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LIZ GARBUS:
In the true crime community,
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Michelle's death was
unbelievable.
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One of the first things
I thought was,
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"That book has to get finished."
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♪ (SOMBER MUSIC PLAYS) ♪
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I wanted to take care
of this person,
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for her whole life.
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This book,
was my last opportunity
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to take care of something
for her.
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And then, there was the case.
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There was momentum
within agencies recognizing,
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"We need to get this done."
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I reached out to this
genetic genealogist.
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GENEALOGIST: We got over
a thousand matches.
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MAN:
Things snowballed from there.
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GENEALOGIST:
I remember thinking,
this guy looks awfully good.
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MAN: After four decades
of searching for this guy,
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we got a one hundred percent
match,
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to the Golden State Killer's
DNA.
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(SOUND OF TEXTS BEING SENT)
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I wish you were pointing
that camera
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at Michelle right now.
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♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪
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♪ (OMINOUS MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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BONNIE COLWELL: I was 18.
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The good girl,
the rule follower.
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Straight-A student.
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I started dating this guy.
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He was studying law enforcement
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and I was in nursing.
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He was very gregarious, uh,
outgoing to all my friends.
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We'd been together
close to a year.
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He gave me a high solitaire
engagement ring.
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And he told me that
we're gonna be married.
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The rules were never for him.
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-He took me hunting...
-(GUNSHOT)
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...without a license.
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Illegal spear fishing.
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We crossed into "no trespassing"
territory at night.
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So many of the things
that we did together,
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he pushed me toward fear.
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(ENGINE REVVING)
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One time, I'm on the back
of his motorcycle
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doing this steep hill climb,
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I'm just thinking this is--
this is suicide.
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He let a German shepherd
chase us on the bike...
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(DOG BARKING)
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...and he kicked the dog
underneath the chin
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and he broke its neck.
It just dropped dead.
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The critical point for us
was in college.
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He told me that I was going
to help him
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to cheat on the exam.
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I told him, "I won't let you
cheat from my paper."
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And that began the escalation
of, "But you have to.
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We're engaged. You have to,
you have to.
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You owe me this."
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As he continued
to put on pressure,
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I gave him back
the engagement ring.
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Two weeks later,
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probably two or three o'clock
in the morning,
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there was a tapping
on the glass of my window.
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(KNOCKS ON WINDOW)
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I pulled the curtain back,
and he was pointing a gun at me
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and said, "Get dressed,
we're going to Reno tonight.
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We're gonna be married."
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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At that time,
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I still lived
in my parents' home,
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and I ran to go wake up
my father to ask him to help me.
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He put me in the bathroom
and said,
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"Don't you come out
until I come and get you."
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And it was about
two hours of time.
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My father came back
and just told me to go to bed.
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No indication of what was said
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or what had happened
in the porch,
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and-- and I never knew.
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I never got the story
from my father.
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And I never saw Joe again.
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♪ ("AVALANCHE"
BY AIMEE MANN PLAYING) ♪
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♪ Well, I stepped
Into an avalanche ♪
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♪ It covered up my soul ♪
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♪ When I am not this hunchback
That you see ♪
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♪ I sleep beneath
The golden hill ♪
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♪ You who wish to conquer pain ♪
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♪ You must learn
Learn to serve me well ♪
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♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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PATTON OSWALT: Where do we go?
I'll follow you.
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One minute.
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Um, can we get this to stream,
or...
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-We'll find it somewhere.
-PATTON: Here we go.
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Turn the volume up all the way.
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-BILLY JENSEN: Yeah, I will.
-PATTON: Yeah, yeah.
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ANNE MARIE SCHUBERT:
Good morning, everybody.
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For those of you
that don't know,
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my name is Anne Marie Schubert,
I'm the District Attorney
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of Sacramento County.
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Over these years,
hundreds of individuals
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have sought justice
for these victims
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and their families.
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Many have dedicated
their virtual entire professions
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to seeking this answer.
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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PROSECUTOR:
Joseph James DeAngelo
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has been called a lot of things
by law enforcement.
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He's been called
the East Side Rapist,
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he's been called
the Visalia Ransacker,
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the Original Night Stalker,
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and the Golden State Killer.
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Today, it's our pleasure
to call him defendant.
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His 12-year reign of terror
lasted from 1974
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through May 4th of 1986.
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He started with ransacking,
sexual assaults, rape.
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PATTON: Wow.
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He moved down the state
from Sacramento County
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and ending in Orange County.
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They just confirmed
that he's the Ransacker.
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-PATTON: Wow.
-PROSECUTOR: 1980 to 1986.
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Oh my God.
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MICHELLE MCNAMARA:
There's something
about these detectives,
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like, I end up, like,
falling a little in love
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with each of them.
Just there-- there's something
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about the drive that they have
and what they're doing,
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that I just... I don't know,
I get, like, almost, like, teary
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when I go to all these
different jurisdictions
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and they're just digging
through old paperwork
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and they're not giving up.
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I have such respect for it.
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It was disbelief.
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And then, um, a flood
of emotions came through
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that over 40 years,
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I didn't realize
were still there.
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Uh, it's absolutely huge.
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After nearly a quarter
of a century
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trying to find this guy,
to actually see him,
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after all these years
of wondering who he was,
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it's an amazing moment.
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NEWS ANCHOR 1: "We found
the needle in the haystack."
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Those are the words
of authorities in California
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following the arrest
of a former police officer.
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NEWS ANCHOR 2:
Joseph DeAngelo, now 72,
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arrested outside his home.
They surprised him.
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No incident.
He didn't say, "It wasn't me,"
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or anything like that?
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No, uh, really no--
really no conversation at all.
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Uh, just the, uh, the only thing
he really said was,
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uh, they had arrested him.
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So, I can tell you that
over the last few days,
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as information started to point
towards this individual,
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we started some surveillance.
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We were able to get
some discarded DNA,
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and we were able to confirm
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what we thought
we already knew.
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-What does he mean,
"discarded DNA"?
-We had our man.
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-They went through his trash.
-Oh.
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I can't underscore enough
the absolute human factor.
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This was a true convergence
of emerging technology
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and dogged determination
by detectives.
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Yes.
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OFFICER: So I want to thank
not only the crime lab,
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the DNA that helped us
get here,
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but my own detectives...
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MICHELLE: The amazing thing
about this DNA technology
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is it's like every three months,
it gets better.
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Within a year I can--
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we probably will have
the family tree.
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What I love is this intersection
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of sort of technology
and crime solving,
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in that people can get sort of
wheeled out of their house
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for something they did in 1957
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because of the internet,
because of DNA.
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SETH MEYERS:
She's an incredible writer,
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and a lot of people
I saw on social media today
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were, you know, tweeting out
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this-- this last bit
that she wrote
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-which seems really fitting.
-Oh, yeah, yeah.
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"One day soon, you'll hear a car
pull up to your curb,
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an engine cut out.
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PATTON AND MICHELLE TOGETHER:
You'll hear footsteps
coming up your front walk.
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The doorbell rings."
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MICHELLE:
No side gates are left open.
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You're long past
leaping over a fence.
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Take one of your hyper
gulping breaths,
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clench your teeth,
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inch timidly toward
the insistent bell.
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(READS)
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(READS)
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Open the door.
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Show us your face.
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Walk into the light.
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Michelle McNamara.
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(BIRDS CHIRPING)
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REPORTER 1: Good morning to you.
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We are outside the Sacramento
County Courthouse,
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where later today, 72-year-old
Joseph DeAngelo
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will make
his first court appearance.
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Investigators now telling us
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they used discarded DNA
to help track him down...
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LINDA O'DELL: Wow, is that huge.
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I was living in Citrus Heights
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and he was living
in Citrus Heights for 30 years.
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Same city.
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And the fact that
he was a police officer
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just makes me sick.
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And we're off.
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Gonna have positive vibes.
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It's interesting
because I am getting nervous.
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I mean, I'm not afraid
of him now,
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he's just-- he's an old man,
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but, um...
you know, evil's evil.
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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MELANIE BARBEAU: On the first
day of the arraignment,
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I was just like,
"Can this be happening?
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This cannot be happening."
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The victims were all kind of
gathered in the DA's office,
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and Dr. Offerman's son
and his wife were there.
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For the longest time,
when I found out
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that the murders
were associated with the rapes,
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I really wanted
to meet these women.
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They were, like, the only people
maybe on the planet
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who got my story,
who understood.
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And I thought, "They know."
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They know, but they know
what happened to Charlene.
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But they lived through it,
and they got to live through it,
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and they're strong.
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JANE CARSON-SANDLER:
Forty-two years.
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Forty-two years
I've waited for this.
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But, hey, he's behind bars
and justice is being served.
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"Now we, dot, dot, dot,
have the power
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and the control."
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Rape is all about power
and control,
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but, you know,
now we're in charge, buddy.
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We're in charge.
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(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
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REPORTER 2: Joseph DeAngelo
of Citrus Heights
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is now facing 13 counts
of murder
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and 13 counts of kidnapping.
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MELANIE: Deb Domingo
asked if I could sit in for her,
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to be there in spirit
for her mother
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and her mother's boyfriend
that were so brutally murdered.
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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BAILIFF:
All right, Your Honor,
on the 130 calendar, page two,
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in custody, DeAngelo.
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JUDGE MICHAEL SWEET:
Is, uh, Joseph James DeAngelo
your true correct legal name?
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(INAUDIBLE)
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-JUDGE SWEET: I'm sorry?
-Yes.
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JUDGE SWEET: Yes. You are.
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JENNIFER CAROLE: This old man?
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This pathetic old man
is the monster?
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JUDGE SWEET: ...circumstance.
Count one alleges
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on or about February 2, 1978,
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in the county of Sacramento,
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you did willfully, unlawfully,
and with malice aforethought
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murder Katie Maggiore,
a human being,
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in violation of Penal Code
section 187, subdivision A.
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It is a felony.
It's further alleged...
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KRIS PEDRETTI: I was not happy
when I heard he was caught
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because I wanted him dead.
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But I was happy that he was
being brought to justice.
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Like,
all the conflicting feelings,
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I was angry, scared, happy, mad.
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I really experienced
every emotion.
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I feel that I did a great job
for 42 years of...
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living and trying
to be as normal as possible.
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You know, it was now real.
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And unfortunately...
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our brains hold onto
a lot of memories
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that now were starting to flood.
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JUDGE SWEET:
...sixty-one, Mr. DeAngelo.
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All right.
Why don't we take a recess...
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FIONA WILLIAMS: To get through
that initial time,
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I can't stress how...
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how unsettling it is to live
every minute being afraid
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when you never thought
that would happen to you
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or could happen.
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(LAUGHS) I scribbled
over his face 'cause I hated it.
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(LAUGHS) Maybe we shouldn't
use that one.
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Here's a good one.
"How DNA was collected."
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Feelings are very complicated
in these situations.
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I cannot remember after the rape
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the first time that I might have
broken down in tears.
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I don't know that I ever did
in front of any of the officers.
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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FIONA: The one time
I do remember crying
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was two and a half months later
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on August 16, 1977,
when-- when Elvis Presley died.
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Bye.
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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FIONA: I cried for Elvis
and I cried for myself
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and my family and all
we'd been through that year.
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And strangely,
after DeAngelo's arrest,
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I found myself crying a lot.
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And this is the thing
about these emotions, you...
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you-- you couldn't even, uh...
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intelligently explain
why you're crying.
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It's-- it's just perhaps maybe
all the emotional stress
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of so much
over so long a time.
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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FIONA: And then, when they
started showing his house
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out in Citrus Heights,
his nice...
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comfy suburban three-car garage
house with the toys,
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I thought, "You're kidding me."
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Citrus Heights?
Under our nose?
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And he's living
the comfy suburban life
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that he wrecked
for so many other people?
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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NANCY MILLER: Crazy thought,
but what if we actually do
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catch this guy
and you get the satisfaction
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of knowing all the work
that we did
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helps land this dude?
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What's gonna happen to the kid
and all these people
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that have spent 4,000 hours
looking at this stuff?
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MICHELLE: Uh, what will happen
if this case gets solved?
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Um, because this does seem
to fulfill something
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for a lot of people.
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PAUL HAYNES: This house
right here. There it is.
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-BILLY: Seriously?
-That's it.
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That is it.
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HAYNES: Since DeAngelo's arrest,
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I spent that time
trying to reconcile
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Joseph James DeAngelo
with the abstract image
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of the East Area Rapist
that I had developed.
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It's like this person's
a stranger all over again.
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Much in the way that, you know,
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I'd struggled to reconcile
Michelle's substance abuse
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and the things
that I didn't know about her
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with the person that I knew.
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I've struggled to fuse
those two people.
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♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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MELANIE: You know,
all of my work
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is interest in, uh,
the human psyche.
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What makes people suffer,
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what makes, uh, people turn out
the way they are.
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I'm really interested
in what made Joe DeAngelo
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become the East Area Rapist.
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What in his life
created that monster?
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Was he born like that?
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I don't think so.
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He may have had
something missing
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and it culminated
in other things
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that happened to him
in his childhood.
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I don't know,
but I really want to know.
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(DOOR CLOSES)
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BILLY: All right.
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BILLY:
The first thing I wanted to do
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was do a search for his name
in Michelle's hard drive.
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She knew more about this case
than anyone...
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but I didn't find it.
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And I was like,
"Let's build a timeline."
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We need to build a timeline
of where he's been.
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♪ (SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
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HAYNES: Joe is one of four,
born in 1945
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in upstate New York.
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As a boy,
he moves with his family
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to an army base in Germany
where his father's stationed.
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MICHELLE: My gut has always been
like it's a troubled child
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of someone who had a big
family connection
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to the military. Yeah.
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MELANIE: Then he moves
to Rancho Cordova
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in Sacramento County
for high school.
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They struggle financially
and move frequently.
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In 1964, his parents divorce
and Joe joins the Navy,
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serving as a warship repairman
in Vietnam.
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MICHELLE: Another part of me
thinks, "Well, was it Vietnam?"
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I mean, look at the timing
of it.
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So, you know, I'm not sure
it wasn't that
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or something like that.
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MAN 1: Right. Wow.
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HAYNES:
When he returns in 1968,
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Joe goes to school
for criminal justice.
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That's when he's engaged
to Bonnie Colwell,
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which ends badly.
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MELANIE: After graduation,
he follows his family
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south to Exeter, California,
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and marries
twenty-year-old Sharon Huddle.
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HAYNES: In 1973,
he becomes a police officer,
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assigned to
the anti-burglary unit
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one town over from Visalia,
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the same year
the ransackings begin.
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MELANIE: Three years later,
the ransacking ceases
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and Joe moves with Sharon
to Auburn,
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where he joins
the police force.
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The East Area Rapist attacks
begin that summer,
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just 30 miles southwest
in Rancho Cordova.
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-MICHELLE: No, he definitely
was living in Sacramento.
-MAN 2: Okay.
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MICHELLE: I mean, he definitely
knew Sacramento very well.
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But he keeps coming back to this
very small--
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I mean, you can walk
to those crime scenes.
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-MAN 2: Yeah.
-MICHELLE: They're within a mile
of each other.
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HAYNES: The EAR terrorizes
Sacramento and beyond
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until 1979,
when Joe was arrested
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for stealing dog repellent
and a hammer
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and fired from the force.
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NICK WILLICK:
He wasn't super athletic.
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He had a nickname,
which was Junk Food Joey.
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He would, you know,
have a bag of potato chips,
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a candy bar, or a soft drink
in his hand all the time.
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HAYNES: The Original
Night Stalker murders
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in Southern California start
in 1979.
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The murder spree stops in 1981,
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the same year the first
of his three daughters is born.
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00:23:13,148 --> 00:23:14,899
MELANIE: I mean, God.
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00:23:16,357 --> 00:23:19,023
No murders occur
for the next five years
404
00:23:19,107 --> 00:23:22,482
until his last known victim,
Janelle Cruz,
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00:23:22,565 --> 00:23:24,774
is killed in 1986.
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00:23:24,857 --> 00:23:28,315
Joe's second daughter is born
six months later.
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00:23:29,941 --> 00:23:32,357
HAYNES: In the early '90s,
his wife moves out
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with their three daughters.
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00:23:34,065 --> 00:23:35,982
Though Sharon
is a divorce lawyer,
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the pair never legally splits.
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MICHELLE: I think he's
a middle-class guy
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who-- who has a respectable job
that you would just be--
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your jaw would drop if you
found out that this was him.
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HAYNES: Joe spends
most of his time fishing
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and working the night shift
as a mechanic
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at a supermarket
distribution center.
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In March 2018, he retires,
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00:24:02,357 --> 00:24:04,816
and the following month,
he is arrested.
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PAUL HOLES: Um, the inside
of the house was cluttered,
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but an organized clutter. Uh--
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HAYNES: Do we have any sense
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that he knew
the book came out? Or--
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00:24:17,023 --> 00:24:19,857
HOLES: No. In fact, I was
half expecting to see Michelle's
book inside the house.
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-(HAYNES CHUCKLES)
-BILLY: Yeah.
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HOLES: Uh, I did think
about Michelle, thinking,
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00:24:24,357 --> 00:24:26,732
"I wish you were here
to be able to see this,"
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00:24:26,816 --> 00:24:29,273
because we had so many
conversations
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00:24:29,357 --> 00:24:31,816
about who this guy actually
could be.
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00:24:39,607 --> 00:24:42,065
MELANIE: You know,
having three daughters
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and a granddaughter, um...
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00:24:45,982 --> 00:24:48,148
you know, knowing
that he committed crimes
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00:24:48,232 --> 00:24:49,691
against women like that.
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00:24:51,565 --> 00:24:53,691
What must that be like
in his soul
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00:24:53,774 --> 00:24:55,607
and in his conscience?
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00:24:57,774 --> 00:25:01,148
My first alliance
is with all the survivors,
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00:25:01,232 --> 00:25:05,732
but I also feel compassion
towards his family.
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00:25:05,816 --> 00:25:08,273
I mean, their lives
are changed forever.
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00:25:17,440 --> 00:25:20,565
WES RYLAND: This is Uncle Joe.
(CHUCKLES)
439
00:25:20,649 --> 00:25:23,899
This is at his house, uh,
in Citrus Heights.
440
00:25:27,273 --> 00:25:29,399
Here's Uncle Joe again.
441
00:25:29,482 --> 00:25:31,232
It's when he was younger.
442
00:25:31,315 --> 00:25:35,148
And this looks like it was
taken at my parents' place.
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00:25:35,232 --> 00:25:37,273
Um, yeah.
444
00:25:40,190 --> 00:25:41,232
Yeah.
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00:25:44,982 --> 00:25:48,399
My mom, as she's dying,
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00:25:48,482 --> 00:25:52,357
she says, "This family...
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00:25:52,440 --> 00:25:55,399
is so full of secrets.
448
00:25:57,065 --> 00:25:59,732
Everyone has a secret."
449
00:26:02,232 --> 00:26:06,315
It's Becky, Joe, and Constance.
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00:26:07,774 --> 00:26:09,524
So, Constance is my mother.
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00:26:11,315 --> 00:26:14,399
She told me stories
where they would be eating...
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00:26:14,482 --> 00:26:16,941
peas off of the kitchen floor
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00:26:17,023 --> 00:26:18,607
and they would be looking
in cabinets
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00:26:18,691 --> 00:26:19,982
to try to find something
to eat.
455
00:26:20,065 --> 00:26:21,440
They were just little kids.
456
00:26:21,524 --> 00:26:23,691
Yeah, they, you know,
because they were always--
457
00:26:23,774 --> 00:26:25,899
they were hungry, you know,
and no one was home
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00:26:25,982 --> 00:26:27,190
to feed them.
459
00:26:27,273 --> 00:26:30,649
Um, she said that they would be
locked up in a closet.
460
00:26:31,857 --> 00:26:34,816
Uh, her father would lock them
in a closet
461
00:26:34,899 --> 00:26:36,941
and then bring them out
and line them up
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00:26:37,023 --> 00:26:39,732
and do corporal punishment
on them.
463
00:26:39,816 --> 00:26:42,524
And guess who got the worst
of the beatings?
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It was Uncle Joe.
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00:26:45,649 --> 00:26:48,315
She says, "My brother, Joe,
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00:26:48,399 --> 00:26:50,857
got the worst of all of us."
467
00:26:53,148 --> 00:26:55,482
BONNIE: When we started dating
each other,
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00:26:55,565 --> 00:26:57,399
he had a big muscle car.
469
00:26:58,065 --> 00:26:59,899
He taught me how to drive.
470
00:26:59,982 --> 00:27:03,941
And he bought me
a small .22 rifle
471
00:27:04,023 --> 00:27:05,774
and taught me how to clean it,
472
00:27:05,857 --> 00:27:08,524
how to load it, how to shoot it
473
00:27:08,607 --> 00:27:11,524
and, um, it was--
it was a power thing.
474
00:27:12,649 --> 00:27:15,357
It was all about his dominance.
475
00:27:16,774 --> 00:27:20,399
Joe was my first sexual partner.
476
00:27:20,482 --> 00:27:24,232
When we were together
intimately,
477
00:27:24,941 --> 00:27:28,232
he would stop and come back
478
00:27:28,315 --> 00:27:31,148
and stop and come back
and stop and come back.
479
00:27:31,232 --> 00:27:35,315
And I didn't really understand
that I could say,
480
00:27:35,399 --> 00:27:37,691
"You know,
this is not fun for me.
481
00:27:37,774 --> 00:27:40,565
This is practically painful
for me."
482
00:27:41,065 --> 00:27:42,941
And, uh...
483
00:27:43,023 --> 00:27:44,315
but I j-- I went along.
484
00:27:44,399 --> 00:27:46,816
I didn't--
I really didn't know any better.
485
00:27:46,899 --> 00:27:50,232
I just had no reference to say,
"This is--
486
00:27:50,315 --> 00:27:53,107
This is going toward abusive."
487
00:27:55,649 --> 00:27:57,357
After the broken engagement
488
00:27:57,440 --> 00:27:59,273
with a gun at my window,
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00:27:59,357 --> 00:28:02,065
I had so put it away
and buried it.
490
00:28:04,565 --> 00:28:06,482
When he was arrested
491
00:28:06,565 --> 00:28:09,315
and I started to tell
the story again,
492
00:28:09,399 --> 00:28:11,899
I was sleeping
about three hours a night.
493
00:28:13,607 --> 00:28:16,482
I'm waking up
with a gun at my head
494
00:28:16,565 --> 00:28:18,399
over and over and over again.
495
00:28:23,941 --> 00:28:26,023
LISA ORTIZ: I still today have
a hard time
496
00:28:26,107 --> 00:28:27,607
believing that he did it.
497
00:28:28,816 --> 00:28:30,565
I mean, Joe's like...
498
00:28:31,273 --> 00:28:33,107
an amazing person.
499
00:28:34,399 --> 00:28:37,107
He was loving and... (SNIFFLES)
500
00:28:37,982 --> 00:28:39,774
nice and...
501
00:28:42,273 --> 00:28:45,774
just the dad that I always
wished that I had had.
502
00:28:48,482 --> 00:28:52,816
I was related to Joe
through marriage,
503
00:28:54,399 --> 00:28:57,524
but he was just always known
as Uncle Joe to me.
504
00:28:59,816 --> 00:29:02,649
When I was 13,
505
00:29:02,732 --> 00:29:07,148
I had two boys
break into my house
506
00:29:07,232 --> 00:29:11,524
through a bathroom window
in my parents' room
507
00:29:13,107 --> 00:29:17,148
and put my clo--
my sister in a closet,
508
00:29:18,315 --> 00:29:19,857
held a knife to my neck,
509
00:29:21,857 --> 00:29:22,982
and attacked me.
510
00:29:25,065 --> 00:29:27,482
Well, between that and...
511
00:29:29,232 --> 00:29:32,857
the abuse of my dad,
I tried to harm myself...
512
00:29:36,649 --> 00:29:38,315
and that's pretty much
how I ended up
513
00:29:38,399 --> 00:29:40,023
going to live with Joe.
514
00:29:41,023 --> 00:29:45,190
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
515
00:29:46,315 --> 00:29:50,190
This was dated on April 30th...
516
00:29:52,607 --> 00:29:54,524
and I said, "Joe...
517
00:29:55,691 --> 00:29:59,023
I don't even know how to begin,
other than to say..."
518
00:29:59,107 --> 00:30:00,232
(CLEARS THROAT)
519
00:30:01,982 --> 00:30:05,357
"I cannot believe what I am
hearing and seeing.
520
00:30:09,273 --> 00:30:12,273
You taught me to drive,
shoot a gun,
521
00:30:12,357 --> 00:30:16,357
always took me to Blockbuster
to rent my favorite movies.
522
00:30:22,357 --> 00:30:25,565
Some of my best memories
are of you.
523
00:30:25,649 --> 00:30:27,023
You were a good dad,
524
00:30:27,107 --> 00:30:29,565
that is the one thing
I know to be true.
525
00:30:31,565 --> 00:30:33,899
I hope you did care about me...
526
00:30:36,816 --> 00:30:39,649
because my heart
is forever broken."
527
00:30:39,732 --> 00:30:43,565
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
528
00:30:52,315 --> 00:30:56,649
WES: In 1975, we lived
off of Winchester Way
529
00:30:56,732 --> 00:30:58,273
in Rancho Cordova.
530
00:31:00,524 --> 00:31:01,941
One night, uh,
531
00:31:03,273 --> 00:31:07,232
I was sleeping
and I had to turn over.
532
00:31:07,315 --> 00:31:10,232
And I remember opening my eyes,
and I saw...
533
00:31:11,440 --> 00:31:14,774
some-- a man, or some man,
534
00:31:14,857 --> 00:31:17,607
or something,
in a-- in a ski mask
535
00:31:17,691 --> 00:31:19,524
and he was staring at me.
536
00:31:19,607 --> 00:31:21,357
This is the house
537
00:31:21,440 --> 00:31:24,023
that me and my family
used to live in.
538
00:31:24,107 --> 00:31:27,565
Um, the bedroom to the left
539
00:31:27,649 --> 00:31:30,065
was me and my brother's
bedroom.
540
00:31:30,148 --> 00:31:33,524
That's where I saw the man
in the ski mask.
541
00:31:33,607 --> 00:31:35,107
I always wondered
all these years,
542
00:31:35,190 --> 00:31:37,273
who was that talking to me
543
00:31:37,357 --> 00:31:39,857
through his teeth, who said,
544
00:31:39,941 --> 00:31:45,107
uh, "Don't turn around,
go back to sleep"?
545
00:31:47,482 --> 00:31:50,941
I never discussed it
with anybody.
546
00:31:51,023 --> 00:31:53,315
I never told a soul.
547
00:31:53,399 --> 00:31:56,524
I sat down with my wife
after my uncle got arrested,
548
00:31:56,607 --> 00:32:00,941
and I was in tears and I was
telling her these things.
549
00:32:01,565 --> 00:32:04,649
I said, "Wow,
550
00:32:04,732 --> 00:32:10,107
I wonder if he used our house
as a safe haven?"
551
00:32:13,107 --> 00:32:15,774
I feel very, very bad
552
00:32:16,607 --> 00:32:18,565
for all these victims
553
00:32:18,649 --> 00:32:20,482
and for their families,
554
00:32:21,816 --> 00:32:23,607
and all these people,
555
00:32:23,691 --> 00:32:27,357
you know, that were murdered
by him too and their families.
556
00:32:32,273 --> 00:32:34,273
And then, you wake up one day
557
00:32:34,357 --> 00:32:37,899
and you find out that you're on
this side of the spectrum,
558
00:32:38,816 --> 00:32:41,023
where your family member
559
00:32:41,107 --> 00:32:43,899
is the one that did
all these heinous crimes.
560
00:32:45,023 --> 00:32:48,565
Can you imagine how we feel
as well?
561
00:32:49,774 --> 00:32:54,357
To think that someone
who we knew all of our lives
562
00:32:55,607 --> 00:32:57,023
was like this,
563
00:32:58,774 --> 00:33:00,482
and we had no clue.
564
00:33:04,107 --> 00:33:07,148
JEFFREY DAHMER: The only motive
that there ever was,
565
00:33:07,232 --> 00:33:09,315
was to completely control
a person
566
00:33:09,399 --> 00:33:11,732
that I found
physically attractive
567
00:33:11,816 --> 00:33:14,357
and keep them with me
as long as possible,
568
00:33:14,440 --> 00:33:18,482
even if it meant just
keeping a part of them.
569
00:33:18,565 --> 00:33:20,691
MAN 3: What would motivate
somebody to do this?
570
00:33:20,774 --> 00:33:21,899
MAN 4:
What was the motive?
571
00:33:21,982 --> 00:33:23,148
WOMAN 1:
What's the motive?
572
00:33:23,232 --> 00:33:24,273
MAN 5: What was the motive?
573
00:33:24,357 --> 00:33:25,732
ALL: (OVERLAPPING)
Motive? Motive? Motive?
574
00:33:28,315 --> 00:33:29,941
(APPLAUSE)
575
00:33:30,023 --> 00:33:33,273
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
576
00:33:35,649 --> 00:33:38,440
REPORTER 3: Thousands of people
flocked to Nashville, Tennessee,
577
00:33:38,524 --> 00:33:39,607
earlier this month.
578
00:33:39,691 --> 00:33:42,565
They were headed
to the second annual CrimeCon,
579
00:33:42,649 --> 00:33:44,482
a convention
whose mere existence
580
00:33:44,565 --> 00:33:47,357
confirms America's
fascination with crime.
581
00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:49,524
WOMAN 2: To me, it's almost like
the Coachella
582
00:33:49,607 --> 00:33:51,107
of people
who love true crime.
583
00:33:55,732 --> 00:33:58,357
MICHELLE: I've spent a lot
of time thinking about why.
584
00:33:58,440 --> 00:34:01,440
For many reasons,
the fascination makes no sense.
585
00:34:02,232 --> 00:34:04,190
I'm extraordinarily squeamish
586
00:34:04,273 --> 00:34:06,399
about visual depictions
of violence
587
00:34:06,482 --> 00:34:08,273
and frequently have
to leave the room
588
00:34:08,357 --> 00:34:10,691
at what many would consider
mild episodes
589
00:34:10,774 --> 00:34:13,232
of physical roughness on TV.
590
00:34:13,315 --> 00:34:16,107
No one in my family has
murdered or been murdered.
591
00:34:17,941 --> 00:34:20,691
I don't know.
I just don't know.
592
00:34:20,774 --> 00:34:24,774
♪ (MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
593
00:34:27,816 --> 00:34:29,232
CRIMECON ATTENDEE:
So glad to meet you!
594
00:34:29,315 --> 00:34:31,816
KAREN KILGARIFF: It's a fear
a lot of women hold
595
00:34:31,899 --> 00:34:33,649
that something's gonna happen
to them,
596
00:34:33,732 --> 00:34:35,691
they might get attacked, um,
597
00:34:35,774 --> 00:34:38,023
you know, whatever it might be.
598
00:34:38,107 --> 00:34:40,023
Uh, they might get raped.
599
00:34:40,107 --> 00:34:43,273
Because in the world,
they are vulnerable,
600
00:34:43,357 --> 00:34:46,899
and their worst fear happened
to somebody else.
601
00:34:46,982 --> 00:34:51,107
And there's empathy,
it's fear-driven...
602
00:34:52,607 --> 00:34:56,357
and when you're transferred
into these alternate worlds
603
00:34:56,440 --> 00:34:57,607
through true crime,
604
00:34:57,691 --> 00:35:00,774
where the worst things possible
are happening,
605
00:35:00,857 --> 00:35:02,148
it's both a relief,
606
00:35:02,232 --> 00:35:05,440
because it takes your mind
off all your darkness inside...
607
00:35:07,315 --> 00:35:09,732
and at the same time,
it's filling a fantasy
608
00:35:09,816 --> 00:35:11,524
of your worst fears.
609
00:35:15,357 --> 00:35:16,607
WOMAN 3: It was awesome.
610
00:35:16,691 --> 00:35:17,857
-Thank you, guys.
-Thank you.
611
00:35:17,941 --> 00:35:19,273
-Appreciate it.
-Can we have a picture?
612
00:35:19,357 --> 00:35:20,691
-HAYNES: Sure.
-I'm sorry.
613
00:35:23,273 --> 00:35:24,649
Big fan.
614
00:35:26,524 --> 00:35:28,982
HAYNES:
Initially, I was just a little,
615
00:35:29,065 --> 00:35:30,732
um, uneasy about the fact
616
00:35:30,816 --> 00:35:32,857
that I had no direct
relationship to the case.
617
00:35:32,941 --> 00:35:34,357
It's the sort of thing
that's like,
618
00:35:34,440 --> 00:35:35,607
"Well, why are you doing this?"
619
00:35:35,691 --> 00:35:36,774
Like, "Do you know someone
who was--
620
00:35:36,857 --> 00:35:38,565
who was attacked
by this offender?" No.
621
00:35:39,816 --> 00:35:42,732
But it was just, I don't know,
why do people collect,
622
00:35:42,816 --> 00:35:46,065
uh, baseball cards
or model trains, you know?
623
00:35:46,148 --> 00:35:48,190
It's just something that
captured my interest.
624
00:35:53,691 --> 00:35:58,565
This case gave me a direction
and a focus.
625
00:36:00,065 --> 00:36:03,065
Connecting with Michelle
was validating.
626
00:36:04,315 --> 00:36:07,065
I was spending
ten to 15 hours a day
627
00:36:07,148 --> 00:36:09,107
developing persons of interest.
628
00:36:10,565 --> 00:36:12,148
Had this case not been solved,
629
00:36:12,232 --> 00:36:13,524
I could have continued
doing that
630
00:36:13,607 --> 00:36:15,190
for the next 20 years.
631
00:36:17,982 --> 00:36:20,232
Now that the person has a face
and a name,
632
00:36:21,607 --> 00:36:24,023
I guess I'm-- I'm-- I'm just
kind of waiting for a certain,
633
00:36:24,107 --> 00:36:26,565
uh, feeling to materialize.
634
00:36:31,148 --> 00:36:34,691
Sort of overwhelming waves
of feeling emotion.
635
00:36:34,774 --> 00:36:37,857
Uh, and it never really happens.
636
00:36:37,941 --> 00:36:42,440
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
637
00:36:50,399 --> 00:36:52,774
KAREN:
Who is Joseph James DeAngelo?
638
00:36:52,857 --> 00:36:55,482
REPORTER 3:
The wife of the suspected
East Area Rapist
639
00:36:55,565 --> 00:36:58,357
returned home only briefly
this afternoon,
640
00:36:58,440 --> 00:37:00,315
driving off when she saw us
approach.
641
00:37:00,399 --> 00:37:03,023
KAREN: It would be living hell
to be related to this person.
642
00:37:03,107 --> 00:37:05,524
REPORTER 4:
Tonight, investigators
revealing new details
643
00:37:05,607 --> 00:37:07,232
about what may have fueled
the rage
644
00:37:07,315 --> 00:37:10,023
of accused Golden State Killer
Joseph DeAngelo.
645
00:37:10,107 --> 00:37:12,774
One rape victim in 1978
describing
646
00:37:12,857 --> 00:37:15,190
how her attacker sobbed
while saying,
647
00:37:15,273 --> 00:37:17,649
"I hate you, Bonnie.
I hate you."
648
00:37:23,315 --> 00:37:25,148
BONNIE: I had no idea
649
00:37:26,273 --> 00:37:28,107
how much I would be involved.
650
00:37:29,774 --> 00:37:31,315
The street
in front of my home
651
00:37:31,399 --> 00:37:33,023
was full of satellite trucks
and reporters
652
00:37:33,107 --> 00:37:34,565
just waiting for me.
653
00:37:34,649 --> 00:37:38,190
I had, uh, 143 phone messages
654
00:37:38,273 --> 00:37:39,399
waiting on my phone.
655
00:37:39,482 --> 00:37:43,482
People calling repeatedly
from NBC, ABC, CBS.
656
00:37:43,565 --> 00:37:46,941
A producer from The Today Show
came day after day after day
657
00:37:47,023 --> 00:37:48,857
and left notes and cards,
658
00:37:48,941 --> 00:37:51,732
and "We want to interview you."
659
00:37:51,816 --> 00:37:55,607
My Facebook profile photograph
wasn't protected,
660
00:37:55,691 --> 00:37:59,315
so that's the photograph that
was used all over the place.
661
00:38:00,190 --> 00:38:03,190
It was total invasion
of my privacy.
662
00:38:04,357 --> 00:38:06,941
But I refuse to wear
663
00:38:07,023 --> 00:38:09,023
the blame for a crazy man,
664
00:38:09,107 --> 00:38:13,107
so I-- I don't-- I don't carry
the guilt for that.
665
00:38:13,190 --> 00:38:17,941
But the empathy with the women
that were attacked,
666
00:38:18,023 --> 00:38:21,524
and I can't--
I can't turn that off.
667
00:38:22,691 --> 00:38:24,482
(APPLAUSE)
668
00:38:24,565 --> 00:38:25,732
REPORTER 5:
Applause broke out
669
00:38:25,816 --> 00:38:27,399
in this Sacramento County
courtroom
670
00:38:27,482 --> 00:38:29,023
after a judge ruled to begin
671
00:38:29,107 --> 00:38:31,357
Joseph DeAngelo's
preliminary trial
672
00:38:31,440 --> 00:38:32,482
in four months,
673
00:38:32,565 --> 00:38:35,732
despite defense requests
to delay another year.
674
00:38:46,982 --> 00:38:48,982
LISA: I was told
by the detectives
675
00:38:49,065 --> 00:38:54,023
that came to interview me
that he didn't kill from '82...
676
00:38:54,107 --> 00:38:57,691
(SNIFFLES) And then
he killed again in '86.
677
00:39:00,023 --> 00:39:04,065
And so, during that period,
I lived with him,
678
00:39:04,148 --> 00:39:07,232
and then I got married
in '86 and moved away.
679
00:39:08,107 --> 00:39:09,107
So...
680
00:39:10,565 --> 00:39:13,565
that's the golden question,
is everybody wants to know
681
00:39:13,649 --> 00:39:15,399
why he stopped.
682
00:39:20,607 --> 00:39:22,107
WES:
And there's my mother.
683
00:39:29,357 --> 00:39:31,273
My mother was, uh...
684
00:39:33,774 --> 00:39:34,982
she was raped...
685
00:39:40,774 --> 00:39:43,941
in Germany
when she was seven years old...
686
00:39:47,190 --> 00:39:48,440
by two...
687
00:39:49,941 --> 00:39:51,148
military...
688
00:39:52,482 --> 00:39:53,982
officers or men...
689
00:39:55,482 --> 00:39:57,107
in an airplane hangar.
690
00:40:02,148 --> 00:40:03,816
Guess who was watching.
691
00:40:07,107 --> 00:40:08,357
Uncle Joe.
692
00:40:11,273 --> 00:40:14,607
He watched her getting raped.
693
00:40:23,232 --> 00:40:24,816
The very thing...
694
00:40:26,148 --> 00:40:27,691
that happened to my mother
695
00:40:29,107 --> 00:40:31,065
is the very thing
that my uncle went
696
00:40:31,148 --> 00:40:32,607
and did to other women.
697
00:40:36,857 --> 00:40:38,315
I don't understand that.
698
00:40:40,816 --> 00:40:42,524
How sickening is that?
699
00:40:43,899 --> 00:40:50,107
Wouldn't you want to be,
like, an advocate to do good
700
00:40:50,190 --> 00:40:53,399
when you see something like that
happen to your own sister?
701
00:40:57,857 --> 00:40:59,315
It's just sickening.
702
00:41:06,190 --> 00:41:08,357
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
703
00:41:13,565 --> 00:41:15,148
PATTON:
Honestly-- Oh-- Oh, my God.
704
00:41:15,232 --> 00:41:18,440
Thank you, guys, for staying--
coming out so early,
705
00:41:18,524 --> 00:41:19,774
for hanging out.
706
00:41:19,857 --> 00:41:22,315
This was amazing.
Thank you, Paul Haynes.
707
00:41:22,399 --> 00:41:23,774
Thank you, Billy Jensen.
708
00:41:23,857 --> 00:41:26,816
(CHEERS AND APPLAUSE)
709
00:41:26,899 --> 00:41:28,273
And thank you, murderinos!
710
00:41:28,357 --> 00:41:31,399
(CHEERS AND APPLAUSE)
711
00:41:32,816 --> 00:41:36,607
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
712
00:41:42,232 --> 00:41:44,732
HAYNES:
Um, this is, uh, Kris.
713
00:41:45,565 --> 00:41:47,023
K-R-I-S.
714
00:41:49,565 --> 00:41:52,190
And, um, and I'm
the social worker in the book.
715
00:41:52,273 --> 00:41:53,982
-PATTON: Oh, you are.
-Yeah.
716
00:41:54,065 --> 00:41:56,023
Yes. But you're not named.
Are you okay with that?
717
00:41:56,107 --> 00:41:57,482
-She used a pseu--
-MELANIE: You know what?
718
00:41:57,565 --> 00:41:59,691
-I'm perfect.
-Okay. Good. Good.
719
00:41:59,774 --> 00:42:01,065
Are you in the book as well?
720
00:42:01,148 --> 00:42:02,691
-I'm number one.
-She's number one.
721
00:42:02,774 --> 00:42:04,816
-Oh, my God.
-And Kris is number ten.
722
00:42:04,899 --> 00:42:05,982
-PATTON: God.
-MELANIE: And then...
723
00:42:06,065 --> 00:42:07,232
PATTON:
And you're under pseudonyms?
724
00:42:07,315 --> 00:42:08,315
-PHYLLIS ZITKA: Yep.
-KRIS: Yeah.
725
00:42:08,399 --> 00:42:10,899
-Okay.
-And Patricia showed up tonight
726
00:42:10,982 --> 00:42:13,732
and just, uh, went to
the manager of the store
727
00:42:13,816 --> 00:42:14,941
and said she was a victim.
728
00:42:15,023 --> 00:42:17,357
And this is
her first interaction tonight
729
00:42:17,440 --> 00:42:20,315
with even,
like, meeting people that--
730
00:42:20,399 --> 00:42:23,816
It's so powerful having
all the women together.
731
00:42:23,899 --> 00:42:26,190
Well, this--
this has made me feel
732
00:42:26,273 --> 00:42:28,232
-a thousand percent better...
-MELANIE: Mm-hmm.
733
00:42:28,315 --> 00:42:29,857
-...getting to see you...
-PHYLLIS: Us, too.
734
00:42:29,941 --> 00:42:31,482
-MELANIE: Yeah.
-...like, living
735
00:42:31,565 --> 00:42:33,190
and moving around in the world
and living your--
736
00:42:33,273 --> 00:42:34,982
-KRIS: And strong.
-Yeah, exactly.
737
00:42:35,065 --> 00:42:35,899
And we're...
738
00:42:35,982 --> 00:42:38,148
I-- I just feel like
we've very unified
739
00:42:38,232 --> 00:42:40,273
and we do have
something in common,
740
00:42:40,357 --> 00:42:42,399
but more than that,
like, we just...
741
00:42:42,482 --> 00:42:43,899
-PHYLLIS: Bonded.
-We've bonded.
742
00:42:43,982 --> 00:42:46,524
And so just, uh, if we're
gonna find something good
743
00:42:46,607 --> 00:42:48,899
out of the bad,
we're gonna find it.
744
00:42:48,982 --> 00:42:50,440
-Yeah.
-KRIS: We will.
745
00:42:50,524 --> 00:42:51,982
-And we are.
-(SIGHS) Oh, God.
746
00:42:52,065 --> 00:42:53,649
KRIS: So you did a really
great job in finishing...
747
00:42:53,732 --> 00:42:55,565
-MELANIE:
Yeah. And we thank you.
-Thank you so much.
748
00:42:55,649 --> 00:42:56,941
Thank you.
Thank you.
749
00:42:57,023 --> 00:43:00,315
I'm-- It means everything
to get to meet you guys.
750
00:43:01,273 --> 00:43:03,148
PHYLLIS: And us to meet you.
751
00:43:03,649 --> 00:43:05,232
It does. I wish...
752
00:43:05,315 --> 00:43:06,357
And I w-- you know, I...
753
00:43:06,440 --> 00:43:07,732
PATTON: I wish Michelle
was hugging you guys.
754
00:43:07,816 --> 00:43:11,065
I every day wish Michelle was
here to see this.
755
00:43:11,148 --> 00:43:13,816
We-- yeah.
I wish Michelle was here.
756
00:43:13,899 --> 00:43:15,982
This would have been her glory.
757
00:43:17,232 --> 00:43:19,148
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
758
00:43:19,232 --> 00:43:21,899
Pick-- Pick the Abe Lincoln
setting for Billy.
759
00:43:21,982 --> 00:43:24,524
(LAUGHTER)
760
00:43:24,607 --> 00:43:28,857
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
761
00:43:31,774 --> 00:43:35,982
PATTON: Meeting those women
up in Sacramento...
762
00:43:36,065 --> 00:43:39,065
to see them there
and they're smiling
763
00:43:39,148 --> 00:43:43,524
and-- and-- and they were like
joking with me, and, um...
764
00:43:46,691 --> 00:43:49,232
They had every right
to become horrible monsters
765
00:43:49,315 --> 00:43:51,691
like Joseph DeAngelo,
and they didn't.
766
00:43:51,774 --> 00:43:53,857
So, them and the way
that they're living
767
00:43:53,941 --> 00:43:56,399
is such a fuck-you to him.
768
00:43:56,482 --> 00:43:59,399
Like, "You tried to bring
the same damage to us
769
00:43:59,482 --> 00:44:03,399
that forever warped you,
and it didn't work.
770
00:44:03,482 --> 00:44:05,607
And we-- we've proved
that you could have chosen
771
00:44:05,691 --> 00:44:06,941
to overcome this
772
00:44:07,023 --> 00:44:08,982
and that's why
you can't look at us."
773
00:44:10,357 --> 00:44:11,857
Fuck you, Joseph DeAngelo.
774
00:44:11,982 --> 00:44:15,649
Fuck all these
fucking loser zilch assholes.
775
00:44:15,732 --> 00:44:16,982
Fuck them.
776
00:44:17,065 --> 00:44:19,899
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
777
00:44:21,899 --> 00:44:23,732
(EXCITED CHATTER)
778
00:44:24,857 --> 00:44:26,524
It's so good to see you.
779
00:44:26,607 --> 00:44:28,732
Of course! He really thinks
I don't remember them.
780
00:44:28,816 --> 00:44:30,649
Are you kidding? We're like...
781
00:44:30,732 --> 00:44:33,691
-Hi! Good to see you.
-How are you?
782
00:44:33,774 --> 00:44:35,357
-How are you?
-Good.
783
00:44:39,816 --> 00:44:41,857
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
784
00:44:46,482 --> 00:44:49,899
-KRIS: Hello. How are you?
-GAY HARDWICK: Hi.
785
00:44:49,982 --> 00:44:51,232
GAY: I'm good.
786
00:44:51,315 --> 00:44:54,649
Oh, my gosh,
it's so nice to meet you.
787
00:44:54,732 --> 00:44:56,232
GAY: This is my husband, Bob.
788
00:44:56,315 --> 00:44:58,941
-Hi, Bob.
It's nice to meet you, too.
-BOB HARDWICK: Nice to meet you.
789
00:44:59,023 --> 00:45:00,440
-GAY: This is Kris.
-Oh, yeah.
790
00:45:00,524 --> 00:45:02,315
(INDISTINCT CHATTER,
LAUGHTER)
791
00:45:02,399 --> 00:45:04,649
I just wanted
to introduce myself. I'm Linda.
792
00:45:04,732 --> 00:45:07,190
-COURTNEY: Hi. Courtney.
-Hi, Courtney. Nice to meet you.
793
00:45:07,273 --> 00:45:09,691
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
794
00:45:09,774 --> 00:45:11,107
Hi. My name's--
my name's Michelle.
795
00:45:11,190 --> 00:45:13,148
Good to meet you.
796
00:45:13,232 --> 00:45:15,107
And I'm number-- I'm number 39.
797
00:45:15,857 --> 00:45:16,774
I'm 31.
798
00:45:16,857 --> 00:45:18,315
And this is my husband,
who's also 31.
799
00:45:18,399 --> 00:45:19,774
BOB:
Were you married then?
800
00:45:19,857 --> 00:45:22,315
Mm-hmm.
And I had a three-year-old son.
801
00:45:22,399 --> 00:45:25,023
-Yeah.
-And then how long did
your marriage last after that?
802
00:45:25,107 --> 00:45:27,607
-MICHELLE MARTIN: Seven months.
-Oh, boy.
803
00:45:27,691 --> 00:45:29,857
PHYLLIS: All parties
went for death penalty.
804
00:45:29,941 --> 00:45:33,357
Because I wanted him
to rot in jail, you know.
805
00:45:33,440 --> 00:45:35,023
But now...
806
00:45:35,107 --> 00:45:37,232
WOMAN 4:
I don't think he's gonna
live that long anyway.
807
00:45:37,315 --> 00:45:38,607
Nah, probably not.
808
00:45:38,691 --> 00:45:39,899
BOB: I told Gay, I said,
809
00:45:39,982 --> 00:45:41,607
"I hope he goes to prison
for 30 years."
810
00:45:41,691 --> 00:45:42,649
Not-- Don't kill him.
811
00:45:42,732 --> 00:45:44,315
-KRIS: Yeah.
-Let him suffer.
812
00:45:44,399 --> 00:45:47,857
-KRIS: Yeah, absolutely.
-Trust me, he will.
813
00:45:47,941 --> 00:45:50,065
He's not gonna have
any place to hide.
814
00:45:50,148 --> 00:45:52,065
I would just like
for it to be over,
815
00:45:52,148 --> 00:45:54,732
and for all the convictions
to be on record,
816
00:45:54,816 --> 00:45:57,899
and for him to be
out of the limelight
817
00:45:57,982 --> 00:46:00,732
and where he should remain
for the rest of his life.
818
00:46:00,816 --> 00:46:01,816
Yeah.
819
00:46:03,315 --> 00:46:05,023
GAY: Um, I've decided to get...
820
00:46:05,107 --> 00:46:08,273
a little bit of therapy
to just deal with some of the...
821
00:46:08,357 --> 00:46:12,273
uh, feelings that I've developed
over this past year,
822
00:46:13,190 --> 00:46:15,190
uh, things that have been
dredged up.
823
00:46:16,399 --> 00:46:18,691
It's been almost a year now,
and I'm...
824
00:46:19,691 --> 00:46:22,023
I'm much better in some ways.
825
00:46:22,982 --> 00:46:24,857
In some ways, I'm worse.
826
00:46:24,941 --> 00:46:29,399
But... I am better
in my daily life
827
00:46:29,482 --> 00:46:31,357
and my ability to...
828
00:46:32,774 --> 00:46:37,691
um, sleep better at night
and, uh, open the window,
829
00:46:37,774 --> 00:46:40,899
wake up,
and not be certain that, uh...
830
00:46:40,982 --> 00:46:42,899
death is in my home.
831
00:46:43,857 --> 00:46:45,649
And, um...
832
00:46:45,732 --> 00:46:48,357
it is hard for, I think,
people to understand,
833
00:46:48,440 --> 00:46:51,899
although I found people here
at this gathering understand
834
00:46:52,691 --> 00:46:54,565
how it doesn't go away.
835
00:46:56,857 --> 00:46:58,857
LINDA: I'm not
gonna change my life
836
00:46:58,982 --> 00:47:01,482
and give him
one more ounce of me.
837
00:47:01,565 --> 00:47:05,774
And if I do, he won,
and I said I'm not doing that.
838
00:47:05,857 --> 00:47:08,273
I want to be positive,
I want to show strength,
839
00:47:08,357 --> 00:47:09,774
and I want to show it
to other women.
840
00:47:09,857 --> 00:47:11,148
-GAY: Yes.
-And young girls.
841
00:47:11,232 --> 00:47:13,023
-GAY: Yes.
-If it happens to a young girl,
842
00:47:13,107 --> 00:47:14,899
report it,
don't be ashamed of it,
843
00:47:14,982 --> 00:47:16,440
-own it, and move on.
-GAY: That's right.
844
00:47:16,524 --> 00:47:18,148
-If you need help, get help.
-GAY: Yep.
845
00:47:18,232 --> 00:47:20,190
LINDA: So, I was telling her,
I said...
846
00:47:20,273 --> 00:47:23,899
My younger son did not want me
to be a part of these shows.
847
00:47:23,982 --> 00:47:25,649
He said,
"I'm in fear of something
848
00:47:25,732 --> 00:47:27,774
happening to my family."
849
00:47:27,857 --> 00:47:30,732
I wrote him a letter
and I told him,
850
00:47:30,816 --> 00:47:33,107
"I stayed quiet
for over 20 years."
851
00:47:33,982 --> 00:47:35,691
And I said,
"Today, I'm happy,
852
00:47:35,774 --> 00:47:38,649
I'm healthy, I'm strong,
853
00:47:38,732 --> 00:47:40,607
I'm part of the 'Me Too,'
854
00:47:41,524 --> 00:47:43,357
and I have a story to tell."
855
00:47:43,440 --> 00:47:45,524
And when he got the letter,
he called up and he said,
856
00:47:45,607 --> 00:47:48,023
"Mom, I love you,
and I'm proud of you."
857
00:47:48,107 --> 00:47:51,524
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
858
00:47:51,607 --> 00:47:54,315
KRIS: Okay, well,
has everyone got their glass?
859
00:47:54,399 --> 00:47:56,691
-WOMAN 5: Yep.
-(GAY CHUCKLES)
860
00:47:56,774 --> 00:47:59,774
So, it's been four decades
since the East Area Rapist
861
00:47:59,857 --> 00:48:01,315
invaded our lives...
862
00:48:04,107 --> 00:48:05,232
and our bodies.
863
00:48:05,816 --> 00:48:06,857
And with that...
864
00:48:06,941 --> 00:48:11,148
he also invaded our sense
of security and safety.
865
00:48:11,232 --> 00:48:14,857
And for me, as much as I hate
to admit it at times,
866
00:48:14,941 --> 00:48:16,774
it definitely changed me.
867
00:48:17,774 --> 00:48:19,565
And now, it's only been one year
868
00:48:19,649 --> 00:48:22,399
since the East Area Rapist
has a face.
869
00:48:22,482 --> 00:48:25,357
He can't hide
behind his mask anymore.
870
00:48:25,440 --> 00:48:27,232
And he has a name.
871
00:48:27,315 --> 00:48:29,816
And his name is Inmate DeAngelo.
872
00:48:30,649 --> 00:48:32,691
And Inmate DeAngelo
is behind bars
873
00:48:32,774 --> 00:48:34,357
and our safety
has been restored.
874
00:48:35,816 --> 00:48:37,941
But something else happened...
875
00:48:38,023 --> 00:48:40,941
during this year,
and that is us.
876
00:48:41,023 --> 00:48:43,941
When we've met,
we've had no trouble sharing
877
00:48:44,023 --> 00:48:45,649
what we couldn't share
with other people
878
00:48:45,732 --> 00:48:47,607
because it comes from here
and we get it.
879
00:48:47,691 --> 00:48:49,732
And we know what it means.
880
00:48:49,816 --> 00:48:52,190
We're not just survivor sisters,
881
00:48:52,273 --> 00:48:54,023
we are a survivor family.
882
00:48:55,315 --> 00:48:56,982
-Well, said.
-KRIS: And...
883
00:48:57,649 --> 00:48:59,649
um, on a personal note,
884
00:49:00,816 --> 00:49:02,732
I feel for the very first time
885
00:49:02,816 --> 00:49:07,273
that I'm on the road
to becoming myself again.
886
00:49:07,357 --> 00:49:09,190
And you are all
to thank for that.
887
00:49:10,148 --> 00:49:11,565
So raise your glass
888
00:49:11,649 --> 00:49:14,273
to our new extended
survivor family.
889
00:49:14,357 --> 00:49:16,399
-Cheers.
-ALL: Cheers.
890
00:49:16,482 --> 00:49:19,774
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
891
00:49:19,857 --> 00:49:23,315
(INDISTINCT CHATTER,
LAUGHTER)
892
00:49:25,524 --> 00:49:26,941
(SNIFFLES)
893
00:49:27,023 --> 00:49:29,023
WOMAN 6:
Great... Great job, Kris.
894
00:49:29,107 --> 00:49:31,565
-KRIS: Thank you. Thank you.
-WOMAN 6: Thank you so much.
Thank you.
895
00:49:35,315 --> 00:49:37,524
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
896
00:49:39,357 --> 00:49:41,565
-KRIS: Oh, are you leaving?
-GAY: We're gonna have to go.
897
00:49:41,649 --> 00:49:43,232
Okay. Yeah.
You've got vacation, huh?
898
00:49:44,524 --> 00:49:47,065
(INDISTINCT CHATTER)
899
00:49:54,107 --> 00:49:56,273
BOB:
900
00:50:03,190 --> 00:50:06,232
♪ ("UN REFLET DE VOUS" BY
DENIS BENOLIEL & OPHELIA BARD
PLAYS) ♪
901
00:50:10,190 --> 00:50:13,732
GAY: The arrest of the suspect
and visiting Paris
902
00:50:13,816 --> 00:50:16,440
were two lifelong dreams for me.
903
00:50:16,524 --> 00:50:19,899
And somehow,
they occurred simultaneously.
904
00:50:21,232 --> 00:50:24,691
We had this trip planned
for a while.
905
00:50:24,774 --> 00:50:28,732
And when he was arrested,
I said...
906
00:50:28,816 --> 00:50:31,607
"He's going to prison
and I'm going to Paris."
907
00:50:31,691 --> 00:50:34,190
And that's--
that's a good thing.
908
00:50:34,273 --> 00:50:38,148
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
909
00:50:38,232 --> 00:50:41,899
Two days later, I found myself
walking through the Louvre
910
00:50:41,982 --> 00:50:44,023
for the first time
in my whole life,
911
00:50:44,107 --> 00:50:46,107
which had been a lifelong goal.
912
00:50:46,190 --> 00:50:48,649
And I was just stopped
in my tracks
913
00:50:48,732 --> 00:50:50,899
by this one painting.
914
00:50:56,148 --> 00:51:02,190
It is a young woman
who has been left to drown
915
00:51:02,273 --> 00:51:03,941
with her hands bound.
916
00:51:05,315 --> 00:51:09,857
And the painting
shows her peacefully having...
917
00:51:09,941 --> 00:51:11,691
given up...
918
00:51:11,774 --> 00:51:14,148
just under the surface
of the water.
919
00:51:15,232 --> 00:51:19,816
It just summed up
how I felt, you know,
920
00:51:19,899 --> 00:51:22,440
during the event
and sometimes after.
921
00:51:23,982 --> 00:51:26,232
You know,
this is what it feels like
922
00:51:26,315 --> 00:51:30,899
to have everything
taken from you.
923
00:51:30,982 --> 00:51:35,107
And yet, you know,
you're so close to the surface,
924
00:51:35,190 --> 00:51:37,399
but you can't survive.
925
00:51:37,482 --> 00:51:40,691
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
926
00:52:22,524 --> 00:52:24,440
MICHELLE: I think
the narcotic pull for me
927
00:52:24,524 --> 00:52:26,607
is what I think of
as the powerful absence
928
00:52:26,691 --> 00:52:28,691
that haunts an unsolved crime.
929
00:52:31,649 --> 00:52:34,524
Murderers lose their power
the moment we know them.
930
00:52:35,732 --> 00:52:40,065
But he, whomever he was,
was still out there.
931
00:52:40,148 --> 00:52:43,774
The hollow gap of his identity
was violently powerful to me.
932
00:52:45,941 --> 00:52:48,774
But if you commit
a brutal crime and then vanish,
933
00:52:49,732 --> 00:52:51,899
what you leave behind
isn't just pain,
934
00:52:51,982 --> 00:52:53,357
but absence...
935
00:52:54,107 --> 00:52:56,607
a great supreme blankness
936
00:52:56,691 --> 00:53:00,357
that triumphs,
obscenely, it seems to me...
937
00:53:01,399 --> 00:53:03,273
over everything else.
938
00:53:03,357 --> 00:53:07,607
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
939
00:53:21,148 --> 00:53:25,982
♪ ("9 CRIMES"
BY DAMIEN RICE PLAYING) ♪
940
00:53:34,607 --> 00:53:37,899
♪ Leave me out with the waste ♪
941
00:53:37,982 --> 00:53:41,190
♪ This is not what I do ♪
942
00:53:41,273 --> 00:53:44,649
♪ It's the wrong kind of place ♪
943
00:53:44,732 --> 00:53:47,857
♪ To be thinking of you ♪
944
00:53:47,941 --> 00:53:52,107
♪ It's the wrong time ♪
945
00:53:52,190 --> 00:53:54,691
♪ For somebody new ♪
946
00:53:54,774 --> 00:53:58,857
♪ It's a small crime ♪
947
00:53:58,941 --> 00:54:01,774
♪ And I've got no excuse ♪
948
00:54:01,857 --> 00:54:04,607
♪ And is that all right, yeah? ♪
949
00:54:07,065 --> 00:54:10,357
♪ Give my gun away
When it's loaded ♪
950
00:54:10,440 --> 00:54:13,482
♪ That all right, yeah? ♪
951
00:54:13,565 --> 00:54:16,524
♪ If you don't shoot it
How am I supposed to hold it? ♪
952
00:54:16,607 --> 00:54:20,107
♪ That all right, yeah?
953
00:54:20,190 --> 00:54:24,065
♪ Give my gun away
When it's loaded... ♪
954
00:54:24,148 --> 00:54:26,857
LIZ GARBUS:
You shared so much with us,
955
00:54:26,941 --> 00:54:30,232
so much of her
personal writing and thoughts.
956
00:54:30,315 --> 00:54:32,899
Extraordinarily generous.
957
00:54:32,982 --> 00:54:35,440
Is there something that you
were looking for in-- in there
958
00:54:35,524 --> 00:54:38,232
that you couldn't
look at yourself?
959
00:54:38,315 --> 00:54:41,524
PATTON: There were parts of her
that I didn't know about,
960
00:54:41,607 --> 00:54:45,315
and I figured with talking
to other friends of hers and...
961
00:54:45,399 --> 00:54:47,649
family members and people
that she worked with,
962
00:54:47,732 --> 00:54:49,607
you know, even if you're
married to someone,
963
00:54:49,691 --> 00:54:51,440
you don't totally
100 percent know
964
00:54:51,524 --> 00:54:53,399
the other person.
965
00:54:53,482 --> 00:54:54,941
It's not the whole Michelle.
966
00:54:55,023 --> 00:54:56,649
It's parts of her.
967
00:54:58,691 --> 00:55:00,982
I try to tell Alice
every single thing I can
968
00:55:01,065 --> 00:55:02,607
about Michelle that I know.
969
00:55:02,691 --> 00:55:04,148
But there's stuff I don't know.
970
00:55:04,232 --> 00:55:06,982
♪ Is that all right, yeah?
971
00:55:07,065 --> 00:55:10,065
♪ You don't shoot it
How am I supposed to hold it? ♪
972
00:55:10,148 --> 00:55:12,982
♪ Is that all right, yeah?
973
00:55:13,065 --> 00:55:16,607
♪ If I give my gun away
When it's loaded ♪
974
00:55:16,691 --> 00:55:17,941
♪ Is that all right? ♪
975
00:55:18,023 --> 00:55:20,941
♪ Is that all right with you? ♪
976
00:55:21,774 --> 00:55:24,774
♪ That all right, yeah?
977
00:55:26,107 --> 00:55:29,148
♪ If I give my gun away
When it's loaded ♪
978
00:55:29,232 --> 00:55:31,982
♪ Is that all right, yeah?
979
00:55:32,065 --> 00:55:35,482
♪ If you don't shoot it
How am I supposed to hold it? ♪
980
00:55:35,565 --> 00:55:38,440
♪ Is that all right, yeah? ♪
981
00:55:38,524 --> 00:55:41,482
♪ If I give my gun away
When it's loaded ♪
982
00:55:41,565 --> 00:55:43,315
♪ Is that all right? ♪
983
00:55:43,399 --> 00:55:46,315
♪ Is that all right with you? ♪
984
00:55:46,399 --> 00:55:51,357
♪ Is that all right, yeah? ♪
985
00:55:51,440 --> 00:55:54,107
♪ Give my gun away
When it's loaded ♪
986
00:55:54,190 --> 00:55:57,107
♪ Is that all right, yeah? ♪
987
00:55:57,190 --> 00:55:59,899
♪ If you don't shoot it
How am I supposed to hold it? ♪
988
00:55:59,982 --> 00:56:03,649
♪ Is that all right, yeah? ♪
989
00:56:03,732 --> 00:56:06,357
♪ Give my gun away
When it's loaded ♪
990
00:56:06,440 --> 00:56:08,565
♪ Is that all right?
Is that all right? ♪
991
00:56:08,649 --> 00:56:11,941
♪ Is that all right with you? ♪
992
00:56:12,273 --> 00:56:13,565
♪ No ♪
993
00:56:13,649 --> 00:56:17,273
♪ (MUSIC CONTINUES) ♪
994
00:56:21,607 --> 00:56:25,899
(WAVES CRASHING)
995
00:56:48,565 --> 00:56:51,857
♪ (DRAMATIC MUSIC PLAYING) ♪
996
00:58:35,899 --> 00:58:38,607
♪ (MUSIC CONCLUDES) ♪
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