTS!

PLEASE, LUCY.

LUCY?

JUST GIVE ME MY PANTS AND I'LL LEAVE.

LUCY?

I LOVE YOU.

COME ON.

I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU KICKED ME OUT.

PLEASE GIVE ME MY PANTS, ALRIGHT?

COME ON, GIVE ME MY PANTS!

ANNIE, OPEN THE DOOR!

LET ME IN, I WANT TO TALK TO YOU!

ANNIE, PLEASE? I'M NOT GONNA HURT YOU,

I JUST WANT TO TALK TO YOU!

DON'T DO THIS!

I WANT TO TALK TO YOU! I WANT TO TALK TO YOU!

WHAT'S GOING ON?

OPEN THE DOOR!

ANNIE, PLEASE!

COME ON!

WHAT IS IT?

ANNIE, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH YOU?

WHAT'S GOING ON?

COFFEE, GO GET COFFEE!

IT'S IN THE KITCHEN.

ANNIE, WHAT DID YOU DO?

WHAT DID YOU DO?

I DID NOTHING.

WHAT DID YOU DO, DAMMIT, WHAT DID YOU DO?

I JUST TOOK A FEW PILLS.

WHAT DID YOU TAKE?

I DON'T KNOW.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?

WHAT KIND OF PILLS?

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I TOOK.

WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO?

YOU WANT ME TO CALL A DOCTOR?

DO YOU WANT TO GET UP AND THROW UP?

I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING,

I JUST WANT TO CALM DOWN.

YOU CAN'T CALM DOWN!

WHAT DID YOU TAKE?

WHAT DID YOU TAKE, DAMMIT, TALK TO ME!

I JUST WANT TO NOT BE DEPRESSED.

FINE, ANNIE, WE'LL GET YOU TO NOT BE DEPRESSED

BUT YOU HAVE TO GET UP!

YOU GOTTA GET UP, DAMMIT!

GET UP!

PLEASE GET UP!

ANNIE, PLEASE GET UP!

I WANT YOU TO DRINK SOME COFFEE AND WALK AROUND.

GET UP!

HOW MANY PILLS? I NEED TO KNOW, DAMMIT!

I NEED TO KNOW!

WHY DID YOU FUCK BILLY?

WHY DID YOU FUCK BILLY? WHY?

I'M SO TIRED.

WHY WOULD YOU FUCK HIM? PLEASE TELL ME.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?

AT LEAST KISS ME.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN KISS YOU?

JUST ONCE?

ANNIE, WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH YOU?

JUST KISS ME.

WHAT DO YOU MEAN?

DON'T ASK ME TO KISS YOU.

WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?

PLEASE, LUCE...

ANNIE...

WHAT IS THE MATTER WITH YOU?

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS?

PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME

BECAUSE I DON'T UNDERSTAND.

I'M JUST SO MISERABLE.

WHAT IS THE MATTER?

YOU'VE GOTTA TALK TO ME, I CAN'T DEAL WITH THIS!

I CAN'T STAND THE FACT THAT YOU'RE LEAVING.

I DON'T CARE ABOUT BILLY.

IT WAS LIKE BEING YOU WITH BILLY.

IT WAS A WAY OF GETTING CLOSE TO YOU,

BEING WITH BILLY.

YOU DON'T KNOW THAT I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU?

ALL THE LAST FOUR YEARS, YOU DON'T GET THAT?

YOU NEVER EVEN THOUGHT ABOUT

THAT'S MAYBE WHAT WAS WRONG?

I JUST CARE ABOUT YOU AND IT JUST HURTS.

IT REALLY HURTS TO BE SO MUCH IN LOVE WITH YOU

AND HAVE YOU GOING AWAY.

I MEAN, IT DIDN'T MATTER BEFORE WHEN YOU WERE HERE

AND WE COULD BE TOGETHER ALL THE TIME.

I JUST DON'T FEEL CONNECTED

TO ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU.

I MEAN, NO ONE.

I JUST DON'T WANT TO LOSE THAT.

PLEASE, JUST PLEASE UNDERSTAND.

PLEASE, LUCE. HMM?

LET ME KISS YOU ONCE BEFORE YOU LEAVE.

IT WOULD MAKE ME FEEL BETTER.

HUH? YEAH?

COME ON, A REAL KISS.

A REAL KISS?

ANNIE?

JUST ONCE, BE FUN.

COME ON, COME ON.

I LOVE YOU TOO, ANNIE. I DO.

WHAT HAPPENED TO WINONA?

SHE LEFT WITH THAT GUY.

WHAT GUY?

I DON'T KNOW, I THOUGHT YOU KNEW HIM.

YOU'RE GONNA BE OKAY, HUH?

IS SHE GONNA BE OKAY?

SHE IS GONNA BE OKAY.

THERE WERE ONLY A FEW PILLS LEFT IN THAT BOTTLE

AND SHE TOOK THEM.

HOW MANY?

JUST A COUPLE ACTUALLY.

I THOUGHT SHE'D DONE SOMETHING STUPID BUT-

IT WAS A WHOLE BOTTLE.

NO, THERE WERE JUST A FEW LEFT,

IT'S BEEN AROUND THE HOUSE FOREVER.

SHE'S ALRIGHT. SHE'S RESTING.

SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO GO TO A HOSPITAL OR ANYTHING?

NO, SHE'S FINE.

WHAT A DAY.

WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO?

I'M GOING TO GO TO LA AND FIND A PLACE TO LIVE AND-

FIND A PLACE TO LIVE?

YOU DON'T HAVE A PLACE TO LIVE?

NOT YET.

WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO STAY?

I DON'T KNOW, I'LL FIND AN APARTMENT SOMEWHERE.

WHY DON'T YOU STAY AT MY HOUSE?

WHAT IS IT?

THE KEYS TO MY HOUSE.

STAY IN MY HOUSE.

REALLY?

YEAH, I REALLY WOULD LIKE THAT.

ARE YOU SURE?

SURE, I'M SURE.

THEN I'LL KNOW WHERE YOU ARE.

AND YOU'LL KNOW WHERE I AM.

YES, I WILL.

AND YOU'LL CALL?

I WILL CALL.

YOU DON'T HAVE TO WRITE.

OKAY, GOOD.

YOU KNOW, WHEN YOU LOOK AT THE LIGHT

OF A STAR IN THE SKY, WHAT YOU'RE SEEING

ISN'T THE STAR EXISTING AS IT IS RIGHT NOW.

YOU'RE SEEING SOMETHING THAT HASN'T EXISTED

FOR MILLIONS AND MILLIONS OF YEARS.

THE LIGHT FROM THAT STAR IS COMING TOWARD YOU

FROM THE PAST.

THAT STAR HAS CEASED TO EXIST

BY THE TIME ITS LIGHT GETS TO YOU.

YOU'RE SEEING IT NOW IN YOUR PRESENT

BUT THAT STAR HAS CEASED TO EXIST

MILLIONS OF YEARS BEFORE YOU WERE BORN.

AND BY THE SAME TOKEN, IF SOMEBODY ON ANOTHER STAR,

SOMEWHERE MILLIONS OF YEARS INTO THE FUTURE

IS LOOKING BACK AT US WITH A TELESCOPE

POWERFUL ENOUGH TO SEE US,

THEY COULD SEE US RIGHT NOW AT THIS VERY MOMENT

BUT WHAT THEY'D BE SEEING IS THE LIGHT

FROM OUR PRESENT WHICH IS THEIR FUTURE.

BUT WE'VE BEEN DEAD FOR MILLIONS OF YEARS.

WE'RE GONE.

AND YET THEY'RE SEEING US RIGHT NOW.

PAST, PRESENT, FUTURE...

IT ALL DEPENDS WHAT STAR YOU'RE STANDING ON.

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