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- Oh hello.

Hello.

Who are you?

Hey!

- Yeah?

- Is this your dog?

- Sorry, what?

- Is this your dog?

What?

- What?

- You're smiling.

- Oh, no, I didn't except your accent to be your voice.

I mean, that's all.

- What's wrong with it?

- Nothing.

- I was so sad the day I met you.

I can't remember why.

Just stop listening. Stop thinking.

Tune it out.

What's that thing you're supposed to do? Count sheep?

One sheep, two sheep,

black sheep, blue sheep.

Blue.

I wonder if Blue ever worries.

Nah.

Blue doesn't worry.

All these little pieces.

So much to remember.

That smoke smell in Jude's hair.

Samantha telling stories of the road

and Ben agonizing over the playlist.

What was the song?

I can't remember anymore.

Focus on the important things.

Jude Andrew Williams.

We were married on October 14, 2021.

A Thursday.

I should be writing this down.

♪ Memoirs was at the brokenhearted ♪

♪ Hennessy vision of bad bitches ♪

- Everyone in, act like you like each other.

Pressed in tighter.

Tighter, tighter, tighter.

Everyone say "cliche"!

- Cliche!

- I got you a drink. - Oh, thank you.

- Emma, get in here. - Okay, yeah.

Tim, get in!

- Okay.

♪ What I'm fighting for, whatever is ♪

♪ Used to vision me and forever asked one ♪

- Oh. - Wait.

- One, two, three, cheese!

- Cheese!

- Thank you.

Be right back. - Send that to me.

- I'm sending it. - Okay, good.

♪ Different liquors out of sight ♪

♪ And out mind with my niggas chillin' ♪

♪ Records since I ever be go figure ♪

♪ Little me - You okay?

- Yeah. - He's bitter.

- Uh, I just got ahold of work and I'll be two seconds.

Hello?

- Hey, it's Jude.

- Are you calling me?

- Uh, yeah.

Why? Is this not a good time?

- No, no, no, just that cowards like me only text.

- Oh, well, well, I did text,

but then I realized I wasn't gonna get

to hear that cool accent again.

So, uh...

- Um, um.

I'm at a Halloween party so sorry

if it's a little bit loud.

- Yeah, me too.

How is yours?

- Yeah, it's fine.

Just a typical Halloween party.

- Cool, well, uh you better get back to it then.

- Actually it's a bag of wank.

- It's what?

- It's just shit, it's really shit.

- I bet you my Halloween party is 10 times worse.

- Prove it.

- Can't it wait till tomorrow?

- A dog might've been hit by a car,

the details are unclear.

- Do you want me to come with you?

- No, no, no, no, you stay here.

Have fun and I'll speak to you tomorrow.

- Hey!

Are you George Washington?

- No.

No, I'm Claude Bourgelat.

- Who's Clark Bergo...

Who's Claude- - Come on up,

I'll buzz you.

- Which way am I going?

- Just that way.

Claude Bourgelat, the French veterinary surgeon

who actually opened up the very first

veterinary practices in Lyon.

Lyon.

- Is your costume a guy who Googles things

and pretends he already knew 'em?

- That is my costume.

Yeah, funny, you're actually the only

person to get it right.

- Shall I.. Can I? - Yeah, come meet

these clowns, come on.

Welcome.

Come, come.

Everybody, this is Emma.

Emma, this is everybody.

- Jude Andrew Williams.

He always had a camera in his hand

and a photograph in his mind.

- Yeah, come on, man!

- He could seem guarded at first

but if you ever needed to know how he really felt

you could just look at his pictures.

It was hard to believe that was only the beginning.

- Can I kiss you?

- I'm not available.

- Right. Tom.

- Tim.

That's even worse.

So, do you love him?

- No. - No?

Then why are you with him?

- It's just what's happening right now.

- Yeah, but that's not even true

'cause you're here right now.

I, uh, I can respect that you're doing your thing,

just take note that I asked I guess.

- Noted.

- After you.

- That didn't happen!

- It feels wrong to make this about us.

It's bigger than that.

So much bigger.

We'd hear stories from somewhere like

the coast of Maryland or Florida.

Always there, not here.

Like the story of the man stranded in the ocean

picked up by a fishing boat.

It turned out he was another fisherman,

his boat washed up to shore four days later.

He said he couldn't remember how to steer it

so he decided to swim home.

Or the woman in the marathon who forgot to stop running.

There's something quite beautiful to these stories at first.

But then a pilot forgot how to fly.

They call it NIA.

Neuroinflammatory Affliction.

It can affect anyone, and there's no cure.

Ben was the first person we knew to get sick.

We say get sick, but that's not really it.

Some people snap all at once, other people fade away.

I'm not really sure which one is worse.

- Sup?

- Nothing apparently.

Fell asleep.

Jude?

- Yeah? - Hey, I'm going now.

- All right.

- You good?

- Yeah, just waking up.

- All right, well, I'll see you later.

- All right, babe. - Bye, darling.

- Bye, bye, bye.

- Hey. - Hey.

- How many have we got today? We're already packed.

- Just two.

Come on, bud.

All right, come here.

I got ya, all right.

- Hello, you.

All right, let's see if we can find your family.

Oh, yeah.

Come here.

- Oh, hey, I can get that. - Oh, that's all right.

Yeah, all good. - Oh okay.

- All set.

Thanks, Frank. - Sure.

Sorry, your name again?

- Emma.

- Emma, right!

Right, right.

Well, it's not to uh... yeah, yeah.

- Jude?

I thought that was you.

- Naps.

How's it going, man? You good?

- Good, and you?

- Yeah, good to see you man.

- Yeah, it's been awhile.

- What brings you here?

- I'm playing here tonight.

- Here? - Yeah.

- No shit. - Yeah.

- You're still at it. - That's right.

- Awesome, that's awesome.

- You should come. - Tonight?

- Yeah.

- Well, I gotta check with my wife.

- Wife? - Yeah, I got married.

- Get the fuck outta here.

Holy shit, man.

Man, we gotta catch up. - Yeah.

- You got a minute?

- Yeah, I got a minute.

You need a hand or what? - Yeah, of course, come on.

- All right. - Are you still rolling

with the same crew?

- Yeah, I still see 'em.

Yeah, yeah, yeah, what happened?

Playing solo or what?

- Hey, man. Stop it.

- What happened? - Nothing.

- Coming by, sorry, sorry.

Mr. Johnson. - Where the hell

have you been? - Yeah, I'm so sorry, sir.

- You were supposed to be here an hour ago.

- Yeah, I, there's no excuse, sir.

- We wanted pictures of the girls getting ready.

We paid for pictures of the girls getting ready.

- Yeah, I understand, I-

- No, no, I don't think you do understand.

Those moments are gone, we don't get those back.

We had to get my nephew here to take pictures.

- Yeah, sorry, sir.

I'll get a full deposit back to you.

- Hey, hey.

Just take some fucking pictures.

Okay. - Yes, sir.

- Hi, love.

- Hi, Mom.

- How is it, then?

- Yeah, fine.

How was Germany?

- Oh, didn't I tell you?

That trip got postponed.

I'm still at home, but I'll be going there in a few weeks.

- Mom, you have to tell me these things,

I'm coming to see you in a month.

- Hun- - Will you be back by then?

- I thought I did tell ya.

Didn't I?

But don't worry, I'll be back.

How are ya?

- I'm okay.

Work's getting stressful, but I'm looking forward

to coming and seeing ya.

I wish they hadn't grounded all those flights

so I could come sooner, but it's all right.

- Oh, remind me. Is David coming with ya?

- Jude? - What?

- Jude.

- Oh, God, what did I say?

Chris, Henry, David, Jude.

You know I was never good with names anyhow.

- Yeah.

Yeah, no, but it's not the first time you've forgotten, Mom.

I know I told ya I could only get the one ticket.

- Of course, that's right.

Well, hug Jude for me, will ya?

- Yeah.

Mom.

- What?

- Are you feeling okay?

- Yes, love. I'm great.

You let me do the worrying over here.

- You all right?

- Yeah, you?

- I'm not even a vet anymore, I'm just an executioner.

I hate it.

I had to put down the most beautiful pup today,

she had the most expressive eyes.

They were like human eyes.

I was gonna call you and see if I could take her home.

- Let's...

Please let's not get into that again.

- It's just one dog.

- No, but it's not just one.

If we take one we'll probably take 17

and we already got Blue, we don't have room.

You know that we can't.

- What's happening?

- Why are you stopping?

- Yeah, I don't think this bus is going anywhere.

- What is happening right now?

- Attention.

If you are lost or need assistance, call 707

and have your ID ready.

If someone you know is lost or missing,

check the missing person database or call 811

- Do you think anybody's immune?

- Oh yeah.

Me, for instance.

- All right, so it doesn't affect the geniuses amongst us.

- What if the only person who's immune

already has Alzheimers?

- Ooh.

- So you'd never know.

- Ooh, yeah.

That is so fucked up that's probably how it is.

- Or what if this is just the next phase

of human evolution and we should just embrace it?

We fucked everything up so badly that the only way

to survive this is just by forgetting.

- Mm hmm, yeah, I like that, too.

What about dogs?

Do you think dogs are susceptible?

- Unclear.

They rely more on associative memories,

so just don't change the way you smell

and keep feeding him and you'll be fine.

- Hey, don't you fucking forget about me, Blue!

Oh, I'm sorry, bud.

I didn't think you'd take that so seriously.

Yeah, I love you, too.

Yeah, sorry, buddy.

It's a shame we can't take some of them.

The dogs.

They've been putting down so many recently.

- What?

- Yeah, just like a puppy or something.

I'm sure Blue wouldn't mind.

What?

- You said we couldn't.

- When?

- We had an argument about this last week and then

we were just about to get into it again on the bus.

- Very good.

- Jude, I'm- - Almost.

- This is an ongoing argument that we've been having,

we were just about to get into it half an hour ago.

It was just now.

- I don't remember that.

- Oh my God.

Did you know this was happening?

- No, how am I gonna know I forgot?

- Do you know who I am?

- Yeah, you're my wife, Emma Veta.

- Where did we meet? What's your father's name?

Where did you grow up? - Emma!

- This is gonna be like Ben, isn't it?

- When your disaster

is everyone's disaster, how do you grieve?

When Ben first started losing his memory

he wanted us to record every song he'd ever written

before they were all gone.

- Wanna do it again?

One, two, three, four.

You got this.

Just relax, you got this.

- It's not happening.

It's not happening, it's just not happening.

- You got it.

If you want, we can just record the guitar first

and the vocals and then I can open up the bass.

- Yeah, sounds good.

- Okay.

- He tried so hard not to see him scared.

I guess we all did.

- I got an idea.

♪ You get away

♪ You always get away with everything ♪

♪ Look at all the fingerprints

♪ You left all over my body

♪ Make it sacred, make it count ♪

♪ Oh no, you're not easy to forget ♪

- I can't tell if I'm torturing myself,

pretending like I'm gonna find the answer.

I keep going back to the beginning.

- This is Jody Ryerson.

Leave a message after the tone.

- The mailbox is full and cannot accept

any new messages at this time.

Goodbye.

- If you are experiencing NIA symptoms

I need you over here.

- Don't worry about the car.

- If you are here on behalf of someone else,

please make a line to my right.

Listen carefully!

If you are experiencing NIA symptoms, I need you over here.

If you are here on behalf of someone else,

please make a line to my right.

If you were here yesterday and did not get in,

please have your ticket stubs ready.

- I dropped mine!

- Excuse me!

- On behalf of someone else, over here.

Sign the consent form, have your money ready.

- All sign the consent form. - Gloria, over here!

- Okay, okay, okay, people.

Have your ticket stubs ready.

- I'm sorry, we can't accept anyone under 25.

- What do you mean?

- The brain isn't fully developed.

If you are experiencing NIA symptoms, over here.

- Nurse! - Are you kidding

me right now?

- Can I help you? - Yes!

- Excuse me.

What is this? Have you found a cure or?

- This is for the chance to be in a clinical trial,

it's a lottery.

- Okay, but does it work?

I mean, if you get into the trial, does it work?

- All I know is that it's a trial.

Fill this out, turn it out when you get to the door

and have your money ready, okay?

- We have to wait in line anyway,

you can't jump ahead.

- And I wanna go in.

I don't care about anybody else.

I'm talking about me.

- I don't know.

I don't know, but my dad, he's lost his ID.

- Fine, fine!

- Guy pushed in front!

- Which line is it? This one or that one?

- Over here.

- Roses felt too easy, but I didn't know what you liked

so I got you daisies.

- Aren't daisies weeds?

- Huh?

- Aren't daisies weeds?

- Oh, well good to see you and goodnight.

- I'm kidding!

Come here.

Yeah, I think I'm gonna do a couple more years

as a vet tech to save up some money

to go back to school to study bio,

eventually be in the labs and maybe publish one day.

We'll see.

What about you?

- What about me?

- What are you doing?

- Oh, well, I've been around a lot with Ben and Sam touring,

taking pictures. - Yeah.

- For different bands, different magazines.

- Oh, cool.

- Yeah.

I helped them record.

It was a cool way to spend the first half of my 20s, but

things got a little outta hand with drinking, drugs.

Uh, Sam's parents were out here so we came here to dry out

and kinda never really left.

- Is that why you don't drink anymore?

- Yeah.

- What was it that happened to make you stop?

- That's a pretty intense second date question.

- Sorry.

I'm just being nosy.

Just tell me to shut up.

So, actually, do you want me to leave?

- I'll go.

- No, it's all right, I'll go. You stay here.

Anyway, you, it's not our second date.

- It's not?

- No, first one was Halloween.

- Well, I definitely don't count that.

- Because you can't count.

- No, because you said it didn't happen.

- What didn't happen?

- This.

Sorry.

- No! - Sorry, sorry.

No, I thought it was a smooth, cool moment,

but if you're not uh- - No, no, don't be silly.

Uh, I just...

I'm just not very good at this.

- What?

- Do you wanna have sex?

Don't laugh!

I really need your fucking consent.

- Oh my God, uh...

Yes.

But I know you're going through some shit with Tom,

I don't wanna-

- Tim.

- Yeah, and he's just a friend.

- Yeah, does he know that?

- Not in those exact words.

- Well, I get that.

So, let's just wait.

I'm not going anywhere.

♪ I run after you

♪ Like a fool would do

♪ But mama didn't raise no fools ♪

♪ And I should know

♪ That baby you got it

♪ That's all I can say for you

♪ You got soul, too much soul

♪ Foxy clothes, the cutest nose ♪

♪ A groovy set there's nothing fake about you ♪

♪ Baby you got it

♪ People can cruel, they say I've lost my cool ♪

♪ But it's very hard to keep my cool ♪

♪ When I'm around you

♪ 'Cause baby you got it

♪ That's all I can say for you

♪ You got soul, too much soul

♪ Foxy clothed, the cutest nose ♪

♪ The mood is set, there's nothing fake about you ♪

♪ Baby you got it

♪ I'm glad I found you

♪ Gonna cling to you

♪ I'll give you love and money, everything to you ♪

♪ No matter what they say

♪ No matter what they do

♪ I'm never gonna love another girl like you ♪

♪ 'Cause baby you got it

♪ That's all I say for you

- Hello?

- Jude Williams, please.

- This is his wife, who's speaking?

- I'm Dr. Dormer with DPC Research Development.

The NIA trial.

Hello?

- Yeah, yeah, I'm here.

- Can I speak with your husband?

- Um, it's probably best that you just speak to me

'cause I'm the one that submitted the application.

- Jude has been selected for the clinical trial

on an NIA suppressant.

I see from the forms that were submitted

that he's exhibiting NIA symptoms, correct?

Hello?

- Yeah, sorry.

Yeah, I'm here.

So, he's gotten in?

- He's been accepted for an evaluation.

If he passes he'll be invited to participate

in the actual trials.

We're trying to move quickly here.

Can we schedule an appointment for him to come in tomorrow?

- The government has the cure, they have the true cure,

not the one they're giving us that doesn't work.

They've been keeping NIA on the streets

just like that fuck Reagan did with AIDS.

And who's doing something about it?

Are you? I am because I care.

I don't want this sickness, this population control.

They're keeping us down.

They have the true cure.

- Wear one of these and when you're done

filling this paperwork out somebody will call your name.

Keep your mask on and fill this paperwork out.

- Emma?

Hey.

- Oh my God, Sam.

- Good to see you, hey.

- Oh, it's good to see you.

It's been a minute.

- Yeah, I know. Yeah.

I'm just here for the day, just

running errands. - Yeah.

Right.

Right, yeah.

Oh, it's good to see ya.

- Yeah. - Are you all right?

- I'm good, yeah, I'm good.

- Yeah? - Yeah, really, I'm just...

How are you?

- Yeah, no, yes, I am just...

Just making phone calls and all that stuff.

Sorry I haven't called.

- Yeah.

Yeah, same. I'm...

I wanted to.

- Oh, darling.

- You must think I'm the biggest asshole on the planet.

- No, I don't.

No, I don't, that's ridiculous.

I do not think that at all.

- Sorry, I'm just.

Yeah, sorry. - It's okay.

- Um, tell Jude I say hi, okay?

- Yeah, I will.

- It's good to see you, I just...

- Good to see you.

- I just wasn't expecting to see you, that's all.

- Yeah.

Yeah, no worries.

I'll give you a bell.

- Okay. - Bye.

- Any history of heart disease?

- Nope.

- High cholesterol?

- Nope.

- Diabetes?

- Nope.

- Do you take drugs?

- What does that got to do with-

- We'll find out either way,

so better to get it out now. - Oh, it's not gonna

be a problem, I've been clean

for five years and nine months.

- So, how long would you say you've been

experiencing symptoms of NIA?

- Like a month.

I can remember some things, but other things are just gone.

Like details, I can't do details.

Like I can remember people, who they are,

but I can't zero in.

- Your brain may be trying to bridge the gaps,

taking other moments you still remember

and merging with false memories.

- So, the treatment.

Is it like what? It's like a pill or?

- We'll be doing an oral CP.

- Sorry, what?

- An oral cranial puncture.

Think of it as clearing a clogged pathway.

The brain is separated into four major lobes.

The one most closely associated with memory being temporal.

Now, we remove the lateral through he roof of the mouth.

Inter-cranial hypertensions.

Jude? - Yeah?

- Are you okay?

- Yeah.

But what are the risks?

- We have some literature we can send home with you

that really walks you through the ins

and outs of the procedure.

It's not complicated, but there are significant risks.

We have a counselor on hand to help make sure

you understand what we're dealing with.

- To identify a neuroinflammation begin

by asking baseline questions.

What's your name? How old are ya?

What's your favorite color?

This is all they've given ya? Brain teasers?

I thought there was supposed to be some sort of procedure.

- Yeah, it's brain teasers and...

- And?

- Surgery.

They take like a metal straw and...

I don't wanna do it, Em.

- What'd the doctor say?

- They don't even know if it's gonna work,

it's like a trial.

Let's see and find out, let's poke around

in some dude's skull and hope we don't cripple him

and make him go blind.

I'm not doing it, man.

I could just wind up with no memory, no legs, and no eyes.

And if I'm gonna forget who I am

then I'd at least like to be able to see where I'm going.

- So you made up your mind then.

- Yeah.

- Do I not get a say in this?

- Emma, you can't ask me

to sit there while- - But Jude, I am asking ya,

I am asking ya, I have to ask ya.

I get it, you don't wanna go blind or end up in a wheelchair

but if there's a chance that we can stop it

then I don't understand why you won't try.

- I know you're upset- - I'm not fucking upset, Jude!

- Well, you don't sound very not fucking upset!

- My mom's starting to fade.

- Why didn't you tell me?

- Because I can't do anything about it, Jude.

I've got a ticket that I can't change

for weeks from now and now I've got this, I've got you.

So what am I supposed to do?

Just go off to England while my husband forgets about me?

I'm not fucking doing that.

I'm not losing my mom and my husband in the same breath,

so I need you to explain it to me.

Can you explain it to me why you won't do this?

What? Because you don't care?

- No, of course I fucking care, Emma.

This is happening to me.

This is fucking scary for me, too.

I'm scared.

I'm fucking scared.

- Who am I? How old am I?

What's my favorite color?

Jude, please.

I'm scared, too.

- You're my wife, Emma Vita Ryerson Williams.

You're 28.

Your favorite color is yellow.

- Describe a memory that took place

in the room that you're in.

You fucking- - Whoa, easy, take it easy.

Take it easy, easy.

- You fucking!

- Well, you didn't like the gray walls in there,

you said they reminded you of rainy days back home.

So you painted 'em yellow.

Come on. - No!

- What time of year was it?

- Summer.

No, winter.

We had just bought a fish.

- What fish?

- You called him Ampersand.

- Emma and Jude.

- Do you remember why we bought the fish?

- Look at this little guy.

He doesn't have a clue what's going on in the world.

No NIA, no cancer, no crusades.

Just gets to swim around having a good time.

- We should be so lucky.

- That's what I feel like when I'm with you.

- Like a fish?

- No, you know what I meant.

- That's the nicest thing you've ever said to me.

- Let's get married.

- Okay.

- No, I'm not joking.

- Me neither.

- I wanna spend the rest of my life with you.

I wanna fucking marry you.

- Yeah? - Yeah.

Shit.

- Change your mind already?

- No, I don't have a ring.

- Then buy me a fish.

- Yeah?

- Do you know that this is a type of memory

exclusively tied to the touch?

Haptic memory.

- Haptic?

Did you read that in your book?

I haven't forgotten how you feel.

- Will you touch me?

- They say you can't forget feelings

and I still believe that.

Even after Ben.

- Sam?

What, what, what, what, what?

Are you all right?

- Darling, what's happening? What's happening?

- He's just freaking out, Emma, I can't.

- It'll be okay, it'll be okay.

- What the fuck!

- Get out!

- Ben?

Ben?

Ben? - Jude?

- Yeah.

You all right?

- Jude.

- Can I come in?

- I don't know.

- I'm coming in, all right?

What's going on?

- Jude!

- Yeah?

Yeah, we're good.

We're good, right? We're good.

Yeah, we're okay.

- He's... Emma.

- Are you all right? Did he hurt you?

- He just grabbed a knife

and he doesn't even remember my name right now.

- Calm down. - I thought I was in my house,

man, and then this fucking bitch just walks in.

I don't fucking know her.

I don't fucking know her!

- No, no, no, this is your house. This is your house.

- It is, right? - Yeah, that's Samantha.

Sam. - I don't know Sam.

- Man, you've been together for a while.

Shit, you've known her longer than you've known me.

- I have? - Yeah.

Look at your chest.

Look, look, look.

Here.

You see?

Ben, you're sick, man, you got NIA.

You had it for awhile, it's making you forget shit.

Sam's been helping you through.

Yeah, you guys are great together, man.

Shit, you make music together. You're awesome.

Hey.

Hey!

It's not your fault, man.

Can I take this?

Come on, man.

Okay.

- Why the fuck me, man?

- Just relax, bud.

- Why the fuck me? - Relax, it's not your fault.

- Ben Richards was

from Hidalgo County, Texas.

He's a songwriter, and like many,

believed that music would save the world.

- It's wrong.

The ambiance is so... it's wrong.

- Huh?

- I'm gonna go record outside.

It's all wrong, let's get outta here.

Remember the counts?

I can't remember. - No, man.

Why not?

- His mother was Lizette

and his father was Dave,

and since he moved away he called them every Sunday.

- We're trying to have a baby.

- Sam!

- We've been together for so long, it's about time.

- Sam, that's so exciting!

- Yeah.

- When he first started to lose

his memory Ben kept it a secret.

Just like everyone did back then.

Ben could turn any room into a concert

when he was inclined to.

That was his gift.

This is who we all remembered.

Who we were clutching on to.

- Don't fall in.

- Don't.

- Will you come- - Don't, Jude.

Honestly, Jude.

- Do not fall in. - Don't you fucking d...

This is so scary,

do not do that. - Emma, no!

- Stop, stop it, stop.

You're gonna get us in trouble.

- You jump, I jump! - Stop it.

Get off me, I'm trying to see the whales.

- Oh yeah, I got told if we're gonna see one

it's gonna be right here.

- Oh yeah? - Yeah.

- Okay.

- You all right? Do you want anything?

- Um, I'll have a tea.

If they've got tea, black tea.

- Yeah? Okay.

- If you see one tell him to wait.

- I will just for you.

Jude! - Yeah, what?

- Nothing.

- All right, we're just getting word into the newsroom now.

Moments ago DPC issued a statement indicating

that the early results of their controversial NIA treatments

are quote overwhelmingly positive.

Now, in that same statement they also say

that due to overwhelming demand that they

are not able to accept any new applicants.

What do you make of that?

- I guess if this treatment is having some success,

that's wonderful news.

- Overwhelmingly positive certainly sounds like they

might be onto something. - What can I get you?

- It does, but they have already closed off

a very selective monitor to the general public

and I assume that the FDA has been-

- Tea.

- There are people with loved ones

who are afflicted with this who want a chance.

- Stop, don't touch me!

- Stop here!

- Stop it! Get away from me!

- Stop! Stop it!

- Stop! Turn the boat around!

- Stop the boat!

We have to go back, we have to go back.

Stop!

I don't know who you are!

Help me! - Stop her!

Stop her! - Help me!

- Okay. - Help me!

- What's happening? - Help!

Turn the boat around!

No, stop touching me, please.

Just get away from me.

We have to go back, please!

Don't! Stop it!

- Back off, back up.

- Get away!

- Em?

- Go back, we need to go back!

- Em? - Jude!

- Em!

- Hurry! Throw it in!

- Turn the boat around!

- Overwhelmingly positive results.

The first sign of a cure and they shut everyone out.

It's no wonder people are going crazy.

And while they went crazy all we could do was wait.

Wait to hear that we got an in.

Wait to hear that we were gonna be okay.

We're gonna be okay.

- This procedure works.

- A viral video is causing a stir today

of a Dr. Sam Tomlin of the DPC walking viewers

through a step-by-step tutorial of the procedure

which supposedly puts a halt to NIA symptoms.

Already we're getting reports from local emergency rooms

of more than a dozen new patients who've attempted

the procedure on themselves.

- We're gonna be okay.

- We have increased police presence

and cannot stress enough this is not a proven cure.

- Step back now!

- It is, at best, a promising lead

in the road to a cure.

We urge everyone to remain calm.

- We're gonna be okay.

- Hello?

Yes, speaking.

Sorry, I thought he was already in.

Yeah, that's... that's not possible.

Um, can I speak to Dr. Dormer please?

Well, can I talk to someone?

Who's your supervisor?

Yeah, but there's been a mistake

and you need to check again.

Or I need to someone who can sort it out.

Fine.

Yeah, fine.

Fuck.

Jude.

They said they didn't take you 'cause you've

got drugs in your system.

- What?

- You know what they're talking about?

- Nope.

- Jude, you can't lie to me about this stuff.

- Emma, I swear to God, I've been sober for five years.

You know that, I wouldn't just fuck things up like that.

- So what? They're just lying?

- Unless it's a mistake.

What did they say?

- They said they found cocaine in your system

and now you can't get the procedure done.

Is that true?

- No, it can't be true.

- Jude.

- Fuck.

- What?

- I ran into an old friend from way back

and I used to party a lot with him.

I thought we just caught up.

I don't remember, but that's the only time I could've...

- So it's possible, then.

I just need a minute.

- Damn.

- I can't do this.

- What do you mean?

- He's been forgetting pieces of himself

for the last six months.

Tonight he just forgot me.

- Oh, darling.

- This is going to get worse.

I love him, Emma.

I love him so much.

But it's a sinking ship.

I can either tie myself to him and get dragged down

or cut loose and try to stay alive.

- I understand, but-

- I don't think you understand, Emma.

I truly hope you never have to understand.

The man who promised he was gonna love me forever,

he just tried to stab me with a kitchen knife

that my mother gave him.

What the fuck am I supposed to do right now?

- They lost each other.

But I won't lose you.

- Tell me about our first kiss.

Jude.

The walls, there were these black shapes.

- Well, I don't remember the walls.

Can I kiss you?

- Our first kiss can't be in line for the loo.

- I didn't say that.

- No?

- No, I said I'm not available.

- Right, Tim.

- Tom.

- But I thought his name was Tim.

- Yeah, but you always called him Tom.

- Tom.

- Tim.

That's even worse.

So, do you love him?

- No. - No?

You didn't even have to think about it.

- No, I didn't.

Tell me about the walls.

- I don't remember the walls.

- What's this?

- It's a picture of you.

- What's this?

Do you know who I am?

- You're Emma.

- Then why'd you have to write this down?

- I'm doing my best.

- When were we married, Jude?

- April.

No, uh, August.

August?

- When did we get married, Jude?

- Uh, it was a Wednesday in August.

- Just...

Just focus on the details, the memory has dozens

of threads to the other memories.

Was it in a church?

- I don't know.

- Was it a big wedding?

- Steps.

- Yeah, we kissed on some steps.

It was a Thursday, it was just us,

we decided we didn't wanna wait until the date.

- What color was the dress?

- White.

- Blue.

Do you remember who was there?

- Uh...

Ben.

Samantha.

- Congratulations.

I love you, I'm so happy.

- He played us a song.

- I wrote this for you. - No, no, no.

He gave us a song.

Our song.

♪ Stay awake just to burn you into my mind ♪

♪ Don't fall asleep till I see you and I close my eyes ♪

♪ Pull you closer just to feel you breathing ♪

♪ Blend your flesh to mine

- Close your eyes.

- Why?

- Just close 'em.

♪ Darkness when I close my eyes ♪

- Do you remember meeting me?

- A waterpark.

I remember a waterpark and it was October, it was cold.

Hi.

It was the day they shutdown the park.

Everything was going outta business,

every day was something's last day.

- We were the oldest people there.

- We were the only people there.

♪ I'll take you dancing in the flickering lights ♪

♪ I'll spin your hand

- I was so sad the day I met you.

- Why?

- Can't remember.

I just know that after I saw you I wasn't sad anymore.

♪ Just to see you dancing

- We were married October 14th of last year.

We didn't have a wedding,

we just went right to the courthouse.

Ben and Sam were there.

Your dad was there.

Your friends, my friends.

It was a mad dash with no warning and

still so many people made it.

- I'm so sorry I don't remember.

- It's not your fault, though.

- I haven't forgotten how I feel.

- So much to remember.

All these little pieces.

For some people NIA is a slow drip,

for others it's a stop all at once.

For you it's slow.

This can work.

- Okay, left!

No, my left!

Keep going!

Perfect!

Pretty fucking cool, huh?

- Yeah, it's cool!

- Hang on.

- Every day he rediscovers the city.

- Oh, fuck, fuck, fuck!

- Places we had known in special ways

were strange again.

- Move back.

All right.

I think it took.

- Some things were easy.

- Hang on.

- And some things are hard.

- Have we been here before?

- No.

No, we haven't.

- Because his losses were mine, too.

- What the?

What is this, a fish?

- Yeah.

I got it with you.

- Do you like it?

What, what, what?

What?

- Oh, my God.

- No!

We got matching tats. - We did indeed.

- Do I know you better

than you know yourself?

Right now, maybe.

- Why did we tattoo fish?

Oh, thank god! - What?

- Oh shit, I couldn't, uh...

I knew that we lived on Ormand but I couldn't remember

which door so I just knocked on 'em all

and nobody wanted to help me.

- Darling.

Here you go.

It's okay.

- I find myself wondering how

to build a future if you keep having to rebuild the past.

- Yeah, it woulda been nice to know that I fucking

had this and I don't know.

- Life goes forwards, not backwards.

I'm still reading about the brain, taking notes.

I don't know, feeling like I'm doing something.

- Mom?

- Uh, is this Emma Ryerson?

- Oh my God, is she okay?

- She's all right. We identified her.

She's in the hospital now and people are looking after her.

- Does she know who she is?

- She knows her first name. Bits and pieces.

- Um...

Could you tell her that Emma, that her daughter loves her

and I haven't forgotten and that I'm gonna try

and be there as soon as I can.

Would you tell her that please?

- What were we even trying to save?

Our experiences together?

Is that all I love about him?

I wish I could look at him and just find what went missing.

But he looks the same.

- Jude, I'm so tired of this.

- I have to ask you something.

- Okay.

- I'm not sure how.

- Is it scary?

- Yeah.

I've been doing some reading about the procedure

and what they were gonna do to me.

- Okay.

- And I was thinking we could do it.

- Do it?

- Yeah, or you could do it.

At work.

- Are you being serious?

- Yeah, I know it sounds crazy, but they have

these videos online and they swear that it worked.

No, they swear that it worked.

You take this long needle and you find this nerve

at the base of the brain-

- You didn't wanna do it when professionals

were gonna do it, Jude, I'm a vet.

- Yeah, I know, but I'm going, Em.

We have to try and I'm gonna feel better

knowing that it's you.

- No, you can't ask me to do that.

- No, but I am asking you.

- But what if, um...

What if something goes wrong or I hurt you

or I make it worse or you get an infection?

- Well, I wouldn't of asked you if I hadn't

thought about all of that.

I trust you.

I don't know what else to do.

I don't know what else there is.

- Stay here, I'm gonna go and check.

Okay, we're all safe.

- This ridge should soften into a membrane

that will give a little when you push it.

This area will be the puncture point.

- Okay.

Okay, this is what we use to open dog's mouths

when we clean the teeth.

It won't really fit, but it will stop you from biting.

Wider.

How's that?

- How do I look?

- Um...

Carfentanil could kill you so I'm gonna give you

some Telazol for the pain-

Jude- - No drugs, I gotta be...

I wanna be- - Jude.

- No, please, fuck that shit.

Come on.

- You ready?

- I'm ready. - You ready?

- Yeah, yeah.

- Take a deep breath.

Deep breath.

Breathe.

Deep breath.

- Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.

You all right?

Yeah, we got this.

Come on, come on.

Yo!

All right, let's get it. Come on.

- Are you sure?

- Yeah, yeah, yeah. Let's go, let's go, let's go.

Here we go, come on.

- Okay, deep breath.

Deep breath, deep breath, deep breath.

Deep breath.

Jude, I don't know.

Jude, I don't know, I don't know.

- Close your eyes.

- Why? - Just close 'em.

- All right, pretend we're somewhere hot.

- Okay. - Like the jungle.

- No, Hawaii.

- Hawaii?

All right, so we're in Hawaii.

Let's pretend we just got married.

- We did just get married.

- Oh yeah.

So, all right, it's our honeymoon, we're in Hawaii,

and we're in the water but you gotta sneak off

because there is jellyfish and sharks.

- And the water is dead clear so I'll be

able to spot 'em a mile away.

- No, but it's like three a.m. so it's dark.

And if you look out onto the horizon

you can see like la lightnening storm=.

- Am I naked?

- Hell yeah, it's a honeymoon. Always.

Me, too.

- Sounds perfect.

- Yeah.

- Perfect Hawaiian honeymoon.

- Don't ever forget it.

- Easy.

Easy.

- What happened?

- You blacked out.

- I blacked out? - Yeah.

Jude, slowly, slowly.

Oh.

- Did we get it?

- I'm not sure.

- How long was I out for?

- 10 minutes.

Oh, for God sake, Jude.

It was so scary.

- Did I hurt ya?

Did I help ya?

How long until we'll know?

- You going somewhere?

- Who are you?

- What?

Oh, fuck off.

Fuck off, Jude.

For fuck's sake!

That's so annoying!

- How could you tell?

- I could see you chew your lip you were trying

to do your stupid smile you stupid twat.

- Sorry. - Oh, thank you.

- Good morning.

Hey, can we take the car, just go do like

a road trip or something?

Put this guy in the back seat.

- Do you feel up for that?

- Yeah.

Yeah, I could use the air.

- Out of all the concerts that you've been to,

what was the worst?

- Uh...

Oh, I saw Courtney Love in Vegas.

She came out, sang one line, and got hit

with a chocolate bar and left.

- No.

- She said, "Fuck you, Las Vegas!"

And then she left.

What about you?

- Uh, you at karaoke last year.

Absolutely traumatic experience for me and everyone around.

- Traumatic?

- Oh, completely tone deaf.

It's good you have hands, though.

Everything shuts down when you start singing.

♪ Do do do do

♪ Do be do be be

- It's the face that you do as well.

I can't even look at ya.

I folded my ears in on themselves 'cause I can't do it.

Oh, is that fun? - Blue!

- Is that fun?

Blue, Blue!

- Catalog, Blue. - Blue!

- Yeah, boy.

- Have you got the key?

- Huh?

- Have you got the key?

- Yeah, he said the mailbox.

- No?

- Hang on.

He must have forgot. - Okay.

I still have no news on my mom.

- Still?

Did you try your aunt?

- Yeah, I've tried her as well.

- Yeah, I got something I need to say to you

but it doesn't feel like the right time.

But I don't feel like I can wait.

- Okay.

- Uh...

I wrote it down so I wouldn't mess it up.

There's no easy way to say this, but it didn't work.

I woke up this morning and I didn't recognize you.

So it definitely didn't work.

Emma, now I'm starting to forget even you.

Dear Emma, I wanted to write this to you,

I wanted to say this to you while I still

have as much of me as I do.

Every morning I wake up and I have to look

at Polaroids with names on 'em just so

I can remember that he's Blue.

Or like this morning when we left

I had to let you go out first because I couldn't

remember which car was ours.

There's chaos all around us, people freaking out

looking for cures, we're losing our friends,

you're losing your mom, borders are sealed,

flights are grounded,

and people are getting lost on their own streets.

And in the middle of it it feels like it's just us

doing whatever the fuck we can.

So I wanted to come out here while it's still quiet

so that I could look you in the eye in case

before I'm all gone and tell you that you are the love

of my life because you make me laugh every day

and you make my life worth living and you make me

feel like I'm not alone.

And if things were normal, then you'd be the person

that'd make it okay that I gotta grow old and die someday

because at least I got to spend some of that time with you.

But things aren't normal and so I guess instead,

or as well, I love you because you stayed.

Because when things got scary

you knuckled down and you stayed.

And you got me through each day.

And I hope I did the same for you, or I hope that

I can still do the same for you somehow.

Yeah, yeah, I just had to because I feel we gotta be real.

- Yeah.

- What's this? Come on.

Come on.

Oh, come here.

Yeah, yeah.

You can't get that stick.

You can't get there first.

You can't get that stick.

Hey! - Hey.

- This dog's cool.

- His name's Blue.

- Oh, Blue! Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, Blue. Come on.

What?

Come on.

- Oh no, are they turning us around?

- Uh, I don't know.

- IDs please.

- Is this road closed, sir, or what?

- Just the IDs.

- Why?

- Government mandated for

the missing persons database.

- We're not missing.

- Not yet.

Okay, go on through.

- How many today?

- Oh, just one.

Maybe people are remembering to close their gates.

- Yeah, well, I've got that.

Cheers.

Here you are.

- Here you go.

- Thank you.

- Here. - Thank you much.

That'll take care of it.

Let me give you this.

- Thanks.

Hey, um, just wondering if you know where Frank is.

He's the guy that usually comes here.

He's called Frank.

- Frank hasn't been here in weeks.

I'm Annie.

Do you not remember me?

- No, of course I knew, I was just wondering

if you've heard from Frank.

- No, I haven't.

Sorry.

- Where you off to?

- On the hike.

- Why do you wanna go on a hike?

It's winter, it'll be cold.

- I asked you last night, you said we could go on a hike.

- Yeah, you're right, I did say that

I just didn't think you'd remember.

- Are you coming or?

- Yeah.

- Come on.

Beautiful, huh?

Come on, let's get it.

- What?

- Let's go, like- - Oh, Jude.

- Just go like here.

Right there.

- For fuck's sake.

What do you want me to do?

- You know, just do your thing.

- Oh, Jude, this is...

This is gonna look shit.

- Turn around.

- Nightmare. - Look, whale.

- Oh, Jude, I'm not in the mood for this.

- That's good. - No.

- Yeah, walk towards me. - Enough, enough.

- Yeah, that's good, that's good, that's good.

Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait.

Yes.

Oh shit, can I get one more?

Just here?

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Yes!

It's a nice camera.

I hope it turns out.

- Jude?

Jude.

Hey.

Jude. - What?

Everything okay? - No, no, no.

- What? - No, no, Jude.

- You all right?

- No. - Is there a problem?

- Jude, who am I? - Huh?

- Who am I? - I don't Know.

Do not touch me, please.

- No, Jude, look at me, look at me.

- What, what, can I help?

- I'm your wife. - Can I help?

What? - I'm your wife, Emma.

- All right, I can't do this. - Jude, Jude.

Jude, I'm your wife. - Out of my personal space

here, can you- - Jude, I'm your wife.

Jude, look at me. Who am I?

- No, don't touch me, man.

- Look, we left the house this morning-

- Are you fucking crazy?

- We left the house this morning.

- All right, all right, I don't-

- Who am I and what's my favorite color?

- Are you deranged? - Who am I, what's my fav-

- Are you deranged? - Jude, Jude, just relax.

- Will you not touch me? - Just relax.

- Fuck, man. - Jude.

Please, we leave together. - Will you not touch me?

I just told you once. - Jude, I'm going crazy.

Please, just look me.

Jude, look at-

- Listen, I don't know if you're a psychopath

or you're sick or what's going on

but it's got nothing to do with me, all right?

I'm sorry I pushed you.

I'll see if I can get you some help.

- Jude!

Jude.

- I was so sad the day I met ya.

- Oh, hello.

Hello.

Who are you?

- I can't remember why.