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[electricity crackling]
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[boy] You are never more alive
than when you’re a teenager.
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[electricity zapping]
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Your brain is flush
with chemicals
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that can turn your life into
a story of epic proportions.
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An A-minus feels like
the Pulitzer,
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a lonely Saturday night
is an eternity of solitude,
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and your lab partner becomes
the great love of your life.
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And yet, by the start
of my senior year,
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nothing interesting
or remarkable
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had ever happened to me.
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-I was grateful for my life.
-[laughs]
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I had my best friends--
all two of them...
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Relax.
You got this.
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...parents who met
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and fell in love
when they were my age,
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and my writing.
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[reading]
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But a platform was pointless
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unless I actually had
something to say.
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And I didn’t,
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because nothing worth writing
about had ever happened to me.
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[closes laptop]
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Then, on the day
I found out about the job,
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something finally happened.
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[chattering]
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[sighs]
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[man] Hi, guys.
Thanks for swinging by.
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Come on in.
You want us both?
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Yes, both of you
would be great.
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Come on.
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[man] Grace just transferred
here from East River,
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where she spent two years
writing for the Gazette.
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You both possess
remarkable depth
for writers your age.
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Which is why I think
that you two will make
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a truly dynamic
editor-in-chief duo.
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No.
What?
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Uh, one more time?
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I don’t want
to be an editor.
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But thank you.
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Um...
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Hey.
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-Why’d you say no?
-What?
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Why’d you say no?
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Why do you care?
What?
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Why do you care?
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Uh... I don’t.
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It’s just
a good opportunity
for a writer, I guess.
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I just don’t get
why you would say no.
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All right, well,
don’t let it
keep you up at night.
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[sighs]
Oh, shit.
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What?
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I just missed
my bus.
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Can’t walk?
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Um... no,
I mean, I can.
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It’s just far.
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Uh, that’s why
I take the bus.
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My house is up there.
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I have a car.
I can give you
a ride if you want.
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Yeah?
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Thanks.
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Hey, so you like
"Nehradah"?
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Neruda.
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Oh. [laughs]
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Oh. Um...
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Yeah, well,
I only read a stanza,
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but I thought
it was really beautiful.
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You think so?
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Yeah. Do you not?
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No, I just think
that’s what people say
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when they read a poem
that they don’t understand.
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Hmm.
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[sniffs]
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[Grace] Finish it.
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And let me know
if you still
feel the same way.
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[bicycle bell dings]
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[train horn blowing in distance]
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Huh.
It’s a cool place.
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How come
you walk to school
if you have a car?
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I don’t like driving.
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-Do you have a license?
-Yeah.
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["Take Care" by Beach House
playing over speakers]
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♪ I’d take care of you ♪
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It’s a good song.
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♪ If you ask me to ♪
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[song continues faintly]
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[engine and music stop]
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[birds chirping]
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You live in a house
like this,
but you don’t have a car?
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-I guess my grades aren’t
good enough for a car, so...
-Hmm.
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Thanks a lot.
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Uh...
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Well,
I’ll see you tomorrow?
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Okay.
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Henry.
What’s up, Suds?
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You, uh, just get back
or something?
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[Suds] Mmm, no.
Just leaving.
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I’m late.
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So, uh,
who’s the girl?
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-What girl?
-[Suds] The one
that drove Henry home.
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A girl
drove you home?
[chuckles]
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[Suds]
She left her car here
and walked away.
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[whispers]
Run.
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Yeah, when are you gonna
move back out again?
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Ignore her.
She’s declared war on love.
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No, just on
cheating assholes.
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Will you see him
today?
Oh, my God.
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He’s my attending,
Mom.
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I’ll see him
several times today.
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So, how was
the first day back?
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Good. Yeah.
It was good.
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Did you get it?
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[Henry]
Uh...
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-Yeah.
-[mother] Oh.
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[Suds]
Yeah, you did.
[chuckles]
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Congratulations,
sweetie.
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Nice work.
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[Suds]
Okay, got to go.
Love you, guys.
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So, who’s the girl?
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["Take Care" by Beach House
playing over speakers]
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♪ I’d take care of you ♪
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♪ If you’d ask me to ♪
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♪ In a year or two ♪
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♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
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[Henry] "I do not love you
as if you were the salt-rose,
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topaz or arrow of carnations
that propagate fire.
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I love you as certain
dark things are to be loved,
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in secret, between the shadow
and the soul."
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"...the shadow
and the soul."
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"I love you like the plant
that does not bloom,
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but carries
within itself, hidden,
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the light of those flowers."
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"...thanks to your love,
lives darkly in my body..."
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"...a certain solid fragrance
that has risen from the earth.
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I love you without knowing
how or when or from where.
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I love you straightforwardly,
without complexities or pride,
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in which there is
no you nor I,
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so close that your hand
upon my chest is mine.
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So close that your hand upon
my chest is mine.
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[sighs]
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So close that your eyes close
as I dream."
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-I have no idea what you said,
but it worked.
-What?
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I think the newspaper’s
gonna be a really
good thing for her.
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We will have four issues--
the first in November,
the last in June.
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The first three
are garden-variety
periodicals:
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hard-hitting news, sports,
features, the like.
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But the last one,
that’s where we get creative.
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With the help of the group,
Henry will choose a theme,
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and you will have
carte blanche
to explore that theme
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as you see fit.
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That last issue will be
this team’s legacy,
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an opportunity to share
your accrued wisdom
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with the students
behind you.
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I’m not just talking
about the four years
that you’ve spent
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within the walls
of this building.
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I am talking
bigger than that.
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I am talking about the totality
of your 17 years on this planet.
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Last but not least,
Grace here joins us
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from our neighboring school,
East River Preparatory,
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and will lend Henry
a helping hand
with all things editorial.
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Now, here’s what Kyle
and his team did for
last year’s final issue.
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Um, I’m sorry.
Uh, Kyle sucks.
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[laughter]
[teacher]
Very constructive, La.
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Well, okay, um...
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the final issue last year
did kind of suck.
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[quiet laughter]
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[sighs]
All right.
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[students chattering quietly]
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Um, hey,
so I don’t know
what your thoughts...
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So,
I’m not writing.
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If you have something
to say, you can just
say it yourself,
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and I’ll help with,
like, editing
and design and...
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I handle design.
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Well, everything
other than design then.
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But just not...
just not writing.
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And I’m
assistant editor,
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because apparently
you worked very hard
for this,
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so it should be
all yours.
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[Henry] Looks like
Cora’s into you again.
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Yo, what is the deal
with her?
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She’s making eyes at me,
laughing at all my jokes,
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and it’s like this
air pocket that’s, like,
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connecting us,
and it’s just filled with,
like, marshmallows,
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gummy bears, and freakin’
bubble gum and sparklies,
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and it’s just like,
if I eat it,
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I’m gonna get another cavity
like last year, and I can’t.
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Hmm,
good metaphor.
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Thank you.
I appreciate it.
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Hey, Grace.
Hankard.
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I, um...
This is our bus!
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...actually didn’t get
a chance to tell you,
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I finished that poem.
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And, um... yeah.
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I still think
it’s beautiful,
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but not in the,
uh, normal kind
of bullshit way.
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Um, which, uh,
which I think is also
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kind of what
the poem’s about,
’cause, you know,
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Neruda’s love for her
doesn’t come from,
like, uh... [sighs]
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sunshine and roses
and cliché stuff.
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You know,
it comes from,
um, her... flaws
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and her imperfections,
like, darker places.
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[La] Hankard!
Uh,
comes from...
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[boy] Come on,
you flirt!
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...I guess who she has
the potential to be
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and not just
who she is.
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So, I don’t know.
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So, beautiful in
that kind of way,
you know.
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You’re gonna
miss your bus again.
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[singsongy]
I see you.
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[rock song playing]
What’s he doing?
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[song fades]
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Um, you think I could
get another ride?
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Sure.
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♪ I’d take care of you ♪
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♪ If you’d ask me to ♪
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[car door closes]
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Thanks for letting me
drive myself home again.
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[Henry] Where do you go to?
Why do you go?
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What are your colors?
What are your moods?
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To see you, I turn.
To know you, I burn.
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[brakes squeak outside]
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[car door closes,
engine starts]
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[sighs heavily]
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[Cora speaking Spanish]
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-Okay. Bye.
-[LA whispering]
Oh, my God,
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it kills me
when she speaks Spanish.
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Don’t you want to say,
"What’s up?"
Why? So she can ghost me again?
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I mean...
See you, guys.
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Uh, see you.
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Bye.
Uh-huh.
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[Cora] Bye.
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[sighs] Fuck.
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Meh.
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Meh.
Meh-meh.
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[music playing faintly
over earbuds]
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[sighs]
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What was that little
"meh-meh" thing?
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Uh... oh,
um... um...
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[laughs]
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I just-- we--
when we’re just,
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um, I guess,
annoyed,
we just do that.
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I don’t know.
Mmm.
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Um...
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Uh, you think
you’d give me
a ride today, maybe?
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00:14:02,217 --> 00:14:05,053
Hey, do you want
to come in and hang out
or something?
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00:14:07,597 --> 00:14:09,766
I can’t today.
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00:14:09,849 --> 00:14:11,017
Okay.
248
00:14:11,101 --> 00:14:12,644
Um...
249
00:14:12,727 --> 00:14:14,854
I’ll just see you
tomorrow then, so...
Okay.
250
00:14:22,028 --> 00:14:24,155
Henry?
251
00:14:24,239 --> 00:14:25,865
Hmm?
252
00:14:26,950 --> 00:14:29,369
Meet me here
at 6:00.
253
00:14:29,452 --> 00:14:30,704
Okay.
254
00:14:30,787 --> 00:14:33,039
Yeah, I can meet--
I’ll meet you there
at 6:00.
255
00:14:33,123 --> 00:14:34,583
Yeah.
256
00:14:34,666 --> 00:14:36,459
Bring a loaf
of bread.
257
00:14:40,714 --> 00:14:42,424
[brakes squeak outside]
258
00:14:42,507 --> 00:14:44,718
[vehicle door opens, closes]
259
00:14:46,761 --> 00:14:47,762
[car door opens]
260
00:14:51,933 --> 00:14:54,686
-[Henry]
What happened to your car?
-[Grace] It’s back at my house.
261
00:14:54,769 --> 00:14:57,230
Did you drive it
back and then
you walked here?
262
00:14:57,314 --> 00:14:58,815
We don’t need it.
263
00:15:01,109 --> 00:15:03,194
-[insects trilling]
-[birds chirping]
264
00:15:51,826 --> 00:15:54,037
[water dripping]
265
00:16:02,337 --> 00:16:03,338
Come on.
266
00:16:03,421 --> 00:16:05,715
[cane thumping steadily]
267
00:16:08,635 --> 00:16:11,054
It was a cotton mill
in the 1800s,
268
00:16:11,137 --> 00:16:13,264
and then...
269
00:16:13,348 --> 00:16:18,186
they made plastic bottles
until it shut down
in 1989, I think.
270
00:16:34,411 --> 00:16:37,163
[cane thumping steadily]
271
00:16:37,247 --> 00:16:38,331
You have to be quiet.
272
00:17:16,411 --> 00:17:18,913
-[Henry] Whoa.
-Shh.
273
00:17:18,997 --> 00:17:21,124
You’ll scare them away.
274
00:17:25,336 --> 00:17:26,546
[whispers]
Come here.
275
00:17:29,549 --> 00:17:31,634
[water sloshing]
276
00:17:32,677 --> 00:17:34,179
[sighs]
277
00:17:53,698 --> 00:17:55,742
[both chuckle]
278
00:18:01,539 --> 00:18:03,249
[chuckles]
279
00:18:14,844 --> 00:18:17,263
Have you ever
had a girlfriend?
280
00:18:17,347 --> 00:18:19,307
[chuckles] Uh, no.
281
00:18:19,390 --> 00:18:21,267
Uh, not really.
282
00:18:22,018 --> 00:18:23,269
Why not?
283
00:18:24,437 --> 00:18:26,689
Uh...
You ever had
a boyfriend?
284
00:18:27,732 --> 00:18:28,983
[chuckles]
No.
285
00:18:30,443 --> 00:18:31,694
So what’s the deal?
286
00:18:31,778 --> 00:18:33,530
I don’t know.
287
00:18:33,613 --> 00:18:35,323
[laughs]
288
00:18:35,406 --> 00:18:36,699
Um...
289
00:18:38,159 --> 00:18:39,786
I’m not really good
at this stuff.
290
00:18:39,869 --> 00:18:42,872
Well, I thought
you were a writer.
291
00:18:42,956 --> 00:18:45,458
Uh... yeah,
I mean, exactly.
292
00:18:45,542 --> 00:18:47,252
I could probably
go home right now
293
00:18:47,335 --> 00:18:50,630
and write you something
about why I’ve never
had a girlfriend,
294
00:18:50,713 --> 00:18:52,674
like an essay
or whatever.
295
00:18:52,757 --> 00:18:55,969
Oh, so you just
have to edit everything.
296
00:18:56,052 --> 00:18:57,262
No,
it’s not editing.
297
00:18:57,345 --> 00:19:01,224
It’s just,
writing, I think,
sometimes helps me...
298
00:19:01,307 --> 00:19:04,978
understand myself,
I guess, ’cause...
299
00:19:05,061 --> 00:19:07,480
a lot of times,
I don’t really know
how I feel about something
300
00:19:07,564 --> 00:19:09,399
until I really sit down
and think about it.
301
00:19:09,482 --> 00:19:13,319
But, I mean,
you haven’t
shared much either.
302
00:19:14,988 --> 00:19:16,906
[sighs]
303
00:19:16,990 --> 00:19:18,491
[cane thumps]
304
00:19:18,575 --> 00:19:21,202
[water sloshes]
305
00:19:21,286 --> 00:19:22,787
[sighs]
306
00:19:24,539 --> 00:19:27,375
I did some of
my physical therapy
in a pool.
307
00:19:29,043 --> 00:19:30,503
Nine months ago,
308
00:19:30,587 --> 00:19:32,922
the car swerved
coming around a bend
309
00:19:33,006 --> 00:19:36,634
and hit the rock barrier
and the car flipped.
310
00:19:36,718 --> 00:19:39,971
Not that it really
even matters.
311
00:19:49,606 --> 00:19:51,357
When I look at that,
312
00:19:51,441 --> 00:19:54,193
it reminds me
313
00:19:54,277 --> 00:19:58,907
that people are just
the ashes of dead stars.
314
00:20:00,575 --> 00:20:03,953
We’re just a collection
of atoms that...
315
00:20:04,037 --> 00:20:06,581
come together
for a brief period
of time,
316
00:20:06,664 --> 00:20:10,251
and then...
we fall apart.
317
00:20:13,463 --> 00:20:16,507
When all of this
is over,
318
00:20:16,591 --> 00:20:20,929
and we’re dispersed back
into nothingness...
319
00:20:21,012 --> 00:20:23,014
we have
a clean slate.
320
00:20:24,682 --> 00:20:27,143
It’s like having
all of your sins
wiped away.
321
00:20:28,269 --> 00:20:30,980
Sure you don’t want
to write for the paper?
322
00:20:35,068 --> 00:20:37,737
What sins do you need
wiped away?
323
00:21:12,605 --> 00:21:14,565
[Grace]
I used to be a vandal.
324
00:21:15,733 --> 00:21:16,776
[Henry]
You did this?
325
00:21:17,986 --> 00:21:19,821
When I was 14.
326
00:21:21,864 --> 00:21:23,908
What is that,
like, Latin?
327
00:21:25,535 --> 00:21:27,870
What’s it mean?
[inhales deeply]
328
00:21:30,373 --> 00:21:34,043
I’m tired.
I’m gonna... head home.
329
00:21:34,127 --> 00:21:35,378
[sniffs]
Uh...
330
00:21:38,006 --> 00:21:39,173
Do you want me to...
331
00:21:39,257 --> 00:21:41,801
Can you find your way back?
332
00:21:41,884 --> 00:21:44,554
Yeah. Uh...
333
00:21:44,637 --> 00:21:46,389
But are you
all right?
Yeah, fine.
334
00:21:46,472 --> 00:21:49,100
Uh, thanks
for hanging out.
335
00:21:49,892 --> 00:21:51,394
Um...
336
00:21:52,687 --> 00:21:55,148
Yeah, sure. Anytime.
337
00:21:56,607 --> 00:21:58,234
[panting sharply]
338
00:21:58,317 --> 00:22:01,070
["Heart Skipped a Beat"
by The xx playing]
339
00:22:01,154 --> 00:22:02,238
[sighs]
340
00:22:07,452 --> 00:22:08,953
[vase breaks]
341
00:22:14,751 --> 00:22:18,087
♪ Please don’t say we’re done
When I’m not finished ♪
342
00:22:18,171 --> 00:22:21,382
♪ ’Cause I could give
So much more ♪
343
00:22:22,633 --> 00:22:26,429
♪ Make you feel
Like never before ♪
344
00:22:26,512 --> 00:22:29,557
♪ Welcome, they said
Welcome to the floor ♪
345
00:22:29,640 --> 00:22:31,726
♪ It’s been a while
And you’ve found... ♪
346
00:22:31,809 --> 00:22:33,144
Why are you
still up?
347
00:22:33,227 --> 00:22:36,105
Um, just working
on this.
348
00:22:39,025 --> 00:22:41,652
Is that the one
Mom and Dad got you
on your birthday?
349
00:22:41,736 --> 00:22:43,863
Mm-hmm.
350
00:22:43,946 --> 00:22:46,407
Don’t-- hey.
It’s still drying.
351
00:22:46,491 --> 00:22:47,909
Touchy, touchy,
Henry.
352
00:22:47,992 --> 00:22:49,952
♪ Sometimes I still
Need you ♪
353
00:22:50,036 --> 00:22:51,788
♪ Sometimes I still need you ♪
354
00:22:51,871 --> 00:22:53,331
♪ Sometimes I still
Need you... ♪
355
00:22:53,414 --> 00:22:57,710
It is an odd hobby
for a 17-year-old boy.
356
00:22:57,794 --> 00:23:00,630
♪ Sometimes I still need you ♪
357
00:23:09,013 --> 00:23:11,349
Did you know that, uh,
heartbreak triggers
358
00:23:11,432 --> 00:23:14,519
the same areas of the brain
as physical pain?
359
00:23:19,857 --> 00:23:22,485
When I think
about him leaving me,
360
00:23:22,568 --> 00:23:26,948
my brain sends
a distress signal
to my nervous system.
361
00:23:27,031 --> 00:23:28,282
[sobs quietly]
362
00:23:28,366 --> 00:23:31,869
And it elevates
my blood pressure
and my heart rate,
363
00:23:31,953 --> 00:23:33,663
giving me chest pains.
364
00:23:33,746 --> 00:23:36,833
[sobs]
Okay.
365
00:23:36,916 --> 00:23:38,751
♪ And I was struggling
To get in... ♪
366
00:23:38,835 --> 00:23:39,961
[sobs]
367
00:23:40,044 --> 00:23:41,754
It’s happening right now.
368
00:23:41,838 --> 00:23:44,298
[sobs]
Do you want me
to go get Mom?
369
00:23:44,382 --> 00:23:45,675
Oh, God, no,
please.
370
00:23:45,758 --> 00:23:47,468
[sniffling] Jesus.
371
00:23:47,552 --> 00:23:48,719
[groans]
372
00:23:53,391 --> 00:23:55,601
[sobbing]
373
00:24:03,609 --> 00:24:06,612
[students talking faintly,
voices echoing]
374
00:24:08,197 --> 00:24:09,615
[teacher]
Henry.
Um...
375
00:24:09,699 --> 00:24:10,992
What’s next?
Yeah.
376
00:24:11,075 --> 00:24:12,952
Um, uh, okay.
377
00:24:13,035 --> 00:24:16,539
Um, I was thinking
we all could
kind of just put out
378
00:24:16,622 --> 00:24:18,791
a few ideas of themes
for the final issue.
379
00:24:18,875 --> 00:24:20,251
No time
like the present.
380
00:24:20,334 --> 00:24:24,130
How about a trippy
Alice in Wonderland
theme?
381
00:24:24,213 --> 00:24:26,132
You know, like,
we all dropped acid
382
00:24:26,215 --> 00:24:27,884
and went down
the rabbit hole.
383
00:24:27,967 --> 00:24:30,219
Now, that’s tight.
I could work
with that.
384
00:24:30,303 --> 00:24:31,846
[exhales sharply]
385
00:24:31,929 --> 00:24:32,930
Grace?
386
00:24:34,891 --> 00:24:35,892
What?
387
00:24:35,975 --> 00:24:37,476
[teacher]
Any ideas?
388
00:24:37,560 --> 00:24:38,811
I don’t know.
389
00:24:38,895 --> 00:24:40,563
[teacher]
None?
390
00:24:40,646 --> 00:24:42,648
Yeah, that’s what
"I don’t know" means.
391
00:24:45,151 --> 00:24:46,903
Can I go to the bathroom?
I have to pee.
392
00:24:46,986 --> 00:24:48,988
Of course.
393
00:24:51,908 --> 00:24:53,576
[La]
Just ask her what’s going on.
394
00:24:53,659 --> 00:24:54,994
No,
I don’t know.
395
00:24:55,077 --> 00:24:57,622
I feel like
I don’t know her
like that yet.
396
00:24:57,705 --> 00:24:59,707
I don’t know.
You should follow her.
397
00:25:01,042 --> 00:25:02,251
What?
Yeah.
398
00:25:02,335 --> 00:25:04,253
Don’t you want to see
where she goes?
399
00:25:04,337 --> 00:25:06,839
[chuckles] Oh.
What if she’s hanging out
with her boyfriend?
400
00:25:06,923 --> 00:25:09,050
[stifled laugh]
401
00:25:10,468 --> 00:25:11,719
[laughs]
Oh, no.
402
00:25:11,802 --> 00:25:13,387
I’m not gonna
stalk her.
403
00:25:21,812 --> 00:25:24,065
-[insects trilling]
-[birds chirping]
404
00:26:30,631 --> 00:26:32,091
[quietly]
Maybe I was looking
for you.
405
00:26:32,174 --> 00:26:35,511
Clearly, I wasn’t
going to see you.
406
00:26:35,594 --> 00:26:37,972
It just felt strange,
407
00:26:38,055 --> 00:26:41,350
wanting to tell you...
[echoes, fades]
408
00:26:43,602 --> 00:26:45,229
[footsteps through grass]
409
00:26:56,282 --> 00:26:57,533
[typing]
410
00:27:41,077 --> 00:27:43,829
-[phone clicks]
-[sighs]
411
00:27:43,913 --> 00:27:46,082
[Henry] Would you be down
to talk over maybe
412
00:27:46,165 --> 00:27:49,001
some theme ideas
or something?
Whatever you pick is fine.
413
00:27:50,836 --> 00:27:51,962
Okay.
414
00:27:54,006 --> 00:27:57,635
Should we just, like...
I just run my final
selections by you then, or--
415
00:27:57,718 --> 00:27:59,678
I mean, it really
doesn’t matter to me.
416
00:27:59,762 --> 00:28:01,639
I just got
a new feature
in from Jade,
417
00:28:01,722 --> 00:28:03,474
so I was just
gonna edit that.
418
00:28:05,935 --> 00:28:07,269
[quietly]
Oh.
419
00:28:08,062 --> 00:28:10,731
[birds chirping]
420
00:28:10,815 --> 00:28:11,857
[phone chimes]
421
00:28:18,906 --> 00:28:20,658
[sighs quietly]
422
00:28:20,741 --> 00:28:22,159
[phone clicks]
423
00:28:22,243 --> 00:28:26,414
I’d like to match those,
but instead I will
match this.
424
00:28:26,497 --> 00:28:28,124
Hey, Dad,
can I use the car?
425
00:28:28,207 --> 00:28:30,334
Uh, sure, sure.
Where to?
426
00:28:31,544 --> 00:28:33,379
Um... [laughs]
427
00:28:33,462 --> 00:28:34,880
I don’t know.
Nowhere, really.
428
00:28:34,964 --> 00:28:37,216
So, where are you
going?
429
00:28:37,299 --> 00:28:39,510
It’s not
a cross-examination.
[laughs]
430
00:28:39,593 --> 00:28:41,720
I mean, it feels
like that.
431
00:28:41,804 --> 00:28:44,140
Well, you’re asking us
to lend you our car,
432
00:28:44,223 --> 00:28:46,142
and we’re asking
a simple question
in return.
433
00:28:46,225 --> 00:28:49,645
Okay, um, I’m just--
I don’t know.
I’m just gonna go to Muz’s.
434
00:28:49,728 --> 00:28:51,939
Now can I have the keys?
You’re not even using it.
435
00:28:52,940 --> 00:28:54,525
You’re entitled
to your privacy.
436
00:28:54,608 --> 00:28:57,236
If you don’t want us
to know something,
say so.
437
00:28:57,319 --> 00:28:59,196
But don’t insult us
with a lie.
438
00:28:59,280 --> 00:29:01,657
It’s beneath you.
439
00:29:01,740 --> 00:29:03,325
Just-- You can Uber.
440
00:29:03,409 --> 00:29:05,411
What? I can’t Uber.
I don’t have
a credit card.
441
00:29:05,494 --> 00:29:07,955
Well, then you’re
gonna have to walk.
442
00:29:08,038 --> 00:29:10,541
[sighing]
443
00:29:18,215 --> 00:29:20,509
[lights buzzing]
444
00:29:23,512 --> 00:29:25,764
[Grace panting sharply]
445
00:29:30,019 --> 00:29:31,729
[grunts]
446
00:29:31,812 --> 00:29:33,939
[panting]
447
00:29:44,617 --> 00:29:45,951
[grunts]
448
00:29:51,790 --> 00:29:53,584
[grunts]
449
00:29:53,667 --> 00:29:56,003
Fuck! [shouts]
450
00:30:01,926 --> 00:30:04,136
[sobbing quietly]
451
00:30:08,474 --> 00:30:09,892
[panting]
452
00:30:09,975 --> 00:30:13,062
[sobbing echoes]
453
00:30:13,145 --> 00:30:15,272
[groaning]
454
00:30:20,194 --> 00:30:21,445
[phone clicks]
455
00:30:21,529 --> 00:30:23,489
[typing]
456
00:30:40,381 --> 00:30:42,675
[typing]
457
00:30:45,678 --> 00:30:46,679
[phone clicks]
458
00:30:46,762 --> 00:30:48,264
[sighs]
459
00:30:50,683 --> 00:30:52,768
[murmuring]
460
00:30:55,980 --> 00:30:57,690
Hi.
Hey.
What’s up?
461
00:30:57,773 --> 00:30:59,525
So,
I couldn’t sleep
last night,
462
00:30:59,608 --> 00:31:01,735
so I was searching
through Mrs. Klein’s
syllabus,
463
00:31:01,819 --> 00:31:06,198
and I noticed
a very interesting
trend.
464
00:31:09,118 --> 00:31:10,619
Uh...
465
00:31:13,247 --> 00:31:14,373
Look at them.
Okay.
466
00:31:16,041 --> 00:31:18,919
[Henry]
Um, yeah.
467
00:31:19,003 --> 00:31:21,589
They’re, um,
all about young people?
468
00:31:21,672 --> 00:31:24,049
[Grace]
And they all
involve suicide.
469
00:31:24,133 --> 00:31:26,468
Romeo and Juliet
off themselves.
470
00:31:26,552 --> 00:31:27,761
Werther
shoots himself.
471
00:31:27,845 --> 00:31:29,597
Holden contemplates
suicide.
472
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:32,516
Conrad tries
to kill himself
by slashing his wrists.
473
00:31:34,226 --> 00:31:36,520
This is what
you were up thinking
about last night?
474
00:31:36,604 --> 00:31:37,896
Yeah.
475
00:31:39,690 --> 00:31:41,567
Is that normal?
Oh, Jesus.
476
00:31:41,650 --> 00:31:43,861
What?
Well, I...
[sighs]
477
00:31:43,944 --> 00:31:45,237
You...
478
00:31:46,447 --> 00:31:49,950
You, uh, like,
seemed down this week,
479
00:31:50,034 --> 00:31:52,661
so that’s a little
scary, I guess.
Okay.
480
00:31:54,788 --> 00:31:56,373
How do I
explain this?
481
00:31:56,457 --> 00:31:58,917
Um... okay.
482
00:31:59,001 --> 00:32:02,838
Think about what it means
to be a teenager. Okay?
483
00:32:02,921 --> 00:32:05,716
Your parents
pressure you to succeed.
484
00:32:05,799 --> 00:32:09,678
Your friends
pressure you to do shit
you don’t want to do.
485
00:32:09,762 --> 00:32:11,805
Social media
pressures you
to hate your body.
486
00:32:11,889 --> 00:32:16,352
It’s hard, even if you’re
a well-adjusted kid
from a good family.
487
00:32:16,435 --> 00:32:17,686
Okay.
488
00:32:17,770 --> 00:32:20,773
So, now imagine you can’t be
with the person that you love,
489
00:32:20,856 --> 00:32:23,150
like Romeo and Juliet
or Werther,
490
00:32:23,233 --> 00:32:25,152
or you lose the person
that you love,
491
00:32:25,235 --> 00:32:27,154
like Holden or Conrad.
492
00:32:27,237 --> 00:32:29,990
There’s a reason why,
when every author,
493
00:32:30,074 --> 00:32:33,202
from Shakespeare to Salinger,
writes about young people,
494
00:32:33,285 --> 00:32:37,039
they can’t avoid
the truth, that...
495
00:32:37,122 --> 00:32:40,334
being young
is so painful,
496
00:32:40,417 --> 00:32:44,630
it’s almost, like,
too much to feel.
497
00:32:45,839 --> 00:32:47,716
Yeah, are you, like...
498
00:32:49,468 --> 00:32:50,678
suicidal or...
499
00:32:50,761 --> 00:32:52,846
No. God.
I mean...
500
00:32:53,972 --> 00:32:55,891
Look, I’m not gonna
kill myself.
501
00:32:55,974 --> 00:33:01,271
But have I thought about
what it would be like
to just not be here anymore?
502
00:33:01,355 --> 00:33:02,606
Yeah.
503
00:33:02,690 --> 00:33:06,318
And I don’t
say that casually,
but I do say it
504
00:33:06,402 --> 00:33:11,407
because hiding that shit
and not saying it
makes it worse.
505
00:33:11,490 --> 00:33:12,533
It should be talked about.
506
00:33:12,616 --> 00:33:14,618
All of our shit
should be talked about.
507
00:33:14,702 --> 00:33:15,786
Mmm.
508
00:33:17,162 --> 00:33:20,999
The teenage years are...
limbo.
509
00:33:21,083 --> 00:33:25,045
You’re somewhere between
being a kid and an adult,
510
00:33:25,129 --> 00:33:28,465
and the world, uh,
tells you to be mature
511
00:33:28,549 --> 00:33:30,718
and express yourself,
but the minute that you do,
512
00:33:30,801 --> 00:33:32,052
it tells you to shut up.
513
00:33:33,554 --> 00:33:37,433
The thing is,
adults are just scarred kids
who were lucky enough
514
00:33:37,516 --> 00:33:40,102
to make it
out of limbo alive.
515
00:33:40,185 --> 00:33:41,520
Which is why...
516
00:33:43,188 --> 00:33:47,776
the theme of our last issue
should be "Teenage Limbo."
517
00:33:51,113 --> 00:33:52,531
[quietly]
Yeah.
518
00:33:54,491 --> 00:33:57,369
-[mouse clicking]
-[La] Henry’s sister is studying
to become a neurosurgeon,
519
00:33:57,453 --> 00:34:01,290
and she explained
that the teenage brain
goes through an upgrade
520
00:34:01,373 --> 00:34:05,002
before it matures
to an adult brain.
521
00:34:05,085 --> 00:34:10,424
So, the upgrade
is like an explosion
of connections and synapses
522
00:34:10,507 --> 00:34:11,842
as we figure out
what’s right.
523
00:34:11,925 --> 00:34:13,802
[gasps]
524
00:34:13,886 --> 00:34:15,053
Or wrong.
[sighs]
525
00:34:15,137 --> 00:34:17,055
What we like,
what we don’t like.
526
00:34:17,139 --> 00:34:19,183
You know,
who we want to be.
527
00:34:19,266 --> 00:34:21,185
-[mouse clicking]
-Each page of the issue
528
00:34:21,268 --> 00:34:25,314
is the brain
refining itself,
figuring itself out,
529
00:34:25,397 --> 00:34:29,693
until eventually
it’s out of limbo.
530
00:34:29,777 --> 00:34:31,737
So dope.
531
00:34:33,071 --> 00:34:34,490
[quietly]
Yeah.
Dope.
532
00:34:34,573 --> 00:34:36,784
[claps]
All right.
Sweet.
533
00:34:36,867 --> 00:34:41,997
Um... so I think
we could kind of just
534
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:46,084
start a--
kind of a discussion, like
what are we confused about,
535
00:34:46,168 --> 00:34:48,670
what, uh,
maybe scares us.
536
00:34:48,754 --> 00:34:52,132
Um, like,
are there things maybe
537
00:34:52,216 --> 00:34:54,176
you keep inside
that you’re afraid to...
538
00:34:55,302 --> 00:34:56,595
Um...
539
00:34:58,514 --> 00:35:00,349
Do you have
something?
540
00:35:02,100 --> 00:35:03,519
Um...
541
00:35:05,229 --> 00:35:08,482
Well, yeah,
I mean, I do,
but I was gonna...
542
00:35:08,565 --> 00:35:11,735
I think
I was gonna write it,
uh, which...
543
00:35:11,819 --> 00:35:13,153
Hmm.
544
00:35:14,530 --> 00:35:17,199
[Henry smacks lips]
Um...
545
00:35:19,159 --> 00:35:20,661
[chuckles]
546
00:35:23,580 --> 00:35:26,583
Uh, when Mike Johnson
killed himself
a couple years ago,
547
00:35:26,667 --> 00:35:27,751
um...
548
00:35:28,919 --> 00:35:31,755
I realized that
I still had, um, this...
549
00:35:33,257 --> 00:35:36,009
Hustler magazine
that he gave me
when we were, like, 13
550
00:35:36,093 --> 00:35:38,929
that, uh, he stole from
his dad’s collection.
551
00:35:39,012 --> 00:35:40,430
And, um...
552
00:35:43,809 --> 00:35:44,977
[laughs]
I don’t know.
553
00:35:45,060 --> 00:35:47,646
I feel really stupid
admitting this,
554
00:35:47,729 --> 00:35:51,400
but, um, kind of
freaked me out.
555
00:35:51,483 --> 00:35:54,486
Like, I couldn’t really
sleep at night
556
00:35:54,570 --> 00:35:57,573
with this magazine
in my drawer.
557
00:35:57,656 --> 00:36:01,368
Um, like it was just
kind of...
558
00:36:01,451 --> 00:36:04,037
like,
haunted or something.
559
00:36:04,121 --> 00:36:05,581
Um...
560
00:36:07,499 --> 00:36:11,670
And basically, it just
was kind of too important
to throw away,
561
00:36:11,753 --> 00:36:13,547
but it was also
too weird to keep,
562
00:36:13,630 --> 00:36:19,428
so I went to the tree
by the art park,
563
00:36:19,511 --> 00:36:24,474
one where he,
uh, hung himself,
564
00:36:24,558 --> 00:36:29,730
and I, um,
just buried it there.
565
00:36:32,774 --> 00:36:34,359
And, um...
566
00:36:36,403 --> 00:36:38,322
Yeah. Um...
567
00:36:39,823 --> 00:36:42,284
I don’t know.
It was weird,
’cause for the first time,
568
00:36:42,367 --> 00:36:45,412
I was old enough
to understand
the gravity of death,
569
00:36:45,495 --> 00:36:49,750
but I was also, um,
you know, young enough
570
00:36:49,833 --> 00:36:53,837
that it all came down
to just a stupid,
like, porn magazine.
571
00:36:59,885 --> 00:37:02,137
[sighs]
572
00:37:02,220 --> 00:37:03,847
[Grace] I’m proud of you
for sharing that.
573
00:37:03,931 --> 00:37:06,683
It must have been
hard for you.
574
00:37:06,767 --> 00:37:08,393
Thanks.
575
00:37:08,477 --> 00:37:09,978
Hey, why’d you
give up writing?
576
00:37:10,062 --> 00:37:12,230
You’ve obviously
got a lot of ideas.
577
00:37:13,565 --> 00:37:18,111
Somebody really important
to me... died.
578
00:37:19,404 --> 00:37:20,697
And, um...
579
00:37:22,032 --> 00:37:25,285
and I was asked
to write something,
to say something,
580
00:37:25,369 --> 00:37:29,623
like a eulogy,
because everyone knew
that I was the writer,
581
00:37:29,706 --> 00:37:34,086
and, you know,
told me how beautiful
my words were, but...
582
00:37:37,547 --> 00:37:41,677
Nothing came.
I just couldn’t
find the words.
583
00:37:44,096 --> 00:37:45,347
[chuckles]
584
00:37:46,598 --> 00:37:48,600
What?
585
00:37:48,684 --> 00:37:50,936
Uh, oh, no,
it’s just funny.
586
00:37:51,019 --> 00:37:54,314
Um, ’cause, you know,
I can’t find the words
when I talk,
587
00:37:54,398 --> 00:37:57,484
and you can’t
find the words
when you write.
588
00:37:57,567 --> 00:38:00,195
That just
made me laugh.
589
00:38:00,278 --> 00:38:02,447
[laughs]
You know what I mean?
590
00:38:02,531 --> 00:38:04,866
["Where’s My Love"
by SYML playing]
591
00:38:04,950 --> 00:38:07,119
♪ Cold bones ♪
592
00:38:08,161 --> 00:38:09,579
♪ Yeah, that’s my love... ♪
593
00:38:11,581 --> 00:38:15,293
[laughs] Thank you, anyways.
Yeah, yeah.
I feel like it’s...
594
00:38:15,377 --> 00:38:18,296
[laughs] You don’t
have to drink it.
It’s not that I don’t want it.
595
00:38:18,380 --> 00:38:20,298
Yeah, sure...
Yeah.
596
00:38:20,382 --> 00:38:22,259
♪ Ooh, does she know ♪
597
00:38:22,342 --> 00:38:25,178
♪ That we bleed the same... ♪
598
00:38:25,262 --> 00:38:27,180
[Henry] You want to see
a movie this weekend?
599
00:38:27,264 --> 00:38:29,141
[Grace]
I don’t think I can.
600
00:38:29,224 --> 00:38:30,559
♪ Ooh... ♪
601
00:38:30,642 --> 00:38:32,019
[Henry]
You got other plans?
602
00:38:32,102 --> 00:38:35,105
[Grace] No, I just have
a ton of stuff to do.
603
00:38:35,188 --> 00:38:37,274
[bird calling in distance]
604
00:38:37,357 --> 00:38:39,026
[Henry]
So, you used to run track?
605
00:38:39,109 --> 00:38:41,278
[Grace]
Yeah, I was a sprinter.
606
00:38:41,361 --> 00:38:44,614
[Henry] Oh, what else did you do
in your previous life?
607
00:38:44,698 --> 00:38:46,033
[Grace]
Oh, God. [sighs]
608
00:38:46,116 --> 00:38:50,370
Lit magazine, yearbook staff,
student government...
609
00:38:50,454 --> 00:38:52,372
[chuckles]
beer pong champion.
610
00:38:55,125 --> 00:38:58,587
[Henry] Um, first football game
is Friday night,
if you want to go.
611
00:38:58,670 --> 00:39:00,255
Not that I care,
but it’s fun.
612
00:39:00,338 --> 00:39:02,883
We usually pregame,
and everyone goes.
613
00:39:02,966 --> 00:39:05,385
[Grace]
That sounds fun, but I can’t.
614
00:39:05,469 --> 00:39:06,803
Another time though.
615
00:39:08,847 --> 00:39:11,558
What would you say is the
dumbest thing you’ve ever done?
616
00:39:11,641 --> 00:39:13,518
[Henry] Um, probably
when I put my finger
617
00:39:13,602 --> 00:39:15,729
in an electric pencil sharpener
in first grade.
618
00:39:15,812 --> 00:39:18,231
It didn’t go, um, super well.
619
00:39:18,315 --> 00:39:21,109
[Grace laughs] What did
you think was gonna happen?
620
00:39:21,193 --> 00:39:23,403
[Henry] I guess I thought
it would trim my fingernail.
621
00:39:23,487 --> 00:39:24,988
♪ In the night ♪
622
00:39:25,072 --> 00:39:26,907
[laughs]
623
00:39:26,990 --> 00:39:31,078
♪ Ooh, does she know
That we bleed the same? ♪
624
00:39:34,414 --> 00:39:35,582
♪ Ooh... ♪
625
00:39:35,665 --> 00:39:37,501
[Grace] I used to be good
at socializing.
626
00:39:37,584 --> 00:39:39,628
I mean, I used to do it
all the time.
627
00:39:39,711 --> 00:39:41,129
[Henry]
What changed?
628
00:39:41,213 --> 00:39:44,132
[Grace] I guess
I stopped seeing the point.
629
00:39:44,216 --> 00:39:48,136
Sometimes it’s just easier
to slip into your own dark abyss
630
00:39:48,220 --> 00:39:50,555
and forget the world exists.
631
00:39:50,639 --> 00:39:52,224
♪ Did she run away... ♪
632
00:39:52,307 --> 00:39:54,309
[Henry] Yeah, I see her
in you sometimes,
633
00:39:54,392 --> 00:39:58,605
like, these, um,
flashes of this girl
that you used to be.
634
00:39:58,688 --> 00:40:01,858
Um, but was she an act
and you’re more yourself now,
635
00:40:01,942 --> 00:40:04,027
or is the Grace
that I know an act
636
00:40:04,111 --> 00:40:06,947
until you feel comfortable
being yourself again?
637
00:40:08,573 --> 00:40:10,867
[Grace]
I don’t know. People change.
638
00:40:10,951 --> 00:40:14,955
There’s no way you’re
the same person you were
when you were 14.
639
00:40:15,038 --> 00:40:17,582
[singers vocalizing]
640
00:40:24,840 --> 00:40:26,633
[song fades]
641
00:40:26,716 --> 00:40:28,510
Hey, um...
642
00:40:30,137 --> 00:40:31,138
What?
643
00:40:33,598 --> 00:40:37,102
All right, so Heslin is having
his annual Halloween party
tomorrow night.
644
00:40:37,185 --> 00:40:39,229
And it doesn’t
have to be a big thing.
645
00:40:39,312 --> 00:40:41,189
Doesn’t have to be
a date or whatever.
646
00:40:41,273 --> 00:40:42,816
No, that’s not why.
647
00:40:42,899 --> 00:40:44,317
I think it could...
That’s not why.
648
00:40:44,401 --> 00:40:47,779
...maybe be,
um, just fun.
649
00:40:47,863 --> 00:40:50,615
It’d be good to--
good for you,
650
00:40:50,699 --> 00:40:55,537
kind of get back
to doing old Grace
things. Um...
651
00:40:55,620 --> 00:41:01,376
Oh, is the new Grace
not good enough
for you or...
652
00:41:01,459 --> 00:41:04,629
No. No, no.
That’s not what I meant.
653
00:41:04,713 --> 00:41:07,257
Um, no.
I think, um...
654
00:41:07,340 --> 00:41:09,634
Hey, hey.
655
00:41:09,718 --> 00:41:11,469
Let’s go.
656
00:41:14,097 --> 00:41:16,308
-Yeah?
-Yeah.
657
00:41:26,610 --> 00:41:28,111
Your keys.
[keys clink]
658
00:41:29,613 --> 00:41:30,906
Can I come in?
659
00:41:33,742 --> 00:41:35,243
You don’t have
to go somewhere?
660
00:41:36,411 --> 00:41:41,249
No, I’m not going
to where I go today,
so...
661
00:41:44,169 --> 00:41:45,378
Okay, yeah.
No, totally.
Yeah?
662
00:41:45,462 --> 00:41:47,589
Yeah, come in.
[chuckles]
663
00:41:52,385 --> 00:41:53,720
Give me two.
[door opens]
664
00:41:53,803 --> 00:41:57,015
I’ll take three.
But you get three
first. Here.
665
00:41:57,098 --> 00:41:58,600
Hey, guys.
What’s up?
Hey, Henry.
666
00:41:58,683 --> 00:42:00,101
Hey.
[door closes]
667
00:42:00,185 --> 00:42:02,103
Join us, bud.
Uh,
can’t right now.
668
00:42:02,187 --> 00:42:04,105
But this is Grace.
669
00:42:06,608 --> 00:42:08,318
[all] Hi!
670
00:42:08,401 --> 00:42:09,986
Oh.
It’s Grace!
671
00:42:10,070 --> 00:42:11,529
-Yeah.
-Yeah. You actually came in.
672
00:42:11,613 --> 00:42:13,198
We’ve only seen
your car up until now.
673
00:42:13,281 --> 00:42:14,282
[chuckles]
674
00:42:24,334 --> 00:42:27,212
Just gonna pick up
this stuff here.
675
00:42:43,270 --> 00:42:45,355
[sighs heavily]
676
00:42:46,898 --> 00:42:48,275
-[music begins loudly]
-[grunts]
677
00:42:48,358 --> 00:42:49,693
[volume decreases]
678
00:42:49,776 --> 00:42:52,279
["Die 4 You" by Perfume Genius
playing over speakers]
679
00:42:54,823 --> 00:42:57,909
♪ Oh, my love... ♪
680
00:42:57,993 --> 00:42:59,452
[Grace]
How did this break?
681
00:43:01,329 --> 00:43:02,872
Oh, um...
682
00:43:02,956 --> 00:43:05,166
I broke that,
actually.
683
00:43:06,126 --> 00:43:08,044
Uh, it’s called
Kintsukuroi.
684
00:43:08,128 --> 00:43:11,298
It’s kind of this
old-school Japanese
art form
685
00:43:11,381 --> 00:43:14,301
where you mend back
broken pottery
with seams of gold.
686
00:43:18,638 --> 00:43:20,557
♪ Oh, my love ♪
687
00:43:24,352 --> 00:43:26,771
♪ Take your time ♪
688
00:43:28,898 --> 00:43:29,899
[sighs]
689
00:43:29,983 --> 00:43:32,986
♪ See it through ♪
690
00:43:38,533 --> 00:43:39,534
[sighs]
691
00:43:41,578 --> 00:43:42,912
[song fades]
692
00:43:42,996 --> 00:43:46,207
["Take Care" by Beach House
playing over speakers]
693
00:43:52,380 --> 00:43:55,508
♪ I’d take care of you... ♪
694
00:43:55,592 --> 00:43:58,053
Wait, uh,
is this...
695
00:43:59,763 --> 00:44:02,307
Oh, it’s the song
that you like to play
in your car.
696
00:44:05,477 --> 00:44:06,478
Are you okay?
697
00:44:06,561 --> 00:44:09,230
♪ In a year or two... ♪
698
00:44:09,314 --> 00:44:11,483
Why are you--
why are you
playing this?
699
00:44:11,566 --> 00:44:13,902
I mean, I don’t know.
I like it. I...
700
00:44:13,985 --> 00:44:16,237
Kind of reminds me
of us, I guess.
701
00:44:16,321 --> 00:44:18,448
[stammers]
702
00:44:31,544 --> 00:44:33,004
Hey. Hey.
703
00:44:33,088 --> 00:44:34,798
I’m sorry
I played that.
I didn’t know.
704
00:44:34,881 --> 00:44:36,424
I thought...
[stammers]
I don’t know.
705
00:44:36,508 --> 00:44:38,718
We listen to it
all the time
in the car together.
706
00:44:38,802 --> 00:44:40,762
Okay, but it’s not
our song, okay?
707
00:44:40,845 --> 00:44:42,347
Okay.
It’s not for you
and me.
708
00:44:42,430 --> 00:44:44,224
Okay.
Who’s it for?
What is it?
709
00:44:44,307 --> 00:44:46,434
[sniffles] Dom.
710
00:44:46,518 --> 00:44:49,062
[sobbing]
He was my boyfriend.
711
00:44:49,145 --> 00:44:52,941
He was driving the car,
and I fucked up my knee,
but he...
712
00:44:53,024 --> 00:44:56,277
Oh. I’m sorry.
I didn’t...
713
00:44:56,361 --> 00:44:59,114
[panting]
714
00:44:59,197 --> 00:45:01,199
I understand if you don’t
want to, like--
715
00:45:01,282 --> 00:45:03,076
if you don’t want to do
anything with me--
716
00:45:11,835 --> 00:45:13,503
[sobbing]
717
00:45:18,466 --> 00:45:19,843
Hey.
718
00:45:19,926 --> 00:45:21,845
Can you let me
drive you home?
No, please.
719
00:45:21,928 --> 00:45:23,555
Please stop,
Henry.
Why?
720
00:45:23,638 --> 00:45:25,932
Because I’m fucked up,
okay?
Come on. What’s wrong?
721
00:45:26,015 --> 00:45:28,226
Can I drive you
home?
Yes. No. Please.
722
00:45:28,309 --> 00:45:30,019
Please?
Come on. Why?
No.
723
00:45:30,103 --> 00:45:31,980
I’m messed up.
It’s okay.
I don’t care.
724
00:45:32,063 --> 00:45:34,107
No, it’s not!
725
00:45:34,190 --> 00:45:37,819
It’s not when you realize
that I’m not one of
your fucking vases, okay?
726
00:45:46,411 --> 00:45:48,830
[electricity crackling,
whooshing]
727
00:45:59,174 --> 00:46:01,759
[chattering, muted]
728
00:46:08,600 --> 00:46:10,351
[Henry] You guys think
this needs to be here?
729
00:46:10,435 --> 00:46:11,686
-[La] No.
-[Henry] You’re right.
730
00:46:11,769 --> 00:46:13,313
I don’t feel like
we needed it anyway.
731
00:46:13,396 --> 00:46:14,898
It doesn’t
make sense.
Seriously?
732
00:46:14,981 --> 00:46:18,026
Hey, guys.
Are you going
to Heslin’s tonight?
733
00:46:18,109 --> 00:46:20,111
Yeah.
Maybe.
734
00:46:20,195 --> 00:46:22,155
We might
come through.
Cool.
735
00:46:22,238 --> 00:46:23,948
Well, I hope you do.
736
00:46:24,032 --> 00:46:25,033
Hmm.
737
00:46:28,369 --> 00:46:30,121
What time is Elks
picking us up?
738
00:46:31,122 --> 00:46:33,541
Um, I do not know.
I’m not going, so...
739
00:46:33,625 --> 00:46:36,336
No. No, no, no.
[chuckles]
No, we’re going.
740
00:46:36,419 --> 00:46:39,547
A little beautiful creature,
who might be a part of
the fairy kingdom like myself,
741
00:46:39,631 --> 00:46:42,091
just invited me
to her magical,
enchanted forest.
742
00:46:42,175 --> 00:46:45,178
And I’m gonna take
this opportunity
to fly.
743
00:46:45,261 --> 00:46:46,804
Meh.
744
00:46:46,888 --> 00:46:48,848
"Meh" yourself.
745
00:46:48,932 --> 00:46:50,975
Don’t dip out
’cause of that chick.
746
00:46:51,059 --> 00:46:52,060
What?
747
00:46:52,143 --> 00:46:54,646
I need you there
for moral support.
748
00:46:54,729 --> 00:46:57,357
No, it’s not ’cause of her.
I’m not feeling well,
that’s all.
749
00:46:57,440 --> 00:46:59,859
Oh, my God.
Wow.
750
00:46:59,943 --> 00:47:02,237
Elks has Kush.
751
00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:04,489
[sighs]
752
00:47:04,572 --> 00:47:06,533
What kind of Kush?
753
00:47:06,616 --> 00:47:08,868
-[dance music playing loudly]
-[chattering]
754
00:47:16,584 --> 00:47:19,212
Take it easy, bro.
Easy in, easy out.
755
00:47:19,295 --> 00:47:21,548
It’s a marathon,
not a sprint.
756
00:47:21,631 --> 00:47:23,049
[coughs]
757
00:47:23,132 --> 00:47:25,260
Yeah, I know.
[shudders]
758
00:47:25,343 --> 00:47:27,428
Hey.
What’s up?
759
00:47:27,512 --> 00:47:30,723
She’s already talking
to someone else.
760
00:47:30,807 --> 00:47:35,019
Man, I knew I shouldn’t have
gotten my hopes up.
Man, she’s just playing me.
761
00:47:35,103 --> 00:47:36,854
Go.
[shudders]
762
00:47:36,938 --> 00:47:39,065
Go. Go.
I need to ease
into it, bro.
763
00:47:39,148 --> 00:47:40,149
Why?
764
00:47:40,233 --> 00:47:41,985
[girl, singsongy]
Henry Page.
765
00:47:42,068 --> 00:47:44,988
I cannot.
I can’t.
[chuckles]
766
00:47:45,071 --> 00:47:46,406
Bye, Henry.
767
00:47:46,489 --> 00:47:48,533
[girl] ...comes sprinting in,
his hands are over his face,
768
00:47:48,616 --> 00:47:51,286
and he just pukes.
He just pukes
everywhere.
769
00:47:51,369 --> 00:47:52,537
No one knew what to do.
770
00:47:52,620 --> 00:47:54,414
It was between this
tiny little crevice
771
00:47:54,497 --> 00:47:55,832
between the wall
and the fridge--
772
00:47:55,915 --> 00:47:57,875
I’m just gonna
get some water.
What?
773
00:47:57,959 --> 00:47:59,419
I’m just gonna
get some water.
774
00:47:59,502 --> 00:48:01,462
Are you okay?
Yeah, I’m good.
775
00:48:01,546 --> 00:48:03,715
[dance music continues]
776
00:48:22,609 --> 00:48:24,861
-[dance music playing]
-[chattering]
777
00:48:46,966 --> 00:48:48,343
Got you this.
778
00:48:48,426 --> 00:48:50,428
Thank you.
Yeah.
779
00:48:52,764 --> 00:48:54,557
[chuckles softly]
780
00:48:54,641 --> 00:48:56,517
What?
781
00:48:57,727 --> 00:48:59,646
You look, um...
782
00:49:00,897 --> 00:49:02,398
Thotty?
783
00:49:02,482 --> 00:49:05,026
I was gonna say hot.
784
00:49:08,279 --> 00:49:10,907
Well, it’s my costume
from last year.
785
00:49:13,534 --> 00:49:15,078
Are you doing okay?
786
00:49:17,163 --> 00:49:21,042
Yeah.
In this moment,
I’m... I’m okay.
787
00:49:23,127 --> 00:49:25,338
I think you’re
the most confusing
human being
788
00:49:25,421 --> 00:49:27,799
I’ve ever met.
[chuckles]
789
00:49:27,882 --> 00:49:31,803
And I think
I’m just the most
confused human being
790
00:49:31,886 --> 00:49:34,514
you’ve ever met
and that confuses you.
791
00:49:34,597 --> 00:49:36,432
[laughs]
792
00:49:36,516 --> 00:49:38,184
Yeah, well...
793
00:49:40,061 --> 00:49:43,189
I’m, uh,
pretty trashed
right now,
794
00:49:43,272 --> 00:49:46,567
so I guess I’m even
more confused.
[chuckles]
795
00:49:47,985 --> 00:49:50,071
[both chuckle]
796
00:49:51,364 --> 00:49:54,242
["Piece Of Your Heart" by Meduza
playing over speakers]
797
00:49:54,325 --> 00:49:57,578
♪ I’m turning you up to getting
Down, down, down... ♪
798
00:49:57,662 --> 00:49:59,414
Hey, I’ve been
looking for you.
799
00:49:59,497 --> 00:50:01,874
Oh, yeah?
Yeah.
800
00:50:02,959 --> 00:50:05,211
Uh, so last year,
I, uh...
801
00:50:05,294 --> 00:50:06,879
I get it.
802
00:50:06,963 --> 00:50:09,465
It was weird.
803
00:50:09,549 --> 00:50:11,592
We can just be friends.
804
00:50:12,844 --> 00:50:14,178
Cool.
805
00:50:17,473 --> 00:50:19,684
I hooked up
with a lot of girls
last summer.
806
00:50:19,767 --> 00:50:22,729
[scoffs] Okay.
807
00:50:22,812 --> 00:50:26,607
Yeah, uh, I was just
really confused after we...
808
00:50:27,984 --> 00:50:29,068
you know.
809
00:50:29,152 --> 00:50:31,696
I know.
I don’t know.
810
00:50:31,779 --> 00:50:34,824
I tried to, uh,
figure that out, I guess.
811
00:50:34,907 --> 00:50:36,492
But...
812
00:50:36,576 --> 00:50:40,413
I realized that
I didn’t feel anything
for any of them.
813
00:50:40,496 --> 00:50:44,792
I don’t necessarily
know how to, um,
label myself, but...
814
00:50:46,753 --> 00:50:49,172
I know what I feel
when you’re in front of me.
815
00:50:50,506 --> 00:50:53,259
It’s like, uh,
we are--
816
00:50:53,342 --> 00:50:56,053
or, uh, we be.
817
00:50:57,930 --> 00:51:00,433
Then let’s just be.
818
00:51:00,516 --> 00:51:02,393
♪ And if it’s physical ♪
819
00:51:02,477 --> 00:51:04,979
♪ Keep it subliminal ♪
820
00:51:05,062 --> 00:51:07,273
♪ Show me what you want ♪
821
00:51:07,356 --> 00:51:09,692
♪ Show me a piece
Of your heart ♪
822
00:51:09,776 --> 00:51:11,652
♪ A piece of your love ♪
823
00:51:11,736 --> 00:51:15,448
♪ I’m calling you up to getting
Down, down, down... ♪
824
00:51:15,531 --> 00:51:17,533
[song fades]
825
00:51:20,828 --> 00:51:22,955
["Vulnerable" by Tinashe
playing over speakers]
826
00:51:23,039 --> 00:51:25,541
♪ These niggas ain’t nothing
On you, baby ♪
827
00:51:25,625 --> 00:51:26,959
♪ You got it, got it ♪
828
00:51:27,043 --> 00:51:31,380
♪ The way you run shit
And make it rain so well ♪
829
00:51:31,464 --> 00:51:32,548
♪ My Birkin bag... ♪
830
00:51:32,632 --> 00:51:34,217
[laughs]
Oh, no.
831
00:51:34,300 --> 00:51:35,718
I can’t dance.
No.
832
00:51:35,802 --> 00:51:37,053
♪ Oh, yeah ♪
833
00:51:37,136 --> 00:51:38,679
♪ These niggas ain’t
’Bout it, ’bout it ♪
834
00:51:38,763 --> 00:51:41,641
♪ These niggas ain’t nothing
On you, baby ♪
835
00:51:41,724 --> 00:51:43,059
♪ You got it, got it ♪
836
00:51:43,142 --> 00:51:47,313
♪ The way you run shit
And make it rain so well ♪
837
00:51:47,396 --> 00:51:49,273
♪ My Birkin bag
My pinky ring ♪
838
00:51:49,357 --> 00:51:51,609
♪ Coattail ♪
839
00:51:51,692 --> 00:51:53,653
♪ Oh, yeah ♪
840
00:51:53,736 --> 00:51:55,571
♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
841
00:51:55,655 --> 00:51:57,657
-♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
-♪ No, no ♪
842
00:51:57,740 --> 00:51:59,951
♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
843
00:52:00,034 --> 00:52:01,661
-♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
-♪ Don’t ♪
844
00:52:01,744 --> 00:52:03,162
♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
845
00:52:03,246 --> 00:52:05,706
-♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
-♪ Don’t ♪
846
00:52:05,790 --> 00:52:07,667
♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
847
00:52:07,750 --> 00:52:09,794
-♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
-♪ Don’t ♪
848
00:52:09,877 --> 00:52:11,546
♪ Don’t stop looking at me ♪
849
00:52:11,629 --> 00:52:13,339
♪ Don’t stop
Looking at me ♪
850
00:52:13,422 --> 00:52:14,423
♪ Don’t stop... ♪
851
00:52:14,507 --> 00:52:16,425
[panting]
852
00:52:24,684 --> 00:52:27,103
Wait, wait.
Wait, wait, wait.
Hold on.
853
00:53:05,975 --> 00:53:07,518
[sighs]
854
00:53:15,109 --> 00:53:17,236
I hope you don’t have
high expectations...
855
00:53:18,779 --> 00:53:21,407
’cause I’m probably
pretty rusty.
856
00:53:23,326 --> 00:53:26,454
Well, I hope you don’t have
high expectations either,
857
00:53:26,537 --> 00:53:29,957
’cause I’ve never
done this before.
858
00:53:32,335 --> 00:53:34,170
Do you have a condom?
859
00:53:34,253 --> 00:53:35,671
Yeah.
Yeah.
860
00:53:36,589 --> 00:53:37,757
I should get it?
Get it.
861
00:53:37,840 --> 00:53:39,133
Get it, okay.
862
00:54:01,447 --> 00:54:05,368
[Henry grunts,
sighs]
863
00:54:06,744 --> 00:54:08,663
Oh. Oh, God.
[laughs]
864
00:54:08,746 --> 00:54:10,915
Let me do it.
Okay.
865
00:54:10,998 --> 00:54:12,750
I’m sorry. I laugh
when I’m nervous.
866
00:54:12,833 --> 00:54:16,295
Do you want me
to do it?
Yeah. Sure.
867
00:54:18,881 --> 00:54:20,800
[grunts]
868
00:54:20,883 --> 00:54:22,969
[sighs]
869
00:54:26,681 --> 00:54:28,265
[both panting]
870
00:54:28,349 --> 00:54:30,851
[both grunt]
871
00:54:30,935 --> 00:54:33,104
[panting]
872
00:54:35,481 --> 00:54:37,692
Henry, Henry,
Henry, Henry.
Yeah?
873
00:54:39,026 --> 00:54:40,778
Don’t try to be
good at it, okay?
874
00:54:40,861 --> 00:54:43,239
Just be here with me.
875
00:54:44,448 --> 00:54:45,658
[quietly]
Okay.
876
00:54:47,284 --> 00:54:48,369
[light switch clicks]
877
00:54:50,371 --> 00:54:52,456
[birds chirping]
878
00:55:04,468 --> 00:55:05,803
[gasps]
879
00:55:13,352 --> 00:55:14,854
[sobbing]
880
00:55:19,025 --> 00:55:21,277
[birds chirping]
881
00:55:27,742 --> 00:55:29,869
[line ringing]
882
00:55:33,456 --> 00:55:35,624
-[Grace]
Leave your message.
-[beep]
883
00:55:35,708 --> 00:55:38,252
Um, hey, Grace.
Um, just want to say hi,
884
00:55:38,335 --> 00:55:40,588
and that, um...
885
00:55:41,672 --> 00:55:43,424
you know, despite
my lack of experience,
886
00:55:43,507 --> 00:55:46,302
um, hope that,
uh, last night
just kind of meant
887
00:55:46,385 --> 00:55:49,930
a tiny fraction to you
as it meant to me.
888
00:55:50,014 --> 00:55:52,808
And, yeah, um...
889
00:55:52,892 --> 00:55:56,187
Then also, I promise
if we ever get the chance
to do it again, um--
890
00:55:56,270 --> 00:55:57,730
[laughs] I mean,
’cause not that--
891
00:55:57,813 --> 00:55:59,940
I’m not presumptuous enough
to think that we will,
892
00:56:00,024 --> 00:56:02,401
but, like, if we do,
then, uh, you know,
893
00:56:02,485 --> 00:56:03,986
I promise
that it’ll be better.
894
00:56:04,070 --> 00:56:07,114
Uh, no,
that I’ll be better.
895
00:56:07,198 --> 00:56:09,950
[chuckles]
Um, ’cause, uh, you know,
896
00:56:10,034 --> 00:56:12,953
um, practice does
make, uh, perfect.
897
00:56:13,037 --> 00:56:15,456
So, uh, yeah.
898
00:56:15,539 --> 00:56:16,832
Bye-bye.
899
00:56:17,958 --> 00:56:20,044
[sighs] Oh, fuck,
that was dumb.
900
00:56:21,087 --> 00:56:23,339
[crickets chirping]
901
00:56:32,515 --> 00:56:34,767
[groaning]
902
00:56:37,311 --> 00:56:38,896
[phone chimes]
903
00:56:40,856 --> 00:56:42,149
[clicks]
904
00:56:51,075 --> 00:56:52,243
[text message swooshes]
905
00:56:59,416 --> 00:57:01,043
[typing]
906
00:57:08,092 --> 00:57:09,760
[sighs]
907
00:57:11,220 --> 00:57:14,765
["A Great Design" by Black
Marble playing over speakers]
908
00:57:14,849 --> 00:57:16,767
What?
909
00:57:16,851 --> 00:57:18,936
Surprise.
How did this happen?
910
00:57:20,563 --> 00:57:22,356
It was just time.
911
00:57:23,774 --> 00:57:25,192
Shit. All right.
912
00:57:25,276 --> 00:57:27,653
Um, where are we going?
913
00:57:28,904 --> 00:57:30,322
You’ll see.
914
00:57:39,206 --> 00:57:43,169
♪ Monochrome
It’s a Saturn world ♪
915
00:57:43,252 --> 00:57:46,672
♪ Lying beneath the rings ♪
916
00:57:46,755 --> 00:57:50,885
♪ And they tell me
We don’t have a long time ♪
917
00:57:50,968 --> 00:57:53,179
♪ Till our decline ♪
918
00:57:57,224 --> 00:58:00,436
♪ All the grown men
Are set in their ways ♪
919
00:58:00,519 --> 00:58:04,190
♪ Shining in the street ♪
920
00:58:04,273 --> 00:58:08,360
♪ And they tell me
We don’t have a long time ♪
921
00:58:08,444 --> 00:58:10,863
♪ A great design ♪
922
00:58:13,866 --> 00:58:15,201
[song fades]
923
00:58:15,284 --> 00:58:17,286
[ship horn blowing in distance]
924
00:58:30,841 --> 00:58:32,384
[sighs]
925
00:58:34,470 --> 00:58:37,556
We used to come here
all the time
before he died.
926
00:58:40,100 --> 00:58:41,769
I loved this drive.
927
00:58:41,852 --> 00:58:44,271
I want to be able
to love it again.
928
00:58:49,902 --> 00:58:52,863
I needed you here.
929
00:58:54,198 --> 00:58:56,116
I needed your support.
930
00:59:07,544 --> 00:59:08,921
Hold this.
931
00:59:20,057 --> 00:59:22,434
[Henry] Is this
from the factory?
932
00:59:22,518 --> 00:59:24,436
What does it mean?
933
00:59:24,520 --> 00:59:26,897
[Grace] "Save me,
and I will save you."
934
00:59:29,483 --> 00:59:31,110
That was us.
935
00:59:47,876 --> 00:59:49,795
I want to move on.
936
00:59:55,634 --> 00:59:58,762
["We Stayed Up All Night"
by Tourist feat. Ardyn playing]
937
01:00:04,768 --> 01:00:07,479
♪ So let’s pretend ♪
938
01:00:07,563 --> 01:00:09,064
♪ That we have no weight... ♪
939
01:00:09,148 --> 01:00:11,650
I’m telling you,
Sharma...
[laughs]
940
01:00:11,734 --> 01:00:14,153
...dropped his glasses
right into the toilet.
941
01:00:14,236 --> 01:00:16,196
He nearly flushed
them down there.
[laughter]
942
01:00:16,280 --> 01:00:19,033
But he fished them out,
’cause he got
the same glasses on.
943
01:00:19,116 --> 01:00:21,535
♪ We’re young, have time... ♪
944
01:00:21,618 --> 01:00:23,370
No, I sw--
I...
945
01:00:24,663 --> 01:00:26,290
Can I join you guys?
946
01:00:26,373 --> 01:00:30,044
♪ Out we run ♪
947
01:00:33,297 --> 01:00:34,631
Okay.
Okay, got it?
948
01:00:34,715 --> 01:00:36,467
Yeah, that was
very helpful.
Okay, good.
949
01:00:36,550 --> 01:00:37,926
Thank you.
You’re welcome.
950
01:00:38,010 --> 01:00:40,304
[Sharma]
Hey, with all the news
that’s fit to print,
951
01:00:40,387 --> 01:00:41,680
your first issue!
952
01:00:41,764 --> 01:00:44,391
Congratulations!
[cheering]
953
01:00:47,478 --> 01:00:48,771
Well...
Hmm. Yeah.
954
01:00:49,772 --> 01:00:52,649
♪ I won’t give it up tonight ♪
955
01:00:52,733 --> 01:00:55,444
♪ I won’t give it up
Tonight ♪
956
01:00:55,527 --> 01:00:58,072
♪ I won’t give it up tonight ♪
957
01:00:58,155 --> 01:01:01,825
♪ I won’t give it up
Tonight ♪
958
01:01:01,909 --> 01:01:03,827
[song fades]
959
01:01:03,911 --> 01:01:06,038
[birds chirping]
960
01:01:08,791 --> 01:01:10,292
Stay here.
961
01:01:12,878 --> 01:01:15,464
Whose car is that?
Stay here, Henry.
962
01:01:20,844 --> 01:01:22,554
[Grace]
Aren’t you supposed
to remember that?
963
01:01:22,638 --> 01:01:23,972
[woman] No, I don’t
remember that!
964
01:01:24,056 --> 01:01:26,850
[Grace]
I don’t want--
No, no. Go! Go!
965
01:01:26,934 --> 01:01:28,644
[woman sobs]
966
01:01:45,452 --> 01:01:47,746
[tires screeching]
967
01:01:52,501 --> 01:01:53,502
[door opens]
968
01:01:54,753 --> 01:01:55,796
Hey.
969
01:01:58,632 --> 01:02:00,050
That your mom?
970
01:02:01,343 --> 01:02:03,220
No.
971
01:02:03,303 --> 01:02:06,432
Yeah.
It doesn’t... matter.
972
01:02:06,515 --> 01:02:08,434
You all right?
973
01:02:08,517 --> 01:02:10,144
I’m fine.
Can we go?
974
01:02:19,153 --> 01:02:20,863
[brakes squeak]
975
01:02:20,946 --> 01:02:22,698
[both sigh]
976
01:02:26,076 --> 01:02:28,078
So do you live
with your dad?
977
01:02:29,663 --> 01:02:31,081
[sighs]
[chuckles]
I mean,
978
01:02:31,165 --> 01:02:33,333
I just feel like
I don’t know anything
about your family.
979
01:02:33,417 --> 01:02:36,003
Well, yeah.
Well, okay,
you know enough.
980
01:02:38,255 --> 01:02:39,631
Something obviously
just happened,
981
01:02:39,715 --> 01:02:41,467
so I don’t know how
I’m supposed to help you--
982
01:02:41,550 --> 01:02:42,843
You don’t.
You don’t help me.
983
01:02:42,926 --> 01:02:44,928
I didn’t ask for your help,
so stop trying to help me.
984
01:02:45,012 --> 01:02:46,930
Stop trying to fix me,
all right?
985
01:03:03,280 --> 01:03:04,531
[Sharma]
Oh, look at this.
986
01:03:04,615 --> 01:03:07,117
It’s a lollygagging
convention in here.
987
01:03:07,201 --> 01:03:08,243
Let’s go, people.
988
01:03:08,327 --> 01:03:09,703
We have three more
issues to plan.
989
01:03:09,786 --> 01:03:12,080
I’d love to see
a little focus, please.
990
01:03:12,164 --> 01:03:14,833
Henry, where’s
your partner in crime?
991
01:03:15,834 --> 01:03:17,544
I don’t know.
992
01:03:17,628 --> 01:03:18,962
She sick?
993
01:03:20,589 --> 01:03:21,924
I don’t know.
994
01:03:23,008 --> 01:03:25,260
Today’s the anniversary
of her accident.
995
01:03:25,344 --> 01:03:28,222
Oh, dear. I, um...
I didn’t know that.
996
01:03:29,640 --> 01:03:33,477
Yeah. East River
had a candlelight vigil
for her boyfriend.
997
01:03:33,560 --> 01:03:34,561
[line ringing]
998
01:03:34,645 --> 01:03:36,230
-[chattering]
-[line continues ringing]
999
01:03:36,313 --> 01:03:38,398
Does she drive?
Does she have her license?
1000
01:03:38,482 --> 01:03:40,567
Should we be...
[continues indistinctly]
1001
01:03:40,651 --> 01:03:42,903
You’re probably
right about that.
1002
01:03:44,029 --> 01:03:45,948
-[Grace] Leave your message.
-[beep]
1003
01:03:46,031 --> 01:03:47,616
I would think so.
Would you?
1004
01:03:47,699 --> 01:03:48,575
Yeah.
[sighs]
1005
01:03:48,659 --> 01:03:49,868
I don’t know.
Muck around.
1006
01:03:49,952 --> 01:03:51,578
Muck around
a little more.
Muck.
1007
01:03:51,662 --> 01:03:53,705
What? Stop it.
No. Ow.
1008
01:03:53,789 --> 01:03:55,958
Stop.
Muck around.
1009
01:03:58,544 --> 01:04:00,379
Hankard. Hankard.
Yo, where you going?
1010
01:04:11,014 --> 01:04:13,100
[panting]
1011
01:04:18,480 --> 01:04:21,024
[thunder rumbling]
1012
01:04:21,942 --> 01:04:23,110
[door opens]
1013
01:04:26,238 --> 01:04:28,407
Henry?
1014
01:04:28,490 --> 01:04:29,491
That you?
1015
01:04:29,575 --> 01:04:31,451
Yeah.
1016
01:04:31,535 --> 01:04:32,995
Come on in.
1017
01:04:33,078 --> 01:04:35,330
[thunder rumbling]
1018
01:04:36,707 --> 01:04:39,209
I must have fallen asleep
in front of the tube.
1019
01:04:41,128 --> 01:04:43,088
I’m Martin, by the way.
1020
01:04:43,171 --> 01:04:44,548
[sportscast playing on TV]
1021
01:04:44,631 --> 01:04:45,799
Oh.
1022
01:04:47,259 --> 01:04:49,428
This is my wife Sarah.
1023
01:04:49,511 --> 01:04:51,346
Hi.
[Henry] Hello.
1024
01:04:52,264 --> 01:04:55,100
[groans, coughs]
1025
01:04:55,183 --> 01:04:58,103
Grace has talked
a lot about you.
1026
01:04:58,186 --> 01:04:59,730
Says you’ve been
a good friend.
1027
01:04:59,813 --> 01:05:03,025
Yeah, I just wanted
to make sure
that she was okay,
1028
01:05:03,108 --> 01:05:04,818
’cause I didn’t
talk to her today.
1029
01:05:04,901 --> 01:05:06,695
Um, and, you know,
1030
01:05:06,778 --> 01:05:09,823
given what day it is,
I... I, uh...
1031
01:05:11,283 --> 01:05:15,454
Well, she should be home
pretty soon.
1032
01:05:15,537 --> 01:05:17,497
You can wait upstairs
if you want.
1033
01:05:19,541 --> 01:05:22,961
Um, well, thank you.
It was good meeting
you guys.
1034
01:05:23,045 --> 01:05:25,255
[Martin] Yeah.
Nice meeting you, Henry.
Yeah.
1035
01:06:29,444 --> 01:06:31,029
[Grace]
So now you know.
1036
01:06:35,617 --> 01:06:38,662
Do you live here?
[sniffles] Yeah.
1037
01:06:40,747 --> 01:06:44,751
I moved in a month
before the accident
to get away from my mom.
1038
01:06:44,835 --> 01:06:49,423
She was drinking a lot,
and she was in really
bad shape.
1039
01:06:49,506 --> 01:06:50,924
But you’re still here.
1040
01:06:51,007 --> 01:06:55,262
Where else was
I supposed to go,
my mom’s boyfriend’s couch?
1041
01:06:55,345 --> 01:06:56,555
[sniffles]
1042
01:06:56,638 --> 01:06:58,724
[sighs]
1043
01:07:02,310 --> 01:07:03,854
You went back for that?
1044
01:07:03,937 --> 01:07:05,480
[sniffles]
1045
01:07:10,652 --> 01:07:12,863
[panting]
1046
01:07:16,658 --> 01:07:18,076
Do you even
wash his clothes?
1047
01:07:18,160 --> 01:07:20,620
’Cause you wear
his clothes, right?
1048
01:07:21,913 --> 01:07:23,874
I’m doing the best
that I can.
1049
01:07:23,957 --> 01:07:26,752
You’re doing the best
you can, but you’re living
in his fucking room?
1050
01:07:28,295 --> 01:07:30,297
We grew up together.
1051
01:07:31,548 --> 01:07:34,176
He was...
he was my family.
1052
01:07:34,259 --> 01:07:36,178
[stammers]
1053
01:07:36,261 --> 01:07:38,263
I’m not asking you
to let him go.
1054
01:07:39,639 --> 01:07:42,434
I’m giving you
all that I can.
1055
01:07:42,517 --> 01:07:46,104
And this... confusion
and this craziness
1056
01:07:46,188 --> 01:07:47,397
is what that looks like.
1057
01:07:47,481 --> 01:07:51,067
And you can’t handle it,
but I never expected you to.
1058
01:07:52,194 --> 01:07:54,780
What else could I
possibly give you?
1059
01:07:55,864 --> 01:07:57,365
What else can you give me?
1060
01:07:57,449 --> 01:07:59,701
Are you fucking...
1061
01:07:59,785 --> 01:08:01,578
Oh, this is crazy.
This is crazy.
1062
01:08:01,661 --> 01:08:03,121
Just stop.
No, you stop!
1063
01:08:03,205 --> 01:08:04,706
Stop leading me on!
I just--
1064
01:08:04,790 --> 01:08:07,167
I didn’t start dating you
out of nowhere or something.
1065
01:08:09,294 --> 01:08:10,796
I told you
to leave me alone.
1066
01:08:10,879 --> 01:08:12,964
Yeah, but then
you told me not to.
1067
01:08:14,591 --> 01:08:15,759
Well, because I don’t know.
1068
01:08:15,842 --> 01:08:16,843
Because I don’t know.
1069
01:08:16,927 --> 01:08:17,928
I know.
I don’t know.
1070
01:08:18,011 --> 01:08:19,137
I’m confused, Henry.
1071
01:08:19,221 --> 01:08:20,847
I don’t know.
I know!
1072
01:08:20,931 --> 01:08:24,434
I’ve known since, like,
the very beginning
that I love you.
1073
01:08:26,770 --> 01:08:29,356
I can’t pretend
to be better because
that’s what you want.
1074
01:08:29,439 --> 01:08:31,775
You said you wanted
to get better.
I do.
1075
01:08:34,361 --> 01:08:36,154
I’m not ready yet.
I’m not--
1076
01:08:36,238 --> 01:08:37,614
I do, but I’m not
ready yet.
1077
01:08:37,697 --> 01:08:38,990
Well, I...
1078
01:08:40,951 --> 01:08:43,078
I don’t care.
All right?
1079
01:08:44,496 --> 01:08:45,997
Yes, you do.
I...
No, I don’t.
1080
01:08:46,081 --> 01:08:47,666
I don’t care.
1081
01:08:47,749 --> 01:08:50,377
Seriously, I want you
exactly the way you are.
1082
01:08:52,963 --> 01:08:55,590
But you just got to
let me in and talk to me.
1083
01:08:57,342 --> 01:08:58,760
I love you.
1084
01:09:11,606 --> 01:09:14,025
-[thunder rumbling]
-[rain continues]
1085
01:09:25,370 --> 01:09:27,455
Why do you kiss me
like that?
1086
01:09:30,041 --> 01:09:31,418
Like what?
1087
01:09:34,921 --> 01:09:37,007
Like you’re in love
with me.
1088
01:09:40,802 --> 01:09:43,221
It’s the only way
I know how.
1089
01:10:07,329 --> 01:10:09,414
[crickets chirping]
1090
01:10:32,062 --> 01:10:34,606
-[door opens, slams]
-[TV playing quietly]
1091
01:10:34,689 --> 01:10:36,274
[mother] Plate’s for you
in the oven, toots.
1092
01:10:36,358 --> 01:10:38,401
-[father] Henry?
-What?
1093
01:10:40,195 --> 01:10:42,614
What’s wrong?
[sighs] Nothing.
1094
01:10:43,782 --> 01:10:45,784
What’s wrong?
Nothing.
1095
01:10:45,867 --> 01:10:47,494
Come here.
Come on.
1096
01:10:47,577 --> 01:10:50,997
We just want to know
what’s going on.
1097
01:10:51,081 --> 01:10:52,540
Is it Grace?
1098
01:10:52,624 --> 01:10:54,626
It’s just regular shit
that regular people
go through
1099
01:10:54,709 --> 01:10:56,002
that you are not
gonna understand.
1100
01:10:56,086 --> 01:10:58,213
Oh, come on.
We’re not
regular people?
1101
01:11:00,966 --> 01:11:03,510
No. No. Are you
fucking kidding me?
1102
01:11:03,593 --> 01:11:05,804
Your relationship’s
been perfect
since you were my age.
1103
01:11:09,224 --> 01:11:10,725
I got this.
No, no, no,
no, no.
1104
01:11:10,809 --> 01:11:12,268
We should go.
Mom.
1105
01:11:12,352 --> 01:11:14,771
He’s right.
You don’t understand.
1106
01:11:14,854 --> 01:11:16,231
I got it.
1107
01:11:30,578 --> 01:11:32,539
Did you guys break up?
Yeah.
1108
01:11:34,040 --> 01:11:37,043
I mean, I don’t
even know if we were
actually together.
1109
01:11:37,127 --> 01:11:38,837
Maybe it’s just
a bump in the road.
1110
01:11:38,920 --> 01:11:40,880
No, she doesn’t want me.
1111
01:11:40,964 --> 01:11:42,465
What happened?
1112
01:11:43,717 --> 01:11:47,262
[sniffles]
She’s in love
with someone else.
1113
01:11:47,345 --> 01:11:49,139
Oh, shit.
1114
01:11:56,021 --> 01:11:57,272
[quietly]
Okay.
1115
01:12:00,734 --> 01:12:03,194
[sighs]
You want the good news
or the bad news?
1116
01:12:03,278 --> 01:12:04,279
Neither.
1117
01:12:04,362 --> 01:12:07,699
Well, the bad news is
it’s gonna hurt.
1118
01:12:07,782 --> 01:12:10,285
Your brain has gotten
used to a steady stream
1119
01:12:10,368 --> 01:12:12,954
of dopamine
and oxytocin.
Here we go again.
1120
01:12:13,038 --> 01:12:15,373
Yeah, I know.
I’m sorry,
but that’s what causes
1121
01:12:15,457 --> 01:12:18,209
all those blissed-out
feelings of love.
1122
01:12:18,293 --> 01:12:21,796
And now it’s replaced
with stress hormones.
1123
01:12:21,880 --> 01:12:24,007
They’re gonna make you
feel like garbage.
1124
01:12:24,090 --> 01:12:28,053
Headaches, tight muscles,
tight chest.
1125
01:12:28,136 --> 01:12:31,097
Your body’s craving
those feel-good chemicals.
1126
01:12:32,557 --> 01:12:34,225
It’s basically withdrawal.
1127
01:12:34,309 --> 01:12:36,019
Oh, awesome.
1128
01:12:36,102 --> 01:12:38,521
Yeah. Yeah.
1129
01:12:43,151 --> 01:12:47,614
Yesterday was the first day
I didn’t think about him.
1130
01:12:50,533 --> 01:12:54,204
And tomorrow
I’m going on my first date.
1131
01:13:01,419 --> 01:13:03,755
Henry.
Hmm?
1132
01:13:05,548 --> 01:13:09,719
Love--
it’s a chemical reaction
that comes and goes.
1133
01:13:10,804 --> 01:13:15,183
Here’s the good news:
so is heartbreak.
1134
01:13:15,266 --> 01:13:17,185
Your brain adjusts.
1135
01:13:17,268 --> 01:13:20,647
Your body chemistry
changes back to normal.
1136
01:13:23,441 --> 01:13:24,984
It’s all
a waste of time.
1137
01:13:25,068 --> 01:13:27,237
[quietly]
Oh, no.
1138
01:13:29,114 --> 01:13:30,406
Hey.
1139
01:13:32,700 --> 01:13:35,453
Would you take it
all back if you could?
1140
01:13:39,040 --> 01:13:40,542
You can’t.
1141
01:13:42,544 --> 01:13:44,546
She’s a part of you now.
1142
01:13:46,047 --> 01:13:48,091
[crickets chirping]
1143
01:14:20,123 --> 01:14:21,124
[lighter clicks]
1144
01:14:36,097 --> 01:14:38,641
[night birds chirping]
1145
01:14:43,646 --> 01:14:44,647
[both]
Are you trying to...
1146
01:14:44,731 --> 01:14:46,774
Are you gonna copy me
this whole time? Okay.
1147
01:14:46,858 --> 01:14:50,320
[Cora] No, but I actually have
a real question. Wait.
1148
01:14:50,403 --> 01:14:51,946
You can’t do that.
What’s over there?
1149
01:14:52,030 --> 01:14:53,031
[chuckles] I did it.
1150
01:14:53,114 --> 01:14:54,490
[laughs] I did it.
1151
01:14:55,783 --> 01:14:57,535
[La] Where you going?
1152
01:14:57,619 --> 01:14:59,454
Um...
I don’t know.
1153
01:14:59,537 --> 01:15:01,623
Just don’t want
to watch this.
1154
01:15:02,916 --> 01:15:04,542
Wow.
1155
01:15:04,626 --> 01:15:06,920
You just can’t be happy
for anybody else.
Boo.
1156
01:15:07,003 --> 01:15:08,880
Don’t even--
don’t do that.
[laughs]
1157
01:15:08,963 --> 01:15:10,131
Don’t do that.
1158
01:15:18,056 --> 01:15:19,140
[phone chimes]
1159
01:15:23,061 --> 01:15:24,062
[phone clicks]
1160
01:15:39,869 --> 01:15:40,870
Whoa.
1161
01:15:43,998 --> 01:15:45,250
-[man] Watch it!
-[horn honks]
1162
01:15:45,333 --> 01:15:47,877
Oh!
[girl]
Whoa, did you see that?
1163
01:15:59,722 --> 01:16:01,975
[water dripping]
1164
01:16:04,435 --> 01:16:07,272
[Grace sobbing]
1165
01:16:07,355 --> 01:16:08,356
Grace?
1166
01:16:14,445 --> 01:16:16,155
[panting]
Are you okay?
I need to--
1167
01:16:16,239 --> 01:16:18,199
-I need to tell you.
-What? What do you need?
1168
01:16:18,283 --> 01:16:19,284
I need to tell you.
1169
01:16:19,367 --> 01:16:22,036
-What?
-I need to say it, Dom.
1170
01:16:22,120 --> 01:16:23,204
I need to say it, Dom.
1171
01:16:23,288 --> 01:16:24,414
[sobbing]
Okay, say it.
1172
01:16:24,497 --> 01:16:25,957
It should have been me.
1173
01:16:26,040 --> 01:16:28,167
It should have been me.
[sobbing]
1174
01:16:28,251 --> 01:16:29,585
It should have been me.
1175
01:16:29,669 --> 01:16:31,629
No. No.
It should have been me.
1176
01:16:31,713 --> 01:16:33,423
Yes, you fucking
asshole!
1177
01:16:33,506 --> 01:16:35,258
It was my fault!
1178
01:16:35,341 --> 01:16:36,801
No, it wasn’t,
Grace.
Yes, it was.
1179
01:16:36,884 --> 01:16:39,512
-No, it wasn’t.
-You told me to stop
teasing you.
1180
01:16:39,595 --> 01:16:40,596
You told me.
1181
01:16:40,680 --> 01:16:43,266
[sobbing] You told me,
and I didn’t listen.
1182
01:16:43,349 --> 01:16:45,268
I didn’t listen.
It’s okay.
1183
01:16:45,351 --> 01:16:46,936
I just wanted
to make you laugh.
1184
01:16:47,020 --> 01:16:49,480
-It’s okay. It’s okay.
-But you told me to stop.
1185
01:16:49,564 --> 01:16:51,232
Oh, I’m sorry.
It’s all right.
1186
01:16:51,316 --> 01:16:53,943
I’m sorry. I’m sorry!
1187
01:16:54,027 --> 01:16:55,778
It’s okay.
It’s okay.
1188
01:16:55,862 --> 01:16:58,114
[sobbing]
1189
01:16:58,197 --> 01:16:59,824
It’s okay.
1190
01:17:01,617 --> 01:17:03,703
[sobbing continues]
1191
01:17:08,207 --> 01:17:10,376
[panting]
1192
01:17:24,140 --> 01:17:25,808
[sobs]
1193
01:17:29,312 --> 01:17:30,813
[sniffles]
1194
01:17:34,650 --> 01:17:38,404
I felt him swerve.
1195
01:17:40,323 --> 01:17:42,408
And I knew, in that
fraction of a second,
1196
01:17:42,492 --> 01:17:44,327
that we were gonna crash.
1197
01:17:48,915 --> 01:17:53,002
And my last thought
before it happened was,
"Shit."
1198
01:17:56,756 --> 01:18:01,177
The last thought
I was about to have
in my entire life was, "Shit."
1199
01:18:07,475 --> 01:18:08,851
I didn’t think about Dom.
1200
01:18:08,935 --> 01:18:11,604
I didn’t even think
about him.
1201
01:18:11,687 --> 01:18:12,897
[sobs]
1202
01:18:14,941 --> 01:18:17,902
Does that make me
a bad person, Henry?
1203
01:18:19,779 --> 01:18:22,532
No.
[sobs]
1204
01:18:22,615 --> 01:18:24,033
Makes you a person.
1205
01:18:26,911 --> 01:18:29,414
I wonder what he was
thinking about.
1206
01:18:30,540 --> 01:18:33,126
I wonder what
his last thought was.
1207
01:18:36,921 --> 01:18:39,257
He was thinking
about you, Grace.
1208
01:18:41,551 --> 01:18:42,844
Guarantee it.
1209
01:18:47,390 --> 01:18:48,891
[sniffles]
1210
01:18:54,021 --> 01:18:56,107
[water continues dripping]
1211
01:19:04,782 --> 01:19:06,993
[cane thumping]
1212
01:19:46,199 --> 01:19:47,575
[sniffles]
1213
01:20:19,315 --> 01:20:20,733
[sniffles]
1214
01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:39,919
I was gonna marry him
in that dress.
1215
01:21:11,117 --> 01:21:13,536
[electricity crackling,
whooshing]
1216
01:21:24,505 --> 01:21:26,632
[gearshift clicks]
[engine idling]
1217
01:21:30,636 --> 01:21:32,930
No, you keep it.
It’s cold out.
1218
01:22:15,348 --> 01:22:17,933
[students chattering]
1219
01:22:18,017 --> 01:22:19,477
[Sharma]
Quick announcement,
everyone.
1220
01:22:19,560 --> 01:22:21,812
If I might have
everyone’s attention
for a moment, please.
1221
01:22:21,896 --> 01:22:23,939
-[chattering stops]
-Thank you.
1222
01:22:24,023 --> 01:22:27,818
So, I wanted to let you know
that Grace Town has decided
1223
01:22:27,902 --> 01:22:29,403
to take some time
off from school
1224
01:22:29,487 --> 01:22:31,405
to deal with
some personal issues.
1225
01:22:31,489 --> 01:22:35,618
And, um, when she returns,
she’d prefer to focus
on her studies
1226
01:22:35,701 --> 01:22:37,536
rather than
the newspaper.
1227
01:22:37,620 --> 01:22:39,246
I’m sure we’ll all
miss her very much,
1228
01:22:39,330 --> 01:22:40,706
but, uh,
it does sound like
1229
01:22:40,790 --> 01:22:43,542
this is the best decision
for her at this time.
1230
01:22:43,626 --> 01:22:45,711
I know this news
might come
as a disappointment,
1231
01:22:45,795 --> 01:22:48,214
but I want you to know
that I have
the utmost faith
1232
01:22:48,297 --> 01:22:49,423
in this group of people
1233
01:22:49,507 --> 01:22:52,385
[echoing, fading]
to produce three stellar issues.
1234
01:22:58,265 --> 01:23:00,434
[birds chirping]
1235
01:23:01,852 --> 01:23:04,021
-[electricity crackling]
-[Henry] When you’re a teenager,
1236
01:23:04,105 --> 01:23:07,108
the chemicals in your brain
drive you to make decisions
1237
01:23:07,191 --> 01:23:09,985
that rip you away from
the safety of your childhood
1238
01:23:10,069 --> 01:23:13,280
and drag you into
the wilderness of adulthood.
1239
01:23:14,573 --> 01:23:17,034
A friend once told me
that adults are just
1240
01:23:17,118 --> 01:23:18,953
scarred kids
who were lucky enough
1241
01:23:19,036 --> 01:23:21,664
to make it out of
teenage limbo alive.
1242
01:23:22,623 --> 01:23:24,458
I urge you to go outside
1243
01:23:24,542 --> 01:23:27,211
and look at the world
through that prism.
1244
01:23:27,294 --> 01:23:30,923
Look at your parents,
your older siblings.
1245
01:23:31,006 --> 01:23:34,051
Look at strangers
you pass on the street.
1246
01:23:34,135 --> 01:23:38,556
Look at them and imagine that,
at one point in their lives,
1247
01:23:38,639 --> 01:23:40,808
they too walked these halls.
1248
01:23:40,891 --> 01:23:44,228
They too felt
the unbearable loneliness,
1249
01:23:44,311 --> 01:23:47,106
the absolute
unbearable powerlessness
1250
01:23:47,189 --> 01:23:50,651
and darkness of being young.
1251
01:23:50,735 --> 01:23:52,361
Number two!
1252
01:23:52,445 --> 01:23:54,613
[students cheering]
1253
01:23:54,697 --> 01:23:55,865
This is three.
1254
01:23:55,948 --> 01:23:58,451
[students cheering]
1255
01:23:58,534 --> 01:24:03,038
[Henry] We tend to think
of scars as ugly or imperfect...
1256
01:24:06,834 --> 01:24:09,837
as things
we want to hide or forget.
1257
01:24:16,051 --> 01:24:17,887
But they never go away.
1258
01:24:23,768 --> 01:24:25,978
-[typing]
-As I write this,
1259
01:24:26,061 --> 01:24:27,646
my last editorial...
1260
01:24:27,730 --> 01:24:30,149
[reading]
1261
01:24:33,819 --> 01:24:36,238
I finally understand
1262
01:24:36,322 --> 01:24:40,576
that scars are not reminders
of what’s been broken,
1263
01:24:40,659 --> 01:24:44,288
but rather
of what’s been created.
1264
01:24:45,831 --> 01:24:47,750
[school bell ringing]
1265
01:24:47,833 --> 01:24:49,752
[chattering]
1266
01:25:15,236 --> 01:25:17,988
Hey.
Hey.
1267
01:25:18,072 --> 01:25:19,198
[quietly]
Let’s...
1268
01:25:22,076 --> 01:25:24,662
Congratulations.
1269
01:25:24,745 --> 01:25:25,996
Yeah, you too.
1270
01:25:26,080 --> 01:25:27,873
Thank you.
Yeah.
1271
01:25:30,209 --> 01:25:32,211
Where are you
off to next year?
1272
01:25:32,294 --> 01:25:35,172
I’m gonna go
to Bennington.
1273
01:25:35,256 --> 01:25:36,465
It’s a school
in Vermont.
1274
01:25:36,549 --> 01:25:37,883
It’s good for writing.
Nice.
1275
01:25:37,967 --> 01:25:38,968
What are you doing?
1276
01:25:39,051 --> 01:25:42,471
Uh, I’m taking
a year off.
1277
01:25:43,931 --> 01:25:46,225
Just continuing
therapy.
1278
01:25:47,601 --> 01:25:49,103
Oh.
1279
01:25:51,146 --> 01:25:53,858
Yeah, I was never gonna
be ready until I was...
1280
01:25:55,150 --> 01:25:56,902
ready, you know?
1281
01:25:57,945 --> 01:25:58,988
Of course you know.
1282
01:25:59,071 --> 01:26:00,573
Yeah.
1283
01:26:01,907 --> 01:26:04,994
I have to go find
my words again.
1284
01:26:05,077 --> 01:26:06,495
Yeah.
1285
01:26:08,455 --> 01:26:09,748
You will.
1286
01:26:15,296 --> 01:26:16,881
I just want to say...
1287
01:26:30,811 --> 01:26:35,482
you are an extraordinary
collection of atoms,
Henry Page.
1288
01:26:54,209 --> 01:26:57,755
[breathes deeply]
1289
01:27:37,461 --> 01:27:38,754
[sighs]
1290
01:27:38,837 --> 01:27:41,090
["Take Care"
by Beach House playing]
1291
01:27:57,856 --> 01:28:00,025
[laughter]
1292
01:28:00,109 --> 01:28:01,110
Hey, is that
Hankard?
1293
01:28:01,193 --> 01:28:02,319
Hankard!
Hankard!
1294
01:28:02,403 --> 01:28:04,029
Let’s go.
1295
01:28:04,113 --> 01:28:05,698
Um, I think
I’m gonna walk.
1296
01:28:05,781 --> 01:28:07,282
Gonna walk?
1297
01:28:07,366 --> 01:28:09,034
Hey, whoa.
1298
01:28:09,118 --> 01:28:10,828
I’m gonna walk too.
1299
01:28:13,247 --> 01:28:19,920
♪ Feel this burning
Love of mine ♪
1300
01:28:22,256 --> 01:28:25,426
♪ It’s no good
Unless it’s real... ♪
1301
01:28:25,509 --> 01:28:28,637
It’s a long walk.
Want some company?
1302
01:28:28,721 --> 01:28:30,055
Yeah, I do.
1303
01:28:30,139 --> 01:28:32,683
♪ Wild-eyed turning ♪
1304
01:28:32,766 --> 01:28:37,688
♪ Till we’re running from it ♪
1305
01:28:39,314 --> 01:28:43,902
♪ I’d take care of you ♪
1306
01:28:45,779 --> 01:28:50,284
♪ If you’d ask me to ♪
1307
01:28:52,327 --> 01:28:58,333
♪ In a year or two ♪
1308
01:28:59,960 --> 01:29:01,503
♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
1309
01:29:29,740 --> 01:29:33,619
♪ You say swimming in the lake ♪
1310
01:29:33,702 --> 01:29:38,290
♪ We’ll come across a snake ♪
1311
01:29:40,334 --> 01:29:44,338
♪ It is real
And then it’s fake ♪
1312
01:29:44,421 --> 01:29:47,549
♪ Feel its heartbeat ♪
1313
01:29:47,633 --> 01:29:50,803
♪ Feel what you heat ♪
1314
01:29:50,886 --> 01:29:57,267
♪ Far so fast
It feels too late ♪
1315
01:29:57,351 --> 01:30:02,064
♪ I’d take care of you ♪
1316
01:30:03,899 --> 01:30:08,320
♪ If you’d ask me to ♪
1317
01:30:10,405 --> 01:30:16,411
♪ In a year or two ♪
1318
01:30:17,871 --> 01:30:19,623
♪ Oh-oh-oh ♪
1319
01:30:35,597 --> 01:30:40,269
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1320
01:30:40,352 --> 01:30:43,564
♪ Take care of you ♪
1321
01:30:43,647 --> 01:30:46,191
♪ That’s true ♪
1322
01:30:48,527 --> 01:30:53,198
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1323
01:30:53,282 --> 01:30:56,493
♪ Take care of you ♪
1324
01:30:56,577 --> 01:30:59,830
♪ That’s true ♪
1325
01:31:01,415 --> 01:31:06,170
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1326
01:31:06,253 --> 01:31:09,464
♪ Take care of you ♪
1327
01:31:09,548 --> 01:31:13,093
♪ That’s true ♪
1328
01:31:14,469 --> 01:31:19,183
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1329
01:31:19,266 --> 01:31:22,477
♪ Take care of you ♪
1330
01:31:22,561 --> 01:31:25,689
♪ That’s true ♪
1331
01:31:27,441 --> 01:31:32,154
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1332
01:31:32,237 --> 01:31:35,490
♪ Take care of you ♪
1333
01:31:35,574 --> 01:31:38,702
♪ That’s true ♪
1334
01:31:40,495 --> 01:31:45,292
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1335
01:31:45,375 --> 01:31:48,503
♪ Take care of you ♪
1336
01:31:48,587 --> 01:31:51,256
♪ That’s true ♪
1337
01:31:53,300 --> 01:31:58,222
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1338
01:31:58,305 --> 01:32:01,516
♪ Take care of you ♪
1339
01:32:01,600 --> 01:32:04,478
♪ That’s true ♪
1340
01:32:06,480 --> 01:32:11,276
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1341
01:32:11,360 --> 01:32:14,529
♪ Take care of you ♪
1342
01:32:14,613 --> 01:32:17,616
♪ That’s true ♪
1343
01:32:19,534 --> 01:32:24,289
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1344
01:32:24,373 --> 01:32:27,584
♪ Take care of you ♪
1345
01:32:27,668 --> 01:32:30,837
♪ That’s true ♪
1346
01:32:32,339 --> 01:32:37,261
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1347
01:32:37,344 --> 01:32:40,555
♪ Take care of you ♪
1348
01:32:40,639 --> 01:32:43,350
♪ That’s true ♪
1349
01:32:45,560 --> 01:32:50,274
♪ I’ll take care of you ♪
1350
01:32:50,357 --> 01:32:53,527
♪ Take care of you ♪
1351
01:32:53,610 --> 01:32:55,612
♪ That’s true ♪
1352
01:32:55,696 --> 01:32:57,948
[song fades]
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