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These are the user uploaded subtitles that are being translated: 1 00:00:03,961 --> 00:00:37,961 Download Latest Movies & Seires From "WWW.MSMOVIESBD.COM" 2 00:00:37,922 --> 00:00:41,625 [woman] I wanna tell you about my best friend in the world. 3 00:00:43,326 --> 00:00:44,896 That's a Canon C 300. 4 00:00:46,296 --> 00:00:48,198 It's being operated by Arsene, our first camera operator. 5 00:00:50,702 --> 00:00:53,503 They concurrently are being shot by Alvira Lynne, 6 00:00:53,537 --> 00:00:55,439 our B camera operator. 7 00:01:03,748 --> 00:01:05,549 I'm an actress. 8 00:01:06,951 --> 00:01:08,618 I mean, I'm acting right now. 9 00:01:09,887 --> 00:01:12,724 Normally, I'm a dancer and a choreographer. 10 00:01:14,025 --> 00:01:16,626 I'm acting in this because given all the dancing 11 00:01:16,661 --> 00:01:18,428 that's going to be happening, 12 00:01:18,462 --> 00:01:19,864 we thought it'd be more viable for the dancers to pull off 13 00:01:19,897 --> 00:01:21,699 the acting required, 14 00:01:21,933 --> 00:01:22,800 than vice versa. 15 00:01:24,534 --> 00:01:25,937 I didn't write these words. 16 00:01:27,404 --> 00:01:28,706 They are written 17 00:01:28,740 --> 00:01:31,008 by what we as species commonly refer to as a man. 18 00:01:31,809 --> 00:01:34,311 And the part I'll be playing, 19 00:01:34,344 --> 00:01:35,612 or playing the part of, 20 00:01:36,513 --> 00:01:39,349 is also, for purposes of identification, 21 00:01:39,717 --> 00:01:40,617 a man. 22 00:01:42,486 --> 00:01:43,788 My name is Eden. 23 00:01:43,821 --> 00:01:44,722 [solemn music] 24 00:01:46,623 --> 00:01:47,992 That's me on the bed. 25 00:01:51,561 --> 00:01:52,730 And that... 26 00:01:54,498 --> 00:01:55,599 is Aviva, 27 00:01:57,969 --> 00:02:00,671 who wasn't aware all these cameras would be here 28 00:02:00,705 --> 00:02:02,907 when we were introduced by our common friend Nissan. 29 00:02:03,507 --> 00:02:04,909 [upbeat music] 30 00:02:06,244 --> 00:02:07,277 Nissan is a man about town in about a dozen different towns, 31 00:02:07,310 --> 00:02:10,614 New York, London, Berlin, Barcelona, Paris. 32 00:02:12,382 --> 00:02:14,384 He speaks seven or eight languages fluently, 33 00:02:14,417 --> 00:02:15,887 and each one of them, 34 00:02:15,920 --> 00:02:18,723 with whatever a loosh affected accent is in that language. 35 00:02:18,756 --> 00:02:20,992 He's flamboyant, though straight, and that heart, 36 00:02:21,025 --> 00:02:24,061 kind of a yenta who's always looking to play matchmaker. 37 00:02:24,561 --> 00:02:25,997 He was living in Paris at the time 38 00:02:26,030 --> 00:02:28,666 and was friends with Aviva, who was a native there. 39 00:02:29,100 --> 00:02:30,835 I'm a dancer, too. 40 00:02:32,569 --> 00:02:34,906 Not exactly French, but... 41 00:02:34,939 --> 00:02:36,606 an accent is an accent. 42 00:02:40,778 --> 00:02:42,546 [Eden] Nissan tried to set Aviva up 43 00:02:42,579 --> 00:02:44,447 with some of his friends there. 44 00:02:44,481 --> 00:02:45,950 For whatever reason, 45 00:02:45,983 --> 00:02:47,051 nothing clicked. 46 00:02:47,652 --> 00:02:49,553 Then he thought of me. 47 00:02:50,888 --> 00:02:52,489 Living in New York, 48 00:02:52,522 --> 00:02:54,391 still reeling from a devastating break up, 49 00:02:54,424 --> 00:02:57,028 to which my suicidal response had led me to understand 50 00:02:57,061 --> 00:02:59,831 that I was dealing with a deep and abiding depression 51 00:02:59,864 --> 00:03:01,933 I had been carrying my entire life. 52 00:03:03,768 --> 00:03:06,336 And there's nothing more depressing or lonely 53 00:03:06,536 --> 00:03:08,673 than being alone in New York City. 54 00:03:11,608 --> 00:03:13,978 Nissan told me about this amazing creature 55 00:03:14,011 --> 00:03:15,512 I had to meet right away. 56 00:03:16,113 --> 00:03:19,382 I was reluctant at first, but after some convincing, 57 00:03:19,684 --> 00:03:21,853 I sent an email off in to the Ether. 58 00:03:22,186 --> 00:03:23,587 It went like this: 59 00:03:24,822 --> 00:03:26,891 "Hey there Aviva across the ocean, 60 00:03:28,458 --> 00:03:29,526 Eden here. 61 00:03:29,559 --> 00:03:30,895 I'm a friend of Nissan's. 62 00:03:31,729 --> 00:03:33,698 He told me I absolutely must email you, 63 00:03:33,731 --> 00:03:35,465 which I'm very happy to do. 64 00:03:36,033 --> 00:03:37,702 I'm not sure what to say, 65 00:03:37,735 --> 00:03:39,871 but Nissan, I don't know what you did to him, 66 00:03:39,904 --> 00:03:41,638 but it must have been something, 67 00:03:41,672 --> 00:03:43,007 was so emphatic 68 00:03:43,040 --> 00:03:44,742 that he almost got me to get on a plane 69 00:03:44,775 --> 00:03:47,111 and come to Paris for some event or I don't know what, 70 00:03:47,144 --> 00:03:48,612 this weekend. 71 00:03:49,881 --> 00:03:52,482 Unfortunately, I have to finish this project I'm working on. 72 00:03:52,515 --> 00:03:55,452 I'm on a deadline so I really can't do it right now. 73 00:03:55,920 --> 00:03:59,422 However, one of these days I'll be out there. 74 00:04:00,858 --> 00:04:02,392 Do you ever leave Paris? 75 00:04:02,860 --> 00:04:04,561 What are you up to anyway? 76 00:04:04,896 --> 00:04:05,897 What do you do? 77 00:04:06,630 --> 00:04:07,965 Who are you actually? 78 00:04:08,933 --> 00:04:11,936 I'm a poor 76-year-old Satmar Yeshiva student 79 00:04:11,969 --> 00:04:13,905 with a dead wife and 14 children. 80 00:04:13,938 --> 00:04:16,506 The oldest of which is already a grandfather. 81 00:04:16,539 --> 00:04:18,075 I live in Ustedalen, Krakow, 82 00:04:18,109 --> 00:04:20,711 if you are interested in pursuing a correspondence, 83 00:04:20,745 --> 00:04:23,014 please email me back, E." 84 00:04:23,047 --> 00:04:24,749 And Aviva responded, 85 00:04:25,816 --> 00:04:26,918 [Aviva] "Dear E, 86 00:04:27,752 --> 00:04:28,819 Sounds good. 87 00:04:29,120 --> 00:04:30,922 I'm a 60-year-old virgin. 88 00:04:31,488 --> 00:04:34,557 Blind as a bat from a horrible accident I had last year 89 00:04:34,591 --> 00:04:36,526 while cleaning my cat's claws. 90 00:04:37,695 --> 00:04:38,930 I have 61 cats. 91 00:04:39,730 --> 00:04:42,133 One for every year of disappointment. 92 00:04:44,936 --> 00:04:46,536 I have a voice of a bird, 93 00:04:46,837 --> 00:04:47,838 one great boob, 94 00:04:48,773 --> 00:04:49,439 lost the other one to cancer, and... 95 00:04:49,472 --> 00:04:51,943 got two cats that year 96 00:04:52,642 --> 00:04:54,946 and an appetite for new experiences. 97 00:04:55,846 --> 00:04:59,016 Nissan kindly offered his help in ending my curiosity 98 00:04:59,283 --> 00:05:03,453 and I guess you are his idea of a perfect man for this job. 99 00:05:07,191 --> 00:05:10,227 Unfortunately, with every moment that passes, 100 00:05:10,261 --> 00:05:12,663 my heart loses a little bit of innocence, 101 00:05:13,030 --> 00:05:16,767 so I cannot offer you the love I had in me on Wednesday. 102 00:05:18,002 --> 00:05:19,070 But 103 00:05:20,071 --> 00:05:21,205 I think I'll still be happy to meet you, 104 00:05:21,706 --> 00:05:22,940 and your children. 105 00:05:24,809 --> 00:05:25,876 And who knows, 106 00:05:26,243 --> 00:05:27,878 maybe we'll fall in love 107 00:05:27,912 --> 00:05:30,513 and learn that life is full of surprises. 108 00:05:32,316 --> 00:05:34,051 Waiting to hear more about you, 109 00:05:35,086 --> 00:05:36,153 A." 110 00:05:38,823 --> 00:05:42,259 ♪ And oh ♪ 111 00:05:42,760 --> 00:05:45,595 ♪ Baby I love you ♪ 112 00:05:47,999 --> 00:05:51,769 ♪ I said oh ♪ 113 00:05:52,569 --> 00:05:56,674 ♪ Baby I love you ♪ 114 00:05:58,608 --> 00:06:02,279 ♪ Said oh ♪ 115 00:06:02,313 --> 00:06:06,117 ♪ Baby I love you ♪ 116 00:06:07,818 --> 00:06:12,189 ♪ I said oh ♪ 117 00:06:12,223 --> 00:06:16,293 ♪ Baby I love you ♪ 118 00:06:23,768 --> 00:06:25,136 [music continues] 119 00:06:41,085 --> 00:06:42,253 [music stops abruptly] 120 00:06:50,227 --> 00:06:53,596 [Eden] We quickly recognized one another as kindred spirits 121 00:06:53,630 --> 00:06:57,168 and our desire to explore and express our deepest selves. 122 00:06:57,802 --> 00:06:58,903 At least in words. 123 00:07:04,208 --> 00:07:06,677 And so we created an imaginary space together. 124 00:07:07,078 --> 00:07:10,214 A space outside of time and space, shared only by us. 125 00:07:10,915 --> 00:07:14,251 Like two shipwrecked survivors on a desert island, 126 00:07:16,387 --> 00:07:18,756 in old-fashioned letter writing romance, 127 00:07:18,789 --> 00:07:22,193 propelled in to hyper speed by the actuality of the internet. 128 00:07:26,363 --> 00:07:28,666 After a few months of correspondence 129 00:07:28,699 --> 00:07:31,001 we graduated to phone conversations. 130 00:07:33,003 --> 00:07:35,072 These were somewhat more problematic, 131 00:07:35,106 --> 00:07:36,707 as elements of our personalities 132 00:07:36,740 --> 00:07:38,275 that had been hidden under the disguise 133 00:07:38,309 --> 00:07:40,077 provided by the written word, 134 00:07:40,111 --> 00:07:42,980 were exposed by the demands of spoken communication. 135 00:07:45,249 --> 00:07:48,285 Aviva's assertiveness and impatience took me aback. 136 00:07:49,186 --> 00:07:50,921 And my pessimism 137 00:07:50,955 --> 00:07:52,823 and need to denigrate myself in relationships in general 138 00:07:52,857 --> 00:07:54,992 forced their way through my better judgment 139 00:07:55,025 --> 00:07:56,293 and on to my tongue. 140 00:08:00,064 --> 00:08:01,799 But for all that 141 00:08:01,832 --> 00:08:03,234 our digital romance ran hot and strong 142 00:08:03,434 --> 00:08:05,336 and Aviva decided to pack a suitcase 143 00:08:05,369 --> 00:08:07,738 and venture forth to visit me for a week 144 00:08:08,305 --> 00:08:11,242 and see what it would be like to connect in person. 145 00:08:24,755 --> 00:08:27,691 - [baby fussing] - [Aviva's mom] There we go. 146 00:08:28,125 --> 00:08:29,260 Good, sweetie. 147 00:08:30,961 --> 00:08:32,129 Aviva. 148 00:08:32,796 --> 00:08:34,031 [woman speaks French] 149 00:08:41,138 --> 00:08:42,806 Oh, hi. 150 00:08:43,140 --> 00:08:45,876 [woman continues speaking in French] 151 00:08:47,378 --> 00:08:50,147 - [heavy breathing] - [moaning] 152 00:08:50,181 --> 00:08:52,316 [Eden's mom] Yeah, baby. Oh! 153 00:08:52,349 --> 00:08:55,252 Oh, that's it. Yes. Yes, oh. 154 00:08:56,020 --> 00:08:57,054 [moaning] 155 00:08:57,388 --> 00:09:00,191 [moaning continues] 156 00:09:07,097 --> 00:09:09,433 [Eden's mom] Come on, Eden. You're a big boy. 157 00:09:09,466 --> 00:09:11,101 You can do it, come on. 158 00:09:17,341 --> 00:09:19,777 Come on, give a small pee-pee. 159 00:09:20,878 --> 00:09:22,079 You can do it. 160 00:09:28,085 --> 00:09:29,086 [Aviva's mom] Aviva! 161 00:09:29,119 --> 00:09:30,888 [speaks French] 162 00:09:32,156 --> 00:09:33,090 No. 163 00:09:33,457 --> 00:09:35,392 [baby moaning and crying] 164 00:09:35,960 --> 00:09:37,261 [laughing] 165 00:09:37,294 --> 00:09:40,030 - [baby crying] - [Aviva's mom chastising] 166 00:09:49,406 --> 00:09:51,442 [Eden's mom] Well, it's just frustrating... 167 00:09:52,076 --> 00:09:53,911 [inaudible chatter] 168 00:09:57,281 --> 00:09:58,782 [dramatic music] 169 00:10:33,417 --> 00:10:36,020 [raised voices in French] 170 00:10:41,992 --> 00:10:43,827 [all screaming] 171 00:10:48,065 --> 00:10:49,433 [women moaning on computer] 172 00:10:51,902 --> 00:10:53,203 Oh, my God. 173 00:11:01,111 --> 00:11:03,013 [inaudible chatter] 174 00:11:05,983 --> 00:11:07,217 [moaning on computer] 175 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:25,469 [dramatic music continues] 176 00:11:31,408 --> 00:11:32,976 [Aviva's mom] Aviva! 177 00:11:33,010 --> 00:11:34,378 [shouting in French] 178 00:11:35,012 --> 00:11:36,847 Close the door Eden, come on. 179 00:11:49,093 --> 00:11:50,127 [speaking French] 180 00:11:50,160 --> 00:11:51,362 [heavy breathing] 181 00:12:05,175 --> 00:12:06,643 [heavy breathing] 182 00:12:25,129 --> 00:12:27,164 [phone ringing] 183 00:12:28,298 --> 00:12:29,633 [dramatic music] 184 00:12:38,375 --> 00:12:39,376 [Aviva] Hello? 185 00:12:39,410 --> 00:12:40,377 [Eden] Hey. 186 00:12:40,411 --> 00:12:41,713 [Eden] Uh, it's Eden. 187 00:12:41,746 --> 00:12:42,913 [Aviva] I know. 188 00:12:43,981 --> 00:12:45,082 [Eden] Well, hello. 189 00:12:45,115 --> 00:12:46,583 [Aviva] You sound so different. 190 00:12:47,217 --> 00:12:48,218 [Eden] Than what? 191 00:12:48,252 --> 00:12:50,320 [Aviva] Than I expected. 192 00:12:50,587 --> 00:12:52,022 [Eden] How so? 193 00:12:53,457 --> 00:12:55,459 [Aviva] You sound so American. 194 00:12:55,492 --> 00:12:58,228 [Eden] I am so American, what did you expect? 195 00:12:58,262 --> 00:12:59,997 - [Aviva] I don't know... - [phone ringing] 196 00:13:00,030 --> 00:13:01,565 [Aviva] do I sound different? 197 00:13:01,598 --> 00:13:04,301 [Eden] You sound pretty much the way I expected. 198 00:13:04,334 --> 00:13:06,136 [Aviva] Is it a good moment to talk? 199 00:13:06,170 --> 00:13:08,138 [Eden] Always a good moment to talk to you. 200 00:13:08,172 --> 00:13:10,207 [Aviva] The time difference is killing me. 201 00:13:10,240 --> 00:13:11,608 You have to meet my father. 202 00:13:11,642 --> 00:13:13,711 [Eden] I never get along with fathers. 203 00:13:13,745 --> 00:13:16,681 [Aviva] You will love him, he's the smartest and funniest. 204 00:13:16,714 --> 00:13:19,383 - [Aviva] I'm a romanticist. - [Eden] Yeah until now. 205 00:13:19,416 --> 00:13:22,553 [Eden] I think I'm a realist, at least so far as... 206 00:13:22,586 --> 00:13:24,455 [Aviva] Neither is a philosophy, just an emotion. 207 00:13:25,289 --> 00:13:27,057 [Aviva] I don't think it's always smart 208 00:13:27,090 --> 00:13:28,625 to talk about everything, 209 00:13:28,660 --> 00:13:29,960 especially love, 210 00:13:30,294 --> 00:13:31,562 or past lovers. 211 00:13:31,595 --> 00:13:33,263 [Eden] Why is that off limits? 212 00:13:34,097 --> 00:13:36,567 [Aviva] It's just better to start new things, new. 213 00:13:37,669 --> 00:13:40,137 [Eden] Tired of talking, we need to meet. 214 00:13:40,471 --> 00:13:42,674 [Aviva] Yeah, so I'm coming. 215 00:13:43,307 --> 00:13:45,242 [Aviva] I already bought the tickets. 216 00:13:45,275 --> 00:13:46,343 [Eden] You did? 217 00:13:46,610 --> 00:13:47,611 [Aviva] Yes, I did. 218 00:13:48,880 --> 00:13:51,281 - [Eden] You're really coming? - [Aviva] I'm coming, 219 00:13:51,716 --> 00:13:52,750 I'm really coming. 220 00:14:00,758 --> 00:14:02,727 [dramatic music continues] 221 00:14:24,381 --> 00:14:26,751 [Eden narrating] Sweet Aviva across the ocean, 222 00:14:27,819 --> 00:14:30,587 I'm so excited to finally see you face to face. 223 00:14:31,421 --> 00:14:34,291 Though I admit to equally being afraid of it. 224 00:14:35,325 --> 00:14:38,529 It's all fun and games until I actually have to be there. 225 00:14:44,334 --> 00:14:45,737 Is this your usual place? 226 00:14:49,774 --> 00:14:51,308 I don't know. 227 00:14:51,341 --> 00:14:52,209 You don't know? 228 00:14:52,977 --> 00:14:54,411 If I say it is, and you're asking 229 00:14:54,444 --> 00:14:56,681 because you don't like it, then I lose points. 230 00:14:57,447 --> 00:15:00,083 If you like it and I say it isn't, I lose points. 231 00:15:00,117 --> 00:15:01,719 If you like it and I say yes, 232 00:15:01,753 --> 00:15:04,321 - I gain points... - You're over thinking this. 233 00:15:10,527 --> 00:15:12,262 [clears throat] You know, 234 00:15:13,130 --> 00:15:14,531 I'm in town only for a few days 235 00:15:15,465 --> 00:15:18,635 and I know that we've known each other for a while 236 00:15:19,269 --> 00:15:21,305 well, from across the ocean anyway, but... 237 00:15:23,273 --> 00:15:24,742 I think it's best if we 238 00:15:24,776 --> 00:15:27,344 let the physical take its own course. 239 00:15:27,879 --> 00:15:30,347 Not to push things right away. 240 00:15:34,484 --> 00:15:36,219 [loving piano music] 241 00:16:02,814 --> 00:16:04,514 [heavy breathing] 242 00:16:09,721 --> 00:16:11,254 [Aviva] Where are you? 243 00:16:13,190 --> 00:16:14,524 Why don't you look at me? 244 00:16:14,558 --> 00:16:15,893 [Eden] I'm looking at you. 245 00:16:17,561 --> 00:16:18,696 You're not looking at me. 246 00:16:18,730 --> 00:16:20,397 I'm looking at you. 247 00:16:23,935 --> 00:16:26,838 Look at me, in my eyes. 248 00:16:27,437 --> 00:16:28,572 Your eyes? 249 00:16:33,945 --> 00:16:35,880 Can't you make eye contact? 250 00:16:37,648 --> 00:16:38,783 Yeah, I mean... 251 00:16:39,616 --> 00:16:40,652 sure. 252 00:16:42,920 --> 00:16:43,955 Can I blink? 253 00:16:43,988 --> 00:16:45,455 Forget it. 254 00:16:45,489 --> 00:16:46,623 What? 255 00:16:47,659 --> 00:16:49,593 I can't do it if you're going to make fun of me. 256 00:16:49,626 --> 00:16:51,896 I'm looking at your eyes. That's what you asked me to do. 257 00:16:51,929 --> 00:16:53,931 - Not like that. - Not like what? 258 00:16:54,431 --> 00:16:57,367 There's only one way to look into someone's eyes. 259 00:16:57,401 --> 00:16:58,703 No, there's not. 260 00:16:59,403 --> 00:17:01,638 You think I don't see what you're doing? 261 00:17:01,906 --> 00:17:03,340 What am I doing? 262 00:17:03,775 --> 00:17:05,409 I don't know. 263 00:17:05,442 --> 00:17:07,879 Taking a little look at me here, my shoulder 264 00:17:07,912 --> 00:17:09,947 my neck, my foot maybe. 265 00:17:10,982 --> 00:17:13,851 Taking pictures of things that turn you on. 266 00:17:13,885 --> 00:17:16,286 Fit in to some type of pre-programmed sequence 267 00:17:16,319 --> 00:17:18,588 of triggers you're used to responding to, 268 00:17:18,856 --> 00:17:20,858 making a pornographic movie in your head 269 00:17:20,892 --> 00:17:23,593 and playing it even when I'm right here, with you. 270 00:17:23,627 --> 00:17:24,762 Hey. 271 00:17:24,796 --> 00:17:26,698 Take it easy, okay? 272 00:17:28,298 --> 00:17:29,934 This is that moment when I wonder 273 00:17:29,967 --> 00:17:32,302 what really happened to you when you were a child. 274 00:17:32,335 --> 00:17:34,739 You know everything there is to know about my childhood 275 00:17:34,772 --> 00:17:37,474 and it has nothing to do with this. 276 00:17:38,341 --> 00:17:40,745 We really shouldn't have written to each other so much 277 00:17:40,778 --> 00:17:42,245 before meeting in person. 278 00:17:42,947 --> 00:17:45,515 Do you regret getting to know each other? 279 00:17:45,717 --> 00:17:47,250 I regret that all those words 280 00:17:47,284 --> 00:17:48,686 made us think we know each other, 281 00:17:48,720 --> 00:17:49,854 when we really don't. 282 00:17:51,354 --> 00:17:52,657 So tell me I'm wrong. 283 00:17:52,690 --> 00:17:53,825 That's what I'm saying. 284 00:17:53,858 --> 00:17:55,258 No, look me in the eyes and... 285 00:17:55,292 --> 00:17:57,627 Jesus, with the eyes, already. 286 00:17:57,662 --> 00:17:59,262 [melancholy music] 287 00:17:59,296 --> 00:18:00,865 [Eden narrating] Something I never told Aviva, 288 00:18:03,600 --> 00:18:06,436 once when I was a child, maybe four years old, 289 00:18:06,470 --> 00:18:08,638 my mother took me to play in the park. 290 00:18:10,440 --> 00:18:14,011 And in those days, you know, the park was perfect. 291 00:18:14,912 --> 00:18:16,446 A golden realm, 292 00:18:16,480 --> 00:18:18,850 suspended between innocence and knowledge. 293 00:18:19,649 --> 00:18:20,952 A perfect place. 294 00:18:22,385 --> 00:18:24,655 I met another kid there, about my age. 295 00:18:25,823 --> 00:18:28,525 We both had bikes and we bonded instantly. 296 00:18:28,960 --> 00:18:30,360 [both giggling] 297 00:18:30,627 --> 00:18:32,764 We made a connection stronger than anything 298 00:18:32,797 --> 00:18:35,499 I normally experienced with someone I just met. 299 00:18:37,334 --> 00:18:38,836 Our parents must have sensed this, 300 00:18:38,870 --> 00:18:41,038 because my mother, who was usually in a rush, 301 00:18:41,072 --> 00:18:43,406 let us play together for a long time. 302 00:18:45,843 --> 00:18:47,577 It was heaven. 303 00:18:48,946 --> 00:18:50,715 But then, at some point, 304 00:18:51,548 --> 00:18:54,351 I noticed something that struck me as strange. 305 00:19:02,059 --> 00:19:03,728 Your shoes are red. 306 00:19:04,361 --> 00:19:05,029 Yeah. 307 00:19:05,797 --> 00:19:07,665 Pretty weird for a boy. 308 00:19:07,999 --> 00:19:10,534 I'm not a boy, I'm a girl. 309 00:19:11,635 --> 00:19:13,370 [Eden narrating] I was stunned, 310 00:19:13,403 --> 00:19:14,071 betrayed. 311 00:19:14,939 --> 00:19:15,572 I felt like the bedrock of reality 312 00:19:15,605 --> 00:19:17,842 had shifted under my feet. 313 00:19:25,582 --> 00:19:26,717 And that was that. 314 00:19:28,786 --> 00:19:29,921 Paradise lost. 315 00:19:31,621 --> 00:19:32,890 When will you be back? 316 00:19:34,058 --> 00:19:35,827 I don't know, not too late. 317 00:19:37,061 --> 00:19:39,130 I don't understand why I can't come. 318 00:19:39,163 --> 00:19:41,565 It's not that you can't, it's just... 319 00:19:42,432 --> 00:19:43,633 Aviva. 320 00:19:45,937 --> 00:19:48,471 I moved here three months ago. 321 00:19:48,940 --> 00:19:51,676 When I flew back to Paris after my first visit, 322 00:19:52,143 --> 00:19:53,811 I wasn't sure about things 323 00:19:54,544 --> 00:19:57,347 but as soon as the space between us opened up 324 00:19:57,782 --> 00:20:01,351 our love poured back in and filled it up. 325 00:20:01,786 --> 00:20:03,486 So I closed my apartment 326 00:20:03,955 --> 00:20:06,356 and moved to America, for love. 327 00:20:06,924 --> 00:20:09,760 I feel the need to clarify that, because, you know, 328 00:20:09,794 --> 00:20:12,129 my friends at home and people here, they're like, 329 00:20:12,163 --> 00:20:15,398 "If you make it work with Eden for three years 330 00:20:15,800 --> 00:20:17,168 you'll get a green card." 331 00:20:17,201 --> 00:20:18,468 And I'm like, 332 00:20:19,569 --> 00:20:21,138 "I don't give a fuck about the fucking green card! 333 00:20:21,172 --> 00:20:23,975 I don't give a fuck about this disgusting country, 334 00:20:24,008 --> 00:20:26,978 I don't give a fuck about becoming a fucking American." 335 00:20:27,011 --> 00:20:28,445 I came here 336 00:20:28,478 --> 00:20:29,546 for only one reason. 337 00:20:29,579 --> 00:20:30,580 [Eden] Aviva, 338 00:20:31,716 --> 00:20:34,517 you know all my friends and they all think you're great, 339 00:20:34,785 --> 00:20:37,487 I just need some time out with the guys sometimes. 340 00:20:37,722 --> 00:20:38,689 Know what I mean? 341 00:20:38,723 --> 00:20:39,657 No. 342 00:20:39,991 --> 00:20:41,591 What do you mean, no? 343 00:20:41,625 --> 00:20:43,761 I mean what can you talk about with your friends alone, 344 00:20:43,794 --> 00:20:45,997 that you can't talk about with me there? 345 00:20:46,030 --> 00:20:47,530 You, for starters. 346 00:20:48,065 --> 00:20:50,034 What are you going to say about me? 347 00:20:50,500 --> 00:20:51,736 I'm not... 348 00:20:52,937 --> 00:20:55,006 It's not like I have anything planned. 349 00:20:55,039 --> 00:20:57,540 I just need some perspective sometimes. 350 00:21:01,879 --> 00:21:03,580 Who's going to be there? 351 00:21:04,248 --> 00:21:05,582 I don't know. 352 00:21:06,851 --> 00:21:08,886 - Mason, for sure. - [upbeat music] 353 00:21:09,586 --> 00:21:12,589 Dave Mazolla, Aaron Butts, 354 00:21:12,622 --> 00:21:14,959 Kieren, Tony Takata, 355 00:21:15,726 --> 00:21:17,161 you know, Mason's usual gang. 356 00:21:18,763 --> 00:21:20,965 [Aviva ]You just don't want me to come because you're in love 357 00:21:20,998 --> 00:21:22,099 with Mason. 358 00:21:22,733 --> 00:21:24,534 [Eden] I'm not in love with Mason, 359 00:21:24,567 --> 00:21:26,103 he's my best friend 360 00:21:26,137 --> 00:21:28,806 and sometimes I just need some alone time with him. 361 00:21:29,206 --> 00:21:30,808 Is that okay with you? 362 00:21:32,143 --> 00:21:34,178 [scoffs] Go. Have fun. 363 00:21:34,812 --> 00:21:36,881 Be gay with Mason and your usual gang, 364 00:21:36,914 --> 00:21:39,449 I'll stay home and watch something on TV. 365 00:21:40,718 --> 00:21:43,054 - [man] Where's Mason at? - [man 2] Ah, fuck Mason. 366 00:21:43,087 --> 00:21:46,556 [man] You think Eden would hang with us if Mason wasn't here? 367 00:21:48,125 --> 00:21:50,728 [man] Girl's got him under lock and keys. 368 00:21:50,761 --> 00:21:52,229 [man 2] She's fine though. 369 00:21:56,667 --> 00:21:58,601 [man 2] Super powers. 370 00:22:00,071 --> 00:22:03,207 [man] X-Men, F.F. were hit by cosmic rays. 371 00:22:03,908 --> 00:22:06,077 - [man] Mason! - [man 2] Mason! 372 00:22:12,649 --> 00:22:13,851 [clanging] 373 00:22:13,884 --> 00:22:15,720 [blues music] 374 00:23:33,264 --> 00:23:34,732 [laughing] 375 00:24:11,035 --> 00:24:12,770 [blues music continues] 376 00:24:52,743 --> 00:24:55,079 ♪ I love you ♪ 377 00:24:55,479 --> 00:24:57,748 ♪ Like chisel and stone ♪ 378 00:25:00,351 --> 00:25:03,220 ♪ I love you ♪ 379 00:25:03,254 --> 00:25:05,189 ♪ Like needle and bone ♪ 380 00:25:08,058 --> 00:25:10,027 ♪ I love you ♪ 381 00:25:10,761 --> 00:25:13,697 ♪ Like a God loves his son ♪ 382 00:25:15,266 --> 00:25:16,901 ♪ And I love you ♪ 383 00:25:18,102 --> 00:25:20,371 ♪ Like my hand on a gun ♪ 384 00:25:22,740 --> 00:25:27,111 ♪ I go bang, bang Bang, bang, bang ♪ 385 00:25:27,444 --> 00:25:30,014 ♪ Bang, bang, I'm back ♪ 386 00:25:30,047 --> 00:25:32,082 ♪ Back again ♪ 387 00:25:33,417 --> 00:25:34,919 ♪ I love you ♪ 388 00:25:41,325 --> 00:25:44,995 ♪ Bang, bang, bang Bang, bang. ♪ 389 00:25:45,462 --> 00:25:47,831 ♪ Bang shebang I'm back ♪ 390 00:25:48,232 --> 00:25:50,000 ♪ Back again ♪ 391 00:25:57,241 --> 00:26:01,178 ♪ I can't think about Anything but you ♪ 392 00:26:04,982 --> 00:26:09,253 ♪ That's how I love, love, love Love, love, love, love ♪ 393 00:26:58,002 --> 00:26:59,136 [door clicks] 394 00:27:00,871 --> 00:27:02,006 Aviva? 395 00:27:04,141 --> 00:27:05,409 I'm home. 396 00:27:17,454 --> 00:27:18,455 Hey. 397 00:27:19,189 --> 00:27:20,958 I was just about to go to sleep. 398 00:27:20,991 --> 00:27:23,294 Aviva, I'm sorry you could've come, it's just the guys... 399 00:27:23,327 --> 00:27:24,295 It's all right. 400 00:27:25,529 --> 00:27:27,931 I'm sorry, too. I know you need to breathe once in a while. 401 00:27:27,965 --> 00:27:29,600 I actually got a lot done. 402 00:27:29,633 --> 00:27:32,836 I made a lot of phone calls, set up some things for this week. 403 00:27:33,103 --> 00:27:34,605 I've been sitting on my ass too long. 404 00:27:34,638 --> 00:27:36,073 Waiting for things to happen. 405 00:27:36,106 --> 00:27:37,241 You've been adjusting. 406 00:27:37,274 --> 00:27:38,542 No, that's not it. 407 00:27:39,043 --> 00:27:40,944 You don't know, you never really saw me at home. 408 00:27:40,978 --> 00:27:43,314 I'm always making things happen, almost too much. 409 00:27:43,347 --> 00:27:44,815 Go, go, go all the time. 410 00:27:45,382 --> 00:27:47,518 You know my friends wouldn't even recognize me. 411 00:27:49,153 --> 00:27:51,188 Something happened when I came here. 412 00:27:54,058 --> 00:27:56,026 But enough is enough, no? 413 00:27:58,062 --> 00:27:59,296 I'm back. 414 00:28:06,203 --> 00:28:07,404 [moaning] 415 00:28:09,039 --> 00:28:10,474 [groans] 416 00:28:13,110 --> 00:28:15,312 Pull me, pull me like this hard. 417 00:28:21,518 --> 00:28:22,453 Coming. 418 00:28:27,324 --> 00:28:29,493 - [heavy breathing] - [laughing] 419 00:28:34,598 --> 00:28:36,100 That was fast. 420 00:28:36,400 --> 00:28:37,534 Yeah. 421 00:28:37,568 --> 00:28:39,536 That's how I am normally when I'm happy. 422 00:28:40,204 --> 00:28:41,438 It's amazing. 423 00:28:48,245 --> 00:28:49,513 - Come on. - What? 424 00:28:50,247 --> 00:28:52,483 I want you to finish, too. Come on. 425 00:28:52,516 --> 00:28:53,550 Okay. 426 00:28:54,017 --> 00:28:55,619 What are you doing? [laughs] 427 00:28:56,420 --> 00:28:58,188 - Can I get on top again? - Why? 428 00:28:58,222 --> 00:28:59,123 [laughs] I... 429 00:28:59,957 --> 00:29:02,426 - I just don't finish like this. - Like what? 430 00:29:03,193 --> 00:29:04,328 When I'm... 431 00:29:04,361 --> 00:29:06,163 when I'm on the bottom. 432 00:29:06,196 --> 00:29:07,498 You don't? 433 00:29:07,531 --> 00:29:09,166 You can't or you don't want to? 434 00:29:09,199 --> 00:29:10,934 Just, I won't, okay? 435 00:29:11,235 --> 00:29:12,469 How do you know? 436 00:29:13,303 --> 00:29:14,905 'Cos I know myself. 437 00:29:15,372 --> 00:29:17,474 - You know yourself? - Yeah. 438 00:29:18,008 --> 00:29:19,376 Doesn't seem so to me. 439 00:29:20,745 --> 00:29:23,180 You know for someone who just had a nice orgasm 440 00:29:23,213 --> 00:29:25,983 in record time and expressed the desire to return the favor, 441 00:29:26,016 --> 00:29:27,618 you have an odd way of showing it. 442 00:29:27,651 --> 00:29:30,521 - I'm sorry. You're right. - No you're not. 443 00:29:30,554 --> 00:29:31,989 I'm sorry, come here. 444 00:29:32,022 --> 00:29:33,658 - Forget it. - Come on, I'm sorry. 445 00:29:33,691 --> 00:29:36,160 Look, it's not gonna happen, okay? 446 00:29:37,662 --> 00:29:38,595 Forget it. 447 00:29:52,643 --> 00:29:54,311 [serene music] 448 00:29:54,344 --> 00:29:56,013 [Aviva narrating] I had a perfect place once, too. 449 00:29:56,046 --> 00:29:57,281 And not so long ago. 450 00:30:01,285 --> 00:30:02,519 It was a room. 451 00:30:03,187 --> 00:30:04,388 A white room. 452 00:30:04,421 --> 00:30:05,956 Everything was white. 453 00:30:07,124 --> 00:30:08,425 The walls, the bed, 454 00:30:09,526 --> 00:30:11,128 the covering on the furniture. 455 00:30:11,763 --> 00:30:13,564 The shades were white 456 00:30:13,597 --> 00:30:16,066 and the light that came in through the window was white. 457 00:30:16,768 --> 00:30:18,569 The reason it was perfect, though, 458 00:30:19,169 --> 00:30:20,705 was that Phillippe was in it. 459 00:30:22,473 --> 00:30:24,074 I met him in the Marais. 460 00:30:26,376 --> 00:30:29,213 He was serving falafel at this place called Che Habib. 461 00:30:29,613 --> 00:30:31,615 People stand in line for an hour. 462 00:30:34,218 --> 00:30:35,419 He was so beautiful. 463 00:30:36,453 --> 00:30:38,555 Black hair, black eyes. 464 00:30:39,089 --> 00:30:40,624 He had just come from Morocco. 465 00:30:41,158 --> 00:30:43,060 A Jew, like me. 466 00:30:47,732 --> 00:30:50,334 I never thought he would be interested in me, 467 00:30:50,367 --> 00:30:51,435 but he was. 468 00:30:52,569 --> 00:30:54,371 It's true, we didn't have very much to talk about, 469 00:30:54,571 --> 00:30:56,373 but we didn't need to talk. 470 00:31:05,148 --> 00:31:06,751 [serene music continues] 471 00:31:13,290 --> 00:31:14,792 He lived with his family 472 00:31:14,826 --> 00:31:17,060 and I lived with a few girlfriends in the Tenth. 473 00:31:17,094 --> 00:31:19,363 So I found us an apartment of our own, 474 00:31:19,396 --> 00:31:20,597 just a room, really. 475 00:31:20,631 --> 00:31:21,766 But it was ours, 476 00:31:22,466 --> 00:31:23,567 our white room. 477 00:31:52,329 --> 00:31:53,630 I had been hurting myself. 478 00:31:54,531 --> 00:31:56,466 Cutting myself, for years. 479 00:31:57,601 --> 00:31:59,136 And when he kissed me, 480 00:31:59,737 --> 00:32:01,673 the scars in my flesh remained, 481 00:32:02,439 --> 00:32:04,842 but the wounds in my heart and soul were healed. 482 00:32:05,442 --> 00:32:08,178 And I was filled with a light more pure and white 483 00:32:08,478 --> 00:32:10,715 than the light filling our perfect room. 484 00:32:13,885 --> 00:32:16,520 We lived for each other, or at least 485 00:32:16,921 --> 00:32:18,322 I lived for him. 486 00:32:18,856 --> 00:32:20,457 I stopped almost everything. 487 00:32:20,758 --> 00:32:22,459 I hardly saw my family, 488 00:32:22,894 --> 00:32:24,127 my friends, 489 00:32:25,095 --> 00:32:27,364 I worked just enough to help us get by. 490 00:32:28,298 --> 00:32:30,267 I cooked, I cleaned, 491 00:32:30,300 --> 00:32:32,369 I made sure our room was spotless. 492 00:32:40,177 --> 00:32:41,244 [Aviva] I guess I lied, 493 00:32:42,512 --> 00:32:45,449 when I say my friends wouldn't recognize me here in New York. 494 00:32:48,185 --> 00:32:50,220 They would recognize me very well. 495 00:32:51,221 --> 00:32:52,824 How I am when I'm trying to... 496 00:32:53,323 --> 00:32:54,324 Trying to what? 497 00:32:56,193 --> 00:32:57,394 Experience love. 498 00:32:58,930 --> 00:33:02,366 You feel like you have to give up who you are in order to love? 499 00:33:04,568 --> 00:33:07,337 In order to experience love in return, yeah. 500 00:33:08,773 --> 00:33:12,275 You think no-one will love you, if they know who you are? 501 00:33:13,577 --> 00:33:14,645 I don't know. 502 00:33:20,250 --> 00:33:21,351 Do you love me? 503 00:33:26,289 --> 00:33:27,357 Aviva. 504 00:33:29,593 --> 00:33:30,695 You okay? 505 00:33:31,328 --> 00:33:32,596 I should be asking you that. 506 00:33:32,629 --> 00:33:33,497 Me? 507 00:33:35,232 --> 00:33:36,466 You were angry. 508 00:33:37,334 --> 00:33:39,369 It's okay. Everything's back to normal. 509 00:33:39,403 --> 00:33:40,972 Sorry, I should open a window. 510 00:33:41,005 --> 00:33:42,539 What are you thinking about? 511 00:33:44,307 --> 00:33:46,878 Nothing, everything, you know? 512 00:33:47,845 --> 00:33:49,714 I was thinking about Phillippe. 513 00:33:53,483 --> 00:33:54,584 What about him? 514 00:33:55,619 --> 00:33:57,955 Actually, I was thinking more about me with him. 515 00:33:58,622 --> 00:34:00,624 Why I'm always the same when I'm... 516 00:34:00,958 --> 00:34:03,326 - When you're what? - In a relationship. 517 00:34:03,360 --> 00:34:05,763 - Everything's a relationship. - With men. 518 00:34:07,699 --> 00:34:09,801 I'm glad to know I inspire a generalized 519 00:34:09,834 --> 00:34:12,602 Pavlovian reaction to an entire gender. 520 00:34:12,636 --> 00:34:14,604 And you think you're different with me 521 00:34:14,638 --> 00:34:16,640 than you are with any other woman you attract? 522 00:34:17,942 --> 00:34:20,610 You never said why you and Phillippe broke up. 523 00:34:20,644 --> 00:34:21,511 I told you. 524 00:34:22,345 --> 00:34:23,613 No, you said you were heartbroken, 525 00:34:23,881 --> 00:34:25,582 you moved back with your parents, 526 00:34:25,615 --> 00:34:27,484 that you couldn't get out of bed for more than a year, 527 00:34:27,517 --> 00:34:30,253 but you never said why the relationship ended. 528 00:34:30,788 --> 00:34:33,223 It ended because he became religious. 529 00:34:33,691 --> 00:34:34,692 You're joking. 530 00:34:35,459 --> 00:34:37,561 And he wanted me to be the same. 531 00:34:37,594 --> 00:34:38,930 And I tried, too. 532 00:34:39,529 --> 00:34:41,331 I tried to learn all the laws 533 00:34:41,364 --> 00:34:43,567 and lit the candles on Shabbat, 534 00:34:43,600 --> 00:34:45,402 and cooked only Kosher food... 535 00:34:46,503 --> 00:34:47,537 What? 536 00:34:49,539 --> 00:34:50,540 It's funny. 537 00:34:53,477 --> 00:34:54,979 Did he grow payots? 538 00:34:55,479 --> 00:34:56,546 Actually, he did. 539 00:34:57,014 --> 00:34:58,448 Was he sexy? 540 00:34:59,649 --> 00:35:02,720 Did he look hot? Naked, with his payots? 541 00:35:03,654 --> 00:35:05,957 Better than you do, without them. 542 00:35:07,759 --> 00:35:08,726 I tried. 543 00:35:09,060 --> 00:35:10,360 But I couldn't. 544 00:35:11,662 --> 00:35:12,596 I felt like a 545 00:35:12,830 --> 00:35:14,297 terrible person. 546 00:35:14,665 --> 00:35:15,867 A sinner. 547 00:35:16,533 --> 00:35:17,668 I didn't eat, 548 00:35:17,969 --> 00:35:19,302 I didn't sleep, I... 549 00:35:19,636 --> 00:35:22,673 I was thin like this, maybe 40 kilos. 550 00:35:25,076 --> 00:35:27,879 Finally my friends had to make an intervention 551 00:35:28,578 --> 00:35:30,782 and they told me I was going crazy 552 00:35:31,414 --> 00:35:32,717 and I saw I was. 553 00:35:35,452 --> 00:35:36,754 [melancholy music] 554 00:35:36,788 --> 00:35:37,789 So I left him. 555 00:35:38,956 --> 00:35:40,557 [Eden] You left him? 556 00:35:41,926 --> 00:35:42,794 [Aviva narrating] I packed my suitcase when he was at work 557 00:35:42,827 --> 00:35:44,796 and went back to my parents' house. 558 00:35:45,730 --> 00:35:48,065 And I never saw our white room again. 559 00:35:48,900 --> 00:35:50,500 [Eden] Your white room? 560 00:35:51,401 --> 00:35:52,837 [Aviva] My own perfect place. 561 00:35:53,570 --> 00:35:55,873 Like the park you never told me about. 562 00:35:56,674 --> 00:35:57,909 You see, 563 00:35:58,475 --> 00:36:00,044 I lost paradise, too. 564 00:36:14,859 --> 00:36:16,593 [Eden] And now you're here. 565 00:36:16,626 --> 00:36:17,895 [Aviva] Now I'm here. 566 00:36:18,562 --> 00:36:19,429 [Eden] But? 567 00:36:20,397 --> 00:36:21,732 [Aviva] I'm happy I'm here, but... 568 00:36:21,766 --> 00:36:23,533 I hate this apartment. 569 00:36:23,567 --> 00:36:24,501 [Eden] So? 570 00:36:25,002 --> 00:36:26,369 We'll move. 571 00:36:26,403 --> 00:36:28,005 [woman] This is a great space. 572 00:36:28,438 --> 00:36:30,373 and it's in a great neighborhood. 573 00:36:30,407 --> 00:36:31,108 Is it? 574 00:36:31,142 --> 00:36:32,710 The best. Where are you from? 575 00:36:33,010 --> 00:36:34,846 - Paris. - Oh, Paris. 576 00:36:34,879 --> 00:36:37,982 - What a beautiful city. - Have you been there? 577 00:36:38,015 --> 00:36:40,117 No, but I plan on visiting someday. 578 00:36:40,151 --> 00:36:43,553 These windows have a rare view for this part of town. 579 00:36:43,587 --> 00:36:45,455 Which I'm sure your husband can tell you. 580 00:36:45,488 --> 00:36:46,991 Oh, Eden's not my husband. 581 00:36:47,024 --> 00:36:48,793 We're together, but not married. 582 00:36:48,826 --> 00:36:50,161 - Not yet. - Not yet. 583 00:36:50,194 --> 00:36:51,996 You like this neighborhood, baby? 584 00:36:52,029 --> 00:36:53,430 Sure. 585 00:36:53,463 --> 00:36:55,099 [man] This apartment is an absolute steal. 586 00:36:55,132 --> 00:36:57,902 Now, it's a little cozy but the light is fantastic, 587 00:36:57,935 --> 00:36:59,402 southern exposure, 588 00:36:59,436 --> 00:37:01,105 which you rarely get in a place this cheap, 589 00:37:01,138 --> 00:37:02,673 especially in the bedrooms. 590 00:37:02,707 --> 00:37:04,474 Did you see the bedrooms, baby? 591 00:37:07,544 --> 00:37:10,114 All the units in this building are brand new. 592 00:37:10,513 --> 00:37:12,850 Central heat and air, 593 00:37:12,884 --> 00:37:14,451 all the appliances. 594 00:37:14,752 --> 00:37:15,987 It's a great size, 595 00:37:16,020 --> 00:37:17,922 it doesn't have much character, but... 596 00:37:18,521 --> 00:37:20,858 Eden likes things simple, right baby? 597 00:37:21,659 --> 00:37:22,927 Whatever. 598 00:37:25,528 --> 00:37:26,496 [Aviva] Eden? 599 00:37:27,564 --> 00:37:29,800 I'm sick of the way you're acting, you hear me? 600 00:37:29,834 --> 00:37:30,968 How am I acting? 601 00:37:31,202 --> 00:37:33,137 Like you want to be anywhere but here. 602 00:37:33,570 --> 00:37:35,973 I didn't like the place, what am I supposed to do? 603 00:37:36,007 --> 00:37:39,643 Jump up and down and grin like a fool until we walk out the door? 604 00:37:39,677 --> 00:37:40,610 You know what? 605 00:37:40,878 --> 00:37:42,046 You stay home, 606 00:37:42,079 --> 00:37:43,647 I'll do it alone. 607 00:37:43,681 --> 00:37:47,151 I'll talk to the realtors, I'll make the appointments, 608 00:37:47,184 --> 00:37:50,520 I'll go see all the places until I find something amazing 609 00:37:50,553 --> 00:37:51,488 to show you. 610 00:37:51,722 --> 00:37:53,024 Think that might work? 611 00:38:02,133 --> 00:38:03,668 Proud of yourself? 612 00:38:05,903 --> 00:38:07,004 You talking to me? 613 00:38:08,039 --> 00:38:10,507 Well, I'm the only one here, you talking to me? 614 00:38:10,540 --> 00:38:11,508 [hip-hop beat] 615 00:38:11,541 --> 00:38:12,810 But you ain't in gay Paris. 616 00:38:12,843 --> 00:38:14,544 Go grab a crepe and your Suzette, 617 00:38:14,577 --> 00:38:16,747 get your ass up 'cos it's about to get gritty. 618 00:38:16,781 --> 00:38:19,050 I'm gonna remind you, in case you forget, 619 00:38:19,083 --> 00:38:21,518 this boy came up in New York City. 620 00:38:21,551 --> 00:38:23,586 Yeah boy, you're in or house now, 621 00:38:23,620 --> 00:38:25,823 so watch where you beef my dog, know what I'm sayin'? 622 00:38:25,856 --> 00:38:27,258 Mark Gold in the house. 623 00:38:27,291 --> 00:38:29,260 Ran with this bad boy from when we were six 624 00:38:29,293 --> 00:38:30,627 'till we turned 13. 625 00:38:30,661 --> 00:38:31,963 Dropped out of each other's lives. 626 00:38:31,996 --> 00:38:33,264 You know how it is, 627 00:38:33,297 --> 00:38:34,966 but he's in my mind and these streets are his. 628 00:38:34,999 --> 00:38:37,567 Hey, yo guys Left yo shit in the lunch room. 629 00:38:37,600 --> 00:38:39,170 - [shouts] - Get off me. 630 00:38:39,203 --> 00:38:41,072 Adam Fink, world's nerdiest, yet. 631 00:38:41,105 --> 00:38:44,607 Not saying a lot, bust a move kid, show 'em what you've got. 632 00:38:48,980 --> 00:38:50,281 [all cheer] 633 00:38:50,314 --> 00:38:52,615 I thought you moved out of town, to the country. 634 00:38:52,649 --> 00:38:54,151 Man, you can take the boy out of the city, 635 00:38:54,185 --> 00:38:55,953 but you can't take the city out of the boy. 636 00:38:55,987 --> 00:38:57,188 That's what I'm saying. 637 00:38:57,221 --> 00:38:58,923 That's what he's been sayin' yo. 638 00:38:58,956 --> 00:39:01,524 - Shorty comes in my house, - In your house! 639 00:39:01,558 --> 00:39:03,861 Starts throwing her weight around like I'm her bitch. 640 00:39:03,894 --> 00:39:05,663 Man, she don't know who she's fucking with. 641 00:39:05,696 --> 00:39:07,264 Been taking the deed and combing with crew 642 00:39:07,298 --> 00:39:09,100 since I was like 10 years old, dog. 643 00:39:09,133 --> 00:39:11,002 Been mugged on every corner on the Upper West Side 644 00:39:11,035 --> 00:39:13,070 between Central Park West and Riverside drive. 645 00:39:13,104 --> 00:39:16,173 Stole candy and comic books from every news stand in the hood 646 00:39:16,207 --> 00:39:18,575 since the day I started whacking off, son. 647 00:39:18,976 --> 00:39:20,244 [siren blaring] 648 00:39:20,277 --> 00:39:22,179 And she gonna tell you what to do? 649 00:39:22,213 --> 00:39:25,548 - Man, show her how we do, dog. - Man, show her how we do. 650 00:39:26,616 --> 00:39:27,718 Let's go. 651 00:39:28,052 --> 00:39:30,021 [hip-hop music continues] 652 00:39:32,023 --> 00:39:33,824 Oh yeah, Mark. Okay. Slow mo'. 653 00:39:33,858 --> 00:39:36,160 Yeah. Get it Mark. Get it. 654 00:39:36,193 --> 00:39:37,228 Get it. 655 00:39:39,330 --> 00:39:40,630 Pass it, my turn. 656 00:39:41,198 --> 00:39:42,233 Go Adam. 657 00:39:44,935 --> 00:39:46,003 Oh! 658 00:39:50,307 --> 00:39:51,608 Coney Island, baby. 659 00:40:00,084 --> 00:40:01,285 [vinyl scratches] 660 00:41:06,150 --> 00:41:08,018 [hip-hop music fades] 661 00:41:12,423 --> 00:41:13,623 [Aviva] You won't regret it. 662 00:41:17,061 --> 00:41:20,764 It's by far the best place in the entire city, for the price. 663 00:41:20,798 --> 00:41:22,733 It's a done deal, Aviva. 664 00:41:22,766 --> 00:41:24,869 Signed, sealed and delivered. 665 00:41:25,936 --> 00:41:27,771 You sure you'll be all right? 666 00:41:28,839 --> 00:41:29,974 I will be. 667 00:41:30,274 --> 00:41:32,009 Things are just moving fast. 668 00:41:33,277 --> 00:41:35,779 I've been here for nearly half a year. 669 00:41:40,451 --> 00:41:41,719 I'll be fine. 670 00:41:42,720 --> 00:41:45,222 I just need things to slow down, for a beat. 671 00:41:45,856 --> 00:41:48,092 [lawyer] Marriage is your only option. 672 00:41:48,459 --> 00:41:50,861 I mean, if you want to stay in the country 673 00:41:50,895 --> 00:41:52,196 legally, of course. 674 00:41:52,863 --> 00:41:55,032 I thought it was only if I have to fly 675 00:41:55,065 --> 00:41:57,334 out and back until I get my green card. 676 00:41:57,968 --> 00:42:00,171 New immigration laws are in place. 677 00:42:00,905 --> 00:42:04,975 If you want to stay here legally, and work here legally, 678 00:42:05,009 --> 00:42:07,211 you need a special dispensation 679 00:42:07,244 --> 00:42:09,313 which takes months to file for 680 00:42:09,346 --> 00:42:11,715 and might take years to go through, 681 00:42:11,749 --> 00:42:14,018 with no guarantee of success. 682 00:42:15,753 --> 00:42:17,254 I can't do that. 683 00:42:17,288 --> 00:42:19,924 I can only present the options available to you. 684 00:42:21,425 --> 00:42:24,361 [Aviva narrating] Six months ago, before I moved here, 685 00:42:24,395 --> 00:42:26,063 Eden sent me an email that said 686 00:42:26,297 --> 00:42:28,699 [Eden] "My sweet Aviva across the ocean, 687 00:42:29,533 --> 00:42:32,236 I can't believe this thing we're having between us. 688 00:42:32,903 --> 00:42:35,272 Are you really leaving Paris to be with me? 689 00:42:36,173 --> 00:42:39,743 I never, ever expected something like this to happen. 690 00:42:39,777 --> 00:42:40,911 Not the way it has. 691 00:42:42,413 --> 00:42:44,014 Not with someone like you. 692 00:42:46,417 --> 00:42:48,219 I feel like a leaf in the wind, 693 00:42:48,485 --> 00:42:50,421 like my life is a strange dream. 694 00:42:51,555 --> 00:42:53,757 I'm the same actor that I've always been, 695 00:42:53,791 --> 00:42:54,992 playing the same role, 696 00:42:55,359 --> 00:42:56,894 but there's no script anymore. 697 00:42:57,294 --> 00:43:00,064 The play doesn't have a structure I understand. 698 00:43:00,097 --> 00:43:02,199 The way I fit into the totality of it 699 00:43:02,233 --> 00:43:03,934 is a complete mystery to me. 700 00:43:05,002 --> 00:43:06,203 And I'm lost. 701 00:43:06,570 --> 00:43:07,938 I'm totally lost. 702 00:43:11,008 --> 00:43:13,444 I'm so grateful to you for feeling for me. 703 00:43:15,079 --> 00:43:17,248 But I can't believe that you're willing to anchor yourself 704 00:43:17,281 --> 00:43:18,849 to someone so lost 705 00:43:18,882 --> 00:43:20,985 and blindly wandering through the fog. 706 00:43:24,021 --> 00:43:26,924 If there's anything that scares me about our relationship, 707 00:43:27,124 --> 00:43:28,926 is that I'm going to have to adjust 708 00:43:28,959 --> 00:43:30,527 to being a real person again, 709 00:43:30,561 --> 00:43:32,329 if that makes any sense at all. 710 00:43:32,863 --> 00:43:34,398 I'm trying not to allow my fear 711 00:43:34,431 --> 00:43:37,067 to fuck up the most incredible thing in my life, 712 00:43:37,534 --> 00:43:38,869 which is you. 713 00:43:39,403 --> 00:43:40,504 You are amazing. 714 00:43:41,772 --> 00:43:44,375 You're wise and challenging and open to adjusting and changing. 715 00:43:44,608 --> 00:43:48,178 And you never fail to step up when the situation calls for it. 716 00:43:49,046 --> 00:43:50,314 I'm lucky to know you. 717 00:43:51,148 --> 00:43:52,182 I want you in my life. 718 00:43:53,484 --> 00:43:56,487 I'm on my knees, begging you to be in my life. 719 00:43:59,456 --> 00:44:00,524 You are life. 720 00:44:02,960 --> 00:44:04,495 [Aviva] That's what he said then. 721 00:44:05,029 --> 00:44:07,298 - [Aviva] Now he's saying... - I'm sorry. 722 00:44:08,165 --> 00:44:10,834 - It's just papers Eden. - Yeah, it's papers, 723 00:44:10,868 --> 00:44:14,138 it's marriage and commitment. It's marriage, Aviva. 724 00:44:14,171 --> 00:44:17,941 It's marriage so that we can see if we want to be married. 725 00:44:18,542 --> 00:44:20,577 Are you saying that you don't want to be with me? 726 00:44:20,611 --> 00:44:22,112 No, that's not what I'm saying. 727 00:44:22,146 --> 00:44:23,447 Then what are you saying? 728 00:44:24,615 --> 00:44:27,384 Just that I'm not ready to get married so fast. 729 00:44:28,285 --> 00:44:31,322 Are you ready to come to Paris to live with me there? 730 00:44:31,355 --> 00:44:32,556 You know I can't do that. 731 00:44:33,758 --> 00:44:36,060 You know, I didn't know you were so fucking bourgeois 732 00:44:36,093 --> 00:44:38,195 that you make such a big deal out of marriage. 733 00:44:38,629 --> 00:44:40,431 It's a legal exercise, something that 734 00:44:40,464 --> 00:44:43,567 allows us to be together so that we can explore our love! 735 00:44:44,234 --> 00:44:46,970 I can't believe you would allow everything to end over 736 00:44:47,004 --> 00:44:49,306 some bureaucratic bullshit, you know. 737 00:44:49,340 --> 00:44:50,341 Fuck it! 738 00:44:55,212 --> 00:44:56,280 [faint crying] 739 00:44:57,114 --> 00:44:58,248 [faint sobbing] 740 00:45:05,089 --> 00:45:06,590 [sobbing] 741 00:45:08,359 --> 00:45:09,960 [Eden] Hey, baby. 742 00:45:12,296 --> 00:45:13,364 You're right. 743 00:45:13,630 --> 00:45:15,265 - [sobbing] - Baby. 744 00:45:17,468 --> 00:45:18,902 Let's do it. 745 00:45:21,105 --> 00:45:22,373 Stop crying. 746 00:45:23,407 --> 00:45:26,377 - [sniff] - It's just papers. You're right. 747 00:45:31,281 --> 00:45:33,450 [Aviva] Thank you. I love you so much. 748 00:45:34,017 --> 00:45:34,651 [exhales] 749 00:45:35,619 --> 00:45:38,656 - [Eden] I love you, too. - [Aviva] Thank you. 750 00:45:40,290 --> 00:45:42,126 - [Eden] Of course. - [sniff] 751 00:45:49,500 --> 00:45:51,368 It's a beautiful night in your city. 752 00:45:51,402 --> 00:45:52,236 Hmm. 753 00:45:54,037 --> 00:45:55,439 Want to take a walk in it? 754 00:45:55,673 --> 00:45:57,007 Uh-huh. 755 00:45:59,042 --> 00:46:00,144 Uhm... 756 00:46:00,177 --> 00:46:02,045 Give me a moment to recompose myself. 757 00:46:02,079 --> 00:46:03,013 [Eden] Of course. 758 00:46:07,317 --> 00:46:08,519 [exhales] 759 00:46:22,599 --> 00:46:24,168 [solemn music] 760 00:46:38,081 --> 00:46:39,684 Dear God, thank you. 761 00:46:41,084 --> 00:46:43,454 Thank you for bringing Aviva in to my life. 762 00:46:44,188 --> 00:46:45,690 I know I've been so cut off 763 00:46:45,723 --> 00:46:49,159 and how hard it's been for me to connect to the gift of this life 764 00:46:49,193 --> 00:46:50,227 in the present moment... 765 00:46:50,260 --> 00:46:51,328 Stop. 766 00:46:54,031 --> 00:46:55,399 I've been cut off from myself for so long 767 00:46:55,432 --> 00:46:57,167 that I've forgotten what it's like to make 768 00:46:57,201 --> 00:47:00,204 choices based on a positive connection to this life... 769 00:47:00,237 --> 00:47:01,104 Stop. 770 00:47:02,039 --> 00:47:04,408 Aviva is so strong and alive 771 00:47:04,441 --> 00:47:06,711 and brave... Please, stop! 772 00:47:07,812 --> 00:47:10,647 She's brave and she' a fighter and I thank you for this 773 00:47:10,682 --> 00:47:13,183 opportunity, so that I can move in the direction 774 00:47:13,217 --> 00:47:16,353 that I wouldn't have been able to if I was on... Just stop it! 775 00:47:16,721 --> 00:47:19,056 Aviva is an example of courage 776 00:47:19,089 --> 00:47:21,358 and spirit and I thank you for this opportunity 777 00:47:21,391 --> 00:47:22,727 to learn from her. 778 00:47:22,760 --> 00:47:24,428 Thank you for presenting me with constant beauty 779 00:47:24,461 --> 00:47:26,798 when all I've done is cast a pall of my own making 780 00:47:26,831 --> 00:47:29,132 over the shimmering beauty of creation. 781 00:47:29,166 --> 00:47:31,468 Thank you for giving me a chance so that I can have 782 00:47:31,502 --> 00:47:34,238 love and connection and growth and joy, 783 00:47:34,271 --> 00:47:36,173 even when my every thought has been turned against you 784 00:47:36,206 --> 00:47:38,075 in anger and ingratitude. 785 00:47:38,108 --> 00:47:40,611 Thank you for bringing Aviva in to my life. 786 00:47:40,644 --> 00:47:44,114 Thank you for giving me a chance to say yes rather than no. 787 00:47:44,147 --> 00:47:46,049 Thank you for someone who'll actually 788 00:47:46,083 --> 00:47:48,151 fight for me, someone who I 789 00:47:48,185 --> 00:47:49,520 can fight for a yes. 790 00:47:49,553 --> 00:47:51,723 Thank you for someone who will fight for me... 791 00:47:51,756 --> 00:47:52,790 Just stop it! 792 00:47:53,791 --> 00:47:55,526 Thank you for someone who will fight me for g... 793 00:47:55,559 --> 00:47:57,027 Just stop it already! 794 00:47:57,427 --> 00:47:59,463 Fucking shit! Just stop it. 795 00:47:59,831 --> 00:48:03,300 For one God damn second! Can you just sit still? 796 00:48:03,868 --> 00:48:06,136 Put your fucking clothes on. 797 00:48:06,470 --> 00:48:07,638 Please. 798 00:48:24,588 --> 00:48:26,490 [footsteps] 799 00:48:28,525 --> 00:48:29,626 [Aviva] You ready? 800 00:48:35,700 --> 00:48:36,734 Just go. 801 00:48:37,334 --> 00:48:38,569 You go. 802 00:48:50,213 --> 00:48:51,315 [door clicks] 803 00:48:58,288 --> 00:48:59,724 [Aviva] Dear mom, 804 00:48:59,757 --> 00:49:02,259 we decided to have a real New York City wedding. 805 00:49:03,360 --> 00:49:05,362 We bought rings on 47th Street, 806 00:49:05,697 --> 00:49:08,432 and then took the Metro down to the City Hall. 807 00:49:11,468 --> 00:49:14,538 Eden's friend Mason was our first witness, 808 00:49:14,571 --> 00:49:17,374 and Nissan flew from Berlin to be our second, 809 00:49:17,407 --> 00:49:20,210 because it was him who introduced us after all. 810 00:49:21,211 --> 00:49:23,580 The judge was a strange little woman 811 00:49:23,614 --> 00:49:25,917 - who reminded me of Nana. - I, Eden. 812 00:49:25,950 --> 00:49:28,853 - If Nana was insane. - Take Aviva to be my wife. 813 00:49:29,721 --> 00:49:32,189 I Eden, take Aviva to be my wife... 814 00:49:32,222 --> 00:49:34,391 [Aviva narrating] But she seemed really happy for us. 815 00:49:34,424 --> 00:49:36,894 She must do this 100 times a week. 816 00:49:36,928 --> 00:49:39,363 So maybe it's just my fantasy. 817 00:49:39,396 --> 00:49:40,631 But when she married us, 818 00:49:40,665 --> 00:49:42,566 I thought I saw tears in her eyes. 819 00:49:42,599 --> 00:49:45,903 - And I promise my love to you. - And I promise my love to you. 820 00:49:45,937 --> 00:49:50,240 - With this ring, I thee wed. - With this ring, I thee wed. 821 00:49:52,342 --> 00:49:53,644 I Aviva, 822 00:49:53,945 --> 00:49:55,913 take Eden to be my husband. 823 00:49:55,947 --> 00:49:57,180 I, Aviva, 824 00:49:57,214 --> 00:49:59,516 take Eden to be my husband. 825 00:49:59,549 --> 00:50:01,218 [judge] To have and to hold. 826 00:50:01,251 --> 00:50:02,486 To have and to hold... 827 00:50:02,519 --> 00:50:04,254 [judge] In sickness and in health. 828 00:50:04,454 --> 00:50:06,323 In sickness and in health, 829 00:50:06,356 --> 00:50:08,425 [judge] For richer and for poorer. 830 00:50:08,458 --> 00:50:10,360 For richer and for poorer. 831 00:50:10,394 --> 00:50:12,730 [judge] and I promise my love to you. 832 00:50:12,764 --> 00:50:15,198 And I promise my love to you. 833 00:50:15,232 --> 00:50:17,601 [judge] With this ring, I thee wed. 834 00:50:17,634 --> 00:50:19,269 With this ring... 835 00:50:19,302 --> 00:50:22,439 [judge] Just as two threads woven in opposite directions, 836 00:50:22,472 --> 00:50:24,307 can form a beautify tapestry, 837 00:50:24,341 --> 00:50:26,610 so can your two lives merge together 838 00:50:26,643 --> 00:50:28,345 to form a beautify marriage. 839 00:50:28,746 --> 00:50:30,782 Love is the reason you are here. 840 00:50:31,381 --> 00:50:33,718 [voice fading] But it will take trust to... 841 00:50:37,454 --> 00:50:39,556 [sound echoing faintly] 842 00:50:45,930 --> 00:50:50,968 [judge] By these vows, I now declare you husband and wife. 843 00:50:51,836 --> 00:50:54,706 You may kiss your bride. 844 00:50:59,777 --> 00:51:01,946 [Aviva narrating] And that was that. 845 00:51:02,747 --> 00:51:04,247 Afterward Mason organized a party 846 00:51:04,281 --> 00:51:07,284 for our friends at the restaurant he owns. 847 00:51:07,317 --> 00:51:09,987 And we talked and laughed all night. 848 00:51:10,655 --> 00:51:12,255 It was beautiful. 849 00:51:45,757 --> 00:51:47,925 ♪ Don't you think ♪ 850 00:51:48,993 --> 00:51:53,497 ♪ It's time you get On over that? ♪ 851 00:51:54,899 --> 00:51:56,968 ♪ Don't you think You had enough? ♪ 852 00:51:57,001 --> 00:51:59,737 ♪ I mean I know you had it rough ♪ 853 00:51:59,771 --> 00:52:02,840 ♪ But the pansy-fancy way Of looking grim ♪ 854 00:52:02,874 --> 00:52:06,510 ♪ All through The day and night ♪ 855 00:52:06,878 --> 00:52:09,379 ♪ Is something wrong my dear? ♪ 856 00:52:09,714 --> 00:52:12,049 ♪ Have I said it Way too clear? ♪ 857 00:52:12,083 --> 00:52:14,018 ♪ Then let me whisper In your ear ♪ 858 00:52:14,051 --> 00:52:17,021 ♪ All these words I know are wrong ♪ 859 00:52:17,054 --> 00:52:19,824 ♪ But for the sake Of writing song ♪ 860 00:52:19,857 --> 00:52:23,493 ♪ Here is what I guess You wanna hear ♪ 861 00:52:25,495 --> 00:52:28,632 ♪ Somewhere up there ♪ 862 00:52:29,000 --> 00:52:31,368 ♪ The sky is blue ♪ 863 00:52:32,103 --> 00:52:34,038 ♪ For you ♪ 864 00:52:34,739 --> 00:52:38,075 ♪ Somewhere out there ♪ 865 00:52:38,743 --> 00:52:42,880 ♪ There's something New to do ♪ 866 00:52:43,513 --> 00:52:45,950 ♪ Somebody loves you ♪ 867 00:52:48,418 --> 00:52:51,856 ♪ Somebody loves you ♪ 868 00:53:11,142 --> 00:53:15,645 ♪ Tell me do you think You have some exclusivity ♪ 869 00:53:15,680 --> 00:53:20,483 ♪ On every shadow of regret That's lurking in proximity ♪ 870 00:53:20,517 --> 00:53:22,787 ♪ To what you think Your life should be ♪ 871 00:53:22,820 --> 00:53:25,790 ♪ But if you close Your eyes you'll see ♪ 872 00:53:25,823 --> 00:53:28,125 ♪ That there is nothing For you here still ♪ 873 00:53:28,159 --> 00:53:30,493 ♪ The only words you hear ♪ 874 00:53:30,527 --> 00:53:34,598 ♪ Are somewhere up there ♪ 875 00:53:35,066 --> 00:53:37,467 ♪ The sky is blue ♪ 876 00:53:38,169 --> 00:53:40,503 ♪ For you ♪ 877 00:53:41,538 --> 00:53:44,108 ♪ Somewhere out there ♪ 878 00:53:44,809 --> 00:53:48,980 ♪ There is something New to do ♪ 879 00:53:49,780 --> 00:53:52,083 ♪ Somebody loves you ♪ 880 00:53:54,484 --> 00:53:57,688 ♪ Somebody loves you ♪ 881 00:54:09,000 --> 00:54:10,668 [music continues] 882 00:54:19,810 --> 00:54:21,812 - Hey, what's wrong? - Nothing. 883 00:54:21,846 --> 00:54:23,214 Why aren't you dancing? 884 00:54:23,247 --> 00:54:25,149 - Are you having a good time? - I'm trying to. 885 00:54:25,182 --> 00:54:27,919 Go and have fun and stop worrying about me, okay? 886 00:54:27,952 --> 00:54:29,987 No, I can't when I see you standing like this. 887 00:54:30,021 --> 00:54:31,621 Sure you can. 888 00:54:31,656 --> 00:54:32,857 You know I can't. 889 00:54:32,890 --> 00:54:34,524 That's your choice. 890 00:54:34,557 --> 00:54:36,060 If you want to make my experience your experience 891 00:54:36,093 --> 00:54:37,594 that's your responsibility. 892 00:54:37,627 --> 00:54:39,096 I don't understand why you're doing this right now. 893 00:54:39,130 --> 00:54:41,631 These are your friends, they're here for you. 894 00:54:41,666 --> 00:54:42,800 They're happy for you. 895 00:54:42,833 --> 00:54:44,769 You're doing fine without me. 896 00:54:45,036 --> 00:54:47,104 In fact you're doing a lot better without me. 897 00:54:47,138 --> 00:54:49,206 I'm just ruining your night. I'm gonna go. 898 00:54:49,240 --> 00:54:53,010 - You're acting like a child. - Hey. Let's not fight, okay? 899 00:54:53,044 --> 00:54:55,012 I'm sorry I'm ruining your time. 900 00:54:55,046 --> 00:54:56,613 You're better off without me here. 901 00:54:56,646 --> 00:54:57,982 I'll come with you. 902 00:54:58,615 --> 00:54:59,984 Are you crazy? 903 00:55:00,617 --> 00:55:01,719 That'll be a disaster. 904 00:55:01,752 --> 00:55:03,254 It'll break Aviva's heart. 905 00:55:03,287 --> 00:55:06,223 Just stay here and have fun, okay? 906 00:55:06,924 --> 00:55:09,592 No-one will notice a God damn thing when I'm gone. 907 00:55:09,626 --> 00:55:10,895 The whole party will just liven up, 908 00:55:10,928 --> 00:55:12,529 and no-one will even know why. 909 00:55:12,562 --> 00:55:15,132 Somehow everything will just have gotten better. 910 00:55:16,901 --> 00:55:17,902 Hey. 911 00:55:18,568 --> 00:55:19,770 You know what? 912 00:55:20,271 --> 00:55:21,706 I'll see you later. 913 00:55:27,577 --> 00:55:28,980 [Aviva] Hey. 914 00:55:30,281 --> 00:55:31,782 - You okay? - Yeah. 915 00:55:32,817 --> 00:55:33,918 [Aviva] Hey? 916 00:55:34,819 --> 00:55:35,987 No, it's... 917 00:55:36,954 --> 00:55:39,824 seeing everyone here for me, for us. 918 00:55:40,091 --> 00:55:42,492 - It's... - [Eden] I know, I know. 919 00:55:43,560 --> 00:55:44,795 [Aviva] I love you. 920 00:55:45,997 --> 00:55:47,131 I love you. 921 00:55:47,898 --> 00:55:49,900 - [man] Whoo whoo! - [crowd applauses] 922 00:56:18,696 --> 00:56:20,131 [moaning] 923 00:56:23,034 --> 00:56:24,769 - I'm coming. - Come. 924 00:56:25,302 --> 00:56:26,704 Come. 925 00:56:26,937 --> 00:56:29,774 [grunts] 926 00:56:38,916 --> 00:56:40,550 [heavy breathing] 927 00:56:45,723 --> 00:56:46,791 My love, 928 00:56:52,997 --> 00:56:54,231 sorry. 929 00:56:54,265 --> 00:56:56,333 - No. - So fast. 930 00:56:57,201 --> 00:56:58,202 You're perfect. 931 00:57:16,921 --> 00:57:18,756 Come here. Come here. 932 00:57:20,825 --> 00:57:21,792 No. 933 00:57:22,093 --> 00:57:23,794 - I want you to. - Come here. 934 00:57:25,096 --> 00:57:27,832 - I want you to be... - Keep doing what you doing. 935 00:57:27,865 --> 00:57:28,933 Are you sure? 936 00:57:39,877 --> 00:57:40,911 [moaning] 937 00:57:53,190 --> 00:57:54,391 [grunts] 938 00:58:04,301 --> 00:58:07,238 I was thinking of trying out a song at this juncture. 939 00:58:08,005 --> 00:58:10,174 I know this isn't really a musical, 940 00:58:10,708 --> 00:58:11,976 I love musicals. 941 00:58:12,409 --> 00:58:15,379 I love it when people start to dance, but... 942 00:58:15,412 --> 00:58:16,380 I kinda hate it 943 00:58:16,413 --> 00:58:18,282 when people break out into song. 944 00:58:18,983 --> 00:58:20,417 I thought it'd be fun to have the kids 945 00:58:20,451 --> 00:58:22,086 bust in to rap back there, 946 00:58:22,119 --> 00:58:24,255 even if it's way outside of the style of everything 947 00:58:24,288 --> 00:58:25,923 that we're doing here, but... 948 00:58:25,956 --> 00:58:30,394 I mean, fuck consistency and tone, we did it. 949 00:58:30,427 --> 00:58:31,896 I'm talking about when some 950 00:58:31,929 --> 00:58:33,931 happy guy or some melancholy guy with his 951 00:58:33,964 --> 00:58:36,100 hands in his pocket suddenly gets that faraway look 952 00:58:36,133 --> 00:58:37,334 in his eye, 953 00:58:37,368 --> 00:58:39,103 he looks somewhere right above camera 954 00:58:39,136 --> 00:58:41,338 or down at his shoes and it's like it's coming to him. 955 00:58:41,372 --> 00:58:44,041 This song that took 20 people months to create, 956 00:58:44,074 --> 00:58:46,277 he's making it up right now. 957 00:58:47,311 --> 00:58:48,445 He'll look up and... 958 00:58:50,314 --> 00:58:53,918 well like I said, I hate it, so I'm not gonna do it. 959 00:58:55,953 --> 00:58:58,489 What I am gonna do is talk about what I've been avoiding 960 00:58:58,522 --> 00:58:59,924 talking about. 961 00:58:59,957 --> 00:59:01,725 Which is Isadora. 962 00:59:05,462 --> 00:59:08,732 Neither Aviva or I have been here in a while. 963 00:59:09,366 --> 00:59:11,101 But it's our space. 964 00:59:11,368 --> 00:59:12,870 And ours alone. 965 00:59:14,205 --> 00:59:16,040 I'm gonna talk about Isadora in it, which is way fucked up, but 966 00:59:17,274 --> 00:59:20,377 life is fucked up that way. 967 00:59:20,411 --> 00:59:22,513 I'll meet Isadora at a party which 968 00:59:22,546 --> 00:59:24,148 I'm never gonna show here. 969 00:59:25,449 --> 00:59:28,285 Because there are some things I don't feel I can show correctly. 970 00:59:29,220 --> 00:59:31,288 It's a birthday party for Dave Mazolla 971 00:59:31,322 --> 00:59:33,190 that I attend solo 972 00:59:33,224 --> 00:59:35,292 during the brief period when Aviva and I are back together. 973 00:59:35,859 --> 00:59:38,495 Trying to work things out after our first break up. 974 00:59:38,529 --> 00:59:41,265 Kind of which has come to pass in linear time. 975 00:59:42,533 --> 00:59:44,201 I'm solo because after everything 976 00:59:44,235 --> 00:59:46,503 we will have gone through, Aviva is comfortable 977 00:59:46,537 --> 00:59:48,138 enough to generously allow me 978 00:59:48,172 --> 00:59:51,475 some alone time with my friends without kicking up a fuss. 979 00:59:52,943 --> 00:59:55,479 That's the impression I'm under, anyways. 980 00:59:57,348 --> 00:59:58,382 I'm a little drunk. 981 00:59:58,949 --> 01:00:00,451 A little more forward than usual. 982 01:00:01,185 --> 01:00:05,122 And Dave introduces me to his friend, this young woman named 983 01:00:05,923 --> 01:00:06,957 Isadora. 984 01:00:08,325 --> 01:00:09,493 It's like... 985 01:00:12,196 --> 01:00:15,466 electricity is an inadequate word. 986 01:00:16,300 --> 01:00:19,069 When her eyes look in to mine, it's like I can see myself 987 01:00:19,103 --> 01:00:20,904 reflected back at me, only... 988 01:00:21,272 --> 01:00:22,406 more open, 989 01:00:22,840 --> 01:00:24,108 more curious, 990 01:00:24,141 --> 01:00:26,310 more... alive, 991 01:00:26,343 --> 01:00:28,479 more... everything. 992 01:00:31,048 --> 01:00:32,116 Recognition, 993 01:00:35,886 --> 01:00:38,155 during this brief chat that spans 994 01:00:38,856 --> 01:00:39,957 an eternity. 995 01:00:41,191 --> 01:00:43,427 She mentioned she's going to Berlin to study for a semester. 996 01:00:43,460 --> 01:00:45,896 So I tell her to call Nissan while she's there, 997 01:00:45,929 --> 01:00:48,832 making up for all the time he's played matchmaker to me 998 01:00:49,133 --> 01:00:52,269 with Aviva, so I feel proud for doing this 999 01:00:53,504 --> 01:00:55,939 and with Aviva so I feel sick, 1000 01:00:55,973 --> 01:00:57,007 for doing this. 1001 01:00:58,342 --> 01:01:00,210 Just as I expect, Nissan falls hard for her 1002 01:01:00,244 --> 01:01:03,213 but she blows him off after a week, I mean, 1003 01:01:03,447 --> 01:01:05,549 he's not for her. 1004 01:01:06,250 --> 01:01:07,484 I'm for her. 1005 01:01:10,087 --> 01:01:12,356 She calls or texts me every few months 1006 01:01:12,956 --> 01:01:14,391 lets me know that she's done with Berlin, 1007 01:01:14,425 --> 01:01:16,360 she's moved to Los Angeles. 1008 01:01:16,927 --> 01:01:18,495 I always respond cordially 1009 01:01:18,529 --> 01:01:21,832 without excess warmth because I know if I open this door 1010 01:01:22,399 --> 01:01:24,101 there is no turning back. 1011 01:01:24,435 --> 01:01:26,036 [cellphone ringing] 1012 01:01:26,070 --> 01:01:28,505 None of this has happened yet, but... 1013 01:01:31,175 --> 01:01:32,443 it will. 1014 01:01:33,977 --> 01:01:36,347 [answerphone] Hey this is Zeke, you found me. 1015 01:01:36,980 --> 01:01:38,148 Express yourself. 1016 01:01:38,182 --> 01:01:39,516 - [beep] - [dramatic music] 1017 01:01:39,550 --> 01:01:41,085 [Aviva] Hey there Zeke, 1018 01:01:41,118 --> 01:01:43,253 your manager passed me your number, 1019 01:01:43,287 --> 01:01:44,521 my name is Aviva Le Grange 1020 01:01:44,955 --> 01:01:48,025 I'm a video artist and director from Paris, 1021 01:01:48,392 --> 01:01:49,960 I love your music, 1022 01:01:49,993 --> 01:01:52,496 especially your new song "Love it or Leave it". 1023 01:01:52,529 --> 01:01:54,264 I think it's got magic. 1024 01:01:54,998 --> 01:01:56,900 I have an idea for a video for it 1025 01:01:56,934 --> 01:01:59,203 that could be something really special. 1026 01:01:59,236 --> 01:02:00,504 [dramatic music intensifies] 1027 01:02:15,319 --> 01:02:16,954 [soulful music] 1028 01:02:38,475 --> 01:02:42,112 ♪ Long are the days when You're turning away ♪ 1029 01:02:42,146 --> 01:02:44,648 ♪ From the reasons You strung ♪ 1030 01:02:46,383 --> 01:02:50,020 ♪ Long is the way When you're aching to say ♪ 1031 01:02:50,053 --> 01:02:52,956 ♪ But your teeth Bite your tongue ♪ 1032 01:02:54,391 --> 01:02:58,162 ♪ Loud is the wind in your ears When you spin ♪ 1033 01:02:58,195 --> 01:03:00,931 ♪ As you look for the sun ♪ 1034 01:03:02,466 --> 01:03:06,370 ♪ Loud are the skies as You thunder your cries ♪ 1035 01:03:06,403 --> 01:03:08,939 ♪ When your prayers are sung ♪ 1036 01:03:11,442 --> 01:03:14,344 ♪ Hard is the floor As the waves pound... ♪ 1037 01:03:14,378 --> 01:03:16,180 - She's brilliant. - [Eden] Yeah? 1038 01:03:16,213 --> 01:03:18,716 [Mason] Why didn't you show me her work before? 1039 01:03:18,750 --> 01:03:19,684 Why hide it? 1040 01:03:20,184 --> 01:03:21,485 [Eden] I wasn't hiding it, 1041 01:03:22,319 --> 01:03:24,689 I wanted to focus this thing on our relationship, 1042 01:03:24,722 --> 01:03:26,590 on who we are to each other first. 1043 01:03:26,623 --> 01:03:28,992 [Mason] Or maybe you're just intimidated by her. 1044 01:03:29,026 --> 01:03:29,727 I'm not. 1045 01:03:30,160 --> 01:03:31,161 I would be. 1046 01:03:31,528 --> 01:03:32,463 She's a genius. 1047 01:03:33,564 --> 01:03:34,732 I'm not intimidated. 1048 01:03:35,499 --> 01:03:36,567 I'm inspired. 1049 01:03:36,600 --> 01:03:39,369 ♪ My oh my It hurts sometimes ♪ 1050 01:03:39,403 --> 01:03:43,173 ♪ Oh my oh my! It hurts sometimes ♪ 1051 01:03:43,207 --> 01:03:47,311 ♪ I think I'm running Out of time ♪ 1052 01:03:47,344 --> 01:03:51,215 ♪ Before I'm gonna Lose my mind ♪ 1053 01:03:51,515 --> 01:03:54,585 ♪ My oh my! It hurts sometimes ♪ 1054 01:03:54,618 --> 01:03:56,420 I finished my first record. 1055 01:03:57,421 --> 01:03:59,423 I'm surprised you found the time. 1056 01:04:00,825 --> 01:04:03,761 Listen man, I'd love for her to do something with me, too. 1057 01:04:03,795 --> 01:04:08,098 ♪ Before I'm gonna Lose my mind... ♪ 1058 01:04:08,131 --> 01:04:09,032 So ask her. 1059 01:04:10,133 --> 01:04:13,604 It's just, you know, I don't want your feelings hurt. 1060 01:04:13,637 --> 01:04:14,471 I'm fine. 1061 01:04:15,272 --> 01:04:16,373 Just ask her. 1062 01:04:17,241 --> 01:04:19,409 If she wants to do it, she'll do it. 1063 01:04:23,113 --> 01:04:25,215 [Eden] So what are you thinking? 1064 01:04:25,249 --> 01:04:26,316 [Aviva] I dunno, 1065 01:04:26,818 --> 01:04:28,185 it could be strange. 1066 01:04:28,218 --> 01:04:29,386 [Eden] Do you like Mason's music? 1067 01:04:29,787 --> 01:04:32,657 I do. I actually think it's very special. 1068 01:04:34,324 --> 01:04:35,592 Then you should do it. 1069 01:04:35,626 --> 01:04:37,394 [upbeat music] 1070 01:04:54,444 --> 01:04:56,179 What do you think of this edit? 1071 01:04:57,147 --> 01:04:58,783 It's beautiful. 1072 01:04:58,816 --> 01:05:01,385 [Aviva] Yeah, but I think this angle is better for him, no? 1073 01:05:01,418 --> 01:05:03,086 The other one's perfect though. 1074 01:05:03,353 --> 01:05:06,256 Captures something grounded and spiritual at the same time. 1075 01:05:06,290 --> 01:05:08,760 [Eden] Jesus Christ, take it easy over there. 1076 01:05:08,793 --> 01:05:11,161 [Eden] What are you talking about? 1077 01:05:11,194 --> 01:05:13,397 - Just it's embarrassing okay? - What is? 1078 01:05:13,430 --> 01:05:14,699 You know what I'm talking about. 1079 01:05:14,732 --> 01:05:16,300 [Eden] Spell it out for me. 1080 01:05:16,333 --> 01:05:17,735 Aviva was right, 1081 01:05:17,769 --> 01:05:19,871 it's pathetic how you are about anything to do with Mason. 1082 01:05:19,904 --> 01:05:22,606 He proposed the idea, you could have said no. 1083 01:05:22,639 --> 01:05:24,776 Right. Like I was gonna be the bad guy. 1084 01:05:24,809 --> 01:05:26,243 Great position to put me in. 1085 01:05:26,276 --> 01:05:27,644 [Eden] What position? 1086 01:05:27,679 --> 01:05:29,446 Aviva doing something nice for your friend 1087 01:05:29,479 --> 01:05:32,449 after moving here entire life here for you? Is that so bad? 1088 01:05:33,250 --> 01:05:34,284 Nope. 1089 01:05:34,318 --> 01:05:36,119 I did it, see? 1090 01:05:36,153 --> 01:05:37,588 I'm nice. Mr. nice guy. 1091 01:05:37,621 --> 01:05:39,590 No, you've been an asshole ever since... 1092 01:05:39,623 --> 01:05:40,490 Since what? 1093 01:05:41,659 --> 01:05:44,595 You're gone even when you're here, which is hardly ever. 1094 01:05:44,628 --> 01:05:47,197 You're always off to the side, angry all the time... 1095 01:05:47,230 --> 01:05:49,299 [Aviva] When you do say something, it's mean. 1096 01:05:49,333 --> 01:05:51,301 Maybe because you've acted like a total jealous 1097 01:05:51,335 --> 01:05:53,403 bitch since the moment you saw me with Mason. 1098 01:05:53,437 --> 01:05:55,272 That's what you like to think. 1099 01:05:55,305 --> 01:05:56,473 But you're the one who is jealous. 1100 01:05:56,506 --> 01:05:59,376 Me? Maybe she is. I don't give a fuck. 1101 01:05:59,409 --> 01:06:00,812 I'm not jealous of either of you. 1102 01:06:00,845 --> 01:06:03,280 You're the one telling people where they can go, 1103 01:06:03,313 --> 01:06:04,749 when they should be there. 1104 01:06:04,782 --> 01:06:06,751 It's true, you've been jealous 1105 01:06:06,784 --> 01:06:08,518 and controlling since the day I got here. 1106 01:06:08,552 --> 01:06:10,454 If you had any sense of boundaries, 1107 01:06:10,487 --> 01:06:12,289 I wouldn't need to control you. 1108 01:06:12,322 --> 01:06:13,825 Maybe you should figure out your own boundaries, 1109 01:06:13,858 --> 01:06:16,460 before you worry about how others handle theirs. 1110 01:06:16,493 --> 01:06:18,663 You stay the fuck out of this okay? 1111 01:06:18,696 --> 01:06:20,263 No-one asked you to be here in the first place. 1112 01:06:20,297 --> 01:06:22,466 Shall I quote some of those emails you sent me? 1113 01:06:22,499 --> 01:06:25,369 I never wrote you a single fucking email. 1114 01:06:25,402 --> 01:06:26,503 No? 1115 01:06:27,337 --> 01:06:28,505 Who do you think all those emails 1116 01:06:28,538 --> 01:06:29,774 you fell so in love with were from? 1117 01:06:29,807 --> 01:06:32,175 I was reading letters from her. 1118 01:06:32,209 --> 01:06:33,610 You were reading letters from me, 1119 01:06:33,644 --> 01:06:34,912 you idiot. 1120 01:06:35,379 --> 01:06:36,546 She barely has the patience 1121 01:06:36,580 --> 01:06:38,248 to put a coherent sentence together. 1122 01:06:38,281 --> 01:06:40,852 Hey, you can go fuck yourself too. I don't need 1123 01:06:40,885 --> 01:06:43,655 your fucking help, if you're going to help me like this! 1124 01:06:43,688 --> 01:06:46,623 You know he didn't want anything to do with you, 1125 01:06:46,658 --> 01:06:48,726 - I don't blame him. - So now you're on his side? 1126 01:06:48,760 --> 01:06:51,294 - I'm not on anyone's side. - You're taking his side. 1127 01:06:51,328 --> 01:06:52,930 You always take his side, I'm fucking sick of it. 1128 01:06:52,964 --> 01:06:54,264 - Sick of it? - Sick of it. 1129 01:06:54,297 --> 01:06:55,632 We've never fought about it. 1130 01:06:55,667 --> 01:06:57,267 Don't be stupid. These fights, other fights, 1131 01:06:57,300 --> 01:06:58,970 if there's another side available, you'll take it. 1132 01:06:59,003 --> 01:07:00,337 Hey calm down. 1133 01:07:00,370 --> 01:07:01,706 Don't fucking tell me to calm down. 1134 01:07:01,739 --> 01:07:03,507 Chill out. Okay? 1135 01:07:03,540 --> 01:07:06,711 I talk how I fucking want to talk, all right? 1136 01:07:06,744 --> 01:07:08,311 Don't tell me what to do. 1137 01:07:08,345 --> 01:07:09,747 I don't even know who I am anymore 1138 01:07:09,781 --> 01:07:11,648 in this stupid fucking country. 1139 01:07:11,683 --> 01:07:13,718 Acting like some kind of polite American all the time. 1140 01:07:13,751 --> 01:07:14,886 This is you polite? 1141 01:07:15,953 --> 01:07:18,255 Jesus, I'd hate to see you in your native habitat. 1142 01:07:18,288 --> 01:07:19,189 Fuck you! 1143 01:07:20,190 --> 01:07:22,827 This is who I am now, if you don't like it... 1144 01:07:24,494 --> 01:07:25,629 I can go home. 1145 01:07:26,363 --> 01:07:27,732 Come one, don't say that. 1146 01:07:28,265 --> 01:07:29,566 Do you even want me here? 1147 01:07:29,599 --> 01:07:30,935 Of course I want you here. 1148 01:07:31,368 --> 01:07:32,670 I'm not talking to you, 1149 01:07:33,303 --> 01:07:34,371 talking to him. 1150 01:07:36,874 --> 01:07:38,341 Do you even want me here? 1151 01:07:41,478 --> 01:07:43,647 Don't put your choices on me. 1152 01:07:47,819 --> 01:07:49,854 [Eden] You're gonna fuck this up. 1153 01:07:50,755 --> 01:07:52,824 You're gonna fuck everything up, 1154 01:07:52,857 --> 01:07:53,991 you always do. 1155 01:07:54,025 --> 01:07:55,827 Maybe if you didn't keep getting me 1156 01:07:55,860 --> 01:07:57,662 into shit that I don't want to be in, 1157 01:07:57,695 --> 01:07:59,964 I wouldn't have to fuck anything up. 1158 01:08:00,798 --> 01:08:01,699 I see. 1159 01:08:02,299 --> 01:08:03,835 You don't want to be in this? 1160 01:08:03,868 --> 01:08:05,569 [dramatic music] 1161 01:08:06,070 --> 01:08:07,071 Come on, man. 1162 01:08:08,472 --> 01:08:10,640 Don't say things you won't be able to take back. 1163 01:08:12,476 --> 01:08:15,512 Aviva's here, I'm here. 1164 01:08:16,413 --> 01:08:19,349 You're the one who needs to decide what he wants to do. 1165 01:08:20,985 --> 01:08:24,554 This is the best thing that's ever happened to me in my life. 1166 01:08:25,455 --> 01:08:27,357 You wanna take it away from me, 1167 01:08:28,492 --> 01:08:29,459 go ahead. 1168 01:08:30,695 --> 01:08:31,829 I can't stop you, 1169 01:08:31,863 --> 01:08:33,396 I never could. 1170 01:08:37,467 --> 01:08:38,970 [crying] I'm doing something wrong. 1171 01:08:39,003 --> 01:08:40,437 You're not doing anything wrong. 1172 01:08:40,470 --> 01:08:41,739 Yes, I am. 1173 01:08:47,577 --> 01:08:48,713 You brought us all together, 1174 01:08:49,346 --> 01:08:51,314 you're not doing anything wrong. 1175 01:09:02,760 --> 01:09:05,663 [Eden] I know I said earlier that there's nothing more lonely 1176 01:09:05,696 --> 01:09:07,999 or more depressing than being alone in New York City, 1177 01:09:08,032 --> 01:09:11,434 but that's not empirically speaking, correct. 1178 01:09:11,969 --> 01:09:13,637 There's nothing more lonely 1179 01:09:13,671 --> 01:09:15,740 than being alone in Los Angeles. 1180 01:09:15,773 --> 01:09:18,308 - It's left, turn left. - I got it. 1181 01:09:25,482 --> 01:09:27,617 - "Dear Aviva." - "Dear?" 1182 01:09:27,651 --> 01:09:29,519 Are you seriously letting go of sweet? 1183 01:09:29,553 --> 01:09:32,723 Is that really what you want me to be focusing on right now? 1184 01:09:35,059 --> 01:09:36,493 I'll just write sweet. 1185 01:09:37,662 --> 01:09:39,496 "Dear Aviva, 1186 01:09:40,530 --> 01:09:42,900 I heard you were in the desert somewhere. 1187 01:09:48,172 --> 01:09:49,807 I remember I promised myself 1188 01:09:50,107 --> 01:09:52,576 or you, that I would write to you at least something 1189 01:09:52,609 --> 01:09:55,512 once a day for all the time we would know each other. 1190 01:09:57,715 --> 01:10:01,052 I guess it took us breaking up for me to honor it again. 1191 01:10:02,053 --> 01:10:03,688 You're an amazing person. 1192 01:10:04,121 --> 01:10:05,790 You always surprised me, 1193 01:10:06,423 --> 01:10:08,860 even though I'm so jaded and often unengaged, 1194 01:10:09,827 --> 01:10:12,163 you told me I don't know how to live, 1195 01:10:12,196 --> 01:10:13,097 it's true. 1196 01:10:14,332 --> 01:10:16,801 I don't know how to make the most out of a simple day. 1197 01:10:17,467 --> 01:10:19,837 I don't know how to get the most out of breakfast, 1198 01:10:19,871 --> 01:10:21,504 to enjoy a simple walk. 1199 01:10:21,538 --> 01:10:23,074 To get the most out of work or creativity 1200 01:10:23,107 --> 01:10:25,508 in anything other than sporadic bursts. 1201 01:10:34,051 --> 01:10:36,053 I don't know how to move through time and space 1202 01:10:36,087 --> 01:10:39,456 with a sense of accepting that I'm the vessel doing the moving. 1203 01:10:39,757 --> 01:10:41,826 Even as I understand I'm doing myself 1204 01:10:41,859 --> 01:10:43,928 and God and injustice by directing 1205 01:10:43,961 --> 01:10:47,098 such negativity toward a life that I should be grateful for. 1206 01:10:54,105 --> 01:10:56,674 I imagine it's very confusing being in a relationship 1207 01:10:56,707 --> 01:10:57,975 with someone like me. 1208 01:10:58,175 --> 01:11:00,711 I get angry sometimes when I see how real 1209 01:11:01,045 --> 01:11:03,147 you are, how substantial. 1210 01:11:03,714 --> 01:11:05,883 And I'm in this stupid, ugly place 1211 01:11:05,917 --> 01:11:07,550 floating around like a ghost. 1212 01:11:11,055 --> 01:11:13,658 But then I realize that I'd rather be this way 1213 01:11:13,691 --> 01:11:15,927 or I wouldn't be here doing what I'm doing. 1214 01:11:16,559 --> 01:11:18,561 Making one reality after another and then 1215 01:11:18,595 --> 01:11:21,666 abandoning it, so that others can inhabit it without me. 1216 01:11:29,273 --> 01:11:30,507 I'm running, 1217 01:11:31,776 --> 01:11:34,679 I don't ever wanna get caught but I am tired of running. 1218 01:11:38,282 --> 01:11:40,084 Sorry I've been going on and on here, 1219 01:11:40,117 --> 01:11:42,619 but you wanted to know where I'm at. 1220 01:11:42,920 --> 01:11:44,088 So here you have it. 1221 01:11:44,956 --> 01:11:46,223 I admire you 1222 01:11:47,191 --> 01:11:48,491 and I love you. 1223 01:11:49,126 --> 01:11:50,493 E." 1224 01:11:50,828 --> 01:11:51,829 [Eden] "Dear E, 1225 01:11:52,930 --> 01:11:54,999 it's both painful and moving to read your words." 1226 01:11:56,901 --> 01:11:58,836 - Don't do that. - What? 1227 01:11:58,869 --> 01:12:02,907 That stupid bopping to the music in the car, sort of thing. 1228 01:12:03,741 --> 01:12:06,243 It's cutesy and ingratiating and I fucking hate it. 1229 01:12:06,277 --> 01:12:08,879 If you wanna dance, pull over, stop the car, 1230 01:12:08,913 --> 01:12:11,015 get out and make a proper fucking dance. 1231 01:12:11,048 --> 01:12:13,684 - Who's cut off and mean now? - I am. 1232 01:12:14,118 --> 01:12:15,186 Deal with it. 1233 01:12:19,890 --> 01:12:21,624 You wanna hear the rest of it? 1234 01:12:24,161 --> 01:12:25,262 Sure. 1235 01:12:27,298 --> 01:12:30,600 "It was so strange for me to be alone in the city, 1236 01:12:31,902 --> 01:12:35,039 hard to go meet people for work and put myself out there. 1237 01:12:36,606 --> 01:12:39,110 So confusing meeting men, and the world in general, 1238 01:12:39,677 --> 01:12:41,812 with the knowledge that we're separated. 1239 01:12:42,579 --> 01:12:45,615 So I got myself out of there and headed in to the desert, 1240 01:12:45,983 --> 01:12:47,184 in New Mexico. 1241 01:12:48,052 --> 01:12:50,021 Spent a lot of time there by myself, 1242 01:12:51,856 --> 01:12:53,523 one day I got kinda lost. 1243 01:12:53,958 --> 01:12:55,126 It was scary, 1244 01:12:55,659 --> 01:12:56,894 a story for another day. 1245 01:12:58,029 --> 01:13:00,530 Then I met these two people who really saved my ass. 1246 01:13:01,766 --> 01:13:04,668 They were this couple who travel to the most dangerous places 1247 01:13:04,702 --> 01:13:05,635 in the world 1248 01:13:06,037 --> 01:13:07,772 and they dance together there. 1249 01:13:08,873 --> 01:13:10,307 And they're not the only ones, 1250 01:13:10,741 --> 01:13:12,009 it's a thing. 1251 01:13:13,744 --> 01:13:16,047 Gave me an idea to make a movie out of it. 1252 01:13:16,680 --> 01:13:19,350 Started filming them and I'm putting together a teaser 1253 01:13:19,383 --> 01:13:20,885 to raise money for the rest of it. 1254 01:13:20,918 --> 01:13:23,187 I'm DJ'ing for Zeke's club shows 1255 01:13:23,220 --> 01:13:25,322 and she's gonna do the music for it. 1256 01:13:25,356 --> 01:13:26,724 It's a trip. 1257 01:13:28,993 --> 01:13:30,961 I'm lonelier than I've ever been, 1258 01:13:31,328 --> 01:13:34,065 sadder and happier than I've ever been all at once. 1259 01:13:35,632 --> 01:13:36,834 I love you 1260 01:13:37,368 --> 01:13:38,469 and I have no regrets, 1261 01:13:39,837 --> 01:13:42,907 but I don't wanna go through something like this again. 1262 01:13:43,841 --> 01:13:46,677 I wanna be with somebody who wants to be with me. 1263 01:13:47,778 --> 01:13:48,846 The way I am, 1264 01:13:50,014 --> 01:13:51,782 not the way he wants me to be. 1265 01:13:53,650 --> 01:13:55,820 I have so much love and passion in me 1266 01:13:55,853 --> 01:13:58,022 and I don't want to feel guilty about it. 1267 01:13:59,790 --> 01:14:02,359 Still, I miss us and I miss you. 1268 01:14:04,128 --> 01:14:05,162 A." 1269 01:14:06,831 --> 01:14:08,065 Nicole just texted you. 1270 01:14:08,899 --> 01:14:11,268 - Nicole? - Yeah, from high school. 1271 01:14:11,302 --> 01:14:12,703 I know who she is. 1272 01:14:13,938 --> 01:14:15,840 Just surprised to hear from here. 1273 01:14:15,873 --> 01:14:16,907 Well, she's here. 1274 01:14:17,308 --> 01:14:18,275 You mean in LA? 1275 01:14:19,276 --> 01:14:21,378 No, I mean in this car, stashed in the trunk. 1276 01:14:23,414 --> 01:14:24,748 I always liked her. 1277 01:14:25,883 --> 01:14:28,152 I have nothing to talk with her about. 1278 01:14:28,185 --> 01:14:30,121 - I do. - We have no shared interests. 1279 01:14:30,154 --> 01:14:31,355 Nothing in common, 1280 01:14:31,856 --> 01:14:32,590 nothing. 1281 01:14:33,057 --> 01:14:35,392 [Nicole] Daredevil, that's my guy. 1282 01:14:35,426 --> 01:14:38,963 Smart and blind, just how I like my men. 1283 01:14:39,396 --> 01:14:42,900 I don't know, I was strictly Kirby style. 1284 01:14:42,933 --> 01:14:46,003 Cosmic stuff, worlds beyond imagination, 1285 01:14:46,036 --> 01:14:48,139 shit that actually opens your mind. 1286 01:14:49,006 --> 01:14:53,010 Thor, F.F., The Eternals, The New Gods. 1287 01:14:53,043 --> 01:14:56,680 It was all street level for me. Someone I could identify with. 1288 01:14:56,981 --> 01:14:59,917 Like, if I looked into an alley 1289 01:14:59,950 --> 01:15:01,252 on the way to school, 1290 01:15:01,285 --> 01:15:03,354 I might just catch a glimpse in the shadows. 1291 01:15:03,387 --> 01:15:05,990 Punisher, Daredevil, Spiderman, 1292 01:15:06,023 --> 01:15:07,958 Spiderman is street level? 1293 01:15:07,992 --> 01:15:09,827 Compared to the New Gods, he is. 1294 01:15:09,860 --> 01:15:12,363 Look, I liked those guys growing up, 1295 01:15:12,396 --> 01:15:14,999 it was fine if I couldn't get my hands on anything else 1296 01:15:15,032 --> 01:15:18,369 but where is the imagination, the aspiration? 1297 01:15:18,402 --> 01:15:21,071 Sometimes putting your fist through some jerk's face, 1298 01:15:21,105 --> 01:15:22,973 is all the aspiration you need. 1299 01:15:24,842 --> 01:15:25,876 Good to know. 1300 01:15:26,143 --> 01:15:28,345 [waiter] Can I refresh anybody's drink? 1301 01:15:29,446 --> 01:15:30,915 We've already had thee. 1302 01:15:31,282 --> 01:15:34,051 One more and I'll be at maximum suggestibility. 1303 01:15:34,351 --> 01:15:35,819 She'll have another one. 1304 01:15:36,220 --> 01:15:37,321 What about you? 1305 01:15:37,821 --> 01:15:39,690 I still have work to do tonight. 1306 01:15:40,758 --> 01:15:41,959 Really? 1307 01:15:45,996 --> 01:15:47,998 - You okay? - I'm great. 1308 01:15:48,299 --> 01:15:50,134 But how can I make you, you know? 1309 01:15:50,167 --> 01:15:52,403 You don't have to do anything, I'm great. 1310 01:15:54,004 --> 01:15:57,074 - I want you to be happy. - I'm happy. 1311 01:15:57,107 --> 01:15:59,310 I mean, really happy. 1312 01:15:59,343 --> 01:16:01,946 - I'm really happy. - Jesus. 1313 01:16:02,313 --> 01:16:03,347 [moaning] 1314 01:16:05,482 --> 01:16:06,984 Come on, move over. 1315 01:16:08,519 --> 01:16:09,954 Where are you going? 1316 01:16:28,472 --> 01:16:29,506 [moans] 1317 01:16:36,914 --> 01:16:38,182 Do it hard. 1318 01:16:41,452 --> 01:16:42,953 You can do it harder. 1319 01:16:43,287 --> 01:16:44,521 She said do it harder. 1320 01:16:44,555 --> 01:16:46,357 [gasps & moans louder] 1321 01:16:47,424 --> 01:16:49,860 Yes. Yes. 1322 01:16:49,893 --> 01:16:51,528 [moans] Oh yes. Yes. 1323 01:16:53,931 --> 01:16:55,933 [shouts] 1324 01:17:01,605 --> 01:17:02,940 Oh, my gosh. 1325 01:17:04,108 --> 01:17:05,209 Unbelievable. 1326 01:17:09,313 --> 01:17:12,449 I'm gonna go make some coffee, you guys want anything? 1327 01:17:12,483 --> 01:17:14,485 No, thank you. 1328 01:17:14,518 --> 01:17:15,486 I'm good. 1329 01:17:16,020 --> 01:17:17,221 Milk, two sugars. 1330 01:17:17,588 --> 01:17:19,390 [indie music] 1331 01:17:34,271 --> 01:17:38,275 ♪ What I say when I Say that I miss you ♪ 1332 01:17:38,309 --> 01:17:42,446 ♪ Is that I will Always love me more ♪ 1333 01:17:42,479 --> 01:17:46,050 ♪ What I need when I bleed Just to drown you ♪ 1334 01:17:46,450 --> 01:17:50,220 ♪ Is that some day You'll become a shore ♪ 1335 01:17:50,888 --> 01:17:54,224 ♪ It's my wave that will Crave and will pull you ♪ 1336 01:17:54,525 --> 01:17:58,329 ♪ And another that Will push you back ♪ 1337 01:17:58,896 --> 01:18:02,900 ♪ We will be just a sea They can sail through ♪ 1338 01:18:02,933 --> 01:18:07,171 ♪ They can split us But we never crack ♪ 1339 01:18:23,220 --> 01:18:27,157 ♪ On occasions our Sea will swallow ♪ 1340 01:18:27,191 --> 01:18:31,028 ♪ 613 shades of sad ♪ 1341 01:18:31,362 --> 01:18:35,232 ♪ And occasionally We will be just shallow ♪ 1342 01:18:35,265 --> 01:18:38,902 ♪ Enough for them To see the things we had... ♪ 1343 01:18:47,311 --> 01:18:48,479 [moaning] 1344 01:19:11,201 --> 01:19:12,970 [indie music fades] 1345 01:19:13,003 --> 01:19:15,472 [cellphone ringing] 1346 01:19:15,506 --> 01:19:17,908 - Can you get it? - Uh-huh. 1347 01:19:33,390 --> 01:19:34,925 [clears throat] 1348 01:19:36,393 --> 01:19:38,295 - Hey? - [Eden] Hey. 1349 01:19:40,097 --> 01:19:42,667 - [Eden] How are you? - Good, I'm good. 1350 01:19:43,634 --> 01:19:44,669 Are you? 1351 01:19:45,202 --> 01:19:46,603 - Yeah. - [faint giggles] 1352 01:19:47,037 --> 01:19:48,939 Better than I've been in a while. 1353 01:19:50,174 --> 01:19:51,709 [Eden] How are the shows going? 1354 01:19:52,376 --> 01:19:54,044 Uh, they're going. 1355 01:19:55,279 --> 01:19:57,481 I'm signing with Dream Shot. 1356 01:19:59,316 --> 01:20:00,752 [Eden] That's a great agency. 1357 01:20:00,785 --> 01:20:03,053 Yeah, they just got me the rest of the budget 1358 01:20:03,086 --> 01:20:04,388 to make my feature. 1359 01:20:06,256 --> 01:20:07,659 - Jesus. - [Aviva] Yeah. 1360 01:20:09,059 --> 01:20:09,960 That's amazing. 1361 01:20:11,796 --> 01:20:14,364 Everyone I know is talking about your work. 1362 01:20:17,134 --> 01:20:19,970 You know, I'm here in town. 1363 01:20:20,805 --> 01:20:22,072 [Aviva] Here? 1364 01:20:23,106 --> 01:20:24,742 [Eden] Yeah, it was a last minute thing. 1365 01:20:25,810 --> 01:20:27,644 I was going to tell you but... 1366 01:20:28,612 --> 01:20:30,280 I wasn't sure I should call. 1367 01:20:30,547 --> 01:20:31,683 Why wouldn't you call? 1368 01:20:32,115 --> 01:20:33,617 [faint moans and groans] 1369 01:20:33,650 --> 01:20:35,385 [Eden] I don't know. 1370 01:20:36,220 --> 01:20:38,522 I'm editing this thing after screening it here, 1371 01:20:38,555 --> 01:20:39,724 in a few days. 1372 01:20:39,757 --> 01:20:41,659 I was hoping you could check it out, 1373 01:20:41,693 --> 01:20:43,494 maybe do a few things to it. 1374 01:20:44,495 --> 01:20:46,096 - but... - [Aviva] I'll be there. 1375 01:20:46,129 --> 01:20:47,665 If it's not a good time for you... 1376 01:20:47,699 --> 01:20:49,500 [Aviva] No, I'll be there, I'll be there. 1377 01:21:10,354 --> 01:21:12,189 [door squeaks and clicks] 1378 01:21:18,128 --> 01:21:19,463 This is not a work place. 1379 01:21:20,130 --> 01:21:21,431 [Eden] It's our space. 1380 01:21:21,866 --> 01:21:23,100 It was. 1381 01:21:27,772 --> 01:21:29,039 I miss you. 1382 01:21:30,374 --> 01:21:31,642 I missed you too. 1383 01:21:33,577 --> 01:21:35,212 We should get back together. 1384 01:21:39,751 --> 01:21:40,785 What? 1385 01:21:41,485 --> 01:21:42,720 Your timing is just... 1386 01:21:43,955 --> 01:21:47,491 After so many sleepless nights, so many broken hearted days, 1387 01:21:47,524 --> 01:21:50,193 finally I get myself to a place when I can... 1388 01:21:51,595 --> 01:21:52,664 And now... 1389 01:21:56,567 --> 01:21:58,268 I'm sorry, I... 1390 01:22:00,404 --> 01:22:01,505 I'm sorry. 1391 01:22:06,878 --> 01:22:08,612 It's exactly what we needed, 1392 01:22:10,147 --> 01:22:12,349 to get to a better place that we couldn't 1393 01:22:12,382 --> 01:22:14,351 get to when we were still together, 1394 01:22:14,384 --> 01:22:15,687 because of all the pressure 1395 01:22:15,720 --> 01:22:18,121 of long distance, of constantly being rushed, 1396 01:22:18,155 --> 01:22:19,724 we can restart this the right way now. 1397 01:22:19,757 --> 01:22:22,092 I don't think this is the right time. 1398 01:22:22,894 --> 01:22:25,863 Please. Please come back. 1399 01:22:27,531 --> 01:22:28,599 I love you. 1400 01:22:30,167 --> 01:22:31,602 I don't wanna let you go. 1401 01:22:33,236 --> 01:22:34,304 Please come back. 1402 01:22:35,539 --> 01:22:36,607 Please come back. 1403 01:22:41,746 --> 01:22:42,847 I love you, too. 1404 01:22:44,214 --> 01:22:45,449 I'm here. 1405 01:22:46,784 --> 01:22:50,320 Let's do what we came here to do. Okay. 1406 01:22:55,960 --> 01:22:57,829 Is it just the three of us? 1407 01:22:58,462 --> 01:22:59,630 She'll be back soon. 1408 01:23:02,734 --> 01:23:04,301 [sad music] 1409 01:23:04,836 --> 01:23:05,870 Hey, come on. 1410 01:23:06,804 --> 01:23:08,840 You do what you have to do, I'm... 1411 01:23:08,873 --> 01:23:11,575 gonna sit here and wait for her for a minute, okay? 1412 01:24:36,493 --> 01:24:38,528 [sad music continues] 1413 01:26:38,049 --> 01:26:39,616 [Eden narrating] He waited. 1414 01:26:40,450 --> 01:26:42,552 He had done what I had asked him to do. 1415 01:26:42,854 --> 01:26:44,121 I have to give him that. 1416 01:26:44,155 --> 01:26:45,823 [sad music continues] 1417 01:26:46,057 --> 01:26:46,991 And he waited. 1418 01:26:48,025 --> 01:26:50,393 He waited for a lot more than a minute. 1419 01:26:51,128 --> 01:26:53,563 There was no reason to be in Los Angeles anymore 1420 01:26:53,597 --> 01:26:55,733 so it was back to the New York apartment, 1421 01:26:55,766 --> 01:26:57,034 our old white room. 1422 01:26:57,668 --> 01:26:59,369 Only it wasn't so white anymore, 1423 01:26:59,670 --> 01:27:01,538 Aviva had decorated the hell out of it 1424 01:27:01,571 --> 01:27:03,040 in the time we were apart. 1425 01:27:03,074 --> 01:27:04,641 New furniture everywhere, 1426 01:27:04,675 --> 01:27:07,544 posters, and even paintings on the walls. 1427 01:27:07,577 --> 01:27:09,881 Bizarre chachkas on every shelf, 1428 01:27:10,214 --> 01:27:12,116 I hardly recognized it anymore. 1429 01:27:12,884 --> 01:27:14,517 [chimes] 1430 01:27:18,555 --> 01:27:19,657 But I was happy. 1431 01:27:20,191 --> 01:27:22,860 I mean, really happy. 1432 01:27:23,493 --> 01:27:25,730 Maybe for the first time in my life. 1433 01:27:30,801 --> 01:27:31,903 And he waited. 1434 01:27:33,070 --> 01:27:35,072 But she had found something he had never given her. 1435 01:27:35,106 --> 01:27:36,606 [lively music] 1436 01:27:36,640 --> 01:27:38,175 Something that in her heart of hearts 1437 01:27:38,209 --> 01:27:41,511 she didn't believe he ever would, or could give her. 1438 01:27:44,581 --> 01:27:46,017 And once having found it, 1439 01:27:46,650 --> 01:27:48,686 she was not about to easily let it go. 1440 01:27:49,253 --> 01:27:51,621 No matter how good everything else was. 1441 01:27:52,189 --> 01:27:53,490 And it was good, 1442 01:27:55,059 --> 01:27:56,694 as good as good can be. 1443 01:27:56,727 --> 01:27:58,461 [cheering] 1444 01:28:09,807 --> 01:28:11,742 And maybe she would've come back, 1445 01:28:11,776 --> 01:28:12,877 eventually, 1446 01:28:15,880 --> 01:28:17,480 maybe she did come back. 1447 01:28:24,255 --> 01:28:25,690 I don't really know, 1448 01:28:28,059 --> 01:28:29,193 because by then... 1449 01:28:36,901 --> 01:28:38,169 there was no-one home. 1450 01:28:43,741 --> 01:28:44,909 [exhales] 1451 01:28:44,942 --> 01:28:46,476 You can do it harder. 1452 01:28:48,879 --> 01:28:49,714 [gasps] 1453 01:28:51,015 --> 01:28:52,582 You can do it much harder. 1454 01:28:52,615 --> 01:28:53,784 How much harder? 1455 01:28:53,818 --> 01:28:55,086 As hard as you want to. 1456 01:28:55,652 --> 01:28:56,854 We need a safe word. 1457 01:28:57,221 --> 01:28:58,856 I don't need a safe word. 1458 01:28:59,056 --> 01:29:00,825 Maybe I need a safe word. 1459 01:29:00,858 --> 01:29:03,493 We don't have to do it if you don't want to. 1460 01:29:03,861 --> 01:29:05,162 Do you want me to do it? 1461 01:29:05,196 --> 01:29:07,264 I want you to want to do it. 1462 01:29:11,135 --> 01:29:12,635 [moans and laughs] 1463 01:29:23,314 --> 01:29:24,581 Ow. 1464 01:29:25,850 --> 01:29:26,851 Come on. 1465 01:29:29,720 --> 01:29:30,755 [giggles] 1466 01:29:35,760 --> 01:29:36,894 - [grunt] - [moans] 1467 01:29:52,977 --> 01:29:54,779 [grunts] 1468 01:29:57,982 --> 01:29:59,016 Did you... 1469 01:29:59,683 --> 01:30:00,751 It was great. 1470 01:30:02,186 --> 01:30:03,854 Yeah, but you didn't... 1471 01:30:04,889 --> 01:30:06,223 There's always next time. 1472 01:30:07,224 --> 01:30:09,060 [laughs and chatter] 1473 01:30:12,029 --> 01:30:14,597 - Hey. - Hey. Give me two seconds, okay? 1474 01:30:15,299 --> 01:30:17,301 Hey, can I talk to you for a minute? 1475 01:30:17,334 --> 01:30:18,869 It can't wait, okay. 1476 01:30:18,903 --> 01:30:20,738 One camera please. 1477 01:30:22,239 --> 01:30:23,841 I just need a minute, okay? 1478 01:30:37,888 --> 01:30:39,323 I can't do this by myself. 1479 01:30:39,890 --> 01:30:41,092 No-one said you had to. 1480 01:30:41,325 --> 01:30:43,360 I don't wanna have to rely on you anymore. 1481 01:30:43,394 --> 01:30:45,595 I have to be able to do this on my own. 1482 01:30:45,896 --> 01:30:49,233 Do you have any idea how fucked up and wrong you are? Do you? 1483 01:30:49,266 --> 01:30:50,868 You don't know how it feels. 1484 01:30:50,901 --> 01:30:53,904 To have never been able to make one woman for one single 1485 01:30:53,938 --> 01:30:55,206 moment in your life. 1486 01:30:55,239 --> 01:30:57,775 - They like your jokes. - Fuck you. 1487 01:30:58,943 --> 01:31:02,012 They're only pretending to laugh to kill time, until you show up. 1488 01:31:02,913 --> 01:31:05,149 I've never even given a woman an orgasm. 1489 01:31:05,182 --> 01:31:06,984 Not one single orgasm. 1490 01:31:07,017 --> 01:31:08,319 Not one, ever. 1491 01:31:09,854 --> 01:31:10,988 I'm over this. 1492 01:31:11,922 --> 01:31:13,090 Over your fear, 1493 01:31:13,124 --> 01:31:14,358 over your anger. 1494 01:31:15,059 --> 01:31:16,861 Go find someone who doesn't know any better 1495 01:31:16,894 --> 01:31:17,962 and take the credit for it. 1496 01:31:17,995 --> 01:31:19,697 I can't and I don't want to. 1497 01:31:19,730 --> 01:31:22,933 I wanna be with someone who I want, for once in my life. 1498 01:31:22,967 --> 01:31:26,904 Not who you want, who I want and who wants me. Not you, me. 1499 01:31:26,937 --> 01:31:28,839 How the fuck is anyone supposed to want you, 1500 01:31:28,873 --> 01:31:30,207 when you hate you so God damn much? 1501 01:31:30,241 --> 01:31:31,809 I don't hate me. 1502 01:31:32,042 --> 01:31:35,246 I hate you. I've always hated you, ever since... 1503 01:31:37,915 --> 01:31:40,317 Every single problem, every issue I was having 1504 01:31:40,351 --> 01:31:42,920 with Aviva, was a problem I was having with you. 1505 01:31:43,454 --> 01:31:45,923 I don't have a problem with Aviva. 1506 01:31:47,057 --> 01:31:48,392 It's you. 1507 01:31:49,627 --> 01:31:52,696 So are you gonna get back on your little bike and ride away? 1508 01:31:52,730 --> 01:31:55,232 Or are you gonna do something about it? 1509 01:31:56,901 --> 01:31:57,968 [Aviva] Socks. 1510 01:31:58,002 --> 01:31:59,303 [Eden] Thermal stuff is good. 1511 01:31:59,336 --> 01:32:00,771 [Aviva] I have thermal stuff. 1512 01:32:00,804 --> 01:32:02,106 I know how to pack. 1513 01:32:03,240 --> 01:32:04,441 [Eden] Did you order a taxi? 1514 01:32:04,475 --> 01:32:07,378 [Aviva] I thought you... I'll order, I got it. 1515 01:32:09,046 --> 01:32:10,114 Give me that. 1516 01:32:12,917 --> 01:32:14,151 Make sure you're with someone 1517 01:32:14,185 --> 01:32:15,819 who really knows what they're doing. 1518 01:32:15,853 --> 01:32:16,754 I'll be fine. 1519 01:32:18,422 --> 01:32:19,757 Right. 1520 01:32:20,457 --> 01:32:22,393 You're about to go follow some lunatics 1521 01:32:22,426 --> 01:32:24,395 up the side of a mountain in Alaska. 1522 01:32:25,062 --> 01:32:27,331 Look, I'm making a movie about couples 1523 01:32:27,364 --> 01:32:29,300 who inspire each other to go to the edge. 1524 01:32:30,367 --> 01:32:32,736 Doesn't mean you have to go there with them. 1525 01:32:33,070 --> 01:32:35,139 People are opening up their lives to me. 1526 01:32:35,172 --> 01:32:37,408 If they're going there, I've gotta go there too. 1527 01:32:40,411 --> 01:32:42,980 You gonna back me up here or you just gonna sit there 1528 01:32:43,013 --> 01:32:44,281 staring at the door? 1529 01:32:44,782 --> 01:32:46,951 [Eden] I'm not staring at the door. 1530 01:32:46,984 --> 01:32:48,319 I'm making flight plans. 1531 01:32:58,229 --> 01:32:59,363 Flight plans? 1532 01:33:00,364 --> 01:33:02,166 I'm going to LA for a week. 1533 01:33:03,901 --> 01:33:05,135 This is news. 1534 01:33:05,169 --> 01:33:06,403 It's a last minute meeting. 1535 01:33:09,073 --> 01:33:11,242 Oh, before I go to Alaska? 1536 01:33:12,943 --> 01:33:14,078 Next morning. 1537 01:33:51,215 --> 01:33:52,883 - [slam] - Door closes. 1538 01:33:52,916 --> 01:33:55,152 Down three flights. Picks up bag. 1539 01:33:55,185 --> 01:33:57,354 Goes outside. Looks for a taxi. 1540 01:33:57,388 --> 01:34:00,858 Taxi. Taxi. Taxi. Whoo. 1541 01:34:00,891 --> 01:34:04,194 Picks up bag. "The airport please." 1542 01:34:06,230 --> 01:34:07,264 It's hot. 1543 01:34:09,633 --> 01:34:11,602 Ooh. 1544 01:34:11,635 --> 01:34:15,406 Gets money out. Pays. Kicks the door open. Gets the bag. 1545 01:34:16,340 --> 01:34:17,441 Passport. 1546 01:34:23,147 --> 01:34:25,316 Security. Computer. 1547 01:34:25,649 --> 01:34:27,418 Beep. Shoes. 1548 01:34:28,218 --> 01:34:29,586 Beep, beep, beep. 1549 01:34:30,621 --> 01:34:31,855 Shoes. 1550 01:34:31,889 --> 01:34:32,890 Computer. 1551 01:34:32,923 --> 01:34:35,125 Bag. On the plane. 1552 01:34:35,626 --> 01:34:36,927 Looks for the seat. 1553 01:34:37,361 --> 01:34:38,362 32B. 1554 01:34:41,932 --> 01:34:43,000 [sighs] 1555 01:34:45,402 --> 01:34:47,538 Seat belt. Looks out the window. 1556 01:34:49,106 --> 01:34:50,407 Time for takeoff. 1557 01:34:51,275 --> 01:34:53,177 [breathes nervously] 1558 01:34:58,415 --> 01:35:02,386 Cruising altitude is 30 thousand hundred feet. 1559 01:35:03,654 --> 01:35:04,988 Drink please. 1560 01:35:05,022 --> 01:35:06,156 Click. 1561 01:35:06,957 --> 01:35:08,025 [glugging] 1562 01:35:18,969 --> 01:35:20,204 [laughs] 1563 01:35:26,678 --> 01:35:27,945 Another drink. 1564 01:35:31,982 --> 01:35:33,250 Time for landing. 1565 01:35:34,985 --> 01:35:36,186 [gasps] 1566 01:35:37,388 --> 01:35:41,525 "Welcome to LA where the weather is perfect all the time." 1567 01:35:50,100 --> 01:35:51,435 Catches the car keys. 1568 01:35:52,403 --> 01:35:53,437 Good day. 1569 01:36:00,144 --> 01:36:02,680 Picks up the phone. Ding. Ding. 1570 01:36:08,385 --> 01:36:09,420 "Hey." 1571 01:36:11,355 --> 01:36:13,691 "Isadora. It's Eden." 1572 01:36:15,092 --> 01:36:17,528 "Wow, what a surprise." 1573 01:36:18,362 --> 01:36:22,399 "Yeah. Even more of a surprise, I'm in LA." 1574 01:36:23,200 --> 01:36:24,301 "Really?" 1575 01:36:24,769 --> 01:36:26,136 "Yeah." 1576 01:36:26,403 --> 01:36:27,337 "Wow." 1577 01:36:27,371 --> 01:36:29,640 "Uh, any chance you're around?" 1578 01:36:29,674 --> 01:36:30,974 "I'm around." 1579 01:36:31,308 --> 01:36:33,544 "Well, uh, can I see you?" 1580 01:36:33,577 --> 01:36:35,379 "You can see me." 1581 01:36:35,680 --> 01:36:36,547 "When?" 1582 01:36:37,047 --> 01:36:39,016 "How about... now?" 1583 01:36:39,416 --> 01:36:41,318 "Okay, where's your address?" 1584 01:36:41,351 --> 01:36:43,654 "I'll text you it. It's a five story walk-up. 1585 01:36:43,688 --> 01:36:45,222 Think you can make it up?" 1586 01:36:45,522 --> 01:36:47,157 "I can make it up." 1587 01:36:48,091 --> 01:36:49,661 What is this feeling? 1588 01:36:50,260 --> 01:36:52,229 This feeling that he's never had before 1589 01:36:52,664 --> 01:36:56,433 This feeling, this, even before it happens, 1590 01:36:56,467 --> 01:36:59,269 he knows that there's no going back. 1591 01:36:59,303 --> 01:37:02,539 Either this is gonna be complete bullshit 1592 01:37:02,573 --> 01:37:05,642 or this is it. 1593 01:37:13,083 --> 01:37:14,284 Ping. 1594 01:37:49,821 --> 01:37:51,388 [Eden] Found the edge, huh? 1595 01:37:51,622 --> 01:37:53,156 [machines beeping] 1596 01:37:55,727 --> 01:37:57,294 I guess I went over it. 1597 01:37:58,562 --> 01:38:00,030 I guess so. 1598 01:38:02,466 --> 01:38:05,536 I hope I didn't fuck up your business trip too much. 1599 01:38:05,569 --> 01:38:06,637 Don't be stupid. 1600 01:38:10,574 --> 01:38:11,709 What's the damage? 1601 01:38:15,612 --> 01:38:17,047 I fractured 1602 01:38:17,682 --> 01:38:20,083 three vertebras in my spine. 1603 01:38:23,287 --> 01:38:24,789 The doctor said that... 1604 01:38:25,790 --> 01:38:28,091 I might be all right, eventually. 1605 01:38:30,561 --> 01:38:34,097 But it's going to take a lot of time and patience. 1606 01:38:46,811 --> 01:38:48,178 Can we go home now? 1607 01:38:48,211 --> 01:38:49,580 [solemn music] 1608 01:38:54,819 --> 01:38:56,821 [Eden narrating] "What unbelievable timing," 1609 01:38:56,854 --> 01:38:58,322 he thinks to himself. 1610 01:38:58,355 --> 01:38:59,489 A joke. 1611 01:38:59,523 --> 01:39:01,458 A test too monstrous even for a cruel 1612 01:39:01,491 --> 01:39:03,160 and capricious God to invent. 1613 01:39:03,695 --> 01:39:06,430 Leaving Aviva now would be unforgivable. 1614 01:39:07,464 --> 01:39:09,834 He's gonna be like a character in a Russian novel. 1615 01:39:10,601 --> 01:39:13,370 [imitating Russian accent] It was said in his later days, 1616 01:39:13,805 --> 01:39:14,772 he could be seen 1617 01:39:15,740 --> 01:39:20,110 walking arm in arm with his frail wife 1618 01:39:20,510 --> 01:39:21,645 in the park 1619 01:39:22,479 --> 01:39:23,547 of a Sunday, 1620 01:39:24,782 --> 01:39:26,149 taking in the air. 1621 01:39:26,918 --> 01:39:29,887 A faraway look in his hollow eyes. 1622 01:39:31,421 --> 01:39:33,223 Like two ghosts. 1623 01:39:33,791 --> 01:39:35,392 Without purpose 1624 01:39:35,793 --> 01:39:37,427 or destination. 1625 01:39:39,396 --> 01:39:42,299 They've wondered through the land of the living... 1626 01:39:42,332 --> 01:39:43,433 [Eden] Please! 1627 01:39:50,775 --> 01:39:52,777 [solemn music continues] 1628 01:40:18,002 --> 01:40:20,437 [Eden] I can't do this anymore. 1629 01:40:26,576 --> 01:40:27,611 I know. 1630 01:40:31,816 --> 01:40:33,383 Did you meet someone? 1631 01:40:36,520 --> 01:40:37,621 [Eden] Yes. 1632 01:40:41,358 --> 01:40:42,459 In Los Angeles? 1633 01:40:46,530 --> 01:40:47,631 [Eden] Yes. 1634 01:40:54,504 --> 01:40:55,539 [sighs] 1635 01:40:57,441 --> 01:40:59,409 Will you stay with me long enough 1636 01:40:59,977 --> 01:41:03,480 to help me go through some of the doctor's appointments? 1637 01:41:05,883 --> 01:41:07,885 So I can figure out what's what? 1638 01:41:10,922 --> 01:41:14,424 [Eden narrating] He stays for six weeks before he takes off. 1639 01:41:15,559 --> 01:41:17,461 As for his thing with Isadora, 1640 01:41:18,462 --> 01:41:19,396 pfft. 1641 01:41:19,697 --> 01:41:20,865 I end it in five. 1642 01:41:23,567 --> 01:41:24,836 Payback's a bitch! 1643 01:41:26,771 --> 01:41:28,673 He'll never forgive me for it. 1644 01:41:29,473 --> 01:41:30,808 Fuck him! 1645 01:41:30,842 --> 01:41:32,542 What's he ever really done for me? 1646 01:41:32,944 --> 01:41:35,312 Other than a few brief misfires. 1647 01:41:35,847 --> 01:41:37,682 He and I are in a relationship now. 1648 01:41:37,715 --> 01:41:38,883 Only with each other. 1649 01:41:39,516 --> 01:41:40,918 Not much of a relationship. 1650 01:41:42,519 --> 01:41:43,821 More like a détente, 1651 01:41:45,388 --> 01:41:46,456 a cold war. 1652 01:41:46,891 --> 01:41:48,358 No major blow ups 1653 01:41:49,559 --> 01:41:52,429 without any outside forces to instigate discord or strife, 1654 01:41:53,765 --> 01:41:55,499 but a lot of lonely nights 1655 01:41:55,800 --> 01:41:56,901 and internet porn, 1656 01:41:57,668 --> 01:41:58,870 which weirdly enough, 1657 01:41:59,402 --> 01:42:01,271 I think I'm more into than he is. 1658 01:42:03,540 --> 01:42:04,776 As for Aviva... 1659 01:42:11,048 --> 01:42:12,917 [dramatic music] 1660 01:42:14,752 --> 01:42:16,087 She finished her movie 1661 01:42:16,120 --> 01:42:18,288 after a slow and painful year of rehab. 1662 01:42:18,555 --> 01:42:20,858 Achieved with an iron will and courage, 1663 01:42:21,092 --> 01:42:23,661 and an immense tolerance for suffering. 1664 01:42:30,500 --> 01:42:32,069 I've seen it a hundred times. 1665 01:42:35,372 --> 01:42:38,642 And Aviva's capacity for acceptance and forgiveness 1666 01:42:39,043 --> 01:42:42,013 is as vast as the ocean she once crossed 1667 01:42:42,046 --> 01:42:43,781 in order to share her life with me. 1668 01:42:46,449 --> 01:42:49,921 And not a day will pass without a message or a call between us. 1669 01:42:50,453 --> 01:42:52,890 And we will work together and play together 1670 01:42:54,926 --> 01:42:56,794 and grow closer than ever before. 1671 01:43:06,938 --> 01:43:07,972 [wind howling] 1672 01:43:11,776 --> 01:43:13,643 [music stops] 1673 01:43:14,846 --> 01:43:15,980 And one day... 1674 01:43:17,514 --> 01:43:18,615 [comedian] Where is she? 1675 01:43:19,183 --> 01:43:21,651 My girlfriend's out there tonight. 1676 01:43:21,686 --> 01:43:22,787 Where? 1677 01:43:23,587 --> 01:43:24,856 There she is. 1678 01:43:24,889 --> 01:43:26,724 Bon jour, mon amour. 1679 01:43:26,757 --> 01:43:28,993 - Bonsoir. - [comedian] Bonsoir. 1680 01:43:29,026 --> 01:43:30,061 What? 1681 01:43:30,094 --> 01:43:32,163 Don't nothing rhyme with soir, baby. 1682 01:43:32,196 --> 01:43:34,732 I don't know what to call you now. 1683 01:43:34,765 --> 01:43:37,034 My girl is French. Crazy, too. 1684 01:43:37,068 --> 01:43:39,436 Got me dancing under active volcanos 1685 01:43:39,469 --> 01:43:41,438 and all type of bridges and whatnot... 1686 01:43:41,471 --> 01:43:43,908 She's charming as hell though, got my heart like 1687 01:43:43,941 --> 01:43:45,508 [thud] 1688 01:43:46,610 --> 01:43:47,778 [thuds] 1689 01:43:50,181 --> 01:43:51,816 She's complicated. 1690 01:43:51,849 --> 01:43:54,051 Not only is she French, she's Jewish, got an attitude 1691 01:43:54,085 --> 01:43:55,753 and she feels guilty about it. 1692 01:43:55,786 --> 01:43:57,487 And I feel guilty too, 1693 01:43:57,520 --> 01:43:58,990 I drive a German car. 1694 01:43:59,623 --> 01:44:01,625 The Jewish and German people have a history 1695 01:44:01,659 --> 01:44:02,894 I don't fully understand. 1696 01:44:02,927 --> 01:44:05,029 All I know is that when she's in the car 1697 01:44:05,062 --> 01:44:06,764 I can't turn the heat on without hearing shit 1698 01:44:06,797 --> 01:44:08,766 about her grandmother. 1699 01:44:08,799 --> 01:44:10,134 She gives me this look like... 1700 01:44:10,167 --> 01:44:13,204 And I'm like, "Sorry, I didn't kill your family! 1701 01:44:13,237 --> 01:44:15,940 I'm just enjoying the precision and cold-blooded 1702 01:44:15,973 --> 01:44:18,109 technical efficiency of those who did." 1703 01:44:18,776 --> 01:44:19,810 Is that so wrong? 1704 01:44:20,244 --> 01:44:21,779 [laughing] 1705 01:44:22,713 --> 01:44:25,917 When she laughs at a guy's jokes, she's not pretending. 1706 01:44:26,684 --> 01:44:28,485 Oh, he's amazing, right? 1707 01:44:29,519 --> 01:44:30,788 He loves you. 1708 01:44:33,124 --> 01:44:34,125 He does. 1709 01:44:35,492 --> 01:44:36,661 And he's the best. 1710 01:44:36,694 --> 01:44:38,896 [crowd laughing] 1711 01:44:42,900 --> 01:44:44,769 It was a great show. 1712 01:44:45,602 --> 01:44:47,738 [inaudible chatter] 1713 01:44:55,713 --> 01:44:57,614 I need to tell you something. 1714 01:44:58,749 --> 01:44:59,817 Excuse me. 1715 01:45:12,997 --> 01:45:14,699 I'm going to have a baby. 1716 01:45:24,541 --> 01:45:25,743 When? 1717 01:45:28,245 --> 01:45:29,747 Seven months. 1718 01:45:42,625 --> 01:45:44,128 Everything's gonna change. 1719 01:45:47,164 --> 01:45:49,233 Everything is always changing. 1720 01:45:49,266 --> 01:45:51,068 [emotional music] 1721 01:45:56,040 --> 01:45:56,974 Hello. 1722 01:45:57,274 --> 01:45:58,809 Hello. 1723 01:46:08,753 --> 01:46:10,653 [inaudible chatter] 1724 01:46:53,397 --> 01:46:55,166 [emotional music continues] 1725 01:48:04,435 --> 01:48:06,070 [melancholy music] 1726 01:49:11,969 --> 01:49:13,837 You are my best friend 1727 01:49:14,205 --> 01:49:15,472 in the world. 1728 01:49:49,306 --> 01:49:51,308 [melancholy music fades] 1729 01:50:22,668 --> 01:50:27,668 Subtitles by explosiveskull 1730 01:50:30,614 --> 01:50:35,085 ♪ Tears are clouding Up a sunny day ♪ 1731 01:50:38,389 --> 01:50:40,958 ♪ And I wish I'd turn up ♪ 1732 01:50:41,292 --> 01:50:44,194 ♪ Any other way ♪ 1733 01:50:46,330 --> 01:50:48,966 ♪ But I don't think That you'd care ♪ 1734 01:50:50,401 --> 01:50:53,070 ♪ If I stepped out Of your hair ♪ 1735 01:50:54,071 --> 01:51:00,244 ♪ And you'd find me Anywhere but here ♪ 1736 01:51:01,078 --> 01:51:05,082 ♪ I wish it wasn't so ♪ 1737 01:51:07,885 --> 01:51:14,425 ♪ I'll say it again I Wish it wasn't so ♪ 1738 01:51:16,126 --> 01:51:18,562 ♪ But I don't think That you'd mind ♪ 1739 01:51:20,264 --> 01:51:22,966 ♪ If I left this room behind ♪ 1740 01:51:24,134 --> 01:51:27,504 ♪ And I'd step outside to find ♪ 1741 01:51:28,639 --> 01:51:31,442 ♪ Some other place ♪ 1742 01:51:38,282 --> 01:51:44,588 ♪ Let's say that it's okay ♪ 1743 01:51:44,621 --> 01:51:51,395 ♪ And just leave it at that ♪ 1744 01:51:58,001 --> 01:52:03,340 ♪ Things are different Than they seem ♪ 1745 01:52:05,509 --> 01:52:08,178 ♪ Everybody's looking From the outside ♪ 1746 01:52:08,212 --> 01:52:12,249 ♪ But we're both Stuck within ♪ 1747 01:52:13,718 --> 01:52:16,286 ♪ And I wish that You would say ♪ 1748 01:52:17,421 --> 01:52:20,124 ♪ That you wanted me to stay ♪ 1749 01:52:21,492 --> 01:52:25,629 ♪ And we'll find Some other way ♪ 1750 01:52:27,264 --> 01:52:29,333 ♪ But this ♪ 1751 01:52:31,468 --> 01:52:38,375 ♪ Let's say that it's okay ♪ 1752 01:52:38,409 --> 01:52:45,149 ♪ And just leave it at that ♪ 1753 01:53:06,003 --> 01:53:08,439 ♪ Maybe I could wait ♪ 1754 01:53:09,473 --> 01:53:12,109 ♪ But I think that It's too late ♪ 1755 01:53:13,510 --> 01:53:17,147 ♪ So let's just call it fate ♪ 1756 01:53:19,183 --> 01:53:20,951 ♪ From here ♪ 1757 01:50:20,951 --> 01:53:20,951 A Sub From "MSMOVIESBD.COM" 1758 00:30:00,000 --> 00:35:00,000 A Sub From "MSMOVIESBD.COM" 1759 01:05:00,000 --> 01:10:00,000 A Sub From "MSMOVIESBD.COM" 1760 120735

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