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Somewhat. .

like my father's fourth wife

My husband is a jailor. He's only doing his duty

And I, mine

And if I don't help you?

How many times I told her to flee

I'm also a prisoner here. Who will set me free?

Don't depend on me. It's impossible.

Forgive me, Gayatri

After father's death. .

. . my brothers will thrash her, throw her out.

Rather than be a cook at home, it's better to be in a brothel. .

Where is she now?

She killed herself

''The father's home is left behind. ''

''I'm to my beloved's doorstep. ''

Goodbye

''Four palanquin-bearers. . ''

Gayatri !

Gayatri !

''She left the world. ''

Come dear. Dear!

Come on. Come.

Filmfare for the best actress goes to Nikhat.

Congratulations

Ravinder. . how are you?

Sorry, I don't have a pen

How are you?

My wife Yashodra. . a great fan of yours

It's all because of you, Dada !

They're puppets, Dada. All on your fingers!

A writer's life is pretty f* *ked. You should think of turning director

You are offering me a film, are you?

What will your brother Prem Kumar say?

One man doesn't run an industry

Change is the essence of life

Nikhat! What happened? - What is it?

She's not free.

I want to talk to her about her father

One minute. . leave him alone

Please come with me

Please.

I'm a doctor from Hyderabad

Your father was my patient

It's been almost two years since he passed away

Before his death, he'd say just one thing

He wanted to meet you and seek your forgiveness

Luckily I came to Bombay

Someone brought me here, so I thought I'd tell you

I might not get a chance again. - Nikhat,

what happened?

What happened, dear?

Leave me please. Leave me.

Stop it please!

Why did you lie to me? - You can't tell a child everything

Please come with me

Look. Yes, I understand. You come on. Come.

Why did you lie to me?

What could I do? I was alone. . bringing up three children

I did what I thought was best. . what the circumstances allowed. .

I feel as if my entire chilldhood was a f* *king lie

It could've been something else

Sorry

It's not Ammi's fault

How can anyone just abandon his children?

I won't let my kids out of my sight even for two minutes

You mean, our kids?

Stop it

Will you marry me?

I promise,

I'll never leave you alone

Now?

Now

Right now

Tonight

Tomorrow morning?

Mother, you have every right to slap me when you meet me,

but at the moment I can't help myself

Also, when you meet her, I'm sure you'll forgive me

By now you must have figured out that I'm getting married

Her name is Nikhat

For the first time in life I don't feel like hurting someone

Shyamol is making all the arrangements

I already owe him a lot, and it's about time I did something for him

But artists seldom do anything for anyone. .

As soon as it is possible, I'll get Nikhat over

Anyway, take care. . and control your temper till we meet

Yours - Zafar

Coming. I'm going to go mad

Hello? Hi, baby

It's your wedding today, Zafar. What are you writing?

The last love-letter before your wedding?

Come on, the shot is ready

Let's go. - Don't be nervous

Just say the lines I've written. - No, I. .

Sharda, is everything all right?

Nikhat.

Nikhat, where are you?

Ask her to come quickly

Shut the f* *k up! For God's sake, shut up

I don't get what you're saying. Start again.

I came home to tell Ammi about the wedding

Both of them were baffled. I thought it was because it was so sudden

Suddenly uncle Michael says,

''What happens to the children's fees?''

I told him, every penny in the bank belonged to them

I said I won't take a dime with me

Then?

Then uncle Michael says, there's nothing in the bank

He lost every single penny gambling at the races

After emptying the bank account, he panicked

Come over here! Is she marrying? What kind of a joke is this?

You should have warned us, we wouldn't have announced the film!

This is India. Nobody f* *king goes to watch a married heroine's film

Whose idea was it anyway? - The wedding is not happening

The wedding is not happening? Oh sorry

Just sit down, sir. What are you doing?

Who gave you this news? - The b * * * * *d has gone mad

Go and fix him. - He's always lying

I'll call you, Khosa sahib

Yes, no tension. He's stubborn.

It's not possible. - Why not?

How. . ?

Not possible right now

It's up to you

''Oh, what do I seek? In quest of an unknown purpose. ''

Why aren't you taking a stand?

Zafar, Noni Da is here.

''Why is my heart restless?''

''Why is my heart so piqued?''

What happened?

Enough.

You have an entire life ahead. .

so don't think about marriage right now

Hey, I'm telling you

Let her work for another couple of years

After that, it's your life, you can do whatever you want

Come

If you can't have the wedding,

who says you can't have the wedding night?

What happened?

I'm leaving

Where to?

It just occurred to me. . I should also be thinking about myself

So I'm going to think

Guru, Nikhat is an amazing actress. .

. .Why don't you cast her?

If Waheeda wasn't there, I would have

If she wasn't there then. .

Why is Nikhat doing the daily grind like us?

Why has Nikhat signed so many films?

Please. - Photograph please.

Get an autograph. - Thank you.

Can't write for other directors anymore

Either I'll direct my own film or I'll pack my bags

First sign your hero

''I know what trouble love is. ''

''I know what trouble love is. ''

Mr. Chhabra, I'm not writing your film

Shove the money up your ass. .

. .and breathe deeply.

It's a wonderful idea. Narrate the story to me

Now? - Of course

It's their wedding,

they are ruining their lives, let's ruin ours.

Your daughter is just going from Bandra to Khar.

you have no experience, you've never directed before

This story needs an experienced director

For example, Guru Dutt sahib, Noni Da. .

It's not about experience

No one else can get the intricacies of this story

I won't let anyone else direct it

Look, the passion with which you told the story. .

. .will you be able to bring the same passion into the film?

Ravinder, stop living such a calculated life

Take a risk, brother

''These beautiful people never listen to the cry of the heart. ''

Look Ravinder, Prem Kumar is a friend, and he's a star

You are also a star, and now you will become my friend

I'll make films with both of you. Not a problem

Any confusion? No. I'm financing it, not Prem Kumar

So let's do it?

Done

That's good. Congratulations

Just get Nikhat's dates and the rest I'll manage

Shyamol, how's your heroine? Block her dates for Zafar's film.

She can't possibly block her dates

How can you expect her to take three months out. .

and do your film? - If Ravinder can, why can't she?

Stop it. Both are different situations

You know, Ravinder is postponing Chabra's film

You can't expect us to dance to Ravinder's tunes

I'll talk to Ravinder. We'll make your film next year

Am I interfering in your work? So don't interfere in mine

Zafar, we could discuss this somewhere else

Why are you taking off on me?

I have nothing to gain out of it

You are the one who asked me to manage Nikhat's work

Now that I'm managing it, I'll do my best, won't I?

It's very sad, you are not doing the film

I wrote it just for you

Cut! Fantastic

Madam, what a shot you have given ! - Call Mr. Dev.

It's a small industry, Zafar,

only about a hundred people who matter. . very small

Out here, everyone knows everything

So tell me, why should I do your film?

Because nobody can enact this role better than you

Liar

Well. . it's true Nikhat was doing this role earlier

But now that she isn't,

there must be some reason I came to you rather than anyone else

Another lie

If you can't understand such a simple thing. .

. .I don't know why I'm wasting my time.

You must be very busy.

Goodbye

Such arrogance!

Now I see why Nikhat fell for you

The film is based. .

on my life.

If I had met somebody like you then. .

Somebody who understood me

and my relationship with my father

Maybe life would have been different

Khosa sahib, I'll be coming directly to the office

It didn't take you very long to throw me out of the film

Did you make soup for Zakhia, Sheikh Bi?

Come on. . the doctor told you to stay in bed

Come. Your spinal chord. . - Why is that asshole still here?

You didn't answer my question. - You give me an answer, Nikhat

Ammi wouldn't eat after we threw him out

I thought she'd get a stroke

And he. . he was lying drunk in some gutter

What could I do?

You tell me. - You know something, Nikhat?

All these sacrifices you say you are making. .

for the sake of your Ammi and your brother and sister

It's all a lie

You are doing it all for yourself

You can fulfill your wishes,

but when I'm making a film and trying to fulfill my wishes,

it hurts you

That's not a straight answer

Ratanbala is better than you for this role

She's not better than me

Are you trying to threaten me?

So far I'm only requesting you

You must've shared some relationship with my Ammi

For the sake of that relationship,

do us this one last favour

Cut

Ravinder. . once more

Lallan. . pack my things. I'm going to my mother's place

Get lost!

Stop it! He's your younger brother

Has everyone gone mad?

I know why you're upset with your father

Congratulations! You're a director!

''It's kind of strange. . ''

''. .this journey called life. ''

''Because you have to leave the place that you call home. . ''

''. .and then you try to find it again. . ''

''. . but everything is new, it's never the same. . ''

''Why does this wild heart of mine. . ''

''. . hurt the one. . it loves the most. ''

''Strange! What love makes you do. You get hurt over and over again''

What is this that I'm hearing? Nikhat's working with Prem Kumar

I got a call from a friend. I'm sure you know about it.

You artistes are weird. How do you allow such things to happen?

Anyway, different lives, different stories

''O wanderer, O wanderer. . ''

''Which place. . will you call home again?''

''Trust me, every new experience. . ''

''. . is just another bout with pain. ''

''But it never stops. . and the eyes send out a message. ''

Better to work with Prem Kumar - Goodbye

''. .the lips quiver as they sing to stop the pain. . ''

''. .and to weather the storm, the heart finds a place to rest. . ''

''. .what can it do, there's too much rain. . ''

''O wanderer. ''

May I?

Possible. - Take two.

You're here, son?

At least forgive me now, son

Cut it! No Mr. Sahni. .

. .you are forgetting the status of your character

It's in your character to not lose his pride. .

. .even in his deathbed.

Stop this f* *king film right now

What's in the making here? A 20th Century Fox film?

It's been 135 days of shoot!

You're just doing one scene again and again ! Is this a joke?

Stop it! Do you keep an account? All are playing with my money!

Khosa sahib, please. .

Ratanbala, this is the end of this film

The end.

You are the producer. Whatever you decide will be the best

Correct. - But I must tell you something

This is the most beautiful film of my life

Darling. . - Try to understand

It's a technique. Unless I swear at these directors once a day. .

. .they don't work properly. But. .

I'm not going to tolerate another day of re-shooting

Go and reason with him before I pack this film up

I will

But Khosa sahib, this film will certainly be a hit

This film won't fail. - Sure?

Take my word. Come on

So lets continue.

Kukku, make a cheque of a thousand rupees in favour of Zafar

What the hell ! Is anyone even worried about the film?

Come on, let's start

Please. Four more shots to go

All right. - Lights

Lights. - Get a cold drink for Zafar sahib

Lights

Do me a favor. Before your useless sons come to kill me. .

What is it?

Brother, he has sold our land in Bhadol and grabbed the money!

Let's go, I've had enough. .

It would've been better if we had seen that film. - Yes.

Forgive me now at least! - Rubbish film! - I've got a headache.

Now that your film has been rejected so badly in its very first week

How do you feel?

The film is a flop,

in short

Kukku, I'm really worried about Zafar

Why are you worried about him? The f* *ker deserves what he got

Money is not an issue, Kukku. I have farms in Jalandhar. .

They'll earn me enough to produce yet another film

But what will happen to Zafar? It's pack up time for him

Good only!

Take us to the producer's house. Where I had gone today morning.

Okay, sir.

We're going for my work. Please smile. .

Introduce me to Nikhat baby

Greetings.

Nikhat baby will definitely be in the film

Ravinder as the male lead

Or Raj's brother Shammi

I'll write the story

I'll just be back. - Sit sweetheart

Where are you going?

Have a drink

No thanks

What's this? Now we'll be meeting everyday

Do have a drink

Get her a drink

So. . what other films are you acting in?

Don't ever get me to this sleazy place

How selfish are you !

Just this once I asked for your help

He was ready to produce my film

What did he say that you're so angry?

He was making a pass at me

What f* *king pass?

Was it anything compared to what your mother made you do. .

when you were fourteen? She even took you to Prem Kumar

Did he try to screw you like they did?

You were f* *king Prem Kumar of your own will. .

Were you asked to do anything of that sort here?

Then why are you being holier-than-thou?

How fortunate is she. .

who finds a husband like you

I shall pray to God, to grant me the opportunity. .

to serve you in every lifetime to come

Go on, my Lord

And, when you return,

you will find your wife waiting for you right here, at this door

Your sacrifice will not go waste my love. .

Cut it!

Who is it? What's going on? Throw him out

Everything is okay. Carry on with the shoot

What the f* *k is going on?

F* *ker doesn't know how to act

He's leaving her and glorifying it

Are you crazy?

Zafar, lets go outside I need to talk to you

Come, Khan sahib. There's some other scene going on here

Come outside right now!

Sorry. . sorry

But this scene is absolute crap

If you have to apologise, do it properly

What nonsense is this? ''I shall give you all the happiness''

What happiness, eh?

Nikhat, let me handle him

You think I don't understand what's going on?

What will you handle?

My totally split wide open ass? !

She quit my film to do this f* *ked up film

I understand everything

To hell with Zafar's film

It's more important for Madam to work. .

with Prem Kumar sahib

Old lovers have to unite

For this f* *ked up film,

you turned down. .

my film

Go away from here, Zafar. I'll come meet you later

Who the hell wants to meet you? Go and work with Prem Kumar

Earn lots of money! Just let me be.

It's easy to be ahead of your times, Zafar

But it's very difficult to deal with it

''Clouds burst, rain showers. . ''

''My heart's obsessed with you. . ''

''In the storm of love. . ''

''I crave for you. . ''

''Tell me what you desire. . ''

Where is Nikhat?

I will wait upstairs for you

Let go of me!

I hope you enjoyed it

At least she was there for me. .

Where were you?

Where are you right now?

I was right there. You were the one who left me. .

the day I stopped being of any use to you

I'm no good right now, Nikhat

I can't take it anymore

I can't stay here

If I do, I'll ruin whatever little is left

I'm leaving

Come with me

You told me, there's no harm in thinking about one's own self

Right now, I'm thinking only about myself

Don't worry about me . . I'll be fine

And Zafar left Bombay

Suddenly. Without telling anyone

Time passed. And I ( Shyamol) became a producer.

Cut.

Shauqat, Shyamol sahib is here

Address him with respect, he's become a producer now

Welcome, dear sir. Welcome

Welcome, dear sir. Welcome

''Just like a fragrance, he lives in every breath of mine''

''Like an intoxicant, he enters every pore''

''And still I wait everyday for him, when will my love come back to me''

''In my memories he left me, but in my dreams he returns everyday''

''Now, even the flame has been extinguished''

''But he shall come and light it up again''

''How long can he stay away from me''

If you're managing Nikhat's work, why is she doing these bad films?

Need the money

Nikhat's need or yours?

What could one say to Prem sahib?

People thought I made films with Nikhat's money

But who looked after Nikhat in times of need?

Me.

Dear Shyamol, People find us only if we want them to

I've been in London all this while

Often thought of returning to Bombay

But couldn't muster up the courage

Some people I want to avoid

Some who'd rather forget me

But if I do have the courage to return

I hope you'll welcome me Zafar.

''6 1 went by with smiles and tears. . ''

'' 1 96 1. . ''

''Somewhat hot, somewhat cold. . ''

''That was 1 96 2. ''

'''63 and '64, some calm, some clamour''

'''63 and '64, sad nights, happy days''

''With hopes and dreams. . ''

''With hopes and dreams. . ''

''. . here comes. . ''

'' 1 96 5. . ''

Shyamol, you never replied

Great news. Somebody wants to make a film on my new novel

One of the few who understood my first film

''Happy New Year. ''

I want to do something now

Can't say about the industry,

I do hope old friends have forgiven me

This industry is not the same

While changing from black & white to colour, a lot has changed

I've also changed

Who will you cast?

Ravinder

And?

Also want to cast Prem Kumar

And the girl?

''Happy New Year''

Keep a watch on the whiskey, will you?

And Mary look at the. .

And how are you Sharda?

I don't want to dance with you

Go. . go away!

Can't he take ''no'' for an answer?

Disgusting ! He just doesn't seem to listen

Where were you?

I was right here

It's okay. Please continue

Why in the name of God did you go away?

Somebody had to be there for her

I was the only friend she had

Damn it! I don't owe you any explanation.

I mean, it's not as if. .

I betrayed you or anything

Anyway, I haven't married her

Nobody betrays anyone

Just circumstances

Get on.

She can't handle this place anymore

The mad desire to stay afloat, to reinvent the magic of your past. .

it's tough.

She'll die if she lives here anymore

But we can't live without this passion either. .

Look at me

I came back, didn't I?

Don't give me that f* *king crap

Just stay away from Nikhat

You have already screwed her up once,

don't do it again.

Is that clear?

Take care.

Have you given madam her medicines?

I'm booking our tickets for Nairobi

We are leaving next week

I think that gives you enough time to finish packing

I am going to see Dr. Shah

He's going to refer us to Dr. Bernard

So you do what you have to do in the next six days

Say your goodbyes,

because on the seventh day, we are going away, for a long-long time

Till you get well, ok?

''Without my beloved, without seeing him. . ''

''. . how do I tide over the dark night?''

''The night. ''

''The dark night. ''

''The dark night. ''

''The dark night. . ''

Hey. . good morning, baby. How are you this morning?

Zafar's script. He gave it to me last night to read

Looks like you've already finished it

What happened? - I've got to go. Shyamol is waiting

Nikhat, your purse

Sorry

Despite what we've been through Zafar,

despite the stupid animosities of our youth. .

. .you want to cast me in your film. I can't refuse

So who is going to play Nikhat?

Meaning? - Come on, there's nothing to hide.

It's our story

Just set in the world of dancers

If I'm playing myself,

Ravinder is playing you,

then who's playing Nikhat?

I don't give a damn if it's the best script in the world

Why did you read it?

I went to say my goodbyes

He was sleeping. The script was lying around

Why are you getting agitated? I just read the bloody thing

I know you ! Now you'll want to do the film

''Just this once, Shyamol'' you'll say!

How many times have I told you, I don't like beans!

That's all there is. - Then you eat

It's not possible, you won't be able to take the strain

You'll die doing it

It'll be the last film of your life

And I don't want to lose you. Don't do this to yourself

Don't play with your life, Nikhat

Couldn't throw out you heroine!

Shaukat. What do I say?

The name of the film is Khoya Khoya Chand

Want the shot ready in 5 minutes!

Excuse us! Don't bother us please.

Come on. All of you come in line.

Just putting on my earrings

Hurry!

She's new. I'm shooting after ages so. .

I came to say something

What?

Thank you

. .for acting in my film

Ready?

Come on, move!

''Today, let your feet move. . ''

''. .with wild abandon. ''

''Today, my love, let us cross the boundaries of madness. ''

''Because even if we die, we would have suffocated in ecstasy. . ''

''So let your feet move. ''

''And let the frenzy take over. ''

''Today, my love, let us cross the boundaries of madness. ''

''Because even if we die, we would have suffocated in ecstasy. ''

''So let your feet move. ''

''So let your feet move. ''

Cut it!

You were good

Do one thing. - Was it okay?

You were good ! Really.

How good?

Cut

What's happened to Nikhat?

Are you fine?

Nikhat!

Are you fine?

Call Shyamol

Shyamol sahib, everyone had left

I was locking up when I found her

Careful ! Get it down !

I told you to stay away, didn't I?

I told you she can't take the tension of it all

But you didn't listen

You think I'm a fool?

Do you think. .

I didn't try to get her back to work?

But she couldn't do it. And you know why?

Because she is sick.

She has a hole in the heart, you b * * * * *d

She has a hole in the heart!

I realised only when she started drinking and landed in the hospital

That's why I was taking her away.

Got it?

Spare her, I beg of you !

Forget her, Zafar

Cast someone else. Nikhat can't do it

You're wrong

It's a crime. .

. . if you think you are saving her life

No!

She'll die anyway, a slow, painful death

Maybe she'll die doing my film

But with that b * * * * *d, she'll die for sure

Zafar?

Don't I know?

He was only waiting to strike

But I have no right to say anything

Else, I'd have taken her along

I don't have the right

Zafar

Will you marry me?

Then nobody can tell you anything

All rights are yours

I give you control of my life

Do what you want with me

Nikhat

Kill me

Go away, brother

Don't drop me from the film, please

I promise you, this time I won't fail you

Don't throw me out of the film

''The choices we made Some right, some wrong''

''As I still remember the darkness of our desires''

''I still remember the darkness of our youth''

''As I still remember the darkness of our desires''

''I still remember the darkness of our youth''

''So let your feet move''

''So let your feet move''

''And let the frenzy take over''

''We were right sometimes, sometimes wrong. ''

''The destination was the same, the routes different. ''

''Who knows whether things. . ''

''. .could have turned out differently. ''

''Maybe, the fact that we met. . ''

''. .was the worst thing to have happened to us. ''

''Many possibilities were explored. ''

''Now let us explore another. ''

''Many possibilities were explored'' - Now forgive me, son.

''Now let us explore another. ''

''So let your feet move. ''

''And let the frenzy take over. ''

''Today, my love, let us cross the boundaries of madness. ''

''Because even if we die, we would have suffocated in ecstasy. ''

Nikhat! Nikhat!

Call the ambulance!

Nikhat!

I tripped because of my anklets

Bravo!

''Oh, what do I seek? In quest of an unknown purpose. . ''

''. .why is my heart restless?''

''Why is my heart so piqued?''

''It chooses its own destinations. . ''

''. . it even bridges distances. ''

''Yet, why does the heart fear and fret on the way?''