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Just before 8:30,

I got a phone call, and it was
Dave,

and he said that that he just
wanted to go

and get some coffee,

and he asked me if I wanted to
meet him,

and... I said that I was
just about to go into the,

into a meeting, and that I
couldn't, I couldn't do it,

and I said, "I love you and talk
to you later".

And that was the last time I
ever spoke to him.

It was amazing, and
you know,

it was that kind of crazy love
story where we would finish

each other's sentences...

We were so alike,

like but some people say
opposites attract,

but for me, it was different.

It was like he and I were almost
the same person.

Sometimes he was
explosive, but it was,

it was definitely a love story.

That day, I didn't
just lose Dave.

I lost myself.

How are you?

I get hot when
they do this.

We have like...

I don't know, eight? Eight left?

It's the morning of
September 11th,

and we're all gonna go to the
official ceremony at the site,

and we hope to make it there by
the first moment of silence at 8:46.

It's one of the hardest
experiences of my life

to go down that ramp every
anniversary,

but I do it for Dave because I,
I knew he,

he wants me to be there, but let
me show you something.

Dave and I met outside the World
Trade Center

when he stole my cab.

So, every year when I go to the
site,

I bring a New York City cab with
me,

and I put it in the reflection
pool

so that he knows that I remember
that day.

Some of my
co-workers had families,

they that had little kids, and
they died, and I didn't.

So, why?

Why? Why am I special? Why, why
was I spared?

Why didn't they make it? Why
was, why did I make it?

Was it God? Was it faith?

Was it because we have something
to do?

Was it because we were sheltered
by the elevator machinery?

It just makes you go crazy.

You go crazy asking yourself
why, why, why?

People kept saying how
blessed I was,

and I didn't feel blessed at
all.

I felt like it was a curse.

Survivor guilt made me feel
that,

made me actually go from the
question,

"Why did I survive?"

to "Why did I have to survive?"

I don't know how
to describe it.

It, it's sort of a pain in my,
in my, my, gut, you know,

and I remember actually doubling
over realizing,

"Oh, my God, those three people
were all on my side,

and I didn't get them out".

It's so hard to get
past being alive

when all these people aren't,
and I've had people say to me,

you know, "Oh, you're so lucky.

You got out of there. You must
feel great".

You don't.

I woke up thinking about 9/11,
went to bed thinking about it,

dreamed about it, just couldn't
get out of it.

I mean, I just kept replaying
that day over and over

and over again.

Before I met Tania, I had talked
to, you know,

a couple of professional people,

and it really wasn't helping me.

I searched online,

and I joined the support group
that they had for survivors.

We started as an
online peer support group

where you could go into a Yahoo
group

and connect to other survivors
24 hours a day.

So, one day, you were having a
bad day,

and you would post it online,
and within 30 minutes,

you'd get 40 replies of people
saying,

"I know what you feel," you
know.

"It's okay to have those
feelings.

I'm here for you.

Just call me. Anything you
need".

Many people were having
economic problems,

health problems, just a lot of
that sense of parallel reality

that people were heavily living
through, and I think,

to a large degree, still do, and
I think it was just,

just being with other people

and talking about this stuff
helped.

I had many
conversations with Tania,

just one-on-one conversations,

but she gave me a lot of support
like nobody else had.

I admired her from the
very beginning

how strong she seemed, and at
the same time,

once I started to get to know
her,

then I realized this whole
strength thing that she shows

is really a facade.

She's really in pain.

She's, she was, she seemed to be
really in pain...

and really, really distraught,
and, and I, and I said,

"Well, of course.

How could she not be?"

When I first heard
Tania's story,

she did not talk about it much,
and then one day,

she just wrote it out in its
entirety,

and it blew me away.

I mean, you know, we had all
been through horrible things,

but Tania's was just, just head
and shoulders

above anything else that any of
us had gone through.

I started seeing
these flames, and I was like,

"Something's happening in the
other tower".

And I started thinking about
Dave right away.

I, the first thing I did was
starting to count floors

down from, from the top.

He was on the hundredth floor,
and I was like,

"Oh, my God, his floor is one of
the floors that has been hit".

A woman started screaming,
"There's another plane coming.

There's another plane coming".

The first thing I felt was,

was the, the air was sucked out
of my lungs like a,

like a change in pressure.

I, then I was flying.

I was flying through the air
from the impact.

I was just flying.

I remember very well the pain of
hitting the wall,

the marble wall, and then I,

then I remember the warmth from,

from the explosion, and then I
passed out.

My back was, was on fire and my
arm, and I was,

I was smelling my own skin
burning.

I remember Welles Crowder, the
man with the red bandanna.

He had some type of cloth,

and I felt him use that to, to
put the flames out,

and um, he hugged me, and he
said...

"Just stay awake. Stay awake.
Help is coming".

I was, I was in the hospital
until Thanksgiving,

November, 2001, and my back was
really burned

and my arm was burned and I
couldn't walk.

So, I was in a wheelchair.

I couldn't even pull myself on
the wheelchair

because I only had one good arm.

So, you know, between the
wheelchair, the trauma,

the loss, I didn't know where
to start.

It was just too hard.

It was like looking at a
mountain

that was 20,000 feet tall.

My story was so
insignificant

to what she went through that my
first reaction

writing to her was, "That's
horrible,"

and, "I don't belong in this
group,"

and a lot of people wrote that,
and she was very supportive,

saying, "No, you do.

You know, what we all went
through was equally important".

She was fabulous.

Here's this person who went
through so much

that who in the world could
possibly survive this,

yet she's a survivor.

Here she is. She's a survivor!

I think you find
that by talking to other people

and helping others, getting
involved,

it helps carry your own burden,

and I think that's how you mask
it.

You, you kind of, um hide your
pain

by getting involved helping
others.

I became aware of
Tania,

and I was very curious as to how
she got through all that.

It was a story that pulled you
in, obviously.

But I did notice that her arm
was, looked like it had been,

I don't know, it almost looked
like skin grafts

on her right arm,

and I remember thinking that it
didn't look like

it had been burned.

I had felt mad at
myself for even thinking

that there was something amiss,

but I often wonder why I was
even asking the question.

I first
encountered Tania Head

on the Internet group.

We began having an email
conversation,

and she shared her story with
me,

and I shared my story with her,

which is kind of normal for
survivors to do.

I was struck by how dramatic her
story was.

It was pervasive.

It was this idea of this person
who had gone through so much,

and, and people try to protect
her a lot,

and I think I probably had a
protective feeling

right from the start.

I had met Gerry
Bogacz,

and Gerry was also meeting with
survivors.

He had started having dinner
with people in his office

who were interested in meeting
and discussing

their September 11th experience.

I had the idea for
the Survivors' Network because,

again, I had this feeling of
having a hole I needed to fill

about 9/11 in me.

I suggested that she come to a
meeting

of the Survivors' Network as a
way of bringing,

bringing these two groups
together,

and that was the first time I
had met her in person.

We ended up going
for coffee that same day,

and we started to unite forces,

and we formed the World Trade
Center Survivors' Network.

I was driven. I'd been working
non-stop.

I'd been working at my work,
for, for my work.

I'd been working for the
Survivors' Network, for the,

for Dave's foundation, for the
widows' group.

I mean, I had just been working
24 hours a day

non-stop for different things,

and that's how my anger was
channeled

because of this obsession that I
had to,

to really not be like the
hijackers.

I think Tania's
presence

made the docent program that we
had envisioned possible.

Her story kind of fit into that
kind of all-encompassing

survivor and a hero and, you
know, a widow

and everything that kind of 9/11
came to represent on that day.

So, her story was incredible.

I would call
her just an energetic booster

for the needs of the survivor
community.

She genuinely wanted recognition
for the Survivor Network

and the survivor community to
recognize not only

what they had gone through and
attest to that,

but to provide a venue for them
to feel like this is theirs.

And from there, I
started going down on my own.

I've seen Sting, because I love
Sting.

We didn't have
access to the site,

so that initial ability to
actually go into the site was,

was a very powerful experience,

and it was very much appreciated
that Tania

was able to make those
arrangements.

It was amazing that she
survived.

So, you were just thankful, you
know, to look at her

and see people recover and heal

and do amazing stuff with their
life.

She had a tremendous
sense of humor

and laughed a lot

and always wanted to plan
another event

and do important things,

and one couldn't help but be
drawn into that.

Tania, you did a
great job.

Thank you.

Are you
comfortable?

Hey Tania? Walk, walk...

I think these reporters
are waiting for you.

No.

You don't,
don't have to.

After we finished the
tour,

we were getting ready to leave,

and a group of reporters came
towards Tania.

They wanted to get an interview.

Tania started having a lot of
anxiety.

She was like out of control...

...and actually led up to a
full-blown panic attack.

Just go, walk quick, Tania, walk quick.

Okay.

Like totally breaking
down, crying,

shaking, and I had to tell the
reporters to leave her alone,

and I had to get her out of
there.

If you don't
wanna talk, we don't talk.

One day I came home
from work,

and what I found was rose petals
leading from the door

to our dining room, and I
followed the rose petals,

and I found Dave standing there

with a coconut bra and a grass
skirt,

dancing to Hawaiian songs, and I
was like, "Oh, my God".

And he had, even cooked this
really disgusting Hawaiian food,

recipes that he had found on the
internet.

and on the dining table were
two,

were two tickets to Hawaii
leaving the next day.

He'd planned this whole
amazing trip

because she was busy working,
and he wanted to take her away

and had her measurements sent
and made her this beautiful,

white dress, and her parents
came from California over there

to witness the ceremony.

It wasn't a, a, a legal
ceremony.

It was like a just a ceremony of
a wedding.

I walked outside,

and there were these four huge
Hawaiian warriors with torches

waiting for me outside, and
they, I'm like,

"What's going on?"

And they're like, "No, we're
escorting you down the,

down the garden aisle".

And I go I'm like, "Okay".

So, I followed them, and we went
all the way to the beach,

and there was Dave standing in
the middle

of a circle of orchids.

And the next morning,

we started calling all our
friends and families,

telling them we had gotten
Maui-ed,

not married but Maui-ed.

Whenever she talked
about Dave,

she never showed any pictures or
anything.

We never met Dave's family.

So, the thought crossed my mind,

"What if she's one of these
people

who just never tells the truth,

and she just made everything
up?"

You know, the, the thought
crossed my mind,

but I didn't think it was
possible.

So, what I did was, I was about
to go to bed that night,

and I figured, "You know what?

Let me just look online,

do a little research on part of
her story,

make sure there was a connection
and see the story's true,

go to bed".

And he existed.

He was where she said he was,
and, you know,

he died on that day.

There were a lot of newspaper
articles, message boards.

He's a very popular guy,

but there was one thing that
wasn't there,

any mention of Tania anywhere.

No mention of a fianc�, no
mention of the trip to Hawaii

that she talked about the month
before,

I mean, just no mention of
anything that she said.

She was in love with American
people and the United States.

Okay, come on.

Come on.

You're a good boy.

Yes, you are a good boy, and you
love your cookies,

and it shows.

Bang.

Okay.

That's not totally dead, but.

Well, he's been wearing a red
bandanna

since we've had him, really.

When we lost Welles, we put it
on him,

and he's always wear, worn, worn
one.

Yes, you have. Yes, you have.

You're a good boy.

I first heard the name Tania
Head

when a friend of ours who we'd
gotten to know,

a very lovely woman who
volunteers down at Ground Zero,

called me and said, "Alison, I
think I've,

I've, I've, I've met someone,

I've heard of someone else who
Welles saved.

This woman at Ground Zero was
leading the tour,

and she started sharing a story
about how

the Man in the Red Bandanna
saved her.

I said, "Oh, oh, that's
wonderful.

You know, we would love to, to
meet her".

Tania, I remember the
first time we talked about it.

I asked her, "Do you know that
guy with the red bandanna

that they were talking about?"

And she said, "Yeah, he saved my
life".

And then she
came to me, and she said,

"Well, she's a little reluctant
to meet with you.

She's had some unfortunate
experiences with other families

being very angry that she
survived

and their loved ones didn't,

and she would like to meet with
you but very privately.

It has to be very privately".

I said, "Well, fine". You know,
"We'll meet.

We're members of the Princeton
Club and have dinner there".

She seemed very grateful, and we
were, you know, very pleased.

It was a beautiful thing.

We were, we were very moved that
she, she'd been saved,

and, and obviously, it meant so
much to her.

I find that family
members

of people who were killed, they
wanna know what happened,

but I just, I just don't wanna
put those images

into their, their heads.

They don't, they don't, they
don't have to know.

They don't have to know how
their loved ones died.

I think it's, it's better if, if
they just don't know

because I saw so much suffering
on that floor to the,

to the degree where it's just,
it's just something that I,

I don't wanna share with anyone.

I'm just kind of been keeping it
to myself.

It's, it's a secret that you
carry with you, it's, and,

and it becomes a burden because
you can't really share

with a lot of people out there.

Who, who wants to, who wants to
talk about body parts

and blood and carnage?

There's nobod...

there's not that many people you
can talk to about that.

My head was covered.

But when the second plane
crashed,

I had to run for my life.

Okay, this was tower
number two, the South Tower,

the second tower to get hit.

They were 110 stories each.

They were so tall that sometimes
the people

who came into work that worked
on the upper floors

looked down at the clouds.

This is one of the most
important things that I do

with my life.

I'm a survivor from September
11th,

and I finally found a purpose.

I know why I'm here,

and it's to talk to people like
you that come

and wanna hear our stories.

So, that's very important to me.

This is Tania.

Tania's also a survivor.

She's also Spanish speaking.

So, she has offered to help.

Okay.

She's also a survivor,

and she's also one of my best
friends.

I met Tania...

Tania and Linda were
like sisters.

They just, every time we had any
kind of event,

whether it was, you know, like
an official meeting

or any time we went out
socially,

those two were always together.

Let's show him what
regular people

at the U.S. Open do.

You ready?

Yeah.

Let's show him now what
survivors

do when they go to the U.S.
Open.

Checking out for
planes

taking off from LaGuardia.

We're watching the planes
take off from LaGuardia.

That's good.

Tania taught me how to
live life with grace,

with courage, with the strength
to overcome, to me,

some of the scariest things that
I've ever faced

in my entire life.

I don't wanna live my
life based on

what happened to me.

I wanna live my life like
Tania's living her life,

like going out and helping other
people and doing something good

with my really horrible
experience.

We had a very
beautiful bronze sculpture

of a phoenix bird rising from
the World Trade Center

with our message that, you know,
good will prevail,

that, that good will rise from
the ashes like the phoenix

and prevail.

So, we were dedicating that
sculpture at church,

and we invited Tania to come.

Tania was
on that 78th Floor sky lobby,

and she's here with us today,
thank God,

and I'm gonna ask her now if she
would speak a little for you.

I remember when we got to
his service,

Tania was a nervous wreck.

She couldn't get up.

She couldn't read the piece, and
she had asked me to read it.

When Alison and Jeff asked me to
speak today,

I sat down staring at a blank
screen, and I cried,

unable to find the words, the
right words to say.

What exactly do you say to the
family of the man

who saved your life and gave his
in the process?

Welles was my hero, too, because
he saved Tania.

And I found myself flying
through the air

and I eventually crashed against
the marble wall.

It was all part
of this beautiful service

that was filled with love and
hope and just,

we were so moved, really moved.

Hey, Welles, I'm
prepared.

I was almost
paralyzed.

The things they were saying
about our son, Welles,

were so beautiful and so
powerful,

and they said over and over
again,

"You have no idea, truly, what
your son faced".

We believe that good, that the
good of the human spirit is

far more powerful than the evil
that happened that day.

Now that Dave is
gone,

because we were gonna have that
wedding on October 12,

we never really filed the
marriage certificate

here in New York.

So, in the eyes of the laws, we
weren't married.

There was no need for us to file
it because we were gonna

get married here October 12.

So, when he died, that was a
huge problem for me,

but I was able to solve that
with the help of a lawyer,

and a judge... ended up
marrying us posthumously,

which was the saddest thing in
the world to become a widow,

you know, like that, but it's
strange.

Tania, this year, was
very, very distant

from all of us.

And she had been in denial for
years about her husband dying.

There was times when I
was concerned

that she would hurt herself,

maybe commit suicide because she
would sometimes say

that she wanted to die,

and a couple of the other board
members and I

would talk about that,

and we were concerned at times
that she might

take her own life.

Tania was in the middle
of doing

this very intensive therapy
called flooding

to face Dave's death.

You would tell your
story to a therapist,

and you would record it,

And you have to keep
reliving over and over again

the experience of the tragic or
traumatic event

that went through your life.

She tape recorded her experience
from September 11th.

I heard the engines.

I saw people pray.

You knew that you were gonna
die,

and I was just praying, please
don't let this hurt.

Please don't let this hurt.

I would be behind her,

and she would start circling
around,

and the tape would play, "Oh, my
God.

Oh, my God, the plane is coming.

The plane is coming," and it
would literally crash.

And I could tell you, I could
visualize the stuff,

listening to her talk about it.

She would recount how her
assistant was decapitated,

how everyone around her was, was
burnt.

She told me that her arm was
completely severed,

that there was just one little
piece of skin right here

that where it was hanging off,

and some man started tugging on
her arm,

and she was screaming and crying
because she was afraid

that this man was gonna pull her
arm off,

and she told me that she took
her arm,

and she tucked it into her coat

to keep it from falling off her
body.

And she'd start crying harder
and harder,

and she would just, she'd be a
wreck,

and I would be trying to hold
her up,

like I didn't know what to do. I
didn't know what to do.

Right now, even talking about
this,

I get so worked up that I start
going

into so much anxiety over this,

but I did this for her because
she was gonna get better.

The nightmares were so bad.

In fact, they were worse.

I started incorporating what she
had told me on the tape

into my nightmares, and there
wasn't almost a night

that I didn't have a building
collapsing on me.

When I finally told her,

"Tania, I've got to stop doing
the flooding exercise with you,"

she told me that I was a
horrible friend,

and I was so selfish.

How could I be such a selfish
person?

Didn't I realize what she went
through?

Didn't I realize that the trauma
that she had sustained

was so much worse than the
trauma I had sustained?

I mean, how can, how can I live
with that?

I actually became very
worried about Linda

because I know Linda's still
working through her own stuff.

So, I was worried that Linda
would be that much involved

with someone whom I came to
realize

was not doing well at all and,
and seemed to be getting worse.

Okay, folks,
welcome everyone

to our walk today that's gonna
be recognizing

all the members of the 9/11
community,

the victims and their families,

the rescuers and recovery
workers.

The walk has been organized by
the World Trade Center

Survivors' Network.

It's an amazing organization in
that

there's no real hierarchy to it.

Everybody just gets together and
does the work,

and I do wanna recognize the
coordinators of this,

Tania Head.

Tania began to
tell me

that people in the network were
saying that they had

had some concerns with things
that I was doing.

There were people who had told
her

that I was not representing
survivors aggressively enough.

Then, the board of the, of the
network basically called me in

and told me what their concerns
were.

A primary person in that whole
conversation was Tania.

It was Tania who was basically
running this meeting.

Tania was frightened of
Gerry,

that he was a hard worker,

and, he started the Survivors'
Network,

and I think she knew that she
couldn't manipulate him.

So, she kind of manipulated
everybody else to go

against him so that she could
get him out.

She had me thinking that
Gerry was bad

for the organization.

Yet, in my heart, I adore Gerry.

I, still to this day, I adore
and love Gerry.

He's such a good person, but you
have to sometimes

separate yourself from you as a
person

and you as part of an
organization,

and that's what we had to do.

And...
personally, I'm very proud of,

of this organization and the
people who are in it.

They've done a great deal of
work...

We were having our annual
elections for the board,

and the night before the
election meeting,

Tania called me and started to
talk to me about,

"You don't really wanna come to
this meeting, now, do you?"

You know, that type of thing,
and I started talking.

I said, "Yeah, no, I'm, I, I
wanna be there,"

and so forth, and then I
realized

through the conversation that
what she was really saying

Is that I wasn't going to be
elected to the board,

or re-elected to the board.

I even said it to her.

I said, "You're telling me I'm
not gonna be re-elected,"

and she was kind of quiet, and I
said,

"Well, I'm still gonna be
there".

The next day, I went to
the meeting,

and, in fact, I wasn't
re-elected to the board,

and I left at that point.

I remember standing at the bus
stop waiting for the bus home,

and, you know, having a physical
reaction to it,

just feeling shaken, totally
shaken but not in a,

in a psychological way, a
physical way,

actually shaking and just
wondering

how I had managed to alienate
all those people,

you know, and, and, and part of
me was sort of beginning

to rebel against it.

There was some anger there, too,
like,

what, what, what just happened?

But it was mostly self-doubt.

It was mostly like, what did I
do here?

How, how did this happen?

The next day, they came out with
a press release,

which described the new board
with Tania as the president,

offices we didn't have before.

So, there was this mysterious
quality to it, too.

I just couldn't put all these
pieces together

and figure out why did it come
out this way.

And I haven't really been active
with the network since.

I'm like, "Oh, my God.

I, I can't believe I'm seeing
this".

And it's like now wait a minute.

I keep trying to find one
more website

that will confirm her story,

and I'm checking and checking
and checking... Nothing.

Needless to say, I didn't get
any sleep that night,

but I sat on this information.

These people were so important
in my life.

They brought me back.

You know, they, they made me
into a human being again.

I don't what would have happened
if I'd never met them,

and I did not wanna lose that,
you know.

I, I just could see her
making all these people go away,

and I just, I couldn't do it.

I knew deep down that I was
gonna tell eventually.

You know, I just knew, but I
didn't wanna do it.

I mean, I was just too scared
because I knew the power

that she had over people.

It was a couple of days
before the sixth anniversary,

Tania came over to me.

She was frantic, and she said
that a New York Times reporter

was going to do a story on her.

They really just wanted
to do

a really nice story on her.

Six years later, where is she?

You know, that she went to
Harvard and Stanford,

she's doing all these wonderful
things.

She agreed to it, which I
was really happy about.

As time went on, as time went
on,

she kept pushing back,

and she was acting very strange
about it.

He was asking a lot of
personal questions

that she did not wanna answer,

and he was going to write a lot
of lies about her.

They were supposed to
meet,

but she said that she had
another appointment

and was gonna be late.

So, they had to cancel that.

So, he called her up,
and she got very upset

and hung up on him.

She called me and said, "He's
asking me these questions,

and why is he asking me all
these questions?"

And I say, "Well, you don't have
to answer them.

It's okay".

We got a call
from a reporter, David Dunlap,

at The New York Times, and he
said, "Hi".

And he said,

"I'm writing this story about
Tania Head,

and, you know, we just need,

there's a couple things we can't
quite put into place here".

My immediate reaction to his
call was,

"Why are you harassing this
woman?

She's been through so much".

I started to
answer their questions,

and about a quarter of the way
in,

I realized that this wasn't just
a piece.

This was an investigation.

As The New York Times was
harassing Tania

with phone call after phone
call,

she told me that Merrill Lynch
had arranged

a family conference at the St.
Regis.

There were 11 co-workers that
had died with her,

and these families wanted to
know how their loved ones died.

She was so afraid.

There were people that she told
me

had stalked her over the years.

She called me that morning
hysterically crying, and said,

"Linda, I need you to come in
now.

These people are so mean to me.

They're screaming at me".

I ran out of my
apartment. I hailed a taxi.

I went right into the St. Regis
Hotel,

and I found her laying on the
side of the hotel,

and she kept repeating,

"I tried to get these people
out.

I tried to save them.

I tried to save them all,"

and she was crying and shaking
and a mess.

She kept telling me over the
past six months

that she was gonna try to kill
herself,

and I figured, this is the day
that she's gonna kill herself.

And I helped her up, and I said,

"Let me bring her inside to the,
to the hotel.

They probably know exactly. They
we're probably there.

They probably arranged it, and
when I went inside,

and I begged them for a quiet
place for us to sit,

they didn't even know what I was
talking about.

After a little while, she pulled
herself together,

and she asked to go the Marsh
McLennan Memorial

where her husband Dave's name
was.

And we were just touching Dave's
name over and over again,

and she was crying, but she was
calming down

because I felt like, you know,
Dave was calming her down.

Dave was calming her down.

And all of a sudden, she was
like,

"You can go home now, Linda,

It's okay. I'm gonna be all
right".

She begged me to call the
reporter

and tell him to stop.

I called up, and I left a
message saying,

"I understand you're doing a
story on her.

She does not wish to have a
story written on her.

Please respect her, her request,
her wishes".

And that was it.

And after I hung up, she started
yelling at me,

telling me that I probably just
made it worse

by telling him that.

If he writes lies, you can just
verify.

All you have to do is just get
Dave's parents to speak up

and all his friends.

I called him up, and I
said,

"You know, this is a really
difficult time of the year.

Can you please wait until after
the anniversary?

See, she said that she would do
the interview then".

He was screaming on the phone to
me one day.

He's like goes, "Why can't you
just answer the questions?"

She was driving us
absolutely crazy.

She would call us constantly
several times a day

to talk about this stuff, and,
of course,

everybody kept saying,

"Just talk to The Times already.

What is your problem?"

I remember the night
before

September 11th anniversary.

She always had a barbecue at her
house.

And Tania seemed to be
having

a lot of difficulty with
something.

You know, she was crying,

running out of the barbecue and
everything.

"The Times keeps calling
me.

The Times keeps calling me," or
whatever.

She was no longer even connected
to us as friends.

She was so caught up in her own
mania.

She was sitting outside
with Janice,

crying hysterically, saying,

"They're, they're asking all
these questions.

They're fact checking.

They're questioning my story".

And I remember thinking to
myself

what horrible people they are.

I'm thinking, "This
guy's on to her,"

because there's no reason why
she should be

so uncomfortable about this.

Here's Linda, supposedly,
this is the,

this is, this is the sixth
anniversary.

Linda should be in her own
stuff,

and she's worried about Tania
crying.

I begged her.

I begged her to give me
something,

a piece of evidence that I could
go to to The New York Times.

I begged her, "Give me the name
of the firefighter

that carried you out that
morning, the one that was,

that you were handed off to

and threw you underneath that
fire truck

when the tower came down right
on West Street.

You told me that story a million
times.

You and that firefighter
survived".

Everybody else in Tania's story
had died.

I begged her for the name of
that firefighter,

and she wouldn't give it to me.

She would not give me the name
of that firefighter.

She wouldn't.

I had suggested to her
to get an attorney.

I said, "Why don't you get
yourself an attorney?

This way then you know what your
rights are".

As we were going up in the
elevator, she says,

"Okay, Janice, I'm gonna tell
you my story.

I'm not a U.S. citizen.

That's why I can't say anything
to the reporters".

So, I said, "It doesn't matter
to me

you're not a U.S. citizen, you
know.

That's okay.

I don't think anybody will mind
that

you're not a U.S. citizen".

So, we went into the lawyer's
office,

and the lawyer said that I
didn't have

client privilege rights,

so that if, if it was okay, for
me to wait outside.

And I says, "Absolutely.

I'm here just to, you know, as
her friend".

I sat outside for two hours, and
the lawyer calls me in.

She started saying things back
to Tania

that they had spoke about in the
meeting,

and as she was saying back to
Tania, you know,

"It's okay that you only knew
Dave a few months,"

and now here the story I had
known was that

she was married, and, you know,

they had this long relationship.

My life was perfect.

And it's okay, Tania,

that you were only here for the,
in the building for the day.

I worked in the
World Trade Center.

She died, and I didn't.

And I just could not
believe what I was hearing.

I was like, I actually, I think
I went into shock.

Why am I special?

Why, why was I spared? Why
didn't they make it?

I was smelling my own skin
burning.

Definitely a love story.

It feels wrong to have walked
out of there alive

when so many people didn't.

Janice called me and
asked me if I was sitting down,

and I said, "Yeah, I'm, I'm just
sitting down.

I was and having my cup of
coffee".

It was morning, and she started
telling me

that Tania is not who she said
she was.

And she was like, "Oh,
no, come on".

And I said, "Well, this is what
I heard

in the attorney's office,"

and the both of us started
looking things up.

She's not a fraud.

She's a person that's hurting.

And she said, "No, Linda".

She goes, "Her name is not what
she's been telling us.

There was no husband Dave.

She didn't even have a
relationship with Dave.

We don't even think she was in
the towers that day".

When I got the phone call,

I was at work,

and I immediately started
yelling out right in my office,

"What happened? What happened?"

Because I thought she had done
something to herself,

and I didn't wanna hear it.

I didn't wanna hear it that she
had done something to herself.

And Linda kept saying, "It's not
what you think.

It's not what you think. It's
not what you think".

And finally, she blurted out the
words,

and I wanted to hang up the
phone.

I wanted to yell at Linda and
say,

"How could you say that?

How could you say that she's a
fraud?"

We end tonight
with a story

that began on 9/11, a story of
tragedy and heroism,

survival and love.

There's just one problem.

As Jeff Glor reports, the story,
repeated many times

in the past six years, may be a
complete fabrication.

Shocked and
stunned.

The New York
Times

discovered a flood of
discrepancies.

A Manhattan woman
is under fire tonight.

Turning now to a
mysterious story

about a woman and a possible
stunning deception.

No World Trade
Center job, no fianc�,

no dramatic escape.

Merrill Lynch,

the financial management company
where she claimed to work,

had no record of her employment.

I was shocked,
you know.

I couldn't believe it. What
happened here?

Why, why did she do this,

and why did none of us question
her?

There was no evidence

that she made money off her
story,

but she certainly gained fame.

Can we talk to
you for a minute, please?

Head has now
been removed as president

of a 2,000 member organization
of Trade Center survivors.

The person that we saw

and that we believed in never
existed.

This was totally shocking,
totally shocking,

because of all the things I
would

ever think about somebody,

that's just not something that I
would think about.

You're looking at
everyone with suspicion.

If Tania can lie... anybody
could lie.

Perhaps she's evil.

Perhaps there's some thread of
evil in there.

I don't know.

Evil is not a word that ever
existed in my life

until September 11th, but I know
evil exists,

and it is possible.

Tania was my sign that
God was there that day.

I felt like God had protected
her.

Well, God's gonna protect me
also because

she beat the odds that day.

She beat all the odds that day.

So, to have that taken away from
me,

the sign that God was there that
day...

...there's a, there's nothing
that she could ever say

to me today or going forward
that will ever change the pain

and the anger, and I'm sorry,
but the hatred that I have

for that woman right now.

I don't have any room in my
heart to find sadness for her.

What she did to me, what she did
to the 9/11 community,

and what she has done to the
families,

I want answers. I want to know.

I wanna know who she is. I need
to find that out.

I wanna know who she is. I need
to find that out.

She didn't hurt anyone
physically.

She didn't sign any documents.

She did not do anything what we
would say is illegal.

It is true that
Tania never stole

any money from the, she never
made any money

from this involvement.

I don't think money was what her
objective was, frankly.

Why she's done this has
been,

everybody wonders that.

Myself, I don't know.

I think after
9/11,

we all wanted to have a piece of
it.

I mean, I think if we're being
honest with ourselves,

there was a really human, strong
desire to,

to not only give back and try to
help

but also to connect to it in
some fundamental way.

Well, I think a
lot of people used 9/11

to heal themselves.

I mean, I think 9/11 became,
oddly,

a religion for some people, you
know.

It was a way to belong.

It was a way to be part of
something bigger than themselves.

For some people
who need either some kind

of identity or some kind of
notoriety or visibility,

this became a way, in Tania's
case, I would guess,

I don't know for sure, but for
her to feel needed.

I think, you
know, my, my friends

who are widows were like, "Why
would she wanna be us?"

You know, "Why would you want to
be us?"

And, you know, having known what
we've suffered,

it, you know, that was to all of
us

a very normal response to have.

Alicia Esteve Head.

You know, when I think
about what Tania

was doing on 9/11, 2001,

she probably was just having a
regular day in Barcelona,

you know, getting up like
everyone else.

You know, someone made some form
of an announcement

that there's a terrorist attack
going on in Manhattan.

From what I can tell,
she had never been

in the World Trade Center.

It's obvious she did her
research on Dave,

whom she had never met.

I mean, she knows where her
company was located.

So, she probably did her
research on us.

She was probably just watching
us and trying to see

what we were talking about and
how we felt,

and she adopted the personality.

You know, she knew how survivors
felt

after going through something
like that,

and she became one of us.

We didn't know much
about

her present life at the time.

It would have been
actually cruel

for any one of us to question
her on anything.

It would have been downright
cruel.

I mean, she mentions
working for Merrill Lynch

and in this financial think tank
that she told us about,

but we had never been to her
office.

We had never met any of her
co-workers,

and from what I understand,

she would actually rent office
space to meet people,

and nobody ever questioned it.

Tania, to give her a
compliment,

she's the best liar I've ever
met.

I mean, she was so good at
staying on her story

that I really didn't notice any
inconsistencies

until I knew her for a couple of
years.

Had we actually compared
notes like we do now,

we would have realized something
was wrong.

She told me that she lost
her wedding ring in,

on September 11th and that
Tiffany's had replaced

the wedding ring that she had
lost.

There were
references to her fianc�

that, that changed from fianc�
to husband back to fianc�.

She even promised the
Crowthers that she

had saved a piece of her burnt
clothing and would put it

in a plaque and give it to them.

She told me on the day
that her brother died

that his wife had a baby on the
same day,

and they named the baby, Dave.

I remember I was in her
apartment one time,

and she always talked about her
dog, Elvis,

and her dog, Elvis, and her old
dog, Elvis.

And one of the times that I was
in her apartment, I said,

"Where's your dog? I never see
your dog".

And she would always have the
same answer.

"Uh, Lupe is walking him".

And I remember one day I said,

"Boy, that dog gets walked a
lot.

That's the most walked dog.

I mean, that dog must love Lupe

because she's always walking
him".

But one day, I went into the
apartment,

and I asked her, "Where's,
where's your dog?

I wanna see your dog".

And she said, "Oh, you know,
Lupe's walking him".

And I said,

"Tania, do you or don't you have
a dog?"

I got right in her face because
it bothered me

that I couldn't, I love dogs,

so, it bothered me that I
couldn't see the dog.

And she just looked at me and
went,

"Oh, yeah, of course I have a
dog".

After The Times
article, she disappeared,

and I don't know if it's because
she actually

just left the country or if
she's just been hiding well,

but really, none of us have had
any contact

with her since then.

The other thing she did
was she wrote me an email

and said, "Hello". That's it.

I saw that as her way of opening
up a line of communication.

I just deleted the email, and
that was it.

There had to be some sort
of recognition

that she was doing something
wrong,

and... and she was deviant in,
in, in that way,

but that is only something that
we see now.

That's something that we
couldn't see then.

Go across
the street.

Right over here at this
light.

See those two ladies
with the two orange hats?

Yes.

You're
gonna tell them you're family,

family members, right?

Well, we're actually all
survivors,

let me tell you, yeah.

So, you let
them know,

and they'll let you in so you
can go inside,

all right, ma'am?

Thank you.

So, follow me, guys.

No pushing, no shoving.

I just hope that she
really does get

the help she needs and that she
can live a full life.

She's a smart woman.

She's talented, and she can
offer

a lot of great stuff in this
world.

So, forgiveness, yeah.

This, there, I absolutely
forgive her.

I know we should
forgive, but I don't know.

It, it would really take a lot.

I don't think I could ever do
it.

I just, I just feel that
hurt, that wronged.

She was a
troubled person.

There were issues that drove her
to do this.

And because she was not
functioning in a normal way,

how can you hold, you know, not
forgive someone like that?

She's never
apologized.

This is all a great mystery, and
it's, it is what it is,

and, and it's not gonna affect
my life any longer.

I've already forgiven her.

Holding onto all the feelings
that I had

once I found out that she had
lied to us is

not gonna take me anywhere where
I wanna go.

We'll get through it. You know
that?

We'll get through it. You know
that.

All the things that I was
doing this year

putting this together, I was
thinking,

"Where's Tania when you need
her?"

You know what I mean?

And it just made me feel even
more upset because I'm like,

"I miss her". I really, I miss
her.

You know, I miss it like I
miss life

back on September 10th.

I miss, I miss that.

I miss, I miss the what was.

I miss the what could have been.

That's what I miss.